#I ran out of ideas of what to tag so...

[novelconcepts]

The fucking choking noise I made when I tuned into a podcast for my run and heard a recent favorite actor go, “I’m still on Tumblr, don’t tell anyone.”

#me frantically looking at the date: #‘right this was 2021. what are the odds they still are? I mean. 14 years for MY gay ass. so. soooo.’ #'do you look at your own tags? at your character? at your ship? SURELY Not. but i would. so could i even blame you? welcome? sorry? help.' #I’m honestly so much less alarmed at the idea of favorite actors finding me NOW vs the truly horrendous idea #that they might have found me back in like 2011-2015 #like. I hate that person. the person who ran my blog back then suuuuucked #which is great cuz it means I’ve grown and matured and experienced life enough to improve #but also like. imagine your favorite actor knowing your tumblr blog from Before #and just loooooathing you #finding out you’re the one writing a ton of fic for their character now and being like ‘THAT one? really?’ #'i've had your URL blacklisted since the GLEE DAYS' fucking imagine #anyway. all of this is moot certainly. like there is just no way. it's all good. #but it did make me make the most unholy noise mid-run so thanks for THAT

[ladybugkisses]

🎄 ! !! happy christmas !! ! 🎄 have a prequel

#helluva boss #wally wackford #impsona #selfinsert #selfship #this was supposed to go with the picture from last year but then i ran out of time sO HERE IT IS NOW #good because i had no new ideas for this year anyway lmao #art tag #also i have No idea what hellborns say instead of ''merry christmas'' and didn't feel like thinking about it so shhsh

[brittlebutch]

it's actually so fascinating to me that Brennan has created a character that maintains a pretty relaxed and mild-mannered demeanor and has said multiple times that the absolute Core of her is "FEAR" and how often we see this Fear manifest specifically in Avoidance; it really nails a relationship to that mentality where your brain fully Stops recognizing the emotion properly out of like, sheer self-defense from the stress of having to carry it all the time

I think this is also perfectly showcased in the way we tend to see Tula swing so suddenly from 'level and steady' to 'snarling Panic' and then back again - Just because your brain has detached itself from the Conscious Recognition of the emotion doesn't mean it can Actually stop itself from experiencing it. So the Fear is always there and always acting as a stressor, but because of that inability to Identify it there's no way to recognize or address it before that final straw hits and your bodymind jumps Straight into Full Meltdown Mode; but then once again, once you drop even a Little bit below that Peak Terror your brain ceases to process the emotion; it's like the most exhausting form of Poor Object Permanence in the world

And even if Tula is aware of this happening to her, that doesn't really make it any easier to deal with / address. Even if you're able to spot the symptoms Around the emotion -- chest pain, irritation, nausea, whatever -- because the Emotion Itself is basically impossible to find, you can't really Successfully Pin Down what the problem is OR a way to cope with it. If you can't figure out That You Are Anxious, then figuring out What Is Making You Anxious is impossible, which makes Find A Way To Make Peace With That incomprehensible. That's where the Avoidance comes in: you can no longer identify what might be a Dangerous Situation, which means that Anything New has a big potential to be Really Bad in a variety of ways (ranging "I don't Feel Good" to "Fully Lashing Out bc you've entered Fight/Flight and can't get out of it" to "Actual Outside Danger This Time") and that means the Only Way you know how to be Safe is to just Avoid Doing Anything New and Only stick to Familiar Situations, because anything unfamiliar is a monster of a gamble you don't know how to prepare for or cope with

