#I SUCK AT ENDINGS SEND HELP

[sanjiswetcigarettes0]

Acelaw people! I’m here to offer you my first and not so great acelaw Headcanon writing! Please accept my poor attempt on this 🙏🏻

To Be So Lonely

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If we think of acelaw where everything is real between them,

Law Trafalgar was a tough, quiet man and was someone who tried not to be involved in other things, trying to keep himself on the road he barely managed to put in a order his whole life, all he did is do his work as a surgeon and rescue other people’s life in the hospital. (Do not question his survival guilt.) The sea he had in his mind was always wild, and all he needed to do was to stay quiet until it quiet down too.

He kept himself alive with his coffees and his little crew most of the time, with his friends who sometimes came to his house to bringing some self made food and putting him to his untouched bed after their jobs end. He liked his life like this, and he knew the way his life wasn’t as healthy as his job expected him to be, but be assured, he liked it this way.

Trafalgar Law, who was “too busy for other people or any relationship”, (he kept saying that ) always would come home alone with his regular take-outs and coffee to greet his cats with a warm smile , would kneel to pet their heads and get his daily energy boost at 8:20 p.m from their purrs and meows. It has been like this since he graduated to become a surgeon as he promised himself as a kid, didn’t allowed people in his life, ( he hadn’t any clue how the crew became family to him in that time where he just met those people in uni and had some drink with them at his house, ) and why would it be different? He was fine with his awfully quiet life and night shifts.

But now, in the other hand, he was feeling quiet irritated with the fact that his cats were purring (for real now?) and wandering around a man’s feet he never met before; right now: on a Saturday morning where had a day off and could grind his coffee own and wake up late, he opened his front house door to find a man who was standing on the next front door and had boxes up to his freckled curvy nose, (he couldn’t see the obviously younger man’s whole face) chatting with a younger blonde man with long hair as his was.

Law could feel a frown take place on his serious face, (it’s his normal morning face, okay? ), he held his coffee mug tightly and tried to call his cats whispering over to the man’s feet trough the noisy chatting at 8:40 am quietly to avoid making any more noise this early, “ Beppo!” , “ Asami!” but causing to cough those two’s attention to him, make them turn to him with interest and to hear a “I’m inside if you need me, you go meet with your neighbour, and apologise for your noisiness!” from a calmer, British accented voice before the different looking kind man went inside and left the two of them alone on the hall of the apartment with a quiet, but calming awkwardness.

Law blinked restlessly, but had a break to look down to his cats rubbing on his fluffy slippers returning to their warm home meowing. He put his coffee cup to the ground , and then glanced at the man putting his boxes to stand normally, and finally, saw the man’s face who had the whole damn sun’s brightness on his freckled, smiley, pretty face.

His frown disappeared, weird, he thought , and to be completely honest, he was ready to curse for the noise he had to witness at this early hour of his off day- but for fuck’s sake, the man hadn’t plan to meet the best thing that ever happened to him, on that day. Nope, surely not this early in the morning.

The man who stole his cats had long wavy raven coloured hair, a crooked but heartwarming smile, something pretty and energetic Law didn’t expect to see this early. His freckled face was so openly, inviting the sun itself to shine more. He had broad shoulders looking pretty on a dark blue shirt, fewer tattoos visible under his folded arms on his pale skin and a charming smile that Law had to fight not to deceived.

Was to be so lonely finally enough?

“Oh hey! I’m Portgas Ace and am yer new front neighbour! m’ sorry for disturbing you, nice to meet ya!”

Said Ace, his long buff arms waving him and continuing to talking with his energetic voice like he really wasn’t freezing on this early spring morning,

“were they yer cats? I’m sorry they ran out to wander ‘round me, I guess they liked me!”

and before Law could part his nervously together pressed lips to talk and only stop to realise he was starting to communicate with this gorgeous (who even said that?) man standing before him, he wet his lips to say no and leave to be alone forever, again, but heard something unusual for the first-meeting from the man that changed everything for good.

Fuck.

In fact, he was socially awkward and couldn’t say no to save his own damn life, especially to someone like this weirdly good looking man who looked like he ate the fucking sun.

“Would ya like to have a breakfast with us?”

It was clearly a invite, huh?

