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#and sometimes it's very hard to be confrontational
inthecarpets · 21 hours
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Thinking once again about how beautifully and nuanced Ryoko Kui crafted Toshiro and Laios' relationship. And how in a way the many interpretations and types of reactions say a lot about the viewers' lives and perspectives.
How sometimes two people might want to be polite, might want to be kind, but due to their differences, misscommunication and their own personal flaws they will only end up hurting each other. And the longer their misscommunication lasts, the more it hurts. How sometimes if people spoke sooner it wouldn't get to be so bad.
And how reactions say how quite much everyone been in some kind of situation like that. We assume the best and the worst intentions in each other.
We have to deal with a person who can't stop bothering us. Deal with a person who seems a little shy but they are nice but actually no, they secretly hate us. Situation where someone pretends to be a friend or for some forsaken reason forces themselves to hang out with us. When it's hard to confront someone. When we are too much. When we are in the wrong without realising it. When it's hard to be confronted. Being in a situation you wish you were confronted at the start. How sometimes confrontation is near impossible. Taking a risk of confrontation in general. Not being able to find the right words. Not being able to utter them.
Sometimes we'd all rather to point fingers and call each other names instead of realise the flaws of the world that we live in. How sometimes there Sure are bad people and bad intentions but sometimes it's also just all a bad accident with good intentions on both sides, and lack of education.
Ryoko Kui crafted such a very nuanced and beautiful story. A story with details such show the readers and viewers' feelings and perspectives and shortcomings when interacting with other people. And yeah, i think that's beautiful. Bless.
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would be so funny if after sirius and reader fuck for the first time, the next time he sees remus hes debriefing like they used to when they were younger and remus is like “you never change do you” but sirius goes “she’s different!” because she is 🤭 and then glimpses of how sirius and reader act together that make remus realise that his friend is indeed whipped, head over heels, long gone
my first ask 🙇🏻‍♀️‼️ thank u. i’m not super confident in writing dialog but i gave it my best effort lmao
from the moment Remus gets back to grimmauld place… he knows something’s up.
The air feels different, and Sirius is all but skipping around the house.
Remus quickly puts two and two together as it doesn’t take a genius to figure out what’s been going on. Sirius wears his emotions on his sleeve, and it’s been obvious from the very beginning that he has an interest in you.
After a meeting, Remus pulls Sirius to the side and sighs. “Really, Sirius?”
Sirius can’t help the smug little smile on his face. He knows exactly what Remus is referring to, but he likes to play coy, and the back-and-forth between them is always a bit of fun. “Something on your mind, Remus?”
Remus wants to roll his eyes. He speaks in a quiet but firm tone. “Must I spell it out for you? Do you think what you’re doing is appropriate?”
Sirius responds with a simple glance of his eyes. He locks eyes with Remus, slowly looks over to Tonks, and then meets eyes with Remus again. As if saying ‘You’re not one to talk’ without having to say it
Of course Sirius would know about that. Remus thinks bitterly. It’s sometimes easy to forget that Sirius is smarter and more perceptive than he lets on.
Not bothering to try and save face, Remus defends quietly, “That isn’t the same.”
“How so?” Sirius asks, knowing he’s already won the confrontation without even having to say much.
Remus could create a list of reasons as to why Sirius Black of all people shouldn’t be sleeping with one of the new order members. No matter the reasons why, Sirius was never known for committed relationships or monogamy.
But right now isn’t the time for this discussion. The meeting’s just ended and everyone’s rounding up for dinner. Remus sighs. “You’ll never change, will you?”
Remus thinks the conversation is done, but Sirius replies after a short pause. Remus is mildly surprised by how genuine Sirius sounds when he says “This time is different, old friend.”
Remus knows Sirius. He knows him better than anyone else. And he knows that Sirius won’t take this so-called ‘relationship’ seriously.
In Remus’s mind, he thinks that Sirius is just bored. He knows it’s hard for Sirius to be trapped in his childhood home, and having a pretty girl around is a good distraction.
Throughout dinner, Remus can’t help but steal glances at the two of you. He watches the way Sirius listens to you when you speak, his eyes never straying from yours.
After dinner, Remus watches Sirius as he makes you a cup of tea. Sirius adds a generous amount of milk and a small pinch of sugar as if he’s already memorized your preferences.
Then in the middle of the night, Remus rises out of bed and makes his way to the bathroom. Whilst passing by Sirius’s room, Remus can hear bits and pieces of your late-night conversations. It’s difficult to make out your quiet mumblings, but it’s got something to do with life after the war and possible children.
