#also its not a happy ending but its good that it wasnt

[dragonboydominicc]

Just finished watching aftersun. Do not fucking textm

#this movie just both embodied mental illness whilst freed me from it in a way #im projectingso much rn #oooiuhghj i should not have watched this before going into college on a monday #ok so baically #imagine eeaao but for white people ajnsjdksnf #literally. white eeaao but its good #remove immigration and replace it with overall emotional displacement from depression #also its a scottish film!!! made by a scot!! not set in scotland but it has scottish actors!!! #scotland w #honestly if there were people id trust making a white eeaao itd be the scots lmao #also its not a happy ending but its good that it wasnt #charlotte wells #aftersun #scotland #yeah this made me cry idc #i originally found this movie by watching the ending out of curiosity on youtube #teared up a bit then and i cried harder with tje context of the film #then cried again watching the edit on youtube #i havent splashed this long in the tags in ages so ta if you kept up this long

[skitskatdacat63]

For @sansebastinae and @boisinnot, my fellow saint seb truthers :)

+ the usual

Yayyyy finished a drawing! Haha only took me...2 weeks. I kept going back and forth on whether I could finish it tonight, and I really wasn't going to. But then I looked at the unfinished version on a different screen and was like oh? Not too bad actually?? So I finished it :) First of all, ofc, here is the process. Kinda weird seeing it for smth like this, it makes me feel like I'm the painter in rennaisance au, not Mark dhjfkf

Ah I was gonna draw a silly renaissance au comic to accompany this(read: lighten the mood), but it's 5 am and I've still not really drafted it well, so! I'd like to finish it at some point bcs I wanna draw more chibi comics, but when I finish smth, I can't help but immediately want to post it, so part 2 will have to wait. I'll show you the outline though so you can at least imagine 😭

^ So many renaissance and beyond paintings of Saint Sebastian are always the most horny thing ever. Like pre/early rennaisance, yeah he was naked and all that, but they were pretty chaste, and uhhhhh suffering?? Well the newer paintings are suffering, but in a different way, if you know what I mean.

So I feel like Mark's the type to be overly pedantic about it, and refuses to make borderline porn of a saint, I mean, god forbid, Seb!!! But then he just. Does anyways. Because he can't control his lust for Seb even when drawing him half dead. I just imagine him holding the paintbrush in a death grip like "must not be horny. Must not draw him sexy. Must make him chaste." And then he ends up with the one seen above. Seb is all smug about it. "Wow you'd wanna fuck me even while I'm all bloody and dying? 🥺"

Mark: "oh I'll make you bloody, alright."

But god so funny to imagine Seb doing all these different slutty poses, like arching his back as much as possible, the cloth nearly falling off at all times, etc etc. And Mark finally lands on this pose bcs he hopes the suffering will outweigh the horny. It doesn't. Also Seb is genuinely serious once he actually gets into the pose, focus mode on. And honestly that's even worse for Mark, bcs it's so much more arousing to see Seb in his element, focused. Tbf I think Seb could be drinking water, and Mark would still find some way to sexualize it. Don't look at his sketches!! They're just filled with Seb doing all kinds of random activities.

Also! Here is the painting I referenced this off of, must give credit where credit is due ofc

The Dying St. Sebastian by François Fabre

Also this isn't really relevant in the context of this drawing specifically. But I looked thru a bunch of Saint Sebastian paintings while trying to find one I could reference, and I came across this middle ages one that actually looks so much like boy king seb 😭 I guess it really is meant to be!

St Sebastian between St Roch and St Peter by Pietro Perugino

Lmao but do you see the difference between early rennaisance and later work???