And if you would ask him, Law definitely didn’t want to have the younger man to be a part of his lonely life, him bringing Law life and the energy to come home earlier, to see him every morning on his kitchen preparing him some healthy breakfast at 4:50 am, nor wanted to admit that he really went for kissing the young man’s warm smiley lips endlessly every time he would call him “ love”.

Everything had changed, he knew it, after he met Ace on the floor of his new house and had the most tastiest breakfast of his life prepared by Ace’s second little brother Sabo, and was welcomed like he was family while he was a stranger before 10 minutes, 3 years ago.

And as he noticed that he liked being around Ace those times, and getting pulled out of his house on his free days by him only to return to his house with warm and fuzzy feelings he never had , saying “maybe it isn’t too bad to have company” , it was now too late to return back to his cold quite days where he wasn’t all over a man whose the sun itself radiating warmth from his pure skin, giggling while his freckles were kissed. Where he didn’t have someone to make him laugh every day/ or even on a normal day.

He loved Ace, liked hearing him calling himself “the second dad” of the cats and one big dog they had together, and the warm (really warm!) nights & mornings they shared in the apartment that was now theirs. Petting Ace’s soft hair every time he fell asleep on Law while he was reading something about organs or narcolepsy was always something that made the two of them calmer, and feeling the other’s body heath getting even warmer with every kiss he got down his freckled belly underLaw’s big hands wasn’t something new.

“Ya got me heatin’ like a sunny day, darling, oh please don’t stop.”

It was like a dream, wanting was enough, sitting on their old British armchair, holding the man he loved the most in his arms tightly keeping him from jumping out while shouting “ yer gonna see when I kick yer ass when I see ya Roronoa!” to the tall younger man with moss coloured hair holding Luff’s hand, smirking while stealing the younger brother of Ace from the “ the together night” where everyone they loved were together. He was laughing intensely, pulling Ace from his waist to make him sit back on his thighs, then stroking the raven hair he loved most, saying “ leave the youngsters alone, they’re still figuring everything out, ” while giggling. It was like Law had two big energetic dogs, but one of them was definitely a handsome young man he wanted to marry, he must’ve admit that. Everyone were together, and being lonely wasn’t even the thing anymore. Surely, he still got headaches over the sunshine man talking nonstop to his ear, but never felt overwhelmed or never wanted to be alone, ever.

When Ace joined to his lonely, busy life and never left his side although Law himself couldn’t get used to being loved for so long, but he never gave up and fought for their feelings. He knew he loved this man with his whole life. Being lonely wasn’t a option anymore, he knew how spring brought him the biggest treasure to him, because could feel the love inside him when he couldn’t even let go of this man’s body to get up from their bed, murmuring quietly, “ I’ll be back at midnight.” while kissing his freckled face.

Trafalgar Law was now in love; a happy man who would stop by a coffee shop to bring home some pumpkin spice latte every autumn just to see his fiancé’s happy face because it was worth it. Say, could it even be better?

#I FINALLY FINISHED IT #I had finished writing this one month ago vyt couldn’t finish due to stress damn #this is my first headcanon thing? yall please be gentle with it😭 #i want to write more of these but I can’t even take a rest on my damn own bed so please forgive me #i love imaging of them so much it’s sickening #acelaw #law x ace #ace x law #they’re so silly #the song is called to be so lonely by harry styles btw #one piece #I loved making this i hope you enjoy it as well <3 #acelaw has my heart #zolu #roronoa zoro #monkey d. luffy #AHHGGHRHR #I SUCK AT ENDINGS SEND HELP #ngl I kinda wrote this with the song called august by tw #i love projecting over ace cuz can I relate to him sm

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

i've convinced myself that Sunny is a serial gossiper, except the only other dragon that knows is Clay bc they're best buddies <3

