#also seokjin's endeared smile. i live here now. good bye

[forgottenpasta]

Wednesday

Summary: Each day of the week was reserved for one member: Jimin on Mondays, Namjoon on Tuesdays, Hoseok on Wednesdays, Seokjin on Thursdays, Taehyung on Fridays, Jeongguk on Saturdays and Yoongi on Sundays. Juggling a relationship with seven boys was difficult on its own. Add to that your insecurities, your mother’s disapproval and Hoseok forgetting your anniversary and you had the makings of the worst Wednesday ever. (...Or the best Wednesday ever?)

Pairing: Hoseok x Reader, Ot7 x Reader

Genre: Angst, Smut, Fluff

Warnings: Unprotected Sex, Oral (female receiving), Rimming, Creampie Rough Sex, Public Sex, Fingering, Orgasm Denial

Word Count: 12.2k

A/N: Enjoy! :)

“Where is it?”, you muttered, throwing open your closet to scan the contents of your scarf drawer. After a short second you slammed it close with a curse.

Your favourite green scarf with pretty red lace tulips sewn in on the edges was nowhere to be found. You’d checked the laundry and every inch of your living space with no luck. Pouting at the thought of losing the precious gift Jimin had given you after returning from the European leg of their tour, you slumped on your bed. Snatching your phone from where it had been charging on the bedside table, you dialled Hoseok’s number, not giving a mind to the loud clack as the charger’s adapter pulled free of the socket and fell on the floor, the wire still connected to the phone at your ear.

There were two reasons for your foul mood this lovely Wednesday morning. One was the scarf, and the other…

Hoseok hadn’t called like he did every Wednesday morning to confirm he wasn’t busy and that he’d be spending the night with you. But that wasn’t all. Today was special for the two of you. Just the two of you. And despite your myriad hints leading up to this day, Hoseok hadn’t shown even the slightest proof that he remembered. 

He hadn’t called you and now he wasn’t picking up his phone. 

With a frustrated sigh, you dialled Jin instead. He answered on the third ring.

“Babygirl.” 

A content smile flitted on your face at the eldest’s soft endearment of a greeting, temporarily easing the unknown frustration you’d been feeling the last few days. 

“Good morning Jin.” His name was a sigh on your lips, and you knew he’d be able to pick up on your current temperament from just that. Out of all of them, Jin was the most attuned to your emotions, often the one you sought out when you were feeling down or moody or if you just needed someone to cuddle away all your worries. No wonder he was the one you’d automatically called. 

Sure enough, he sounded more alert when he asked, “What’s wrong, __?” 

“I can’t find my favourite green scarf.”, you whined. You sounded like a petulant three year old complaining to her mother, but you knew Jin would never make fun of you.

An amused snicker sounded down the line. “Aww, did babygirl lose her blankie?”

You scowled at your iPhone, then slapped it back against your ear. “Seokjin, you traitor. You’ve been hanging out with Taehyung too much.”

“What can I say,” You heard the sound of a door closing, likely Jin coming out of his room. “He’s been unusually generous lately. Been paying for all our food, insists on it even.”

“He’s upto something.”, you said without a second thought. 

“Oh I’m sure. Likely wants in on the rap line now that he’s secured a spot on the dance one. That boy won’t rest till he’s had a cypher of his own.” Jin yawned and you heard the distinct sound of the fridge opening. “Just last week I saw him disappear into Yoongi’s studio for hours. Just to come out with an intense look of determination on his face. Like he was about to go to war. I was scared.”

You chuckled, a sudden urge came over you to kiss Taehyung breathless, till he could no longer conjure up all kinds of schemes in that adorable head of his. More and more often, similar surges of emotion regarding the guys would pop up in your brain when you were away from them. 

If a sweet love song played at the cafe you worked at, you started craving Jeongguk’s soft, whispered singing in your ear. If you read a particularly interesting book, you immediately wanted to discuss it with Namjoon. You shivered every time you passed a sex shop on the streets, remembering Jimin’s expert hands binding you with his silken ropes till you quivered with anticipation. Jin’s affectionate gestures were always at the back of your mind when you saw a couple on the streets or a lifetime movie with too much romance and not enough plot. And even the most random things reminded you of Yoongi. A cat cuddled into a ball outside your window, an oversized black hoodie on someone, the smell of brewed chocolate (his favourite drink ever since you’d rendered all his recording equipment unusable by pouring a cup of it over them). 

And Hoseok. He was the start of it all, the member you had met even before you knew seven boys were going to crash into your boring, monotonous life and turn it upside down. The first person you had fell in love with. The one who had introduced you to the rest of them. 

The one who was supposed to be your one and only boyfriend. 

Till you’d come to the horrifying realisation that you felt more than just platonic affection for the six other boys who’d come attached with him like a buy one get six free package deal.

Jin’s voice snipped that train of thought in the bud. “I can tell you’re not listening to me, babygirl. I’d feel offended but thankfully the size of my ego is directly proportionate to my handsomeness.”

You rolled your eyes, too used to his boasting. “Can you ask Namjoon if he saw the scarf? He was here last night when I was wearing it.”

Jin huffed and you heard him moving through the dorm again. “You only call me when you need something, __. I’m sure I don’t like it.”

You grinned. “What happened to your invincible ego? Besides, I distinctly recall you getting off to my moans when I called you last Thursday, just for you to turn it into phone sex—”

“I was 587 miles away from you, woman! We had a show the next day, I couldn’t just book a flight from Narita to Incheon just to spend a few hours with you like last time.” Jin groaned. “I needed you so bad and my hand was a piss poor replacement.”

Your heart was melting into a sympathetic puddle. But before you could reply to his impassioned declaration Jin started laughing. 

“Yo, what the fuck!”, he managed in between guffaws. 

Perking up , you asked, “What is it?”

“What did you do to poor Namjoon last night?” You heard a little shuffling, then a groggy voice groaned in the background. “He’s out cold on the couch, muttering in his sleep. Here listen.”

“…mmhfh y/n-ah, juft one mor paghe n weh cann fuk…hmf…”

“Oh my god!” You giggled, not being able to understand the sounds coming out of his mouth anymore. Jin must have brought the phone close to his mouth. 

“What did you do to him?!”

In between suppressed laughter, you managed to explain, “He wanted to have sex so bad last night but I had a ton of classwork, so he helped me complete it, hoping it would get done faster and he’ll get some. But he fell asleep on my desk writing an essay on Turko-Mongol war strategy and weaponry.”

“You and your essays on dead people.”, Jin teased, still chuckling. The boys were well aware of your love for history and literature, even indulged your interests by buying you all kinds of first editions of rare books and published articles. During your Medieval era European poets phase, Yoongi had bought you some early 16th century illustrations of Dante’s Divine Comedy. They were so priceless that you’d cried at the sight of them. When you’d haltingly asked where and how he got them when even reputed museums had difficulty finding early Dante illustrations, Yoongi had evaded your question like the plague. To this day you suspected he had some very high connections in the black market.

“Oh and by the way”, Jin said offhandedly. “I think he’s drooling on your scarf.”

Mirth disappeared and your eyes went round. “What?!” Then you remembered you’d wrapped it around his neck early this morning while you were still half asleep, hoping he wouldn’t catch a cold on his way to the dorm. “Aagh, get it away from him!”

The doorbell went off just then, surprising you. You weren’t expecting anyone.

“Umm Jin, I’ll call you later,” you told him, getting up from your bed. “Save my scarf please. That’s the only gift I have from Jimin that isn’t a sex toy. And also, ask Hoseok to call me please.”

 “Sure.”, he reassured. “Are you coming to our photoshoot today? I know you don’t have any classes scheduled.”

“Miss a chance of seeing you guys all dolled up and posing sexily? Hell no.”

Jin laughed. “I love you, you pervert. Bye.”

“Mmhm, I love me too.” You hung up, knowing full well that Jin would be rolling his eyes at your antics.

“I’m coming!”, you shouted as the bell went off again, striding out of your bedroom and towards the front door. The smiling face of your mother was the last thing you were expecting to see when you opened it.

“Mom!” You hugged her automatically. “What are you doing here?”

She patted your back, dropping a kiss on the side of your head. Her ever youthful face coming into your view as she pulled back. “I was in Seoul to attend a soiree some of my friends were hosting. I couldn’t leave without meeting you.”

“I’m glad you didn’t.”, you said cheerfully, ushering her in and closing the door. “Let’s talk in the kitchen. I’ll make some tea for you.”

She followed you into the kitchen, seating herself on one of the breakfast barstools as you set about making her a hot cup of her preferred beverage. “Thank you, dear. I really appreciate that you keep tea in your kitchen for when I visit, even though you don’t drink it.”

“Oh, umm, it’s nothing mom.” You stared at the water filling the kettle intently, not having the heart to tell her that you also kept it for when Taehyung stayed over. He didn’t like the taste of coffee.

Your mother knew about your relationship with the seven boys. Your father didn’t. After those first few weeks of being with them, you’d taken the risk of telling her because you had no one to talk about such a big change happening in your life. You couldn’t tell any of your college friends because technically Bangtan were not supposed to be dating anyone, let alone all seven of them dating one, lest their fangirls (and boys) get mad. You couldn’t risk outing them. The only one you hundred percent trusted to keep a secret was your mom. So you had told her. And as expected she’d kept your secret even from your father. 

 But that did not mean she approved or supported seven men being with her one daughter. 

“Hows college going, sweetheart?”, she asked, watching you put in a tablespoon of sugar in her tea, just as she liked. 

“It’s going good.” You paused. That was a lie. “Actually I barely get time to complete my class projects. It’s kinda hectic.”

“__, please tell me you finally broke it off with those boys.”, she blurted out as soon as you poured her a cup. 

There it was. Of course she would assume you didn’t get time because your boyfriends took up all of it.

Rubbing sluggishly at your eyes, you sighed. Your mother was never one to beat around the bush.

“Mom, I love them.” You looked up into her eyes so she could see how sincere you were. “I’m not going to end it with them.”

She took a cautious sip from her cup, a contemplative expression coming over her face. You braced yourself. When your mother got thoughtful, it meant she was about to drop some serious truth bombs and painful facts that you were likely not going to like or want to hear. 

“So, are you waiting for them to end it with you?” She raised a brow, phrasing her question like she was genuinely curious. You knew better. 

“ You’re a very intelligent girl, dear. Do you seriously see such an arrangement lasting?” Her mouth twisted at the word “arrangement”, like it tasted foul.

Gazing at the ceiling, you prayed for her understanding, even though a part of you understood her reservations and that she was only looking after you. 

“You don’t know them like I do, mom. They love me too. Very much so.” Your voice came out strained, ruining the conviction you’d wanted to infuse it with.

“I don’t doubt that. Look at me, __.”, she ordered softly.

You did and she offered you a tentative smile. “I don’t doubt that at all. You deserve all the love in the world and more. But a little pragmatism goes a long way, __. How is it possible that seven men keep themselves limited to one girl only?”

She took your hand that was fisted on top of the counter, slowly prying the tensed muscles open till you gave her your palm and she kissed the middle of it. “I don’t want you to get hurt, y/n. And you’re only setting yourself up for a seven times bigger fallout if you keep this thing up. Men are notoriously possessive creatures, if they don’t seek out other women, they’ll likely fight amongst themselves for you.”

