#and im stuck with her mess

[distressedoverajinx]

Im tired. I'm so fucking tired and I wish I didn't rely on my boyfriend to give me emotional support. I wish I was normal. I wish I was healthy. Instead I'm autistic and traumatized and not one day goes by where I'm not suicidal. I want to be healthy, but I can't because my fucking dead cripple of a mother decided to fuck an emotionally stunted man child gulf war vet and now not only do I have the physical chronic health issues from both sides but I have cPTSD and so much fucking anxiety and depression that I just want to off myself. Existence is pain and I never asked for this.

#personal #ptsd thoughts #vent blog #tw: sucide mention #suicide tw #im using cripple as a slur here and im sorry for that but my mom deserves it. #she was a terrible person #and im stuck with her mess

[lovesickeros]

☆ even the gods bleed [ pt 2 ]

{☆} characters furina, neuvillette {☆} notes cult au, imposter au, multi-chapter, gender neutral reader {☆} warnings none {☆} word count 1.9k {☆} previous [ 1 ]

This had to be a punishment of some sort – some kind of divine punishment.

She was bored out of her mind just watching the sleeping body – she hadn't blinked once in the past five hours, her eyes were really starting to hurt. Yet they still hadn't moved so much as an inch since she sequestered them away to the only place she had known to be safe.

But it'd been almost a week since then.

The only solace she found was that Teyvat had seemed much less hellbent on collapsing in on itself like a dying star.

That counted for something.

Not much, but something!

..Even if their position was no better then it was a week ago.

There was, after all, still the issue of what to do about the false Creator – the actual imposter – and the Archons following them like blind lambs. The other Archons wouldn't listen if she tried to reason with them, and it would only risk the life of Divine One if she spoke of their location to anyone else.

She also was pretty fond of having her head still attached to her shoulders.

So she avoided them all together. Partially because she wasn't sure she wouldn't have a breakdown at the sight of them..she'd never been a fighter, and fighting an Archon? Easy pass.

Instead she was forced to babysit the sleeping Divine until they woke up while Neuvillette handled taking care of the nation and dealing with the other Archons – and by extension the false Creator.

Really though, she would almost think them dead if not for the subtle rise and fall of their chest.

Though..this also left her with a lot of time to herself. A lot of time to think.

She really didn't like it.

There wasn't a lot to occupy her mind and what little there was only distracted her for a scant few moments before her eyes drifted back to the Divine like she was locked in their orbit, unable to escape.

She closed the same book for the twelfth time – she kept count – and returned it to it's meticulously designed place within her bookcase. A low, barely audible huff of frustration escaped her lips before she could bite it down, her stare boring a hole into the body of the Divine One with a sharp intensity she rarely showed.

She was tired, bored and constantly on edge, fearing that at any moment someone would find out about their presence here.

That, at the drop of a hat, she would be powerless to stop the greatest tragedy of her time play out before her eyes.

Neuvillette would have scolded her for being so petulant, especially around the Divine One, if he were here.

But he wasn't.

He was out running her nation, instead.

And what was she doing? Nothing!

She grit her teeth, nails digging harshly into the palm of her hands as she took a deep breath – now was not the time to think about that. She had..much more pressing matters. Sulking and letting her thoughts spiral helped no one, least of all herself.

Yet her attention was caught by a harsh inhale, the rustle of fabric – were they finally waking up? She was exhausted, but it all vanished at the sudden drop of life within the otherwise deathly still body of the Divine.

Her eyes followed the subtle twitch of their fingers, watching as their brow furrowed and their features twisted in something almost like..pain.

..She wasn't ready.

What was she supposed to say?

Should she even say anything? Would that be considered impolite? Does she wait for them to speak first? Should she kneel? Bow?

She doesn't get much time to find her own answer before their lashes flutter, chest heaving with every strangled breath. Every single thought vanishes from her mind the moment she meets their eyes.

For a long, silent moment she thinks that her heart must have stopped.

Their eyes glow like the cresting of the sun over the horizon, painting the world in hues of gold – yet it also reminded her of the dipping of the moon below the waves, casting the briefest, most gentle of lights upon the world engulfed in darkness. In the depths of their eyes was the birth and death of stars in the infinite cosmos – glittering stars in a sea of empty, blank space that left her feeling lightheaded and breathless.

