#I don't even remember this cousin

[janaknandini-singh999]

ab jaake kisi behen ki rakhi aaye hain (she's in the UK now so ig that's why) and my bro refused to wear it so I did :p

#it was too pretty not to please- #I don't even remember this cousin #must have been more than a decade since i met her #but she's my age and so thoughtful coz she has sent rakhi to my bro every single year without ever missing it #desi aesthetic #desiblr #desi tag #desi #desi culture #desi stuff #desi academia #desi dark academia #desi girl #just desi things #rakshabandhan #rakhi

[wanderer-clarisse]

cousin bonding time (I like to imagine that Maedhros is the one who tied baby Finrod's hair!)

sorry for being suddenly inactive here lately, Things Happened and I haven't really had the time to sit down and draw until this week ;-; hope this little sketch can make up for it!

#maedhros #fingon #finrod #why is fingon wearing a blanket on a (presumably) hot day i don't know i have no idea i just felt the urge to draw him with a blanket #addition headcanon is that little finrod isn't the best at braiding hair but he's trying as hard as he can! #maybe fingon's gold ribbons are just giving him a hard time #i know they probably didn't go to the beach for yearly family reunions but shh let me have my headcanons #I love imagining all the mundane experiences these cousins had during their childhood #even with the complicated family dynamics #and how it would feel. years later. when they have to be warriors and generals and strategists and kings. #remembering a simpler time when they could enjoy each others company without thinking about like. politics and the ramifications #of their actions and alliances #anyway #i just finished reading the silmarillion can you tell #clarisse doodles #tolkien #the silmarillion #sketch #elves

[july-19th-club]

me age seven being sat down in front of the school’s district child psych lady and being given strange, simple spatial puzzles to solve and then long, complicated worksheets and hammering my way through them at the speed of light while having zero comprehension what their purpose was or why i was here: this is urgent! i have to get a good grade in Weird Puzzles, Or Else, something that is both normal to want and possible to achieve,

#kjalkjsdalkjasdl mrs button was a nice lady but not one adult in my childhood ever seemed to notice what to me now seems like #a pretty obvious case of the autisms #then again maybe they just didn't look as hard unless it was *really* obvious back then . it was like. what. 2000? a couple years later #everybody was talking about autism but not when i was six or seven then it was usually just when it was Very Visible #a couple years later my cousin who's more visibly on the spectrum than me got her diagnosis so young that she's pretty much always had it #which is...well i think it's just made her life difficult in a different way. people underestimate her or don't treat her like she's her age #but then she's always had the opportunity to get accommodations and people are sometimes more forgiving when she can't do something #whereas i got labeled 'kid that should be ahead of the game' from a pretty young age and then when i struggled adults either ignored it #or it was just a huge hassle to them and even i could see it exasperated them to have to work around me #but because mrs button (nice lady but what were you thinking) hadn't told them to treat me like a kid with a developmental disorder #they didn't do that in good OR bad ways . so i never got any accommodations with school stuff i struggled with which was a fair bit #i wasn't supposed to need extra testing time in a quiet room or tutoring with math or help organizing my abysmally scattered things #the only time i DID get that was in sixth grade when i was sort-of friends with this kid jonathan who was Very On The Spectrum #he wasn't really a talker unless it was about whatever he was reading which suited me fine so we just kind of existed in each other's space #and his TSS was this very smart and nice lady who had clearly clocked that Something Was Going On With Me and even though it wasn't like #her JOB she made a little bit of time for me. mostly with emotional stuff (i think i was under the impression she was a therapist?) #but if i had some problem with being unable to keep friends or being frozen out by the kids i wanted to be liked by (happened often) #she'd be able to just like. be there she'd make the time . wish i could remember her name

[cityandking]

today in D&D: dai achieves new levels of disassociation

#his cousin said something and his response was: ..............cool. #I don't even remember what she was saying. dai also doesn't remember what she was saying. #tbh. maybe floating off into the nothing of the astral sea would fix him #like surely it wouldn't make things any worse. right? #voidhopping campaign #daichi