#i cannot control myself anymore i must draw dark things :) #past 3/4 drawings have had blood i think 😭😭 old habits returning #BUT THIS SAINTLY OKAY ITS HOLY ITS FINE #also 005. when i said id draw you a saint seb seb i meant it!!! #<- tho mostly you changed your username when i was already drawing saint seb 😭 #but i was gonna dedicate it to you anyways :) so funny coincidence #i wasnt gonna put any lore in the read more cause i didnt think i had any #and then i did. as always. #if is say i have nothing to write just give me a min and i will sjdkfk #i dont draw nakedness im surprised this isnt too bad 😭😭 #also im happy cause i stopped myself from stressing over it being too overly detailed #loose fabric my behated 😡😡 but then i realized. i dont have to kms over it so i didnt! #still looks pretty good :) but i mostly like his torso face and hair ahhhh #lol also ik saint seb fits older seb better but. i like twink seb okay 🫣 also its an au thing so #MAN I WISH I FINISHED THE COMIC ACCOMPANIMENT #but it just wasnt clicking and i ended up drawing this first instead #but yes humbly please take my seb offering #f1 #formula 1 #<- again absurd to tag this at this point but idc #sebastian vettel #sv5 #catie.art. #martian #<- not inherently in the drawing itself BUT ITS THERE #tw blood #rennaisance muse au

[sophiethewitch1]

🫶 thanks for responding back! i appreciate all the hard work you’ve planned out for us 🎉 i can’t wait to see more of the darker themes fleshed out at the end of the first part, i will be waiting patiently LOL 👍 in terms of yandere, how bad do you think it will be? what do you have planned in that department?

also i hope you get better soon 😅 please take breaks and certainly take your time!

well ive said that its very mild on the yandere side even later on in the slowburn. its barely yandere more, like... obsession??... at least for the first while. the yandere part is more just there as a warning because I don't want to shock people with the small bit of dark content there will be. i really don't like yanderes that hurt reader (they just don't make sense to me. yandere to me is about having too much love, and you wouldn't hurt someone you loved??) and like,,,, spoiler cut here but like, these are all things that are in the tags/warnings/just information around

i need happy endings. i cant handle even the slightest bit bitter ending it hurts me physically. i am writing a happy ending. it will take grovelling, compromise, and probably fixing the universe but idc. i will uncritically romanticise toxic relationships. i can fix him he can fix me we will fix ourselves for each other. THATS ROMANCE BABEY!!! ITS BEING YOUR BEST SELF BECAUSE YOU LOVE SOMEONE!!! AND YANDERE IS ABOUT LOVE. ITS ABOUT LOVE!!!! ALWAYS LVOE!!!!

#sophie speaks #sophie answers #series:www #i know people want darker content #and like totes respect to that but I'm going to ride the line #we WILL have a happy ending and we WILL have reverse harem ending and I REFUSE TO ACCEPT ANYTHING LESS #YES they will kidnap you NO i don't consider that a dealbreaker. just let me out and say sorry and its fine #i wasnt even sure if id share the fic when I first started writing it #didnt think anyone would like it or its weird jokey/dark/overly sappy/also the weird dynamic all at the same time tone #this is a story about all the parts of life #the good and the bad and the parts you probably shouldn't laugh at but will anyway #im in a bit of a weird place mentally atm. I'm healing and I'm also reverting and I've never experienced dissociation in this form and its. #its confusing. this fic is just meant to be confusing but hopeful. because I'm confused but I'm never not hopeful :) #whatever man if i cant think properly i dont think its really my fault if my silly little fanfiction is too long and wordy and insane #im insane it leaks out #if that wasnt obvious...m

[rosykims]

ive played dao like 9 times at this point and still. and STILL the isolde/connor decision has me tearing my hair out gnawing my keyboard stomping around the house ready to lie down and never get up

