#I'm confused and scared

[joryho]

help there's too many bots following my blog

what do I do

#need help #tumblr bots #bots #I don't know what to do #I'm confused and scared #AAAAAA

[severedegg]

?????????????????? i thought i posted this but apparently not???????? well its here now lol, did these just over a month ago lmao

#was trying to look for this as a ref n couldnt find it n got so confused #a lil stupid in the head sometimes but its ok #dhmis #dont hug me i’m scared fanart #dont hug me im scared #don't hug me i'm scared #dhmis red guy #dhmis yellow guy #dhmis duck #dhmis fanart #im. literally just. im disappointed in myself #ive cycled through at least 3 interest things just this month and they just keep circling #its ok because im in love with making art #ITS ONLY THE 7TH OF JANUARY. IM SPEEDRUNNING THIS SHIT #help me

[everysongineverykey]

don't hug me i'm scared episode 6 electricity is really something when you're autistic, huh. yellow guy is made fun of all his life by his only friends and laughed at for being "stupid" when all he needed was a change of batteries but no one would listen to him and give him the accommodations he needed and deserved and when he finally did get new batteries and become more clearheaded his friends didn't like him any better. they stopped making fun of him, sure, but they didn't like that he was "smart" all of a sudden, because they'd gotten used to him being "the stupid one". and he looked in the mirror and saw his former self, and his reflection asked him, "have we gone wrong? they seem upset with us" because the truth is even if the way you are now is more comfortable for you, even if it doesn't hurt to think anymore, people will only ever like you if you're the Right Kind of autistic/adhd/traumatized/whatever. have we gone wrong? have we gone wrong? that's what you always ask yourself. "maybe they're not in charge of us anymore." "maybe they never were." and his reflection walks away, as if accepting that the others will think what they will think, and it won't matter, because yellow guy is his own person, no matter how difficult it is for him to articulate his thoughts, and he doesn't need their approval to think. "maybe they never were."

#dhmis #don't hug me i'm scared #yellow guy's conversation with his reflection lives in my head rent free just so you know. #it's so important to me that although he's 'awakened' now- the part of him that's sensitive to what other people think #is still represented by his former self. the 'stupid' version of him. the naive hopeful kid who was mesmerized by a butterfly #and wanted to work with coworkers in a factory and missed duck so much when he died he dug him up #and hated himself for being 'stupid in the head' when he forgot the computer password. #even when yellow guy is clearheaded enough to see through the fabric of his reality #that part of him is still very much present and important in his life and thought processes. #it confuses me that some people seem to see the batteries as a metaphor for a 'cure' for autism or whatever. #to me the batteries are like adhd or schizophrenia medication or antidepressants. they make life easier #while you're dealing with a condition that would normally make moving through a neurotypical world pretty hard. #yellow guy is still the same person. he still cares about his friends' opinions. he's just much more clearheaded and articulate than usual.

[coffee-dere]

I feel a little stupid for asking this but what the hell is up with the Boyfriends Webcomic someone PLEASE explain because I keep seeing a bunch of slander and it seems... Yikes. Someone please explain the series I don't want to read it I'm too scared help

#boyfriends webtoon #boyfriends webcomic #I'm confused lol #and scared #Boyfriends slander #question

[collieii]

i really like how trimax constantly emphasizes that vash's kindness is a choice, a deliberate and powerful one. it contrasts him so well to knives, who's so disdainful towards humanity as a whole. but vash actually interacts with people and is involved in society. and, by extension, he's been hurt by it so many times. but despite this he chooses love everytime and defends humanity.

