#I wonder if I still have that up on mine

[rosicheeks]

🫶

#I’m getting hit with a massive wave of nostalgia now #I remember staying up ALL NIGHT working on changing my theme #I used to play in the html and add things #I looooved adding falling snow during the winter #I remember when having a music player at the top or somewhere on your blog was super popular #but ended up being incredibly annoying #cause half of the people put it on autoplay so when you entered someone’s blog you would get blown away by music #I remember having a whole different page for an about me #I wonder if I still have that up on mine #broooo I haven’t looked at my blog page on a laptop or anything in fucking AGES #I’m embarrassed to think what it might look like but whatever #most of us are using mobile anyway #or at least in my mind we are hahaha #so when I first started a blog I think I was in middle school??? like 12 or 13 hahahaha good times #my first url was SO CRINGE and I’m not going to say it cause I’m 😬😬😬😬😬 when I think about it #and then I slowly got more of a following and started doing smoke videos #I miss that community too :( #making smoke videos and tagging a bunch of stoner mutuals to ‘pass the bong/joint’ #and then they would make a video and tag me #awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwhhhh #I haven’t logged into that tumblr in AGES omg #but then I decided to post content and I didn’t want to post it on my original blog in case it got flagged or anything #so I made this blog #and here we are 🥰 #but man I have SO many memories from my last blog #i made a friend in Belgium and we sent presents back and forth #I think only once but maybe twice #I still have the bracelet she sent me #can’t believe I’ve been on tumblr for most of my life lmao #but I’ve met SO many amazing people that I would have never have met

[waveoftheocean]

day after tomorrow

(whee finally posting the finished version of this piece! i originally designed it for a cd charm where you can rotate wolfwood like the gif but then i figured there should be a still version too where you can pretend everything is happy and nothing hurts :))

#vashwood #trigun #trigun maximum #vash the stampede #nicholas d wolfwood #trigun maximum spoilers #trimax #trimax spoilers #uuuhhh i forgot the little tab thing isn't supposed to rotate but i am not remaking the gif so pls pretend you do not see it #god i am SO excited for this cd charm you have no idea #figuring out how to format and line everything up to make the rotation work squeezed all the juice out of my poor little braincells #but it was worth it (i hope lmao) #my art #mine #merch stuff #also if you're wondering where the church went in the gif dw it's still there!! that is both a promise and a threat :) #(it'll be on the back side of the charm)

[darkwood-sleddog]

more and more i become of the opinion my dogs are not reactive to strange dogs but in fact it is unreasonable to expect them to NOT be reactive when the dogs we pass are unwalked, understimulated rural hellions that thrash at the windows of their houses, bark at us and follow us for entire lengths of properties, snarl at us, run at us with tense body language etc.

is this because a neighbor (who does skijor!) moved in half mile down the road from us a half a year ago with the most polite, unreactive dog that my dogs glance calmly at as they walk by? as it is unrestrained (no underground fence) on the property? absolutely is.

is this because a few years ago a neighbor's very nice pitbull mix got out and when it walked up to us with polite calm body language my dogs reacted just as calm and we were able to walk this dog home? absolutely is.

like i am a human woman and have lived in areas with much larger populations than i do now. i remember being followed by strangers, yelled at by strangers in aggressive ways. it made me tense and yes...reactive in those moments to ensure my own safety and needs were met. but was it my fault for having to react that way? To call friends and family and be on the phone any time that i walked alone? to check in when i got to where i was going? to bring pepper spray and iron knuckles to walk less than 10 minutes away from home? I don't think it is. Rather it's the failure that allows that behavior towards me which is at fault. i should not have had to carry those things with me. or call a single soul.

same with my dogs. my dogs aren't reactive, i'm just the only person who walks my damn dogs in my rural neighborhood. even though we can walk for 4+ miles either way on safe dirt roads out of our driveway before we reach pavement. nobody else. walks. their. fucking. dogs. yes i manage my dogs behaviors, it can be embarrassing when they get riled up, but know what? it is not their fault so many other dogs fucking SUCK. and it is not those dogs' fault that they suck either. i encountered more politely behaved dogs when i lived in the suburbs and city than i do now because those dogs at least had some sort of experience with being around other dogs (passing them on the sidewalk even) out of necessity. Rural people truly just throw their dogs outside and expect that to be enough. if you're lucky they install a little underground fence that will maybe keep fido in the yard (like uwu WE don't want to have a look at a fence and we're going to make all our neighbors GUESS if our dog might run into the road at them uwu).

