#Sel writes

[icydeluxe]

DOUBLE TAKE — in which the promise ring just.. wasn’t enough.

or

david shaw has been dating his mate for as long as he can remember. and he also knew he was going to marry his mate very early into the relationship. so, watch david’s mental as he tries to figure out what exactly to say when he proposes (or really just gush about angel & their relationship) in 700 words.. or more. not many warnings, gabe mentions in two paragraphs. very very based on ‘over the moon’ by the marias (so do listen while reading, if that’s your thing.)

part one of three.

there was so much he could say, so much he could thank them for. but how the hell would he say it in one speech? whether it be the fact that he felt comfortable enough to cry in front of angel, when he wouldn’t even cry in front of asher, he played minecraft for them, (and then end up liking it.) and did so many other things, and it was really just out of love. sometimes if he thought about it too much, and just thought about them long enough, he would smile to himself and do a little “thank you, angel.” in his head.

david wholeheartedly believes that gabe would have loved angel. through all the stupid arguments they had in the beginning, and the tooth-aching sweetness they shared later on. as much as angel makes david laugh, (even though they don’t know, he likes to scoff off their jokes because their ego is big enough.) he thinks that they would’ve made gabe laugh the same. david usually weighs his reasons to why he wants to marry angel, and of course there’s so many things that angel does that make him realize more and more why he wants to get married, but his dad is a big reason. because he knows that if he were still here, he’d be all “well when are you gonna propose?”.

when gabe was still alive, david looked to him for any and everything. now that he’s gone, he’s found the new person to look to, angel. david didn��t have a sense of family until angel. sure, he had the pack, but he wasn’t whole until angel. he still couldn’t put into words (no matter how much he wanted to) just how much angel meant to him. he didn’t know how to form it in the beginning, more because he was in denial that he felt something so strong for someone he just met. but now he’d accepted it, (with open arms, he’s in love, your honor.) he’s been through every emotion he could fathom with angel, and now he wants to finally tie the knot, for angel, and for gabe.

he could talk about angel for hours and hours. (yours, mine — no, no. he hears enough of that when they scroll through tik tok all day.) he could talk about how often he sees angel cry because they saw a baby on their for you page, or because they were watching another corny romance movie and they cried at the end of it, regardless of how many times they’ve seen it. he could go on for days about his resentment for joe keery just because angel thinks he’s “so hot”. (just kill him now.) angel already has a promise ring. he basically ”backed himself into a corner”, as he would put it. (a heavenly corner. he’s so happy.) there was just so much he could say — but he hasn’t even thought about what he’s gonna do.

tags tags tags. @kathsuhki @morgansplace

#redacted asmr #sel writes #redacted david #david x angel #redacted angel #redacted fic #redacted shifters #redactedverse

[cyberfreaky]

masterlist ೃ⁀➷

SFW WORKS

BOUNDARIES

widowed!jake sully x fem!metkayina.

— angst, mentions of grief/loss, mentions of blood

: ̗̀➛ you & jake have an argument over his treatment of lo’ak.

PART 1. PART 2.

INSECURITIES

dilf!jake x fem!avatar

— mentions of body insecurities

: ̗̀➛ you’ve been feeling insecure about your body & jake reminds you how beautiful you are.

NSFW WORKS

KISS IT BETTER (ONGOING)

dilf!jake x fem!avatar x tonowari.

— sub!tonowari, dom!jake, praise kink, degradation, bunch of smut, slight angst, honestly just a bunch of filth

: ̗̀➛ you were tired of jake being mean to you — so you decided to fuck around with his nicer best friend.

PART 1. PART 2. PART 3.

CRUSH

PART TWO

dilf!jake x fem!metkayina

— clit stimulation, v slight agoraphilia (sex in public)

: ̗̀➛ jake knows you have a crush on him & likes to test you.

CAUGHT

dilf!jake x fem!avatar

— masturbation, p n v penetration (kinda), jake watching reader, slight overstimulation

: ̗̀➛ jake finds you touching yourself while thinking of him.

