#I just thought it'd be interesting to share bc I was trying to find a something specific and ended up being like Wait that's so eerily

[thegnomelord]

oh my lord... mentioning merfolk finally pushed me into sending in an ask for you, so hai!

im a huge marine bio nerd and i could probably ramble about that kinda stuff for awhile so im gonna keep it shorter and stick to sharks, aka my favorite species... i apologize for the very long ramble incoming

id imagine that the kind of shark makes merfolk vary heavily - you have smaller, less aggressive sharks (bamboo sharks, nurse sharks, leopard sharks), then you have dogfish which are aggressive small schooling sharks (that actually have venom from what i remember), and the big bois that are mean like bull sharks, oceanic whitetip sharks, great whites, ect. also you have basking sharks and whale sharks which are big ass chill lads. as much as i love them having a tail instead of legs, i think there'd be two "forms" of merperson, one with legs and a tail and one with just the tail. im mainly referring to the ones with legs and tails when i talk about them

like i was saying, the kind of shark species a merperson (or mershark, ill start calling them that) makes them differ between general personality, strength, size, ect ect. bigger sharks are more popular due to their strength, aggression, and speed, making them very useful in the military. smaller guys also have their advantages - its just that a bull mershark would have a much easier time in the military compared to a lemon mershark. although bigger lads are definitely more of a pain in the ass to work with if they grew up in the ocean over on land, cause i like to think most mershark (and merfolk in general) prefer living in the ocean. smaller sharks are easier to control, as they tend to be less prideful and stubborn compared to the bigger species. oceanic whitetip would be especially bad due to their aggression and pride, they're probably the most aggressive species of shark in the ocean

then when it comes to mating/courtship rituals... they don't do any of the fancy things like a werewolf, harpy, or dragon, they're rather direct. sharks in the wild don't court, typically when they meet another shark of the opposite gender they mate due to how rarely they meet other sharks, although mersharks would probably have small courtship rituals. it's pretty simple, just spending more time around who they want to court. i also think it'd be really cute if they gave the person they were courting a shark tooth of theirs that fell off as a memento of sorts. when it comes to mating, male sharks bite as a ritual. not as hard as they'd bite prey, but definitely enough to leave scars. shark mating is pretty rough, but mersharks would probably tone it back a little bit, though there will be times when their instincts slip.

mershark are also oblivious as fuck to other courting rituals if they grew up in the ocean. almost no shark species really have courting, so they don't have instincts when it comes to someone courting them, and they don't have the same socialization that a mershark that grew up on land would have. i just think mersharks are very interesting and very cool <3

thank you for reading my insane rambling about sharks and sharkpeople... once again, sorry for the long ramble, but i had to share my thoughts

Oh god anon this is some GOOD SOUP and as a fellow animal nerd I absolutely love hearing weird animal facts and all I can imagine is just Ghost and Sharkmer reader being absolute idiots lol :D

CW: NSFW at the end, short and quick bc brain isn't braining but this concept of your anon is so cool!

Like Ghost initially thinking all monster courting rituals are complicated as fuck, and the info he finds on the internet doesn't help one bit. And you, having grown up in the ocean, have no fucking clue he's trying to court you in some convoluted way.

You'll spend days just existing next to him, or very gently nibbling on his fingers, which, in your mind, makes it very clear you want to mate, but all Ghost thinks is that you want to eat him. And the next thing you know he's shoving an energy bar into your mouth and walking away and you're left confused.

And Ghost, bless the poor fool's soul, eventually gets lured into the waters by your sparkling eyes and wide grin of sharp teeth. The same teeth bite down on every piece of his skin, not enough to actually hurt him, but your teeth marks litter his thighs, his ass, all across his chest and especially around his pecs, from shoulders down to his biceps and anywhere you can reach while you stretch him.

God the sex is one of the best he's ever had, his usually cold body warming up from the proximity of you and the warm waters you're in as you slowly fuck both of your cocks into him, having stretched him open until he was unable to beg between his hiccups. And he's so pretty beneath you, rough groans as he rubs his cock while you move your hips in a slow rhythm, your dicks pushing in and out, in and out, brushing against his prostate until he was close to losing his mind with how you stretched him beyond imagination.

Some of your teeth end up lodged in his shoulder, and when you finish mating him you tell him to keep them, making them into a necklace he now wears around his neck.

#gnome correspondence #cod mw2 #x reader #trinkets from the hoard #top male reader #male reader #simon ghost riley x male reader #simon ghost riley x reader #cod x male reader #cod modern warfare #monster 141 au #monster cod au

[softievante]

lowkey got hooked when you did that seoksoon prompt so maybe it'd be nice to see the oblivious weight gain hit seokmin like a truck and he only realizes it after breaking open his pants after a meal and soonyoung is definitely going to like enjoy teasing him as revenge even if he's only gotten heavier since

hello thank you for my first request since my hiatus it’s an honor to fulfil brainworms 🤓 especially with these two as the pairing hehe

i Loved getting this bc !! mutual gaining !! yay! hope you enjoy it <3

(to anyone reading this a stand-alone, it’s actually a sequence to this prompt/ficlet)

having a chubby boyfriend wasn’t on any of seokmin’s particular list of wants when he pictured a partner by his side. don’t get this wrong, though, since he actually never thought about any specific figure, much less a specific person before he met soonyoung. the adjective in question, however, is having a bigger impact than he’s ever dreamed on his relationship—in a good, crazy-driving-way, of course, with a focus on the big aspects of the whole scenario.

soonyoung has only gained more weight since the night he realised his pants were giving up on his stupid ass, seokmin has only used more and more of his dick these days as he couldn’t seem to stop getting enough of a well filled-out soonyoung.

(it’s like he was trying to knock the poor boy up, seriously. it didn’t help that one time soonyoung mentioned this and seokmin went completely nuts, having too much material on his hands with soonyoung’s round belly...)

so, having a chubby s/o wasn’t on his list of requirements, but now he thinks he wouldn’t have any other way. specially as he got to witness every little change on his boyfriend’s body, that now took much more space everywhere, the fluffiness impossible to hide.

the thighs, for fuck’s sake… seokmin thinks he could die crushed by them.

that morning, an image that became periodic in that apartment caught his eyes when he was about to enter their shared bathroom. soonyoung is planted on the scale, brows furrowed as he tried to find a way to check which numbers were on the screen—he could no longer suck his gut out of his vision, apparently.

ignoring the twitch of his cock in favour of being annoying, seokmin walks silently and puts half of his foot in the space between soonyoung’s feet, pressing it down in order to make the numbers go up.

“uh? how is this…” as soonyoung leaves the position and seokmin’s quick to step off, careful to stay behind him, his crescent-moon eyes go wide in surprise.

“what? did it break already?” seokmin’s voice comes next to soonyoung’s shoulders, provoking as always. the latter almost jumped on spot.

“oh my god, fuck off! i almost fainted!” he slaps him in retaliation, although the jolting movement of all of his “extras” only make seokmin smile more.

he’s having the time of his life kissing soonyoung’s pout away while he gropes his sides, the soft flesh flexible like dough under his hands.

“sorry, it’s just so cute when you don’t know what’s happening while deep down you really want that weight on you…” seokmin explains his actions, giving soonyoung’s belly a few gentle taps.

soonyoung gasps.

“w-what, who said i want that?”

