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Timelines + Plot summary of Be My Favourite (spoilers for the whole thing)

A new timeline is counted every time the future is changed, even though after timeline 1 all of the past timelines don't have anything separating them. Each timeline is split as follows:

PAST while Kawi is in University.

INTERIM important events after the past timeline but before the future timeline.

FUTURE when Kawi is 30 years old.

Events the audience knows about are sorted into roughly chronological order regardless of which episode they were revealed in the series. Timeline 0 also has ANTERIOR for events that happened in the past, but before Kawi is in his second year of University.

For example, a reference to future-2 is the future section of timeline 2.

TLDR;

Timeline 0: the original one. Kawi's unreliable recollection means the audience knows slightly more about this timeline than he does.

Timeline 1: first time Kawi uses the time machine.

Timeline 2: Pisaeng kisses Kawi in the future of this timeline.

Timeline 3: Kawi achieved all the goals he thought he wanted and travels back to the future — only to find that his relationships have unraveled, his father is still dead, and it's generally a nightmare.

Timeline 4: After 10ish years of Kawi and Pisaeng being in a relationship, Kawi gets pneumonia and is intubated, so Pisaeng desperately travels back in time.

Timeline 5: a happy ending.

Timeline 0

BOTKAWI / KAWI fails to sing at the freshers event. He is dismissive of Pisaeng when Pisaeng tries to befriend him, but is on good terms with Max. He develops a crush on Pear after she is nice to him during 1st year. He loses his relationship with Max for an unknown reason, but one that is Kawi's fault.

PISAENG comes out to his mother as gay aged 15. Whether his father or Pear know is unknown. At university freshers Kawi catches his eye, but Kawi is uninterested in getting to know Pisaeng.

PEAR'S MOTHER leaves her family to become a visual artist, and is estranged from them because of this.

PONGSATHORN, PEAR'S FATHER is resentful of Pear's mother for abandoning him and Pear

THREEDAO, PISAENG'S MOTHER manipulates Pisaeng into staying closeted, and has her staff surveil him.

PISAENG'S FATHER is a foreigner and presumably why Pisaeng has a dual nationality in a country that allowed same sex marriage (as of 2015). He is not present in either Threedao or Pisaeng's lives after he and Threedao got divorced.

PAST

KAWI has a crush on Pear as he remembers her as being the only one who was nice to him in 1st year, and considers her the closest he has to a friend. He buys Pear drinks and leaves her nice notes as her Secret Santa, but fails to give Pear a gift on the day of the gift exchange. Kawi thinks that she and Pisaeng must have started dating after Pisaeng claims to be her Secret Santa.

PISAENG tells Kawi that he is Kawi's secret Santa in a way that makes him immediately failing to be normal about it in the ensuing timelines where Kawi deigns to befriend him less of a surprise. Kawi doesn't take him up on his proposed gift of having dinner together, so the two never become close.

PRAEMAI / PEAR is friendly towards Kawi the way she's friendly towards everyone, and has a crush on Pisaeng, but suspects heavily that he does not like her back. Whether she knows Pisaeng is queer is unknown, but it is unlikely.

MAX quits school to study abroad because he's tired of living in a queerphobic society.

NOT is friends with benefits with Kwan, but this is a secret.

THAWI, KAWI'S FATHER dies after downplaying his illness to Kawi.

KWAN is friends with benefits with Not, and at Not's request keeps this a secret even from Pear.

THREEDAO has political aspirations and is amassing a sizable following because of her progressive public image.

INTERIM

N/A

FUTURE

KAWI works as a subtitler and has been on a downward spiral since his father and only motivation to try in life died, and at present thinks of himself a a broke, friendless, loser. He is invited to Pear and Pisaeng's wedding and does not plan to attend. He is invited to Pisaeng and Pear's pre wedding party but doesn't drink any alcohol. He still has a grudge against Pisaeng for "stealing" Pear from him. He still has the broken music box he was planning to give Pear 10 years ago, and has it repaired by the MYSTERIOUS MAGIC UNCLE/ MMU

PISAENG and PEAR are getting married. How happy they are is unknown, but neither of them are at their hen night/stag do/pre wedding party, which is strange. Whether Pear knows Pisaeng is queer is unknown, but it is likely that she does.

MAX lives abroad and is unhappy for an unspecified reason.

NOT is famous but is generally distant from his peers. Whether he is still friends with benefits with Kwan is unknown.

KWAN seems to be doing alright. Whether she is still friends with benefits with Not is unknown.

THREEDAO: ?

Timeline 1

PAST

KAWI thinks it's a dream and acts appropriately unhinged. He spends time with his father (much to his father's confusion) and becomes properly acquainted with Pisaeng while trying to enlist Pisaeng on his wooing Pear mission by following Pisaeng around. While at Pisaeng's DJ job, Kawi tries alcohol for the first time and gets completely wasted. Kawi expresses jealousy over Pisaeng's seemingly perfect life, and is dismissive when Pisaeng says all that glitters is not gold. Kawi asks if Pisaeng has a thing for him since Pisaeng is going out of his way to help him home.

PISAENG is confused by Kawi's apparent personality change but is happy to make a new friend, with his crush at that. He steps in as Pear's secret Santa when Kawi didn't show up (as Kawi was visiting his father at the time.) Pisaeng flirts a bit with Kawi, but in a plausibly deniable way. He is charmed by Kawi's antics, but frowns when Kawi is jealous of his life. Pisaeng helps a drunk Kawi get home and truthfully says that he has a crush on Kawi, but passes it off as sarcasm.

