#all very valid mental illnesses

[lingerness]

travis is lactose intolerant canon

#all very valid mental illnesses #minecraft diaries #aphmau mcd #mcd laurance #laurance zvahl #mcd garroth #garroth ro'meave #mcd travis #travis valkrum

[sunlit-mess]

Hello, I hope it's not rude but I'm REALLY REALLY fond of your art!!!!! I was scrolling through your blog from new to old and found that you have Bpd,,,. I only heard about this condition, what is it like? If it's ok to know,,,!

hello, thank u! uhm it's something? HAHAHAHA idk how to explain it 😭🏳 lemme try to be as direct as possible

I'm high-functioning, but there are points I seriously just start showing symptoms.

Emotions: INTENSE as it can get while FEELING 99 PERCENT EMPTY. Something just- keeps you so.. hungry (not literally). Sensory is also another factor, and honestly I burn out a lot, tend to get overwhelmed n meltdown like shit

Identity: I either have BEEF WITH it, feel GODLY, or be so LOW, really low. I live with both passion and hate. I'm very confused. But I can say I'm just tired!

Attachments: Relationships are so hard to maintain bc of how much I fear abandonment, like bro I can't even leave my family as much as I want to. I'm more scared of getting disowned or losing my name. Love is a concept I long to grasp at the same time scared of it, I don't understand jackshit about " love ".

> I tend to self-Isolate with or without reason

> ...I used to test other people whether they can handle me or not, whether they'd leave or not. Not anymore though, but the thought lingers.

> Very- paranoid- about.. perception, neglect and invalidity HAHA.

Mindset: They call it Black and White, or generally just two categories to label my perception of things. However, I try to understand AS MUCH AS I CAN about a situation, etc. See what's in-between before I decide. that's really hard for me to do LOL.

> I always do my best to think and be nice

> I can be so fucking bad at the same time, only to regret it the next second or so

> My mind is scattered all over the place, It's exhausting

Trauma: I have memory problems and a lot to connect with that. Hate and fear is what I'm accustomed to. I live with a fuck ton of active predicaments like hell. Old wounds keeps reopening, and new ones never closes.

Impulse: shows in speech more than in action (THANK GOD LMAO I'D DIE IF I LET MY INTRUSIVE THOUGHTS WIN)

Habits: uhm. Ranging from sunshine and rainbows to SELF-DESTRUCTIVE. I get obsessive, like.. really obsessive.

Coping mechanisms: Usually I have mood stabilizers and anti-depressants n shit, but I don't rely on them anymore (bc I can't keep buying). I don't have good coping mechanisms even for physical needs. It's so bad bro. So I just end up drawing. that's the only good one I can list.

Living with it: Exhausting and an internal war 24/7. Does it affect me physically? Yes. Does it come with other mental factors and conditions? Also yes! But as one of God's most tired soldiers, nothing I can do but keep walking.

What I'm confused about: dawg last time, i kept searching about how conditions co exists like— Thats normal?? N the last diagnosis I was in confirms it does and nothing to worry about. BLUD I AM DEF WORRYING. Autism n bpd? u mean my behavior and shit isnt meant to be invalid as most people perceive — u mean these fckass experiences built that bpd? ☠️ WHAT AM I THEN—

(I'm having a hard time believing it bc as an adult, it's harder to process information like these)

#messyr #uhh HAHA! people n my environment -- is like- all fun and games until you actually start showing mentally ill shit yknow? #like whoa didnt know ur fkin crazy or like in a way theyll say or avoid bc they cant handle what theyre seeing #some stays to understand and help and i am VERY grateful for them. #bpd #no i dont mind answering questions like these #if anything i like sharing the experience bc ik other people are able to relate to it or have the same #at least they know they are heard and valid #comorbid conditions

[dennistakesamentalhealthday]

dennis is an angry character btw im sorry but he is full of rage but that rage is not exclusive his anger does not negate sadness and fragility and insecurities in fact they work together and dtamhd was one of the first times where his anger was not used as a joke via a surface level rage explosion from him but instead explored the fragility of his anger. the way he keeps reassuring the workers he encounters (and himself) that he's not mad. when he tells daisy he's not mad but he is a little bit upset. dennis is angry and that anger is what makes him so fragile. he was upset and it manifested as rage bc he doesnt know what to do with his own sadness