CALL OUT MY NAME

sub!jake x fem!avatar

— nsfw content (18+ mndi), bondage, edging, p n v penetration, overstimulation, degradation, hair pulling, pet names, usage of 'um'ma* (basically means mommy)

: ̗̀➛ during an annual festival within the clan, you notice jake flirting with another woman. once the celebration had ended & the two of you had retreated to your hut - you made sure to remind your mate who he belonged to.

PRETTY, LITTLE THING

dilf!jake x tonowari x fem!avatar

— p n v penetration, masturbation, pet names

: ̗̀➛ jake loves to jerk off while watching tonowari fuck you.

REFLECTION

dilf!jake x fem!avatar

— fingering, slight overstimulation, use of pet names

: ̗̀➛ jake loves touching you in front of a mirror.

LITTLE ONE (DRABBLE)

tonowari x fem!avatar

— fingering, clit stimulation, pet names, p n v penetration, size kink

: ̗̀➛ drabble about how big tonowari is compared to you.

JAKE’S THIGHS (DRABBLE)

dilf!jake x fem!avatar

— thigh riding, clit stimulation, pet names, daddy link (sorta)

: ̗̀➛ drabble about riding jake’s thigh.

DAD’S BESTFRIEND (DRABBLE)

dilf!jake x fem!avatar

— p n v penetration, daddy kink, slight degradation

: ̗̀➛ drabble about fucking jake, aka your dads best friend.

UM’MA (DRABBLE)

dom!neytiri x sub!jake x sub!reader

— edging, oral (f receiving), handjob, neytiri being called um’ma

: ̗̀➛ drabble about neytiri edging jake & reader.

UNAPOLOGETIC (DRABBLE)

dilf!jake x fem!avatar

— p n v, slight breeding kink, use of daddy & pet names

: ̗̀➛ drabble about jake being loud in bed.

SUBBY JAKE <3 (HEADCANON)

sub!jake x fem!avatar

— pet names, p n v, slight mommy kink, oral (f & m)

: ̗̀➛ headcanons about sub!jake.

WANNA TOUCH? (DRABBLE)

sub!jake x fem!avatar

— bondage, subby jake, slight mommy kink, jake watching reader touch herself

: ̗̀➛ desperate bby boy is tied up & watches you touch yourself.

BRAT (DRABBLE)

dilf!jake x fem!avatar

— p n v, degradation, daddy kink, brat taming, hair pulling, pet names

: ̗̀➛ after you decided to flaunt yourself in front of other men, jake punishes you.

SIT DOWN (DRABBLE)

tonowari x fem!avatar

— alludes to fingering/sex, slight power imbalance, pet names. pretty tame tbh

: ̗̀➛ tonowari invites you to sit on his lap.

WAKE UP, BABY (DRABBLE)

dilf!jake x fem!avatar

— somnophilia, alludes to p n v, daddy kink, pet names, jake fucking himself between ur thighs

: ̗̀➛ jake fucks himself between your thighs till you wake up.

DILF!JAKE THOUGHTS

dilf!jake x fem!reader

— mentions of p n v, fingering, clit stimulation, oral (m receiving), exhibitionism, rough sex, degradation, pet names, cream pie (lmao), cockwarming, mean dilf!jake, bunch of nasty shit

: ̗̀➛ thoughts about my favourite dilf <3

SHY GIRL (DRABBLE)

dilf!jake x fem!reader

— p n v, lil bit of dirty talk

: ̗̀➛ shy reader getting fucked by jake.

POLAROIDS OF YOU

dilf!jake x fem!reader

— p n v, polaroids during sex, oral (f & m), finger fucking, hickeys, masturbation

: ̗̀➛ headcanons about dilf!jake taking dirty polaroids of reader.

SPANK ME (DRABBLE)

dilf!jake x fem!reader

— spanking, mean!jake, fingering, dirty talk

: ̗̀➛ drabble about jake spanking reader after she was being bratty all day long.

