#It's so true!! He literally WAS a teacher !!!

[ghostorbz]

TOP 4 CHARACTERS HEADS I WOULD USE AS A CRYSTAL BALL

1. Baldi

He I feel is the best character who could be used as a crystal ball, that bald head of his is BEGGING for me to cast some sort of spell. Plus, Baldi probably both shampoos and conditions his head despite only having one strand of hair,,, do bald people do that? Idk. I'm not bald. BUT my point is that there's plenty of room and the shiny,,ness to use this beloved math teacher as a crystal ball

2. Frye

Don't even get me started, there's scenes where her forehead is literally shining. Even though she does have hair (or,,, tentacles in this case) it wouldn't obstruct the crystal ball abilities I feel. Look at that head,, doesn't it look like it could make your dreams come true? I think so

3. Zim

While probably not shiny, he has a head large enough (and bald enough) to use as a crystal ball. Though he'd probably impale me with a PAK leg before I could ever do that. And his antenna might be in the way too if you're trying to do a spell, not sure. Then again he also wouldn't let me see him out of his brilliant disguise

4. Hank J. Wimbleton

While confirmed to be completely bald, Hank would NOT let ANYONE use his head as a crystal ball. Not that you'd really be able to get to it considering the mass amount of bandages covering his head, plus the two bandanas he wears!! If you try hard enough maybe you'd be able to get a short spell though, but it'd take a lot more effort than it's worth

#sorry this is such a weird post #i thought about it while falling asleep #infodump #??? i guess???? #baldis basics #baldi baldimore #splatoon #frye splatoon #invader zim #zim iz #madness combat #madcom #hank j wimbleton #hank madness combat #okay. okay man.

[bumblingbabooshka]

TUVOKTOBER Day 2: Lunch Break [Interrupted]

#tuvoktober #bea art tag #1000% directly inspired by that post about how Tuvok should eat tupperwear salad like a teacher #It's so true!! He literally WAS a teacher !!! #he's listening to monks chanting - his favorite music bc he's a gd freak #It's SO his favorite that Neelix knows about it. I really wanna know how he knows. #Probably 'he just asked him' but funnier: They went on an away mission and he had monk chanting playing the whole time #Neelix: (internal) This is fucking hell on earth (positive spin) At least I know his favorite music! #Everyone whose been in an older relative's car as they blast choir music (the car is always SO hot) understands #it's torture but also it's kind of comforting??? it always makes me want to got to sleep #Tuvok seems like he eats salad without dressing (maybe a light drizzle of like lemon or vinegar on top) and looks down on people #who do otherwise <3 annooooying <3 #Janeway: (early in their knowing each other) Can I join you~? I'm also having a salad! #<- did this specifically to try & bond with him #Tuvok: -gazes pointedly at how much dressing she put on it- I could hardly tell.

[guinevereslancelot]

most fucked up thing at my new job is there's only zero calorie sweeteners at the coffee station in the break room. three different kinds of zero calorie sweetener but no regular sugar because the assumption is that literally everyone is on a diet?

#is this because its a job dominated by women in particular??? idk #that's so weird #like sorry i can taste the difference and i prefer naturally occurring sugar from nature how is that not even an option #drinking nasty bitter af coffee bc i am So Sleepy but i refuse to use artificial sweeteners #they Do taste different and they're not even good for you im not doing that lol #also they got mad at me for telling one of the parents that we took one of the kids temperature and it was 99 and he threw up a little #when his dad came to get him yesterday and all of the other teachers were nowhere to be found #they were like tou shouldnhave had colleen do that #ma'am colleen went home before that and so did you #i should have left already too but waited bc the ratio on the playground was bad #anyway i did NOT say he had a fever i said it was 99 and to talk to the teacher inside #but the dad didnt yalk to her clearly then went home and scared the mom that he had a fever and threw up so she texted my boss freaking out #i literally just said he threw up a little and we took his temperature and it was 99 and to talk to the other teacher #which was all true and there was no one else there to tell him #anyway #apparently the person who had my job before me was a wacko who scared the parents with fake medical information or something #but that is not my fault and nobody told me that or not to tell the parents anything medical until this morning #ugh #also my supervisor is kind of a weirdo #she wanted to show everyone ~cute~ pictures of animals she has killed while hunting??? #and i said i didnt want to see #and she was like ~oh it's not dead yet in the picture~ #like okay but its dead now??? #she traps them first so its a cute little fox in a trap about to be killed 😭 #like wtfff #i know trappong predators is a reality but why take pictures like ohhh so cute then kill it #THEN show everyone the cute pictures like yeah isnt he adorable i killed him btw <3 #huh?????? #she has a bobcat tail on her keychain too she was giving it to the teachers and kids to pet like ohhh its so soft <3

