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A Year of Writing - 2021 Writing Wrap-up

@ecwrenn suggested the Writeblr community do a “Your Writing Year in Review” post with things one has posted, so others can catch up on things they might have missed. This is such a wonderful idea, I just had to join in. So, with many thanks to her for organising, here is my Year of Writing.

Quick Stats

Total Written (rounded up) - ~85,500 words Average Words/Work: 886 Started - 44 works Finished - 38 works Published - 41 works Number of Works still in Progress (started anytime): 68 Mostly wrote in: July (7 works) & Feb (6 works)

Breakdown

I’ve written quite a bit this year. A lot more than I thought, if I’m being honest. The dates on my spreadsheet are a little out of whack, but I’ve written somewhere in the region of 85k words this year, across 39 pieces (one of which was my on-going nano started last year, which had 52k added this year).

My longest work that was added to this year was The Ruby Falls (the aforementioned long-running Nano), bringing the word count to 128,274. The shortest work that was created this year was A Tea for the Sore of Head, with a word count of just 96.

It’s not too surprising that most of my writing was done in July, as this was the TES Summer Fest week. This was an event geared towards creators in The Elder Scrolls fandom, which I very much enjoyed participating in (many thanks to the organisers of TESFest). I also did a few prompts from the Homestead Spring and Autumn prompt weeks, which allowed me to stretch my writing muscles with some more original work.

This year I was advised by an editor friend to work on my subtext, so quite a lot of my drabbles have been towards stretching my writing muscles in that direction, or trying out fresh styles (Dearest Mama, May I Come Home? is a prime example of this). I feel like I’ve learnt a lot from these experiments, and I feel like my writing has advanced from what it has been for the last ~5yrs, so I’m very proud of that.

I spruced up some older Titan - World of Fighting Fantasy fics and published them to AO3, bringing the Published figure up by more than was finished this year. I also joined two new fandoms to write in - Starbound and Thunderbirds Are Go. I’m pleased at how well these first few forays have been, and I have some more stories planned in these fandoms as well. A couple of my original works have also seen a lot of success too, notably Before It Shatters, and received glowing comments.

Plans for 2022?

I have a lot of Big Scary IRL stuff that has to be completed by the end of Jan, and the Homestead is putting on a “Be a better writer” prompt event (organised by the above mentioned editor) in Feb/ March time which I’m very excited for.

My main project to tackle, thought, will be The Ruby Falls. I want to have finished it by April, to have it beta read and final edits by October and published to AO3 this time next year. How achievable that is, is anyone’s guess ^.^;

Of course, there will always be lots of other short stories added to the mix over the year, and maybe I’ll finish some of those 69 WIPs... But outside those few big milestones, my plans are mostly fluid, tbh :D

ICYMI

Under the cut are the things I’ve finished since 01 Jan 2021. List organised by universe & series, 99% links through to Tumblr.

Original works

Before It Shatters ~ 800 words Civil war shreds the land. The court priest meets with a state advisor to beg his intercession.

Dearest Mama, May I Come Home? ~ 480 words A young man in the 1800s regrets his life choices.

Can't Fool an AI ~ 415 words A spacefarer tries to claim he’s fine; his ship AI sees right through him.

Court Intrigue ~ 155 Words A woman's partner admires her dress, while being underhanded.

From Ham Park ~ 240 words A woman yearns for the freedom of travel.

Rocky Mountains ~ 126 words Description of the Rocky Mountains from a train out of Denver.

Starbound

Castles in the Sand ~ 1,100 words Lana Blake asks the Last Protector for help.

To Make an Ethereal Connection ~ 1,270 words An old Glitch sings, and the Narrator invites them to journey the stars.

Thunderbirds Are Go

Family Treasures ~ 1,720 words Grounded by injury, Kayo considers her family through the lense of trinkets.

Chin up ~ 1,060 words Hard-hitting questions come up during a training session between Kayo and Parker.

Cake Dress ~ 225 words Penny needs a new dress; Gordon makes quips.

Titan - World of Fighting Fantasy

Princess for a day ~ 790 words Millicent gets a very special treat on her birthday.

TESIV: Oblivion - Haven’s Ember (Modern AU)

A Night to Drink To (AO3) ~ 1,030 words Where Martin, Baurus and Aderyn fall on the "drink" triangle

Better Homes and Gardens ~ 440 words Martin shows Aderyn her room in his & Baurus’ new house.

Bitter Winds and Rain ~ 1,070 words Aderyn is not coping well with Martin being in a coma.

It's fashion, baby ~ 360 words Baurus ribbs Martin of his choice of shirt

Night will Fall and Drown the Sun ~ 1,260 words Jauffre is not coping well with Martin being in a coma.

Shaving Accidents ~ 1,025 words Baurus is not coping well with Martin being in a coma.

The Insomnolence of a Troubled Mind ~ 700 words Martin can’t sleep, Baurus find out why.

TESIV: Oblivion - Misc

Accidents Happen (but they don’t usually end the world) ~ 500 words Martin trips and cracks his skull, dooming the world

By Any Other Voice But Yours ~ 1,163 words Martin returns to Kvatch with Lucien and Korbin; Lucien helps Martin relax after PTSD sets in.

Crimson Storm ~ 1,792 words Martin has a panic attack.

Honour Among Thieves ~ 875 words A thief and a spy have a late night chat about threats to the Grey Fox.

Marble Tombs ~ 506 words A study of the unquiet nature of Ayleid Ruins

No Rose Without a Thorn (AO3) ~ 3,036 words Modryn Oreyn helps an old dunmer... but all is not as it seems.

Of Garlands and Gladness ~ 1,342 words A travelogue style recounting of Bravil’s festival to Mara.

Technicolour Nightmare ~ 885 words You’re debilitatingly ill in the wilderness, will you survive?

The Steel Undone ~ 803 words Modryn Oreyn agonises about a choice that must be made to save the Fighters Guild.

Your Dads think you are Working Too Hard, and want you to Take A Break ~ 772 words Martin and Baurus extort you, the HoK, to rest and eat more.

TESIV: Oblivion - Rin

Bleach ~ 1,040 words A discussion about redguard hair

At First Blush ~ 3,860 words F!HoK & Methredhel end up on job that goes sideways fast, but kisses make everything better.

About a mentor ~ 510 words K’Rin L’Rue is asked what Arch-Mage Traven was like as a mentor

TESIV: Oblivion - A Slice of Life with Talis

Talis and the Terrifying Errand-boy ~ 850 words Mages are unnecessarily extra and scare the townies.

Talis and the Bilberries ~ 890 words Talis the Baker goes berry picking.

A Sweet Misunderstanding ~ 710 words Talis the Baker makes a friend

TESIV: Oblivion - Teas of Tamriel

A Tea for the Scorned ~ 210 words Teas of Tamriel columnist advises on a poison.

A Tea for the Sore of Head ~ 100 words Teas of Tamriel columnist advises on a hangover cure.

Malted Milk for a Goode Nite's Rest ~ 110 words Teas of Tamriel columnist advises on a sleeping infusion.

Potion for a Gaye Nite ~ 280 words Teas of Tamriel columnist advises on a potion of Banish Social Anxiety.

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cheekblush · 3 years

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i feel your pain with rocky friendships. i haven't had a deep connection in a while. i have like... 2 friends now but one of them lives miles away and in a different timezone and has her own life. the other one chats up a storm when it's about her but when i say something she replies with "haha" liiike bro give me at least a SHRED of interaction. i'm dying lol i didn't think my social life would be this dry at 25.

hello rose petal 🌹 i'm really seeing myself in your message.. i also expected my life to be a lot more lively and exciting at this age (turning 25 tomorrow 💀) of course we live in very difficult times currently (can't believe we're living through so many moments that will be in future history books.. it's so scary) but nonetheless it has also been difficult for me to really connect to people before the outbreak of this pandemic. it's just so hard to find genuine friends these days.. it seems most people only look for company or 'friends' they can have fun with. in my last years of uni i formed only superficial friendships i had no one i could rely or confide to and after so many miserable experiences with friendships i can't help but feel "is it because of me? is it my fault? maybe i'm just not likeable or asking for too much" but the answer to all of these is a big fat NO!!! we're not asking for too much when we want friends that actually care about us and that show the same effort and commitment to the friendship. so that "friend" of yours that loves to talk about herself but doesn't have anything to say when it's about you? that's not a friend. i also had to learn this the hard way with a lot of painful experiences and it really sucks that it's so fucking difficult to at least make one genuine, sincere and true friend. like you i also have several friends who live in other countries, in other timezones. i have met most of them through tumblr and will forever be grateful for having encountered such wonderful souls on here (i mean it's always easier to connect online bc you usually get to know people with the same interests) but when it comes to irl friends *crickets* i consider like 3 people my friends but just like with your situation they are not the best friends.. i feel like i haven't had a true best friend in years or at least someone i'm very close to and can come to with all my problems and thoughts (maybe these days only a therapist can be that person..) and with my online friends... well that's the thing the friendships are online and the chances of actually meeting them are so slim especially in the current state of the world. still a lot of the times they are the people that keep me going and look out for me. it really makes you think when people from all over the world care more about you and understand you better than your "friend" that lives a few minutes away from you... idek where i'm going with this anymore... i wish i could take away your pain, i wish i could be your friend irl or magically make a genuine friend appear at your doorstep.. unfortunately i can't do such things and maybe for now we can find comfort in the fact that we aren't actually alone with our loneliness and our feelings. it is extremely difficult to make real friends in the time we live in and it also doesn't get easier the older you get. kindergarten, school and uni made it easier to get to know people but even then most of these friendships didn't last for me or weren't sincere to begin with. i guess we can only hope that the right people will come along eventually. i deeply hope they do. friendships are so fundamental to life and platonic breakups are just as devastating as romantic ones. maybe you can try to talk to more people online? of course it's very one sided when the communication is mostly through texts and you can't even meet up but it's still better than nothing! you might find like minded people who share the same interests and experiences. to bring this very long and dragging reply to an end: i just sincerely hope that better times are right across the corner for all of us. that this darkness and loneliness will pass soon and we'll be able to meet refreshing and genuine people after all. until then, take care of yourself, be your own best friend and stay safe! 💗🧸🍡💫🎀🥠🕊🍊💌🌱🍯🎠💕🦋🎐

#sorry this got so long..#thank you for reaching out to me and i hope this brings you at least a little comfort 💌#have a wonderful day/night and make yourself your first priority! 💗#maybe we should work on loving ourselves more instead of searching for it in others and begging them for attention..#my only problem with online friendships is that i'm very bad at staying in touch bc i just can't text 24/7..#but real friends understand when you need time for yourself 💞#but since you crave communication and connection maybe that's exactly what you need rn? like just message a mutual and try starting a convo #i really really hope you'll find true friends irl soon too... i know firsthand how frustrated lonely and heartbreaking it can be 😔#but don't give up... the right people will be worth the wait 💗#replies #anonymous

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6-mcs-for-6-lis · 4 years

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In your ask box again! I have been keeping your Julian singing Red and Black in the back of my mind, and oh my Gods I love it. Could you possibly write something about the 6 and what their favorite musicals/show tunes are? Thanks! ❤

Alright, this is a modern AU and my babes are here to play with their LIs!

Asra:

Rocky Horror Picture Show

Asra LIVES for the midnight Halloween showning.

Full Frank N. Furter cosplay.

Long lasting lipstick redder than blood.

Ziv knows it's long lasting. They tested it.

several times

Asra has long time friends that only meet up for the showings.

They're basically the go-to shadow cast for that theater

Once in a while Ziv will stand in for Janet

Not often though, they prefer being a camera person

Because they all love recording and taking pictures every year

Faust occasionally takes the place of a feather boa though, because she shall not be left out!

Asra knows every word and every move for The Time Warp and will teach anyone even remotely interested.

Even if everyone involved is drunk

Especially if everyone involved is drunk

Has he tried to reenact the swimming pool scene? Yes

Did he get kicked out of the hotel pool? Yes.

Portia:

Mama Mia!

to be frank, it's SICKENING how adorable Portia is singing all of Sophie's parts

She sings Gimme Gimme Gimme right to Ayo

"I'm not a man"

"GIMME GIMME GIMME AYOOOO AFTER MIDNIGHT!"

*cue collapse into giggles*

If they're watching with friends, they both get SUPER dramatic and cannot watch it with anyone who has never seen it.

Lay All Your Love On Me is their Song.

They do duet to it :3

Julian pretends to gag from how sweet it is when they do but he actually loves it

When the second movie came out, they hosted a full party

Food, drinks, the whole shebang.

They CRIED every time Sophie talked about Donna

Sobbing messes at the end

They went three more times while it was in theaters

Julian:

Fiddler On The Roof

As Tevye say's "Tradition!" and this musical is one!

Rina grew up Christian, but she knows this musical

Seeing it through Ilya's eyes is a completely different experience

It bings him so much joy

So much laughter

He knows EVERY WORD

for EVERY SONG

"No, no, Rina, love, Tevye wants to fight G-d. Trust me, he still loves G-d but he wants to fight him."

You have to Make A Night of watching this musical

Pasha bakes and comes over with Ayo

After learning the words to the song, Rina, Ayo, and Pasha all preform Matchmaker

Are they using random clothes to cover their heads? yes

Do they gang up on Ilya and act like HE'S the matchmaker? OF COURSE

Rina sideyes Ilya sooooo heavily during the nightmare.

"Ilya if you ever try that on me I will call bullshit on you"

Does Ilya pull Rina up and dance her around like a fool during Miracle Of Miracles? Yes

They step all over each others feet

Pasha is recording it

It ends up going semi viral on facebook

Is this how he ends up proposing a year or so down the line? YES

That one actually goes viral

Does Pasha ham up Sunrise, Sunset? You bet ya

Does Ayo make hearteyes at her the whole time? Yep

Does Ilya tease them both relentlessly for that? oh hell yes

Surprisingly, both Pasha and Ilya can so the bottle dance without dropping the bottles

You would never guess it with how clumsy Ilya is.

But their father taught them how

Oh, yeah, a little angst?

This was the last movie they watched as a family before the accident.

Lucio:

Hamilton

Does Lucio love Phantom of the Opera? Yes

Does Prima love it too? Yes

It's how they met after all

But a favorite musical?

The musical that will be put on blast and sung to at all hours of the night?

