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timelord-of-the-moon · 1 year

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#okay people who have read my posts about this situation-#i need opinion #so that actor im working with that i have a thing for is consuming my thoughts more and more #and anyways we close the show in a week #the plan- i text him right as the last performance ends and say before you leave i need to talk to you about soemthing personal #and then when all the work for the day is over i pull him aside just away from everyone #and i just tell him i have feelings for him and would like to go out sometjme #and then just leave it up to him #i think even if he does reject me or isnt single i still want the experience of asking someone out and i want him to know that i like him #see i found out this is his first play and i realy can't believe it becuase he put in so much work and effort #he came in with all his lines memorized first day of rehearsal #ive never seen that before #anyways my main concern is making him feel uncomfortable #but he has thrown little hints that hes interested in me? like saying we should get drinks sometime & a few little -could be- flirty things #but honestly just telling him i have feelings for him isnt that extreme so idk why im even thinking it would make him uncomfortable #anyways im stage manager so like telling him while were doing the show would be a little bad power dynamic wise #and maybe i should even wait till a day or so after the show but hey once the show is done im not his stage manager anymore #we are just both college students in the same department #man... life is so fucking weird #anyways yeah point is- im wondering if its a good idea to tell him i like him

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corpsentry · 6 months

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#i was fully going to just wrangle my way through life for another 39 years when my friend said to me:#you are gay and we want you to submit art for the pride art show. but i hasn’t drawn at all since last year so i made a new comic from scr #i was also having one of the worst times of my life all of the past week but every night after sobbing into a friends shoulder or wtv #i’d sit down and draw. and then today i locked myself in the basement for 5 #hours and now he is finished. trans allegory or whatever #happy pride #world is horrible so hold the people you love close #i am trying . succeeding? not really but definitely trying #i have gone now through the 5 stages of grief. 1) eat food 2) eat food 3) hit rock 4) hit rock 5) give up #i Give Up. i give up by living my life without giving a fuck #which is like. actually giving down. or taking away down #idk anyway #i hope you’re well i’m HANGING ON BY A THREAD. BUT A GOOD THREAD #and to my lgbsbfk homies: i love you #my art

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pocketramblr · 5 months

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#poll #truly the most stimulating task for a self proclaimed evil genius: hunting down women who went to the same middle school as this one guy #ok but yeah. whats the best option here #itd be funny if he just lied. or if he was like 'oh i did kill every woman he was close to' (<- true. techincally. he killed all 0 of them)#i mean i went back and looked. theres no background rebel who is Clearly A Woman #which doesnt mean theres no women rebels #but. given the track record.#a single girl ofa user. a single girl nomu named 'woman'.......#how much credit do i really want to give #(i mean UNLESS the leaks this week show more? and we do get rebel girls now?? thatd be nice but idk i havent seen them.)#anyway uhhhhh #bnha manga spoilers

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lleclercism · 5 months

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"another charles pole and max win" me personally i know the only reason charles is fighting versus the rockship that is redbull its purely because of how well he manages the car and how much he has to fight it for it to be able to be competitive and guess what! is not enough! because the sf-23 is still a tractor and rbr have won almost every race this year! and they've dominated the past 3 seasons! and i think the amount of poles he has had just shows how good of a driver he is and the potential he has to show when he finally has a car that will fight alongside him, not against him

#like this argument is sooo tiring #you dont see any of the other drivers on the grid being close to him on quali day and that just shows how insane of a driver he is #he is not slow and he will never give up and i need people to understand there are so many factors that dont allow him to win #and winning races is nice and he 100% deserves it but i promise you all he wants is a wdc #like people just like to mock him and make fun of the stat but i think its fucking nice hes one of the only drivers that can put up a fight #vs rbr ! no other driver can do that on a normal day! so i need his fucking fans to stop being so negative about it jfc #anyways just one more week until we burn the sf-23 🙏🏼#charles leclerc #las vegas gp 2023

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seagull-scribbles · 1 year

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*Aggressively throws this at your head*

