#and im very obsessive which isnt always bad

[caffeinatedopossum]

Events of last night:

Me: *crying*

My girlfriend: what's wrong?? :(

Me: *struggling to form words* intrusive thoughts are bad... I don't want to talk about them because then I'm scared that they're true and you might think I'm awful

My girlfriend: ah I actually get that. I have those a lot. It doesn't mean anything though, intrusive thoughts are just like dreams. Like the things you do in them aren't really things you want to do, it's just stuff your brain comes up with.

#we then very heavily related over having the same intrusive thoughts and now I'm suspicious #thinking about when i told her i might have ocd and she said i didnt #and starting to feel like thats because... what if we both have ocd #it seems like she was basing her entire knowledge of conditions on people shes known with those conditions. which makes sense #but the person/ people with ocd had severe cleaning compulsions and the like #where as me and her obsess much more over morality #like its very clear we think about it so much. and idk what to do with that information #we both feel like the intrusive thoughts and obsessive ruminating are the only things that keep is from being bad people #or that prevent us from being bad people i guess. idk why that wording is just slightly more accurate #like people who dont think about these things (apparently all 'normal' people since this could be *an actual disorder*) #they're not constantly analyzing. trying to be aware. asking themselves questions about their true nature. judging those answers #theyre not really doing that with other people either. of course i could be wrong since im very clearly not a normal person. #but this is what i mean! im speculating about other people and acknowledging the ways i could be wrong and just trying to figure it all out #but it seems like no one does that and it doesnt *make them* bad people. it just doesn't prevent them from that happening either #like theyre just as likely to hurt people as the 'bad' person thats thinking the same way they are #and i cant ever be comfortable with me living that reality even when *this reality* is a waking nightmare #sure im tearing my skin off (good ole skin picking disorder) when im thinking about these things. sure im crying. sure i can't sleep. #sure it makes me feel like im constantly a horrible person and need to attone for everything ive done and havent done #sure. but then i turn around and say its helping me. because why else would my brain torture me? isnt it always about protecting me? #i don't know. all i know is who i dont want to be and what i dont want. so that exactly what my brain convinces me is real #i guess what it kinda comes to do is #would you rather live a reality where everything around you is superficial. your thoughts behaviors and thoughts. your reactions #all of them are things youre never aware of. you could be hurting people or you could be helping themm #you could even be hurting yourself. but you would never know. its a comfortable reality that youre never really aware of #OR would you rather live a reality aware of all those things. seeking answers and sometimes finding them. #trying your hardest to help others and better yourself and fix the broken things in this world #your reality is one where you recognize every threat that no one else does and it kills you inside because they wont always listen #theyre comfortable and you're stuck in a reality where you try and try and try but even when you succeed #your brain forms its own reality. a metaphorical jail. where you never get to experience the reality you fought so hard for #instead you exist in this sort of purgatory where you live out your own worst fears and the worst ways you could have failed

[caruliaa]

now one cares if ur mom loves you soooo muc and u love her soooo much and ur omg arent mothers soo great always bs. shut up !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

#(BEING VERY PETTY BC MINE SUCKS SO FUCKING MUCH) #but also if i have to see the post bieng like 'oohh imagine sweet nothing with how your mother always loves u unconditionly' everywere #(which good 4 u stop acting like thats the universal experience for everyone it fucking isnt) #then you all have to deal with me platonic-fing it and making it abt friendship. sucks to suck loser !!!! #like what if the soul deconstructers *are* my parents in my experience. what then bitch !! #sorry im rly just annoyed abt that one post bc i feel like theres an obsession among swifties to only every understand each song in a way #that like. does or cld fit within her life instead of relating it to ur own experince esp in regards to them all being abt romance #like ppl being like 'i cant believe ppl think x song cld count as a platonic love song when its obvs abt romancce' #or not understanding how the emotions expressed in a song abt a traumatic break up could also be related to other trauma #including trauma inflicted by a parent/friend/ any other relation someone cld have to someone #but the one time !! relating one of her songs to smth other than roamnce is acceptable to swifties its the stupid fucking #'ohh my mom is soo great shes the best' bs thats a sure fire sign the person saying it will never take anyone whos been mistreated #by the parents serious and just respond w 'but its ur momm u have to love her bc shes ur mommm :(((((' #sorry ik im being needlessly bitter which sucks bc i have a a good point here like can we just let ppl relate to songs in whatever way they #want to and not care abt their being a 'defnitive' meaning to the song bc the whole point of art esp music is how YOU relate to it #also like. that post isnt bad at all its acutally completely fine im just bieng dumb and projecting ig bc i feel like the emotions of ppl #whos parents were good to them r always taken more seriously like. if i made a post talking abt relating the 'give me back my girlhood' lin #to my experince w my shitty parents i feel like it wldnt be taken as seriously as this 'uwu i love my momm' bs yk. anyway maybe im wrong !! #who knows !!!!! maybe i shld try to talk abt how i relate her songs to my personal experinces more #also i am being rly dumb sm bc ik other ppl have spoken abt relating her songs (esp mtr and tolerate it) to shitty parnets but iv also seen #ppl treat that like its dumb which is stupid !!!!! who cares !!!! ur being a dick let ppl relate music to whatever experiences they want !! #anyway. i think i seem more pissed her than i actually am im just annoyed bc this is a pet peeve of mine lol #flappy rambles

[yet-another-haven-of-dollya]

i was catching up on your blog, and honestly your, or well, your PCs' opinion abt Sydney is so fascinating to me. when i first played the game for real (after trying to previous times and ending up in the forest being raped by wolves and kidnapped by Eden without knowing wtf was going on, and then my second try ending up in a rape cycle that ended in the asylum) i started pursuing Sydney for the first time, thinking that she'd be like every other goody-two-shoes uninteresting character that is usually a part of dating games, the stereotype that fails to interest me no matter what. then i found out i could corrupt her, and i decided to make her "fall from grace" together with my PC, and the more i interacted w her the more and more i fell in love w her character, to the point that my PC became as obsessed w her as she is with him

Sydney might honestly be my favorite LI, so to find someone who doesn't like them v much is quite the interesting experience lol. i think the part that most called my attention is the privilege part of their character that you brought up, and i think that stuck w me mostly bc i never truly saw Sydney's "privilege" like that. Sydney never gave me the impression that they were completely oblivious to everything and anything wrong that happens in the world just bc it doesn't affect them - quite the opposite, actually

Sydney isnt immune to the world they live in, not a single character in this game is (which is why i love it sm tbh). they might be extremely sheltered and protected as much as Sirris and the temple are able to make them, but when you pray w them in the temple and someone comes by to harass you she knows exactly what is happening and how to stop it. she's probably been harassed by monks and nuns as well, and unable to fight back without losing her grace. that's without even going into the Leighton punishment event, and how they react to it, which i think gives a v good view into how they cope w the world they live in depending on whether they are pure or corrupted and how that affects their interactions w PC...

ok im just rambling now, my point is, Sydney is a very interesting and complex character to me and seeing your interpretation of them was really interesting/insightful, and gave me some answers to things in your PCs' story that i used to question but always forgot to send an ask abt (such as their distaste for Sydney). thanks for reading my ramble, i love the things you're doing w your PCs and how you interpret their world <3

-smthishunting

Just in case you still don't understand the nature of the situation, the "privileged" part can be translated into "ENVY"

Sydney has had good things growing up. PC has nothing of those, which I have mentioned. "Why can they be optimistic? Why can they believe in the good in people? Why their parent doesn't demand they rent every week? Why do they have parents but I and Robin don't? Why can't I and Robin have those things that they have?..."