[burning-thistles-bt]

whispers you guys darkstripe canonically has a crush on tigerstar---

#and like??? like i guess its not technically wrong #like its like he looks up to tigerstar in every fucking which way #as his mentor. as his dad. as an older brother. as the guy he wants to devote his entire life to. his one true love #literally his brain is just: tigerstar tigerstar tigerstar #think of it like the kid who has a really bad home life and images running away w. their teacher bcus their teacher is nice to them #like its kind of fucked up #this is also part of the reason i do dislike open wikis because im so protective over the information and how people edit #like theres so many little mistakes on the wiki rn and its driving me crazy #and if i start editting them im gonna be here for HOURS #lolling thoughts #bt wiki #darkstripe #spotted is also technically a foster mom since she physically nursed dark as well sometimes #spottedleaf #burning thistles #burning thistles au #tigerstar #tigerclaw #no hate intended either im just really nitpicky #love the work thats been done so far

[that-was-anticlimactic]

gosh applying for jobs is so stressful i feel mildly ill i hate it

#you want THREE letters of recommendation??? hELLO??? I AM JUST OUT OF COLLEGE!!! my supervisor literally refused to write one for one of my #friends because he didn't think she was capable of working where she wanted to apply (which is not true btw) i want to hurl #just spent the past like two hours looking at schools and counties and cities and signing up for the praxis gosh i'm stressed #and the place i interviewed at called my mentor teacher a couple days after i interviewed and said i was in the running but i haven't heard #back from them in like a month so like IDKKKKK that's prolly bad right??? #i hate it here #so scary

[airenyah]

ok so today i had my first thai class after a really long christmas break and somehow andreas gabalier (an austrian folk singer) and his music came up. and i don't remember what exactly my teacher said but he made a comment along the lines of "andreas gabalier is considered a standard good looking dude here in austria, right?" (my teacher is from thailand, so he wasn't sure about austrian people's preferences)

and his question was met with complete silence, because the thing is... our class consists of 3 middle aged guys plus one more guy in his early 30s. and then there's me. the only girl

and since no one answered the question about andreas gabalier's looks, our teacher then addressed me directly and following conversation ensued:

teacher: "[airenyah]?" me: (feeling slightly shy and embarrassed) ".....i don't know what andreas gabalier looks like 🙈" everyone: (breaks out in laughter) middle-aged classmate: (highly amused) "i suspect he's not your type..." (me: "oh 🙈") "you're not missing out on anything :D"

i really like my teacher but god, let me live. don't put me on the spot like that 😩😩😩

#i hate when people ask me my opinion on somebody's looks #esp if that somebody in question is an older dude (as in significantly older than me. doesn't have to be ''old'' in reality) #idk!!! the person looks normal to me!!! person-shaped!!! idk‚ what do you want from me!!! i'm too asexual for this conversation!!! #we're not super close in this class (it's online which doesn't help with that either) so no one actually knows shit about my sexuality #and idk if my teacher put me on the spot for heteronormative reasons bc i'm the only girl in class #or bc he trusts my opinion (technically i could be considered an expert in austrian culture‚ i have a BA for that now lol) #but somehow my classmate's comment felt really reassuring to me somehow #i have no idea what made him think that that singer wouldn't be my type (maybe the age difference??) but like #so true man. so true. you don't even know #what even IS my type #airenyah plappert #stories from my thai class #also yeah everyone was laughing but it wasn't mean-spirited like. they weren't laughing AT me #i think my comment was just funny to them bc they probably weren't expecting it and so maybe they were surprised #or maybe bc i'm also the youngest in the group so maybe in their heads they were going ''aw she's too young to know andreas gabalier'' #(i mean i WAS very much aware of him‚ i just never cared about him and his music and so i didn't care to know about his appearance) #the guys were laughing very amusedly while i was just sitting there like ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ lmao (i too was amused when they laughed tho) #anyway i have since looked up andreas gabalier's face and he is literally just some dude to me #i do hate his hairstyle tho. it looks greasy with gel ewww #but yeah apart from that my opinion on his looks is that he looks like an ordinary human being idk #nothing good and nothing bad about it #(except yeah. the hair gel maybe. maybe that IS bad actually)

