#“when i do that you dont even notice and i actually love you?”

[mystellenia]

ellie with a clumsy gf ୨ৎ

summary: how ellie cares for her clumsy girlfriend

content: nothing thats nsfw!! just ellie being a cutie concerned gf

notes: answer to this req!! SHES SO PUPU BABYGIRL IN THAT PIC I WANNA BITE HER JFWIBFJWKRJR. she's actually so beautiful i can't. entirely unrelated: idk how i feel about this... but i’m trying not to be like EW I HATE THIS FUCK THIS ITS SO BAD. like i dont even feel like that but we already know how i feel about this formatting. its growing on me tho

(wc 0.39k) so short i know guys i gotta dip my feet

constantly laughing but also concerned at how you manage to trip and bump and bruise yourself up on literal air

in apocalypse au, she's always been very aware of her surroundings bc of patrol and combat and stuff so she tries to keep you out of the way of things that she knows you'll bump into

always has an ice pack chilled and ready to go in the freezer in case you bump yourself real hard and it's sore because ice helps bumps not bruise right when you get them (looking at you guys clumsy ladies write that one down)

always warns you about things right as they're happening since you get into things SO FAST

like just as you're bumping into something or dropping an item she's blurting out, "wait! there's- a shirt on the floor"/"remember- that the washing machine door is open"/"baby, you're gonna drop that- just... like you did just now. you okay?"

always asks what you did to get a new bruise. she'll notice a new one and joke, "oh, what did you do this time?" and you'll respond, "i may have walked into the dishwasher while the door was down... but this one doesn't hurt that bad 😁" it's become like a little game

she's become sooo desensitized to any bump or bang sound in the house bc she knows its just you. not to say she doesn't care about you getting hurt--she immediately throws out a "you good?!" or "you need me?"--she just knows you know what to do: ice pack or heat compress. it's routine now.

read that low vitamin c levels make you bruise easily, so always has vitamin c rich snacks stocked up. oranges and strawberries and other fruits, always ready!

she's so stupid in love that she'll cut the fruits up into hearts or try nd make the most simple little animals with them from some mother of 3's tutorial on instagram reels and genuinely gets upset when she can't recreate them.

^ like you notice her absolutely maiming some apples and ask, "ummm why are you slicing and dicing that poor apple?" and she'll mumble, "it's supposed to be a stupid crab."

and for my ladies with darker skin where bruises aren't as visible or even just pale skin that just doesn't bruise easily, she's still just as concerned. and since there is no visible warning of a sore spot, she's hurriedly apologizing after pressing on a sore spot or laying on a tender patch.

@abbysbug @picklesarenice69

hello to my clitter critters. soooooooo erm sorry about going like basically inactive for like 2 weeks i got into the fight of a lifetime with my mother 😊 we still beefing 😊 dw tho when she's old and wrinkly i’ll have power of attorney and trust the cord WILL be plugged.

like i’m joking but as of now that bitch is an opp fr

but anywhoooo i’m back. and my dinosaur of a laptop had a health scare and i thought i was gonna have to plan a funeral for her but she went to the doctor (apple store) and she's all better. idk how it still works so well now bc my mom got this when obama was still president 😆 don't y'all worry tho this motherboard does nothing but purr we chillin (the fan turns on whenever there are too many graphics moving)

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[totallynotaraccoonindiscuise]

The only way for her to love me is if im wilbur so watch out for cosplay

#Shes currently screatching while the man who doesn't know she exists whores himself out on stage #And im sitting here like #“when i do that you dont even notice and i actually love you?” #And she goes #“AHG GAJDMDMS LOOK AT MY WIFE JFSKS” #(side fun fact: when I started typing on my phone she got mad and read the first half (pinned me down in the process of taking my phone)) #wilbur soot #wilbur mcyt #wilbur

[dirt-str1der]