It's bitter, but I firmly believe, just like a redeemed bully can never achieve true peace, a sheltered child growing up with a silver spoon inside their mouth can never understand poverty and desperation either. Something bad happens to them, but they have family and financial support to overcome it, that's why they can stay pure and stay good. Robin stays ignorant too, they essentially avoid the outside world completely and if PC doesn't step up to protect them, they're ruined. That's what happens with pureness and goodness if they bloom in mud, unprotected. That's what happens on a daily basis with the children of the orphanage.

That's why my PCs are Robin's protectors. I make them taste the bitterness when realizing some things even try as they might, they can never achieve, while Sydney has those things handed to them, lovingly and matter-of-factly, as easily as falling to sleep in a soft fluffy bed. To me, that's what makes them even more protective of their waifu/malewife and more determined to shelter Robin as much as possible. They strive to give Robin what Sydney's having, their childhood together sucks so yeah let's try hard for a better future :D

As for Sydney... Well, unless future updates give them some trauma, throw them into some real fuck up situation like what PC faced daily, or reveal that they had some beef with Harper in the past and had lifelong psychological trauma, I don't think I can give them more credit.

#dollya ask #dollya art #dol pc #dol #degrees of lewdity #sydney the faithful #dol sydney #kylar the loner #dol kylar #robin the orphan #dol robin #dol fanart #bailey the caretaker #dol bailey #sirris the science teacher

[am-i-the-asshole-official]

Aita for blocking a friend on instinct? So i (f16) have this friend, (m16) we can call him D, who i've been friends with since kindergarten.

About a year ago, i started growing very close to D through our friend group's dnd campaign we held every friday. I knew him for a long time but that was the first time we had started hanging out out of school. We were talking on snapchat every night just chatting and after a while he started to send much more... revealing snaps. Just his bare shoulders but like without a shirt. He said it was because he had to let his medication for his back dry. I was a little uncomfortable, but we were friends so i didnt think that it would escalate into anything weird.

After about a month, D starts sending snaps in a towel and pictures of his chest which made me very uncomfortable. I kind of let the chatting die down after that because it was the only way i could think of that would be enough to gently let him down easy (i was wrong). I stopped going to the hangouts with that group and kind of distanced myself because how uncomfortable D made me. This only made D try harder to get my attention.

I was still friends with the others in the group so i would often have one-on-one hangouts with the others and watch tv. One thing we watched was Miraculous and we laughed and joked about it all the time. D overheard us or something and went home and binge watched the entire series in a week. Then everytime i ate lunch with that friend group, D would always make direct references to Miraculous or sing the theme song really loud. This wasnt once a day, D would make miraculous references every single minute. He became obsessed with the show (which, for reference of how weird it was, D is a very religious Christian boy. He gets upset if he gets an A- and never drinks caffeine (no problem with any of those things but just understand that kind of guy being deep within the fandom of Miraculous out of all shows 😭)). It was so bad, and it once again was making me very uncomfortable.

Eventually, it got to an insufferable point where D changed his route to go home and made sure to pass me every day after school and wave. I started avoiding him in the halls, he would always ask obscure questions that werent that important. I couldn't understand why he couldn't get that i didnt want to be friends with him anymore so i set boundaries.

A text i sent to D: i apologize if i ever caused any misunderstanding, but i would like to make it clear that im not romantically interested in you. i can see that you have been trying to grow closer, but i dont feel the same way. i don't appreciate being followed around, and i dont like when people force themselves to like the same things i like. its not attractive to be a copy of someone. i enjoy being your friend but it's difficult to disregard these things. if im being totally honest, when you do things like this, it makes me really uncomfortable and borderline creeped out. i know crushes wont disappear overnight but i would appreciate more space. if youre looking for a girlfriend, this isnt the right person, nor the right way to get it. and i wont tell anyone about this so dont worry about word spreading or anything. thank you

D's response: Oh, I'm so sorry I made you think that! I don't have a crush on you, I just noticed how you don't hang out with our friend group as often and I just wanted to make sure that I was being as nice as possible to make sure you weren't mad at us or anything. I did start to think that maybe me trying all that made me seem clingy or annoying, so I'm really sorry for all of that. Thanks for bringing this to my attention, I'll try to do better now!

This didnt sit right with me because after all of that i cannot fathom how that translates to "i wanted to include you". This made me question a lot about the situation.

Reasons i feel like i MBTA: i'm over thinking things and D could be a genuinely a nice person. Its hard for me to read the room and i need to work on that and probably apologize to D.

Reasons i feel like i MNBTA: i should trust my instincts rather than ignore them. I've had a psychological abuser in my family before and the situation could be a stalker behavior that i've learned is not ok to have.

What are these acronyms?

#aita #am i the asshole

[yohanpalia]

fatness in palia

(its gonna sound like i hate palia bc ppl dont understand the concept of nuance, so just to be clear - i decently like the game so far. things can be both good and bad, and some ppl, like me, enjoy analysing and criticising things without hating on the things.)

it rly bugs me that the only properly fat character so far in Palia is someone whos obsessing about his sandwiches and talking about how he always makes sure to eat properly, and *also*, is someone in a position of power who does bad things (the quest where we grew crops for him is the most clear example ive seen so far). basically - the biggest fat man is a bad person who is obsessed with food.

delaila is big, but also falls into a stereotype - shes a countryside mom (often fat in media), and parent characters are generally easier for mainstream fatphobic media to design as fat bc theyre not intended to be attractive in the same way the younger characters are (or older men, see hodari and ashura). i also want to point out that she reads as having a little more of a curvy body type compared to kenli whos more of a big ball, and that none of the female characters read as having the same type of facial fat or double chin that kenli has (which is indeed why im calling him the only properly fat character). its almost as if that kind of facial/chin fat is considered worse on women than on men or something :)) wink wink.

ashura and sifuu are big, but read as "strong and muscular", not "a fat person". which any fat person will know is a significant difference in how you're perceived. (there is also an aspect here ofc of that irl, masculine-presenting "bulky and strong" ppl are often more positively perceived than feminine "bulky and strong" ppl, and that masculinity being seen as desirable in itself affects why "bulky and strong" is seen as desirable where "just fat" isnt, but this is a sidetrack rn.)

elouisa and caleri are... chubby, i guess? i was happy the first time i met caleri bc she had a visible double chin. but, after a bit of playing, seeing that there werent any fatter characters than this who were supposed to be seen as attractive or even good nice people, that enjoyment weighs little. i also again want to point out that both elouisa and caleri have very "smooth" faces, and mostly "conventionally attractive" features, essentially. they are chubby/curvy, but not in ways that would be considered *too* far off from the fatphobic, ageist, sexist beauty standards of society. they also have basically hourglass bodies.

