#and now im just gonna be unfollowing and blocking everyone who reblogs this fucking post

[vanillabat99]

I'm begging people to tag their posts accordingly.. please... I can't take much more of this..

#there's this one fucking wandavision gifset going around #and the original isnt fully tagged #and none of the reblogs on my dash are tagged #and now im just gonna be unfollowing and blocking everyone who reblogs this fucking post #im so close to just smashing my phone and having a panic attack #sick of this shit #tag your posts #batty blogging #text #vent #vent post

[shivroyslut]

hello, so i am shifting accounts, woo! well, partially shifting. (if you want to reblog this post, go ahead) long post follows below cut, so a TLDR: i am leaving because i am starting to feel uncomfortable in the cule (reason for discomfort explained below cut). i will still keep this account for reblogging destiel and creative content, but everything else will be in the new account. im not saying the account's name but it isnt too hard to find. please tag @castinkywinky in your creative posts (edits, amvs, art, webweaves, gifs, etc.) or DM them to me. i really do not want to miss them. feel free to DM me other people's posts you find cool as well!! --

the primary reason why i am leaving is because the environment in cule tumblr right now is starting to get hostile. idk if i should, but im just gonna talk about what i am seeing on here that has made me uncomfortable, cause i dont want to be silent:

biphobia, acephobia, people talking over neurodivergent people, people invalidating other people's triggers and being unwilling to cooperate by tagging their posts with warnings, vaguing and ganging up on mutuals (i have seen none of my mutuals partake in these, but i am not online all the time so i cant be sure what happens when i'm offline), and just people being rude and mean. definitely didn't help that a lot of the victims were poc and/or neurodivergent people.

i’ve been lucky to not have directly been involved in any of the conflict that arose, but it is really tough and upsetting to see mutuals’ names get dragged under just for having different and valid opinions on a tv show that ended in 2020. all of this while blogs who purposely started the hate and discourse are getting support, praises, and tractions, and i'm just gonna say it, its because they are very popular among the cule and have a lot of followers. i am unsure if they are unable to grasp the influence they hold or are purposely using it to bully others but idk. also the anonymity of discord channels makes things harder.

i'm not saying i'm a perfect person and i have definitely made mistakes on this account, which i am regretful of. but i am learning and growing and a lot of these people i see seem fixed in their ways. i also do understand that it is human nature that in a power struggle people will most likely stand with the bully, often without even realising that that's what they are doing. really the only option i have in this scenario is to walk away because the rest of us are powerless (i know whatever i say here wont have an impact either, considering i blocked some of the blogs too). i know i can just block and unfollow people, but that hasnt been enough for me. and frankly after spending majority of the day on my new account, my mental health feels much better. (hoping it doesnt get worse after i post this)

anyways, i still want to support everyone's creations so if you make a new amv, art, webweave, etc. feel free to add me to your tag list or DM them to me, cause honestly my prime reason for not deactivating this account is to see creative work in the cule and the fandom. cause you guys are so fucking talented. i still do have a decent following size here, so hopefully reblogging the posts here instead of my new account will bring more traction to the posts.

speaking of my new account, it will not have any destiel content. destiel content shall remain in here alongside fandom creations. but on the new account i will be posting individual character content and content of other ships, including any and all rarepairs (well, within reason). also succession, watcher, muppets, and my other special interests.

i'm not going to link my new account here, just going to say that i'm using the same email for it as the one i use for my jail account, and that the url is also linked in the description of my jail. i have followed some of my mutuals on there already. you are free to ask me for the account name, but just know if you're primarily a destiel account, i may not be following back. we can remain mutuals on this account

i will also still be doing the daily cas posts so follow me @dailycasposts. the post usually come around 10-11am EST (unless i forgot or a mutual asks to post earlier) and i will still be active on discord, so DM me if you want my discord ID. or really, just DM me here if you want to talk, since i have to log on every night to cas post anyways.

that's all i have. so take care everyone, it was fun being active on this account while it lasted. all of you made it so fun and i definitely would not have survived 2021 without this account and the mutuals and friends i have made along the way. i hope to keep in touch with most of you and last reminder to add me (this account) to your tag lists and/or DM me your creative posts !! <33 Mx Stinkywinky

[lethbians]

can you explain what's going on right now? i keep seeing big IT blogs talking about some discourse or something but i have no idea what they're talking about other than it involves you lol

alright i like. i truly do not like having diScOurSE out in public because i’m not one to air out my dirty laundry 24/7 but seeing as how it was brought into public against my will i feel like the least i can do is clear up the situation for those who’ve been seeing the posts. 

i’m putting this under the cut bc it’s long. tws for some biphobia, brief mention of transphobia and, at the end, a rape mention. 

so if you don’t know: hi, i’m migz, i’m an it fandom blogger. its okay, i know, its really cool. part of my shtick here is that i like to turn normal thirst tags into works of art for the sake of comedy. perhaps you’ve seen some of my highlights from my “fhg” tag - perhaps your brain has been spared. either way, it became kind of “my thing” around the third or fourth week (mid nov) of me having this blog. at first, i tagged just about every ask i got mentioning the thirst tags with “bill hader” - they had to do with him, so why not tag him? it would draw more like minded people! about two days into that i got a message asking me to tag my nsfw. i am a big dumb idiot, and apologize for not initially doing it. i havent had a following bigger than like 10 in several years and completely spaced on basic etiquette. so by the end of november i was tagging everything applicable  with “notsfw” and “bill hader”. 