#tay plays dao #in saying all that: i had an epiphany and im now at peace with elspeth killing this kid :) JKFJGKFG #I HATEEEEE IT I HATE THIS CHOUICE. AND YET. AND YETTTT #oc: elspeth #sigh. the things we do for rp........ #so my reasoning is : she's the most moral/lawful/goody-good character you can find and lawful good in the truest sense of the term #so blood magic just isnt an option for her #also she does lothering > circle > redcliffe so she's seen what blood magic is capable of and its way too fresh in her mind #and as a noble with literally zero experience or understanding of magic... what shes seen of blood magic is SO bad she isnt abt to risk it #(i also dismiss the circle mages option outright because she wont risk redcliffe and the castle all dying while shes out wasting time) #but still its like... when she walks into that room prior to making the Choice she's so ADAMANT that she wont be killing a child #and upon leaving she still feels that way. again she doesnt rly know that much about demons so shes still like ok maybe i can just #incapacitate him?? reason with him?? #bc thats what would happen to a hero in a story. they would find a way. there would be a happy ending. and she believes in happy endings #and she rly does see herself as the hero lol. #and then it doesnt happen and shes forced to make the choice and it absolutely destroys her sense of self. bc heroes dont DO that #and the story wasnt supposed to turn out this way !!!!!! and realizing this isnt some story and shes actually going to have to do #Horrific things. its a turning point for her #also a turning point for alistair and her relationship w him. bc he'd also put her on a pedastal this whole time #and now hes like. oh. all that honor and bravado is just something youre making up as you go huh #and then they have to get to know each other as flawed complicated people. not just.... ideals that they created of each other??? #WHEW. THIS IS LONG. SORRY. #DRAGON AGE SEASON BABEY LETS FUCKING GO LOL

[moodr1ng]

rly insane how half the disco elysium fandom like.. completely fails at understanding even basic messaging of the game that even i got while being really bad at understanding themes lol. like yeah sure i relate hard to harrys mental health and substance use shit, and yeah, i think kim is fun and goofy, and i like their dynamic and also want to see on screen gay sex.

but like.. this is The Politics Game and half of the fanbase has taken from it exclusively "omg my blorbos meow meows babygirls" and seemingly failed to engage w the political text of the story. like ok if you came out of disco elysium and saw a man who is like.. at best 1 week sober from extreme substance abuse that has made him actively suicidal and threatening to others around him, who is desperately in need of actual, urgent help, AND who is a POLICE OFFICER, like, THEE person who absolutely should NOT be a cop, on top of, yknow, that, like, police are bad already??? a man who has canonically committed serious and traumatic police brutality due to this very instability and disregard for anyones safety and has continued to be allowed to occupy this position? and you get an ending in which his co-workers who have basically just been watching from the sidelines being like.. exasperated at him but not actually doing anything about the massive risk to himself and all these civilians safety just going "well, yknow, hes a good guy after all, and he hasnt been getting drunk and waving his police issued firearm at frightened civilians for a whole week, and he sure saw a bug, so, like, just come back to work man" and thought that was a satisfying and good ending...... after all the talk abt copaganda white ppl is the same

#disco elysium spoilers #de spoilers #and to be clear i dont think de is copaganda. #i think it fails in its clear attempt to depict the police as inherently morally bankrupt tools of power #bc it doesnt. just. let you stop being a cop. #like its undermined IMO by the fact that you cannot actually get an ending that would be good but its still treated like it is #but i think the rest of the game IS v critical of cops #which is why its insane that it seems to fly over ppls heads #i also dont think 'harry cant stop being a cop' is an inherent story flaw btw! #part of the tragedy of this story i think is ppl only give a shit abt harry bc he is a cop. #eg kim would not give harry the patience time compassion he shows him if harry was a regular civilian acting the way he does #being seen as worth helping in this critical episode is dependent on being a cop for harry #particularly venomously shown w pigs i think #like. thats how harry would be treated if he wasnt a REAL cop. thats how wed see him. #but anyway point is. being a cop may be literally inescapable in harrys pov bc he has no other point of reference for social worth anymore #however. #my issue is that its FRAMED as a fulfilling happy ending. not something he is stuck in. not an exercise in futility. #continuing to be police is not a tragedy or a cowardly attempt to remain socially worthwhile #its the good thing to do to heal and help others in the end. #which i think betrays not only reality. but also the messages of the game itself about police throughout #so yeah

[dahkis]

the vibe of each of the flora's themes

adele, adele's oath: a sacred, but mythical feeling befitting the virtuous knights from the old stories that used to be told to children. the choir is singing the knights' praise, perhaps symbolizing their initial glory days, serving the god-king during his heyday before ultimately betraying him and breaking their oath to protect him. however, it continues to have a non dominating presence in the background, symbolizing the present. although the knights of the einherjar was replaced with the militaristic high flora army, the flickering flame of a noble knight has not died yet. it was alive in adele, who remained loyal to her oath to the god-king to the very end.