#also click for better quality tumblr sucks and i draw small #hc that when they lived in the caves she'd just be constantly gossiping to clay #he wouldn't gather his own gossip but he'd keep up with her ramblings #sunny keeps it up at the academy and they have end-of-day gossip sessions #except this time he's started actively participating because he has his own tea now #im having feelings about these two as you can see #but im pretty sure sunny was consistently using clay as her personal jungle gym #so i think it'd be super cute if she's always just on him. they're the most tactile of the sibs i think #so for gossiping she'd just drape herself over his neck so that she can whisper and be understood #OH NO IM HAVING THOUGHTS ABOUT THE DRAGONETS' CAVE DAYS AND THE CHARACTER DYNAMICS/SHENANIGANS #my art #dragons #wof #dragonets of destiny #wings of fire #scribble salad #also i think their dynamic is like pike & grog's if youve watched vox machina #im slowly falling back into the wof pit send help and a rope please #mostly bc im fuckin around with dragon designs #like i based sunny a little off of a hognose snake + gave her speckling bc of thorn and qibli #and then with clay i want to go crocodile/bison??? except his horns turn down obviously #they stick out a little too #i want mudwings to have more goat/ram geared horn shapes #i havent read the books in years so forgive me

[hollersparrow]

just some 9-1-1 headcanons/plot bunnies

so i've kinda gone on a 9-1-1 deep dive that started out casual and rapidly turned into an obsession. a few things to note, i definitely think that buck and eddie have something (whether it's romantic or queerplatonic is up for grabs but there's something beyond friendship there and no one can convince me otherwise) and i am a strong subscriber to any tropes that strongly encourage found family/families so...make of that what you will

anyway, after binging all of the available episodes, i have several headcanons that i want to put out there (for some reason a lot of them are from season 5???)

ana realizing that there's more to eddie and buck's relationship than it seems in that scene from s5e2 when she brings christopher to the station. buck clocks that eddie has started panicking immediately and ana just like. *looks* at him for a few seconds in a way that just makes me think that this woman clocked that they have a deeper than normal connection to one another. that or she's heard about buck but obviously has never seen eddie and buck interact and is suddenly realizing exactly what people keep trying to tell her about

a buck/eddie-focused exploration of the aftermath of 'brawl in cell block 9-1-1'. buck freaking out once mitchell's been carted off to get his heart taken out and refusing to let eddie go anywhere while checking him for injuries, eddie having some uncomfortable realizations about just how affected buck was by the whole experience. personally, i feel that would lead to them actually talking about the sniper and all the mess that goes with it

lots of potential for temporary angst with eddie having a lot of big feelings about having failed as a husband in his marriage to shannon and not wanting to get married again b/c of it (thinks he doesn't deserve another shot at it? thinks there's something fundamentally wrong with him to where he can't? don't know how this would manifest exactly). personally, i see this eventually leading to him and buck realizing that they're more or less functionally married and they may as well reap some tax benefits from it but you can do whatever you want with that

buck goes to the funerals of many of the people who die on calls that he's a part of. it's mostly people that he directly worked on and he doesn't tend to tell anyone that he's a first responder that was involved (b/c of how devon's sister reacted in s1) but he does go to them.

kinda of tied to the headcanon above this but! buck getting adopted by a bunch of older queer folk following the deaths of mitchell and thomas in s2. he goes to the joint funeral that was planned for the two of them, in part b/c he wants/needs to and in part bc he accidentally took a few photos from the scrapbook from the scene (he shoved them in his pocket on instinct when thomas collapses). anyway, he shows up and the older queer community has rallied to show up at the funeral and they recognize him as someone who needs more found family and just adopt him into their ranks. i could see the 118 finding out about this soon after it happens or not until years later; maybe karen and hen finding out sooner than everyone else but buck asks them to keep it quiet?

s5e14 where jee-yun gets sick? what if it actually WAS leukemia and she somehow ends up needing some sort of donation (plasma? bone marrow? idk really anything about how cancer is treated). jee's put on a list and they start testing family members, none of whom work out until...buck. cue maddie not wanting to ask that of buck b/c of all the baggage that comes with daniel and the buckley parents are absolute assholes about it (along the lines of completely disregarding buck's autonomy as a human being in the face of their precious granddaughter being in trouble), maybe a chimney that isn't trying to be pushy about it but also just...can't help pushing a bit, a buck that so overwhelmed with everything that he's feeling that he goes off the rails a bit. obviously everything works out and buck donates or whatever needs to happen and jee-yun is completely fine b/c i don't actually want it to end badly

the entire 'buck's a sperm donor' family argument and maraget saying "you're a miracle baby yourself" made my fucking blood boil and i want to see a better exploration of the fallout of that statement b/c you just know that there was more to it than it just getting brushed off