Hamilton

Lucio feels the character of Hamilton in his Soul

He may also be gay for Laurens and Lafayette but that's a different matter.

Does this mean Prima TORTURES Lucio by singing Burn at him when she is pissed? YES ALWAYS

Can Prima rap? No.

Can Lucio rap? Hell to the no

Does that stop either of them? Never.

Does Lucio almost choke on his tongue trying to do Guns and Ships? Yep

Does he manage to do it FLAWLESSLY one night while drunk!? YES

Prima and Lucio definitely waltz around during the slow songs

They both HAM it UP for King George's songs

The neighbors complain, but not often

Mercedes and Melchior get in on the action too

They bark and howl along with Lucio

They've actually gotten a routine down and take the parts of Hercules and Washington

ONE LAST TIME MAKES LUCIO CRY LIKE A BABY

can we say "Daddy/Mommy issues?"

Camio has taken some lines into his vocabulary

"My Shot!" "Right hand man" and "Say no, say no" get said by the birdie a lot

Not very sure what they mean

But Say No To This does help Lucio and Prima get... spicy

They do not say no.

Does Prima eventually sing That Would Be Enough to tell Lucio she's pregnant? Yes.

He cries

Like bawls with happiness

He thought she was just playing around at first

But then she pulls his hand onto her stomach

And He Knows

Dear Theodosia becomes the baby's lullaby

Muriel:

The Greatest Showman

He doesn't really understand the appeal of musicals

But there's one night when the nightmares got really bad

So so bad

He woke Zaza up again

And Zaza would hear no protesting, he pulled Muriel to him and made him lay down in his lap.

"Close your eyes, babe..." He whispers softly

He begins stroking Muriels hair as he closes his eyes.

And singing softly

"...I'd follow you to the great unknown

Off to a world we call our own..."

Muriel is helpless to Zaza's voice and hands in his hair

He falls asleep before the first round of the song is over

He wakes up clinging to Zaza's torso

It takes a couple days, but finally he asks what that song was.

Zaza lights up, and pulls him to the couch for an impromptu movie night

Muriel can't help but smile at his partners enthusiasm

Zaza practically bounces through the previews, letting them play so he can briefly explain the plot

As soon as the first son starts, Zaza shushs and pays rapt attention

He looks over once in a while to see how Muri is liking the movie

Muriel doesn't mind it

It's very over the top

Very Zaza

Then That Song comes on

Muri learns it's called Tightrope

And Zaza quietly sings it to Muriel as it plays on screen.

It ends up being Muriels favortie song

Nadia:

Six

Six is amazing and upbeat and good for a pick me up

She secretly stans Anne of Cleves both in the show and irl

Natiqa got the whole family into Six

So now the sisters all reenact the show

Nafizah prefers to film the entire thing so she sits out the singing

Nazali is Catherine of Aragon

Navra is Anne Boleyn

Nasmira is Jane Seymore

Nadia of course takes Anne of Cleves

Natiqa is Catherine Howard

Nahara is Catherine Parr

It turns into A Night

Harlow discreetly records the entire show without pause.

He needs this for later

For Science

Not for a surprise birthday party later that year

Nope.

Not at all

It totally becomes a tradition.

Only Asra, Ziv, Julian, Portia, and Rina are allowed to see the video.

Ever

Yeah sure Nafizah has a copy and Natiqa gets her hands on it

Hello YouTube and TikTok

It's a hit.

Not viral, but popular.

Nadia needs a drink when she finds out.

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gg-astrology · 4 years

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Can you tell us 10 things about you? and about ur friends irl? How u met them/ how long u know them/ what u like to do with them? This is gonna sound nosy but how's ur love life hdjsks LISTEN YOU'RE LIKE MY DREAM BEST FRIEND AND I WANT TO KNOW EVERYTHING ABOUT YOU AND ACT LIKE WE'RE TOTES HOMIES OKAY IM A VIRGO SUN PISCES MOON smh a girl is cURIOUS AND (platonically) IN LOVE WITH YOU 😖❤❤❤❤

Hey there!! 💕💓❤️ Oh wow!!!! 💕💓❤️💕💓❤️ Don’t worry this is fine!! I’m actually -- like, really happy and giddily flustered you’d want to get to know me!? 💕💓❤️ I’m really flattered and really grateful/touched aaaaaaa only virgo/pisces deserve rights, my current wife is also a virgo/pisces this is obviously some kind of synastry destiny (jk *wink wonk?*)!! 💕💓❤️thank you for caring about me!!! 💕💓❤️💕💓❤️💕💓❤️💕💓❤️

Yeah sure!! 💕💓❤️I can tell you more things about me!! 💕💓❤️

Disclaimer? I think it’s good for the audience to know where I’m coming from and who I am? I just think transparency/knowing who you’re talking to is important because knowing who I am, can also help you and me see where my flaws are and where I may be coming from! 💕💓❤️ Or what I provide, but where I might miss my mark somewhere, y know? 💕💓❤️ Not to say you have to judge me, I just don’t see the point in not just being who I am and saying yeah I can see where I took the L there. It’s just-- better? for future endeavors as well? So here we are?

More about me? In sections?

10 things about me?

I’ll start with this since it’s the shortest!

This may come off as totally random but I do better in colder climate than hotter ones -- even though I currently live in a tropical island

I used to live in the US!

I actually have a designated place where I go to sit, open up my laptop and answer asks from tumblr. I sit outside my little patio and stare out at my garden, and then answer qs from here!

This means I’m always subjected to the Wild Life coming at me unexpectedly sometimes, but my cat also visits me at my table! So it balances out!

My favourite drink is milk but I like plant-based ones, or rice milk? Or the lactose free ones! They’re delicious!

Cherries are my favourite snacks but I usually get them once every 3 months -- so the result is I don’t tend to snack often. This is by design of me trying to Not Snack + using my pickiness to weaponize against myself and my eating habits.

To unwind I watch cat/animal videos on youtube before I go to sleep - it’s not very effective because I have to keep my eyes open to see, plus I always end up making cooing noises at the screen -- so I’m not sure when if it’s actually making me sleepy or not. But it’s working so far so I’m continuing to do it.

I have very specific knowledge of certain things in very acute details + link/resources of further studies on the topic, but otherwise I have 0.5 braincells most of the time, just a lot of Forbidden Knowledge.

I have a folder of cursed memes and that’s all you need to know about my sense of humour I think?

Love life?

I am currently single! 💕💓❤️ Gf application is always open! 💕💓❤️ However, I’d like everyone of you to know I’m a 95 liner and I will not accept applications from those born after 98′ 💕💓❤️

Although I’m bi + had ex-bf before... I am (as of right now) on the fence about men personally in my personal life (disclaimer) because I’ve got a week of quarantine, thus I haven’t been doing the do and can think clearly for once. I am contemplating. Men. And the necessity in life. Y know?

Although my love life is free!! I am not excused from the occasional panic of having a crush (annually). I’m lucky enough to go through it just once every year, but every time it happens I am an absolutely clown + always in turmoil. It’s what happens when you’re a sag venus who can’t control your p***y brain. Luckily, my crush just have to insult me or make me explain things from my past and then I’d be too traumatize to crush on them again. It’s quite effective, and works out best for all of us! 💕💓❤️

I’ll refrain from talking about my ex because I know I have a habit of recounting the good and being mushy. Even if we ended it on rocky terms. So! I’ll save everyone from that. 💕💓❤️

Friends (expanded, clarifications?)

The ones I mention on the blog are usually

taurus/taurus,

cancer/cancer,

leo/libra,

leo/cap (x2),

virgo/sag,

libra/aries (x2),

scorpio/sag,

scorpio/cap,

sag/taurus,

pisces/scorpio,

pisces/aqua,

Oof that’s alot.. This might be better to outline in a timeline format... so leo/libra, scorpio/sag, libra/aries and partially virgo/sag are whom I grew up for the majority of my childhood-teenage life! 💕💓❤️

They obviously made a very big impact on me! 💕💓❤️ They’re with me through thick/thin, leo/libra (sag rising) is the extrovert of the bunch. He’s one of my best friends, close guy friend, most of the time I too find him a little exasperating because he’s.. well its his problem so nevermind, but he’s also very endearing! 💕💓❤️ If it wasn’t for him-- well, there’s also another leo I thought was very endearing in a little brother kind of way. So leos to me have a very positive influence in my life, they’re very cute especially when they ask for your attention. I think they are like puppies/kitties when they are needy, and their blatant way of just being themselves always makes me feel refreshed + I admire them for it. In the end, I’m totally heart-eyes endeared for Leos! 💕💓❤️

Scorpio/sag is also my best friend! 💕💓❤️ She’s a taurus rising, and she’s so sweet, kind, chatty and very open/friendly to people! 💕💓❤️ Her, my cousin (who’s also a scorpio but a scorpio/pisces), and quite a few of my other best friends who are scorpios - actually made me realize they’re not like what they’re usually describe as. Maybe that’s just me? But I think they’re very sweet and comforting to be around, not to mention they’re quite supportive and willing to listen when you’re having a tough time with something!! 💕💓❤️The pillar of support and one of the few rare people I don’t mind interacting with (actually crave interacting with them) because of just how chill they are, I wish more people recognize that in a scorpio! 💕💓❤️

Libra/Aries is one of my longest childhood friend, probably from birth! 💕💓❤️ He’s a supportive big brother type figure. But he can be very silly and he doesn’t hold himself so seriously most of the time! 💕💓❤️ Whilst he’s very understanding and quite nosy with others, he tries to be subtle/sleek but he isn’t! I think he’s very endearing when he wants to be, and he deserves someone who loves him lots as well 💕💓❤️ We reunited for the first time in 6 years the other day? And I think we both ended up crying a little and holding hands because we miss each other alot! 💕💓❤️ It was very nice, I think he’s much more emotional (just suppressed) than what people realize! 💕💓❤️ He’s very caring though - like willing to talk you through your problems and make sure you’re taken care of, back on your feet, but also willing to smile scarily at people who’ve hurt you and actually take them to court/yell at them for you. I think its very sweet! 💕💓❤️

Virgo/Sag is someone I hung out with for a short period of time, but kept in contact with periodically throughout my life because we ended up going through similar majors/path in life! 💕💓❤️ She’s someone who’s very caring, wants to take care of you, when she’s endeared by you she makes sure to dote on you often! 💕💓❤️ Actually, she’s born a day after Namjoon I think? But that’s not the point, the thing is - she’s my virgo/sag and when she’s not by my virgo/sag she’s super cool and I can see that many of our friend respects her/think she’s very mature + she’s the Shit! 💕💓❤️ I really admire her too and I think she’s super cool, but more than that, I love how caring and tender she is. She’s the best 💕💓❤️

These are the people I grew up with, and then I went to college and met/lived with Scorpio/Cap + Pisces/Scorpio+Aqua.

Scorpio/Cap and I actually hit it off since the first day? We were in orientation, and we’re both talkative I guess! But in similar ways. He appreciates my bluntness/sense of humour and I like that he’s sarcastic and the only one engaging enough to be around/paying attention to what’s happening. We went to a house party together and then had 1 class together the semester. After that, me and him decided we’d live together off campus (along with our other friend who fell through, I think he’s a Leo?) - whilst we lived together we share majors in the same division, on holidays or at night after class, we’d grab dinner together + walk there, or we’d eat at home and binge watch a marathon he’d pick together. 💕💓❤️ It’s really fun! 💕💓❤️

Both of us like cooking, so he’d make dishes/drinks and I’d do that and we’d coerced each other to hang out in the living space together. Basically, we’re there to force each other to socialize/hang out with people and also encourage each other. It’s very fun! But we also had moments where we’d buy each other dinner/go to art galleries/exhibit together. There’s more serious too of course, like talking about our problems or worrying about stuff. But I think I found someone who looks out for me/I can look out for him, be confidants for each other and not be embarrassed with each other. Besides this, he also found my p0rn collection and suddenly mentioned it when we’re on campus so now I can never unfriend him because he has blackmail material on me. I’m forced to be his friends forever now.

Pisces/Cap and Pisces/Aqua are my roommates after Scorpio/Cap - actually, Pisces/cap invited me to live with them when I was finding a place, it was very fortunate! 💕💓❤️ We’re all close friends because we live in the same hall during first year, plus me and Pisces/cap (and a Gemini friend) would get drunk + go to parties together so!! This is very convenient! 💕💓❤️

Actually.. Pisces/cap, me and Gemini friend.. I went with Gemini friend to buy his apartment with him (along with his friends, I’m good friends with them too) and Pisces/cap went with him to buy furnitures lmao! 💕💓❤️ And then me and Pisces/cap moved in together, although I didn’t room with them. I roomed with Pisces/Aqua whom till this date is my favourite roommate I’ve ever lived with! 💕💓❤️

It’s a little messy with Pisces/Cap but not in a? bad way? at all? Like we’re close friends who still talk often, but they did confess once over the holidays, and I turned them down (that was when I was about to move in) - we did make out along with pisces/aqua but like.. that’s... I guess that’s normal for college y know? We did a couple projects together for their class, like a comic about me and gemini friend, poems, photography, I drew them something. And I think they did have something with Gemini friend as well but! Gemini friend moved away on the last year so it never went anywhere there.

But these are all good memories we had together and it’s not like-- bad at all, I don’t ever think badly at them for it because it was honest to them/for them, it was their emotions and tenderness from the heart? I can’t ever look down on anyone for that or judge them for being true to themselves, I actually think they’re very brave to be able to heal themselves and process things especially involving emotions like that. I also think these are all precious and honest memories, being friends with them definitely helped me grow my EQ by so much. Without them, I’d be very close-minded today! 💕💓❤️

Pisces/aqua is my roommate for a long time, and I love them to bits too! 💕💓❤️ They have two cats, both I love so so much and would sacrifice getting up for very often! 💕💓❤️ More than that, Pisces/aqua is so smart and able to pick things up immediately! It’s honestly very admirable, how they pierce things together. Whether it’s tarot or astrology, they’re the one who got me into this actually? 💕💓❤️ It was their interest before it became mine through proxy or maybe osmosis lmao, but they’re quite judgey and sometimes have a ? idk, superiority complex/elitist attitude towards stuff sometimes? So I never really talked about it much with them because it can get really frustrating sometimes 💕💓❤️ I do love them lots though, I can be ignorant of a lot of things and really slow on the uptake, but they’re very nice and kind and patient with me - honestly they’re as patient as a saint sometimes with me. And I’m really really thankful to them for it! 💕💓❤️ They’re getting married this year to a Scorpio! 💕💓❤️

Taurus/taurus and Cancer/cancer are my college best friends. Actually we hang out outside of class too! 💕💓❤️ I celebrated cancer/cancer’s birthday with them and their friends/roommates and it’s really fun. Heres why it’s -- like, momentous. It’s because my college classmates are more like colleagues or co-workers, so we don’t usually have that kind of camaraderie outside of first year. Plus, we’re all kind of working or busy with our private life outside of class - so it’s hard to reconvene that with who you know in classrooms.