#disclaimer tags yes i would like to see his emotions explored more but i disagree that we ONLY saw anger in dtamhd #and EVEN IF IT WAS ONLY ANGER... anger is just as VALID and fragile and vulnerable as sadness. they are family #we saw how his anger makes him fragile how it exhausts him #how it works with his stress and fears and insecurities and sadness #he was UPSET!!!! #angry dennis in dtamhd WAS big feelings dennis in tends bar. that was the same #he expressed anger in tends bar bc he was upset he expressed anger in dtamhd bc he was upset etc etc #and i think the sadness people were expecting was present. the sadness and fragility we would have seen if he cried on the beach like most #of us anticipated (btw he did cry at the beach <3 technically <3) was THERE. it was just in his anger #sewerkingcharlie talked about this already and worded it very well but im honestly kinda bothered by how some people have treated #the portrayal of anger and emotions in this ep #you dont have to like the ep or how they portrayed dennis but some posts have really given the vibe of #his anger and his emotional outburst not being as valid because it wasnt portrayed in the way you expected #or that it wasnt palatable enough #and honestly if you dont like it thats okay! but can we please be careful with how we talk about mental illness and anger outbursts! #yes it is frustrating when people ONLY see dennis' anger or see dennis' anger in a very shallow way #which a lot of the audience unfortunately does because its been treated like a joke #but it wasnt a just a joke here #and maybe this will all go past dudebros heads frankly i dont give a shit lol but thats for another post

[silusvesuius]

N*loth is literally prime NPD representation and that's just how it is. Dat's just how i feel . if iiiiiii hear anyhing ab him needing to be humbled or put in his place i'll just tear my hair out right here and match his look. not even trying to lift him up or defend him i'm just defending the mentally ill skajrim characters nobody wants to understand,

#text #literally sick to my stomach from people sayin that shit omfg #no i'm exaggerating but be serious #my sk*rim NPD trifecta is n*loth + s*ddgeir + m*raak #s*ddgeir is the one you all should be humbling cause he's just gay (derogatory)) and materialistic #i swear n*loth didn't do anythign to any of you people he doesn't even like fancy stuff even tho he has the bag #people see a smart bih with a rocket science degree and just wanna say she needs to be '' '' put in her place '' ''' #my hyper sk*rim character rambling. .. but seriously tho... #i think 2 this site its: traumatized character = 'sad wet cat' #intimidating woman = 'MAMA DOM' #and character with blown out ego = 'actually pathetic' #like i'll start swinging idc #m*raak is a good personification of NPD cause he doesn't wanna believeee there's someone better than him in his 'skill' #notice how he's Always throwing shit on U for no reason #he's so mad. lols #the entire DB DLC is about m*raak's NPD and how it consumed him. very artistic.. #but n*loth i find to be extremely realistic even in the little things #how his NPD isn't an escape from anything but just pillars of his existence #+how his ego doesn't help w/ not caring about wat others think about him.. he neeeeds that validation to feel good 2 #but not to survive. his Ego can carry him on it's own #i'll defend n*loth's mental illnesses with my life idrc abt m*raak's diagnosis tho just cause he annoys me from the gameplay LMFAO BYE #if i sound crazy when i post shid likethis it's cause you don't LOVE sk*rim like i do.........rubbing my temples

[widevibratobitch]

omw to play emotional support for my mom disguised as ✨fun family bonding time✨ for the rest of the week <3333 there's something so deeply wrong with me uwu teehee