the characters that we are mainly "supposed" to find attractive in this game - the romanceable ones - range from very skinny to "fit". there is even a romanceable skinny robot, notably not a romanceable fat robot (hekla is round, reads as the fat mom stereotype, and is not romanceable - einar is tall and slender and kinda built like a dorito, and, oh, presents more masculine... even robots arent free from misogynist and fatphobic design). there is also a non-romanceable character that apparently both characters in the game and many players find hot, which is a non-fat man, hodari. i note this bc he's presented as an attractive character, and is not fat.

its nice to see an older(?) female character presented as attractive - tamala, however she is very skinny and with an hourglass type build. this is still... nice, i guess, but in the context of the lack of "attractive characters" that arent really skinny, or muscular, or hourglass shaped.....

another related issue is that a very skinny character, jel.... literally says things like "i havent eaten for 3 days". wow! thats lovely! especially together with kenli obsessing over food! and together with an average size character, jina, also mentioning she forgets to eat. that made me feel gross to read, and i dont think its a good choice to put "lol forgetting to eat, relatable content" in the dialogue of characters who are very skinny. this can be a bad reinforcement of society's abuse ("just starve yourself and you'll be skinny and beautiful!") for people with eating disorders and for ppl who struggle with their weight and with their relation to food in general. but *especially* when the biggest character is, in contrast, talking about how hes obsessing over his sandwiches and whatever (and again - is a bad person and also not supposed to be attractive, while jel and jina are supposed to be attractive and romanceable). this is also obviously a reinforcement of prejudice against fat ppl - that fat ppl eat too much, cant control their eating, are always thinking about food, etc etc, while skinny ppl ~forgot to eat lol~.

all in all, if anyone reads this, i just hope ppl can acknowledge and be aware to the fatphobia that has gone into the design of this game, *just like basically every other game*. im not saying palia is worse than other games, bc frankly, most games are like this, and its gross and weird and i hate that. but its still valid to discuss that problem in the context of one game, without implying that its an issue that only affects that game.

i hope that at the very least, they will eventually add in more body types to the character creator that also represent bigger people, and that potentially, we might see some attractive fat characters as npcs in the future. and no, their faces dont need to be slimmed down compared to their bodies to be attractive! they can have unsmooth faces and double chins and wrinkles and still be attractive! and they can have all that and not be men, and be attractive! and they dont need to have hourglass bodies nor to be muscular and strong to be attractive, either!

#palia #fatphobia #character design #gaming #video games #mmo #mmorpg #diversity #fat acceptance #body type representation

[hwa-ae]

can u maybe do a soft smut for hanjin? im just so obsessed w ur writings 🤍

Warmth —

: ̗̀⇢pairings: hanjin x fem! reader

: ̗̀⇢synopsis: IN WHICH hanjin needs a little de-stressing session with you after finally debuting, except what started as cuddling turned into something more...

: ̗̀⇢genre: smut to fluff, nsfw

: ̗̀⇢warnings: nsfw content, soft sex, slightly sub! hanjin at the start, hanjin king of aftercare!!, needy hanjin, praise kink, p in v, written in second person, pre-established relationship, minors do not interact (you are responsible for the content you consume)

"you must've been really tired, hm?" you asked gently, caressing his head softly as he laid his full body weight on you, shoving his head as far into your neck as he possibly could.

"mm..." you only received a disoriented grunt in response. you and your boyfriend, hanjin, were currently cuddling in bed as he has been really tired recently, courtesy of his busy schedule after debuting as an idol.

the two of you were laying on your couch in silence, knowing that hanjin needs that period of silence to replenish his strength and social battery, when he suddenly made an abrupt movement. he suddenly sat up, stared at you for a couple seconds before leaning back down and planting small kisses on your neck.

"hanjin- haha! that tickles!" you giggled out as he plants more tiny kisses before sucking at a specific spot, making you swallow back your giggles immediately as you held back a moan. he slowly moved up to your lips, tiny and innocent pecks slowly turning heated.

"[name]... i need you, please..." hanjin whines, grinding against your thigh. the way he looked at you wasn't very innocent, it was filled with lust, want, and love.

"hanjin..." you reached down slowly, palming the tent in his pants, making him moan softly as you rubbed against it.

"mm [name] please...! dont tease me..." he whimpers out, grinding harder against your hand as he shoved his head at where your neck and shoulders connect again when suddenly, the roles reversed.

hanjin reached a hand into your shorts, lightly rubbing and teasing at your clit as he sat up beside you.

"told you don't tease me, didnt i?" hanjin teased you, rubbing along your entrance but never putting his fingers inside of you, making you whine.

he laughed at your reaction, before finally giving in to you (as always) and putting two fingers inside gently, scissoring inside of you, prepping you to take him later as his thumb rubbed your clit.

"hanjin..." you moaned his name softly, knowing how he loved the way his name rolls on your tongue, which reflected in the way his fingers sped up, going in and out of you at a much quicker pace.

"i think that's enough prep right? please [name] i need you so bad..." he said breathlessly against you. eyes pleading for you to agree and give him the sign to continue. (consent is key!!)

you nodded before he shot you a look, telling you to give him verbal consent, as he could never want to hurt you by taking your actions the wrong way.

"yes, you can continue..." you nodded as you mumbled, making hanjin strip the both of your clothes in an instant.

"can i put it in, please?" if this was any other situation, you would've been giggling already at the way he asks for consent for everything, making sure to add a please to his request everytime. you nodded along to his question, mumbling a small yes, giving him the okay to continue.

he moaned audibly as he first pushed himself in, taking his time to make sure he isnt hurting you, and making sure that you were enjoying it as much as he was.

"can i please move?" hanjin asked gently, caressing the side of your face, admiring your lust filled face as he waited for your sign to proceed, which you gave.

he began moving, slowly but steady, finding his pace as he continued. he held your hand the entire time, intertwining them together and holding them tightly as he moved faster and faster.

"[name] you feel so good... you look so pretty under me... youre doing so good, so good for me..." hanjin mindlessly rambled, loosing himself in the pleasure.

as he neared his orgasm, his pace quickened noticeably. his thursts became sloppier and he seems to have lost his rhythm.

"[name] are you close? please tell me youre close..." he whimpered, watching your every reaction to his thrusts, making sure you werent in any sorts of pain or anything.

"im close, im so close, hanjin please..." you whined out, holding his hand tighter than before as the knot in your abdomen tightened.

"[name] please cum for me... im getting close..." hanjin leans in to kiss you as you cummed on command, making him cum as well at the way your walls tightened during your orgasm.

hanjin laid on you for a moment, catching his breath after his high before making sure you were okay. looking at the mess the two of you made on the couch, hanjin got up slowly as he carried you to your bathroom, placing you in the bathtub gently as he filled it with water before stepping in as well.

"you did so well for me..." he praised, kissing your head gently as he helped you bathe. he massaged your thighs gently, to make sure you arent sore the next morning as he quickly finished up with his own shower before leaving the bathroom to clean up your couch.

after your shower, hanjin made sure to treat you with extra care, grabbing you whatever you needed as he gently massaged you again before drifting off to sleep with you, laying in your warmth. ♡

© 2024, hwa-ae ♥︎

do not steal, plagiarise or translate my work on any platforms!