They like their private life separated from the college one, which is what I prefer as well. I really adore them though, since we have a major that usually makes us get little to no sleep and have to stay at school at night-till morning most nights (for programs on the computer or printing facilities, rip) -- they’re the one who would either stay up with me, working together at the same table and we can ask each other for fresh eyes on our work. Or they’d motivate me to go home and not be stupid to stay at school. Or they’d drive me home so they know I get back safely/on time. It’s just -- I adore them so much they’re very very good! 💕💓❤️

Taurus/Taurus is also a college best friend whom I befriended later on in the years, they’re really sweet! 💕💓❤️ We have more of a friendship where we spend time outside together, walking in the city trying out a new cake store or just going back to their place to play games or talk about what else we have going on in our lives. They’re really busy!! Since they’re involved in church activities, they travel to another town an hour away every sunday - their dedication to their work, school and church (AND spending time with their fiance’s family + fiance) is amazing! 💕💓❤️ They also got me my first job at the firm they’re working in, in our last years - I made sure they’re not too tired and get their work done on time so they don’t rush their finished project. Or give better advice if the teacher is making them fume. I really like them lots too, we had alot of fun together AND they’re a foodie! 💕💓❤️

There’s another Libra/Aries whom I knew from college, while I was still living with Scorpio/Cap - I was in another town/not the same town as the Pisces back then. But Libra/Aries was close and she’d come by often! We’d travel the city together, lay on the lawn, go to parks together or exhibit. They’re very proactive and we spend a lot of time talking about work and projects, personal interests, when we watch movies together - we’d spend time sitting in cafes after watching them to talk for hours/until closing about the movie ( ‘we have alot to unpack’) -- they’re a lot of fun to talk to because they’re just as intense about stuff! 💕💓❤️ And their interest is genuine, give good hugs, a little too loud for our cats but she means well! 💕💓❤️

This is brief recount of everyone, mostly focusing on activities we did together but knowing them as people obviously made a big impression on me! 💕💓❤️

Leo/Caps are people I met since I finished college/working now, they’re my two admins on the blog actually! 💕💓❤️So internet friends, but I really click with and they’re soothing + fun to be around when I’m home/anywhere! 💕💓❤️

Sag/Taurus is also another internet friend, I’ve known her for a year now? But man, every conversation is an adventure and she’s so fun to be around! 💕💓❤️ Also very sweet and an extremely kind person, in a fire sign kind of way. Which means a lot of gawking from me and very loud laughs. But yes! 💕💓❤️ Very good people! 💕💓❤️

I do have friends from work... but well we’re not close enough for me to actually consider them good friends/talk about them personally? They’re nice! But I have yet to form a more positive opinion about them - it’s positive and negative, so I’ll see who survives and come through as a person I’d like to hang out with outside of work. 💕💓❤️

To Virgo/Pisces anon:

Here’s my best friend application do I make the cut please reply 💕💓❤️

#about me #phew this took a while to answer!#virgo/pisces anon #are we best friends now pls tell me #anon #asks

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purplesurveys · 4 years

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Do you have any friends who are on and off with bfs/gfs all the time? Yeah, Jo and Aya don’t make the most stable couple. They had one really problematic stint last year where they would break up and get back together every week. They ironed it out eventually and they’ve been ok for a while, but lately I think it’s a little rocky again because I no longer see them interacting and they’ve been retweeting stuff that gives me a few hints. I wouldn’t be surprised if they’ve broken it off for good. When was the last time you almost cried out of exhaustion? Ohhhh boy. It was some day in Feb I think? and everything had just been going wrong for me. Andrew and I got yelled at by our thesis adviser because she didn’t like what we submitted and she gave us a day to revise three entire chapters. We stayed in the college working away from 3 PM to 10 PM then when I got home, I realized I forgot to bring with me a certain item that my org entrusted me with. Absolutely wasn’t allowed to lose it. Had a panic attack and this was when I started crying because it was so late and I just wanted to go to bed; though Andrew saved my ass by offering to go back to school at like 11:30 just to retrieve the damn thing. Lastly, that was a time when business reporting was still giving me hell and I was struggling to find a business story around campus to turn in for that week, so I was freaking out about that too. All in all a shit day. What`s a TV show you hate missing? Idk man, if I miss a show I don’t think there’d be hate attached to it. I imagine I’d miss a show because it made me happy, so this doesn’t make a lot of sense to me. Do you think it’s funny how people always say their pet is the best ever? It’s adorable haha but not necessarily funny. Whenever someone says it I totally believe them; I think all pets are the best :) When did you last brush your teeth? This morning.

What was the last website (besides this one) that you visited? I checked my Twitter right before this question. Do you have a friend who you think you’ll be best friends with forever? Yes, Angela is for keeps. Does it annoy you when you accidentally delete things? For the most part I can just undo and get the deleted thing back, but when that’s not applicable it can get super distressing. I know I was gloomy for a very long time when I accidentally wiped out my camera roll with photos from 2014-2016. What`s a movie / book / TV show / band / whatever you highly recommend? Movie: Ferris Bueller’s Day Off Book: Got nothing in this department. Show: BoJack Horseman Band: Paramore ha. They got a sound for almost everyone! When did you last use a dictionary / thesaurus? Two questions ago when I was looking for an adjective to best describe what it’s like to lose your entire camera roll and, essentially, good memories that you’ve made. Are you anticipating or dreading anything? I ammmmmm anticipating dinner haha. I can’t think of anything I’m dreading.

If someone could randomly give you something right now what would you like? Baked sushi :( It’s a recent trend locally and it looks so gooddddd, I just don’t wanna spend the last of my savings on it or ask my parents to buy a tray for me. What`s the most annoying thing in the world? At the moment it’s people who refuse to wear masks because they claim that it messes with their oxygen level or because they find it personally uncomfortable. When did you last use one of those water slides you put on hills? I have no clue what you mean. What are you sitting on right now? One of the dining room chairs. What skills would you like to learn / develop? Adobe Indesign and iMovie. I dabbled with these recently – Indesign for a class and iMovie to make a video for Gabie – and though I was always too scared to start using programs like these, I actually found them fun and super useful when I finally had my hands on them. When we saw each other the other day Gab was talking about using this break to take up workshops in different Adobe programs so that she’ll have more stuff to put on her resumé, so I might follow her footsteps too. What is something other people say you’re good at but you think you’re not? Teaching. I always feel like I fumble a lot, but idk I get compliments on it so I guess I’m kinda okay but I just don’t see it. What does your bedside lamp look like? I don’t have one. I used to have a wall light though. It was a just tiny lil bulb that I had to plug in to give my room a light orange hue. What did you last take a photograph of? Myself and Cooper. When was the last time you got really frustrated with technology? Yesterday. My laptop was a bit slow when I wanted my YouTube video to go full-screen, and my impatient ass already got irritated with it. What was the last funny thing someone said to you? She didn’t technically ‘say’ it but my mom was singing a song earlier and had the lyrics wrong, and what came out of her mouth instead was so wrong and so funny. Who taught you to tie your shoelaces? My grandmother. What was the last thing you bought? I bought snacks from my girlfriend’s dad Korean food business! I got myself odeng (fishcakes) and tteokbokki (spicy rice cake) :) Do you want to move to somewhere else? If so, where? Any country with a capable government at this point. What time is it where you are? 8:04 PM. What’s your favourite picture of yourself as a child? I’m not sharing that on here, but I do have my favorites.

Do you like your neighbours? I suppose they’re okay, in a sense that they haven’t done anything to annoy me. I’ve never talked to them in the last 12 years that I’ve lived here though haha I always felt like my mom could take care of the socializing stuff – and she has been. Does your room need to be cleaned? Nah I’m barely in it these days. It’s mostly spotless and things are stacked up neatly. Do you have a good relationship with your family? I wouldn’t say it’s good, but it’s not bad. Super lacking in the emotional aspect, though, and it’s a big reason why at the end of the day I can’t call it a good relationship. What is something people are surprised to hear about you? That I don’t like fruits. The horrified gasps and expressions never get old. Do you make judgments about people straight after meeting them? Only if they blatantly act like a jerk. Do you hate any particular groups of people? I mean I hate racists, abusers, rapists, Karens... but if you mean to ask if I hate any race or people of a certain sexual/gender orientation then most definitely not. Do you fall up or down stairs usually? Down :( Do you constantly break things? (By mistake or otherwise) HAHA yes. What was the last bug you saw? Kinda looked like a moth but I’m not sure what it was exactly. Are there any smells which make you feel nauseous? Rotten egg, any fruits lol. What is the scariest thing you`ve ever gone through? Random men play-lunging at me when I’m walking outside and then laughing once I jump or whimper. I don’t know if there’s a certain script that those fucking pigs follow, but I’ve had several of the exact same experiences through the years. That’s why my friends can always poke fun at the fact that I drive everywhere no matter how close my destination is – at least I feel safest that way. Do you have anything unusual in your bag? No. I only carried the essentials in the last bag I used when I went out the other day. Are there any people you know in real life that you only talk to online? Yeah, there’s a bunch of people I don’t really get to see irl. Some of them are friends who’ve migrated, some are my friends’ parents, my relatives who’ve always lived in the US, etc. Do you think people who don`t care about education are dumb? In the Philippines they will definitely be considered careless, dumb, and having no ambition. But I know education isn’t as big of a priority in other countries and that college isn’t a necessity in those places, so I guess there’s a cultural difference here. What`s your favourite key on a keyboard? I don’t pick favorite keyboard buttons lol. Do you always finish what you start? Nah I’m a little terrible at that, especially if we’re talking of passion projects. I collected Starbucks planners for like six years and was never able to completely fill up any one of them. Who`s your favourite character from The Simpsons? Or do you hate that show? I’m not a big fan of the show but just because I relate to her a lot and the fact that she’s intelligent and a goody-two-shoes, Lisa. Have you ever had any friends who always tried to steal your things? Nah wtf? I’d so easily stop talking to them if all they did was steal from me lmao What is something you will never understand? People!!! Who!!! Aren’t!!! Nice!!! To!!! Servers/Baristas/Anyone working in a job that has to directly deal with customers!!! When did you last laugh hysterically? Probably earlier this afternoon watching a Good Mythical Morning episode.

#survey #surveys

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no-d4y-but-tod4y · 4 years

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First off, I AM SO GLAD YOU LIKE THE QUESTIONS!! Dude, ahem, right and now I am composed, I ask you all of the IRL Thinking Game Asks, because I'm legit about to do them all and I refuse to the be the only one *Mega hugs* I bet your answers are going to be awesome. 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9 & 10 if we have to be official :D lol

WAIT Y O U WROTE THE QUESTIONS??? Lmao I had no idea! Hahahaha. Well good job!

You want me to answer all of them?? Lmao. Here goes nothing...

1) Has your FO ever caught you off guard IRL, and if so, what was your reaction? (So we are looking for moments where you saw their advertising in an unexpected place, or they were mentioned by someone unexpectedly, etc? And how you reacted to that).

Yes! All the time! Sometimes it’s easy to forget just how transcendent in popular culture rocky horror actually is. SO many people know the film and so many have seen the show. The longest theatrical release in cinematic history with the biggest cult following!

Rocky horror references do often pop up in tv shows, movies and on social media in general, and while few are directly referencing frank it still makes my heart go !!! when I’m just enjoying my day and I see it.

One time I specifically remember was when I was actually doing Christmas shopping, on my own just going in all the stores and having a good time. And I went into HMV and there was an ‘essential musicals’ section right at the front and guess who was taking up the entire display 👀 and I literally said ‘oh my god’ out loud so I hope nobody heard me!

2) If someone visited your house without any prior knowledge of your FO, would they be able to work out the connection through the items you own? (In other words, how any depictions of your FO are their in your house, and would it be obvious to a complete stranger that you love them?)

I guess so? I think they’d clock that I was a fan of rocky horror but maybe not the whole f/o thing. I have a signed picture of Tim Curry as Frank in my room and I have the film on DVD which I’ve watched five billion times. I have a cast signed DVD cover too with splices of the film reel in the frame, but I haven’t decided what to do with that one yet because you can only see them when the light is shining behind them lmao. And I guess if anyone read my fanfic they’d realise too. But most people know I love rocky horror/love frank because it’s all I talk about rather than material possessions lmao.

3) For those who are creatively minded: Where do you get your muse from? Just how do you create your awesome artwork/stories, and what inspires you?

Uhh, well I’m gonna go with my fanfic for this one because it’s the only thing to do with frank that I’ve created lmao. It’s still not finished by the way, but two years in the making! And I guess I wanted to start one because I’d been reading loads and although they were very good I didn’t feel like the depiction of frank was always accurate (or the way I imagined him to be). And I’ve always wanted to be a writer of some sort and I thought I could at least practice with something I already know and like. I didn’t expect to fall in love with it however and I’m still doing it now!

And I studied Media for two years, so I was always watching films and analysing scripts and shit like that, and being exposed to all that art all the time was really inspiring to me. I wanted to be like them, and I still do. If you choose to read my fic following on from this post, lemme know and say hi!

4) Angst: Have you ever struggled with the knowledge that you and your FO might never inhabit the same world?

Y E S. Some people might already know that I was conflicted about doing this for ages because as much as I understand selfshipping doesn’t hurt anyone, I didn’t wanna start longing for something I couldn’t have and then constantly feeling deprived. I WON’T catch feelings, I WON’T.

Lol what an idiot.

And I guess I just,,,love frank so much. And I think about him all the time. The turning point for me was definitely seeing him on stage, and having him that close to me sort of thing. And while I know that was just an actor - a normal guy with a kick ass singing voice dressed up - like, for those two hours,,,,it was really him? You know?? And then i got SO sad and emotional in the two weeks or so afterwards because I missed it so much and then I kind of had to accept that maybe this is a real thing now huh.