Remus decides to stop pestering Sirius. Perhaps this could be a good thing in the long run
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emilykaldwen · 2 months
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Hi I am struggling with being ace and people's perception of me. Like they literally see me as invalid as a person because I don't have a man nor do I want one. Then I feel like I'm missing out if I don't have a man even as I know it will never work in reality. It's more like the status I want than an actual man. I work and live in a nice apartment so people kind of vibe off that when they find out, it lessens the harshness but I have a single female relative who is moving in with me due to homelessness and now the comments are starting about impoverished spinsters clubbing together, my life is over I'm past it. I don't know how to deal with it, it's really dragging me down to the point I feel if she lives with me its intolerable because people are saying this
Hi Anon! First off, I'm really sorry you're dealing with a bunch of massive assholes cause I'm sitting here going who the fuck says that shit to people? You are totally valid in your identity, and frankly, fuck what anyone else says.
So, my experiences are not reflective of other communities or cultures. You may be in a place that is very entrenched in the Life Script, as I like to call it: Heteronormative monogamous partnerships. (I'm based in the US, and even then, my experience is not universal in this country either)
So here's the thing, and some my take this differently, but I come from the camp of 'My sexuality is no one's business unless it comes up'. 'But Nat', you may say 'you have your identity in your tumblr blog'. Yes, yes I do because this is an appropriate space to state it so I can more easily connect with other people who are like me.
Now, this only works so far as you get older and people are like 'why don't you have a partner? don't you want kids? don't you want to get married? what's wrong with you?'. I run into this a lot as well in childfree circles. The moment I say 'oh, I don't want kids', a lot of people who have kids/want kids suddenly get super defensive, like I'm saying my personal choice means no one should be having kids and they're fools to have children. I think that runs into the similar issues on the ace spectrum where people who are in relationships are like 'do you think you're better than me or something?'
I didn't come to my full Ace conclusion until I was... 32? Before that I had been running on a bisexual/mostly-lesbian leaning outlook on life until I was living on my own and was like 'man, you know what, I should try date' and ended up getting myself a boyfriend. I tried. I tried for six months. I told him up front I wasn't very sexually motivated and it turned out he wasn't either! but man, he was as dull as a fucking rock (very nice though) and we had a lot in common and like, he would have made for a GREAT friend. But I found myself really struggling with not being attracted, not wanting to kiss him, and inside I'm going 'man this would be way better if he were a girl'. So I broke up with him, I told him I was a lesbian, and then once that was done I just... never had the urge to date again. Sometimes I do, but I realize now it's more that I'm trying to seek a platonic companion, someone who is always there to hang out with, that we have a lot in common, etc.
Even the most well meaning and supportive people can say things that are dismissive of being Ace even if they're not trying to be and it's up to YOU, anon, to let it roll off. Because not everyone is trying to drag you down.
But the people who are? Aren't people I think you want to have in your life anyway. These don't sound like friends or supportive people if they keep demeaning you because you have a different life than them. Are these the people you really want approval from for 'status' when it means degrading you for how you're built? Who YOU ARE as a person? The status is not worth denying your sense of self. Let's say you were gay and your friends were pressuring you about being straight. Would you get involved in a straight relationship that made you miserable? No, I don't think so (or at least, I hope not!)
I think it's absolutely lovely to have your aunt moving in with you and the next time someone says something, you just tell them 'That's such a callous and cruel thing to say. I have the room in my home and I love my aunt very much and I'm glad to help her. With today's economy, it works out for the both of us'.
And the next time someone wants to come at you for being ace, you can say 'Wow, I didn't know you spent so much time thinking about my sex life. That's so weird and kind of creepy'.
I find these sort of comments help... put into perspective what people are sounding like.
But honestly, fuck these people. They are not worth your time, and you are worth so much more than them.
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canisalbus · 3 months
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What is the one thing that bothers each other on their lover?
Not huge icks, but small bothers?
Vasco can be forgetful and a bit irresponsible. And even if he means well, he sometimes comes across inconsiderate, he just doesn't always think things through. He's usually very sure of himself, stubborn and resistant to accepting advice if he thinks he knows what he's doing. Occasionally he misreads the situation and his attempts to lighten the mood misfire so severely, it's like he's incapable taking things seriously.
Machete has a nitpicky control freak side to him that gets more pronounced when he's stressed. He's prone to bottling up his emotions and then feeling misunderstood when people can't read his mind. He finds a way to blame himself for everything and is a chronic over-apologizer.