“you don’t need to verbally communicate, your panic says it all.”

“i hate you,” he complains, lightly pushing seokmin away. with the touch, soonyoung notices how his fingers sinked more than usual, seokmin’s chest definitely more cushioned than he remembers. interesting.

“no you don’t,” seokmin retorts meanwhile soonyoung’s busy checking out his frame, gaze attentive to how the pyjama shorts hugged his thighs in a way that it certainly didn’t before. “wanna reserve this friday for a stuffing? it’s been a while since we did that, right?”

the option runned through soonyoung’s head while he rest his hand on seokmin’s hip. it was… softer than before? a gentle squeeze was gave on the spot as a thought formed in his mind, bright and alluring.

“actually…” he says, letting digits press on seokmin’s waist. it’s delightful how they knead the supple flesh. “i think i’m ok for now. we can have a watch party, though. we really need to catch up on that mexican drama we said we’d wait for the episodes to pile up, remember?”

“oh, right! that sounds good.” soonyoung nods just to reassure it, even though his focus is long lost in the new revelation under his palms. seokmin offers, “but do you want anything special to eat? to compensate for my awful behaviour of scaring you…” he singsongs in a mock.

soonyoung grins, unbothered by the teasing and knowing exactly what to choose in order to confirm his suppositions.

“no. pizza’s fine.”

***

friday comes after a very stressful week, so seokmin doesn’t mind keeping his work clothes on as he proceeds to open a beer and text soonyoung that he’s already at home. they usually get 10 minutes before or after one another, so it’ll probably be a short wait.

seokmin frees three buttons of his shirt as he heads to open the windows to make the breeze circulate. it’s hot today, and thank god he still got a few more beers left in the fridge in case soonyoung takes longer than expected to arrive.

he continues to get comfortable in spite of the formal dressing, tie being discarded on a chair and shirt untucked from his pants. the belt is unbuckled along a sigh of relief, the pressure of a whole day in and out of meetings seeming to dissipate with the action. seokmin adjusts the tight fabric of the bottom clothes, still, tugging it in an attempt to feel less trapped. if he was in one of his moods, it’d already be gone, but since the night was settled on a watch party, he didn’t wanna appear too horny.

he sits down on the sofa, not seeming to notice how his body sinks further in the cushion, takes a generous gulp of the beer can, and waits.

***

seokmin is on his second can and finishing a bag of chips when soonyoung arrives, three large pizza boxes stacked on his hands.

“hellooo,” he greets, getting rid of his shoes before stepping into the apartment. “me and the pizzas are home!”

“wow, what a perfect timing,” seokmin comments as he gets up, a small grunt leaving his lips due to the effort after having sat back so comfortably.

“isn’t it?” soonyoung grins, knowing the two of them would get grumpy if they had to wait for the order still. it seemed a good idea to get their dinner on the way.

seokmin gives him a gentle peck, helping with the pizza boxes as soonyoung analyzed the small table—not as empty as he generally found.

“were you already snacking without me?” he narrowed his eyes, grabbing the empty chip bag as if presenting evidence.

“hm, yeah? you know i can’t drink on an empty stomach, it makes me dizzy,” seokmin mumbles, apparently not mindful of the curious stare he was receiving.

soonyoung’s brain is instantly alarmed by the observation, fighting back a smile as he looks at his boyfriend’s bloated middle, more than obvious when he bents to organize the pizzas.

“right.” soonyoung licks his lips, not strong enough to stop himself from slapping seokmin’s ass just to feel it jiggling. damn.

“hey!” seokmin yelps, meeting soonyoung’s mischievous expression when he straightens up. “what’s this now, didn’t we agree on a drama night?”

“am i not allowed to have fun anymore?” soonyoung feigns a shocked face, palm at his chest.

seokmin shoves him playfully, holding out his hand next to invite him to sit down.

“yeah, of course…” he says before reaching out to grab a slice, wasting no time in biting it almost in half.

and to think soonyoung is the one being teased for his eating habits all the time…

maybe it was time someone got conscious of their acquired manners as well.

***

soonyoung thinks this is the most self-control he’s had for months, but it doesn’t hurt as he thought it would. the holding back doesn’t seem too bad, although he spent the day taking it easy on his meals. after all, it is for a good cause. he’s now more than sure seokmin didn’t enjoy his gain as a merely passive watcher. he, too, spilled as they sat, both from the sides and from the front, stomach a protruding roundness that only drew more attention as he finished the second beer in small sips.

seokmin didn't have soonyoung's somewhat desperate way of eating, but he had a surprising ability to stuff food in his mouth. it was an entertainment, a private show, watching him devour his favourite dish in big bites that left his cheeks full for almost a whole minute.

soonyoung took advantage of his distraction with the series running on the tv (as well as with the absurd amount of cheese he swallowed each time) to revisit the places that caught his attention throughout the week—the thick thighs that doubled in size when he sat down, the arms that gained a layer of fat on top of the muscle he built at the gym he went to three days a week. maybe that could have slowed down the gain at first, but it wasn’t able to do a miracle in the face of mindlessly snacking during the day with the excuse of filling up soonyoung.

thighs, arms, belly, cute cheeks to match soonyoung’s. his ass was on another level, certainly giving him more comfort to stay seated for hours if he wanted to.

and the fucking pants. soonyoung revels in the thought that this might come full circle in a short time, because soon that poor fabric isn’t gonna stretch more to accommodate his boyfriend’s indulgences.

“hey, is there still pepperoni left?” he asks, partly to mask his embarrassing enthusiasm, and a little to see seokmin’s roundness showing again as he leans for a slice.

“hm, i think we ate it all, but let me see.”

soon came, well, sooner than soonyoung had expected. as seokmin surges forward, he lets out an audible groan, which is accompanied by an also audible rip.

if soonyoung had cat-like ears, they’d be up and moving at the moment.

“what was that?”

“what,” seokmin parrots, slowly dropping the slice in its box while he moves back to sit properly and inspect the presumed damage.

“oh my god,” soonyoung spits out as he watches seokmin’s hands travel to his own middle, lifting his shirt just enough to understand what happened. in case seokmin himself didn’t get it, soonyoung exclaims like a kid who won a brand new toy, “you tore open your work pants!”

“no i– i didn’t, i–” it’s useless. he did. and there’s no time to comprehend the extent of his humiliation.

in a blink, soonyoung is all over him, pinning him to the sofa in a trap with no escape (he had the weight advantage, in the end). his thighs settle on seokmin’s lap without mercy, eliciting a grunt out of him.

“s-soonyoung, wait,” seokmin pleads, the fullness of his belly much more heavy in that position. it’s mortifying.

and soonyoung isn’t kind.

“wait for what? you don’t want me to see how fat you’ve gotten?”

it’s like the air is sucked out of seokmin’s lungs, his insides burning in a mix of shame and awkward arousal.

“shut up, you’re the one to talk,” he tries to quip, feeling ridiculous to be downgraded by someone who’s up his size by a considerable amount of pounds.

“yeah, i’m the one to talk, because at least i’m aware of it,” soonyoung bites back, lifting seokmin’s shirt to finally reveal the chubbiness that had taken over a defined abdomen. he bites his lower lip, entranced. “look at this, how did you manage to hide it from me, huh?”

“i didn’t hide anything!” seokmin squirms, hating that he’s somehow enjoying the attention. “there’s nothing to hide.”