I would love to know what he’s really like and ask him shit and find out if he’s been in touch with me this whole time as well. But ultimately I’d wanna know if he’s proud of me. That’s the only thing that matters really.

5) If the Fates granted you a year with your FO in whichever world you wanted, at the cost of forgetting about them once that year was over, would you take them up on the offer?

I think I would? Based on what I just said in the previous ask and because if I forgot frank existed I wouldn’t have anything to miss? Although I’d have a feeling I’d wait till next year/my 21st because I’m still dealing with a lot of shit and I’d want to get that out the way first so I could really enjoy my time with him and not have to worry about anything else.

6) On the subject of Fates: Was the meeting between you and your most prominent FO ordained by Fate, or was it something you sought out? (In other words, did you fall in love easily and quickly, or did the Universe conspire against you to make this the person you now love?)

Uhhh....I don’t know? Basically what happened was I watched the film for the first time when I was 13. Secretly. And I didn’t tell anyone. Because I’d heard of it vaguely and recognised the title and of COURSE I knew the Time Warp, but everyone around me who ever mentioned it talked as if it were a bad thing, or a bit gross and weird? So I thought it was a bad thing to be watching it, however I was still intrigued so I did. AND I WAS ALSO BATTLING WITH THE WHOLE LIKING MEN WHO LOOKED LIKE WOMEN THING (because I thought I was abnormal to be thinking that and THAT was wrong as well) so when frank came out I was like gee. Thanks for that.

It was easy for me to not talk about it and to just get on with my life as normal until I turned about 15 when I watched the live show broadcast from London to cinemas around Britain and on TV as well. And don’t tell frank but THAT got the ball rolling for me. Seeing him as a real person reacting to what people were saying and doing made it harder for me to ignore those feelings if you catch my drift. So I kind of tested the water and luckily most people were like cool beans.

But when I went to college and everyone was relieved to finally be themselves I LET IT ALL GO and it became my BRAND to be obsessed with frank. And I loved it.

Gee. Which one do you guys think this is?

7) How often, when you are out and about alone, do you imagine your FO is with you? And what is the best imagining you’ve had recently?

ALL THE TIME. Literally every day. I’m an anxious person and small things continuously set me off so imagining a tall strong intimidating looking person but who’s a softie for me is really really comforting. And it helps with my daily life because I can make a conscious effort to Be More Frank. Aka, not give a flying fuck!

My favourite imagine is hearing ab enormous crash and finding frank folded up like a human pretzel in my wardrobe n we’re both like 😳. But then I’d be like huh guess you’re staying with me now, so I take him to work with me and introduce him to everyone and maybe let him have a go at what I do like a take your kid to work day. And then I’d show him around to all my favourite places and introduce him to my friends and since they all know how obsessed I am they’d be like no waaaaaayyyyy. For some reason he’d have a loaf of his own bags already packed so I’d love to do a kind of unboxing video and see all the stuff frank would take with him if he was going on holiday. I’d teach him how to use public transport n I’d get him a phone and teach him how to use it and get set up on all the apps and I would LOVE TO SEE WHAT HE POSTS and something else I’d love to do is give him some money and be like it’s yours buy whatever you want and then unbox all the bags he comes back with.

Not much then! Hehe.

8) If you were given the ability to legally marry your FO tomorrow, IRL, would you do it? And if you would, who would you invite, and if you wouldn’t, do you think it is something you would ever do?

I don’t think I would. Neither of us are keen on the idea of being tied down to anything. I don’t need a piece of paper to prove that I love him and aside from getting to wear a pretty dress and an entire day of attention, I don’t think frank is too fussed either!

Plus he can do all that shit at home hehe.

9) What do you imagine your life be like now, if your FO had never been in it?

I don’t know how to say this without sounding horrible but I don’t think it would be hugely different. Because I was so young when I ‘met’ him I don’t think it makes a difference, because no one can guess what their life is going to be like at 13.

Something that I do think would be different is I probably would have given in to social pressures and gotten myself a bf had I not toyed with this idea. I’ve been been interested in a bf/gf relationship, and having this to sort of account for what I would otherwise be experiencing without actually having to experience it? Sign me up.

10) And a happy one: Your FO manages to make contact with you in our world and leaves you a message on a mirror/other flat surface, what does the message say, and is that surface ever washed again?

Hi darling! I’m honoured to see you’ve kept me in your thoughts for all these years - although it’s worth saying you’ve always been in mine. I know I can’t be near you all the time but I hope you can sense when I am. I know you get scared sometimes but rest assured that I am keeping an eye on you and I’d never let anything bad happen to you. It’s no secret that you’re afraid of failing or being left behind while others accomplish their dreams but I know you can do this and I think you know it too - you just need a bonk on the head sometimes. Whatever happens, I’m proud of you. I’ve always been proud of you.

If you are not too long, I’ll wait for you all my life.

Love,

Frankie 💋

( @dclehnsherr )

#asked and answered #my favourite obsession #frank n furter #long post

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ettawritesnstudies · 5 years

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Storge Character Introductions - Meet Enne!

Age: 19

Gender: She/Her

Race: Human - ok so the world of Laoche doesn’t have parallels to any country or ethnicity in irl earth and so I can’t say that the Laine family is “African-American/white mixed race” but that’s the easiest way to describe them. The city-state of Maaren is nestled in a bay on the ocean with weather and geography similar to Egypt or Jorden - hot, dry, and rocky desert where there’s not river and irrigation. They’re a major trading port and so it’s a very diverse area in terms of skin color to the point where skin-color means essentially nothing in terms of status/social standing/racism - instead, the caste system is divided by magic. The Laine family is from the lower class of workers and common people - the Debilan.

Occupation: Since Enne is blind, many of the shopkeepers in their area are unwilling to employ her. At the beginning of the story, she does whatever menial jobs people are willing to pay her for, such as shelling peas or other repetitive tactile tasks. Her mother taught her all she knows academically, and she aspires to open a school for other blind children using the same techniques her mother used for her.

Physical Appearance: Enne has warm brown skin with golden undertones and freckles dusted across her nose. Her dark brown hair is shoulder length and cork-screw curly. Her blindness was caused by a concussion when she was very young, and so her eyes aren’t cloudy but they do wander if she doesn’t focus. She dresses neatly in carefully mended dresses and wears one gold loop earring.

Relationships: Enne is a sarcastic and suspicious introvert who doesn’t make friends easily, but she’s very close with her parents and grandmother, Nonna. She loves her younger siblings dearly but also doesn’t hesitate to call them dumb for their bad decisions (in true eldest sister fashion :P). Chara eventually does break through her hard outer shell and they become good friends after that.

Likes: a meticulously organized and clean house, the color yellow and soft things, learning about whatever she can get her hands on

Dislikes: When Luca or Grace move her stuff without asking, people trying to “help” her with stuff she’s perfectly competent at doing, and when someone doesn’t announce their presence so she’s left guessing at who’s talking to her

Mannerisms and Personality: Life has not been kind to the Laine family which has left Enne very cynical and bitter in certain respects, hence her harsh facade. Her younger sibling’s complete lack of impulse control does nothing to help her anxiety at times. At heart, she just wants their life to be stable and for her family to be safe, and she does her best to stay optimistic in the face of a tough situation because she feels she should be strong for the others. When she’s not in a stressful situation, she’s very enthusiastic about her passions and interests.

Enne gave a long-suffering sigh. “If I could roll my eyes any farther back in my head, I’d be able to perform brain surgery on myself, but then I’d actually be able to see this wretched place and wouldn’t that be unfortunate, hmm?”

More hooting from the peanut gallery. Whoever they were, Enne hoped they had her side. Esil silenced them with a glare.

“Look, I’m blind, and you have me captured in what sounds like a heavily guarded room, most likely far from the city, and I don’t have my cane. If you untie me, I’m not going to escape. And my arms really hurt.”

Image Credits!

Character portrait - All my character portraits were done by the amazing Annabel @midnightblueart._ on Instagram! My best friend commissioned all 5 portraits from her and she did an absolutely incredible job! The Avian siblings in particular were really tricky and she was so patient and positive through the whole process. 30/4 recommend checking her out - she’s a fantastic artist and was really fun to work with!

Other images in collage - all of these are stock photos from the website upslash.com. They’re all free, creative domain pictures that you can download for whatever reason. Also super recommend checking that out and all credit goes to the respective posters.

#storge #storgewip #writeblr #character introduction #character bio #character aesthetic #Enne Laine #fantasy #fantasywip

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naylar-draws · 5 years

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so like could you tell us why strickler deserved to die

Lol I was not expecting someone to ask about that tag!

Boy oh boy ask and you shall recieve

(I did not intend for the reply to be this long but like here’s another essay length meta)

I don’t think Strickler as a character deserved to die, he’s far from the most heinous character in TH. But from a storytelling standpoint, I think killing him off in the s3 finale would have improved Trollhunters as a whole. For that point to make sense I’m gonna need to explain a few things first:

~1700 words under the cut

1) It is more or less an unspoken rule that if an action/adventure oriented story (be it a show, film, book, etc) wants to feel like it has real stakes, a character needs to die. Not just any character, but a main character or an important side character. This isn’t always the case, and I personally don’t think that there needs to be a death to make a story feel more real (No one died in ATLA’s finale), but that’s the trend and is often the easiest, most basic way to things. If utilized right, it can have a huge impact (Ned Stark in game of thrones, Boromir in fellowship)

2) A good finale/climax of a story wraps up the story’s themes and emotional core. It emphasizes it in some way, or offers commentary on it. IMHO a lot of TV and comic book finales can fall short because this. And its not necessarily the creators’ faults, its simply the structure of the industry. Often times a tv finale will be made before the creative team knows whether or not there will be a next season, or they’ll only be given a handful of episodes to wrap up the series. Same with comics. Good climaxes that incorporate a story’s theme off the top of my head are TAZ Balance, Guardians of the Galaxy, and Rocky.

3) A character death needs to mean something, either as a way to complete their character arc, or to comment on some overarching theme, or even to further another character’s development. (Boromir again, Gamora in Infinity War - yes I know she’s coming back - all the fucks that die in Last Stand of the Wreckers)

4) Positive actions should have payoffs. This is kind of cynical, but narratively, if a story wants to say that something is good, there should be a tangential positive effect for that action. For example, in TAZ balance, the theme is that you should choose love and that the bonds we build in life are just like really awesome man, and in the finale those bonds were actively used as a positive game mechanic which helped the heroes to defeat the enemy. Even if the story’s message is that we should do good even if it doesn’t benefit us, there’s still a positive effect to doing good that needs to be portrayed, for instance it could be “gets you into heaven” “makes you happy“ or “helps other people”.

Okay so that out of the way, I’m going to look at all of this through the lens of Trollhunters as a standalone series, instead of a trilogy. I know that there might be reasons the creative team decided to kill off some characters and not others that’ll be made apparent in Wizards. But since Wizards is a separate tv show from TH, its quality and the quality of Trollhunters should be looked at both individually as well as together. And since Wizards ain’t out I’m looking at TH on its own.

Oki Doki so, onto the meat of it. Trollhunters doesn’t really have any overarching theme or message. Bravery and becoming a hero could be contenders but imo that’s kinda lukewarm. I think an unrealized theme that could’ve been is that of redemption, and the idea that people can change if motivated to do so or offered a chance. One of the things that makes Tollhunters interesting and unique is its sheer amount of redeemed villains. We have Draal in the first six episodes, then Strickler, NotEnrique, Nomura, and Angor Rot. Not to mention Steve, and Aaarrrgghh, whose redemption arc happened before the show started. There are more redeemed villains than villains that stay villains.

And then there’s the people that change but not for the better, like Merlin, who apparently was once a pure and ideal heart, and potentially Morgana.

And then there’s Jim, who is remarkable because of his heart. He gives people chances, offers them friendship where other Trollhunters would have antagonized them. The theme would be basically give people a chance/the benefit of the doubt, reach out an olive branch, it might just make them friends. (And if they don’t take the opportunity to improve murder their faces.)

The TH climax was adequate, it wrapped up the plot, set up for a sequel, and had a decent escalation of action. But honestly, I personally thought the build up to the finale was much better than the finale itself. Though this is just like my opinion man, and if anyone thought it was great, cool.

The character that dies in the finale is Angor Rot. He changes sides and sacrifices himself helping the team battle Morgana. And, like, I always found it just kind of… meh? Like I’m sad that he died he was a great character but his death scene seems so pointless (like Draal’s). As I mentioned on point 3, Angor’s death doesn’t really mean anything. It doesn’t further another character, comment on a theme, and it’s an okay I guess conclusion to his redemption arc. The issue I have with it is that it’s not the natural conclusion to an arc for a character like him to have. We are never told that Angor Rot fears death. He died once and was miffed about it, but we never see an aversion to dying again. No, we see that Angor’s greatest fears are Morgana, and fading away or some shit. If the creators wanted to really write Angor off the show what they should have done was have him be the one to tackle Morgana into the shadow realm and never come back, thus facing an eternity with the one he fears most, the person who stole his soul and turned him into a slave.

BUT IF SOMEONE HAS TO DIE I think an even better death that would have been even better for the show, would be if Strickler sacrificed himself instead and Angor Rot was used to parallel Draal at the beginning of season 1. This would ultimately bring the show full circle and tie the finale in with the rest of the show, and helped realize a theme about redemption.

Strickler would have to sacrifice himself at some other conveniently point that relates to his character more, and the whole finale would have to be restructured, but here’s why I think it would’ve been better:

Strickler is a character who is introduced in the very beginning of the show and remains a constant throughout. He has the most nuanced and prolonged redemption arc of all the characters. He starts out as a self-serving Starscream trope who looks out for himself above all else. Throughout the show, he falls in love with someone and forms a father/son bond with Jim. If you follow the sort of character arc of someone who starts off cowardly and selfish and then learns to care about others to its logical conclusion, you find yourself at the point where the character must sacrifice something in order to prove their change, usually what they originally value most. Throughout the show we see Strickler try so hard and do so much to preserve his own life. What Strickler at the beginning of TH values most is obviously his own life. This is a man who greatly fears death. I’m sure you see where I’m going with this.