#tmnt 2012 #TMNT #Raphael #casey jones #dudes is it gay to kiss your best friend in the cheek #is it gay to hold your favourite companion close and smile agianst their skin?#asking for a friend lmao #urgh idk why I’m so embarrassed about posting this #I don’t usually draw humans like ever so this was an experience #I’ve nearly finished season 3 of the 2012 show it’s really nostalgic #I’m a multi shipper at heart so I’m torn between ahaha Raphael gay and has aro ace king we the same #anyway yeah cringe is dead but I’m going to go on a little 4 week hiatus #which is in no way shape or form because I’m embarrassed #2012 rasey #rasey #if I grow some balls while I’m away I’ll keep practicing humans and share some headcanons but alas I’m getting the anxieties #oh my friend laughed at me for going outside the lines but that’s intentional I wanted to add to the grimey aesthetic they have #casey jones 2012

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sisterdivinium · 3 months

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It’s the questions that keep us going, that taunt us so we’ll come back again and again, whether we’re given any “definitive” answers which we might each interpret differently or left to wonder and imagine possibilities all on our own.

“I’ve been waiting a long time for this, warrior nun.” Doesn’t this line invite us to ask who Adriel might be talking to, exactly?

Of course Ava currently occupies the rank of warrior nun that gives the show its name… But we also know Ava is not a nun and that her qualification as a warrior is recent (setting aside the psychological fortitude she surely possesses as a survivor of the traumas that have shaped her past, to be sure). Even from his prison, Adriel was aware of the happenings in the outside world, be it from his connection to the divinium once used in his armour, be it thanks to informants such as Vincent in whatever modes of communication they might have had between them — so Adriel knows this, he knows of how unconventional it is for Ava to be the warrior nun. Isn’t it possible that, in this moment, he’s not talking to her, at least not as Ava Silva, the individual?

“I’ve been waiting a long time for this, warrior nun.” Only a couple of months have elapsed since Adriel has been freed of his tomb and made Ava’s direct acquaintance. Why would he make a reference to the millennium spent beneath the Vatican to her while calling her by her title rather than her name? It certainly cannot be a mention of those two months, as those are negligible in the conscience of an immortal being who has already waited a thousand years for reckoning.

He isn’t hinting at a vengeance against Ava Silva, as herself, even if she is the one standing in front of him in flesh and blood; he’s orchestrating a vengeance against “the warrior nun”, the abstract class of those responsible for his captivity in the first place.

It’s hard to say he necessarily sees Areala in Ava when he says “warrior nun”. Perhaps so, perhaps not. But he does seem to see in the current halo bearer an avatar of someone (or multiple “someones”) he intends to defeat, the echoes of the past embodied in a single woman, a vessel through which their voices may yet ring after they are long gone. Perhaps he can see more than any of us can — just as he sees the wraith demons and passes the ability on to Lilith, might it not be possible for him to see something else when he looks at Ava or, at least, in the direction of the halo?

Could the halo, as once suggested to me by @ghostofcatscradle, carry some of its previous bearers’ “essence” — providing one explanation to Ava’s “meetings” with Shannon or Areala in season one — preserving some portion of them even as it inhabits another woman’s flesh? Could that be readily visible to a being of Adriel’s species and provenance, as the wraiths are?

Or could he think he saw something? Adriel is posed as a much more powerful creature than a human, with much more knowledge at his disposal. He mentions how no human can carry the halo for long before becoming somehow twisted — but what if there is truth in the reversed idea as well and his own long stay on Earth has warped him? Sometimes we find that those deemed “mad” are the most lucid, but would it be such a strange inversion to consider that this amazing being who boasts of his greater lucidity might be the greatest madman himself? He barely attempts to solve the contradictions so clear to Ava when she points out how his discourse of wanting to save the world from Reya's oppression is unaligned with his own forceful, violent methods of combat which cause suffering to the same creatures he claims to champion. Perhaps he comes from a pre- or post- logic realm. Perhaps he is insane. Maybe he is just a power-hungry sophist who will use whatever justification is at hand to legitimate his own selfish cause.