Shaking your head, you took your hand out of her grasp. “No, mom. They’re very close, like brothers. They do get jealous when other men hit on me but never each other.” 

Your mother sighed, frustration creeping up on her face. Her tone hardened as she said, “Then they would not hesitate to kick you to the curb if you threaten their unity even the slightest bit. I did not want to do this but you have to stop being so naïve, __. Haven’t you thought about why they agreed to this thing with you so easily?”

You almost said because they liked you so much, but you knew that wasn’t the answer your mother had in mind. “I’m sure you’re going to enlighten me.”

She leaned forward with a scowl. “Because it’s convenient. They’re insanely popular right now. Everywhere they go they’ve got eyes on them. Even your recluse of a father, who only concerns himself with politics and sports knows their songs. It’s easier for them to keep and share one woman then deal with seven.”

The kitchen was deathly silent save for the blood rushing in your ears. You did not want to hear this. You did not want some half baked ideas your mom had raise doubts in your mind about the boys. 

Forcing back the tears that threatened, you softly murmured, “Mom, please.” 

But she wasn’t done. “You drop everything to go to them. You keep yourself available 24/7. At their beck and call seven days a week.”

“It’s not like that.”, you exclaimed. “They support me just as much, if not more. They never ask for more than I’m comfortable giving.”

“That’s the problem, y/n.”, your mother snapped. “You’re willing to give too much of yourself. Better reel yourself in before you find yourself utterly vulnerable and exposed, with no one to lean on.”

“What does that mean?”, you asked, just as harshly.

“It means…”, she paused, as if debating wether to continue or not, before shaking her head. “I’m telling you to be ready for the time when they find partners of their own.”

Aggravated at her continued belabouring, you threw up your hands. “I’ve told you they aren’t interested in other girls—”

“Yet.” She cut you off. “Or maybe who knows, they might just be keeping company of others behind your back. Though you’re smart you’ve never been very observant.”

“Mom!”, you almost shouted, horrified at what she was insinuating. Even the thought of them going behind your back like that was unbearably painful. But you trusted them, so this whole conversation was unnecessary. “You’re just saying that because you haven’t met them. Once you’ll get to know what kind of people they really are, you wouldn’t say such things.”

She sneered, clearly put off by even the idea of meeting them. Then she delivered the final blow. “That’s not gonna happen, Y/n. The day you bring home seven men at once, your father will have a heart attack. And I’m not ever going to be interested in meeting the men who treat my daughter like a communal shower.”

“Mom.”, you breathed, pinching the bridge of your nose for patience and to quell the tears that were waiting to burst free. You couldn’t believe she actually said that. “I think you should leave.”

 “I think so too.” You heard her get up from the barstool, opening your eyes to gaze unseeingly at her half empty cup on the counter. 

The sound of her retreating footsteps stopped at the entryway. “I’m your mother, __. I’ve only ever wanted what’s best for you. Remember that.” 

And with that parting reminder, she left. As soon as the door closed behind her, your tears fell like a dam burst free, crumbling all your emotional defences along with it. Slowly, and not-so-gracefully you crumbled to the kitchen floor yourself, your butt hitting the cool tiles as you buried your face in your knees, wrapping your arms around them to make a rolled up, human ball of woe. 

When initially you’d told your mother about the boys almost half an year ago she’d been disbelieving at first. Later, when she’d finally accepted you were not joking, she’d told you that you would get tired of “this new polyamory fad” soon, not being able to handle dealing with so many people in your love life at once. You guessed that after almost a year of you dating Bangtan, she’d finally come around to the fact that this wasn’t just a phase in her daughter’s life. Today was the first time she’d gotten so vocal about her disapproval though. Usually it was just snide remarks, invasive questions or straight up ignoring that you were even dating someone. You knew that keeping such a big thing from your dad because of the promise you’d extracted from her also weighed on her conscience.  

The chill seeped from the cold tiles to your whole body and you shivered as you wiped your tears, frowning when more rushed to replace them. It wasn’t as if you hadn’t asked all those questions your mother had raised yourself. Trepidation had racked you when you’d first ventured into such a daring commitment with them. Will you alone be able to satisfy them? How would you divide your time amongst seven men? What if they got bored with you, or worse, jealous of each other? Would they seek out someone else?

But slowly and surely, the boys had shown you that trust and loyalty, though hard earned, were bonds that survived the treacherous potholes of navigating a polyamorous relationship. You trusted them, you were loyal to them. They trusted you, they were loyal to you. 

Or were they?

Shaking your head, you got up off the floor with a huff, stalking to your bedroom with an irritated gait. This is why you did not want to talk to your mother. You were only human. The seeds of doubt once sown, germinated into assumptions and suspicion you absolutely loathed. Mainly, because you were self aware enough to realise that they had no real substance to them, they only reflected your own secret fears back at you. But again, you were only human and no matter how much you tried to shake off the encounter with your mom, your mood soured further when your overactive imagination supplied images of the boys with other women. 

And your age old enemy, insecurity, reared its ugly head. Taehyung was an ass man, maybe he’d like to be with someone with a bigger butt. Were you even intelligent enough for Namjoon? Jin would suit a more wholesome woman who knew how to cook something other than ramen. Yoongi liked breasts, maybe someone with a perkier pair. You could not sing to save your life, so why did Jeongguk like you when all his female celebrity crushes had killer pipes? Jimin used to train submissives before you came into his life, did he think about those happier times? 

Did Hoseok resent having to share you with his members when you’d pledged to love him and only him? 

You were angrily yanking open your closet to look for something to wear to their photoshoot when your phone flashed from where you’d thrown it on the bed before your mom had officially ruined your day. 

Peeking a look at it, you wondered if you should have read your horoscope. Because the day was far from over.

Hobi: Few high school friends invited me for drinks tonight. Rain check?

~.~.~

Exactly one year ago ~

The bookstore became eerily quite after 10 pm. Only a few last minute stragglers sometimes showed up to look for some obscure book they obviously couldn’t find anywhere else. 

You loved being with your lonesome self behind the cash register. Usually with a book in your hands, reading up on all kinds of historical fiction, medieval fantasies, long forgotten poems of equally unknown poets and of course the occasional bodice ripper. 

Which was what you were doing when the bell above the entrance chimed, indicating someone was indeed, on the prowl for some late night book hunting. You didn’t look up from the raunchy text in your lap as a dark figure passed by, clearly no more interested in exchanging pleasantries than you were. With a shrug you went back to focus on the guilty pleasure of a novel you’d picked for yourself tonight. A courtesan heroine during renaissance Italy who entertained patrons from not only the newly emerging Humanist circles but also the corrupt members of the clergy? Oh yes please. 

But when, out of the corner of your eye, you saw the newcomer heading for the comic book section you grew intrigued. Late night hunting for…comic books? 

Close proximity to the Seoul National University meant that the bookstore you worked at housed mostly academic readings. And as such the people who came here were also mostly students who wished to buy a copy of the expensive publishings they could otherwise also find in a library. That alone meant that the bookstore was never buzzing with customers. Let alone ones who were looking for some flashy illustrations and superhero escapism. The comic books you had on offer usually just collected dust. 

Curiosity getting the better of you, you abandoned your heroine in midst of a wanton tryst with a nobleman to observe the anomaly currently browsing the comics on display. 

He had on a long black trench coat, leather pants encasing the muscular legs below and Dr. Martens on his feet. His hair was covered with a black cap and from what you could see, a mask of the same colour stretched across his face. It wasn’t unusual to see people with their face fully covered, so you didn’t think much of his all black ensemble. Though he would blend in perfectly outside at night, under the store’s bright lights he stuck out like a bat during the day. 

Maybe he’s a fan of batman. 

When he’d chosen his pick he turned around, making you duck your head down quickly. The light chuckle that reached your ears meant that you weren’t fast enough and he’d caught you checking him out. You flushed red. 

“Can I get these gift wrapped please?” 

Two comic books landed on the counter in front of you, the sound accompanying the husky lilt of the man’s voice. 

Left with no choice but to interact with him, you softly replied, “Of course.” Strangely, your heart beat spiked as you reached forward to pick the thin, glossy books up. He’d placed his hands on the wood counter, palms down, his sleeves pushed up a little. For a second you stared at his long fingers, a ridged vein stretching from the knuckles to the back of his right hand, forking out on his bare forearm before disappearing under his clothing like a purplish blue tattoo. 

As if on cue, he started drumming his fingers, snapping you into action as you quickly scanned his purchase. 

“That’ll be 15,430 won.” Opening a cabinet to pull out a selection of wrapping papers, you deliberately took your time to avoid meeting his eyes. What was going on with you? You couldn’t even see his face properly but you were acting like a teenager with her first crush. You decided it was time to stop reading romantic fantasies. 

Clearing your throat you presented the options to him with a flourish, this time looking him straight in the eyes. “Which one would you like?”

He gave a cursory glance to the colourful sheets before glancing back at you with a quirked brow. Was he laughing at your flustered form? You couldn’t tell what with the mask, but there was definitely mirth dancing in his eyes.  

A shrug. “Whichever. I really don’t care.”

“Fine”, you huffed, really not appreciating being the source of his amusement. You chose a blue paper with green stripes, placing the comics in the middle. 

“I like that one.”, he commented graciously. And you were just about to reply when he continued cheekily, “I also like your choice in books.” 

Your hands froze, eyes darting to the unfinished

novel you’d placed face up on the table. The salacious cover showed a woman in medieval garb, her mouth half open in a silent moan as a blonde man wearing a billowy white shirt kissed her bare shoulder, the open neck of her gown threatening to expose her breasts. 

In a flash you flipped the book, cover side down, opening a drawer to hastily throw it inside. Slamming it closed, you glared at the man who was now outright laughing at you. 

“Don’t be embarrassed.”, he cajoled in a tone that suggested you should, in fact, be embarrassed. “Everyone’s gotta live vicariously somehow.”

Was he suggesting you read erotic books because you didn’t get laid in real life? 

You narrowed your eyes. “Is that why you’re reading children’s books?” You indicated the My Little Pony picture book and the Superman comic he’d picked up. “I must say you’ve got varied tastes.”

“Hey now.” He held up his hands. “Those are for my niece and nephew. They’re twins and it’s their birthday today.”

“Maybe that’s what you say whenever you’ve got to stock up on the latest My Little Pony issue. Have them gift wrapped so no one suspects.” Now you were just pushing it, but the burn of embarrassment still irked.  

He was grinning behind his mask. “No that one’s for my nephew. He likes ponies.”

You gaped at him. “You’re not serious.”

“I am.”

You held up the Superman issue. “And I’m guessing your niece likes superheroes?”

“Only the ones who can fly.” He shrugged. “According to her Batman is an imposter with no real powers.”

“Radical.”, you said in amazement.

“Look I didn’t mean to upset you.” His hand on the counter moved to cover yours. A shock of awareness jolted through your spine, making you sit up straighter. By the way he swallowed, he wasn’t unaffected either. But he didn’t let go of your hand, clutched it tighter actually. “I’m sorry if I was rude.”