Beneath the splendor is a spark of recognition in their eyes so vibrant it was like a shooting star piercing through the dark night sky, leaving nothing but the wonder in the eyes of the observer as the only proof it ever existed – brilliant in it's beauty, however brief.

It is the most beautiful thing she has ever seen.

"Focalors?"

The lilt of their voice nearly made her knees buckle beneath her – euphoria so consuming it left her feeling she was starving swallowed her whole, her mind blanking in a moment of utter bliss. It was..an indescribable feeling that she doubted she could ever hope to put into words – not in a way that could properly express it, try as she might.

She swallowed the words that threatened to spill from her lips – she couldn't make a fool of herself. Not in front of them of all people. She'd never forgive herself.

"Divine One," She rasps, clearing her throat and covering her mouth with a hand to mask both her nervousness and the small smile that creeps across her face. She quickly regains her composure, hand resting on her hip as she puffs out her chest with every bit of pride she can manage. "I am sure you must be confused, but worry not– your most loyal acolyte has seen the truth!"

The silence is deafening.

She opens one eye, peaking at the bewildered and almost distraught expression of the Divine.

"What the hell are you talking about?"

That..she was not prepared for. Surely they knew who they were! Surely they knew. They had to– she's been praying to them for as long as she's breathed, she's dedicated every hour of her life to living up to their ideals, they can't just–!

"Lady Furina?"

Neuvillette, thankfully, spares her the embarrassment of having a meltdown in front of the Divine, the gentle rap of his knuckles against the door making her and the Divine pause, the soft lull of his voice soothing her nerves and yet setting her on edge at the same time.

"Neuvillette." She clears her throat again, her steps hurried as she marches to the door and pries it open none too gently, a forced smile pulling at her lips. She wastes no time tugging the man into the room, shutting the door behind him with a short huff. The silence is, somehow, even worse then before as the three of them stare at each other in absolute exasperation.

Neuvillette, for his part, manages to get his act together with a sharp clearing of his throat, bowing so low even she looks unnerved. She steals a brief glance at the Divine, and she's taken aback by the uncomfortability twisting their features into a grimace.

Their expression is schooled back into one of empty apathy when he stands back to his full height, but she saw it – she knows she did! Did they not like their worship? Were they not respectful enough? For a moment, she feared the Divine would smite Neuvillette down on the spot..but they just stared at him like he was a ghost.

"Why aren't you killing me?"

The defeated, resigned tone combined with the way their voice cracks makes her heart ache in her chest – it feels as though her entire world is crumbling down at her feet, and she cannot explain why she feels such emotions so strongly, but it is suffocating. It is almost as if Teyvat itself is weeping, bearing down upon her shoulders like a heavy weight.

She feels the urge to weep herself, but she powers through, gritting her teeth long enough for Neuvillette to take his place at the side of her – though it feels more like their – bed, kneeling like he was going to pray.

"Divine One," He offers a hand with a quiet rumble of his voice, the words slipping off his tongue like honey. It's like trying to soothe a stray cat..though she'd never voice such comparisons of the most Divine out loud. "I..we mean you no harm. I swear on my authority as the Iudex of Fontaine and Chief Justice that you are safe with us."

The skepticism she expected, but the reverence in which Neuvillette must convince them – or perhaps they are simply so tired that they simply did not care any longer if it was all some ploy to drive a knife between their ribs. She didn't expect them to actually place their hand in Neuvillette's.

He didn't either, judging by the way he visibly brightened – not that they'd notice, but she did.

..Not that she could really blame him, her heels clicking against the floorboards as she shifted her weight to the other foot with a nervous energy that was practically bursting at the seams, more then a little jealous of the attention he was receiving. She was the one who found them, she was the one who stayed with them the entire time..but he gets all the attention?

How unfair.

"O-of course! We would never lay a hand on our creator," She adds, her voice a little higher pitched then she would have liked as she placed her hands on her hips, puffing out her chest and brushing off the sting of jealousy. "Least of all I– your most loyal, most devout acolyte!"

