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mikelogan · 1 year

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Is it bad that like—if she doubles down on all this and tries to justify it I’ll quit listening to her music; of course I will.

But I don’t want to have to do that. I’ve been listening to her since elementary school, and up until this point she’s been the only artist I grew up with who hadn’t done/condoned anything horrible. (I’m still shocked by what Demi confessed to a few years back and the way that was played off.)

I want Taylor to dump him and address this because it’d be the right thing to do. But it’s also because I just want one artist I liked growing up to not be terrible.

to put it plainly, this fucking sucks. i don't want to stop listening to her music either. i relate to a lot of it and i also grew up listening to her. i think im especially disappointed by all this bc of her seeming so dedicated to speaking out against injustice and it makes all of her "activism" seem performative. ive seen a lot of different posts floating around since this has all come to light, but the one that resonates with me the most is that she can't not know about all the shit he's said and done. she's obviously active online -- she knows about people thinking she hates evermore and the whole "mother is mothering" stuff, etc -- and while i think it's plausible that she's sent some of these things by members of her team, i find it so hard to believe that she's just totally unaware of all m*tty's bullshit. i literally never listened to the 1975 until i just saw them on snl maybe a few weeks ago and i liked a couple of the songs, but i remember hearing things over the years (I used to be suuuuper active in bandom #rip) about him just. not being a good person. i don't think i knew specifics, but it's why all of this coming out about him doesn't particularly surprise me, though it does disgust/horrify me. like i get her needing a rebound bc like. after 6 years with someone, that has to hurt?? and we have literally no idea what even happened between her and joe bc they were so private to begin with. so i understand that she's hurting and probably not in the best mental place, and while she's entitled to do what (and who) she wants, that doesn't mean im gonna just. sit by and not say anything about it? and this is so incredibly unlike 2016 when people were cancelling her left and right just bc theyd been foaming at the mouth for excuses to do so. im not even advocating to cancel her (still holding out hope that she addresses this somehow), but i am in favor of holding her accountable. i also understand the whole "separate the art from the artist" thing to an extent. who immediately comes to mind on that topic though is jk r*wling, who turned out to be essentially rhe biggest disappointment of my life. her views and beliefs have stained what she created, to the point where i don't even want to associate myself with hp despite having grown up with it and having it be a big part of my life. Im not to that point with Taylor's music (though I will say this has made me a lot less excited for my show next month), but I COMPLETELY understand what you're saying. Like why is it so much to ask for artists/celebrities in general to not be terrible people? Like even if she's not the one saying the things he's said, she's still with him and has said nothing about any of his statements. As a white person, I know that I'll never fully understand what it's like to be part of a victim of racism and that I cannot speak to what that's like. I have privilege in that regard. I have the ability to shrug my shoulders and say "That's not my problem" and move on. But I don't want to. I want to hold taylor accountable for all she's said and done to make us think she loves and supports her fans. But this has to feel so alienating for members of the groups m*tty's said shit about. We love Taylor and a lot of us look up to her and we want her to be happy. But this ain't it, not by a longshot.

#answered #anonymous #taylor swift #im sorry not sorry for the novel #i just have a lot of thoughts on this #and fair warning that i dont tolerate any kind of hate in my inbox #i delete that shit so dont bother if you feel so inclined

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blxetsi · 3 years

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modern hange zoe dating headcanons

lowercase intended !

hange zoe x gn!reader

- first, their love language is definitely a mix of physical touch and verbal affirmations

- idc idc theyre the best of both worlds 🤩

- you prefer verbal affirmations over physical touch (or vice versa) ? their immediately making a mental note and showing u love with whichever one u like more

- i think they'd be a scientist or researcher ?? maybe they'd study the human body or like global warming ?? idfk but would definitely go into the science field

- also i personally love the idea of moblit and them being together 😳🤚 idk i love the idea

- but since YOU are with miss hange id like to think they stayed friends after the breakup 😌✨ theyre both mature ppl (and hot)

- moblit is always third wheeling w you guys. you and hange could be making out and he'd sit there with his iced coffee like 😐