DILF JAKE WHO CAN’T GET ENOUGH OF YOU (DRABBLE)

dilf!jake x fem!reader

— p n v, whimpering mess jake

: ̗̀➛ basically what the warnings say lol

GOIN’ DUMB ON ME? (DRABBLE)

dilf!jake x fem!reader

— p n v, daddy kink, infidelity, pet names

: ̗̀➛ jake fucking you after you confide in him about your relationship problems.

CELLOPHANE MASTERLIST (DISCONTINUED)

dilf!jake x fem!reader

PART I | PART II | PART III | PART IV (NEW CHAPTERS TBD)

— fem!reader, age gap (32 & 22), mentions of daddy issues, power imbalance, no comfort angst, mild violence, alcohol usage, arguing, infidelity, eventual smut. reader is madly in love w/ jake n kinda delulu, jus like me fr

: ̗̀➛ in which your infatuation with your olo’eyktan begins to cause problems.

NSFW DILF!JAKE THOUGHTS P2

dilf!jake x fem!reader

— p n v, cream pie, pet names, sucking cum off fingers (idk how else to phrase this 😭), overstimulation, cockwarming, jake is a boobs guy

: ̗̀➛ nsfw thoughts about dilf!jake.

SUB!JAKE WHO BEGS TO CUM. (DRABBLE)

sub!jake x fem!reader

— p n v, slight mommy kink, pet names

: ̗̀➛ jake begs you to let him cum.

MARKED

dilf!jake x fem!reader

— p n v, marking (jake bites u hard asf basically), daddy kink, pet names

: ̗̀➛ dilf!jake marks you for the first time.

JAKE IS A TITS GUY

dilf!jake x fem!reader

— p n v, creampie, orgasms, tit/nipple sucking, tit jobs, clit stimulation, daddy kink, dirty talk

: ̗̀➛ headcanons about jake being a tits guy lol

DILF!JAKE BLURB

dilf!jake x fem!reader

— oral (f receiving), daddy kink, dirty talk, pet names

: ̗̀➛ smutty drabble of dilf!jake.

MY PRETTY BOY

sub!jake x fem!reader

— handjob, pet names, subtle mommy kink, cum play

: ̗̀➛ you’re cuddling with your best friend, and soon notice the bulge in his loincloth.

#sel’s masterlist ☆ #avatar #avatar x reader #jake sully #tonowari #masterlist #avatar blog #writing wip

[cloudbends]

for college reasons, if anyone has any ideas/recommendations for art or media that have to do with themes of communication, technology, human consciousness/subconsciousness, connectivity and network culture, fracturing of the self and society etc. that is NOT serial experiments lain. please please PLEASE send it my way. Can be of any medium.

#vi rambling #(and by not sel i mean that im writing my 30 page essay on sel and need comparative examples or my prof will kill me) #i dont have leads i just managed to gather a lot of very incomprehensible essays #and i know ill have a subchapter that has to do with the relevance of lain as a phenomenon both in the series and out of it. #like its a self fulfilled prophecy etc what with lain being omnipresent on tje networked sphere and all. anyways #if anyone is has any leads you dont even have to have watched lain i just need anyghing #also fair warning i Will be reblogging this many times i am very desperate

[ciphercalamitiez]

oh god wheatley x reader x bill headcanons … [ aimed for platonic ]

I only did this because I didn’t know who to choose between (I wanted to do platonic bill and platonic Wheatley headcanons but then this idea pinged in mind..)

this MAY be a little OOC (or really OOC i hope It’s not) so uhh SORRY IF IT IS WAAAHHH (also I know you’re gonna see this Roman, hie)

—•—

hohoho oh boy. this duo you’re dealing with is past chaOTIC.

being the middle ground of these two is absolutely hellish. two talkative beings, both make bad decisions. bonus if you are just as chaotic as they are combined.

wheatley frequently argues with bill yet bill is the only one who can come up with comebacks that make sense. if anything, wheatley once screamed out “deez nuts” as an argument when bickering with the triangle guy

you can’t go a night without hearing something crash in the living room

okay arguing aside, when these two are passive with each other you three make a great trio seriously

wheatley likes to tell you about what’s on his mind and asks the dumbest shit known to man (he also asks unanswerable questions. none of them make sense) but you don’t mind yet you try to answer them, or you flat out just stare at him with confusion or idk whatever emotion, he’ll just be looking at you expectantly for your answer

bill answers the questions if you can’t first or answers after you. he makes sure his answers are as snarky as possible which makes Wheatley want to punch him (if Wheatley is human/Android in here, he will.)