She felt baffled when she heard the sound of their laughter, her shoulders hunching and her cheeks flushing on mere instinct – she was expecting mockery, but the look in their eyes, still dulled by a pain she cannot even begin to imagine, made her hesitate.

..It was, perhaps, the most genuine thing she'd heard from them ever since before the hunt began.

She wasn't sure why her heart hurt at such an idea, but it was enthralling to see the beginnings of a half hearted smile on their lips.

For a moment, her mask of theatrics was forgotten as she stared at them in a mixture of awe and adoration– and though she didn't look at Neuvillette, she could imagine he must've shared such an expression.

Had she any doubts that they were her Creator, that they alone were the most Divine..they would wiped clean now. There was no mistaking the way the world itself seemed to grow clearer as they glanced up at her like she was worth something.

For a moment, she realized how cold the false Creators gaze had been now that she has felt warmth so gentle it almost made her knees buckle beneath her. It felt like a pale imitation, now.

Nothing could compare to the warmth that spread through her body at the mere semblance of a smile upon their lips. She didn't even mind if it was her they were laughing at anymore, she just wanted to hear them laugh again.

She'd make a fool of herself, if she had to.

She'd never felt so..ravenous for such a thing, but just the briefest glimpse was addictive.

She simply couldn't help herself from striding across the room and clasping their free hand in her own, her smile wide enough to unnerve as she leaned her weight onto the bed. For a moment, she considered pulling away at the way they startled, but her mind was made up by then – there was no going back.

"Again."

#sagau #genshin sagau #self aware genshin #genshin impact sagau #self aware genshin impact #fic tag #neuvillette #focalors #furina #dont ask what happened here idk #this was. also supposed 2 be neuvi focused and then i. #dont talk 2 me abt focalors i wont ever shut up #got a 300k word essay on hand abt how i feel abt her character/how i interpret her personality and her story #focalors jsut like me fr fr (cries at the slightest inconvenience or the slightest mean comment) #shes so pathetic girlfail im gonna chew on her #what happens when reader gets stuck with two emotionally repressed french bastards?? hell #neuvi is the “emotionless” flavor of emotionally repressed in that hes HORRIBLE at showing emotions at all #ask him to smile and its incredibly unnerving and theres too many teeth but hes trying his best please call him pretty or he will cry :( #furina is the flavor of emotionally repressed where she makes it up by having Too Many emotions #using theatrics and masks to show everyone what they want to see but inside this girl is a MESS #constant anxiety and panic 24/7 #will do random shit and look at you and if u dont compliment her she will think u hate her and cry #compliment her and she'll do even stupider shit to try and impress you more #i love my scrunkly little babies they r so stupid and mentally ill someone get these bitches some THERAPY #i want 2 put them under a microscope #watch this be ooc fr furina when more of her lore drops if shes not girlfail im leaving #anyway see u in a week im going on a trip ill get back 2 u in 6-7 business days

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[dizzybizz]

what a goofy gooper. what a goopy goober. what a goopy gooper. whouphfh oghhf aughfh goop goopyg ooper-

#dog mode is my fave thing ever what the fuck #just roll with it #jrwi riptide #ij ust misspelled riptide as riptdie 😭😭😭😭😭😭 #jrwi goobleck #my art #all bc gill drew a card #i cant get over that fact sorry #im on 78 . like it was really funny when he drew it back in ep 74 but man #hey when is it jays turn to be stuck facing her demons and the horrors #chip n gill have had their “changed by the horrors” character developments #their three peas in a pod jay is getting there sometime #ig the block could sorta count in a way hmm #but i mean solo yknow . facing yourself. your worst fears. delving deep in the farthest reaches of your mind and thoughts. yknow #i lov ethem i swear i jus tlike when the story gets rlly messed up sometimes adn the characters r permanently changed as a result

[inuhodo]

[passes away on the ground] finally drew reference for my sheppy... her tattoos are soooo funny to me but its moe... shepard needs to be a bit lame. the threshermaw tat is cool as hell tho thanks me3 for having that thing in a cave... also she is 6'4"