now you’re caught up.

on december 1st i got this message from user billhaderanti:

now i want to start by saying i absolutely was in the wrong here. i didn’t even think about how many people were being subjected to the asks i was getting - especially ones who had no idea they were all jokes. i don’t track the bill hader tag, so it just didn’t even occur to me - that’s ignorance on my part, and to anyone who was subjected to the terrors of me before my tagging system: i am genuinely sorry. i relay the same sentiment in my response, though you can tell i’m on edge.

and they replied:

clearly they Were offended by it but thats.. not the point. at this point, im feeling Really weird about the whole interaction, but still understanding, because again - i GET it. i know my posts are gross - that’s the point. it doesn’t make it excusable, though, which is why i understand why people are offended. so i responded with the only solution i Knew would keep us both safe and happy posting on our own blogs. 

so i thought this would be the end of things! i’d been pretty anxious lately already since i’d started to receive anons telling me i was gross and whore-ish for thirst posting in this way (i delete all of those, so if ur thinking about sending one, i guess no one’s stopping you but it won’t be seeing the light of the dashboard). i’m unsure if it was immediately or a few hours later, seeing as how i have a bad concept of time and the post-dates are right on the edge between nov 30 and dec 1, but i went to their blog - because anyone who has been on the internet knows the opportunity to vague post is near irresistible. and...what do ya know

fair! it’s their blog. however i am an emotionally fragile egg girl and immediately got freaked out. the odds that they were the only one who thought this were low. and, again, i’ve been very open on my blog about how important it is to respect boundaries; my posts are absolutely prone to breaking those boundaries people have created for themselves. 

so i made my own, semi-vague post, letting my following know (and i’m pretty sure i’d answered asks about it before, but this is going to be long enough w/o me searching those up too) that i understood if they wanted to block me or unfollow or whatever - people need to create their own safe spaces. the tension is pretty clear in the tags, i’m not trying to hide that. i felt that the way this woman slid into my dm’s was pretty abrasive (just my opinion/how it made me personally feel) and i let myself be a lil emotional about it in the tags of my post.

alright! maybe this is the end. maybe we both go our separate ways and post happily on our own blogs... except it’s not the end. later in the day (some of this was happening like 1/2am, so now its Day day, i believe - again, not good w time passage lol)

clearly, i’m upset. my groupchat double checked that i didn’t get too emotional in my response - did i mention im anxious about discourse lol - and apparently.. it did the trick. she didn’t message me again. great. it was over. 

at this point, i decided i needed to make an even bigger change. so a few days after i’d calmed down i created an entirely new tag for my thirst posts so if people hadn’t already hidden the notsfw posts or just blocked me outright, they’d have a third option to escape the madness. at this point, id had my blog about 6? weeks, but there were still 2k posts for me to sift through - some of them were completely untagged. i also had to do it post by post, because one of xkits features - the mass re-tagger - was getting blogs deleted for some reason, and i wasn’t going to do that. so i spent a few days going through all 2k+ posts, adding the “fhg” tag. 

YEEHAW! a brand new tagging system, no more hopping into the bill hader tag (minus one or two really funny, not super explicit asks, like the bill hader farquaad meme), and, tbf, i’d completely put this woman out of my mind. i don’t seek out drama and do my best to stay in my lane. yesterday, i checked my activity for the first time in awhile since id put out a couple new original posts that had started to get traction and i Love reading tags. i noticed a mutual had @’d me, and realized i havent checked my @’s in...ever, maybe. i see a post from my good pal billhaderanti. 

since i dont follow them and never check my @’s, i’d completely missed it. however, once i did see it, i was horrified. id gone through all that fucking work to keep my blog My Blog and also respect everyone’s boundaries and it still hadn’t been enough. i’d been awake for almost 24 hours and went. a little crazy. and i didn’t reply immediately because i just had no words. i sent it to my friends because i... i just wasn’t going to be able to figure it out myself. 

there’s a lot to unpack in this post alone, but whatever, i’m gonna put my own grievances with the immaturity of 1. making a callout post to begin with when i’d been nothing but civil 2. making a callout post about something as (in the grand scheme of Life) minor as some tags where i refer to a someone’s genitals as a “whack pack” and 3. making a callout post in such a rude way - aside. at the end, she calls me (and whoever else!) a demonic mlw (man loving woman, we assumed, and then later confirmed with a post further back on her blog). 

which - yeah, we started scrolling. at first we were looking for more vague blogs, and then we just...started finding things. billhaderanti is a self proclaimed lesbian separatist, which... fine. but it’s already pretty clear that this woman hates me on some level simply because i am a bi woman (demonic mlw, remember!) which is just. damn man i can’t believe we are still fighting the biphobic fight lol. so the more we scrolled, the more we uncovered - and not just the biphobic / vaguely mtf transphobic things they posted (or put in tags), but we also found that they had their OWN thirst tags. certainly not as hyperbolically comedic as mine, but they were there, talking about his body and his person the same (and, frankly, a bit creepier for other reasons) as mine. 

