#I can’t find my sanity

[ebonysolcum]

Kate Mulgrew

The drawing that threatened my sanity. Lol. More details about the process under the cut.

As soon as I saw this photo set, I knew I had to draw one of them. Of course, being me, I ignored the three pictures in which she’s wearing a solid grey shirt and went straight for the most complicated, most detailed one.

Full disclosure, I traced all the embroidery. I couldn’t have done it otherwise. I am very proud of it though.

Digital drawing done in Procreate. HB pencil.

#still kinda losing my sanity because of this #i can’t look at it too long or i’ll find mistakes #kate mulgrew #fan art #my art

[spirit-praise-and-beauty]

Genuine question I NEED responses on.

I recently discovered I have a design trope I really, REALLY love. It happens to be freaky dudes with long straight hair and masks. Creepy eyes optional but preferred.

Issue is I can only think of two characters like this. Does anyone have any more examples of this kind of design, or at least the name of any trope they fall under? If anything gets me into a fandom it’s this sort of shit.

#äs nödt #as nodt #bleach #korekiyo shinguji #danganronpa #playing simon says #seriously it’s driving me insane i can’t find more #HELPPP please i need them for my sanity #i’m not down bad btw i just find them my ideal gender #and tend to kin them on the spot

[clockworkbibliophile]

accepted a job in october under the assumption it was remote bc it said it was. flash forward to now and it’s no longer remote and my manager is on my ass about not owning a car too. it’s crazy bc I really did think my financial situation was finally improving, I finally have health insurance, and I was this close to moving to my dream state of california. and now im days away from being fired. if I don’t quit first. the situation with my manager has become so dire that the only thing I can focus on is my job anxiety. I swear i’ve nearly had a heart attack every day since last week. the anxiety over when she’ll fire me or when she’ll find out I don’t live in the location the job is and how this job could’ve been ok if it weren’t for the fact they lied about the remoteness and how desperately afraid I am of her firing me is all consuming. I haven’t eaten in 2 days. I have isolated myself from everyone I love bc I can’t think, can’t focus on anything but how soul crushing and visceral the anxiety is, how it’s eating away at my stomach and my brain and my soul and I don’t know what to do

#if I continue at this job I think I will lose my sanity #only to eventually be fired #if I quit at least I can have some control over the all consuming anxiety #but then no job means no money and no insurance #and I was so close #so close to being able to move out and live in cali #everything hurts and I can’t breathe properly and haven’t been able to breathe or have a stomach that isn’t in knots for over a week #being unemployed wasn’t nearly this anxiety inducing #i’ll have to tuck tail and give up on my dreams of moving out if I quit #but I don’t see another option #I just I just truly hope that this coming job search will be more successful than last time #maybe I can find a retail job that has insurance #im so afraid #this is all my fault #I wish that I knew how to make the right decision

[fistfuloflightning]

I hatehatehate fanfic.net’s layout. I just spent the last three hours scrolling through their hellsite(not affectionate) looking for one fic whose title I don’t remember that I read back in high school. Their filters are shit, their tagging system is horrible. And I’m remembering why I finally switched to ao3 when I saw how little interaction there is between creators and readers, and what little there is tells me there’s a reason for the delete comment button.

#cyber bullying is a horrible thing #and when you can’t comment back due to the site’s idiotic layout or even retaliate #the commenters think they have free rein #THAT is the primary reason I left bc I kept getting bombed with variations of ‘your writing sucks you should kill yourself’ #and ‘maybe don’t write in this fandom’ #I WAS 14 WHEN I STARTED #OF COURSE MY WRITING SUCKED #but instead of constructive criticism and helpful suggestions to become a better writer #I just got hate from others (other writers even!) #they’re incredibly territorial and the whole site is toxic #rant post #personal #fanfic.net #also #i did manage to find the fic but not before mangling my sanity on their stupid filters

[aeroknot]

whenever my dad would check in on my dungeons & dragons campaign he would listen with a smile and then unironically say “i think it needs more dragons”

well, dad: we met and made friends with a dragon last session, and he owes us a favor now, so we’ll probably see him again. i miss you. i hope it makes you happy.