“of course there’s nothing to hide,” soonyoung responds like he’s sputtering facts. “you have a lot to show now, actually.”

seokmin mutters a shut up, breathless both due to the shame of being so blatantly teased by his boyfriend and to the rich meal stuffing him.

it doesn’t help that soonyoung has landed his salient tummy exactly where his dick is starting to tent, and neither does the satisfying sensation of small, cute fingers feeling him up as they please.

the question that leaves soonyoung’s mouth is shoot without further thought, “can i feed you?”

seokmin chuckles, unsure if out of disbelief or nervousness.

“you’re really into this roles reversed thing, aren’t you?”

“it’s just that now i see why you got so eager to fatten me up…” he pouts, almost convincing with the innocent facade he puts on. seokmin swallows a moan when a squeeze pinches his flanks. “so much more to grab, ah,” soonyoung is caught by surprise when two palms land on his ass, making him screech. he smirks as seokmin encourages him to move, pressing him against his hard-on. two can play that game, right? “more seokminnie for me,” he whines, smushing his belly against seokmin’s.

“don’t get too excited, i’m not gonna let myself go like you,” seokmin warns in between a grunt, grasping soonyoung’s butt with fierce to let him know he can yet take control.

“right. keep telling yourself that.” soonyoung rolls his eyes, wiggling his hips just to be a tease before getting up to bring the small table closer, one hand resting at seokmin’s tummy to keep him in place. a slice in his hold, he plops on seokmin’s lap again. “we’ll soon be sharing clothes.”

seokmin snickers in disdain.

“you wish. enjoy this feeding session, ‘cause it’s gonna be the last.”

soonyoung bites his lower lip, knowing at his core that no, it wouldn’t. his boyfriend was just a stubborn asshole when he wanted to, but soonyoung could be much more stubborn.

“if you say so… now open up, baby. let’s see what more can this belly fit now that it’s free from evil buttons, hm?”

after a long sigh, seokmin obeys. somehow, he knows he’s wrong—this isn’t gonna be the last; not when being fed by your boyfriend feels so fucking good.

#cher rqs #cher fics #seoksoon #i enjoyed this smmmm #hope you enjoy it too :) #svt #chubby hoshi #chubby seokmin

[skrunksthatwunk]

went back to the sketchbooks around when i was going through yyh for the first time in 2019 and found a pile of near-yearly sticky note updates about my relationship with the series next to my first yyh doodles, a page full of kuwabaras. thought it'd be fun to share

+ more thoughts and old yyh art below

(it's crazy i didn't find any kurama-centric pages for months bc i think he's the one i doodled in the margins of class notes and stuff the most. his hair's pwetty and he gives me the least trouble outta any of the main 4)

something i noticed while skimming the two sketchbooks i took these from was how mean i was to myself at the time about my art. i guess it hit me more because i don't really spend hours going through my old sketchbooks over and over to track my progress and growth like i used to quite often. i guess it was only a little after when my self esteem was lowest (8th grade, tale as old as time), but... idk. i knew back then that i'd grown a lot in the few years since i started drawing more seriously (that's why i looked through my art so much), but like... i guess that never translated into being nice to myself about it. i ended up going back through about ten more sketchbooks to find more yyh art, and in the coming years i'm glad to say that negativity in the margins went away. hell yeah

but even so, my love for yyh was a constant and effusive thing, as it is now. it's probably the oldest of my current media interests. i watched myself get into rgg and develop my ocs and watched others fade in and out, watched my style loop back on itself and go all over the place, passed by pages of writing about crushes and album releases and gender discoveries and my grandparents dying, all surrounded by little drawings of the characters i love. including kuwabara in a maid dress right next to my dead grandma grief rambling that one time (no i'm not kidding. my grandma died in like late 2020 and the page where i poured my heart out after finding out she was gone just trying to process everything had one with catboy maid dress kuwabara directly opposite it, who i'd drawn like the evening before she died in her sleep. he killed my grandma from like 100 miles away he was that powerful. that wasn't even the last time i drew him like that and i don't even care about catboys or maid dresses much. i think it was just a bigger meme and he was the guy i most associated with cats. i put that man in a situation and he fucking got her because the book couldn't contain him. some victor frankenstein shit. anyway)

i took about 150 pictures, most with multiple sketches. i decided not to add any more though bc 1) i posted some of them on old accounts but i don't remember which ones, and tbh i value my anonymity a little too much 2) All Of The Pictures Turned Out Bad in ways i don't feel like getting into but just trust me it's like 6 layers of fucked up illegible image bullshit 3) i found it hard to narrow it down to things i felt were indicative of the development or interesting or anything like that. idk. i figured it was an interesting exercise for me and it probably wouldn't really mean anything to anyone else. and that's ok :) it was nice anyway. i mostly mention it to be like Oh My God i've drawn these guys a lot and i STILL don't know what i'm doing... :| it's fun

however i did transcribe the notes i left:

7/9/19: yo it's been less than a week & i'm on ep. 80 wtf i love this show

8/14/20: 1/2way thru my 3rd watch (first dub, first [with older sibling]) & honestly still love it & kuwabara being the first one i drew makes me happy

7/28/21: i'm watching it w/ [younger sibling] now! 4th(ish) watch, 2nd time through the dub, which is so much better than the sub really elevates the text. we're at the semifinals of the DT, which means this is technically my 5th time through yyh up until that point but eh semantics anyway i still love & obsess over yyh! <3

1/14/24 (present day): hey, i'm rewatching yyh for the.. idk 5th or 6th time. still love it & never stopped. now i'm writing fic & drawing & posting about it. i have friends i talk to about it. [both siblings] have seen it. so much has changed, and so little, but it made me sad seeing how much i insulted my own art. i love you 2019 me. god knows you needed it

[+ this drawing]:

anyway. forever fornever. if you even care

#that's all. just kind of a personal post i thought was neat. skrunklore #skrunkart #yyh #yu yu hakusho #you can really feel the 14 y/o in a lot of the little notes and stuff but that too is part of the growth and change im trying to celebrate. #ripping my fingernails off about it but it needs to be done #also the hearts are because they love each other. and also me in like a cheering you on kinda way #ok more lore but around jr year i started feeling like my art was getting worse or at least stagnating and i kind of wished i could go back #to the era where a lot of that art is from bc there were little things i was better at and also bc i was much more prolific and adventurous #and while i'm sympathetic to it looking back after another couple of years it's like nah. no i was still growing i was just too close to se #like i'll be like oughh i haven't grown at all in years >:(( and then i'll look at the art i made over the course of 2023 and go oh nvm lol #some of it was more 'getting back into the swing of things' + traditional and tech issues being resolved but there was also growth #there is also stuff to be proud of and there always is and there always will be. that goes for you too reader #no matter what your art does or does not look like. i guess that's part of why im posting this too #part of what got me into visual art was seeing how people's art changed (sketchbook tours). it's cool and seeing that learning process so #well preserved and so easily analyzed kinda activated something in my brain. i think it got me past a lot of the 'im just not talented' #stuff a lotta ppl have that keeps them from drawing or sharing it or whatever. anyway art's cool i love art. gonna go draw now probably :D #ALSO really funny watching the way i drew myself change. all in ways that make sense but still funny to me. long hair glasses girl you'd #probably keel over if you saw what we look like now. hell yeah

[acti-veg]

Hello Acti-veg! Im a big fan of ur blog. Ik ur no Vegan prophet/guru or anything, but i could really use another vegan to talk to. I'm vegan and also I have been trying to live as low waste a lifestyle as possible. Growing my own food included. My mom, despite my best efforts, refuses to go vegan. In fact she is a staunch Anti-vegan. Her doctor told her to go plant-based, her health is failing bc of her diet, and refused to change. But she's a stubborn until proven wrong type.

