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thoughtfullyrainynightmare · 11 months

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AAAAAAAAA I HOPE YOUR REQUESTS AREN'T CLOSED YET

I'd like to please request for fuegoleon and nozel with wife s/o where they have been busy with work for awhile and even forget a special day like maybe her birthday or their anniversary or maybe a date that they promised to take her to buy stood her up and it's the last straw and s/o is very sad and quiet and the boys are afraid that she's had enough of them and wants to leave? Happy ending please

Hurt/comfort fic that goes both ways like the guys comfort s/o and s/o also assures them that she wouldn't leave them

Oh some hurt-comfort my beloved~ The thing that I really love about this request is that it's very human. The guys live a busy life and forgetting happens. They're only human. But there is love and healing in communication. Anyways, I do hope that you like this! ^^

Pairings: Fuegoleon x f!reader, Nozel x f!reader Fanfic type: Headcanons Genre: Hurt-comfort Warnings: Angsty themes, the guys are tied up with work and don't show appreciation to reader, there is a happy end tho Total length: ~1.7k

Fuegoleon

It wasn’t that you didn’t understand that your husband was a busy man. It really wasn’t. That much had been established from the very start. A good portion of the fate of the kingdom lied on his shoulders, and it had been one of the things that had made you so proud of him.

But… you had expected that he would make time for you. That you’d be… maybe not the centre of his universe, but that at least he’d continue to put effort into your relationship even after marriage.

And he had, for some time, but… lately… over a long time of ‘lately’… Work had been much more important. Long days, meetings, missions, reports, everything that at this point seemed more like an excuse to be everywhere but home. Especially granted that when he got back, he withdrew himself.

Which made you think that, that wasn’t the man you married.

But your anniversary was coming up, and you had, in passing, talked about it a month back, so perhaps it’d serve as a start of a new chapter for you two. Because, up until now, he had never missed one.

Up until now.

As you sat there, in your shared bedroom all dressed up after having waited for hours for him to come home and go… somewhere… He hadn’t. Not as much as a word, or a message… Nothing. And it really made you think about the life you were living.

Because though you didn’t want to be alone, at least you’d be free to look for someone else if you weren’t committed to anyone. It was a thought you had never imagined to even occur to you at the start of your relationship, or marriage, for that matter. But not there was something so… beckoning, in it. It was sharp and almost sickening in its disappointment.

But it was also tempting.

The room door opened, and your husband entered.

You glanced at him, but didn’t say anything. Not even as his eyes turned to you, and he just stood there, in silence. In the silence that now echoed in the room around you.

Until he took a step, and another one. Those heavy, almost apprehensive steps, and crouched down next to your seat while putting his hand onto your leg.

“Honey?” He asked while searching for your gaze, which you didn’t give. Too many emotions. Too many harsh syllables, but most importantly, too much silence. Because what were you going to say anyways.

He waited for a while, looking at your outfit, your posture, slumped forward, but most importantly he looked at your eyes. He looked at how you looked into nothingness.

You were making decisions, he knew as much. Thoughts were swirling in your head, and these thoughts he didn’t like. They filled him with dread, as he could imagine what they must’ve been. He could, but he didn’t want to.

“I’m sorry for forgetting,” he finally spoke through the silence. “I’m… I haven’t been performing well as a husband lately and I…” he trailed off, not sure what to say.

“It’s not about ‘performing’,” you replied, because the word ‘performing’ sounded too much like he was putting on a show. “I don’t want someone who goes through the motions. I just want you to be there.” Tears started collecting in your eyes, because the clutter of emotions in your heart was trying to get away from the confines that were you.

He got up enough to sit on the arm rest of the chair and wrapped his arms around you in a warm, gentle embrace. “I want to be there for you,” he whispered. “And I’ll promise to do better, because I… do love you and I don’t want to lose you,” he spoke, and in his tone you could sense a hint of dread. Because the idea of really losing you shook him.

You leaned in to his embrace, because you could feel the regret of what he had failed to do. But most importantly, you could feel the love that was radiating from him.

“Don’t leave,” he still whispered against you hair.

And you placed your hand onto his leg while nudging him with your head. “I won’t,” you promised him.

It was a ‘down’ of your marriage. But you’d make it through. You were certain about it. Because he wasn’t, and you weren’t, the type of a person to just simply give up.

And, you knew that you’d both try. You’d try to tell him when you needed time with him, and he’d try to arrange it. Or then you could, at the very least, talk about your emotions. Feel heard and understood. Because your husband would.

You knew that he would.

You were in it together, and he was right there, now that you needed him.

Nozel

Nozel had a bad habit of shutting himself away from you when he got busy. He always had had it. And he had explained that it was because he didn’t want to burden you with his worries. That he didn’t want to cause you any unnecessary stress and worry. Which at the beginning you had deemed sweet and caring.

But… now that you were married, and he was going through something that seemed like an endless busy season at work, you wondered if this was the life you had really signed up for. Because you had, during that time, asked him about his day, asked about work, and it had just turned into him shutting down even more. It was like he was avoiding you.

Though you knew that not to be the case, because he did have a schedule, and after glancing at it, not a single thing in there seemed to be crafted. All of it was ‘meaningful’. But still, you really would have wanted to at least… just to hear about him. Spend an evening, and hour a day, by just chatting. Connecting. Being husband and wife and it just wasn’t… doing it.

And it made you wonder if Nozel had, at its most core level, married you just out of necessity or tradition. That he had found someone that he could marry, but not that he really wanted to be with you. Just that it was tolerable.

It was a bitter thought. A very, very bitter thought which didn’t reflect the man who had bared open his soul to you, to reveal a kind and caring man underneath all the layers.

But that wasn’t how you felt now. It wasn’t how you had felt for a long time, and it… didn’t feel like he appreciated you. Though he had promised to take you on a date.

Tonight.

You had gone to buy a new dress, new lingerie and did your hair. Placed a Silva hairclip into your hair and deemed yourself to look like you were fitting to the title of ‘Lady Silva’.

You sat into a chair, and waited. And waited… and waited… for him to come home and pick you up.

Only that he didn’t.

He didn’t come around until hours later. And you still sat there, in that chair, but now anticipation had turned into a swaying sea of turmoiling thoughts.

As he just stood there. In the entry way.

“We… were supposed to go out on the 14th?” He said, which sounded almost like he was trying to reason something out, correct a misunderstanding.

Only that as he had spoken it out, he realised that it was the 14th.

It was… the 14th…

He closed the door behind him and walked over to you, as if a ghost, as you just stared blankly ahead of yourself.

He crouched down, but he didn’t try to meet your gaze. Instead he just stared blankly ahead of himself as well.

“I’m…” he whispered through the silence of the room. “I’m… sorry…” it sounded like those words would always be as difficult for him to utter. But he did, utter.

However, as you stayed silent, wondering what exactly to reply, because you didn’t feel that ‘it’s okay’ was the right thing to say, your silence… it terrified him.

He knew that he wasn’t … good when it came to expressing himself. He knew that he had sharp, ragged corners and that he was difficult to love, but it… It didn’t mean that he wouldn’t have loved you.

What terrified him was that he had made himself harder to be loved by you. Perhaps even too hard to love, to be loved, by you. “I’ll…. I’ll make it up to you.” He promised in a way that only a repenting man can.

And in that promise, in his tone, in his eyes that were still down, as if deeming himself unworthy of gazing to you.

“I’ll get you anything you want,” he continued, without thinking, but meaning well.

“I don’t want something you can buy,” you replied, breaking your own silence.

And he stayed silent. Repenting even harder.

“I want to be with you. That’s why I married you, and I’ve been just feeling like I… don’t…” you didn’t want to say ‘matter’, but it seemed, from his hunched shoulders, that he heard you.

“I’m sorry,” he repeated, this time with a more definite tone as he got up and wrapped his arms around you, pressing your head against his chest. “I’m sorry,” he said again. “I don’t…” he tried, but confidence failed him. The words he didn’t want to utter, got stuck in his throat, but instead he pushed out different ones. Ones that spoke out his fear. “Don’t… leave…”

You could feel his heart thumping in his chest as a faint, passing tremor passed through him, as if trembling.

Yes… trembling.

“I’m right here…” you whispered back, because you were there. Yes, thoughts that had made you question your relationship had swirled in your head, but it wasn’t like he was doing something… less than necessary, with his time. He was working. And he had opened up so much during the time you had been together. So… he was trying.

And he was there, now, when you needed him. Which is what count.

“I love you,” he professed with a whisper, but one that resonated with your heart strings. And that made you have faith in you two, again.

#black clover fanfiction #fuegoleon x reader #fuegoleon vermillion x reader #nozel x reader #nozel silva x reader #black clover headcanons #black clover x reader

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pendarling · 2 months

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Top 15 Best out of 50(1)

Nobody asked for it, and I have a million requests in my inbox (I'll get to it, I should rly consider turning it off), but here is a list of my personal favourite hero x villain stories I've written and I will rank them from best to still best but, I definitely could've done better, and I will not rank stories that I feel I don't want to. I'm only putting like 15 of the best out of the 50. Technically, I have 51 stories, but I lost one of them somewhere in the wreckage.

Letters & Masks: Why? Because it's literally got everything. Jealousy, captivity, secrets, crazy level of intimacy and professionalism. All in a sweet little bundle. I dunno abt yall but I defo ate here.

List: This oneeeeeee I already wrote a part two draft and someone asked me to write up a part two after I went to sleep. Needless to say, yes, sir, it is coming. I only write good stories at 4 am and I made this one in a single sitting.

Do You Like Me?: I don't remember the specific details here all I remember is there was a lot of teasing which I personally enjoy. Hero meanwhile is in denial that they like them.

In Your Lap: I wish I had more to write here but to keep it short and sweet sometimes is the best. It's straightforward no bullshit maze before we get to the main subject. We just dive right in. Tension.

Remember Last Night: Lore. And I genuinely do wanna write a continuation, the problem is I have a million drafts. I think someone did ask for a continuation but idk. A lot of ppl actually req and I'm just a uni student

Praise: AAAAAAAAA manipulation at its finest. Like are they genuine with their feelings? or are they fucking with Hero's mind??

Taken: Captivity my beloved. It's more a Citizen x Villain and left up to interpretation. A few people asked for a second part of this as well (I'm sorrrrrrrryyy).

Winter Boots: Villain subtly flirting with Hero <3

Plushie: AWWWEEEE Hero is a sweetheart. They bought a plushie of Villain. I was also going write more for this but it was literally 6 am and I needed to fix my sleep schedule.

A Kiss To Freedom: It's a bit hot actually, captivity again.

Ring of Engagement: In summary, Villain assumes Hero is engaged and then we have mild spice. Might as well be salt. But the reason why it's on this list is for the level of comfort that follows after (\\\^_^\\\)

Aggressive: Kink reveal

The Town Theatre: ATLA reference actually

Perfect Timing: Lore again, I really like it, I don't think I'll truly let go of time travel stories. They're all so unique

No Date For Valentine's Day: Villain rips on Hero for being without a Valentine then asks them out on a date hahahaha. I had fun writing it and I hope to do something next year too!~

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MASTERLIST

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vomitlover-art · 4 months

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Art Summary 2023 aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

Last new years i got really down because every artist I knew was doing year recaps. I decided to avoid that this year, I was gonna try to draw at least one thing every month. I was able to do it thank gosh gdkjfnghjf.