#dogblr #dog behavior #is it unreasonable to ask completely neutral behaviors from my dogs #when they're being fucking harrassed? when they just want to do their sniffy thing and pee on a bunch of stuff?? #can't even like loiter in some places bc people's dogs loose their fucking shit even if they stay on the property or are inside #like...real containment and stimulation when and now please? #nothing happened but neighbor with a dog that barks and screams at us from inside non stop #put in an electric fence and assured me this under 1 yo dog will never leave the boundary #like...okay... #sure. #let's see how that goes #like my dogs have wonderful temperaments #sorry if they're going to tell your dog off for being a piece of SHIT brenda #my dogs obviously know our yard is their territory #but they don't make a single peep for people walking on the road which is NOT theirs #i can be out of sight of entire dogs with properties out of the sight of the road #and their dogs will still be fucking yelling at mine! like shut the . fuck. up!!

[sciderman]

I swear I have read your big post regarding Peter Parker's neurodivergence and why it is best to avoid labelling him, but he definitely has a weird brain

Can't find it and feel kinda sad about it cuz I deeply related to it

i know exactly which post you're talking about and i can't find it either! i've raked through my archive, and it's just - nowhere to be seen. i think tumblr eated it (it happens.)

really, tumblr's search functionality is so so useless, i don't know what to tell you. there are plenty of keywords i can search to find it that post, but the search functionality actually just does not work!

undiagnosed audhd-addled peter parker, my darling, my light, my life, my everything.

i think peter parker's such an interesting creature to write, because a lot of people will point to a certain behaviour about him and say "this is an autistic thing, right?" but a lot of those behaviours are actually, in my head, tied to certain traumas in peter's life too.

people say "oh, the food thing, peter's a picky eater because he's autistic" and yes, absolutely. but also it's tied to his trauma with his parents.

peter gets overstimulated, and yes, it's an autism thing, but also he was bitten by a radioactive spider and his senses are dialled to 11.

it's a similar case i've found for myself, too – where a lot of friends i have kind of diagnose me because i have autistic traits, but actually - i'm hesitant to claim the label or pursue diagnosis because, actually, i know where these certain behaviours come from, and they come from certain traumas. there are events i can pinpoint in my life and say "yep. that's where this behaviour comes from."

so - i think there's a lot of overlap between trauma and autistic traits. the brain is very complex! i think the reason for that overlap is maybe as simple as the fact that people with autism and people with trauma are both doing the same thing - developing behaviours to protect themselves or soothe themselves. so - i think it's nice to be able to see a character like peter parker, who may or may not be autistic, but recognise behaviours in him and see yourself in him.

people who go undiagnosed for whatever reason - people who are really good at masking - so good, in fact, that they have no idea they might be on the spectrum - everyone and anyone at all can look at peter parker and recognise themselves. because i think we discredit the thought that every single brain does the same thing! develops certain behaviours in order to survive. every brain has that same software - we've just all been faced with different hardships that we need to overcome, and that's were all the differences come in.

autism is a spectrum, i guess - everyone falls into it to some degree. and i think events in your life probably push you along on it. but i don't know, i didn't study brain science. probably what i'm saying is very stupid and uninformed. of course there's brain chemistry involved. but i know people in my life living with autism and certain events in their life have exacerbated certain behaviours or made coping with it a lot more difficult. so maybe trauma is a catalyst.

