#But he cant say this because he is 'un-gay''

[undying-love]

Paul talking about John's looks

"I’d seen him a couple of times and thought, ‘Wow, you know, he’s an interesting looking guy.’ And then I once also saw him in a queue for fish and chips and I said, ‘Oh, that’s that guy off the bus’. I’m talking to myself, in my mind I thought, ‘I saw that guy off the bus, oh he’s pretty cool looking. Yeah, you know, he’s a cool guy.’

"I knew nothing about him except that he looked pretty cool. He had long sideboards and greased back hair and everything."

"And I saw him on the top deck of the bus often, before I met him. Saw him in the queue at a chip shop once. And I thought, “He looks cool.”

"There was a guy up on the platform with curly, blondish hair, wearing a chequered shirt, looking pretty good and quite fashionable - singing a song that I loved: the Del-Vikings ‘Come Go With Me’."

“I just thought, ‘Well, he looks good, he’s singing well and he seems like a great lead singer to me.’ Of course he had his glasses off, so he looked really suave…"

“My memory of meeting John for the first time is very clear. I can still see John now - checked shirt, slightly curly hair, singing ‘Come Go With Me’. I remember thinking, ‘He looks good - I wouldn’t mind being in a group with him."

"When I look back and think, I have to say, “Wow” – we did all that, and we were just kids from Liverpool. And here it is in the photographs. Boy, how great does John look?"

#mclennon #oh paul #I like how he says “John was cool looking” and 'he looked quite cool“ #Instead of simply admitting he found him good looking #But he cant say this because he is 'un-gay''

[i-cant-sing]

Everyone asking about the Royal Gay au meanwhile I'm just gremlining in the corner waiting for anything related to Re8:TRP bc I don wanna ask about it and potentially annoy you

Hmm, okay I've got a particular scenario in my mind:

Okay, imagine post re8, when Ethan forgot about saving reader, died, then came back to life with realisation that he forgot about you, so he "saves" you but you're too pissed at him (rightfully) and tell him that as soon you get out of the village, you're moving out because you can't be around him and Mia since Rose will always be a priority for them and you can't risk losing more of your sanity and self respect.

To which Ethan says "Oh... request denied😃" and then proceeds to kidnap you and take you home, where Mia has started to realise how important you are to the smooth functioning of this dysfunctional family and agrees with Ethan about keeping you locked up in your room.

They both think that you're just acting this way because you're "a little jealous" of the attention they've been giving to Rose. And you're being "totally unreasonable" because Rose is a baby, she needs them more than you do.

It never even occurs to them that you hate them because of all the abuse they've subjected you to all these years.

They don't understand why you're being so rebellious right now? Throwing away the food they cook for you, refusing to eat anything, screaming at them to let you go, trying to break the chains around your feet.

When will this "phase" of yours end?

Mia thinks it'd be rather better if they gave you silent treatment and ignored you and your basic human needs- yeah, that'll teach you to not bite the hand that feeds you.

Ethan on the other hand, doesn't agree with that (mostly because he's incapable of ignoring you now that he's become a yandere). He thinks you just need to remember all the good times. So he goes to the store to look through some very old boxes to find your old journals. He remembers seeing you writing in them as a kid, and if memory serves him right, you still used to write in them.

Pulling out the dusty old box with your name on it, he picked out a journal and began flipping through them.

-

Hours later, Mia entered the house, only to find Ethan in the store room, absolutely bawling his eyes out.

"Ethan? Hun? What's wrong? Is Rose okay?" Mia asked, immeadiately crouching down to hold him.

Ethan just hugged hia wife, crying into her shoulder. "S-she hates us, Mia."

"What?"

"She hates us! Y/n hates us!" Ethan cried out, pointing at all the journals. Picking one up, Mia began reading them.

I hate mom. I hate her. I hate her. I hate her. I hate her-

The words continued for several pages, before moving onto Ethan.

Dad- I never thought I'd hate him, but I hate him even more than mom. How could he- how could he ignore my croes for help? Am I that unimportant to them? Or just unlovable?

I hate dad, I hate him so much.

I wish he was dead. Wish they were both dead.

Mia's mouth fell open, completely in disbelief that you would say something like that. And more than one time. In fact, several of your notebooks were just filled with words of hatred for your parents.

Ethan went out for a walk, telling Mia he just cant be around all of this right now, asking her to get rid of all the journals for him. Mia just nods, her mind somewhere else.

-

While Ethan is taking a walk in the park, wondering how to change your mind about him and Mia, his wife has decided to take a different strategy to make you regret those words.

Currently, your head is being held under water as Mia flushed the toilet bowl once again.

You gasped for her air as she yanked your head up again. "You un-fucking-grateful brat! How fucking dare you wish death upon your own parents?! I'm gonna make you wish you were dead-!" She screamed as she pushed your head back in the water.

"MIA!" Ethan yelled, pulling his wife off you, as you came up, coughing up the water that got in your lungs. "What the fuck?!"

-

You're wrapped up in a towel, sitting in your room, a chain still around your foot, as you hear Ethan and Mia arguing downstairs.

Arguing over their "parental strategies" for you.

Arguing over you.

You smiled a little. You never imagined they'd ever take the time to argue or even talk about you.

And all it took was your sanity.

I just know this how they be arguing:

Mia: What the hell, Ethan?! You said you wanted to try the "good cop. Bad cop."thing!

Ethan:

Mia:

Ethan:

Mia:

Ethan: YEAH! "GOOD COP- BAD COP" NOT "GOOD COP-HOMICIDAL COP" MIA!

Mia, voice breaking because no.1 manipulator: wow, I can't believe you're saying I'm the "bad cop". Is that what you think of me?

#yandere ethan winters #yandere mia winters #yandere re8 #re8 x reader #resident evil x reader #resident evil village #resident evil #resident evil 8 #yandere lady dimitrescu #yandere lady alcina

[blorbocedes]

my cant ever say on main yukierre headcanon is pierre will hook up with yuki but its only gay if you bottom so he's very much stick it in, get off and no kissing

for my girlies who can't say it on main 🥰

cw: internalized homophobia, bad sex, dirtbag Pierre, healthy dose of misogyny, heed tags ye who enter

Yuki always hangs around Pierre when he takes him to clubs in Rouen. Obviously it makes hooking up with girls difficult when Yuki's sticking to him like they're a two for one deal — and they're not.

It's fucking annoying -- especially cause there's girls who'll go for Yuki, obviously, language barrier isn't a thing when it comes to starfucking; Pierre doesn't get why Yuki doesn't just go for it, Pierre's more than happy to translate the basics -- 'do you know who I am?' 'I'm kind of a big deal.' 'Your place or mine?' He still drags Yuki along though, he wants to be the one giving him these experiences. They're racing drivers, he needs to learn to act like one.

It always ends like this, they're back at Pierre's apartment -- no girls in tow because of Yuki's clinginess. And well, when Yuki's giggly drunk like this he's kind of like a girl — except not at all, cause he's sturdy and muscled in al the wrong places and distinctly masculine even when his voice is high pitched and moaning 'Pierre' when he has him shoved into the bed. But for this to work, Pierre flips him around, focuses on how tiny Yuki is; like a girl, when he's on his stomach like this, ass up, he could be any of the girls in Pierre's Instagram vying for a piece of him. A hole's a hole, and it doesn't matter as long as Pierre is the one inside -- as long as Yuki's moans are muffled into the pillow and Pierre doesn't need to think -- just skin on skin, chasing the pleasure building at the pit of his stomach, ignoring no girl ever feels this tight when they take it up the ass. At least with Yuki it's far easier to get some. He owes it to him, after cockblocking him the whole night.

"Tu es une pute, une salope, et tellement ingrate!" Pierre grunted into him, watching his hole clench around his cock, take him in like he can't get enough. It's fucking pathetic, Pierre would never let a teammate humiliate like him this — taking cock like he was born to. Pierre leans over to pull his hair as he thrusted inside him, the arch of his back along with the dimpled hips was gorgeous, like Pierre's 19 year old Instagram models. Alpha Tauri was a fashion brand, maybe that made Yuki an Instagram model too. He certainly got fucked like one.

When Pierre finishes, he pulls out -- leaving Yuki breathless, sweating, reddened and untouched throbbing cock. Pierre doesn't offer, it's kind of fucking gay to jerk another guy off -- even if he and Esteban did it as horny teens, but they'd been watching porn; with tits and pussy so that cancelled it out. Yuki knows what he signed up for and it's not fucking romance. One of these nights, he's gonna go for one of the girls and Pierre will finally be free of the dead weight and pity fucking. He's really doing him a favour by making sure they both got some.

Until then, Yuki can take care of himself to get off. Pierre checks his Instagram dms.

#my fics #f1 rpf #cw: internalized homophobia #cw: misogyny #dirtbag yukierre #blorbocedes ask #what if I took the happy go lucky sweet happy and made it not that? #give me praise or give me death

[not-so-unusual]

Coming out hcs? Like I'm sorry all of them are queer so how did they tell each other. I feel like ocean in particular has some internalized stuff goin on

YESS I LOVE ALL MY GAY CHOIR MEMBERS! I'm gonna go in order of who came out first :)

Noel Gruber

Noel didn't really have to 'come out' as much, everyone could already sort of...sense it in him.

There's even a part in the musical when it says his mum knew from a young age and that he was told to 'dial it back' so we can assume everyone always knew.

Ricky Potts

I feel like Ricky would be very open with his sexuality and wouldn't see it as something to be concerned about people knowing, especially his friends.

"It's just who I am"

I cant see anyone being extremely shocked over Ricky coming out, he was already extremely open regarding his romantic self (when people listen to him).

It was probably when he was around 14-15 when he found the term pansexual and was like "...yeah that's me." And subsequently told everyone the next day.

He was quite calm about it.

"Hey I'm pansexual guys"

Penny Lamb

Penny again is quite the blunt person I like to think. If she thinks something is right she will just downright tell you.

Hers came as more of a shock to the choir (mostly because hey forgot she was behind them)

She started looking into it after Ricly came put to everyone and subsequently found out that gay and straight aren't aren't only ones (so she was probably 15).

After a bit of digging and a bit of time for self-reflection, she blurts out an "I'm bisexual" in the middle of choir warm-up.

Mischa Bachinski

Everything changed when same love dropped for mischa. Suddenly homopobia was no more for him.

Ukraine (and most Eastern European countries) tend to be quite homophobic, so he always sort of hid his feelings regarding men when he was home. After coming to Canada however, he was more able to express and understand himself.

He felt sort of scared when he realised he was bisexual and poly , sure he had Penny but they never really talked.

It took a while for him to finally come out to the choir, but they were all there to support him.

Mischa: "I don't think I just like women, men are cool too...maybe I'm just a really big ally?"

Noel: "Mischa no"

Constance Blackwood

I feel like Constance would have realised when she was younger (I headcannon her as pansexual) but due to the environment of Uranium, she was...hesitant.

She quickly realised that she had a crush on Ocean, and that was terrifying. She saw how Ocean would look away awkwardly when Mischa or Noel would talk about their celebrity crushes.