I wasn't able to do an excellent piece every month- sometimes just a sketch. Maybe that should be goal 2024? I'll try to make a really good piece every month.

Here is my favorite art of every month. Thank you for enjoying my art this year aaaaaaaaa thanku thanku aaaaaaaaa

January

Didn't start off strong really. Best thing I did this month was a sketchpage of Q. The campaign she's in started in January and has been going strong since =w=

February

I couldn't design between the two aack. The first was a lil sketch I did when I first started dating Cam. She said she wanted to watch me draw and I couldn't think of anything, so I just started putting together something mechanical aack. You can tell I kinda got tired after just drawing the head .-.

Second was when I was still super into Bocchi. Still am, just haven't drawn any fanart in a while gkfdjhnjgff.

March

"Recipes for Strawberry Jam" was my absolute favorite thing to work on all year I think. This specific page took so long but it all worth it. It was my first serious foray into making a comic, using color, and trying out weird perspectives and I think it worked out so well. I'm really hoping to do more soon =w=

April

This is around the time I switched my sketch paper to a more grey-color rather than a yellow-ish tone aack. I later switch it again to stark white. Road Queen~

May

I drew one (1) thing in May. May is always the worst part of the year aaaa. It starts to get hot again and because I live in the desert that means that life is suddenly unbearable and I have to Deal with all of that.

June

Ultravex! Everyone loves Ultravex =w=

One of the best xenobiology pieces I put together aack. I love designing animals that are fucked up and horrible.

July

Thricefold Judged.

August

Another sketch month. Summer sucks aa

September

Sketch this month, all in prep for Inktober \o/

October

It's hard to pick a fave for inktober, but it's probably the Lavender piece =w=

It was really calming and nice to take my time and work out individual details. I feel weird describing my own art gkjdnhfj I just. liked this one aaa

November

I made a lot of Maleghast necros this month. Was a little sad I didn't get more comms for Deadsouls Necros. It was my favorite one to make ghkfjdhnjgf

December

I was really happy to be able to make a necromancer for the Archivists homebrew house aack. I honestly didn't draw much in Decemeber except for. A lot of vent art I'd rather not share and nsfw art I don't wanna share aack. Almost fumbled it all at the end aaa

This was the first year I made like, any significant living off of commissions. I hope to continue growing next year. Thank you sincerely for following me. It's a little... nerve wracking, but I'm glad to have people aack. I'd like to keep working like this- making art on commissions and ko-fi supporters, and everything helps. It's always been my dream to scrape a living from my art, so, thank you. aaaaaaa

#thank you.#aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

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box-architecture · 3 months

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I discovered that Communication Knife AweSamDrunz have Children Now today, and I’m loving everything I’m reading so far.

Also that they hang out with Sapnap, Philza, and Techno. Was not expecting that, but yeah, Dream would want to reconnect, wouldn’t he? Even if it make Sam Uncomfortable and Punz Salty.

aaaaaaaaa I'm glad!!! The kids are sort of separate from the main au in that they're not really the main focus, they're just something that occasionally makes me happy to rotate in my mind. Healed, happy characters who are extremely neurodivergent, with their weird neurodivergent children, able to exist contently.

also, yeah!!! I realized a while back that I haven't really talked about the relationships and conflicts or Anything with real consistency on this tumblr. I'm used to interacting with people in the discord who've already had to listen to me so many times yell and rant that I've forgotten that I. might need to give context actually to other people who have showed up to a person on a soapbox spouting nonsense.

short answer: yeah, theres a Lot of complicated feelings, but by the time the children are in the picture its been like a decade and peace has been made with most things. No one has forgotten, of course. Shit was fucked. But events keep happening, characters keep developing, and Dream cradles his happy ending with the people he got to keep so very close to his chest.

So its like! Techno will support Dream through thick and thin and be civil with his partners, Punz and Sapnap had some rough moments but are buddies, and Sam will never talk to Dream's friends about anything deep, but after years of him genuinely trying to be a good partner, Techno and Sapnap are no longer five seconds away from trying to murder him.

Long answer: I'm trying to pull together some posts that will give detailed explanations of this entire thing. Itll take a bit, but its infinitely easier than the full fic I was trying and failing to write. I'm pulling this timeline from an old post so it might not be completely up-to-date even with my edits, but this is some skeleton stuff I can give that will make things easier for Understanding probably. I'm very sleepy. Here you go.

Timeline for My Own Damn Convenience:

Shady Dubcon Prison sex w/ SamDream

Prison Escape

Gentle Recovery sex w/ Drunz

Dream decides he has major control issues and is going to fuck Sam to prove he isn't traumatized. Punz thinks this is a terrible decision.

AweSamDrunz sex, complete with a rulebook of things Sam isn't allowed to do (including giving or receiving kisses)

Quackity kidnaps Drunz similar to in the one cut lore thing, offers to let Punz go if they torture Dream (they stab Quackity instead)

Sam rescues them (without Q finding out) and then kidnaps them, where he ties up Punz and gets Dream kisses until they all eventually pass out (Dream gets mild medical attention)

Dream wakes up and unties Punz

SamDrunz has a talk and decides Sam is allowed kisses again

many kinks are discovered

Sam tries (and fails) to get a hobby

Sam builds +30 prisons/boxes/sex dungeons around the server, of various usefulness

Sapnap finds out about the Torture, sees the sex tape, assumes Dream can't consent to the relationship considering Sam was his warden and Sap thinks Punz betrayed him, and takes Dream to a cottage away from everyone to try to protect him. After Sapnap yells at SamPunz, Dream gently informed Sapnap he's going to continue the relationship, and they have an emotional reconciliation that leads to weeklyish meetings between Dreamnap where they can just sit and talk

The Snow Incident

Sam Recovery From The Snow Incident

Oh God The Egg Is Back (Sam locks up Punz and Dream in a bunker for a month out of terror, and doesnt tell them why because he knows it will stress Punz out and Dream could be an idiot and get himself Egged. Punz is pissed but can't argue with that) (Dream could have fixed this all with his admin abilities good god)

They actually deal with the Egg

An Incident Happens (but its like several incidents actually, including Tubbo finding out that Ranboo was working with Dream the whole time)

Failed Finale

Recovery

Eventually grow old and live in a nice little lush cave house called The Box that Sam made

#communication knife au #ask boxed #I really hope this came out coherent #I have a sleep disorder so I'm just. trying and failing to push through 30 levels of exhaustion rn

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bratshaws · 1 year

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through the hourglass 37. brb x oc

a/n: AAAAAAAAA FUCK F U C K ( also shoutout to @taytaylala12 who HELPED ME WITH THE WHOLE BABY PROCESS EHE)

pairing: plus size!oc x rooster

warnings: JESUS CHRIST PREGNANCY, BABY, AAAAAAA??????????

goodness gracious (pls read this one to know more what this fic is about!!)

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When his birthday arrives, she wakes up a few minutes after she hears Rooster in the bathroom. She,however,stays in bed looking up at the ceiling, wincing at the little cramp that was now a common occurrence since Nicole got bigger.

She knew it was nothing to worry about, it was very similar to the other cramps she had months before, it was the same sharp yet dull pain in her navel that she decided not to tell Rooster.

Not only because it was his birthday,but mainly because she didn’t want him worrying so much so early in the morning. It was normal, everything was fine, there was nothing more going on. Maybe it was just because Nikki’s due date was coming up and their daughter was just getting restless and it was fine! There was nothing to worry about.

The faucet shut off when Beatrice slowly sat on the bed, heaving out a sigh and looking up to see her husband’s worried face from the door, “I’m okay.” she stretches her arms towards him, “Help me up?” she didn’t have to ask twice, because Rooster immediately stepped closer to her, wrapping his big hands around her smaller ones and giving her a tug to stand up to her feet. “Thank you,Roos.”

“Everything okay?”

“I’m fine.” she smiles, then leans up to kiss his chin, “I promise.”

��Do you want me to do anything?” he questions, following her to the bathroom, eagle eyed at the brunette who opened the faucet to wash her face, “I can draw the bath for you.”

“I’d really like that.” she held back another wince from the cramping, he hadn’t noticed it, thankfully, “Then we can start working on your birthday party.”

Rooster still thought there was no need to start preparing things now, it was a barbecue, the only things they’d have to worry about was putting the meat on the grill and popping some beer bottles open…and of course there was the amazing Belgian chocolate cake in the fridge that he hadn’t noticed until now but still! “Baby they won’t get here until eleven.” he explains, walking around her to fill the bathtub, “There’s no need to hurry.”

But Beatrice, who always wanted to be a good host and often worried if people were having fun or not, pursed her lips into a little frown, “Well…okay,but we are going to add some balloons at least, wait no they’ll deflate by the time they arrive…hm…” he just smiled, he loved her so much but she had other things in her mind she should worry about.

“Alright,gorgeous.” he says once the bath is filled, the water is just warm enough for her and Nicole to be safe inside, “Come on in.” and he tried not to look down at her full breasts when she undresses, offering his hand to her so she could step in without issues, “You know what,” he begins once she’s already inside, “I could join you-”

“Rooster.”

“It’s my birthday and I think it’d be really welcome.”

Beatrice makes a face, eventually breaking into a smile, “Alright, but no funny business.” she mutters, scooting a bit forward so there’s enough space behind her, “Hop in.” the water ripples when he finally steps inside, his legs on either side of her body and his hands on her shoulders to bring her to his chest, his lips immediately touching her temple.

“Comfortable?” she nods, fluttering her eyes shut as Rooster’s lips remain on her head, Beatrice’s body relaxing as he gently caressed her stomach, “...just a few more days.” he whispered, “We have everything for the hospital bag,right?”

Beatrice,with her eyes closed, just arched her brow, “Do you want to check again?”

“I mean we checked it twice yesterday.” he murmured against her hair, gently lifting her belly and letting it go like he learned in the antenatal classes, his wife easing out a sigh of relief, ‘I don’t think it’d be a bad idea if we did it again.”

The movements he was doing were helping her cramps a lot, that and the warm water surrounding them, she had to hold herself from falling back asleep so she chose to place one of her hands on his arm, caressing the dark hairs, “I don’t mind. It’s always good to check if we really got everything.” he was excited, she knew that was why he was talking about it and it was the cutest thing.

Her husband, who was over six feet and built like a brick wall, always got soft spoken whenever talking about their child and the things they’d have to do. He fixed Nicole’s room months ago, he was also the one that often cleaned it - because again he didn’t want her to be overworked even if she did assure him she was completely fine doing so - and made sure it was perfect for Nicole when she was able to use it.

It was adorable, it was perfect and it was such a Rooster thing to do. Beatrice smiles up at him, he’s talking about how they should bring more change of clothes for her and he had to check if the car seat they bought - because the one she used for Bianca was already well, claimed for - was safe enough for the baby. She was so in love with him she just placed her cheek on his chest, watching him speak until he finally noticed her eyes staring adoringly at him, “What?”

She shrugs, “You are just too sweet,Roos.” she whispers, “I’m very lucky.”

“You know I should be the one saying that.”

“Are we going to go back and forth on who's the luckiest of the two?” she asks just as he leans his head closer to her, lips curling into a smirk.

“Yep.” he mutters against her mouth, “It’ll be a long argument that we’ll never take either answer as true.” he pecks her lips softly, “Then let’s just say we are both lucky enough to have each other, how’s that?”