Love characterising nishikiyama as a booze hound drug hound meth addict high every day body mass 75% alcohol hands constantly shaking literally spacing out while driving fifty over the speed limit using elderly folk as speedbumps one hand on the wheel and one hand free to do more drugs and coming into work while functionally deaf and blind and he is still leagues more competent at his job than kiryu

#Yakuza loveblog #i dont talk about nishikiyama enough because im kazamapilled and hate him a little bit but im also kiryupilled and love him so much so you #see my problem? like i adore when nishiki is just. better in every way than kiryu and nobody ever sees that because theyre all too busy #sucking kiryus cock like okay nishiki had the rest of his life planned out when he was twenty and he was an extremely successful criminal #and getting himself noticed in many many circles then kiryu steps outside and gets into a street fight immediately and the entire tojo clan #surrounds him to throw cash at him like nishiki was actually doing so well for himself before his life was ruined. nothing is his fault #like i love just accepting that nishiki has one hell of a substance abuse problem and nobody cares enough about him to talk to him about it #and kiryu thinks its normal because hes the only one who can see that nishikis doing some great work out there so he must be doing #everything right. inconceivable that nishiki has any sort of ‘problem’ hes the real screwup and kiryu knows he makes life harder for himself #but he refuses to change because hes convinced that thats the only thing hes good at. like i believe that nishiki has a coke snorting #mechanic in game like harry db and without his coke buff he cant do as much damage like with it his output is on par with kiryus whos just #been blessed since birth by the violence gods. anyway kiryu is the only person in the world who thinks that nishiki is great do you get it #nishiki has lived his entire life in kiryus shadow and he doesnt care that kiryu has a natural charisma that he will never have. he has to #get out there every single day networking and socialising and hustling and nonstop landing interviews with cool magazines to get his name #out in the world while kazama takes kiryu out and drags him by the elbow to meet people like this is my son kiryu who has every disease and #everyone claps and cheers like i cannot stress enough how on top of the game nishiki is compared to kiryu. he has a car. kiryu doesnt even #have his own lighter. they are not on the same playing field and yet nishikis always trailing behind him because opportunity is always #knocking at kiryus doorstep whether he likes it or not and nishiki gets fed scraps and nothing else and hes the one with ambition he wants #the view on top and most importantly he wanted his brother there with him but nobody ... likes him ... nobody likes nishiki nobodys in his #corner he onky had kiryu and when he lost him it was quite literally him against the world. it always made me laugh how at the end of yk1 #harukas paying her respects at nishikis grave when the only time he ever cared about her was because he wanted her little pendant and he #(actually fucked how alone nishiki was he didnt even have his own fucking men to rely on he was basically working alone with someone he knew #was using him like ??? he was fucking desperate) anyway i really love to think that kiryu being nishikis only friend and the last person in #the world who thought kindly of him (barring like ... kashiwagi) was grieving terribly over his death and haruka being a sensitive and #sweet little girl took the initiative to ask about nishiki and i think kiryu would tell her stories every night of the kind of stuff he and #nishikiyama would get up to when they were her age. he would tell her how amazing nishiki was and how he always looked out for him how he #took care of his sister and how he would always be the one to remind them of impending birthdays and the like. nishiki cared about the #little things .. and he made kiryu want to care about them too but theres just something different between them because nishikis always #been a better person than him .. and he would tell haruka in a voice that sounded like he was begging her to understand that nishiki wasnt a #bad person.. though he did bad things he was a good man and he still wishes with all his heart that he could have done more to save him ...

