#I am so irritable

[the-library-alcove]

If you want to see a prime example, perhaps almost the platonic ideal, of what the problem is with having "not bigoted" be an identity, rather than a descriptor or ideal, look no further than this fun set of posts from @behemocoatyl from yesterday (23/2/24):

(I was blocked within ten minutes of making this response, btw)

And then there was this:

And this:

Well, as I'm blocked, and they've declared that they can't be antisemitic because "they're a good person", I just... want to play with that mindset a bit. Tweak it just a little, to show how that doesn't work. But gently. I don't think I have to go too far to show how self-absolving yourself of bigotry doesn't work...

There we go! Isn't that a helpful illustration of the problem?

I hope they have a wonderful day too!

#leftist antisemitism #the anti imperialism of idiots #antisemitism #jew-hate #yes I am quite irritated at this point at the fucking double-standards #and the way these people have made the term Zionist into a pejorative #so if they're so concerned for their /reputation/ #then they can deal with the fallout of their words

[blue-mood-blue]

Rio’s request for Miles, before everything went way, way off the rails, was to take care of her little boy when no one else would - treat him kindly and remind him that he belongs

How literally do you think Miles is going to take that

Miles (1610): I just want you to know, if nobody else told you today… I love you

Miles (42): No

Miles (1610): I appreciate you and how talented you are at punching things

Miles (42): No shut up

Miles (1610): And even though you’re not a spidey and were prevented from your fate of becoming a spidey due to circumstances outside of your control in a cosmic mistake that only made your life worse, I want you to know… you belong

Miles (42): Shut up shut up shut up I hate you

#spider man: across the spider verse #spiderverse #spiderverse spoilers #atsv #atsv spoilers #atsv miles #he’s sincere but also mostly he’s discovered that 42 is allergic to that level of open kindness #and keeps throwing water on the hissing kitten #this is PURE speculation but it makes me laugh so #until I am proven otherwise #I will play in this space #also I want 1610 miles and prowler miles to team up so much you don’t even know #but with this vibe #irritating siblings

[shmaroace]

my life is not a tragedy because i am aromantic my life is not sad because i am aromantic my existence is not unfulfilled because i am aromantic. there is happiness without romance

#i am SO tired like on the verge of passing out from exhaustion tired from exam season #saying this mostly because i'm irritated with irl people i know #aro #aromantic #arospec #aromanticism #aroace #aspec #1k

[bbreaddog]

Practising Goncharov Theme by @caramiaaddio on violin bc I thought it would add an extra layer of haunting…ness (is that a word?)

Here’s the excerpt I’m playing in the video:

Despite it being in a fuck off key for violin it is a really beautiful piece and it’s absolutely worth the trouble of practising in second position (world’s most hated position) and I’m HOPING 🤞 I can record and (maybe) post a full cover of it someday

#goncharov #music #violin #goncharov theme #oh man i have not posted my face in a very very very long time #possibly years #am i freaking out about it? a little #could i have converted this to audio instead? #well. yes but. it’s not exactly awesome quality in this practise room lmao #i so so badly wanna write out all the technical things I’m doing/focusing on here bc GRRR TECHNICAL WORK IS SO INTERESTING TO ME #but i would be typing out a whole essay probably and i don’t think my followers really. care that much about violin tech #lest they also play violin #i have one (1) known mutual who plays violin and that’s IT #apologies for the metronome ticking in the video #it can be very irritating to listen to #alas… it is also important for not speeding up when playing #anyways #hi caramiaaddio you don’t know me but big fan of what you’ve written here #ESPECIALLY THE CHROMATIC BITS OUGHHHH #the little semiquavers that poke their heads through like TWICE are surprisingly hard #but also they sound extra creepy in a good way #BIG fan #wait wait WAIT WAIT #i think this is my first time posting any of my violin playing here like. EVER. #I’ve been here for OVER A DECADE #AND I’M POSTING MY VIOLIN FOR THE FIRST TIME. FOR FUCKING. GONCHAROV. #i don’t have the right emoji for how I’m feeling rn #personal #mine #my face