cue more arguing here ☠️

anyway, hugging the two is weird but oddly nice. 

if you project Wheatley to be human/android, he’s fairly awkward when it comes to hugging (he tenses up occasionally in the hug, he doesn’t mean to) and depending on his mood, his grip can be soft to rib crushing hard, either type of hugging is nice.. hopefully. he also comments on everything during the hugs unless you ask for him not to. don’t worry, he’ll be fine with shutting up or not!

if you’re hugging the wheatBALL, he can’t really hug back sadly :( but he’ll nuzzle up against you to show that he’s enjoying it!!

hugging bill can either hurt or not. his main way of hugging is probably worse than Wheatley’s rib crushing hugs so you can barely breathe in them. however if he’s feeling nice enough or he’s feeling down/not like himself, he’ll simply just limply wrap his arms around you and rest against you

DO NOT LET THESE TWO IDIOTS COOK. NONE OF THEM CAN COOK FOR SHIT OH MY GOD

you three tried to bake a cake once together (by Wheatley’s request)

The kitchen ended up in flames and shambles and there is rubble falling off the ceiling and flour everywhere

you three commit war crimes together (bill comes up with the most heinous shit to break, wheatley’s actions go unsupervised sometimes and ends up inevitably screwing the plan up, and you have to drag them out of there)

bill and wheatley are both (jokingly) mean to each other (mostly on purpose,) argument or not but are very soft towards you and you only (not really for bill but he’ll be more considerate for you, unless you’re okay with being ((halfheartedly)) jokingly insulted, then he’ll treat you a bit more like wheatley)

when they do get along they are hellish, it’s guaranteed you’ll wake up to cats by TLT playing in the living room and the two are bouncing around together and laughing, it’s actually heartwarming

so many. pillow forts. (too many pillow forts) bill enlarged the pillows and it turned into a literal soft ass kingdom, you guys even had THRONES AND PILLOW GUARDS?? truly reality warping but it’s really pretty inside the fort

bill calls dibs on being the king so he could sit on the throne all the time, that idea gets thrown off easily though when you and Wheatley bounced around. he joined in the bouncing rather than sitting around in the soft throne

you three get into cuddle piles easily and fall asleep together, Wheatley is a heavy sleeper and bill is a light sleeper most of the time. or it could be vice versa :')

despite the fact you three are mean (again mainly Wheatley and bill against each other) to each other sometimes, you all genuinely care for each other and are really close to each other

when it comes to venting out problems, bill is usually the one to show his sympathy through physical affection (such as gentle hand squeezes in understanding) meanwhile Wheatley says the more reassuring and emotion filled things. it’s a great deal fr fr

after Everytime someone vents, everyone gets back into a group hug

in summary, you three are the bomb the slay the sillies and you wouldn’t trade any of these idiots for anyone else 

—•—

i was planning on only sending this in discord but it hit the limit so COUGH

#bill cipher #wheatley #portal 2 #gravity falls #platonic headcanons #it could be taken romantically too however I tried to aim for platonic whoops… #x reader #sel writes ^_^ #bill cipher x reader #wheatley x reader

[twentyfivemiceinatrenchcoat]

last line wip tag !! :3

rules: in a new post, show the last line(s) you wrote (or drew) and tag as many people as there are words (or as many as you feel like).