#a lot of my traits have been exacerbated lately and i remember it was much easier for me before #and some of my friends have said “oh it's because you've been masking too long and now you're facing autistic burnout.” #and that made sense to me i think. #but then i found out about the stress thing. me overproducing stress hormone. and that's a very physical thing. #and that explains why i've been overstimulated more than usual lately. and why everything feels like too much. #and i wonder how many of these traits of mine are going to subside once i have lamar removed #and it makes me wonder a lot of things. and it's so weird how much your brain is tied to your biology. #i wonder how much i'll change. i wonder how i'll feel. i wonder if i'll still feel like me. i wonder how much me is me right now. #and how much of me is being altered by weird freaky hormones. who am i?? who will i be?? #i'm almost looking at this as like. a superhero origin story of some sort. like this is my spider-bite moment. maybe. #will i be different? will i cope with things differently?? now that my body isn't fighting something anymore?? #maybe i'll be normal. i don't know. i don't know. #i don't know what it'll mean for me. #but all of these things mean i relate to peter parker in a certain kind of way #i don't think you have to be diagnosed with autism to recognise and empathise with those traits i think #i think everyone can see themselves in peter. and i think that's the benefit of having characters that aren't diagnosed. #because there's so much overlap in the human experience. and certain feelings aren't exclusive to just one group of people. #peter has such a rich identity actually. it's an autistic thing. it's a queer thing. it's a jewish thing. it's a trauma thing. #there are so many overlapping parts of peter's identity that inform who he is and how he behaves and it's never just one thing. #it's a product of all of his things. #just like me! just like everyone. #so me? i guess i can be a million things. you can explain what i am in a million different ways. #a hundred different psychologists can all come up with different ways to explain why i be the way i be. #i don't think it's something that can be simplified. #sorry wow. i'm really going off here in the tags. #i hope people don't think i'm stupid. i don't know brain science. i'm just philosophising as usual. #sci speaks

[todayisafridaynight]

what makes minedai even sadder is that we never rlly see daigo try to build a bond with anyone else like he did with mine it rlly shows how badly it effected him like yeah he reached out to shinada in y5 but that’s rlly it and he probably would wanna leave him alone after that and not involve him in any yakuza stuff so i don’t think they would’ve hung out or anything like that afterwards. All he rlly had were saejima and majima but they were more like babysitters than anything, wish we saw more of their dynamic tho like we did with majima and daigo in dead souls since that was fun and we were lowkey robbed but in canon he’s just as lonely as he was before majimas promise to kiryu. And mine is the only person he really had a meaningful relationship with romantic or not they were still really close and we don’t see that again with daigo ever (from what i recall after y3) ok sorry for rambling LMFAO

even with shinada, he reached out to him more so out of 'duty' and trying to make up for the misfortune that befell him because of yakuza than wanting to rekindle any kind of friendship they might have had in high school (though it sounds more like they were just acquaintances if shinada needing a second to remember who daigo was is anything), so yah i doubt they really had any kind of bond afterwards

dead souls really was the only time after Y3 where we got to see daigo be more sociable with someone, but its as you say majima and saejima are more like retainers than close friends

#snap chats #you can tell i was into fire emblem when the first term that comes to my mind to call majima and saejima was 'retainers' omfg #but yeah ..... depressing .... #does make me wonder who daigo was on the phone with during the rggo story though. like clearly daigo has friends #apparently. we just never see or hear of them. tho ig it is implied those were his friends from the y2 era. as mine said flarkjla #REGARDLESS yeah after y3 daigo just feels depressing to watch #i think its just because he really has to do everything on his own now #but not even have a friend to just chill with at the end of the day- like the technical work is whatever. for the most part #THATS stressful obvi so to not have anyone to really be personable with thats probably the dire part. imo. #cause yk the world could suck but as long as you have that One Person to just relax with then its ok but with mine gone. 🧍‍♂️ #probably doesnt help that like. during the 'flashback' segment of y3 where we get to see daigo sitting with kiryu and nakahara #we see him all cheery and bein a lil jokester and just. A Happy Dude #granted this is barely a year or two into being chairman so The Horrors Havent Set In relatively but still ... i miss his smile .. #every time i think of daigo post-mine i think of those like. tragedies or accounts of people where its like #'after X's friend/lover died they never found another again' like thats the vibe i always get #he really packed it up and never got close with anyone else again and it makes me want to throw up #y4 widow arc still good tho it makes me chortle