buck telling maddie that he has a checklist that he goes through every time he wakes up post-coma in s6e12. chris and eddie being part of that list, where buck is just constantly checking up on them to make sure that they're still in LA (part of the reason why it's so easy for him to fall asleep/relax on the diaz couch or in their house in general). eddie doesn't notice the uptick in check-ins b/c he's too busy figuring out the least intrusive ways for him to check in on buck at all times b/c he NEEDS to know that buck is alive/breathing. once eddie notices though, he confronts buck about it

maddie asking buck to be her maid of honor for her wedding since hen is obviously going to have best man privileges. mostly just exploring the ridiculous that this brings up and everyone joking about buck in a dress (up to you whether he actually wears one to the wedding or not), but i have to include a side note that the buckley parents are dicks about it and have no sense of humour/fun

literally anything featuring athena being worried about buck as a maternal figure, i was so disappointed by her lack of interaction when buck was struck by lightning and, while i'm so fucking happy to have may acknowledging that buck is bobby's son too, we missed out on athena being devastated by the situation as well

there will probably be more of these to come at some point knowing myself.

#9 1 1 #evan buckley #eddie diaz #9-1-1 cast #buddie #headcanon #plot bunny #angst with a happy ending #fic idea #the buckley parents suck #buckley siblings #bobby nash #athena grant #hen wilson #chimney han #these will not leave my head so i'm sharing them #i don't know how to tag #send help bc i've become obsessed with a show/fandom again

[spookythesillyfella]

happy [late] birthday to the clevery guy !!!! <33

~ after being taken out by Tracey for some fun in the city for his big day , once returned home , the birthday boy himself gets some lovely stickers made just for him by Sketch , who had to get over her disdain of the color green for the day , just for her friend's sake . of course , Tony couldn't just not give his dear pal anything , instead baking the computer his cake for the special day , alongside other smaller gifts ;3

also extra digitaltime thing thing for the occasion teehee 💌

#hnsgh yeah okay #digitaltime brainrot is killing meee #it sucks when theres barely any content of your blorbos being romantic and stupid and fluffy #anywhosies #this isn't about digitaltime #this is about colin and his little guy little birthday #i struggled with both of these pieces for a little bit but . in the end . im actually very proud of how they turned out !! #especially the second one teehee #it would mean a lot to me if you peeps you reblog this !!! #no pressure ofc !! #dhmis #dhmis art #dhmis au #high voltage au #dhmis colin #colin the computer #dhmis hv colin #dhmis tony #tony the talking clock #dhmis hv tony #dhmis ship #dhmis digital time #digitaltime #im going insane over them someone please send help #or make digitaltime art and fanfictions preferably #i am TIRED of doing all the heavy lifting alone #im sorry was that guy bothering you ? you don't have to make digitaltime content if you don't want to . don't listen to him hes just insane #oh yeah those on colin's neck ARE kiss marks from tony okay im done i love you drink water byeee !!!!! <33

[itsafternoonpast5]

when was the original advertisement even made LOL jasper is still alive here

#i forgot he was in the trailer. i always assumed it was after his death LOL #definitely inbetween jasper dies at the end and dial m for jasper. but im more surprising hed be willing to help in the commercial #maybe after jasper dies at the end hed gradually start disliking the camp. little by little seeing the flaws and disliking it more #he does say “man this camp. this camp kinda sucks” its where he first sees that. but maybe doesnt fully believe it #hes rational but i do think hes a somewhat optimistic. maybe an off screen event caused him to really dislike the camp LOL #this couldnt have been before the staff ceremony because davey wouldve HATED doing it #if it were the case. during the recording hed try to look like he hated the camp as much as possible. thinking hes sabotaging them LOL #wonder why they would even record this in the middle of summer too. like sure campbell probably wanted more kids to enroll #more people = more money. but for people to see this. consider sending their kids there. getting all the paperwork done #thatd take a bit wouldnt it LOL idk what his thinking process would be. especially with kids enrolling in camps earlier in the summer