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[crushedsweets]

neeed to hear the context behind ur most recent art. please enlighten us

you guys dont even know how excited i get when someone asks smth like this abt my art or headcanons or au.

i actually wrote liek a fucking essay oh my god im so sorry anon ill have the actual drawing context after the big bolded caps

TW for typical creepypasta story type stuff

anyway ok UNNECESSARY BACKSTORY: liu spent a long time trying to just psychologically recover from everything. he hated jeff and he hated the memory of everything. jeff signature murders would occur every now and again, each time liu would fall into a deep depression. the murders stopped for a while, and everyone believed jeff 'retired' or died. liu was conflicted about it. until Jeff committed his final full-blown 'jeff fashion' murder (janes family) in tuscaloosa alabama. liu had another breakdown and ended up moving to tuscaloosa because he was completely convinced he needed to find jeff again because he could fix it (or die trying and he'd be fine with that too)

nina was always one of those girls obsessed with 'true crime' but like.... the murderers instead of the cases. she was 12 when jeff's first rampage happened and she just fell head over heels in love with this freak. she began to act out, miss school for days, sneaking out to meet older people, etc etc. eventually she did the classic jeff smile cut into her face(she pussied out on making it like jeffs, so she has cleaner, less noticeable scars) . she started getting severely bullied (for being creepy and worshipping a literal murderer) and her parents sent her to live with her grandparents in mississpi. she started stalking liu through social media and whitepages when jeff was presumed dead. but eventually, jeff's final murder happened in alabama(a state away from her) and after turning 18, she ran away to go find jeff convinced he would 'save her' from the life she created for herself. nina got wrapped up in slenderman business because of her constant Tom Foolery. she met her idol

JEFF IS A BAD PERSON IN EVERY SENSE OF THE WORD. he did a beautiful job in using his #1 fangirl and enjoying the worship. she scrambled for pennies to afford an apartment, she'd sleep on the couch if he wanted to use her bed, she's ride her bike hours to go get weed or something from rando drug dealers that give better deals to pretty girls, make him food, do his damn laundry, literally anything and everything bc THATS HER MAAANNNNN (no he isnt.)

jeff DOES NOT GIVE A FUUUCK about everything nina does for him . one day he finds her trying to creepily get into contact with liu (and liu actually responded) and he loses his shit and stabs her and goes on and on about how 'you ruined your own useless fucking life your family is never going to take you back you did this to yourself' etc. he didn't intend to kill her only cuz he knew she'd forgive him and he liked all the shit she gave him

NOW ABOUT THE DRAWING ITSELF:::::

afterwards nina gets patched up from jeff stabbing her, she has some weird 'liu will save me' spiral (not romantically just in a very literal 'he can fix this' way). liu's been on his own spiral since finding out jeffs alive which is the only reason he even gave nina the time of day. eventually she ends up at his house to 'talk about jeff' bc she sent him creepy pics proving she knew jeff yadayadayada.

im not sure the exact conversation i imagined for the drawing, BUT liu eventually says something that sets nina off and she tears at her stitches and breaks down and drips blood all over his kitchen talking about 'I CAN MAKE HIM LOVE ME AGAIN I JUST NEED YOUR HELP PLEAAASEEEE' or something.

liu's a good man, much to his own detriment, and can't help but comfort this kid who's bleeding and crying in his kitchen at the fault of his own brother. he's all too familiar with wanting to repair his relationship with jeff, despite the amount of rage, betrayal, misery, etc he felt at jeffs hands. he doesn't ACTUALLY want to reconnect with jeff, but it's a very deep internal longing for the baby brother he once had that VERY RARELY overshadows his hatred

i want to reaffirm that liu does not feel positively about jeff at all, does not want to see him, and only moved to alabama b/c of a long ass mental health crises and is now too wrapped up in new financial commitments(plus jane) to move again. and now he feels obligated to help nina

he just misses being a big brother :( not so much the jeff part

also none of this at all is shipping at all i am terrified at the idea of people taking anything romantically . even if nina is in 'love' with jeff its purely for the story/horror . ITS ALL REALLY BAD

#creeped #hcs #guys i dont know why i keep doing this LMFAO IM SORRY ANON I TALK TOO MUCH I ... theres something in my brain #asks #soisjkhjdgvdkj #should i tag this as liu and nina... ok fuck it #homicidal liu #nina the killer #i literally have no feelings towards jeff as a character.. but the amount of people he ruined in his path ? damn . ok. got me

[arudoe]

Ok, first of all I have to say that I love your art style, it's just so comforting idk how to explain it but it's really really really nice

Also I saw your bruise wallpaper hc and you are so right, but which other hc do you have of them??

OMG ueueue thank you so much that is so sweet of you 😢😢

and also im soo glad you liked my silly hc hehe because i have so many its not normal actually

i made a post the other day with some of my hcs (this one) but i have plenty more!! so um enjoy 🦈

- they are both autistic (i infected them /j)

- my jay is transmasc ! (cole too sometimes depending on how i feel)

- they dont rly do petnames only like mean nicknames that are said with very much love and affection (like dummy stink fartface yk…)

- i feel like they do everything together like train play video game even when theyre doing separate things theyre tgt… like its always cole AND jay and never just them seperate… always team up for missions and everything… when they arent together the others will go wheres your other half haha stuff like that also they bicker all the timr and never say anything to each other but when the other isnt around they always talk so fondly about each otjer and 😭😭 it makes me wanna puke /pos

- they have very different music tastes (i hc jay listens to kpop and cole to 80s rock & new wave) and theyll always talk about how bad the others music taste is but secretly they actually like it… (jays kpop playlist got a save once and he was trying to figure out who it was and cole was like whoever it is has the worst music taste in the world) (it was cole who saved it) (also vice versa)

- they play every game and watch every show together and when one of them starts something without the other they get offended 😭😭

- speaking of watching cole cant handle anything scary at all but sometimes jay will somehow convince him to and always puts on the scariest stuff because he thinks its cute when cole jumps 😭

- jay still sleeps with his plushies so when they cuddle jay is spooning his plush and cole is spooning him and sometimes cole lays on jays chest

- they playfight and wrestle a lot and sometimes get seriously hurt while doing it

- they play dancing games tgt… like just dance and ddr

- also i think jay deffo dances to stim (totally not self projecting here) and his dance moves are always a bit silly so cole will copy them and jay is like are my making fun of me >:( and cole is like yeah maybe i am

- on the topic of stims they deffo mimic each other a whole lot in the sense theyll copy each others vocal stims and it annoys the hell out of everyone else because theyll say the same silly phrase over and over again for weeks 😭😭

- i also hc them both as chronically ill (jay is hypermobile and cole has arthritis) and sometimes after especially hard training days they will give each other back rubs/massages…

- they arealso borh very smart separately but when you put them together they become super stupid and lose all their brain cells

UMM okay this is kinda long so ill leave it here i have like a million more but id sit here forever writing them so 😭😭😭 once again im rly happy for ur question im kind of obsessed with them if u cant tell but um yea… enough yapping from me… adios..