It made her feel...shitty, and really hesitant.

Eventually, however, It just became too much to keep to herself. So when she got home after a long day of school, she just dropped a quick "I'm pansexual" in the choir group chat, turned her phone on silent and went to go and help her parents un the cafe.

When she got home later in the evening, she looked through her phone anxiously only to see the top message from ocean being.

"I'm happy for you, Connie. I love you 💛💖💙"

And she subsequently cried that night (of joy).

Ocean O'connell Rosenberg

Enternalised homophobia goes hard with this one.

She grew up with an open family, however the need to be like other kids made her become very...conservative to be likeable.

She always knew she was a lesbian, but she was sort of scared..of herself?

Literally scared of being gay because she already felt different and isolated, she just wants to be excepted by everyone.

Everyone already knows when she comes out, she sitts them all down, unfolds her peice of paper and sniffles out a

"I've known this for a long time now, and I'm sorry for treating you all the way I did. I'm a lesbian." And brakes down crying

Immediately hugs from everyone and reassurance that it's okay and that they knew she was gay already so they never took it to heart.

An instant "wait what?"

Noel: 'did you think we didn't know? The closet is glass, Ocean. We all waste how you look at Constance anyways😒"

Ocean:"I DONT LIKE CONSTANCE-well, I mean YEAH I do but not like that!-"

#rtc #ride the cyclone #penny lamb #ricky potts #jane doe ride the cyclone #jane doe #ocean o'connell rosenberg #constance blackwood #noel gruber

[swamplatibule]

sooo… why’s Sylvie called The Sidewinder (And like if you want to explain anyone else’s nicknames 👀)

p.s. I like your taste in music!! (and I got increasingly more excited every time I recognized a song)

OH HELLS YEAH I LOVE THIS QUESTION i will absolutely explain that

and also jack and cecelia’s nicknames because those two especially have been rotating in my brain like rotisserie chickens. butch lesbian death goddess (?) and unkillable otter with a gun collection my beloveds

if these are cringe then so be it i will not be apologizing for shit

Sylvie is called The Sidewinder after the snake species!! They’re one of the fastest snakes in the world (their top speed is 18 mph iirc) and the way that they move is really cool

(tw for animal death in the video)

BUT the reason that Sylvie is nicknamed that is mostly because both the way he moves around and the way he fights mimics how the sidewinder does! he does a lot of side-to-side movement, plus he has a knack for hiding and striking from the shadows, even in the middle of combat. he has been known to fully disappear in the middle of a fight only to come flying out like a 56 year old deus ex machina just a few second later!!

fun fact: he is also among the few working at Moonstone who don’t have some freaky magic shit going on. he is fully human and un-powered and he still beats everyone’s ass. like if batman was someone’s cool gay anarchist uncle

Cecelia is called the Reaper because she is straight up the actual Grim Reaper slash personification of death. she also unraveled (aka destroyed) her own universe by killing the original Death and got stuck in an endless void for a really long while 👍 god forbid women do anything you know what I mean. she is my poor little misunderstood meow meow and she has done NOTHING wrong ever in her life (she is actively committing a murder as we speak)

Jack is the Wraith because. well. he cant die. i mean he CAN die, but only temporarily and he wakes up fine about five to ten minutes later! in his early days at Moonstone most people were unconvinced that he wasn’t just a ghost in denial and so he was dubbed the Wraith!! it has since been proven that he is very much not a ghost but the nickname has stuck for years and he’s made no effort to change it (though people do also just call him by his full name as one word because “jackfinch” is fun to say)

another fun fact: cecelia and jack are platonic life partners. they are weird and codependent about it and they are going to make it everyone’s problem and i can go into So Much Detail

#paracosm: nameless #ty for the ask <3 #para: sylvie page hidalgo #para: cecelia de luca #para: jack finch #paraportal

[misqnon]

u gotta try harder /j

I WASNT ON TUMBLR MUCH TIL LIKE.. A YEAR AGO... SO I HAD NO IDEA .... that is extremely funny. thank u

theyre in a 3 way qpr with luffy as the center

THAT ZORO IMAGE IS SO FUNYN AHFHSJD

"i like to imagine he speaks with the emojis like you typed them. (“how are you saying that out loud-”)" NAHDIAHE hes magic thats how

i have a big crush on ace too but TRACE HEATFIST.... something abt him.... idk he just hits the spot for me. i love big brother characters n characters that r good with kids.. ace fills that spot.. and then u add his silly smoothness in the 4kids dub and its like wow. u are Perfect.

STEAL THEM!! i have . a pinterest board of . meme image. silly meme image. (is pinterest something ppl still use... i only started using it a few years ago)

NO A CUP MAKES SO MUCH MORE SENSE... I think u were rightm.

THATS SO FUNNY... see i never thought dragons were real but i DID believe . that unicorns were real for quite a while (i never liked to admit it). honestly i didnt consume much dragon content but i did like to just. think abt them . i had this mobile game i liked playing that was just a choose ur own adventure type story . but ur a dragon. never played spyro (and didnt even know about it til i was like... 12) but it seems rly fun and i would love to play the remaster,, purple dragon ily. i cant believe ur the kind of kid who could beat games... i was so stupid as a kid i didnt even know how to play animal crossing city folk correctly .... YOU ALSO??? FLIGHT RISING???? i joined in uhh 2019? i think? i found out abt it in like 2016 but forgot and then tried to join in 2018 but it wasnt accepting new users.. and then yeah. 2019. so ive been on and off a lot but i LOVE flight rising. i love my dragons. even tho theyre mostly un-gened 1st generation dragons..

sanji is . arguably the most human of all the straw hats.. which is interesting bc he is also the only one who was supposed to be inhuman. ofc i think theyre all very human but sanji has the most moments where i can relate to him. the sanuso fic i was reading yesterday... he was so full of shame... and they wrote him hiding behind his hair.. and i felt so intensely SEEN by that. like oh my god he is ME i do all these things.. i find that my comfort characters are usually... ones who suffer a lot. i love suffering. in media.

SHREK SCREENSHOT..

"I WANT TO PUT THE SANJI FEEDING MICE AND THE CREW IS CONFUSED SCENE IN A FIC SO BAD BUT I HAVE WRITERS BLOCK ATM 😭" i will write it for u

"sanji vs. minnie mouse his hardest battle yet" oh my god........ ur mind...... wow...... genius...... crackship time (have u seen . oh wait ur not into jjk.. ok have u seen frollo x goofy... its insane...)

BEING MAD ABOUT SIMPING FOR SANJI IS SO REAL.. please dont be attractive please stop please... please . IVE SEEN THAT OUTFIT and every time i get ANGRY (not for real but y'know.) because he looks SO GOOD and i dont like to admit that.. i hate to admit that. UR RIGHT that outfit is extremely gay like wtf is going on with that tie???? or whatever it is? around his neck??? this is like gay men wearing scarves

"have u seen that post where its drawings of each of the strawhat “rescue teams” of arlong park, enies lobby, and whole cake?" I SAW THAT A FEW HOURS AGO AHDHSH

"law 1: edgy. flipping u off. deranged. a bit evil looking. kinda hot" i see u...

i love law so much he is so antagonizing and then . the contrast.. when he is stupid or cute. its wonderful.

"HE ALSO LOOKS SO SO PATHETIC 😭 SOPPING WET CAT OF A MAN" i LOVE how pathetic he looks. i like pathetic people so much.. like why are u like that.. making me pity u.. only in media tho never in real life 🙏🙏

ZORO LOOKS LIKE A DOG AHEJDHA WHAT IS THAT

USOPP?? USOPP?????? HES THE MEME IMAGE ...

CHOOPA MY GUY.. he looks so silly as a full deer i wish he did that more often

this is blue period but im running out of funny images i have saved ...

dw abt taking a bit to reply!! i am patient /gen

IM TRYING MY BEST 

sharing my veteran knowledge

3 WAY QPR IS PERFECT 

trace heatfist the magic man. skeazy magician and fuckboy

ace is VERY likeable idk a single person who doesnt like him. even my non one piece friend likes him but i think shes weak to his freckles

i trade memes like pokemon cards. i look forward to this symbiotic relationship

arent unicorns the national animal of scotland…(or ireland maybe…) THAT WOULD MAKE ME THINK THEYRE REAL

I COULD ONLY BEAT SOME GAMES a lot i didnt but usually bc i got out of the rhythm of playing them and left them unfinished. when i was younger i made my older brother play the hard parts for me a lot LMAO. ALSO DO YOU WANT MY FLIGHT RISING DRAGONS. IDK WHAT TO DO WITH THEM ALL MAN I DONT PLAY ANYMORE

i love that sanji is arguably the most emotional of the group (aside from franky or chopper, but for them its just played for laughs) and that overemotional/low self esteem part is exactly what makes him so relatable. i actually really appreciate that oda gave that trait to a male character. sanji cries a lot and is overemotional and kind of hysteric sometimes jdvbvfjdk so im glad they didnt make it like nami or robin who was like that stereotype. GOD I REALLY CONVERTED U TO SANJI TOWN DIDNT I. SORRY WE’RE ALL HERE BECAUSE WE HAVE LOW SELF ESTEEM AND PROJECT ONTO THE WEIRDO

*FROLLO X GOOFY????* 

I HATE ADMITTING THAT I THINK HE’S HOT BC HE DOESNT DESERVE IT. BUT I DO. I THINK SANJI IS HOT. I DO. UNFORTUNATELY. in that maroon wano suit…ODA WHO TOLD YOU TO DO THAT!!!!!!!

and yes law too…listen. i have a big heart, ready to love, [possessed by sanji]

the little scarf/ascot is the gayest part 

“"HE ALSO LOOKS SO SO PATHETIC 😭 SOPPING WET CAT OF A MAN" i LOVE how pathetic he looks. i like pathetic people so much.. like why are u like that.. making me pity u.. only in media tho never in real life 🙏🙏” exactly…PATHETIC FICTIONAL MEN GO HARD

I LOVE THE DOG ZORO SCREENSHOT HE LOOKS LIKE HES GONNA BITE SOMEBODY

AND USOPP KDSJNKJ I USE THAT ONE SO MUCH

i agree i like almost all of chopper’s other forms better than when hes a little baby 😭

IS THAT MAKIMA NSCKJAS???

also u are free to keep sending me e-letters but if you want to just message on discord that is also fine. as i said. message me whenever 🫡

lets see what we have for 2day...

#asks #replies #long post #march anon

[bigmack2go]

Watching german newsies. Am disturbed. Need sleep now.

Update

Jack „duzt“ (the not formal you) kloppman and i love it

So they have absolutely no singing skills which is weird considering its a musical

YK THE PART IN CARRIING THE BANNER WHERE THEYRE ALL SINGING ABOVE EACH OTHER??? HALF OF THOSE ARE ENGLISH???