there’s one post in particular that snatched my wig in it’s creepiness - and i say creepiness in the sense that it feels personal. like this woman feels like she knows bill to some degree where she can say these things. my tags have always had a sense of distance, as they’re written for humor. and maybe this particular post was written for comedic purposes, but it doesn’t read that way, and if it WAS, then she has no right to call ME out for MY comic tags and posts. 

i’ll let it speak for itself, mostly because i don’t want to read it again. 

i also won’t be going through her blog again to find the posts with biphobic and other Interesting:tm: tags because there are plenty and i just really! want to be done with the whole ordeal! her blog is public and i’m sure you can all find it and look to your heart’s content. 

feeling a bit feral and a bit pissed off now that we knew the depth of how rotten this woman’s vibes were, a couple of my pals made a post or two similar to what my tag’s are like except turned up to eleven (if possible) - and tagged them with “bill hader” (and notsfw!!). yes, a bit childish, but at this point, the entire situation was childish, and making jokes was truly the only way we were going to get through it. another vague post went up on her blog soon after.

talking down to us, calling us children, and then for whatever reason calling us virgins... whatever, weird post. around this time most of us (est) went to bed, because it was nearing 3 or 4 in the morning. 

and then today happened. i woke up fresh and ready for the day after a wonderful 4 hours of sleep and found that jane had made an incredibly intelligent post in response to the situation. i won’t ss it, but i’ll LINK in case you missed it. attached there in the reblog is my own response. i think they can speak for themselves. 

after that, things were kind of jumbled, since i wasn’t online a lot and when i was i was Not checking my activity simply because i was afraid of what i’d see. for the most part, it ended up just being support (which i am very grateful to all of you for - it means a lot that you all enjoy my content to any degree). 

there was some more vague posting from both “““““sides”””””” of the “““““argument”””””” - mostly just people restating the fact that this is a public space and we should All be aware of how we effect others. i still hadn’t heard directly from billhaderanti, so i assumed we’d all be dropping and disengaging and moving on. i still wasn’t blocked, though, so who really knew what would happen. 

eventually, it culminated in this last post. tw for mentions of rape

i’m going to start by saying that 

1. there are nearly no teenagers that were involved in this. im turning 23 in january and most of my friends are 20+. maybe one or two are 19. 

2. none of us sent any sexually violent asks - most of us didn’t send asks at all. i believe one or two of my friends admitted to sending asks however they assured me their nature wasn’t bad; as far as i know, everyone remained civil in whatever went on (again, unclear to me as to what was being sent; no one was actively posting or talking about it. if billhaderanti wishes to elaborate, they can, but i don’t have anything to put in). 

3. before i finish this, i would like to apologize to billhaderanti. as a comedian - not just my stupid tags, i mean in real life, too - i know that humor can hurt. it’s not always funny, it’s not just stupid hahas. sometimes things that are supposed to be jokes just hit people differently and cause bad things. i recognize that. i never meant to trigger you (if you’re reading this) or cause you any severe mental/emotional harm. i apologize for my humor bringing up your trauma, and i never meant for that. regardless of my own thoughts and opinions about the nature of my posts/the thirst tags themselves, they hurt you, and i’m sorry. 

anyway, i’m going to wrap this up (i’m bad at endings, what can i say! steven king and i took the same writer’s class!). if you read all this... sorry. i probably won’t be taking any asks about it, because i find the whole “drama” of this to be stupid and rooted in some seriously biphobic issues this fully grown woman has. 

tldr; i attempted to contain my blog so this woman could exist and function safely on her blog, but it wasn’t enough for her, so she called me out, and then some of the fandom called Her out for being biphobic and mean and overall just immature about the situation. as of now, she’s yet to block me, though her and her wife have blocked a few of my friends. her wife continues to clown on my friends. this post was made for clarity’s sake. the end, i’m getting a drink. 

#discourse #biphobia tw #transphobia tw #rape tw #ok goodbye im done with this im back to #only posting gay clown movie #Anonymous

[thethousandyearwitch]

“Tumblr Cultings” another Shitpost fic.

Hisoka is a ~~Tumblr Influencer~~ and decides to start drama. 1334 Words. 

fanfiction.net link

Click. Clack. Click. Hisokas nails tapped quickly against his phone screen. "Tonight it's going down. I have had e-nough of a certain person here, and all of you deserve to know who and why! ~ ♠️ " Post. He didn't have to wait long before the familiar pings and blops of instant messages and questions asked to his blog started.

Anonymous: Who is it?? (≧▽≦) So excited to see you tear someone a new one!! IM from cutiepanther: where do u even get your info from lol?. IM from chaineddown: I Thought You Were Done Creating Drama For Attention. 

Hisoka snickers to himself, lazily grabbing another whiteclaw from the fridge, before retreating to his bedroom desk. He takes a first sip of his drink while opening his laptop, and quickly going on tumblr.com once it has finished setting up. @Bubblegumbitch, 20.879 followers. 7.344 posts. 27 new asks, 7 new IMs. With a satisfied sigh, the popular blogger sets down his can, and cracks his knuckles.