Beatrice giggles against his lips, cupping the underside of his jaw before breaking the kiss, sighing happily with her eyes closing once more as she snuggled up against him, “I like that idea.”

“Me too.” he kisses the top of her head again,”Do you want me to give you a massage?”

“Hmmm…I’m good.” she says, “You can just be here with me, that’s already pretty relaxing.”

He chuckles against her scalp, inhaling the delicious lavender from her hair as her hands land on top of his still covering her stomach. “I’m going to miss this.” Beatrice makes a confused noise, furrowing her brows, “I don’t know, touching you like this, it’s really nice.”

“You know what I mean.”

“You mean my huge pregnant stomach?” she asks with a little grin, “That’s so cute,Brad.”

“Well, you said I was cute.” he smirks, propping his chin on the curve of her shoulder, the water no longer warm as before, signaling they’ve been in there for quite a while already and they hadn’t even bathed yet…but they were both so comfortable, “I guess it’s just because it’s so new,huh?Anyway,we better clean up because soon enough the water is going to turn cold as fuck and you can’t stay here with cold water all around you.”

Beatrice giggles, “Fair. I’d hate to become a giant popsicle because of it.”

“All pruned up too.” he smirks, kissing her head one last time, “But I’d love you no matter what. Now come on, get yourself ready,I’ll wash your hair.”

Beatrice’s cramps remained but they weren’t bad, they never got worse than normal - and she had some bad ones these past months - it was just a very annoying discomfort and she didn’t want to bring all the attention to her on Rooster’s birthday. Plus, seeing everyone there, from the Dagger Squad to her family was more than a good distraction from the cramping.

“Okay now- oh.” she stops walking when she feels a giant head pressing up to her stomach, Eleanor’s big brown eyes looked up at her with caution, gently sniffing the brunette’s covered belly, “Hey Ellie,I’m okay girl.” she coos, petting the dog gently as she holds a few clean plates one handed, “I’m okay, go outside with your mama and brother,okay? You are going to get some bones!”

Eleanor stops, considers it, then leaves the kitchen towards the backyard where the laughter and music could be heard. Beatrice closed her eyes with relief thanking whatever deity was responsible for allowing them to have his birthday there, at home, crazy to think that one year ago he proposed to her on this very day.

Wow, time was going by so fast.

From them dating, to marriage and now Nicole was literally days away from being born.

“What are you doing?” the voice snaps her out of her thoughts, turning towards the glass doors to where she sees Shells with her hands on her hips, looking absolutely annoyed.

“We needed more plates-” but her friend marches up to her, grabs the colorful plates from her hands before Beatrice could complete her sentence, “Well-”

“I’m sorry, who’s the one almost popping a baby out? Surely isn’t me, why aren’t you sitting?!”

Beatrice frowns,looking down at her stomach, “It’s…well,I just–”

“Beatrice just wanted to be a good host, Shells.”Evelyn’s voice adds in, stepping between the two to grab the plates from the blonde this time, “Even though it was better if she didn’t, it’s okay to be useful. Are you okay tho?”

Beatrice nods after a subtle cramp inside, this one a bit more intense but again she said nothing, “I’m fine.I just,well, everyone is outside-”

“Including your husband whose only reason for not following you inside is because he’s flipping stuff on the grill.” Shells comments, crossing her arms over her chest with her brows furrowed, “You really are okay? Because if you are you have to, you know, go back outside and enjoy the time you got with everyone, it’s already six in the afternoon and you are still moving about.”

Already?!

Time was really going by fast.

“I promise I’ll sit down and relax.” she smiles, holding both of her hands up in defense, “I promise guys, I won’t be walking around too much.”

“Good, now go back outside,Rooster is already itching to get you.”Evelyn smirks, nodding her head towards the backyard. Beatrice thanks Evelyn and Shells,the blonde almost pushing her out of the kitchen to the door only being prevented by their taller friend who held her by the inner elbow.

Beatrice cautiously walks out of the kitchen to the backyard, Eleanor glued to her side like a magnet to a fridge. She thanks the white dog, before lifting her eyes to meet Rooster’s. He was relaxed, leaning back against the chair with his shirt unbuttoned to the middle of his chest, exposing the chest hair and some of the sun kissed skin, his legs were crossed - the one on top was his tattooed leg - and he was wearing flip flops.

He smiles up at her when she waddles closer, immediately standing to his feet so he could help her sit down herself, “Hey gorgeous.” he says, kissing her cheek, “The girls kicked you out?”

“In a way.” she places one hand on top of her stomach then the other on the chair’s arm, slowly sitting down with Rooster’s own hands supporting her lower back, “I’m okay though, they just didn’t want me to move around too much.”

He made a face that clearly meant he understood their concerns, waiting until she was settled enough to sit down next to her, “I don’t blame them.” he says with a gentle chuckle, before he lifts his gaze to where their friends and family were, all talking amongst each other, laughing, having fun…it was a great way to celebrate his birthday. “Thank you,by the way.” he holds her hand under the table, rubbing her knuckles. “If I hadn’t listened to you we wouldn’t have such a good time.”

There was Queen playing in the background, their friends were having a wonderful time and Beatrice - while her Braxton-Hicks were annoying - was just as happy to see him smiling like that “I told you it was a good idea, Roos.” she whispers, leaning closer to kiss his cheek, but he turns just in time for their lips to meet. They laugh against each other’s mouths, then pull back because they both knew if they remained like that their friends would have absolutely no mercy.

Not that they wouldn’t normally, they always liked teasing them.

They kept their hands together as they talk to everyone else, his thumb rubbing her knuckles while her hand squeezes his every now and again. She’s currently drinking water after eating some of the things they had planned for the party - including the cake - and was now enjoying the conversation, sometimes chiming in whenever it came her way.

Jolene,Eleanor and Jack surrounded her chair, curled up close to Beatrice. She wished she could say the Braxton-Hicks were getting lighter, but they weren’t, sometimes she’d squeeze his hand way too tight only to say that Nicole was just pressing up her bladder and that she was fine. He lets go of her hand to grab another beer from the cooler they had outside, Beatrice’s jaw clenching at a strong one that made her toes curl and grit her teeth.

Rooster was leaning against the wall with one of his hands inside his shorts’ pocket, laughing with Payback and Coyote, his head turned away from her -which she was thankful for, again there was nothing to worry about-

Something wet.

She feels something wet sliding down her leg.

Beatrice widens her eyes, no one seems to notice how she suddenly paled then looked down at her long flowery dress to check. The dogs immediately stood up, snouts directed to the small puddle forming between her feet, “...oh…shit…” she breathes in slowly, then looks up at Rooster only for another cramp to hit her, stronger than before, it almost punched the air out of her lungs.

She couldn’t be in labor. No, she had everything written down, Nicole was coming on the thirtieth! Beatrice clenches the table cloth, almost ripping the light blue colored fabric, “Roos.” She calls, but because of the music and talking he can’t hear her…she doesn’t want to call too much attention or stop the party, shit, but she had no choice. “Roos,” again, “Rooster,” louder this time, when she gets no response she inhales before letting out a “Bradley!”

He immediately stops the conversation, in fact everyone does to look towards her, “...Roos,I don’t want you to freak out.” she begins, “B-But I think we might have to go to the hospital.”

There’s complete silence, the type that you’d only hear if someone suddenly died. The beer that was in Mav’s mouth was immediately spat out and he had to cover his mouth before it flew on Halo’s face. The beer bottle that Bradley was holding however,slipped from his grasp, his smile faltering and eyes widening, not hearing the sharp crash of the bottle hitting the ground, “...wait, now? Now?”

“Roos,yes!” she groans in pain, “My water broke!”

Everyone stands up quickly, chairs fall, the dogs start barking, Beatrice’s brothers are freaking out and her parents are surrounding her while Shells is shouting - much like Michael Scott- “Everybody calm the fuck down it’s happening!”

Beatrice understood the commotion but she was in too much pain to actually voice it out, “Okay,shit,fuck!” Rooster almost trips over himself as he runs up the stairs to where the hospital bag was. Beatrice remembers to breathe, clenching her eyes,her teeth, her hand that was holding her body up against the table, all the while she could feel the uncomfortable wetness between her thighs.

Rooster’s loud footsteps could be heard above everyone’s panicked talking, he had the hospital bag on his shoulder and the car seat on his hand…only to remember he couldn’t help Bea if he had all of that on him, “Shit,” he looks around quickly, meeting Rafael’s eyes who walked away from Beatrice’s side to take everything from his son-in-law’s panicked grip.

“i got it ragazzo, go help Beatrice.”

He didn’t have to be told twice.

“Alright gorgeous,” he looks down at her face, red and pained, before he licks his lips and leans down to pick her up bridal style.

“No, no!” she waves her hand, swatting his own, “I’m too heavy, there’s no time,Roos!”

Normally he’d disagree, but considering the situation he nodded and grabbed her hand, “Come on,gorgeous, to the car.” shit there were the steps to the garage still. Everyone was running about, opening doors,holding dogs - Bianca was explaining to Éwoyn that they were going to have a little cousin!- grabbing towels for Bea as they walked towards the Bronco.

Rooster pulls the seat back once they reach the garage with her mother hovering behind in case she needed help, her daughter was just trying her best to not succumb to the sudden amount of pain darting all over her body, “Okay, gorgeous.” he whispers, helping her inside, kissing her forehead, “We’ll be there super quick okay?”

Beatrice could only nod with a little smile, closing her eyes when her mother kissed her forehead this time before Rooster closed the door. Holy shit his daughter was coming, she was going to be born on his birthday…possibly that is. Claudia looks up from her daughter to Bradley who stood to the side with his fists clenched and eyes unfocused, “Bambino, go on, we’ll clean the house, yes?”

“...right, right okay.I’ll let you guys know?” she nods, cupping his cheeks and pecking his own forehead, patting his face before she gives a step back, enough for him to walk around the car and get on the driver’s seat, “How’s it?”

Beatrice grunts, leaning her head back against the seat as he reverses the car, “It’s…it’s not great,Roos.” she laughs humorlessly.

“You said you were fine!” he sounds surprised, maybe a tiny bit annoyed, “Why didn’t you tell me about the contractions?”

“I-I thought-” another wince “I thought it was just Braxton-Hicks! Or-Or Nikki kicking my bladder, I-I didn’t think my water was going to break today! And I didn’t want t-to ruin your birthday.”

If Rooster wasn’t focused on the road he’d give his wife a stupefied stare, “You didn’t want to- Jesus,Bea.” he rubs his forehead with his fingertips, “Baby, no, no no, there’s nothing–” he turns to look at her and noticed how her eyes glossed then decides that this wasn’t the right time for it, she didn’t need the extra stress, “It’s okay, is it getting worse?”

“A-A little.”

“Okay,” he licks his lips, looking around the street for another way to the hospital, turning the car before it gets stuck in traffic, “It’s okay, you’ll be okay.” he drops one of his hands from the wheel to grab hers, bringing it up to his lips to press several little kisses against her skin, “We’ll be okay. Just a few minutes okay?”

Beatrice nods, chewing her lower lip hard as she breathes in and out like she was taught to, mentally thinking that if Nikki wanted to be born today she was going to be born today.