[magnus-rar]

it's so insane to me how differently jonah treats jon compared to how he treats everyone else. throughout his life he treated people like tools, like something "to watch, to know, and ultimately to discard". he doesn't care about their suffering as long as it benefits Him. but even though he separates himself from other people, puts himself on a higher pedestal, it never seems to apply to jon. with jon it's always "our master", "our victory", "the world that we have made". everyone else is for us to use. the world is our playground. he’s been living with this "use or be used" mindset for centuries, always on the run, never safe, never trusting anyone, just to meet jon and decide to include him in his life-long plan… and yes, part of this was out of the necessity (he did need to get an archivist for this to work), but if it was purely transactional, then why would he say all that. gayass

#maybe that's why elias was so pissed at jon's “am i still human”. because he believes himself to be something more than a human and treats #jon as an equal so him clinging to his humanity so much is irritating. like why do you want to be a human when you can be my archivist #when you Are my archivist #there's also something to be said about how jon's like “noo i'm not like youuu” at every chance he gets even if it's Clearly not true #but jon's Issues is another topic that i will probably talk about when i stop being so scared of sharing my thoughts #i spent 2.5 hours on this post solely because i kept getting sidetracked by reading transcripts while fact-checking myself #jonelias #mine

[pikslasrce]

men who meow this men who meow that what about WOMEN who HISS #feminism

#btw its me im the woman who hisses.... #like out of all animal sounds.... i had to pick that one #whenever i am very irritated by smth i hiss to relieve stress... i hiss at things. often i hiss at my brother but hes not here w me so #so not so much at other ppl.. but yeahh #piksla.txt

[thesora]

The Murderbot Diaries are finally being translated into my first language (Finnish) and I was super curious to see how ART’s name was going to be handled. So, I finally read Artificial Condition, and its name is Aivan Raivostuttava Tutkimuspaatti which translates to an Extremely Annoying Research-boat !

And it got me wondering how other translations have approached ART’s name. Has there been an effort to preserve the letters A, R and T or has ART been given a completely new acronym? Or has the original English name been kept?

Please let me know!!

#murderbot deciding to describe art as ’a boat’ in the finnish translation makes murderbot a big asshole too imo lmao #the murderbot diaries #murderbot diaries #asshole research transport #perihelion #i am majoring in translation studies so i find this really interesting #it is a bastard no matter the language though<3 #to be honest the acronym EAR (extremely annoying research-transport) would be super funny hffjkdslal #’raivostuttava’ could also be translated as irritating or infuriating etc’ #and yeah i get that ’infuriating’ is the word closest to ’raivostuttava’ buuut i just thought that the possible acronym of EAR was too funny #so ’extremely annoying’ it is

[sergle]

FOREWARNING FOR GROSS-OUT SKIN CLOSEUP SHIT DON'T YELL AT ME FOR SHOWING YOU has anyone else gotten this really weird phenomenon on youtube. I swear every algorithm on every website is actively and purposely worse now. Where you'll be scrolling through vids after searching for something (I was looking at crochet stuff) and SANDWICHED IN THE MIDDLE OF ACTUAL SEARCH RESULTS... YOU KNOW. LIKE THINGS RELEVANT TO THE KEYWORDS I TYPED

are a couple of completely out of left field SHOCK VALUE VIDS. like to intentionally be alarming. drama vids and things you're enticed to click on bc they're upsetting, and deep deep closeups on zits. what the fuck is going on. Sandwiched between videos about GRANNY SQUARES. crack? is it crack we're smoking????