She made a huge fuss about how useless growing our own food was, but through ignoring her and making an effort, and successfully harvesting, I convinced her that growing food was a good idea, and have slowIy started including more vegetables and water into her diet. She expressed interest in backyard hen keeping. I always wanted to adopt rescue chickens, I could give them a good life, spay them so they dont have to be egg machines, and the manure/ free roaming habits for eating bugs could help around the garden and give them enrichment, and I briefly considered the option. But I know that Veganism is about harm reduction, condemning, and reducing the reliance on animal exploitation as far as possible of Human and Non-human animals.

I thought that by eating yard eggs as opposed to grocery store eggs I could explain the conditions of factory farm animals, and then teach her about the impact it causes on animals even locally, and then spay the hens properly. But it still feels shitty on the end of the hens..

I feel like by trying to get my mom to slowly transition to veganism full stop, I would be making non-vegan decisions along the way, but if I do nothing, I would have wasted the opportunity to make another activist and save more animals in the longterm, i was wondering what ur thoughts on it may be? Or anyone in the comments

I can totally appreciate the dilemma here, but honestly I think you may be taking on the responsibility of her choices a little too much. I could be wrong, but it sounds like you're taking her failure to reduce her harm as a personal failure, and therefore determining that it's up to you to directly change her behaviour.

I think that is probably how you have arrived at this dilemma - you are wanting to reduce her harm to the extent that you're willing to put yourself through something you'd not only find uncomfortable, but would actively go against your own ethics. You can advocate, you can provide opportunities for her to do better, but it's really not up to you to provide her with less harmful animal products.

Besides, I think it's an assumption that her having backyard hens would be more likely to lead her to veganism - in my experience, welfarism is not on the same continuum as abolitionism, one doesn't lead to the other. She will still think of animals as essentially there to provide things for her benefit, she will just also think they should be treated well while doing so, which she probably already believes.

I share that impulse to try to help those around you see the truth you have arrived at, and to some extent that is our duty as vegans and activists. However, you can't take on the burden of their choices as your own, and you shouldn't compromise your own principles to lessen someone else's harm.

Personally I'd take a third option - tell her you'd like backyard hens too, you think it'd be great to save some battery hens, but you'll be looking after their health by preventing them from laying, because that is the responsible thing to do given the health impact. You coul still educate her if she chooses to go down this route. See where she lands on that, but either way, I really don't think it's on you to try to make the animal products she consumes more ethical - that way you really would be making her choices your own.

If you'd like to chat this through more with another vegan then please feel free to message me - my inbox is always open.

#ask #vegan #eggs

[whoredmode]

You got me thinking and. While I find the SR reboot pretty fun, I'm so disappointed by its story. To me, the most interesting beat it had going for it was the weird dynamic between the main characters. I was playing a slightly older avatar so I really digged the idea that the main character was this person trying to get by in "normal" society, but ultimately consistently undermined by their innate ability for large amounts of senseless violence. At first, their friends and roommates think this is a good thing, as it starts to earn them money. As the gang gets bigger and bigger, though, they get cold feet, and start to become afraid of the main character. If I was writing the game, it'd be the roommates who betray the main character, not the... mustache guy with pistols whose name I can't recall. He'd be a red herring, the only one to stick with the boss, and the rest of the game would be about taking down your former friends. Hell, you even have a good setup for multiple factions to fight against. Each of the roommates controls a part of the gang that's based off of them. You could keep the absurdity and have the right level of darkness that's kinda SR's thing. Anyways, those are my thoughts as someone who did actually play through all those LARPing missions and thought they were kinda fun but had better ideas for something that might fit better with the other games.

this is a really interesting idea! thank you for sharing this with me, this was really cool to read. honestly this is WAYYYY more intriguing and engaging than the actual story. i love the fact that you have actual stakes!

i agree, i think you have a really good set-up for something involving your roommates betraying you since they could all be part of a rival gang (kevin and the idols, neenah and panteros, and then have eli working with marshall defense). the nahualli really should’ve been used as a red herring; i knew before i even finished the game he was gonna betray us (i just didn’t think his canon motivations were gonna be that terribly written).

i feel similarly that i don’t necessarily outright hate the roommate angle, i just wish it was utilized better. while i dunno if i’d call my AU a full-blown rewrite of the reboot, i do implement a lot of things i would’ve done if i were rewriting the actual story. for one, i really wish there was more tension between them. i can believe that they’re in rival gangs and living together, i just wish that would cause some obvious friction. i don’t want them to completely trust and love each other. i think them questioning their respective gangs and liking or disliking each other more would make sense as time moves on, but like there’s no build-up or reason for them to be so buddy-buddy.

idk. there’s a reason no one trusts each other in my AU and why the nahualli is on anteros’ side from the start. the writing and story of this game really is the worst part imo. it’s unfortunate bc i can see hints of decent ideas or directions it could’ve gone. maybe one day i’ll sit down and actually try to do a “rewrite” of it in a similar vein to my srtt and sriv rewrites, but idk. i think the reason i keep it confined to a non-canon AU is that i just don’t think the reboot characters themselves are strong enough to hold it up. why else do you think i have so many old characters be the focus of it😭😭

this got away from me. thank you for sharing this i really enjoyed reading it! i love hearing y'all's ideas.

#asks #anon

[rearranging-deck-chairs]

so clearly the master isnt against interregeneration uhhh fraternisation principially right and missys distaste is mostly a distaste for him specificallly rather than the idea itself so heres my questions 1) would she do it with dhawan and 2) would simm and dhawan do it

and wait another one actually 3) would they do it just to upset her yes i think they would shes annoying the same way the doctor is oh you think youre better just because youre not having a very public catastrophic mental breakdown? youre not better than us. and also while simm is a bad memory and dhawan is a horrible prospect to her, for them, already in their situations, each other's situations wouldnt look too bad. simm would probably be like 'cyberium in your head? huh hadnt thought of that but nice. whats it feel like'

dhawans view of simm would be interesting bc while both their heads are Bad, dhawan doesnt have the drums and is like filling that hole with other stuff LIKE the cyberium actually i think. for simm not having drums would look like gREAT probably but dhawan is like eh greener on the other side kinda situation and also simm is like a teenager. dhawan is soooo much older. simm would be a little annoying to him but not annoying-because-threatening the way missy is but annoying in just a kid-there-are-bigger-problems way i think

so yes i think simm and dhawan would do it but i think for dhawan it'd be purely performance, the MOMENT missy, or the doctor, stops watching hes like Bye hes gone hes Not interested this kid isnt at all interesting to him

would missy do it with dhawan i think only if that had a chance of comforting him. i think she'd find him horrifying but i also think she would like, face that feeling face that future face him and try to comfort him in the way that the doctor cant. if you set the situation up right that might be sex. you can make that happen

im not sure though about his interest in her like with simm i dont think hes interested but with missy,,,,,, ehg. shes difficult. shes threatening, shes painful, shes his failure, hes hers. i think he'd be scared of her initially the same way shes scared of him and he'd want to hurt her but after missy has proved she can provide what the doctor cant, idk, idk what he wants but i also dont know if he knows what he wants except to die. so

i think they'd get along better than either with simm though. or they'd get each other better. they're closer, psychologically. on the surface idk if that would really look like getting along. simm is embarrassing to them both and if theres anything that could unite two people i think it's a shared embarassment of what your shared teenage self got up to. simm: speaks. missy&dhawan: exchange A LookTM

OH YOU KNOW WHAT. the master-doctor would. the master-doctor would. go to the vault. "it's all you wanted for half a century, i'd know" "youre not him" "im both, best of" "hm"

#that fic MUST exist #10! 10 in dhawan/missy #also sorry i have no idea how i got here or why

[aquato-family-circus]

I keep having this idea, and I need to ramble to someone. I hope it's okay that I'm rambling here.

