#I’ve just shut down

[the-sappho-of-lesbos]

Got overwhelming depressed so I bought tea

#I’m just really not in a good space lately #and I’m so out of i don’t feel connected to myself #I wake up and am unsure of my age or what year it is #I go through phases of forgetting my gfs name or that I even have a gf #I’m an absolute mess right now #my mental health is in the toilet #I’m just quietly spiraling too #I’ve just shut down #I got overhwhelmed with my recovery coach today and told her #she said I didn’t even look like it #which makes me feel like I’m faking everything or it’s not even that bad #I just want to sleep and be in a coma #but I can’t sleep for 24 hours 7 days a week my body physically won’t let men #anytime awake feels like too much

[borderlinereminders]

This is a reminder that it’s okay to reach out and ask for help. It’s okay to ask for support, reassurance, validation or whatever else you might need. You don’t have to do it all on your own.

#I need this reminder tonight #I’ve felt so alone #and lost #and I’ve wanted to reach out and get a reminder that I’m loved #but I just keep shutting down #so here’s to hoping others needing this reminder helps me remember it’s okay for me to do too

[oblivionsdream]

If I were to theoretically make a Jingly Menace x Knight comic I would probably do it in a more casual slice of life style while following a loose plot. Nothing too high stakes. Just fun times with possibly the occasional bit of angst thrown in if I’m feeling dramatic.

#I’m just thinking about it #I mostly just want something fun and light hearted #the escapades of a jester and his knight #plus any of the times I’ve wanted to make something with a structured plot stress and anxiety always make me shut down #I just over think it and then I get no where #random thoughts #I should really go to sleep #just ignore me and my ramblings #jingly menace x knight

[mumblesplash]

man i’ve had pretty serious art block before in the past but it was always more a lack of inspiration/irl stuff draining all my energy, currently Not having art block but getting hit by my first bout EVER of feeling like i just straight up can’t make anything that’s good enough and oh my god how do people deal with this

#i have zero mental defenses against this bc it’s never happened to me #like i know i’m being stupid here bc i feel like everything ive ever drawn is somehow worse than anything anyone else has ever drawn #which first of all cannot possibly be the case bc art is subjective and also i’m not that special #and second of all ‘this means i’m bad at everything’ is not a reaction i have EVER had to art i consider ‘better’ than mine #i’ve always just been excited by the opportunity to learn how to do a new cool art thing i couldn’t do before #like what is happening here why did my brain broke #on the bright side this doesn’t seem to be even slowing me down from writing and drawing things and posting them anyway #but i could really do without the accompanying dramatics in the back of my head #‘you can’t post this you are an affront to art history and the whole of humanity’ shut Up brain it’s literally minecraft fanart for fun #anyway all this to say. thank you everyone being nice in the notes of my silly lil poems you’re gonna make me cry #mumbling

[tomahachi12]

#the amazing digital circus #pomni #toma art #I’m gonna be honest #I feel like I’ve completely lost confidence in my art #like #all of it #now whenever I sit down to draw #or even just set up my tablet #a wave of anxiety just crashes into me #and I erase everything and shut off the tablet #makes it reeeeeeeeeally hard to keep drawing #hell even thinking about drawing gets me anxious #idk #maybe I just gotta fight my way through it #and just draw anyway #but that was my vent #thnx for readin

[misfittq]

moodboards for my zoenette lovesquare au that i’ll never do anything about bc i can’t write :(

#yeah so not entirely sure if adrien is alive in this universe but yeah #if he is it’s like she’s adrien’s sister bc someone once said they look more alike #but if he is and emilie is gabriel wants to raise his son #*he isn’t #if you want to know the main points i’ve written down just let me know #zoenette #that’s why i asked what zoe would call herself with the bug miraculous #marinette dupain cheng #zoe lee #miraculous ladybug #mlb #i also copied out the lovesquare chart but with vesperia in the place of whatever shed call herself #if u wanna see that for absolutely no reason #yes i made zoe do music and archery shut it #it was extremely hard to find things bc all there was in aesthetic for zoe was icons #robin’s void 🪐

[snackhouse]

Live Free or Twi-Harder is consuming me like some kind of flesh eating parasite thank you @prettyflyshyguy for giving me this disease

Yes I used to be one of those supernatural fans and it haunts me to this day (I was 15 with no friends it was bound to happen)

