#WHAT IF I JUST ENDED IT ALLL

[asherthehimbo]

Chat I'm sick

#asher 🌑 speaks #IM GNNA CRY #MY THROAT HURTS #WHAT IF I JUST ENDED IT ALLL #WHAT THEN

[criticalrolo]

why are so many stories nowadays about the end of things. the fall of civilizations. the end of eras. the sad slow death of the past into a grimmer future. this sense of living in the End Times has permeated sooo many genres for a literal Century and it just makes me sad that the change is. always towards the world getting smaller and darker and less magical

#I guess that reflects a lot of society fears etc #but like just off the top of my head in three seconds: #lord of the rings. pirates of the Caribbean. assassins creed valhalla. red dead redemption. Star Wars #that’s across like six different genres right there #and like yeah there’s obv Some hopeful endings to all of those #but the world they occupy is always about an age Coming To An End and the next one is going to be. Worse than the next #I actually have a lot to say about how wwii is the huge pivot point in literature #and in world society #where people stopped believing things are going to Get Better #and how that idea is reflected ALLL OVER in media from 1946 onwards #basically humanity saw just how terrible we can be and it was sooo much worse than the average person had ever dreamed #and since then. the general consensus has switched from bright new future to. racing against the clock before our time on earth is up #it’s actually a really interesting pivot because it’s SOOO widespread in famous media #anyway. just some thoughts #what if…. a story about the Beginning of a world and the insane hardships involved in THAT #it’s always an old guard story I wanna see. what a new guard looks like

[nyaskitten]

Never thought Chima would enter my realm of consciousness again, but here we are

neither did I, neither did I... but now we live in a world where, because of one idea the Hagemans randomly decided to throw in as a joke in season 5, a whole other show exists in the Ninjago canon and there's a scary possibility we'll see them again.

#I think itd be cool if they brought back the Scorpion or Spider or Bat tribes or members of them for some new villainous faction #would prolly not happen but a raine can hope can he not? #also i wonder if chi's been distributed to the other lands as well. god how did chima even fucking merge #bc at the end of the show they reveal that the land we're familiar with is just one floating land and theres such a huge and vast land #and theres so much more life and shit like what the fuck ... #WAIT CRAZY STUPID CRACK THEORY THAT PROBABLY WOULDNT WORK BUT WOULD BE REALLY REALLY CVOOOOL #OK OK OK SO SO SOOO #IMAGINE #IF #THE LAND WE SAW AT THE END OF THE CHIMA FINALE #ALLL THAT LAND #IS GONNA SHOW UP AGAIN #BUT ITS ACTUALLY THE MERGED REALMS #WOULDNT THAT BE BIZARRE? #LIKE THEY RE-PURPOISE THE GIANT VAST LANS BENEATH CHIMA AS THE MERGED REALMS #TAKING ONE IDEA FROM YEARS AGO AND VASTLY REPURPOSING IT #ninjago #asks #raine's rambles #twistedmashup

[haru-chi]

Now that I got reminded of the abandoned station chapter let me ask the question that got me crazy till this day ...

Who eat who exactly ??

Did the Yokai in the cage eat the one outside ??

Or did the Yokai outside eat the one in the cage ??

Now if the one in the cage eat the one outside then where did the one in the cage went to afterward ??? When Seiji leave at the end, the cage was empty, right ??

But if the one outside eat the one in the cage then where did the one outside went to ?? Did Seiji let it leave ?? Did he exorcise it ??

If he leave it be then that would make no sense at all after coming this far, but he can't possibly have exorcise it too in this short period of time ...

So I'm asking once again ..

What exactly happened in this station and what was Seiji's true aim that he doesn't want anyone to know about it at all ??