With 0 basis in canon, I think that Bob has precognition in the style of the Dooms, where he just predicts bad stuff at random. He rarely talks about it, deeming it mostly just bad dreams or illusions set up by someone or other (usually he blames Ford's illusions for them) but sometimes it can get to be a lot so on those days he just stays in his house and curls up for a while. Usually only the plants (and of course Helmut) can help then. Most likely, alcohol stops the premonitions, but it's a very bad solution for the situation.

It's nowhere near as utilized as his herbophony of course, and no one ever really hears about it except for the people who get extremely close to him or find him on one of his bad days.

I think that it'd never really come up to Cassie, Compton, or Ford, but Otto, Lucy, and Helmut are aware of it-- Helmut because he's helped Bob through one of the bad days ("I saw me standing over your grave honeybear, I don't want that to happen--"), Otto because he likely figured it out by recognizing a pattern most people missed, and Lucy because Bob keeps asking her about her thoughts on Helmut to a degree she knew it had some other motive than simply hoping his best friend and his boyfriend got along.

Though to be honest, a lot of this is just me thinking that Bob having precognition makes things even worse when you consider how little he could do to stop things from happening.

Bob having precognition is like the worst thing for him ever bc he is a "worries about all the ways things can go wrong" kind of anxious and this is NOT helping. I like to imagine precognition being fuzzy around the edges, like remembering a dream, but it just instills a sense of dread in the pit of his stomach.

This is disconnected from all the good thoughts abt the psychic 7 but:

this made me think abt little baby bob having precognition nightmare bad days and his mom trying her best in her own way to help him through it. a lil kid in his mom's bed crying and sobbing abt seeing something bad he can't figure out how to describe so it's incoherent

and his mom is just like there there,, she might not even really understand it's visions of the future if she doesn't also have the precognitive gift, which I feel like it could be more interesting if she didn't

regardless of whether Tia would also have this power tho I just get sad and pensive thinking about the moments those two mightve shared before (and while) things got worse for Tia

back to the psychic 7 tho; since iirc elka's precognition stuff is exclusive to the lipo documents (correct me if im wrong), i feel like its a field of psychic research that's poorly understood, and maybe that could be pinned on Bob not wanting to open up much further about his experiences. not that anyone would blame him for it. so it remains a mystery how and why it works the way it does until there's psychonauts in the present day willing to help with the research

#asks #britishsass #hcs

[ofmermaidstories]

hEWWo merms, i'm just gonna toss my... pitch for an isekai plot here if you don't mind: y/n has always been frail from birth or maybe she's very sick or something and likes reading superhero stories like bnha and maybe even self-insert/reader insert fanfic for wish fulfillment, and then idk something happens and one day she wakes up in the hospital and like bakugou is there and at first she's just like 'omg i read too much fanfiction i must be dreaming now' and bakugou says like 'yadda yadda yadda you fucking idiot why'd you go do some hero shit alone' and y/n just goes along with it because this is a dream right and yeah sure she could be a pro-hero in a dream world.... but then the 'dream' keeps going and she gets discharged from the hospital and eventually goes 'wait why is the dream not ending what's going on' and she's expected to go back to work as a PRO-HERO and she doesn't know what to do or maybe even what her quirk is supposed to be and she has to look 'herself' up to try and figure it out. all the while, bakugou and possibly even deku are like 'something very strange is going on with y/n' at this point i think either y/n (since she was sickly in the real world) would try to own the pro-hero life she's inherited- tho when i first thought this up i thought it'd be interesting if she quit because she finds out being a pro-hero is actually very scary when faced with some situations and y/n is not emotionally equipped to handle it/doesn't really know how to use her quirk and bakugou starts banging down her door and demanding to know why she quit like a loser or deku showing up and trying to ask what's wrong because she's been acting strange. maybe she'd try to quit after her first foray if something went wrong and she doubts if she can be a pro-hero at all... i'm unsure ANYWAY I'M SORRY FOR RAMBLING SO MUCH ABOUT THIS I JUST WANTED TO SHARE. ;;;;

NAHHHHH Stell!!!!! You gotta write this wtf, it’s so GOOD. 😭 Omg, imagine the angst LMFAO. ALSO???? “quit like a loser” BAKUGOU!!!! BAD!!!!! and omg, like—could you imagine Deku going into his tunnel-vision I have to save them mode??? He’d be so concerned. 😭 And both of them, watching Y/N flounder in a life she used to be so incredible in—the suspicion!!!!!!! the panic attack Y/N would have??? bc im telling you now, Stell, if it were me and I suddenly woke up in a life where i was expected to like, idk, lift buildings off of school buses full of children or an old folks home or whatever i would just simply lay down and die LMAO. lkdjflksdjlskdfr. i’d wait for my dreams to take me back home. 😌✨ not ONE THING could convince me to stay and play in a league where people regularly get thrown into buildings or fried to a crisp!!!!!!!!! i just simply would not. Bakugou himself could pound on my door demanding answers and i would simply pretend i can’t hear him <3 what pro-hero career??? what world filled with quirks????? idk what you’re talking about bestie, but i write fanfiction and mind my own damn business <333 ESPECIALLY!!!!! especially if our Y/N was like, so poorly beforehand. 🥺 Like nah girlie—don’t play their game!!! run free!!!!!!!!! take that new health and BOLT, LOL. sdlkjflksdjfklsfdg. (this is the literal opposite of what you were going for i know, LOL, im sorry stell sdljlksdfhjlksdj).

me n Cat were talking about isekais and i was like, “isekais are a form of horror” and honestly i stand by that LMAO, like, omg. the nightmare of waking up and having like, idk, people depend on you for their very lives……. no thank-you <3 not even the most beloved of anime boyfriends could convince me to square up to that. :’)

saying all that, i’d be curious as to how you’d end it, Stell. 🥺 Like… does your Y/N grow into herself and her new life and new responsibilities???? Is it her life forever, now?????? Does it get taken away from her???????????? This is why I’m sticking by my isekai=horror take, like, idk—imagine being all, “okay… okay this is fine, everything is fine” and like, adjusting to your new life and getting to enjoy it and learn to be good at it, to love your new relationships—to watch yourself grow—and then you wake back up in bed, in the real world. :’))))))))))))))

#ofmermaidstories-asks #you always have the best snippets and ideas Stell 🥺 #i need that gosh-darn spreadsheet of my tags for everyone because its been a hot minute #anyways i think you should give us this devasting pro-hero isekai stell :’)))))))) it’s so good 😭 #the MISERYYYYY 😭 the growth 🥺 the bittersweetness 🥲

[ofieugogyshz]

Hiya! Its nice to meet another Ancient Magus Bride self shipper! How about Zeus, Demeter, Athena, Aphrodite, Dionysus, Persephone, Calliope, Thalia and Melpomene for Nevin?

