#and ill change my mind. but ive done all those things and i just want to work in the mortuary field even more now?

[am-i-the-asshole-official]

AITA for not saying please/thank you?

So this is an ongoing argument with my roommate. I (22nb) am autistic, and T (55f) has ADHD.

Now to get this out of the way, i do say thank you. I was always taught to wait a moment after receiving something, take a bite or appreciate what you were given for a breath, before thanking someone so that you could add something more to it. My roommate and I both agree that i do say thank you the vast majority of the time, but the problem for her is that i do not say it fast enough.

T often gives me a "tHaNk yOu" while the item in question is still being passed. This seems ridiculous to me as i haven't even been fully given it yet.

In addition, i have the dishes as my household chore, and i do them daily, despite almost never making any dishes myself. I do this to both support T and her diet, as well as contribute to the household that i live in.

T thanks me near daily for doing the dishes. This always seems weird and unnecessary to me, as it is my responsibility. I have told her this. I dont expect to be thanked for doing my own laundry, after all. In return, T gets upset that i dont notice and thank her for taking out the garbage/recycling/compost, to which she is the main contributor to and is under her responsibilities.

As for please: i do say this much more rarely. I think it feels overly preformative and fake, and i typical choose more "would you mind closing my door for me" "if its not too much of a hassle, could you toss me my waterbottle" "id appreciate it if you could preheat the oven while you're in the kitchen"

I think that these work perfectly fine as a replacement. Please just has always felt wrong and fake. No one else in my entire life has ever commented on this before.

Thirdly; T has been upset that i don't respond to her apologies appropriately. After she is snappy at me (due to her emotional disregulation from ADHD) (last time it was because i asked if she was using the oven instead of asking if i could use the oven myself, for reference) there is a 50/50 shot that she will come and apologize.

I dont often accept apologies. Apologies are for the person saying them to get it off their chests, or to make you put it behind them. Usually, ill say something like "it was just one of those days, y'know?" Or "its alright, water under the bridge"

Because i was always taught that apologies came with a promise of change, and T can't (or won't) change how she re-directs her frustration at unrelated things to things ive done "wrong". When she told me the correct response was "i forgive you", i decided to not engage instead of telling her directly that i didnt forgive her (because i am certain she will do it again). (I usually dont engage with her when shes irritated: she never notices and just wants to say her piece so im not being rude here)

She said that i was being disrespectful, "like always", and when i suggested it may be more difficult for me due to my autism, she said that we made plenty of accommodations for me (which i think is false), and that i just needed to do this for her comfort. That please/thank yous were something she needed to feel appreciated and i should be making more accommodations for her.

To me, i feel like she is getting really caught up on semantics and is being a little controlling about it. But maybe its just a boundary? I dont know if i could commit to changing my language for her though, i feel like i will just start forgetting after awhile because it feels so fake. Shouldn't it be better for me to say things genuinely than just for her approval?

AITA for not saying please/thank you?

#aita #am i the asshole

[cemeterything]

the more i learn about the mortuary profession the more i'm convinced everyone else is weird about people who work with the dead and i'm the normal one. of course i understand why people find corpses and the decay process and the end of life in general upsetting, because being reminded that you and everyone you know will eventually cease to exist and there's nothing you can do about it isn't something you can really take any comfort in, but it's just death? it's just inevitable and the way things are? people who work with the dead aren't creepy horror movie mad scientists cooking up frankensteins and draculas, and they're not immoral sickos even if they do have a fascination with the grotesque and macabre. they're just people providing an important service. a lot of them are very compassionate, passionate, hardworking people who want the best for the memory of the deceased and their loved ones. i genuinely don't understand what's so bad and scary about that, but whenever i bring it up there's always at least a few people who look at me like i'm crazy and call me a creep and make a show of shuddering and backhandedly complimenting my "bravery" and "unique career goals" while laughing as if my genuine interest in death and the dead is all just some inappropriate joke. i swear it's more unsettling how many people are unwilling to even acknowledge death as a natural inevitable part of life than it is to talk about it.

#🐉 #and like. i always get people telling me i need to read more books about it/talk to people/spend one day with a dying person #and ill change my mind. but ive done all those things and i just want to work in the mortuary field even more now? #instructions unclear i am now convinced this is the job for me. oops! #this is really just me thinking out loud/venting but like #i never really noticed just how many people are like. uncomfortable with even talking about death as a concept #until i became interested in mortuary sciences #death

[cyberkitty1]

Black Musician Reader

about a year and a half after your break up with miles you decided to focus on yourself and your career. making a plethora of songs and being openers for big artist’s.

your living your dream life; moving out of your apartment and getting a house, nothing too bug just something to fit you and your 2 dogs, working out to look better snd feel better about yourself and starting on the journey to better your mental health.

your manager and team have finally decided its time for you to have your first concert. you got to choose where it would be.

you were nervous and excited! these is a new chapter in your life sure you’ve done openers but your very own concert?? this is crazy.

brushing iff your outfit and fixing your hair hair one last time before you step out on stage. the moment you made your way to the middle the lights were blinding but once your eyes got used to it you could see everyone.

cheering your name with signs and pictures it was surreal. you were performing your very last song when you see him. you see him but he looks different, he’s not wearing his puffer or his messed up jordans. he’s wearing a sweater?? and a whole outfit.

you cant ignore the feeling of want and missing him. its been almost 2 years ; he’s always been in the back of your mind you couldn’t deny it and those last words he told you. that he wanted to change for you. did he really change? for you? really?

the concert came to an end it was a success. people gave you gifts and flowers you loved it all. just then someone knocked on your dressing room door.

