#and are basically in a constant state of

[cognitiveinequality]

Reminder that this shit is still evolving.... 😩

Wear your mask inside public places or anywhere it’s crowded, preferably an N95 or KN95.

#coronavirus #covid-19 #omicron subvariant #ba.5 #public health #pandemic #🎶the pandemic isn't over just because you're over iiiiiiit🎶 #ran errands yesterday #and counted literally TWO people wearing masks indoors #YOU might be willing to risk permanent disability #or getting stupider (''cognitive decline'' is literally a symptom of Long COVID) #but ***I*** sure as shit ain't #so get away from me if you refuse to take the easiest possible precautions #friggin plague rats #SOME OF US HAVE IMMUNE-COMPROMISED FOLKS AT HOME #or are vulnerable ourselves #and are basically in a constant state of #''I goddamned TOLD you idiots... jfc...'' #cog rants

[explodingstarlight]

WHO ARE THESE TWO I NEED TO KNOW I LOVE THEIR DESIGNS SO MUCH WHO ARE THEY !!!!

https://www.tumblr.com/explodingstarlight/747441619339558912/a-bit-late-but-a-welcome-back-from-burnout-gift?source=share

Oh, hi, hello!! Always lovely to meet a new face!

These lil guys are Xor & Nova--colloquially known as the Cyberspace Duo (get it?). Nova is my Rise OC/turtlesona, while Xor belongs to the very cool and rad @snailsnaps ✨

Xor 🤝🤝 Nova: Meeting for the first time while running away from their own fanclub of angry Hidden City residents (did you mean?: angry mob)

Both Snails and I have some additional art and references for the both of 'em, so you're always welcome to check 'em out! Most of my own posts are under the #rise nova and #cyberspace duo tag (⁠｡⁠•̀⁠ᴗ⁠-⁠)⁠✧

(and thank you so much for your ask & kind words!! <3)

#let the record state that only Nova's mob was warranted (he stole a $2 keychain that he now treasures as a momento of their best friendship) #there's quite a bit of nova lore backlog that i may one day actually draw but for now feel free to send asks if you're interested 👍 #*pats their heads* these turtles can fit so many AUs #no I'm /srs discord has witnessed at least 5 AUs ( #universal constant being found family/I would find my bestie in any universe #snails feel free to chime in if you have anything else you'd like to share with the class /nf #oh and don't forget that they're basically adopted by a bird /aff #<- a bird who needs to drink more water 👁️👁️ #thank you for the ask! #asks #stars speaks #rottmnt #cyberspace duo #rise nova #rise xor #tmnt #e stars scribblez

[icewindandboringhorror]

Some (late) holiday photos of the boye~!

#cats #holiday #OUGHH....... barely could even get these edited and posted... my mysterious sickness flare up has been sooo bad the past few #days.. I didn't even go to the usual obligatory family christmas I was supposed to attend (!!! health issue/medical mention in tags below) #My stomach issues basically put me in a constant state of uncontrollable shivering/body shaking + nausea + sometimes rapid heart #rate. and when it happens at night that makes it like.. nearly impossible to sleep when you're violently shaking + you can feel your heart #so strong + you keep having to run to the bathroom every 5 minute to cough and gag #and throw up and so on and so forth. etc. So I went like 40 hours without any sleep almost for christmas eve and all of christmas day #last night I finally got maybe 2 hours of sleep in between the nausea and shaking and stuff. and then today I was able to get a few #hours of sleep in the afternoon. Today I tried taking an anxiety mediciation a doctor gave me in case it was anxiety related (it's apparent #ly used to relax people and works in the moment. rather than like Anxiety Mediciation that you have to take for weeks to see any effect #because I think this isn't actually acting on your brain chemistry it's judt like..a mild sedative or something.) but all that did was make #me dizzy and sweaty lol. I;m glad I slept a little but I'm just still frustrated that I don't feel normal. I started having these #'episodes' (with the stomach issues + shaking + heartrate + nausea etc.) like at the end of october. And usually it will happen for like a #few hours at a time. or i'll lose sleep one day and then be fine the next. but this has been like nearly 3 days of feeling weird. so is #getting kind of annoying... It's funny too because I was so so productive like.. literally the few days before. I was feeling much better #and I was working on my game and blah blah. But then.. random issue flare up out of nowhere of course.. yaayy.... happy holidays to meee lo #I did at least see two random ducks outside of my window in the yard area for christmas. and havent seen them since. So it's like.. hrmm.. #pacing around my room nauseous and shakings and etc. but at least... hello.. two little ducks placed there just for me :3c #Now I get anxiety every night which I'm sure doesn't help/could exacerbate whatever underlying genuinely physical issues exist. But after #like 2 nights of 'I spend the night sleepless and incredibly uncomfortable just sitting in the dark sick' then bedtime is like.. dread... #I even was trying slapping myself in the face in desperation to see if somehow that could shock my body out of whatever the hell it was #doing lol.. up at 3am holding ice cubes in my hand and hitting myself in the head and crying from exhaustion and thowing up.. literally #ridiculous cartoon character feeling... AAANYWAY!!! At least I have baby boy pictures. and I have lots of doctors appointments so hopefully #whatever the issue is can be sorted out at some point. I don't know much about ibs but hopefully maybe something like that that I could pos #ibly take medication for and not something more seirous or anything. Maybe there's a food I'm secretly intolerant to or whatever. #And I did at least post a sims holday video actually timed for the holidays so that's something. I havent been productive really latrely #though obviously.. I can't even play games or small tasks when in that state since I'm just SO physically uncomfortable. Nausea and heart #stuff are THE hardest physical sensations to ignore.. BUT yeah... hoping I shall sleep at all tonight. hopeing to get like 3 productive #things done.. at some point... at least SOMETHING... lol..... *** *** ***