- hange i feel is a very forgetful person, so like, dates and stuff (things made on a sort of short notice) they tend to forget about, but things like birthdays and anniversaries are NEVER forgotten

- ofc they'll make it up to you after you call them from the restaurant youve been waiting in for over an hour

- but sometimes it does hurt that they value their work so much, you love that they find joy in what they do and are dedicated, but it just feels like they prioritize work over you

- and hange understands ! and they start trying to be on time for things like that. is also constantly reassuring you at random times that they love and care about you

- also loves to spoon you. will literally wrap around you like a koala in bed. doesnt matter if its too hot and youre both immediately sweating, will trap you with their insane amount of strength and never let you go until either they wake up or you wake up begging to use the restroom

- i feel like when theyre working from home (which is everyday in a pandemic 🙄 even tho these headcanons arent really structured around pandemic modern times) they forget to eat/drink when they get reeeaaaallllyyyy into what theyre researching

- could be on the verge of discovering a new genetic mutation (idk) while also being on the verge of passing out due to dehydration

- theyll come out for dinner and be like "yknow ive been having this weird headache all day"

- "probably because you havent drank any water today"

- will stare at you like "🤨" before replying "nah i dont think so 😹"

- you have to threaten letting them starve to get them to drink some water. and as soon as they do theyre chugging three cups

- five minutes later theyre like "babe ! it worked ! youre awesome"

- lots of pet names like babe/baby, my love, my darling (in a dramatic english accent), honey, and any others that youd prefer

- has a weird love for the cartoon archer (yknow that adult show with like 10 seaons ??)

- will literally no nothing about the plot or characters, and will only put the show on for background noise while theyre doing something, but will ALWAYS recommend archer to others and say its their favourite cartoon if asked

- also loves the amazing world of gumball (you got them into it) actually watches the show and loves it, yet never thinks of it when asked "what shows should i watch ?" or "what are some shows you like ?"

- if youre like, an artist or something like that, they genuinely LOVE anything you make

- you made them a little painting ? theyre hanging it up in their apartment. you created a clay vase or something ? buying flowers to put in it rn (doesnt even take care of the flowers but yk)

- if youre having a bad day theyre dropping everything for you (unless its super important then theyre saying "how about i move my work to the bed and we can cuddle ?")

- if you need to rant theyre actively listening while trying to work. will accidentally start typing what youre saying onto their word document. ends up having to delete three whole paragraphs about that bitch at work smh 🙄🤚

- loves taking showers/ baths w you (NEVER in a sexual way though) they genuinely find it fun to wash each other's hair and stuff. if you ask them to wash your back theyre shoving their hands in your armpits and tickling you like,, mf ill fall and take us both down 😐

- definitely an ass/thighs person. doesnt matter how big or small, loves it.

- also a dish collector in their room. their room and office are in the same space, so youll find them with cups and plates on their desk where their research is supposed to be like bae,,, i think youre growing a new kind of mold 😍🦠💥

- talks so passionately abt their work and coworkers to you. theres this new intern at their job and hes the sweetest and brightest kid they know. his names armin and they speak about him SO highly

- also has a really cold nose ?? u love to kiss it bc it makes them shiver bc of the temperature difference

- has weirdly soft hands. youd think theyd be kinda rough bc of all the weird shit they touch for "science" but no. the hands are perfect

- doesnt know how to take care of things around the house (like handy stuff) so they beg levi to come over.

- he reluctantly does bc hes their friend but will nod at you as soon as he walks in and says "i hope hange isnt being too annoying today"

- immediately youll defend them and say zoe hange could never annoy you bc hange is the love of ur life and all he'll do is say "youre lucky then. i envy you."

- you and hange both know hes using his dry humour, but as punishment hange follows him around the place and annoys him even further

- also tries to convince you to get a dog at the weirdest of times ???

- itll be three in the morning and theyll just whisper in your ear "we should get a dog"

- theyre allergic to cats so if you suggest that they say "no ill die if i go near one"

- if youre allergic to dogs theyll say "okay fine a baby then"

- "how will we get one ?"