#bradley rooster bradshaw #rooster bradshaw #bradley bradshaw x oc #top gun maverick #bradley bradshaw x reader #bradley bradshaw x female reader #bradley bradshaw x named reader

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quodekash · 10 months

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ah frick, i forgot what i was doing again and got distracted for half an hour finding out how many languages have the word for orange the fruit and orange the colour as the same thing, and it turns out most of them do and i think thats really stupid

WAIT APPARENTLY ITS BEEN AN HOUR AND A HALF SINCE I POSTED LAST?? WHAT THE HELL WAS I DOING, I GENUINELY DONT REMEMBER

welp, either way, time to continue. i probably wont finish today

ENGLISH JUMPSCARE, JEEZ, I WAS NOT PREPARED FOR THAT "good morning"

you spent half of it lost in a forest, but sure. whatever you say buddy

kiss. kiss. kiss. kiss. kiss. kiss. kiss. kiss.

HES SO PRECIOUS I LOVE HIM SO MUCH

FHJEWKBSDG THE STICKY NOTES

BRB IMMA CRY REAL QUICK

THE FACE

THE SMILEY FACE

THE PRAN SMILEY FACE

AAAAAAAAA

AND THE WAY THEY KEEP SMILING AT EACH OTHER???

I AM DECEASED. DEAD. GONE.

I AM KICKING MY FEET AND SMILING AND CRYING AND DYING AND AAAAAAA

THEY FISTBUMPED

THYE FISTBUMPED

GIEJRHNGDSOJVBENRPDOIKGNL

YOURE KIDDING

this is the end of me. thats it.

im writing p'aof into my will

someone play Our Song at my funeral

imma head out and die rn

see y'all in hell

OH EW I SAID Y'ALL, NEVER MIND IM COMING BACK, NOT DYING TODAY, I NOW REGRET EVERYTHING IVE EVER DONE

AAAAAAAAAAA

THEYRE BOTH JUST SO PRETTY AND SO PRECIOUS AND I WOULD DIE FOR THEM

PFFFT

my favourite thing is the fact that (if my memory serves me correctly) patpran never actually told phutian that theyre dating, but it was like as soon as they stepped foot into the village their gaydars went off and they just immediately k n e w, and i love it so much

theyre just such dads

HHHHHHH

GUEORJBDG

THEYD BETTER FREAKING COME BACK

THERES NO WAY THEY JUST LEAVE ALL OF THIS BEHIND

THEY DEFINITELY COME BACK EVERY SO OFTEN, COMPLETELY UNANNOUNCED, BECAUSE I SAID SO

AFTER PRAN GOES TO SINGAPORE, WHEN HE COMES BACK ONCE A YEAR THEY GO TO THE VILLAGE FOR A BIT

MAYBE SOMETIMES PAT GETS LONELY WHILE PRAN'S GONE AND HE GOES TO THE VILLAGE FOR A FEW DAYS AND HANGS OUT WITH THE KIDS OR SOMETHING

I CANT TAKE IT IF THEY JUST DONT COME BACK SO THIS STUFF IS CANON NOW I DECIDED

KAMPUNG

MY FAVOURITE CHILD

I LOVE HIM SO MUCH

HIS NAO NONG DOLL EYE MASK???

DAMN OKAY THEN

YES

PLEASE DO

"think of this place as your home. you're always welcome here." YES. GOOD. THANK YOU SO MUCH

ITS NOT THE END OF THE JOURNEY

THEYRE COMING BACK AND THATS FINAL

THEY. ARE. DADS.

I LOVE THEM ALL SO MUCH

THEY MAKE ME SO HAPPY????

they're gonna fu-

they're definitely gonna fu-

AND THEY SAID "OF COURSE"

THERE IS HOPEEE

well duh, of course he did

(there's this one tiktok i saw of a clip, and it has been the main driving force for me to finally watch this, (alongside wanting to finish before my friend), and the clip wouldnt have happened if phu didn't sign it)

NO BUT SERIOUSLY

WATCH IT

I HAVE WATCHED THIS ON REPEAT SO MANY TIMES THAT I DONT KNOW WHO I AM ANYMORE

PFFFFTBAHAHAHAHAHA

THIS IS SO FUNNY OMG

THEYRE SUCH HUSBANDS AND BOYFRIENDS AND DADS I LOVE THEM

PLS ITS SO FUNNY

it honestly looks kinda like a horror film or smth

i just love them so much

you guys have literally had sex before, what do you mean a "closer look"

bro hes probably licked those abs before, what are you doing

PLS-

LIKE YOU'RE ANY BETTER?

I JUST LOVE MY DADS SO MUCH

ah frick im out of images again

IM TWELVE MINUTES THROUGH THE EPISODE AND IVE ALREADY USED UP MY 30 SCREENSHOTS FOR ONE TUMBLR POST, WHAT THE HELL

im making another one, ill be back, i promise

#quodekash watches our skyy 2 despite desperately needing to sleep #our skyy 2 #bad buddy #bad buddy series #a tale of thousand stars #atots #1000stars #patpran #phutian #phuphatian #ohmnanon #earthmix #ohm pawat #nanon korapat #earth pirapat #mix sahaphap #our skyy 2 x bad buddy #our skyy 2 x a tale of thousand stars #our skyy 2 x atots

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zorcskhakis · 2 years

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bakurae dinner with ryous dad

(I REALLY LIKE HOW THIS ONE TURNED OUT AAAAAAAAA!!!!

It's more on the serious side, but I absolutely LOVED building this scene I hope you enjoy <3)

"Well... Here we are." Ryou looked at the door to the restaurant with a grimace.

"You sure about this?"

Ryou glanced over at Bakura, surprised at the genuine thoughtfulness with which he asked the question.

"Yeah," Ryou said with a chuckle. "I already told him over the phone, so... If he doesn't actually see you, he might have me sectioned or something."

He recalled the phone call with a grimace, the way he'd stammered and stumbled over his words until an avalanche of everything came out. Hi, Father, hope the latest expedition is going well, don't think I'll be able to join after all. By the way, I'm gay... and I'm dating that friend I've told you about... Yugi, you remember, right?

Also, remember that ancient Egyptian artifact you brought back for me all those years ago? Well... there was a spirit living inside it.

Something weird happened, and now he has his own body, and... we're friends. He's been living at the apartment with me, and it's... nice. It's a bit like having a sibling again. Of course, sometimes we fight, but that happened with Amane too, I'm sure you remember...

I'm - I'm getting ahead of myself, though... would you like to meet him, next time you're in town? I mean, you have already, but... last time you thought he was me.

Ryou had thought the line might have disconnected, for how long his father had been silent. Finally, he had chuckled nervously and said, So, ah... you and Yugi, eh? That's wonderful, Ryou, I'm happy for you... and... what's this about your new friend?

"In we go, then," Bakura said with a shrug, putting an arm around Ryou's shoulders and tugging him along inside.

Ryou took a breath and stepped inside. It was a chilly evening, and the air inside the restaurant was warm. They approached the host stand, and Ryou suddenly felt like everyone in the restaurant was staring straight through him. Yes, I'm just here with my strange ghost twin to meet my father, who I haven't seen in almost two years.

Surprisingly, Bakura spoke for him. "We're meeting someone." He was being so well-behaved, Ryou was almost proud.

"Certainly. What's the name?" the hostess asked.

"Ah, Bakura," Ryou answered.

She gave a friendly smile. Of course, to her they appeared to simply be brothers, here to have dinner with their dad. No one was staring through him, and no one seemed to think he was as strange as he felt.

"Yes, right this way."

They followed the young woman to the back of the restaurant - as they passed a dumbwaiter, Ryou watched Bakura snatch a steak knife sitting atop it, slipping it into his pocket with a wicked grin. Of course, he could never stay perfectly well-behaved for long. Ryou narrowed his eyes at him, but said nothing.

"Here we are!" The hostess chirped as they rounded a corner and came upon the table where Ryou's father sat. "Your server will be with you shortly."

Everyone stayed frozen in place as she walked off. Ryou watched his father's eyes widen.

"Goodness," he breathed. "There are two of you."

"Hello, Father," Ryou greeted quietly, already regretting agreeing to this. He had no idea what Bakura would do, no idea what his father would do, no idea what he would do--

"Ryou," his father answered, with a nervous smile. "You're looking well. Very well, even." He seemed surprised. "And your friend, ah..."

Ryou interjected into the hesitation. "Well, we've just been calling him Bakura. That was his name, too... in his original life."

"Charmed," Bakura said, short and clipped. He wasn't happy about this, Ryou could tell, but he mercifully kept his feelings to himself.

Ryou's father nodded incredulously as Ryou and Bakura took their seats at the table.

"Well, I must say," he whispered. "I knew there were stories about the Ring, and I consider myself quite superstitious, but I never thought... anything like this could..." He shook his head. "So then... how long have you two known eachother?"

"Since the beginning," Ryou explained. "Ever since I've had the ring. And Yugi, he's the same... he had a spirit too, and now he has his own body." He exhaled, feeling exhausted. "It's a bit complicated. Something happened with the millennium items, and now they're both... human." Ryou glanced over at Bakura, who looked back with a shrug; he did not object to the designation. Not a spirit, not a thrall to Zorc - a human.

"I... I see." Ryou's father buried his face in the water glass in front of him, taking a long drink. "How is Yugi?" he asked hurriedly, so eager to change the subject Ryou could practically feel it radiating from him.

"Good. We've been working on getting the game company off the ground... I think it's going well. Marik and Bakura have been helping us, too - Marik, he's Bakura's boyfriend. He also lives with us... at the apartment."

"Well," Ryou's father chuckled. "It must be getting crowded, then."

The evening continued surprisingly uneventfully. Ryou's father politely asked questions to form a picture of Ryou's life, how long he and Yugi had been together, if either of them planned on going to university or if they intended to devote all their time to the game company. Not that he minded either way, he was quick to add - it seemed like they had a very good plan and a decent chance of success. He avoided bringing up Bakura, avoided looking at him; he asked just enough polite questions so that it would not be overtly obvious he was desperately trying not to see his son's twisted clone, and Bakura replied with just enough short answers to keep a real conversation from forming between them. Ryou's father ordered a french dip, which he had ordered at every restaurant that had one since Ryou could remember, Ryou ordered a big bowl of tortellini with meat sauce. Bakura ordered prime rib - the most expensive dish on the menu - and vindictively pushed aside the vegetable medley it had been served with before eating it straight off the fork like he always did. Ryou's father seemed unsetted, but the polite smile never left his face.

It was pleasant, easy - but agonizing. Ryou wanted nothing more than to run from the building. He was all too happy when his phone buzzed in his pocket, and he glanced at it under the table to find a text message from Marik.

done hanging out with ishizu and bakura isn't answering my texts 🙄do u need me to come get u guys

Ryou's father noticed him reading the message. "One of your friends?"

"Oh, yeah," Ryou answered hurriedly, seeing the convenient out before him as he hurriedly tapped out a response. Yes please thanks. "Yes, I forgot, we agreed we were going to meet up with Marik tonight." Lying was almost too easy, now.

"Oh, that's quite alright," his father answered. He could have pretended to be a little less relieved... "I really should probably get back to my hotel, I do have a red-eye flight in the morning..."

"Yes, of course."

Bakura finished the last of his meat and set his utensils on the plate with a clatter. "I'll be waiting outside," he announced.

Ryou's father waved down the waiter for the bill, and looked only mildly shocked at the price, which, given the price of Bakura's meal, had to be in the triple digits. He withdrew a small stack of cash from his coat, and placed it in the folder, then stood and started toward the exit.