There’s so many ideas I have on how to absolutely destroy these men (emotionally, physically and spiritually) don’t make me get The Tome don’t make me get The Tome don’t mak-

#I’ve literally been so sick this past week #I’ve just been lying in bed microwaving Dean in my mind #but any attempt to write about it has been shut down by a separate hyperfixation from my youth that has me by the balls #yes that is a picture of 17yo Snackary next to Misha Collins #he was quite nice! #supernatural #spn #live free or twiharder #this is both a shitpost and a cry for help

[theguardianace]

it should be illegal to feel like this on your birthday

#i really loved my morning i got such nice gifts from my mom #and it was nice to just have a morning off #but that was honestly the worst class i’ve ever been in #i was trying to talk to my professor but my voice sounded so off #i’m so stressed bc i’m so behind i don’t know what to do it’s not clear at ALL #i think he’s assuming everyone’s done something like this but it’s not true!! i’m a sophomore and everyone else is a junior or senior #and i was trying to hard not to break down and i think i made it #but now i’m in my room and i need everyone to shut up #i want to take a shower to calm down but i can’t bc my roomate is here and she knows i already took one today #and i don’t like that i’m 20 i’m scared of growing up #and im homesick im always homesick in the back of my heart #i just want a hug honestly

[flashhwing]

amazing how quickly Fenris dialogue brings you from “shut the fuck up about mages” to “fuck YES eat his heart out baby” back to “man we get it you hate magic”

#when I asked about Fenris rivalry all the answers were about how hard it is to rival him but like #I’ve had him for a grand total of two quests and he’s already at 50% rivalry #it’s actually really easy to rival him if you oppose mage oppression #this has been a post #ash plays dragon age #specifically this post was about his tirade when you first bring him to the gallows #to him absolutely shutting thrask down when he said some whack shit #back to him just randomly in the middle of the conversation reminding us that he hates mages #like we know. we know. it’s okay we haven’t forgotten

[roachyreblobs]

kinda hate the stereotypes of Asians having this clear soft pale skin like no my culture isn’t just fucking anime and k dramas there’s other things to it :/

#ALSO THIS IS DIRECTED AT TRANSRACIALS #“Oh guys you wanna pass as Asian then watch a lot of k drama and know your anime’s 🥰🥰🥺🥺🥺” #“Wear lighter concealer so your skin isn’t too dark!! 🤭☺️☺️” #LIKE NO SHUT UP #STFU #UGH #ITS SO STUPID #anyways sorry for going on this pointless rant #If you like anime and k drama and stuff like that it’s completely fine #It’s just really annoying when that’s all my ethnicity is dumbed down to #I’ve recently been seeing a lot of those “transracials” popping up lately #Soooo yeah sorry abt this rant <\3 #Vent #i think #idk if it counts

[laniemae]

So it appears the servers are still up on my end… strange, as I’ve heard other people say that theirs have been shutting down. Anyway, I think I’ll call it the end here. I played for around 8 hours straight of just Splatoon until the servers shut. My final hour was with a lobby where we all had fun squid partying and drawing hearts. I know I can still technically play now, but even so it feels dampening to the climatic end that was my final match.

Goodbye Splatoon 1. Thank you for introducing me to one of my favorite series of all time and guiding me through the past 6 years.

#splatoon #I feel conflicted deciding not to play even with it still up #I don’t know if I made the right choice or not but I know there is no right or wrong choice here #It feels so bittersweet and sad #I’ve heard that after turning off the wii u the servers shut down #But I’m just still sitting here next to it for a reason I can’t even understand

[ciderjacks]

I Srsly need everyone who says “women’s rights aren’t an issue, only women in third world countries suffer oppression” to explode immediately. Like first of all, that’s not true, in majority of the so called “developed” countries women still don’t have equal rights (in America women aren’t even fully constitutionally recognized and therefore don’t have the same legal rights as men, meaning women’s civil rights are still legally debatable, and as we saw with roe v wade, Can be revoked at any instant bc there’s nothing in place protecting them).

And second of all…what kind of racist cuntfuck do u have to be to say something like that? “Oh yeah well those women don’t matter, they don’t count” Fuck you.