khali, oblivion: the drums and choir ramping up throughout the song symbolizes her bubbling feeling of deep anger boiling over. she has a strong yearning for vengeance against ypsilon for the undeserved death of her family.

illium, death of asylum: the choir is singing to the metaphorical revival of the god of the verdent flora; illium's fusion with the elder crystal symbolizes him inheriting their will and carrying on the burning passion of the verdent flora race through the pride of their invention of mechanical wings. there's a sense of determination, but a quiet anger festering among them as well.

ark, recollecting memories: i miss my wife tails, i miss her a lot

#me thoughts #ok for a real analysis of arks theme #its obvious the beginning is meant to evoke nostalgic feelings of ark and albaire attending the military academy #like come on ark had a dream in his 255 quest about albaire waking him up and doting on him the second he thought ark was unwell LMAOOO #its supposed to be happy memories before the bittersweet ones kick in when that part of the song drops (whoch suspiciously sounfs like the #theme to black heaven but i digress) #the bitter memories are that of ark realizing there isnt something right with the high flora army which sours his relationship with albaire #when he tells him that they have to remain strong but ark obviously doesnt want to look the other way since hes an upstanding guy like that #but i honestly think it can also be interpreted as ark missing albaire a lot. he misses the good times they used to have when they were so #young and naive in the academy. that they didnt know that their efforts to rise up the ranks would amount to basically committing genocide #on the innocent races in grandis #it wasnt supposed to be like this #is what im hearing ark say perhaps #LOL not rise up the ranks i mean graduate the academy initially then rise up the ranks #i love maplestory #theres a lot more i can yap about the end note but i want to sleep

[vaugarde]

i'm not ok. < just saw the chimera ant finale

#being hyperbolic i watched this a few hours ago with eve lol #i insisted that we didnt start elections immediately cause i need time to process this damn arc #im like. the lovers suicide.... i was expecting meruem to die but not komugi..... they died playing together and they died in an embrace #he finally got to tell her his name..... she probably learned he wasnt human when she embraced him.... and still loved him... #the overall theme of the arc too where like its not good vs evil its just all evil all around #cause what kills meruem isn't an honest battle its a bioweapon meant to enforce genocide #that was designed to destroy other countries and kill as many people as possible #the twist with reina was super sweet too im so happy she got to reunite with her mom. i hope colt eventually can too in later chapters #im also glad bluster got a happy ending kinda. i liked his design and i was hoping he'd live so im glad he did and now hes part of a family #echoed voice #hxh spoilers

[infizero]

ok guys i dont wanna be a hater but im gonna be 100% honest i didnt rlly like the nimona movie 😭 I MEAN IT WAS FUN. it was nice. but i feel like it was missing everything that made me like the original graphic novel and honestly by the last like 30 minutes i was kind of just waiting for it to be over so i could read the book again 😭 NO HATE TO ANYONE WHO RLLY LIKED IT believe me when i say i dont think it is bad or anything. but i feel like just sooooo much was changed that it didnt feel like nimona at all to me. idk how to explain it, im sure once i reread the book i’ll be able to put it into words since the original will be more fresh in my mind. i think it was good but as someone who was literally obsessed w the og graphic novel it was honestly kinda disappointing. but i dont rlly care honestly its still rlly cool it got a movie!! 