[8rujaa]

lesbians dont marry or fuck men thats like the whole point of lesbianism lmao

yes yes i agree i don’t think i said otherwise

#i was just thinking like i’m general if i spent the rest of my life with a man i’d feel unfulfilled whereas if i ended up marrying a woman #i don’t think i’d have that feeling of ‘something’s missing’ #i was wondering if other bisexual ppl felt that way and wanted to know how lesbians came to the conclusion of being a lesbian #the asks i’ve been getting kinda make it seem like if you’re not a gold star lesbian then you’re not a Real Lesbian #which like i understand if someone’s dating men and women like you’re obviously not a lesbian #but for me i still call myself bi i was just wondering if i don’t want to be with men or date men and im sure i only want to be with women #and ever since i realized that I haven’t been with men… and don’t want to be ever again… #like would that still make me bi? #idk i feel like y’all are gonna cancel me for questioning my sexuality 😭 i’m not saying i’m lesbian but like where Am I in the spectrum ??? #i’m just trying to figure out if my ‘attraction’ to men is genuine attraction or just like… societal pressure to be with a man #or daddy issues cuz all the men i’ve been with are always like older my last boyfriend was 10 years older than me and Idk #or if my repulsion is actually repulsion bc i don’t Like them or trauma?? #im sorry if i offended anyone i’m not trying to invalidate anyone’s sexuality just trying to figure mine out 🥲 #inbox

[silver-horse]

???? he just walked out wearing basic wizard robes. How did this happen?

I am so confused by how npc models work in this game. I know I recently put him in the slut dress but that shouldn't affect his model's appearance in the game. (or so I thought) I NEVER put him in this basic ass wizard robe so it seems like the game just defaults to this for him if he loses his clothes. but that's what I don't understand. how did he lose his clothes?? the very problem with npcs in this game is that their clothes are part of their models. Their "naked" state is with their default clothes on. So if I mess around and he needs to default to something then shouldn't that be his usual clothes? so strange.

Well I guess he ditched the absolute for sure this time. Even threw away the clothes. But his new clothes are not the basic sorcerer robes, it's basic wizard robes.

Nere 🤝Rolan switching the default clothes meant for sorcerers and wizards.

#not the sorcerer-wizard alliance we expected but the one we needed lol #wtf #this is what happens when you mess around with your game too much guys lol #his boots still have their usual appearance ... I don't understand why the absolutist robe changed to this #I just realised this is the robe he has in his inventory... so that's why he is wearing this #it must to be because I put him in different clothes while pulling up his model with the cheat engine but I don't know what I have done xD #I wonder if Alfira will also shows up in basic bard clothing because I also played around with her and I put her in different clothes #bg3 mine #Nere #my posts #my post #bg3 #baldur's gate 3 #wizard #outfit

[icewindandboringhorror]

examining a seemingly normal image only to slowly realize the clear signs of AI generated art.... i know what you are... you cannot hide your true nature from me... go back where you came from... out of my sight with haste, wretched and vile husk