YouTube Influencers make a lot of money through ad-revenue. Instagram influencers hold themselves over water with sponsorships. And though Hisoka did hold a platform on both of these as well, he preferred the more traditional customs of the blogging site. You don't get paid for having a lot of followers, or making popular posts, and sponsorships are almost entirely unheard of.  But he wasn't in it for the money anyway. The drama was far more alluring. Hisoka had made his starts as a "Tumblr influencer" through creating blog layouts, masterposts of custom themes, and the occasional "funny" post, which was usually just him vagueing about someone that pissed him off that day. His first call-out post he wrote at 7k followers, calling out a far bigger blogger than he is for stealing codes for their theme and for kinning a character from a TV show that has generally been frowned upon on Tumblr for being "atrocious and a bad influence". No one likes to admit it, but everyone loves a little drama, don't they? To see someone else's dirty laundry aired out, the relief that it isn't their own, the community effort of shutting someone out of their reigns for one simple post. A satisfied Huff escapes Hisoka as he dwells in this lovely memory. Time to make a new one.

"CALLOUT POST for @spidershead13 I can't believe I would ever have to do this for someone like him, but Chrollo has definitely pushed it too far~. Definitely don't harrass him, just unfollow and block his sorry ass!~ ♣️ ."

Excitiment starts to bubble under Hisokas skin. In truth, of course, Chrollo did nothing horribly wrong, nothing at least that Hisoka could proof. But everyone likes good drama between popular blogs that follow different themes. If this post could rile him up enough to write a callout post for Hisoka in return- Blop. IM from porcelaincat: Hisoka. Oh no, the fun police. Bubblegumbitch: Yeeeees?~ ♥️ Porcelaincat: Are you not too old to start petty fights online? Bubblegumbitch: OUCH. ♠️ Bubblegumbitch: I stay young at heart, dear.~ Porcelaincat: 1) Gross. 2). Who are you bullying this time? Bubblegumbitch: Chrollo @spiderhead13 :o) Porcelaincat: I am surprised, I honestly did not take you for that stupid. My fault.

Ouch. Illumi never cared if he was hurting feelings. Maybe he should write the call-out post about Hisoka. Though Hisoka doesn't have any viable dirt on him, not yet at least, not until he finds that porn blog that hes SURE Illumi has hidden away somewhere. Whatever, fuck that guy and his voice of reason. Hisoka takes another gulp of his whiteclaw, and goes back to typing.

"It has come to my attention, that multiple people have had the same unpleasant experience with Chrollo, something you cannot let slide so easily~." 

(Multiple people meaning one fake blog that he himself created to write himself IM messages "receipts".)

"In the following screenshots, one person tells me about how Chrollo tried to convince them to come visit him in Newyork and joins his 'church'! That's right, the guys a cult leader, trying to lure in more people from here!~ (Blogname in the Screenshots is blacked out for anonymitys sake ofc)."

Was he going too far, trying to convince everyone that Chrollo was a Cult leader probably out to harvest their organs? Or was he not going far enough

"Not sure what everyone was expecting of a goth blog like his, posting all that ~deep~ and ~brooding~ stuff, but pleeaaaseee stay clear of him now, don't let yourselves get pulled into some scary cult bs~ ♦️ .

#callout #calloutpost #internetbloodsports #cult. "

And post. Hisoka spins excitedly in his chair, self satisfied with his own hubris.  Immediately more blops and pings storm in. Anonymous: I knew chrollo was a weirdo, mayor bad vibes ಠωಠ Anonymous: thank you for talking about this, honestly scary!!!!! Spiderslegtostandon: What is your damage? Hisoka chuckles. Now only to wait for- IM from spidershead13: Hello. Chrollos timing was as usual, perfect. Bubblegumbitch: Why hello~~~~ ♠️ Spidershead13: I believe we need to talk about whatever that post was. Hisoka glances at the notes, a steady stream of likes and reblogs flowing in. Damage control is gonna be hard for the opposing side.

Bubblegumbitch: Sorry, I believe I'm just warning the people about you~. Didn't take you for such a dangerous guy :o( Spidershead13: Can you give me the @ of the person sending you those messages? Obviously they must have gotten something wrong. I'd never Invite just anyone to come over here, and I'd also never force my beliefs on anyone. Bubblegumbitch: Sorry, no can do. Who says you're not going to doxx em~. ♠️ I don't want to be responsible for putting someone in danger more than they already are~.

The influencer was now just leaning back in his chair, taking in a cool nights-breeze flowing in from the window. Was Chrollo mad? He's sure he'd want to punch him right now. What will he start Hisokas call-out with? Who would people believe more? It was all so exciting.

Spidershead13: Hisoka, this is nothing to joke about. I don't want to loose the trust of my community. I want to clear my name. Bubblegumbitch: if you can proof that I, or my informant has lied, I won't stop you from trying.~ ♣️ Spidershead13: Is this another childish game to you? Bubblegumbitch: A game? I take public safety extremely serious!~ :o(

No reply for 10 minutes. Hisoka bites his bottomlip, basking in the excitement of the unknown next moves of Chrollo. He was unpredictable, and thats what made him fun to toy with. If he was simply out to ruin someone's blogging experience, he could have cherry picked any one popular blog, dig long enough for dirt, and run them off the site in less than 2 hours. But that's predictable, that's normal, where's the fun in that?