PEAR has a crush on Pisaeng, but suspects heavily that he does not like her back.

MAX is considering quitting school to study abroad.

NOT is friends with benefits with Kwan, but wants to date Pear.

THAWI is confused that Kawi is suddenly interested in spending time with him, but dies after downplaying his illness to Kawi.

KWAN is friends with benefits with Not, and at Not's request keeps this a secret even from Pear.

THREEDAO has political aspirations and is amassing a sizable following because of her progressive public image, even as she encourages Pisaeng to stay closeted.

INTERIM

KAWI gets wasted at Pisaeng and Pear's pre wedding party, and is a heavy drinker in general.

FUTURE

KAWI is Pisaeng's best man. He is surprised and annoyed by this.

PISAENG and PEAR have remained close friends with Kawi and are still getting married. How happy they are and whether Pear knows Pisaeng is queer are both unknown. Pisaeng attributes Kawi's confusion at being in the wedding party to Kawi's drinking habit.

MAX is unhappy for an unspecified reason.

NOT is famous but generally distant from his peers. Whether he is still friends with benefits with Kwan is unknown.

KWAN seems to be doing alright. Whether she is still friends with benefits with Not is unknown.

THREEDAO: ?

Timeline 2

PAST

KAWI tries to convince his father to go to doctor's appointments. He tries to repair his relationship with Max, but doesn't get far. He does not notice how it's a little odd that Pisaeng is so invested in helping him woo Pear when they've known each other properly for 2 days, but accepts Pisaeng's help because he doesn't want Pisaeng and Pear to get married in the future. He goes out for a meal with Pisaeng after Pear and Kwan go home because he didn't feel comfortable eating non daintily in front of Pear.

PISAENG doesn't want to give Pear false hope so he helps Kawi to choose and pay for a gift upon finding out about Kawi's crush on Pear, and Kawi's accepting that he and Pisaeng are friends now. He assures Kawi that he has no romantic feelings for Pear. He feels upset when he sees Pear and Kawi's sort of date going well, but he wants them both to be happy so he leaves them to it. He drinks with Not & co, but remembers why he doesn't associate with these people. He tells Not to stay away from Pear and goes out for a meal with Kawi after Pear and Kwan go home, and enjoys that Kawi is comfortable enough to eat not-daintily. He wins a plushie from a claw machine that Kawi was interested in, and plans to give it to Kawi.

PEAR has a crush on Pisaeng and is happy to see him have a new friend, but less happy that Pisaeng is trying to set her up with said friend. She invites Kwan over to try and quash the date vibes of her meal with Kawi.

MAX tells Kawi to fuck off.

NOT is generally an ass, which is why Pisaeng doesn't hang out with him anymore. He has a friends with benefits relationship with Kwan, but keeps this a secret because he likes Pear. He invested in Pisaeng and Pear's relationship because he wants the go ahead to pursue Pear.

THAWI dies after downplaying his illness to Kawi.

KWAN is friends with benefits with Not, but at his request keeps this secret from even Pear.

THREEDAO has political aspirations and is amassing a sizable following because of her progressive public image, even as she encourages Pisaeng to stay closeted.

INTERIM

N/A

FUTURE

KAWI is Pisaeng's best man and best friend. He is alarmed at Pisaeng kissing him and wants everything to go back to how it was. He's told by the MMU that he can only move forward, and also that the time machine has limited uses.

PISAENG leaves Pear at the altar to drunkenly come to Kawi's place, kiss him, and tells him he's in love with him. He asks aggressively if Kawi had ever felt the same way, and his whereabouts after Kawi rejects him are unkown.

PEAR is left at the altar. This is a surprise, and devastating.

MAX: is unhappy for an unspecified reason.

NOT is famous but generally distant from his peers. Whether he is still friends with benefits with Kwan is unknown.

KWAN correctly guesses that Kawi has something to do with Pear's current heartbreak. Whether she is still friends with benefits with Not is unknown.

THREEDAO: ?

Timeline 3

PAST

BEFORE PISAENG'S CONFESSION

KAWI starts keeping a journal of all the stuff that's happened because of time travel and sets 4 clear goals: make up with Max, get medical treatment for his father, woo Pear, and avoid Pisaeng. Keeping this journal gets him back into writing, which he had previously neglected. Kawi finds out from the MMU that he can't find winning lotto tickets, i.e. some things are out of his control and also that the time machine has a limited amount of juice. The MMU laments the state of education these days and tells Kawi that the time machine only grants him the chance to solve self inflicted problem. Kawi resolves not to go back to the future until all of the missions are completed.

KAWI initially avoids Pisaeng because of future-2 Pisaeng's actions. He tries to push Pisaeng and Not together by inviting then both out to drink and fails, accidentally letting slip that he feels uncomfortable around Pisaeng. However, Kawi gets onto good terms with Not himself. He also gets back onto good terms with Max and is able to convince his father to go to the doctor.

KAWI gets hazed and goaded into confessing to Pear at camp. His insecurities mean he still hangs out with Not and the seniors that recorded him being rejected, unbeknownst to him. He fights with Pisaeng and Pisaeng almost kisses him (consensually), but Kawi stops Pisaeng and tells Pisaeng to be honest with Pear and with himself before Pisaeng hurts anyone else.

KAWI applies for the student rep so that he can "get on Pear's level," presuming that one big change could turn his life around. He adds it to his list of missions. It's through trying to come up with a talent for his application that he gets back into singing and songwriting.

KAWI is made to realise by Max that future-2 Pisaeng's actions are not past-3 Pisaeng's actions. He apologises to Pisaeng and encourages Pisaeng to confess to him. He gently turns Pisaeng down, but they become closer after this.