#BEGONE!!! *wizard beam blast leaving a black smoking crater in the middle of the tumblr dashboard* #I think another downside to everyone doing everything on phone apps on shitty tiny screens nowadays is the inability to really see details #of an image and thus its easier to share BLATANTLY fake things like.. even 'good' ai art has pretty obvious tells at this point #but especially MOST of it is not even 'good' and will have details that are clearly off or lines that dont make sense/uneven (like the imag #of a house interior and in the corner there's a cabinet and it has handles as if it has doors that open but there #are no actual doors visible. or both handles are slightly different shapes. So much stuff that looks 'normal' at first glance #but then you can clearly tell it's just added details with no intention or thought behind it. a pattern that starts and then just abruptly #doesn't go anywhere. etc. etc. ) #the same thing with how YEARS ago when I followed more fashion type blogs on tumblr and 'colored hair' was a cool ''''New Thing''' instead #of being the norm now basically. and people would share photos of like ombre hair designs and stuff that were CLEARLY photoshop like #you could LITERally see the coloring outside of the lines. blurs of color that extend past the hair line to the rest of the image #or etc. But people would just share them regardless and comment like 'omg i wish I could do this to my hair!' or 'hair goallzzzz!! i #wonder what salon they went to !!' which would make me want to scream and correct them everytime ( i did not lol) #hhhhhhggh... literally view the image on anything close to a full sized screen and You Will SEe #I don't know why it's such a pet peeve of mine. I think just as always I'm obsessed with the reality and truth of things. most of the thing #that annoy me most about people are situations in which people are misinterpreting/misunderstanding how something works or having a misconc #eption about somehting thats easily provable as false or etc. etc. Even if it's harmless for some random woman on facebook to believe that #this AI generated image of a cat shaped coffee machine is actually a real product she could buy somewhere ... I still urgently #wish I could be like 'IT IS ALL AN ILLUSION. YOU SEE???? ITS NOT REALL!!!!! AAAAA' hjhjnj #Like those AI shoes that went around for a while with 1000000s of comments like 'omg LOVE these where can i get them!?' and it's like YOU #CANT!!! YOU CANT GET THEM!!! THEY DONT EXIST!!! THE EYELETS DONT EVEN LINE UP THE SHOES DONT EVEN #MATCH THE PATTERNS ARE GIBBERISH!! HOW CAN YOU NOT SEE THEY ARE NOT REAL!??!!' *sobbing in the rain like in some drama movie* #Sorry I'm a pedantic hater who loves truth and accuracy of interpretation and collecting information lol #I think moreso the lacking of context? Like for example I find the enneagram interesting but I nearly ALWAYS preface any talking about it #with ''and I know this is not scientifically accurate it's just an interesting system humans invented to classify ourselve and our traits #and I find it sociologically fascinating the same way I find religion fascinating'. If someone presented personality typing information wit #out that sort of context or was purporting that enneagram types are like 100% solid scientific truth and people should be classified by the #unquestionaingly in daily life or something then.. yeah fuck that. If these images had like disclaimers BIG in the image description somewh #re like 'this is not a real thing it's just an AI generated image I made up' then fine. I still largely disagree with the ethics behind AI #art but at least it's informed. It's the fact that people just post images w/o context or beleive a falsehood about it.. then its aAAAAAA

[anotherpapercut]

I will never understand how some people hate all tea, which there are like a billion flavors of, but love coffee, which all has the same terrible taste no matter what

#i hate when people try to get me to drink coffee by being like try this one its mostly sugar you can't even taste the coffee #i literally can taste the coffee in things that are stored next to coffee beans for a prolonged period of time #several people have tested me by tricking me into drinking something with trace amounts of coffee and i can always taste it #and its fucking disgusting #i hate the smell also. when i worked at starbucks i had a terrible time. i couldnt even drink our smoothies bc the mix was stored w coffee #and i could taste it in the smoothie. everyone thought i was insane but once they gave me 2 samples of smoothie #one from a brand new mix and one that had been sitting with the coffee beans for a long time. and i knew which was which #without being told. and they finally believed me lmao #i will never forget this one time i accidentally switched mine and my friend's and drink (soda and iced coffee) #and took a huge sip of iced white chocolate mocha with caramel (i also dont like white chocolate and caramel!) #and almost threw up. i had to seriously fight to swallow it bc i knew if i spit it out in my friends car he'd fucking kill me #i was like well in case you were wondering i still hate coffee