- "we'll steal it. or go looking through a dumpster"

- what did they say 😳😳⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️

- you shut down any ideas of a dog or baby for a long while after that

- loves squeezing your cheeks, and would love if you did it to them too

- will literally just sit in bed squishing them and request you do the same. so you both just sit facing each other criss crossed, squishing each others faces while giggling

- ive made this pretty long already so this is it ! but yes, they love u through and through

a/n

second headcanon babyyy !!! hope u all enjoyed !! my asks r open if u wanna request something !! (also please request something 😭😭😭 )

#attack on titan x reader #attack on titan #attack on titan fanfiction #aot imagines #attack on titan headcanons #hange zoe #hange zoë #hange zoë x reader #levi ackerman #levi ackerman x reader #armin arlert #hange zoe x reader

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smalltragedy · 3 years

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* ryan destiny, cis woman + she/her | you know kira blake, right? they’re twenty four, and they’ve lived in irving for, like, ever? well, their spotify wrapped says they listened to babooshka by kate bush like, a million times this year, which makes sense ‘cause they’ve got that whole lazily stretched out in a ray of light, daisy shaped irises and daisy chain braids, performing an intricate dance to move the ocean's waves thing going on. i just checked and their birthday is october 31st, so they’re a scorpio, which is unsurprising, all things considered. ( james, 22, est, they/them )

hllo ive hd kira in my head fr a bit bt i also know ntohing abt her! this is me winging it even though i hv no right to <3 this is my third character maybe whose birthday is in honor of ella n coincidentally 2/3 of them r in this rp. yea im messy smirks sexily.

DEATH, GRIEF, DRUGS TW

mini playlist.

wuthering heights ;; kate bush / babooskha ;; kate bush / dreams ;; fleetwood mac / california dreamin’ ;; the mamas & the papas / lavender moon ;; haroula rose / time of the season ;; the zombies / after the storm ;; kali uchis / left hand free ;; alt-j / always forever ;; cults / wait a minute! ;; willow / your dog ;; soccer mommy.

statistics.

full name: kira blake

nickname(s): keely.

birthday: october 31st, 1996.

zodiac: scorpio sun, cancer moon, aquarius ascending.

mbti & temperament: esfp & catalyst / sanguine.

label: the ebullient.

sexuality: bisexual.

pinterest.

biography.

born to two original hippies which hs pretty much set up who kira is fr the rest of her life <3 the type of ppl who didnt like the boundaries of marriage n held off frm it fr as long as possible until theyd hd a spur of the moment elopement involving a celebrity impersonator at fannie’s <3 yea theyre lesbians lets go <3

nvr rly took things srsly until kira ws like 5 yrs old n then they were like ah gee ah fuck we probably shld probably settle settle. n they job hopped n worked many odd jobs until they found their footing in careers they liked n one of them probably does like. blown glass art. n the other prob fixes old computers n other ~vintage~ mementos of the past fr ppl.

they make a decent living n they live in delpinius heights n they try a few times fr another kid bt it nvr rly works out (raises an eyebrow. adopted siblings anyone?) n fr the most part kira as a child spends her time running around town and tugging on the hem of other’s shirts to ask them small favors (mostly to play a game with her)

often left unsupervised as a kid, bt not in the way tht her parents dnt care (bc her parents love her a lot a lot a lot like she is their world) bt in the way tht they simply raised her the way they were raised. running amuck all day n coming home jst in time fr dinner, front porch light always on, cat always waiting faithfully on their stoop.

pretty evident frm a young age tht kira’s mind saw things differently, in a different light - the world an array of light n mystery n sound n taste n sometimes those collided n created new experiences. prob hs some form of synsthesia bt dnt ask me which one yet. she’s a painting prodigy with an excellent understanding of color theory.

always ws known as a kind of like. rambunctious kid. a well meaning class clown who cld nt keep her mouth shut fr the life of her. grew up constantly with a yellow card beneath her name in school bt ws always well liked by her teachers n classmates alike.

jst a very bright child who did well naturally bt always ws turned more towards art.

feel like her parents very noticeably turned a cheek when she started smoking weed w the cool older kids when she ws 13. the type of person who wnts 2 b liked so bad she’d jump over a hurdle fr it. hs jumped over many hurdles n many fences n many other obstacles to be liked bt does it without breaking a sweat.