#natsume yuujinchou #natsuyuu #Matoba Seiji #this been getting me crazy to no end at all #I do have this sweet little theory that let all of this make sense buuuut ... #it's too crazy .... that I don't know what to do with it ugh #or if I can say it out loud ..... -heavy sigh- #the damage this short chapter did to me is unreal .... #WHAT WAS MIDORIKAWA TRUE AIM IN THIS CHAPRER #WHAT DID SHE HINTING AT EXACTLY !!!! #ugh ... why did I get reminded of this chapter #now can someone answer my puzzle and show me that I'm just overthinking this ... #that there's nothing to fear for Seiji's well-being at alll ??? #pretty please?? #or if someone share the same fear as me then come and let us cry togther :) #maybe I'll finally fully share this crazy idea of mine .... #more like the true fear of mine that this little chaprer brought in me ;)

[theblehthatbloos]

I'm out of the hospital, turns out I have some kind of emotional trauma that's making my body try to suffocate itself, honestly same but what a bitch way to do it. Making it so I can barely breathe but I still have 99% oxygen and my vitals are good. Fuckin' hell dude. Anyways wish me luck in figuring that out, didn't make a lot of progress crying in the parking lol at 4am while waiting for an Uber after the news that my mind and body have disconnected or something, but check the bracelet swag

Nice

#hell yeah #im going to explode #literally i was so chill #i do get stressed at work but i love my job #i had a really bad dating experience the month before but that's not it i think #i was waiting for my uber home while still suffocating and some random dude started playing music #i have no idea what the lyrics were #i dont even think it was English #but i was thinking about how frustrated i was and i felt my face get wet #just uncontrollable tears #4 minutes straight of crying #head looking up and wiping away every few seconds #paused so my driver didn't see me sobing but they did here me sniffing and trying yo breathe. not the best look #got upstairs and home #picked up a back of nerd candy and i fell apart #ive been chill for atleast a week #yeah i couldn't breathe but nothing came up #alll of this to say... #it was April 2nd #and unless my bodys a prankster #the only other thing from today was the end of the boop #i miss the boop so much #not it but holy shit it brings a little silly smile #boop

[peanutblowandjobsandwich]

me when i am faced with the reality that other ppl esl my 'old' peers are smart. or rich or at least very financially well off. don't have anxiety. are achieving things. or sometimes all 4 simultaneously

#idk like genuinely i dont want or care for any of tht #like being financially secure enough to just fuck off n live in solitary peace is alll i need #not necessarily not working but like at the end of day it's just me doing what i love with whom i love (myself) #but it's i guess always tht back of my head #how i was apparently deemed very smart all thru school #top grades from day one of primarg until at least like form 3 of secondary #and even after #but it's like now im stupid i cant even write my thesis #n im not doing anything with my life except trying my hardest to escape it #n it feels like everyone is judging me #like aha yh we always new u were stupid n wld nvr amount to anything look at me now and look at u #ipuve got ur karma u mean little bitch n u deserve it hahah #lmao #ignore me #cloud nonsense

[starbuck]

bro bro bro bro bro… i am making SO many fucking bad decisions, i love myself.

#the thing is. the THING is #i want to and need to do everything #i am grasping and clawing at the world - i want everything it will allow me #and i need to STOP adding things to my schedule #but the thing is. SOMETIMES. #it’s just too good to refuse #you just have to do it #and you MAY suffer and you MAY die #but you will be better off for it in the end #that being said - i am going to lead another bird walk #and see a play #and maybe also go to a concert????? #what the fuck is wrong with me #but ALSO this is the only way to live #I love you alll SO much

[pepprs]

my mom isn’t letting my dad go back to his office bc him being out of the house stresses her out and makes her have a flare up and it’s like kind of insane. like i understand why the idea of him doing that would make her panicky and angry as someone who also struggles w separation anxiety and abandonment shit / has physical symptoms from that kind of stress (though not to the same degree ofc) but also he is a grown man. he should be allowed to go to his office and not have to shape his entire life around her needs. and she keeps guilt tripping him out of it and it’s impacting his quality of life a lot and the whole thing is kind of… hm