#and i still havent texted my friend back even tho she texted me a week ago and i told her ill text her back this week when i have the time #and i DO have the time. im just fucked in the head and the prospect of having a conversation with another person where i again #have to pretend im not at the very brink of a serious mental and emotional breakdown. is making me lose my fucking mind #ik she's having a bad time rn and she needs the reassurance and jesus fucking christ i tried i had two long conversations with her #that were allllll about her. only her. not a single word about me. that's fine. this is what people need in such moments right #to just get patted on the head and hugged and told their suffering is real and what happened to them is unfair and just made to feel #that for a moment they're the centre of attention and it is all about them. this is normal. this is why therapy exists. #so i try to give this to her but it is fucking draining. and i NEVER get the same treatment back. like she caught me crying at uni last week #and like yes she'll say some nice things but she'll always find a way to turn the conversation back on the topic of ✨her✨ #like we started talking about my therapy and i finally got to actually say a word or two about what im dealing with. but then she goes #'yeah im just trying to figure out what's wrong with me when i listen to you haha like i could never cut myself cause it looks ugly. #ofc it doesnt look ugly on you haha but i could never lol' #like thanks haha good to know ill just shut up then and steer the conversation back onto you why dont i. i mean its not like #i spent over an hour a few days back sitting with you and listening to your talk about your childhood and validating you and not saying #a word a single fucking word about myself even tho i was also going through it myself but who cares right. and now im the bad guy again #because im not texting back. #i feel like im finally fucking snapping cause at this point im properly fucking angry. IM having a bad time too. IM going through it too. #I have bad coping skills and had a fucked up childhood and traumas in my life TOO and im allowed to just not be able to handle it #i really wanna break something lol maybe therapy's working after all lmao #oh also this is why i dont eat breakfast. i do it once and then feel guilty and suicidal lol normal behaviour #pojebie mnie zaraz przysięgam na boga mam dość kurwa BASTA

[manicpixiefelix]

I genuinely can’t fathom how you pump out such quality writing in so little time like omgg

thank you, i have the worst sleep schedule you could ever possibly imagine❤️

#theres a lot of ways i could answer this but this is.. hm. the least concerning?? #like saltburn very literally triggered me into a manic episode and writing is how i cope?? #performance enhancing drugs (ADHD medication) #over a decade of experience??? #all true but so is the sleep schedule thing and thats Snappy #im also addicted to validation thats another reason #if i don't write the stories get stuck in my head and build up and make me sick??? still true #the worms have joined forces with my mental illness and formed a saltburn based union?? hm #it shouts back

[bitchthefuck1]

One of the weirdest things about finding out you're traumatized/mentally ill/neurodivergent as an adult is looking back at all the very obvious signs in your childhood and realizing none of the adults responsible for you were paying attention

#it really is a mindfuck #like all of yall were really asleep at the wheel here #me: exhibiting very obvious symptoms of neurodivergence and mental and physical illnesses #ever parent teacher coach and other authority figure i interacted with: shes just Like That. #fun fact i when i was in elementary school starting in 2nd grade id have to walk to the front of the classroom and read a section of the #board at a time and then go back to my desk and copy it from memory because I couldn't see well enough from my seat and not a single #teacher said or did anything about it until i was in fifth grade. guess who needed glasses. #like they didn't even ask they just let that happen until my fifth grade teacher was like. what are you doing. and i told her i couldn't #read the writing from two rows back and she told me to tell my mom i needed glasses #anyways ms. [redacted] you're the only valid mfer in this place #not even gonna get into the number of coaches who called me lazy or out of shape in middle/high school (even though i was playing multiple #sports a year) when i told them i couldn't breathe after running for only a minute or two. guess who has sports asthma. #maybe this is just being the middle child but like of you're not going to pay attention to me can u at least not immediately call me a liar #when i say something's wrong maybe #those aren't even mental/neurological those are very obvious and easily demonstrated physical issues and you STILL didn't say anything #not even gonna get into all the very obvious signs of mental illness and neurodivergence

[coffeeandcalligraphy]

ok ok so you know how my life has majorly revolved around my pain since july & how that has been extremely difficult :) well lately I find myself getting up later than I want to & making my bed as badly as I possibly can & getting out of the house after noon when I planned to get out in the morning & walking to the library when it’s sunny & sitting there for hours & the whole time I’m most concerned with writing & that it’s incredible what I’m doing, it’s a little paradise

#you know how I hoped September would be kind to me well it delivered #I actually didn’t realize how mentally poorly I was doing until I got out of it ! #like oooooof it’s like a chronic pain veil #& to be very honest it’s because I’m physically better so I cannot blame myself and I don’t lol bc there will be a time when that happens #<< again #I mean better loosely I just mean I haven’t had 8/10 pain every day for weeks LOLLL #but it’s really quiet and beautiful & im grateful !!! like yay I can still create ! #I’m not thinking abt my pain 95% of the day now it’s probably about 40%? 50? so a lot but I’m literally not every single thought LOL #sometimes it’s even like 20! not even cuz anything is getting better bc it’s not but I will take it even if idk why!!! #(& by nothing is getting better I mean meaningfully better but I have been blessed with some good days lately which I had none #of all summer) #I say this bc every day I wake up and immediately think OH GOD MY PAIN which is so valid bc it’s awful in the morning getting up is like #falling into a black hole Lol but also while that thought is still there I also thought #wow I’m so excited to write today I’m so excited to see what Jeremiah does #HE IS THE NARRATOR OF HEALING #also like SOOO PRIVILEGED to be able to do this like I also wanted to say that! #anyway update for u since I know I have shared the Despair but none of the beauty yet lol #lots of love chronic illness/pain bbs <3