#aero is real #dungeons and dragons #d&d #coming up on almost a year now #sometimes i feel like a total stereotype when playing this game. a little embarrassed. but he didn’t ever judge me for it #it surprised me when he even checked in #‘how you doing son?’ but for my PC lol #and despite my stupid hangups: #i CAN truly say that my campaign has been one of only two tethers to my sanity and resolve against the turmoil of my life since his passing #i can’t even express the value in it for me #the comfort #it’s probably why i’ve let go some of my resentment of CR c2’s ending and tried to reconnect to them thru cr c3 #bc i owe it to CR for finding these friends and a new hobby to do whatever it can to heal me no matter how slowly #aero talks in the tags #aero rambles in the tags #aero anecdotes

[deus-ex-mona]

s. s ave me, meoto…

#n o t me clinging to meoto to retain my sanity bc g o o d l o r d today was the worst #today was truly a very bad; very horrible day indeeeeeeed #man. today truly was a comedic tragedy in every way possible. i’d laugh if i were anyone else tbh #first i couldn’t start my workstation bc we were out of this cleaning acid thing. #t h e n this other branch lab sent over a precise amount of [reagent] that we needed to make the cleaning acid thing #*and* what’s worse was that they also demanded like. 1/5 of the acid we mixed. like bro. make it yourself mans. #but the worst part was when i tried to use a dropper to poke this sediment out of [tube i was supposed to be cleaning] #bUT THEN HALF OF THE DROPPER MELTED BC THAT BUGGER CAN’T HANDLE HIGH TEMPERATURES AAAAAAAAAAAAAA #stupid new droppers man. the old droppers could handle 100 degrees just fine. s o now the tube is clogged with melted plastic and it’s just. #life’s *really* great sometimes yk~~~~? (ʘ‿ʘ) #and so the night shift dude who came to take over the workstation against expectations seemed kinda pissed that i hadn’t started anything #and im just there. with my intestines wriggling about like internal abdominal worms. tryin not to cry in the face of my mistake. #while he’s fumin’ away like a freakin’ chimney or sth. like. man. no one asked you to take this workstation. you came here on your own. :( #anyway i ditched him and left for my break to calm myself down only to be approached by some random terribly lost middle aged to old lady #who was looking for directions to *somewhere* but she only spoke chinese aaaaaaaa #and i can’t read maps/i don’t even live in the area of my workplace so i have no idea if the lady managed to make it safely #but. lol. the lady showed me her message screen when she asked me for directions to her destination #and by pure coincidence the person she was texting is apparently related to someone with the same first name as me #the cons and cons of having common names man. i hope the lady managed to find her friend with the same name as me though lol #anyways. pls hw im begging. pls drop the crossfade for lxl birthday tmr i n e e d more meoto to carry on— #s o b s this is what im living for now ig. meoto………..

[rooolt]

author on tik tok: my book is like [popular tv show] with [trope] [trope] [trope] [trope]

me: killing biting maiming violence

#Summarize the plot of your fucking book or I will never read it #You could be describing a fanfiction to me #Working in a library rn and I was talking to the librarian and was talking about how I’ve been trying to get back into reading #But I can’t find books I’m interested in #And she was like “you should go on tik tok” and it took every shred of sanity in my body to go “maybe!”

[ditheringkestrel]

JAMIE TEACHING ROY HOW TO RIDE A BICYCLE ????? I’LL DIE???????