(edit: nw tht i think abt it hwevr i dnt think she does tht anymore i think while a bit of a mess atm she. likes herself. n doesnt rly want or need the approval of others anymore she jst does her own little thing. bt when she ws younger? she jst wnted 2 b friends w the entire world.)

nothing bad rly happened fr like. a good bit of her life. got into psychedelics at some point in high school n tht only heightened her artistic abilities. most of her high school art portfolio ws probably done while high bt <3 does it matter.

hd a high school sweetheart n they were pretty serious like. full on in love. a total believer of soulmates kira ws jst like. this is the one. there is nobody else i cn imagine my life with.

death tw

death tw.

death n grief tw // yea. sometime during their freshmen year of college. car incident. kira ws nvr the same though she’d like to pretend tht nothing’d ever happened. like theyd nvr existed. like she didnt plan out their entire lives together hiking thru hills n valleys n boating across various bodies of water n traveling together until they were old n wrinkly. end of death tw //

cld nt explain 2 u why kira hd bought a van n completely demolished it only to drain all of her savings remodeling it bt nw she lives in it by the beach. hd dreams of travelling the world bt cannot go long distances in a car without feeling sick. sees planes n feels envy. stopped painting fr a long time bt she’s started back up recently. took on surfing. told her parents tht it ws fine n tht she ws fine n theyre concerned bt shes always by the beach, her van rarely leaves. she’s trying her best bt its only been a few yrs n i think ppl cn sense tht shes jst nt the same cheerful girl as they once knew. end of grief tw //

anyways. tugs on my collar. tht’s kira! she lives on the beach n surfs everyday n is obsessed with daisies n is prob growing her own shrooms somewhere.

personality & facts.

always been very emotional n a little dramatic. nt a drama queen bt is a little messy n does not hv like. many rational thoughts up in there. very cup full or cup empty.

regardless though she hs an. overall reputation fr jst being. enjoyable to be around. her her little moments bt shes also pretty like. laidback. in a way. KDSHFSDLKHGHFLKSD

prob bc she smokes a lot or is often <3 on a trip if u know wht i mean <3

god. got obsessed with the 60s n 70s aesthetic at some point n hs not gone back evr. big fan of psychedelic rock. is a prodigy painter bt her life dream outside of traveling ws always to own her own record label. hs nt happened yet, maybe will never happen? works at a record shop though n does hide the good vinyls tht she wants away frm the customers.

very cheerful n usually uplifting n she doesnt like to b negative around others bt smtms she cnt control it n smtms thinks tht ppl r out 2 get her jst out of. anxiety. hs long bouts where she’ll sit in a still sort of sadness n then shake out of it n hop back into conversation like nothing’s happened bt. its fine we’re fine kira is fine.

shes not gullible or naive bt wants to believe tht everybody hs a heart of gold even if its false. keeps giving ppl second chances bc she hs a savior complex n thinks she cn change ppl.

is very into zodiac n will judge u by ur chart. knows everybody in town’s natal chart. even newcomers. it’s a little scary hw quick she finds this information bt its very important to her.

kind of like. into spirituality bt i wont lie its very surface level n a little superficial. learning tarot cards bt cannot fr the life of her memorize the meanings so smtms she jst makes up things on the spot. hs so many crystals she will not stop buying them.

i think a part of her is desperately trying to cling onto tht like. think positive. self care. msg thts super prevalent online without addressing or actually helping any of her problems. it is her flaw </3

hates to admit when she needs help. wld rather do everything herself.

head is a little in the clouds n her parents r a little concerned fr her bc shes nt rly doing much rn bt like. she jst needs time i think. shes jst doing her little thing.

does not give up on ppl easily she absolutely hates dropping ppl frm her life even if she grows 2 resent them over time which is bad bc she is bad at hiding when she is upset at someone or when she doesnt like someone.

like shes jst passive aggressive abt it n does not properly communicate <3

bt this is rare i think ... negative feelings abt other ppl

self centered bt not selfish if tht makes sense. she will do things fr others without a problem n sometimes trips over herself 2 do it bt at the end of the day i think she cares abt herself the most.