“come in!” you calm in a loving tone before spinning your chair to see who it is. you were shocked to say the least.

it was miles standing with a big bouquet of your favorite flowers. you felt your heart melt a bit. “miles” he gives you an awkward smile “hey” he says scratching his neck”

“why are you here miles” you say standing keeping your hands at your sides in fists. you were nervous, so so nervous. he messed with his necklace. “remember when we broke up? i told you i would change and treat you better”

he walked toward you giving you the flowers. “ and im here to do just that” he say’s confidently. “miles-“ “no wait i went to therapy i got into a college i have a better relationship with my family, i don’t spray paint walls anymore i, i changed because i love you and i want you to give me another chance, please?”

you stare at him, you’ve missed him so much and the fact that he changed just for you? so he wouldn’t loose you? thats how much he loved you he was proving it to you, just like he said.

you missed him, the moment you broke up with him you wanted him back, you couldn’t just forget all the memories you made with him. there was no way it was going to happen.

“miles, are you being serious?” your eyes filled with tears. he felt anxious he knew how things ended and he knew what he did wrong.

you couldn’t help but let them fall as you give him a hug. he changed himself so he could be with you again? you expected him to just move on by now.

“im sorry about how we left everything, i know i could have been better to you, you didn’t deserve it. can you find it in your heart to forgive me?” he asks speaking into your hair as he hoods you tighter. “ of course miles ive missed you so much” you say through tears.

“ im so sorry for how i treated you, te amo mucho mami” he says wiping your tears. “ please dont do that again, if you need space ill give you space just talk to me, you cant just leave” you day beginning to get agitated.“ i will, i will. forgive me my love”

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[laprimera]

alrighty so after some reflection and getting some outside stuff prioritized Im done some blog housework so I can get comfortable here again.

im still gonna continue my hiatus until november cause the rest of October still has a lot of rl appointments and stuff going on. ill be nuking my ask and drafts to get into maximum turtle plot overdrive and just start things clean, but here's the skinny under cut:

. Ive went and cleaned up my followers list. mostly of inactive blogs, non-mutual or blogs that haven't reached out or interacted at all. I use to think I liked a busier dash but I think trying to keep up with it had been giving me anxiety even if my muses weren't involved in anything plot wise. FOMO has been really killing my vibe more then anything and I need to cut that habit out.

you're a-okay to refollow though! I'll do the same. none of this was done out of malice or a personal dislike, and I get being so busy w/ life and personal plots that you cant interact with everyone in a convenient moment. but if you see this as an opportunity to reach out then by all means! that and I might've accidentally unfollowed one or two of you cause side-blog deal, clumbsy thumbs, and uuh, dont mind me realizing that later down the line-my bad!

. unless carefully plotted otherwise, anything outside my own canons, affiliated blogs/mains or plots is no longer canon to my own. any interaction or thread initiated towards my muses will default fall into my lore/verse unless vice versa or its plotted and etc etc. It's no longer just hanging there in the void so to speak. I need to feel more in control of my own narrative I think and trying to puzzle a lot of contradicting outside plots, dash events, etc has been mentally taxing when rp shouldn't be occupying so much space or anxiety to begin with lol.

this isn't to say everything thats happening in the dash or w/ other characters isn't important ofc! and I still want to participate; it'll just fall under a crack/non-canon tag. if things end up lining up p' well with whats going on here then I might take it into canon. This is p' much what I've been doing to begin with, it's just more concrete now and Im being more careful of what Im willing to accept now. Im ofc open to discussing stuff! DMs and disco for those who have it are open always even if I take a moment to get to it!

. Im no longer answering anon asks that are personal in some way, ie, around subject matters that aren't general headcanons asks or 'hey how do you feel about-' sorta deal. I dont feel comfortable taking it to public and while I understand having the fear of being identified, it's not fair if I'm the only one bearing the subject so to speak. If you want to talk to me through DMs you can either tell me your UN (no burners either) so I can bypass permissions here to chat or you can reach me at @shiny-miltank where my IMs are not barred to mutuals only. I don't bite really! and my discord is not public. tbh Im still very anxious about being on disco to begin w/ cause social anxiety flare ups. idk tumblr dms always seemed easier to chat until I know you on a personal basis-its just worked that way.

. making it more strict that you dont? put my geeta in place of plots, events, etc that I havent participated or plotted with, nor can you make assumptions for them based on said events. as slapped on every piece on my about/rules/pinned/etc shes heavily canon-divergent to begin with so no one knows her intentions/actions (save for me ofc) and wont act in what presumed canon-geeta would do or your own version so to speak. easy enough to slap me an IM for "is it okay to-", plotting, or just make a nebulous npc stand-in.

. things that havent changed are the use of my lore and headcanons into your own! I love seeing it integrated or adapted into other lore and seeing just how much it inspires and changes over time!

this all seems rigid but really it's just reiterating whats already in my rules and no one here has been a huge offender at all :' ) this is more for me to follow and I cant thank everyone enough for their patience and creativity for as long as I've been here. Im loosey goosey and go with the flow 90 out of 100 times.

this goes for the rest of my muses, which Ill probably clean up when Im back-but yeah! miss ya'll! hope you've been doin' good! the terrapagos plot will continue then and Ill resume reaching out and leaving details! hopefully in time for dlc ; >

#ooc. ･ﾟ ✹ #queue. ･ﾟ ✹ #importante and stuff #sorry this is at 3 AM gdfgfd-this is like the only time Im awake ironically #but again ill be really back in november! see ya then!

[dayundying]

can you tell us more about nort please im so curious about him :)

NANA I LOVE YOU YOU ARE MY BESTEST FRIEND IN THE WHOLE WIDE WORLD.

Um um ok for starters his name is Nort, obvs! And it is just straight up his name, im sure in character, to Nort his name is meaningful and important but to me? Nort just struck my mind! Im pretty sure it was inspired by Norm from PaF which haha is fitting cause Nort is my owb poster child, robots!!! Haha. Although it also makes me sad because my first fallout oc was named Norman actually... but he wasnt named after norm he was named because he was a normal man ANYWAHS NOT IMPORTANT.