meanwhile, knives has never participated, always seems to watch people from a distance. still, he makes claims about the cruelty of humanity, and he uses the idea of human cruelty to justify his actions, despite the fact that he's likely never directly been victim to it the same way vash and the other plants have. not to understate the whole tesla situation, but he assumes that he has the authority to decide the fate of humanity, even though out of every plant he's probably not the one who's in the position to make that sort of decision. (and frankly, it's not a decision any single individual should be making)

so this moment is so poignant, though vash might not be directly talking about himself we know it applies to him, we know how much violence he's suffered. it's written on his skin (his shirtlessness in that scene is very pointed). and we know that knives hasn't really experienced that. and knives is ultimately very self absorbed, he assumes he knows what's best for the plants and what they want, so he uses them to achieve his goals without consulting them. unlike vash, who as we see in the finale, has made efforts to communicate with the plants (communication and connection is such a big thing with vash!) he's familiar with them, and they him, and that's one of the reasons they seem more willing to follow vash's path than knives.

the difference between vash and knives is that vash sees everyone as an individual with inherent value. knives is unwilling to do this and he turns groups into monoliths, refuses to see individuals or nuance.

one of the big ideas of trigun is that conflict occurs because people don't see those around them as individuals. so what really saves the day isn't guns or firepower, but understanding between people. vash helps facilitate this understanding between humans and plants because they're all familiar with him, he's put a lot of effort into getting to know everyone! and with everyone he meets he embodies the idea of love and peace, helps them believe that cooperation is possible.

#vash the stampede #millions knives #trigun maximum #happy birthday boys even though it isn't even your birthday in my time zone #i will unleash this post from my drafts in your honor #when vash says this is where the true battle is like get him girl this IS the true battle #it was never about being stronger vash doesn't care abt that...he cares abt people.... and that helps him overcome knives n save everyone.. #or smth. idk it's been a while since i've read the finale bc it gives me heartburn (feelings) #trigun #.lieii #trimax spoilers #sorry if im just saying really obvious things i'm scared to get too into it bc im like. #not sure i fully understand the mechanics of what happens in the finale #it's like vash jumps in -> plants and knives split -> plants lands on earth -> telepathy with humans ->omg you guys know vash too? ->profit #is that right #idk man shit is confusing #trigun meta #.lieii txt

[goldenpinof]

What are your April fools day prank predictions?

What is your Easter baking prediction? Do you think we will even get a video?

well, considering the shop being down right before April fools. vagina scented candles with "fyi i like vagina" would be good.

they are not gonna put their onlyphans photo on t-shirts no matter how funny it would be.

Monty fest 2024, please. with us looking at their barbecue for 5 hours.

dnpcrafts revival.

god, idk, the shop can be about both April fools and Easter. but also why the fuck would they release more merch when they can barely handle wad merch. i fear for irl merch, i'm not even joking.

Easter baking is very likely. with bunny ears, please.

#answered #april fools 2024 #i saw this ask going around. i did not read any answers because i was scared to confuse my own memory #i'm still scared #so if anyone gets something right please yell as loud as you can

[starflungwaddledee]

this is a long shot and i'm sorry to ask, but if you don't mind, can mutuals (or contacts or regulars... just... this community) of mine who aren't jumping ship like... let me know? will any of us still be here? is it over? i'm trying to know if this really is it or what's... even happening. i hate to reassurance seek but i'm feeling pretty miserable and confused.

edit: felt like i was being really pitiful and fragile making this but everybody is being so nice to me and responding so patiently with all your thoughts and i'm in tears of gratitude thank you thank you thank you 💖

#i glanced and thought they brought out a feature so that we could turn off ai access #that seemed... okay? i thought? but now i'm really confused. i don't know. i'm so tired and scared. i just can't... keep doing this #i know this is stupid but this feels like it's my fault. #it happens every time i find something. if i'm happy somewhere. it just.... poof. goes away. i'm sorry. i'm sorry. i'm sorry #on the edit: i would only *ever* think this about myself. double standards that i hold for myself are high. i expect emotional control #& performance from myself only. i would never think badly of anyone else being stressed about this or anything. thank you for your kindness #this community has been so beautiful and kind at every turn. i'm so grateful to get to be here and meet you all #okay... being really sappy now. y'all get to see my anxiety first hand today!! whee!! anyway. i'll get it together. haha! thank you.

