#I just wish I could help my parents more

[qbebou]

ok not to be like he’s just like me fr…. but chayanne is just like me fr…..

i’m also the oldest child with one younger sibling who needed a lot more care when we were kids and therefore was deprived of certain needs in favor of my brother. i also had a parent that was missing a lot and depended almost solely on my dad. obviously tallulah needs more help than chay, with her asthma and lesser fighting skills, not to mention she had only been playing minecraft for like a month? or two before wilbur found her. and chay knows that! he knows that she needs more help than he does he knows he’ll do anything for her he knows he has to be the strongest to protect her. my brother and i are only a year apart but i was forced to grow up very very quickly bc i was on my own a lot as a kid while my brother was sick. phil doesn’t worry abt chay when he runs off bc he doesn’t need to, chay can take care of himself. hell, he took care of all the eggs when they first left. but at the same time, it’s comforting to know ur parent is looking out for u even when u don’t need it. phil’s not a smothering parent, he’s attentive, but not smothering. but let’s be real he can also be emotionally constipated LMAO but that leads to situations like the argument and frustration between chay and tallulah when dapper was kidnapped. in his defense, he’s never been a parent before and had 2 children thrust upon him to raise on his own. he didn’t have a lot of time to adjust to parenthood like ppl in real life do, he suddenly had 2 children who had their own thoughts and opinions and emotional needs, he didn’t get the time it takes to LEARN abt how to provide that specific care and while some ppl have that innate knowledge there is a lot of learning and navigating when it comes to emotional vulnerability and regulation esp when it comes to children who are figuring it out as well. i feel for chay when he thinks he needs to be the strongest. i feel for chay when he had to make the decision to gather the eggs and leave. i feel for chay when he had to take blame for bad things happening. and i feel for chay when he realized tallulah doesn’t need him as much anymore. my brother and i are both adults now and we had a …… tumultuous relationship as teenagers for reasons that were both our own and caused by problems outside our control. but i still remember exactly how devastating it was the moment i realized that he was fine on his own. that he didn’t need me anymore. and it caused a rift between us; on my end bc i was frustrated and felt tossed aside and on his end bc he NEEDED to be independent to keep growing. i see so much of myself in chay and i desperately wish he and tallulah had a better mediator for their argument, or at least someone who could truly understand why they were so upset. i don’t think phil clocked that tallulah was so upset and adamant abt looking for dapper bc it was just her dapper and ramon surviving on their own. just bc phil didn’t witness it doesn’t mean it didn’t happen and it doesn’t mean that they don’t have a much tighter relationship than they had before purgatory. and when chayanne said everyone was blaming him for the decisions he made phil was quick to tell him that no one was blaming him but also phil doesn’t know that! he doesn’t know if any blame was put on chayanne when it was just the eggs together. chayanne made the decision for the eggs to run and they trusted him bc he’s the oldest and he’s strong and he can be a leader but by running he also put the eggs thru a lot of pain and fear that they may not have gone thru if they stayed with their parents. and even if the eggs didn’t explicitly say that they blamed chayanne im sure he blamed himself for every little thing that went wrong. we’ve already seen him open up a tiny bit abt how he was questioning his decision to leave. but phil told him that chay made the best decision he could have given the information he had at the time which is true! but when ur the oldest and everyone is looking to u, all of the responsibility lies on ur shoulders. chayanne has been carrying SO much weight on his shoulders for so long it breaks my heart.

#lex.txt #qsmp chayanne #qsmp tallulah #qsmp #i have so much more i could say abt chayanne tallulah and their relationship but unfortunately ! i am not allowed to write more than this #please excuse my rambling run on sentences and lack of proper punctuation #i type the way i speak in my head and usually that means no pauses no breaks everything flows like word vomit i apologize if things #don’t make sense #i think if this was happening when i was younger i wouldn’t have all these feelings but like #my brother has a toddler that i’ve been helping raise since he was born #that is MY baby i spend the most time with him he’s the closest to me out of anyone #and i think that if i didn’t have any parenting experience i would also handle things a lot like how phil does #i think the several years of therapy have also helped with my parenting LOL #anyways i wrote this a while back and it’s been sitting in my drafts #chay is so sacrificial and i think a lot of it comes from phil putting pressure on him to be strong #he literally said he should’ve been the one to die instead of empanada!!!!! he thinks the eye attacks are his fault #i just wish he could be a kid and do the things he wants to do without worrying that he or his siblings will die #poor sweet boy :( he shouldn’t be carrying the weight of the world on his shoulders but he doesn’t think he has the option not to

[seraphim-soulmate]

how much mold is considered a mold problem in your bedroom also can mold make your heart rate fucked up thanks. Aoh also the wall which has the mold literally falls apart if I touch it so. Not really sure how to get rid of it also I assume there's more mold on the other side of the wall??? idk I think every couple of months I discover mold somewhere and panic and then clean it and forget about it.