[fortes-fortuna-iogurtum]

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#accidentally got into a bit of an argument with my sunday school teacher/youth group leader this morning #(tho I didn't see it as an argument? more of a difference of opinions? slash-me asking for clarification on his points #and opinions on mine? #but my sisters said it felt like I was arguing so. *helpless shrug* that wasn't the intention really) #but the subject was about heaven/the christian's true home #and he was saying that the descriptions of glory and splendor in Revelation (streets of gold/foundations of the city/12 gates/etc) #are all real literal actual descriptions of heaven and that's where we'll open our eyes as soon as we die #and as I'm leaning more and more into 'revelation is largely a prophetic vision and we should be careful not to take too much of it #too literally' lately #I was saying that 'heaven' as we call it is the state of being returned to perfect unity with God + the New Creation #which will be brought about after the end of days #and. yeah. #now I'm largely just confused lol #because it just seems to me like saying 'yeah as soon as I die I'm gonna wake up in a MANSION and there's gonna be JEWELRY EVERYWHERE #and GOLD STREETS and ALL THESE VERY SPECIFIC SYMBOLIC ARCHITECTURAL FEATURES #is... slightly missing the point??? #I personally find it far more hopeful and attractive to say tbh idk what it's gonna be like when I open my eyes on the other side of death #BUT I know that God is going to bring me back!! I will be resurrected in a new body with a new purpose in a new *world* #and it will be every single thing I love about this world but BETTER!!! no death!! no sorrow!!! no pain!! perfect undistracted fulfillment #of my callings!!! a wonderful fantastic beautiful unbroken world and //I// will get to live in it and help cultivate it!!!! #and actually this may be a bit of a rabbit trail but I wonder why the churches I've grown up in don't seem to care that much #about the New Earth? they're all like 'YEAH HEAVEN :D :D :D GOLD STREETS 'N PEARLY GATES :D :D :D' #but never 'hey did you know that all the horrible ways we've destroyed this wonderful place that we live in now will be undone? #and we'll come back to earth but it'll be just like it was in the Garden???? isn't it cool that as much terrible stuff we inflict on #ourselves and others and God's beautiful work of creation it's STILL not more than God can redeem and remake and restore???' #bc that message seems a lot more inspiring to me? not just escapism but restoration and reclamation? #idk. I wish I had people to actually discuss these sorts of spiritual things with around... #maybe I'll find them at college... I really hope I do... #tag ramble #christianity

[jaegerbroshoe]

Omggg I need the next episode already 😭

#crash course in romance #misc #my opinion #this show’s really good #but man I’m so mad at those fugly helicopter moms #sua is a ho who snoops around people’s stuff #and now her mom is literally stalking the poor teacher?? #the reason hae-e is even getting private lessons now is thanks to her corrupted ass #I’m so mad that hae-e’s family is gonna be the one facing repercussions #+ though #also I’m pretty sure the theory I saw about the assistant being the killer is true after this episode but I think he enlisted the brother + #+ to help; they have similar trauma related to the education system so it makes sense if they crossed paths #cause the brother has no motive to kill that teacher for spreading rumours about choi #but the assistant does #and choi said he’d fill him in later so that probably happened off screen #but the brother could also still be unrelated to the murders #anyways I’m so excited for the next episode although I know I’ll be so mad at the unfairness towards hae-e’s family #I hope the helicopter moms get what’s coming for them