hs only been in love once bt hs hd many infatuations n many like. admirations n very surface level feelings. her body is a temple n she loves 2 b worshipped.

prob does fkn. beach yoga. probably vegan bt also maybe breaks tht every once in a while. almost noncommittal its hard 2 distinguish between her being carefree, not taking care of herself, or jst hving commitment issues? flaky or not? who knows.

feels jst a bit too strongly bt tries to contain it. jst full of multitudes or smth. idk. icon <3

like. cares bt doesnt care. does thinks tht r purposely self destructive n then acts like shes like. cool girl monologue frm gone girl. bt does it while being like peace n luv on earth x

ok thts all i hv goodbye

wanted plots.

a pseudonym 2 fool ‘em... ;; jst hd this idea pop up bt i like the idea of kira going undercover 2 expose cheaters. whether she does this on her own accord or is personally requested by smbdy is up in the air. a plottable point. she h8s cheaters n is chaotic good she prob thinks shes the relationship vigilante testing the strengths of other’s relationships. once again she cld b. specifically going undercover fr smbdy 2 help them out. im sure she wldnt go 2 very. extensive srs measures like actually. sleeping w the assumed-cheaters bt once again. world is our oyster n i lov drama?

crystal visions ... ;; once again. shes super into crystals n astrology n she will base sm of her opinions of others on it. this is nt just abt her being judgmental of others bt also jst. catching her running around in the rain trying sooo hard 2 fkn. charge her crystals in the rainwater bc she forgot 2 charge them under the full moon the night b4. this is her giving wrong tarot readings. she hs no idea wht shes doing at any given time bt acts like she does know. acts like she knows the entire world. she gives crystals as gifts n will do ur natal chart for u bt will also pack her things n leave if ur a capricorn.

time of the season... ;; i dnt knw admittedly. this song’s abt being horny so perhaps? perhaps. kira isnt rly able to keep a grasp on long term relationships rn due to. factors in her life so she hops frm person 2 person often. smtms jst flings smtms its jst a relationship accidentally led on. shes noncommittal n a little flaky atm when she’s usually ride or die fr others. perhaps this is all in the name of some good fun! world? oyster.

literally anything .dsfskhdkgs ;; god. shes so new i jst dnt know. childhood friends. current friends. friends shes hd frever. enemies n ex lovers n ppl shes constantly pushing away or scorned lovers or both or anything?? she pushed them out of the roller rink to make more room fr herself or maybe they did tht to her. perhaps theyre both constantly pursuing some sort of fkn. meaning in their lives tht they cnt quite grasp. mayb they go on an acid trip together. who knows.

#irvingintro #death tw #grief tw #car accident mention tw #drugs tw #specifically weed n psychedelics i think

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neo-shitty · 3 years

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toffee!

yeah same, i follow some fic accs that occaisionally post smut and its like mmmmm is the fluff writing enough to balance the posts that gives me finger burn trying to scroll past it? but yeah thats probably the way to go

ah i wasnt there for the teaser but i can imagine that was tantalising. lmaoo yes but to be fair i do have a writing acc called channiesbigheart so... balancing it out? but i absolutely am whipped beyond belief. it was a TRAVESTY how COULD they have. yeah the b sides gave him more lines but they werent the ones that were performed over and over at stages. yessss the line distribution in this album is impeccable, im pretty sure the thunderous stuff was some of their best distribution

hehe i can understand that, sometimes putting someone in a situation so horrible it would be considered a violation of human rights is theraputic, ya know? mmmm the differences are a bit nuts, it was 14 degrees today and in less than a week its going to be 32 or smth. BROOO that would be legendary, i bet theyd treat their artists rlly well and have great music as well ahhh but its a lot of work adn commitment. yES that is a mood if ever i heard one.