[mybfistheprosecutionswitness]

Just started playing The Forgotten Turnabout and please for the love of god let me hug my amnesiac assistant/adopted daughter

#miles edgeworth #kay faraday #my art #she's so scared and confused it's breaking my heart #also i'm trying out posting my classic aa liveblog scribbles on my sideblog instead of my main this time around

[jessicas-pi]

me: *tries to write a fic where two characters meet for the first time at a party and slowly start to become friends despite the fact that she's a secret agent working against him and he's been assigned to spy on her*

the characters: *insult each other, mock each other, physically fight each other until his parental figure intervenes, sit next to each other at dinner, gossip together, have a low-key romantic dance together, he gets so flustered and confused that he jumps out a window*

me:

me: okay then

#to be clear: he's confused about being flustered #he's like 'oh my gosh i'm scared of her. i'm never scared of anyone why am I scared of her?? what the heck what the heck what the heck' #like uhhhhh buddy pal friendo you're not scared you just have A Crush #jessica's writing nonsense #the teenage rebellion AU #at this point i'm just going to roll with it because I don't want to stunt my productivity by rethinking everything

[tricoufamily]

no ok we finished episode 2 what they have done to katara is unforgivable. they have completed zapped every ounce of her personality away. why. why. look how they massacred my girl

#i haven't even GOTTEN to azula mai and ty lee i'm scared #why the hell they're even IN season 1 is beyond me but whatever #i cannot fucking believe the amount of exposition dumping. did a 10 year old write this #this actually would be a very good lesson for young beginner writers actually #if someone's like 'i don't really get the show don't tell rule' show them this. then show them the cartoon. THAT is show don't tell #all. they. do. is. TELL. it's INSANE #zuko is the best actor at least but that's kind of like winning a game of chess against a broom #it's statistically impossible that they could only find ONE actor who can deliver a line competently. it's impossible #i delivered better lines pretending to earth bend w my sister at age 7 #i'm so confused about katara though. #like yeah the 'sokka can't be sexist that's problematic (that was the entire point)' is stupid #but that is at least AN explanation for why he's different. why on earth would you make katara like that #i can't even make an ember island players joke. at least their katara showed emotion??? #really fun hate watch to do w other avatar fans 10/10 recommend #when gran gran started saying the intro and it was so awkward jdskfjdsfldsjfslkfjlkfs i was LOSING IT

[skeletoninthemelonland]

cw // possible eyestrain

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Sound Sensitivity

#here is some unrelated artwork i'll be posting occasionally for now on #this might seem confusing to you (and I'm not talking specifically about the drawing) #i don't usually bring up anything about my personal problems but this one really is a thing #all i have to tell you. person reading the tags. is that sound sensitivity really fucking sucks. #and if someone reading this has sound sensitivity well i do hope the people around you are understanding of your condition #and that you find efficient ways to diminish the impact it has on you #whether if it's by using noise cancelling headphones. by leaving the loud environment or by learning to focus on something else #/// #this christmas i'm receiving a noise cancelling headphone from my bsf #im very happy and so thankfull for them #this gift is appreciated by my younger self #who. during birthday parties. couldnt stand anywhere close to ballons #who cried at the sounds of fireworks #who cried in class numerous times because it was too much #who was accused of faking it and blamed for ruining everyone's fun time #i remember being very confused and scared #my art #eye strain #artists on tumblr

[zebratimw]