“I’ve been waiting a long time for this, warrior nun.” Vindication, yes, but in what form? At the end of season one, Adriel sought to seize the halo, yank it out of Ava and be done with it. In season two, he wants a fight instead of just trying to reach for it and accomplish his goals. Yes, his plans concerning Reya had just been spoiled… But if he had been “waiting a long time”, then this battle is not about what just happened in regards to Reya and the ark. It’s ancient, it’s personal. It’s not just the halo anymore — was it ever?

When Ava resurrects, is that the halo’s doing? When Mother Superion is brought back to life, is that the halo’s handiwork? Could it be sentient as some like to hypothesise it is? Or, as an object said to have been stolen from Reya, is it accomplishing her mysterious will by manifesting such powers? Or could it be that the equivalence between Reya and God made by Michael after a lifetime under the former’s spell is not as true as he was led to believe and there might be another, grander, perhaps even will-less entity pulling the strings?

Or could it be that the miracle is not divine, but Ava’s? Perhaps not even just hers, but something available only to humans, that Suzanne might carry as well, something that recognised her as it recognised Ava while she was brought back. There are no records of the halo resurrecting people…

… But it is said to give different bearers different powers. How or when does a bearer develop a new ability? Is there a limit to how many she can find and use? Might they not overlap sometimes?

Moreover, in an environment that firmly believes the halo is a weapon against its enemies, did anyone ever bother to ask whether it could do the opposite of slaughter, if it could be used for purposes unrelated to war against so-called Hell? It takes Jillian, an outsider to the Order, to voice that curiosity.

For each possibility listed above as far as who is behind performing miracles, what accompanying conclusions might there be?

The halo as a sentient object seems to open less interesting consequences than a world where a higher force has confusing aims or is truly neutral and both favours and hampers the living; or one where even common people, even “freaks”, as Ava calls herself more than once, are capable of miracles, of changing their world given the right support and tools.

We don’t actually need hard, official answers.

It’s the suggestions, the maybes, the could bes that really hook us in — is it any wonder that the more dedicated avatrice shippers are so focused on the potential for that time period spent in Switzerland, off-camera, which we did not witness?

The questions are inexhaustible — even with just eighteen total episodes, even when there was yet so much to see. If we can keep asking questions, if we see the beauty in them and how much more enticing they can be compared to a creator’s answers or incomplete plans (Mary taking vows and replacing Superion, really?!), we’ll have perhaps even more on our plates than another season would have given us. Which isn’t to say we shouldn’t mourn the loss of a continuation but merely to duly cherish what we have effectively received and give it its due attention.

It’s what’s left unsaid or unexplained, it’s what even creators might say isn’t set in stone and still open for debate (such as the halo being sentient or not); the blanks, the doubts and possibilities are where we come in with our understanding or our own stories. Why? How? What if?

Keep finding questions to ask... And Warrior Nun lives on.

#warrior nun #this has been sitting here for weeks on end lol time to post it #my plea so that you don't move on i guess #exercises in observation #sometimes when i express surprise at the amount of aus i see floating around it's because i think the show has enough questions #to warrant fics that hover a bit more close to home. not necessarily canon-compliant but just more in tune with it #if that makes sense. i'd give an example of something i myself have written but #my big au that changes One Detail is yet to be written. it's all in my head just not on paper.#i also express surprise at how little we talk about all of these things and more -- the worldbuilding the lore the what ifs #but anyway. if you follow me you probably knew that already #i suppose this also classifies for that other tag of mine #meta fandom talk i guess

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meteor752 · 1 month

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All I can say about the How To Train Your Dragon franchise is that Ruffnut uses She/He pronouns, and Tuffnut uses He/She pronouns, and the confusion when it comes to addressing them keeps them going

#“’Mom says it’s MY turn on the gender!!’#‘You had it last week!’#They also use We/Us when addressing themselves even when they aren’t together #So they will look like they have a twin hive mind to freak people out #Anyways Dagur is best boy Snotlout is a close second the twins is third #and Whispering Death is the best dragon I want one so badly #how to train your dragon #httyd headcanon #ruffnut thorston #tuffnut thorston #(The last names in this show makes no sense but like whatever)

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babyboybuckley · 11 months

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you drew stars around my scars and now i’m bleeding