“I, umm.”, you stuttered, not being able to look away from his sincere gaze. What were you upset about again? Yeah, the living vicariously comment. “It’s alright. Though I’ll have you know, I get plenty of action.”

No you didn’t get plenty of action. And you did not just say that.

At least you’d managed to shock him out of his sauve demeanour. “I’m…sure you do.” He cleared his throat, squeezing your hand. “I wasn’t insinuating anything. I read smut too, you know.”

Now it was your turn to be shocked. “You don’t.” 

“I don’t.” He grinned again. “Just trying to make you feel better.”

“Hey!” You snatched back your hand, scowling at him. 

“I’m sorry, I’m sorry.”, he breathed in between laughter. “You’re just too easy to rile up.”

“Ha ha.”, you mocked. “Are you living vicariously through me then? Not enough comedy in your life, huh?” 

He straightened then, his amusement disappearing. “Maybe.”

Reaching for the hand you’d pulled out of his grip, he brought it closer to him. Wrapping both his hands around yours, he made sure you were looking into his eyes when he said, “Maybe you’re exactly what I need in my life.”

Your breath hitched at that. “I don’t even know your name.”

His eyes crinkled at that. He was smiling behind his mask again. At that moment, you wanted to see his face more than anything in the world. 

One hand let go of yours to point at the large S on Superman’s chest on the comic’s cover. 

You frowned in confusion. “Your name is…S?”

“No silly. That’s not an S, that’s the Kryptonian symbol for hope.”

~.~.~

Present Day~

Your tears had dried by the time you left your house to head for the Bighit building. The occasional sniffle still persisted though, and you hoped you looked put together enough for the boys to not suspect anything. 

The talk with your mother was not entirely responsible for your persisting melancholy. You’d been reminiscing your first meeting with Hoseok ever since his text came in. Something about it being the first anniversary of when he’d come into your quaint little bookshop, all masked up in disguise and asked you out, after thoroughly embarrassing you that is. You hadn’t gotten to see his face on the first date either, or the second or the third. When he’d asked you why you still went on multiple dates with him when he didn’t allow you to see his face (which also meant he didn’t kiss you), you’d joked about having a taste for wanted fugitives. 

But the truth was that you’d fallen in love with him even before you really knew who he was. He made you laugh, made your heart flutter when he’d wrap you up in his arms, he wasn’t afraid to push your boundaries when it came to getting to know you. By the time the fifth date had rolled around he knew everything about you and you still knew nothing about him, except for the fact that he had some sinful moves, which you’d gotten to know when he’d gave you a fully clothed lap dance on your birthday. You’d fallen for his mannerisms. He’d pull out your chair, open doors for you, give you his jacket. He was different than all the guys you’d previously dated, he never once tried to get into your pants, the most you’d gotten was a quick brush of his lips across your forehead before he’d quickly slide his mask back in place.  

You were the one who’d grown frustrated at him taking it so slow. He’d only chuckle lightly and divert your hand to safety whenever you tried to grope him, all your amateur attempts at seduction thwarted when he’d cage you in his arms instead or pull your attention elsewhere. 

The day you’d gotten to see his face was also the day he introduced you to the rest of the boys. When he’d invited you over to his place for the first time you were ecstatic. Finally having his trust was a big deal to you. By now you’d realised he must be someone important (or dangerous) for him to hide his identity for so long, but you’d never pushed him to reveal himself. You’d thought he’d finally realised how serious you were about him. 

Oh, he’d realised it alright. When he’d opened the dorm door for you, the first thing he’d done was kiss your mouth senseless, even before you’d registered who it was you were looking at. When he’d pulled back after ravishing your mouth, you’d gaped at him in shock, both at his hungry mauling and the fact that  you were looking at, well, him. A world famous artist. Who’d just kissed you like his life depended on it. 

His words then were still etched into your brain. He’d smiled wide and you remember thinking it was the most beautiful sight ever. “You have no idea how long I’ve been dying to kiss you, __.” 

You clutched your coat around you tighter as you took the familiar route to your boyfriends’ workplace. A wistful smile graced your lips when you remembered how the rest of the boys had embraced you into their group seamlessly, like you were always meant to be right by their side. Your friendship with them had started out innocent enough, but they had always been very handsy when it came to you. You hadn’t minded and neither did Hoseok, when one of them asked you for a massage or laid their head in your lap or if the competitive younger ones tickled you ceaselessly when you’d beat them at a game. You’d developed a rapport with Namjoon and Yoongi, you enjoyed listening to them whenever they had something to say and you were flattered when they took your opinions and suggestions seriously. 

Slowly and surely they’d trusted you with all their secrets, allowing you into their private life as you and Hoseok’s relationship had deepened. So it really came as shock to you when one day you’d snapped at Namjoon when he’d come to you asking advice regarding the girl he’d been dating. It hadn’t been your finest moment and for a while it had mired your bond with the boys in confusion and uncertainty. Especially when Namjoon had broken up with the girl the very next day. 

The real shocker came when Jeongguk kissed you full on the mouth in the presence of Hoseok. And your boyfriend did not seem to mind at all! Gradually the boys’ handsiness had grown into full-blown PDA. They kissed you, pulled you into their lap during movie nights, back hugs became commonplace. Taehyung even loved to warm his hands against your bare waist, sneaking them inside your shirts whenever he could. Before your moral compass went haywire with guilt you had sat all of them down and talked about the nature of your relationship. 

Communication was always key. Hoseok had initially been unsure of the mere idea of sharing you but you’d assured him that you would never go ahead with it if he wasn’t onboard. But the fact was, you’d fallen in love with the rest of the boys too. And he could see that as well. 

You still wonder sometimes, if he’d said yes only because he risked losing you otherwise. You wouldn’t have been able to handle secretly pining for the other boys if he’d said no. 

As you displayed your id to the guard at front, you wondered if he’d really forgotten that today was your anniversary. It seemed like it.  Why would he accept an invitation to go out tonight of all nights if he didn’t? Should you remind him? Or maybe it just wasn’t as big of a deal as you were making it out to be. 

You didn’t know what to do, all you knew was that today was a shit day. And with that thought, you entered the spacious conference room converted into a studio for the photoshoot. Namjoon had told you that it was for this years season’s greetings. 

From the soft mood lightings against the panel of wall to wall windows spanning one side of the room and the light coloured casual clothing that hung from the racks pushed to the corners, you deduced that they were going for a soft, boyfriend look this time. 

You snorted. How ironic they’d sell such a concept to their fans when all seven of them were taken at the same time. By the same person. 

The familiar faces of the co-ordis greeted you as you moved in, and you murmured a soft good morning to them. “Where are they?”, you asked, looking around.

Solji, one of the older stylists, answered you with a smile. “You’re a little early. They’ll be here soon.”

“Great. I’ll set up somewhere out of your way then.” You returned her smile, she was your favourite out of all the staff, always friendly and understanding. 

Speaking of the staff, your eyes caught a new face flitting among the familiar ones when you scanned the room for a place to sit. You nudged Solji. “Is she new?”, you asked, flicking your chin towards the blonde girl assisting the hairstylist in pulling out all kinds of products from a bag.

Solji nodded. “Miso. She’s a temp. We fell short on hands when Hyoyeon took her maternity leave. Most likely will become permanent if she’s good.”

You frowned. “Does she know about me?”

The staff were well informed about your relationship with Bangtan, the Non Disclosure Agreement they signed when they were hired prevented them from going to the media with any kind of private details about the boys, lest they be sued for their weight in gold. But it always caused you anxiety when a new staff member got to know about you. More so when they got to know you were dating all of them. 

“Yes. I informed her myself. She was surprised, to say the least.”

“Everyone is.” Your mom’s sneer came to mind suddenly, but you pushed it away. Patting Solji’s arm, you said, “Time for me to catch up on my studies I guess.”

Spying a small love seat in one corner of the big room you headed towards it. Picking up the empty make up containers strewn over it, you placed them carefully on the carpeted floor instead. Perching yourself on the seat, you pulled open your handbag, pulling out your laptop and the textbook you and Namjoon had been pouring over last night. 

This is what you did when they asked you over on a photoshoot, or vocal practice or dress fittings. Watching them from a corner while trying to get some work done. But mostly just gazing at them go about their way from your front row perch, hearts in your eyes. 

You’d only just begun reading when the sound of their laughter reached your ears. Looking up eagerly, you promptly forgot your work. Yoongi was already headed towards you, looking downright sinful in a white Supreme hoodie, jeans and converse. Did he even need to change? This was boyfriend look right here. 

“My little bird’s already hard at work I see.” He bent to give you a heart stopping kiss, his hand cupping your nape in a proprietary gesture. “How am I gonna focus on the shoot with you looking so gorgeous today, hmm? Maybe we can convince the photographer to take your pictures instead.”

Oh, flirty Yoongi was in the house today. 

“I don’t think your fans would like that.” You bit his lip, not even trying to resist the temptation right before your eyes. 

Another deep kiss. “Their loss.”

“Hyung, Solji noona is calling you.”, a cheerful Taehyung said from behind Yoongi. 

The elder straightened up with a scowl. “Really? You’ll get a knuckle sandwich if you’re lying.”

“I’m not.”, he exclaimed, jerking a thumb behind him. “Go ask her yourself.”

As Yoongi left while muttering something under his breath, Taehyung sprawled himself on the love seat beside you. “I lied.”

You nodded. “Of course you did.”

The shout of “Tae you motherfucker!” could be heard as the subject of the loud curse brushed some stray hair behind your ears, an unbothered boxy smile directed at you as he asked, “So __, I heard Hobi hyung won’t be spending the night with you. This must come as a shock because I’m a busy man,” he polished his nails on the lapels of the Gucci coat he had on, before inspecting them like they were the singular most interesting thing, “but did you know I’m completely free tonight?”

You smiled at his attempt at nonchalance but your heart ached at the reminder. Looking towards Hoseok, you found him and the boys surrounded by the styling team. When Hoseok caught you looking, he grinned wide, moving to make his way to you. 

A small hand on his shoulder stopped him in his path. The new temp Miso held up a shirt to his torso, looking up at him with a smile as she said something you couldn’t quite hear. You saw Hoseok nod and reply to her, all plans of coming to you forgotten. 

“Is there trouble in paradise?”, Taehyung guessed, looking at his hyung then at you then back to his hyung like a ping pong ball. 

Halting his swivelling head by placing a palm on his cheek, you pouted, “Tae, do you know what today is?”

A scared look came over his face. “Oh shit, did I forget your birthday or something?”

You scowled. “No. It’s me and Hoseok’s one year anniversary. It’s the day I first met him. And he doesn’t remember.”

“Oh.” Then a strange look came over his face, somewhere between constipation and indigestion. He was hiding something. “Oh.”

“What are you ohing about?”, you asked curtly, your curiosity growing. “And why are you making that face?”

“What face?”, he squeaked, getting up from the chair in a flash. “Oh looky there, Solji noona is calling me.”

“Wait!” But he was already hightailing it out of there. “Tae you motherf—ugh!”