Not abt the german sync but i love boots so much ydek i love him almost as much as albert

They also call themselves newsboys in the german version like BRO WHAT ARE YOU CHANGING THE NAME FOR IF YOURE NOT TRANSLATING IT ANYWAY

PLSSSS „hast du keine aguen im kopf“😭

They did make it a whole lot clearer what jack meant when he talked about oscar with his shoes on

And you can understand what they say in the backround soooo much better

Mush’s voice actually fits better than his real one

Snaps is so funny😭😭

Omg boots singing in german is smt I didn’t know i needet (because i dont. Its terrible)

Blink cant pronounce Harlem „helm“💀💀💀 you go boy! Don’t let anyone tell you not to where that helmet!

WE LOVE U DENTON UR AN ICON *fucking fangirls*

„Spot kanlen“

They made „i spent a month there one night“ into „a night there always feels like a whole month“ :(

Wheres the fun in that???

What the hell is a spot kanlen

I take the thing with races sync back. In fact i think its really really good. And so is blinks (especially blinks) and skitterys.

STOP SAYING KANLEN WHAT TH HELL

I already didn’t understand why they would make a song called seize the day when it could be carpe diem but i guess in English it makes sense cause you can say both versions. In german u cant. No one ever said „nutz den tag“ if anything they say „nutze“ but like just say carpe diem christ. Maybe u can actually find some fitting rhymes then that aren’t just the same thing twice.

THE NEWSIES BACK UP A GAY KID IN THE GERMAN VERSION!!! I REPEAT!!! THEY CANONICALLY BACK UP A KID THAT GOT CALLED A schwuchtel (which is the german equivalent to f4got) THIS IS NOT A DRILL GUYS

„das hinkebein? Ich hohl ihn“ why was that actually kinda cute????

„IcH wIlL NiChT dAS JeManD MicH tRäGt“

Istg crutchie is such a slow talker in german i cant even

RACHE FÜR CRUTCHIE

AINT NO WAY THEY QUOTED STARWARS😭😭😭

„Brooklyn hält euch die Stange“

Thats what he said—

(Im so invalid for this😭)

Ok just lemme get this straight cuz im not sure im correct. The newsies on the pic are the characters that actually got named right??

I have so many feelings about german kony and only very few of them are good

But snipeshooter still kind sounds like himself in it so i guess that good

WHY R THERE NO GERMAN SUBTITLES THO????

Ok but „harlem bis nach sonst wo“ was actually handled pretty well

I only just realized mush swalloing a laugh when davey doesn’t wanna spit shake

Why do they juat completely change some things they say?? Like they could have easily translated it??

Why is the refuge and orphanage in german

IS LES SMOKING???

Edit: nvm its just a lollipop

Istg Esther is so done

GEWERKSCHAFT

(I didn’t even know that was a word)

Still can’t believe blush is cannon

Ok but in santa fee jack talks to a crowd, to himself and to someone else entirely all at the same time

The way jack say snoddy is simply just wrong

Skittery is weird too

„Spot conlen macht uns n bisschen nervös“ nawwwwww fucking cute ass

Omg the men in the backround talking????? Awesome!! Can hear every word!! „Die werden sich noch umsehn“ yass

Why tf they calling him captain instead of kelly

„ICh FrEsS n BeSeN“

Ast-rein

Boots is so poursouled

Edit: i take it back

Reminder to anyone hc‘ing mouth as daveys nickname that in german his nickname would be SpRacHrOhR

WHY DO THEY TAKE DIFFERENT ENGLISH WORDS??? Either u translate it or you leave it. But if you’re changing it but not translating wheres the point??

WAS WILLST DU DAMIT SAGEN? HAT SPOT ALSO RECHT??

Nothing. And i mean nothing. Makes sense in seize the day. And it doesn’t rhyme.

WiR GEBEN IHNEN SAURES

Fucking blink

Edit: rn -mush

Why is crutchie so dumb?

I just realized some of the scabs were already convinced before the fight w the Delancys

What is the woody gate??

Boots is a fucking icon

Spot just livked his palm instead if soitting in it??

NO O E FUCKING TALKS LIKE THAT

What denton says doesn’t make any fucking sense istg

Some of the rhymes in kony are actually okay

THEY REMOVED SPOTS VIBRATO

cant fucking understand a word snipeshooter says

„gut so“ KLOPPMAN LOML

Why did snider donate to the strike??

Herrliche aussicht STFU ALREADY

Who casted Sarah‘s sync???

Motherfucking Pulitzer is licking the paper

Motherfuxker is one of them the guy frim umsere kleine farm

„Brooocklin“

Wtf they didn’t even try to make emphasis‘s similar

They removed meddas accent:(

Just realized the bodyguard spot turns into when snider shows up

Also one lf the guys looks exactly like live‘sies spot

Blink being a bodyguard is the reason i‘m alive

Istg what did spot expect dumbass

HOW DID DAVEY HET AWAY BUT NO ONE ELSE

Not them changing the order 💀

I love that the newsies have priority

1 children

2 women

3 jack

4 themselves

5 davey

6 their friends

7 other newsies

8 other people

I motherfucking love 92‘sies henry

Why is the mayor plying bodyguard now

Pulitzer poking jack is even better in german

Seiz is talking such bullshit tho??? Doesn’t even make sense. Je litteraly does have somewhere to go

what DID crutchie do to the sauerkraut??

Santafee be like📈📉📈📉📈📉📈📉

ScHoN gUt BiN nIcH tAuB

JA MERKT MAN BRUDER DU HAST IHN GRAD NE HALBE EWIGKEIT IGNORIERT NATÜRLICH SCHREIT er

„Wie ein pinkel“????? Huh??

Boots is so dedicated about the clothes what the hell??

Why does davey say i dont even know your real name instead he of you didn’t even tell me your real name.cause lts not true?? And He could have said that?

Why did i think they replaced weasel at the end??? They didn’t. They have two at the beginning too

sarah decking morris is my motto of life

Les 🥺🥺🥺

MorriS‘s german laugh is my life istg thats so funny

Und das ist für crutchie

YOU TELL EM LES

vorallam nicht klug? Yop. Absolutly. Positive. Correct.

Wait theres a picture of the irl Katherine in pulitzers office

How did they get the word „kriegsberichterstatter“ in the word „warreporter“ but not „kenne“ in „tell me“

WHY R WE TALKING ABOUT BAGUETTE NOW????

Why does denton say pulitzer so weird “pOUUUlitser”

#the voices fit pretty well actually #except for races #but the text #??? #what the hell???

[thatwasntlikeridingabikeuasshole]

my obsession with Aspects of Love is actually so out of hand and literally nobody knows, likes, or cares about this musical. but its MY tumblr blog and I get to choose the posts i make so heres a list of my favorite moments in aspects of love anyway

"rose it's not the views or the vines that keep me here" just. musically

and then "when the world was a playground all train rides and laughter and love in the morning and armagnac after"

"tell me are you still shooting women" "do you dance with women of your own age?" fuck him UP GIULIETTA

actually the entirety of hand me the wine and the dice

actually everything giulietta has done ever in her life

"and now i claim my best man's rIGHT!!!"

the journey of a lifetime melody playing right before seeing is believing

every repetition of the love changes everything melody, but specifically the one at the end of other pleasures

rose showing up at giulietta's studios in venice ready to steal back her man and then being like "oh wait giulietta's amazing and im a little bit gay" in the book she outright says to george "well i think im in love with your friend" and hes like "cool"

the first man you remember. the entire thing. the very fIIIIIIIIRST

"just promise one thing" "alright what is it" "dont ask me questions you must promise first" "i cant i dont know what it is" "dONT LEEEEEEEEEAVE MEEEEEEEEEE"

and then he fuckin wALKS AWAY

god bless, i love anything but lonely and its like the only scene that you can find shitty videos of on youtube

"ya girlfriends gonna love that donkey"

"(youll be her hero)"

"and my story is oLDER than the stars"

the buildup at the beginning of journey of a lifetime

marcel being a supportive bestie

and specifically rose shooing away hugo after the funeral and then marcel showing up and her letting him stay. i think hes one of the only people she actually cares about she just doesnt know it

"come on show me a smile" ough

the absolutely unhinged yelling before alex shoots rose. "if i cant have you NO ONE WILL killing you would be a PLEASURE" "PULL THE TRIGGER SEE IF I CARE" "you never loved me you never meant it AND NOW YOU HATE ME" "GO ON SOLDIER BE A HERO"

"rose id never harm the girl" "you were once prepared to do a lot of harm to me" TELL HIM ROSE

jenny pulling out the "pas de tendresse et pas de joie loin d'ici loin de toi" at alex and hes like ???????????????

"youre a delinquent a silly schoolboy with a GUN"

shed be far better of with you makes me giggle "you don't cheat at croquet"

when i read the book my heart just jumped whenever there was an exactly quoted line or nearly exactly quoted. the first one i found was "if i'm not very nice to you it's because i have things to worry me but thanks for the flowers every night" and nearly giuliettas whole speech at the beginning of hand me the wine and the dice is a direct quote

also a memory of a happy moment is a rough translation of a french phrase they keep repeating in the book at roughly the same moments that that melody/phrase repeats in the musical. its "un souvenir leger pour toi" "a sweet memory for you"

"my darling george i love you how dramatic can you be"

this is entirely a book thing and not a musical thing. but. in the book. rose speaks very little english and while all the dialogue is written in english, its noted that usually it's actually being spoken in french. which makes sense bc yknow....shes french............but anyway during either the scene at the cafe where she meets alex or possibly on the train, it's noted during one of the sentences she says to alex that he blushed because iT WAS THE FIRST TIME SHED USED TU INSTEAD OF VOUS FOR HIM and i was like. sobbing. french grammar romance. thats so cringe i love it. "oooo im gonna flirt with you by using the informal you"

just the fact that the scene when alex comes back to see rose in her super successful show completely mirrors the start of the musical when he first meets her. "hugo be a dear and get our guest an armagnac" "are you sure you want me to accept? very well then i ACCEPT" "i must have been the only one who didnt throw you roses"

in the book the house at pau is called "les pervenches" and pervenches are periwinkle flowers!!!!

listen like. the scene where they move george to sit by the fire so they can lie to jenny about how he died is like somber and ominous in the musical, with the music matching that vibe, but in the book it just ends up (possibly accidentally) being kind of funny bc rose, alex, and hugo drag his body into their room and then are like "fuck what do we tell jenny"

"one cup of fresh coffee buys two kisses"

giulietta and george's friendship honestly

the fact that giulietta is the one person who is reasonable and not bitter about things. the fact that when george is like "me n rose are over its me n you now" shes like "lmao no its not ur in love with rose and thats cool"

and i love that she was the best man at their wedding. i think marcel was rose's maid of honor. i think marcel and giulietta would get along they have their heads screwed on right

and then i love that he had her speak at his funeral. and he was right about it. george was like "i want my funeral to be a Ragin Good Time" and giulietta was the only person who understood this assignment

right this post is so long and its gonna be over now but the point is. i love this musical and if anyone else likes it at all please talk to me lol

#aspects of love #andrew lloyd webber #my aspects of love era #<-tag to block if u dont wanna hear abt this musical bc this will happen again #im still determined to write rose x giulietta fanfic where the target audience is literally just me #lmao