[crunchchute]

i know nobody wants to hear about my self insert bs but i had like 2 main storylines clashing so hard in my brain to the point i gave up on them cause one was in the 80s in game storyline and other in like 90s with tse dave and my mind just wanted both at once and merge them but it just did not work at all so those braincells died off. now the tse one picked up again after finishing the book but i miss the game one even if it was cheesy and unoriginal. a mans gotta do what hes gotta do (make up self insert stories in his head every day before bed) (dont read the tags its info that should only have been shared by me being waterboarded)

#so the meat and potatoes (because one day i will forget about the details and will want to remind myself) #80s one is just me being a photographer/artist or whatever. curious about W and wanting to know more #i work with the police momentarily to interview W (post mci) (i pretend to be a journalist or something. doesnt have to make sense #its all just for my own gain anyway and i get closer to him to answer my own questions about freddys. end up watching w so closely #i fall for him (<- cheese) and i help him with work and stuff. he does get springlocked eventually and theres some remnant shenanigans #(note: i do feel weird about keeping him a killer but i dont like aus where he isnt one. gotta suck it up and be a monsterfucker in the #different sense lol) #the tse one is. pretty straighforward.. or smth.. i live in the city and see dave around i see him patroling around the mall #i get curious get closer offer him a cig from a pack that i only buy because of him #we chat get to know eo he tries to kill me but i have delved deeper into the history and the unsolved cases and this is proof to me #(same applies here. killers irl arent cool and im closing my eyes to that here cause its fiction and i just want to put an old fictional #man on a leash. -who said that) #anyway its proof to me hes W.A. and i play around with him #i cook him dinner and repair his fursuit <3 /j #i put a SPH on his fursuit /J unless #if you read this far send me your favorite animal in my ask box. no dont actually

[kazoohaa]

my hand slipped

okay so i was reading this fic and i like the concept of fatui!alhaitham ... and before i knew it i was drawing him ...

i tried to base the clothes underneath the harbinger coat on dottore's own clothing, just grabbing some random aspects of it like these

honestly the star in the middle of alhaithams shirt was just a random addition because i didn't know what to put there 😭

#☁️ . mars draws sometimes #fatui alhaitham living rent free in my head send help #i really like that series yall should check it out #poor kaveh though #i want to draw alhaitham again but without the fatui coat #like with the new clothing/design that he'd probably be given now that he's working with dottore #i just dunno what it'd look like and i also suck at designing clothes #hhhhh i also wanna draw the way kaveh was at the end of the story

[gregmarriage]

#mainly i’m just offering a place of no judgement where we can talk #a friendly ear ya know? #it can be on anon i’m not forcing ppl to expose themselves or anything #i don’t wanna make ppl uncomfortable #it’d kinda like a shitty version of group therapy i suppose? #i see all those blogs and i’m like should i have one? #not that im the sort of person you should be listening to but like i can at least listen if i don’t have good advice #sometimes we all need someone to listen and i could be that person for you #if i actually make this blog #i’m looking for feedback and if people are actually gonna send stuff #honestly it doesn’t have to be major #talk about small annoyances just to vent if you wanna #i’m mainly thinking of it as a way of like idk i’m been through bad times and i know life in general sucks and i wanna help people #and make them feel better even if it’s only a little or in a small way #idk let me know? #i would also need to think of a name for it if i actually do end up making it imao #gwen rambles #gwenposting

[obi-wann-cannoli]

….for the record if you yell at a customer service person for 15 minutes (deserved by the company or not) you can safely assume you’ve lost any good will that customer service person had for you.

#nina has thoughts #yeah I got yelled at for 15 minutes #yeah two of our people did in fact make a mistake and not mention sales tax change #was it worth a 15 minute vent sesh at me? NO! #if he had kept it under 10 min I’d be inclined to help a bit more (his wedding is in a week so I imagine there’s stress) #but he went on for 15 minutes about a thing I cannot change. it’s sales tax. you change the shipping the sales tax changes #so ya know what sure I’ll ask they’re gonna say no are you crazy and then he’s gonna cancel #wish he would’ve cancelled on the call tbh saved us all some time #silver lining is I handled it not a more delicate member of the team #at the end of all that he says ‘hope you have a good weekend and don’t have any more crazies like me! groomzillas ya know 🤪 #took all I had not to say I hope your weekend sucks and you get gravel stuck in your shoes #I did say that when I was off the phone tho #sending bad vibes your way sir