[folaireamh]

at what point after being informed the people i have 'just met' have a character named humbug does it become socially acceptable again for me to change my name to that unrelatedly

#LOOK. I HAD THE IDEA BEFORE I KNEW BUT MY MOM LAUGHED AT ME WHEN I TOSSED IT OUT AS A SUGGESTION. #BUT NOW I'VE REMEMBERED I ACTUALLY DON'T CARE THAT MUCH ABOUT MY MOM'S OPINION ON MY NAME. I DO CARE BUT ONLY THEORETICALLY #GIVEN EVERYBODY I KNOW IRL DOESN'T CALL ME A NAME #AND NOW I'M FEELING AWKWARD ABOUT IT #i was banking on josh feeling like 'me' if i really tried but it didn't rly work #so many of the obvious choices for autism-related name changes have significant flaws. #for example my cousins dead name is shockingly close to nicholas and i have a close friend with a brother named nick #my other cousins name is close to alexander and i have a close friend named alex #i also have a close friend named matt although it is not short for matthew #and if i change my name to james or jamie my dad will have an aneurysm given that he is the third james of his line #WAIT AND EVEN IF I WANTED TO GET A LITTLE ABSTRACT WITH IT #TEDDY ALSO DOESN'T WORK!!!!!

[confinesofmy]

me and my cousin i'm barely on speaking terms with (but in a relatively casual way) repotted her deceased grandmother's pothos today. this was our first time actually properly repotting it bc last summer it was in such a fragile state and we were so scared to hurt it that we just lifted it out of its pot and placed it in a bigger one but this go round we basically dismantled it entirely. we got eight discrete plants and placed it into four different pots!! in nine months it went from the edge of death to that many plants and like ninety leaves altogether. so if you're bad with plants but still wanna fool with them, i guess you should get a pothos.

#neither of us are corny enough to say it or interested in tearjerker moments but i think we both felt the presence of her grandmother HEAVY #this was the only potted plant of hers still living since she died back in 16 & it was. god. it was no longer variegated from lack of light #it actually had more leaves than i remembered. it had like 20. but for every leaf there were 4 places there should've been and wasn't. #water that touched the soil came back yellow which i've never researched to see what the cause is #but i associate it with like. bogs. and stagnation #like if it was still in that dark corner of my other cousin's living room it fr might be dead now #but in nine months thanks to my other cousin asking for help and thanks to us repotting it and taking our turns with it #it has more than quadrupled in size and is variegated af #i don't know what we'll do in like six months when it wants to do it again... #i'm keeping mine somewhat contained tbh i don't even like pothos i just love it bc it's a piece of my aunt #and it is like objectively so fucking sweet that we've rehabbed it like that #adam yaps #like two weeks ago i asked my other cousin if she'd want a pot of it when we repotted and she once again emphasised #that she didn't want it or any cuttings off it leaving the family or being handed out willy nilly #and i once again tried to explain that it's a pothos. it wants to be split up and thrown all over. #that's a pothos' favourite thing #plus her mom probably gave an ungodly amount of people cuttings off it like come on now #but anyway maybe she'll understand now when she sees and fully comprehends that in 9mos we turned half a plant into 4 #at this rate we'll either be giving bits away or throwing bits away. those are the options we will eventually face. #because you can't just repot infinitely. eventually your whole house will be one massive pothos in a hundred pots.

[crown-ov-horns]

I recently found out people ship Cassandra with Apollo.

My initial reaction was...

Just tan their hides. You know what happened to her because the the bastard, don't you?..

Then, I was overwhelmed by morbid curiosity, and checked AO3. People are writing rape fics about them. ...Why?..

Could I ever see Cassandra x Apollo?.. I don't know, maybe. But, definitely not the nonsense I mentioned. Dubcon at most. I guess, he might somehow coerce her into sleeping with him, and later rescue her from the fall of Troy, because she's pregnant with his child, or something (Zeus would be pissed, I'm fine with that).

Sounds like an intriguing story, with a lot of morally questionable elements. I can imagine Apollo confiding in Artemis, wondering why his wife is so upset. She'd just go "are you serious rn?.. -_-".