#N posts stuff #one could argue ‘we see tula worry a lot tho’ but that’s bc Worry is an Action that can occur Separately from Recognizing Anxiety #now that I know tumblr will put a hard cap on your tags w/o telling you i'm resigning myself to posting rambling meta in post body #but i'm not happy about it; anyway i love how often life is full of Coincidences bc this is something I've Finally identified in myself #like. This Month. like this is brand new articulation for some of the problems i have in life; again knowing this doesn't help lmao #bc even when you know to look Around the shape of the emotion - like 'oh my face is Snarling rn. i'm probably experiencing Something' #like i said bc you don't know What that something is OR What might have caused it then the only solution you Ever get to come up with #is just 'fully retreat and go calm down somewhere else' which INVARIABLY means that you will wind up in that same situation again #and Still have no idea how to handle it bc you never could figure out what caused it so you don't know how to handle it any better than #'fully retreat and go calm down somewhere else'; so 'be somewhere else' is the ONLY way you can ever think to Help it #which usually invariably turns into 'Just Avoid Fucking Everything just in case'; which doesn't work! bc life doesn't let you do that #so then it's just a cycle of falling into the same pitfalls and feeling miserable all the time; gotta love it :) #if you're like me this also gives you Bad Bad Bad Memory bc your brain will Promptly hide evidence of Scary Situation instinctively #like 3 weeks ago this dude ran a red light and almost t-boned me Full Speed & managed to stop like. maybe 3 feet away. #and i like. Startled Laughed and said 'that was scary' and then within 30 seconds i had Fully Forgotten it happened & only remembered #like 2 days ago. Ha! believe it or not this Does Not Help with 'How can I Address the Problem instead of Avoiding It Entirely?' #dimension 20 #d20: stupendous stoats #tula #d20lb

[skyenthusiast]

them <3

#that little pause when they looked at each other before going for a very tight hug- im SO WEAK 😭💘 #they couldve kissed brooooo >.< #new ship new ship new ship #otp: the happy boyfriends #this tag might change later i just ran out of idea what else to use now #lisandro martinez #antony #manchester united #footie #footballedit #its been so long since i gif united.... #otp: short husbands #mufcedit #lichantony

[khaotunq]

What I'm enjoying is the general Aussie reaction to my year of festivals gifset. There are at least 3 who've reacted with something to the effect of "TAMWORTH?"/"At least it's not Splendor." and that might not be a lot but it's killing me and I love it.

#u guys r the funniest #there are SO many festivals that didn't make the cut purely because #1. i ran out of moments to gif that could imply they were at a festival #and 2. i was restricting myself to one a month #i was also trying to be relatively realistic in terms of travel #it's less insane to be in australia 3 times in a year for dudes from thailand than for them to be back and forth to europe etc #i have an entire list of plausible festivals and only 12 of them made the cut #and it was either because sand mentioned them in the show or they just happened to be in a month i had no other ideas for #there was a lot of fuckin thought and research into this gifset is what i'm saying #so i love reading everyone's tags so fuckin much #so it is decreed #yes ok i sent them from brazil to iceland whAT OF IT

[lenievi]

Les Misérables (2000); episode 3

#of course this would be the end of the third episode to make me want to continue... #episode one was in fact the best one so far but it's not like two and three were bad #soon he's gonna walk into the river 😢 #les miserables #what if i tagged this with #les miserables 2000 #valvert #ETA ep 4: he put down the gun and took out a knife and then ran it from javert's throat down his body before he cut the ropes #and i wish the camera work was more intense. it was fine but you know just a bit more lol #anyway ignore me. i just like the idea behind them (which means i just wanna read some fics later) #even when they're based on different versions. sadly

[beanbeanbee]

Going back to coloring things B)

+ Last two posts colored vvv

#I would've deleted the last posts if they didn't already get so many notes... #my art #splatoon #splatoon 2 #splatoon 3 #c-side #beika splatoon #kikura splatoon #diss-pair #warabi #I was going to draw all of c-side with instruments but uh I got lazy #splatbands #feels weird using that tag so much for once #also what's with all of the c-side art lately? are we trying to summon c-side info?? may I join- #gonna draw the pufferfish next idk what after that though I kinda ran out of ideas months ago (besides something for omega 3)

[aquared]

okay i am really brain-latched to this au i really do need to give it a proper name

#tag ramble time -> #ive posted abt it so much i dont like maintagging it anymore thats why ive had so many untagged doodle posts recently #i need to get back to drawing normal felt please theyre in my brain they need to be released #fun fact i do have a name for a hypothetical fanventure surrounding it #the au #took a bunch of searching throuhg poker terms because im a fucking nerd #i could probably call it the name ive been givng this adventure in my head but i dont think ‘ nosebleed ‘ is a very welcoming name for #anything #here i go talking again #thoughts directly from my brain edition #would you guys consume a blog of just auposting so i can leave space here for actual hs stuff or is that too much #fun fact i called it nosebleed in my head because when poking around poker terms i saw nosebleed meaning stakes are super high and i was #like ‘ ok ‘ #why i picked poker specifically i have no idea … looking up go fish terms for my comic ….. new comic guys its called .. #i ran out of card games im a fake fan #what would the hivebent adjacent portion be called #gotta look up pool terms #sorry . table stickball