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#oof. it as been a very very long day. so much talking. all day talking and interviews #and so far my feelings are mixed. bc it is a smaller university and its underfunded and cost of living is kinda high #and the town is small and isolated. HOWEVER #the faculty feels like a strong community and theyre all amazing scientists who choose to b there bc the quality of life is so high #they seem extremely supportive and the fact its small means that i could probably get around better given my intense anxiety around driving #and i could literally just walk to hiking paths rather than having to drive way out. and its fucking so beautiful. the clouds r gorgeous #bc theyre all conpressed by the mountains around this lil valley. also the potential advisor seems amazing. the grad students have good #things to say and hes excited that im interested in the things im interested in. and i talked to an astrobiology guy and he was like u #should apply for X grant and i would b happy to help u and the advisor is a former nasa post doc so he has nasa astrobiology connections. #so those r some pretty great things. i mean. of the schools im looking at this one would prob be the best for my brain tbh #i mean the uk one is too rigid in structure and i cant fuck around so much as at a us school. and the east coast on is hard to say no to bc #its a good school with lots of funding and opportunities to b creative but i would have to hard core get my shit together and hes quite #hands off. and id b living in the city which sucks. so like. i mean this school is kinda looking like the best choice for me. definitely #the healthiest. i mean assuming i dont fuck it up and get the offer after this weekend. but yeah. i mean im not fully in love i think #and the idea of commiting to 5years here is terrifying but id get a lot of support that i dont think ive really ever had. not that my #current boss isnt great but our lab is kinda disconnected. and i really fit in perspective wise in my interests. and id get to work at #[redacted] national park. which is so cool that i might have to unredact it if i end up here bc its so fucking next level #not that the national park i have access to now isnt awesome but. like its next level awesome and i could maybe wiggle may way into maybe #some arctic systems and i bet i could get my current boss to send me desert samples. so yeah i could def see a life here #but fuck i dont want roomates with all my heart. y does it have to b so expensive for a trash apartment? bleh #god. im so tried. so much talking. but a good day. and im going skiing tomorrow bc like thats a thing here lol #unrelated

[tvrningout-a]

me: it's fine, i'll just do a lil bullet point bio to give all the important details straight-away

me, a minute later and summoning all the spooky vibes i can muster: i'm gonna write a chapter-style bio once again and hope people read it <3

#am i gonna end up writing lore posts to explain bronwyn's history? most likely but i like the idea of her being a bit of a mystery #bc i mean! if you were to encounter her in a story she /would/ be a mystery to you #you wouldn't learn her backstory until a ways into the story or in some spinoff #i dunno if anyone else does this? but in my mind i view certain characters as either side characters or main characters #and bronwyn is definitely a side character who helps the main character in their journey somehow #but at first you're worried she's gonna be a villain which would suck bc she's likeable :' ))) #but anyway asdf that kinda plays into how i'm writing her bio #bc it isn't from her pov like i would normally write! and i'm!! excited!!! #it feels really good to boot up the computer and write on here man oh man #after i'm done with her bio i'm gonna work on sending out the asks i owe and check my tag bc i'm seeing some answered asks in my feed hehe #get ready to ramble | ooc

[gracetoldmeto]

Think of all the things you want to do with the person closest to you.

Would you still go do those things with them if you couldn't speak to them BUT you never have to wait for your schedules to line up? Like... you just go. And they're with you, but no words can be exchanged.

Yes. Right?

It's the same thing as someone who's died. Just because theyre dead doesnt mean theyre gone. You just cant speak to them. And just because you cant speak to them doesnt mean you can no longer do those things.

Go do them anyway. They're with you. Whenever you're ready to go they'll be there.

#this post brought to you by my upcoming fatherless fathers day #im struggling a bit so it helps to write out things like this #grief #alex talks #if you think about it knowing a person is just your history and memories with them #those dont magically *go away* when they leave or die #so they arent PHYSICALLY with you but who cares a person is special bc of your memories of them so it doesnt matter #what DOES matter (and why grief is so hard) is bc you dont get the reciprocation or acknowledgement of your emotions from them any more #so no im not trying to downplay grief bc believe me im not new to this #BUT sometimes i play around with things in my head and this was a 'why not' moment with all the stuff i wanted to do with my dad #i can still go do them #but yeah itll hurt that i wont get to TAKE him there but he'll still be with me... in a way #at the end of the day i still miss him #fathers day is gonna suck #but feeling like shit gets old after awhile #gotta be a little delusional to switch it up #anyway if you read all these tags im sending you a kiss #bye for now 😊

[crymeariveronceagain]

Uh I have really homophobic parents who say that lgbtq people are perverts and that they don't deserve to be talked about and so they always refer to them as confused freaks or perverts and they blocked google and tumblr and wikipedia so I don't have to be "under the influence of evil".