...What, you're surprised I'm among those I wish to hide with a broom? Don't be. It happens quite often, actually.

#greek mythology #greek myth fandom #apollo #cassandra #apollo x cassandra #diary pages #thoughts #greek gods #this is such a fucked up pairing #in the iliad you like apollo then remember what he did cassandra #i don't blame her for rejecting his advances he's an entitled fboy with nine girlfriends and she wanted to remain chaste #the way he responded is very cruel honestly cassandra's story breaks my heart #of course i'm discussinv them as characters not religious figures #apollo can be such a creep #greek myth fanfic #fanfiction ideas #what the hell i have a hundred epics in my wips already including one with apollo #but i SHOULD put this aside the “Apollo coerces Cassandra then saves her because she's pregnant” #it's dark but also very intriguing to explore... it isn't supposed to be hot really well maybe later #dionysus married ariadne why can't apollo marry cassandra #she wouldn't want to marry him but what other choice would she have #their further relationship just seems so fascinating #yeah apollo would be confused why she's upset - he'd get her being upset about the fall of troy but not why she's upset with him #but as gods do he'd imagine she should be happy about getting rescued by him #why am i doing this to myself (and cassandra) #i suppose... i just want a better ending for cassandra (back to the fic idea) which this would be even though she'd have to deal with apollo #side note imagine the “pairing” in disney's hercules it would be hilarious #cassandra confronting hercules about his creepy older cousin trying to hit on her #or icarus trying to ask apollo if she'll go out with him and apollo replying “if you have my luck she'll just throw a shoe at your face” #she should take out a restraining order also

[mainfaggot]

watching welcome to samdal-ri actually makes me so giggly and distracted bc of all the silliness and then I pause the episode to get water and feel like drowning myself in the local river again LOL

#just spent 1.5 hours listening to my mother ranting about her in laws and desi culture #and then somehow the topic of getting me and my sisters married at some point in the next decade came up and i felt nauseous #lkke lol. ok #im a lesbian . deep fucking sigh #anyway she was crying bc the in laws are cunts and well idgaf about my babas side of the family like #someone just died back in the motherland and i don't even know his name but he was my uncle APPARENTLY #theres just no relationship.. like i dont even remember what my cousins names are LMFAO thats how stilted the relationship is w those ppl #anyway my mom was so annoyed shebwas crying and i wanted to cry bc i had a long fucking day of doing nothing but being in my own head #i wish i was watching my show instead... if i could i would watch tb for 12 hours straight and sleep for 12 hours straight #and i would neglect everything and distance myself from everyone #haha. #z.post

[levil0vesyou]

Having a post get popular enough to be independently reblogged by someone you follow but aren't mutuals with is. Wild

#yes it was the sex poll obvs #given the person is a minor i'm very glad they picked answer one lmao #like i do think minors in general are allowed to want and even have sex (with each other obvs) but when it's a minor i personally follow it #would just make me feel pretty weird lmao. like on a personal level ya feel? i mean when u reach an even closer level it becomes not weird #again like my dear friend ness (17yo) who afaik doesn't actually HAVE any sex but occasionally wants to and i support her hot girl summer. #but as stated this person barely knows i exist i just follow his blog (i used they earlier but this was incorrect but tumblr won't let me e #edit the tag 😔) and he's 16yo so seeing him talk about wanting and/or having sex would have been. uncomfortable. like obvs he'd be allowed #to because my personal discomfort is no indication of morality but you get it. like if my big little cousin (she's 15 now by god the years #don't stop coming) were to talk about sex and stuff to me or within earshot i would ummm. throw myself out the window? but like i'd still t #try to be supportive and if push comes to shove then yes i would give her condoms 😔 cuz like if a minor wants sex i will not be able to sto #stop them lmao but i can at least try and make it somewhat safe y'know #actually i remembered i have literally given a 15yo a condom before lmao she's prolly over 20 now but like as the adult dormmate it was alm #almost like a responsibility y'know like what do you want me to DO?? let her get pregnant?? anyway enough tangent lmao #btw all this is also why in the poll i included 'too young' but didn't specify an age cuz that's individual y'know. some people are p late #bloomers (i was one) while others choose to have consensual sex by 14 y'know. not something i like to think about but that doesn't mean it #won't happen ya feel. i mean what am i the american education system? lmao. so some ppl have interpreted being 17 as too young but there's #also folks like this who clearly consider 16 old enough and that's defo ppl's good right. and again i usually don't mind just the fact that #he in particular is someone i already knew made it uncomfy. but anyway yea back on topic it's very interesting in general when your post #gets big enough to independently make it to ur dash thru a non mutual lmao. love the hellsite honestly where else amirite #personal #mine #ok to rb ig #like the actual body of the post anyway. i'd be pretty uncomfy if said person saw my tags on this cuz y'know it's kind vagueing even if it' #not negative but anyway. anyway #*kinda