[askblueandviolet]

You don't love your daughter...?

She loved you so much and yet you killed her...Maybe she's feeling disappointed in her father now:(

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#lego monkie kid #lego monkie kid fanart #monkie kid #monkie kid fanart #lmk #lmk fanart #lmk mayor #monkie kid mayor #blue and violet #cruel words Mayor... cruel words #but they are being honest #how can they just accept the fact that they had a daughter- I think you guys have to understand that Mayor is the opposite of dad material #funny but really strange and mysterious uncle you know nothing about? definitely #but not a dad #they are not like Ling who was basically born to be a dad #its strange how much someone's behaviour can differ given the circumstances they live in #Mayor is pretty apathetic right now to be honest lmao- #also I would like to point out the reason why Mayor's eyes are so wide during these last few asks #its because they are in a constant state of shock

[hella1975]

ive never felt more rural than i have in the past few weeks since hanging out with a lad who has only ever lived in cities. what do you MEAN YOU'VE NEVER DONE A MORRIS DANCE

#he didn't even know what morris dancers WERE i said some shit like 'you know it's summer when the morris dancers come out' #and he was like 'the what now' I FEEL LIKE IM GOING CRAZY. HE'S FUCKING WITH ME SURELY #AND THIS HAPPENS SO OFTEN ABOUT THINGS I JUST ASSUMED WERE BASICS #'harvest festival 🤨' PARDON. YOU ARE JOKING #and also the CONCEPT of a village is baffling to him. i said there's probably about 100 people in my entire village #and we don't have a pub or a single shop the closest ones are in the NEXT village over which is a 3 mile walk #and this boy was HORRIFIED. we are both in a constant state of thinking the other is taking the piss #and now every time i think/do something abundantly rural im SO self-aware 😭 #my mum told me the farmers are gonna do a xmas tractor run through our village this year #(they usually miss our village bc even by village standards it's tiny) #and she was like 'shame you'll miss it! i'll send you a video!' and im there already picturing this boy's face when i show it him #like sigh. yeah. yeah okay maybe the rural england is ingrained deeper than i feared. never escaping the allegations etc #had a conversation with him the other day that concluded with me 100% genuinely being like 'you need to touch grass' #i literally said 'i think it would fix you. like actually go and touch some grass what the fuck' #bc at this point he's so far removed from nature that it's INSANE TO ME. i didnt realise how much i took growing up rurally for granted #THESE PEOPLE DONT EVEN GET DRUNK IN FIELDS. THEY HAVE NO FIELDS. I HAD TO EXPLAIN TO HIM WHAT A CAMP OUT WAS

[thunderheadfred]

School starts up on Tuesday so of course today the university sent out an emergency alert about a credible shooter threat

These sure are some normal ass times we live in

#I dont know if I’m capable of experiencing shock or fear anymore #I basically live in a constant state of *what part of consumer capitalism will kill me first??*