PISAENG is charmed by Kawi and hurt over Kawi's sudden distance from him. He is so upset he doesn't speak to Kawi for several days upon learning that Kawi was trying to offload him onto Not, assuming that it was his queerness that made Kawi feel unsafe around him. He throws the plushie at Kawi angrily when Kawi pays him back for Pear's gift, as he perceived this as Kawi's saying that they don't *need* to hang out anymore.

PISAENG does not go to camp on the bus with everyone else, instead driving himself and arriving in the evening. He is jealous that Kawi has been hanging out with Not & co at camp, and cuts the call Not is using to record Kawi and Pear's conversation. He's angry when Kawi gives up on Pear after being rejected by her and dances with a girl in a club. He ends up straddling Kawi when they fight over this and leans in to kiss Kawi as if in a trance. He is alarmed at how much he likes Kawi, even if he can't say it aloud yet, and gains the courage to reject Pear after knowing she's had a crush on him for a long time. He agrees to help Kawi woo Pear.

PISAENG sees two men kiss at his DJ job and goes to a gay bar to figure himself out, but leaves without entering. Pisaeng suggests Kawi should sing as his talent in the student rep interview like he did when they met in 1st year, but Kawi is dismissive as he thinks Pisaeng is too privileged to understand the feeling of pressure.

PISAENG goes back and actually enters the gay bar, but runs away after being noticed by Max. He asks Max not to tell anyone (because he is afraid of his mother) and is told to get over himself (because Max assumes he's internally homophobic). Max's advice gives him the courage to confess to Kawi but also to embrace a queer identity even when he is rejected by Kawi.

PEAR is happy about Pisaeng's and Kawi's friendship. As sociable as she is, the only one she confides in are Pisaeng and to a lesser extent, Kwan, and she knows Pisaeng was just as lonely. She invites Pisaeng to dinner with her dad, and is rejected. She rejects Kawi and is rejected by Pisaeng at the camp, but her relationships with both of them are stronger for it. She's upset about being rejected by Pisaeng, but already suspected that he didn't like her back.

MAX gives advice to Kawi about Kawi's crush on Pear and Pisaeng's crush on Kawi for his own entertainment. It's still good advice. After meeting Pisaeng again in the queer bar, he tells Pisaeng to confide in him if there's ever a need.

NOT is supportive of Kawi and Pear getting together as considers Kawi a friend, as much as he likes to humiliate Kawi (and was surprised that Kawi likes girls). He undergoes some character development after being roasted by Pear at the Camp, and by Kwan in general. He seeks Pear's approval of his book and in the long term a romantic relationship with her after she rejects Kawi. Pear hasn't read his book, but Kwan has. He wishes Kawi good luck at the student rep interview after being encouraged by Kwan. Not is in a friends with benefits relationship with Kwan, but keeps this secret as he wants Pear.

THAWI has a closer relationship to Kawi because of Kawi's regular check ins, and is persuaded to go to the doctor more often.

KWAN disapproves of Not hazing Kawi and recording Kawi's confession to Pear, but is persuaded not to tell Pear. Later, she asks Not to sign her copy of his book because she thinks everyone needs a bit of encouragement. She and Not have been friends with benefits for an unspecified amount of time. She wants to date him seriously, but they are not exclusive.

PAST

AFTER PISAENG'S CONFESSION

KAWI wants to become student representative but is recruited by a senior, Fluke, to be the lead singer in his band. He focuses on Pisaeng while singing with the band and the montage implies that he's thinking about the time they've spent together. Kawi confides in Pisaeng about his father's health issues and his mother's estrangement. Kawi borrows Pisaeng's nice shirt for a dinner with Pear's father to ask for help, and marvels at Pisaeng's appartment. At the dinner he finds out Pisaeng already took the initiative, and leaves the dinner in a huff to argue with Pisaeng.

KAWI is defensive when Max asks him about what exactly he feels for Pisaeng in the queer bar while he and Max discus Kawi's argument with Pisaeng. On the bus ride home, Kawi thinks about a dinner where his father's friends talked of their children's high earning jobs, which Kawi's humanities degree is unlikely to net him, and how he accused his father of seeing him as a burden. Kawi calls his father to apologise about projecting his insecurities onto his father, and immediately after goes to Pisaeng to apologise about the same thing. He tries to tell Pisaeng about something important but passes out drunk into Pisaeng's arms. In Pisaeng's house he impulsively kisses Pisaeng when Pisaeng responds to his self deprecation with "I like you. You're cute." However, he falls asleep almost immediately afterward. At Pisaeng's request he puts this out of his mind to focus on his father's healthcare, apologising to Pear also.

KAWI talks to his father before the surgery and refutes his father's claim of being a failure of a father, telling the father that he's proud to be his son. He asks Pisaeng to stay with him during his father's emergency surgery as Pear isn't there and Max has to be at work. Upon hearing that the surgery was successful, he goes to sing with Fluke's band, and feels content enough with the state of his life to go back to the future.

PISAENG accompanies Kawi to the recording session with the band, and the montage (only visible to the IRL audience) implies that he's thinking about the time they've spent together. When Kawi borrows a shirt for a dinner with Pear's father he ""jokes"" about how he'd let Kawi move in if they started dating, truthfully saying that he'll wait since Kawi still likes Pear. He is unhappy that Max is fooled by his mother's progressive public image because he knows full well how she treats her queer son, but doesn't tell Max this.