[arthur-r]

i have the most insane fucking news

#fafsa got reprocessed they gave me a pell grant and my college saw that and gave me 20 fucking thousand dollars of grants #i’m in a special club now too with a special name for Scholars with Exceptional Financial Need #i fucking THOUGHT so. was terrifying when they gave me zero dollars and i am so glad it was a mistake #anyway i told my teacher this and he says it’s cause i manifested it…. #i would say that my anxiety around the matter was not the kind of energy that brings in good things. but maybe i was secretly being positive #idk shdhdf it did arrive like five seconds after i decided i should commit anyway and figure out how to make it work #so then the universe said oh you’re actually gonna do it?? maybe i’ll save you from the hundred thousand dollars of debt actually #maybe college can be actually a possibility for you without ruining your life forever #so anyway everything is freaking incredible now and everything is okay #and i needed this. cause things have been getting worse and worse at home so like. positive news from an outside source is very much needed #i fucking knew i qualified for a pell grant and financial assistance i felt like i was being gaslit #they literally just miscalculated my family contribution. thought my dad must be funneling his income into something illegal cause we do not #have the money that the fafsa told me we did. but it was literally just fucking wrong and everything is okay #and my dad came into my room crying a couple days ago saying he wants to do everything he can to help me with my loans as soon as he’s done #with paying off his own or once they get forgave in a couple years. so arthur supportive father arc i guess. SHDHDHDF #that graph benji made about my dad getting less transphobic over time it’s coming true. guy put prefer not to answer in the gender section #of a form and he HOVERED OVER THE TRANS BUTTON. that’s insane coming from having screamed at each other about trans issues since before i #even knew that i was trans my dad and i had gotten in screaming debates about queerness and now he keeps saying weird stuff about how he #wants my life to be good. which is fucking baseline father behavior that’s what you’re supposed to get out of a dad but like. i have always #felt like i’m either drenched in expectations or that he just can’t wait for me to leave. so this is really good progress. and with the #financial aid that means that he’s actually going to be able to help. do you understand what this means my dad can help pay off my couple #thousand dollars of loans that are gonna be left over (cause now that they noticed i need aid it’s so fucking cheap) and do you fucking know #do you know what this means. i’m sorry for swearing i don’t know why i am. but what this means is. i won’t be in thousands of dollars of #debt when i graduate or i will be but the monthly payment will be so low and. i can get fucking top surgery is what this means. and go on t #i thought i was gonna be in so much debt that i couldn’t. but its gonna be like. a couple thousand dollars a year something insane like that #so foreseeably i could be getting top surgery by the time i’m 24. that’s insane i can’t even imagine #so anyway. just. everything is going to be okay and there’s actually hope in the world and i’m going insane #obviously saying this can very easily jinx me to literally never ever be happy. but i’m gonna take the manifesting route actually shdhdhf #my life will be So Good Forever. i Believe This Wholeheartedly. Good Things Will Come To Me #anyway i’m gonna run out of tags in a couple seconds but i really needed this you have no idea. i hope everybody is doing well

[astrxealis]

started rereading the pjo series the other day actually wawawa still my favorite fr it means the world to me :(( but yeah also! rewatched big hero 6 and ngl it probably really is my favorite movie for many personal reasons hehe AND THEN also watched the first part of hamilton on tv w my parents they loved it hehehe

#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚ #okay that's all just a quick update on me and my life since i loveee to share all that #OKAY OKAY THOUGH YEAH i really love my (extended) family. i am super shy but you know what i love them sooo much #i already miss my aunt so much sniffs the whole holy week break felt like a dream tbh. i loved that she came over and etc etc #and also brought her (GAY !!) friend and then idk she's the best and so supportive and i came out to her right. first one irl. means a lot. #but yeah having experiences w her (esp her gay guy friend tho) meant a lot to me LMFAO idk it feels like those. crush feels but platonic #anyway <3 idk what else. uhm. yeah. that's basically it #oh an old friend from middle school dmned me bcs my personal instagram note was a rainbow flag and heart face so . yk #i came out to them back then and they're on the lgbtq community too so HELL YEAH sorry it's been days tho and i haven't replied back aha #you see. i am a mess. i haven't gotten to a lot of stuff especially because i for some reason have this. i need to. you see #i need to... if i am doing something i have to put in All My Effort. so i am literally reading everything my teachers give and say #and. literally everything. and i am definitely FAR far away from getting near to finished but hell yeah RAGHHH #I AM SO EXCITED FOR THE CONCERT NEXT MONTH OH MY GOD IT'S IN LIKE 3/4 WEEKS NOW ONLY WHAT THE FUCKING FUCK #my dad has been listening to the 1975 tons (he said he has now listened to all their songs. idk if thats true but i think so) #idk yeah just makes me happy uh etc love family etc motivated but a mess uh etc. goodnight

[abluescarfonwaston]

Kotetsu: *getting lectured by the teacher for being late Again* ...