#i am Burning #mass effect #dan shepard #she had diff tats and a diff look in me1 but imnot drawing everything again me1 was her flop era #the krogan was 'kalros' in cyrillic -> i messed with the letters -> stuck the vowels to their consonants = boom krogan writing #im also not using the word 'paragade' to describe the fact she was a 51/49 para/rene split like it was DIRE

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

Hello! I have come asking for you to info-dump about the the modern human au. I full of brain rot of them (especially after the last thing you posted about them, damn) Maybe you can tell us a bit more Sally!!

lucky for you, i've been full of that good ol brainrot As Well! thoughts! feelings! ideas! i got em!

so since we're already on the subject of the Crash Arc, allow me to expand on it for a moment before i get to Sally Thinkings! if you've read the snippet, you may have noticed the extent of Wally's injuries was not listed yet. well! he got messed up with a capital F! since it's fiction and i'm god in this scenario, i'm veering slightly away from realistic damage, immediate & lasting. bc lets be real. if i stuck to "this is as realistic as i can make it", then Wally would be aaaaaabsolutely fucked. it was a bad crash in a very unsafe vehicle at high speeds. like - this is what happened. a drunk driver hit Home going 70 down the freeway. swerve, fishtail, tumble down a (small, shallow, really its more like a glorified ditch) ravine with trees and rocks and shit on it. absolute miracle that Wally didn't die in the crash, let alone during the solid half hour (slightly longer) he was trapped in Home before someone noticed the crash site and called emergency personnel. Wally "hanging up" on Barnaby was actually the impact jarring him so he slipped and hit the end call button. but yeah without going into technicalities and detail, Wally has some lasting damage in his dominant hand. It takes extensive physical therapy for him to be able to paint/draw again at the same level he had been at. the hematoma hadn't done a lot of brain damage that wouldn't resolve itself with time. in my mind, when Wally wakes up in the hospital, for a few days he's very confused and his memory is shot. he'll wake up, interact, then go to sleep, but when he wakes up again its like waking up for the first time again. he just can't retain memories for a bit. he's got some severe brain fog. his mood is also kinda fucked with - he's uncharacteristically irritable with low patience, etc. these are all things that clear up with time, but in my mind Wally has chronic migraines going forward. bad ones! and there are days where it's harder fr him to concentrate. and yk. a teeny bit of chronic pain where his shin bone was pinned back together and where his hand was essentially crushed. but other than that he's fine going forward! good days and bad days!

but enough about that! You Want To Hear About Sally!

i imagine that she becomes quite successful in the theater industry. i'm not too familiar with it myself, so i'm gonna be uh. Vague about it? but she starts her own theater troupe - it's a bit of a commute from home base to the town she works in, where the theater is located in, but she makes it work! of the group, she's probably away more than any of them. working on shows, traveling to work on other ones - i like to think she's been on Broadway! she probably has had opportunities to do tv/movie acting, but idk... i feel like Sally would be like "nah. live shows or nothing". maybe at some point she takes up voice acting gigs, as long as she can do them from home. she probably has her own little room-turned-VA-studio thing. idk how that works either! it seems right! but yes Howdy's store's automated messages and advertisements are in Sally's voice. she's probably picked up a temporarily modeling gig here and there.

so Sally is very very busy. Poppy is supportive. everyone is, and they all love to help out when they can - and reel Sally in when the "stardom" starts to get to her head. they do their best to acclimate to occasionally getting jumpscared by her voice in a grocery store or in. idk. fashion shoots. victoria's secret billboards. that last one was a joke! maybe. i think she would.

i also like to imagine Sally like... getting some sort of award and then spending a solid five minutes naming her friends, thanking them with specificity, and then plugging their own stuff. they probably have a rotation for who accompanies her as her plus one for events and parties she may or may not be invited to. she's not like... a Big celebrity but! she's Known and Liked! she has Connections! i like to imagine her and Wally looking dapper as fuck at a Venue...

so the friend group typically stays together, with Sally going off to do her Things the most. she makes sure to schedule time to be with her friends and girlfriend/wife/Poppy between work and gigs and etc. she somehow finds a balance with Ease. or apparent ease... someone get this girl a vacation...