#ardosyapping #bruiseshipping #IM KIND OF EMBARRASSED POSTING THIS HAHA #but its okay i love them sm… #ty for ur question op gives you a high five

[braimrotting]

My playlist as QSMP

(warning im shit at english lang so my interpretation of songs may be way off... im also ace and often miss romantic implication so.. yeah if a song has lyrics which are like about an s/o and i havent specified i probably dont mean for it to be shipping)

songs included: tongues & teeth (the crane wives), pink in the night (mitski), gb eating gb whilst listening to gb (crywank), going to brighton (fresh)

TONGUES & TEETH - The Crane Wives hideduo fit pov fit as a self serving survivalist from a wasteland experiencing love in this cursed fuckin island • "ive grown a mouth so sharp and cruel its all that i can give to you my dear" habits from 2b2t even little things like his lack of trust, hasnt confided his true intentions to anyone - constant lies by omission - hes flawed and hes recognised it • "if you're fine with that you can be mine like that" theres very much something going on with hideduo but fit is insistent on his baby steps bc he doesnt want to hurt pac. 'are you fine with that?' • "you gotta know that this wont last" this is soooo fit coded bffr. i adored the conversations fit n ramon had but one thing that stuck out to me was that he would always specify that only he and ramon would escape. never mentioned anyone else. selfish in the most understandable way • "i will ruin you, its a habit i cant help it" again 2b2t ingrained habits that never leave. linked w above point, hes selfish and that isnt necessarily a bad thing just not great for a blossoming relationship • "i will love u like the ashes in my cigarette box" hc 2b2t!fit smoked - ramon told him off once but now that the baby's gone hes picked it up again, a headcanon bc i cannot imagine ccfit smoking since hes such a health buff - feels so out of character lmao strong thoughts about qfit no one even try to fight me - his entire character occupies a space in my brain PINK IN THE NIGHT - Mitski phissa missa pov devotion easy • "i love you, i love you, i love you, i love you" • "can i try again and again and again" i dont think i need to say more - tbh this could go for guapoduo too but the "can i try again" made me think of missa + how he wants to live up to phils expectations

GB EATING GB WHILST LISTENING TO GB - Crywank phissa still missa pov

"in a busy room youre all i see" literally THEM sorry during the mexican independence event they were literally all they could see.. them doing the dance together - it may as well have just been the 2 of them + phil jumping in front of missa to take pics of him alone w/o him noticing

"calm down dont let her see how fast your heart is beating" missa saying "im speaking weird so the translator doesnt pick up, i love you" THIS GUYYYYYYYY

"i think about you but i know im not good enough" bffr mr missa "ill come back when im a good enough father" sinfonia

"and I built you up to much, now I can't say what's on my mind in case I go and scare you away" missa doesnt want to burden phil because he feels like hes been such a bad father compared to phils dedication - now that hes back he doesnt want to disappoint him anymore

"and how could i compete with the world at your feet" missa coming back to like 3 men at phils whim LMAO

"i wouldn't want to hurt you by letting you hurt me you don't deserve to feel guilty"

"i just want you in my life"

sorry im so obsessed with their puppy love GOING TO BRIGHTON - Fresh tubbo coded, i mean with the name i had to give it to him in my mind hes talkin to phil • "things i care the most about dont seem to ever get old" his excitement over everything even the simplest things is so refreshing • "i feel the fire inside me trains passing over head" his determination posing a unique threat to the feds and i feel like its such an important part of his character. also he likes trains :) • "there are things i learnt inside my head that they cant ever take away from me" lil bugs and just knowledge of the game make him a great bug tester for the admins lmao. this guy takes any chance to glitch his way through life

"starting over is a sign of strength"

also honorary mention to that one person who said the garden was codebreakerduo coded because you are so right and true and based and i think of that post everytime i listen to that song. being so normal by peach pit was very celltw (is that what pac and cellbit are called?) to me but i didnt really have much reasoning

#qsmp #qsmp philza #qsmp fitmc #qsmp tubbo #qsmp missa #qsmp cellbit #im so qsmp brained i cant even listen to my music without thinking of these cubitos #hekp

[comradeboyhalo]

Okay—you don’t have to answer if you don’t want to..! But I’m actually SO curious on your essay thoughts of q!Bad in 4halo fics. Because (I think) it’s kind of rare that q!Bad is depicted accurately in.. most qsmp ship fics. And I feel like q!Bad always becomes.. obsessed with romance with q!Forever in many 4halo fics?? Or super open + emotionally stable?? I don’t know how to explain it, but that’s why I’m curious of your thoughts (because I’ve read your fics and 100% trust your characterizations, especially of BBH cubitos <3)

hihi always down to ramble. and i agree, a lot of bad's flaws are smoothed over in 4halo fics, which makes him incredibly ooc. also, i dont think that these mischaracterizations are necessarily bad, i understand that in fluff fics (or angst fics, which im guilty of) sometimes theres no room in tone to fully capture all of q!bad's complexities. but that doesn't mean i cant have some gripes!

i dont think this is exclusive to 4halo, but 4halo is also bad's current biggest ship, so a lot of it just happens to fall on it. but i really hate how fanon!bad gets stripped down to a mere love interest who is just...very perfect in how he interacts with romance. he wants to go on cute dates, he confesses in a very sweet way. he is kind and nice and a little insecure, and is just so boring. its very much reminiscent of old skephalo fics, where bad is seen as "innocent" and then any other interesting trait of his gets stripped away. i also end up feeling im reading about a highschooler, when q!bad is 11k+ and cc!bad (obviously influential of his character) is in his late 20s.

again, i understand why people write 4halo on cute dates and first kisses. thats what fanfic is for! but i cant help but see the entirety of the ao3 page full of these very...allo-typical romance plots and think "...he would not fucking say that." q!bad is messy as fuck! if you don't interpret him as arospec, then hes at the very least repressed, and not in a cute YA romance way. a 1k fic of pining that ends in a nice love confession just doesnt convince me im sorry!

and then there's the blue diamond obstacle that gets in the way of 4halo monogamy....skeppy. again, i get why most 4halo shippers arent going to mention him, cause theyre just not into anything skephalo. i cant blame them for that. but im a master nitpicker, so ill still nitpick cause this is my blog. bad brushing over skeppy is ooc. bad acting as if skeppy is in the past is ooc. bad pursuing any form of relationship without including skeppy is ooc. bad choosing any other person but skeppy to be his #1 is ooc. and yeah it sucks for shipping if you dislike q!skephalo, but thats how it is and its not changing. and also any fics that push bad to "move on" from skeppy is just ??? not only is that his soulmate across lifetimes, but skeppy isnt dead? hes just not on the island? help??? bad has two hands, but one hand will always hold skeppy's and he's made that abundantly clear many times.

anyways im also not immune to q!bad butchering in 4halo fics! ill admit that, in writing the hanahaki au, i couldn't really find time to fit a lot of q!bad's humor into it, and he ended up more openly angsty and sad and vulnerable then he really is, or would ever be. so i totally get it, and im fine if other qbad viewers despise how he's written in it. however i will stand by the fact that q4halo would never pursue a traditional relationship together, and i chose the ending to be ambiguous because thats how i believe their relationship (and feelings) are: ambiguous. that's why, to me, 4halo is so good. i don't want to read about them confessing their feelings. i want to read about how their relationship is an undefined, confusing mess that will never be defined, and im just so surprised that there aren't more fics like that out there.