I'm a lesbian.

The thing is I know that they have good intentions and they love me but still, it's hard.

What do I do?

PS I really love all your works. They're amazing! Also I agree with almost all your opinions. You're really smart. You're my favourite fanfic writer ever!! You're probably better than Shannon Messenger? Also, how do I improve my writing?

Sorry.

Hi, dear friend!

First of all, nothing to apologize for. *gently sprays you with a waterbottle like you're a cat* you are loved and I'm happy to hear from you!

Second, I'm sorry that you have to live like that. It's got to be really awful constantly hearing that kind of stuff, even if they're coming from a good(in their heads, at the very least) place. That's just really hard on you, and it's not true.

You're not a pervert, and you're not a confused freak. I know you know that, but I'd like you to hear it. Maybe say it out loud.

I get where you're coming from, though. Back when I was going through my whole "questioning my sexuality" thing, I was so, so, so worried about what my parents would think, and that whole thing honestly really messed with my head, so I'm sorry you're in situation that's similar in any way. It's such a stressful thing, and it's really hard on you as a person.

I'm really not sure if there's anything you can do, which breaks my heart, honestly. If you've come out to them, and they responded pretty okay, except for the whole "freaks and perverts" thing, then I guess... you're just kind of stuck. And if you haven't come out, then you probably don't feel safe for that. I get that. I know people who have never come out to their families, or waited for years and years and years. And it sucks, and it's heavy, but sometimes that's all you can really do.

I assume you're a minor based on how you're talking, and there's really not much you can do. Except, I guess, just take strength in that there are people who know you're not what your parents think the LGBT+ community is. You're doing your absolute best, I know this isn't a choice, and that you're not a pervert or a freak, I know you're not on here to be "under the influence of evil."

This is just a rough situation to be in, and I'm really sorry I can't offer you more help. I'd suggest talking to an adult you trust, or someone else who can help! Talking with people about this stuff can help a lot. I hope life gets better soon, and I'm just... I know I've said it a ton. I hate that you're in this situation, and I'm sorry I can't offer more advice. I can only offer encouragement.

I love you so much, dear friend, and I hope life is soon kinder.

Thank you so much for the compliments! I'm so glad you enjoy my writing so much! It means a ton that you enjoy it so much!! <3

Anyways, as for the writing advice:

Keep going! Like, literally, that's some of the best advice I've ever gotten. Just keep swimming. If you keep going, eventually your writing will get better. Like anyone will get better at anything if you practice, so keep going. Write things you don't normally write, try new things, write sad endings and happy endings and circular endings and neutral endings. Write in first person and third person and try some second person and then mix in new elements! Write about fun people and boring people and write about things you've experienced and things you never have. Just, write. Don't let writers block exist, just start something new and listen to some music, and just write something. Who cares if it's fanfic, who cares if it's boring, who cares! Just write something, and it's practice, and it's for you, really, so have fun with it, and keep chugging <3

#river's advice column #thanks for the ask! #tw homophobia #tw homophobic parents #homophobia #homophobic parents #writing advice #at the end #im sorry tho my dearest friend #that really #really sucks #stars #i dont know how i can help really #but i love you #i really do <3 #i would like to send you a virtual hug tho #*hug* you can't feel it but it's there! #i hope life gets better #i really do #<3 <3 <3

[ccthegreat]

🌸-And here’s another one!(I just realized I forgot the lighting omfg💀💀)-🍓

#animal jam #drawing #bunny #color blue #i suck at this #send #end my fucking life #this is a cry for help