It would have been a great conclusion to his character if he sacrificed himself in order to save Barbara and/or Jim. Also it would show that positive payoff to Jim choosing to trust Strickler. If Jim hypothetically didn’t trust Strickler and give him a chance to redeem himself, then hypothetically Strickler wouldn’t be able to sacrifice himself and thus Barbara would hypothetically die.

But who knows, Strickler could die in wizards ;)

Strickler dying would also leave room for Angor Rot surviving. And Angor Rot surviving if done right, could be used to further development with Jim and reinforce that he still has his heart despite sacrificing his humanity. It could also give a reason to Draal’s pointless death (further Jim’s and Angor’s developement).

Here’s what I propose could’ve been done with Angor Rot if he didn’t die: He can turn on Morgana and maybe even appear like he’s going to die. Jim is given a choice of whether or not to save Angor Rot, and maybe at this point or sometime previous in the finale reiterate that Angor killed Draal and Jim’s mad about it. Jim is half troll now, he’s different, angrier and less forgiving, maybe all of its getting to him and the audience is made to wonder if Jim might become more like Merlin (who was once like Jim but became crueler) or if he still has the heart that made him so great in the first place. He’s at a crossroads deciding which path he’s going to go down. And then Jim saves Angor. Have it mirror in some way when Jim spared Draal that first time. Have Angor react similarly, being confused about it and be like “but I killed your buddy, you should let me die as revenge”, and maybe have Jim say something about how that’s not how he does it.

And then, and now I’m just going off and doing that whole “what I would’ve done” thing, but like and then as positive payoff to the good action of choosing to save Angor what if there’s one last scene at the end and it’s in Merlin’s tomb. We see Draal’s stony corpse, and then before it is a cauldron like how we saw with Aaarrrgghh, and it’s all steaming. And Angor’s hand stirs it. Then there’s a wide shot and we see Angor Rot standing before Draal’s corpse as it starts to fade back to living stone. Then Draal opens his eyes. And then cut to black credits role.

But like all of this just my opinion man. My rambling overly critical opinion that would get me weird looks if I talked about it irl lol

#ask #trollhunters #tales of arcadia #walter strickler #meta #words? on my art blog??

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wrath-and-ruin · 7 years

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92!!!!

Rules: Answer 92 statements and (if you want) tag some people. Thank you @savvy-mutant-turtle-banger for the tag!

Last: 1. Drink? Earl grey 2. Person you called? Husby 3. Person you texted? Step mother 4. Song you listened to? Power by Little Mix 5. Time you cried? Uhhhhm… like a month ago? Maybe…? 6. Dated someone twice? I guess if you count taking a break in a major relationship as ‘dating twice’ then like 6 years ago. 7. Kissed someone and regretted it? About 13 years ago. Got a bit too drunk… 8. Been cheated on? Yeah, about 6 years ago. 9. Lost someone special? My afi in 2006, a close friend in 2000. 10. Been depressed? Battling on and off for the past 8 years. 11. Gotten drunk and thrown up? About 8 moths ago. Drank and then smoked pot… silly me. Always do it the other way around.

List 3 favorite colours: 12. Burgundy 13. Byzantium 14. Cobalt

In the last year, have you: 15. Made new friends? Made a couple of really awesome ones right here on Tumblr, but I’m usually a pretty social person, and with my job I’m always meeting new people and making new friends. 16. Fallen out of love? Well… recently went through a bit of a rocky patch in my relationship (won’t get into details) but we were able to figure stuff out.. so no… as of yet. 17. Laughed until you cried? Of course. I love to laugh. 18. Found out someone is talking about you? Haven’t really found out anything specific… but I’m sure someone is. Some people don’t appreciate that I’m very upfront. 19. Met someone who changed you? I’ve met some pretty awesome people this year, and I do think a couple of them have positively influenced me, yes. 20. Found out who your friends are? I’ve known that for a long time. 21. Kissed someone on your Facebook list? Yup. Husby irl.

General: 22. How many on your Facebook list do you know? The majority. It’s rare I accept a friend request from someone I don’t know. 23. Do you have pets? One snake, Hubert. 24. Want to change your name? Uhm… no. Don’t think so. 25. Something you did for your last birthday? Dyed my hair purple. 26. What time did you wake up today? 7:05 approximately. 27. What were you doing last night at midnight? That’s rated MA… 28. Something you can’t wait for? To travel. 29. Last time you saw your mom? On Thursday. 30. Favorite food? Japanese. 31. What are you listening to right now? My kids laughing at the show they are watching in the other room… sounds like Transformers RID. 32. Talked to a person named Tom? This is a weird ass question. Yes, I’ve talked to a Tom. 33. Something that gets on your nerves? Passive aggressive people. Jut say what you mean, don’t do that manipulative read between the lines bullshit. 34. Most visited website? Oh… Uhm, probably a four way tie between Google, Pinterest, Tumblr, and Deviantart. 35. Background? Like… my heritage or my phone background? Phone is a snake… heritage is all over he place, but mostly Norwegian, Austrian, and Irish. 36. What are you wearing right now? A bra and sweatpants cuz it’s my day off! Woot! 37. Hobby? Way too fucking many. I write and draw, dance, do a bit of woodworking, play around with the forge, hike when I can, and read of course. 38. Hair colour? Natural is like a sandy blonde, but it’s currently half dyed, and the lower bit is a lighter golden blonde. 39. Long hair or short? Long 40. Do you have a crush on anyone? A few… 41. One thing you really like about you? I would have to say my confidence. We all have flaws, but the fact that I’ve made it to a place where I am quite comfortable with myself makes me really proud. 42. Piercings? Two in each ear 43. Blood type? This seems like an unnecessary thing for people to know… 44. Relationship status? Technically common law, but I call him husby because it’s been 10 years, and we are practically married. 45. Zodiac? Gemini 46. Nicknames? My full name is technically Jessi, but everyone calls me Jess. One of my best friends call me Jay. 47. Pronouns? I’m a she 48. Favorite TV show? Game of Thrones 49. Tattoos? None yet, but I’ve got plans for a few. 50. Right handed or left handed? Right 51. Have you ever had surgery? No. A couple kids and some broken bones but no surgery. 52. Favorite scent? Cinnamon, campfire smoke, sawdust, rain, freshly brewed coffee. 53. Sport? UFC, though I’ll watch football from time to time. 54. Vacation? I wish. Been all over Canada and the US, but I haven’t vacationed in a long while.

There were no 55 or 56 so BONUS QUESTIONS: 55. Fears? Dolls and clowns *shudder* 56. Aspirations? Wanna be a teacher. Wanna see the world.

More general: 57. What are you eating? A banana and some cashews. 58. What are you drinking? Coffee. 59. I’m about to? Go pay some bills. 60. What is one thing you are waiting for? To move. 61. One thing you want? More time to write and draw. 62. Getting married? Perhaps, eventually. Not in any huge rush. We’re already practically married, the rest is just paperwork as far as I’m concerned. 63. Career? Bartender and manager/supervisor.

Which is better? 64. Hug or a kiss? Well its rare that a kiss doesn’t come with a hug in my experience, so kiss. 65. Lips or eyes? Lips. Holy hell a man with a nice mouth… unf. Panty soup over here. 66. Shorter or taller? Taller. Like wayyyy taller. I have a size kink. 67. Older or younger? Preferably older. 68. Children or no children? Already got some. 69. Nice arms or nice stomach? Oh come on?! I don’t wanna choose! I want him to be shredded… like he could pick me up and crush me! 70. Random hookup or relationship? Currently, relationship, back in the day, hookups were preferable. 71. Troublemaker or hesitant? I bring the trouble.

Have you ever? 72. Kissed a stranger? Yes. 73. Drank hard liquor? Yes. 74. Lost glasses or contracts? Don’t have either… though I’ve lost my sunglasses a few times. 75. Turned someone down? On a regular basis… story of a bartender’s life. 76. Sex on a first date? Back in the day. 77. Broken someone’s heart? Yup. 78. (MAKING THIS ONE UP BECAUSE AGAIN THERE WAS A MISSING NUMBER) Broken someone’s face? Yup. 79. Had your heart broken. Once. 80. Been arrested? … maybe… 81. Cried when someone died? Yes. 82. Fallen for a friend? In high school.

Do you believe in: 83. Yourself? Yes. 84. Miracles? No. Make shit happen. 85. Love at first sight? Sure. 86. Santa Claus? No. 87. Kiss on a first date? If it went well. 88. Angels? I believe that ghosts and spirits are real, whether I would call them angels… probably not. 89. (ANOTHER MISSING NUMBER) Life after death? I think I’m a tiny speck in the universe and that there is no possible way for me to know exactly what awaits me. The possibilities are endless. There might be something I could never have imagined, or there might be nothing at all.

Other: 90. Name of current best friend? Stephanie. 91. Eye colour? Blue. 92. Favourite movie? Hmm that’s a tough one. I love Gladiator, Shawshank Redemption, the Hobbit trilogy, As Above So Below, the Secret of NIMH (I realize that’s a cartoon but it was my favorite as a kid and the animation is so dark and beautiful, so go ahead and judge me).

This one is a bit loaded, so I won’t tag anyone. If you want to do this please do!! I’d love to learn about all of you!!

#stuff about me #random #things

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lostsoulwolf · 7 years

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A Gig with A Skeleton

Here’s a little short story I made the night before based on an idea given to me by @thedragonlover, who is my irl best friend and who also helps to inspire me to get off my lazy ass to write when I feel down.

Thank you for the support, my dear! Don’t know what I’d do without you <3

“I-I don’t think I should do this, Steph. Really, I can’t.”

“Don’t be such a scaredy cat, Mikaela!” The young rabbit teased, jabbing the side of a very flustered wolf as they stood before the home of the famous (sometimes infamous) skeleton brothers of Snowdin.

Scowling at the obvious jab, the black furred monster found herself glancing at the doorbell anxiously. “Seriously, he’s looking for real talent. Not for someone who has no experience and can only sing when no one’s looking. Steph, I literally can’t do this!”

But it was too late.

A quick rap and the sound of heavy feet echoed in her pointed ears; she watched as her friend ran off with a shout of luck. Before she could even think to chase after her, the door opened to reveal a tall monster with a wide grin. “Oh! You must be here to audition! Sans will be so happy to see someone! You’re the first to show up!” he cheered, taking her shoulder and guiding her inside.

It took his firm grip to keep from tripping on the doorstep but Mikaela recovered as gracefully as she could, even wiping her pads off on the doormat just inside since their porch one was coated in snow. A quick glance around let her see the rather simple abode they called a home, not at all what the others guessed of the mysterious skeletons. They didn’t really have a history with the town but just sort of showed up one day, according to Steph’s mother who ran the inn just down the way. She recalled the story but never had the guts to talk to one of them about it. No one did.

Clearing her throat, finally finding her voice, the wolf scratched the back of her head. “S-Sorry to drop by. My friend thought it would be a good idea b-but I really think I should go. I mean--”

“You aren’t even going to give it a shot?”

The low baritone caught her off guard, yelping softly to find the shorter skeleton coming down the stairs with his hands casually shoved in his pockets. Permagrin as wide as ever, he approached and offered a handshake in greeting; oddly enough, no prank in sight.

Yes, this Sans was known for his jokes and practical pranks on most everyone. She, herself, had been lucky enough to avoid this but how was a mystery.

“Come on, throw me a bone here. Don’t leave me hanging.” he teased, brow bones wriggling in jest.

While the pun was insufferable, Mikaela took the extended palm with her own and gave it a firm squeeze. “I don’t think it’ll be anything but humerus to you but I’ll try, I guess…” she offered, earning a pleased snort from the male. His brother was less than enthused at the word play.

“Ugh! Honestly!” he shouted, storming off into the kitchen to let his brother have the pleasure of keeping the wolf company.

“Uh, did I do something?”

Waving off her concern, Sans shrugged. “Nah, he just doesn’t find jokes very punny, you know?”

Rolling her eyes, the canine followed his gesture and they headed back outside. With a turn to the left and the flick of a lock, they entered the spare shed beside the house where an acoustic guitar case, microphone, and stand were awaiting them.

“What do you play?”

His sudden question caught her wandering attention back onto him, glad that her dark fur shrouded any blush that heated her muzzle. “O-Oh, I don’t.” she amended, thinking that maybe saying what she did would have been a good start to this. “I sing, actually…”

It was then that she noticed how delicately he picked up the guitar, easily flicking the strap over his head to let it hang comfortably against his front and tuned it to his liking. “Singing, huh? Any favorites?”

She blinked. “Uh, well… I don’t really have a preference. I don’t really even sing around others but my friend has caught me once or twice and dragged me here.”

He stopped, pinpricks of light slanting over and making her feel small. “So, you didn’t come because you wanted to?”

“W-well, I wouldn’t say it like that--”

“I would.”

Mikaela hunched her shoulders, biting her lip. Shifting her stance proved to be more awkward than she imagined and nearly had her falling over, instead opting to scratch her forearm. “I do want to be here. It’s just…” A sigh. “I get nervous singing for others because I’m afraid of what they’ll think of me. I mean, my parents are part of the Royal Guard and I do what? Sing because it makes me feel good? Heh, what a joke.”

Sans studied her for a good two minutes, the silence deafening. Then, he too sighed. “I’m in the same boat, you know? My bro wants to do that and my lazy bones? Heh, I just wanna sit around and crack puns day and night.”

When he earned a look, he continued. “Everyone’s good at somethin’ and it doesn’t matter what others think of ya. Heck, it doesn’t matter what your parents do or anything. Just, do you. Get me?”

Blue eyes lowered from his form in thought, head turned as claws tapped against the hardwood floor of the shed. Then, with a flash of what he could only describe as determination in her eyes, she smiled.

“Alright, I’ll give it a shot.”

“Heh, that’s the spirit. Now that we’ve mutt-stered the courage, let’s get this show on the snow.”

A groan. “Are bad puns part of the gig?”

“Nah, just an added bonus~” he teased, strumming out a harmonious G chord. “Now, let’s hear those scales.”

Mikaela couldn’t believe this! Barely a day went by before she received a call from Sans to tell her that the spot was hers. While it was sad to hear that no one else even bothered to show up, she was thrilled yet terrified. Their first show together?

Grillby’s.

She knew most every monster in Snowdin since moving here on her own and just thinking about singing in front of them tied her stomach in knots. A glance to her partner only showed her his calm smile as they walked, carrying their equipment to the bar.

“Nervous?”

A blink. “Maybe a little… Why?”