but in my mind at least it proves that some things dont need to be made into a movie. ppl act like movies are the best form a piece of media can take and if something gets made into a movie then that’d be the peak form of it. but i honestly think nimona works wayyyyyy better in its original graphic novel form. most of the early stuff is way more slice of life lowkey stuff that lets you get attached to ballister and nimona as characters and get invested in their relationship w each other, BEFORE all the angsty final act stuff happens. also there honestly was just a ton of stuff that felt to me like it worked better in the original, like jousting tournament thing instead of the knighting ceremony, nimona being captured and being forced to turn into her “true” form rather than this new version with it just sort of happening bcuz of Emotions, etc. also the movie suffered from a lot of pacing and tone issues imo but the former i think is just from that lack of the slow buildup of their friendship, and the latter is something that i think just worked better in the book. idk again I’LL BE ABLE TO SAY THIS STUFF MORE CONCRETELY WHEN I ACTUALLY REREAD THE BOOK but i dont remember there being so much jokes and goofy shit DURING serious scenes. like iirc in the original during serious scenes it was SERIOUS. but in the movie theres so many unnecessary unfunny jokes and stuff. idk IDK i probably just had too high expectations idk. anyways

#also im kind of mad they changed the ending i know it works similarly but like THE TONE IS TOTALLY DIFFERENT #in the movie ballister goes back to the lair and you hear her voice and he gets all excited and goes ''HOLY SHI-'' and then it cuts to title #which seemed rlly lighthearted and played for laughs and srry but THE ENDING OF NIMONA ALWAYS MADE ME CRY SO IT LOWKEY PISSED ME OFF ToT #IN THE ORIGINAL. he wakes up in the hospital and the nurse like talks to him or whatever and then she comes in again and hes like ?? u were #just here. and shes like no?? and then he sees on the clipboard the nurse left behind the firsttime theres a shark drawing (or smthn) #clearly drawn by nimona. and you see his eyes widen and he rushes out of the room and he runs through a crowd desperately trying to find her #and then he sees her there. in the crowd. and he just stares looking sort of heartbroken. and she gives him a quiet bittersweet little wave #and then she disappears into the crowd. and thats the last you see of her #I FUCKING LOVEEEEEEEEEEEE THAT ENDINGGGGGG IM ACTUALLY SO MAD THEY CHANGED IT #also sorry i will die mad about the climax THE CLIMAX OF NIMONA IS WHAT GETS ME EVERY FUCKING TIME. #THOSE PAGES WITH THE HUGE MONSTER AND LITTLE GIRL NIMONA JUST RIPPING INTO BALLISTER MAKE ME CRYYYYYYY DAWG THEYRE SO GOOD #idk. idk. i cant put it into words but just the overall vibes of the book are so much better imo. i think nd stevenson's style fits the #story reallyyy well and idk if the movie's style rlly does the same. also i wish the movie wasnt as sanded down like the original wasnt like #INAPPROPRIATE. it wasnt adults only. but it had a lot more like. blood and rude humor and stuff. and i miss that #i think the best way i can put it is. the original is the scratchy ever evolving style of nd stevenson it feels raw and unfiltered #and thats why i love it and why it moves me so much. while the movie is much more polished and round and soft and im gonna be honest: #I DONT LIKE IT! sorry. having my hater moment #<- lightheartedly again I DONT THINK THE MOVIE IS BAD i just think that by comparison the book is way better #still incredibly happy for and proud of the whole team that made the movie i think its awesome!!!! #just my personal opinion #serena.txt #nimona spoilers #<- idk if anyone actually needs this but jic

[killjoy-prince]

Manga and merch haul from today!!

#prince's talk tag #went to a street fair in the city and ate a bunch of expensive food but they tasted good so im not too mad #and then i hit up kino and bnn for books #bnn was doing their buy one get one 50 percent off so that made me get more than i was planning on getting #most of these are just the next volume(s) i needed to read #witch hat did have the first two volumes of cooking spin off but i wasnt sure how worth itd be #like my boys are the stars but last time i read a chill cooking manga i wasnt as into it and ended up dropping it #so im afraid of that happening here #the eclair series i was interested in bc its a bunch of yuri one shots and i only had bleue and blanche and didnt know there was more #so imagine my surprise when i saw two other colors and i think the first one before they started naming it after colors #i got scared for a second bc i thought i accidentally bought eclair twice but i was confusing it for bleue so there were no dupes #another thing i was surprised to find where the cds in the first pic #i have the osts of the og games but not their remakes so ofc i had to get them #i just need FES and Royal and im all set (i got reload's on mercari) #went back to the place i got the blind boxes and i was trying for Luka or Kaito and i got Wonderland Luka but Computer Len #im not mad i got Len bc he is my son but i do like how Luka's looks for it but theyre pricy so i didnt want to buy too many #now if i could wonderland!kaito and computer!luka id be happy #also did the gachapon machine and got a snow miku keychain which you can see on the book in pic 3 #its really cute i like it a lot