[perilegs]

i’m making huge generalizations here but idk i feel so much more comfortable just existing around trans (and some gnc) people than i do with people who are cis (and gender conforming) bc of the way we view our - and other peoples bodies. i hear trans people talk about bodies with so much love and adoration. like sure hating your body is a big thing for most trans people but most of us also learn to accept what we look like. and the acceptance often turns to genuinely liking yourself. especially if you make changes you want to to your body. it’s just. idk i feel like only a trans person could see my body for what it is

#ive seen a lot of trans art recently and its all been so lovingly made and with clear adoration towards bodies that look like yours #idk im not very eloquent and theres a lot more nuance to this entire thing #but like. i personally love my body like yea i have parts im insecure about we all do but also i have been able to choose to do things to m #body that make me happy! and i dont just mean surgery and hrt bc thats not for anyone but also choosing to do whatever the hell i want to #with my hair and getting piercings and dressing in a way that feels good #i know being able to dress etc the way you want to is a privilege #and im so grateful for it #i can't believe there was a time when i wasnt allowed to cut my hair or wear boy clothes and i had to dress up as a girl #and got constantly reminded of being a failure of femininity etc. and now that i dont talk to my mom anymore im so free #i can exist in my body and i actually feel like my body is mine and not there just for show if that makes sense #like i look in the mirror and go that me! #and also like seeing myself like that has obviously made me appreciate others bodies as well #bc when you have for a long time always payed attention to the positives of a certain thing you start noticing positives more! #just like how idk going for a walk and finding 5 nice things you appreciate or looking #in the mirror and listing things you like about yourself #out loud. even if you feel uncomfortable #it helps #can you believe you're happier when you fall a bit in love with everything around you #there are so many wonderful things on this earth and you have to condition yourself to notice them and its hard work that never stops #but it is so worth it #i have lost the plot of my post #leevi talks #anyways i love how trans people love bodies

[legend-tripper]

one thing they dont tell you about being transmasc is that theres a certain point of "passing" where people will start to treat you with inherent fear and distrust. not just women and other queer people, but other men, too. its important to remind yourself that your masculinity does not make you inherently dangerous or evil, but its also important to put empathy at the forefront of your interactions with others, even when its difficult to do so. we have a unique perspective in experiencing both sides of that fear and having a deep understanding of where it comes from and why, and that empowers us to interact with others in a way that makes them feel safe, seen, and respected - even if it means stepping back to remind yourself not to take their fear or distrust personally, but to consider it so you can better empathize and connect with them.

#its also up to us who pass to speak up when possible #and safe of course #but i have noticed that now that i pass i can call other men out on bigoted or toxic behavior and actually successfully shut them down #creating and maintaining an environment of safety and respect is a group effort and we gotta do our part lads #trans #trans man #and i almost hesitate to make this post bc of all the shit about transandrophobia going around on this site which #i dont even interact with that shit #if you think trans men are the problem then you dont have the critical thinking or reading comprehension skills to engage with me #anyway trans men i love you stay safe stay brave stay beautiful

[doebt]

U can call me naive or stupid for being excited about working at target potentially but Bro after literally 1 shift of $8/hr nursing home janitorial work. Well i dont even need to continue this sentence

#Also in alabama it is like a privilege to work for an inclusive company even if it is like #superficial like it always is Do you know what i mean. well honestly you probably dont but you either do or you dont #Its like there are places here that either will hire gnc people or WILL NOT under ANY circumstances hire a gnc person #places that will: some small businesses(Love).... starbucks... spencers in the mall... target... walmart but they wont be happy about it #also petco and petsmart which is actually really nice to see but I kind of dont want to work at either of those #For like reasons blah blah i dont want to get into ittt #But yeah like i cant explain it but its super noticeable if you know and after living here almost my whole life #It like jumps out at me its like if i walk into 1 of the above places (besides walmart) i KNOW im going to see a gay person #And SEEING a gay person when U live in a smaller town in alabama is like week altering... Just refreshing af #Ok i cant talk about this anymore its honestly complciated you get it or you dont. I hvae to go get my covid booster BYE

[charlattehotte]