For the next hour you watched them from your corner seat as they went through multiple outfit changes and all different kinds of poses against the strategically placed props near the windows. The soft sunlight filtering in provided a natural lighting and their beautiful features seemed to glow from within because of the luminescent makeup they wore. All in all it was a mesmerising affair, they looked like angels. 

And throughout it all instead of focusing on getting some work done your gaze slipped to Hoseok again and again. All of the boys had come to sit beside you at one point or the other, except him. But it wasn’t for lack of trying. 

The pencil in your grip almost snapped to half when you saw the new hire, Miso, bend down to whisper something in his ear as she messed with his already perfect hair. One of her hands landed on his shoulder and you could swear she was caressing him. 

For his part, he rested his head on the back of the chair, eyes closed and barely giving her one word answers. But that did nothing to quell the embers of jealousy burning inside you. Solji had said that the new girl knew about you. You did not want to interfere in their work but if she continued feeling up your boyfriend...

You almost catapulted out of your chair when you saw her brush her ample chest against his arm whilst pretending to pick something up from the floor. 

But luckily Namjoon made his way to you at the same time, saving you from smacking a bitch into next week. 

“I’m sorry about your scarf, doll. I put it in the laundry for you.” He smiled, cheeks dimpling deeply, as if he expected a pat on the back for managing such a feat.

Reluctantly you looked away from Hoseok and the snake coiling herself around him, giving Joon a half hearted smile. “Thank you, baby.”

The dimples disappeared. “Is something wrong?”

The sincere worry in his eyes was all it took for your composure to shatter. The past few days, your mother’s visit,  Hoseok’s forgetfulness, your own insecurities and now the bitch a few feet away from you. 

With a pathetic whine you launched yourself into the leader’s lap, situating yourself between his thighs and wrapping your arms around him. Your face fit perfectly in the space between his shoulder and neck. You didn’t care if you were ruining his carefully put together outfit or the fact that you were in a room full of people. 

Thankfully Namjoon didn’t care either, he immediately pulled you close, bending down to kiss your nose affectionately. 

“Doll?”, was all he said in his soft, deep, ever understanding voice and everything you’d been bottling up came hurtling out in a hiccupy word vomit. By the time you were finished tears were running down your face and you turned to hide into his chest so nobody else could see you breaking down. 

“Aah your mother is wrong, so so wrong. You’re our centre, the best thing that ever happened to us.” Sighing, he rubbed your back. “But I understand where she’s coming from. If it were my daughter I’d be sceptical too. We’ll just have to convince her that we love you more than anything in the world.”

“She doesn’t want to meet you guys.”, you murmured against his chest, wiping your nose on his expensive designer shirt. 

He didn’t seem to mind, brushing away your tears with his shirt sleeve himself. Solji was going to kill you both. 

“I’m sure we can change her mind.” Namjoon nudged your chin up till he was gazing into your eyes. “As for Hoseok, don’t you dare doubt his love for you. He worships the ground you walk on.”

“Is that why he forgot our anniversary?”

Namjoon evaded your eyes. “Doll...”

“And why isn’t he pushing away that new temp?”

“Huh?” Confused, he looked up in the direction of the man in question. 

“Forget it. Do I even have any right to be jealous when it comes to you guys?”, you questioned softly to yourself. Something you’d been wondering about for a while. “I mean there’s one of me and seven of you. You don’t get jealous when I’m with Jimin or Yoongi. Why should I be jealous if you guys show interest in other girls, right?”

That snapped his attention back to you, and what you saw in his eyes made you shrink in on yourself. He was angry, furious even. He grabbed your jaw, made sure your eyes didn’t stray from him.

“Of the most ridiculous nonsense you could come up with, I never imagined you’d be questioning our loyalty to you.”, he said through his teeth. “Firstly, we have no fucking interest in dating another girl, get that through your thick head. Second, we don’t get jealous of each other but you very well know we can’t stand anyone else putting their hands on you. Thirdly,” he paused, taking a deep breath. “I can’t say for other guys but I love it when you get jealous.”

“What?”, you breathed.

Sheepishly, he rubbed the back of his neck. “Do you remember when I came to you asking for dating advice before you’d agreed to be with all of us? When you were only Hoseok’s girlfriend.”

“I do.” You were just reminiscing about your early days with the boys a few hours ago. 

“I didn’t really want your advice, I suspected you liked me too and I just wanted to get a rise out of you.”

You stared at him. “Is that why you broke up with the girl the next day?”

“Hehe.”, he laughed nervously. “I wasn’t dating anybody in the first place. I only wanted to be with you.”

Your jaw dropped. 

Solji’s voice cut through your intimate bubble then. “Namjoon, you’re up.”

“Time to get scolded for ruining my shirt.” He picked you up and set you on the cushions like you weighed nothing. 

“I’m sorry about that.” Glancing at the wetness that covered his front from your tears and snot, you winced. 

“I drooled on your scarf, you cried on my shirt. We’re a match made in heaven, babe.”, he said, a shit eating grin on his face. 

“You’re so cheesy.” You threw a cushion at his face. 

He flicked it away with a swat. “You’ve been sitting here for hours, you should stretch your legs. I have that SourPunk string candy you like so much in the drawer beneath my computer. Go get some.”

“Really?!” You jumped up at once. “It’s my favourite.”

“I know.” He left after giving you an indulgent smile, though you heard him mutter under his breath “it tastes like satan’s ass” before he was out of earshot. 

Ignoring him, you happily made your way out of the huge room, heading straight for Namjoon’s studio on the third floor. There was a spring in your step. Not surprisingly talking to the leader had put some sense back into you, he’d Expecto Petronumed your insecurities like they were dementors. For now at least, you were sure they’d rear their ugly head again in the future like a chronic disease. 

Striding down the hallway cheerfully, you did not expect a hand to shoot out of a door. You shrieked like a banshee when the hand clutched your arm, hauling you inside before slamming the door close. 

“What the—“, your shout was cut off by Hoseok’s hand over your mouth. 

“It’s me, __. Don’t scream.”

Narrowing your eyes, you licked his palm. 

“Aah!” He snatched it back, face scrunching. “What was that for?”

“For ignoring me all day. And scaring me just now.”

“Ignoring you?” He scoffed. “Fuck no. I don’t do childish stuff like that. I’m not Yoongi hyung.”

“I’m going to tell him you said that.”

Hoseok’s glare turned into a confused frown when he saw your face clearly, the dim lighting not helping his vision. “Were you crying?”

Flinching, you spoke sharply, “No.”

The frown didn’t abate. “__, I swear I wasn’t ignoring you.”

“That’s not why I was crying.”

“So you were crying.” He raised his brows, daring you to deny it. His eyes softened when you looked away instead. 

“Hey baby, I’m sorry.”, he murmured in your ear, his hands finding purchase on your waist. He nudged your face toward his, nuzzling you softly. “Whatever I did I’m so sorry.”

Melting in his arms, you allowed him to pull you close. “You don’t even know what you’re apologising for.”

Placing a hand on the side of your neck, a thumb at your chin pulled your mouth open. “It doesn’t matter. I hate seeing you upset.” 

He kissed your open mouth, his tongue immediately finding yours. The taste of him made you moan, coffee and the sugar coated lemon drops he loved so much. It was a strange but delectable combination. 

As you sucked on his tongue, his hands dropped to work on the buttons of your blouse. You pulled away for a second to ask, “We’re really doing this here? Right now?”

“Not we.” Pushing your blouse and bra out of the way, he freed one breast for his hungry mouth.

“I just want to make you feel good.”, he breathed against your nipple before taking the cold, hardened bud between his warm lips. 

Head thumping back against the door, you clutched him to your chest. “Hobi, oh my god!”

Taking your sensitive nipple between his teeth, he pulled, making a jolt of arousal go straight to your core. He chuckled as a moan tore from you. “I haven’t even started and you’re already invoking god. You won’t be able to keep quiet, would you? Do you want everyone to know your boyfriend’s worshipping you?”

Pulling him up for another messy kiss, you confessed against his lips. “Yes. I want everyone to know that you belong to me.”

Something primal and unrestrained entered his eyes, and you almost regretted your words for a second. With a swiftness that defied gravity, he picked you up and strode to a nearby table. After clearing the surface with a sweep of his hand, he placed you gingerly on top. The clink and clatter of jewellery and other accessories hitting the floor echoed in the room, but you only had eyes and ears for Hoseok. 

“Be careful what you ask for, __.” 

What had you unleashed? 

He made swift work of your jeans till you were clad only in your blouse and soaking wet panties. 

“Look at that, you’ve already made a mess.” Cupping your crotch, he stroked your clothed labia slowly, smirking when you swivelled your hips for more. “How badly do you want me to eat you out, __? Tell me and I might let you have my tongue.” 

You wanted him too much to care about how desperate you sounded. “So bad. Please! I want your tongue on my pussy.” 

“What my baby wants, she gets.” He dropped to his knees between your spread legs, pushing at the back of your thighs to expose your genitals in the most lewd way possible. Pushing aside your soaked panties, he dove in with fervour like he was about to devour the most scrumptious meal ever. 

The first flick of his tongue on your clit had you gnashing your teeth and fisting his thick, soft hair. From previous experience you knew that receiving oral sex from him meant that he was going to put all your vibrators to shame. 

And sure enough, the speed of his tongue on your clit blew your mind, as did the currents of pleasure coursing through you. How he was able to move his tongue so fast, you had no fucking clue. Pausing in his expert assault, he took the already quivering bundle in his mouth to suck, simultaneously thrusting two fingers deep in your slick channel. 

“Hobi! Fuck! Umfh..” That was all you could manage till he found the soft spongy spot on your inner walls, pressing on it in tandem with his licks on your clit. Most of the sounds that came out of your mouth were incoherent shouts and half pleas. 

Hoseok’s eyes met yours over the expanse of your tummy and you could tell he was internally laughing as you dissolved into a mindless being intent on reaching your climax. “Hobi please make me cum!”

The bastard pulled his sinful mouth away from your cunt instead. “What was that?”

“Aagh!”, you yelled in frustration. “Put that tongue back on my fucking clit!”

He pouted, his cheeks glistening from your juices. “Is that any way to speak to your boyfriend?”

“Hobi.”, you cried, about to burst into frustrated tears literally. “Please!”

Grinning, he dove back down. “Now was that so hard?”

This time he pulled his fingers out of your entrance to rub slick circles on your nub instead. His mouth tasted a path down your inner labia before tonguing your clenching, empty hole. 

“Hoseok, don’t tease me.”, you begged. 

Taking mercy on you, he thrust his tongue deep inside. The fingers playing your clit like a fiddle doubled their strokes.

“Fuck yes!”, you screamed. 

His tongue inside your pussy mimicked his dick thrusting in and out, your pussy trying to grip the muscle everytime he pulled it back out. You could come just from him tongue fucking you. 

“Hoseok don’t stop! Please don’t stop!”

He stopped. Pulling away once again. 

“What?!”, you shrieaked, your orgasm slipping away from your grasp. Frustrated tears did, in fact, make their way down your cheeks this time. 

“Your pussy tastes like fucking ambrosia, __.”, he groaned, licking his lips. “But I wanna have a taste of something else too.”