#lmao now im thinking about them all scheduling a joint vacay #sally is having the time of her life getting to Relax and just Pamper Herself #everyone else is also greatly enjoying the break #except howdy. he's a mess. to him relaxing is working. things are too calm. too quiet. understim effect x100 #on that vein ive been thinking about a covid arc and its. Funny #and domestic! #where are the covid fics of characters getting stuck together during lockdown... #rambles from the bog #wh modern human au #but yes been thinking about the au a lot #ive decided that wally does eventually get a job that he actually Enjoys! #previously he was just doing his indie art and such. bc he'd try a job and be like 'wow. i hate this. this is stupid. bye' #his art brings in more money anyway. he's living that miraculous imaginary life where art provides reliable sustainable income #enough so that barnaby doesn't need a full time job! bc this is fiction and i want them to have an easy life #in this specific area anyway #i would like them to live in a world where its slightly kinder... the housing crisis doesnt exist... one can live on minimum wage... #also thinking more about their homes and such. etc!

[cherry-treelane]

everytime i watch shameless I get hit with a jolt of sickness and remember how frank and monica stole fionas life from her and she'll never get it back because it never existed because she was a sister first her whole life (from the age of 4) and everything else second and its always just so casual in the show and normal and rarely touched upon but it's not normal at all and it's tragic

#another post made at 2am that i found in the drafts #but my god its messed up how frank and monica got to live their own lives and how the kids got to have aspirations kinda but fiona was just #always stuck with the feeling of being stuck #cause she was forced to devote a largeee chunk of her life to servitude #its so unbelievably telling of frank and monicas innate selfishness above anything else imo : #their willingness to fulfil their mutual desire to extend the feeling of things such as youth and excitement and fun #to the point that they stripped their own daughter of the ability to experience childhood #education #etc #my memory is hazy but frank definitely was in college and i think monica was too? either way they both got to finish HS / experience it #but not fiona!!! its the opposite of parents sacrificing so their children can have more #they had more than fiona did and didnt give a shit about the fact that they just took from her #(obviously im not saying they had rosy perfect lives as kids teens and young adults— far from it actually) #(but its shockingly clear that they had a great deal more than fiona...or at least less on their plates...) #like when frank speaks of being a boy in college #its like.. these opportunities he threw away while fiona would've loved to have them but instead she had to drop out of HS #against her will #like yes its complicated but bottom line is its just sad how frank and monica were both afforded with control over their lives to a degree #while all of fionas life decisions carried the weight of her whole family and she didnt get to have independent control over her life #like for example she didnt drop out of HS cause she actually wanted to #she just didn't have any other choice

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[surreal-duck]

when the honey is working idk i dont listen to the songs

#theres no work today and ill still be stuck here for a while so im messing around on krita #duck scribbles #doodles #honeyworks #sorry its like mostly aizou hes just rather fun to draw and i like seeing him in despair #good to know i can still draw them though #funny thing actually my friend was talking abt kawaikute gomen bc of it going viral so i introduced her to the rest of hworks #she seemed interested in lxl in particular and im afraid i have made her a fan. so i drew these

[cl0wn-republic]

Hot Take but Cozy Glow and Starlight Glimmer should've switches places

Cozy should've been redeemed (SHES FIVE!!) while Starlight got to be one of the big bads along with Chrysalis and Tirek and got turned into a statue

Like the cult leader got redeemed but not the 5 year old??

I wouldn't be mad if they both got redeemed but since they chose the cult leader over the literal child im gonna be upset

#It'd be cool if she came back in the new mlp series but also insanely fucked up!!!! #like this 5 year old was frozen in time for thousands of years!!!! #Everyone she knew or knew of her is gone aside from the adults that got her stuck in this mess in the first place!!! #like the new gen ponies learning the main 6 turned a child into a statue would be horrifying for them to learn #mlp #my little pony #Every so often I get reminded of this fact and I always make a post about it lol #plus the one time they unfroze her was for a mobile game event where she was a boss lmao!! im not counting that like???

[astro-inthestars]

.....

Mm.