#personal #these arent genuine i can just use google but theres more mold in my room and im gonna start going apeshit #apartments are incredibly expensive. colivings scare the shit out of me after being targeted by a roommate for years. #some1 pls buy me an apartment ❤️😊 #wish i could just accept that rent and expenses is going to cost over half of what im making but jesus christ. #i still have medical bills to pay and food to eat and help services i need #moving back in with either of my parents is gonna put me in a depressive spiral. #most houses in my country have a mold problem anyways bcs humidity ! so like aaahgh #the options for moving are all unaffordable so i might as well get something unaffordable that is less likely to have a mold problem. #housing is such a Big Scary for me that im having suicidal ideation over finding an apartment #bcs uh obviously being homeless is not good. and no one wants a disabled tenant! #i dont even know what level of support i need either

[tiredstressedemotionalmess]

me, every night for the past three weeks: oh im feelin good rn! and i had a good day today!! im definitely not gonna lie awake filled with anxiety and dread over my future tonight :D

me, lying in bed 20 minutes later looping famous last words: by talos this cant be happening

#its like im fine literally all day qnd then i start to get ready for bed and the Dread sets in #like its an actual physical feeling in my stomach and i just suddenly out of nowhere have to hold myself back from crying #i literally go from perfectly happy to on the verge of tears in an INSTANT and idk whats causing uty #it #like i know broadly ehat the causes are but idk whats causing the specific switch at night #am i tired?? is it just bc im tired??? bc its not consistently at the same time and most of the time i dont *feel* tired #or is it just like. i knoe im going to bed so i know im gonna be alone with my thoughts and so they all come and hit me at once??? #idk idk idk i just know i hate it and i want it to stop i want everything to fucking stop #id say i need a minute to breathe but really ive been using the past four months as my minute to breathe & thats part of the fucking problem #because ive been putting this all off for so long bc its so overwhelming but now theres so much igotta do and theres real tangible deadlines #so i cant keep putting it off but i DO and its just making it all even more overwhelming and my parents arent fucking helping #but its not even their fault because im chosing not to talk to them about this bc talking to them about it makes it all real #and i dont want it to be real yet im not fucking ready for it to be real yet i just need a goddamn minute TO FUCKING BREATHE #i wish i could freeze time and just give myself a day where none of this matters #actually a days not long enough i think i need like. two weeks. two weeks for me to get my shit together where none of this bullshit exists #and i can just do whatever i want and not have to think about deadlines and decisions and the fact that this is all ive wanted since the #7th fucking grade and now that its actually here i cant fucking stomach the thought of it being real because im a goddamn coward who cant #fucking commit to anything or get themself to DO anything and i know its not really my fault bc i probably have adhd and i get #knocked off my ass with a migraine every ither fucking day but i still feel like i should be more prepared for this than i am #and im not prepared and im not ready and i cant get myself ready because i cant do things like this myself because i dont really want to be #doing them at all #like sure! the bitch can write a 400+ page fanfiction no fucking problem!! they can find time for that but a college essay?? even finding #schools to apply too???? dont be fucking ridiculous they cant even get half an app done in the time it takes them to write a two 6k chapters #delete later

[fortes-fortuna-iogurtum]

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#update for my friends here #(and then I gotta go read aristotle lol) #I'm doing ok. I think maybe I've made some friends here. particularly a couple of girls on my hall who have been very kind to me. #wish my emotions would come back and be normal #and by 'normal' I mean not just random crying whenever I try to sit still and think for a few minutes. #there's so much happening. my heart is pulled so many ways. I'm not sure how to resolve any of it. #and I'm aching for resolution. #but I think God is trying to show me how much more I still haven't done or experienced #even though a lot of times I feel like I've lived all of life there is to live and there's nothing left anymore. #I wish I had more trustworthy people in my life who are older than me and can help speak into this experience. #I need to call my parents and siblings back home. I miss them. #I keep questioning my decision to come here. maybe I should've stayed home. #I don't know. maybe it's all an exercise in trust. #I'm still afraid most of the time I think. I wish I could put that fear to death. I wish I could just lean back and trust. #everything just moves so fast. #if any of my post-college (undergrad at least) friends would like to give me tips for slowing down and being intentional with life #and relationships and stuff #during this phase of life--I am extremely open to hearing about them! #love you all <3