Frowning, you half sobbed, half moaned, “What?”

He smirked. “Let’s see if you can come from having your ass eaten.”

The shudder that went through you at his words was overshadowed by pleasure when he licked down your pussy, giving a fluttering peck to your neglected entrance before venturing further south. Your perineum received a wet, open mouthed kiss and a nuzzle. 

“Hold your legs for me, baby.”, he commanded softly, his breath tingling both your holes. 

Snaking your arms around the back of your thighs, you pulled your legs up and away. You were nervous but excited, none of the other boys had rimmed you before. “Hobi, please hurry.”

A nip on your buttcheek made you yelp. “Don’t rush me. I’m going to enjoy this.”

Kneading your buttocks in his palms, he pulled them apart, a butterfly kiss to your asshole followed. Then he laved the puckered hole, making you gasp at the unfamiliar sensation. 

“Oh.”, you breathed. “That feels so good.”

You felt him smile. Another light kiss on your rim, then his tongue explored. Circling your asshole and probing at your forbidden entrance till you clenched at the foreign feeling with a groan. 

He tsked, clearly disapproving. “Don’t tense up, baby. Open up to me. I love this cute little hole.”

At his urging you relaxed and he began eating your hole with the same enthusiasm as he had your pussy. When his hand slid up to tease your clit once again, your arms gave from beneath you and you thumped on the table, arching your back from the insurmountable pleasure he was giving you. 

He was right. You could cum from having your asshole stimulated. The release that had slipped away earlier came hurtling back like a train wreck, with double the force. 

Stiffening his tongue, he pushed it up your anus as far as it would go. 

 “Fuck!”, you cursed at the intrusion. 

In your endorphin hazed brain, you registered a noise outside the door that sounded like Hoseok’s name. You ignored it at first, the dancer between your legs making you feel too good to care about anyone barging in. 

But then the hesitant voice grew louder. “Hoseok-ssi. It’s Miso, are you in there?”

At first sheer fury coursed through you. And then you smirked. 

“Hobi!” Your voice was so loud the man in question paused in his ministrations for a second. “Don’t stop! You eat my ass so good!”

With a shrug, he happily continued, circling your clit with his fingers just the way you liked it. 

“Oh fuck yes!” Though your volume was exaggerated, you could feel yourself get closer and closer to the precipice. 

This time you didn’t hear the squeak and the rush of footsteps disappearing outside, the blood rushing in your ears drowning out everything else. 

“Baby I’m so close.”

“Cum then. Let me see your pretty pussy cum.”, he growled, increasing the torture on the bundle of nerves he was assaulting with his fingers. 

When you came, everything went white for a second. The scream of his name was so loud, you were sure the whole building heard you climaxing. The seizure like shudders that racked you had you closing your legs and pulling away his hands because of oversensitivity.

Panting on the table, you flopped on your side to calm down. Hoseok bent over you to caress your hair. 

“Are you alright, baby? Did I overdo it?” 

Shaking your head, you got up to wrap your arms around his shoulders. “No. You are amazing. Your mouth is amazing.”

You tried to pull him down for a kiss but he turned his face away at the last second. “I just had my tongue up your ass, babe. Do you really wanna kiss me?”

“Shut up.” You gave him a deep, sloppy kiss. 

~.~.~

The crew and staff were packing up when you got back to the room after cleaning yourself up in the bathroom. So you headed straight to get your things as well. 

You found Jimin seated at the love seat, idly going through your textbook. 

You smiled at the adorable furrow of concentration between his brows. “You into history now, Chim?”

Jimin hummed, flipping the book shut before looking up at you. “No, but I heard you’re into rimming.”

Cheeks going tomato red, you stuttered, “D-did you—”

“Yeah. You were very loud.”

Groaning you buried your face in your hands. What felt like a good idea at the time, made you shrivel up in mortification now. 

Jimin got up to pull your hands away, giving you an eye smile of reassurance. “Don’t. I loved that you were so loud. I got to know that assplay is not a hard limit for you.”

You gulped. “Jimin.”

He gave you that predatory look, the one he used only in the bedroom, making you shiver. In fear or anticipation, you didn’t know. “Make sure you’re free next Monday.”

 Before you could reply, he picked up your bag, placing your book and laptop inside. “Now. Let’s get you home.”

Glancing around, you found the room almost empty. “Where’s everybody?”

Jimin took your hand, interlacing your fingers. “They’re already in the car. Let’s go.”

The driver held open the door of the Escalade when you two arrived outside. You slid in first, immediately snuggling up against Jeongguk who was seated near the other window. Jimin got in behind you.

Yoongi was up front, with Namjoon, Jin and Taehyung making up the back.

“Where’s Hoseok?”, you asked as the car pulled away from the curb. 

Jin answered you. “He was invited over for drinks remember.”

“Oh.” You remembered. But you’d forgotten to remind him of the anniversary, too preoccupied with his tempting mouth. 

“What’s the matter, __?” Came Taehyung’s sly voice. You glanced at the rearview mirror to see him grinning. When his eyes met yours, the grin vanished in a flash.

You narrowed your eyes, Taehyung’s earlier werid behaviour coming to mind. “Nothing.”

The rest of the ride passed by in relative quiet. Only Jeongguk’s voice telling you about his recent trip back to Busan filled the car. You listened with your head on his shoulder, though your mind was adrift. 

You did not fancy the idea of sleeping alone in a cold bed, one of the boys’ constant warmth against you throughout your nights had spoiled you. You were just about to take Taehyung up on his earlier offer to spend the night with him when the car stopped suddenly. 

Confused, you sat up straight. It usually took twenty minutes to get to the boys’ dorm, thirty minutes to get to your apartment. It had barely been ten. “What is it? Why did we stop?”

Yoongi turned from his seat to look at you with a fond smile. “Your stop’s here, __.”

“What?” You frowned when Jimin got out of the car, holding out his hand for you to take. 

“Just trust us.”, Jeongguk whispered next to you. 

With a deep breath you took Jimin’s proffered hand, getting out of the car in the middle of the street. 

“What if someone sees us?”, you asked, scared someone might click pictures of you two together. “Where are we?”

Jimin shook his head, turning you toward the footpath on the side of the road. “You know where we are.”

When your eyes left his to glance around, your breath caught. Because you did know where you were. 

The lights inside the old bookstore you worked at illuminated your surroundings. Taking a step forward in amazement, you peered up at the two story building, the grey stucco walls of the exterior filling you with nostalgia. After you’d moved into your new apartment almost a year ago, the bookstore became too far out of your way for you commute to daily. You’d also gotten a better paying job working at a cafe. But you’d always missed the quiet of this store, the hundreds of books at your disposal that you had loved to explore. The cafe was too loud, boisterous and hectic in comparison. 

A throat cleared behind you and you turned to find Hoseok gazing at you from above the mask he had donned. The car and the rest of the boys were gone. 

“Did you really think I’d forget, baby?”

Elation surged through you and you barely restrained the sappy tears that threatened to overflow. He held out his arms and you launched yourself at him, making him laugh. 

“So that text was a lie?”

“Hmm.”, he hummed against your hair, pecking your forehead. “They did invite me to hang out but I had to politely reject.”

Hoseok wrapped an arm around your waist. “We should go in. Someone might recognise me out here even with the mask.”

Frowning, you let him lead you towards the front entrance. “Umm, are you sure? Do you wanna pick up a book or something? The lady who owns this building won’t like us having a date in her bookstore.”

Hoseok opened the door, ushering you in. The store was unsurprisingly empty, but you frowned when you saw nobody manning the cash register. 

“The lady who owns this store loves me. So I think we’re good.”

Your head snapped back to him. “Who?”

He pursed his lips, clearly suppressing his amusement. Fishing for something in his pocket, he held your hand out, palm side up. 

“You.” Two keys on a Superman keyring dropped on your palm. 

For a minute you stared at it dumbfounded, not comprehending him. But he spoke before you could bombard him with questions. 

“I bought this whole building in your name. It’s yours.” He closed your fingers around the keys. 

Blinking up at him, you swallowed at the resurgence of emotion within you. “I-umm”, you looked away. “Hoseok I don’t know what to say. It must have cost a fortune. I can’t accept this.”

“Of course you can.”, he replied breezily, pulling your chin to make you look at him again. “I know you don’t like working at the cafe. They pay you peanuts there anyway. Now you don’t have to. The earnings from this store will be more than enough for your rent, tuition, bills and everything else.”

“I-I don’t know.” The part of you that wanted to earn everything you received rebelled at taking such an expensive gift. 

“I knew you would be stubborn.”, Hoseok sighed as if pained he was having to say this. “If you want, you can pay me back on your own time, okay.”

Cracking a smile, you gave him a knowing look. “You and I both know you’re not gonna accept a penny from me.”

He gave you a “duh” look. “ See, you’re smart. Now be a good girl and just tell me you love me.” 

You laughed. “Fine. I love you.”

“I love you too.” Cupping your cheeks, he kissed you like he meant it. “Now shall we christen this place?”

“Hobi!”

“What?”, he whined. “The first time we met I wanted to bend you over that table and fuck all the sass out of you.”

Glancing behind you at the old desk and chair you used to spend most of your shift at, you smirked. 

Sliding out of his arms, you made your way to the table, swinging your hips just right. When you reached it you placed your elbows on the surface, bending at the waist to wiggle your butt. 

“Come get me, Superman.”

Hoseok groaned, stalking toward you like a tiger on the hunt. 

A “whooo” escaped you when he gripped your jeans and panties to slide them down in one fell swoop, the garments tangled at your knees. 

“I’ve been hard ever since I got the first taste   of your pussy. I need it rough and fast this time baby.”, he growled, stroking your pussy before sliding two fingers inside. They slid in without any resistance. “Shit you’re so fucking wet.”

“You ate me out so good, I’m still dripping.”, you moaned as he wedged another finger inside your slick entrance. “Use me, Hobi.”

“Fuck.” You heard the clank of his belt and his zipper going down. He gripped his rock hard length to rub the engorged cock head up and down your slit, spreading his pre-cum and your juices everywhere. 

“Put it in.”, you moaned, still oversensitive from earlier. Your battered clit pulsed like a mini heartbeat and from the way Hoseok’s grip tightened on your buttocks, his nails digging in, you knew you were going to be sore after he was done with you. 

Positioning his cock at your hole, he buried himself to the hilt inside you with one hard thrust of his dancer hips. The force jerked you up the table, your hands flailing for purchase. 

“Oh.” You felt full, so deliciously and utterly stuffed. “Fuck, you’re so big.”

Hoseok paused, letting you adjust and bringing his instincts under control. He did not want to hurt you. “You always take me so well. So fucking tight and warm.”

“Move, Hobi.”, you moaned after a second. “I’m ready.”

He set a punishing pace from the start. Clutching your hips in his hands he slammed you down on his dick as his hips surged upward in thrust after thrust. The slapping sound of skin against skin resounded throughout the store. You still had a hard time believing you were fucking in your old bookstore. 

Oh, how far you’d come. From reading smut on this very table to fucking your boyfriend over it. 