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ilynpilled · 1 year
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A Game of Thrones - Catelyn X
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A Clash of Kings - Catelyn VII
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A Storm of Swords - Jaime I
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A Storm of Swords - Jaime III
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A Storm of Swords - Jaime III
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A Storm of Swords - Jaime IV
Jaime & Passive Suicidal Ideation
His statements and actions concerning the subject are framed as him not being afraid. But he is. He is afraid of what he has become, afraid of confronting himself, afraid of confronting the world, and he is afraid of having to live.
He should not be brave enough to die. He should be brave enough to live.
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doozie97 · 1 year
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We could’ve had a phenomenal episode if it was Ondine who was akumatized upon the cold realization that her boyfriend might not be the guy she thought he was and for Kim’s two braincells to brush against each other enough to make the connection between what he once did to prank Marinette and what he felt after what Chloe would later do to humiliate him in Dark Cupid.
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decoloraa · 6 months
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Currently in my Val era (I'm annoyed at the people surrounding me)
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forabeatofadrum · 4 months
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@kurtsascot replied to your post “@kurtsascot replied to your post “Question for fic...”:
okayyyy… hmmm. i think regardless whether its revealed entirely what rachels beef is, its good to include. in real life, we dont always know why people dislike us- i think its okay if it isnt expanded….also!! you can only reveal part of the reason if youd like, like only whatever rachel is willing to admit to herself by the end of the piece👀
​Yeah exactly! That's what I am aiming for. Rachel and Santana (and other characters, like Quinn, and Denise, and the Andersons, and etc. etc. etc.) have a life!
Like it's up in the air. It might come back, but I don't actively plan on it. But yeah, I do like my lil extended universe. Sigh. There are so many of my fics where I have a lot of thots about that don't end up in the story since it's just a lot of extended stuff. There's a lot of Quinn/Denise and stuff about past Blaine/Quinn that will not be included either. (Damn, do I write another Quinn/Denise thing?)
But yeah, I think I'll keep it in and if it never gets mentioned again, then it depends on whether someone asks about it, I guess.
Ugh, I just always have so much to say about the universes of my stories. You gotta remember that I wrote Ljubim te and Je tik pred vami without knowing that Ljubili se would join the club, so when I wrote the connection between Quinn, Santana, Rachel and Brittany I didn't think it'd come back. It was just something to mention so I could sort of flesh out Quinn's gay past at high school. So this is me now, trying to see what stuff can work and how things might come together:
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birdmenmanga · 1 year
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the beloved mutuals will love to know that after a good sleep I’m normal again
#just thinking thoughts...#I'm soooo silly. it's so silly. we both want to be friends so bad.#it's soooo obvious.#two guys who want to be friends so bad and lurk so hard on each others' social medias#I'm curiously watching his personal discord and he's curiously watching my twitch stream#we never breathe a word about the lurking though. until we casually bring it up in person. and it's like oh you were watching?#on god?#lol.#hold hands and sing kumbaya already. lol.#he mentioned briefly that he felt (what I believe the chinese meant) social anxiety sometimes and like. this behavior tracks lol.#is it a coincidence that the only instagram post of mine he liked was the one captioned with#'what do you mean rotating you inside my mind like a rotisserie chicken doesn't count as a real friendship'#anyways. I'm going to give messaging him my all. it helps a lot that he lives on discord and not just line#lol this other guy lives on line though and I'm messaging him in english because he wanted a challenge. I'm having fun with him#he has a kind heart. his world is just a little small.#so he'll say things like 'no I'm normal!' when confronted with the mere possibility of being gay etc.#but he'll backpedal on it. 'no wait I shouldn't phrase it like that!!'#and such. and he thoughtlessly stereotypes people and things like that. but he's very willing to admit he's done things wrong#I like these two guys. I think I'll bring them to an art gallery or something sometime. I think it strikes a good balance.#I think me and the motorcycle guy are mentally in a similar headspace in terms of values and ideals#me and the other guy have the same energy and vibe#and they also don't have to spend the entire time accommodating for my linguistic limitations because they can also talk to each other#it works out in my head. I hope it's not too awkward.