[bonebrokebuddy]

The Adventures of Superman time stamps for @stealingyourbones for not only fic writers to get inspo & for a place to get prompts but also people please listen to this show its a fascinating piece of history and it’s so damn interesting to listen to.

In EP 205 at 4:44:

Superman calls himself a “nice juicy beefsteak” to taunt timber wolves into biting him.

Ep 205 at 11:38:

Clark doesn’t believe in ghosts.

Ep 206 around 6:00 incorrect explanation of how coal was formed

Believed to be from fallen trees crushed under glaciers during the ice age

Ep 216 at 19:28:

One of the many times Clark implies that his Superman voice is his “natural voice” and his Clark Kent voice is not

Ep 216 at 21:55

This is meant to be a Grizzly Bear.

That is not what a Grizzly Bear sounds like.

Ep 217 at 1:56 (starts at recap narration that directly segways into the bit):

Clark fights a bear.

(Has a use of the “they can’t see me because it’s dark” trope that the show loves to use.)

Ep 303 5:45:

Clark still doesn’t believe in ghosts

Adventures of Superman: ep 619 “tell the truth or we go to the moon”

(Important Note: these time stamps and episode numbers are exclusive to how the host numbered & showed them on his The Old Superman Radio Show podcast where he reuploaded The Adventures Of Superman with commentary & ads before and after each episode. I’m going off of this version because it’s easily accessible but more so because I could also easily link the specific timestamp.)

Ep 207 Clark uses a gun:

This was in my notes but I for the love of god cannot find this occurring. I specifically remember in an episode Clark shooting a gun at a tree near a bad guy as an intimidation tactic. If anyone can help me find where that happened or a moment like it that I misremembered, please let me know.

#Also if anyone starts listening to the show. PLEASE could someone keep count of how many times #1) Jimmy Olsen watches a man die in front of his eyes (my count is 13 but I made the mistake of not recording what episodes it happened in) #(or timestamps so I have no way to make sure that’s accurate) #2) How many times Jimmy Olsen gets kidnapped #3) How many times Jimmy gets held at gunpoint/his life threatened #because I’d love to have those numbers bc if you listen to the show #Jimmy is meant to be 14 #hes violating multiple child labor laws by existing in the same area as a workplace #and Clark acts like a parental figure towards Jimmy and it’s super cute and I wish more people included Jimmy in their Superman fics #Jimmy’s one of Clark’s best friends and I feel like people forget that a lot and just use him as a side character #Clark has a sort of mentor-esque relationship with Jimmy where he helps Jimmy the best he can and makes sure he doesn’t get into trouble #(and vice versa on the trouble portion) #Jimmy is The First of Superman’s friends who knows about Clark’s secret identity #and I wish people acknowledged their bond more #i get the batfam fics but modern version of jimmy is like There’s Also Already A College Kid Clark Has SemiAdopted And Is Good Friends With #Explore That Relationship Please. Or the old version of Jimmy where he’s 14 in a 1940s setting and Clark very much acts like a dad to Jimmy #but also jimmy keeps getting 1) kidnapped 2) threatened at gunpoint/ to be killed 3) has watched many people die in front of him #that are generally from very traumatic wounds too #that kid needs so much therapy #bones speaks #taos #Superman #the adventures of superman

[coquelicoq]

natsume book of friends season 4 opening sequence has got me incredibly fucked up. the lyrics. kid natsume's tiny little legs and teenage natsume watching him run. the lyrics. nyanko-sensei burrowing into his arms. did i mention the lyrics? ending frame on the fujiwara family. including natsume. because he's part of their family. as the lyrics ask him to "please [not] keep suffering alone"? somebody fucking hold me.

