#am i unlovable lol

[girlrotting-xoxo]

i js wanted dick and got my heart broken instead wtaf

#female hysteria #female manipulator #girl blogger #girlblog #girlblogging #girlrotting #this is a girlblog #pls help #send help #this is a cry for help #wtf is this #fuck men #boys suck #im crying #im crazy #am i unlovable lol #unlovable #help lol

[dragondawdles]

Sp did you ever figure out what was up witht he noodle dragon?

oh anon I'm ill about it

#totk spoilers #<-(for real this time wow!) #totk #light dragon #the light dragon #totk light dragon #link #link totk #loz #tloz #zelda #id in alt #dragon doodles #dragon answers #anonymous #do not worry about spoiling me I have very beaten this game LOL I am mostly worried about spoiling anyone else that's why I get to be coy #bit more spoilery thought: playing this I was like INVESTED in the story I was going to save zelda REGARDLESS of the script I was DETERMINE #think link would very much feel much the same way. hand in unlovable hand but like in the opposite direction if that makes sense #anywho. wyrm my friend wyrm I like to see my friend passing by

[apersononearth011]

you can support others no matter what but they will never care enough to support you back

#am i unlovable? #probably #i am quite annoying lol

[bunnihearted]

🌧️🐇

#feeling sad today bc it's my mom's birthday #and i couldnt afford getting her anything :< i've made a card but tbh i feel so dumb even giving her that like wow.. useless #my sisters are spending the day with her so i cant even be with her at all. and she likes spending time w my sisters more than me anyway so #im just keeping away. it makes me sad tho that they can all hang out but .. #like im actually such a shitty person and unwanted and just an awful person because not even my family wants to be with me #i feel lonely bc i dont get to partake in my mom's birthday celebration and that my family doesnt even want me to #and my mom doesnt think it's valuable to spend time with me today. she doesnt even want to... im just a burden and a bother #i feel so unlovable and unwanted .... and it makes me sad and i just wanna die lol #bc i truly truly am annoying and not important in their lives #why do i even exist? why do i even do anything? why do i even talk to anyone when all i am is a burden #i make everyone's lives worse and more difficult. im only a pain to deal with. i cant ever do anything right either #idk... i just hope my mom had nice moments w my sisters today #maybe i'll try to hide the card on her desk so she can find it so i dont have to give it to her skskks

[mo-ok]

My Favourite Episode Of:

GoGo Sentai Boukenger Task 36 ~ The Oni's Kanabou

#gogo sentai boukenger #boukenger #sentai #super sentai #satoru akashi #eiji takaoka #hehehaha funny momotaro episode *screaming crying throwing up* #two men with... troubled... relationships with their fathers learn how to co-parent #eiji 'I was treated worse than this and i grew up just fine!' takaoka #vs satoru 'i fucking hate my dad lol why would i ever treat anyone like he treated me' akashi #real hardened egg/softened potato type shit and i am LIVING for it #eiji grew up believing half of himself was inherintly unlovable/unworthy and watching him tell tarou that just being himself is enough- #IDK FAM I JUST LOVE THE DAZZLING IDIOT SO MUCH #also all the bandaids on chief's hand cause he was up all night hand-sewing everyones costumes i cant handle any of this actually #shout out kibi dango gotta be one of my favourite characters #gif post tag #tw flashing #best of the best

[ilostyou]

listen. do i think a relationship would fix all my problems? absolutely not. but it certainly would help

#i mean this so seriuosly btw #i dont think being loved would fix me BUT it would alleviate a ridiculous amount of brainspace and like. stuff #if i knew i was loved i probably wouldnt feel fundamentally unlovable now would i xo #but genuinely i. think i would feel secure in certain areas i do not feel secure in rn and that would improve other areas overall #and yes yes i am aware i should fix this i know i know xo #i shouldnt need to need a relationship and honestly i dont!!! it's just. a very specific. part of my brain that needs attention gdjfhkfggdf #i would love not to feel fundamentally unlikeable unlovable etc etc #and yes that has to come from me lol. but at the same time! maybe i need to see it from someone else to shake my brain back into place #and like burst that bubble lmfao #anyway #delete #it;s just like #it may not fix anything at all and i know that but like. by ditching a huge amount of overthinking in one area i can like. work on others #or somethihng like thusygdhkfjkjgfdhgfj

[hatchetmode]

Hotel podcast save me.......hotel podcast.....save me hotel podcast.....