He uses solely he/him and basically ONLY presents masculinely but like ive SOMEWHAT expressed before he feels kind of weird about gender simply because well, human gender is so human and he really hates being human, he does not feel male at all, but defintely not female, im not sure if hed know the term nonbinary but its him and he would be it (nort LOVES transgenderism.)

The topic of how he feels about gender i think is a good segway to whatever he has going on in the sexuality department, i feel like hes defintely had relationships in the past and has and does feel attraction for other people but after the whole getting shot in the head nd getting to affirm his person and ideals he hates himself for feeling that, he hates all of his human desires and needs, he stuffs basically all of his feelings like so far down deep. So what he is with that label??? Agh idk lol. Hed loooooove to be nonbinary but he gives no shit to label anything else

Now! What IS up with his beliefs? Well at first I envisioned him as a avid transhumanist but then when i actually made him my idea for him as a nerd went out the window and he became totally tough and gruff, he still is a transhumanist and believes in it very much, but he is also incredibly survival of the fittest thinking if that makes sense (i want to say he believes in survivalism but i realized the actual definition of it sounds dumb.) I kind of think of it like this: he is incredibly trusting in machines and technology, but due to the wasteland being the way it is, he cant just be a robot like he very much wants to be, he cant have robot arms and put chips in his skin, he has to be the human he was born as, and eat and drink and fight, so yknow, he does.

Idk, hes barely 2 days old, hes still being developed, this stuff IS subject to change

But i am not done!!!

Deciding how my ocs feel about stuff is great, i will never skip out on explaining their opinions on factionsss <3

Hoof, looking them up, i realize theres more factions in nv then i thought there were...Ill get into his opinion on the more minor factions another time cause id TOTES love to, but i think right now the main stuff is supes important!

He LOVES mr house, er like, his politics wise, he sits and nods to everything he says and thinks because he simply completely agrees.

Thinks the ncr are some bunch of cowards, he does have a personal intrigue with how its set up though. Sometimes he daydreams about if he was in charge of all of the ncr, the changes hed make.

He doesnt think an independent new vegas would survive at all and does not support it. He simply believes itd just crumble and cave into itself !

Similar to how he feels about the ncr, he alsp has intrigue with the legion, but hates its lack of progressiveness and movement, i dont think he believes he could save it, just one of those things hell certain will just blow away into the sands of nevada, as weird history of that one time that happened.

#long post #oc: nort

[the-sappho-of-lesbos]

I know this is all very new to me, that one someone who gets in my head and doubts things a lot and also that everyone’s experiences are different. So I could very easily change my mind on this.

But I feel like media as a whole , at least the stuff I’ve consumed , has always done the best job of highlighting just how much a relationship really is just like a best friendship.

I know before I ever properly had one I just viewed it as this separate thing. I still wanted who I dated to be my best friend, but I guess I never knew what that would feel like. I think it’s also just brought to life how I’m not very good in the friend department lol.

I get in my head a lot about this stuff. I keep thinking oh no am I not feeling what I’m supposed to feel. Should it be more of this and less of that. Should I be doing this instead. Am I moving too slow. Am I moving too fast. It’s easy to give myself all those questions since we don’t live near each other either. The slip to feeling self conscious when someone is just on a screen is very quick I think. But I look back to all the times irl and it’s just nice. Plain and simple nice. I don’t even really worry about it all that much in the moment because I genuinely just feel like I’m hanging out with my best friend. We link arms and kiss and have sex and all that, and I enjoy it and find her desirable in that way, but more then anything I really do wholeheartedly feel like I’m just having a fun time with my friend.

I guess since my scaffolding for relationships while growing up has been from fiction or dysfunctional heterosexual relationships I was going in a bit blind. Growing up it was like you had your partner and you had your friends. They were completely seperate in what they offered you. And romance books / fanfiction very heavily dive into the hard hitting emotions and glorification of finding a piece of yourself somewhere else.

Ive found for myself it’s nothing like that. I thought it was once, when I was with my. But also I wasn’t with her for very long and she was my first girlfriend. My first time being gay in person. Of experiencing certain things I’d only read about. I didn’t get enough time with her to get to this point.

And it’s still VERY early days. So I know I have a long way to go in understanding myself and my feelings and what they mean. And I know I’ll still have days where I get insecure and overanalyse stuff , to try and put myself into the boxes the world have put around me, get frustrated at myself for not doing things the way I feel like I need to. But I also know I just feel nice. To some nice might be too low of a word. Too small. Not grand enough. Not filled with enough love. However a lot of my bad emotions are overwhelming strong and exhausting. Even good ones sometimes have been really strong to the point where the drop really hurts.

I like something being nice. I like it being slow. Being nice fills like calm seas after years of rough ones. I also know it’s probably because I’m just stupidly mentally ill and depressed, so I might never feel that true rush of long term happiness I want to. But this is still really good. I might not have a bright sun and rainbows over my little boat. But it’s calm and stopped raining. I can look around a bit and share it with my best friend.

That type of nice seems really good to me. It’s comforting. It’s not what I had built in my head a romantic relationship necessarily was, but I think I like the reality more. At least when I’m not feeling insecure over it and comparing myself to either fictional and or heterosexual standards.

#personal

[akindplace]

I'm nearly 30 and still a vergin and never gone camping. Never g9ne sky diving. Never been a canoe. Never gone deep sea fishing. Nevet gone to an abandoned house. Ive never been on a hot air baloon .ect I've nevet been allowed. Or anything most 18 yeat Olds have done .

Do you have any good comebacks for when I'm mafe fun of for not having these life experiences. And will anyone be okay with even being friends with whith no life experiences?