[fishinthejar]

being a system is so weird because one moment you're just sitting eating your cereal and the other you suddenly feel like your brain is a very small room and someone is looking over your shoulder while standing just a little too close to you

#> crow #this is totally relateable contwnt gyys #ummm what do i tag this so people can laugh #sysblr #system #osddid #did osdd #actually plural #osdd 1b #yay #idk i ran out of ideas

[letstrywritingmaybe]

I don’t believe in deleting fics, cause I know how it feels when I go back and look for a specific fic by a beloved author to find that it’s gone. But man some times I think about rewriting and changing my old works, cause I like to think I got a little better at this writing thing. Specifically the memory loss fic, that one haunts me all the time, I had no idea what I was doing it was more let’s just finally finish this so I don’t have to worry about it anymore (and here I am still worrying about it). Look I know it’s over done, but there’s just so many things you could do with losing your memory (and how devastating it was but I’m a fluff lover so we don’t do that here… although… just had a sad idea that will not help my case in not being a Ran hater *sigh I hate the canon ship not her okay) It’s probably why I was so fixated on Lo Lo Love Me, and a counter part that I may never write. Point is, I think about writing/fixing the memory loss fic, but make it Shiho this time, but only because I hate seeing my queen suffer. I always say I hate angst, and I do, but thinking about how alone Shinichi was despite growing up in far better conditions than Shiho to now being alone again cause the only other person who knew all about his time as Conan and experienced it with him forgets it all? You can only repress yourself for so long, losing your partner, losing a part of yourself changes a person.

#cynply dreaming out loud #why have I never used that tag as a OneRepublic stan? shame on me #now I’m gonna have to go back and tag things later #anyways this musing was sparked by someone leaving a kudos on that fic and I’m like yikes… #cause that is definitely not my best work and while I’m glad it’s done I just know I could do so much better #it was too messy too rushed too much in general and just not it #like if I don’t even like going back and rereading it I know it’s bad #again I have great ideas but the execution is just not good #I will say though. that fic is very core Cyn like this is what I try to do and what I follow #all my fics have the same premise we just get there differently #he’s always so in love with her. she’s usually unsure and in denial. ran is ultimately supportive and there’s no shit talking #it’s all love just a bit unfortunate but it’s a love story baby just say yes

[mochinon-yah]

so... i made this simple drawing cuz i was listening to songs that just made me feel like "i wanna hug scara :("

the left one was supposed to be 'anyone' who wanna hug scara, but it ended up looking a lot like childe haha

i guess this could be like child!ajax and child!kunikuzushi in modern time

"kuni?"

"...what?"

ajax smiled softly, his friend was still there.

he didn't disappear or left him all by his own like the others. ajax was thankful for that. but, oh, how he wished he could just stopped being weird. he never wished to be like this anyway. why was it only him who was experi-

"-ajax!"

the ginger haired boy snapped out from his thoughts. he looked to his right, finding his friend, his only one, kunikuzushi, sitting beside him. ajax wanted nothing but time to stop right now.

he wished it did.

he was already happy having a friend. even if there was only one in his little world. even if they weren't all that compatible to be friends.

"ughh," kuni grumbled as he put his cold hands inside his jacket's pocket, "what are you trying to say? is it another 'oh uh, my family got mad at me again, they called me a freak after i went missing for a while'? it's old news now, so... what is it?!"

a laughter erupted from ajax. his smile seemed bright like the city they were seeing from on top of the hill. kuni let out a sigh. it was quite rare to see his ginger head friend laughing freely like this, but... it was nice.

it was a much different scene than what he usually saw.

there was something, at least. that something being ajax and all his weird antics. unlike his household who had nothing as if kuni himself was not acknowledged there. kuni wanted nothing but time to stop right now.

he wished it did.

he was happy that they could understand each other without saying so much. even if their problems were different yet similar at the same time. even if they weren't all that compatible to be friends.