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recently i’ve been rewatching a-teen with a friend (who’s seeing it for the first time) and we just finished the part where the girls reconcile
and my friend started saying how that was unrealistic because they just moved in and didn’t address any of the underlying issues? and how she wouldn’t do that/it would make sense for them to just cut of Kim Hana
and like i see what she means but it’s also funny when she tries to say i would also do that (not forgive & move on) when i’ve literally done that with her so many times
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kuiinncedes · 2 years
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this is so kfdfjhgjff unimportant lol
#my friend/co-chair of our position on board is so formal in texts and announcements and stuff#and she sends announcements to me to approve of bc usually she sends stuff#to the whole group#but like i want to completely rewrite it bc i would never write it like that it's so formal and srs which isn't bad it's just not what i#would do and idk if the other ppl in our club would be put off by it kinda like i am#i'm not put off by it idk i just overthink my messages so much always to keep them sounding light and not very serious yk lmao#maybe not necessarily not serious but not formal#like her messages aren't bad at all they're just in her texting style#which is on the opposite end of the spectrum from mine 😭#but i don't want to just change her messages bc she's sending them so it shold still be her texting style#and like there's nothing wrong with her texting style i'm just stressed about human interaction and want my messages to sound completely#like not mad/serious in any way akjdgdgfkf lmao anyway i gotta look at these two messages she just sent me :'')#like she said 'please note that covid tests will be required' and idk i just don't like that it sounds so srs and strict XD#(im also just a bit stressed by that point in particular bc idk if ppl will be annoyed that we're requiring covid tests lmaooo 🤪)#(so like if i were doing it i think i'd make that point as like 'light' as possible lmao)#akhdjgjfbsfgbgrrughidfarjejfisdgf anyway it's fine she's fine i'm gonna be fine#like it's probably not even good that i overthink my messages so much and try so hard to make them non confrontational bc like sometimes#u wanna be confrontational ya know but#or just fucking straightforward and direct ffs#anyway lol i can like be slightly working on that by approving my friend's very serious/formal messages XD#not me procrastinating on getting back to her and reaidng her messages by continuing whatever this is lol 🤪#jeanne talks
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I think I’ve mentioned before that you can make more proxies/avatars of Bastion by summoning them. Which essentially gives the new proxy permission to exist in the new state you summoned it in. Some Fae in this world use this to go places that their main Oaths and Mantles keep them from. I.E. Every Fae of the Unseelie or Seelie Court are obligated to attend if the acting Monarch calls them. But Fae like Bastion are bound in ways that would keep them from actually showing up as the entirety of themselves. Hence summoning.
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elizazone · 4 months
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um i NEED a baby fever felix fic please?? like the whole breeding thing has MY soul
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Oh, anon, you get it. You totally get the idea.
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𝕱𝖊𝖑𝖎𝖝 𝖈𝖆𝖙𝖙𝖔𝖓 𝖜𝖎𝖙𝖍 𝖇𝖆𝖇𝖞 𝖋𝖊𝖛𝖊𝖗
Warnings: nsfw, breeding
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Firstly, I just know Felix wants kids. He’s always imagined one, two at most. He was brought up on the idea that he needed to keep the family name alive, to have a son, an heir. I can imagine Elspeth keeping up this mantra throughout Felix’s life. Telling him it’s what he’s made for, it’s his duty as their son.
He would want to be the first. He would want to have a baby before Venetia (although i doubt she’d ever settle down).
But he would want to do it first. He would make the family proud.
He kept this idea up his whole life, he needed to settle down, marry and have a baby as soon as he could.
He looked all over for the right person, he knew it was you. As soon as he held your hand on the first date, he knew you were the one he wanted to spend the rest of his life with.
Felix would bring it up with you frequently, little jokes here and there. Late night chats “what would you name our baby?” Type thing. But deep down you could tell it was what he truly desired.
He would confront you just before your last weeks at Oxford, you were about to enter the world.
We would lay down on the foot of your bed, looking up at you lovingly as you read over your notes. A feeling of ease in the air.
“Darling?” He looks up at you, that mischievous look in his eyes you’ve come to associate with lust. “Felix, baby, not right now”. He strokes your leg lovingly, admiring the tan you’d gained from the early summer sun. “No, sweetheart, not that” he laughs.
He looks up at you, grinning, “you know.. you now how we want to be married” he rolls over, gazing at the ceiling as he takes a drag of his long dead cigarette. He waits a beat, seeing if you’d reply. “I’ve been thinking. About our future.”
And that’s where it all began.
It took a long time to convince you, I mean, you were young. You were both very young. Yet you couldn’t see a future without Felix, he was your whole world. You couldn’t imagine marrying anyone else.
From then on, every time he’d fuck you, he’d have intent. He needed to have you, fully have you. He can’t wait to see you stuffed with his cock, it’s all he thinks of throughout the day.
He would hold off having sex sometimes, just to build up the tension. Because he knows that when he wants to cum, he only wants to do it inside of you. Deep within your pussy.