#ask #long post #to be clear: im not even mad at this? i hate bad being reduced to being a sidepiece love interest #but i also get that ao3 will just kinda always be like that #these are really just my thoughts on it because i love analyzing shipping #and again: no hate to 4/halo #they just have the curse of being a popular ship and i only let fanon!skep/halo get away with so much bc im used to it

[feengoid]

do you have any advice for making fancherubs😨😨😨i must consult the cherub master…..

cherub master..?! well, i dont know about that.. i think i can name a few people that are better fitted cherub masters.. but, um..

i dont really follow a general rule of making characters, especially for cherubs (i do for trolls most of the time, but those are just super nitpicks, being an mspa art enthusiast and all), and im also really bad at giving advice, but sure i can try to give some tips.

one that i think is somewhat crucial is defining the dualities and personalities of your cherubs. its not really big design-wise, but knowing how each personality is like can help on that, along just being nice to see what contrasts well or not. calliope and caliborn i see as the de-facto cherubs, one being morally good and the other morally bad and stuff, i think they had a bit more going on but it isnt worthy going into details, but you can do the duality about anything almost, as long as it fits (though its still good to stick to that main principle of good/bad, its a pretty good base). my big main ocs, calabraz and callunia, follow the duality of one being about truths and obsession, while the other is about lies and compulsion.

another one can be about their enviroment and living situations. this one ties a lot more to design when really envisioning it, because it directly affects how much pizazz you can really put into the clothing (or not, if you just dont really care). like, caliborn and callipe had nice clothes and all because they lived in a meteor station, with outside influenc from gamzee nonetheless. if your cherub doesnt have as many resources as that, which it will probably not have seeing that most cherubs are born on dead or dying planets, it will probably have a hard time getting to that same degree of fancyness ! but that still should not stop you from giving it your all on the design. be it robes, tribal wear, space suits, you name it, really try your best to make it stand out and unique to the cherub. bonus points if the outfits can change between personalities, like one part using an extra, removeable piece that the other doesnt, or even some mystical aspects like color changing jujus and the like. go wild, but mindful.

now for actual physical properties of cherubs? i dont really know what to say. if you feel like going for a standard cherub with not much going on, go ahead and just follow the same principles as the cherubs in homestuck, be it caliborn and calliope, lord english, or even their parents (you can study a lot about how cherubs look from that ! just following patterns you see in their scenes on how theyre drawn and other tidbits is really useful). BUT ! i think that you can also just go absolutely insane with the designs, thats something i really want to see a lot in more cherub ocs. different skull shapes, extra limbs, unusual appendages and forms, even different types of skeletal animals, that stuff is always good. just experiment! see what fits and doesnt. id just say to try and still make it "cherub-y", if that makes sense. get their feel first.

if you want any resources on cherub stuff, i do have a google doc and fan cherub subtypes that are totally free to look at and use for things.

id also suggest looking at other artists that do it well ! not evne on the fancherub department but just cherubs in general. my main inspo for a lot of years were sketchoodles, lystheni, imac and quite a few others (and they still are ! really good artists that are worthy checking out). but keeping in mind to not just outright steal from them. referencing in moderation is key, always.

and thats it ! at least what i can type out. i hope this isnt too much, or too nonsensical even, i feel like other people can give better advice on this probably. but its what i can do ! so i hope it helps <:)

#ask #homestuck #cherubs #fancherub #resources #idk what to tag this #HOPE IT HELPS!!! really #.txt #really long post

[desudog]

@fuumusu

i just ended up taking pics of /most/ of my plush collection, LPS included, but this isnt all of them its just whos on my shelves

mtn dew for scale ref. what am i, bad dragon? well anyways.

heres my LPS. super small collection, im mad bc a raise in interest in "2000s aesthetics" made the market for these go up so theres like no more 20 dollars for 5 lots on ebay LOL...

BAB Tempest Shadow (one of my fave ponyyyyyysss)

all 3 of my Dotties. one of my fave BBs ever. sadly, the backpack fits jack shit and is built for a kids frame...

closeup of mini.. hm, whats that? the leo in the bg?

yup, those are my promotional 2015 FEF keychains. # swag. idk why theyre sideways.

i bought these yoohoo keychains when they were still first in claires. i remember i was at the mall with my grandparents. its one of those things youre kinda self conscious of looking back on, ive always loved stuffed animals so i would beg to go to girls outlets and didnt really get why i had to fight so hard to lol. the gloomy is from like 2 or 3 years ago hes just from ebay

disney world Duchess plush which i THINK i got while it was still brand new release. ive ALWAYS been obsessed with this damn movie and my uncle lives in florida and got it for me before i can even remember. she went in a bit too hot water so her long fur is all wooly but shes mostly perfect besides 1 stain. i didnt take her a lot of places so she didnt get messed up. apparently goes for 50+ dollars these days even if conditions not great.

for ref, heres a mint condition one.

and YES, all the other duchess's are dreammmmm owns of mine. shes uhmmmm <3

not all of my webkinz. prob a 3rd. i have the opposum and black dragon (?) somewhere too, and i THINK i still have the orange tabby. ive lost my blufadoodle years ago tho and was HEARTBROKEN. hes somewhere around here i just dont know where. the wolf is worth $$$$ but i got him as a freebie at a church sale :]

new and old torchics XD one of my fave starters

CoCo Surprise cats. I hate Luna the cat her arms are so weird. I just gave the leopard a bath last night tho and she looks great ^^. her arms are super long in front front so she sits good on flat surfaces (not: my bed)

i also just gave Lady a bath and restuffing! shes perfect fr. got from a sal. army

Pound Puppy and Pound Puuuurries. (what, no pussies?) (bad perspective shots, mb its hard to take pics cus theyre so long and i try not to touch them bc autism badtexture. these i found downstairs with sega genisis games so you can guess theyre probably not from a secondhand)

(lol)

Cody's black jaguar plush. very cute and high quality and big andwas just 20 dollars. has weighted paws. the only stufie he'll cuddle lol i guess its hardcore enough

Lucky's Simba and retriever (who is like SOOOO well stuffed, sadly no weights tho.)

a mint condition blue gellart i found at GOODWILL? and a dancing/marching bear lucky got at a dead& co concert.

my beanie boos. im mad about the quality fail on the one to the left, whos eyes are all weirdly close. -_- the lemur is part of a growing collection of lemur plushes lol

and my P. Lushes!

for some reason my Bianca has what i ASSUME is a design error that causes her to have wayyyy too short front legs so she leans forward and cant sit. ._. (sorry for no camera focus idk why it didnt focus)

and a extra older BB + a similar one who was painted to be scary as fuck by an alter for whatever reason and has sense made us ban painting any plushes

[officialgleamstar]

MNMOMS??? 👀👀👀👀👀

hmmmm I’d like to know more about the relationship between the moms and their kids maybe? if you havent answered that already?