Well, first... the people around you don't seem like the most supportive, it is not nice to make fun of someone's experiences or lack of experiences. Some of those things you've mentioned I haven't done and probably never will. I realized I made a good change in friends when once I was made fun for being afraid of hiking because I fell off one time I was hiking a mountain to reach a waterfall. But I still would do it again, and people know it, they also know I have a chronic illness and I can count on them and we are planning to go hiking again.

Maybe you should consider what you actually want to experience. And as you can see from my case, people can be friends with those who don't have some of the experiences they have, and people should definitely not make fun of you for that.

Honestly, you asked for good comebacks but you seem to be in need of better friends. If they start meddling too much, ask them "do you pay my bills? Will you pay skydiving" (if you want to, just an example). Or just tell them to mind their own fucking business or talk to them about an experience they haven't had yet or mention "Wow you could be doing all this fun stuff you talk about but here you are annoying me, it's almost as like you don't have a life." (That's more of a burn lol)

But please, consider having friends who laugh with you, not at your expense. People want to be friends with all types of people, we all want to connect and there might be someone out there waiting to connect to you to be your friend. Your friendship is important.

#answered #anon #friendships #life experiences

[empyreasheart]

I RETURN WITH MORE QUESTIONS. and one topic on my mind. xion xion xion xion xion xion XION shes so interesting and your hcs are always so good do you have any about her or the sea salt trio in general. i miss them so much (also i know you have work to do sorry if this is a distraction from it!! feel free to leave this ask for later)

IM FREEE WHICH MEANSSS I CAN TALK ABOUT MY DEAR DEAR XION!!!! no joke i have been thinking about her all day.

first off i LOVEEE xion so much. whenever i see her get attention and love im so happy. when i see her i have a habit of going "XIONNNN" super loudly.

im putting this under a read more cuz its gotten super long oops

my xion headcanons... well first of all i love every reading of her character as a trans allegory & how people intepret her as either trans or nonbinary! i dont think it was done on purpose but shes been claimed by the commjnity and im so happy about it. transfem xion my beloved. second of all shes autistic TO ME but honestly everyone in soras heart hotel is so thats a given. third of all give me xion with big dark brown eyes or give me death!

what id like to see explored in future games / i fanwork: her identity! we see roxas's frustration and anger about being his own person plenty but we hardly see xion upset at her predicament. i think this is because she wants to do the right thing, not because shes okay with the situation. i really want to see xion's feelings about not having her own identity explored, given that everything about her is based on either sora or his memories of kairi and she was basically created in a lab as a tool for organization 13. she should feel weird about existing in the first place, especially next to roxas and naminé, who dont have the same history behind their creation

in addendum to that, i want to see xions character design change to something more unique. she already has a new outfit, but id love to see her have a new hairstyle (whether she grows it out or just puts it up) so she has something different than a mirror of kh1 kairi's hair. i think ive also mentioned that i think itd be interesting if xion had her own eye color after kh3 (side note its bullshit we never got to see her norted eyes in kh3. she shouldve played a bigger role in the story too but thats another rant) to symbolize that shes her own person now, not a puppet meant to copy sora. lastly she !!! deserves !!! her own keyblade!!! there's so many cool keyblades from days to choose from & theres the weapons from her boss fight - theres no reason for her to still be using the kingdom key and i really hope she gets her own soon.

i keep thinking about what you said about xion not being another "nice" girl character and im like... so true. i dont think xion would be mean i want to go about it in a way that doesnt completely rewrite her character but i think exploring how she copes with her past w/ both organizations & her identity & trauma would be interesting, especially with how it parallels to naminé's own way of coping and dealing with her own trauma. theyre like Shy vs introverted to me lmfao i think xion tries to be friendly but overall she prefers to stay close to the people she feels safe around. i want to see xion be rude but in the autism way where she doesnt mean it shes just not aware. and stuff like that i guess. this paragraph was just word vomit my bad

THE SEA SALT TRIO... theyre seriously the family of all time i love them so much. ill just focus on xion here because this is already super long. BUT AXEL LOVES XION SO MUCH IT MAKES ME SICK THEYRE NOT TALKED ABOUT ENOUGH.. the implication that lea subconsciously keeps his coat on in kh3 so xion (and roxas) can recognize him makes me so emotional. also the fact that lea just clicks with kairi because she also holds a part of xion inside her... AND WHEN HE BUYS HER AN ICE CREAM AND HE DOESNT EVEN REMEMBER WHY HES BUYING THREE. UGH. i love them so much. theyre definitely one of those duos found in the trios that dont get much attention which just draws me towards them more (like riku and kairi). i think lea is absolutely riddled with guilt about the events of days so he never lets xion forget that shes loved. i think xion is touch-averse *except* when it comes to roxas and lea because she feels safest around them.❤️

to end i will discuss roxas and xion . they are like a little orange cat and a little black cat to me. halloween colored. theyre so small i love them so much. i imagine when xion first meets the twilight town gang shes jealous bc roxas has other friends :( but roxas assures her shes super duper special to him and no one else can take her place in his life. they have such a unique bond that i dont know if any of the other characters have with each other. just something so special about those two. when it feels like no one else understands they have each other... and i think that makes for some angst when xion struggles with her own issues that even roxas cant relate to

#ask #THANK U FOR THIS IM SO GLAD TO INFODUMP . I TYPED SO MUCH IM SORRU I LOVE HER SO MUCH AND I HAVE SO MANY THOUGHTS

[mueritos]

how does one get noticed as an artist? I have multiple platforms for my art like DA, Tumblr, and Ko-Fi, but it feels like everything gets drowned out by the sheer multitude of better artists. which, ya know, is kinda sucky bc my comm slots have been collecting dust for a month (and never mind I'm in a rough financial spot). I'm told my stuff is good, but that's from my small niche of friends, so it just feels obligatory :/

Hmm. This is really difficult to answer considering every social media platform works differently. Algorithms are constantly changing, so it makes it even more difficult to catch on. Posting everyday gets you the most engagement, and even with hundreds or thousands of followers, only half of them will see your posts because you arent posting regularly. ill insert a readmore.