#i'm actually almost done with season 4 because i have no self-control. and every time i watch the opening i'm like #no this has only gotten more potent since the last time i watched it. we are reaching danger levels #natsume yuujinchou #natsume's book of friends #my posts #season 4 is the season of tanuma just completely destroying me on every level. why is every single character like this?? #every time he learns something about natsume he's like oh so this is what it's like for natsume? #and then it happens again and he's like wait natsume ALSO has THIS OTHER THING to contend with?? #and again: AND A THIRD THING?? WHY MUST THE WORLD'S BEST BOY NATSUME TAKASHI SUFFER??? #he just wants to help natsume deal with stuff and i am on the fucking floor #his thought process is just #this is hard for natsume. i wish i could help him. maybe here's a way i could help him? he doesn't want me to though because it would #put me in danger. but i don't want him to be in danger either. and i'm telling him that to his face. i don't think it's really #gotten through to him but that's okay i will just keep telling him. now i'm realizing that the thing i did to help him maybe just made #things harder for him. this is hard for natsume. i wish i could help him. maybe sometimes the best way to help him is to just #respect his wishes and yet remind him that he can lean on people and that people love him as much as he loves them #the part where tanuma realized why natsume doesn't tell the fujiwaras about youkai gutted me #this kid is so emotionally astute and such a sweetheart #i just watched the episode where natsume loses his picture of his parents and his old house is getting sold and i cried. SO many tears. #tanuma putting his foot down for once like no actually you need to admit that something is bothering you this time #we can find this picture. ask us to help you do this thing that we can actually do for you. you don't need to be sad for no reason #mmm can't be coherent about it just rest assured it was extremely harmful to me and also exactly what i needed #anyway the season 4 opening song as the thing you say to your younger self who lives inside your current self because #you can't actually go back in time and be the person your younger self needed to have in their life. so all you can do is love that child #in absentia but so so so fiercely and with your whole entire heart #all you can do is give your current self all the love you have for the child you were #jesus CHRIST

[chaos-and-cookies]

Not to be cringe on main but i did put together a little amazon wishlist for some things we want/need for the apartment. These are mainly things we would like but with all the furniture/true necessities we bought we are either gonna have to wait til a decent time later to get, or we hope to get as a gift 👉🏾👈🏾 because the credit card balance/minimum is getting pretty damn large 😵‍💫 along with the other bills we have now like electricity/internet/etc. 🫠 so yeah, for anyone who's interested here ya go! Tysm in advance 💜🩵🩷

#id rly like to get the kitchen appliances rn but my credit card minimum is past $100 rn and that plus my car/insurance/rent/etc #im gonna have to wait a while 😔 #the stand mixer is on sale too ugh i wish i could get it rn so damn bad #furniture and food and all the little things a home needs adds up so damn quick dude #so greatful to my parents for helping out so much but even then living in ur 10th once in a life time recession just feels like shit man #rip our wallets #cant wait to get back on our feet once we've settled in a bit more

[sanjarka]

oh won't you just shut up for once. no i don't like talking to you. i don't think you're a good person and i can't have a honest conversation with you because every time i say something that you do not agree with you go on a rant about how stupid i am to think that way. i don't respect you, i am afraid of you.

#you should care more about your family you know #you're selfish and spoiled #sure and you're just fucking perfect aren't you #you don't actually care about who i am #you want me to act how you imagined how i should act #every single person in this house has to walk on eggshells whenever you're upset #to mold themselves to be how you want them to be #cause you're a stupid man #and somehow i'm the selfish one #hate that i'm stuck living in this house if they don't give me a dorm this year i'll go crazy #hate that my father's mental illness makes my uncle feel entitled to act like my parent #and a bad one on top of that #actually in comparison to you my dad is fucking awesome #and his bipolar disorder was never the problem #it was his family and the war and the fact that the only free help he can get for an extremely difficult condition #is seeing a doctor every five months for five minutes that's going to prescribe him medication #it's not like we can afford a therapist #i wish i could scream or something #personal #venting

[yoohyeontual]