#rennikorambles #/neg ... sigh #no she didnt reject me #no i didnt mess up #no ididnt even CHICKEN OUT. #i had everything i had my courage i had my words i had my loose plan ready i was ready. #i wasnt gonna chicken out. and the worse that could happen i knew was that she wasnt ready. #i had high hopes. youve seen a glimpse of the hype havent you guys? #but of course. the one . ONE thing that could ruin everything. isnt me. isnt laurel. but the world it-fucking-self. #the auditions were canceled and we didnt know. our teacher told our class prez but he didnt tell us. or the very least laurel #didnt send it in any gcs and everything. and im not even upset about the auditions ofc im not. sure i care about it but #it could all move to a year later and i wouldn't care . or well i would of course but just.. #but the fact that i had all this hope for this one moment for this one CHANCE and it all goes down the fucking drain #her friend (and by extension mine) lets call her Brash Girl which you can expect how she is. was literally just caught up in the whole thing #and of course with her stuck with us i couldnt do anything. #dragged me to 7-11 to mope about our teacher who canceled the auditions and. #.... yeah. no shot. nothing. laurel asked her mom to pick her up. i watch her leave. i leave. the end. #after all that effort. all that dreaming. all that hoping nothing. #i know it's not the end of the world. i know i'll get another chance. but god does it fucking suck. #im exhausted and disappointed and tired and i. i dont know. #i need a breather.

[youretoosweetforme]

I’m about ten or fifteen years too young to be dealing with this shit, but here i am.

#my sister adores provoking people #but she does not adore the results #and yeah. my dad responding to it by pretending hes going to stab her with a fork isnt a great response AT ALL #and both of them are definitely in the wrong #but then my dad tells me to tell my sister he still loves her (do that yourself??? its not my job) #and my sister responds with ‘well it doesnt seem like it’ #like. this is so fucked up #my dad goes hella overkill and my sister thinks she should be untouchable #and im stuck cleaning up the mess #i cant drink yet. i cant move out. i cant even drive. my parents need to know my exact location always. #but its okay for them to make me clean up their shit #i fucking hate it #antiopa

[silverskye13]

I'm reading The Ruins right now and realizing I watched approximately 10 minutes of the movie based on this book. This serves to make the current plot both really, unbearably slow and kind of stupid--

#spazzcat barks #spazzcat reads #its a horror book about killer plants because im doing research for the horror fic about killer sculk i wanna write #this is in theory a good idea except i now know what the monster [plants] is -- since i recognize the movie #im a bit intruiged tbh because i watched enough of the movie to know what The Horrors TM are but not how the mcs make it out #or how many of them die #now im stuck waiting on the characters to Figure Shit Out while becoming increasingly aware of the author's blatant attempts #to make their inevitable deaths tragic #Stacy is nicknamed Space-y because shes haha so random and dumb and Too Pure For This Scenerio #Amy is a horrible pessimist if we listened to her we wouldnt be in this mess -- but by Tragedy Rules b/c shes a pessimist we dont listen #xyz guy characters who want to be doctors or teachers who had their whole lives ahead of them etc etc #i will say noticeable improvement from movie to book: #in the movie this takes place in somewhere vaguely tropical [amazon] with wild angry natives trapping the MCs #it was incredibly random and incredibly racist #in the book the Mayans in a Described Location (not random) have a known language barrier #and it is Stacy (Space-y) panicking coupled with the language barrier that puts the MCs in contact with the Evil Monster Plants #and the Mayans knowing these kids are doomed now force them to stay in monster plants to keep them from spreading from a Contained Location #it makes logical sense and isnt steeped in terrible racism #so good for the book i guess

[4giorno]

so hard when you dont know if the drawing youre working on is a case of "trust the process and it will be great" or "just delete it and start over and itll be great on the next attempt"

#with my drawing of furina it was both like i almost finished a piece but hated it so much that i started over from scratch #and it was so much better and then it was in the ugly stage for SO. LONG. but i trusted the process #and the end result was something i liked and that really fit my mental image of her #i FINALLY finished neuvi so im on the final drawing and its arle and. i hate it so much hfkfjdjd its so painful #bc i really loved my thumbnail sketch and i wanna do a good job bc i love her #(and lets be honest i am getting extremely burnt out on this project LMAO i never manage to complete anything #that i conceptualize as a series of drawings so the fact that ive done 3 already is almost a miracle) #.......anyway bro i wish so bad that i had formal art training #last time i was taught art was middle school and lets be real. that wasnt actual art education LMAO #i think we went once to a little museum of an important poet to study a bust sculpture and thats it #also i somehow graduated without doing my final project bc i was stuck and had to restart but the teacher didnt let me #and then ignored me and refused to help so i just didnt do it 💀 #wow what a mess of a post