[godza]

confession: ive never read nocturnality. or have i. i honestly forget. i remember when it was in game and i remember watching the mini version but did i absorb any of it? no. i usually like vampires but nocturnality was nothing to me. what i get for having winter at the bottom of my faves list! and i cant even say there are gayer playverse characters because i dont know how gay nocturnality is. im listening to shoutai right now and ive seen the memes. but i can only hear subaru bc of the va. how dare he ruin her milfage. post cancelled i just put on un jour and want to sob. normal game makes me feel normal emotions

#t

[koinvyokan]

living under a dictatorship is fucking tiring. its hard to describe. it just drains all the will you have to fight out of you. when the people you love and your community and your best friends and you so brazenly have your rights violated every day.

you really want things to change. you really do because theres so many good people who deserve to have their voices heard or to even have a chance to speak without fear. but how can you make change happen when you cant even write a school paper about the government for fear of your parents safety and jobs? every so often you see protests break out because people cant take it anymore and those people get arrested. and beaten. and killed. so no wonder protests only happen rarely. and then another journalist gets arrested or just disappears. youve lost count of how many it is this year (the UN hasn't, its the most of any country in the world. lovely). and then one day a university student is killed in a hit and run. but the perpetrator is the daughter of the opposition leader so instead of that student's death getting any sort of resolution, its used as blackmail to get the opposition leader to live in exile. you knew the perpetrator, she went to your school before she chose exile over life in prison. its almost unbelievable.

the police don't give a shit when you get robbed because you cant bribe them enough. oh and wikipedia is banned now, they published something (too truthful) against the president. another historical landmark has been renamed or destroyed because it suggests that anyone other than the current government has ever been in power. rainbows and unicorns are now banned from clothing because of the terrifying gay agenda. im not joking.

and oh look. its election time again. guess who wins? theres some military parades and talk of new policies and then a week passes and its the same as its been for the past 30 years. and no one outside the country cares because this has been the norm for so long. and the human rights absuses are excusable for another few years because these are cooperative dictators. theyre quiet about their genocide.

once, you see tanks rolling through the streets that you drive every weekend to go to the mall. past the building that your best friend's father works at, that hes in right now. helicopters fly overhead through the night and all of a sudden your home is a war zone for a bit. a military coup they say on tv. does it amount to anything? no. its just an excuse for the big man to tighten his grip, crack down. there's rumours it was staged. its been a few years and you still dont know what the truth is. does the government really hate when bridges get bombed by terrorists or does it get excited at a chance to tighten its chokehold on the nation?

after you leave, you want to go back and at least try because you love this place and it deserves it but you know how much the government cares about prosecuting murders who kill people like you which is to say not at all. encouraging hatred of queers is just another tool in their propoganda arsenal. there would be no justice. youre mostly just scared for the people you left behind because there wouldn't be justice for them either. it just takes a step out of line. no one is safe. no one will care. you will be a statistic.

youre so angry. bursting at the fucking seams. at the government for their greed and corruption and violence. at how they build another seaside palace while more people starve under their policies. at how they whore out your home for more money from their best friend china. at yourself because you feel defeated and that means they have won.

i dont have a pretty resolution to this. im just sad and scared and angry. more people need to care and they dont. other governments are supposed to be bastions of democracy and free speech but still keep their mouths shut like theyre scared theyll get disappeared. cowards compared to the people who actually have been.

fucking cherish your freedom of speech, your freedom to vote and have it actually make a difference. if you see that being threatened (which it IS right now, slowly but surely) then be afraid and fight for it because once its gone its Gone.

and if you support the governments of china or russia or the US get the fuck off my blog. unfollow and block me. now. the people and places i love have been put through too much by dictators that have support of those imperialist powers for me to want to interact with you.

finally, learn to seperate the people of a country from their head of state. you think they chose this? they didnt and they dont deserve you conflating them with a dictatorship.

feel free to rb

#this is about turkey and cambodia #two places i love very dearly but have caused me + my loved ones a lot of pain #how do you love a place when it will never love or respect you? its difficult #all things mentioned are from mine and friends real experiences #sorry this is just me ranting something set me off #long post

[abarbaricyalp]

Idk if you are still taking prompts, but you know the vine two dudes chilling in a hot tub 5 feet apart cause they're not gay, and a girl quoting it in a park about two girls in the distance and one of them hearing and going "Actually I am gay" Like that scenario, only involving them fixing the boat? Maybe Sarah quoting it to give Sam shit when she thinks Bucky cant hear and Bucky goes "Wait, no I'm gay" or something, or just the general gist of that. Sorry if this us too specific, I've never sent anyone a prompt before :P

Hello Friend! Thank you so much for sending anything in at all! I know the vine you're talking about, but I couldn't find it on Youtube. (I did find a two day rabbit hole of old compilations though) This was also my first foray into writing Sarah as a fully fleshed character! I was excited to get the practice 'cause I had an idea bouncing around in my head about her and Bucky talking after he wakes up in the Wilson house. I kept her a little more like she had been in my other fics pre-show here. I so wish we got a little more of her!

Feel free, anyone, to send me Sambucky prompts!

The North American Superhero in a Domestic Situation

Sarah Wilson loved her brother deeply. The kind of soul crushing love that could only be formed through family, loss, and approximately four thousand brawls around the living room throughout their life. She looked up to her brother more than she could ever imagine looking up to anyone. Even when they were fighting or picking on each other, she couldn’t help but feel a swell in her chest when he came into her line of sight.

That didn’t mean she understood him. In fact, from the age of eight, watching her brother interact with the world had become her go-to pastime. Why did he have to roll every pea around the plate individually before eating them? Why did he and his friends spend seven years socking each other in the arm to prove friendship? Why did he talk to himself in the mirror, even when he knew Sarah or someone else was standing in the doorway?

Sam Wilson was just deeply weird. She had no idea how he had tricked the Avengers, a plethora of bad guys, and half of the media world into thinking he was remotely cool. She saw a news story once that had King T’Challa standing on a platform with Sam and the newscasters talked about how impressive Sam’s suit was. It was unnatural, the effect he had on people.

And in all her years, she never thought she’d see anyone weirder than Sam. But then James Barnes had showed up. It was like a complete reversal of Sam. Sarah was taken in for approximately three hours by his charm and face before she realized he too was deeply, deeply weird.

She justified sitting on the edge of the Paul and Darlene, watching her brother and James Barnes spar off about some dumb trivia fact, by deciding it was an anthropological expedition. The North American Superhero in a Domestic Situation. She watched Sam watch Barnes take a long pull off his beer. She watched Barnes kick his feet up near Sam’s legs and then draw them back quickly when a current jolted the boat. She watched Barnes’ fingers tap-tap-tap against the edge of the boat, inching closer to Sam’s shoulder before he chickened out and brought his hand back to his own lap. She watched Sam suggest Bucky take his jacket off, ‘unless you plan on sun blinding me with the robocop arm.’ She watched Sam look away when Barnes did shrug his jacket off.

When she was seventeen and Sam was fifteen, she had found Sam crying in his room, pillow pressed to his face to muffle the noise. They were at the age where going into each other’s rooms uninvited started international conflicts, but Sarah, who watched her brother intently, felt like she knew what was going on. So she let herself in through their Jack-and-Jill bathroom and shut the door behind her.

Sam didn’t stop crying, not even to yell at her to get out, so she sat on the end of his bed and rolled a baseball under her foot for a while. Finally, she’d said, “You don’t have to tell Mom and Dad, y’know.”

Sam had just about wailed and bit the corner of his pillow to stop himself.

“That’s gross, stop it,” Sarah ordered and pushed Sam’s shoulder back enough to yank his pillow free and then reached over to wipe the tears from his cheeks. “I should make you do the laundry this week so I know I’m not touching your snot germs,” she teased softly.

“How did you know?” Sam hiccuped out. Tears were still brimming at his eyes, but they didn’t fall.

“I’m your older sister. I made you. Like a doll. You think there’s something about you that I don’t know?” she joked. And when the tears did spill over his long lashes, she sighed and pulled him closer to her side. “I just know the way you interact with that boy from the basketball team ain’t just friendly.”

“Jesus, do you think he can tell?” Sam asked and she could hear the mortification in his voice.

“Sam, he’s a freshman in high school. The only thing he knows is that he’s scared of everything too. No one’s paying that much attention to you.”

“Screw you,” Sam muttered.

“What’re all these tears for you if you didn’t make a move and get shot down?”

“God, Sarah, can you not say things like that?”

“Watch your mouth,” Sarah warned with no heat in her voice. “Come on, tell me what’s wrong. I’m not leaving until you do.”

“I just…” Sam sat up and worked his jaw for a while. His chin dimpled and his eyes watered but he managed to control himself. “I’m scared, Sarah. I’m scared of never being in love. Of having to leave if I am. I’m scared to say something and I’m scared not to say something. I’m so scared of...losing any of it.”

“Sam,” Sarah sighed and pulled Sam into another hug. “You’re fifteen. You’re not supposed to be in love yet. You don’t have to think about any of that. You just have to focus on passing Geometry, alright? Mom’ll whoop your ass more for failing than anything else.”

“I have a B+, that’s not failing!” Sam snapped. He kept his face against her shoulder for a second long before he sat up and wiped his tears away. “Please don’t tell anyone.”

“Who am I gonna tell? I told you, my friends don’t like you as much as you think they do.”

“Your friends like me more than they like you,” Sam shot back and he almost sounded normal.

Sarah smiled softly and patted Sam’s cheek. “I won’t tell Mom or Dad. Of course not. That’s for you to do. But--”

“I’m always going to tell them when you sneak out the window.”

“No! Sam! You can’t! You owe me now!”

“Going to field parties is not the same thing!” Sam said in a shriek as Sarah leaned over to pinch his sides. They grappled for a second before Sam managed to push Sarah off the bed.

“You owe me,” she reminded him as she walked back to the bathroom.

Sam wiped his eyes again and nodded. “Sure, Sarah. I do.”

Sam almost had the same look on his face now. Like there was something he wanted to reach for that he thought was too impossible to hold. The Older Sister Instinct to Antagonize into a Solution kicked in.

“Two bros, chilling on a boat, five feet apart ‘cause they’re not gay,” she sing-songed. Sam looked mortified again but masked his face into something more irritated with a roll of his eyes when Barnes looked over at him.

“Ignore her. It’s this old video--” Sam started.

But Bucky interrupted to say, “Actually I am gay,” as he looked back over at Sarah. “Sorry if I got your hopes up,” he added with a grin that really did get the hopes up.

“What?” Sam asked and Sarah, ever watchful, could see the beer bottle shaking in his hand.

“What?” Bucky repeated innocently.

“He said he’s gay,” Sarah clarified.

“Thank you, Sarah,” Sam ground out. “Why didn’t you say anything?”

Bucky snorted. “When would I have said anything? ‘Sorry for ripping your wings off and kicking you off of a hellicarrier, by the way I’m gay.’?”

“You did what?” Sarah asked.