He fucks you hard. Like it’s his last wish on earth to knock up his princess. As he thrusts into you wildly, he imagined how godly you would look with a round, swollen belly. How absolutely delicious you would be, helpless, unable to cope properly without him.
With a hard grip on your hips, Felix fucks himself harshly into you, desperate to breed you fully. To fuck you stupid.
You can feel him falter slightly, his thrusts become erratic. He’s close. You wrap your legs around his waist, pulling him in closer to you.
The thought drives him insane, over the line as he cums with hot ropes into your pussy. He fold over, caging you with his arms. His chest heaving. His body glistening, sweat beading down his chest.
“Fuck. Oh god- babe. You’re mine. Always mine, you always will be”
He throws forwards a few experimental thrusts and lets out a deep moan. “So fucking good for me”
You look so gorgeous, laying beneath him, completely still. Your pretty body twitching with pleasure.
And he refuses to pull out for so long. Making sure he knocks you up. Plugging up your sweet hole with his seed.
And then he realises, he will have to marry you soon too.
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httpwintersoldier · 6 months
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opla men hc || when there's sexual tension between you and them
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ᴢᴏʀᴏ ; ᴍɪʜᴀᴡᴋ ; ʟᴜғғʏ ; sᴀɴᴊɪ ; sʜᴀɴᴋs ; ʙᴜɢɢʏ ᴄᴡ: ɴᴏ sᴘᴇᴄɪғɪᴄs
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ᴢᴏʀᴏ
⤷ zoro can't place a finger on what it is he's feeling, he just knows he's feeling something
⤷ and that something substantially increases when you're near
⤷ it especially increases when you wear tight clothes and little dresses
⤷ it wasn't until you placed a hand on his thigh and got him thinking where he really wanted that hand that he pieced everything together
⤷ he would try to calm himself down and ignore the feeling but he would eventually just give up
⤷ zoro wouldn't talk to you or confront you about the issue - that's not his style
⤷ the swordsman would just touch you a little more and a little closer to the places he shouldn't have his eyes on
⤷ and eventually you'd give in and make a move - he would definitely make you think the whole thing was your idea, that he hadn't been teasing on purpose you for the longest time
⤷ "you're better than I've been imagining..."
ᴍɪʜᴀᴡᴋ
⤷ he's a very intense person, and he gets what he wants
⤷ so when he set his eyes on you and felt the heavy air in the room whenever you two were together he knew you wanted him as badly as he wanted you
⤷ but mihawk wanted to see you work for it
⤷ he would touch you and whisper in your ear, he would say things in a sexual manner on purpose to get you to blush while thinking improper things in front of him
⤷ mihawk would only be satisfied when you were desperate and begging for him, even if that meant he had to wait - he was a masochist, that was for sure
⤷ "when you're ready to beg for me I'd be more than delighted to bend you over on this table and fuck you"
ʟᴜғғʏ
⤷ luffy, like zoro, wouldn't really know what the funny feeling he got in his body when he was around you meant
⤷ but one sure thing was that he always felt like something pulled him towards you whenever you entered the room
⤷ he wouldn't be able to stop himself from touching you, sometimes inappropriately
⤷ luffy and social cues weren't a match, so whenever he'd feel like it he would sneak his arms around you and grab your tits, or sneak his hand up your skirt when he got a peek of your ass
⤷ and you didn't stop him, of course
⤷ you'd scold him in a pathetic attempt to pretend you somehow disliked it, but the combo of his innocent face and dirty hands roaming your body excited you
⤷ "but y/n your tits are so soft... and it makes me feel good when I touch you"
sᴀɴᴊɪ
⤷ sanji swears up and down that he has a connection with everyone - but he swears just as hard that it's different with you
⤷ you even begin to think that you might be the only person on the face of the earth sanji didn't flirt with
⤷ what you didn't know was that sanji's head was so occupied with thoughts of everything he wanted to do to you that any and every word meant for you would get stuck in his throat
⤷ it would get to the point where you'd actually go and ask him
⤷ and boy would sanji have to restrain himself
⤷ seeing you all sweet, shy and adorable... looking at the ground as you asked if he disliked you, just basically yearning for his approval... it took everything in him not to fuck you dumb in the very hallway you stood
⤷ "oh chéri, you've got it all wrong... it's not that I hate you, it's that I really want to fuck you"
sʜᴀɴᴋs
⤷ your and shanks' sexual tension would be there from day one
⤷ when he wants something, he wants it - and he gets it