its the same in australia as well, sadly, you have people who hold up harry styles and lil nas x for breaking gender roles and wearing make up adn steryotypical womens clothing (and keep in mind i have infinite respect for both of them theyre honestly doing so much for the de-dehumanising of gay people and those who wear whatever they want), and calling the kpop boys gay and other things for doing the same thing, when theyve been doing it for years and gotten no recognition smh its so tragic. yes, anyway YES ONLY 6 MONTHS I AM FOR ALL INTENTS AND PURPOSES A BBY STAN altho i considered myself a fully fledged stay like 2 days after i got into them cos i just spent all day researching and fixating. YES someone said it. it feels like theyre losing a huge chunk of why a lot of people liked their music in teh first place, which was that whole dna, dope, fire mood. and even doing bright songs is fine, liek they should do what they want but i feel liek the western music industry is so fucking toxic that they feel pressured into making these decisions. dont get me wrong, theyre good decisions from a business perspective, theyre getting record breaking sales but still. mmm yeah honestly yg just needs to get its shit together or get out

oooh! not into nct but i see a lot of him, he seems rlly talented. ahh yes another channie ult lmaoo i feel that, my list is growing in leaps and bounds as well. mmm yeah i think i will, im just going to try to save enough money :) mingi appealed to me mostly for the voice (like felix smh what is it with me and deep voiced bois) but also his soft visuals and the whole cutesy thing he has going on i rlly liked. yes i did get into them while he was on hiatus, but im still mostly a casual stan, ill listen to the album when it comes out but i dont think ill obsessively look over everything to do with it, like skz. HAH WE'RE MORE SIMILAR THAN I THOUGHT. lmaooo the thot line describes them perfectly, why are they all so damn attractive. especially seonghwa, like that man looks like a character from a book, cardan greenbriar vibes anyone? mmhmm! his vocals are absolutely insane. ty! yeah im excited altho idk how theyre every going to beat border:carnival, that shit was impeccable. ahh no stress, enjoy teh groups you stan atm!

ahh thank you so much, ill keep that in mind. hehe thats good! hopefully its soon :( ah ty, it means a lot. ill think abt that and hopefully talk abt it a little more :)

ah, no it was inside our gymnasium but to get to the other side of the stage you had to exit the building, go around the back and then enter through the other stage door. ah tysm! im glad too. mmm same, they baffle me. ;n; noo so sad :( ahh, thats um not smth i put on here, but im in high school so make of that what you will :)

thank you! ive done a majority of them, i just have maths, an english presentation and an economic assignment due now so im pretty much home free. yeah i feel like hes the epitome of here for you while being inescapably far away. haha she sounds like one of my friends. lmaooo why is that me. hmmm i feel like youve answered a lot of them in that answer so maybe just ateez, enha, txt and bp? if you stan them? :)

ahhh no problem at all, proud of you for managing to overcome the procrastination! progress! mmm thats good! ahh pls do let me know if you ever decide that, i cant promise i wont cry but do what you gotta do :)

<3 w.a. 🐺

hi! sorry for the late reply, i didn't know how to construct sentences yesterday e.e

yeah sometimes it's the perfect balance! i personally don't like fics that focus mainly on the filth? the plot has to carry the whole fic somehow and the smut is just something to add to the mix. also, i'll follow you on your writing blog! i keep forgetting to do so, damn it.

"sometimes putting someone in a situation so horrible it would be considered a violation of human rights is theraputic, ya know?" putting it this way just silenced me but yes. angst just feels more realistic. it isn't always happy endings irl so i tend to do it a lot.

falling into skz is so easy! it felt like that for me too. stanning them felt like getting sucked into a blackhole. also yes i agree. kpop is nothing but an industry after all and it runs on money so i get why they do what they do as well.

i suggest we not talk about haechan because i will literally not shut up but yes my boy is an ace :( chan is also sooooo easy to love. and the chan's rooms just solidified his place as ult. having something to look forward to every week at a time when my mental health was just plummeting into the depths of tartarus just helped me be stable. oh yeah, mingi's deep voice is indeed sexc. and he has some wack ass duality as well! and i think seonghwa was one of the people i nearly considered as bias just because of his visuals because wow that's one beautiful face. and true, idk how enha's going to beat border:carnival. i don't like all the tracks simply bc of taste preferenceds but i like more than one so i consider that a lot already.