#purrs #delete later #also she’s guilt tripping me into coming to the stupid fucking potluck on sunday bc she needs the extra help and it’s like… what are you #gonna do when i move out. like i am a grown woman and i should be able to choose how i spend my two precious weekend days. and my dad is a #grown man and he should be able to choose where he works. like is that not a little bit insane. i get it but also….. i do think it s kind of #fucked ip that it’s her way or the highway and her needs take priority over all of ours and she’s asking us to bend to what she wants when #she wants it. like i get it bc she’s sick but it’s not fair for her to expect that from my dad especially. particularly when me and my #brother are back at work / school in more high risk environments than my dad who would be in a private office alll day. and the thing is no #one is brave enough to all her on it bc if we did it would be the END of the world. she even threw a fit on my dads bday and complained bc #the things he wanted to do were things she didn’t want to do like all the man wanted to do was go mini golfing and when that wasn’t good #enough he just wanted to go on a walk and my mom complained the whole time and also scoffed the movie he wanted to watch and said it was #boring and it’s like… wtf it’s HIS birthday??? but what do you expect from the woman who (and in fairness her friends got her these as gifts #but still) has TWO kitchen items that say some variation of ‘a marriage is when one is always right and the other is always the husband’ 💀 #i look at that little plaque every night bc it’s in front of the sink when im doing dishes and it makes me so fucking angry. like my dad is #a whole fucking person and he can be right too and he deserves to make choices and be happy and not have his wife put him down all the time. #idk. and she puts down his family all the time too and complains when he wants to do the most reasonable things for his own enjoyment that #don’t align with hers and criticizes his interests all the time and it just sucks to see. he never shows hurt or anything so idk how he #feels about it but it makes me so angry and sad and when i tell her to stop she just lashes out at me so. 🤪. like how do we get her to stop #making her needs more important than everyone else’s bc… she may be our mom / his wife / whateger but that doesn’t make her queen. no one is #(andalso this has only gotten worse bc of covid / her being sick. like this has been a lifelong thing it’s just it’s a lot worse now bc the #circumstances gave her room / forced her to have to take up more space. and it’s just so frustrating. i get it. but none of us are pawns or #dolls or subordinates or anything. there’s 5 adults here and we should all be able to make choices and not be guilt tripped by her. lol #)

[qualityrain]

thinking way too hard abt the one conclusion art and the description like. akc enjoying a healthy rivalry with not a hint of darkness in his expression,,,,,,,the open posture the arm on the chair his lean forward,,,,,,,,,every other time he sits hes always arms crossed or in his lap back straight (other than in leblanc he leans forward there),,,,,like akechi would NEVER sit like this in canon hes so comfortable in the art and so happy and its ALL FAKE and i dojekdnekdnskskskskksk

#feeling that one person in the tags of my post who said they cant watch the ideal ending #because akechi sounds so truly happy that it makes them sick and I FEEL SICK TOO #its so sick like urghhhhhhhhhhhh hes so happy!!!! but this isnt what he wants AT ALLL #i think it rlly is chilling to see akechi in disbelief and disappointed in you #then it just cuts to him being genuinely happy like its so sick and twisted #to hear akechiwith all the scorn in his voice and its just gone like #its akechi but also not him but i wish he will be rhis happy in the future #claude txt #THE FACT THAT B4 THIS ITS AKEXHINMIGHT ASWELL BEGGING JOKER TO NOT TAKE THIS ENDING #THATVHE WOULD RATHER DIE

[youaremysunshine-court]

Big anxiety tonight about really vague things idk wtf my brain is doin

#my heart is beating so fast over like... something thats a month away #but i thought it was two months away #and forgot time #and its just alll #closing in #idk #i hate it #i hate losing time like this i was meant to be getting my life together and suddenly its the end of may what the fuck #what the fuck whst the fuck what the fuck im so #god i hate this #i wish i was doing somethign worthwhile #i want to contribute something and the days just keep slipping away and before you know it its all gone