⤷ it was just a matter of when you'd give in and let him fuck you
⤷ but shanks was subtle, he wanted you to want him, shanks would never ask someone to fuck him, let alone beg - he would work his magic and the people he wanted would come crawling
⤷ you were no different
⤷ it would start with small touches that would progressively get more and more bold - the hand on the small of your back would brush past your ass when he passed by, the kisses on the cheek as a greeting were so close to your lips he might as well just kiss you and half of the things shanks told you were whispered in your ear, with a hand holding your jaw
⤷ you'd find yourself leaning more and more into his touch, slowly yearning that his actions became more bold, that shanks would grab your ass, that he'd make out with you and that he'd put his pretty mouth to good use somewhere else
⤷ "Come take a seat on my lap, princess, you might want to extend your stay on it and all... just not with any clothes on"
ʙᴜɢɢʏ
⤷ unlike most above, buggy does not beat around the bush
⤷ when he wants something he wants it in that moment and it will either happen the good way or the bad way
⤷ but this time he was sure the glances you stole and the way your hand would brush past several of his body parts was not a coincidence, and that the heavy air wasn't humidity - you definitely wanted him too
⤷ buggy would smack your ass and squeeze your body as you passed by, hissing when you teased him back
⤷ he didn't care if people saw it, he wanted to feel you and he was going to feel you until he got you alone so he could fill you up - and he was impatient
⤷ "if you're not in my room tonight I will find you and fuck you wherever you are, and whoever is nearby will be our audicence. I'm sure they will enjoy your pretty noises"
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ezukll · 2 months
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⠀⠀⠀⠀🥀 𝗠𝗔𝗥𝗦 𝗜𝗡 𝗛𝗢𝗨𝗦𝗘𝗦
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𝗠𝗔𝗥𝗦 𝗜𝗡 𝟭𝗦𝗧 𝗛𝗢𝗨𝗦𝗘
Mars in the first house is a placement that can embody strong, passionate, and commanding energy. A person with this placement may have a confident, direct, and ambitious approach to life. They can be outspoken, willing to take risks, and unafraid to go after what they want. They may also have a strong drive to succeed and a competitive nature. However, Mars can also symbolize anger and aggression, which can lead to outbursts and confrontations. Finding a healthy way to harness and express the energy can be key in unlocking one's highest potential.
𝗠𝗔𝗥𝗦 𝗜𝗡 𝟮𝗡𝗗 𝗛𝗢𝗨𝗦𝗘
Mars in the 2nd House is a placement that can have a strong focus on material possessions, self-value, and resources. A person with this placement may have a tendency to be ambitious and driven when it comes to accumulating wealth and creating a comfortable and safe environment. This can also indicate that they may be stubborn or set in their ways about their values and possessions. It can also mean that they may feel defensive about their beliefs, values, or ideals, potentially leading to confrontations if their boundaries are crossed.
𝗠𝗔𝗥𝗦 𝗜𝗡 𝟯𝗥𝗗 𝗛𝗢𝗨𝗦𝗘
Mars in the 3rd House can indicate a strong desire for expansion and adventure when it comes to communication and mental pursuits. The person with this placement may have a strong focus and drive to communicate their ideas and opinions. They may be very vocal and opinionated, and can be assertive when they want to make their views known. However, they can also be very stubborn and unwilling to see other perspectives. They may tend to jump into conversations or arguments without thinking things through first.
𝗠𝗔𝗥𝗦 𝗜𝗡 𝟰𝗧𝗛 𝗛𝗢𝗨𝗦𝗘
Mars in the 4th House suggests a strong passion and energy in the private realm of home and family. The person with this placement may have a strong drive for protecting and providing for their family and those they care about. They may have a need for security and a sense of safety in their inner world. They may be very protective of their home environment and those they care about and may have a strong desire to ensure the wellbeing and comfort of their family. However, this may also lead to a tendency towards possessiveness and controlling tendencies.
𝗠𝗔𝗥𝗦 𝗜𝗡 𝟱𝗧𝗛 𝗛𝗢𝗨𝗦𝗘
Mars in the 5th House represents passion and energy focused towards creativity, play, and pleasure. The person with this placement may have a strong desire to express themselves through creative outlets and to make memories with their loved ones. They may be very passionate about romantic relationships and self-expression through creativity. This placement can also indicate a strong focus on having fun and engaging in thrilling, exciting experiences. On a more negative note, this could also lead to excessive pleasure-seeking or an addictive personality.