“‘Sorry for claiming I didn’t bomb the UN only to be reverted back to the assassin who would have done that and then fighting you again. By the way I’m gay.’ ‘Thanks for saving my life. Sorry about the giant undersea prison. By the way I’m gay.’ ‘There’s an imminent battle with weird ass space dogs that want to eat our faces. By the way I’m gay.’ ‘Sorry about Tony Stark, whose life I kind of ruined. Lovely funeral. By the way I’m gay.’ ‘I’m in the middle of being pissed at you about the Shield. By the way I’m gay.’ ‘Maybe don’t take me rolling through a field of flowers. It does things to me ‘cause I’m gay.’ ‘John Walker’s fucking insane. I’m gay, but definitely not for this bullshit.’ I mean, come on, Sam.”

“Flowers?” Sarah asked.

“Besides, why would you care? I don’t make it a habit of telling straight guys I’m into guys.”

“You don’t seem to make a habit of telling many people that,” Sarah pointed out. “I googled you. Nothing suggesting that came up.”

Bucky shrugged. “I’m a guy from the 30s. It was trained out of me.”

“Wait, wait, wait,” Sarah said quickly. “Back up away from that because we’re not gonna try to Oppression Olympics our way through our histories. Did you just say Sam was straight?”

“Sarah!” Sam hissed.

“Sure. I mean, I saw him with Romanov. Hill. He has Tinder on his phone.”

“Samuel Thomas, you better not,” Sarah warned lightly. “You’re better than that.”

“He’s a lady-killer.”

Sarah snorted and had to bring her hand up to her face. “He definitely is not. There has been no lady-killing on his end for a long time.”

“Sarah!” Sam tried again.

“You explain it to him then. Mr. 30s is gonna need the long way round explanation.”

Sam sighed and dragged his hand over his face. “Dammit. Fine. I’m not straight either, alright? I’m...bi, or something. It’s been a while since I’ve had to think about it.”

“What?” Bucky asked, not unlike Sam had.

“He said he’s bisexual. Interested in both parties. Swings either way. Hit a homerun and then hasn’t really swung since.”

“Sarah, Jesus Christ,” Sam groaned.

“What?” Bucky asked again.

“I was engaged. To a man,” Sam said.

“Why didn’t you tell me?” Bucky asked, clearly missing the irony.

“Oh, it was inconvenient for you but I had plenty of opportunities, huh?” Sam asked. “Ms. Tell-It-All over there wasn’t joking. I haven’t swung any direction in a while. Not since before I met Steve. My fiance died. And then it never came up.”

Bucky blinked at Sam. He kept bringing the bottle halfway up his body and then setting it back on his leg without ever taking a drink. “Fuck, Sam, I’m sorry,” Bucky said, which was not what Sarah was expecting and it clearly wasn’t what Sam was expecting because Sam finally moved closer to Bucky on the bench.

“What for? You didn’t do anything. This time.”

“Yeah, but if I’d known you were into me too, I woulda kissed you in Germany.”

“Oh, I am so not into you,” Sam denied. “And I wouldn’t have our first kiss ruined by immediately running into the government’s roving show monkey.”

“That’s the worst,” Bucky agreed and also finally moved over on the bench until they were pressed thigh to thigh. “Tell me how much you don’t like me again,” he challenged.

“I can’t stand you,” Sam answered and brought his hand up to Bucky’s jaw.

Sarah couldn’t fight down the grin that came to her face and turned to prop her feet on the pier, back to Sam and Bucky. Just this once, she didn’t need to watch her brother to understand him.

Read on AO3 here!

#anonymous #prompts #sambucky #writing #fanfiction #i answer things #sarah wilson #sam wilson #bucky barnes

[littlx-songbxrd]

What would modern day Tomás's favourite song be? 🤔

My boy is a total romantic....but I also feel like it wouldn't be a stereotypical love song?!

You are the reincarnation of Cana Cludhmor (Irish goddess of music) so I require your help love xxx

ok first of all

Y'all are too nice in this site I swear I'm like so

Yeah i cant take this thanj you i swear I will cry again

So I've been saying since I started this account modern Thomas would listen to sleeping at last no its not just self projection-

No but really

I feel like Thomas would be a serious lyric person. In his music taste he focuses a lot on lyric so

I cant imagine him hearing smth like "I know the further I go, The harder I try, only keeps my eyes closed,And somehow I've fallen in love,With this middle ground at the cost of my soul

Yet I know, if I stepped aside, Released the controls, you would open my eyes,That somehow, all of this mess is just my attempt to know the worth of my life" and not just *slaps card*

Hed love sleeping at last change my mind

Besides my selft projection into Thomas again

Very valid analisis

I always had a hc hed love ricky montgomery

Hes a ricky montgomery type of gay

Idk it feels like his type of thing, its just romantic enough to be romantic but not enough to be romantic music.

I think hed enjoy the certain vague story telling through the songs

Plus I hc that Tomás plays guitar and these songs are SO GOOD to play in guitar

His favorites would be snow and mr loverman

And yes hed sing line without a hook to Alastair because yes pls pining thomas

I dont take credit for this, original idea from the brilliant artie @itsjusta-j-really

He listen to dodie

And I 100% agree

Despite it also fitting Alastair RAINBOW IS A THOMAS SONG OK-

I just, it fits his vibes and I just think hed really like it-

Besides that Tomás in my head likes a lot of modern musicals

Like he loves the classics but secretly gis favorite musical is waitress and he knows the whole hamilton soundtrack

Besides this since you said tomás......

Look idk if you wanted Spanish song recs for Tomás BUT I ALREADY HAD THEM SO-

He can be a helpless romantic in spanish ok?

So first PABLO ALBORÁN-

You've already listened to me talk about it but yes he loves his music and Eugenia makes fun of him for licking the colonizers boot

But its so nice

I feel hed love the metaphors and just the overall vibe

He believes in solamente tu y prometo supremacy

ANOTHER I THINK HED ADORE IS TOMMY TORRES

HED LOVE TOMMY TORRES OK-

His inner romantic would just ughhhh

If Amor prohibido is gay pining Eugenia gay pining tomáss is por un beso tuyo (for a kiss from you)

Hed love it

And lastly Camila

Now I just lost electricity while typing this and my phone is DYING but PLS LET ME KNOW WHAT YOU THINK AND IF YOU HAVE ANY QUESTIONS LET ME KNOW

[thesolotomyhan]

Hello bi man here! Please stop writing stuff with Pacho and female reader characters. He makes it clear he is not interested in women at all and to still write him as vaguely bisexual when he turns down women on the basis of being gay is kind of borderline homophobic and very uncomfortable.

hi! so first off thank you for being nice instead of bashing i appreciate that! :)

secondly i do very much realize this and yes its very clear hes nothing else but gay and i never meant to change his strict sexuality for everyone who does read my works and i know i may sound like im disregarding what you say even tho i wholeheartedly respect the lgbt+ community (considering i even have family members and even mutuals on here that belong to that group) i only ever write to satisfy my followers on the basis of un-harmful fan fiction that can steer off of canon sometimes,, (because even when i write things like these i never intend to romantize the real narcos, i only intend to write on the basis of the actor) 

i don’t ever mean to come off as anti-lgbt+ really i don’t,, because i do respect them and i truly do realize where youre coming from when you say its uncomfortable but i cant guarantee you a promise when im only just trying to write what my followers request,, but i will pause all works i have requested for him indefinitely! 

#and yes i know writing gender neutral over a female reader for pacho is the same thing because hes strictly gay #this is kind of why i tend to not write on him so much because i never mean to ‘’disrespect’’ or bash on the lgbt+ community #i do keep in mind that hes gay when i write for him and it’s one of the main reasons why i hold off a lot of the requests i have for him #and dont post him as much as i do the rest- because it is damaging to him #but thank you for bringing this to my attention! :) #if my answer is not what you were expecting and you feel as though i may not be hearing you out #please with all do respect feel free to block me its going to be the best way to avoid your uncomfortableness #i never intended to hurt anyone with non-harmful fanfiction- #thats just fantasizing a short moment for my followers that enjoy his character

[widevibratobitch]

Top 5 opera lyrics

tagged by @revedebeatrice - thank you! this is a good one! It's all in Italian, sorry. Gotta restrain myself from making it all Don Carlo quotes. Having said this (in no particular order):

Carlo del Re, suo genitore, rinchiuso il cor ognor trovò, eppur non so chi dell'amore saria più degno, ah, inver nol so. // Rodrigo from Verdi's Don Carlo.

There's something about this quote that has always touched and moved something deep inside my heart. It's just - isn't this one of the most beautiful things you could say about another person? That you do not know who on earth could be worthier of love than them? It's amazing. And the context he says it in - this is the only moment Rodrigo and Elisabetta get when they're speaking directly to each other. The opera doesn't have their big confrontation scene from the play, and yet this little part does remind me of that scene a little bit. The way Posa loves Carlo so much, that he just. accepts that he is not the one Carlo really wants to be loved by, and his heart may break, but he will do what he can to ensure that Carlo be loved anyway - because in his eyes, Carlo is the person that is The Worthiest of being loved, like jesus fuck, man, this bitch gay and in love and I'm sorry, I'm probably not being coherent at all but this bit is one of the most beautiful quotes ever and I am so sad that this part is usually cut from the aria.

Perché mai, se in pianto e in pene per me tutto si cangiò, la memoria di quel bene dal mio sen non trapassò? // la Contessa from Mozart's Le nozze di Figaro.

This moment is so wonderfully bittersweet. Bittersweet is something Mozart does better than any other composer - Mozart will rarely give you a sad, minor-key aria (like eg. Pamina's - which is also beautiful btw). No, Mozart will give you a nice, major-key melody, that will still break your heart into a hundreds pieces BECAUSE of its sweetness, of its tranquil melancholy (another great example of that - Sesto's tanto affanno soffre un core ne si muore di dolor). There is no real sadness without joy preceding it, no sense of loss without first having something you cherished and loved. And that quote, the character of the Countess, is a testament to that - chapeau bas, Da Ponte (and Boucher, i guess), chapeau bas. This entire situation wouldn't hurt her half as badly, if she didn't still remember the times when her husband loved her, when she was his entire world, when they were happy together - maybe she would be happier now if she were able to forget all that. Idk, this character, and this moment in particular, always kinda reminded me of my mom, so maybe that's why it speaks to me on a personal level.

Vivan le femmine, viva il buon vino - sostegno e gloria d'umanità! // Don Giovanni from Mozart's Don Giovanni (duh).

This is simply my life motto ok. Also, this is the moment in the opera when Don Giovanni really seals his fate, imo. The statue comes in to punish him, but Elvira comes to save him. And he rejects her (but also, yay, women and wine - same, Giovanni).

-O Leporello mio, va tutto bene! -O Don Giovannino mio, va tutto male! //from Mozart's Don Giovanni.

Just. Mood. I love all their recitatives so much, but this one is truly iconic lol Da Ponte was a genius.

-Posso il figlio immolar al mondo, io, cristian? -Per riscattarci Iddio il suo sacrificò. (...) -La natura, l'amor, tacer potranno in me? -Tutto tacer dovrà per esaltar la fé. //Filippo II and il Grande Inquisitor from Verdi's Don Carlo

The entire duet is amazing (the entire opera!!!!! but i cant put the entire opera here). But this part - I don't think any comment is needed. This is what religion does when the authority is given to the right (wrong) people. This whole duet is just a terrifying display of all that.