I cant tell you how this all works because I refuse to learn how it works. Ive always just posted whenever I wanted, posted whatever I wanted, and have been doing so for many years. But I have found several things that have gotten me noticed have contributed to my growth. Before that, a really great art youtuber, Kelsey Rodriguez, does a really good job at giving advice regarding growing on social media as an artist and how to the run the business and growth side while managing the art, so Id check those out.

having a larger project, like a comic.

having a comic, and it doesnt have to be a webtoon or published on a comic hosting site, not only forces you to improve in your art by constantly drawing and experimenting, it also gives you something to post regularly. Posting regularly is important, and even if its only once or twice a week, the crucial part is that its consistent. this is more likely to give your followers content to look at, but it can attract people who relate or enjoy your comic, and can help solidify an audience. Ive done two comics so far, and my first one allowed me to understand how to draw them, and my second one allowed me to understand how to have fun with them. Both times I continued to grow an audience who enjoyed not only the comic, but myself and my other art.

fanart (unfortunately)

fanart often gets more views than original art, which is unfortunate because lots of people have awesome ocs and original art that should be noticed. but people like having context and lore to whatever theyre seeing, and if its connected to something they already know, it can bring them more joy than to look at something theyre unfamiliar with. While i dont draw fanart as much as I used to, drawing it regularly (i used to do a lot of anime fanart back in hs), can help build you an audience of people who enjoy the same media as you! it can help boost you even more if you draw fanart for smaller bands, shows, books, etc, because tagging creators or staff who have worked on those media can sometimes get them to like and share the post as well!

other artist interaction

you need to build relationships with other artists. I have to admit this has been difficult with me, but if you have artist friends online who also have an audience, you can all work together to introduce your audience to each others' art. many of my mutuals have similar followers, and this is because we all hype each other up, share each others art, and tell people about each others art. sometimes all it takes is for one mutual to share your art for you to gain an influx of hundreds of followers.

Overall, I want to encourage you to continue drawing. Commissions are not the end all be all of your value; you need to build an audience, build experience, and build consistency before you come to that point where people will commission you. Its a difficult reality, screaming into the void, but once you realize youre not the only one, you start to build connections and community with other artists for support.

I wish u the best of luck!

#muertoresponds #art stuff #i wud b more than happy to boost an comm forms or donation funds btw!

[ventcode]

I just wanna kinda,, ramble, I guess, so many thoughts on my mind, and I never really ramble on purpose (it's mostly an accidental thing..) so.

my shoulder still hurts kinda. it all hurts alot, actually. i don't know why. no matter what i do. ive stopped bringing it up over and over again though. nobody seems to quite listen. some streches, but the pain only subsides for a little bit.

im hungry, but i ate food all day yesterday. seems no matter how much i eat lately, ill still be hungry, and if i dont eat im starving, it makes my stomach feel horrible, the six and kyoko brain mix surely isn't helping.

im listening to my theme, six's theme part II, it's been calming me down, ive been humming along, im just making sure i dont have another panic attack, it surely does help, afterall its calmed me down before, as six. im not surprised it still helps now.

i keep having to change my shirt, it gets uncomfortable too much, its quite annoying, i put on deodorant too but it seems to wear off and it becomes uncomfortable again, maybe i just need to shower tomorrow (today? i don't count it as the next day until i wake up that morning.), that must be the case, im just not clean.

speaking of, its annoying but i seem to always need reminders to do stuff, or i dont take care of myself and do my own thing, with the food thing its gotten better since im always really hungry lately, so the first thing i try to do when i have time is eat food. but with the other stuff of taking care of myself, i seem to neglect it. showering. cleaning my room (i havent done that in MONTHS). drinking water. brushing my teeth. laundry stuff. i always need reminders. but i cant get reminders from my parents. "you're 14, you need to remember this stuff", and if I set a reminder on my phone, I always swipe away the notification and forget about it without fail. it's annoying. i hate that.

I miss my fort from last year, my matress on the ground next to the window, my tv there, just. ofc it neglected the rest of my room but. i miss my own little space there. it was from a calmer time. it had problems like bugs (i found a cockroach crawling on the tv once at night), but otherwise, everything else was okay, i miss just. i miss that, i guess. maybe I should use that tv again, it still works, just not my PS4, the Wii U works though, so, maybe I'll try that.

I think about holding your hand alot, anywhere, I don't really care where it is, but lately I just. have the feeling it'd be nice to just hold your hand, like you're there with me, I've just been holding onto that pillows sleeve more and more, like im holding onto your hand, it keeps the comfort, it helps just a little, I wish it was real, I want to hold your hand. When we meet, I don't think I'll let go of it. ^^"

My dreams have all been,, upsetting as of late, probably because of my anxieties before I go to bed. it sucks, it gets me in a bad mood in the morning, but I'm trying not to lose my hope for atleast a better dream, if dreams reflect subconscious, then I just have to think good things before bed right? I surely try but, I don't know why they all end up bad, I have alot of bad days, but, during the evening, it gets a bit better, and then bad again, I don't know what's really been happening. A horrible nightmare, they're stressing me, but I need to stop thinking too hard on them, if I do, then nothing good is bound to happen.