#my brain space is being mean so if i dont fixate on something ill probably die #figuratively and probably literally #working retail sucks 👍 #being unlovable SUCKS #shit sucks we are all FUCKED LOL #i am now being bludgeoned to death by the hotel herself

[candyriku]

finally getting a chance to work on chapter 15 today :-)

#shout out AS ALWAYS to people leaving comments!!!! you are keeping me motivated you are keeping the dream alive #for some behind the scenes: in the last few weeks i've been barely sleeping and it makes it very hard to write or even be in a good mood #i usually need 11+ hours to function and so like. 2-3 hours a night is putting me in a bad place both mentally and physically #and yes i realize 11 or more hours is like a silly amount of sleep but idk. it's just how i am. i go to bed early AND sleep in ahaha. #i've been falling behind in all my classes due to the sleep thing so writing for fun has totally been off the table lol #ANYWAYS #typing typing typing (this chapter will be a lighthearted one) #we all need some fluff and levity i think (and i need to give time for Riku to care for Sora even more and be like. wow. i love you) #I was struggling earlier bc i wanted to write both about how Sora has been hiding darkness from loved ones and needs to let them in #but also with the idea of sora feeling that he needs friends to have strength or value. and i kind of realized i needed to pick one #like maybe a better writer than me could have both of those things be addressed at once but for me i was like... I want Riku to comfort him #which goes against him learning that he's fine on his own. we can address that in a different fic. rn he is just sad and needs to know #that he can share that with the people around him. and that he's still loveable despite it all #also shout out to my gf for teaching me “love isn't something you deserve that's not what love is” like. i did not know that b4 her #so I asked her lots of questions for chapter 14 actually cause I was like. i want Riku to support Sora in the way you'd support me #cuz IDK SHIT ABOUT THAT i have always felt unworthy of love and like i had to beg people to stay with me until i got into this relationship #so i was like. judy. what is your wisdom. how do you care for me when i feel like my pain makes me unloveable. what would you say #So yeah shout out to her! I am off on a tangent now hehe sorry. thanks for reading if you read this at all!! have a good day :) #jtsys fic #updates

[nightingaletrash]

Okay I think my first playthrough will be a Dark Urge Monk. I've still got to decide on the race and design, but I think I'll save that for launch day and play around in the CC until I like what I'm working with.

The Dark Urge just appeals to me so much, maybe its just where I'm at mentally or because of the characters I'm enjoying at this point in time, but the idea of someone wrestling with this inner darkness and the constant, draining battle against it... it'll either end with them finding people who help them control it and provide the support they need to keep it at bay OR it'll go pear-shaped and they'll be worse than ever :3

#bg3 #yes i am still thinking about Her #jinx literally altered my brain chemistry #like she's distinctly Not like the dark urge because she doesn’t have conflict over the things she does #she's Just Like That on her own. no dark impulses required just active choice #but its about the constant mental battle. the exhaustion the endlessness the never ending drain #and the way that it can actively ruin you and your relationships because you're constantly running on fumes #and the need to get it out so you can be free but you don’t know how to do that without making things Worse because no one ever taught you #believe it or not im actually in a pretty healthy mental space these days like im not in utter shambles #ive gotten good at recognising when things are getting bad and heading it off at the pass #but im still dealing with the fallout of years of trauma and mental illness so there's something strangely therapeutic #about exploring characters like jinx because while its not 1:1 my experience there's still kernels of me in there #depression. abandonment issues. paranoia. anger feeling trapped and unloveable #its all dialed up to 100 in jinx but theres bits and pieces of me in there and exploring that helps me come to terms with those pieces #oops this was supposed to be a bg3 post wasnt it lol

[90sbee]

wish i wouldn't get intimidated when women are straightforward with me... bruh my love life really is in shambles. what therapy do i need to fix this. lmao.

#i just :((((( #is it bc i feel so unloveable that i get scared when someone seems into me or what lol lol lol #like what do you mean you are interested. i am just a creature. go away. i'm scared #i'm scared to be vulnerable and for you to get to know me bc i am actually an ugly failure. that's all there is. #and like. i have to much of an ego to let another person actually learn abt all my flaws #but maybe it's just bc i'm an aries and dom leaning so i just prefer to be the one that approaches. #but like. i don't do it i'm still shy as heck lmao #this is awful. absolutely confused. help. #boludeces y reclamos mios(?