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Tagging @solraneth @lessthansix @tornaloadir @carlodivarga-s @babinicz <33

Honourable Mentions(tm) under the cut, because I have lots of feelings but don't want to bother you all even more, I'm nice like that <33

Honourable mentions:

Paghiam, o femmine, d'ugual moneta questa malefica razza indiscreta. Amiam per comodo, per vanità! - Despina is a feminist icon, we stan. Girl really said 'go out, be a slut, #kill all men'. No, honestly, I love Despina.

Ogni donna cangiar di colore, ogni donna mi fa palpitar! - yeah, Cherubino just gets it <3 Women are amazing.

Gran Dio! Morir sì giovane... - this entire outburst of Violetta's from La Traviata. I could talk about Violetta for hours, because La Traviata is in no way a boring love story, I'd say it is not even really a love story at all. And I love how righteously furious she gets here and how she just shouts all this in God's face - she feels betrayed, and lied to, and deceived, she was promised a reward for this noble sacrifice and instead she gets the worst punishment possible - to die when a happy ending is just at an arm's reach. Just how cruel is that?

and we're back to Don Carlo, sorry not sorry. Literally everything Carlo and Rodrigo say to each other; from Tu soffri - già per me l'universo dispar! and Vien, presso a me il tuo cor più forte avrai! to Del mio cor sei la speranza. Questo cor che sì t'amo a te chiudere non so, in te riposi ogni fidanza. Io m'abbandono a te. / etc. like jesus, boys, get a room.

Restate. just.... Restate. I have many feeling about Restate.

Il cor ha un sol desir - la pace dell'avel. Yeah.

Ah, di me non ti scordar! - this is just. I don't know, but this one thing hits me especially hard in this heartbreaking scene. Let's talk about Rodrigo's martyr complex. Can we talk about Rodrigo's martyr complex? Please, I'm dying to talk about Rodrigo's martyr complex all day! Yeah, he sacrifices himself for Carlo but... Is it really all that selfless? Is it? *slides a physical copy of Schiller's play (opened on the last page of Posa's big scene with Elisabeth) in your direction across the table* Is it??????

The goddamn Lacrimosa.

ughhh there's so many other quotes i like but shut upppp ok it's way too long as it is, nobody cares, bye, that's it. Thanks for coming to my TED talk.

#opera tag #ask game #ok this is unnecessarily long #i just have a lot of feelings

[flappingdragon200]

Midnight Drinking With The Captains

Warning: nsfw. And mentioned Alcohol.

Paring = Nozel x Fuegoleon

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Fuegoleons POV>>>>>

I was bored out of my mind. With nothing to do. Right now Mareolona and I were talking about how to train Leopold and I was getting tiered of this. Maybe Nozel has something to do I'll visit him today after this is over.

<<<<<After The Chat>>>>>

I was finally out of that damn office of mine talking with Mareolona. My ass hurt from sitting down for too long. And it was also time to see Nozel and over come this boredom of mine.

I walk out side and the sun was shining brightly it was a nice day outside. I heard birds chirping from the sky's and from the trees. I heard the sound of a near by flowing creak. It was peaceful as well. I take a deep breath in and out smiling with joy. I take my broom and fly over to Nozel's base.

<<<<<Time Skip!!!>>>>>

As I landed I could hear some arguing from a hall it was probably just his siblings. I place my broom down and walked into the building. Then all of a sudden the argument stopped. And in was right it was his siblings. They turn to look at me and motioned me to follow them to Nozel's office.

Soon after we were in front of his office. I open up the door to see a sleeping Nozel on his chair sitting back curled up. It was quite the sight to see Nozel sleeping happily and so peaceful looking. So I took a snap of him and wake him up.

"Nozel wake up." I said shaking him but it didn't affect him. so I tried yelling. " NOZEL SILVA WAKE YOUR LAZY ASS UP. " I yelled so loud that the base could probably here me. He jumped and fell off his chair.

"The hell Fuegoleon!" He said rising up from the ground with a tint of pink on his cheeks, and I chuckled a bit. And he just glared at me. " What do you want? " he said with an irk Mark on his head.

"I'm bored do you have something in mind I could do?" I said placing my arm down on the desk and laying on it.

"Oh YaH wE cOuLd JuSt Go OuT dRiNkInG wItH tHe OtHeR cApTaInS aGaIn..!" He said mocking me.

" Great idea! We could get together and drink! Thanks Nozel. I'll be here to pick you up at midnight ok so you better be ready at the time! " I said waving bye to him.

" W-Wait I was joking!! " he said as I shut the door.

"Oh man he's gonna get so messed up haha!!" I chuckled to myself.

I then tell all the other captains to come to the bar with Nozel and I. And they agreed.

Nozels POV>>>>>

<<<<<Time Skip!!!>>>>>

I couldn't believe I was doing this so I got ready at 11:00 for a shower and put on some jeans and a blue button up shirt.

Why am I doing this again?

I thought as I got myself ready. It was 11:57 when I was done. Then I heard knocking on my door.

"Who is it?" I sighed.

" Who else do you think it is? Braid-Face? " it was Fuegoleon he was picking me up to go to the bar. "You ready now?" He said as I got Irritated.

I open up the door and he smiled and he grabbed my arm and went outside got on his broom and now we we're flying to the bar.

"I could have just rode on my eagle to get there. And why are we in such a hurry anyway?" I asked but no answer. So I just sighed and wrapped my arms around his stomach to make sure I don't fall off of the broom as we flew to the bar.

<<<<<25 Minutes Later>>>>>

We arrived at the bar and opened the door to see all the other captains there. I growled.

"You didn't say you were bringing them along too." I said as they looked at us. And Yami laughed.

" You thought you were coming here alone with him now did you? But you are were the one who said we get this get-together anyway. " Yami said stating at me.

I just sat down and excepted this.

"How about we have a challenge. A drinking challenge?" Fuegoleon said.

"No not a chan-" I started but was cut off by the other captains.

"Yeah you and Nozel go first." Dorothy said with her casual peace sign up.

" yeah good idea. The one who can drink the most bottles without getting drunk wins or if the bottles run out it's a tie. " Yami said smirking.

I agreed. I didn't want to be beaten by my rival once again at this kind of stuff. But what I agreed to was a BIG mistake.

About 50 bottles of wine was placed on the table. Fuegoleon opened one and handed it to me.

"Wait I'm not drinking out of a bottle." I said disgusted by the thought.

"Is that a retreat I smell?" Fuegoleon said leaning closer to me.

"No! Let's just get this over with." I growled, blushing on how close he was as my heart skipped a beat.

"3...2...1...Go!" William started as we chuged the first bottle down and placed it on the table at the same time. I glared at him as he smiled.

" So you can handle a bottle. " He said laughing.

"You act like a cant." I glared daggers at him but he just smiled like he didn't care at all witch made my heart skip a beat again. Why? I have no clue.

We were then on the tenth bottle and I started to get a bit tipsy as I kept thinking to why have I agreed to this damn challenge.

"Geting a bit tipsy there huh Nozel?" Fuegoleon said smirking at me.

" N-no. Why would you s-say that? " I stared at him and then continued.

I was now in my 14th bottle and that's when things started to go bad. My vision was messed up and I couldn't think straight at all. And I was getting tiered from this damn challenge that I agreed to.

"No more. I can't." I said as I  looked over to Fuegoleon who looked un fazed by the Alcohol witch Infuriated me to the top of the bar. (No Pun Intended)

"Why not Nozel..? You drunk already?" He chuckled .

"I can't really *Hic* See straight any- *Hic* more. And I'm tiered from this Shit." I said as I looked at him with dizzy eyes and I blushed because of his smiling face.

"Well that Concludes it you are drunk! Time to go home. Oh and by the way. I win." He said picking me up Bridal style.

"Put me down you cheeky *Hic* Bastard!" I shouted but he just smiled that made my heart go afluter.

As we left I could hear laughter from the bar, most likely Yami. But I didn't care. All i cared about was being in the warm embrace of Fuegoleon.

So warm...

<<<<<Time Skip!!!!>>>>> (Thanks Julius!! Julius: your welcome!)

I arrived at the Manor and then into my room.

"Go away I'll go to bed myself I don't need your help. Rival." I said ordering him to put me down.

Fuegoleon sighed. "As you wish." He said as he placed me down and after a few seconds I started to sway on my feet, but as I got a steady hold I lost balance and fell to the floor.

"As I thought. you can't even walk. How pathetic that is. " He said picking me up and he touched my private by accident while doing witch gave me a huge bulge. Thank God he didn't notice...

He carried me to the bed to lay me down and I cling on to him afraid that I was gonna fall and my private area bumped into his side and I blushed because of it. But he laid me down and I told him to get closer so I could tell him something but when he did I couldn't hold it any longer and I kissed him on the lips. Rather hard.

<<<<<Fuegoleons POV>>>>>

I parted away as a few seconds went by.

"What was that for..?" I asked.

"I'm sorry I just couldn't help myself! Your too hot...~" He said looking away as I came closer. All this time I had this feeling up inside me that I was trying to push back came out and I kissed him. After hearing those words I know what I was getting into. A long night of no sleep what so ever.

I blushed as I kissed him long and Passionately and soon breaking the kiss as in need for air.

"Fuegoleon..." He said panting

" Yes? what is it? " I asked.

"I c-can't take it anymore. I need you. I'm getting really hard too. Please I need you to calm it." He said as I looked down to look at his pants. I take my hand and I slightly run it against his member getting a cute moan out of it.

He's so adorable!

" You mean this? " I said smirking.

"Yes. And p-please don't t-tease me. It hurts." He said about to grab my hand to pull it away but I Squeezed it and he moaned loudly.

"F-Fuegoleon p-lease. Fuck me! It kinda hurts.!" He said panting. Him begging for me to fuck him was Surprising. But I would tease him a bit before I do. Just for the entertainment.

I kiss him again taking my hand a getting into his shirt to get another cute soft moan during the kiss witch he opened his mouth enough so I could stick my Tongue in his mouth. I Explored every inch of his mouth tasting the Alcohol from before.

I pull away from his mouth to go down to his neck. As I was kissing and biting his neck I start to unbutton his blue shirt. And once I did I Start to play with his nipples making him moan louder than he was before.

"Ah~! Fuegoleon ~! M-More~~!" he said grabbing the bed sheets.

I moved my mouth from his neck to his right nipple and start nibbling it as I continue to play with the other nipple with my fingers. I could feel his hardened member as I did so. I switched from his right nipple to his left one while playing with his right one.

His moans fueled me and I could feel myself getting harder with each moan that Escaped from his mouth. I soon take off my shirt and let him take his hands and run them along my abs. I smiled when he blushed even more at the sight. And when I look down at his stomach he had and had some of his own.

I had never known that I was gay until after seeing his blushing and embarrassed face and his cute and Adorable moans. But I soon start to Un-buckle his pants into witch he stopped running his hands over my abs.