#i hope this isn’t true I seriously don’t think I could handle that #can’t find the clip (I haven’t looked very hard) so I’m just gonna pretend it’s not true for my own sanity 😌 #ted lasso spoilers

[vins-oc-hell]

Shoutout to the time Loki spent an entire battle cowering under some rocks. 😔✌🏻

#lemme give you a picture of how evil my dm is #1) lets Loki find their old body which is horribly scarred #2) seeing it triggers a memory of their dad zapping the fuck out of them the one time they met him #(rude. also child abuse.) #3) shatters Loki’s sanity when she tries to recover some lost memories #she rolls on the insanity table and gets phobia #I pick lightning bc of that damn scar #(also bc it’ll throw a wrench in the fragile relationship between her and the party sorcerer) #4) dm attacks us with an air elemental bitch who immediately zaps the everliving fuck out of Loki again #5) Loki almost dies bc she can’t get to the fucking door because there are TWO ZAPPY PEOPLE IN THE WAY #she’s been feebleminded twice but this was WAY worse #anyways the moral of the story is don’t hit your kids #and don’t trust your goddamn dm #(/lh 💖) #oc: loki #the killjoys

[thatscalledtoughlove]

I think I’m finally somewhat getting my shit together

#I started researching teaching English abroad #think I’ll go with South Korea to start #and then after that who knows #basically I want to leave and not come back for a while #I’m starting to apply for jobs again and hope I can find something #just need to save up money I don’t care where I’m working #if I can’t find anything by next month I’m seriously considering asking for my old #job back just so I can make some more money #I have roughly nine months before I’d be leaving to teach in Korea #which is a decent amount of time to get my shit together #I’m actually excited #terrified… but also excited #time to finally do something for me and stop sacrificing my sanity for other people #and also stop listening to the asshole that is my mind #always holding me back

[saltinesinsoup]

i can sculpt i can sculpt i know how doll joints work i can sculpt this. head in hands

#jayventing #this just in local procrastinator procrastinated too much! #stupidest due date ever. and tbh i really didn’t have that much time considering i was taking EIGHT CLASSES. #gooooooooood i’m so screwed #i’ll be fine. i just have no clue how to make the joints in blender. which i need to do #i mean i guess i could always sculpt them out of clay and use them that way. might be better for my sanity #considering there’s no videos on youtube. i guess i could watch ones for other programs #but man this is hard #and like. i can’t make a neck peg like regular dolls have #worst comes to worst i’m going to find some that somebody else has modeled and use them w credits

[iwantmygun]

I am so fucking emotionally exhausted.

#can’t even sleep bc my ptsd is acting the fuck up #also fuck the new guardians of the galaxy #that shit should have come with a trigger warning #literally the entire plot of the movie is animal cruelty #and now that’s in my fucked up sticky brain #for me to think about over and over and over #what fun #trauma don’t care #trauma don’t give a shit #it just takes whatever fucked up thing and finds a way to connect that to other triggers in your brain #I have so many irrational fears now it’s honestly hilarious #there are so many things that I can’t take in #so many things I have to say no to #and lots of people probably think I’m being ridiculous #but I have to fucking protect my brain #for my own sanity

[margumis]

the end half of today KICKED MY ASS and i need to close my eyes before it all processes; so here is my goodnight

#im going to lose my sanity because i can’t find my favorite sketch of him and i don’t have it saved for some reason #he’s tucking me in don’t worry i’ll be fine #i love you beautiful people #sleep well #take care of yourselves #drink some water #and yeah! #softsatoru speaks #i hope this weekend will and has treated you kindly

[korixae]

if there’s one surefire to make me not buy your product/use your website/listen to your song or podcast it’s to advertise it on spotify

#get away foul fiend #spotify ads are the bane of my existence #i can’t deal with them #they make me want to pull my hair out #i vow to never ever use whatever it is you’re advertising if you dare disrupt my listening #this is all aimed at that one podcast about the war on ukraine from the russians pov #like i’m sure it’s a great podcast but i’ve heard that ad a hundred times i’m not gonna listen just go away please for the sake of my sanity #or also another one i hate i haven’t heard it in a while but it was advertising a website to help you find jobs and that ad made me violentl #y ill #spotify ads #kori shitposts

[hanaonesflower]

“Princess, can I ask you something?” He speaks, breaking the silence of the long, uneventful car ride. “Sure, anything!” You chirp, unsuspecting of what is to come.