PISAENG is confused at why Kawi suddenly feels the need to express gratitude and apologise to him, but gruffly accepts and tells Kawi not to worry about trying to pay him back. He softens when Kawi passes out, and takes Kawi to his house. He straightforwardly replies that he likes Kawi and he finds him cute when Kawi asks why Pisaeng goes out of his way as Pisaeng is helping Kawi wear some pajamas, and is shocked when Kawi impulsively kisses him. He is ready to do more than kiss upon acertaining that it wasn't some kind of accident, but stops upon realising that Kawi has fallen asleep. His mother comes home unexpectedly, and he hugs her begrudgingly.

PISAENG is confronted by his mother over going to a queer bar, but responds that he won't be manipulated into staying in the closet for her convenience like he was as a teenager, even if they do live in a queerphobic society. He hears Kawi sleep mumbling about the music box being a time machine and is shocked, but decides not to follow up on this or the kiss the next morning as he thinks Kawi has enough on his plate. At breakfast he replies with conversation enders to his mother's questions + those she directs at Kawi.

PISAENG stays with Kawi while Kawi's father is in emergency surgery, sending a text to Pear informing her of this. He smiles sadly when Kawi immediately lights up and kind of forgets about him when Pear arrives after the surgery is over.

PEAR is upset and confused when Kawi suddenly leaves dinner but helps convince Pongsathorn to take Kawi's father on as a patient anyway. Immediately after the failed dinner she goes to drink at a bar frequented by her friends, hoping to run into one of them. She runs into Not but thinks friend is a strong word for her relationship to him. She declines to go "somewhere nice" with Not and denies being in a relationship with Kawi. Still, she finds Not's theorising about Kawi's sexuality distasteful, and tells Not this. She doesn't immediately go to the hospital when she hears about Kawi's emergency surgery, reasoning that she wouldn't be of any help. When she does go, she assures Kawi that he won't have to worry anymore.

MAX hangs out with Pisaeng while Kawi has dinner with Pear's father. He expresses admiration of Threedao and her public stances on queer rights and such. He figures out that Pisaeng is the one crushing on Kawi after seeing them argue about Kawi's father. He takes Kawi to the queer bar to hash it out, and expresses concern over how heavily Kawi drinks nowadays, his treatment of Pisaeng, and Kawi's constant refusal of help. He asks Kawi how exactly he feels about Pisaeng.

NOT meets Pear at a bar and implies that he and Pear should date since Pisaeng doesn't like her back and Kawi is probably gay in his estimation. He is somewhat shaken when Pear asks if he thinks Kawi isn't straight because he isn't prickish like him.

THAWI is happy to hear that Kawi has started singing again and has made some new friends. He is confused as to why Kawi wants him to bring forward his surgery and doesn't want to burden Kawi with the bill, but begrudgingly obliges after Kawi insists. He undergoes heart surgery but unfortunately dies from surgery complications, unbeknownst to Kawi. Before the surgery he apologises to Kawi for failing him, and says he'd do more to make Kawi proud if he could go back in time. When Kawi says that he *is* proud, he makes Kawi promise to be happy and not become a shell of himself even if the surgery doesn't go well.

KWAN and NOT have been friends with benefits for an unspecified amount of time. She wants to date him seriously, but they are not exclusive.

THREEDAO tells Pisaeng her staff saw him at a queer bar and mentions how he should talk to (i.e. clear it with) her before he does anything not straight. She scoffs at the idea of being homophobic when she has many queer staff and even accepts (sort of) her queer son. She questions Kawi when she sees him at breakfast and even though her probing questions are shot down by Pisaeng she figures out Pisaeng is in love with Kawi because Pisaeng has no other friends, and certainly not ones he would lend his clothes or bed to.

INTERIM

KAWI notes that Pisaeng is very patient when Pisaeng is still in love with him after the better part of a decade. He becomes a successful solo artist after Fluke's band broke up following moderate success. He never married Pear despite her wanting a marriage and kids badly, which strains their relationship. What causes them to break up finally is Kawi's pursuit of a music career + the emotional affair he has with Pisaeng for the entirety of his relationship with Pear. Oftentimes Kawi kisses Pisaeng while drunk, and Kawi is drunk often.

KAWI is questioned by interviewers over whether his relationship to Pisaeng was a catalyst for his and Pear's breakup, and whether his relationship to Pisaeng is romantic. He denies this, and even though he tells Pisaeng himself that it isn't Pisaeng's fault, he tells Pisaeng to keep more distance from him in public so that he won't have to answer such questions. He receives an invitation to Pear's wedding to Not and rips it.

PISAENG observes the anniversary of his confession to Kawi for at least 8 years, and his feelings toward Kawi don't waver in that time, even up to the time that time travelling Kawi encounters him. On one of these anniversaries he gives Kawi a guitar pick. He cuts off contact with everyone including his mother and Kawi shortly after Kawi and Pear break up. He feels he is at fault for the breakup and also feels a little strung along. He is stung by the accusation (from Kawi) that he might have been spilling information about Kawi, but also that Kawi is so rankled by the idea of him and Pisaeng being seen as more than friends even if it is just by nosy bloggers. He still keeps tabs on Kawi though.

PEAR breaks up with Kawi after years of a strained relationship and feeling strung along. She is also on bad terms with Pisaeng because of his relationship with Kawi. She gets pregnant by Not and decides to marry him because she wants a family of her own.

FUTURE

KAWI is giddy to be up on stage as a singer and thinks he's living the perfect life, but future-3 starts to lose its shine as he begins to remember interim-3 Kawi's memories. Upon remembering that it is Pear's wedding day Kawi drives there while still tipsy. He tells Pear he's happy if she's happy and makes to leave, but runs into Kwan. After finding out how Not treated both her and Pear, Kawi punches Not and gets kicked out of the hall. He asks Pear why she would settle for Not but isn't really satisfied with her answer.