#are you telling me I can search for crochet patterns and be fed videos of pimple popping and news about anorexic influencers? #THESE ARE NOT ADS!!!! they're just IN THERE. I have ublock I've got all that stuff. these are just completely irrelevant videos #in the search results after I typed like. granny square patterns. or something really basic like that #NASTY shit #and I know it's not the algorithm clocking me bc I can tell when they do that. but I hate hate hate pimple popping videos #so that's not gonna be it. #when mr. algorithm gets me I can smell it. because guess what. nail polish. it's always nail polish. #and I don't watch upsetting shit abt the starvation girl or anything either. and I don't follow drama clickbait channels #WHAT IS THIS. WHERE AM I. #why did they make me look at this!!!! #sergle.txt #you're not allowed to yell at me btw I gave you a warning. which was more than I got. we're in this together now. #i'm not sure what to tag this as bc if i tag it as body horror then ppl will bark at me bc zits are natural. is it natural to get #a camera this close to big irritated holes and boils on your face. lesions. cysts. is that natural. are we friends #do i need to be close enough to smell you. put my eyes directly into the holes in your face

[dottores]

well, i was going to wait to formally announce something when i got the time but i’m a bit irritated that the first thing i see when i log in is this ask

^ to answer your question anon, idk why you’re following if that’s what you feel 💀 respectfully, unfollow and never interact with me again. and this goes for everyone else who has left nasty asks in my inbox demanding me to update. my priority is law school and family, not to update fanfics that i don’t get paid for. this is something i do on the side for fun, it is not a job nor does it help me secure my future. spend less time demanding free work from people and spend more time working on your own future. it quite literally should never get to the point where you’re demanding strangers on the internet to provide you with fanfiction and insulting them when they have other things going on—seek help. that is weird.

but on a more serious note to everyone who has been respectful & kind about it—i don’t think i’m gonna be able to update anything until winter break, i apologize to everyone who has been waiting patiently, i promise i’m not abandoning heliotropes but it will not be updated for at least a month and a half. my workload has skyrocketed the past two weeks and my professors are warning us that it’s only uphill until after finals when we get our break. i need to be focusing on work, i barely even have the energy to answer messages from ppl right now.

^^ so if you are here for just my writing, this is the time to leave. i’ve been very vocal about this not being a writing blog. it is just my blog. if you only want writing, unfollow and find it in the tags.

i am going to be closing my inbox to prevent more asks like this because it’s rude and it’s not something i want to deal with. officially on semi-hiatus.

#tw discourse #i guess #i’m just irritated #i did not want to see that as soon as i log in #but anyway #i will try to post more like regular posts so i don’t disappear off the face of earth but #they’ll be sparse #i literally am so busy i only texted my bf like a dozen times over the past week 😭 i feel so bad #i’ve been taking like #an hour and a half a day to decompress and relax and even then i don’t even have the energy to write #i caught up on jjk manga and anime #i’ll lyk what i think about it soon #but anyway i have to go shower and get ready for my 4 o’clock class

[chickenoptyrx]

Bug!

#goofy ass doodle cause i can't sleep #and am just vaguely irritated at a lot of little things #so goofy shit #goofy shit makes me happy #maybe draw it fr later #back to tryin to sleep now i guess #uncle raditz #saiyan squad gohan

[lnkedmyheart]

Everyone wants to talk about the cycle of abuse in bsd when it comes to Dazai, Atsushi, Koyou, Kyoka and Aku but then completely throws that very major theme out the window when it comes to Chuuya because he isn't constantly being emo or miserable about his life and decided to make the best out of his very fucked up circumstances he has been trapped in since he escaped the lab.

#chuuya nakahara #lets talk about it #i am full of irritation lately #bro has literally known nothing but a life of crime and survival of the fittest #but people wanna judge him against those who left the dark side for the lighr because they had the opportunity to do so #okay

[gideonisms]

what did muir PUT in gideon nav to make her the most loveable character I have ever read. I don't even enjoy reading girls who don't scheme. In any other series harrow would be my favorite character by far. Why is Gideon the best girl in the universe. Scientists have been studying this question

#she holds my heart in her hands. gideon nav do you know every one of your interactions brings me joy #i feel like i am watching a cat video just entranced by how she goes about her day. #and it's so easy for the jokey character to become annoying but there is something so sweet and genuine and heartbreaking about her #she just doesn't get boring and she doesn't become irritating. how? #gideon nav my best friend gideon nav. rotating her in my brain to stay content