(@seiwas sel i am . so late to this forgive me 😔😔 BUT i just got started on another fic so i thought i’d jump in !!! tysm for the tag beloved 🍵)

this is just a little line from the best friend’s brother!gojo fic i started on this morning!! i’m trying to make it mildly funny and mildly bittersweet but mostly i just think bfb!toru is. attractive. 😔😔 so we all know it’s just gna be me drooling over him for 5k words …. as always ………

most of all, he wants to protect you from men like him — men whose emotions get lost somewhere between their minds and their mouths. 

no-pressure tags: @catchuuu @staryukis @dollsuguru @elusivemoon @mossmurdock 💐

#bfb!toru w the unrequited love trope….. he has bewitched me 😔 #this is such a fun lil tag game :> ty sel!!! #BTW BTWWWW im so proud of u for finishing the nanami fic!!! i got excited every time i saw u talk abt it on the dash hehe #its been a while since i read a nanami fic but trust that i put it in my tbr instantly 🙏 such a tasty concept!! #and that snippet u posted of it way back was. SO good….. ur writing always feels like home to me somehow #tag game ✩

[onebrainsel]

Commissions Open!

I have 5 slots for April-May. If you have an idea you wish to discuss, you're welcome to DM me! I promise to not bite, unless you're into that.

To anyone who's familiar with my commissions; I needed to make a couple small adjustments on my guidelines and pricing. So I suggest looking over it again, just in case.

For examples of my work, you can check out my AO3 here!

#resident evil #devil may cry #dmc reboot #final fantasy vii #final fantasy vii remake #final fantasy vii rebirth #castlevania #castlevania nocturne #castlevania lords of shadow #castlevania netflix #final fantasy xv #persona 5 #mcu #stranger things #fic commissions #commisions open #sel's writing misadventures #ffxv

[burntheupholstery]

selwyn kane drives me crazy. this is a good thing.

#legendborn cycle #selwyn kane #i jumped into bloodmarked without reading book 1 #so i straight up didnt know how old sel was #and tracy deonn writes him with this very Twenties and Suffering energy #so i legitimately was intrigued and confused by his dynamic with bree #like. antagonistic in personality but heavily protective in a feral way. #whatever the fuck was going on between them - the Oops I Totally Tried To Kill You but somehow we care about each other in an obsessive #knight and kings way #courtly ROMANCE #i cant even #a distinct flavor that i LOVE

[thoughtfulbearpanda]

sneak peak of selbree fic

"Sel" Bree moans, tilting her head head back against the bathroom mirror. She feels him smirk against her thigh. Her grip tightens in his hair.

Sel grazes his fangs against her skin, teasing. Bree shudders.

"Look at me," Sel growls, voice dark with something Bree is too scared to name. Bree looks down, meeting his eye. His burnt orange gaze stares back at her from his spot between his thighs.

The muscles in Bree's thighs flex reflexively, causing Sel to grip her thighs even tighter. Bree gasps.

"Keep your eyes on me, Briana"

Bree nods her head. Eyes never leaving hers, he presses his face into her crotch and sniffs.

Sel releases a guttural moan, "Shit, Bree."

He widens Bree's legs further. He trails his nose up her pubic bone and stop at the seam of her underwear. With a nod of consent from Bree, Sel grips the lining of her underwear with his teeth and pulls them down to her ankles.

****yes this is the bathroom scene. i just have to. this, their first kiss in the woods (probably will also be smut), and an au-ish fic where these two are reunited in book 3

#legendborn #bloodmarked #tracy deonn #briana matthews #selwyn kane #selbree #bree x sel #i dont know why i want to write smut for these two so badly

[sysig]

Last man standing (Patreon)