"Sorry about the short visit, again..." He chuckled, scratching at the back of his head, the same nervous tic Ryou knew he himself had. "I feel terrible I've been so wrapped up in work, but this has been an extensive expedition."

"It's alright, I understand," Ryou answered. It wasn't a lie this time; he had made his peace with his father's limited presence in his life. He understood their relationship would be nothing more brief and awkward meetings from here forward - and he accepted that.

His father's nervous smile softened, somewhat. "I am... glad to see that you're doing so well. And I'm happy you have friends."

Ryou tried to answer, but a lump had formed in his throat; all he could do was nod.

His father glanced out the window. "Ah, there's my cab. Ryou - good luck with your game company, alright? I'll give you a call when I land."

"Alright," Ryou answered, barely audible. "Have a good trip."

His father gave his hand a squeeze, and then wove through the crowd of the restaurant, disappearing out the door.

Ryou stood in place for a long time, feeling numb and holding back tears. Just as he always did after meeting with his father.

After a long while, he started forward to the exit. It had started to rain outside; he sighed. There was no way to avoid getting soaked if they would be riding home with Marik.

He found Bakura standing on the sidewalk not far from the entrance - Marik had already arrived, as it happened, and he and Bakura were excitedly celebrating a box of Andes mints Bakura had stolen from the hostess stand on his way out.

"There you are--" Bakura started as he saw Ryou - but he stopped abruptly.

Marik grimaced. "You alright, Ryou?"

Ryou realized his gloominess must have been obvious in his expression - he tried to smile, but it came out a grimace.

"Yeah," he sighed. "I'm okay."

No sooner had he spoken than Bakura stepped forward, pulling him into a rough hug - and Marik soon followed suit.

He sniffled. "Thanks, guys."

"Ugh, don't cry," Bakura chided, pulling back and patting Ryou's face. He withdrew a mint from the box he had shoved into his pocket, unwrapping it and shoving it in Ryou's mouth. "Here, have a mint."

Ryou could not keep from laughing. "Mmph - okay, fine."

"Eh, who needs dads when you've got us. We're way more fun." Marik, too, pulled away, ruffling Ryou's hair before stepping back over to the bike and handing helmets to both of them. "Ryou, you get sidecar."

"Fine by me," Ryou agreed. "Let's go home."

The word felt good. Home.

#ygoau roommate circus #bakura #ryou bakura #yami bakura #ryou bakura's father #marik ishtar #HOOOOOOOOH this one got really long #DAMN i like how this turned out tho #ask prompts #THANK YOU FOR THIS ONE WHAT A GOOD PROMPT #what's harder: coming out to your dad as gay or telling him you have a fucked up ghost twin

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aroaceconfessions · 2 years

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im feeling kinda bad rn, so imma just, vent in here a bit

so, last winter vacations i discovered i was aroace, and it has been one of the coolest things that has happened to me, because everything made so much sense, and i felt so, so happy to know that my experiences were not weird or unique to me, and now that i knew, i could change my life for the better.

I was so excited to share this with my friends, and to be able to explain on detail why this made me so happy, and how did i experienced life.

then i got scared, cuz some of my friends have done stuff that, in retrospective, was aphobic, and it hurt me then, but now knowing all this new stuff about myself, hurted more

so, i decided i was coming out just to a few, and i had it all planed

the first girl to who my came out wasn't as intended, but it was okay. She is my best friend, and during vacations she gets depressed, and that day she was feeling awful, she felt like she was going to suffer from the loneliness she felt on that moment all her life, because she has never had a good and genuine romantic relationship.

so i was talking to her, and trying to make her feel lovable, i said all the things i found cool about her, and how she was such and important person for me, and that i loved her a lot.

then she said something like "yea, but it's not romantic love :/" and, i wanted to make her feel like other kinds of love are important, and that romance isn't everything in life, that she could be happy even if she didn't have a romantic partner.

(all of this without making her feelings less, i also told her that she is a big deal, and that anybody would be lucky to date her, and that someone eventually was going to)

so i came out to her, in a "there's a lot of people that are full without romantic and sexual love, so you can be full too, and then when you get a romantic partner, you will be happy and with a plus, like putting glitter on a cool drawing!"

it went well, and im happy i came out to her

but the other times were not so great.

the other times i wanted it to be about how i felt, i wanted it to be kind of special to me (ofc not saying that i was disapointed that the first time wasnt about me, i just wanted at least one of the rest to be how i wanted it to be)

so i decided trying different stuff each time. like coming out with a joke, an sticker, i was going to fucking paint an As card of the asexual colors, i was going to wear a black and a white ring, i was going to do a lot of cool stuff

but i wanted to test the waters with another friend, to see if some of them even knew ace existed

and, uh, i picked her because she was openly pan, and she felt safe, and wow, she is the one that says the most accidental aphoboc stuff out of all my friends

but i'll get to that

first, i had a bunch lf conversations of me trying to get her to understand what i was saying, and i was so fucking obvious but she just, didn't get it??

I- okay, once we were talking (with the first person i came out to btw) about their past crushes and such, and she asked for mine, and i said "oh, i havent have one, i dont really get those feelings"

and it became a very awkard me-trying-to-explain-that-im-aroace and-she-didnt-understanding-me conversstion, and my other friend jus sat there watching (that last thing was okay tho, she was still kind of down)

so i let it be, and tried to come out to another friend

this one was with a joke, and it was both great and awful

It was something like

*she making a pan joke about how she plays for the other side*

*me making a joke about how i dont have a side*

she: *inmediate understanding that im ace*

And we didnt talk about it, of how i was aro as well, because another friend arrived and aaaaaaaaa

im so mad about it lol

The next one was a f u c k i n g a c c i d e n t

A friend i was so not coming out to made a comment about a classmate being ace, and i said, damn same OUT LOUD, WHEN I THOUGHT I DID THAT ON MY FUCKING MIND

only she and the first friend i came out to where there, but it was a "oh shit" moment, i fucked up so badly

she saw my oh sit face, and said that it was okay, that she was demiace

and then there's the weird stuff

i told ALL my friends how cool it was that on a bday party with middleschool friends, they all acted so normal about me nlt having crushes, like "ah yea, we know u havent ever had one :)", cuz it felt so nice

and i thought it was not going to click to them that i was aroace just because of that one random story i told them because

a) they were d e n s e, like the second girl i tried to come out to, i had already been making subtle jokes about my aroaceness, and NO ONE UNDERSTOOD, and i counted with that everytime i did a joke. i did them carefully, not wanting to out myself, but enjoying my recently discovered identity

b) i phrased it so carefully and casual, and we changed the topic so quick, and no one asked me anything or gave any sign of have just witnessed someone coming out to them

but like, a week later, they all knew?????

and they didnt said anything to me

they just

knew

and somethimes they'll just trow a joke about my aroaceness and i'll be like ???????

for example, there was this time they were talking about crushes and one of them said something like "jaja [my name] is inmune"

and ??????

hello????

how do u know that????

I'm 80% sure the friend i came out on accident outed me to all my friends

and that they talked about me behind me, asking the questions i had the right to answer, but instead they'll just, speculate or something

and it sucks, mostly because i didnt got to explain my boundaries, and they are so fucking open about it

at this rate, im surprised the entire school doesnt know!

and a bunch of sruff that msde me uncomfortable (aka: how i didnt get to talk to them about how much they hurted me when they pressured me to date this guy, how they'll bring their partners to hang outs even if the partner wasn't invited, how the ones with a partner would kiss infront of me, how i felt i was less important that the partners even if we had been friends for way longer than the time they knew the partner, stuff like that)

just, hasn't changed, because i never got to talk about it

and now i wish i just came out to the first friend, and i wish i could made them forget

specially since if i got a partner now (a qpp is what i want, but i would be okay dating an allo, just, i'd have to explain to them all the stuff i didn't get to explain to my friends) they'll fucking invalidate me, i can feel them judging me and thinking to themselves "oh, she was not for real, she has a relationship woth someone!"

aáaaaaaa it suckssss

i cant even say someone is pretty, cuz i have to watch my steps and avoid anything that might make them think im not aroace enough

im not even sure they understand how split attraction works, im so done

if u read all that, advice is appreciated :)

#aromantic #asexual #aroace #arospec #acespec #aspec #aroacespec #arose #coming out #aphobia #friends #friendship

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plague-doctor-who · 5 months

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Hiii, my love <3

It’s 1:26 AM (EST 👀)

I just came to say I love you. I hope you’re resting well after todays chaos. Thank you genuinely… for everything you do for me, I had such a good time tonight. Our date was really fun (rip horsey). Your laugh is contagious and it makes me smile. You’re absolutely 100% wonderful. Even though I’ve already stressed enough that I wish I had a way with words as do you… I guess I’m kinda good at mulling them over and picking something out eventually…

I can’t exactly pinpoint the depth of my feelings accurately through words. So, I’ll just say I love you again and again and again.

I love you.

So, anyways, love you <33 I hope you’re resting. I will be too. Very shortly!

Sweet dreams, darling<33 Konoronhkwa et je t’aime et ich liebe ditch et aloha wau iā ‘oe…mon amoUr (lol).

D’accord, bonne nuit!! Mon doux garçon, mon gentil garçon. Et un jour, mon doux et gentil mari 🥰😘

aaaaaaaaa how did I get so lucky to have a girl as sweet and amazing and awesome and kind and eloquent and perfect as youuuuuuu~

I had such a good time toooooo!!!!! (even if you couldn't see me for half of it lol) Your smile makes me smile and I just really love seeing you so happy~

Really, what do you mean, only kinda good!? You're amazing at it, my sweet little sugarcane!!! I said multiple times that I preferred what you came up with over the things that I would've said lol

Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa so much loveeeeeeeee~ *explodes*

I love you tooooooooooo and even with my "way with words" it'll never be enough to communicate just how deeply you're rooted in my heart, nestled in there all nice and warm and happy and comfy~

I am so, so, so, so, so, so, so, so, so, so, so, so, so, so, so, so, so, so, so, so, so, so, so, so, so, so, so, so, so, so, so, so, so, so, so, so, so, so, so, so, so, so, so, so, so, so, so, so, so, so, so, so, so, so, so, so, so, so, so, so, so, so, so, so, so, so, so, so, so, so, so, so glad that we managed to find each other

You are my favorite person in the whole wide universe and I will always be finding new things to appreciate about you so that great love I feel will always be increasing

But nothing quite comes close to beating out the simple three-word phrase that started it all

I love you.

I always have and I always will.

