#I'm going to eat my walls

[chubbychiquita]

so who's gonna feed me until i can't get up out of bed on my own 🥺

#srry for inactivity across platforms i was searching for a new place to live and am now moving! #the door is *still* broken and honestly i need a place where i can smoke weed that is easy for delivery drivers to find #and i don't have to limit my groceries to what i'm willing to carry up the apartment stairs #so im moving into a little house it's gonna be adorable and im going to eat myself trapped so the firefighters have to tear the wall down :3 #and freezer + pantry space too!!! omg so many gluttonous possibilities #me

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Nooooo Bestie, don't go to mad at me island

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#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #wei wuxian #lan wangji #nie huaisang #Bestie (nhs) attempts to dodge responsibility for his meddling. Fails miserably. Gets soggy and wet as a defense. #I think there should be an ace attorney au for mdzs just so nhs can be an girlfail definitelydidit witness #NHS with the wettest eyelashes: “my whole lineage is based on killing and vengeance and swinging massive swords around” #He was so smart for breaking the cycle tbh. What if you just didn't engage with the tradition that eventually drives you mad? #Other notes from this scene (because I'm skipping over the man-eating castle explanation) #Shout out to NHS again for hearing that Jin Ling almost died in the walls and going 'maybe he got what he deserved'. Unhinged.

[westscain]

can we please talk about this look more please please please

#herbert west #reanimator #bride of reanimator #jeffrey combs #this look literally has me running up the walls and eating the ceiling #i feel like a dog with it's favorite chew toy like these photos are between my teeth and i'm shaking my head vigorously to tear them up #this outfit ??? altered my brain chemistry #they've got me going batshit crazy

[candiedfright]

what's funny to me about the whole "oh dazai was definitely leaving sigma behind" thing is. even if you were to say that dazai has no care for anyone ever (he very much does regardless of the depth of his bond with a person but that's a whole different conversation that gets me heated so i won't go there here) do you sincerely think he wouldn't at least TRY to wake up the one person in the decay of angels who has the info he needs (which he might not even be aware of because he wasn't in the ROOM when sigma took fyodor's hand and passed out) and who he has formed a fairly civil relationship with. "oh but he already defeated fyodor—" you don't know that. none of us know that. and even if it's the case dazai is SET on finding out what fyodor's ability is/was. he literally told sigma that his plan was to kill him and have sigma take the information from his corpse. and let's say that he hasn't guessed that sigma took fyodor's memories and that finding out what his ability is/was after the explotion is impossible— why would he fucking abandon sigma like that. dazai is a lot of bad things, but he's not that cruel. and if you think he is then you've been manipulated by a fictional character i don't know what to tell you

#out-of-nowhere rant but i had to let it out #like sorry man but i refuse to believe that dazai is that irredeemable. he literally is not #“oh but he doesn't care about either good or evil” well no. do you not realize it goes both ways #just like he doesn't mind hurting others for his schemes he's not beyond being compassionate in his own way #sure it's not conventional by any means and he can have ulterior motives. but he's not EVIL. #mori literally asked what the purpose of going to rescue oda was #and dazai literally said that it's because he was his friend. #he was HURT when it came to ango's betrayal. legitimately hurt. #i'm going to start eating my walls. HE IS A COMPLICATED CHARACTER HE IS NOT FULLY ONE THING OR THE OTHER !!! DAMN !!!!!!!!! #ough #i probably made zero sense but whatever #bsd #bungou stray dogs #bsd dazai #dazai osamu #bsd 113 #bsd spoilers #bsd 113 spoilers #bsd manga spoilers #the blabbering

[anachronistic-falsehood]

SO. ON THE TOPIC OF LOSS OF AUTONOMY. i am having the analysis brainworms now i hope u dont mind me going off in ur inbox. hi :]

there is something to be said about how vash's name is used against him constantly. that loss of who he even is as a person. i think about this so much. his name, his very identity is taken away from him. just the mere mention of the name vash the stampede is enough to send an ENTIRE town into a panic. it happens so much and its DEVASTATING to me. hes been labelled a monster across the entire world, and people who stick by his side after hearing his name are few and far between. theres been so much fear tacked onto his name, so much so that OTHER outlaws have used it on multiple occasions to make themselves more powerful. using his name to commit crimes that the real vash would be horrified to even consider. power in names and all that.

vash even. leans into it himself at a certain point. in order to protect the people of augusta he runs through the city shooting bullets into the air and solidifying his image of a deranged killer in the pursuit of. saving everyone. the only way theyll listen to him is if they think hes going to kill them all. if theyre afraid of him. theres also the part in hang fire (? i think its that one) where hes walking through the halls of the sand steamer singing about killing people in order to scare the bandits into not hurting the hostages.