[yuukei-yikes]

while i dont think yuukei yesterday in mca is TERRIBLY bad they missed the mark so much at making takane be all smiling while running to go tell haruka her feelings. u fool. she wasn't happy. she was fucking terrified

#like mca yuukei yesterday is...cute. #but it lacks a lot of the intimacy haruka and takane have in other media #haruka patting takanes back while reassuring her he will never hate her... #in mca thats just haruka telling takane omg ur awesome teach me to play sometime ok :3 #takane pretending to be asleep just to see if haruka will talk to her and accidentally shuts him out while he is having an attack. #and desperately clinging to him when she realises and doesnt know what to dl #that becomes... takane walks OUT on him??? and haruka has his attack in the middle of a conversation #AS SOON as she looked away for a second??? like its a bit silly #mca...gave us i want to see u takane. i will always like that even if that bit is also in the novels #in its weird novel way #but yeah lol takane wasnt happy she was in love with haruka. why do u think she never told him #she was confused abt it and completely terrified #what i do like in mca is how when takane says i love u shes in her daze and theres this #dreadful music and everything is destroyed bc she failed at getting there in time so the world ended. #its such a good shot #erm. #heya are u reading my tags. hi #kagevinnie #kagenalysis

[skitskatdacat63]

"Bring on The Dancing Horses"(x) - Echo and The Bunnymen × Ferrari Drivers

#yes this web weave was titled 'Bring on The Prancing Horses' in my docs....yes im proud of that.... #long post whoop!!! pls scroll back thru and listen to the song while doing so if you wanna experience it better :) #this was originally supposed to be an edit but i have no patience for that and im very happy w this!! #i daydream to music a lot and when i first heard this song i could only think of ferrari seb then sebchal then ferrari drivers in general #but this hurt me a lot to make(for several reasons) #one: AAAAHHHH IT MAKES ME SADDDDDDD!! now im only gonna be able to think of the myth of ferrari when i listen to this song #it rly hurt to look up the pics for this bcs it still feels sore to me and it makes me so sad #but at least i didnt have to watch vids! id probably burst into tears #two: fighting for my life in google docs trying to format the text hahaha... i refuse to use photoshop #special thanks to cofi (@sweatyflytrap) for giving me the idea to put the TPs for the lies lyrics! #its both funny and unfortunate that domenicali was the TP for both felipe and fernando #it would be a bit better if there was a different tp for each but ah oh well #also hehe changed the lyric a tiny bit for the Kimi part. in the og lyrics its Jimmy not Kimi but yknow felt odd to leave it as it was so! #other than that i really really ardently feel that this song fits the cycle of ferrari drivers soooooo well #the 'bring on the new messiah' at the end of the song PLEASE IT FITS SO WELL! with how they drop their prev golden boy for whoevers next! #also omg the way seb's verse is 'you're breaking my brittle heart' rather than "im breaking your brittle heart' HURTS DOESNT IT?????? #i didnt included the original opening/middle verse. i def could make it fit but it wasnt a good opening for this post specifically #'Jimmy Brown made of stone' = kimi again. 'Charlie clown no way home' = charles of course! #anyways this is my magnum opus...but nah i really like it! ill only ever make web weaves w random 80s music i think hahah #ferrari #scuderia ferrari #felipe massa #kimi raikkonen #fernando alonso #sebastian vettel #charles leclerc #f1 #formula 1 #we do a little bit of f1 #normal posts that catie normally makes in a normal fashion

[asexual-levia-tan]

i love the bias + the fan pairings so much because on the surface its very "oh, well, the bias just has to fall for the fan and then its happily ever after" but no! its way more fun than that!