[sluttylittlewaste]

Y'all know that the people who are going to love you the most in the world are still going to be annoyed with you at times right? That impatience and frustration are human emotions that everyone invokes in others at some point or another? That being loved as a neurodivergent person doesn't mean finding people who are never bothered by your needs or behaviors, but rather finding people whose love for you outweighs those incompatibilities? Y'all realize that sometimes you might just...talk too much on a day that your partner would prefer silence? Or make a mess on a day your roommate just cannot handle having to clean up for you? Or that in the months you spent in hermit mode you were actually unavailable to a friend who really needed your support?

Y'all understand that at times your friends/family/partner are going to have needs that misalign with yours and that BOTH OF YOU are going to have to figure out the best way to handle that?

#This is specifically about that one Instagram post #Where the guy is like “My friend and I have a flight in 40 minutes and he was supposed to pick me up an hour ago and I'm very annoyed” #and all of the comments were people saying that maybe the friend has time blindness #and this is why NTs are bad friends #and that op is being ableist for getting upset #this is also about all those posts where people say “I know shut everyone out for weeks and was totally mia” #“But being upset at me is MEAN and UNFAIR :(” #Or all of those very concerning posts about waiting for friends/partners who are always super understanding and never complain #Like guys #That's not how have having loved ones works #Are you going to run from anyone who EVER gets annoyed with you? #Anyone who isn't constantly acting as a perfect pillar of support and validation? #thoughts #let me die #if i die #queer #neurodiversity #actually mentally ill #actually ocd #oc drawing #relationships #platonic relationships #romantic relationships #emotions

[madd-nix]

Verrry funny to me that I love Ingo and Johanna - a ship where the one character becomes the step-parent to the other's daughter - while I absolutely loathe the idea that my dad has now proposed to his shitty girlfriend. I guess it's just me wishing he had picked someone better that I actually like.

#me talking #vent #not that i dont want my dad to be happy but like she sucks #she's very far right politically and i think she's part of the reason he's become more right leaning since my mom died #and she's also just very opinionated and very 'my way is the highway' and 'all opinions are valid unless your opinion goes against mine #then youre wrong and i am right' #and she once told me that some queer identities are mental illnesses #my dad is no better cuz they both misgender me constantly and he never stands up for me when she gets pissed at me #and yet i have to play nice and be civil with them #i hate it here #i wish ingo was my dad lol

[crabussy]

RRARAAAAAAAAAUUAUUAAGHHHHH

#ITS 12AM AND I HAVE BIG EXAMS TOMORROW #and people are taking my lighthearted post far too seriously and claiming some pretty awful things about my intentions #???????? I'm just some 17 year old who thought housetrucks were interesting #and recognised that they're likely the only kind of accommodation I'd be able to afford once I'm an adult #like YEAH YOUR POINTS ABOUT ROMANI APPROPRIATION ARE VALID and I am willing to listen. I know its frustrating #but also I've looked into the history of housetrucks within nz and the people who first built them? #they just built them out of necessity. not to mimic or romanticise romani suffering. I can't find any mention of romani inspiration #I SPECIFICALLY included photos of NZ HOUSETRUCKS ONLY and not romani wagons or similar because #a lot of new zealanders live poorly and have to resort to that lifestyle. SOME new zealanders live in housetrucks just because they can #but I guarantee you it is a very small amount because they're extremely inefficient and dangerous to live in #the only reason I was posting about them with such excitement is because I'm ecstatic about maybe being able to afford a home before I'm 40 #ranting about this in the tags and not in a reblog because goddd dude I don't want to look like some racist prick or something #to the person who reblogged the housetruck post with the stuff I'm talking about #if you're looking through my blog for whatever reason #I understand what you're saying but man that wasn't my intention at all #I'm a burnt out mentally ill IB student who made that post to cope with escapism #I didn't make it to erase romani lives or your culture I just made it because I need a hope for a liveable future #houses in new zealand usually cost over a million dollars I literally just want to look forward to living somewhere #warning bells in my mind right now please please don't twist my words it's 12am and I'm stressed out of my mind #god I feel awful I need to sleep #sick of being on the internet I am so so careful to be as respectful and careful as I can about topics #only to be accused of using gentrifying dogwhistles to appropriate a marginalised group of people ????? #for sharing photos of new zealand specific housetrucks and calling them 'kiwi culture' #I did not mean 'kiwi culture' as in 'invented by and owned by new zealanders' #I meant it in the same way that fish and chips are 'kiwi culture'. obviously we didn't invent either of those things. they just happen to b #a regular part of aotearoa life. RARHRHGHHH #fuck man I'm too worked up over this I never meant to be shitty or appropriate anything I just like housetrucks #I'm going to be a wreck tomorrow I'm too anxious to sleep #so sorry to anyone who bothered to read all of this #just needed. somewhere to put it