I would umm like to stop finding out things

#like #oh i wasn't going insane there you literally were ignoring me back then cool #see i thought it was my imagination but okay #everyone else noticed you were talking in full sentences to everyone except me #oh also you were super huffy to other people about me wanting to go to a cafe with you? #okay you literally could have just cancelled lol #remember when i was worried about coming off clingy and asking you to stuff #and you said just ask anyway worst i can say is no #that wasnt the worst thing you could do though was it #and i LOVED finding out you intended to break things off for ages before you actually did #remember when i explicitly asked you how long you'd been thinking about it #and you said a few days at most #and i took that as truth because youd never lied to me #thats not even touching on the fact rhattyou DIDNT break it off. I spent days being gaslit by you before finally saying fuck it #obviously theres an issue so talk to me like an adult about it #fuckin. 'no yeah we're fine' my ass #i dont even care that he broke it off i really don't i care that i was lied to and disrepected and brushed off and gaslit about it #and im furious that he'll never realise he fucked up there because hes never fucking wrong about anything #i dont have the patience for him anymore honestly and theres no way to even bring this up because it was months ago at this point #but if he asks whats up im gonna just go a little hit ham #:3c

[gachaparadise]

I've been doing interludes lately (as you do during an interlude campaign) and the gap in quality and character analysis is insane sometimes. I did Qsh and Nezha's back to back and... Night and day over here. Qsh's was so charming and showed me a new side of my beloved moth, as well as some really cute gap moe moments. Nezha's was boring, hardly focussed on them at all, and made the same tired jokes about their gender over and over... Even the blurb on their profile you get after it's complete does it orz

#also the writing for Nezha's was like... bad. it felt stiff and didn't flow at all #not the content (though that was bad also) the actual writing #i went to read that one specifically because i was curious about what Nezha's pronouns were orz... #because im hot overly familiar with them and the one thing i do recall about them is when we first meet them- #they remark on how their body isn't what they expected and are... upset i believe? it was a while ago aha... #i just recall them pretty distinctly not being cool with the fact they have a female body now #i wanted to know if they came arpund to itor if they wanted to be refered to as a man but okay #tasteless jokes about how gender makes them uncomfortable is fine to i guess #anyway! for now until further notice i guess Nezha is stuck with the old reliable they/them because genuinely i have no idea how they feel #i know their profile uses she/her but... pretty sure Mordred's does that as well and he obviously doesn't use those #whatever i guess!! don't know why i expected an even remotely nuances take from fgo who cares lets talk about my moth!!! #i love how they have a whole backup plan in case we fail like yes king restart SIN you're a genius babygirl 💕 #seriously so cute i love them #i dunno if i can resist grailing them to 100 next tiem we have an ember campaign #i put it off so far since i dont use them much gameplay wise but... moth good #these tags got away from me woops #game: fate grand order #post: chatter #sorry about the typos that I'm sure are there btw I'm on mobile and you can't re-edit tags without retyping them yet...

[frankotalk]

im having so much fun writing cadet because hes just like this every day

#i love the kubrick stare its just the ocd stare to me #also i think in the end making caddy lamb a VN is the right idea because its a little easier to imply things about the characters this way #like you play as cadet so you have access to his journal and you can read it if you want to learn more about him #and when he experiences intrusive thoughts its a lot more personal and you are trapped in his head because he is the protagonist #and it makes the pious route a lot more interesting because you arent in his mind anymore but hes a lot more open about what hes thinking #but you also arent getting the full scope hes just kinda crazy and you deal with this explosive guy who let his anger issues take over #im just very invested in the ways in which i can convey what its like to have this shitass disorder #like making compulsions a thing that you have to actively choose not to do #and even if you consistently dont do them the options never disappear you just always have to say no #or give in and it doesnt make much of a difference #not so much that it ruins the player experience but just to make it apparent that it is an active battle to just be normal for 2 seconds #urgh i really am getting excited about this because it feels like im finally gonna be able to share this story #and actually be responsible for portraying a character with ocd who isnt like. a square who keeps things tidy. or whatever #not that its gonna be a complete game changer or even be noticed at all #i just need to put this story out there for myself more than anything to be honest

[snekdood]

I give too much advice to adults who are dedicated to acting like children and not wanting to understand ppl theyve decided to hate for no reason.