“I want to hear you, __. Don’t hold back.”, he hissed through his teeth, his hand snaking down to abuse your already sensitive clit some more.

“Shit shit! Oh my god.” Too much sensation assaulted you.

“Fuck, your pussy is squeezing my dick so good.” Hoseok adjusted his position, his length penetrating even deeper inside you. The speed of his pistoning hips doubled, if that was even possible. The table beneath you inched forward against the floor with his every harsh thrust. 

Your eyes rolled back in your head. This was the definition of a quick, rough fuck. The semi public nature of it shooting a thrill down your spine. The sign at the front said open, anybody could walk in any moment. Moreover though the desk of the cashier was placed sideways, if one wanted to peer inside the windows, they would definitely get an eyeful. 

The idea that someone could be watching you get your brains fucked out, made you even more wanton. Meeting Hoseok thrust for thrust, you reached back to pull his head down to your mouth, the difficult position and the hard slams of his dick inside you meant that you kissed not just his mouth but also his chin, nose and cheeks.

Hoseok laughed. “You’re so cute when you’re desperate, baby.” 

“Don’t call me desperate.”, you whined, biting his chin. “Also please make me cum.”

“Whatever you say.”

He looked entirely too pleased with himself, so you clenched your pelvic muscles till your pussy gripped his cock so tight. 

His thrusts faltered. “Shit baby.”, he groaned. “Of course you’re not desperate. I’m the one who’s desperate.” 

“Better.”

At that Hoseok hauled you up by your arms, circling his hands around your torso to hold you up. The upright position against the table forced him even deeper. He angled his hips just right, the tip of his cock hitting your g-spot every time he drove inside you, coiling that impeding pressure in your belly more and more. 

“Are you close?”, he panted against your ear, his finger returning to circle your clit. 

“So close.” Gasping, you tilted your head when he bit the crook of your neck. “Just keep fucking me like that.”

The lewd noises of your love making echoed throughout the room, the rough slaps of skin, the incoherent moans, the table shaking beneath you. His thrusts didn’t relent one bit, battering your pussy till you felt that tingle in your spine building and building. 

“Fuck, fuck, fuck.” He cursed a storm, his nails digging crescents into your hips. Your walls clenched around his thick length desperately, the friction of him moving in and out too much for you. 

“I’m cumming, Hobi! Shit, I’m cumming!”, you screamed, just as he circled your clit roughly one last time, pushing you over the edge. 

“Oh my god!” Your second orgasm of the day was just as powerful as the first one, leaving you a barely conscious mess as tsunami waves of pleasure spread like currents through your every nerve ending. 

With you reaching your end, Hoseok fucked you like you were a blowup doll, with the sole purpose of reaching his own climax. He used your poor pussy, thrusting inside with supersonic speed. You clenched around him to help him along. 

“Shit __!” With a shout of your name he buried himself deep inside you, thick jets of his warm cum painting your inner walls white.  After you’d milked him of everything he had to give, he dropped down over you like a sack of potatoes. 

“That was amazing.”, you breathed beneath him. 

“Yeah.”, he panted. Apparently that was all he was capable of enunciating. Both of you caught your breathing, your thundering hearts slowing to a gallop. Hoseok nuzzled your neck like he wanted to burrow himself within you. You chuckled at his neediness.  

Once you’d both calmed down, he got up, taking you with him. After turning you around, he knelt before you. For a second he just watched his cum dribbling down the inside of your thigh, before placing a feather light kiss on your mound, as if apologising to your sore vagina. He pulled up your panties and jeans, fastening the fly. 

Eyes softening, you stroked his hair back from his face, gazing down at him with a smitten look on your face. “I love you.”

He was whipped for you as well. Taking your hand he placed a kiss on the inside of your palm. “I love you too.”

Frowning, you looked out the window. “What if someone saw us having sex?”

Chuckling, he got up off the floor. “Then I hope they enjoyed the show.”

#bts fic #bts smut #bts scenarios #bts fluff #Hoseok smut #bts angst #wednesday #7 days a week series #part 2

[jeonakookie]

I Wish (2)

Pairing: JungkookxOC

Word Count: 3k

Summary: Zoya and Jungkook had lost touch years ago. When a situation brings them back into each other lives, they try to go back to how things were as best friends once again. But a lot can change in 8 years. People. Feelings.

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A sudden numbing pain on her foot bought Zoya’s mind back to the present. “Ow! What the hell!” She exclaimed. Someone had swung the door to the room open like a maniac. After tending to her foot making sure it was okay, she looked up to glare at the idiot, only to freeze up. Kim Namjoon is in front of me. He was in his black stage outfit and there was a slight glow to him. Quickly recovering from her star struck daze as Namjoon apologised, she introduced herself, “Hi, I’m Zoya, nice to meet you. Yes, before you ask, I am supposed to be here. It’s a long story but your staff led me in here to rest.” Zoya’d be damned if her first interaction with perfection personified was her telling him that she walked into a damn pole.

“Okay…” He responded unsure.

“Don’t worry, I’m an ARMY just not a crazy ARMY. Although…that’s what a crazy fan would say…but I promise I’m not. I’m sorry, am I rambling? I feel like rambling. Okay I’ll stop.” Zoya face started to feel hot and she knew she was blushing. She was thanking God for her melanin, she didn’t need to be looking like a tomato on top of her embarrassing rambling.

Namjoon chuckled, finding the rambling girl endearing. “Hello Zoya, nice to meet you. I’m – “

“Kim Namjoon, otherwise known as RM, the leader of BTS. Sorry, like I said, I’m a fan. Nice to meet you.” Zoya could probably admit that she was a little overexcited and making a fool of herself, but she couldn’t begin to care in the moment. This caused him to laugh out loud, much to Zoya’s surprise.

“Well, Zoya, it’s nice meeting you.” Accepting the hand, she stuck out hers for him to shake. “If you’re going to be here during the concert do you mind staying back here a little longer? You can meet the others if you want.”

“Well, I did pay to enjoy the concert…” She said in a teasing way, but it didn’t seem Namjoon caught on.

“You don’t have to if you don’t want to.” He said.

“Are you serious? Of course, I’ll stay. I was just teasing. Meeting you was more than I expected, already.”

“Oh, awesome.” He smiles so big that his dimples made an appearance. How cute, she thought.

“Oh! One tiny thing. I kind of came here with a few friends. They can’t leave without me and stuff. Do you mind if they come?” Zoya requested, hoping she wasn’t pushing her luck.

“Sure, that’s fine. Just let security know who they are and where they are, and they’ll fetch them at the end of the concert. I’ll send one of them in soon.” Namjoon said. At some point he had sat down on a seat next to Zoya, and he stood up to leave, “I’ll hopefully see you later, I have to get ready for my stage.”

“Sure, good luck.” Zoya said with, she was sure, a huge smile on her face. Why wouldn’t she smile, she just met Kim Namjoon. Waving bye to each other, Namjoon left.

Just as Namjoon had said, a security person came and Zoya informed them about Lauren, Alice, Hope, and Arielle, a friend of Hope’s. After that, for the next 2 hours, Zoya just watched the concert from the screen in the waiting room and enjoyed it, just as much as she would have if she was out there.

Once the concert had ended, it wasn’t long before Zoya heard familiar voices growing closer until they were in the waiting room.

“Zoya!” A chorus of relieved shouts greeted her.

“Oh my gosh, what happened? How are you here?” Lauren questioned with worry.

“I kind of, maybe, you know…walked into a pole.” Zoya mumbled.

“Sorry I didn’t hear that. Stop being quiet suddenly.” Alice chastised.

“I walked into a pole.” She, once again, mumbled with her head down.

“Zoya,” Alice sighed, “We can’t hear you. Speak up man!”

“I walked into a stupid pole! Okay!” Zoya exclaimed and, looked down again with embarrassment. All her friends could do was stay silent because just as Zoya thinks herself, it was a situation that only she would get into.

“I can’t even with you sometimes” Hope said with a hint of a smile and soon they all broke out into a small laughter at the hilarity of the situation. After their laughter died down, Hope asked “So are we going now?” A question to which Zoya smiled widely at.

“No. I have something to tell you guys. Sit.” They all proceeded to do as they were told. “I met Namjoon.” Zoya squealed.

“Oh, come on! First Jungkook and now Namjoon? What kind of luck are you running on?” Lauren complained.

“If you let me finish. Like I was saying. I met Namjoon and so will you guys! Actually, we get to meet ALL of them! Surprise!” Zoya exclaimed. This caused them all to start speaking at once. There were a few ‘oh my god’s’ and ‘are you serious?’. “All I ask is please Lauren. Do not cry or faint.”

“I’m not going to cry or faint. Gosh. You guys have no faith in me.” Lauren said rolling her eyes.

“You just cried at the concert.” Alice deadpanned, which caused Zoya to give Lauren a pointed look.

“I won’t! Gosh. I promise. The crying is out of my system.” Lauren exclaimed, throwing her hands up in defence.

“Yeah, you say that…” Alice started.

“Okay guys! She can control herself.” Zoya finished before they went around in circles again over who’s going to cry and faint.

“We’re going to meet our man Alice.” Arielle pipes in. Alice laughs in excitement.

“Just make sure not to refer to Jimin as your man when he’s here.” Zoya laughed.

“How are you coping? Or have you had the time to process after meeting Namjoon?” Alice asked Zoya.

“That and the fact that I’m still kind of dying of excitement on the inside.” Zoya clapped in excitement.

“Are you nervous about Jungkook?”

“Not too much, I’m fine to be honest.” Whilst she shrugged, on the inside Alice’s question hit her like a brick wall. Zoya stupidly hadn’t even considered the fact that Jungkook was also going to be there. Her thoughts ran through her mind, a mile a minute. Will he realise it’s her? Will he even remember her? What if he doesn’t? All those thoughts haunted her mind. Before she had much more time to ponder on the subject, the door to the waiting room opened with a smiling Namjoon, now in more casual attire from when she’d previously seen him.

“Zoya!” His dimpled smile was still ever so endearing.

“Namjoon! Hi again.” Zoya glanced at her friends and saw they froze, but thankfully only for a second and resumed to try and act calm. “These are my friends, Alice, Lauren, Arielle and Hope.” She gestured to them each as she spoke their names.

“Nice to meet you guys.” He chose to sit on the sofa opposite to them, but close to Hope and Arielle as they were sat on the sofa beside the two sofas. Uncharacteristically all Zoya’s friends smiled at Namjoon but didn’t speak a word. Giving Alice a small nudge for her to say something, she scowled at Zoya but said, “Nice to meet you too, the concert was great.”

“Aha thank you, I’m glad you enjoyed it. The others are on their way.” Namjoon informed them.

Right on cue there came a loud “Namjoon-ah!!” and a mop of black hair peeked through the door. It was as if time had stopped for all 5 girls because they were not ready to see Jung Hoseok in that moment, A quiet “Shit.” was heard from beside Zoya which led to her giggling, knowing how much J-Hope affected her friend. Realising the girls’ presence in the room, Hoseok came in to introduce himself. “Hello. I’m your hope-” Before he could continue his legendary introduction Namjoon interrupted him.

“Ah, please don’t.” He whined to his friend in Korean. With a chuckle the older boy obeyed Namjoon’s request.