[xamaxenta]

chemically i feel like i should be allowed to equalise ive suffered enough

#equalise how lol #not to be cringe and wax poetic or whatever bc woe is me and woe is like a constant state #but the lines in my face just look really sad ????? #like you know how people have laughter lines or smile lines dimples and stuff ? #im envious bc mine just look like exhaustion sadness and alot of ahem ragrets #i Didnt think id make it this far #i used to function on spite but i have nothing to fight for anymore because i just dont think its worth it? #it sucks #bitch where did you go huh #anyway therapy is expensive #and so is insurance #and insurance doesnt often cover mental health much in my country soooo #fuck us huh #BASICALLY i really fuckin hate myself but that is absolutely nothing new #i hate myself to the point that i think about killing myself once a week which is alot i think but i dont act on it bc im aware of what #that does to people

[amethystina]

hey I don't want to bother you 💗 but I read the last question and your answer on WHtD, I also read it since day 1 and I read fics for more 10 years now, your fic is one the best I ever read and I real a loooot. it's so well written and good. The psychological aspect is amazing. The slow burn too. It's my comfort fic atm. So take your time, protect your mental health but don't let anyone make you doubt yourself! Take care 💗

Thank you so much for saying so 💜 I'm incredibly humbled that there are people who have stuck with the fic for so long. And I almost want to apologise for how long it has turned out because I genuinely didn't think it would be when I started.

That's not to say that I regret that it's so long, it just feels like I've done some accidental false advertising or something because I didn't adequately warn people at the beginning x'D

Thank you so much for the lovely compliments! I do put a lot of effort into the psychological aspects and the exploration of not only Ga On's development but all the other characters as well. Which I admit is a bit of a handful some days. But, again, no regrets tbh.

Especially considering how much comfort I'm apparently able to offer with my writing. And that thought is, in the end, what will probably make me overcome my current doubts. Not because of obligation or anything like that, but because it genuinely makes me so, so happy to know that I can offer people so much joy. It's a lovely feeling.

So thank you so much for taking the time to tell me this and for your continued support. It means a lot to me 💜

#Amethystina Replies #icedespressoo #Who Holds the Devil #Tbh I'm kind of annoyed that this is even an issue in the first place #I wish I could just turn my doubts off x'D #Because deep down I know they're silly #But yeah #I guess that's not how brains work #And things have just been rough in general #Technically for years now #So maybe I'm just worn out #I realised a couple of weeks ago that I've been in a constant state of mourning for about three years #Three people who were important to me have died #Not to mention my mother separating from my stepdad of 20 years #And the constant source of grief that is my relationship with my big sister #And the whole long covid business which is basically chronic at this point #I might just have to live with that for the rest of my life #Which takes some getting used to #So yeah #While I hope to be able to return to Who Holds the Devil soon #I can't make any promises

[possumtailpark]

new potion of don't have anxiety is currently working Extremely well. I've cleaned my entire house. all of it. I did all but one of my errands today and my only obstacle was the one place was closed. got a checkup, groceries, scheduled appointments, made dinner and washed up and I still have time and energy to prepare tomorrow's lunch and do a little laundry. you people live like this? oh my g-d

#turns out spending your whole life in a state of constant low-level anxiety over the most basic of tasks makes you tired #I'm not anxious and now I can. function? what the hell

[aldieb]

sometimes my life feels like one of those cautionary tales where it’s like “they achieved everything they used to dream about. look at them editing a book in their own apartment with their cat curled up next to them. but they forgot about… The Magic Of Friendship”

#text tag #very fitting bc when i was dreaming about this stuff i 100% wanted to be an isolated hermit. due to i was in a constant state of overwhelm #i’m actually ok with the state of affairs re my social needs bc i call/text/visit or get visited by ppl so much #but having lived here for almost a year now and having 0 friends feels like a red flag to anyone i encounter lol. not to mention basic #things like petsitting help

[magicianing]

you're so offended by "pop culture deities" but your understandings of the deities which you worship are inescapably colored by their pop culture portrayals, and, more deeply, the vastly different cultural framework through which you understand them compared to that of their original worshippers.

#I have so many bad opinions about deity work now #deity work #deity worship #witchcraft #witchblr #like im trying to do basic research for anpu and its clear that the character im reading about simply couldn't exist #in the modern world. deities HAVE to be in a constant state of change. #so it seems silly to assume that this set number of deities existed since the beginning of time and new ones cannot be created. #or born #or whatever

[satoriberry]

jjk self insert but not so i can ship myself with the characters. i just want to be a silly character involved in the story with cool tricks to show and bam i die or get an essential part of my being nerfed irreparably!!