“Because you haven’t stopped shaking since we left the house.” Sans mentioned, eyeing her hand for only a moment without changing stride. He used to perform to entertain his brother many times so he had plenty of trial-runs with an audience but just based on their practice, he knew it’d be off to a rocky start.

Mikaela tried hard to stave her nerves, swallowing to ease her words into existence. “This is my first time singing in public, you know… Actually, you’re the first person I ever willingly sang for. Not even my parents have heard me.” She nearly tripped at this admittance, running her paw through her fur to calm herself and play it off. “A-anyway, I just hope it won’t be too busy on a Thursday. It’s usually not, from what I remember, so maybe it won’t be so bad.”

Upon opening the door, she was proven wrong.

Nearly every booth was taken up by monsters of all kinds, ranging from the local dogs who acted as sentry for humans to the fang-lined flytrap who lived just north of the main street. Why in the world was it so packed?!

Ignoring how that thought alone was a pun, the wolf jolted when a hand touched hers and pulled it back to see Sans standing beside her. “Hey, lighten up, bucko. It’ll be fine. Grillbz just thought some music would drum up some business.” He bent his knees to avoid a whack to his head.

“Let’s just… get this over with.”

It took only ten minutes for the two of them to set up the mic stand, speaker, and stool for the show. They were a small gig and while Grillby didn’t seem to be actually paying them, he did offer to cover any kind of drinks they might need while performing.

Once the elemental left them to last moment prep before they began, allowing them access to his back room to warm up vocally, Mikaela sighed. “So, remind me again why we are doing this?” She cleared her throat, thinking that rephrasing might be in order. “Usually, when people are asked to perform, they’re paid but we’re not. What’s going on?”

“It’s simpler payment for something else.”

“Like his tab.”

Sans was the one to jump when Grillby came back, adjusting his glasses to appraise the two.

“He hasn’t paid in a long time so this was a better alternative.” Getting a nod from the wolf, he approached with a smile as he bent low towards her ear to keep the skeleton from overhearing. “After all, more business covers his tab.”

Then, she understood. It was make-up performances that kept their dynamic from sinking or turning nasty. Huh, the majesty of business at its finest.

Standing to his full height, his flames brushed back neatly and bowtie adjusted, the bartender merely patted Sans on the head before leaving them be again. Seemed like he had his fun.

A laugh came from Mikaela from the whole ordeal, for once finding comedy in the face of anxiety.

“What’s got you in stitches?”

“Just the idea of you drinking yourself into debt and the only way to pay it back is by performing for the guy.”

There was a pause before the male laughed as well, seeing the light as she did. “Heh, guess you’re right.” he agreed. Now that he thought about it, that was a strange little set up they had between them. But, he was glad that his new partner had finally loosened up enough to laugh. “Alright, it’s showtime. You ready to huff, puff, and blow them away~?”

Giving him a light shove, the canine rolled her eyes. “Only if you’re ready to knock ‘em dead, bonehead.” When she saw him color at the jab, she snickered and walked ahead of him. “Come on, numbskull. Try to keep up.”

On the inside, she was screaming for a way out.

Exiting the back room, her partner not far behind, the black-furred monster licked her lips in anxiety. The patrons were just talking among themselves and yet, she felt like all eyes were on her. Heart racing in her chest, she nearly turned to run but a hand to her shoulder kept her planted in place.

Blue eyes honed in on lit sockets and Sans’ permagrin kept her grounded. He gave a firm nod and took his seat on the stool, guitar now strapped to his shoulder. Fiddling with the tuning pegs, he found the right sound with a simple strum of the strings.

With a leg hitched up on the top rung of his stall, the skeleton let the waist of his instrument curve along his femur and plucked at the chords rhythmically. He really was adept at his craft, which was odd given how lazy she had heard him to be. But, maybe music was the perfect outlet for him.

They often say that if you’re good at something, it takes no effort other than practice to accomplish what you love; hence the saying “you never work a day in your life if you do what you enjoy.”

The young woman had always wanted that kind of life, to savor her job like her parents did, but never could seem to find her calling.

Maybe this was a step in the right direction.

She was snapped from her thoughts when Grillby came up next to her with a few song requests, the handwriting varying from option to option. “I had asked some of my regulars what they would want to hear. Most, if not all, are not in the jukebox so I hope you know some of them.” he explained.

While some were an enigma to her, there was one in particular that did suit her fancy though was a bit embarrassing to sing. “I’ll try my best. Thanks for the heads up.”

Once alone, Mikaela swallowed and showed Sans the list. “Know any of them?”

Eye sockets judged the paper before they paused at an item about midway down the list, pointing to it. “Just that one. Paps liked how sweet it sounded and had me play it for him since he was just a babybones.”

Of course, it was the one she liked as well. Figures…

“Well, I guess we have to do that one.”

“Why, you know it?”

She shrugged with a bite of her lip. “What can I say? I’m a hopeless romantic with an attitude that doesn’t match.” When he laughed, she pouted as her tail bristled. “Hey! Just… Just start it up.”

He obliged and before long, the entire bar went quiet as his nimble fingers strummed the chords effortlessly; his sockets closed and smile turning more gentle. Then, his teeth parted as he sang his first verse.

Mikaela watched as everyone was entranced by his performance, the low baritone warm and enticing to whomever it may be directed to. Though, she did almost miss her mark when he opened his eyes to cue their switch.

Swallowing her nerves, her higher pitch took over for a more intimate echo as the song took on a longing vibe rather than a solemn one. Her voice dipped low every so often to keep it unique but she didn’t stray too far from the source itself; staying in tune with his guitar riffs was rather easy to do so long as she focused on Sans instead of the crowd.

Any time her eyes drifted to the patrons, her heart would race and her hand would grip the mic tightly as she’d close her eyes in fear. Only until they’d get to a part of the chorus to harmonize would she reopen them again to gaze at her partner for stability. He’d offer a reassuring smile and she’d give a shaky one in return.

By the final chorus that lead into the ending chord, they had gotten to be so in-sync with one another that both had nearly forgotten they were in a busy restaurant. It was then that their finale came and the last note left their mouths did the cheers of the monsters jarr their gazes to look out over the sea of people.

Mikaela blinked owlishly, unsure of just how they got through that without so much as a single screw up but a playful hit to her shoulder got her to smile with a few murmurs of thanks. With her tail wagging, she looked to her partner.

Sans gave a mock bow to her with a smile, his teeth connected once more. “I’d say this place has gone to the dogs~” he teased, unrepentant grin as casual as always.

The joke didn’t go without a swat to his skull but it was more playful than anything else. “You suck, you know that? And I’m a wolf, thank you very much.”

“Oh, higher pedigree. My mistake.”

She worked her jaw but was foiled from making a comeback when Grillby approached, congratulating them on a wonderful performance. Though, his next words both elated and terrified her.

“So, what’s the next song?”

#howler #writing nonsense #Undertale #soulwolf writes

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burnhampeaches · 7 years

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🐰 That I sleep with a baby bottle and my mum hides the fact that she has a second mum

💗 Everyone in the whole universe! Everyone gets hugs!

🐹 Rowlet and Piplup. Both of them are my favourite birds (Barn Owl and Penguin) ,and they both have my favourite elements (Earth and Water)

🌠 It would be chaotic, but at least everyone will follow my standards and rules

👀 It involved me, my mum, and my grandpa going to the Himalayas. We were hiking through a village, and then my mum fainted and her face hit the rocky ground causing her to get wounds. And then, I woke up.

☀ Fun to talk with @ohwillchampion, relatable @clodplaye, having the same sense of humour @anirudhiyer19992, kind @coldplayfeels, and we both like drawing @wingsofqurdrel. There are loads more but, I’m just lazy to state it all.

😘 She’s kind, she’s cool, she relates to me on a very high level. She’s brilliant, her sense of humour is always on point, she has a beautiful singing voice. She’s my muse, my love, my best friend that I haven’t met yet. She’s my PJ @clodplaye

💁 Nah man, this world has too much hate. We should just try to help others and be kind. No matter if we will risk our precious lives, kindness must reign alongside hate. Everything will and must be balanced.

🌟 My kindness, my doodling skills, I live healthily (I’m bad at this type of thing)

🐾 I’m scared of swimming and dogs. Not sure if I could overcome those two because it makes me scared stiff.

🎁 Anytime I hear Coldplay or Blur’s music, Doctor Who and/or My Little Pony merchandise, and when people compliment my doodles.

💙 People hate me, are jealous of me, pressure me to do things I don’t wanna do, pressure me to not be myself, and controlling me.

😤 Not really. But if you do piss me off and I shout at you, you’d better say sorry to me.

🐇 Berrychamp fanfics, self insert fanfics, adventures in the Land of Dreams, and stuff like that

🌻 No homophobia, no racism, no sexism, more equality over everything. We need equal rights!

🍓 Kill all the bad people in the world, Befriend all my internet friends, Marry anyone who is willing to live forever with me, Kiss anyone who actually loves me.

✈ London I guess? It’s the heart of the world’s economy. Also lots of concerts and conventions are held here. And not to forget I wanna find 221B Baker Street

☕ Just being alone on a rainy day, with good Wifi connection, sufficient food and water, very cool atmosphere, playing Coldplay and Blur on my phone and/or laptop, snuggled in bed with my toy Barn Owl, Nico and my baby bottle that I sleep with, and nobody disturbing me. Also me not giving a s**t about society.

🌸 INTROVERT ALL THE WAY BABY!

💧 Oh I don’t know. If I’m not mistaken, either at a restaurant with my family, or in bed while watching Live 2012

🎵 Oren Lavie’s Her Morning Elegance, Iron and Wine’s The Trapeze Swinger, Wintergatan’s Marble Machine, Owl City’s Hello Seattle, Alt-J’s Taro

⚡ Flight and invisibility. It’s fun to prank people back after they pranked me. Also, I get to fly without the priciness of plane tickets and no one will suspect me.

💛 The internet is your friend, listen to Coldplay, and penpals still exist.

💚 My cousin. She has the life I wanted. She has lots of friends, she lives in London, she’s been to a concert, she has multiples achievements, and she is more popular than me

🙊 My existence, and that one time I shouted at my classmates that I hated one of the teachers

🌺 Indonesian and English (learning Mandarin in school) I’d love to learn Spanish and French (much to my mum’s friend’s dismay)

🍀 The 11th Doctor. I relate to him so much. He is also funny and clumsy, like me.

☁ It’s basically a dream land where all my internet friends are now my IRL friends, my parents are nicer and not so short tempered, me and the family live in London, occasionally famous people and fictional people come around, and Guy Berryman loves my family’s Indonesian dishes. I have different versions of this for different AUs, but it follows the same path.

💜 I already did one I think? It was helping my parents dry my kittens after their bath

🐬 Barn Owls for me! Other than the fact that I love them, they’re cute, deadly, and silent. They also are active at night, like me.

🍄 Long story short, my old Malay teacher used to mock me and tease me with my classmates until I cry. They keep doing that when I get one of the answers wrong. I still have a grudge upheld for him (my old teacher)

😣 My mum telling me to stop being clumsy and not to get so sensitive. There are times where I wanna go to a psychiatrist with my mum and solve my problems there.

🍪 Same as always, a doctor. I wanna get into gynecology. If I can’t, I don’t mind being an illustrator or a game designer.

🍰 Jelly beans, lollipops, milk candy, and chocolate filled with strawberry yogurt ( Y'know? The Ritter Sport chocolates with the pink packaging?)

🍑 Barn Owls, drawing, selkies, Song of the Sea, Coldplay, When Marnie Was There, etc… (Too lazy to list it all)

💘 I cry and have a panic attack

😪 Life and its bad luck

🙀 Nope, Noes, No way Jose

💥 MARMITE IS YUMMY FOR ME DEAL WITH IT! WANNA FIGHT WITH ME MATE?

☔ Yes, and no. Call me a living oxymoron but, we all have different perspectives, no?

😊 Drawing, listening to Coldplay, and hiding under my blanket in bed

🎤 Belinda Carlisle’s Heaven is a Place on Earth

🐝 My clumsiness and laziness. I can try to fix my laziness, but clumsiness is tricky

🎨 EVERYTHING! From my bestie PJ to Berrychamp. Doodling is in my blood

🐻 Procrastination and depression

🌷 INFP. It suits because the descriptions are on point with me

🐶 If I’d choose between The Doctor, Sherlock, and Castiel, I’d pick The Doctor

👑 The members of Coldplay and Blur. They are just a bunch of friends who met during college and decided to make a rock band (also they changed their band names)

🐴 Opinion on life? Yeah it sucks balls. I really wanna do something about it. But hey, we all can’t get what we want.

🍋 VERY EMOTIONAL. SO EMOTIONAL YOU’LL HATE ME FOR IT

📚 I dunno any quotes but I’ll tell you the titles. Secret Daughter (Shilpi Somaya Gowda), Boywatching (Chloe Bennet), and Diary of a Wimpy Kid (Jeff Kinney)

😔 Draw and listen to music. It sorta does

😌 Just do it for the ones you love. In all honesty, I’m not the type of pick myself up person

🌍 Indonesia

🐧 Quiet, Sensitive, Weird

🐵 Uh, no quote changed me (yet)

💭 Nope, but my mum did

💫 Probably Misha Collins. I don’t have any idea

👻 Not really. They are just a part of myths anyways. Call me non religious if you wish but I’m gonna stand on my own ground

🎀 Casual. Simple yet nice

🎬 Kungfu Hustle, Song of the Sea, When Marnie Was There, Kiki’s Delivery Service, The DaVinci Code, Angels and Demons, and lots more…

🍦 Going to Disneyland with my grandparents and aunt

🐼 I would meet all my internet friends. They lit up my life in a way I can’t explain. Believe me, they made me happier than the people I know in real life.

Thank you so much for this Lara! Hope you love it! 😙😘😚

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thegallinisystem · 5 years

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Hey friends.

If you know me irl, you have permission to contact me. It's really hard for me to open up or ask for help one on one right now.

This last year and a half has been probably the hardest time of my life. I've gone through what I consider to be the darkest time of my life.

This is a long post, but please, if you can, read through it and send me some support:

tl:;dr I've had a lot of major shit go down recently and right now I'm seriously scared of losing my home because of finances. I don't know what kindof support I can even ask for, because I know so many people are going through hardship right now and many people I know just don't have the ability to help.