[steviescrystals]

guys things are happening

#so i met this girl at work last summer and we clicked right away and we were super close for a while #and it was really only a few months but i considered her one of my best friends #and then both of us got promoted to basically shift leads and right after that things just got really weird between us #i never figured out what exactly happened but it was just like tense and off which sucked bc the time before that was so much fun #but i just pushed it aside bc i still wanted to be friends with her and i was hoping it would just pass i gués #and THEN a couple months later she got promoted to store manager which was… shocking #i want to make it super clear i did not want to be manager and i truly was not jealous of her job #but i just did not think she was the right choice for manager bc after working super closely with her for months #i had seen her do sooo much shit that was either not allowed or just like not correct and straight up kinda dumb?? #but none of the higher ups knew about it bc i would always help her fix her mistakes bc she was my friend and i wanted things done right yk #so anyway she became manager and our friendship just got even weirder bc suddenly she was my boss and i did not think she was a good manager #as much as i still loved her as a person she just got on my nerves a lot at work bc of the way she was running things #THEN a month after that annual company wide layoffs happened and i got laid off 😍 which i have vented a ton about on here bc it was awful #and the one bright side to it was that i thought maybe our friendship could start to go back to normal now that we didn’t work together #but instead she pretty much stopped talking to me completely aside from sending me a tiktok occasionally #so i was like okay this sucks but oh well i’ve got my own shit to deal with now that i’ve gotten laid off so i’ll just give her space #and tbh i was just hoping a band we both like would go on tour soon or something so i’d have a good opportunity to ask her to hang out again #BUT THEN she texted me a few minutes ago and turns out she just got fired??? #which does not happen often at that job btw there’s very low turnover i think only like 2 people got fired the whole time i worked there #usually layoffs are the only time people end up leaving #and it’s weird bc i spent all that time thinking it was a bad choice for them to make her manager and she wasn’t doing a good job #but i’m still somehow surprised??? #and i feel so guilty bc i talked so much shit about the whole thing with one of my other friends bc her management pissed me off so bad #and it’s not like me talking about it with someone who didn’t even work there caused her to get fired but i still feel so bad #like yeah i do think she shouldn’t have been manager in the first place but i would never wish that on someone yk #so idk i’m just like in a very weird headspace rn!! #vent #lj.txt

[chlopieno]

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vent ahead, sorry

#hey woo look it's missing my ex boyfriend hours!... #i was happy from breaking up for a minute and now im just so sad. i miss him he was my best friend since childhood and now #we havent spoken for month and half so far #it sucks so much i hate it here. i keep hoping hed reach out to me one day. not to date again but just not to pretend were strangers anymore #i wish i could tell him about my work. about dumb things my cat does. about dumb things i do. #i wish i could listen to him telling me whatever as long as its not hurtful. i wish i was better and didnt expect too much. #i wish my self esteem was higher so i wouldnt regret things i did that i was sure were best in the situation we faced. #i wish i were able to be more helpful and supportive. i thought i was and turns out it was received in an opposite way. #i wish i could send him memes or tell jokes or send uquiz links or picrews #i dont know when it all went wrong man i thought everything was good and everything was falling apart while i didnt even notice. #i hate how short it took to end 15 years of being friends. i hate how i cant even relate to his situation because mine is so similar yet #yet it affected us in such different ways. i hate i wasnt able to do more. i hate that he didnt do more. #i hate that im blaming him for things he has no say in. im angry at being helpless and unable to change anything. #i hate that he told me he loved me amd that he wanted to live with me and then broke up with me less than a month later. #i hate that i made him break up with me. i hate that i put so much hope and emotions and work in it and that he told me he cared #but it was me who was ready to go anywhere for him and do anything for him and it wasnt the other way. #i want to say so much and yell and cry and apologise and yell again but at myself this time and bash my head against the wall #i want to know that someone cares about me as much as i care about them. but it wasnt this relationship but he was my best friend #and i wish i could say that i wish we never dated but i dont because i was happy and i hoped we were happy together. #and every time i asked it was okay and fine and good until suddenly it hasnt been for months and i never knew because he never told me #and i know i cant read minds but i wish i was able to tell the signs. i wish i was less selfish. i thought he wanted what i want #but telling stories about living together and setting up furniture or having pets together was what i thought was for us but was for me only #and i didnt even know #i thought wed be friends forever. yes i thought wed live together as partners too but he was my best friend and i lost him and all i can do #is to cry about it.