"as if yours aren't old news too! 'huhuu, ajax! my mom kept acting as if i didn't exist and my sister too! they wouldn't even say anything if i act up in scho-'"

"-ahhh, ajax! shut up!!"

"ouhh, kuni is embarassed! haha!! your face is so red like that one santa's reindeer's nose, uh... yes! rudolph!!"

kuni flared up until his face was red like... rudolph's nose, proofing his friend correct. while ajax kept laughing while making fun of him. too bad, his cheeks began to reddened as well, giving a chance for kuni to insult him too.

which at first was just insulting each other, they started to violently playfully fight. pulling each other's hair, taking the other's coat off forcefully, and all the other violent acts that a child would probably know.

"arrggh!! ajax, that hurts!"

"well, you stop pulling my hair and i'll stop too-!!"

...

yeah...

there would be more problems in the future, but of course, just like usual, the power of friendship will prevail!

"ajax, you fricking detergent!! stop pulling my hair, will ya!? it won't solve your family issues anyway!!"

"what?! detergent?!! arrgh, how about you stop whining about your mommy issues then, you jerk!"

uhm...yes! friendship will always win!

this was not how i thought the story would end haha, however i'm a lil satisfied with this one! i mean, c'mon, platonic love between friends are always so cute after all (≧▽≦)

#reli-arts #scara and childe friendship sounds like fun lol #anyway this story was supposed to be sad but i ran out of sad idea and it ended up like a crack fic #but i mean they are still children so it's normal to have fights here and there right??? #oh and this is fully platonic (obviously) #scara #scaramouche #kunikuzushi #childe #ajax #idk what else to tag haha;;

[neverendingford]

Idea first came to me after I said something like "a thousand needles sewing you to a canvas of pain" and so I decided to make it real as best I could.

#does this count as #sculpture #my art #color says shit #Ford's Art #<- figured I needed an actual art tag since I'm actually doing more stuff so that's it I guess. #now I have to go back and edit the tags on all my old art stuff #gonna tag this as #body horror #just in case. some of those threads are actually going through my skin so it's worth tagging. #anyway. I'm finally finished with it! ngl I finished and was like 'what if I don't post it I just keep it privately?' #but I'm continuing my exposure therapy by posting art publicly so here. #anyway. it's no dismembered hand stitched to a canvas but it's the best I could do without going full Hannibal and committing medical crime #I used glue at the start to sew through before giving up and just figuring out how much skin I could get the needle through #I'm gonna feel it tomorrow for sure #do you have any idea how hard this was with just one hand. I had to use my toes as extra fingers to thread the needle every time I ran out #I wanted more tension on the threads but with only one hand and anchors that threatened to rip out I couldn't really #plus the left side was easier to sew because I was using my left hand. the right side was significantly more difficult #as evidenced by the significantly worse stitching on that side #I think I should have stuck with the glue though because it makes the pull marks like I wanted #it makes the thread have more of a meat-hook feel and weight rather than just light thread pulled through stiff skin #I like the left side better than the right. and the upper right is the least convincing

[milkweedman]

ive had an impossible time trying to make things recently mostly because what i want to do is either garden or sit outside and process or spin alpaca but the weather remains cold and rainy with no end in sight (fun fact: there are 2 weeks left of spring and it’s rained, snowed, or been overcast for all but about 10 days this season), so instead i’m mostly doing none of that and just working a lot instead. today after work though i picked up a sock i started last month, got a few more rows in, and then decided what i should actually do is have another go at trying to decipher bulgarian terlitsi patterns (i do not speak or read bulgarian). meanwhile i know full well that even if i start a pair i will immediately drop it for something else, because that’s just the mood i’ve been in