#misogyny #I’ve literally seen queer “leftists” say shit like This #then five seconds later cry about how gay/trans people aren’t allowed in said countries. #It’s just Tumblr queers like to rephrase this to be “well white women dont really deal with any of this” whenever misogyny is brought up #Which again is blatantly untrue and any look at the statistics of impacts systemic misogyny has on groups of women would tell you that #But also is really just a progressive way of saying “I don’t think bipoc women matter” #“White feminism” isn’t just like. white women talking about their oppression. a completely normal thing to do given they’re still #A heavily marginalized and oppressed group by way of their sex and gender #It’s white women centering whiteness in feminist conversations and shutting down woc and refusing to acknowledge #The way racism intersects With sexism #And how the experiences of woc differ from those of white women

[jewishbarbies]

white male gay swifties: ppl only hate ts because women enjoy her music #patriarchy

female antis: well we’re woman and we don’t like her

white male gay swifties: obviously you just have internalized misogyny girl 💅🏻

female antis:

#g talks #I’ve seen so many white gay men speaking over women #who are critical of taylor #on multiple apps #like SIR you ARE the patriarchy and you ARE the misogyny #you don’t get to tell women what to do and think #just because you feel like it #sit down and shut up #anti taylor swift #swifties dni #mine #/mobile #/okay to reblog

[dark-visitors]

Wyclair AU where Enid’s too late and Tyler almost kill’s Wednesday, only breaking out of Laurel’s control once he’s ‘completed his mission’ and sees Wednesday dying on the ground, blood gushing out of the holes his claws left in her stomach.

Enid finds him soon after, naked and sobbing over her body. Wednesday’s still alive but only barely so Enid does the only thing she can think of to save her, using her own blood to change Wednesday into a werewolf. At first it seems to be working, but eventually it becomes obvious that Lycan blood alone isn’t enough and she grabs Tyler, instructing him on how a werewolf turn’s someone and hopes that a) Hyde’s work similarly to werewolves and b) it’s enough to save Wednesday.

And it is. But over the next few weeks as Wednesday recovers it becomes increasingly obvious that turning her best friend into a Hyde-Werewolf hybrid wasn’t Enid’s best idea as Wednesday is now a fucked up eldritch monster and she is UNSTABLE. She’s changing randomly and without control, she’s destroyed their room so often that Enid doesn’t bother fixing it anymore and it wasn’t until after she massacred the majority of Jerichos wildlife population that Wednesday realised that it was the Nevermore students that the beast was actually craving, not rouge deer, and Enid only has a limited supply of blood to give her before she herself passes out from blood loss.

And with everyone now knowing about Tyler and his status as a Hyde they can’t let anyone know that Wednesday was now far worse out of fear of what would be done to her.

Oh and Enid also may have neglected to tell Wednesday and Tyler that turning a human is also claiming a human and now the three of them are mated. Which is extra awkward because they aren’t exactly on good term rn, Tyler’s already on his way to being imprisoned for the rest of his life and with the way Wednesday’s bloodlust is presenting she isn’t going to be far behind him.

Etc. Etc. Plot stuff. ANGST. But eventually they break Tyler out of prison and it’s ends with them running away deep into the woods to live life as deranged blood thirsty monsters who love each other💕

#shut up it’s not a new wip #I’ve just got to write it down so I don’t forget #…for reasons #wyclair #wednesday #wednesday addams #tyler galpin #enid sinclair #wednesday x enid x tyler #wyclair prompts #dark-visitors

[satoruswaifu]

people who can talk to other people about their selfship… what is your secret. how do you do it without feeling like you’re being annoying

#sera rambles #i’ve moved some of my rambling / yearning to x because no one really sees it there LMAO #i want to be perceived but in my head i always feel like i’m just being annoying 💀 #and i kind of get it embarrassed too? #i feel like this might be because i actually have serious strong feelings for this silly guy #and i WILL shut down if i think about him for more than a second #lmao

[lucifer-kane]

Bro. Rooster Teeth shutting down after 21 years. Screw Warner. like. Damn

#I hadn’t really watched anything from them in ages other than two podcasts but holy shit #Warner is shutting them down and. god damn. so many people just. out of a job like that #roosterteeth #like I’m so. curious about the final rvb season. bc with this I don’t know if it’s gonna like. exist #10+ years I’ve been here. maybe 15. fuck man. #Warner shutting them down isn’t surprising just bc. look at all the other bs Warner does. fucking hell