#Doodles #SCII #Helix #ZEX #It's lonely at the top :( #Poor dearest is worse for wear ah </3 #This scene made me cry ;; #Like it was sad when he wrote down his missing canonmates but going back in and writing everyone else's names ;;;; #Even his shaky alliances! Even the people he hasn't seen for a while!! Wehhh <3 <3 <3 #You soft heart ;; I see you Admiral ♥ #Also had a lot of fun writing in VUK ZIX again hehe ♪ #The translations from VUK ZIX to English aren't exact - for starters they're upside down haha #So if you started from the top down it would actually read KINLEZ NATPAK but I figured that wouldn't be as readable #You read from the bottom up! I also still headcanon it being written/read from left to right #So he started with Zelnick then Fwiffo then Tanaka and so on #Although I did change it up for the second one - Teisel then Xelloss then Xigbar then Asch and Van #The more I think of it the more I'm surprised there's no H :0 #Even just as a demarcation of a pause before during or after a syllable #The ''sh'' sound makes complete sense tho hehe <3 #Any incorrect shaping of letters/poor handwriting on my part can totally be chalked up to ZEX not being used to human hands! #Totallyyy lol #I really like the way specific syllables are shaped - like how Teisel and Zelnick almost share the same shaped between ''SEL'' and ''ZEL'' #How Z is a more connected extension of S just agh it's so pretty <3 <3 Eco_Mono really did such a lovely job with it ♪ #And then certain ''incorrectly'' spelled syllables still turned out so pretty! Like the ''ANA'' in Talana - look how swoopy and continuous! #The ''BAR'' in Xigbar looks really cool - honestly reminds me of the fanweapons I made ages ago for I? think? Xigbar's apprentice?? #It's been too long I don't remember now lol but it's cool to me in particular because of that!! :D #Fwiffo looks so funny haha - Tanaka has a cool star-like kind of letter in his name?? Man it's just so neat <3 #As for ZEX - I mean he made it this far :( Not one to give up easily that's for certain ♥ Tenacious #I want him to be happy :'0

[josephslittledeputy]

You’re laughing. I’m sitting here bleeding out and you’re laughing.

#give it up for unhinged ocs everyone! #ok dont look at me or perceive anything about my existence i just had a random thought and now it be upon ye #idk what to tag this as or what oc but i know theres some oc energy of mine in here #probs someone @ Sel #tbd #rip to the mutuals rn #i could be writing but im shitposting #ok lets be real i cant even write rn bc i keep getting in my own way 😔✊🏻

[firein-thesky]

cielo!!!! ur drabble game is so COOL!!! if i may send a character hmmm what about (fallen) angel megumi??? 😳 (doesnt have to be fallen too!!!) thank u so much 🥺

sel!!! hello my dear!! 💕 thank you for requesting!!! fallen angel megumi 👀👀👀 ohhhh i’m in love already. idk what this is….just go w it lol.

i hope you enjoy!! 💕

fallen angel!megumi

cw: blood

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The shadow of wings; huge and all encompassing, an eclipse of your own world in the holy shape of him.

Half-holy. Once holy. What do you become after holiness? Deserted? Transformed? He’s still as beautiful as ever, perhaps more so; maybe it is your own sin to find such loveliness in the new raven shade of his wings.

And now you think, the dove-like wings never suited him anyways, even if they were grey and violet and twinged with twinkle, darker on him than most. No, you’ve never realized how stunning shadows were until they clung to him.

“What are you doing down here?”

“I found you—“ you breathe it out, fluttering to him like a bird.

“You shouldn’t have.” He’s terse and just shy of being too harsh.

“But I did,” you counter, “and I’m here, with you.”

“It’s dangerous,” he grits out and you see the barely-there flash of his teeth. The little growl in his voice. Has he already changed so much with the fall? You have a thousand questions for him—did it hurt? Were you lonely? Did you think of me? Did you long for me, a heaven away? You step nearer to him and he rears back slightly, wary of you.

But you can’t help yourself and now that he’s so close, in front of you finally. You reach up to touch him.

He catches your wrist before it can dip into the soft downy of his dark wings. He grips it tight, a low growl in his chest like a warning.

“I missed you,” you say softly, in the face of all his hardness, “Megumi, I miss you.”

His eyes, like the depth of the sea shift and shimmer, soften only fractionally.

“You shouldn’t have come,” he says again, breathes it now, harsh and desperate. “This world is not for you. Why did you come?”

“Because I missed you,” you say again and his grip relaxes enough that your fingers skim just the edges of the feathers. Silky on one edge, but going against the grain—

“Ah!” You gasp and your finger swells with blood.

And he goes to shift away from you, but in a flash, you’ve lurched forward. You can’t lose him now.

You sink your hand into the feathers, gentle, sweet as ever. You feel the warmth and the threat of them; you feel the muscle beneath. Strong. Glorious.