[gameboy-berry]

Going to say it right now... But I dread the feeling that PPT2's fanbase is slowly turning out to be what II's fanbase is right now... To the point where I really regret ever talking about certain stuff there in the first place.

Like the object show community, especially on Twitter, is very adverse to stuff like nuance and forgiveness but also criticism towards shows altogether as seen with II's fans. I feel with the show's rise in popularity and recent episode focusing more away on its most popular character(Journal) but other that things are quickly going to get dirty. Like the fanbase is already ship heavy and you know how it is with people pushing shipping as the ONLY way to enjoy something.

(Not to mention the way people are parasocial towards Yellow is really starting to match that of how people are with the people who work on II. Not even most OSC creators get this level of strangers treating a content creator like a friend.)

#berrybytes #also the osc tends to be very ableist once a mentally ill person does something they dont like #fear that might happen if a psychotic on twt or the discord posts actually valid criticism on how journals story was handled #with journals fan-favorite status and most fandom focus all coming back to him #im not on either anymore but i know its inevitable #.txt

[boypussydilf]

i get why people would take this perspective since at the time everyone thought it was The End Of Adventure Time Forever And This Is Where Everyone’s Stories End. Forever but in retrospect its kind of so funny that after CAWM there were ppl like….. “wtf so now simons just Cured just like that and now he’s just normal :/“ Why would you think that, though. not having curse induced insanity anymore isn’t gonna change the fact that he survived a nuclear apocalypse. his last lines of dialogue in adventure time are him on the ground sobbing over betty

#some ppl missed the fact that betty Doing That in the finale wasnt supposed to be like #some super nice ‘her noble self sacrifice :)’ Happy Ending ????? #Consistently up to this point her efforts to get simon back r framed as like….. the wrong thing. to do #shes doing things that are ethically questionable at best shes making things worse for other people #and after refusing to give up even tho a very big point is made of the fact that this is not healthy #all she gets for her efforts is this sad fucked up imitstion of her plan #where neither of them gets what they actually wanted (to be together) #No betty sacrificing herself to save everyone from the problem SHE CAUSED isntframed as some nice good thing #and no simon was never going to just be normal and mentally healthy after everything that has happened in his life. #basilposting #atposting #There r valid interesting discussions of ‘was stuff that happened in CAWM right narratively’ #but some ppl are approaching it from kind of a faulty perspective #and also its no longer. the end of the simon story arc. so its gonna kinda get recontextualized anyway #shifted around as it becomes the middle of a story instead of the end of it #basically huge L to whatever video the ‘she would rather kill herself than live with a mentally ill version of you’ clip is from #bc it turns out there is no version of simon that is not mentally ill <3

[lynnetendo]

i've said it before and i'll say it again: miss me with your insulting frustrating Comedic Topic Bingos (TM) when they are literally just statements in square table form. if you make statements in square table form, i cant stop you! cant complain! success! sexy of you to have put a bunch of words out there for people to measure how relatable you are, how accurate your future sight is, how good you deconstructed this topic. make that ask meme you wanted. hot af. go get that confirmation. slay. love. be free

however if you just put a bunch of statements in a square roster WITH SOME FIELDS IN A LINE DIRECTLY CONTRADICTING EACH OTHER OR BEING MUTUALLY EXCLUSIVE, AND CALLING IT A BINGO, YOU'RE SUCCESSFULLY INCREASING MY LEVELS OF FRUSTRATION!! IF THE FIELDS CONTRADICT EACH OTHER IT'S NOT BINGO!! YOU'VE MADE IT UNFAIR BY DESIGNING IT WITH A SECTION THAT IS FULLY UNWINNABLE!!

and if you say "well not everything can be won. these arent supposed to be won" then why didnt you just Not make a bingo...