Soon his pants were gone and I started to take mine off showing my Erection in doing so. Nozel looked away and blushed even more to my surprise.

"Looking away now are we" I said as I grabbed his chin to look down at my hardened member what was now erected. He closed his eyes until he felt me taking off his boxers and then mine. His member was also erected as well. I then blushed at the size of his member.

"You never said how big it was now did you. You Arrogant rival of mine." I said cupping his cheek.

" W-well you never asked... " he said as I grabbed his hands and used my magic to cuff him to the bed. He tried to get out of them but they were Reinforced to witch he can't get out of the grasp of the hand cuffs.

"You can't and won't get out of Those anytime soon until I say so. " I grinned.

"P-please just do it" He said as I propped his legs into the right position but instead of going right in I stuck two fingers in his hole to tease him a bit, and it did work a little.

He moaned each time I would pump my fingers in. I soon added 3 then 4 almost an Entire hand in there. His moans were almost like screaming. And I knew he was ready. So I took my fingers out and positioned him and asked him,

"You ready Nozel?" I asked.

" Y-yes! Do it already! " he said as I lined my dick up with his hole and thrusted it in. He moaned of the Pleasure and it was rare to see him in these kind of states and oh boy did I ever love it.

I thrust ever so slowly making him Impatient, as I could see it in his facial expressions, but he still was moaning Quite a bit. But as each thrust I got faster and I was near my climax at the time.

"Ah~! Fuegoleon Ah~! H-harder! Ah~! Please F-Fuegoleon!~ Ah~~!" He moaned as I went faster and slammed into him with such power the the bed hit the wall and the handcuffs broke. But he didn't notice. (When you don't notice the hand cuffs broke bc you were to into the moment that's when you know your having good sex)

I moaned pretty loudly myself as i hit my climax and filled him up with my seed as I pant for air.

"Feel better now Nozel?" I said and he shook his head .

"It may have helped you with your problem but mine just got... h-harder." He said panting then I looked down to see his member still as hard as a rock. I didn't know what to do. I had to do Something while he was still in the heat of the moment.

I then travel down to were his hardened member is and start giving it a hand job while Kissing the tip of it. He grunted for Quite some time. And soon enough I started to suck his dick and used my hand for the other part I couldn't fit in.

<<<<<Nozels POV>>>>>

When he started to suck I couldn't believe how good it felt. I take my hands and grab his hair to help him pull up as he sucked. I moaned as I could feel myself hitting my climax.

"You can't right now we just started." He said with a frown on his face. But what he was going to do next I didn't Expected at all.

He stopped sucking and he took his other free hand and he pinched the top of my member but not that hard where it would hurt. I was confused at first. He still continued to give me a hand job but faster, and sometimes he would Squeeze it. I was ready to cum after a few minutes passed by.

"F-Fuegoleon I-im gonna cum!" I said as I threw my head back and what I Assumed I did cum but I didnt. That was the reason why he pinched the tip.

"You can't until I say so. so don't be afraid to hold back." He said witch I had no idea what he was talking about. He Squeezed it again but this time harder I moaned loudly because of his action. He got even faster to witch I came again but it filled up inside me again.

This was happening for some time and I was leaking and Fuegoleon pinched it harder. I whined because of the pain that he did so cause. But he still continued.

"P-please Fuegoleon let m-me cum! I can't take it anymore! Please! " I begged him but he didn't listen.

"Not until I say so." He said as he Squeezed it even harder than the other times and I came again inside.

After I came a few more times tears came down from my eyes as he Squeezed it a final time.

"Alight here's your reward for letting me do this." He said as he got closer to my dick and unpinched it and I came in his mouth getting a mouth full. It took about 1 0 seconds for him to finish it all.

"You taste kinda good." He chuckled as he wiped his mouth. I then close my legs and he looked confused. " why did you close your legs? " he said crawling up to my eye level.

"So you don't do anything like that again." I said as I kissed him and let him Explore my mouth once again. I tasted the cum in his mouth and I Gagged at the taste of it. But I cuddle up with him and nuzzled myself against his chest. He took his arms and sealed them around me and then slapped my butt cheek.

"Ow! what was that for?" I said as I dug my nails into his skin.

" That was for mocking me the other day. Let's just say it was punishment. " he chuckled as I got an erection and he felt it.

"So you want more? Your area says you do. " I then gasp as he sat up and placed me on his lap handcuffing my hands to my back. And I felt him inside me wiggling.

"You have a thing for BDSM don't you Fuegoleon?" I sighed as he sweet dropped.

" How did you know?! " he said and stopped what he was doing.

"Just a feeling." I smiled and he blushed. "Just get it done already you sex obsessed rival of mine." I said and kissed him.

" As you wish... But you have to bounce though. " he smiled.

I bounce on top of him and I was pretty sure Solid and Nebra could hear my moans across the hall. But I didn't care ❤. Because I love him.

Author: and then Nozel and Fuegoleon had a restless night and spent all morning sleeping. And Solid and Nebra were Terrified of the noises of the night. (Poor Nebra and Solid...) And they went to the store to get ear plugs for the next night.

END

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[freshstartbaby]

Un

🎧 Body - Syd

I watched my house, cardbord on the ground, like me, leg crossed. White walls, a little smell of vinegar. Thats what I used to finally clean up everything.

Why do I feel like shit ? I mean one part of me cant wait to be in my new place. But the other ? I really feel like I kind of failed here. I got a job, two to be exact, I can provide for myself. I got few friends and thats it. I was wondering if my mum will ever know if I left the town. Maaaan I got to stop overthinking.

It was 8pm and I was waiting for Theo's call. Thanks to god he told me he will help me wih the moving. His help was so precious. Like always. My phone rang with « Theo 🤍 » on my screen . I picked up

« Sup mister T » I said softly « Hi Rob, you good ? » he answered « I am actually, and you ? » « Good. So you really goin to leave me, you know you can still change your mind » « No way, but you know you will still be in my mind » « And in your heart. Who do you think you are ? » he started to joke « Man where are you ? » I said rolling my eyes with a smile on face « There is a litlle bit of traffic. I be there in 10 minutes. But I think the man who will help us is already there. I fowarded him your number. Did he call ? »

I checked my phone, no missed call

« Nah he didn't » « Ok, get ready I be there soon » « Thank tou Theo » « Everything for you » he hang up

I shook my head slowley left to right. He was so kind to me. He can't be real. Me and Theo knew ourself since 8 years now. He was there to help and provide when no one could. He always was very protective and he is actually the one who gave me my first job: dancer in a club. It wasn't my goal job but I could dance and it will help me paying my bills. Few years later he also refered me in company to work as a personnal assistant. I managed myself to then become a communication assistant. When you look clother, without him, I probably will end up as a cracked or worse.

When we met I was 16 and he was 22. It was a very protective relationship. But the older we get, the akward it became. I mean physically he turned to a man as i turned to a young women. And even if he always shows me mad respect, the way he was watching and talking to me changed. Not in a bad way, but I could feel there was more. I aint gon lie, he is good looking, got money and got pure heart. But i couldnt wiling to lost him if we turned into a relationship. He was one of few people around me. Aint ready to loose one of them.

When I told him that I decided to move in LA, maaaan, he wasn't down for it. But as always, he helped me. He got fews relations so we find a cute flat quickly than I thought. The place was smooth and warm. We flew to LA to visit it, and i actually loved it. So now here I am waiting for a friend of his to move my stuff to LA. Let me get it straight. I aint no baby. I can take care of myself. But when it comes to Theo, he always wants to help. And I aint gonna lie, it feel good to be take care of.

The ring belled, I stood up to open the door. He looked at me, I looked at him.

« Can I help you ? » rising an eyebrow acting like I didn't know him « Stop playing » he said moving in my place « Hi » I said to the man following Theo « Robyn this is Eric, Eric this The New York leaver »

I rolled my eyes and shook my head slowly. Eric and Theo helped me to put my stuff in the truck. It was quickly made thanks to them. Also even if I hadnt much things I droped a lot. Eric told me that they will arrive the next monday in my new place. I thanked him as he left when I felt someone behind me. I turned around found Theo on his phone.

« First of all you didn't say hi »

I pulled him softly in a hug. His hands wrapped my shoulder as he kissed my cheek softly

« Then tell me where do I drop you ? » he said « Alex's place » « Lets go »

He put my suitcase in his trunck and we headed to Alexendra's place. I sold my car few weeks before so he proposed me to drop me where I needed yesterday.

Alexandra is one of my best friend. She's like a sister to be honest. We know each other for like forever and she always be down for me. Im stayin at her place tonight so I can catch my flight tommorow.

The road was silent but confortable. Theo and I like to be quiet sometines. We're the type of people who arent afraid of silence. As we arrived to Alexendra's place we stayed a little in the car.

« You need help with the suit case ? » « Na Im good, but thank you. Thank you for everything. It means a lot» I look at him « Stop saying this like its a goodbye » « Im not » « You better »

We pulled into a thight hug «You know I'm always be around and if you need to come back my door is open» « I hope it will be fine dont say that »

He look at me kiss my cheek and said

« Take care » « You too Theo »

I got off the car, took my suitcase and watched him leave. As we disapear on the corner I called Alex.

« Yes baby » « Im here, remind me your code » « You still dont remember it, you do it on purpose » « Guuuurl what is it ?» « 7110 » « Thank youuuuuu »

I taped the code and got to her place

« Sup baby » « Wassup baby, how you doin ?» « Good and you ? » « Everything is alright, I mean my best friend is leaving in an another town but Im good » « Guuuurl, it is for the better » « I know that, Im just getting emotional » « Dont do that » « Im trying, I swear ! How did you came ? You took a uber ? » « Nah, Theo droped me »

She set down on her large cozy couch eying me with a small smile

« What ? » I asked « Noooothing ! » she tapped the place next to her so I can take place « You just goin to sit down and tell me what's popin between you and this white daddy, finally» she said swith a smirk « Nothing is popin, I already told you that » i said sitting next to her « But you got to admit he is good lookin » « I never said he isnt » « Maybe a little bit skinny but he is still handsome » « He is. » « So he never try to own that » she said pointing at myself « And dont try to tell me no, I saw him plenty time trying to get you. » « Alex, it is not goin to hape- « «  Whyyyyyyyy » « Because I dont want to » I said laughin « GURL IS YOU GAY ?» « Oh my god. Alexendra. » «  No because if you are it is ok. But you need to tell me, so I can introduce him to friend of mine. Its such a waste » « Whatever » I said looking at her smiling

This girl is so crazy. Full of good vibe. Always pushing me to my best. She is fam yall. Our phones started buzzing at the same time. It was a whatsap phone call from our conversation « Mexico 🥵 ».

With some friends we decided to go on a trip to Mexico. For the big part, I knew them from school or club. As we grew older all of us took different ways but still got mad love for eachother. This week trip was the way to link up. I didnt knew some people like David, Florian and Veronica but everything went well during the organisation so I wasnt « afraid » that they were annoying.