and then you think about. eriks. how lina and her grandma took him in and accepted them as part of his family. how the town around them accepted him only because they had no idea who he actually was. he was a good guy... up until they learned he was vash. and then we get the conversation between the two men in the bar talking about how they should chase him out of town, despite living around him and knowinf him and seeing how good he is for . two years.

but lina and her grandma still accept him after that. theyre one of the only people besides milly/meryl/wolfwood who genuinely love and care abt him despite his name. they still want to keep him safe, grandma asks wolfwood to protect him and keep him out of trouble, even after learning hes the legendary outlaw gunman. because shes seen the true vash ans doesnt let the name scare her.

aughhh im rambling now i probably should have made this into my own post but this makes me SO fuckign crazy dude . give me ur thoughts id love to hear them.

I. YEAH. YEAH. OH MY GOD. Like. nothing is his own anymore. His name is used against him, his face is plastered on wanted posters. There is nothing about himself that he can truly call his. Not even his Plant powers! Because those are used against him time and time again by Knives in EVERY ADAPTATION!!!!

Like. Vash is no longer the name of a kid who once argued with his brother and laughed with his mother and celebrated his birthday and rolled around in grassy fields. It's the name of an outlaw who will kill at the drop of a hat. It's the name of an out-of-control human natural disaster who's leveled cities. If he doesn't even have his name, then what part of himself is really himself anymore?

AND THAT'S WHY I LOVE ERIKS! He finally has something of his own! He's got a name that attached to no one, and a life where he can settle down and stay out of the public eye. He finally has something that is truly his. And no one lets him keep that except for Lina and her grandma.

This guy really has no control over his own life doesn't he!!! He's a passive character in the story of his own life!!! He has nothing of his own, no identity past "humanoid typhoon" because everything about his identity has been stripped from him and morphed into something he's not. He has no say in anything in his life, not even who he is as a person, AND IT DRIVES ME BONKERS N FUCKING YONKERS!!!!

#whiskeys word soup #friend tag :3 #trigun #not doing the full formatting for my usual analysis posts bc this is shorter than most #but i'll throw in a few bolds and italics for ease of reading #BUT YEAH. YEAH. i don't have much more to say bc you worded it perfectly but YEAH. #grabbing you by the shoulders and shaking you MAC I'M GOING TO EAT STYROFOAM #MAC. YOUR MIND. #GOD. HE REALLY DOES HAVE ABSOLUTELY NOTHING OF HIS OWN DOESN'T HE #he has no control over anything that happens to him i'm clawing at the walls I'M SCREAMING AND WAILING!!!!! #oh eriks my beloved. being eriks was probably the only thing that made vash feel like a normal person for the longest time #and it was only for two years. TWO YEARS out of ONE HUNDRED AND FIFTY

[finexbright]

i know some people say that he relies on fans too much but i don't think you'll say that if you see the genuine emotion on his face while talking about fans and the support he's received over the years and how much we've done for him. the sheer overwhelm and gratitude on his face as he spoke about how if it weren't for the fans and how much we boost him up, he wouldn't have moved from the sound of walls to the sound of faith in the future, which to be fair are miles apart and takes some artists years to move between genres. he's well aware of how the industry has betrayed him but he's truly reached a point where he does what he does for the people who love him and no one else and i'm so proud of him for that. i know in this industry radio play and awards and public promo matters, but to see him talk about us has made me realise that to him success means that his music was loved by his fans and everything else is just a bonus. he was sat there, a full few weeks after his album going number one, and he still couldn't believe it. he looked like he didn't know how else to say thank you, and like words were falling short for the amount of gratitude he wanted to express. being in the crowd last night made me realise just how much he values the artist-fan relationship he's built with us and he wants to keep working towards keeping this connection strong and tight knit and creating this community together 🫂🤍

#like. i know so many people complain about him not getting radio play #but being there last night made me realise that he's aware of it and he will shade it but at the end of the day #to him what matters is us loving his music and being so gassed for him and his career #he even said that this album and the sound was a culmination of what both he and us wanted #like. it was his way of sort of saying ''i know you wanted me to go punk and so i did and i'm glad you loved it'' #and like when i say he's truly doing it for the fans i don't mean it in a fan service way i mean that he's doing what he loves #while also completely trusting that we'll love it and give it all the hype that it deserves #given how much the industry has sabotaged i know it would've been hard to move from walls to fitf and its sound #but he only did it because he knew we'd eat that up #and i'm so proud of him for making an album that he genuinely loves and is so pumped for performing #you could see it on his face last night that he too was thinking about how he was gonna miss tour and how excited he was #i honestly can't wait to see how fucking awesome tour will be 🤍 #meant to post this last night after the q+a but my hands were freezing so you get it now