“Why don’t you ever let me do anything for you?” Ushijima says, his eyes remain fixated on the long stretch of roads ahead. The fog heavily roll down the sides the hills on your either sides, lowering visibility. His hand tightens around the wheel, while the other grips yours.

“What do you mean by that?” You sit back, eyes wandering his features, looking for any sign that he’s just cheerfully asking you. Knowing Ushi though, he’s sometimes not as light hearted as you’d think.

“You are always so insistent on doing everything yourself. You won’t let me help you, like earlier, when you refused to let me tie your shoes. That isn’t the first time you refused my help.” He goes on a spiel, his thumb reaches to the toggle and lowers the volume, making his breathing more prominent than ever. It has occur to you that you have always been doing everything by yourself despite his looming figure always by your side. The hyperindependence is slowly starting to bother him. He wants to help you, wants to give you the fullest extent of a princess treatment yet the only thing really holding him back from that is, you.

“It’s just something that I could easily have done for myself, you didn’t need to bother with that, don’t worry, baby,” you try to comfort him, hoping some words of affirmation can help. It really isn’t a big deal, it’s some shoe laces that came undone, not a heavy errand.

As soon as the car is pulled into a parking spot at a rest stop, quickly shifting the car in “park”, turning to you and he sighs. A real sigh. One so full of frustration and… hopelessness. “I’m not bothered. It has never mattered how big or small anything is, I want to do everything for you. Why are you holding yourself back from me?” He is starting to put things into perspective for you. After going through a useless ex-boyfriend, then a man who gave you hot and cold attention, lastly a guy who gave you princess treatment to fill his inflated ego before meeting Ushijima, learning to only rely on yourself has been the protector of your heart, your soul and your sanity. You find that by depending on your good ol’ self is the only way to prevent yourself from throwing your body off a bridge.

“Ushi, it’s not—,” before you can finish your sentence, truthfully you don’t really know what to say. He’s right, you are holding yourself back from him. Holding yourself back from the hurt that you’ve known all too well, he interrupts, holding both your hands in his, “baby, you’re my priority, my everything, your well-being, happiness and comfort are my main concerns and I want it to be that way,” he stops, taking a breath. Reminiscent of the times where Ushijima offered to go so out of his way to help you but being kindly turned down has left him feeling absolutely useless and uneasy. Ushijima’s love language is act of service and because he hasn’t been able to do the bare minimum for you, he feels it eating him alive.

“I am aware of your past, I know that I can’t change what was, but I’m here to make a difference now, I mean it!” You are moved by his words, he means what he says and you know it. You’ve seen it. He’s a big man of his words, always keeping promises, has never ever disappointed you in any way. Yet the walls have been reinforced many times again that it has cemented itself in your life, creating a barrier between the two of you. “I want to open doors for you, pull out chairs for you, pick you up from a friend’s house, drop you off at the airport, all of that, please, baby, please just let me.” You have to say, it is like he is begging for you to allow him in, allow him to integrate further into your system, a system you’ve built to keep you from going down a slippery slope time and time again.

“I’m so grateful for you, Ushi, you’ve done so much for me, you really have. I just feel like I can’t be asking for anymore than what you’ve already given me,” before you can inhale a full breath, he branches his body over to your side of the car and kisses you deeply, so deeply that you melt. “I’m at your disposal, you are my world, let me in, don’t keep shutting me out,” he says, breaking away from the kiss.

You chuckle, “yes, Wakatoshi, I accept your offer,” and you’ve never seen him smile wider. A big, toothy grin coming from the infamously stoic dude. He kisses you again, “thank you, baby.”

He unbuckles your seatbelt, hastily running from his side to yours and opening the door for you, and just like the universe is rooting for the both of you, your shoe laces come undone, again.