“Hello, I am Hoseok. Nice to meet you.” He reintroduced himself with a wide smile as he sat beside Namjoon. He was met with a chorus of shy ‘Hi’s’ and smiling. As if to speak more, Hoseok opened his mouth but a chorus of laughter interrupted him and became more apparent and louder, signalling that the source of it was coming closer.

A window wiper like sound could be heard along those laughs and lo and behold Seokjin walked in, along with Jimin and Taehyung. “Lord, this is too much for me. I might faint.” Lauren whispered as she looked starstruck.

“Don’t you dare. Zoya get your friend.” Alice murmured. Shaking her head in amusement at their antics, Zoya looked back at the boys who had just come in and heard Namjoon explain who the random girls were, to the members he failed to notify earlier on. After being filled in, they introduced themselves as if the girls didn’t know who they were and proceeded to also sit down.

“Hello, I’m Taehyung Van Gough.” All the girls were very aware of his actual last name but can’t say they were surprised by him going by a fake last name yet again. Zoya noted that he oozed exuberance just by his energy from simply introducing himself with his boxy smile, and his presence just put a smile on her face.

“Hello, I’m Seokjin. How are you?” If anyone told them that Kim Seokjin wasn’t as handsome in real life, they’d refer them to the opticians. If there was anything to be enamoured by in this world, Seokjin’s face didn’t seem like a bad subject.

“Oh, I’m great now honey. The name’s Hope.” Her friends looked at Hope in amused amazement at her slightly flirty response. Seokjin’s small smirk and confidence wavered because he didn’t expect the response and his ears went slightly red. Zoya and the girls laughed a little at his now flustered state and Hoseok let out a boisterous laugh at his friend’s face.

“Hello, I’m Jimin.” He said with a bright smile and Zoya felt the blood circulation to her hand practically get cut off by Alice’s tight grip on her wrist. Alice wasn’t dying because he spoke, but because he decided to sit on a sofa next to the girls and Alice was the closest to him at that moment. Slowly, she loosened her friends vice grip on her wrist with a quiet “Ow.” and, in revenge, or as a reward depending on how you look at it she introduced Alice to Jimin. “Hi. Jimin this is Alice. She’s a huge fan of you.” If that death stare didn’t show how much she wanted to hit Zoya, she didn’t know what would. Alice gathered her sanity to speak to him and got Arielle roped into the conversation, who was slightly envying Alice’s position. Soon enough everyone was talking, mostly the girls hyping them over their performance.

In that moment, Yoongi walked in and had a relaxed expression due to Namjoon letting him know beforehand of Zoya and her friends. He sat in a single armchair that was next to Jimin and let the boys know that Jungkook needed a minute to get here, causing Jimin to excuse himself to probably help Jungkook.

The chatter started to build up again and Zoya decided to observe her friends and the boys naturally talk. All the girls were paying attention to Namjoon as he helped translate and Hope and Jin were laughing together with Taehyung. ‘Who would have known’ Zoya thought with a smile on her face. If the language barrier became a problem they’d continue to turn to Namjoon to help them out. This time, however, Alice asked Zoya to help her translate her conversation with Taehyung and he seemed confused as he asked Namjoon in Korean “She speaks Korean?”. Just as surprised, Namjoon looked at her and she decided to reveal that she ‘spoke a bit’ in Korean.

“Wah! Daebak.” Hoseok let out to express his surprise and that he was impressed. Zoya laughed it off, considering he was hyping her over a small sentence. Yoongi, suddenly, asked how she had learnt Korean. He was, just as she was, observing everybody. Just as Zoya was about to answer, Jimin walked in before, a mostly stable, Jungkook. Her breath caught in her throat and Zoya’s heart was beating hard and fast, she felt slightly self-conscious if everyone in the room could hear it. One thing Zoya missed was that Yoongi had noticed her reaction and he smirked. He muttered to her “Do you like Jungkook?”, to which she shot her head up to give him a startled look and he took that as the answer to his question, and he just gave a knowing look with the smirk remaining on his face. Zoya couldn’t deny that Jungkook had grown to be a handsome guy, but Yoongi was way off the mark.

“Hello.” He simply said with a shy smile as he sat down on the empty sofa next to Alice with Jimin. Zoya softly smiled in response while the girls replied with their own ‘Hello’s’. Alice nudged her friend to say something, but Zoya shakes her head. Zoya realised that she wasn’t ready for this, but most of all neither was he. She knew that he was only here for 2 days and he would then carry on with his busy life. Jungkook’s life had changed in many ways from when he was a trainee, but he was still, if not even more, busy. It was right then that she decided that Jungkook didn’t need to know.  After giving her a questioning look, Alice had surprisingly let it go. “Ask him if he’s feeling okay at least.” She says and Zoya was confused as to why she would want to ask that. “He injured his foot today, didn’t you know?” Alice answered Zoya’s unasked question. Zoya knew something happened, that’s what she gets for taking a toilet break in the middle of a concert. She looked towards Jungkook who was laughing at something Taehyung said and Zoya was building herself up to ask Jungkook what Alice wanted to say. Why was she so nervous? She was fine with the other members. With a deep breath in and out to calm herself, Zoya asked for the attention of Jungkook by calling him and proceeded to ask Alice’s question in Korean.

“My friend wanted to ask if you’re okay, I didn’t know you injured yourself.” Zoya asked, but then she realised she made a mistake by asking if he was okay in satoori which was why the five other boys were looking at her with a weird look. Zoya’s hand flew to her mouth and with an “Oh sorry!” she then proceeded to ask the question in the standard Korean.

“You speak Korean?” Jimin asks in surprise, everyone realised Jimin and Jungkook weren’t here when they had discovered this information. Jimin went on further to ask in disbelief, “In Busan dialect?” The last bit was news to everyone.

“Where did you learn Korean?” Yoongi asked, remembering his question from earlier on. Zoya’s nerves grew as all eyes were on her.

“I…I lived in Busan for a couple of years as a child.” She explained, and her eyes automatically went to Jungkook when she said that. He nodded along with all the boys with understanding.

“Well I’m fine” Jungkook says in Busan dialect with a teasing smile. Zoya couldn’t help but smile and laugh a little. It was just then that she noticed the blank expression on her friends’ faces.

“Oh damn, sorry! I’ll translate.” She let her friends in on what had happened, and Alice and Lauren gave her a look as if to say ‘And?’  “…So yeah, that’s it.” Zoya made sure to emphasise the last part for her two disapproving friends. She knew they wanted her to tell them everything, but Zoya felt content without Jungkook knowing. However, Jimin and Yoongi seemed very inquisitive about Zoya’s life.

“How old were you when you moved there?”

“I was about 5.”

“Are you originally from here?”

“Yes, I was born in this country.”

“What area of Busan did you live in?”

“…Erm, I actually can’t remember, it’s been a while. My mum probably knows.”

Zoya tried to give vague answers, but they made it difficult and the answer to the last question was just an outright lie. Sure, Sara knew where they lived, but Zoya knew too of course. It’d be a little weird if she didn’t know where she had lived by the time she was 13. She saw Jungkook was very into the conversation, and she couldn’t risk saying something that would click in his mind. Saying she used to live in his hometown may ring a few bells that she didn’t need to be ringing. Not too long after that, their curious eyes were off Zoya and back to conversing with everyone else.

Despite, her best efforts in avoiding giving explicit details, Jungkook now glanced at her like an unsolved problem and that left her feeling unsettled.

“What school did you go to?” He asked, with a determined look in his eyes. Zoya knew that Jungkook was starting to put pieces together and she conceded in her effort to keep him from knowing who she was. She answered his question calmly, to which his eyes lit up as he asked one last question, “What’s your name?”

It was then that, Zoya realised Namjoon was the only one who knew her name from when she introduced herself to him, but the others didn’t. This gave her an opportunity to get out of the situation.

“Zoya. It’s late, we need to go.” Zoya closed her eyes and sighed. Then again nothing really went right for Zoya. The girl turned to her friend, oblivious to the situation between Zoya and Jungkook, and saw that they gotten up and were saying their goodbyes to the boys. Without missing a beat, Zoya grabbed her stuff and quickly said bye to them all, whilst avoiding Jungkook’s eyes all whilst ushering the girls out.

A/N Has Jungkook realised that it’s Zoya? Let me know what you guys think in the comments and remember to like :)

-A

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#bts fluff #bts angst #jungkook fluff #jungkook angst #jeon jungkook #kookie #bts fanfic #zoya #bts funny #bts

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43Jin x Taehyung :)))))

i can’t help falling in love with you

“falling in love with their best friend’s partner au” (from this )pairing: taejin (ft. actual taeguk) genre: unrequited love (so fluff/angst-ish.. flangst… angfloof..)word count: 2.5k

“soundslike someone i should meet”, namjoon murmurs and then looking up atseokjin in amusement: “how ‘bout you? like him, hyung? think he’stoo much?” seokjinfaces the tv, bright lights reflecting on his dark hair, glisteningon the bridge of his nose and sparkling in his eyes, huge in thought.

“toomuch”, he says. yetabsolutely endearing,he thinks.

a/n: had this ask since last october, finally did it! this is my first time posting my english writing online so my anxiety lvl is 3000. also sorry if you mind me ignoring caps for my dear life. i was listening to this and this. enjoy!

whenjeongguk introduces taehyung to seokjin he doesn’t think that thismeeting will lead to great changes in his life. 

so his best friend,five years younger than him, got himself a significant other who wasyounger than seokjin by three years and older than jeongguk by twoyears which seokjin questions because kim taehyung is even more of anovergrown child than jeongguk. seokjin didn’t think that waspossible as jeongguk and he himself are known as the mental kids intheir friend group: always talking about the newest video games,jumping from one argument to the next, their bickering oftenextending into some weird kind of karaoke in made-up languages, thelist extending each time they meet. 

so his best friend jeongguk gothimself a boyfriend, taehyung, whom he is about to meet.

taehyungshares his family name and his hand is equally as big as seokjin’s,warm and the grip firm. he even copies the gesture of pressing hissecond hand onto taehyung’s so that taehyung cages seokjin’s witha sheepish smile that spreads over his handsome features and makeshim younger by round about 10 years. and the kid is only 22.

theyfirst meet at jeongguk’s place where taehyung will eventually movein as they both visit the same college, met on campus and immediatelyclicking it is a match made in heaven. they are disgustingly sweet,unsure and every look, innocent touch and gesture is almost too muchto endure but seokjin feels a teasing smile tugging at the corners ofhis mouth, smiling along and averting his eyes to pay more attentionto the screen and another round of mario party that he is eager towin. that evening is interesting, taehyung is interesting.

heis everything seokjin cannot imagine, not with jeongguk, not withanybody, not as a person that really exists and as the night growsolder he feels himself being more and more in some kind of awe,fascination. 

he feels annoyance at how straight-forward taehyung is,almost on the verge of rude but seokjin is endured by apologeticsmiles and sheepishly sparkling half-moons lighting up not onlytaehyung’s whole face but the room, the building, maybe half ofseoul.

