#aliven't

[insonorus]

Never thought i could still cry with angst stories. But here I am bawling my eyes out with the same freaking cliche...

#fanfic #i hate it here #god i am not your strongest soldier #idk if this makes sense #aliven't #i'm ready to die #yencatx

[napstawantstosleep]

What if Eret's eyes worked like prisms and reflected rainbows when not covered by sunglasses???

#It's going to turn 5am and I have an exam tomorrow #Currently living in denial won't leave any time soon #God the cursed energy is coming back is it a summer thing like I need answers #dsmp #dream smp #dsmp fanart #mcyt #mcyt fanart #dream smp fanart #the eret #eret fanart #eret art #eret dream smp #eret #eryn streams #dsmp eryn #c!eret #c!eryn #Give me the will to keep going please #I am listening to a 2000s playlist to 'feel like a baddie' gurl I am feeling like an aliven't corpse rn #No regret except for the lost hours of sleep but listen we can't do things well AND have an healthy life style #U have to pick one and I've made my choice long ago already #Anyway lemme just pass out on my bed for the next 5 hours haha adios I ain't waking up/j

[mewkwota]

Here are some final Leon sketches to get him out of my system (the first one was from a few days ago). I really did design his eyes to make him look sad 110% of the time.

#why does leon look so sad? #is it the struggles that were placed on him? #or maybe the ones he left on his bloodline? #he is aliven't in my works so we may never know :T #but at least now if I need to draw him for something I've got that hair down (for now) #doodle-daas #castlevania #leon belmont

[longstoryshqrt]

SOMEONE IN THE BYLER TUMBLR WHO WANTS TO BE MY FRIEND?? i need someone here

update: I have friends now!! :)

#byler #i want friends #anyone else?? at all?? no??? just me???? okay cool guess i'll aliven't :^)))

[slutdge]

ok im in a shit mood pls tell me what you think the worst bands are and i will listen to them cause i feel like hate-listening right now

#really wish i was aliven't lads why do i have to be surrounded by people like this!!!! #i should be allowed to stab. as a treate

[clear-dapple-dualies]

Using your specials on High Tide, Wave 1 to nuke that Flyfish in the very dangerous grate corner on Spawning Grounds is NOT a waste of a special.

#I used both my Booyah Bombs on Wave 1 to Nuke a Flyfish both times in that kill corner #It is not a good idea to go over there #It helped SO MUCH to have those two Flyfish aliven't so we could deal with the other thousand things going on

[fade-out-lights]

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#one of my favourite lecturers conducts a discipline for us this semester #i really really like her but i suck at german which is my main and it's not like im going to get any better #maybe we will even write our jahresarbeit with her #we had to write one on literature last year #but literature is whole other thing for me and the lecturer who #supervised us was also a blessing #(we still have lit with her and ahhh hope it'll be as good as it's been so far) #and writing a paper on language is like... no... lmao girl im aliven't #it took me real time to understand it's okay to suck at things but the worst of it all is that people - good people - have expectations and #you? #and me? i have kneeschmerzen that's what i can say

[pinkcatminht]

It's 6am and I haven't slept yet does doordash deliver .45 aspirin???

#i would like to aliven't

[derelictdumbass]

last night I was playing fc5 and liberated Holland Valley and after suffering through John's stupid plane fight (my beloathed) I deadass shot him mid air as we were both parachuting down to the ground ajsjdjdnd NO IT WAS SO BAD HE WAS MID RADIO CALL TOO SO THAT POOR PEGGIE ON THE OTHER END MUST HAVE JUST BEEN SITTING THERE ansjdjddk

I also took his body all the way back to his ranch and after not being able to put him on either of his couches I left him on one of his bear rugs, he can't say I never do anything nice for him <3

#nadine is typing... #I was trying to make him comfortable and he kept doing backflips and landing on his head 🙄 #like drop where I drop u sir why are u difficult even when ur aliven't #anyway I also took a bunch of photos in photo mode bc ofc <3 #I got a birds eye view of his ranch and airstrip stuff for fic purposes #and I just took a bunch of photos of mary may in falls end <33333 beloved #and a few of jerome <3 he was just sitting there <333

[littletown-of-cats]

If I died I know that only a few people would care

Not a lot, just a few, like 5 people would feel a difference without my existence