#pdw x shy #^ ^ <333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333 #♥︎♡♥︎♡♥︎♡♥︎♡♥︎♡♥︎♡♥︎♡♥︎♡♥︎♡♥︎♡♥︎#ilyyyyyyy~#:33333

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having-conniptions · 10 months

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KinnPorsche ep 9 Rewatch Rambles:

Ah yeah Tawan's aiming straight for Kinn's soft spot right from the start, he knows how to get to him... manipulative little shit, he deserved to be tricked by Vegas in the same way tbh - gotta love the irony on that one huh

Why he gotta be so handsome tho I feel conflicted

Bruh no one's gonna buy your sad puppy face even after u got poisoned (says the person who totally fell for his sad puppy face the first time around)

Tankhun is the most sensible one for sure

"I was Mr. Kinn's closest guard when he and Tawan were dating" POOR BIG I FEEL SO BAD FOR HIM

Kinda impressed by Tawan knowing exactly how the conversation is going tho lol

Kimmmmmmmmmmmm aaaaaaaaa he can't get Chay's song out of his head and he's even hearing the backing vocals, instrumentals etc

I love how Arm is the only one to notice there's something going on between Porsche and Kinn lmao

Ohhhhhhhh Kinn is sending Pete to keep an eye on Vegas HERE WE GOOOOO

Tawan's food looks good

Tawan and Kinn have no business being this cute OKAY LISTEN I know they're both faking and trying to trick each other into thinking they still have feelings for each other BUT WHAT WAS THE REASON

"You have a meeting, don't you, Mr. Kinn?" "What meeting?" *taps forehead* "Think." LMAO I CAN'T WITH THESE IDIOTS

Tawan is such a cocky bastard, always emphasizing how he knows Kinn and his family and the house and the food and-

Tankhun honey you're so right

Yok just immediately knows everything huh

"Do you think I should make him jealous?" "No!" Gawd I'm so glad we've got you, Yok

I know that the scene where Porsche slides into frame wearing only socks, undies and a shirt is a movie reference but I keep forgetting what movie this iconic scene first appeared in lol

Kinn in his silky PJs aaaahhhhh

I don't have the words to express my respect for Apo for being an amazing actor and portraying a character that can't act for shit lmao Porsche how is Kinn even buying that

The way he poses but makes sure to cough bc "oh yeah I'm pretending to be sick, right"

OKAY BUT PORSCHE PRETTY MUCH GRABBING KINN BY THE NECK AND YEETING HIM INTO THE SOFA what was the reason WHAT WAS THE REASON (other than reminding people that bottom does not mean submissive)

I mean yeah Yok said take charge but BOYYYY

Drunk Pete owns my entire heart

Kinn: *emerges from under the covers* Porsche: *fixes Kinn's hair* why do I feel like that was Apo trying to fix it so the stylist wouldn't get mad lmao

Pete. I love you but NOT NOW. GO TO SLEEP.

The little timelapse lmao

"You couldn't sleep either huh Porsche?" Nah he just got done banging your ex

Porsche's like "mmm sweet victory"

Oh Pete and Vegas at the temple ayyyy let's go

"Don't let them know we're watching" uh yeah too late lol

I WANT THE SHIRT VEGAS IS WEARING also isn't that the same shirt he wears later when he puts his fully clothed legs in the fucking pool?

I had to pause just to look for a Vegas' necklace or at least a dupe - haven't found one yet

Lmao @ Vegas flirting and Pete not knowing how to react

The little post-it omg

Bro why is Tawan so fine I hate this

Arm is an actual genius

And also adorable and a supportive bestie aaaaa I love him

Why is Tawan always showering lmao

GET THIS MAN SOME CLOTHES

And also a mask, if I have to see his goddamn dimples one more time I will stop caring that he's a dirty traitor and I don't like him

...fuck.

Awww Chay's making the guitar pick 🥺❤️

Ah. There's Vegas visiting Porsche at the pool with some wine. Literally forgot that that happened in this episode but that explains why he's wearing the same shirt

Wet rag of a man

I still don't believe he's just trying to get close to Porsche in order to manipulate him, sure that too but I think he also does kinda like him - not in the way that he's pretending to but I think they really could have been good real friends

Now Porsche hears Kinn agreeing to getting the evidence with Tawan but the reason why Kinn does that is because he saw Porsche chilling with Vegas WHY CAN'T YOU TWO COMMUNICATE FOR ONCE

The way Tawan finds the USB stick but keeps "feeling" for it just so he has an excuse to reach further under the bed and lean into Kinn's crotch BOO YOU WHORE

Lmao Porsche falling into Kinn's arms

MAYBE IF YOU GUYS HAD COMMUNICATED- u know what I give up

Oooooof the angssssssttttt

Kinn having to pretend he actually doesn't trust Porsche

Porsche 100% believing it

Oh great KimChay is here to break my heart even more AAAAAHHHH THEIR SMIIIILESSSSSS

Tawan and his warm milk istg

Tankhun the world needs more of your wisdom

"Run away with me, Porsche" nah Porsche belongs with Kinn BUT I'LL COME WITH YOU

#kinnporsche ep 9 #kinnporsche the series #kinnporsche rewatch

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alwynthetiredreader · 1 year

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2032 RELEASES I'M MOST EXCITED FOR!

Ander and Santi Were Here by Jonny Garza Villa

Fifteen Hundred Miles is just one of my favorite books ever so I cannot wait for this, especially considering there's a nonbinary LI!! Bless Jonny.

ALSO HAVE YOU SEEN THAT COVER????

Travelers Along The Way by Aminah Mae Safi

Tell Me How You Really Fell is also one of my favorites and so far, it looked like Aminah Mae Safi had only written contemporaries?? so this looks like a fun change, it's a fantasy robin hood remix, very fun!

Heavenly Tyrant by Xiran Jay Zhao

again,,, another writer who wrote one of my favorites, and actually I'm obsessed with Iron Widow, there's a movie in the works that I'm just so hyped for and Xiran is coming to ComicCon in Portugal in December and i got tickets for it, I'm just AAAAAAAAA

but either way, the sequel looks fantastic, that cover? *chefs kiss* AND XIRAN SAID IN AN INTERVIEW THE SEQUEL HAS MATH LESBIANS!!

Breakup From Hell by Ann Dávila Cardinal

that cover was very quick to catch my eye tbh and then i found out the author and MC are latine so i was sold, but also that's one hell of a premise! HS girl tired of everything meets guy who seems to have this strange influence on her and then she finds out he's sorta like the devil?! so now she needs to break up with him sjfbsadkhbdg it sounds amazing

Love Letters From Joy by Melissa See

from a disabled author, with ace rep like come on... look at the female MC with her little ace flag tote bag, again was sold very quickly

AND IT'S ACADEMIC RIVALS TO LOVERS?!?!

The Wicked Bargain by Gabe Cole Novoa

Queer latine pirates was all I needed tbh. And again, gorgeous cover!

The Fraud Squad by Kyla Zhao

I had the pleasure of helping this author do a cover reveal with a book trailer and everything, I'm patiently waiting for this one. It's like a Singaporean The Devil Wears Prada and I'm all for it

The Haunting of Alejandra by V. Castro

Of course there's another latine book on the list, this one a gothic horror based on the folklore of La Llorona!

Sorry, Bro by Taleen Voskuni

Armenian sapphics... set in Armenia!! With an MC learning to embrace all of her identities, it sounds amazing and beautiful cover as well.

Always The Almost by Edward Underhill

TRANS REP!!! TRANS REP ALERT!!!

It's faking dating, one of them is a pianist and the other a cartoonist, omfg i already know I'll love this one so much

The Wrong King of Weird by James Ramos

Again, cover caught my eye instantly and it's by a nonbinary author!!!

Set in high school, it also looks like it's gonna be dealing with racism one way or the other. The art style on the cover is gorgeous and the characters look very interesting, I'm excited to meet them

The Dark Place by Britney S. Lewis

I absolutely adored The Undead Truth of Us and I was waiting for this announcement for a couple of months, and obviously, that cover doesn't disappoint. I don't even need to know what this one is about, i'll buy anything Britney writes

#alwyn talks #2023 book releases #book releases #books #diverse books #xiran jay zhao #britney s lewis #jonny garza villa #james ramos #edward underhill #gabe cole novoa #melissa see #taleen voskuni #kyla zhao #aminah mae safi #ann dávila cardinal #Alejandra by V. Castro

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anilord · 2 years

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"200 pages of Jantom" part 2

Well, after the first half you didn't kill me, actually here's the second one for you

Remember, I gave the author a social loan at the end of the last part? I was in a hurry. Because further along the plot is the same 12 series. And you've probably already guessed what I'll say about her - yes, she's taken out of the context of the comic. In the comic, we see Janna and Tom in a pretty good relationship - they don't mind spending time together, they had a lot of moments that brought them closer, for Janna, Tom is really dear, because he caused changes in her during which she overcame her selfishness in the form of reflection. And in the series, Janna, on the contrary, behaves like an egoist mixed with a rowdy and tries to change for the worse the one she loves dearly (but still uses). And Tom, as you remember, was reluctant to communicate with Janna at that time. Of course, I understand that he with Star, but Janna hardly means little to him, after everything that happened between them, he had to show her at least a drop of interest. And so the level of the relationship of the characters in the series is the level of the second chapter of the comic, and even the story is similar - involuntary interaction, actions purely in the interests of each individually and the realization that life comes first. So Mark once again flew by comparing his comic with the canon

Okay, what's next for us? Tom's journey. In fact, a very important part for me, because when in episode 17 Tom reported that after the trip he decided to part with Star, I asked myself "What kind of trip is this after which he decided to do it, what was there". Let's see what Sir Moringmark tells us

And his version is this - after a quarrel with Star, Tom decides to take Janna with him. In fact, this is logical - as I said, she is also dear to Tom, and why not go with her, since Star does not want to. It's more fun together! And Janna doesn't mind. She doesn't even mind looking at the kingdom of Hades and, once there, she immediately goes for...

Stand, THE KINGDOM OF HADES?!?!??

I'm sorry, but why? Remember the frame that I asked you to remember in the first part. Yes, where was the joke about Dante. So, it doesn't seem to bother you that in the same universe there is both a Christian hell and the world of the god of pagan Greece? It confuses me, it's strange that Moringmark Helheim didn't add for more beauty.

Well, fuck with him, Jenna goes shopping, buys a bunch of stuff there, including all sorts of potions and accidentally spills a truth potion on her head. Tom decides to take advantage of this and asks Janna all sorts of tricky questions, among which there is such a:

Aaaaaaaaa! So that's it, comrades, it turns out that she wanted to write off her homework all this time. And I, the fool, think why is she just climbing up to him from the whole class, he's the only one doing homework. And she praised his fragrance before her date with Jackie, hoping that he would let her write off her homework. And when she spoke about the call in case of divorce, she meant the divorce of chemical elements. And when Marko wrote in the "guide to dimensions" that Janna was flirting with him, he made a typo and wanted to write "He wants to write off my homework"

So, that's it, I raise a huge sign with the inscription "Sarcasm" because my limit of sitting with a serious face is simply exhausted. Well, in short, you understood, either this potion was Chinese, or the potion "I say what the plot needs"

Well, the last question from Tom is who he is for Janna - a friend or a tool to use. Janna almost confesses, but stops herself in time. Then there is a scene with a necklace - local hooligans steal it from a backpack, Janna chases them, almost dies, but Tom still saves her again and tells her not to risk her life for such a moronic thing. And then it turns out that it turns out that this necklace (ah, I didn't say some that he was looking at before telling Star about the breakup) Janna bought him, thinking that he would like it. That is, she took care of him. Again, she almost confesses, Tom gets tired of this concealment of information about Janna's attitude to him and he leaves. Janna is also not thrilled that her relationship with Tom has reached such a misunderstanding and still finds the strength to tell everything about her feelings. She also says that she didn't talk about it before because she didn't want to interfere with him with the Star, kept her feelings to herself and couldn't forget about them (the base is sitting on the base and driving the base). Well, the fact that I'm glad that I told everything, because it would still torment Janna for a lot of time and would eventually become a problem. So why wait when it will be like this - it's better to tell everything at once (a wise thought, respect for it). Well, Tom is already traveling alone, because now it's awkward to do it together.

And according to the canon, after returning from it, he breaks up with Star...