the fan isnt in love with the bias. in fact, the fan doesnt view this world as reality, nor do they even view their bias as a human. the fun part of this pairing is the fan having to recognize the world they live in as their new reality and the people around them as people! the bias falling for the fan is just part one, the fan falling for the bias as an Actual Human Being is just as important an element

#wwaffles bein' an idiot #wwaffles reads stuff #keeps it gender neutral even though i've only seen f!fan/m!bias #miss not-so-sidekick did this pretty well although she did a 'oh this is reality' speedrun #if this one goes well i'd put it up on the same shelf its pretty good so far #we're like 30+ chapters in and she's still referring to him as her favorite character. fantastic #there was another one i was reading that i can't recall the name of (long title i think) that i havent read the end of yet #but it had a similar premise just not done as well #or that is to say. it seemed to skip the 'this is reality now' realization #but the problem with that is HES searching for someone who loves him. and SHE loves him as a fictional character #so hopefully they do address that at some point because that could only go well #anyway back to the actual topic #its actually very similar because cael wants someone who loves him for him #and she just wants him to be happy and to shove all her affection on him because shes his fan #she doesnt even factor herself into the equation of his happiness because he's not real and she is #she's still lowkey thinking she's gonna go home eventually (maybe?? unclear) #anyway i just love this particular subgenre its so good #also what happened to her depression. i mean having a bias is just like that but she wasnt doing so hot either #i wonder if there'll be a antagonists pet reveal where she's actually miserable #and a big part of 'i'll devote my life to my bias!' is that she literally has nothing else to live for

[arodrwho]

christ alive what an episode though

#overall i'm REALLY happy #but the bigeneration was a bad move and unless they come back to that and have 14 regenerate properly and/or fuse back into 15 i'm like #never gonna be happy abt that aspect #it's also just a bad LOOK. ur first (main timeline) black dr and ur just... gonna make his first scene all about the previous dr? #when the previous dr's actor has already had not one but TWO initial just-regenerated scenes?? #like... why would you do that #the regeneration scene up TO the regeneration is for the outgoing dr #everything AFTER the regeneration should be all about the INCOMING dr. it's their introduction! it's a BIG DEAL! #and absolutely none of that was about gatwa's dr ALL of the emotional focus was on tennant's dr #not to say gatwa didn't shine! absolutely he did! but the scene wasnt about him. it was entirely abt tennant dr's emotional & narrative arc #AND. even that aside. it's just stupid to have 2 drs and 2 tardises #and it's ABSURD to just keep cloning the dr as a form of emotional resolution. rtd has done it TWICE now. what are they a LIZARD #if you want the dr in 2 places at once theres an easy mechanic for that. its a show about time travel. the solution is obvious #and also like. one of the central themes of the show is change & renewal what the FUCK are u doing. thats NOT change OR renewal #anyway uh. to conclude. bigeneration bad #HOWEVER. gatwa and tennant together in those scenes. INCREDIBLY good #it isnt the end result i dislike it's the method #also i am very excited for gatwa i love his dr so much already #dw spoilers #dr who

[etchedstars]

hi i just wanted to drop a ss of the comments i wrote on my notion page for captured ghosts because im about to reread and i think this fic deserves all the recognition in the world it slays so hard and you should know the absolute anxiety and simultaneous joy you caused me!!!

HI OH MY GOD ?!?!??!?!? thank you asufaudsf this is so so nice the joy THIS brought me?????????? immeasurable ty <3333

(ps theres a lot of thoughts in the tags w captured ghosts spoilers for those who may or may have not read my will byers gets haunted multichaptered fic!!)