KAWI asks Max for Pisaeng's contact information and goes to find him. He is relieved to find out that Pisaeng isn't angry with him, and is comforted by Pisaeng when he starts crying about how much of a mess future-3 is. Kawi asks Pisaeng if he's really sick in the head as Max thinks. Satisfied with Pisaeng's answer, Kawi wants to get in the water but only up to his knees, and Pisaeng insists they splash around properly. After they dry off, Kawi asks how long Pisaeng will stay out on the middle of nowhere, and drinks though a week or two supply of Pisaeng's beer while playing guitar under the stars. He thanks Pisaeng for everything, and Pisaeng thanks him back, but for what—Pisaeng won't say.

KAWI asks Pisaeng to sing him a song with the guitar, and impulsively kisses Pisaeng. He is confused when Pisaeng pulls back and asks when Kawi will stop doing this. He is devastated when Pisaeng tells him not to follow and indeed disappears. Kawi goes back to working as a singer and receives a postcard from Pisaeng about how they'll never see each other again, and he resolves to go back to the past.

PISAENG lives in a camper van next to a beach. He tells Kawi that if he really wanted he wouldn't have been so easy to find, and pats Kawi's shoulder when Kawi cries, but does not hug him. Pisaeng hesitates and says he doesn't know when asked if Kawi is sick, but then says that everyone is sick nowadays, whether a little or a lot. He and Kawi splash around and he admits to being a fan of Kawi and buying his magazine covers as Kawi dries off. He thanks Kawi for helping him with something very important, likely with being comfortable identifying as a queer man, but won't say what exactly.

PISAENG sings a love song for Kawi but pulls away when Kawi impulsively kisses him, and tells Kawi not to follow him, lest he disappear from Kawi's life entirely. He thinks about the period just after Kawi and Pear's breakup while he sobs alone on the beach. He is gone by the next morning, leaving Kawi, his camper van, and everything else behind. Some time after, he sends Kawi a postcard saying that he's fine, sorry for disappearing, and that he still cares about Kawi and Kawi's work, but he won't be in contact with Kawi ever again.

PEAR is marrying Not. When Kawi is dragged out of the hall for punching Not she goes to talk to him alone. When asked by Kawi why she would settle for Not, she says that at some point everyone is forced to settle under the weight of their past mistakes.

MAX is Kawi's manager/personal assistant and only friend. He has grown tired of wrangling interim-3 Kawi and thinks time travelling Kawi's appearance might be him turning over a new leaf, but Kawi immediately falls into interim-3 Kawi's patterns. Max tells Kawi frankly as Kawi goes to drive tipsy to Pear's wedding that Not may be an ass but Pear is happier than she was with Kawi. Later, Max clears Kawi's work schedule so that he has time to go to therapy. He is reluctant to give Kawi Pisaeng's contact info because of how much Kawi has made Pisaeng suffer, but doesn't feel the need to elaborate on what he means by this. Max is not present when Kawi returns from seeing Pisaeng.

NOT is marrying Pear. He has promised Pear to stop seeing Kwan, but whether he actually does so is unknown. He gets punched by Kawi at his wedding.

KWAN sits outside Pear's wedding party and regrets attending. She tells Kawi that Not was with her and Pear at the same time — although her relationship to Not couldn't be described as dating if Not kept her a secret — even if she loved him.

THREEDAO is not in contact with Pisaeng. Whether she has a political career is unknown.

Timeline 4

PAST

BEFORE PISAENG ACTIVATES THE TIME MACHINE

KAWI hugs Pisaeng while sobbing immediately upon returning to the past, overcome with relief that he has a chance to fix their relationship. He attends his father's funeral and gives Pisaeng his journal detailing all the time travel while he packs up his father's life. Kawi tells Pisaeng about being from the future and changing the timeline, asking Pisaeng to understand that if the relationship between him and Kawi is bad then everything spirals. This is (one) reason why Kawi has resolved not to hurt Pisaeng anymore. He asks Pisaeng to trust him and do what he asks so that he can set everything right. He struggles to tell Pisaeng that he's trying to date him while they discuss the journal on the roof.

KAWI attends a pride rally with Max since Pear is busy, and asks Max if it's worth fighting. Max's response and speech prompts Kawi to ask Pisaeng to come to the rally. Kawi's shitty phone dies while he implores Pisaeng to not go abroad with Threedao, but before Kawi has a chance to say he likes Pisaeng back (although he would rather have confessed in person anyway). He is relieved that Pisaeng was only seeing his mother off, but still struggles to spit out what he's feeling until Pisaeng motions to leave again. Kawi says that losing Pisaeng was the greatest mistake of his life, and that he can't let it happen again so can Pisaeng go out with him and set everything right?

KAWI goes with on a date with Pisaeng to a sushi restaurant, and tells Pisaeng that he's quitting alcohol. He is confused when Pisaeng doesn't think that finishing eating is cue for the end of the date. After singing with Fluke's band he calls a taxi to take him and Pisaeng home. He finds a thoroughly drunk Pisaeng endearing and allows Pisaeng to lean on him, but denies Pisaeng's request for a kiss because they're waiting for the taxi in public. The next morning he is surprised that he's whipped enough to do stuff like stare at Pisaeng's sleeping face, but it's indignant at the idea of doing ~something~ to Pisaeng while Pisaeng was drunk, and squirms when Pisaeng cuddles him. Kawi refuses Pisaeng's offers to buy him stuff, because he wants their relationship to be on more equal footing.