Listen, guys, I may not really understand something in this life, but let's imagine such a situation. You're a guy. The most ordinary, but at the same time with strong emotional problems. You have a girlfriend with whom you once broke up because of these very problems and because of this decided that it would be necessary to start fighting them. With great difficulty, you cope with this and find that girl again. And your relationship with her is basically good - she loves you, you love her too, of course you quarrel sometimes, but where without it? And you have a friend. You also seem to treat her normally, but worse than a girlfriend - you think she is strange, you spend time with her only when the girl is busy. And for good reason - it has a bad effect on you, forcing you to return to the old problems with anger. And now she declares that she loves you. What will you do? Think? Right. Reconsider your attitude towards her? I don't rule it out. But I somehow doubt very much that you will break up with a girlfriend with whom you have a great relationship for the sake of this friend with whom the relationship will be obviously shitty. That's the same with Tom. Why the fuck did he break up with Star for Janna. I repeat once again - if someone loves you, then you don't have to love him too and meet only with him. You are you, he is he, you have just different paths

Yes, someone will say that Tom broke up with Star not for the sake of a relationship with Janna, but because she just said that it's better not to wait until something explodes and immediately speak out. So, smart guy. First of all, show me something in Tom and Star's relationship that could explode. Does one of them dislike someone else? No, both love each other and love each other very much. Maybe someone has previously expressed the idea that they are too different? Not either. Then what are you going to blow up in their relationship? No, episode 15 doesn't count. It was the only breakdown in two seasons, before that Tom had never been upset by Star's fault. And the point there was not in the relationship itself, but in the fact that Star was confused and could not decide on her path and perhaps even in a forced Starco. So no, there could not have been any explosions in the Startom.

Secondly, even if they were, we will fast forward to the next chapter where our company is going to Mewni and Tom and Janna are talking in the back seat. Tom declares that he did not reject her then in the kingdom of Hades. Janna naturally understood what he was driving at, you also understood it, well, I also immediately realized that Tom was offering Janna a relationship. Oh, my God, really? Let me remind you that only a day has passed since he broke up with Star - and he is already spinning a new relationship. Of course I'm not an expert in love, but I have a lot of friends who broke up. And you know, they spent months retreating after all this, it was morally difficult for them to meet someone else, it's like cheating on a lover. And then, as if it wasn't hard for Tom to part with Star, since he was so quickly ripe for a new relationship. Janna is of course a smart girl and also understands this. And you know what Tom says

Fuck, this comic is going to drive me into a coffin soon. What does unicorns have to do with it, you stupid head? How are they related to your relationship? In my opinion, even where unicorns live, there are laws of logic in relationships. Therefore, please do not confuse the madness that is associated with the ent of your world and the madness that is associated with the dementia of the comic author, who sleeps and sees how to set you up with Janna, not caring how you treat Star. Seriously, this act of Tom is very indifferent to Star - he pursued her, dated for a long time, cherished her, she became almost the closest person to him - and he breaks up with her so easily, as if he didn't love her at all, which, of course, is not true. And for the sake of someone - for the sake of the one to whom his attitude is worse. Before Janna confessed to Tom, he was just friends with her. And this friendship did not even reach the level of Marco - Tom did not appreciate her, considered Janna not cool, but strange, for him she was just an acquaintance with whom you can hang out while there is no Star . That is, there was no very warm relationship between them, and then Tom himself offers Janna a relationship immediately after she confessed to him without even thinking about the situation. Needless to say, it doesn't work that way in life.

So there's a double combo - and a violation of the canon according to which it was still difficult for him to throw the Star, and the most trivial love line. I thought it was impossible to do more crooked than the creators of the series did - but no, Moringmark surpassed them. It took Star and Marco at least some time to understand, and then Janna fell in love with nothing, that Tom didn't give a damn about all his relationships for her. And for some reason, only I notice it, the rest are like normal, right? Nonsense...

Okay, let's move on. The eighth chapter starts with the fact that Star announces advice on what to do with the warriors of Solaria, and Jannа finally remembers about Tom. After a pretty decent amount of time. Well, thank God she remembers at least, and not as Star - "don't worry, he's probably already coming here." That is, the disregard for the fact in the final here has been preserved in full.

We also see a small flashback - Tom gives the necklace to Janna before he goes to the world of magic, because he is afraid of damaging it. This shows that it is still dear to him, and I will not deceive Janna, who gave it to him, is also dear to him.

And Eclipsa decides to take a little poke

Warriors of Solaria... Murders... Destruction... I'm sleeping.

Janna quietly steals her wand and opens eye with it, depending on where Tom is. First of all, I can't help but note that the marks on Janna's cheeks look like a tattoo on Tom's shoulder. Well, it's kind of great. And I also want to express a small complaint about the wand.

(Are the Olds here?)

Janna returns Tom's memory with the help of a necklace (at the same time, the comic emphasizes that it returned his memory to him, but the appearance of Janna herself does not. So I was wrong, only the necklace is expensive to him) and together they decide to stuff the muzzle of a dark unicorn. But do you remember Janna in the magical dimension put a unicorn under her hat? So, he jumps out from under her and spoils the spell. And then comes the second good scene in terms of drama - the spell is closing, Janna is worried about Tom, he says he can handle it, he didn't get into such scrapes. And Janna, still worried about Tom, returns the wand to Eclipsa...

But as in the case of reflection, this drama was spoiled by the canon. After all, it is logical that after this, Janna had to open the eye again, like if it was spoiled once, it shouldn't open anymore, should it? Or, as a last resort, go to a meeting and raise the issue there that Tom is stuck there in the world of magic, we need to get him out as soon as possible. But Janna doesn't do any of this, because there was nothing like that in the canon and the negligent creators remembered about Tom only at the end of the series. And as a result, it turns out that Janna is not so worried about Tom, although the author clearly wanted her to do it, but he was not given the events of the original source.

So, the last two chapters. The penultimate one happens literally only after the destruction of magic. And how long do you think it can last after destruction? I don't know what you think, but Mark has it for a whole bunch of time for which

1) Tom manages to find Jannа in the big castle

2) They touchingly embrace

3) They sort out ways for Janna to get to Earth and understand that there is no way

4) Janna says that even if she is stuck here, she is glad that she is with him

And the magic disappears and transfers Janna to Earth only when Tom decides to take her by the hand. And for so long, the magic has disappeared. Of course, I understand that there may be some kind of magical vacuum when the magic has not completely disappeared after the destruction, but even if there is one, it lasts for seconds, during which Tom would not even have time to reach the castle. And so it turns out a plot blunder for the sake of a beautiful love scene

Well, the final:

(Sorry for the fact that the video is in Russian, I did not find the English voice acting of this comic. And at the same time, this video is too beautiful not to insert it)

Well, this is our comic. Many will think that I will now say that it is stupid and does not justify his assessments. Well, that's the way it is. Of course, when I started reading it, I didn't count on a fucking love story like Romeo and Juliet, but based on what they write about him, I hoped at least for a love line at least a little better than in the animated series. But in the end I got some crap in which the characters fall in love with each other just like that, for no good reason, literally in a few minutes. The development of the couple also remained behind the scenes and we can only blindly believe that it was due to scenes that appeared from nowhere. As for the plot, the canon is violated in many places - although the events are guessed well, the characters often behave differently, their relationships do not coincide with the canonical ones. Okay, the author would have left the canon in order to develop a couple normally (exactly normally, and not in a couple of minutes), or vice versa - he would have tried to keep in touch with the canon, while sacrificing a couple, I would then have cursed him for one thing, but praised him for another, but there is nothing to praise stupidly, because there is a puncture in both cases. There are no explanations for the inconsistencies. The only thing I found is why the Makie Hand went to hell, and not to heaven, but firstly, who didn't care about it, secondly, it is shown so stupidly that it's not even funny. On the contrary, there are more questions about the ent of the Moringmark world - the same kingdom of Hades or magic that exists after its destruction for too long. So I will neither reread this comic nor recommend it to anyone.

However, I will lie if I say that the comic caused me exclusively negative emotions. There is something to grab onto in it - for example, I really liked the growth of Janna as a heroine, who was initially a non-hero, and in the end was very worried about Tom. Jokes and references are quite good, many scenes from the series are also well integrated, the same separation of Janna or unicorns under the cap, the canon is observed in most cases (however, far from being demonically perfect, as it was written in one of the reviews), there are also strong scenes.

And as for me, the main problem of the comic is exactly what I talked about earlier - the barriers of the canon. For this reason, for example, the power of those scenes with reflection and with a unicorn is reduced to nothing, the relationship of the characters goes beyond its scope, too, only because the canonical ones do not allow the couple to develop properly. Yes, and the curve of love could not be avoided - after all, within the framework of the series, there is definitely no way to develop a Jantom, despite the fact that Janna and Tom were absent from the screens for quite a long time. Let's take Tom - in the first or second season, he loved Star and could hardly have a relationship with someone else, could be friends, but did not want to meet. At the beginning of the third, he began to meet with Star and was not free so often - only if Star was busy, he could start communicating with someone else and talk. And after he threw the Star, there was no time left until the final with bird's nose and then he sat in the world of magic. And Janna, judging by her character, would hardly like to be in a relationship with anyone at all, well, she may have fallen in love with Marco, but this cannot be confirmed (exactly as well as refuted). So Moringmark initially set himself a difficult task and, as expected, failed to cope with it. The comic could be better if it took place after the canon, when there is more space for creativity, but we have something. "Tom vs Jannanigans" is not a good, but also not a terrible comic, it's considered a well-drawn fan fiction - sometimes stupid, sometimes good and deserves its solid three with a minus.

And you know, despite such a low rating, I was waiting for the continuation of this comic. A very good plot has matured in my head - Jannа and Tom looked around the newly-made world, realized what Star and Marco had done and began to fix everything, continuing to develop as a couple in parallel. Agree, it would make a good story and maybe even Moringmark would agree with me, but there is one problem - he does not consider the ending bad. He laughed at the problems of unification purely in one comic and that's it, and so we have only the unfinished "Another World" and "The Tale of Two Butterfly" from the post-final comics, where everything is fine by default. Well, short comics of course, which were firewood in the furnace of toxic Jantom shippers.

The second comic that will be put on trial here is "Explosion from the Past". It was released already at the sunset of Moringmark's work on SVTFOE, is his second completed major comic book and coincidentally, also about Jantom and also has 100 pages in its composition. Since we have such a bunch of coincidences, why not take it apart?

It all starts like a very ordinary comic - Star, Marco, Tom and Janna are playing volleyball on the beach of hell, but then some pale lady appears.

Naturally, I have a question in my head who is this, since you can't just take and introduce a character into the plot and not explain where he is from. They explain to us that this is a vampire named Avila, Tom's ex-girlfriend, whom he briefly met after a quarrel with Star. And then another question is why no one has talked about her before. I understand of course that I don't really want to, but at least in a negative way it could be mentioned. And this applies not only to Avila alone - why haven't we heard about vampires in principle in the universe? That's right, because they have never been there, and Moringmark decided to play popularity in the wake of the release of the TV series "Food Hall". Okay, I'm joking about the series, of course, but the spirit of some other vampire works is felt here - "Twilight" can certainly be remembered, and the author decided to add vampires to his universe probably because why not.