Tomoes friends: i don't get it Tomoe why do you like him? Did you see him rescue a cat in the rain or something?

Tomoe who's seen him run into a burning building for her, spent an hour looking for a kids parents at the festival with him, and jump in the storm drain for a kids hat: Something like that.

#tomoe x kotetsu #tnb #tiger and Bunny #i feel like Kotetsu is just constantly late cause Ops saw a kid drop there things #ops saw a kid drop their hat in the river #ops old lady needed help with her groceries #and then he gets lectured: But i- #Teacher: I dont want to hear it Kaburagi! this is the fifth time this- #Tomoe going for a 'bathroom break' to check on him when he's made to stand in the hall #So... you okay? #kotetsu holding a bucket of water because the teachers are literally running out of ways to deal with him: yep #This is good training!!! #ive never once seen you train #thats probably not true he probably trained a lot as a teen. doing that weird run all over town

[medicinemane]

All I'll say, is that college professor who bitch about "professionalism" in students forgets that it cuts both ways

You're a professor, this is a student. You are in theory at least and educator, and so when someone behaves in a way you find unbecoming it's your duty to say "in future please do ___ because that's the polite way to do things" rather than just tearing into them and complaining... to do other wise... well it lacks professionalism

Because it's never a reaction to the student being like "Yo what up skank?", it's always something minor that's not even a universal faux pas

Which cuts to to the core of what it's really about, it's never the language used, or that handing in an assignment only x minutes before the due date is an issue, it's a pure power trip

I don't know about you, but I find power tripping pretty unprofessional

These professors will act like the sun shines out their ass while throwing bigger tantrum over nothing than a toddler would, while citing that the student isn't behaving properly and it's just... you're a disgrace to education, you make academia worse with your presence, you have the emotional stability of a child, and for all your pomp and airs you lack even basic manners which is the foundation of being a professional

Just get tired of that kind of professor and wanted to complain about them

(Bonus complaint, professors who brag that only a small % of students pass their class. Oh... so you're a bad teacher... you're not good at your job. You fail at the one thing you're paid to do with a large % of your students)

#this isn't about anyone I dealt with; but you know these examples pile up over the years #from the professor a friend of mine had to deal with; to the one I saw the other day marking an on time assignment late #to the one I just saw complaining about a :) in a message from a freshman #like... oh... they put a :) and you don't like that? #well someone with actual professionalism would say: #'Here's the answer to your question; by the way emojis aren't really good form so try not to use them in official communications' #whether you're wrong or right; you at least handled yourself with dignity #if I were a higher up at any of these places and heard about this stuff I'd be reprimanding them for their behavior frankly #like with the friend of mine; this was a while back but I swear it was something like they said 'yo' in an email... like that level of issu #and the prof is like threatening disciplinary action and like... if they came to me with that and I had any authority #it's them who'd be getting disciplined for wasting my time #you're beefing with someone in their 20's you weeny; grow up; and not even beefing over an actual insult #like this holds true for almost anyone complaining about 'professionalism' #but it's so much more true with professors cause it's like... you're literally a teacher... it's literally your job to teach #no this isn't philosophy or whatever; but you can... teach... what you think the person should be doing #and that starts with modeling it in your own behavior #maybe I'm just a kook; but to me professionalism is built on good manners; so being a rude ass makes you seem like a real chump to me #but like I said; never actually about what they say it is; it's always a chance to power trip #plenty of good professors; like my German prof; he engaged with every student and would really keep an eye on what was happening for them #students didn't fail his classes; lowest I saw anyone get was like an 85 and they were moving to another country #cause he paid attention and before tests would be like 'this person is weak in this; so we're going over it again' #it wasn't that his tests were easy; they literally were only short essay; zero multiple choice cause he wisely didn't respect that #so you literally couldn't answer a question unless you knew; and you had to get it right; he was a stickler about it #but no one ever felt stressed because he literally just made sure people knew; he made sure their knowledge was up to his high standards #and everyone loved him cause he was such a nice guy; literally everyone ever only had good things to say about him #plus he was a linguist so when people would ask questions about why something was how it was in German #he'd stand there thinking and say 'I'm trying to decide how much to say so it'll help you understand rather than confusing you' #and then he'd give a really good explanation that you knew maybe lack some details but really made sense #also he was the only person to recommend me a text book for outside reading that was an actually enjoyable textbook on language #I don't think everyone can be him; he was an exceptional teacher and exceptional guy in general; just really nice