KAWI finds out everyone at school knows about him and Pisaeng, and feels guilty for starting to date Pisaeng without breaking off his talking stage with Pear. He goes to talk to her in person only to find that she's at Pisaeng's, and Pisaeng has already told her. He does not hold this against Pisaeng. He expresses concern that chasing his own happiness by being with Pisaeng might be harming other people, like in future-3. He explains to Pisaeng that he is still strongly averse to the idea of breaking up with Pisaeng regardless of the issues he'll have to face, and tears up when Pisaeng responds by saying that he believes there's nothing more right than the two of them being together.

KAWI's guilt around Pear is assuaged by Pear but he feels a little guilty for not telling Max. Kawi asks Max if it's possible to have a romantic relationship without having sex and is uneasy when Max scoffs and says that sex deepens a relationship and even helps you know yourself better. Kawi is worried when Pisaeng comes round asking spend the night, but suspicious when Pisaeng is jovial despite just having fought with his mother, as Kawi doesn't want to get between Pisaeng and Threedao. Kawi is flustered when Pisaeng responds to his concern with flirting. Kawi calls Threedao to tell her that he's going to do right by Pisaeng and is surprised that she agrees. He is a bit irritated at Pisaeng's deception but reasons that he must have still been feeling vulnerable.

PISAENG assumes Kawi is hugging him and sobbing because of Kawi's father's death. He attends Kawi's father's funeral, and is confused by the stuff in Kawi's journal. He doesn't believe that time travel is real but just decides to go with it since a bunch of weird stuff *has* happened in his life recently + Kawi knows information only Pisaeng knows. He is uneasy about the idea of everything revolving around his and Kawi's relationship, and reasons that Kawi would be better off without him getting in the middle of Kawi's relationship to Pear. He sees his mother off to the airport and has a confusing phone call with Kawi, deciding to just ask Kawi in person, and unknowingly refusing help from the MMU on the way to do so. Pisaeng is shocked when Kawi says he likes Pisaeng back, but says no to Kawi asking him out because he hasn't toasted Kawi yet. Kawi is not amused.

PISAENG goes on a date with Kawi to a sushi restaurant and is a smidge glad that Pear wasn't able to have dinner with Kawi. He talks to Kawi about Pear's mother, but reasons that Pear may have forgiven her mother now. He is upset when Kawi decides to play with Fluke's band on short notice rather than staying with him, but steps in to drink the alcohol offered to Kawi and other band members anyway. He steals a cheek kiss while he and Kawi wait for a taxi, saying that he's done enough hitting on Kawi and they should just date properly. The next morning he teases Kawi about staring and tries to kiss Kawi, but settles for cuddling.

PISAENG wears Kawi's uniform shirt to school and is touched by Kawi's insistence that they should be less give and take and more communicate. Afterwards he talks with Pear about her mother, and also tells her that he and Kawi are together after she presses him. Pisaeng is sigh-y after realising that when Kawi wanted to "set everything right, it didn't just mean dating him. Pisaeng asks if Kawi wants to keep dating him since there have already been so many problems in the 1st 30ish hours of their relationship. When Kawi is strongly against a breakup, Pisaeng tells Kawi that he'd like to have hope for the future not just of his relationship to Kawi, but for everyone else they know.

PISAENG clears things up with Pear. Later, he talks to his mother again, once again refusing the idea of moving abroad explicitly because he wants to stay with Kawi. He starts to tear up when his mother is dismissive, asking her why she just doesn't accept him. He tells her that the only thing she's protecting him from is happiness. Pisaeng is surprised when his mother is like "actually you're right" but he hugs her back. Pisaeng goes to Kawi's house and fills him in on the fight, but leaves out that it was mostly resolved. He is surprised that Kawi is so flustered by Pisaeng kissing his palm, but finds it endearing. Pisaeng is sheepish but unapologetic abut lying by omission, and confused when Kawi continues to rebuff any flirting.

PEAR wins the student rep position but seems unsatisfied. She invites Kawi to dinner, where she hopes that she and Kawi will begin dating. PONGSATHORN reminds her that her mother's art exhibition is at the time of her scheduled dinner, and she promised to go. At the exhibition, Pear is disgusted with her mother for thanking her the sacrifice Pear and Pear's father had to make so that Pear's mother could be an artist, since she wasn't given a choice in the matter. PONGSATHORN wonders if his resentment for Pear's mother for abandoning the family for her career had rubbed off too much on Pear, but Pear thinks she has enough of her own reasons to feel somehow about her mother.

PEAR doesn't go to school the day after her mother's exhibition. She asks Pisaeng if she was wrong to admonish her mother and Pisaeng days she had the right, but should probably have avoided the exhibition since she feels that way. When Pisaeng tells her she can be honest about her feelings she reveals that really she wanted to ask if the Not-propagated rumour about him and Kawi is true, and leaves upset when she finds out that it is. After cooling off for a short while she asks Not to meet her, and tells him to stop outing about Pisaeng and Kawi, and also to stop trying to ask her out.

PEAR tells Pongsathorn she's exhausted from having to be the bigger person all the time. He tells her that building onto anger only makes you feel better in the short term. He also tells her that building onto a fixed vision of a perfect future might also be a hindrance to her happiness. Pear tells Pisaeng and Kawi that they didn't do anything wrong or intentionally try to hurt her, and she's happy for them.