Well now that I think about it, it would be like 3

So yeah, sorry to those 3 people and family sorry for not holding longer sorry for giving up so easily, I think about it more than ever

It may happen any moment

It's so weird that I feel more alive when I do it when I hurt myself

Im sorry mom I feel like I still deserve it

Im sorry that I still think that is my fault

Im sorry that I let the past mistakes and wounds shape my future

Im sorry if I don't come back to my senses one day

I'm sorry if I never hug you back someday

Is not your fault is mine

#me #just me #this so silly i want to die #aliven't lmao #i will do it #i will close my eyes rn and rest #i will sleep rn not die lol #but i will do it eventually

[legendaryevokercupcake]

My entire fanfic career but it's only the ways I've worked the omegaverse in against my will. Seriously. I just DO IT. It happens without my consent.

Like:

Me: So the werewolf bite alters the victim's DNA, meaning that if it happened young enough, it could completely change the victim's biology-

The invasive thoughts: CHANGING THEIR GENETALIA AND GIVING THEM SCENTS, THIS ALSO APPLIES TO THOSE WHO HAVE BEEN WEREWOLVES FOR A VERY LONG TIME. THE SCENTS ARE BARELY DETECTABLE FOR REGULAR HUMANS BUT THEY DO MAKE THE PERSON MORE APPEALING IN BOTH A SEXUAL AND ROMANTIC CONTEXT.

Me: WHERE THE FUCK DID THAT COME FROM?

...

...

Ok. I'll write it. But It can't have smut. It's an all fluff fix it fic.

#And it's Harry Potter fanfic too :) #Please send help #And make me stop sexualizing my comfort characters #Fanfic #Invasive thoughts #I also have #Intrusive thoughts #but those aren't the same #If I don't do the invasive thoughts the urge to do the intrusive thoughts gets stronger #and I'd rather write terrible fanfiction than do the self bang bang become aliven't

[green-x-reaper]

Has killed a man, will kill a man, already killed a man, currently burying a man in the garden next to the other men she's already killed.

#;;queen of the undead #;;foolishness #;;reaper commentaries #|| murder? no. aliven't

[r4pline]

fun fact i was diagnosed with double depression. the dude testing me for various things compared me to eeyore. i'm sadder than most people. ain't that some shit? the medical term is dysthymia but wtf

honestly though the fact that it's genuinely referred to as double depression is so funny

"yeah I got double ds"

"you mean like boobs"

"no like depression"

#my life is a comedy #mf double depression #for the record i don't wanna kermit or anything #i got no energy depression not the aliven't depression #i debated titling my blog double depression but i feel like that'll get misconstrued lol

[crimalwx]

remembering the good ol amino days that weren't good at all.... oh how things have changed......

#alwx.txt #oh the two ppl I had to talk out of aliven't #one bc they were depressed and about to do it in the middle of a bunch of b//t//s pics #and the other bc he didn't hsve a girlfriend #and he wanted me to be his gf but also i wa s like 14

[zero06iranosaurusrex]

DISCLAIMER:this all are a fiction works and not any of em based on real deals,i use other pop cultures fictional medias as references so...maybe a little bit talk about this kinda...random au that i made yeah all of em are connected each others and also an expansion lore of my other LT AU:divided horizon and yes the main characters are....different in each of em,and also they kinda...have different stuffs to dealt with and to solve,and each shits that happened onto them was caused by different factors like bugs's problems was caused by his encounter with cecil which made him become aliven't,ace dealt with losing both of his parents,and other shits,yakko and his insecurities beneath his fun and easy going attitude and buster with...a lot of terrifying shits happened to him which i refuse to elaborate more because...graphics so yeah ....angst here n there lmao but yeah don't worry,every stage of grieves has redemption arcs and solving problem times and they eventually would got it somewhere in the middle of their stories

also a test page of the first arc because....i need to dealt wit moires on the screentone oTL

#fanart #my artwork #bugs bunny #daffy duck #looney tunes #baffy #buster bunny #ace bunny #lola bunny #penelope pussycat #lexi bunny #danger duck #the warner siblings #dodles #wip #alternate universe #rambles #moar angst #angst

[kunikame]

# PURPLE LILACS !

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ace trappola x fem!reader smau