Ping. Anonymous: Where's the Call-out?? Did you bitch out? Huh? Anonymous: did you delete the post? Was about to forward it to some friends who r mutuals with chrollo Pardon? Hisoka check his blog, and behold- The post is gone. Wooshed away, as the site itself would annoyingly proclaim. Did the site glitch out and delete it? Is it simply not displaying the post? 

Spidershead13: So you did fake those screenshots, I assume. The URL in your IMs leads to an empty blog with the same IP address as you Spidershead13: I did not take you for someone who'd stoop that low. Bubblegumbitch: Hahaha what did you DO?~ ♠️  ♠️ ♠️ ♠️ ♠️ Spidershead13: Had a friend of mine 'check' your blog. He was also nice enough to delete the post for you already.

Hisoka blinks. Once. Then twice. He's been hacked. This was going even better than he had anticipated. Quickly he screenshots the conversation, before hitting "New Textpost". " !!!I'VE BEEN HACKED BY @SPIDERSHEAD13!!!! [Screenshot] #callout #callout post #internbloodsports #hacker"

Post.

Ping. Blop. Blop. Blop. Ping. This was going to be a long, delicious night.

#hunter x hunter #hisoka marrow #chrollo lucilfer #illumi zoldyck #fanfiction

[lowkeysebastianstan]

hey there. I totally get your frustration with endgame and the ending. I wasn't happy and I'm not happy how half the fandom tells me/us how we have to look at it. how we have to accept it. how the actors are happy with it and so should we. how the writers/producers - okay, I'm gonna leave them out of this seeing neither of them have any idea what they have done in the first place. after all they disagree on everything in every interview since the release. and isn't that funny? (1/?)

how even they are not on one side with the movie? what I despise most right now when it comes to this movie and this fandom is how we are treated. how we should tag our “hate” - which I think is funny since I didn’t hate the movie entirely. I hated pieces of it, like I did with past movies. I never liked doctor strange and even back then people were allowed to mention how casting cumberbatch for the part wasn’t the smartest idea they had. (2/?)

people want us to be happy with an ending that doesn’t make sense to us and they appreciate and are “allowed” to shove down our throats with their happy posts about a perfect ending. how is taking tony’s life after he finally married pepper and got a daughter is perfect? how is sending steve back to peggy after they did everything in their power to convince us he moved on from his past life…how is that perfect? (3/?)

you can probably tell I’m bitter. I really am. there’s not a day that goes by I’m not frustrated with what we got after ten years and 22 movies. however, I thought to myself what would it give me to cling on to this on my blog. would it change anything? I do know I’m not alone. I see so many people agreeing with this anger and it gives me some sort of peace. at the end of the day, though, it’s also important to see what it gives to you. (4/?)

talking to one of my closest friends about it and voicing my frustration with the end helps me more than keep posting about it. because in the end it won’t change a thing. the longer I surround myself with the frustration and anger and everything that comes with this not being what I had hoped for the more it pushes me from the fandom. of course everyone do as they please and I get people who want to get it out of their system. (5/?)

but maybe sitting down and look at what the constant repeating will give you in the end, realizing where it might end, could help finding some kind of peace for you. I’d hope for you to enjoy the parts of the fandom that still apply to you. I really like your blog and you as a person and I’d hate to see one of my fave people on this site to leave (I lost count, but this is the last)

whew! hi right back, that was quite something. 

i feel ive answered this ask before, was that also you?

i mean, yeah. i know im not alone, i do. i see some of it on my dash, but not a lot, since ive had to block every marvel related tag just to keep from indulging in some light murder (just gentle ones, not to worry), and i really cannot fathom why ppl on the other side of the isle can’t do the same? or if you’re getting tired of the negativity? blacklist. or unfollow, block even. 

as ive said a few times lately, ive been here 6 years. and this is the first time ive aired my frustration in any noticeable way. sure there’s been a few occasions where i got the salt shaker out, but that was in relation to much more limited subjects, and it was a post or two at the most. 

ive been frustrated with previous movies too, but ive kept my trap shut, ive just gone on, kept my queue stocked, giffed the rare set and hid behind pretty solid content, no drama, not personality, no engagement. 

and it’s not too bad, to just be anonymous, to look at the pretty, spread the pretty, do the occasional tag rant, and let that be it. 

but.

when i came back after a long hiatus last autumn i started writing again. i posted a psa where i apologised for the fact that i would reblog my writing on this blog, i informed what tags i was gonna use, and for the first time i actually checked my follower count before and after. i lost 20 followers the first day. for posting writing. my writing. that was tagged to a ridiculous degree. and i saw a fair few more disappear before the exodus, and idk. i made me realise a thing or two.

one, people like my blog and the content i post

two, they’re only here for that content

three, to have a strictly themed blog will limit you horribly

four, my followers in general don’t give a shit about me, only about the content i post, which fair enough

five, i care about that, even if i don’t care about the follower count as such, i do care that the ones i have actually like me

six, which is completely absurd bc none of them knows me at all, i never show myself

but that was then. this is now. and the last weeks has made me realise the most important thing of all, i dont care any more. why the fuck should i? when my showing any kind of negativity about something that i did care a whole lot about but i no longer have?