#like why do i extend my arm when you're just a bully with a woke coat of paint to justify your actions lol #like plenty of the posts i reblog say- just bc you dont like something or in this case SOMEONE. doesnt mean you have to find a secret #reason theyre somehow problematic to justify your dislike of them. sometimes you can just dislike ppl for dumb petty reasons even #id rather you just be honest that thats the reason instead of being a manipulative fuck making me think theres some secret other reason im #doing what im doing and if i dont listen to you then it means i dont actually want to be progressive or whatever. bc we both know thats not #the reason you're doing this. we both know you're just doing this bc you like to be a bully and found a woke way to do so. #we both know you dont actually care about me changing bc if i do listen to you and change. there will be a new expectation that i didnt #successfuly fill. thats just how ppl like yall work #thats just how bullies who like to see themselves as progressive are #i say like to see themselves as bc i see bullying as inherently a rightwing thing. and obviously if you're not being a disingenuous fuck rn #you know i mean genuine bullying when yoy bat someone around like a cat for not living up to your expectations #not calling ppl out for their genuine obvious shitty behavior #these are two different things and ik manipulative bullies who larp as progressive ppl know that but seems they wanna convince us theyre #the same so they can keep batting people around. please get a hobby. please find a new way to entertain yourself #oh and please for the love of fuck go to therapy bc no one does that shit other than when they feel inadequate themselves. #idk if you've noticed but i like never feel the need to bully people. idk why but i think its bc i love myself and i love being weird and #eccentric and not fitting anyones specific standards. idk. its more freeing to mot give a fuck what other ppl are like #and trying to change their behavior somehow someway to be more palatable to what youd like. #and maybe bullying isnt right wing but its definitely not progressive. sorry for not having the perfect phrasing ik its horrible #im just so terrible for not phrasing things the way you want i know. #ik a lot of the stuff about narcissists and bs but the shit about communal narcissists is what ppl like this remind me of #purely in it for the aesthetic. to look progressive and cool and diverting from the norm. but shits on anyone who might threaten their role #even if theyre just imagining theyd someone how threaten their role in this. oh and of course they only give af about shit to look good #which is why when you do something that doesnt fit the Aesthetic Of Progressivism then automatically you're kicked out and not progressive. #bc ppl who are 'communal narcissists' for lack of a better term. have set the standard that its how leftist you *appear* than what you do #or what you believe. #i wish we had a better term for this bc i think this a useful observation. i jst dont wanna throw ppl w personality disorders under the bus

[friedbreadwombat]

I'm not a drug, boy.

#this goes out to more than one person. #i dont care if I inspire you. You just used me as a drug after it faded out #didnt you. #youve seen somebody on it. dont continue a trend like that. #If that is what it is. It's not good. #one thing for sure. maybe dont ever come back to me. #i might have smiled at you. but dont ever expect anything again. I appreciate you now #but if you cross that line again be prepared for consequence. #i guess it was my fault for entertaining you and getting too attached when I could just leave it all the fuck alone. #i stopped waiting for you. In case you wondered. Noticed you looking back in year 2. #curse my fucking heart. #i cant even blame you. because unlike some other people #youre actually a great guy. #But I'm not doing this again. #fake or not it broke. #I don't think this was meant to even work out that way because so many things can happen and people evolve. And that's great. #fuck none of us even expected that. But #I don't think you even cared. You're probably not as great a guy as I can talk about. But that's not it for me. I shouldnt be able to #trust you. But I do. I shouldn't be able to love you. But I did. I do. It's likely platonic as fuck #fuck I dont know. i mean it can happen. And my heart is flexible. But fuck. It can still snap you know. I think I had given you enough #sometimes I wish I didnt know you. #what the fuck happened. we probably need to talk ngl. So much shit happen. Communication between 17 year olds only go so far. spoken or not

[vagueiish]

no, ha ha, dont kill yourself, you're a valued member of society!

we don't actually care enough to learn about you and become more than polite acquaintances nor do we actually want to interact with you beyond empty platitudes and the requisite amount of small talk to seem polite, so we don't actually know your real value or what you might actually have to offer or anything about you really. and your obvious emotional pain is making us feel bad, so if you could find some other way to relieve it that doesn't involve exposing us to it in any way shape or form, that would be preferable....

oh, but don't kill yourself, ha ha, that'd be bad! because you definitely have worth! and people definitely care about you!