#haikyu fluff #hehe I wrote this in 20 minutes #haikyu imagines #ushijima x you #ushijima x reader #haikyu ushijima #ushijima imagine #ushijima imagines #ushijima fluff #ushjima wakatoshi #haikyuu ushiwaka #hq drabbles #haikyuu x reader #haikyuu fluff #haikyu headcanons #⌑ 5 LL series ⌑

[gay-dorito-dust]

Dick loves your plushie collection.

He doesn’t find it embarrassing in the slightest! If anything he finds it more offensive that you’d think it embarrassing having plushies as an adult. After he himself has a plush bunny dressed in his nightwing attire -escrima sticks and all- that he won at an arcade game a while back perched on the top of his bed back home.

He calls it dick jr and cuddles it when he has a rough night of crime fighting.

So he’s the last person to ever cast judgment on your plush collection.

If anything he lets his imagination run wild with them and takes full advantage of them. So if the instance came where you weren’t home, Dick would always send you photos and mini videos of him taking excellent care of a plush hare called Sir John Roderick Wellington the third by tucking him in bed at night, pretending to brush his teeth, etc

Or he’d make enact a photo shoot with a couple of them and send the results to you as your left asking where’d he manage to get all sorts of accessories for them…you’re still awaiting the answer to this day. Another thing he’d do with them is take them with him as company while he’s doing mundane chores in the apartment and act as though the plush is helping him.

You were quick to catch on that Dick having a hell of blast with it with how often he spammed your phone with a plethora of photos and videos that kept you up to date with the daily misadventures of your plushy. And yet you weren’t any better either as you kept them all in a album in your phone and are still wondering why your phone keeps informing you that you are running low on space…

Your favourite picture of your plushy was one where Dick had it tucked in bed, a picture of you on its lap, meanwhile Dick’s face could be seen peaking up from the bottom corner of the screen followed by the caption; ‘he misses you and can’t wait for you to come home and cuddle him. Oh and also me. :(

It’s became your Home Screen now and it was the best decision you’ve been made because it never failed to make you smile even on a bad day.

Jason loves it when you wear his clothes.

It’s free therapy for the man seeing you in his clothes and you can quote me on that.

He fucking loved coming home to see you do your own thing while looking all comfortable and relaxed in his shirts or hoodies doing so. For all Jason could ever want for you was for you to feel comfortable with him however you saw fit.

Also it gives him the more reason to stare at you shamelessly, well more than he did already, but you get the point. Jason is a simple man who’s not above letting it known how much he absolutely adores you.

So you wearing his clothes only added onto that adoration that he had for you. No one else could be more perfect in his eyes then you and he stands by that that statement.

‘You look perfect.’ -Jason

‘Jason, I’m wearing sweats and one of your shirts while eating pizza.’ -you

‘Yeah, perfect.’ -Jason

‘Doofus.’ -you, smiling.

Some days Jason would even go out of his way to leave his clothes on your side of the bed as a hint that he wants you to wear it for the day. Other days however he would be outright and blunt with the fact that he’d rather have you in his clothes than your own at this point.

‘Why are you wearing your clothes?’ - Jason

‘Because they’re my clothes and I feel bad wearing all of yours all the time.’ -you

‘Well I on the other hand don’t, take this shirt and go back into our bedroom and change.’ - Jason says as he takes off the shirt he was wearing and hands it to you, uncaring of the fact that he was shirtless in the living room.

‘You’re being dramatic Jason.’ - you as you take the warm shirt from his hands.

‘No I’m not, I just like you in my clothes a lot better than anything else.’ - Jason said, crossing his arms over his chest.

‘You’re getting jealous over clothes now?’ - you asked, raising a brow.

‘Yes.’ Jason responds instantly. ‘Now for the sake of my sanity go back and put my shirt on please.’

You kiss his cheek before leaving for the bedroom to change. ‘If you insist.’

‘I heavily insist chipmunk.’ - Jason says as he watched you walk away before following after to grab another shirt.

Jason loves it when you’re in his clothes. It’s his greatest strength and his greatest weakness.

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