I'm over at @sugar-and-pearls by the way

Hello! Nice to meet you! Thank you for the questions, these were actually a lot more fun than I thought they'd be!

I don't have an s/i for tamb despite how beautiful and absolutely magical (no pun intended) the universe is, so I'll do my best to answer them as though I did.

Zeus: How did you first meet your f/o(s)? How did you feel about each other at first?

meta answer: thru the anime!

in-universe answer: idk yet. iirc Nevin's not moved for centuries, but you know, it'd sure be something if my form of magic allowed me to distance connect with Grandpa Nevin thru a tarot reading or clairvoyance or something, idk what. And he thinks of me in a similar way as he does Chise, sort of like a lost bird that's hurt and doesn't know how to fly its way home or to happiness or something, idk LOL.

I'm sure I wrote about that one before, actually, when I was considering adding him...

Demeter: What’s your favorite season, and how do you like to spend that season together?

Mine's either spring or fall, idk tbh which lol. it just changes. lately more towards spring, i guess?

I suppose spring's a good time to see the young drakes being active and playful and most of their growth? and maybe helping Lindel gather spring seasonal stuff if i'm allowed to hang out for his supplies.

Athena: Are your f/o(s) interested in any particular hobby or interest of yours? Have you taught them about it, or let them watch you, or anything similar?

I'd like to think that Nevin is interested in hearing my stories even though most of them are just fanfic. He offers suggestions in the way that one would impart wisdom to a person with a problem, like "why would the [character] do that? would it not be better for them to [suggestion]?"

He's lived a long time, too, so swapping stories (mine fictional, his lived) and asking for permission to share (and being quickly/harshly denied even though i'd vow to write it as fiction and it couldn't sell as nonfic anyways) and getting inspiration from his stories.

also bonus thought while writing this:

me: "...Grandpa Nevin, do you think that there's a spell to bring a fictional character to life?"

Nevin: "That I do not know, young weaver. But, would it not be better to find one's own happiness, than to rely on magic?"

me: .... ;>>

Aphrodite: How do you and your f/o(s) like to show love to each other? Feel free to include your love languages, if you find that helpful.

i'll have to say words of affirmation and quality time, as that's about all Nevin can do rooted to the spot LOL

I don't really got anything else, just him giving a lending ear and mouth LOL

Dionysus: What do you like to do with your f/o(s) for fun? Is there anything fun you’d like to try with them?

Share stories! Discuss magic, too, since I'd probably be self-taught/without a mentor.

I'm terrified of heights, but if he could still fly, I think I could trust him to be the earth beneath my scared feet LOL

Persephone: How different are you and your f/o(s)? How do you deal with each other’s differences?

Other than species? I'm a little hot-headed. Not as much since getting on mood-stabilizers, but when I'm allowed to be myself or get too into myself, I get knee-jerky reactions. Probably bc of the adhd, since we tend to feel things at 100 instead of 10. He is patient and kind though, and waits for me to come back and apologize or talk about why I got so upset or headstrong about something.

Calliope: Do you have any poetry or literature excerpts (or other quotes) that suit your ship?

Honestly, his interactions with Chise hit me pretty hard, especially during That One Scene where he chides her thought/envy. So I'd probably get a similar lecture at some point, especially the first time I'd see him in person. Chise is a big mood throughout her entire growth arc tbh.

Thalia: Discuss any fluff ideas you have for your ship. What kind of affectionate or sweet scenarios do you like best for this ship?

I don't really have any ideas. Just hanging out and enjoying the breeze and tranquility. Swapping stories, real and fake. Legends he knows of. etc. Me trying to hug his huge ass tree trunk of a leg.

Melpomene: Here’s your dedicated angst question: discuss any angsty or hurt/comfort ideas you have for your ship.

see aforementioned Chise Moment but altered to what I was going thru back then.

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Now I miss grandpa Nevin and his energy :(

#grandpa nevin

[tuiyla]

Thank you SO much for posting the screenrecord of the making of your latest Naya gifset. I admit I downloaded and took screencaps of it (I hope that's okay? I'm never going to share it anywhere anyway) in order to be able to actually pay attention to and take notes of your gifmaking process and wow it allowed me to learn quite a few useful tricks and how to play with some tools that I'd never used on Photoshop before. It actually turned out to be one of the most helpful tutorials I've ever came across and, while I know that was not the point of the video when you posted it, I wanted to say it anyway bc I'm so grateful that you shared it, tysm once again <3333

Wow Anon thanks so much for this message, really warms my heart. The point of the video was just general sharing, really, because I thought it'd be kinda cool to look at. But to hear that people are actually finding it useful is delightful.

More than okay for you to screenshot but I just wanna say, please reach out for anything specific! I guess you've already analysed it but I still have the original speed video files and the psd files of course, so if there's anything you wanna hear more about I'm happy to answer. Also happy to do an actual tutorial haha. I feel kinda bad that you screencapped a 64x speed video 😅 I mean amazing that you did that, but happy to make it easier for you!

I'm also just curious to know which tools and methods you found useful, that's really interesting to me. So yes please reach out again (either on or off anon whatever feels comfortable). Not just with this gifset but anything I do, I try to help. I have an ask about one of the comic ones I've been doing so I'll be publishing that as a proper tutorial too. And bottom line, thank you for sending this in <3

#this was v wholesome to read thank you #and please lmk if i can help with anything! #asks that spark joy #anon #gif asks

[elsecrytt]

If you still do sandwiches, can you do an asmo x reader x belphie? I think it’s an interesting group

All right! Not my best characters, so this might be shorter than the others, but let's see how it goes! :D

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So my first thoughts are that they're both reasonably chill in terms of jealousy and spending time with you (at least, compared to others).

Asmo seems to want your attention for himself, but he never gets possessive the way many of the others are.

He will pop in and ask you to spend time with him often, and he's certainly got lessons to learn about personal space, but he doesn't barge in like Mammon or made demands like Lucifer. He'll ask.

Belphie has his moments, for sure, but a lot of the time he's very patient. Most of his 'sharing' is intended for Beel, but he actually gets along with all his other brothers pretty well, too.

The two might have some of the least interactions in the game, but they're surprisingly fond of one another. Asmo finds his littlest brother pretty endearing, after all! And I suspect Belphie appreciates Asmo being so openly affectionate - he's got streaks of that, himself.

Belphie's 100% lazy so any date where you like, go out, is probably going to be Asmo alone. However, for in-house visits? Spa days? Painting nails, skincare routines, makeup/dress up time?

It'd surprise you how willing Belphie is to go along with Asmo's fun; he's pretty fond of him! And Asmo has a number of activities that can be done with little effort on Belphie's part.

Asmo probably looooves spoiling the both of you. His cute little brother and his dearest lover~ Definitely plays dress-up and tries to coordinate outfits.

("It's okay if you don't want to go out, Belphie! Don't you wanna get pictures of all of us together? This is going to look soo nice on my Devilgram~"

"...Hm. Whatever you want."