[laure-trying-his-worst]

chewing on my knees it makes me so emotional how (almost) every character in dunmeshi wants what is best for everyone. there's (little to) no bad people there except for the horrors. they just can't fucking talk and when they do talk turns out each of them has their own idea of what is best for everyone ahhhh

#like every single character is so likeable #all the conflict isn't because some of them are evil or something they just have very different ideas of what the world needs to be #ahahuwlaiwjejhehrhrhdkd #i'm going to eat my walls (jk) #dunmeshi #dungeon meshi

[zo1nkss]

Can we please talk about the bisexual lighting, I NEED to talk about the bisexual lighting, I am chomping at the bit over the bisexual lighting, I cannot breathe or function over the bisexual lighting, SOMEONE SEDATE ME ABOUT THE BISEXUAL LIGHTING

#Void Rambles #ofmd s2 e6 #I'm crying #I'm eating the walls #ofmd #our flag means death #ofmd s2 spoilers #I want to go feral and comit every aggressive act known to man #I want to gnaw my own arm #I want to chew glass #I want to slam my head through windows until eternity #I want to jumpin front of a semi #I want to rip up drywall with my bare hands #I want to shake myself until I get whiplash and then scream until my own eardrums implode and I ascend into the next plane of being #no its not death its BISEXUAL LIGHTING #I'm doing the fucking COD zombie screams inside my soul right now

[spiderwebd]

i wanted to thank you for all ur nice words on my posts aaaa! i rly wish i could directly reply to ur tags but i don't wanna be annoying lol <:] ur seriously wonderful

Its 1 am right now thank you thank uou thank you slash gen

#SJDJBTJEJS YOU'RE SO NICD SNJFJFHD #Ure not annoying dw :( intact I'd be phyckin jumping off the walls if u interacted with me literally in any way #THIS INCLUDED BTW... /silly #It's like. Have you seen that Twitter meme where an artist u like follows u and urr like wow that's insane I peaked my life is great now #<-/silly #THAT'S ALWAYS ME #ANY ARTIST THAT FOLLOWS ME BACK I WOULD EAT A PIPE FOR YOI/silly+pos #YOU'RE INCLUDED YOU'RE SO COOL UR ARTS SO INSANELY GOOD/GEN #also u run that sword blog right or am I thinking of another artist #<- I go on the phiighting tag too often and reblog yoo many shit/lh #If u are and I'm not being stupy I love that blog he's so goofy silly /pos+gen #Gah pls dont be scared to interact with me this goes to anyone and everyone who sees this too btw #I'M the one that's supposed to be afraid not YOU /silly #Anyways ramble over sknfjfjdjs no problem idhddhdj tytytyty this is giving me serotonin at 1 am HAHA/silly #Polkka post #asks #Pibafish #<- I srsly need to stop for getting yo tag the usernames sjjfjrjeks

[blujayonthewing]

rearranged some stuff on my desk to accommodate a couple new stickers and ended up with kind of an accidental Affirmations Zone

#maybe I should lean in and move things around some more and add a couple more things #I know I have a shitty copy paper print of 'I'm the king of me I'm going to eat chips out of the garbage' bird #and 'the most beautiful toad in the world' #on the other hand I put that print of luigi's greenhouse there specifically because the light catches the sparkles best #all the stickers except the korok the healing potion and the I Voted sticker are poster-puttied on lol #I like to keep my options open!! #I don't have a lot of Stuff that's conveniently stickerable and I don't wanna overcrowd my water bottle and tablet #ach I also have a bunch more stuff I need to get up on the walls but it's such a pain in the ass to get behind the corner desk :') #about me

[lucienne-thee-librarian]

Me @ Netflix if they cut Foxglove and Hazel or A Game of You or yassify any of the girls

#sandman season 2 #a game of you #fucking bullshit man this comic say what you want in not saying there's nothing to criticize but christ #where else even today do you get queer women characters this un-polished and prettied up #to still be appealing looking to cishet men who are allowed to be messy and Problematic without #being punished by the narrative. And Wanda god she's a nerd she's a scene gal fashion wise she's everything #Barbie is desperately recovering any sense of identity at all and it's so compelling. I don't even trust netflix to do them justice #at this point but if the lesbians the fandom was least likely to find Palatable background extras aka the most human ones #are cut? If Wanda is yassified if Barbie is cut? Because we have to streamline everything and cut off everything that made #sandman unique to pull as many bucks as possible? Yes I AM going to take that #personally actually. It kinda does feel like a slap in the face. Queer women and women in general were the core fanbase of the comic for ye #but if they say fuck us when it's time to make $$?? Then fuck them right back. Bye #We don't need yet another time that if queer women aren't looking like models #they're not fit to be seen according to executives and audiences alike #also it goes without saying that if h0b g*dli*g gets one second more screen time than is necessary #I'm gonna chew my way thru Netflix hqs walls #Has he not taken over enough. The fandom is already insufferable about him #and I'm so fucken tired of it we DON'T need more #yes I know this is all fears and speculation. I WANT to be wrong. You don't know how happy I'll be if i have to eat my own words #But until then I'm so nervous