bro that gym should've had some sort of a covered walk :// also i miss being in high school sO DAMN MUCH. but i still feel like i am because time stopped when quarantine started and i was still in senior year at the time.

my ateez bias is wooyoung! it wasn't that much of a shocker to my kpop stan irls because i was a jimin stan for the longest time. enhypen is jake and they kept pointing out that he looked like seungmin sometimes so it's like chan's aussie-ness with a tinge of seungmin (the other guy in my skz bias line, in case i haven't mentioned it). txt is huening kai! i find it hard to believe that he's my age because he looks a lot younger? o.O and he always looks good damn :(( sigh for blackpink it's lisa! i tend to bias the maknaes of yg groups, it's a pattern i've noticed but don't intentionally do!

DON'T WASTE YOUR TEARS OMFG. you can always reach me elsewhere if i like disappear off this blog.

#toff.asks #wild anon 🐺

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crusty · 3 years

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god i just went through all through my dammek tag/ art... such good times back then but also i felt like i should say something!!

2017-2018 was a very confusing and difficult time for me, not having the adequate tools to deal with my trauma even now, it took so long for me to catch up with growing up like the rest of my peers. I think it showed in my art, and it showed in how i talked to others and interacted with the world around me.

i realized this before, but seeing some of my art and posts from years ago just really solidified to me the idea that... some things i drew back then were really not the greatest! Not talking about memes, I’ve always been a very blunt/crass artist. But im talking mostly about the times i was into hiveswap. I dont want to be dismissive to the people who brought up legitimate concerns, some even going to the extent to make an unsourced callout accusing me of pedophilia because of some of my art content.

fictional characters in media have always been something my brain loves to latch on to, and especially during 2017/2018 i really didnt have any boundries with the shit i wanted to draw with certain characters, regardless of their ages or not. ive never been attracted to kids and i certainly am not now or ever will be LMAO but it was really hard for me to make the distinction with these fictional characters when i would make art of xefros and dammek. i latched on REAL hard to them and wanted to make art of them that was relatable to me!

even now i still adore them, but i understand more that its up to me as an adult to keep those boundaries in place (with ANYTHING i draw really). keeping in mind that , yes they are fictional characters, and it really isnt a big deal in the grand scheme of things that i like them so much, but theres a point where it stops becoming “im attracted to these characters so much i wanna draw them all the time bc i relate to them and their stories/i love their designs” and turns into “im sexually and romantically attracted to these characters specifically BECAUSE theyre underage”

i have gone back and deleted shit that weirded me out from 2017/2018 but. i really just wanted to say something about it. i do sincerely apologize if i ever came across as creepy with my interest in these characters, but it was never meant to be so. my fucked up sense of humor is usually the best with adult characters and adult stories, and most of it was really supposed to be ironic. the irony of that however, is that because of how ironic i was shooting for with my art, most people didnt quite get it! which in turn makes it a bad joke and a failure on my part.

I didnt want to get into any of the actual reasons why i was the way i was a few years ago, because i never latched onto underage characters so hard before this??? but i think part of it had to do with my own personal trauma i was working through and just . homestucks weird thing about writing their kids like adults lmao. big circle heads and small bodies just always confused me, especially when theyd draw adult characters like that. at 17/18/19 i really did not feel like a 17/18/19 year old due to how .... fucked up i was mentally. I dont think I officially matured mentally until I turned 21. Thats mostly because of the deep psychological trauma i dealt with at very early ages and for most of my childhood, but thats a story for another time. to anyone whos actually reading this, thanks? and thats about it.

#crustybagelbites #long post

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helahelahel · 4 years

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Togami

ohhh hi ! thank u for the question ^^

favorite thing about them

that's kinda hard too ….i think his character is just interesting. like the way he's thinking … i think it's cool . also he's pretty . and has nice hair most of the time. idk he's just pretty . pretty boy . u know .

and he's interesting and smart . and idk just .

also he's not real . so my fav thing abt him might be that he's not real lol

least favorite thing about them

thh chapter 2…. entire chapter 2 . won't even mention toko

favorite line

not really a line but . this always makes me laugh ... also ummm some of his udg scenes

brOTP

togazono !! the story behind me liking it is kinda confusing And weird so … wont talk abt it … but yeah Ive been reading abt it and they're both interesting and i feel like theyd have something in common…. also this fic … amazing