I’m suppose to paint but my moral is so low right now…

#i Need to do it today cause I forced my dad to go buy the thing so I could do it yesterday (but I slept 5h I was afraid of making mistake) #but I didn’t so I need to do it today cause it will take more than a day and I seriously need to find a job #my health is on line two now I need to go for my eyes and that cost money money that I don’t have at all #i feel like my body is dropping me like how can it be possible to have so many problems at the same time ????? #like they are all pretty minor I’m not gonna d*e but it still really annoying especially when you wanna live your life #but you don’t have force to do it #Sowon also needs food again and I’m not sure if my parents can help me again… I’m loosing my mind #also my brother feeling depress and I feel like my dad cares so much about it more than mine ???? #maybe he dosen’t realise it or maybe I don’t show it as much so that would be on me #but without having end up in the hospital I feel like I’m at pretty much the same level as him 😐 #except that I force myself to enjoy what I love so I don’t end up worst than I am which he stopped doing #there’s already a gigantic favouritism on my dad side with my brother so maybe I’m just crazy and scared my dad end up feeling the same way #maybe it’s just being scared of it and not the reality idk but it’s messing with my brain so bad I’m tired #but also I can’t even tell my dad one of the biggest reason I got depressed in the first place but at this point he would tell me to get #over it I’m pretty sure 🙄 #anyway I’m gonna go paint I guess #wish me luck for everything it seriously need to stop 😭 #alex.txt #tw negative #tw negativity

[sashasluggo]

E x h a u s t e d.

#Only one more episode left to storyboard #and then I can quit this job and stop feeling drained 24/7 #Seeing my parents next weekend is not going to help either #wehhhh #I've been at my limit for like #2 months! #and insomnia is making it worse!! #I wish I could take an extended break #and just idk #cuddle my girlfriends for a few months straight

[mabelsguidetolife]

I’ve been really busy taking care of a skin problem my dog has but we weren’t able to bring her to the vet until yesterday and it turns out it’s FLEAS and i feel like an idiot because our house is dimly lit but the room at the office was really bright and THAT’S when we finally noticed, RIGHT before the vet came in — on the plus side, the immediate diagnosis expedited the visit and may have even lowered the price for consultation

anyway we’re going for a three-pronged approach (plus a corticosteroid for the inflammation) and cleaning our things but basically i got woken up early today to immediately help bathe her and i got two leg cramps at the same time….. she’s cooperative but she mdvery strong and doesn’t love baths until she’s already done and dry so unless i hold her securely by the body she’ll start to walk away with her muscular little legs which is why i had to squat in a very non-ergonomic fashion, the balls of my feet the only point of ground contact because she kept moving away, which triggered the tension in my legs

then i showered thoroughly myself (even if she didn’t have fleas i would’ve had to do it anyway; she shook her head while my dad was rinsing her ears and tossed a comical amount of water on my face, like a full splash….. like a tiny log flume had just come directly towards my face, absolutely dripping wet) and played breath of the wild for awhile but now i’m so very sleepy so it’s time for me to snuggle up in bed until i’m more caught up

#haleylyfe #we also have to get some of that squeeze stuff for the cats just in case #fleas aren’t native here and none of our pets have ever had them #in my entire life #which is why my parents didn’t even consider that could be the problem #I had suspicions but my dad was like ‘oh that dead bug in her shampoo???? just a gnat’ and i was like ‘hmmmm’ #I wish my mom would help care for her a little more but she makes everything feel like a deadly ordeal so it’s hard to work with her #besides she’s more of a caretaker for our old one-eyed cat kenny because he has a really ambiguous skin condition #as a result of his war getting slashed open and infected in the street when he was younger #if my mom hadn’t drained the big pustule before going to the vet he would’ve lost the whole ear #but the vets did such a good job you can’t even see the mark #it would’ve necrotized if left alone though which is awful

[cutearose]

okay but how do you ask for help when your childhood makes you feel guilty for needing help and the help that you need feels rude to ask for