#cw suicide mention #depression posting #i made the mistake of telling one of my favorite not quite managers i was two steps away from killing myself #and he was nice about it and said all the things one is supposed to say in that situation #but im thinking here now like. why would i do that? not like he actually meant it right? #people *have* to be like 'dont do the thing' because to be otherwise would be uh....jerkish. i think #people being like 'you have folks who care. it gets better' when you admit something like that is fucking meaningless because #it almost feels like youre trapping them. yknow? #they have to say im not worthless or a burden or any of that shit #but if i were to actually go ahead and...not even do it. but even just stop showing up one day #nobody would actually notice. nobody at work would notice my absence certainly #which... i dont even mind that on one hand. i dont do much to make myself noticeable #i aint got much going on lmao nor do i put myself out there #but what cheeses me off about this kind of sentiment. about my not-quite-manager and other people saying this shit to me is... #what do you value in me? you dont lnow me well enough to value me #how can you even pretend like you want me to stick around if you dont care enough to get to know me? #oh? you want me to live??? name one fact about me that cant be gleaned from my myriad band and novelty tees #you think i have worth but not enough to invite me to participate in the intricate rituals of human connection. cool #it's not meaningless to me. there's a brief almost reflexive feeling of relief but then i think about it and like #people spouting that kind of participation trophy style platitude at me says nothing about me. it's impersonal #'you shouldnt kill yourself because i like your jokes and i like your writing and all these things about you specifically because i know you #because i care about *you*' #why cant i ever have that? why am i not worth enough for people to want to get to know??? #fuck. #to the void with love

[nimomo-mo]

Vent

#i really enjoy being single and not dating actually #i dont have the time to focus on someone else #i am literally struggling enough as is #but sometimes i feel a bit lonely #not for long #but it twangs at me and then go right back #i dont love them anymore i think. at least its been smothered to low low embers #ill still be a bit hurt when they go out to sleep around again #but you know. im actually kind of at peace now #im too stressed out about school to think about my feelings or partners or anything like that. #and theyre a wonderful sexting partner so im all good #accidentally told them i loved them the way you say you love your friends ykwim #and im not even stressed about it #i hope they werent either. i do love them. i dont know if i love love them. but i know that i love them. #maybe the fact that theyre too fucked up from everything to really flirt with me like before is contributing to my feelings going down #i mean i do still think about them at least a couple times a day and i simp for them too much #but not at all like before. i wonder if they notice it #i love you. i love you. i love you. #its weird to call you a friend because to me youre more than that. best friend isnt true either. i guess you just ... are #no need to put words on it since i know my thoughts on it doesnt match yours. you dont have these kinda distinctions. #youre amazing. i wish i could be like you. i hate you with my whole soul. its horrible. i love you. fuck you i hope you smash your face in

[cicadas]