"OhhhhhHHh stay on their lap just like that! You two look so cuuuute!"

And isn't it lucky for Belphie that his bangs hide the flush on his face from his brother's praise?

And yeah, maybe... just maybe... if Asmo gives him those pleading eyes, while you ask him softly, Belphie can help get angles on you and Asmo, too, and pose for pictures with all three of you...

"I love you soooo much!! You're my cutest little brother!"

"You only have two little brothers, you know."

"Well, Beel has more of that ripped, muscular appeal! You're definitely the cutest! Thank youuuu~"

Even you think he's the cutest little brother, the way he pretends he's not putting any effort into making these shots just as nice as Asmo did with you and him.)

They get along well, and not even in an artificial way, or a "I'm going to be nicer to you bc someone I love is super attached". Asmo will still complain about Belphie being lazy and Belphie will totally throw shade back at Asmo in retaliation XD

You know there's no hard feelings at all, and it's nice bc Belphie won't hesitate to bitch about Asmo butting in when you're spending time with him, and Asmo will whine to Belphie's face, too.

They're kinda 'mean' about it but without any real malice and no hurt feelings either way; they're being honest.

The fact that Asmo gets you all to himself when he goes out? And Belphie gets you all to himself when you don't feel like going out? Happy coincidence~

As for NSFW...

OKAY SO. There's this one song. "Bitchboy",,, I saw one piece of Belphie art on twitter with a caption from that song and now all I can only think of it in relation to Belphie.

Belphie will be your bitchboy and Asmo will be your good boy :)

Asmo would probably be more interested in starting threesomes but if Belphie were in the mood, and he saw an opportunity to get sexual with you? And if Asmo were there/weren't ruining the moment? He's cool~

Hope you like whores because these two are absolutely like that in bed. Asmo has been ready and eager since day one to seduce you in bed and he's got all the confidence in his body.

He's not above trying to con Belphie into planning an advance strike, either. If he can come up with something good (and that doesn't require much effort on Belphie's part), he'd probably be down!

Asmo will show some skin. He will show some more skin. You'll ask him if he wants to take a bath. He'll tell you only if you're getting in too -

Belphie will get things going though. He prefers you laying on your back, so he can just lie on his belly between your legs and kiss away at your arousal, get you however worked up or stretched out you need to be for what comes next.

Asmo will litter kisses all over you, nip and suck and leave all sorts of marks that has Belphie humming in jealousy, stirring you up even more.

It's not actually so hard to satisfy them, either; Belphie will nudge his erection against any part of your and whine and rut himself to completion if you don't jerk him. Asmo will either take you or even jerk himself off in front of you, if you're not in the mood to take him in your mouth.

Each one is easily pleased, and prone to snuggling once the deed is done. If you're squeamish, though, Asmo is more than happy to help you with that bath, dear~

#obey me #asmo #belphie #asmo x reader #belphie x reader #belphegor x reader #asmodeus #belphie x reader x amso #lemon

[plutoswrath]

This isn't an ask per se but I wanted to share my thoughts. I always felt conflicted between placidus vs whole sign system,okay..maybe not always. At first I didn't even look at WH. Placidus was like the golden rule for me bc it made sense at that point of my life, tat I didn't even consider any other alternative. I liked how it added a unique character to people's chart.Like not all cancer risings r the same bc they have diff house cusps, interceptions maybe and thus diff ways they react to life and it's experiences.

Placidus made me a 11H sun and that resonated bc There was a brief period of my life at that time where I was Funny, social, surrounded by many online friends. It was like the answer to why I always felt like my true self with friends and much happier than any other relations.

Years later,as if quick flash of a firework, all that fun n spark faded as friends drifted away and I was left all by myself.

At the same in my astrology journey, I learned abt many types of charts and different ways to practice astrology. After reading many compelling posts from experienced astrologers and people's experiences, I decided to try out WH.

At first I didn't resonate with it at all. Made me sun in 12h, with no planets in 11th. I was always an introvert with big imagination but I couldn't come to accept tat I am a 12H sun and a few other placements. But then again my IC made a lil more sense than placidus IC. Unable to choose between the two, I put it aside to use only for transits.

Until, this year I seriously gave WH a go for natals.and the more I use it, the more I can see it being right. I've also come to accept I very well could be a 12H sun. Maybe always has been, and that brief period of popularity could just be an exception from some wild solar returns.

In a weird timely coincidence, this is my 12H profection year. I've come to think if Maybe tats why I could come to face and accept my 12h ☀.Or maybe bc it reflects my current point in my life. If so, it'd be interesting to see if I would change my thoughts next year 😄.

Idk how to conclude this message prettily, I just thought it was interesting my 12H profection brought an era of peace with its coincidence and wanted to share this with you. I apologize for making it too long.

-🌻

Don't apologize please! I think it's so sweet that you decided to share that experience with me!

I personally think it's very normal that as we continue our practice of astrology, we will possibly grow to like and appreciate various methods of practice and also change them. The topic of which house system is best to use is a very common question I get and I think especially newbies asks themselves a lot, and I think it couldn't be better explained than with the example you gave: it's really just a preference that possibly changes over time as we as a person and our insights and outlooks on life change, our self and astrology changes as well, because at the end of the day, astrology is tightly bound to our method of interpretation and drawing conclusions.

I personally think that different house systems can give us a different and more versatile glimpse of ourself. I know there are people who can't relate with their or other people's natal chart when it's placed in a different house system, but I think as we never stop growing as a person (or better said, we shouldn't stop growing as a person), there is a high chance that possibly one day you will. Which is why I find it even funnier that you made your discovery for your fondness of the wh system in your 12th house profection year!! I think it's just another big indicator of how astrology ties our whole process of being and 'becoming' together! Comong back to my the use of different house system, for example in the wh system my Sun is in the 11th instead of the 10th (placidus), which I can understand at first, but given the fact my Sun is nearest to my MC, Chart Ruler is in the 10th and I have my Leo Venus in the 11th conjunct my North Nodein placidus, I can see a reflection of how important my friends and a community I belong to and can express myself in freely is to me. For me personally , it makes sense that maybe not every house system, but most can feel relatable to us, at least for to an extent! And of course, as we discover more of ourselves, we find other, more relatable and efficient methods to continue our search for self disovery and the discovery of the universe.

Loved your insight and experience, thanks again for sharing! x

#and sorry for rambling asdfghj #replies #anonymous

[rahleeyah]

So, today there was a thread on twitter on how the reason Liv's other relationships didn't last was because of E. And I couldn't possibly agree with it, bc it would cheapen so much of who she is and the relationships she nurtured in 10 yrs and it's not fair. That said, the little part of me that is a sucker for soulmate AUs is inclined to agree that, at present, it'd be very hard for her to open up to someone new the way she can with him. Nothing else would give her - and us - the same closure.

I have many thoughts on this subject. Lemme try to make this make sense.

So Liv's 1.0 relationships don't last bc she lives for the job to the extreme, and she has Elliot, and as long as she has that defining, consuming, overwhelming relationship at the center of her world she doesn't have time or energy - or really the inclination - to devote to a real, committed relationship.

2.0, then, we only have the big three:

David - David would have worked, except that the job got in the way, and they both chose the job. If he hadn't, he would have proved that he is not enough like her, that his priorities are not enough like hers, and I feel like it would have fizzled out and they both would have ended up resentful.