MAX speaks at a pride rally, and is surprised that Kawi attends since he assumed Kawi would be asking Pear out at that time. When Kawi asks if is worth fighting for change when fighting is so hard, Max replies that nothing comes easy, and fighting is better than giving up. He thanks Kawi for making hims realise he wanted to stay in Thailand and keep fighting. Max tells Kawi that it was obvious something between Kawi and Pisaeng but makes sure to guilt trip Kawi first. Max tells Kawi sincerely that he is happy Kawi opened himself up to experience love. He gives Kawi advice about being apprehensive about the idea of having sex with Pisaeng, essentially telling Kawi to just go for it.

NOT sees Pisaeng at the bar where Fluke's band is playing, and cocks an eyebrow upon learning that Pisaeng is here to support Kawi. When he is out for a smoke he sees Pisaeng kiss Kawi's cheek and immediately calls Pear to tell her that he was right about Kawi not being straight. At school he outs Kawi and Pisaeng to everyone, and is backed up by one of his & co mentioning Pisaeng being spotted in a gay bar. Not goes to meet Pear after she texts him, and is dismissive of Kwan not wanting him to date her friend even if Kwan x Not is meant to be no strings attached. Not is angry when Pear simply tells him to stop gossiping about her friends and shoots down the idea of dating him, and furious to find out she thinks of him as Kwan's sloppy seconds. He pushes Kwan over while confronting her and this is frowned upon by even his & co.

KWAN admonishes Not for outing Pisaeng and Kawi and even taking about them to Pear, especially since Not doesn't have proof. She asks Not if he could grow to like her romantically or at the very least not dump her for Pear, and cries when he says no to both. When Not confronts her over telling Pear about the friends with benefits situation she tells him that he's the only one that finds it cool to act like a prick all the time.

THREEDAO floats the idea of Pisaeng moving abroad after graduation where he will have the same civil rights as "normal" people since he has no more interest in being closeted. When he refuses she guesses that he doesn't want to leave Kawi, and tells Pisaeng not to throw his future away when there's plenty of fish in the sea. When Threedao and Pisaeng talk again she is still dismissive, but adamant that she does accept her son—she's just trying to protect him. When Pisaeng tearfully brushes this off as trying to get rid of him she concedes that she may have been too controlling, and she's going to support him in his happiness now. Threedao is surprised to get a call from Kawi on this subject, and tells Kawi he's gullible.

PAST

AFTER PISAENG ACTIVATES THE TIME MACHINE (AND NOTHING HAPPENS)

KAWI is nervous + apprehensive about the idea of having sex with Pisaeng and often shies away from Pisaeng's physical affection in general. When Pisaeng gets on top of him after sleeping over he is so flustered he pushes Pisaeng off and goes to buy breakfast, and insists they spend the day sunsets less intimate than his room. At the amusement park Kawi is only interested in eating and declines going on a roller coaster, being huffy during the dinosaur ride Pisaeng picks as an alternative and also declining to ride in Pisaeng's car with the roof down. However, after they leave the amusement and go to a fancy restaurant for dinner he assures Pisaeng that he did actually enjoy the date and Pisaeng's constant flirting.

KAWI and Pisaeng have sex for the first time. The next morning in bed, he holds Pisaeng's hand and smiles. Kawi moves in with Pisaeng after graduation. While packing he reflects on how at the time he totally misinterpreted his conversation with the MMU about how the time machine only gave him the opportunity to fix self inflicted problems, in terms of what he needed to fix. He is still confused about why Pisaeng likes him but this gift horse has great teeth.

PISAENG insists that he and Kawi use polite particles with each other because it's cute. He is confused that Kawi continually rebuffs his affection and is even flustered at the idea of seeing him naked. He is disappointed when Kawi suggests going to an amusement park instead of staying in after he attempts to kiss Kawi in bed, especially so when Kawi just wants to eat. He convinces Kawi to go on a much tamer ride than the roller coaster and sneaks a photo of Kawi, joking about making others jealous. When Kawi deletes the photo Pisaeng just takes more. At the restaurant Pisaeng asks Kawi how he can do better in the future, to which Kawi responds that he's already doing great.

PISAENG and Kawi have sex for the first time. When they wake up in bed the next morning he tentatively strokes Kawi's hand and smiles when Kawi holds his hand properly. Pisaeng moves in with Kawi after graduation and assures Kawi that his mother is cool with them living together, and also that even if the world is full of cute people, Kawi is the only one he wants.

PEAR goes to her mother's exhibition on its last day, and gives her mother a mother's day card she made for school as a child. Pear is still angry about her mother not being around, but has decided to start moving on + being happy for the mother. Pear's mother cries and thanks Pear. Pear reads from Khop Fa Khlip Thong, the collected poems by Uchanee as part of the exhibition, which is intercut with Pisaeng and Kawi's first time. Pear's mother looks extremely proud as the audience applauds Pear's reading.

NOT graduates, and is inexplicably not on hostile terms with the other named characters at graduation. He becomes a successful author.

MAX beams while looking at the large number of stickers (representing people showing support) on a wall at the pride rally for marriage equality, gender recognition, free pads + tampons, and legalising sex work.

KWAN deletes pictures she has with Not and decides to move on from him.

THREEDAO and PONGSATHORN talk about their children Pisaeng and Pear. Pongsathorn jokingly remarks that Threedao is usually too busy to see him. Threedao expresses admiration for Phongsathorn's unconditional support of his daughter and regret about hurting her son under the guise of protecting him. Pongsathorn says that everyone's doing their best, and that parents have to trust + grow alongside their children.