𝗠𝗔𝗥𝗦 𝗜𝗡 𝟲𝗧𝗛 𝗛𝗢𝗨𝗦𝗘
Mars in the 6th House represents energy and passion directed towards the mundane tasks and routines of life. The person with this placement may be very dedicated and hard-working in their daily tasks and can have a strong work ethic. They may tend to take on too many obligations and be unwilling to ask for help. They may also have stronger reactions and frustration when things don't go to plan, particularly in matters related to their health, work, and responsibilities. This placement may indicate a tendency to take on too much responsibility, which can lead to exhaustion and frustration.
𝗠𝗔𝗥𝗦 𝗜𝗡 𝟳𝗧𝗛 𝗛𝗢𝗨𝗦𝗘
Mars in the 7th House is associated with passion and energy directed towards relationships and partnerships. The person with this placement may have a strong desire for a committed and passionate relationship. They may have a competitive approach to relationships and can sometimes feel like they are at odds with their partner. Additionally, they may have a strong desire to win their partner's admiration or respect. They may be a passionate debater and be willing to fight for what they believe in. They may also be more argumentative and quick to confrontation when it comes to their relationships.
𝗠𝗔𝗥𝗦 𝗜𝗡 𝟴𝗧𝗛 𝗛𝗢𝗨𝗦𝗘
Mars in the 8th House can point towards strong passion and energy in matters of the 8th House, which include death and transformation, sexuality, intimacy, the occult, and deeper psychological dimensions. The person with this placement may have great willpower and determination when it comes to exploring these aspects of life. They may have a strong connection to their emotions and be willing to go deep when it comes to understanding their feelings and personal boundaries. This may lead to a willingness to confront darkness and explore the unknown. They may also thrive on deep, intense connections.
𝗠𝗔𝗥𝗦 𝗜𝗡 𝟵𝗧𝗛 𝗛𝗢𝗨𝗦𝗘
Mars in the 9th House represents a strong passion and energy directed towards philosophy, knowledge, exploration, and higher education. The person with this placement may have a significant focus on learning and expanding their understanding of the world. They may find passion and stimulation through gaining wisdom and deeper knowledge. They may have strong opinions and beliefs about higher truths and knowledge and may have a strong desire to discover the hidden dimensions of life. They may also be drawn to studying other cultures and expanding their worldview.
𝗠𝗔𝗥𝗦 𝗜𝗡 𝟭𝟬𝗧𝗛 𝗛𝗢𝗨𝗦𝗘
Mars in the 10th House signifies a strong passion and energy focused towards career, status, legacy, and authority. The person with this placement may have a competitive and driven approach to their career. They may be hardworking, confident, and assertive in pursuing their career ambitions. They may have leadership abilities and may feel fulfilled in a structured, professional environment. They may have strong initiative and willingness to take action in pursuing their goals. They can also have a strong focus on their public image and reputation.
𝗠𝗔𝗥𝗦 𝗜𝗡 𝟭𝟭𝗧𝗛 𝗛𝗢𝗨𝗦𝗘
Mars in the 11th House points towards passion and energy that is directed towards friendship, community, and social groups. The person with this placement may have a strong desire to be a part of a community and may be more comfortable with group interactions than 1-on-1 relationships. They may enjoy the support and stability of a collective and can be good at working together with others. They may also be more assertive and outspoken when it takes a position of leadership in a group. They may enjoy having a network of supportive relationships.
𝗠𝗔𝗥𝗦 𝗜𝗡 𝟭𝟮𝗧𝗛 𝗛𝗢𝗨𝗦𝗘
Mars in the 12th House points towards an intense and subconscious energy that is deeply personal. People with this placement may have a strong connection to their emotions and imagination. They may feel a desire to be alone and prefer to delve deep into their subconscious and explore their inner world. They may have a deep desire for connection to a higher power or something metaphysical. They may feel like they need to take time to recharge and understand themselves more deeply before they can truly commit to someone else. A 12th House Mars can be more prone to issues related to depression and escapism.
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before my nails dig
summary. in which one of Astarion's especially vivid nightmares results in him waking up to Tav at the mercy of his own hands...and the shame that comes with it.
warnings. angst, fluff, comfort
pairing. Astarion x GN!reader
a/n. someone pls get this man therapy that's all i ask,,, also this takes place sometime during act 3 before you confront cazador!! first post too so pls forgive typos
Had breathing always been this hard?
It's not like he had to breathe anyway. The undead have more perks than one would think, and having no need for air was one that became particularly useful in unexpected ways. Yet as he stands in Cazador's dungeon again--a place he longs to rid from the darkest corners of his mind--all he can do is stumble over his own breath, crimson eyes darting around frantically in search of an exit.