Cassidy - Cassidy doesn't work bc he's a manchild. by the end, Liv is having to carry him, and they don't have the same interests, and they don't have the same view of the future, don't want the same things, and she can't just stay in a relationship that's comfortable while denying herself the dream of the future that she wants.

Tucker - Tucker was the one that could have gone the distance, but he starts talking retirement, and that makes Liv bolt. Why? We don't really know bc they don't fucking tell us, beyond an I was just scared. He didn't ask her to retire, was just talking about retiring himself - which he doesn't even fucking do for another what, three years? So I can do is speculate, really, and Imma say that it's just that she got scared of losing herself. she doesn't know who she is, without the job, and she isn't sure she'll still be her if she's retired, just being a wife and mother, and she knows Tucker wants to slow down and she can't, not even for him.

So. None of that is because these guys aren't Elliot, or bc Liv is holding a torch for him; he disappeared, and she never had reason to believe there would be anything romantic between them, anyway, and certainly by the time Tucker rolls around she's not even thinking she's ever gonna see him again.

Subconsciously? Is she comparing them to him and finding them lacking? I don't think it's anything as overt as that. however.

I do think part of her is chasing that feeling. It isn't that she wants Elliot himself to come back and sweep her off her feet (even if she does she's not gonna admit that to herself). It's that the way she used to feel with him - safe, loved, seen - is a very particular kind of devotion, a very particular kind of love, that once felt cannot be forgotten. and I think she wants to feel that way. she wants to be with a person who knows what she's thinking and is thinking the same thing, someone who knows her secrets and doesn't judge her for them, someone who protects her, someone who carries her just as much as she carries him, someone who shares her passion and her dedication to the work and isn't trying to shift her attention away from it. and when it comes down to it, the only person who has been those things for her is Elliot.

Someone else could have, but no one else did.

And that is why I agree with your last thought. Nothing else is gonna give her the same closure bc nothing else has touched her this way. Nothing else has come anywhere close.

#anonymous #e.o asks

[fonulyn]

Do you ever share your fics with people before you post them? I wish I could talk to people about the fic I'm writing because sometimes I get excited about something, or would love feedback, etc. but I'm too embarrassed to tell anyone about it. Sometimes I wonder if there's any kind of community where people just kinda talk to each other about what they're writing and stuff

haha i pretty much send everything i write immediately to @lovelyleons and he has to suffer with me :'D and it's incredibly helpful that I get to whine about what I'm writing, too, because sometimes only talking about it helps untangle the mess of thoughts that's supposed to become the actual fic. in addition to Theo, Tatsu has seen a lot of my fic before I've posted it and I often chat with Tir about ongoing projects nowadays. I've been fortunate because in all the (very few lol) fandoms I've been in I've had a friend or two who have tolerated my fic babbling.

but I also get what you mean! I very very rarely post anything about WIPs on tumblr for example because it feels ...idk, embarrassing is the closest word to it I guess. it's scary as hell, bc what if everyone hates it or no one says anything or a million other things that are 99% in my (and your, it seems :D) head but still feel like big obstacles.

there probably are communities like that, but I personally sadly can't direct you towards any. it'd be a lovely idea to have some kind of a place where we could gush together about the ongoing projects! because I absolutely get what you mean! sometimes you'd just love to talk about something you're excited about or ask opinions on whether an idea is brilliant or ...less so :'D

but honestly, there are people who are interested! I know it feels like a big step, and I do worry too that I'm bothering people every single time I talk fic to them. but it doesn't hurt to try? maybe try talking to a friend about it? or try posting about your fic on tumblr? tumblr is kinda notoriously a place where things get easily ignored tho and it's hard to get feedback even on finished pieces but, well, nothing to lose? and I def don't mind PMs about fic, if it's something i'd be into!

i really hope you'll find someone (or multiple someones!) to talk fic to!

#anonymous #ask and i shall answer

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I liked the story until I saw how you would go about the whole Harry-Halo-MC dynamic. Idk, but I don't think having the guy/doctor as a huge whole thing and MC being like "he's the dad" was a right move and that's when I fully lost interest. I think it would have been cooler if you had worked more on things from the drunk call part and it being earlier on the pregnancy, showing more of it, making Harry's relationship with Halo more organic... And like anon said, focusing more on it than Harry and Camille or making her such a huge part of it. Also, last chapter was really annoying, as for me it's just unrealistic. I don't see a woman who doesn't want to have kids and who's so certain of herself, in this day and time, simply agreeing to it just bc the guy found out he already have one, that just isn't realistic to me and I think a lot of times, fanfic writers forget that just bc its an AU, it doesn't mean that you can fully get out of reality. I think it'd have made more sense showing how that would have affected them in a different way, like her not accepting Halo or her trying to be good to Halo, if you wanted to include her so much... But the way Harry behaved... was just not it for me. I think the story became rushed and missed its focus. Story is about Harry's ex being pregnant after a bad break up yet all we saw was Harry's obsession into getting Camille pregnant 🤷🏻‍♀️ it's a good story and I honestly think that you started really well, but got lost in it halfway.

First of all, thank you for being so thorough and, of course, honest.

During ‘Connor’s the dad’ part, Y/N and Harry had already broken up for a little over two years. It would be odd if reader stated that Harry is the ‘dad’ as opposed to Connor who has been in her life for the majority of her pregnancy and thereafter.

I really appreciate your take on what should’ve happened because I haven’t thought of that when writing the story. However, with the severity of Harry’s actions–I find that the reader still held and felt too much pain to simply let Harry back into her life.

What exactly is ‘organic’? That drunk call was only a handful of months after their break up. Everybody has different approaches on how they heal so it would be too painful for Y/N to spend time with Harry when she has ALL the reason to believe that he’s only back because of Halo (and that’s fine).

I know I said that problems between adults should stay in that realm and Y/N hasn’t exactly embodied that but keep in mind the emotional distress that she was going through. Harry obviously doesn’t see her as a life partner anymore and that takes a toll on a person—so as much as she wanted to have some sort of connection to him, morals and values come into play. I believe that I wrote the reader as a strong woman who had faith in herself to be able to handle the new chapter of her life with minimal help. Although, as you and the other anon mentioned, I could’ve definitely showcased more of Harry/Halo’s established relationship in the later parts.

The reason for Camille’s decision is undisclosed and can garner speculation. Although, there are some wording that can lead for some people to allude that that is the reason for her choice. Additionally, I don’t think it’s far-fetched to say that some individuals will reach the point where they will do anything to get a partner to stay with them.

To me, Camille was a character in the story that alluded to how Harry desperately craved something that is wholly and truly his own; that he doesn't have to share. Y/N and Halo had Connor. Harry wouldve had to compete with him as Halo's "father" because Y/N had already said that he wasn't Halo's dad. Anybody can be a father but attaining the emotional stability and maturity to be a DAD to a baby is a different story. Harry lacked both of those attributes.

I agree that there’s a threshold of reality despite a fanfic being titled as ‘AU’. But assumptions of what reality is, is different for everyone. If that’s the case, then maybe it was difficult for some readers to perceive Harry as the selfish, arrogant and ignorant character that he is in this series (a great disparity to his real-life self) and may have added to the perplexity of reading the fic with ease.

Thank you again for the feedback. I hope this explained some of my thoughts while writing the series.

#feedback!! #the tarnish series