I think of those bad opinions on me, I'm really no monster, I'm a traumatized 9 year old, a kid, a child, I'm little. I'm surviving in a world that's trying to kill me. I really just wanted to survive, that's all I wanted. sure I ate a nome and I ate the ladys fucking neck and probably did something else Im unaware of in source atm and didn't save those kids in the maw, but, I really am no monster. I swear and promise. I didn't want to be the "hero who saved the kids", I wanted out, to survive, cause I'm a fucking child. I wish everyone knew that. but who'd believe me, if anything, everyone else would think im crazy, that I'm not really six, that im most likely just delusional, and that upsets me. so I can't be honest. that's such a stupid reason but, yk, the anxieties. (fun not so fun fact! during those hunger pangs when i was playing the game and watching you play as well, my stomach felt like SHIT dude. </3)

Speaking of, depending on the ID, I hate referring to myself in 3rd person (unless im speaking in 3p at the time), it just bothers me and I feel separated from myself, and it hurts. with some its fine and others its not. and sometimes I fuck up, so I'll accidentally refer to myself in 1st person with an irl friend and they'll look confused, I mostly just go oops and correct myself but, god does it really hurt, alot. But I don't wanna be honest abt that since it's easier to just refer in 3rd. even I just do it out of habit, but it just gives me a bad feeling, like I'm not me, and the others aren't. the others. I don't know. maybe I just have issues and shit.

idk why but talking about that just reminded me of that time I met a double and got them banned from using tumblr. bro is that mad !!! but srsly I got like so mad in the dream and spam reported them and Tumblr was on my side and banned the account and ANY NEW ACCOUNTS THEY MADE. bro dream me is winning everyday (/lie im having frequent nightmares!! /silly)

it's hard to talk but also extremely easy to talk, the words come out but I don't want them to, like I don't really want to talk to anyone, of course I make my exceptions, if nobody could tell /silly but, idk, it feels meaningless to talk, I'd rather just. do stuff. not talk unless needed, but, when most your friends are online, you kind of need to talk most of the time, or nobody understands what you're saying, even on voice calls, not like I wanna have my camera on at all times (depending on the person), so, it's still useless, I don't exactly know what to do about this, I feel myself talking more and more even though I wanna talk less and less. oops I guess.

me and toaster talked, we're still friends, but we wont contact for awhile, or atleast not every day, i apologized, and so did he, i really do feel bad for acting like an asshole. but everything's okay now, and it'll all be okay.

seems im getting teary eyed writing,, all this, there's so much I'm saying, yet I say I wanna talk less, that's funny, isn't it? I've written so many thoughts down that it's been like 40 minutes at this point, that's funny, how much is really on my mind.

enjoy my thoughts and rambles, I know atleast one person will read this, waving!! sorry I ruined my sleep schedule again, I'll do better.. :')

Goodnight. ♡

[cringiestcroissant]

yknow i want to try and get better when the new year starts, i want to take better care of myself, better care of my pets, of my environment at home and help my dad n stepmom, i want to be better. it's just going to be extremely difficult seeing as ive hated myself since i was around 13 (im 26) and ive been under the impression for the last 13 years that i dont deserve any love or kindness because of stupid shit ive done in the past. i understand forgiving yourself is a must, but how can i when ive really hurt others? i dont like hurting anyone, not even those i hate or genuinely dont care for anymore.

this year has been a complete shitshow. easily the worst year of my life. i kinda get it really kicked me in the ass to get in gear and get my life back together, problem is im not sure im strong enough to do it. change is really hard for me, which includes my bad habits and addictions that i need to address. and if im unable to really fix and heal myself, im not sure if im gonna be able to keep myself from doing something stupid again. throughout my life ive been the kind of person that just ruins things. and even when i try and fix it, it doesnt always work out. i ruin things, i hurt others, and i wish to hurt myself all over again.

also, im sorry i havent got to the bob stuff, having this much attention suddenly kinda overwhelmed me a bit. the roleplaying part tbqh made me flashback to my old rp blog when i was younger and how much of a horrible toxic person i was. not to mention tumblr was very different back then than it is now, and with interacting with minors (as im not a minor anymore) i have to be very careful with what i post and who i interact with (since that blog ive just posted whatever i wanted without regarding who else would see it, i was just doing stuff for my own sake). ill answer the rps and give the kisses and hugs to whomever but im going to be mindful with what bob does from now on. i dont want to get myself or anyone else in trouble or make uncomfortable. i want this blog to be a happy safe space where others can feel welcome to interact with me. ill get to those rps and asks once the new year comes.

sigh

my paranoia knows no bounds. im trying here, i just have a lot going on and a lot of negative thoughts going through my mind. nothing unusual really.

#vent #aj's venting again move along

[dailyrandomwriter]

Day 16

When we talk about growing up and growing old, we often talk about the changes in technology, for good and for ill, we often talk about how we used to do things when we were younger and how things have changed so much. What we don’t often talk about, because most people don’t experience it, is changes to what is considered “best practice”.

It’s a term often used in the medical field, or anything that offers therapy. We may hear big companies use it when referring to their ethical practices. Unfortunately we also tend to hear this from big companies when they’re trying to justify an action that is giving them public relations issues. So it often seems like company jargon when we hear the term “best practice”.

But I want you to know that “best practice” is a thing, and what we may have experienced 5 or 10 years ago, may have changed. And things to do change.

Growing up I had done a lot of bloodwork and IVs (Intravenous) where a needle had to go into a vein in order to take blood or deliver medicine. It got to the point that, when I got older I would bruise easily when this was done. So often if I had to get an IV change, where it was before couldn’t be used again for a long while. My last surgery was back when I was finishing high school, and I wouldn’t end up in hospital again for 10 years.

When I ended up in hospital again, there was an additional action I had to take when bloodwork was done or an IV was taken out. Now, I had always been told to hold a cotton ball or gauze to the area that I had the needle, but I hadn’t until I ended up in hospital 10 years later to hold it down and press hard for a few minutes. I think probably five-minutes was the recommendation; it has been another 10 years since that happened. And what it does, is it prevents bruising, and more importantly if you had to have your blood drawn every day, it meant the same site could be used.

And that was a change made within 10 years. In fact another change I have never experienced but have changed, is the ideal of prepping yourself to be cleaned before your surgery. There are cleaning prep kits that are given to patients with instructions on how they should wash themselves (with stuff in the kit for it) before they go into surgery. This is probably to decrease the likelihood of infection.