I've been embarrassed to say anything. I feel shame in asking for help, and I feel shame in having so many bad things happen at the same time. I feel like there is something wrong with me that things have gotten as bad as they are right now.

In going to therapy, I realize that keeping this all to myself isn't helping anymore. I'm in way over my head. I don't know what to do. I don't know how to get out of this mess. I feel like I'm in so deep that I have no hope of ever getting out.

I suppose it all started two years ago, actually. My partner's grandmother died, and I don't know how, but her being alive seemed to have been what kept this family together. Pretty much the week before that, we'd found out that a whole lot of messed up stuff had happened with my sister in law and her husband. This was really hard for me, because I actually grew up with him. For the longest time, he was the only person who had supported me and not shamed me or guilted me for who I was. He just liked spending time with me. And then I find out that he'd hurt my sister in law and that their marriage basically disintegrated because the two of them had a breach in trust and then grew apart very quickly.

As soon as the funeral was over, his Dad disappeared with basically no warning to Costa Rica for nine months. We heard from him maybe once or twice a month, always at weird times. His brother was on a mission at the time. Even though his mom and his sister were a five minute drive, we heard from them about the same amount as we heard from his Dad. They may as well have been in a different country with how little we heard from them.

We tried to support them, but instead got met with huge, insurmountable walls. Instead of coming together and grieving like a family, we all just kind of separated. It seems like we're trying to fix that, but there's still distance between us. At least, between Jacob and I and the rest of them. His mom and sister seem to tell each other everything, and as soon as his brother came home, they all started talking a bunch. I feel like I've done something to make it so that Jacob doesn't hear from them much. I don't know what. It might just be my paranoia.

Later that year, my mom left my dad once and for all. Earlier that year, I had completley cut off contact from my parents, saying that they'd hurt me and never been there for me. I came out as non-binary very soon after, because that's when it was safe to do so.

When my mom left my dad, I made some efforts to reconnect with her again. We have a rocky relationship at the moment, but she is trying to put in an effort.

2017 was a sad year. I felt like I had finally started to open up to Jacob's family as being a replacement for my own, and then they fell apart. I suppose that's what I get for getting attached, I guess. Some part of me still believes it's my fault this happened to them, that when I get involved, things fall apart. I remember Thanksgiving or Christmas or something? It was just the four of us and there was a lot of quiet.

2018 I thought would be a good year. But then, literally the day before my birthday, my sister started singing praises of my dad. We got into an argument of how my mom caused all the problems in the family (lies my father spread so that he would never take the blame) and how everything my father ever did was for our benefit. This was after I told her that he literally tortured me for not doinng what he wanted. This was after he put her in isolation for months when she didn't do what he wanted. It was a huge betrayal.

I tried to hide it for a couple months, tried to pretend everything was fine. But then I just couldn't handle it anymore. I couldn't open up about what had happened, but I couldn't keep living with that pain. So I tried to take my own life.

I woke up about 48 hours later in a psych ward, with absolutely no memory of how I had gotten there. I was scared and really disoriented. I remember overdosing, but I don't remember anything after that.

At first, being taken out of my environment seemed helpful. But the psych ward was traumatic in it's own way. The therapist literally fell asleep on me while we were talking about our issues, and she just spouted the same thing for me as she did for everyone else. Almost no one got my pronouns or name right, and there was even a visit from the department of health saying they'd gotten some serious complaints about patient treatment there.

I went about a month and a half before I tried to take my life again. I felt like none of those things had helped, and better yet, I had more new trauma on top of it. I went to a different psych ward this time, and it was much better. I even made a friend who introduced me to other people that are now a super vital part of my support system.

A couple weeks after I got out, things with my second partner got really bad. She kept telling me that she didn't trust me, she constantly broke down. I was walking on eggshells all the time around her, and just trying to make it so that she wouldn't go into a disorder meltdown. It was toxic and seriously messed with my ability to feel like I could trust anyone ever again. It's why I haven't opened up for a while.

I've cut ties with her.I love her dearly, but it was causing me so much pain. I just couldn't keep putting myself in that position anymore.

This happened the week after I'd gotten to surgery. The doctor had told me to reduce stress, and here this was happening. To make things worse, two days after Christmas, Jacob's work told him that they were suspending the work from home program, for no reason. They made a lot of sudden policy changes that made the work environment a living nightmare. He'd already been really stressed, and this is right when they were going into their busy season.

A couple months in, I had to actively talk him down from suicide. He went into short term medical elave for three months, and just today when they wouldn't extend it any farther, he quit. What's funny is, not even hours after he'd sent in his resignation, they suspended his access to a lot of programs. But when he was asking for help and human resources contacts, they took weeks to get back to him.

I've tried to get a traditional job. I genuinely have. When we tell people about our financial situation, they ask me why I'm not working. I feel so ashamed that I can't hold down a job. My mental and physical conditions make it basically impossible. I do what I can through freelance work because that's the only work I can manage like this. But I feel like there's something wrong with me because I can't work. It's been hard with both of us unable to work. Jacob is currently trying to get work and will probably take whatever he can get for now. I think his situation isn't that he can't work, just that he can't handle being treated like that.

If I ever post this on Facebook or a place where more people know my in-laws, I'll have to delete this next part.

In the time when we were taking a break from her, my partner's parents told us they were getting divorced. His Dad told us that he'd done a lot of things to hurt his mom, that he'd made a lot of bad financial decisions and that he'd had several affairs. It didn't make sense, but honestly, I wasn't in a place to process any of it. To be honest, it felt like he didn't have any care about what we were going through, and just dumped it on us when we didn't have the emotional capacity to deal with it so we wouldn't get mad at him or really even put up a fight about it. I remember during the conversation I just basically dissociated the whole time because I literally could not handle even one more small problem, let alone another major crisis like this.

His Dad took off a week or two later. We heard from him a couple times since then, he texted Jacob maybe once or twice, and then we heard from his sister that Dad was in town. The day that he showed up. I guess Jacob had advance warning, but this was the first we'd heard about it.

But I wanted, or needed, some kind of parental figure. I tried to open up to him again and say that I had seen him as a father figure, and he texted me back and said that he always saw me as his daughter. Which just shut the door in my face. Here we were, two years after I'd come out, and he was still misgendering me. I kind of expected it from strangers, but he was supposed to be my family. He was supposed to know that being talked about that way hurts me. I've corrected him many times, but I guess he was too absent to really care about it.

Then I started to o look at his behavior the last little while. One thing that really bothered me was that when I reached out asking for help the day I had to talk Jacob down from suicide, he did't even respond until over an hour after his mom had come over to check on him. Almost like he didn't care about the welfare of his own child. And he came for like five minutes after mom had been here for hours and just said "hang in there buddy" and left.

There's other stuff, but this post is already long enough.

I feel like I've been sucked into this vat of tar. For the past side months or so, I've had a snorkel and a hand holding the ledge. Now that snorkels filling up and my hand has been forcibly removed from the ledge. I don't even know what I'm running on anymore. I just know I have to work and find ways to bring in some kind of income, because I'm the only one making income right now. I was already stressed about finding clients when Jacob had a job, but now it's vital. I needed clients yesterday, so I have to work hard to bring more in.

I just feel like I have all this pressure on my and I don't know how to deal with this. I don't know how to get through this. I feel alone. I feel trapped. I am in way over my head. Please, send help.

Just to let you all know, it's late here and I'm going to bed. I promise I'm safe, I just need to sleep. I'll answer any messages in the morning.

#personal #negative #suicide tw

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survivorbermuda-blog · 6 years

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OWEN’S RITES OF PASSAGE

30th: Constance - ummmm crackt legend????? You were someone I was so shook to see playing these games again. Not really sure what happened or why u had to leave again. But hope you’re doing well!!! Unless you’re actually racist, then I don’t! Xo <3

29th: Mark Wilson - I do not know u but you rlly lucked out of escaping a 70 day season so soon huh

28th: Nick Nox - Thank god you left early bc one Nick was trouble enough for me kdjhjfjsdkfhjd

27th: Joey Palumbo - AHHHH I’m sorry we never got to play together! I was looking forward to talking more. Maybe next time

26th: Elliot Adams - you have a cool name we never were on a tribe together tho rip

25th: Dom Rou - LITERALLY YOU’RE A STUPID HOE?????? You asked me to apply to this game with you, YOU GOT ME INTO THIS MESS, and then you QUIT on me. The beginning of this game was 1000% different with all the talks we had, and I wonder how things would’ve changed if you hadn’t walked when you did. I prob wouldn’t be in f4 lmao so i guess thanks for dragging me into this and then peacing out ily

24th: Lily Lim - LOL Lily <3 You seemed like a really sweet person, even though your timezone made it a little hard to talk. I’m sorry you were the easiest target at that first tribal we went to as a swapped tribe, but the beef between you and Saxon made it the right choice. Hope you’re doin well!

23rd: Madison - ANOTHER QUEEN GOOOOOOOOOOD????? Robbed too soon????? I was so excited to play with you and Dom and then y’all got screwed over by the swap :( I’m sure we’ll play again someday tho

22nd: Julian - Julian!!! Your vote seems so so long ago, I wonder when these will start feeling like things I remember. Unfortunately the tribal divides between us pit us against each other a bit, but I’m glad we got to talk at least a little.

21st: Asya - KJDHJKHFKJSDHFK OK IM SORRY WE DID YOU SO DIRTY??? Dom had so many good things to say about you and I was excited to finally get to meet you and play with you even though he was gone. My wig went flyin real far when you came and snappt at me about telling AJ his name was going around….oops. After that I felt like there wasn’t enough trust left between us :( but now that I am hostin you I hope you forgive me

20th: Saxon - crackt legend????? First idol play of the game??????? Im shaking. You were someone else that I had known before the game started. I know you really really care about the games you’re in and you’re someone who fights as hard as possible, so it was sad to see you go so soon.

19th: Ryan - WOWOOWOW! When we met back on Paget I really thought you were someone who was going to go far with me in this game! I had so much fun talking to you and it was great to finally meet someone new right from the start after playing so many games with people I’d already met. You’re a smart player and a really social guy, and I’m more sad that you didn’t make it than I was about D*M!!!!!! I hope you get another shot at TS and I hope the math is alright lmao

18th: Dylan - idk who this is

17th: Haley - crossroads queen…...I was excited to actually know someone on the Tengaged tribe, even if it didnt help me out very much in the long run lol. Love u!

16th: Blake - We were never on a tribe together some how??? Through all those swaps omg. I’m sorry Maksym snatcht your record tho.

15th: Tee - Queen of Ponderosa…. I hope you’re still doing okay in there, hope they been feedin u well. I was excited to play together, and I really wish it would’ve worked out, but our agendas just ended up on entirely different pages during that first merge vote :( I don’t really know what the problem between you and Matt was, but unfortunately I had to side with someone I had been more loyal to from the start. You’re a queen though!!!! And I hope you’ve enjoyed seeing the game through a juror’s lens this past month!

14th: Sean - Hey Sean!!! You were one of the few Tengaged people I felt I didn’t connect with too much, mostly because the premerge time we spent together we never really went to tribal. I know you were one of the first casualties in a long line of people who left when I wanted it to be Nick… But I liked that you were always there for the tribals, and I feel bad that you went out that way after Nick used his exile :( Hope you’re doin okay!!

13th: AJ - AJ LEGEND!!! I really did love the group we had with Kage, even though my votes over this merge have probably said otherwise. I found myself in a weird position between wanting to work with you, but not wanting to vote out any of the names you gave me, and unfortunately it got to the point where I couldn’t keep protecting as many people as I would’ve liked, especially with Nick immune. I love you though buddy, and I hope we can talk again after this is all over.

12th: Kage - I don’t even know where to start omg. All I can think of is you wearing all of those shirts…. Probably the best thing I have ever seen at a tribal council. At the very start of this game, I never expected you to be someone I worked closely with. When you went around asking everyone where they idol searched, I was initially sketched out by you - but as time went on, I really appreciated having you as someone I could put trust in as the numbers got smaller. I don’t think here is the right place to go over all of the details of why I did what I did the round you left, but I respect everything you tried to do in this game and you’re one of the funniest people I’ve gotten to know from it. Can’t wait to see what shit ur gonna pull at FTC fkjshdfk

11th: Matt - Matthew Summers!!!! It was refreshing to actually get to work together from the start of a game this time, even through the rocky swaps pre-merge. I think of everything, your vote-off is the only one I was truly blindsided by, and I wish it could’ve been another way because talking to you about video games and thirsting over RJ was a refreshing break from all the stress lol. I love you!

10th: Nick - HOLY SHIT NICK!!! The man with nine lives in this game!!! I don’t really know why or how, but at some point I decided you had become my mortal enemy in the game. I think it’s because when we first met, you seemed to be trying to pull the strings a little bit on an alliance between me and some other TG people. Plus your scary poker skills… I immediately saw you as a dominant force, and it scared me to think of having you in the game for as long as you were. You had so many tricks up your sleeve, and you always had me on my toes - you were a huge reason that the merge portion of this game didn’t get stale or boring, and even though I’m happy to have finally conquered my enemy, I hope you’re proud of how well you did!

9th: Maksym - I’m not sure when we decided to work together, but you were someone I had 10000% trust in after those first couple merge votes. Especially when I was getting nervous about something (usually about Tim targeting me), you were at least there to listen. I know the timezone difference made it a little rough, but I’m glad we got to meet here and play together a bit :) I’m sorry you were ROBBED

8th: Rodrigo - I saved this one for last because you are probably the person I have the most to say to, even though I’m not quite sure how to say it. I don’t want to make this public forum into a place for us to hash out our own personal conflict, but I do want you to know that I meant all of the things I said to you out of friendship. You were a close friend to me in this game, and I appreciated that we kept each other safe as long as we could. I know you don’t want to hear it, but when I was given the choice between voting RJ or voting you, I had to side with the person who was willing to vote with me. I so so wish we could’ve made a vote work together that round, and I apologize for not giving you the same honesty in return about me writing your name down - though in hindsight, your idol could’ve done some serious damage that night. I hope you will forgive me for writing your name, because it was 10000% the best game decision for me that night, and it doesn’t reflect at all the way I feel about you outside of this game. And even more than all this game stuff I value your friendship to me. Even when we didn’t vote together, you were a friend, and that meant a lot to me. I love you a lot, and I hope you aren’t too mad at me by now.