If ur so socially isolated then why are you talking to me lol

#personal #idk its those people who disappear and want people to notice their absence and 2hen no one dpes they get pissed like yeah thats called life #also like maybe no one chevks pn you bc they know its just a weird manipulation game to make people perform their caring about you its gros #like ur basically punishing people for not noticing you enough and honestly u cant be mad when ppl dont miss u #actually gatekeeping myself from certain people is an extremely calculated and careful thing for me #also as slmeone whp was fprcibly socially isolated for a lot of my life it fucking annoys me when people 'choose' isolation just to be #dramatic and manipulative #like fuck you lol i dudnt get to be isolated as a means to some end #i was isolated bc people fucking bullied me #like ???? lol #ive never really understood thus but thats bc i knew that being me if i stopped talking to people they would t even pretend to care theyd j #st move on so lol its funny when normal people choose to isolate themselves and get pissy when other normies dont gaf like yeah babe thats #the world yoy normies live in why are you surprised haha #also if you choose to be isolated maybe its reasonable to assume sometimes people want to spend time alone and not everyone is responsible #for your mental wellbeing or to manage whether youre being alone to mediate abd take time for yourself or like out of depression #how is anyone supposed to know that? #quite often i just like to be alone with my son. its not that deep. but anyway i hate people that use isolation as a tool to manipulate #others bc i didnt choose this its just my life and i dont do it to bully people into treating me better actually i feel guilty about it and #wish i wasnt like this so i could do more for the people i love #alao the way people just aasume others will miss them bc their presence is SO wonderful and fulfilling 😂😂😂😂like girl get a grip

[hecksupremechips]

I love animal crossing and I’m about to become hyper fixated on it so teehee 💅

#the klock keeps ticking #hey listen listen up real good #you know what ive been doing these past few months? nothing #and by ‘nothing’ i dont just mean that i havent done anything ‘productive’ #ie working making money studying what have you #i mean ive literally been doing nothing #in this house i exist as nothing more than an oversized decorative pillow #i dont speak. i eat when no one is looking so i dont cause trouble #i dont have any interests that are known to anyone and i dont leave and i dont feel #and it came crashing down last week just absolutely horrible i have no energy nothing left #and then i was just like. talking to a special person and mention animal crossing and my extensive experience with it #and they also talk about their love of discovering life in nature like insects and mushrooms #and i realized that i just. really wanna play animal crossing again #and i did! i finally did! i finally let myself do a happy thing thats fun and not productive! #and i decided id experience the life the nature of it and i just kept catching all the fish i saw! #spent so much time just doing that and ive donated to the museum too! #when new horizons came out i made a goal to actually donate to the museum cuz it looked cool as hell and i had never cared about the museum #in the past #but i fell off that wagon pretty quickly and all together kinda stopped catching fish and bugs #and then without even trying to i just. started noticing them and ended up donating #and im so like. proud of myself for accomplishing an actual goal ive had and that i had fun doing it cuz i was just letting myself be #and im proud that i let myself do something fun again #cuz guess what fuckers i actually did stuff ive been putting off doing like applying to jobs that may actually happen #and i get to see my bestie tomorrow for the first time in a while 😎 #anyways yeah my character is very cute and tangy sent me a letter saying she loves me and im her bff and i cried

[malkaviian]

fun fact, but blade tried to pick up smoking after seeing chase doing so, but then had a medicine student moment, got worried about his health and never did it again lmao

#he's an absolute loser in case you didnt noticed. chase is everything he would like to be but fails at doing so #but hey at least he got fucked by him ig. a win! probably the biggest win he had in that sense bc hes pretty unlucky with love #and doesnt gets laid as much as he would like. he used to be a frequent 'client' of finnley #but then got embarrassed when he started to tease him about being his n1 fan so he never came back and even blocked him lmao #i promise you its ok to pay for sex if you want it buddy. anyway he was pretty content with how chase fucked him even when it hurt a little #and i mean it makes sense bc chase didnt brought any lube and just told him to suck his strap bc his saliva would be the lube. so. yeah. #he brought one of the biggest straps he had on purpose bc he wanted to actually hurt him kjsdnfjns he only focused on his own pleasure #bonus for blade trying to be the top and chase just grabbing him by the throat against a wall and telling him to stop acting pathetic #and not to even think about it<3 hes 165 cm but hes full of rage. dont test him. but as i said blade quite enjoyed it so its ok lol #he even found the 'mistreatment' attractive bc he does have a masochist side even when the sadistic one is stronger sooo #anyway this is it jkdnfjndsj cringe thoughts and cringe oc lore #oc talk #nsft