endgame might have killed all my enthusiasm for the mcu, and it fucking hurts. it’s been a staple in my life for years, ive invested my time, my creativity, my love and my goddamn money, and ive got jack shit to show for it. i have a blog that i used to love, but is becoming alien to me, and that hurts too. ive invested a lot in this blog too, after i deleted a few of my other blogs a couple of years back, this is by far my biggest one. and im torn tbh. 

do i want to leave it? no, i don’t. can i go back? honestly? i doubt it. if my love for the mcu is gone, well so is bucky. and lets be real, a sebastian stan blog with no bucky? i cannot really see it, can you?

but hey. ill make you a deal, all of you. ill ease up on the memes, i won’t stop bc i have a few scheduled, you guys blacklist or unfollow if you dont want to see them, and ill see about sprinkling in some sebastian content if i can find any i deem worth it. 

also i don’t have any close irl friends to air my frustrations with, everyone here loved this crap, and that’s not really the discourse im looking for. but im happy for you, it sounds nice :)

hope you’re having a great day! 

eta: i won’t leave btw. not unless the porn hub thing comes into fruition. just so you know, and if anyone cares. just sayin. 

eta2: also? the fact that i, or we, are complaining and being pissed at the movie, but the opposition are attacking us for doing that? instead of, again, fucking blacklist and leave us the fuck alone? yeah, doesn’t help with the bitter. if y’all are so threatened by our arguments, maybe you should reevaluate your own, seems you’re trying a bit too hard there. i don’t want to take enjoyment from anyone, i envy you too much for that, but ffs, just leave me the fuck alone to deal with it. (that’s not @ you, that’s to them)

eta3: and thank you for saying im someone you like. but see? ive been trolling you all, im terrible. and i expect you don’t like me as much now anyways. but thank you, it was nice to hear nevertheless.

#anon #ask #answered #anti endgame #see? i still tag it ffs #long post #so so long #hey i get it #the positivity is killing me #i get where you're coming from #but it's getting a bit tiresome to have people just come in and tell me to get over it #no matter how well you mean it #im sorry that i cant just snap and make half my feelings go away #y'know bc that would take away any good ones too #good greif infinity war kinda sucks too doesn't it #wow

[hugttos]

ANOTHER callout for alex @/knfe

others here 

this will mostly focus on the massive pile of lies alex has managed to spin up

lying about the whole reason we fell out anyway-

so i dumped alex’s shitty toxic ass once she vagued about me when she knew i was struggling and acted like a piece of shit about it, and then constantly made up reasons as to why it was my fault instead of just. owning up that she was a piece of shit

alex literally never said this happened until months later where its more convenient for her. i guess the fact it was supposedly her grandmas bday makes it a better sob story to buy because she literally Never mentioned this until this post so...whats the truth perhaps

this is again. supposedly. me admitting i knew it wasnt about me. the vague is this

fucking obviously ‘only good for sex’ doesn’t apply to me yet this whole vague mentions like five different things. but alex likes to ignore that and act like she ONLY mentioned being used for sex when its clearly full of umbrella statements. she completely ignores ‘only good for emotional support’ which is literally just the second sentence. this is the part i focus on because alex knew i was still grieving over a SERIOUS trauma that happened to me literally two weeks prior to this

also ‘the very next day’ now alex is lying and painting it as if i rushed her to talk about it when i had PURPOSELY waited until the next day rather than confront her about it when she was obviously still freaking out. but like. again. fuck me for trying to be a considerate friend right alex????

alex also decided to spin up the narrative that i only talked to anthony about it to drive a wedge between them which..isnt true lol. 

alex was just a dick to anthony for no reason (as she states above) and apparently i ‘forced it out of her’ by like. simply asking i guess? alex was also being very shitty during this time to so obviously im gonna ask her wtf her problem is but again. alex gets a free pass apparently and im an ass for being worried. also anthony came to ME first because of what you were doing and i was actually the one who had to sort out your stupid ass disagreement despite having my own VERY fresh trauma to work through at the time. alex even said she wasn’t even considering doing anything and just leaving the relationship in tatters bc of her own dumb shit and i had to convince her NOT to do that lmao.

me going to anthony with alex being a piece of shit just to stir up drama is SUCH a fucking reach. anthony even said to me he didn’t want to be friends with someone like alex when i showed him this but they like to conveniently ignore that :)

downplaying showing a minor porn-

they only blocked the channel after i called them out on it btw. so. again. truth is only at alex’s convenience

lying about her abuse-

tim is alex’s abuser, who she sexted with despite knowing he was dating someone else and even blamed her for alex’s own shitty actions (which alex likes to say never happened but theres screenshot proof SO)

again, this is me pointing out how alex is fucking horrible to her friends but also manipulative about doing anything to make herself a victim in any situation. this post is about her abuser who alex would talk about even WHEN WE WERE STILL FRIENDS in the group chat and it was literally always negative. like me wondering what the fuck would compel her to keep hanging out with the dude despite all that makes me victim blaming i guess???? but again alex has been known to befriend her own supposed abusers before so.. go figure i guess

alex me calling you out for being abusive and having tons of proof, but you’re too fucking stupid to actually own up to shit? thats not gaslighting??

alex is the only one who’s actually gone to ppl trying to get them to side with her and i have plenty of ppl who can account to this. and alex is just. endlessly fucking dense and doesn’t understand how hypocritical it is for her to say ‘i was just making posts on my own blog!!’ when she’s been known to flip out when I do the same. even when its not even close to being about her.