The trip is next Monday so we schedule this video chat to make a last check. With all the stuff with my moving I almost forget about this call. Alex and I were together so I decided not to answer from my phone and step clother to her so we can both be on her screen

« Hi » « Wassup beauties » Alexander says

We all said hi to each other and waited to see if someone was missing.

« Who is missing » I asked « Flo is not here » Betty said « Damn this sleeping guy, let me text him » Alexander answered

As he decided to text him, a new window poped in our screen revealing a big white man shirtless, it seems like he was in his bed.

« My bad, sorry for my lateness, wassup guys » he said in a low voice

I looked at the screen, then at Alex, then the screen again and falled into the catch moving my hand to show to Alex that this man was foooine

We giggle few seconds before getting back to our serious faces.

« Florian that is it ? » Alex asked « Yup » « Time is money you owe us all a drink when we get to the mexico » « Maaaan dont play me like that, I was taking a nap, gym killed me today» he said

Of course he was goin to the gym, look at this chest. I tried to fix my self when we all talked for like an hour about last informations, who will arrive when, who shares room, what type of activites we wanted to do. I cant wait for this trip to be honest. I dont travel that much. I could release the stress from my moving, my new job and the new town I will be living in.

« Rob you still in New York ?» Michael asked « Yeees, my fligt is tomorrow » « Where you goin ? » Betty asked « Moving to LA » I said softly « LA GANG MY MAN ! » Florian shouted « Thats great, really big move » Alexander said « Finger crossed » Veronica « Dont worry, as wherever it will be ok if you work hard enough » Florian said « Oh dont worry she is a hard worker » Alex said miming a blow job

I snaped her head as everyone shared an hard laugh. Few minutes later we hang up. I went to the bathroom, washed myself, my tooth and changed myself in something more confortable. I went back to the living room and find Alexandra on the phone. By the way she was smiling and laughing I could tell it was Alexander. Yeah. This gurl find a boyfriend with the same name. That's kind of cute but it's also so corny. She hanged up, stood uo and went to the kitchen

« Sooooo » « What do you want again ? » i said a smirk in my face « I was wondering » she looked at me with a vicious smile « What is it Alex ? » « Are you down for some dick in Mexico » « You are something else you know that » « Im just asking ! There will be latino guys, foreigner and gurl this man Florian, he is free like the wind » «How do you know that ? » « I asked Alexander » « Mmmmh » « Mmmmh ? Gurl when is the lastime you had a man making you feel right ? I aint talking about relationship because that is another level and I know you trying to put yourself first since...» « Yea no. I'm not ready but let me think » « The fact that you have to think is not ok, you know that if the sexual frustration is not evacueted it can damaged you » « I got toys dont worry » I said putting my finger in a peace sign while im leaving the kitchen

I went to her guest bedroom, sitted on the bed and put my durag on. After sliding under the sheets I did my breath exercise so I could fall asleep faster but I couldn't. It was these exercises or sleeping pills. But I try to use them less and less since few month. They knocked me hard to hard man. After 30 minutes of try, I took my phone and opened Instagram. I scrolled my screen without being focused at all, laugh at fews memes and double tap some post. I tought about what Alex told me. It's true. It been a while since I havent give a man his chance. It didn't went well the last time. Ok here we go overthinking. I shook my hand thinking of how dumb I was when I tought about Florian. He was fine its true but you know men are trash. At least men I have a crush on 😭. I tapped « florian » in the research bar to see if I could find him. I didn't. Im defenatly not a FBI member. I will ask to Alex tomorrow, or not, it's not a good idea.

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I was hugging Alexandra thighly at the airport. The voice called the passagers of my flight to get ready.

« I'm goin to miss you crazy ass » I whispered « I'm goin to miss you more Robyn, but stop being weak before I start crying » « Come on aint nobody goin to cry » I push her shoulder « we're tough girls remember ? » « Yea but I wrote you a letter » she gave me a letter as I look at her ready to make fun of her « You wrote me a letter, you must be in love with me » « Of course I am, yo you're my friend soulmate » « Ok you gon make me cry now » « Go get your flight »

I tried to open the letter when she took my hand

« The fuck is you doin, you have to read it in your flight, or when you arrive to your new place but not now » « Okaaaaaaay mrs emotional »

I kissed her cheek and grabed my suit case before leaving

« See you in Tulum baby ! »

I put a peace sign above my head a went take my flight.

As I settled in my seat, I leaned my head back to the couch. Here we go baby. You can do this. You got this. It's goin to be fine. I was motivated myself when my phone buzzed. I watched my phone screen and see that Theo sent me a vocal. I put my AirPods on tap on my screen to listen his whatsap vocal message.

James. Theo James. : « You're in the plane ? »

I send him a quick answer

Robyn ✨: Yup 🛫

James. Theo James. : Ok

I watched the screen as I saw « James. Theo James is writing » when a big as message droped. Oh my god. He is goin to make me cry. Or worse. I rubbed my forehead before start reading.

James. Theo James. :

« Robyn. My baby. I know your flight is getting ready to take off. So I'm writing this to you so you can be ready for this new page.

Im goin to tell you this, and ear me out when I say: You got this.

You're smart, kind, open minded,fierce, talented, reliable, honest and a fighter. I know life ain't did good to you lately, and it's destroying me to see you leave but baby it's a fresh start. Leave all the madness, the pain and the self doubt where you at because LA is goin to be fire baby. No more drama, no more pathetic boyfriend, no more struggling. Put yourself above everything, because you deserve it. Keep your mental healthy. Communicate more, talk free and never be afraid to make people to ear your voice.

As I always say to you, even if the blood don't link us, you mean the world to me. Whenever you need anything blow my phone. I will always have an eye on you even if I know you are and you are becoming a boss a bitch woman every single day.

I know you are goin to kill it.

Text me when you arrive to your new home

I will come visit you in few months

Theo 🤍 »

I closed my eyes, bitted my lips and hold my phone on my chest. Don't cry, don't cr- too late. Tears were all over my face as I try to mute myself. Even I tried to hide it, I was feeling shitty. And those words just gave me the feeling of being discovered. I don't know how it was possible. Even if Theo and I were closed I have difficulties to talk out when I'm not feeling myself. And with this message I knew that all this time he knew how I felt but give me my space.

LA be good to me please.

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🎧 1 pound - Brymo

The sunlight woke me this morning. I really need to buy curtains. I mean in the rest of the place it's not that important, but wake this way is so uncomfortable. I like the darkness in my bedroom you know ? And all this light, god chill out 🤣

I stood up and head ou to the bathroom and then to the kitchen. I watched the board where I wrote my to do list yesterday night. Yeaaaa i'm trying to be more disciplined woman. I mean organized but sometimes I get too lazy. Like if I invented the word lazy myself.

End the bathroom Shopping at the supermarket Look for a car End the suitcase Work out (you can do this)

I laugh at myself knowing that I will probably not doing the last one. I washed my dishes and turn on the speaker to get in a better mood. I clean a little some stuff since there was still some cardboard here and there. I find myself dancing in front the big mirror in one of the corridor when my phone rang. I didn't know the number so I turned of the music and clear my throat.

« Robyn Matthew, how can I help you » « Hi Robyn this is William. I am with Olivia, you're on speaker. How are you ? » « Hello Robyn »

Ow my new bosses.

« Oh hello to both of you, I'm great thank you to ask. How about you two ? » « We're good ourself thank you. Have you settled yet ? » « Mmh there is still few unopened cardboards but I'm good » « Good to ear that » « You will love LA » Olivia said « I hope so, how can I help you ? » « Well Robyn we were wondering, sorry to ask again but weren't you supposed to start today ?»

My eyes grew wide as my eyebrow start dancing. I wasn't supposed to start today hell no

« I don't think so, I mean I asked to the RH department to postponed my arrival since I have a trip planned » « Oh my baaaaaaaaaad » Olivia shooted « What is it » he asked to Olivia I think « I totally forgot to tell you, Cindy told me few weeks ago but it disappeared from my mind »

My heart stoped racing fast when I told them

« You scared me ! » « I'm so sorry Robyn, William I'm sorry too » « Oh it's ok, you owe us a coffe when she arrives » « Deal » she said laughing « You better note that, or you will forget it too » « Very funny » « Anyway sorry to have bothered you Robyn » William said « It's fine » « Where are you going ? » Olivia asked « Sorry ? » « You said you are goin on a trip, where is it ? »

I twisted my face. How is that suppposed to concern them ? Robyn stay open, be nice, they're just trying to be nice.

« Tulum » « Oh Mexico, well lucky you » « Oh my god, I wish I could have holidays to a place like this » « Anyway Robyn, enjoy you're trip and come back to us resourced. You can't wait to work with you » « Thank you, see you soon » « Bye »

I hang up, a weird feeling in my guts. I mean they were nice. But I'm not really use to have this kind of conversation with my bosses. I tought that they were a good duo both of them. I find myself a little anxious about having two bosses but it's goin to be fine.

Im goin to tell you this, and ear me out when I say: You got this.

I got this. I wanted to turn back on the music. So I scrolled my screen when I saw an Instagram notification.

@bignasty wants to follow you

My face twisted again. Big nasty ? What the hell is that. I'm sure this is a porn count, or a pervet who will try to slide in my Dm. So many weird people on social medias. Thanks god the private button exists so I can control borders 😂 I clicked on it when I saw his face.

Wow.

I took few step back to my couch as my hand was on my chest. Jesus Christ. I found myself put my hand on my mouth so I don't scream and laugh akwardly. God. It was Florian. I mean I think. No no no it was him. How can you forget a face like this. I hold my breath as scrolled down his feed. This man was... l have no word. I rubbed my eyes trying to get back to earth, with a big dumb smile on my face when my phone rang

Xandra 💍 is calling

I picked up and put her on the speaker. I said hi to her in a low voice, I was feeling like I'm out of breath

« GUUUUUUUURL » she screamed « Wassup » « Did Florian asked you on Ig ? » « He did. » « GIRRRL DID YOU SAW THESE PICTURES ?!!!! » « Alexandra, i was checking him when you called » « GURRRRRRL IF YOU DONT EAT HIM ON THIS TRIP I'M KILLING YOU »

I start rubbing my eye again. He was something else. God. Why do I feel this. Then I found myself playing with my finger, where my engagement ring used to be.

It gave me a quick reminder.

« Ok he is super hot, but don't count on me for that » « You're such a child when you act like that. You know what, I'm sure you pantie is already soaking looking at his pic, so just wait. When he is goin in front of you there will be no « don't count on me for that » » « shut up » « Have you end your suite case ? » « Not yet, I think it will be handle this evening» « Ok look listen to me wisely. I don't know what you choose but switch it all up with sexiest stuff » « I'm tired of you »

We stayed on the phone for like an hour. You know how it is when besties are on the phone. All the day she kept teasing me with Florian but I didn't give attention. But I wanted to make her laugh a little so I teased her with a screen and a meme

She hit me back with a message 

« gurl this is too much, you really goin to miss this chance »

What chance ? He just followed me on Instagram. I didn't even accept him yet. He must have a girlfriend, or be a fuck boy. Maybe is he gay. Ok Robyn overthinking AGAIN. It's goin to be cute holidays. I don't want to mess this up.

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