[queercriptid]

i wish for nothing more than the white leftists who are creaming their pants over wanting to arm themselves everywhere to not have as itchy of a trigger finger as they seem like they have. your wet dream about being the next punisher or some shit shouldnt trump the safety of people at higher risk of hate crimes than u

#sorry yall r not coming off as 'allies' or 'protectors' #you sound like dipshits #be fucking smart about things that kill people #and dont blindly encourage people who will be higher risk of desth or legal issues #to just get guns regardless of how or why #not saying u shouldnt protect urself but im saying act fucking normal about it #and for the love of god #properly secure ur guns and treat them seriously #yall saw that a 6 year old shot his teacher and literally #so many teachers and one student who was threatened by the same child that she would be shot if she told someone #tried to tell administration and they did nothing. #so yea anyways the reaction to mass shootings shouldnt be 'lets fucking make it rain unsecured firearms' #dont be fucking stupid #and no yall r not reblogging this bc i dont wanna deal with like #Nick From Your Hometown claiming that he's the only True Leftist bc he wants to shoot people so bad #and sits on the computer all day criticizing labor unions for not being demanding enough #anyways #criptxt

[swanscumz]

I HEAR THE FUCKING ROOSTERS OUTSIDE ITS 4AM SHUT THE FUCK UP

it's 4:20 am now

g'night

(read the tags. Or dont. Ur choice)

#I already know I am not going to have a good day tmrw #100% gonna have a terrible day #cuz my dad sucks and honestly so do I #i mena #what do you expect with black parents at this point #fuck man #im gonna get my ass beat over fuckin' grades #beats my ass over the smallest shit #literally today he grabbed me by my collar and shoved me against the wall while yelling at me because I fucging said something #I didn't mean to say #that thing I said is 99% true but like still #fuck my dad #I fucking hate him #Im genuinely not planning on living beyond 16 because of how fucked my life is #I hate him sm #If he loves me why doesn't he fucking act like he actually loves me #cuz ya'know he only acts 'nice' to me when I'm getting good grades or when there is people over #he's coming to my school... #to talk to my teachers about assignments i missed and is gonna beat my ass over them #ITS GONNA FUCKING HAPPEN #I BET YOU ALL MY MONEY IT IS #i wanna kms #im so sick of that man #sleep and staying up at night are the only times I am at peace #fuck #thats my little rant in the tags #dunno why you read that sob story but whatever #goodnight yall #i might delete this later but 0 promise I will

[hecksupremechips]

I’ve only met one real life actual gay adult once in my life. He was my math teacher when I was 16. He wasn’t open about it at all, and I’m slightly relieved he wasn’t because of where we live. Perhaps that changed after I left, but at the time, no way

He took over the new school gsa club, something that had literally no support from staff or students and was highly highly protested. Nevertheless he did and I joined it solely because I was deeply closeted and confused about myself, and because he was my absolute favorite teacher. Hardly anyone came to the club, most times I was the only one who showed at all, and I didn’t even get along with those who would come at all given how they were often there as a homophobic prank. But he raised his voice for the only time there, because if there’s one thing he wasn’t gonna take it was these asshole kids kicking down the very few queer youths in an already shitty community