[fluentisonus]

also it drives me bonkers when people say aragorn was right in that scene because he's literally not!! he's pulling the same rhetorical bit that he does with boromir at the council of elrond where he's willfully ignoring people's very justified & specific suffering & grievances by saying that everyone has problems. he's deliberately looking past all the things she's had to deal with & the very clear and cynical way that makes her look at the world to say that men are dealing with the exact same problems which is blatantly not true

#listen to be clear I really enjoy aragorn as a character actually I just think we could all stand to recognize that he's wrong more often #thoughts #tolkien #making this unrebloggable bc I don't want to argue w people over aragorn asdfjhklsdfhj. #but anyways I think people take that as her being selfish or something but it's exactly the opposite. she's been sitting there 'defending' #rohan accomplishing nothing while her cousin dies and her brother risks his life watching the king get more and more lost to the world #& everything crumble apart around them and not being allowed to do anything about it #and now they have a hopeless fight that they don't entirely expect to win and they want he not to even try! like they want to her to wait #and Let it happen to her! she's been letting things happen to her this whole time in a truly grotesque way and she wants to Try #to do Something even if she dies either way rather than to have to have her last act just be enduring #and yeah she's trying to die maybe moreso than the men there but I think it's important to remember how her culture sees death like. #positively. so her death in her mind will be Actively (!) doing something to preserve them. idk idk #this may not make sense akdjflkjsdf it's nearly 2am. #but people look at her in such a flat way & it makes me sad

[gayestshakespearecouples]

Anyone got any F/F couples they think are pretty gay (besides Viola & Olivia)? I would love to get some more submitted!

#I know like... 85% of Shakespeare characters and even more of main characters are male so it's pretty hard #I can't actually come up with any myself except Rosalind and Cecilia(? something like that) who are cousins so it's... questionable #idk I don't remember midsummer's that well do Helena and Hermia have anything going on other than rivalry over men #doesn't Portia have someone she's a lil gay for?

[buckets-of-dirt]

Are elementary schoolers today still teaching each other that song about burning down their school set to the tune of John Brown's Body*? Like is it still being handed down from kid to kid across grades or was the chain finally broken? Inquiring minds need to know

*the same tune also shows up in the battle hymn of the republic and solidarity forever, which were both inspired by the original

#in true folk tradition the lyrics were even slightly different according to geography #my little cousins from maine surprised me by showing up one day with a chorus and second verse they learned at school #I don't even remember adults teaching it to us until we brought it up ourselves #at which point I think my uncle sang the version he'd learnt and pointed out some lyric changes since his day #but other than that it was passed from grade to grade by siblings cousins and older friends #this may also have been mainly an American thing Im not sure

[dramatic-dolphin]

genuinely sometimes i hear people talk abt children or see the way they act around kids and it's like... do you guys not remember actually being children..... because i remember being uncomfortable when people hugged and kissed me without asking & being frustrated when i was not given a reason for why i'm not allowed to do something. like do you guys not remember that.