What do you become after holy? You wonder—something else entirely.

“You shouldn’t have come.” He says again and his voice hums and throbs around your temples like a stinging bee. When he grabs you tight this time, you feel the burn of his hands on you—it sears.

You cry out, high and sharp and scared. A squeaking bird in the talons of a predator.

You grip the feathers. Your hand darkens with rivers of blood that slip down your wrist, your arm.

“Megumi—!”

His eyes are depthless, unfathomable.

“I cannot let you return now.”

His wings flare wide and you fall into their shadow.

***

thank you for requesting!!! 💕

send me a monster and a character and i’ll write a drabble!

#ahh i hope you enjoyed!! #i hope you’re having a great day sel!!! #cielo plays! #cielo chats! #cielo writes!

[icydeluxe]

a little peek at whats to come in the first part of double take under the cut! <3

#spoilers lowkey #im so excited #i havent wrote in such a long time #sel writes #redacted asmr #redacted david

[cyberfreaky]

my young dilf!jake brain rot is so bad rn

#he’s so sexy #RRRRRARARAAAAHHHHH #gonna write the nastiest one shot rn #jake sully #sel’s thoughts ⋆.ೃ࿔*:･

[selstice]

something I've been trying to work and finish :3 (W.I.P)

#colorquest #colorquest oc #oc #oc writing #drabble #sel ocs #sel writing

[theloveinc]

caitie!!! i am dropping by with a few things i find pretty bc april is so very pretty to me! 🍞🌻💭🌷☀️🫧✨🌱💗🍓 how are you?? i hope the month is lovely to you 🥺

i also come back with a curious sel question 🤓 a more technical writing one but, what is your anchor point to writing a character like bakugo or kiri? what part of them do you like exploring and what quality of theirs stays the same to you across any universe you put them in? 🥺

hi selly-belly !!! thank u for the ask and all the lovely things! here's some more who'd like to join🌦️☕️🐣☘️🐛🌈🍬🛁🧸 -- things are chugging along with me, wbu? i'm sure you know, but i'm always hoping the same right back for you every month🫶🏻

what an interesting question, though! i don't think i've ever thought about what i anchor my portrayals to, honestly! usually my process of writing is jump started by a scene i'd like to explore applied to a character, so as i'm writing, i already have their reaction planned? if that makes sense?

but i guess ... one thing that drives my portrayals and actually propels me to make them MINE is............. ig my characterization of the specific trait of which i think drives someone to act and deliberate and even emote. and i know for a fact i spend a lot of time considering this as i'm going.

for example, with bakugo (and i know i write quite a different bakugo from a lot of other writers on here, which does make me a lil insecure because i like their bakugos !! for the most part) ... one thing that is super important to me to include is his crippling perfectionism and the way that part of him often... affects his interactions with others and/or you. So it's something i'm always thinking about when i am deliberately thinking... "what would he say or do in this scene if he was bothered by _?"

And for kiri, it would be the way he carries his shame. Or for shinso, his insecurities. things like that!! I'm not entirely sure if that's the proper way to describe it, but yeah!!!

anyway, i hope this wasn't too complicated and lengthy for you, sel! i'd love to hear what you think about when you write characters in different universes/moments too, and especially with a speechul boy like iwa ("i love shy buff men" written on my tshirt) !!!

love u berry dearly <3 thank u again for the wonderful question 🥺🥹

#my roommate kept trying to talk to me as i was writing this so i hope it's not too stilted #esp at the end bc i just got up after i realized she wasnt gonna let me write LOL #anyway i always get embarrassed with these long questions cuz idk if they're all that interesting u know? #but i appreciate them nonetheless #get a good night's rest sel okay? and everyone!! #i love u <3 #caitie answers #seiwas interact #sel!!

[onebrainsel]

Since the dash is on a Billy + cats thing lately, here's my offering:

Billy can't have a cat because Neil won't let him. He circumvents this by feeding strays around the neighborhood.

He only does it when no one can see him, so word doesn't come back to Neil and he has an image to maintain right?