[esmeralda-juniper]

the more i play the first game the more i'm over 4's over reliance on the whole 50's retrofuturism being shoved down my throat

#like in theory i like the idea a lot #its just the whole idea it stays the same way for 100 years #THEN another 200 years later people are still like that #or at least such a large city like boston would be like that #dead money does this in a better way #it's one small thing literally stuck in the past but also shows the pitfalls of it staying that way #'let go!! <- 'that's not the hard part its letting go!! <-that still messes me up tbh #3 introduced bethy esdas obsession with those aesthetics #then turned it up x1000 in 4 #i know i've done it too imagined mira like that but im kind of over it/her staying that way in the wasteland at least not for very long

[phosphophylight-of-my-life]

reading i married an anti-fan rn and the FL is genuinely so. naively self-centred. not in the sense that she's selfish, but she thinks she has more power than she actually does and never pauses to consider her employers' interests.

like. she desperately needs money and is in debt, and then she goes and pisses off one of her employer's most important clients? she gets fired because of this, and blasts it to ALL the news agencies she knows of? she's an aspiring reporter, so this means all her potential employers?? she's letting them know that she'll ruin a relationship with their clients and see nothing wrong with it. i know she was drunk at the start and was dealing with a bad break up, but still. way to ruin your own career. she even takes to the streets yelling about how evil the most popular super idol is, as if she isn't an entertainment reporter who surely know that rabid fans exist. was she trying to get beat up and bullied online? and she's doing all this with the aim of getting the client she pissed off to convince her company to reinstate her job. the same company where her former supervisor already hates her for causing so much trouble for throwing a shoe at the client. where she was already very unhappy at to begin with. that job? you want it back? you'll be stuck at your role or worse until the supervisor leaves the company. and yeah, spreading a smear campaign is sure to work against an extremely popular and wealthy individual who has already proven that he can get you fired. there's definitely no way he has lawyers who can make your life even worse than it already was.

as far as i can tell this story is going to take the 'fake contract marriage' route, and no wonder and good for her because there's no way she's going to get a conventional job after this, and even if she did she'll blow it up and angrily blame others for it afterwards

#manhwa #am i supposed to root for her??? im getting 2nd hand embarrassment #she really needs help #like sorry the ML is also not great but he's not terrible either and im starting to think he deserves better than her #you'll be stuck cleaning up her messes the rest of your life with her as your partner #zero financial literacy and zero ability to navigate the workplace #<- here you can see my 'peak romance is someone you can handle your finances and legal issues with' mindset #you have stories that go 'oh the employer has so much more power than me it's so unfair and dehumanising :(' #and then you have. this. #like her worklife was not great but it also isnt as unfair as she made it out to be

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That last episode of the bear my God why did no one warn me

#the bear #im a mess #my mom has never been that dramatically violent but yeah that's her and oh my god #do normal people just like?? watch this show?? #also I think things are better w carmy stuck ina fridge he should stay there

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// i wanted to write tonight but im just an eepy guy today.... work was Not fun and i'm not looking forward to tomorrow thanks to my boss' antics recently soooooo im just gonna go to bed and maybe harass some people's inboxes if the mood strikes i think...

#ooc. #tbd // #personal // #i am :) #love being used to clean up the messes that the other groom leaves #love being paid literal pennies to pick up after everyone else and i STILL get told #it doesn't seem like i want to be there #that i don't enjoy the job #like. wow i wonder why that's the case #i wonder why i'd hate it there when you refuse to pay me a LEGAL wage #but still expect me to drop everything to get to your yard when you fucked up scheduling #i could have been somewhere earning £125 at LEAST for the day tomorrow #and instead i'm stuck on her yard for £65. for nine hours work #sorry i just needed to complain fghsghhgjfd #im gonna go and lay in bed #and think about tetcho #because i just think that he's. neat!