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notjanine · 1 year

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i am in suuuuuch a weird headspace rn, my brain is like. i want half a boyfriend i want a husband i want an easy carefree hookup i want to have sex with only one more person in my entire life i want to have a slut era i want someone to fall in love with me i want to ruin a man's life. who am i

#like okay i said that guy was messy and maybe i am messy too #but only internally! i can at least be consistent and honest in my communication and behavior #but idek what is going on with me #is this a belated quarter life crisis is this being thirty is this what happens when grad school and an internship scramble your brain #scramble your brain so hard that your emotions and physical desires also go haywire #this month is gonna be so weird for me and like i'm depressed enough to not care if i live or die which is when i do my best flirting #and i (theoretically) will have enough time off to take care of myself and get good sleep and do skincare and hair care and work out #and do all the little things to make myself feel more confident #anyway all i know is. i have baby steps initiated progress on some things.#but also the mutually agreed upon six-month post-breakup communication moratorium with my ex is almost up and i am half tempted to call him #i am also half tempted to mess with the OTHER guy in our internship cohort even though that would be THEE messy bitch move #(do not let me do it physically stop me from doing it if it seems like i'm going to)#(but y'know he's. nice. nearby. single. quietly hilarious and has full lips and a similar schedule to my own. pls stop me)#(we might hang out next week. i will not WILL NOT invite him over. i repeat do NOT let me invite him over)#earlier this week i talked to a close very cool and fun and social friend about wanting to start dating again and she was like #Oh i know like ten guys for you lemme have another party and invite all of them and you #and i'm thisclose to being like. actually just fucken see if any of them will go on a blind date with me next weekend.#what the FUCK is wrong with me rn #ANYWAY lemme go work out and finally start the vampire show #bc exercise will distract my body and that toxic relationship bullshit will put a damper on these desires right. right??#starting to understand why so many religions are like watch out for sins of the flesh or whatever. like how they're like temptation is bad.#lizzo_boys.mp3

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13eyond13 · 1 year

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#been thinking about genetics and nature vs nurture and all this sort of stuff a lot lately #and just contemplating why people are the way they are and how much is sort of hardwired vs learned etc.#anyway I'm definitely wayyyy more like my dad than my mom and i think i have actually learned to become sort of the ideal companion #for people like my mom #because my mom is the harder to please and stronger personality in the household who is way more obviously emotional and sensitive #and i empathized with her automatically in a sort of female solidarity way as the household is all boys otherwise #but anyway i know im just naturally like my dad in disposition and humour and looks and everything else but i also know i probably studied #how he handles my mom and her outbursts and insecurities and learned to react to it similarly to him as well #she's a very odd mix of one of the most empathetic kindest people you'll ever meet and also incredibly critical and sensitive to criticism #and she barely ever will tell you you did a good job at anything and will point out mostly only the bad stuff or flaws in whatever you do #yet also HATES that her own mom is exactly the same way and was traumatized by that growing up herself #i honestly 100% believe her mom (my grandma) is undiagnosed autistic and simply doesnt even realize how she comes off but it really #affected my mom growing up and now she is constantly on alert for anything that could possibly be a critique of her and will throw you #under the bus instead if you ever say something even remotely close to negative about her or arent extremely thoughtful about showing up #to the multiple events she hosts every single week #anyway the way my dad usually reacts is just being extremely quiet and steady and dry humoured in reaction to this and when she starts #critiquing him and bringing up all his past failures as a way of making herself feel better about her own bad self esteem he kind of just #takes it and doesnt take it personally because he knows shes doing it for low self esteem reasons #even though its not really fair to him and she would absolutely hate anybody doing the same to her #when i think of my dad's gentle quietness and humour and how much he hates being aggressive or critical i think of when we played a #board game called qwelf once and in the game he was made to act like a drill sergeant and scold and yell at all of us as we moved #our pieces around the board and the best he could do was to mutter stuff like 'get your buns in gear there soldier!'#it makes me lol to remember it my god he simply can't it's the most unnatural thing for him in the world #anyway i always wonder how much of my similarities to him are just genes and how much are learning from him #by watching and admiring and mimicking #because having nieces shows me that kids are absolutely little sponges who try to do everything they see you doing without even knowing #if it's a good thing to be mimicking or not and that can be a bit of a terrifying responsibility as the adult #i am glad i learned good coping mechanisms from dad and how to handle unfair criticism and lack of praise in stride as well but #something i had to teach myself as an adult was how to have healthy boundaries and be assertive when i feel like im being treated poorly #because my parents are both huge people pleasers who struggle with it themselves