#if youre thinking hmm i should read captured ghosts!! dont take it from me take it from tumblr user romainlettusdinnerparty :) #okokok so !!! authors thoughts #one of the biggest problems i have with media and especially in fics is when characters just have. the worlds most perfect inner dialogue #which clearly. bc they are fifteen years old. they will not be perfect they wont think coherent thoughts #human emotions are messy and indecipherable and ESP w the st characters someone who has gone thru as much as will has. hes gonna be angry ! #i do my best to walk the line between good writing and realistic writing LMAO so im glad that came across :))) #ok abt joyce. this was less of a 'i think this is how joyce would be' and rlly just me being annoyed w my own mother tbh #i also wasnt a huge fan of her when i first wrote cg bc i thought she was way too paranoid over will and not caring much abt jonathan #so that is why shes Like that. im gonna be real i dont think id change it if i rewrote but i also dont think i wrote her fairly #and finally !!! im very sorry i lied about the rewrite. its not gonna happen bc i am so so swamped and i have nothing and i wrote it last y #but for the record will was supposed to be in the same sort of coma max was in and they were supposed to find each other and will #was going to promise max hed find her way out and then boom he was going to wake up there was going to be some jealousy w lucas and mike an #he makes it out alive max makes it out alive vecna doesnt fully leave etc etc. the end #anyways if youve read this far thank u and thank you for leaving this ask and this comment :))))) i havent gotten anything abt my fics in a #while tbh so knowing that like . They Still Exist and people still like them means so so much to me :')))) ok bye this was super long #overdue gets some asks #captured ghosts #happy chemical

[lesbianjennette]

im thinking abt wmmal again specially lp verse..... they way that neither of the girls in lp wldve made good empresses... like its a point (? if im rmmbrinf correctly) in the story that lp!jennette was not a good empress, but lp!athanasia wouldnt have been either. shes meek and demure, and while smart still had limited education was not brought up to be the empress. neither of them were, one was forgotten and one was raised as a pawn.

#LIKE !! #neither would be able to make the tought calls #theyre both soft hearted and used to giving uo thr control to the others!! to baring their neck for the world for affection!!! #like u think lp!athanasia could declare war? could plan and lead a war? could win a war??? #wmmap!athanasia WAS given the education #the tools she needed #and she had her past life !! that gave her knowledge she cld use !! and she has the support of claude !! #like the odds kd her bejng a good empress are IN HER FAVOUR!!!!! #and it wasnt in lp!!! #this also can be taken as a 'the girls in lpverse were given no agency or control of their own lives' #which is an inherently tragic thing #lp is a tragedy theres no happy ending for either girl snd its so. :( #neither of them were loved :( not truly :( #its just one was more useful to keep around for a certain agenda :( #the majority of this post is in tags now #lol

[skinnymeanfaggot]

also

#im making huge huge changes in my life and i think the next logical step would be to cut off jamie. ive already been ghosting him but thats #just me avoiding the problem. i just like. it feels fucked to be like hey i told you i was ok with what you did but i Changed my mind #i just think like. i have next to no contact with him and i feel fucking fantastic. we talk like every couple months on the rare occurrence #he can text and then i answer in vague short sentences and ghost. and now that i finally have firm boundaries with him and havent engaged #with him sexually its like. i feel like basically all my ties are cut. and i feel like im ready to let go for the first time. like ive #always felt like i just wasnt ready but now i like i Am ready its just a matter of like. doing it. thats difficult. even though i know hell #accept it because hes matured. and like. idk. i think its fine like this #and idk i think its fine like this. being the absolute barest form of acquaintances. i cannot stress how little we interact and how little #affect he has on my life at this point outside of what happened in the past. like i am in a good place he is 99% cut off i just need to do #the last bit. but like also fuck. you know. its hard to kinda finish it off. and its also like ooh it would hurt his feelings but now i #fucking. dont care lol. after everything. with blue i realize every day just how much more respected i feel and less gross and shitty #even with being jamies friend which we never were because whenever i was single we were sexual. i just felt bad. i never wanted to fuck #either. and he would say he loved me and id be like hahaha yeahhhh and now that ive finally drawn that boundary and said he cant do that #anymore i feel so much lighter and i just feel so happy and safe with blue in a way ive never felt with jamie and its like. im almost there #i feel like i might be able to cut him off by the end of the year. and thats crazy to me. i just also have a lot of like shit to unpack #in general too also. with what he did. and i just have a lot. but i feel like im progressing