[skunkes]

genuinely one of the best days of my life was when i spent over 12 hrs helping the printmaking department out at a city festival, ppl would pick wood block designs to put on a shirt and we'd press em right there ^_^ i love and miss printmaking so muck i could spend 8 hours easy in the studio working on my assignments (ignoring the pain of the next day)

#mine only sold 1 + i still wish i couldve intercepted and tossed it at the end of the day. i still wonder if its being used to this day. #i dont think so but thats WHY i wish i cldve intercepted and chopped it up before they stored em all #im not meant for it but i love it so much. this is why you will often see me talking about feeling like im right #outside the gates of the things i love...i wish i cld participate #talkys #alas some people just have brains that suck and dont work for anything

[lovesomehate]

Travis+Laura moments (out of order) 24/?

#I’ve got no idea what bullshite choices you have to make to end up in this situation #but hey I found it while searching for something else 😂 #it’s a wonder he still can use his arm tbh cause she was chewing on it a moment ago #travis hackett #laura kearney #the quarry spoilers #the quarry game #the quarry #travislaura #travisxlaura #does he shoot? I don’t know the video didn’t show what happened next 👀 #personally I think he doesn’t 😂 #mine #I’m very very happy to know that he doesn’t shoot her but actually keep her to himself ☺️ #my fav creepy cop 🥰 #hackearney

[r0semultiverse]

How to Super Boop & evil Boop on desktop.

Super Boop:

Hold down/hover over the boop paw button or the boop back prompt for at least one rotation cycle of the text or paw.

Evil Boop:

Hold down/hover over the boop paw button or the boop back prompt for at least three rotation cycles of the text or paw.

I hit post limit so apologies if I can't post this guide in time. 😩💜

#that's how you do it; I wonder if anyone's found any secret other ways to boop people #maybe six rotations for a super evil boop or 9 idk #these from what i've seen also won't increase your boop meter by any means; just adds 1 more boop #it will however make you stand out in the person's boop notifications as their own notification rather than being grouped in #wonder what would happen if like 100 or 45 people all evil boop or super boop at the same time #would it group them up in notifications then or would it still have them be separate?? #more behind the scenes stuff about this update I guess via this how to guide #if anyone has any insight into how it works on mobile or even mobile browsers like safari please let me know! #mine #op #april fool's day #boop o meter #evil boop #super boop

[salemruinseverything]

when your card declines at therapy and they bring out the person you used to look up to because you felt like they were going through the same thing as you before you found out they were the exact type of power-hungry abusive dipshit you're terrified of becoming

#sorry for posting a tiktok trend as a tumblr textpost but my camera is broken still. #salem's random thoughts #for those wondering yes this is about Current Events with a Certain Minecraft Streamer #but also Less Recent Events with a Certain Lead Singer Of A Decently Popular Alt Pop Band #i just. i am actively trying so fucking hard to be a good person and to not hurt people #but i see people like this and i see how similar this persona they project is to mine and how similar their writing is to the way i feel #and then invariably it turns out they're corrosive shitheads who only care about power and i just. #i know so intrinsically that if i stopped putting out this facade and suppressing every instinct i have i would become just like them #and i don't want that to happen. i don't want to hurt anyone. shockingly even the people that deserve it #but it would be so easy. easy enough that i feel like one day it's going to happen without me noticing #and after that i don't even know if i'd look back until my name's fucking trending on twitter or something #like one of these days the ''don't hurt other people'' part of my brain is not going to kick in hard enough to turn off the ''don't give a #fuck about anyone else's opinion'' part and i'm gonna do some fucked up shit without realizing it. and i really don't fucking want that to #happen but i know the way my brain works and i know it's going to #i just hope it's something minor and easily fixable when it does

[rosicheeks]

Unfortunately relatable. I grew up in the church and have a lot of Christian trauma from that. I show up for special occasions for my parents… sometimes. But it’s uncomfortable from the moment I step through the door. Bigoted pastor, the self-righteousness disguising the prejudice, the political comments from the altar. Shots at young people left right and center as if the hell on earth wasn’t caused by the same older generation 90% of the congregation belongs to..