Now, I had suspected he was gay for a long time. Obviously I wasn’t gonna say a goddamn word to anyone because that’s both really shitty and dangerous given how bad the stigma on queer teachers is. So I just kept it to myself and was grateful that either way there was at least one person at that place that would’ve protected kids like me. It wasn’t like it was even remotely obvious, in fact most people would definitely assume he’s straight, but I had a gut feeling and a mental gay connection akshsjks

Then one day, like the only time ppl actually came to that club and were actually good ppl, he came out to us. Just me and maybe 10 other students max, but he did. And I don’t think I’ll ever forget that moment because without that I don’t think I’d still be here honestly. It blew my fucking mind. Deadass the rest of the day (at the weekend tbh) I was shaking and on the verge of tears. Never, and still never, have I had someone in my life be gay. Be like me. And be allowed to have a job, friends, a stable life. I didn’t even know gay people could be teachers, or any casual job like that. And even though I was the closeted kid and he was the adult, I never felt more proud of anyone in my life. He said that to these kids, some of whom were naive or ill intentioned and likely would tell everyone they could, with the terrifying possibility that it would reach parents. And it did, there’s no way he didn’t face awful backlash for daring to step foot anywhere near teens as a gay man. But he did it for the kids like me who hated themselves, who were scared, who had never been protected by anyone. I was able to come out to him and feel supported, genuinely seen for once. I owe this man everything 😭

Happy pride to him 🏳️‍🌈

#the klock keeps ticking #this is deeply sappy but ive been really emotional with the news lately and just thinking about how #how fucking hard its been #im not perfect now in terms of self acceptance. hardly at all #but it was so much worse before #i dont even know how to talk about this honestly #this guys class was literally the only time i ever felt safe in any teachers classroom #because i knew he was family and that he was the only person to not put up with it #he was a bro too i painted him waluigi once and he said it was cool but he preferred luigi so i added luigi for shits #theres a lot i could say about this guy honestly #but like. hes like the closest thing to a father i ever had. which is funny cuz he wasnt even 10 years older but its true #i miss him so much i need to see if i can email him 😩 #im totally not crying rn btw

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i have a bad stomachache again today

#…anxiety? #it doesn’t really feel like my period anymore it feels like im just scared #being mentally ill feels so stupid especially when there’s so many layers like this because it’s like #idk. when i get just regular anxious i always feel like. man. of all the things my brain could be worrying about #like i could be having a bpd spiral right now and the most interesting thing my mind wants to do is give me an unexplained stomachache???? #i’ve been fully tangled in delusions multiple times this week and my brain is like. hey have a tummyache?? #and it’s like. i don’t count it as real mental illness but dang if it’s not contributing to my bad mental health. so i should shut up #and deal with the fact that some of my brain problems are harder to reckon with than others #it’s probably silly and strange that i feel like delusions are more reasonable than regular dread but like. this just feels so dumb #okay so um #nothing to do first hour. second hour work on project. third hour sew my jacket. fourth hour movie worksheet. fifth hour movie worksheet #and i have three and a half cards to give. one of them i’ll give today #the thing is im literally giving my chem teacher a two page letter about how awesome he is but im still nervous about him #like there’s a lot of things to be thankful for but im still just a little off put by him being so friendly? #and so i kind of just feel weird giving him a card. idk. but i don’t want to not recognize how helpful and understanding he’s been so i will #the other cards are less of anything it’s just around three sentences per teacher of: listen i know i don’t turn in enough assignments but #i think you’re rad. love how you do [a] and [b] in your class #mme peterson’s is going to be a little longer and also en français but otherwise still a little boring #but mr hidaka’s is two pages long thanks him for everything says there’s no way it’s a full goodbye and that he makes me feel safe #which is true when im around him just not when i get home and THINK about him and so idk. but idk. he’s a nice guy. whatever #im giving him his card today the other people are getting theirs on the last day. but also his isn’t really a card it’s more of a letter #they’re all letters actually. just some of them are very short letters. but none of them are really cards #anyway i have to do my dumb PROJECTS and not fail my CLASSES and there’s not that much left but it still feels like so much #also i had to fall asleep last night with the fake sounds of a fireplace to drown out screaming parents. so. not doing the best at home #but. i should start getting ready for school. im just kind of here #me. my post. mine. #delete later