[beehop]

whyyy couldn’t it be a dreary cloudy weekend so i can play this incredibly dark game all day but nooo the sun had to be out

#i can’t see SHIT the glare is so bad #yes this is about the quarry again yes i could play at night but #playing during the day means i’m significantly less scared!! and also i don’t want to do anything else #if this game wasn’t dark as fuck it’d be fine but what can you expect from a horror game i guess #also i’ve put together (i think) that the hunters are just trying to get the creepy monster and protect the kids #with the blood somehow idk #so i fucked up like alll of kaitlyn’s quick time events in purpose hoping she would get blooded #anyway that backfired bc now she’s lost the gun lol #also i suppose if thr hunters would at least use their words like we’re trying to help! maybe the kids would be less scared of them #but they are acting really weird so maybe my theory is wrong #also kinda fucked up they don’t have camp end more than a literal day before hunting season for creepy demon thing opens up #like didn’t the kids leave the same day the councelors were supposed to?? #you’re just asking for something to go wrong lol

[reddd-robin]

i think my favourite thing about creating mean and abhorrent characters is the kind of freedom to play around with and understand how they got to that point. not like how people will excuse it but as in psychoanalyzing these things. i love getting into their heads and knowing all their sore spots and what gets bruised when it’s just soo much fun. i love the absence of an idea of ‘good’ or ‘moral’ but the concept of cruelty hanging over the natural state of the world. 

MANY TAGS ABOUT OCS BELOW    V

#this is kind of about gwen. shes a horrible person but i love walking through #her life and knowing what develops when. the enitre concept of her spending centuries FORMING because she's a rock and then being forced- #-to just exist forever. she is so fascinated by animals that it makes her so hateful towards them for having it so easy #she doesnt even WANT easy shes just mad they got it. she spent soo long being mad and bored with her 'family' that mimicked an animal trait #thats another of my favourite things #the idea of the gargoyles little group being a 'family'. because the gargoyles were alll formed from the same mountain/landscape so they- #-cobbled together this social structure to function because the animal societies were doing it so well and subsequently trapping themselves- #-into a constant fight for power but even bigger figh about superiority and the elders being the most important #it all builds up to this constant frustration of gwen being the youngest but the most 'popular' one in the sense that she's a public figure #so she feels so entitled to all the things everyone else has that she comes to a point of taking it by force. in the end leading up to sifa #which i should specify there WASN'T sex involved in sifas creation lol gargoyles do not have genitals they are rocks #essentially the whole reason gwen was so wrapped up in keeping josef was because he's a qursa tiefling #which means he's a wild magic TAP. hes fucking leaking that shit everywhere she felt the power from a mile away #he cannot use any of it because it would kill him probably but gwen /can/ and she spent a good while sapping his magic until eventually- #-propositioning him to 'make' sifa. wherein she would just need to cut him open to take the magic necessary to make a weird almost-clone #its fucked up either way and a violation of josefs bodily automonmy. sorry josef #and also fucked up that sifa can never feel like her own person. girl cause youre not #HUGE RANT #oc shit

[wngweis]

unsatisfied, bored. unsettled. yeah

#lmao i don’t even have willpower or a force to do smth #and they keep on rising like #my jealousy as well acting up... so in the end it all just makes me depressed #like when would i stop care about others but like i just have this feel i can do it better then they do it #but when i do it my outcome is so badly appreciated it makes me tear my hair out #i never fit in #i need to make myself less to fit in #bro i dont want thayt #fuck it alll #i need to stop see myself for what i consider myself and lower myself to fit in #i need to see myself as someone who doesn’t fit in simply bc it is missunderstood or as a whole concept hard to grasp and decipher #that way maybe what i do is just not fully for everybody

[lusalemaart]