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violentdevotion · 7 months

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if u see me watchmen oc posting no u didnt

my eyes are closed. so long as you can forgive me in 2 days when i stop posting about watchmen and start incessantly posting about something else

#ameeras.got.mail #martin tag #idk what the something else is yet it comes naturally #i need to finish the movie tonight so that gives me a few more days #if i watched the show it wouldve been a week of watchmen At Least but i watched the first episode and was uncomfortable with the politics #of it (new mutuals so to clarify not in a 'why is there so many black people' wasy as im certsin some freaks felt. i was mostly uncomfy #with how the role of the police regarding the conversation of antiblack racism in the us just was not looked at at all)#like i read somewhere that the head showwriter was a donator to kamila harris' campaign. he had never heard of the tusla massacre until a #few months before the show was created and overall from the first ep i just felt the politics were confused #like it wanted to say White Supremacy Bad but also look at these cops brutalise these people and these people are white supremacists so how #does that make u feel. do u feel sorry for the white supremacist???#also i think the masked cops thing makes no sense the more i think about the source material. watchmen 1985: we dont want vigilantes #because theres no one to hold them accountable. watchmen 2019: you cant see a cops face #ALSO the way the (albeit the first episode so granted i expect it to develop the politics further) locked guns thing was presented was weird #to me. like in conversations regarding police brutality to turn around and show a black man get shot through the chest because he didnt hav #access to his firearm and a white supremacist got him???? its just WEIRD #anyway sorry if you can forgive my changing interests and my dislike of the show (based off of one episode only) i can close me eyes to uroc #😑

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guinevereslancelot · 9 months

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feeling like my friends secretly hate me at it's not even 9pm

#been feeling this way since the weekend....#helped my pregnant friend move and couldn't shake the feeling she was upset abt the way i was packing her stuff even tho i checked with her #but she wasn't giving any directions i had to make choices lol #and i got a lot done but idk #her husband said she wasn't upset just feeling terrible w morning sickness #also i offered to bring a meal by several times and she keeps putting me off #and then my mom got her some maternity clothes and she didn't even say thank you #and i asked if that made her uncomfortable and she just kind of laughed but didn't say no #she basically hasnt given a straight answer about anything in weeks #idk she has no actual reason to be upset and i know she's not feeling well but she's been acting sooo weird #it makes me feel liks she's mad at me :(#even my mom's feelings were hurt abt the clothes #so that's just confirming for me its not in my head even tho ik it probably is #anyway i hate feeling like this #we're not lile suuuper close and she's been so weird i dont want to bring it up #esp since she's not feeling well and has a lot going on and real problems lol #anyway :(#this has been a shitpost #if we were closer i would def tell her she hurt my mom's feelings at least #also my brother and i were like the only people in the friend group to show up to help them move #so that should buy forgiveness for packing stuff wrong or whatever #like we had to just get stuff packed they had barely packed and all that was left was miscellaneous stuff #and it took forever even tho we tried to be efficient and get through as much as possible quickly #but im worried she felt like we were judging the mess idk

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timelord-of-the-moon · 1 year

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#so that actor i have a thing for was on a film shoot tonight with me #and close to the end he asked me if i wanted to grab dinner #and anyways we get in my car and two of the others from the set were there becuwse i was dropping them off #but we went out for pizza at like 10pm #and ahhhh i still realy like him he's realy pretty #and im ADing his film sets this semester and hes going to do camera for mine #god i realy like him #there were point today were i think he was flirting with me which god if he didnt have a girl friend i would have totaly asked him out like #like on a date date #not just grabing pizza and talking for an hour #which hey idk i can pretend like it was a date hehe #i hate having feelings but god i realy like him #anyways i told him we should hang out sometime and i think we will #also like we talked about film sets and I opened up to him about some realy bad experiences i had #becuase tonights film set was run by someone who didnt have much idea of what they were doing #so he and I did a lot of work #but oh well #at least i got to be around him for a while #anyways i have class with him and a show we're doing tomorrow night and then 2 film sets next week so ahhh ill see him a lot