#even more complaining in tags: #sigh. feels like everything is hinging on it not being rainy and freezing but the weather just refuses to let up for more than two days #at a time. and my canteloup plant has already died from the rain since i got optimistic a few weeks ago. along with half of the cucumbers #*hinge-ing ??? idk. #plus the tomatoes are slowly dying from lack of light which i rly can't do a thing about #meanwhile my floor is still covered in sewing materials bc i dont feel like working on the skirt #bc who wants to wear cotton skirts when its so cold ??? #and the hat i was vaguely knitting is on the floor by the bedside table where it got knocked off after i fell getting out of bed at night #and tried to brace myself on the table and promptly knocked literally everything over #and im taking no enjoyment whatsoever from sock knitting bc i want to do ! other ! stuff ! #AND i don't really want to do wool processing inside rn bc the vaccum broke and we don't have money for another #so adding extra dust and grime on top of what is normally being created sounds like a bad idea #so working through the alpaca fleece so that i have rolags ready to spin when the weather is finally nice isnt really feasible #plus i finally ran out of all of the post surgery meds. the pain management clinic actually called me earlier but it was during work #and they didnt pick up when i called back so. have to wait until monday to schedule an appointment (which might be. months out. no idea) #so i spent pretty much all day in tons and tons of pain and sick to death of the weather and with nothing to do #esp bc i realized computer screens are a migraine trigger #im on one now bc im too bored to care #but. just overall terrible #not even the kind of boredness where i can catch up on things i ought to do bc PAIN.

[crunchycrystals]

while im procrastinating on my homework im just gonna say im gonna be kind of very mad if that mv she's filming is actually for a midnights track lol i like the theory that its for long live though i think that would really fit if the vid is actually about taking back her work

#crunchyposts #ts #genuinely idk why im getting worked up over the idea that its not for a tv #if im wrong and its not a tv ill genuinely be mad #idk how mad but ill be mad a little bit lol #maybe bc im not super into karma and vigilante shit which are peoples main ideas for what it could be?????? #but yeah. i also really like the idea its a way to reframe better than revenge with the revenge being the rerecordings themselves #HONESTLY NOW THAT IVE THOUGHT ABOUT IT A BIT MORE. I THINK IT MIGHT BE BC IF ITS JUST MORE FUCKING SPEAK NOW TV EASTER EGGS IM GONNA GO INS #INSANE #I RAN OUT OF TAG SPACE #LIKE WE ALREADY GOT THE GODDAMN. BEJEWELED MV WE ALL KNOW WHATS COMING NEXT (EXCEPT FOR ONE PERSON I SAW WHO SAID THERE WERE A TON OF 1989 #EASTER EGGS IN THAT VID???????? DID WE WATCH THE SAME VID) AND IF ITS JUST MORE “OOOOH HINTS” IM GONNA FLIP A TABLE #SORRY i just want speak now tv #like we've known for months its the next one coming based on bejeweled. also i think the copyright stuff is being cleared up rn #we dont need more easter eggs!!!!!!! please dear lord just give us a date like red tv i dont care how far away it is its fine #ok. ive calmed down. idk what happened to me there. the worst part is really knowing that somethings coming but not knowing when #i think i am More Fine with speak now easter eggs but. still id really prefer more callbacks rather than hints its driving me up the wall #bejeweled was so clear!!!!!!! enchanted and long live in the background and the koi and the elevator and the dragons #and then nothing happened for months and we were just left in the dark!!!!!!!!

[ancientstone]

I HAVE ACHIEVED THE THING

#THIS IS THE BEST THING I WILL ACHIEVE THIS YEAR #the funniest thing is? #i collect posts in my likes and then go though queuing them so i can put them in the order i like #(hence why i always go fandom a post - fandom b post - fandom a post - fandom b post) #and I STILL HAVE THINGS IN MY LIKES TO QUEUE #I ACTUALLY RAN OUT OF SPACE #1000 POSTS AND I STILL RAN OUT OF ROOM #lol #anyway i have NO IDEA what's in my queue now enjoy whatever the hell is in there for literal MONTHS #i hope everyone realises that when tua s3 comes out you won't see a single gifset reblogged by me for months because of this #it'll all go in my queue #at least I won't have to tag for spoilers #the great queue trek to 1000 #i'll get queue to 1000 if it kills me #written in stone

[wheeler-draws]

Day 4: Nature

#clown art month #wheeler's art! #ask to tag! #tw eyestrain #eyestrain tw #I. ran out of ideas very quickly #so I decided to make a clown out of leaves then went HMM what if similar vibes to the wishing skeleton post #then of course I went overboard