And you know, a little later I even deduced a possible history of Avila and Tom's relationship. After the split with Star, Tom realized that he needed to look for someone who looked like his then - that is, the same evil and selfish girl. And then our vampire caught his eye, they liked each other and it would seem that everything, but Avila (as it will be seen later) dominated the relationship and Tom did not like it, so he began to miss the kind and gentle Star and therefore began an operation to return her, breaking up with Avila

Well, that's my idea. The comic itself raises the question of a relationship with an immortal. Janna asks Dave about this and he tells us about the transfer of souls, actually what we knew from TVSJ. However, Mark decided to complicate everything and added a law that if a mortal lives to a hundred and ceases to receive souls, he quickly dies, but until Janna leaves Tom, it won't work. And like - why was it necessary to introduce this? That's a hell of a lot of questions. If Tom leaves Janna, will it work? Do you need to live up to a hundred "with your own years" or with these souls? If there are souls left after parting, will it be necessary to live them out or immediately death? How will the body understand that it was you who broke up with the immortal and not just quarreled there or made fun on the first of April? And what's there by the Star? Tom probably also gave her souls during their relationship, so Marco will also need to worry about not dying ahead of time. In short, this law was not needed and its only purpose was to develop a drama with dependence on relationships.

Well, then you know - Jannа is trying to catch Avila, while not going to Tom's birthday and starting to doubt whether she should meet Tom at all, the plot twist is that Avila is actually good, then there is a split of Jantom, then there is another sudden disclosure that Avila is actually evil and she set everything up, then an action scene, during which it turns out that it's better not to spoil with Janna, just to stay whole... Well, you understand. Plus, the author cut off each part at the most interesting place, which fueled the intrigue. In general, everything is fine.

It was great until this happened

Then I thought - what the fuck? Of course, Janna is inclined to do stupid things and loves mysticism, but she is clearly not an idiot and understands that what will happen to her will be what Tom will tell her later and what I was thinking about - from light intolerance (which for some reason Avila does not have, by the way - she is comfortably on the beach, in a well-lit church, in the houses of Marco and Sabrina, under the searchlight of a helicopter. Why is that? She doesn't seem to wear a pioneer tie like vampires in the "Food Hall". Stupid blunders again?) before the thirst for blood, because of which not only she, but the whole city will suffer, it is necessary to drink this blood from someone. And why would she need to be a vampire then? The answer is obvious - for the sake of immortality and life with Tom.

And that's when I realized that everyone has arrived, Hans, bring a flamethrower. Janna in the series is one of the few heroes who kept their sanity and adequacy at a time when almost everyone spoke through the mouth of the screenwriter so that the plot was. And Moringmark just instantly turned her into a complete fool who is ready to do any swinishness for the sake of love. It is clear that Janna would never have done this in the series, since she knows how to weigh the pros and cons and certainly would not put love above everything that was seen from the same comic when she made a choice not in favor of Tom and went to catch a vampire. So almost the last bastion of common sense in this love madhouse Moringmark just took and leaked. But I was hoping that Tom would arrive soon and talk some sense into her.

Tom arrives, but the further into the forest the more firewood. First of all, he suddenly has wings. It's beautiful, of course, but what the hell are they doing to him? After all, he flies perfectly without them, he does not need them from a purely biological point of view, I am silent about the fact that they would not fit inside his body. And even if he had them, why didn't he let them out before? In general, again some nonsense for the sake of a beautiful scene.

So, Tom defeats Avila, throws her out into the street, where the police are waiting for her, to whom she surrenders for some reason. What for? She could easily engage them in battle, run away at the very least-why would she give up? Well, then I hoped that she has a tactic and she adheres to it.

And Tom approaches the dead Jannа and shows another of his horseradish knows where the ability to resurrect people with the help of the transfer of souls came from. And here exactly the same questions - from where and where was it before? I understand the wings, they are not particularly needed, but the resurrection could be applied, for example, when he and Star tried to bring Marco back to life at the end of season 3. And if Tom can do that, what's the problem with Janna's mortality? Tom can, as soon as she died, give her a soul, she will live it, die again, he will give her a soul, she lives it, and so on in a circle. And there will be no oversaturation of souls, because of which the law on a hundred years works.

And in general, to continue the relationship, you don't even need to give a soul - after all, Janna will still go to the underworld to Tom after death.

Or do you also have problems with how Janna looks, Moringmark? Did you think I wouldn't beat you? That I won't destroy you? I will destroy you!

Oh well... Tom expectedly asks about why Janna took it into her head to become a vampire, she replies that she wanted to be immortal for the sake of their relationship. And Tom at first correctly condemns Janna for such an imbecile decision from which there are more minuses than pluses, but at the last moment something goes wrong and he hugs her, saying that he does not believe that she was ready to do it for him

Tom, what are you doing? I understand Janna is a crazy madman, but you're kind of an adequate guy and you should understand what the transformation into a vampire entails. He understands and says this to Janna - so what happened next? Why did he suddenly move so abruptly to hugging? Does he even care about the fact that Janna wanted to break her whole life? Or is he rolling back to the egoist who doesn't care about others, as long as he feels good? Someone will object to me that Tom should be grateful to Janna for what she wanted to do for him. Yes, because apparently for all sorts of nonsense now you need to thank and probably still fall at feet. Well, since you want him to be grateful - with your permission, I will change just a few lines in the comic

THAT'S IT!!! Now Tom is glad that Janna is trying for him, but at the same time he has retained his adequacy. And in order to come up with this, I did not graduate from the institute, is it really so difficult, author? Or is there again the principle "I don't care about anything except Jantom?" Well, then, well done, you keep the bar.

Then Tom asks why she didn't tell before, then at the party. And Janna shows how, in her opinion, Tom would react to her words. And she shows him as a selfish don't care who doesn't care about other people's problems. But Tom stopped being like that in the second season, he already became worried and caring and was like that in season 3 and in season 4 and in TVSJ and in short comics, and even here when Janna left, Tom was worried about her, and then he flew to save her. So Moringmark, you are now contradicting not only the canon, but also your own comics. Guy, damn it, drink the pills already, I beg you by Christ-God!

Well, how does this circus end?

I don't know about you, but after Tom's words that he has an idea, I got ready to develop the plot into an interesting story where Tom and Janna will solve the problems of their relationship, and Avila will interfere with them. But how damn naive I was. No plot for you, no interest, just for another sudden ability of Tom and shut up. But from a similar concept with this problem for a hundred years, it would be possible to build an interesting plot, but the author decided to sort everything out in just a few minutes by asking the right heel for a solution to the problem that he himself came up with. Bravo, the author, just bravo and I'm still talking about the fact that it turns out Avila didn't have a plan and she stupidly merged didn't say.

Another problem is the stretching of the plot. The whole comic is the same in volume as the TVSJ, but I'm not the only one who feels that there is much less eventfulness there. In fact, the whole comic could be put in 5 parts, maybe in 10, but not in 50. For example, the battle scene in the church could easily be shortened, and not do the part whose essence is that Avila hit Janna twice. Or combine part 47 with part 48 - let Tom first thank Janna, and then immediately ask why she didn't say it before, it can all be put in one part. And there are many such examples of reduction, but Moringmark seems to have decided to play Lev Tolstoy and stretch the events of literally one day into a whole epic. Even keeping the intrigue turned into just stretching the pieces

Well, fuck it with the plot and eventfulness - the main problem is that Moringmark solved the completely wrong problem. After all, the split in Jantom did not happen because Janna is mortal, and Tom is not, it was all perfectly solved, but because Janna thought about whether she should meet Tom at all, she found that she was gradually getting bored with him. Without this uncertainty, she would have met him calmly, there would have been no reason to part and everything would have been fine. And just the fact that if she left Tom, she would die quickly did not interfere with their relationship, but on the contrary, saved them (Janna's words "Sooner or later I will get tired of him and I will stay with him just to live"). And now this factor of sudden death has been removed, but the doubts have not gone away, so it is logical that Janna can now leave Tom without fear for her existence. In order to save the couple, it was necessary to discuss just Janna's doubts, perhaps then they would have decided something and then it is unlikely. And so Moringmark tried to save the pair, but in the end he himself showed its non-viability.

And by the way, he destroyed not only the couple, but also the life of Janna herself. Because for the reasons above, Janna will break up with Tom. Not necessarily immediately, maybe it will happen in a year or two, but it will definitely happen. And if Tom had not made Janna immortal, then she would have quietly lived out her years and without any problems went somewhere to Valhalla. And so she will part with Tom and will live for a long time, but not happily, because immortality is not such a rosy thing as it seems - first of all, she will see a bunch of deaths of her friends and relatives, consider that only Tom will remain from her acquaintances, so such a gesture can even be regarded as a betrayal of everyone for the sake of love. Secondly, although she has a lot of souls, her brain is quite human and it is not capable of perceiving such an amount of information that will accumulate over a very long life, therefore Janna will go crazy. Based on all this, she will naturally lose the point of living (and someone has already seen subtle hints of self-loathing and suicidal tendencies in her character), but she will not even be able to hang herself to get rid of these endless souls. And everything will end with the fact that Janna will be left all alone in an empty universe, where everyone died except herself. And sitting alone somewhere she will think "And this is all for one horny guy?" Janna, my girl, how sorry I am for you - the author not only leaked you, but also found eternal torment. Aren't you ashamed, Moringmark? Shame on you!

Bottom line: "Explosion from the Past" is the shittiest comic I've ever seen. Even if I want to justify it, I will not succeed. What not to do - everything is bad - the characters are merged, the plot is stretched, the problem is sucked out of the finger and solved for once or twice, the villain just gave up himself - and all this for the sake of just one couple, and even that will not last long. It would be possible to praise the comic for the plot twists in relation to Avila - but also not, we were shown at the beginning that she drinks blood

Of course, there is also drawing, jokes, a good design of Avila and her friends - but all this is so small. So, Moringmark, one point to you for the comic. Unfair? I agree, but this is the lowest rating that can be given, I'm sorry.

Well, the overall result. Someone may, based on my swearing, think that I am a Moringmark hater. However, this is far from the case, as for me, he also has good interesting works - I still remember the same "Ship war" with some warmth, and I don't mind rereading the "Tales of Two Butterfly" once again. And I would also tell you in detail about their awesome, but both comics were interrupted at the most interesting place, and only the weak ones turned out to be finished, the ones that I sorted out today. His short comics are also quite good, interesting, funny, and it seems to me that it was them that he had to continue drawing. It doesn't work out in his global plot, it turns out either badly or without continuation, what can I do about it?

And I would like to wish Moringmark good luck in his further work, and also to say - don't try to make big comics, you can't do it, the fact is the fact, sorry. The fact that you make an interesting plot, and then interrupt it, only spoils the impression, so if you're not sure, don't take it. I repeat, you have great short comics, make them. But not often, otherwise you'll burn out. We are not troglodytes, we don't need so many comics, so we can release a comic book a week somewhere, that will be enough for us. It's your business, of course, but he's quite a good artist and I don't want you to get tired of your work and you did it for show, which often happens with the same type of activity. So of course try, but not to your own detriment.

And by the way, finally - if you have nothing to do on SVTFOE, then catch the idea. Do you remember how you once asked subscribers through a Glossary to throw off ideas for different AU? So, I think that this cooperative with fans should be restored, it's not bad. You don't know what to do - ask the fans for ideas, we have a fantasy, we'll come up with so many things for you that you won't have time to draw everything. Think about my offer, okay?

That is all. See you soon, write how you like my analysis.

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