INTERIM

KAWI shares a blissful decade with Pisaeng, but cannot legally get married. Kawi still has the time machine with him, but is never tempted to use it. He works on soundtracks and still occasionally plays with Fluke's band, but declined any offers from record companies, wary of fame + the kind of job that cuts into his Pisaeng time after timeline 3. His life is simple and he is generally content. He dismisses the idea that openly being in a relationship with Pisaeng is holding him back from anything.

KAWI contracts the flu while taking care of a sick Pisaeng, and develops pneumonia so serious he has to be intubated.

PISAENG shares a blissful decade with Kawi, but cannot legally get married. He moves Kawi into the house (in Thailand) his mother gave him as a graduation gift. His job is unspecified, but he seems to be the breadwinner. He is very concerned when Kawi turns down an offer from a record label in favour of continuing a mundane job as a songwriter. He offers to keep his relationship with Kawi secret if that is what is holding Kawi back.

During a serious case of the flu he jokes about Kawi finding someone better if he dies, but then says seriously that he wants to grow old with Kawi. When Kawi is hospitalised the is not allowed to see Kawi or make medical decisions for him as they are not married and Kawi has no other family. When Kawi's condition worsens and he is intubated, Pisaeng activates the time machine in desperation.

PEAR is getting married to an unseen but presumably nice man names James and is good friends with Pisaeng, Kawi, Kwan, and Max. She comforts Pisaeng when Kawi is in the hospital and Pisaeng is blaming himself.

MAX seems to be doing alright. He remains good friends with Pear, Pisaeng, Kawi, and Kwan. He urges Pisaeng to remember to take care of himself when Kawi is in the hospital.

KWAN seems to be doing alright. She remains good friends with Pear, Pisaeng, Kawi, and Max.

THREEDAO is apparently accepting of Pisaeng and Kawi's relationship.

FUTURE

N/A

Timeline 5 (current)

PAST

AFTER PISAENG ACTIVATES THE TIME MACHINE AND IT WORKS

KAWI notices that Pisaeng is off after seeing Pisaeng pick up the time machine. Pisaeng being spacey, knowing that Kawi wanted to go to an amusement park + deja vu make him suspicious but it's confirmed when Pisaeng calling Kawi Khun (a more polite and formal term of address) and just tells him. Kawi is surprised but composed. He's unperturbed to find out that Pisaeng didn't believe him about the time travel. He approaches the amusement park date differently to timeline 4, going on several rides and even the largest rollercoaster, becoming nauseous afterwards.

KAWI, while resting, rejects the idea of wanting this day to last forever or breaking up to avoid getting pneumonia in the future, essentially telling Pisaeng that he'd rather die in the future having spent a decade with Pisaeng than live any number of years without him. When they drive home he tells Pisaeng not to close the car's sunroof, wanting to feel the breeze.

PISAENG is completely disoriented when the time machine actually works, especially because Kawi looked exactly the same a few days into their relationship as he did after most of a decade. He cracks and tells Kawi he's from the future as soon as they get to the adjustment park. Pisaeng despairs at not being about to figure out how to stop Kawi from getting sick in the future, and apologises for not taking enough care of Kawi. When Kawi tells him that it might just be out of their control, he commits to enjoying a date with this version of Kawi before he goes back to the future come what may.

PISAENG is anxious when Kawi is mildly ill after riding the roller coaster and tentatively suggests that they break up to avoid a future when Kawi gets deathly ill, feeling selfish when (prompted by Kawi) he reflects on the time he and interim-4 Kawi spent together and wouldn't change a thing, apart from Kawi being half dead in the hospital. He absentmindedly opens the car's sunroof on the drive home, motioning to close it after remembering that Kawi didn't like it in timeline 4, being surprised when Kawi instead tells him to leave it.

INTERIM

KAWI and PISAENG cherish each day together, knowing that they might have a hard limit on the time they have.

FUTURE

KAWI recovers from pneumonia knowledgeable about Pisaeng's sojourn in the past. He and Pisaeng attend Pear's wedding and he is happy for her and her husband but secretly thinks it's a little over the top. He reminisces about how he tried so hard to be the one staffing next to post on her wedding day but rejects the idea of changing anything about his life even if he could. He denies wanting a wedding/commitment ceremony between him and Pisaeng but spitballs with Pisaeng the kind of things such an event would entail anyway.

PISAENG tells Kawi not to worry about looking sickly at PEAR'S wedding because the important thing is that he's made it through and is happy when Kawi is like "we made it through" but mentioned that he's have fallen to despair without past-5 Kawi's advice + bravery after being told his probable date of death. He is surprised when Kawi mentions activating the time machine again just to see and being unconcerned when it didn't work. Pear, he mentioned getting married and smiles when Kawi is like "ew no" but starts planning it anyway.

PEAR, MAX and KWAN welcome Kawi home from the hospital. PEAR gets married to James and the wedding is beautiful and very large.

NOT is at PEAR'S wedding for some reason, and also hasn't written another book in a decade.

THEEDAO is presumably on good terms with Kawi and Pisaeng. Whether she achieved her goals of a political career is unknown.

EPILOGUE

KAWI AND PISAENG sit on the beach. PISAENG gifts Kawi a guitar pick, the same one interim-3 Pisaeng gave Kawi before disappearing and prompting Kawi to travel back to the past and fix their relationship, so seeing it is both a reminder of that horrible future and a reminder that it will never come to pass. Kawi and Pisaeng kiss, and Kawi asks Pisaeng if he'd travel back in time if the time machine still worked. Pisaeng would, but only to hit on Kawi all over again. And again and again.

#be my favourite #be my favorite #be my favourite the series #be my favorite the series #bmf #finally finished only like 4 months late #timeline

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