#berry.rambles <3 #i love her so much do you guys wanna hear about her #well she's me so im talkign about myself #basically she cant fight for shit becayse 1 FUCKING COWARD 2 EXISTENTIALISM 3 HYPOTHETICALLY COULD BUT DOESNT WANT TO TRAIN!! #so she (that is to say me!!!) opts for a more pacifistic route by developing a cursed technique that allows her to create tiny shrinkifying #+ occasionally regenerative pods that can store a human of average size #or 2 child sized people at the same time #to create them she needs to stimulate her and concentrate her energy into producing a pod that can hold its shape without her physically #touching it since doing so will keep the pod in a constant state of cursed energy charge (which is good but inconvenient if she wants to #make multiple pods!!!) #to stimulate her brain she needs one thing which is #MUSIC!! #music being a very good brain stimulant that activates important parts like the limbic system (one of its functions is emotional regulation #and she cant panic otherwise pods start to dissolve!!) + prefrontal cortex (concentration!!!) #hmmmm i dont know where im going with this because this is actually a mash of two techniques i came up with hmmmmm #we'll see!!!

[keplercryptids]

was feeling despondent about d&d prep but then i got a whole two ideas for the session and now i feel better

#jd&d #also i realized today that i've been in basically a constant state of creation for like. at least a year #obviously in a semi state before that. #and like that's GOOD and i LIKE it but #creativity is harrrrdddd lol

[icewindandboringhorror]

mentally ill people who for whatever reason end up wearing the same exact clothing so many days in a row that it begins to disintegrate and will still not stop wearing it until it’s literally just scraps of fabric VS. those weird shitty rich people who ‘’can’t be seen in the same outfit twice’’ human dichotomy 

#poast brought to you by my pants that are missing an entire leg and completely open in the back and the front almost #to the point they could not really be considered pants anymore (I wear lots of layers so i have shorts under them but lol) #I tore them again sitting down and it made me introspect about when it's time to throw clothes out and how everyone has different standards #and etc. Like how some people will get stains on clothing and just throw it away #.where others will keep wearing stained stuff if they have an attachment to it. etc. etc. #or like One hole in jeans is okay but 20 holes is Crossing A Line - unless they were made that way as a fashion trend #which then made me think about those people who like.. change clothes multiple times a day and never want to rewear stuff #and just have a constant stream of fast fashion etc. Anyway. not a real dichotomy. just being silly. i like to think about humans behaviors #brggghghb.. still not being very productive as I just keep having flare up after flare up of various chronic issues I have so I'm feeling #sick like every few days but always for different reasons. As if something has increased the general inflammation in my entire body #and its just bopping around making different things worse here and there. but I'm not sure of any underlying cause. #theorectially could always be stress since I am often stressed but I don't feel stressed more than usual. I have no infection markers #on blood tests and my covid tests so far have been negative. I guess my body just felt like 'hey happy new year. would you like.. uhm... #some... Problems.. as a treat? OuO'' #I mean I'm lucky at this point that I don't have a condition that makes me completely bedridden or something and am grateful for that but #having so many smaller issues in the background overlapping all the time can be ehxausting and make it feel like a larger issue #because you just never get a break. once one problem clears up it's another. etc. modifying diet. supplements. doctors. new issue. new modif #ications. new doctors. new this #new that. etc. For my body to reach some sort of non-inflammed stable state I feel like I'm going to have to just be suspended in a gladd #*glass antigravity chamber for 3 years eating nothing but basic gruel and iv liquids. something so bland and so untriggering of anything #that literally nothing can be inflammed or etc. lol.. Though I'd probably still somehow have joint pain even with nogravity. #ANYWAY... I did finally edit a new sims video. for the few of you that follow my sims youtube. I have costumes totally ready to post I just #literally havent had the energy to queue up the photos. STILL WORKING ON EVIL WORLDBULDING SLIDESHOW task of epic proportions #. other videos. other stuff. I've had to spend some time on social stuff since I really ned to get started finding friends in the potential #places I'd like to move so I know people when I get there. as it takes me like years to trust someone. but hjgh... I am so like. inherently #unrelatable to the average person. at least the avg people on friend making sites and stuff. I even made a perosnal compatibility quiz #but again.. thats something most people don't do lol... ''buhh just text snapchat me & get to know me through conversation why should i take #a 15 minute quiz up front?'' shut up. i woudl LOVE to take a custom compatibility quiz before talking to someone. its efficent. you will nev #er get it. that is a positive to me. if only anyone else did that. if only. (I'm being jokingly rude. its perfectly reaosnable for people to #have different standards and communication styles. etc. etc. lol) ANYWAY.. tldr me sleepy and feel bad no productive wehh