And it’s amazing, but it also brings up an important thing we should all keep in mind. Because of the internet, we can ask people about their experiences in medicine, therapy and daily life. Always ask a person if they are giving their experience how long ago that experience was, and if it was 5 or more years ago, do your research. Find out what is “best practice” and who is doing those “best practices”. Is that practice mainstream, or is it just getting off the ground? Because we all know, 5, 10, 15, or 20 years ago, there were some practices and beliefs that were not only wrong but harmful. And while these practices may have changed, the name they exist under may have stayed the same. So be aware, as cynical as we like to be about how nothing changes, things do change. Make sure you know what those changes are, or better or for worse.

#life advice #best practice #things do change #advocating for getting updated information #because there are some horror stories about treatments from 10-15 years ago

[kithtaehyung]

Okay, im liking the drabbles bc my shitty recall memory can finally hang on to quotes i like!!

“Tae probably has something to do with this.” 🥺 im so excited for this side story!! this is so cute! Also Yoongi knows about them?? 👀

“Which is for the best. He probably shouldn’t stare while thinking about how those nails would feel digging into his back. Or how you would react if he pulled you into a stall, one palm clamped over your mouth while the other can’t decide where to start.” Excuse me!!??!!?? this fucking knocked me down. He is fucking feral for her on site in that dress!!! The nails!!! So visceral!!

“before looking over a shoulder he wants to kiss.” He’s so gone!!! It read like a passing thought to him, like of course he has thoughts/ideas/feelings about every little part of her, but as a reader it took me out! So sweet!

“Whoever gets to do that better do it right, and often.” Now hold up here! I know the situation they are in is rough, but where is the “ill figure something out” yoongi from 2 days ago?!?! Keep the faith man!! Figure it out! Im wondering how exactly he feels about the change in dynamic w/i friend groups etc, past the brother finding out, if he’s even let himself go there. And how he feels about it if he has.

Also… wondering if i could have an anon tag??I’m the anon who said this blog gave off back of the bus vibes so i figured 🚌 might be appropriate? Also this was me too.. ive written in a couple of other times before that but it took me so long to find that post for some context that that will just have to do lol

SDKJAJD omg.. this is so nice of you? you can totally have the bus emoji i think it'll always remind me of that beautiful description you wrote!!😭

for the quotes: YESS i will happily expand on the side story if it allows. i'm sure it'll come about organically, so get excited! righttt how the heck does yoongi know??

AHAHA as soooon as yoongi saw reader in that dress?? with those nails?? he was done for. finished. his brain just hard reset and he could barely hang onto any thoughts whatsoever! even with the shoulder thing :(( you're so right, they're just passing thoughts at this point he isn't even holding back in his mind. completely different from the OG 3tan, yeah? like he would think things but stop himself.. this time it's just facts that he's admitting.

i know :')) this is why yoongi povs are pretty dang important glimpses bc these thoughts are Him. what he admits and thinks to himself. so of course he knows in his mind that reader's not his :((( at least, publicly. once we get other povs from him, maybe your other questions will be answered!

my gosh, that message you linked was fantastic thank you for that and for all of the ones you sent in before😭😭 now that you have an emoji you can look back on them all once i start tagging :D thank you for reading and here's to the next part!

#🚌 anon #asks:3tan #lovely people #3tan8.5 #this is so nice i love the quotes you chose?? #and the commentary? #thank you!! #*ryenfictalk #mailbox💌

[otherkingwolfie]

im probably going to be hated for this, for absolutely no reason, but-

i looked at lavendertownes redesigns of the hazbin hotel character's, and in my mind, i fought "damn, these look ugly", but i also shouldn't think that, because lavendertowne hasnt done proper research, and hasn't fully watched the show, before she redrew them (well i think those, because i haven't seen her video on redesigning the hazbin hotel character's, and i only know about this, from the commentery (cant spell properly.) side of youtube.

i also drew these mostly, because i was bored, and not to exactly hate on lavendertownes designs, even tho i did just type in, that i think some of her redesigns look abit ugly (especially angel dust's redesign she did.) and because i just felt like doing this for fun. (i feel the twitter users are going to hate me for this, or probably think im lying, when im not. also please dont come after me twitter, im just an artest, thats just doing what she loves doing. wich is drawing.)

well anyways, i randomly desided to redesign her redesigns, while still tryna keep in parts of lavendertownes redesigns in.

i was actually going to try and do these redesigns in the poses lavendertown drew them in, for all of them, but then i decided not to, when sketching niffty.

anyways- i wanted to try and keep in the fact that her redesign of alastor was more of yellow, while still keeping it fully red, but because orange exists, it kinda looked strange, so i didn't do it. again, since i didn't watch her video, i dont know what she was going for, where i put the white part, of the design, that was near his tie. other than all of that, alastor in this, just looks like alastor with a weird ear design, and in a different outfit. i also changed alastors hair abit, to match lavendertownes hair design, while still keeping in the deer parts. also another thing, was that i was to lazy to give alastor shoes, so i just drew hooves, instead.

next up i drew niffty. i desided to keep in the horns, and change it up alittle. i also kinda colored in the horns, kinda like how female hellborn imps horns look like, in vivzipops version of hell. for the hair, i dont know what i was doing, when i was drawing the part of pink hair, that is around nifftys cheek, but i couldn't get myself, to get rid of it, so its just- there. another detail with the hair, is that i made a pink and yellow pattern at the back, and i made a part of her hair a darkish pinkish redish color because i kinda liked the idea. and i also kept the white pupil, and changed some of the pink on her outfit, to black. basically i drew niffty in that way, to be a mix of her actual design, and lavendertownes.

oh yeah, i also kept in the splotches from nifftys cannon design, in.