He does it reasonably away from his home so hopefully no cats will come around. But eventually, one of them follows him. He shoos the cat away, hates that he has to, but he does. It's what he has to do if he hopes he and the cat remain unscathed.

For the following days the cat follows him halfway home before going back to wherever it sleeps, but not before meowing and rubbing all of it's body on his ankles. Billy will sometimes scratch it's head and feel it purr.

They keep at it, one day the cat doesn't show up in it's usual spot. Billy is disappointed and a little worried, but goes home anyway. Later that night he hears meowing outside his room, peering out the window his sees the damn cat in all it's fluffy glory looking at him with one yellow and one blue eye. He sighs and makes sure to quietly sneak out, the cat rubs on his ankles again and Billy feels relieved to see it's okay.

"Came all this way for your food huh." He runs his hands through the cat's soft white fur, feels slightly compelled to count how many dark brown and light brown spots of fur there are amidst white. Decides against it and starts walking and beckoning the cat to come with.

He walks all the way to their usual spot, gives the cat food and wishes he could take it home with him. He longs for it, but much like all the other things in his life, he can only have it halfway.

He keeps up the routine, refraining himself on giving the cat a name and making this harder when he eventually he has to let go. It's silly, because it'll be hard anyway. By summer 1985 he tells his the cat how his day went. The cat also knew he had a massive crush on Steve Harrington, but the cat could know. It wouldn't tattle on him.

It's early July and Billy doesn't show up anymore. The cat spends days going to their usual spot and waiting, sometimes it'll go and meow on his window only to be met with silence.

When Billy finally shows up again he is smaller, limping, patched up and healing. But this time he doesn't come alone, Steve is by his side when the cat sprints towards Billy, and he sees Billy give the sweetest smile.

"You still waited for me. All this time."

The cat eventually meows and beckons Billy somewhere, he follows. He owed it that much. They learn the cat is actually a she, with a small litter of four tiny little kittens. Billy cries. He doesn't care that Steve is seeing, he feels... He doesn't exactly know what he feels. But somewhere he realizes the four adorable little kittens are there and alive because he made sure their mama was fed every night. Maybe it's stupid of him to give himself that much credit. But he just wanted to believe he mattered, even if it was just to a cat and her little kittens.

"She must adore you Bills. She literally dragged you to meet her kids." Steve says, crouching down by Billy's side.

"I guess."

"I can tell you're thinking, so speak."

Steve does that. He gives Billy space and a voice, and just like the cat, he makes Billy feel like he matters.

"I've been feeding her for over a year. Yet I can't give her a roof."

"You couldn't." Steve says like it's the answer to everything.

And... it is.

Neil is gone. Up and left while he was still in the hospital after one too many talks with government officials. Took his hush money, signed NDAs and left.

He left because Billy didn't matter to him.

He left and Billy could finally breathe, he just didn't know how.

"I could..." He let's himself think.

"You can." Steve says firmly.

"Do you really believe that?"

"I do." Steve holds Billy's face between his hands, the way he looks at him sometimes makes Billy want to run. It's too much.

"Let yourself be happy. After everything, you deserve this. Listen to me. You deserve this."

Billy says nothing, he just kisses him. Puts all of his gratitude and his love into it.

A few tiny meows break them out of their moment, both look at the little family of strays and Billy finally says.

"I'm taking them. I think... I think Susan and Max wouldn't mind."

Steve gives him a smile that warms him all the way into his heart.

"Does she have a name?" He asks.

"No, she was never mine to name."

"Time to change that, yeah?"

Billy nods, and Billy thinks. He thinks a little too much, but he finds something he feels is just right.

"Spring. Her name will be Spring." And on cue she meows, almost like she knew what they were talking.

"It's purr-fect Bills." Steve says with a shit eating grin.

"I'm breaking up with you."

They laugh like a bunch of stupid kids. But Steve's right, it is purr-fect. Spring is the beginning of new things, he got a second shot at life, his father was gone. He was going to take every halfway moment and make them complete.

#billy hargrove #harringrove #this was supposed to be just #billy feeds the neighborhood strays to cope #idk what happened #sel writes sometimes