#im really struggling to function rn and i finally accepted that i wont make it to my appt without help #so i posted on my snap story asking if anyone could come over for a few hours to help me get back on track #n. two people replied saying they cant but hope i find someone but no one else has replied at all #i knew the answer would probably be no bc no one has time to come all the way here to help me to do tasks i should be able to do alone #but idk i thought i might get some comfort or encouragement or something. just some acknowledgement #i wish i had a group chat or something where i could reach out to people. bc things like snap stories people are just flicking past #i NEED to change the kitty litter today i have no choice its unusable and needs changing but i just. how. i am so tired #i have a ridiculous amount of glasses n crockery specifically for when i struggle like this n yet im still almost completely out of them #bc i just. cant do the dishes. i dont even have to wash them they just need to go in the dishwasher n i Cant #my brain just completely shut down once i got back from the trip #especially bc i got a cold n i dont cope well being sick at all #but of course thats another reason i feel bad asking for help. bc my house is full of germs. n i dont want people to get sick bc of me #but i am running out of food and clean dishes and bench space and i just. cant do it alone rn #but i used up my asking capabilities posting on snap #posting on insta would prob get more people to see it but insta feels. much more public #i dont use my insta stories like ever so it feels like a Lot to post on it for this #n when i asked for support after my parents divorce i only got a couple responses anyway #n this is. not worth support. like its a problem of my own making? i went on the trip knowing it would be a Lot for me #i wasnt planning on getting sick And getting an infection which are both exhausting me a lot but thats not the point #idk im just beating myself up over here. idk how to ask for help esp bc i expect the answer to be no anyway #like who is gonna travel an hour+ to help their friend clean their kitchen and fill out paperwork. im 28 i should be able to do that stuff #these tags are getting very maudlin and mean to myself. sigh. i wish i didnt feel so guilty when i need help #i wish i felt like i was allowed to ask for and accept help #love that childhood and autistic trauma haha lmao #anyway. brains are annoying. and im struggling a lot.

[dogbunni]

I was telling my mother about some interesting Symptoms™ I've been having and putting them all together like that. maybe I'm stressed because my body is falling apart. that might be a cause. like

#like oh my god. girl help im having symptoms even doctors dont know what to with #i told her about the last time i saw a dr for one particular health issue and he told me if i were older he'd investigate for cancer #but bc im young he isnt going to bother #and then just sent me on my way without much follow up like 'if it gets worse its probably fine and dont come back' #and she was very concerned #im still not sure how concerned i have to be about it #bc if it was a real medical problem then he wouldve said come back if it gets worse #but also im in pain and bleeding all of the time and as time goes on my body seems to be like getting worse at performing certain tasks #and developing more and worse symptoms #i should maybe get a second opinion on that one but im also right in the middle of testing for my high blood pressure #and also going back forth with gender clinic about surgery #and trying to manage my disabilities #and trying to care for my terminally ill cat #so like i dont have the TIME #or the energy #i DO wish my body could hold it together for like a minute #a breather would be good rn #dogbunni diary log #sorry again. have no one to vent to #i cant bother my parents too much about this bc they worry enough about me as it is and have enough stress in their lives

[mrfoox]

Uh you ever.... Feel okay or pretty decent and then you remember your lifes circumstances and then you're at the verge of tears?

#miranda talking shit #Maybe this is too specific but hah yeah ... #I can feel okay and be like ah things are pretty good ! And then i remember how my life 'is' and im close to a breakdown #Trying nit to compare myself to others and so on but like.... Its so hard not to lmao #25 soon and no job havent finished high-school i got no partner (plus i guess a virgin lol) #And all the things i havent done or experienced which is pretty universal? Yeah mmm... Ive lost so much of my time and life to mental #Illness and i cant help but morn that. Like if i didnt have my child trauma id probably have a lot milder anxiety and depression which is #Keeping from doing most things... Id still have my autistic and add struggles but i want to imagine I'd manage to accomplish more if #My dep and anx wasn't this bad bc of my past... I hate how my mentality was wrecked before i even knew how to count to 100 #And sooo many years of my childhood just feeling bad and even suicidal (first time i mentioned wanting to die in my diary i was 10-11...) #Just struggling so many years mentally and since i was so young i couldn't make the connection why i was feeling like it? Like the first #Time i started considering why etc i was already like 16.... I didnt think it was weird to cry every single day as long as i can remember #Now at 25 i am still a crybaby but i do it weekly instead. Its just so ... Weird and sad. You dont understand how serious something was #That happened to you and how it affected you until youre almost an adult... And you start to understand that its not just all on you #Its not just your fault youre struggling so much. Youre not just being lazy and difficult ... God Just wish someone protected me when #It mattered . I know my past could have been worse i could have been treated a lot worse and abused more and still to this day it makes me #Feel iffy or bad to claim i was abused? I mean... I was? But cant help to feel my trauma and experiences is not as serious as others #Like i wasnt sexually abused for example or abused by my parents... And i know many have so i feel its not my ... Right to say anything ? #Like my brothers mentally abused me for years and physically from time to time but it could be so much worse #Idk where im going with this i need to go to my vourses instead im crying in the bathroom like stop #Negative