seokjinfeels a faint tingle of worry making his fingers twitch whenevertaehyung scoops too close to the edge of the couch, his long limbsall over the place in excitement matching with his restless mindset -he is talking about everything and nothing with either jeongguk orseokjin and the latter appreciates that the boy somehow manages tosound equally as familiar with seokjin as he must be with jeongguk.

hisways of expressing himself hold something childlike; using thephrases in the wrong context, his tone slipping here and there sothat one could almost think he is foreign and his choice of wordsblunt and direct. he isn’t sugarcoated yet very sweet in his ownways. his voice is surprisingly deep (sometimes it vibrates inbubbling excitement which is weird but a very cute weird) andsoothing to listen to, his face wavering in expressions that haveseokjin thinking he hasn’t seen one of taehyung’s faces twice.

thekid is a mixture of opposites, colliding contrasts that surely keep being around him full of surprises. it isn’t in a bad way but inthe evening seokjin feels exhausted like he just did a calculus examor run five miles in half an hour. at the door he turns around to hisbest friend, a lopsided smile on his lips he’s looking down a bit (insignificantlybut the few centimeters mean everything to competitive jeongguk andseokjin is never too tired to point it out).

afew seconds seokjin holds the breath he doesn’t know he is holding,eyes darting over the few pimples along jeongguk’s jaw, the scar onhis cheek bone (from that one time where they thought throwing flat stones across puddles on the street that were barely three centimeters deep to make them jump several times was a good idea), stubble on his chin he is scratching anxiously andfinally looking into the huge, glistening eyes that always haveseokjin thinking about bunnies or that trico creature in the lastguardian.

thenthe words stumble through his lips before he can reconsider, softenthem, swallow them, anything. he just goes: “he’s weird. veryweird but also very cute”, mirrors jeongguk’s furrowed brows andignores how jeongguk’s lips twitch in amusement and adds jokingly:“goodcatch, JK” and claps a hand on his shoulder (maybe he attempts tocrush jeongguk bones by hitting the younger real hard but that is toform his character - at least that’s what his brothers used to tellhim doing the same every goddamn time).

jeonggukonly barks out a laughter that has his nose scrunching up and all of hishuge teeth showing and seokjin feels his tensed insides relaxing abit whilst laughing along until he sees something moving overjeongguk’s shoulder out of the corner of his eye:

taehyungis leaning in the door frame to the living room, his head hanginglow, barefoot and his posture telling that he never had nor will havea single care in the world. there is the ghost of a smile wrinklingthe corners of his dark eyes that focus as soon as seokjin is lookingat him. apparently he heard what seokjin said because the glisteningin his eyes becomes a nuance darker, then his whole face lights up asa smile blossoms over his features and then he does the most taehyungthing he can do: he makes a very deep and amused sound in the back ofhis throat and waves at seokjin which has him looking a bit dense butmaybe that’s just how seokjin feels in that moment.

seokjinpresses his lips together, blinks rapidly and sniffs before bringingup his hand to wave as well. “uhm. bye taehyung. take care”, hesays and means it. taehyung has to be someone who gets in troubleeasily so he could need a bit luck, right?

“solong, jin-hyung!”, taehyung answers, the bright smile never leavinghis face. seokjin bites back the smile by pressing his lips togetherand he nods at jeongguk once before leaving, his feet bringing himdownstairs and onto the dark streets, painted in frosty white as itwas that time of the year, on their own. 

seokjin doesn’t realizethat he is deep in thoughts until he stands in front of the apartmentthat he shares with namjoon, his cold fingers already in search forthe keys. he finds the keys and is about to open the door when heturns around, gaze ghosting over a slippery side street with thatflickering street light on the other side. he found his way home andhis keys are in his pocket just like everyday - yet seokjin has thefeeling that he is missing something. something..

enteringthe living-room in his pajamas he flops down onto the couch next to asleeping namjoon whose head is rolling off the arm of the couchoccasionally, his snoring louder than the bass-boosted surroundsystem he got for christmas and his mouth hanging wide open. seokjinslaps a hand down onto the old book laying on the ugly reindeer thatcovers the front of namjoons fuzzy christmas sweater and the snoringrips off as namjoon coughs and gets up a little, rubbing sleep fromhis eyes with his knuckles.

“how’sgoin’? guk got ‘imself a sweetie?”, he asks immediately as ifto carry on with the conversation where they stopped (which was asseokjin was leaving the house five hours ago and back then namjoonwas already doomed to fall asleep) and blinks up in seokjins generaldirection, his brows knit together, one eye open. seokjin doesn’tlook at him but at the screen as he turns on the tv, nodding slowly. 

“mh. he did”, he admits and the dull longing in his chest throbs.which is weird. seokjin didn’t forget something at jeongguk’s,did he?

“mh.cool.” namjoon sniffs. then opens his mouth again, voice stillhoarse and words heavy with sleep: “yoongi-hyung said he’s abit.. how to say.. weird. weird?”

seokjin’snodding gets more enthusiastic. “very weird! could be the cause ofyoongi’s daily migraine by merely existing somewhere.” namjooncoughs out a laughter, now rubbing his face with both hands as ifgetting rid of dead skin cells means getting rid of his everlastingtiredness. seokjin recommended a healthy sleep schedule but to quotethe patient himself “beenthere, done that, not working, thanks for nothing doc!”

“soundslike someone i should meet”, namjoon murmurs and then looking up atseokjin in amusement: “how ‘bout you? like him, hyung? think he’stoo much?”

seokjinlooks at namjoon for a few seconds, the anticipating dimples like aghost’s fingers pressing into his cheeks, his ridiculously tousledhair and then he thinks about taehyung. how the corners of his eyes crinkle when hesmiles, how deep his voice is but how childish his ways of expressinghimself. his endless facial expressions and antics, one more ridiculous than the next,his warm fingers on seokjin’s.

seokjinfaces the tv, bright lights reflecting on his dark hair, glisteningon the bridge of his nose and sparkling in his eyes, huge in thought.

“toomuch”, he says.

yetabsolutely endearing,he thinks.

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standingup, clapping like everybody else, seokjin’s lips break into a smilethat may reach his eyes but leave his stomach cold and his heartnumb. he’s practiced that over the years because for one he got agood amount of occasions where it was necessary and he learned thatis was easier this way, so much easier.

ormaybe that is what he tells himself because as the sun itself comeshis way, all breath-taking smiles and warm hands reaching out, hisheart flutters and the smile wavers a bit. the younger looks gorgeousin his suit, a different color than jeongguk’s but with matchingbows they’re terribly adorable. as jeongguk stops by namjoon, jiminand hoseok to let himself be mashed into a big (and obnoxiously loud)hug, taehyung reaches his long arms out towards seokjin. yoongi nextto him makes a noise in the back of his throat and practicallyvanishes, very much aware of taehyung’s ability to hug as manypeople as possible at once.

“thanks”,seokjin mutters under his breath, resignation painting his nasalvoice deep and husky, before smiling again at the beaming boy thatfinally reaches him. he’s pressed against taehyung and immediatelyfeels too much at the same time: 

there’s his belly growing all warmand bubbly from the inside out, his headache seems to be gone and hisfingers twitch as he rests them against the fabric of taehyung’ssuit. the boy, who’s a man by now almost being 30, smells like healways does and feels like he always does. he’s warmth andsomething incredibly soothing yet seokjin feels more alive than heusually does and as cheesy as it sounds, taehyung’s scent is homefor seokjin.

whentaehyung let go he puts his hands on seokjin’s cheeks and squishesthem together, his eyes glistening, all teeth and giggles escapinghis throat in a strained manner and seokjin is glad that the cake isyet to come because otherwise taehyung would probably eat backwardsright about now as excited as he seems.

“congratulationskid”, seokjin mumbles and ignores how hot taehyung’s fingers areagainst his flushing cheeks. taehyung hops up and down a few times,giggles and then hugs seokjin again, twirling them around slowly andalmost knocking some old relatives from jeongguk’s side of thefamily off their feet. seokjin mutters an apology and awkwardly patsthe youngers back, feeling strangled not by taehyung’s arms but hismere presence, being so close to him.

“thankyouuu jin-hyung! who looked better today, guk-ah or me? be honest”,he warns and once again rests his hands on seokjin’s shoulders, tobe exact the gape of his neck on both sides, thumbs rubbing partiallyover the texture of his jacket, partially grazing his bare skin andsetting seokjin’s bones on fire so that he could almost hear theflames gnawing on his insides, fire licking along his achingskeleton. 

why does taehyung have to be so touchy, he was always likethat. his hand on seokjin’s neck, his thigh against his, bumpingknees and his nose pressed into the crown of seokjin’s head.sometimes he wonders if he was older than taehyung or the other wayaround.

“i’malways honest”, seokjin answers bluntly, eyebrows scooping up slowly andgrin growing one-sided to tease before he laughs at taehyung’sfurrowed brows, an expression of childlike impatience, and nodstowards jeongguk who is wrestling (maybe it is a hug but honestly whoknows when it comes to these two) a laughing yugyeom.

“JKof course! sorry tae but the purple of your suit is so obviously notstraight whilst jeongguk’s midnight blue is as timeless as it isclassy!” at that taehyung pouts and hangs his weight onto seokjinwhen he is slouching over, hands still resting on seokjin’sshoulders and seokjin laughs and can’t help it but bringing a hand up hetousles taehyung’s hair in a playful manner but then the problemoccurs that his fingers don’t want to leave the silky strainsalone.

theylinger carefully, ghosting over hot skin and dark strains and takingcare of the chaos they created. taehyung doesn’t even bat aneyelash at that, if anything he tilts his head a bit to side and intoseokjin’s touch, straightening his back. taehyung’s eyes dartaround slowly whilst seokjin is organizing his hair and there’sthat faint glow right underneath taehyung’s skin, in the dark brownof his eyes making them shine like orbits, the curve of his mouth ashe’s smiling ever so faintly. he’s radiating happiness and thatalone feeds the distant pounding of seokjin’s heavy heart.

whenseokjins throat grows tight, his chest aching with the throbbing echoof a pain that is part of him since he first saw that stupid face infront of him and got to know the soul living in that shell, he dropshis hand and shoves it into the pocket of his trousers, numb fingerscurling inwards, nails digging into his palm. taehyung does thatrapid move with his head to bring all the loose strains back onto hisforehead, falling into his face he looks up at seokjin and beams:

“howdo i look?”, he asks, voice deep, tripping over a syllable ever soslightly. seokjin looks at taehyung, really looks at him and for asecond he thinks he might burst into a thousand pieces and coveringeverything around him in red; the white dresses and roses, the tabledecor yoongi took care of, the cakes he made, the light wooden groundunderneath his wobbly knees and clumsy feet. then again he has beenliving with that dull ache inside of his middle for the longest timeso why couldn’t he just live with it a little bit longer? aneternity alongside the one that jeongguk and taehyung promised eachother today?

“likeall the other love foals that just got married. silly”, seokjinsaid, the smile on his face somehow keeping his flesh together,taehyung’s laughter being curse and blessing at once.

andabsolutely endearing,seokjin thought, his love for taehyung remaining a bitter taste inthe back of his throat amongst the words he will never say.

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