#/lh #lynne things #idk what to tag this #i get frustrated EVERY TIME I SEE ONE OF THESE VIRAL ASK MEMES IN SUPPOSED BINGO FORMAT #YOU WOULDVE BEEN SO VALID IF YOU JUST MADE A REGULAR ASK MEME OR PREDICTION LIST ETC #YOU CAN FORMAT IT AS A BULLET POINT LIST OR IN A JOKING SURVEY/QUIZ STYLE OR MAKE A PERSONALITY TEST OR A NORMAL ASS TABLE #besides destroying the bingo logic for no reason may i also say this would be better for you in many cases #because like with all structure models used as an analogy; youre running into the following obstacle (that list formats etc dont have): #you are forcing yourself to make it complete: #if you manage to think up 18 cool ask meme statements; you'll need to pull out at least 6 more to fill up a bingo square with 1 free space #why not make it easier on yourself by Not limiting yourself to the shackles of The Bingo Square #be free... be free #a bingo is very not free #this is lighthearted okay!!!!!! i may be genuinely frustrated bc of the sheer amount of false bingo prophets out there and their fans #but this is also just genuinely meant as a playful callout #i typed the post and the tags up on my phone... gross #google search which mental illness causes stupid logic based genuine frustrations like this #im waiting for someone to tell me 'actually in the year 1000bc bingos were...' or whatever kinda factoid that'll make me look like a clown #i already do?... success (i honk my way to the balloon exit)

[elytrafemme]

on one hand therapy is expensive and taxing and can be a dehumanizing process and feeds into the psychiatric industry of america’s exploitation of mentally ill people and i don’t think any person should be required to go to therapy and if people decide they don’t want to they are well within their rights to do that and are the best person able to assess that need for themselves. on the other hand holy shit there are some people that need fucking therapy. 

#nightmare.personal #i've had 3 conversations within this past month about people considering therapy and the reasons they are against it #and every time i'm like okay these are. valid reasons to not want to go. obviously i respect that #but it's fucking difficult because like. right now it's like. #someone very close to me is dealing with issues that i am frequently told about and i CANNOT fucking handle the way they assume i can #and i have told them a million times over that these are unhealthy behaviors but they refuse to realize they are #so then that feeds into them constantly invalidating it and being slightly ableist at times and also like #just refusing to ever accept the idea that They Might Be Mentally Ill #and it's like. what the fuck can i even say here #therapy isn't good for everyone but there are some people that i think really really need to try it is all.

[starlit-mansion]

I deleted the tumblr app off my phone which has been good for not accidently wasting an entire hour every morning but sometimes i do want to look at tumblr on phone so i manually log in using the browser version and it's incredibly poorly optimized and is my version of virtuous suffering

#I like this webbed site #BUT it makes all my bad habits worse #Procrastination... envy... bloviating about shit i barely know about #slamming a skinner box button for validation #Getting unreasonably pissed off at stupid trends and fads #Looking for disagreeable content #I literally had to leave for like 2 weeks bc i saw a post complaining about 'not THAT depressed' depressed people #And how you need to have very extreme self harm or suicidal ideation to be REALLY DEPRESSED KAREN #and after getting into a spiral about how i'm the bad man for having 'fuctional' depression my entire adult life #(which basically just led to me not getting help most of my life even though i needed it) #(because i couldnt get anyone to really understand that i was struggling and needed a reasonable amount of assistence) #my partner was just like 'no that's stupid' #and i deleted the app #which is not to say that all snipey posts about mental illness (even ones that dismiss 'less severe' ones to make a point) are harmful #but oof sometimes you do not realize you are being barraged with low grade radiation of negative shit til you get slapped #And then it's like. Oh i should leave.