#legit i find myself explaining to my baby cousin WHY he shouldn't do things #he's a year and a half old even when he understands my words he's not going to remember them or completely understand their meaning #but it just feels like basic decency for me to go #''don't bite that because it's going to break in your mouth and that will feel very bad'' #sure he's not going to understand what that means because it's never happened to him #& he doesn't have the brain to extrapolate it from other things yet #but ya know. makes ME and the memory of small child!me feel better #as a child i would have loved to have clear descriptions of the consequence of an action sometimes

[parasprite]

ik she'd never play favourites and stuff but god its like. depressingly clear how much my mum prefers hanging out with my cousin over me. they have outings and regular movie nights and go on walks together and run errands and do chores they do literally everything together. and honestly its not just that like... even when im hanging out with the two of them i know she's more focused on my cousin. like she takes an interest in his interests. she asks him about spanish all the time but doesn't give a shit that i'm learning portuguese. i feel like i bore her whenever i try to speak. i always wanna let him ride shotgun the rare times im out with them because she can hold a conversation with him but not me. and whenever i'm alone with her she just treats me like a receptacle for her dumb fucking rants about facebook drama and then she seems so surprised when i have good advice for her even though i Always have good advice. she treats me like her talk therapist. she never thinks about my needs or my life or my interests. not that i even wanna tell her about it.

and like. for my cousin's birthday she got him a paranormal activity 6-movie blu ray box set because it's their favourite film series to marathon together. like they've rewatched it a bunch of times. they discuss their fan theories and everything. yknow what she got me for my birthday this year? nada. which is PORTUGUESE for nothing. god and they had that spontaneous weekend partying in london together and then a few months later she fucking planned a trip and went to sussex alone even though she knew id been wanting to go to sussex with her for literal years. she kept saying she'd take me then she didn't. what the fuck.

#honestly i don't even envy their relationship because i know shes making him her surrogate spouse #ive kinda been there before and i don't wanna be that. it sucks #but im really sad because like. i love my cousin but i never get quality time with him like he and my mum Constantly have #nobody in my family ever wants to watch movies with me #god my dad and brother saw oppenheimer together today too theyve seen it 3 times together now #fuck this i HATEEE IT #i really need to like get in touch with my great auntie or someone i neeeed a relative i can hang out with #im so sick of nobody in this house giving a shit about me!!! #im so sick of craving attention and approval from people who will just never give a shit #ive felt this way for years like i remember telling my old therapist about this too it just. keeps happening and idk what to do about it #im so sick of listening to my brother infodump about programming languages #im so sick of hearing my mum talk about facebook #im so sick of my dad making a token effort but clearly struggling to connect with me #and. im not angry at my cousin but im sick of my mum always giving him attention. #its day in day out. constant low level misery and loneliness

[magdaclaire]

wish my biological father had a grave. public bathroom moment

#instead my stepmother carries him around in a jar #she brought him to cow cafe. which is an ice cream place. that my cousin was working in at the time. this was my first time meeting heidi #heidi is my stepmother for clarity's sake #but not like my dad is technically my stepdad #i don't even remember what heidi looks like i haven't seen her in five years and i only saw her like twice #but bry (my cousin) says he's still jarred #which is. oh my god. so fucking funny #mer rambles #parental death cw #i'm done now swearsies

[vimbry]

man am I grateful to live in the digital age at times tho. the hell were all these poor people doing without archives immediately at their disposal for research and recreation. I know libraries, fanzines, clubs and the like have always provided an outlet but I'm too used to sitting here like a little emperor ringing my bell and having my aides (internet service provider and web browser) present me with treats from the scholars (hobbyist archivers)

#I do love delayed gratification to an Extent like I don't enjoy bingewatching and stuff #but how did I live in a world without easy recording capabilities #I still remember that day my cousin and I were following x.iaolin showdown on cn in the afternoons while I was staying w/ his family #we went out for the day and completely forgot about that day's episode. devastating. when you are 11 #the idea of 2 of your favourite bands performing at the same place but you can't go cause it's in los angeles #and the most you can do is read about it being advertised and never hear of it again because it's pre-camcorders/tape circulation/internet #if your favourite things were even lucky enough to have a dedicated fanbase at all. the heartbreak