[medicasino]

i'm seriously tired of this like,,, constant feeling of never really feeling important to anyone. and it's like, it's 100% on me, it is 100% my fault i feel this way but,,, eugh

#affie txt #it isnt anyone's fault at all im just like super unwell LOL #its like. i mourn the friendships where i genuinely felt wanted. because it was ME who fucked them up and now i just feel legitimately like #no matter how many people i befriend and burn through it's like i can never ever feel truly wanted or like im at all important to them #and when i DO #when i do feel wanted and important its always so short-lived and they move on to someone else #and im just like really tired of wanting to be loved and never actually feeling loved #every friendship i was a part of where i felt like i was genuinely important or wanted has completely eroded and its like. all my fault and #im just. really fucking tired of never feeling loved like ever #and its not anyones fault its not like people are mistreating me #I AM THE PROBLEM. I am the reason i feel unloved #because theres something wrong with me and i can never ever feel like im loved even if people say they love me!!! it always feels so hollow #and every time i see my friends get along better with other people i always feel so fucking jealous and its like its such a me problem #but its so hard to get out of this mindset because its one i've been trapped in for YEARS #i've dug this hole and now i lay in it because there is no way out and im so. tired. i just want to be loved #i want to be important to someone i want to be someone's special person their number one and its like #that'll never happen to me!!!! because I AM THE REASON no one views me that way!!!! Im unstable messy reactionary lazy and mean #and so fucking anxious about every little thing that like of FUCKING course no one would love me!!!! loving me is HARD because #i am not MEANT to be loved!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i am meant to be hated or seen as disposable!!!! #ugh im just so fucking sick of feeling disposable. #vent #ask to tag

[rubenesque-as-fuck]

Assuming that I'm probably going to start my period soon because everything feels empty and hopeless and I wanna be dead more than usual

#life of faye #probably period incoming #depression #like thinking about how much harder it is to not feel completely useless and alone and unloved when I'm sick #thinking about how I'm dreading going to my friend's wedding in june but also feeling like thinking that makes me a piece of shit #thinking about how pathetic I am for only ever wanting people that don't want me the same #thinking about how i have no family and I'll never be able to build a good life without a partner #thinking about how I'm struggling and struggling but every day the hole gets deeper and the sun gets further away #anyway woooo hope I either get my period or stop being sick soon so I can go back to not thinking lol

[gothxloser]

I see in shades of grey, losing my mind again

But when it comes to you, my world is deep red

#me #goth #soft goth #tattooed #tired #depressed #cant sleep #its 3 am #all i can think about #is how ill never be good enough for anyone #and how unlovable i am #lol #anyways #deep red #movements

[slutdge]

for my birthday present all i ask is to not be put through the torture machine for 5 minutes

#kills myself kills myself i will never be free or happy kills myself #lollll im fine tho :))))))) i prommy #but i am... going to kill myself cause im such a burden and unlovable lol #i wish i was never born too mom. youre not fucking special

[the-sappho-of-lesbos]

Just spiralling into thoughts of I’m a bad person for being a lesbian , the world hates me, people in my community hate me, I’m doing nothing of importance with my life, I’m wasting away in my bedroom, I’m so lonely, I’ll never have a gf, I’m ugly

#wish my brain would just let me sleep instead of rubbing in how lonely and unloveable I am lol

[boyghcst]

god i don’t wanna be here i don’t wanna exist

#i hate myself so much #I’m sick of myself and sick of this world #i got upset at Lexi bc they said they didn’t wanna hang lol like i just shutdown n went quiet even tho they drove to take me to the shops #bc I’m ill #like I’m tired of always getting hurt I’m so damn sensitive all the time #like idk i guess i just thought they were gonna stay at mine for a while like we usually do #n instead they just wanted to go home #which is obv fine like they can do whatever they want but im sick of getting upset over this stuff #n i always feel horrible and guilty when i get triggered whether it’s shutting down or passive aggressiveness #or having a meltdown over stuff idk i just feel so emotionally childish n even when i know it’s wrong to feel tht way it still happens #i just wish i knew how to be better and stop being like this #n my therapists just keep telling me well it’s okay and normal to feel this way because I’ve been thru bad experiences before n thts why #i feel abandoned and unloved #but it’s like I’m 24 i shouldn’t be so emotionally all over the place and get triggered all the time like i can’t function bc of this #n i end up just acting in ways i don’t like like if someone was acting this way w me id be exhausted I’m not surprised I’ve been called #exhausting and too sensitive and negative and immature bc i am n hell if u don’t like me dw i hate myself more ive literally been trying #to get better and it’s going nowhere i think i just gotta end myself fr #journal