I miss being young in the choir and the youth groups and not struggling with it. It’s wild to look back at the younger version of me who was unshakeable in his faith and honestly just saddening.

I was texting my sister today about it and she said

“I 100% think ALL of us have a ton of religious trauma and everyone else in the family just doesn’t realize it cause they’re still drinking the kool-aid.”

I ran out of tag room and didn’t want to delete any 😭 seriously not lying I could write a book about all my thoughts and experiences

#I relate to all of this so much #and it’s so sad how many people truly have religious trauma #I still find myself lucky and privileged cause I know there are stories MUCH worse than mine #it’s really hard cause my parents still think I’m a Christian #honestly at this point I have no clue what i am #even if I end up still being a Christian that doesn’t help or heal all of the years of church trauma #but the hard part is still acting the part for my parents #growing up I always tried to fit into the good Christian girl mold #cause I know that’s what my parents wanted and I didn’t want to disappoint them #but once I started smoking weed and they found out? it went all downhill from there #their perfect angel fell from heaven #and I feel like ever since I haven’t been really their daughter…. I’ve just been living on the outside looking in to everything #it hurts looking back at all the years I spent brainwashed into believing that was the ONLY faith #it genuinely makes me sick to my stomach thinking about the fact that I went to a pro life rally #the thing I was talking to my sister about was how mental health was never talked about in the church #when I started dealing with it and went to my parents or the pastors or any adult really and told them what I was dealing with #wanna know what the first thing they would ALWAYS say? well have you prayed about it? the way they treated mental illness was that it was #YOUR fault cause God is punishing you for something…. that you need to pray or go to church so then God will eventually take it away #and the thing is I don’t necessarily blame my parents (which kinda sucks cause I want to blame someone) #but honestly it’s just the environment they grew up in too… like I’m 99% sure my dad has dealt with depression his entire life #but won’t get diagnosed or anything cause they always believe faith has something to do with it #which makes me incredibly sad cause I just think about how much my dad has suffered and how he didn’t need to #^^ I was typing this out when I was late to my family gathering hahaha but then I think my sister called or something so I had to stop #sorry this post is all over the place - I swear I could write a book about religious trauma #yesterday went ok surprisingly but today? TODAY is going to be so much worse #sure I’ll make a post about it later but I guessssss I should go to bed now? it’s 2am and I have to get up at 5:45 🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃 #and I have a fuuuuull day of fun Christian festivities while I’m dealing with all of this bottled up and unresolved crap from my past #please don’t get me wrong I love my parents and like I said I don’t blame them - they did their best #it just really sucks wondering what my life would have been like if I didn’t grow up in the church or in a super religious family #I wonder if when I told my parents I was depressed if they would have instantly brought me in to get help

[the-halfling-prince]

Just saw a post from an agtuber on Instagram from 2016 saying "this year id like to finish filming season 6 of [show that never got a season 6] and season 2 of [show that never got a season 2]" I feel like I've discovered records in the ruins of a once glorious city from right before it fell.

#Still mourning Aspen Heights and Ecliptic Curse #Thank goodness Realm of Arragara was only 2 seasons else it would probably never have gotten finished #I mean even the sequel only got three episodes and then girl never posted anything again #Ecliptic Curse was really starting to take off plotwise and then it never came back #Aspen Heights was gonna have the last season- the one to tie off the ends and have an ending. But nope. #And no hate to agsmiless- like she and all of the other aggubers of her era slowly grew out of agtube for one reason or another #With it being hard to keep up with and not having the time #But it's still sad #I miss old agtube #But sometimes I wonder if I would miss it less of I wasn't a participant #If I was just a spectator #But when I start my channel up again maybe I'll feel better about it #Anyway I'm having my 'walking into the mines of moria' moment #agtube #my posts