oh or anything about the relationship between any of the moms

really just anything about mnmoms, im obsessed GSHSHSHGSHEH

HIII LEX!! oogh. relationships between the moms and their kids... i think ive mostly only talked about morgan and nick/nicholas, on tumblr at least, so i can definitely get more into that :D

morgan and nick... well-trod ground. morgan is severely paranoid and over-protective of nick, while nick is severely clingy but also has to pick a fight with everything she say, etc etc. i havent spoken as much about morgan's relationship with nicholas i dont think beyond establishing that she loves him and that hes a total mama's boy gbhjfdhjbj so i can talk about that!! though shes more well-managed by the time he is present, morgan is still very protective of nicholas, helped by the fact that he is the most high-strung kid on the planet. hes very jumpy whenever jodie isnt around, seeing him as his main source of safety, and hes also like... pretty aware of morgan's conflicted feelings on him? nicholas is exactly what morgan always wanted nick to be, well-behaved and careful, and it just makes her so much more aware of everything she lost. nicholas knows he is loved, and morgan does love nicholas, but hes also very aware of... well, his mom is different to him now, too. he can understand that he is just as foreign to her, hes a smart kid. they love each other very much, and honestly, morgan's relationship with nicholas is a lot healthier than it was with nick, but theyre both overly aware of the elephant in the room.

carol and grant probably have the most consistently positive mother/son relationship throughout the entirety of mnmoms, besides mercedes and lark at least! however, this... isnt for good reasons LMAO. pre-forgotten realms, carol generally wasnt home much, preferring to work herself to death at her office job. so grant literally prefers her to darryl just because she was never the one around to get mad at, she was never trying to talk to him, he didnt have to worry about helping her with chores because she didnt do housework, etc. they love each other very much, but once they get to the forgotten realms, carol becomes very aware that she cannot remember the last time she had a proper conversation with her son. just, no comprehension of whats going on in his life at the moment. its BAD, yall, but the two never really question their love for each other, which cant be said for all the kids. ive talked about this before, but they do have a plot of bonding over their sexuality journeys, carol works really harden to soften her sharp edges for her son and to be more present in his life, and they come out of the forgotten realms in a much better place than they went in! (though, take this with a grain of salt, because its definitely the same way that darryl and grant came out better in canon. this does not mean that they werent both traumatized LOL)

samantha and terry junior... start off the worst, for sure :') i have talked about their relationship before but it was part of a longer ramble about sammy, so i will reiterate it here! samantha has a bad habit of going therapy mode on terry junior and he is very aware of it. she is of the opinion that she should not put her emotions on her son at all, because she is his mother and thats not his responsibility (which actually stems a lot from samantha's relationship with her own mom but i think im gonna get into that more for isadora's ask--). however, terry takes her facade of calm as her being utterly in denial about terry senior dying at all, and he cant understand why she wont even show that shes upset. this already puts their relationship in a tenuous space over a few years, and when samantha starts dating and then marries ron, terry's trust in her is. utterly obliterated. at the end of their time in the forgotten realms, like with ron, they arguably have the best relationship though! samantha learns how to show her emotions without having terry junior feel obligated to help her and does her best to be more vulnerable with him in general, and terry junior learns how to accept that his mom is allowed to have a life beyond his biological dad. they make me so fjhbghjbghj <3333

and okay. right. finally. haunted expression. mercedes and the twins.

firstly, mercedes and lark. consistently a good relationship! they have the typical oak-garcia issue of lark running all over her, not really treating her as an authority figure, but its obvious that he absolutely adores her and that she adores him in turn. this is helped by the fact that mercedes is definitely the "fun" parent - glenn parallels, lol - so she has even less control over the twins than henry did, mostly because she never thinks to exert any. still, even though lark and sparrow are absolute agents of chaos, they love their mom and lark never stops loving their mom. by the end of their journey, he's a little more distant from mercedes out of guilt, mostly. lark is still the one to stab henry in this au without any of the deep rooted rogue card anger to validate it for himself, and he has a very hard time looking either of his parents in the eye afterwards. however, he also considers them both his main source of comfort, and tends to trail them quietly around the house when hes upset.

mercedes and sparrow. haunted expression intensifies. "Is there anything as undoing as a daughter?" sorry for quoting arcane but LITERALLY MERCEDES QUOTE OF ALL TIME. it starts... the same as mercedes and lark: no sense of authority, but very positive emotions! sparrow is not out as transfem at the beginning of their journey, its still something she is working out throughout their time in the forgotten realms (she very much has a moment of like... "i'm in a new place where nobody knows me, so i'm going to pretend to be a girl and see how many people are fooled! that's a very normal thing for boys to do!" and lark plays along lol), and a lot of their time pre-rogue card is dedicated to that! mercedes and sparrow bond a lot as sparrow warms up to the idea of coming out as trans, and mercedes. well. mercedes already knew before going into the realms and has been reading a million different pamphlets and consulting advice columns and talking to morgan on how to perfectly handle this situation LOL. so their relationship is kind of perfect, actually, and they are doing really really well until the deck of many things comes into play :')

post deck of many things, sparrow is... very openly Not A Fan Of Mercedes. she is still the upbeat positive lovewolf twin in this (though i think she more wants to generally be a witch than a lovewolf, since her mama's a bard and not a druid!), so it is even more obvious when sparrow suddenly is not giving mercedes the time of day. sparrow is utterly convinced that she is destined for greater things in a very negative way, and blames her discovery of this on mercedes getting them stuck in the forgotten realms. she also, similar to lark in canon, blames the moms as a whole for the fact that walter was hurt and sees them widely as useless. mercedes, for her part, does everything she can to redeem herself to sparrow, and is endlessly frustrated by the fact that nothing she does works. post-forgotten realms, they argue pretty relentlessly, sparrow locks herself in her room and screams herself hoarse, mercedes storms out into the back garden and cries until she gets a migraine, and henry takes lark out for ice cream-- despite this, sparrow does still seek out a lot of comfort from mercedes, and she has a habit of casually finding herself, at night, in wolf form and curled up at the foot of her parents' bed. strange and so weird how she ends up specifically sprawled out across her mom's feet at least once a week, if not fully laying between her parents. crazy. what a coincidence. shes a fully independent child with no need for comfort for sure though

#every time i talk about mercedes and sparrow i feel like my mommy issues are showing LMAO #SUCH A FUN QUESTION THANK U LEX #mnmoms au #ask #lex the lesbiann #dndads

[darcyolsson]

AMSTERDAM?!? THE BICYCLE CITY?!? YOU'RE A LOCAL FROM A LEGEND :o please please tell me what it is like and also, were there always bicycles there from what you can remember? obsessed with the idea of Amsterdam-ifying other cities so <3 please give me the local (urban planning/design experience) goss

once again im not from amsterdam!! i dont live near there and im at best only somewhat familiar with the city bc some of my friends live near there now 😭 i dont like it much like i mentioned before, its just sort of massive and i think it lacks a bit of personality compared to other cities if that makes any sense lol!! its also busy and crowded which i also dont like much i need my peace of mind </3 i much much prefer the smaller cities which feel friendlier and more like a community. its not all bad ofc i think theres loads of beautiful places and the old women there are very nice for some reason. also the hipster stores and cafes there are fire what can i say

the bikes have always been there! i dont know how long but im guessing... since the invention of the bicycle? dutch ppl saw the flat landscape and took the opportunity. (biking isnt confined to amsterdam!! we do it in the entire country) i think biking in big cities is scary though 😭😭😭 im a small town girl I dont need a TRAM to come racing at me while im trying to cross a street!!!!!! I dont think ive ever biked in amsterdam itself but especially the notion of biking in the centre makes me a bit nauseous bc its not only busy its also flooded with tourists who dont have the Dutch Awareness of watching out for bikes which ive seen result in a few crashes (terrifying dont ever want to be involved in that). the outer regions of the city are fine though i did bike there once and I lived to tell the tale <3

to amsterdamify any city you need 3 things: water, streets that are just barely accessible to cars, and loads of tourists. get a canal. now make the road next to the canal small but just large enough to fit a single car. now put 4 lost tourists in that street. congrats you now have a street in amsterdam city center 💛