[pangolin-404]

god house of leaves is such a good book it is the predecessor to every liminal space and "the house as a living thing" piece of media out there and everyone in those spaces needs to read it right this second. it is the Backrooms, it is Anatomy, it is the Spiral, it is Theseus and the Minotaur, it is "My house walk-through", it is the embodiment of unreliable narration and a hostile architecture taken to its most literal, a beautiful ergodic uncanny frame tale of a man piecing together a study about a film about a house

#thoughts #house of leaves #house of leaves posting #I see people in the tag making house blue so I am also doing that hehe #I'm having my 'that's it. my art needs to get weirder' moment #when I finished it I just sat there staring at a wall for a bit playing it all back in my brain #god. god if I could play with doc and ao3 formatting more. the things I would put my readers through #I think it's my favorite book ever? instantly shot up to number one spot? it's just. it's so good. I'm going to eat it

[emdotcom]

Shout out to folks suffering with eating disorders. I hope you know that whatever body you have is worthy of love, & I hope your next meal is filling.

It's hard to quit, once you start to starve yourself, but even if you can just start small by getting a snack when hungry, I think you can & should break out of that. I've been hungry, in this life, & I don't think anyone deserves what it does to you.

#em.txt #life is tough & i hope everyone who is skipping meals gets a chance to eat at the table instead #but that stuff is mondo tough to get back into the swing of #once you stop eating your body stops trusting you to feed it & it clings on to any calories you give it #if the reason you stopped eating was due to weight fears then going back on that is gonna make you gain weight more than ever in your life #but in short: this is not sustainable. you cannot live this way. you are killing yourself to do this. #you will have to come down from the tree eventually & it will suck & be scary the whole ride through #& I'm sorry for that. but i hope you can do it. #ed mention #eating disorder mention #eating disorder #man this started as me getting mad thinspo is a thing then i realized these people are as much a victim as me #if not more bc that is some cult stuff. they are in a cult. it's just that I'm the demon they paint on the wall. #that ain't as hard as being in a cult tbh. i only have to hear how awful my body is #instead of being made to starve out of fear of it

[automatonknight]

i <3 2fort forever yay ^__^

#had so many fun interactions today and also learnt how to group taunt :3 baby's first kazotsky kick #i'm a pyro main usually but since everyone was fucking around i decided to switch to medic to see how it is and had not one but TWO heavies #call for me and then killbind/explode upon reaching a certain point. one of them even head an enemy intel and was a-posing the entire time #<a-posing and spinning! even #we got to the intel room and he just turned back. went upstrairs. started eating a banana and then killbinded. never change heavies i love #you. the other one did the go kart taunt and then tried to taunt kill me?? we were on the same team. well and then he exploded #i already mentioned pyro sewer party that was super cute :3 also like my first group interaction. special moment not to get cheesy #AND. and. yet another heavy with a wilson weave tried to teach me how to group taunt. like y'know. do the conga together #<i was convinced i couldn't do it since i didn't have it unlocked and stuff but i could!!! thank you heavy :] #i hope they was me eventually figure it out. had no way to check since they were on the enemy team and that doesn't display names #sorry about the wall of text i'm just!!!! well i just had a lot of fun :] #people also kept standing in those little towers? like y'know blu team player jumps on a red player and then a blu jumps on top of that one #and bam. tower right. there was also one pyro who had the minion fit AND the sign with a minion picture as well #i'll never get those people who make those 'strange people of 2fort videos' like the fuck you mean strange. they're so fun #GOSH. sorry about the wall of text again anyways um. download the game and play on 2fort ok? super fun

[slippery-minghus]

tomorrow is the psychiatrist appointment but i'm also going to treat myself to breakfast at the cafe across the street after. i'm really looking forward to it.

#personal #it's barely past 8:30 and i'm finally about to eat but i think i'm also going to go to bed after #i've just been feeling incrementally worse all day (and every day this weekend) and i've finally hit a wall #that.... usually means if i respect it and get my sleep then tomorrow will be okay. maybe even good #here's hoping