anyways, for vaggie, i feel like i coulda done better (mostly her hairstyle.) but other than that, i desided to use the dark blue, lavendertowne used when she was shading vaggies hair, and i also kept the design of how she drew in the sleeves. also instead of making the outfit white, like how she did, i made it the vivzipop reddish pink colour, and i made the buttons on the outfit, the dark bluish grayish colour, because i fought that the buttons being two separate colours would be intresting. other then those, i made her socks (i think thats what they are.) pink, white and that darkish blueish gray colour, because i felt like it.

also i should say that, vaggie is not finished, since i still need to add in the highlights, that ive added onto the other ones.

anyways, i woulda done all of em, but im not gonna do them all in one go.

also, i have no idea if im going to beable to mix angel dusts cannon design, with lavendertownes redesign, but when i get to him, ill try to.

anyways, im not gonna tag this, so have fun finding this, you insane hazbin hotel fans, and insane twitter users. (if you do find this. again, please dont hate me, for doing this.)

[thisisanude]

like i love him so much i can’t imagine a life without him ive been so sure about him being in my future for so long now i mean we’re almost at 5 years and there were small parts of our relationship where i became uncertain mostly that one late summer/fall where i was posting a lot on this… but aside from those few months ive been so sure that we would be together forever. and after those few months ended and we fixed things for the most part and he got less mentally ill or. more like stopped projecting his mental illness on me. but now it’s just like. even weirder because those few months i was distancing myself from him and i feel like he could tell and he was trying to be better and then the next few months after that he was like genuinely the best boyfriend ever. and THEN when he HIMSELF brought up the fact that i want to fuck women and he was like yes you should do it that was when i was like i want to marry this man on the spot rn. and then he changed his mind )-: how could he change his mind again! he seemed so sure this time he seemed so confident in our relationship and so comfortable and trustworthy. and i don’t know what changed. i don’t i really don’t but i regret not making the situation work for him because i remember thinking this is my chance i don’t wanna blow it i need to make sure he doesn’t regret changing his mind he needs to be happy in his decision i need to be the best gf ever i need to make him horny from the fact not jealous. however i didn’t really try that hard and then he changed his mind and i regret asking him about it when he was in a bad mood because maybe he would’ve been more understanding if i asked him about it in a good mood. i literally feel crazy like im begging my boyfriend to fuck a woman and of course he’s gonna feel jealous but God why can’t i have both. i really feel like i need both. and every time we have a disagreement now im like wow i should break up with him because i want to fuck women but really the things we fight about are minor. sometimes he’s mentally ill and i’ve learned to not really be bothered by it and then he gets over it and apologizes and i don’t apologize unless i genuinely feel like i’ve done something wrong and i wonder if me being less concerned and more like just Ok whatever makes him feel like i don’t care about the relationship. it’s honestly also the fact that if i have more reasons to break up with him other than just i need to have lesbian sex or else i can’t live a fulfilling life and if he’s doing a bunch of stuff wrong and being annoying and starting fights over small things and not being understanding and empathetic then he’s not the same guy i fell in love with and i should leave anyway. because i cannot imagine a world where i break up with him for the sole reason of needing to fuck women and then not regret it. i would 10000% regret it. but the thing is. i would be in so much pain regardless! if he truly did a lot of things wrong and didn’t apologize and it got worse than it is now and i broke up with him i would be so sad i would be devastated. i’m in love with him ive never felt this way before i thought i was in love in my past relationship but that wasn’t even close to how i feel now. i want to build a future with him how could i want to tear that all down? the thing is i want to build a future with perfect him the nice him when he’s not being super mentally ill and also when he’s comfortable in our relationship and our trust to allow non monogamy. i literally WISH SO BAD he was even attracted to other people but ofc he has to be demi sexual so only sexually attracted to people he is romantically attracted to. that is not the case at all for me so that’s really unfortunate that we can’t relate at all on this topic. and what if he was doing a bunch of stuff wrong and i broke up with him and then all i could think about is when he was so good and all the times he’s helped me and all the times he was a great boyfriend. and all the times i wasn’t the best girlfriend. because of course im not perfect either but i never really pick fights idk

#mine #love #dc #monogamy

[mu-pt1]

nobody makes it like us (GEN3)

sometimes, when you have an opportunity, you should take it. since the last time I was here, things have changed. im alone again. ive gone back to no one. ive gone back to momo. recently, ive realized I have an opportunity. an opportunity that ive waited on for many many years. since before I was 10 infact. tomorrow, I will take that opportunity. its not something that should be lost. this is a life changing event and I want to experience it even if its my last. I have to do this. ive taken all the steps I need in order to prepare. I just need to finish cleaning and ill be done. this account has done great things for me. its given me a person to talk to. that person is whoever is reading this. ive spoken about many events in my life and thought carefully about how ive gotten here. to the person I am today. im unsure if the person I am today is the person I want to be tomorrow. or anymore. ive gone through great emotions. not great as in good but great as in extreme. those emotions, I dont feel anymore. I dont feel happy. I dont feel sad. I dont feel pity. I dont feel anything. I just feel like im staring at a screen, typing anything that comes to mind. I cant remember who I am or what I used to do. I cant remember how I used to live and if I must spend the rest of my life feeling this way then I will not spend the rest of my life at all. im tired of waiting on someone to reach out. im tired of waiting on people. im tired of it all. this opportunity is a matter that should be taken seriously. very seriously. seriousness is something I was never given. not by my mom. not by my sister. not by my friends. but one day, as I was waking up, a being came to me. it gave me an idea and it made me realize that if I take this chance, then I will understand my full potential. i may seem crazy right now but this is not something that should be pushed aside. as I thought on this more, I realized, this is my chance. I have the full freedom to do so. everything in my life has aligned perfectly to this moment and tomorrow. or today rather. is my time. I dont need food. I dont need water. I need to open my skin and allow myself to be free. this might be my goodbye post. if it is so. I love you.