#answered asks

[vinetwine]

when reading a lot of these varying tarot on ateez in relationships, hmm I have mixed feelings and I dont think theyd either be experienced enough or maybe they seem to want to control their partner in some way or other like idfk I cant even word it but I think many people might assume the members would be so dateable but I often dont get that vibe from some of the ateez. even the ones I personally wouldve liked sometimes give an off feeling if they were dating. I know tarot isnt set in stone and its usually what the reader interprete but tell me if im right in any of these guesses or wrong im not fussed just wanted to ask for your opinion.

cause idols are meant to be seen as perfect boyfriends to their fans right?

the members id avoid dating or being if i had to pick: seonghwa (fuckboi alert, he has many red flags imho probs uses his idol title to get into fwbs or doesnt take enough precautions in the bedroom department), san (again im on the fence sometimes i buy into his perfect prince image a little too much but i dont think thats always the case with him maybe he wants something to be so perfect about his partner, like if there was a situation where his fs would have to say no to something or if he just wouldnt take critique of any sorts or he just seems to have really fixed ideals on what he wants in a relationship not a bad thing but doesnt leave much room for error or for something different than what he wants it to be), hongjoong (sorry bub i love his performances but i will leave it at that it seems like if he isnt in control of his partner or if his partner doesnt let him act like the boss of the relationship then i wonder if he would grt kinda scary to be around?)

overall i still think ateez for example they might want mature partners who dont demand a lot from them but they themselves might still come across as immature aside from jongho (hes the most mature out of ateez imho)

im sure the members are nice on the surface but sometimes i dont always see them as the perfect boyfriend image that many people put on a lot of these idols like their expectations of their partners must be through the roof yeah kinda glad it isnt me thats going to date them cause i think id have some type of mental struggles each of the ones i picked.

who would you pick to avoid in possible relationship?

🍷...

the following is my own personal opinion in response to this ask.

yes as you mentioned and as i like to disclose tarot is heavily interpretation based above all else. it should never ever be taken 100% seriously. so i am glad you emphasized that. tarot is also very energy based and can change rapidly. even a bad mood might reflect a more negative result.

the readings i have done for them so far reflect mostly good things. which if i have to say so myself - feel very condensed and idealistic. of course no relationship will be picture perfect. there will be struggles. and i am aware a lot of readings do not reflect that. not just mine but a majority.

i suppose a flipside of a coin is to consider toxic positivity and idealism if all the cards feel a little too perfect. take the whole "hongjoong finds his soulmate attractive" post for example. almost every reading i have seen posted and have conducted myself in these past few years will talk about his possible obsession with his romantic soulmate.

i do not know hongjoong myself obviously but if this does turn out to be the case then he could potentially very easily dismiss a lot of negative or toxic behavior for the sake of soulmates. while this would be done with a good intention it can be very destructive.

in the case of seonghwa i find his energy very sweet and comforting in a general sense though i have never asked an in depth question about views on love and such. i have seen other readings and astrological observations for him that mention this possible side of him though but i try not to be biased when i receive my own results.

i have never felt a possessive vibe from seonghwa and san in an overbearing sense. though i also never ask. i have received results that they would possibly like to be the protectors in the case of a romantic relationship. but some people do take it too far and almost baby their partner in every aspect of life. so this can be seen as a potential negative though i did read that san and seonghwa seem to like maturity and independence.

so yes as you said i also do believe they would all appreciate a mature person for that matter. but some would cling more than others ? i think we should keep in mind that - yes they are grown men in their mid twenties but they are still young rich and very attractive. it can be very easy to get caught up in the high life. and if there are some less than desirable traits we are unaware of - they may quell as they slow down their idol activities and do something else.

ultimately all idols are human beings. they can not be and are not perfect. that is simply impossible. while i do believe for most idols that a good portion of their true personalities shine through on camera - it would be fair to assume it is at least exaggerated or scripted. sadly that is normalcy in such a manufactured and parasocial industry where they can not even stand up for themselves.

and because they are human they would have relationships with other humans. and because no human is perfect. there will be flaws. so i believe you are correct in calling it an image.

i personally have no strong feelings on who i would or would not avoid in ateez as a result of my readings. i take everything on camera with a grain of salt yes but i also do the same for my cards. the only way to know how authentic they may be is to know them personally and even then people can be very good at hiding who they really are.

and because i have never even seen them in concert thus far i obviously do not know them on a personal level. so i can not say.

#🍷 #belle.

[mineta-minoru-is-baby]

I feel like you’re on to something when you mentioned people not letting Mineta cry/feel emotional and ableism. I would like to hear more of your thoughts.

I didn't respond at first because i needed to organize my thoughts and figure out why I felt the way i did but i think i have it now.

Mineta is very much the Weird Kid™️ and despite being an obvious attempt at comedy relief these two factors and Huge parts of his personality combine together to form the perfect punching bag. If the hate he recieves isnt due to his "bad behavior" (behavior thag hasn't existed in over 100+ chapters at this point) then it's due to factors he can't control.

His lisp, His height, and the "fact" hes "annoying"

This is where it gets into the actual ableism. His height is obviously part of a condition he cant control and isnt too uncommon in the story! Both Gran Torino and La Brava are shown to be short and theres no reason given for them. Yet who is actively shunned in the fandom for their height? Mineta. However i will say ive recently seen people in the fandom say la brava being short is akin to her being a child. (Which is a harmful sentiment ill get into at some other point)

Next his lisp and behavior. Im grouping them into one because, whether intentional or just a coincidence, Mineta comes across as neurodivergent. It might be a slight projection on my end and due to the fact ive obsessively researched mental conditions for the last 10ish years but he has many characteristics that allign with adhd/autism. Between his hyper empathy, "over the top" reactions to "stupid" things, and one of the first things i noticed, his lisp. A huge portion of the neurodivergent community has some form of a speech inpediment. Granted his lisp is just in the dub, however it was allowed so its considered canon.

His emotional reactions to everything, even serious situations are treated as annoying, even out of place. He cried when Bakugou, a fellow classmate, ALMOST DIED. Yet somehow crying over that is "annoying" to the fandom. Crying over being attacked a week into school with 0 training or signs they would recieve help was too much. Crying over his test against Midnight, something he had to do alone when other people got to work in pairs, was too much.

When you feel with your entire heart as a neurodiverget person your reactions will always be inappropriate.

Even if he isnt and hes just an oddball it still feels out of place to punish him for his emotions. Deku cried so hard it was a theory he had a tear related quirk in the first few seasons of the show! Yet fans will always say his tears are warrented, many people who dislike the show will cite it as a reason they rejected the show and then it circles back around onto the reasons i gave for Mineta on WHY that seems ableist.

This is really rambly and disorganized but i hope this was fairly okay insight on approximately what i mean! I love my boys, tears or no tears!

#bnha minoru #headcanon #ask