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arthur-r · 1 year

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actual footage of the smallest dance imaginable. a hundred people bought tickets which is. not a lot for an entire seven cities worth of students in a school. and then there was maybe fifty people total in the building at the most filled up time cause so many people just used the tickets as donating to charity and didn’t even want to go

#was excited to come home and laugh at the dance and then it just got a little much toward the end #but i still think it was pretty funny. also there were so many songs that literally no one there knew??#my friends begged the dj (social studies teacher) to skip songs no one was dancing to and they wouldn’t #the entire night was really funny before i started falling apart about everything it just became a little much #kind of this whole week combined. monday i tried to take the bus to school showed up ten minutes early waited half an hour it never showed #(first time trying to take the bus from the apartment. school said there’s a stop here but apparently no)#tuesday i tried to take the bus after school and it never stopped within a mile of the apartment. got dropped off at a trailer park #that was not mine. had to have my mom pick me up. and then go to work after like regular #then wednesday was a little bit normal i think. pretty much regular. but did have trouble getting home again!! just not as exciting #anyway then thursday was probably maybe normal?? except my sister came in to school to visit her old favorite teacher. who is my teacher #in economics. and knows me trans and i had to have a conversation with my sister. so maybe not that normal #and then on friday. my older sister had my key card and i couldn’t get into the apartment building. waited outside for my little sister for #twenty minutes in the cold and then we went in the lobby and had to wait for a stranger to get close enough to ask for help. bad experience #so anyway there’s been a lot leading up to today. and it makes sense that i fell apart eventually. but no longer crying so call that a win #hope you all are well. i’ll go to sleep eventually. just a lot to get off my chest. in conclusion wasn’t this dance stupid #we hadn’t had a charity gala since pre-covid so i think just nobody knew what it would be like. i’m the only grade who’s been before #if it wasn’t for the charity gala i wouldn’t know i was trans. somebody complimented my transition there and i was like sorry i can do that?#(had cut my hair short and was wearing a suit. considered myself a stag bisexual and hadn’t heard of transmasculinity /gen)#so i had maybe high expectations. anyway i’m probably running out of tags soon just. yeah. idk. today was a lot #friends only #delete later

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cheswirls · 17 days

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this job is so fucking exhausting

#manager is salaried n has to schedule himself a certain amnt of hrs i get it #store only gets so many hrs to divide betweent he rest of us tho #last night he complained to me abt bringing in ppl from other stores to help #so i asked if we were over-hrs n when he said no i was like then bruh pls schedule me more #esp if you need more hands this weekend n im not doing anything anyway #he said hed think on it so i checked today only to see that #hes lengthened his closing shifts so instead of being scheduled til 10 (when we close) its til 4am #and now we are officially out of hrs and wtf wtf wtf aaaaaaaaa #if you never clock in anyway then why schedule yourself such an excessive amnt when you could give hrs to ppl to show up n work????#not a soul will be in that store between 11p-4a but thats 5 hrs someone could work a regular shift that they cant now #this is SO exhausting im tired of never having enough money to completely pay my electric bill #esp when i know i could be scheduled 20+ hrs a week and he just wont #personal

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babyboybuckley · 2 years

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Ok FUCK ok S6 E1 feelings

Buck accepting his armchair... because he's accepting being single and knowing he doesn't need another person by his side to complete him... he his whole on his own and instead needs the person who compliments that (Eddie).... buck also getting the talking to that he is worth so much but also he is still young!! and doesnt need to have everything figured out right now!!! Chris just fucking wrecking him yOu DoNt EvEn HaVe a CoUcH bUcK iTs WeIrD... ultimate Dad bobby... fucking madney 3rd times a charm... because there was pre Doug... after Doug.... And now the third time they got together!!!!!!!!!! Foreshadowing it's gonna stick!!!!!! I'm just... its finally here and I love it and I'm so happy it's back

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