! warning(s) : aliven't mentions, "kys" used 2 times, angst hehe

? w/c : 853

the ramshackle ghosts letting him inside the dorm with wary gazes should've been the first red flag, ace notes.

the building is eerily silent until grim appears (equally as wary as the ghosts until he spots the sweets the ginger is carrying in his arms), lifting a paw to point towards the upper floor of the building. ace takes this as a "go" sign and slowly makes his way up the creaking staircase.

you have cleaned the building up well since you arrived in twisted wonderland (ace would know, he was here to help after all) but with the money crowley provides, you barely have enough for food, much less to fix up the building. then again, it’s not like you’re staying here permanently, you’re gonna leave the moment crowley finds a way home for you.

somehow, that thought hurts more than it should.

upon reaching the upper floor, the dorm wasn’t as quiet as before, and ace found himself regretting being here.

the closer to your rooms door he went, the louder the sobs and sniffles became, and now he’s seriously debating whether he should knock on your door or just pretend him telling you he’s coming over was all just an elaborate prank, but then he heard knocking and saw his very own hand pressed against the wooden door.

“shit- shit, ow- um, yeah?”

“.. it’s ace. may i come in?”

the sound of rushed steps and things bumping against each other was heard and the door flew open, bringing with it a sudden breeze that sent his bangs flying. curse autumn weather.

“uh, yeah, sure. why are you here though?”

“i.. told you i was coming..?” he says quizzically as he makes his way into the room, taking a quick look around. there’s several items in disarray, but what stuck out to him most was the wallet on the floor. not the one the guys personally made you for christmas since you said your previous one got lost, this one was unfamiliar to ace, “what’s that?”

“oh, uh.. you know how i said my wallet got lost somewhere when i, uh, appeared here? yeah, that’s the one. someone in diasomnia found it and handed it over to lilia, apparently.”

“is that what’s got you so down, then?” why bring up your relationship with your mother over a found wallet? he came here because of your tweet in the first place, but he doesn’t really see how these 2 things are connected. he grabs the faux leather wallet off the floor before sitting on your carpet next to it, only for a polaroid picture to come slowly fluttering out.

oh.

“not the wallet, no. the picture is.”

yeah, he can see how a picture of your mother would remind you of her.

he checks if it’s okay with you, then he lifts the picture for a closer inspection. there’s what he can make out as an older lady who looks like you, and a man hugging her waist. he finds it nice you keep a picture of your parents so close to you.

“i was on that picture too.”

“sorry?”

he looks up at you, startled, then back down at the picture in his hands. now that he looks closer, there’s a slight blur bubble in the center of the photo.

“it was taken on my 10th birthday. there was a cake and my fathers hand was on my shoulder. now there’s no cake, and certainly no me either,” you start fiddling with your fingers (a nervous habit, ace notes) and he waits for you to continue, “i didn’t really think dying in my world and being transported here would delete all memories of me. i didn’t even know that was possible, but now i have proof.”

“wait, pause, dying? you’re dead? like, dead dead?”

“i should be, yes. i was just hoping my parents would remember me, at least.”

“.. but crowley is looking for a way back for you, isn’t he?”

“no. i told him to stop when i remembered how i got here. told ‘im it was useless and that i would just be 2 meters under anyway– if i would even be there, that is.”

“do the others know about this..?”

you shake your head with a melancholy smile and ace regrets even bringing up the topic at all. perhaps he should’ve just given you the sweets and left. or he shouldn’t have come here at all, left deuce or jack to be the first ones to know.

but then the devil on his shoulder whispers in his ear and he realizes at least he’s closer to you now, which means he’s also one step closer to making his plan work.

“that’s okay. it can be our secret for now– and crowleys. if you ever want to talk about any of this, or just your feelings or whatever, feel free to hit me up. i’m always only one call away, you know.”

“.. why are you being so nice to me all of a sudden? don’t you, like, hate me or something?”

“hate you? i could never hate you,” liar.

## ❝ after the events of the phantom bride wedding, ace started wondering whether he still had the ability to charm girls. he hasn’t thought about anyone romantically in years, hasn’t really flirted with anyone either, what if he’s gone out of it? perhaps it’s time to put his talents to the test; with the person who hates him most, no less. if he can charm her, he can charm anyone.

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