and yes uhh i cant believe i have to say this but gloating about ‘healing uwuw’ while you’re abusing someone is uhh. fucking disgusting!

lying about old drama-

alex loves to claim that i was 18 during the old callouts despite having it archived and having the information right in front of her

lying about interacting with abusers (and also making it about her)-

broden is MY abuser too dumbass and (literally by your own admission) i was abused a lot worse by him so shut the fuck up?? broden forced me to do rape rps too, along with guilting me and gaslighting me AND my boyfriend for years. also no alex you unblocked him to ‘prove’ you were underage when you dated when i caught you lying saying it was pedophilic and he dated you when he was in his 20s and you were 16. i outed you that it was actually that you were 17 about to turn 18 and he was barely 19 when you started dating. then you backpedaled and said you forgot which like...having memory issues myself saying you were dating a 20 year old while you’re 16 doesnt sound like a memory thing? sounds more like lying??? also while they were dating alex was cheating on broden with tim but claims she gets a free pass for that bc they’re her abusers. and like. obviously thats not how. shit works.

lying about stalking:

alex likes to move blogs rather than just own up to her shitty behavior and then scream stalking when i out her again. which is perfectly reasonable given she’s still openly abusive.

alex if lurking and vagueing makes someone a stalker then you’re shooting yourself in the foot because you literally do this MORE than i do. and ofc this is followed by screenshots of the most irrelevant text posts including me literally just saying a theme is ugly (which HAS to be about her bc literally everything is apparently

AGAIN, alex moved bc she revived her own kiwifarms thread and acted shocked when they started writing on her text wall thing and went totally fucking rabid about how it was me (it wasnt and more on this later)

i also made it clear that yes im outing alex again for reasons i previously stated

also why does alex act like im a mastermind for finding her new url when she literally reblogged aes posts from her old blog onto her new one. its not fucking rocket science alex

when you’re an active abuser who hasn’t owned up to shit your victim has a fucking right to warn people about you and it doesnt make them a stalker alex!!!

lying about how i ‘befriend freaks’-

Literally None of the links are pornographic btw..and none of them are actually? my posts?

also yes uhh i actually have proof that gideon just dug through archives to pick out things to exaggerate and no its actually not deleted because the proof is right here!

also i should point out its really REALLY hypocritical for alex to freak out over this because i unfollowed these blogs after like. a week? and alex was friends with known pedophile gorecember and also friends with someone who posts irl gore (even posted gore herself) and necrophilia.

alex claims this along with claiming i groom minors just because a mutual of mine got an ask about me and two of her followers were positive about it.

like. ive literally never interacted with these ppl before?? just bc people are nice instead of abusive like alex doesnt mean im friends with them and it doesnt indicate some big fucking conspiracy or whatever??

lying about anons and literally anything she doesnt like-

alex will literally spin the most fucking ridiculous stories to add to her narrative but like....its really simple. that anon isnt me BECAUSE I WAS LITERALLY ASLEEP WHEN THIS HAPPENED...LMAO... 

alex has one of those text wall things, and she flipped out after ppl started harassing her on it right after she revived her own dead kiwifarms thread but threw a tantrum that it was me. again. when i wasn’t even online

alex has lots. LOTS.. of weak reasoning

ok so...alex really Cannot get it into her thick fucking head that ppl can fake typing styles. also alex half of these are things YOU say more than i do? or either things that like. Everyone says.

ive OUTED alex for shit before so uhh its not actually stuff only i would know if i posted about it. 

this. honestly just speaks for itself.

please distance yourselves from alex, theyre an abuser and very manipulative and constantly gaslight people, pls keep yourself safe thanks

#knfe #callout post #abuse #gaslighting #freak tag #drama #HI RB THIS!!!!! THANKIES

[genosans-a2-blog]

Okay guys. I’m not leaving you in the dark anymore. 

I am leaving. And I don’t think I’ll be coming back. This means all my accounts are going to become inactive. @genosans, @glitchcide and @ecstaticsmokes are all going to be inactive along with the two accounts I mod. 

That’s right. I’m leaving. I’m leaving the Undertale Rp community. I won’t lie. I’ve had some good times now. If it wasn’t for Undertale I wouldn’t have met some pretty awesome people or met my girlfriend. 

But....

I’m not leaving cause I lost muse though. My muse is still there for all that I RP. Oh no. 

I’m leaving because of how toxic this fucking fandom has become. It’s become so toxic and hateful it disgusts me and it actually makes me ashamed to be part of the RP community now.

I’ve been here since November of 2015. I’ve had a lot of RP accounts before being here. This fandom is one of the ones where in such a short amount of time I have RPied 5 different muses. I have enjoyed each and everyone of my RPs. So I’ve been through and seen quiet a lot as well as been involved in things as well. 

But if you noticed, I haven’t been here properly on any of the accounts I RP on since September and it’s gone from as early as July to me taking hitauses within this fandom. I’ve taken so many hitauses just to get away from the toxicness within this fandom that has been constantly growing. 

I won’t deny it. The whole fandom isn’t at fault. I know and still see that there are still good people out there who don’t cause drama, who are nice, who are genuine, who don’t start drama and don’t send hate. But the toxicness is drowning you guys out and I’m sorry for that. 