OTP

naegami =__= love their dynamic ig

nOTP

well…. byakuya and junko ? also him and chihiro … big no

random headcanon

hmmm...hmm….

here might be some dr togami vol 2 spoilers so just scroll down there will be another headcanon without any spoilers

so i mentioned this while doing tokos headcanons but he had a kinda lonely life .. like sure maybe there were ppl around him but u know it was a competition he didn't trust anyone and ppl didn't trust him so he kinda learned to live on his own also the other kids always mentioned (as they did with kazuya) his mother etc… so he kinda created a shell (?) that protects him from everyone else … smth like that . cant say much bc its hard for me to like … show how i think and like what i think abt it but hope u understand

other hc… he LOVES pop music and disco he pretends he doesn't but he actually owns a huge amount of albums. his fav artists are lorde, donna summer, carly rae jepsen and kero kero bonito

unpopular opinion

idk

song i associate with them

ohhhh i have a playlist with songs that remind me of him too! cant really choose one tho so ill just share the link

favorite picture of them

these 2 ?but the most favorite i think...

he's just ,.... so good

#.txt #ask

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knybits · 5 years

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1, 12, 28 :D

sorry i didnt know which list you wanted, so I DID BOTH LMAO

thanks for asking questions ab akiko!! these were fun to think up of!! i hope yall will ask more ab her bc answering questions is rather fun :,,)

List 11. is your oc easily bothered by things?

Akiko isn’t bothered by too much tbh. Only when it comes to zenitsu tho ;-; anything that guy says sets their one shared brain cell off

12. do they like art? what is their favorite type (paintings, songs, fashion, etc)?

Akiko has been to the Louvre and a bunch of other museums around the world! So she appreciates all forms of art since they’re all so different! She likes to combine Western and Japanese clothing when it comes to her style! (however, she herself is in no way shape or form artistically inclined. Turn your ears off if you see her pick up an instrument)

28. do people think they’re pretentious?

yES LMAOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO people think shes SO pretentious when they meet her. It’s the vibe she gives off, yknow what i mean? Not many people like her when they meet her, and ngl the way she carries herself and her tone of voice when she talks to people is off putting too, but after a while people start to understand that shes largely misunderstood. Its why she has so little friends, and the people she does become friends with are rather mismatched in personality type

List 21. How does your character sleep? Peacefully, fitfully? What position do they sleep in? What is their typical bedding like?

Akiko sleeps like a rock LMAO and this is mainly thanks to the fact that she never sleeps in general. She’ll knock out at random times bc she has to wake up at random times. Her circadian rhythm is so fucked,,, but she sleeps on her back with her arms by her side, nothin too special. That IF she prepared herself to sleep tho. If shes still dressed in her day clothes but she wants to knock out, she’ll land onto the bed randomly and then cak out. Tanjirous found half her body on the floor once lmao. And because shinobu is rich rich n shit, her bed is actually really comfy!! Bedding is super plain tho ://

12. How skilled at lying is your oc? How frequently do they lie? For what reason? What situations would be the exception?

Akiko used to lie SO MUCH as a kid. She’d straight up lie to her parent’s face and theyd believe her bc shes their little princess. And akiko KNOWS that she can get away with a bunch of shit, so yeah shes a brat. She doesnt find any use in lying as she grows up though. She actually cant lie to her patients anyway, so akiko doesn’t lie anymore. But when she does? She sounds like shes speaking the fat truth

28. What is your oc’s typical walking like? Do they speed-walk everywhere, do they take quick short steps or long paces? On their tiptoe, the sides or heels of their feet? How loud are their footsteps?

Her footsteps are rather soft! But like aoi, she walks fast. It actually might be because of aoi that akiko walks fast! And because she never really wore kimonos and wore western dresses instead, akiko learned to just take big strides. Her hakama allows her to continue to take big strides!

again, thank you anon!! you have a special place in my heart :,) 💕💕💕💕

#bittle time #tamura akiko #kimetsu no yaiba oc #kny oc

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