7th: RJ - The love of my life….. Wow. When I saw the cast for this, I was SO BLESSED to have someone so hot and so straight on my tribe from the get-go. I love how your laid-back attitude mixes so well with your passion for this game. Even when we were bouncing the craziest ideas off each other, you were never afraid to try anything, and I’m glad we made it as far as we did together. I didn’t expect to ever use that idol on anybody but myself, but the thought of losing you too soon made me do something impulsive and I wouldn’t have done it any other way :) Talk to you soon <3

6th: Jake - I’m really thankful we got to talk in the couples days before you were gone. I know I could’ve done more to approached you on a personal level even after our games didnt quite align, and it was my bad that it took me so long to do so. I hope your Glee rewatch is keeping up, and maybe we’ll get to have a tiny Bermuda reunion if I visit in the fall since we are both gonna be future teachers :)

5th: Lily - It’s so weird to think that the first time we met was all the way back in Malibu. From the blindside in that game, to meeting IRL, to beasting it out in this one together, we’ve come a long way!! You were a phenomenal player this time around - a beast in the challenges, always staying loyal, and still somehow never managing to piss anybody off. I’m sorry that it was you and not me last night, but I know one day you’re gonna come back and snatch the win you deserve!!!

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rainforestdawn · 7 years

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I’m bored, so why not?

Thank you Charlie @adeathnoteblog for reblogging the questions in a blank format.

1: when you have cereal, do you have more milk than cereal or more cereal than milk? Always more cereal than Milk. Lactose intolerant, less milk the better.

2: do you like the feeling of cold air on your cheeks on a wintery day? Yes, but only if it’s snowing big fat snowflakes.

3: what random objects do you use to bookmark your books? Receipts, Grocery Lists, and Candy Wrappers, lol

4: how do you take your coffee/tea?I like it very sweet, with one dollop of cream. Or just black hazelnut.

5: are you self-conscious of your smile? Yes. It’s very big, and I really dislike drawing attention to my mouth.

6: do you keep plants? No, Each time I try, I wind up killing it. Even the hearty “hard to kill” ones.

7: do you name your plants? Nope.

8: what artistic medium do you use to express your feelings? Magazine Collage, and music.

9: do you like singing/humming to yourself? Yes

10: do you sleep on your back, side, or stomach? I’m a right side sleeper.

11: what’s an inner joke you have with your friends? One Word. Macarena.

12: what’s your favorite planet? For reals? We’re supposed to have a favorite? Earth…I guess?

13: what’s something that made you smile today? Not a damn thing, actually. I haven’t laughed or giggled or chuckled, either. That’s unusual.

14: if you were to live with your best friend in an old flat in a big city, what would it look like? That depends on which best friend you’re talking about. Like, I actually don’t have one best friend.

15: go google a weird space fact and tell us what it is! *Do constellations look different other planets?* The planets of the Solar System do revolve around the same central body, but they do so on different orbits, so they will observe the stars from slightly different angles. This will make the constellations we see from here slightly different from the ones you see from there.

16: what’s your favorite pasta dish?Chicken Fettuccine Alfredo

17: what color do you really want to dye your hair? I’ve always wanted to go completely blonde, or smurf blue.

18: tell us about something dumb/funny you did that has since gone down in history between you and your friends and is always brought up. That fucking time I sat on a goddamned apple pie. It was a Christmas party, and I had excused myself to the porch to have a cigarette. I sat on a chair, and it occurred to me that it was warm, and didn’t pay it any mind. I don’t see well in the dark, and there was a towel on the seat, covering the pie, so I didn’t notice it until I got up. SO fucking embarrassing since I knew literally, two people, at this party.

19: do you keep a journal? what do you write/draw/ in it? I tend to doodle spirals, or repetitive lines, kind of like concentric circles. I write about how I’m feeling in that moment, the things that are randomly floating through y head, stuff I need to remember, grocery lists, phone numbers and appointments, and other random bits. I carry a hard covered spiral bound book or a children’s school notebook at all times with a pen.

20: what’s your favorite eye color? I really do enjoy all eye colors. No one in particular. Each eye is different, and I rather enjoy looking into them and noticing the variations. But I rarely do this.

21: talk about your favorite bag, the one that’s been to hell and back with you and that you love to pieces. I don’t have one in specific that I think of in these terms. I pitch any bag that carries a major association with. I do, however, have a green duffel bag that I’ve had since my first trip to the states with my first husband. That’s nearly 20 years old now.

22: are you a morning person? I can be. But I prefer waking in late morning.

23: what’s your favorite thing to do on lazy days where you have 0 obligations? Nap. Listen to soothing music. Watch the leaves moving in the trees. Curling up on the couch. Watching a favorite movie. Eat yummy food. And then nap some more.

24: is there someone out there you would trust with every single one of your secrets? My followers, of course. I haven’t given my tumblr address to anyone in my family, or my close friends. There’s actually only two people whom I’ve shared this site with that I know IRL. You’re all privy to my worst secrets.

25: what’s the weirdest place you’ve ever broken into? An old Jail? I dunno, breaking into something isn’t really my forte.

26: what are the shoes you’ve had for forever and wear with every single outfit? Nada. Crocs from the dollar store, hahaha. Not a fashonista at all, and gave up matching shoes before I had my second child.

27: what’s your favorite bubblegum flavor? Excel Green. Whatever flavor that is. Spearmint I think?

28: sunrise or sunset? Depends. If I’m with someone I love, Sunrise. If I’m real fucking down, Sunset.

29: what’s something really cute that one of your friends does and is totally endearing? Christ. This is a thing?! I dunno, they banter back with my sarcastic insults.

30: think of it: have you ever been truly scared? Yup.

31: what is your opinion of socks? do you like wearing weird socks? do you sleep with socks? do you confine yourself to white sock hell? really, just talk about socks. OMG. I’m a toe sock junkie. I prefer the fuzzy, soft kind of socks if the floors are cold. I like Toe socks because I can wear flip flops with them, and I call them my campfire socks. Less Mosquito bites if I wear those during an evening campfire. I have a lot of crazy patterned socks because my ex and the kids tend to steal them if they’re plainly colored.

32: tell us a story of something that happened to you after 3AM when you were with friends. Uhhh…I sobered up? No, really. There aren’t a whole lot of people I’ve stayed up all night with. It’s my time. It’s private.

33: what’s your fave pastry? Strudel.

34: tell us about the stuffed animal you kept as a kid. what is it called? what does it look like? do you still keep it? I have two stuffies I got as gifts as a kid. I don’t know why I keep them. There’s no association with them at all. Maybe because most of the things I had as a child were so often thrown away…Huh. I haven’t named them. Both are bears. One is on all fours, on is sitting on it’s backside. Now that I think of it, I really should just pitch them out.

35: do you like stationary and pretty pens and so on? do you use them often? I <3 comfortable, smooth writing pens. And when I find one, it stays with me until it goes dry, and then I miss it for months, and mourn it’s loss. I once had a pen I kept for seven years before it dried out, no joke. Stationary makes no diff to me at all.

36: which band’s sound would fit your mood right now? Umm. The Cranberries.

37: do you like keeping your room messy or clean? Clean. I feel good when my room is clean.

38: tell us about your pet peeves! I fucking hate wet towels on my bed. When people refer to the USA as “America” and not the United States, they aren’t the only goddamned country on this continent.

39: what color do you wear the most? Black. I love bright happy colors, but when I had my first child, my husband and mother in law insisted they help me build my wardrobe. It was all pastels or white & black, and a lot of khaki. So, I gave up my own sense of style. I wear a lot of black.

40: think of a piece of jewelry you own: what’s it’s story? does it have any meaning to you? I have a diamond and Ruby ring that my kinds’ dad gave me as an “I’m sorry” gift. He didn’t take my side in an argument with his parents. He didn’t agree with me.

41: what’s the last book you remember really, really loving? Mo Willems Don’t Let The Pigeon Books.

42: do you have a favorite coffee shop? describe it! Not at all.

43: who was the last person you gazed at the stars with? My youngest son.

44: when was the last time you remember feeling completely serene and at peace with everything? That happens so rarely I actually don’t recall.

45: do you trust your instincts a lot? Absolutely.

46: tell us the worst pun you can think of. No. I refuse to start punning.

47: what food do you think should be banned from the universe? I dunno, jalapenos? NO clue.

48: what was your biggest fear as a kid? is it the same today? The Dark, or being in the dark with a lit doorway. It’s not my biggest fear now, but it’s still up there.

49: do you like buying CDs and records? what was the last one you bought? I love buying CD’s from Thrift Shops. The last one I bought was a Better than Ezra album I haven’t listened to yet.

50: what’s an odd thing you collect? i try not to collect things, they tie you down, or somehow they get thrown out. When I notice I’m doing it, I give them away.

51: think of a person. what song do you associate with them? Calvin - Who’s thinkin about you now by Jason Mraz

52: what are your favorite memes of the year so far? Gawd, I dunno. I have no idea which ones are new and which ones aren’t. And I really don’t care.

53: have you ever watched the rocky horror picture show? Yes I have, and I didn’t get what the hype was all about. heathers? Never heard of it. beetlejuice? Yup, and I thoroughly enjoyed it’s creepy vibes. pulp fiction? yes, and identified way too much with it. what do you think of them? —–^

54: who’s the last person you saw with a true look of sadness on their face? My kids. They’re entitled.

55: what’s the most dramatic thing you’ve ever done to prove a point? HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA Oh man, there’s WAY too many of those things to list here.

56: what are some things you find endearing in people? Their imagination, and their sense of humor.

57: go listen to bohemian rhapsody. how did it make you feel? did you dramatically reenact the lyrics? yes, every time. I <3 this song.

58: who’s the wine mom and who’s the vodka aunt in your group of friends? why? This would indicate I have lady friends whom I might drink with. I don’t keep lady friends, the last time I did my ex slept with each one.

59: what’s your favorite myth? All of them

60: do you like poetry? what are some of your faves? I do like poetry, but writing it. I don’t have any favorite writers of poetry.

61: what’s the stupidest gift you’ve ever given? the stupidest one you’ve ever received? I’ve given condoms a few times. I’ve received them too.

62: do you drink juice in the morning? which kind?Nope. Water water water.

63: are you fussy about your books and music? do you keep them meticulously organized or kinda leave them be? Not at all. I usually just arrange my books by size, when I have them out.

64: what color is the sky where you are right now? Dark blue with a grey tinge because it’s cloudy and night.

65: is there anyone you haven’t seen in a long time who you’d love to hang out with? My childhood besties, Crystal & Jaime.

66: what would your ideal flower crown look like? Daises and clover.

67: how do gloomy days where the sky is dark and the world is misty make you feel? Introspective? Reflective?

68: what’s winter like where you live? Cold. And multiple feet/meters of snow

69: what are your favorite board games? Sorry, Pay Day, trivial Pursuit?

70: have you ever used a ouija board? Yes

71: what’s your favorite kind of tea? Black

72: are you a person who needs to note everything down or else you’ll forget it? Sometimes.

73: what are some of your worst habits? I chew my nails, and I text paragraphs before I consider how it sounds when people are hurting and I’m comforting//advising.

74: describe a good friend of yours without using their name or gendered pronouns. They listen without judgement, give as much affection as I need, and let me cry. Then they cheer me up and make me laugh until I cry again. And finally, they feed me and put me to bed.

75: tell us about your pets! I have a white, Californian bunny, named Mr. Benjamin. One of my children is allergic to cats and the other dogs, and I had a terrible experience with a Hamster once. Traditional pets really aren’t our forte. Mr. B travels well, and is typically well behaved until you piss him off.

76: is there anything you should be doing right now but aren’t? Finding something for dinner, since mine was scooped by one my sons’ friends. Or cleaning because our home will be shown by a realtor tomorrow.

77: pink or yellow lemonade? PINK *drools*

78: are you in the minion hateclub or fanclub? I think they’re cute, but only because they’re yellow.

79: what’s one of the cutest things someone has ever done for you? Hm.I really don’t know. Someone sent me a jar with sand and shells in it recently, but that was more thoughtful and sweet, not cute.

80: what color are your bedroom walls? did you choose that color? if so, why? Wine red. Nope. I’m a renter. And these walls are fucking ugly.

81: describe one of your friend’s eyes using the most abstract imagery you can think of. Whoa dude, tone back on whatever it is you’re on.

82: are/were you good in school? I was until I hit 8th Grade, then I was a fucking badass who shit on those who wanted me. I’m quite ashamed of who I was in my youth.

83: what’s some of your favorite album art? Pink Floyd’s The Wall, Boney M’ Nightflight to Venus? I haven’t actually looked at album art in a long time.

84: are you planning on getting tattoos? which ones? Nope, all done with those. now I’m waiting until my wait time ends so I can start donating blood.

85: do you read comics? what are your faves? Not anymore. Classic Archie comics are my favorite.

86: do you like concept albums? which ones? I guess so? I dunno.

87: what are some movies you think everyone should watch at least once in their lives? Christ. Anything Disney & Pixar.

88: are there any artistic movements you particularly enjoy? Like, a group? Or a dance? Sheepers. I’ve no idea.

89: are you close to your parents? Not even.

90: talk about one of you favorite cities. I’ve always enjoyed Columbus, Ohio. It was the first city I explored and learned on my own. It’s the place I learned to navigate and not fear being lost.

91: where do you plan on traveling this year? I hope to find my way to the ocean on the West Coast someplace.

92: are you a person who drowns their pasta in cheese or a person who barely sprinkles a pinch? Sprinkle a pinch.

93: what’s the hairstyle you wear the most? I’d love to have thicker hair, style doesn’t matter

94: who was the last person you know to have a birthday? My youngest son

95: what are your plans for this weekend? It’s Canada Day Weekend, so we’re spending the day at the local festivities at our local beach.

96: do you install your computer updates really quickly or do you procrastinate on them a lot? Both

97: myer briggs type, zodiac sign, and hogwarts house? Don’t know, and not doing the test right now. Libra. And Gryffendor.

98: when’s the last time you went hiking? did you enjoy it? when someone close came for a visit. Yes I did enjoy it.

99: list some songs that resonate to your soul whenever you hear them. Honey Bee by Tom Petty, Free by Train, Home by Sheryl Crow

100: if you were presented with two buttons, one that allows you to go 5 years into the past, the other 5 years into the future, which one would you press? why? Neither. I wouldn’t risk it.

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