#svsss #scum villains self saving system #shang qinghua #how I be feeling these days ahdnfjgkg #I keep stressing about life in general and its seriously bumming me out hajdjg #how nice it would be to not exist #everyday I wake up and do the same things I hate #time hasn't felt real in years and it goes way before covid times #I haven't felt real in most of those years either #Look I'm lucky I'm not like depressed or whatever but frankly this derealization shit is seriously startin to get a little worrying at times #tbf I only really notice it recently so maybe its just a bias #I've been chugging along this way for years all thats changed is my perception of it #but at the same time I really want to do more too #I get I'm a very boring and unreliable person #and I know I just said its my perception of it but like I do genuinely think my social skills my general living just like me mentally ig #I'm kinda deteriorating in my stagnation ig? artistically too but more worrying in my life idbfjg #priorities sorry anyways I also think I do have adhd or something and that rejection thing dhfjgjg I really can't start things anymore #idk I really just feel so clueless in most things now and I'm too scared or too confused or both to start fixing things #like how do I even fix things? what do I even search for in this kind of thing? #Idk I'm just gonna go sleep ig god I'm so tired of everything #I haven't been able to draw I've really lost passion for a lot of things again and everything irritates me #I can't stand my phone sometimes but it's kinda the only thing getting me through it all ha #ngl I wish I were depressed sometimes if only so I'd actually have the balls to do smth but Ik that's just the Metnally Ail part speaking so #chug chug going along #I also have to make wushi before I die. haha #god my life is so empty #what am I even doing #I'm really so tired why can't my life end here already? modern lifespans are too long how am I supposed to keep going on like this? #so pointless and vapid and its just me ? why did it have to be me that was born? couldn't someone else have been here I hate it here so much #I strive for nothing but I have such a long life and so many people to disappoint haha maybe I should go outside more

[lulu-draws-stuff]

Has this happened before?

Idk take this low effort comic featuring Duck guy having trauma from the Food incident but not remembering why

Also Bentley's there

#doodles #fanart #dhmis #don't hug me i'm scared #dhmis oc #ocs #Bentley #dhmis duck guy #dhmis red guy #dhmis yellow guy #duck guy #red guy #yellow guy #idk what this is lol #I just had an idea and had to draw it #btw sorry it the IDs are confusing at all #it's hard to work with the character limit sometimes #comic #art

[astriiformes]

In the absence of a distinct special interest right now my brain seems to have decided the next closest thing is an interest in academia, which as a burnt-out former gifted kid with a lot of school-related trauma I do not trust to be entirely healthy for me, and makes me suspicious. But it might actually be okay, because it's not manifesting as an obsession with academic performance this time? It's just me spending all my free time looking up reading lists and on various databases and requesting books from the university library, which are not, uh, inherently harmful.

"Nate that just sounds like being interested in school" Maybe so! But I cannot emphasize enough that I am very much still fighting my own brain to actually do my assignments and readings (if a little less than usual this semester, which is admittedly nice) and am reading papers entirely unrelated to any of my classes for funsies.

Maybe this is just what I'm like when my mental health isn't absolutely on fire, as has been the case for too much of my adult life, but for the aforementioned burnt-out former gifted kid reasons it's weirding me out a little. What do you mean I'm just having a fun chill time with this. Since when have I been able to do that?

#the thing about crashing and burning multiple times in college is that now i'm allergic to both: #1) things going well for me (i can't trust it) #and 2) succeeding at anything traditionally 'smart' (i don't feel like i am and am scared i'll let it go to my head) #so suddenly being able to do academic stuff for fun feels like it shouldn't be /able/ to happen even though i'm enjoying it! #it's all remarkably angst-free and i'm confused #but at least i'm confused and having a good time

[bisexualchaosdemon]

Okay, but what is Jean's immigration status? Does he have a visa? Will he need to leave the country and come back with a new visa when he stops being a student? Or did he manage to gain citizenship? Did the Moriyamas just falsify that paperwork for him? @korakos help!

Also, I have the same questions about Kevin, because isn't he originally from Ireland?? The Moriyamas never legally adopted him soooooo

#immigration laws in the US scare me man #i'm so confused by this #aftg #all for the game #the sunshine court #tsc #jean moreau #kevin day

[h0wi1e]

GUYS WHY IS MY DUOLINGO MELTING?!

I knew it

#duolingo #why is duolingo melting #i'm confused #and a little scared #dhmis #dhmis yellow guy