I’ve been here and I’ve lost people due to them moving on with time which happens that is natural. I’ve had friends in the past leave because of the fandom being toxic or rpiers being toxic to them. I’ve lost contact with people due to our different interests and due to my ability to find it difficult to talk to people at times if we don’t have a common interest. This is my fault to an extent but some of these friends just dropped of the face of the earth and never appeared again so I guess you can say they are a little at fault as well.

The fandom has split into groups. Mainly three from what I’ve seen over the past few months with my lurking around. This is normal I know. We all form cliques with our friends on who we prefer to RP with. It’s natural to RP mainly with our close friends and because of that groups happen. But from what I have seen, if you don’t RP with any of them groups, you’re probably gonna be excluded to an extent from RPing with others to an extent. People have become extremely selective because of this from what I have seen. 

There has been so much shit and discourse between RPiers that it had started to cause drama to appear on the dash. Drama that could have been discussed and dealt with in private. I have been there for a lot of it in the past. Recently I haven’t  seen a lot of it due to avoiding the community, but I know it’s been happening. I know drama has been leaked from private to public either by accident but there’s times it’s most likely been done on purpose either through vague blogging or unnecessary callout posts. Things that don’t and shouldn’t be used when dealing with drama.  

Hate is still an issue. And that pisses me of. My girlfriend has left because some of you guys are sending hate. You practically drove my girlfriend out because some of you are so fucking sick and twisted who can’t seem to let anyone have fun. My girlfriend isn’t the only one. I’ve seen this happen countless times to different people who I can’t remember the names to now. But I’ve seen multiple people be driven out of this fandom because of hate. Sending hate because you don’t like someones portrayal or just as a person. It’s horrible and disgusting and you should be ashamed of yourself for doing it. 

As well as that, I’ve also had many friends over the course of the past year who have left this fandom mostly because of the toxic people and groups that appeared who didn’t like them due to either how they RPied in general or who they were as a person  or even both and it disgusts me. 

Well here’s a fucking newsflash for you kiddies. This goes to everyone out there guys! 

Everyone portrays a muse differently. And the fact that some of you have drove people out of this fandom because you don’t like their portrayal is fucking sick and disgusting. It’s so fucking twisted of you to do this. The fact that people think it’s okay to harass people and insult their RPing and try to dictate how someone should RP or who they should and shouldn’t interact with is horrible. How you think you should insult how someone writes and think you can make them write their muse what you want them to write it like is disgusting. How you send hate or insult or purposely harass someone so that you can purposely get them to leave the RP community is disgusting.

If you gotta problem with how someone RPs a muse and you don’t like it. Here’s some suggestions. Unfollow the person. Block the tags. Block their account. And you know what, if you don’t like the portrayal of a muse then tough shit. People can portray a muse whatever way they want and if you have a problem fucking leave the account and don’t even bother with them. Same if you don’t like the person. Unfollow. Block tags and the account. Hey fucking presto. You don’t have to talk or see them again. Being shitty to someone is not nice nor will it ever be. So don’t do it. 

Plus, this community used to be friendly and open. Now it isn’t. I hate how it’s become like this. How unfriendly and toxic it has become. This is why I made a new RP account. This is why I didn’t tell anyone of the URL bar my close friends. Because I don’t want this fandom to follow me. I have become one of those people that don’t wish to RP with the majority of this fandom due to how toxic it has become. I want to keep the toxicness away from my current account. I don’t want or need it. 

I will still lurk on @genosans for the next few days if you have any questions and I many or may not answer them. I’m not really that willing to give out my URL for my new RP account at all as I want to remove myself from the Undertale community. I may give it to someone if they ask but depending on who you are I won’t give it. The same goes with my Skype and Discord. I will only give it to you if I wish too. If I refuse too bad. This is for my own comfort.

Please don’t send me messages of don’t go and please stay. This is something I have been thinking about for the past couple of months. That’s how long I’ve been thinking on leaving. As I said, I don’t plan on returning to the Undertale RP community. If I ever do it will be a verse on any muses I have. 

As well as that, I don’t care if you send me hate. I don’t. I think this post was necessary to explain why I am leaving and hopefully to give a lot of you a fucking wake up call and realise that this fandom is not as nice and sweet as it used to be. That it’s becoming toxic with everything that happened. 

Good bye. Farewell to you all. Maybe we will see each other again someday. Maybe not. I’ve been fortunate enough to meet old friends in new fandoms before. I can see it happening again in the future with some of you maybe. Maybe not. In the end. I did enjoy interacting with people I met. Enjoy my friendships with the people I met even if some of them are over. That is life. You make friends, you lose friends and then you move on, rinse and repeat. 

So like I said. I’ll be lurking here for a few days so I can answer any IMs and asks I get as well as reblog this a few more times. I’ll only answer things on @genosans guys as I will most likely ignore the ones I get on my other accounts plus I plan to close the ask boxes on them so I don’t have to go on the accounts again. 

Good bye all. See some of you later and some of you not. Either way. Have a nice day!!! 

#; breaking the fourth wall (ooc) #you all thought id put this under cut for being super long #jokes on you ones who will purposely ignore it #i havent #cause i want you to see this #but future reblogs of it will be under a cut