And suddenly, his siblings are at the mercy of the ascension, floating helplessly in the chains of a red aura--Cazador's aura. Despite the chaos, Astarion's eyes narrow in on the one pedestal with no occupant, and he realizes it's his own designated place.
It's getting harder to breathe now.
A breath creeps up behind his shoulder, sending pure dread throughout his entire body as he hears Cazador's voice far too close than he ever wanted it to be.
"Wake up, child. This is all you've ever been meant for."
Astarion whips around and lunges at the man, his hands wrapping viciously around the throat he's fantasized about ripping apart for the past two hundred years. His nails dig into the flesh of the vampire lord's neck, leaving indents in the shape of crescent moons, just enough to cause panic but not enough to draw blood. But Cazador only cackles, his eyes staring right into Astarion's as he hollers over and over again.
"Wake up."
"Wake up!"
"--Astarion!"
The spawn's eyes snap open, recognition finally flooding his expression as he finds himself staring down at you. The very face he sees in the softest of dreams, the lips he longs to kiss at every waking moment, and the eyes that gaze at him with the love and adoration he's been missing for most of his wretched eternal life. Though he'd never admit it, you saved him. From the moment he'd threatened your life at the nautiloid crash to the moment he held you close to his chest in the confines of his tent, he would be by your side until you tired of him and threw him away.
All he wanted--all he could wish for--was only a fraction of it in return. And you'd given him that, and so much more.
But now, you're scared. Terrified, even. Of him.
With horror, he realizes his fingers are digging into your throat. Your precious, tender throat that you offer him not for something in return, but simply because you care for him.
All at once as he tears his hands away, he wants to cut them off and bury himself in his own grave again. He doesn't meet your eyes, afraid of what disgust might be held in them, but he knows you're too kind for that. Too kind to see the kind of monster he is.
You're gasping for your breath, and his stomach knots in a way that would have sent him hurling if it weren't for the fact that he's too occupied drinking in what he's done. To you.
"I'm okay, I'm okay, Astarion," you choke out, perching on both your elbows as you struggle to recover. Even now, all you seem to care about is him. He almost hates you for it--hates you for not stabbing a stake through his heart the moment his hands met your neck. "Astarion-"
"Your throat," he croaks, despising the slight crack of his voice as he reaches for your cheek, but stops before he even gets close. He doesn't trust himself to open his mouth again.
"It's okay, really, I can just get Shadowheart to heal me," you shake your head, and he finds himself in disbelief as you crawl toward him, tossing the sheets to the side. He shifts the slightest away and you understand, immediately sitting back down. You look like you want to say something, but you close your mouth and watch him patiently, as if waiting for him to make the first move.
After a suffocating silence, he turns his back to you. "I'll be sleeping elsewhere tonight."
He intends of never sharing a room with you again, in fear of what he could possibly do to you as a result of his selfish desires to keep you close, and you seem to pick up on the tone of his words. You always do. "Astarion, please."
"I do apologize, sincerely. I'll form a better apology tomorrow, but for now, I'll fetch Shadowheart or that damned wizard and-"
He fights the urge to shiver when he feels your hand on his. How you manage to have such an impact on him with a simple touch he does not know, and does not care because all he wants is more. To pull you close, to beg you to keep him, to use him, to punch him, strangle him for all he cared, in hopes you'll even consider ever speaking to him again. Instead, he turns to look at you.
Gods, you're beautiful.
Even with those terrible bruises he'd go to hell and earth to take back, your beauty in unmatched with anything he's ever seen. Even with the bed hair and the anxiousness pursing your lips, he can't bring himself to look away again.
"Please stay. I'm not mad, nor afraid."
The words sound like honey on your tongue.
"Please," You say again, slowly this time. "Stay."
His chest feels tight, threatening to tear itself apart as his voice comes out in a crooked whisper. "I could have killed you."
"You didn't."
"If you died too, I don't know--what would I even do with myself? What would I-" He hates it when he sounds like this. Vulnerable, or as Cazador liked to call it: pathetic. But he can't help the words tumbling out his blasted mouth with the way you're gazing at him with nothing but worry. Somehow, with you, it feels strange.
Refreshing, almost.
Your hand squeezes around his as if to remind him you're still here. He meets your eyes again and it's all it takes to break what little will he has left, as he lets you pull him close in a crushing hug--one that's all too welcomed.
And as the two of you lie awake in each other's embrace, he thanks all the gods he doesn't worship for putting you on his path.
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