🥛🍔

#really getting fucking tired of tumblr not compressing my file itself. like it ruins the quality but it wont #automatically resize my massive fucking files!? gotta do it myself?? ugh. the lack of usability across all social media platforms is just #getting so hard to stomach anymore. nothing is functional. people get their accounts removed for no logical reason. im exhausted. #and yet i still want all my shit in a collective place -_- #ugh.do you ever look at something and are like. holy shit i painted this.damn. unfortunately it doesnt happen very often but when it does? #almost always my vent boy. why. why is that?why cant i paint anything half decent except this emo boy with a mullet?whatever. also. kinda #random but.not actually random. related actually.idk if this is just me but like. sometimes there are Articles in ur living space that just #exist. like u just accept they exist even tho u have no recollection of attaining them. im talkin clothes specifically rn. like i have this #aqua-green robe with blue trim that ive had as far back as i can recall...except i cant for the life of me remember where it came from! its #almost like it spawned in my closet one day.i just. accept it.like. dont get me wrong. it cozy. its quite physically held up for decades. #i wear it all the damn time. but ive no mortal clue how it got here. ive no memory of receiving it.also ngl i had way too much fun renderin #his beard.like u cant tell bc i apply about a million overlay layers and filters respectively to my finished works. ultimately covering up #hours + hours worth of finely rendered details each drawn individually by hand. deeming my efforts useless in the end bc i cover it up but. #trust me. i took some time with that beard.beard gang beard gang.mullet beard gang.dirty smelly mullet beard man. hello yes my name is #80 y/o who is 32/33 years old. how are you today? im personally doing terrible.good talk. WHAT CAN I SAY i just think the emo grown ass man #with boatloads of physical AND emotional trauma is neat. MY HANDS LOOK LIKE THIS SO HIS DONT HAVE TO *camera pans to a fucked up little set #of discolored claws skin translucent as alll hell. no muscle.atrophied beyond repair. also a bit of dirt is caked under the brittle + ridge #unhealthy nails. cuts and scraped take approx 3 months to heal bc the nerve functioning is That Bad*. #botdbs #fk #on a final note. I drew these about a week ago. I was literally only listening to cheeseburger in paradise the whole time. Then I learned #today that Jimmy Buffett passed away yesterday. broke my heart a little. i was just drinking my coffee from my margaritaville mug too. #Rest in peace legend. I hope heaven has so many cheeseburgers. #so many cheeseburgers in literal paradise. #Makin' the best of every virtue and vice. Worth every damn bit of sacrifice. to get a. cheeseburger in paradise.

[jackienautism]

anyway id wanna live for her too

#mine #text #screenshots #oxide room 104 #been playing sooo much oxide room 104 lately #currently making walkthroughs for each of th e endings #took me reading tv tropes to fully grasp what the hell was going on. despite 100%ing it and playing multiple times. but alll is well! #i just think she is neat #plus i feel incredibly bad for her. and reading and seeing her deterioration occur through her letters was just. ough #idk why she'd spend her time helping matt aka a loser of a man but! regardless! #i like her a lot #FUCK her grandma btw #my thoughts #misc tag

[klonoadoortophantomile]

holy fuck okay so . i finally maaged to get past the level/boss fight i was stuck on in klonoa. starting from 5-1 reallt did help i got to the boss fight with like 9 lives lol. anyways uh holy fuck the final level is terrifying ??? like it just. feels really unnerving ? the whole fmv thing before it also felt just really. dreadful which i guess is the point since were in like the final stretch of the game but like. idk i jsut really didnt expect it

#idk what im saying jsut AAIURGHRGRH THIS GAME IS GOOD I LOVE IT SO FUCKIGING MUCH #i managed to avoid stuff abt vision 6 (aside from. story spoilers at the VERy end of the game and a few gameplay clips with the dispearing #platforms) so i had no real idea abt what to expect from it and just. wow #also the phantomilians you save in this level scared the shit out of me like i just Did Not expect rhat at alll #inquisitivewaltz.txt