[junk-culture]

actually forget rating jane eyre adaptations based on their faithfulness to the book the quality of acting the chemistry the cinematics etcetera etcetera. let's base our analysis on how cute the dogs playing pilot are

#1973 pilot rating: 10/10 very big and cuddleable #i am actually thinking 73 is extremely strong...when i tried to watch it before i guess i just wasn't in the mood and lacked #the attention span and the voiceovers at the beginning kind of irritated me #but this time around im enjoying it a LOT more #i respect that they devoted basically a whole 50 min ep purely to janes school days + i thought her relationship w helen and the lowoof #*lowood environment in general was very well done #im only at ep 2 but michael jayston is very promising so far #jane eyre

[multi-lefaiye]

not sure who might need to hear this or if it's just me that needs to, but i've had this thought for a bit and i wanna write it out

you are not a machine that exists to make art. you are a human being, and human beings need rest and breaks.

creative block happens. it's natural, and embracing it as part of the process is far better in the long run than stressing out over it.

we live in a world that emphasizes productivity above all else and needing to Make Something, but truly it is not the end of the world if you're not productive 24/7.

#multi makes text posts #also. even machines need breaks sometimes #nothing can run at 100% all the time #speaking for myself here #i get really antsy and irritable when i haven't done any art for a bit #it stresses me out. like a lot. #so like. I Get It. trust me i really do #and the same applies for writing; but it's a lot more pronounced with art #it's a hard mindset to escape. i am VERY aware of that #but idk. productivity isn't the end all be all of creating #and i wish that mindset wasn't so pushed a lot of the time

[qpjianghu]

(...but what if I was?)

Li Lianhua / Li Xiangyi | Mysterious Lotus Casebook (2023)

#mysterious lotus casebook #li lianhua #li xiangyi #lhl #my mlc gifs #thanks to the folks who helped weigh in on that last gif! #specifically thank you to: #the-surreptitious-albatross #lianxiaojie #and an apology... #to our dear a-fei #for including him in this gifset #I still believe that the feihua relationship is one of the most devastating tragedies of this show #because of the way that di feisheng grows subtly but significantly over the course of the show #and he comes SO CLOSE to loving and accepting llh/lxy for who he is and who he always was #and maybe he in fact DOES get to this point internally #but his last words to llh are inviting him to fight him like times of old #showing (in llh's eyes at least) a regression to their previous selves #a “self” that maybe llh feels he never actually was #which is why I specifically wanted a feihua scene in that last gif to juxtapose with the more obvious shan gudao scene #the subtext of that feihua scene is very sexy of them (I am looking disrespectfully) #but the text of the scene is brutal and tragic: #as di feisheng violently lashes out at li lianua for his perceived weaknesses #and while llh's initial reaction was at most faintly irritated up until that point #you can see that spark of genuine hurt and sadness in his gaze as dfs holds him at arms length #anyway this has been “things about mlc that make me want to tear my hair out at 3AM” #thank you for coming to my ted talk

[punctuation-completionist]

Have you seen the demicolon?

yeah, i mean i've heard of it but like. idk i am surprisingly neutral on the concept? i mean it's a fun idea but also it's not really viable in a writing context (formatting-wise at least) so it just. eh.

(demicolon thing for context)

#not counting #ask tag #sorry to be disappointing #like i guess i see the idea but i can't actually implement it in normal text papers and this irritates me enough it just evens out #on a side note while i was trying to find this image i almost made a reddit account to argue with someone's five year old comment #it's FINE #but like also. they were just so confidently calling things that were either preexisting wingdings or like. de bazin ''fanfiction'' #and their elaboration was linking to the wiki page for fanfic?? huge eyeroll #anyways. five year old reddit comments aside. i am absolutely neutral on the demicolon #sorry but i can't help it #also i really do hope that made sense as an answer