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mitamicah · 5 months

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Not me brainstorming ideas for my post op tattoo (context) like I'd contact the tattoo artist tomorrow and not in a 1,5 year or more

This was where my inspiration took me today I guess :'D

#bold of me going for colour in most of these since none of my other things have colour x'D #after all this is only what ideas I have rn :'D #as mentioned I don't think I'll be able to get a chest tattoo for at least one year and a half #in half a year I've been promised to start appointments with a therapist again about the surgery #then if I'm lucky I'll get approved #and then there's a waitlist on at least a year last I heard #and then I need to heal a bit first #so when we arrive at that point in time who knows if I've better ideas #or if I've changed my mind #I hope to have käärijä in my life for years to come still #or at least feel the same sort of gratitude for him showing me how to love my body and/or feel neutral about it when dysphoria hits #look at me being chatty in the tags yet again #also - these are of course only concepts #I will probably have send the reference picture as well to the tattoo artist if I actually went to find one to do these tomorrow x'D #I hope you like them :3 #I really enjoy number 2 (top left) and 3 (mid)#jere pöyhönen #käärijä #cha cha cha #mine #my own art

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wttcsms · 2 months

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horribly short summary of what im trying to accomplish here, but if you were to read a fic featuring character, a soldier honorably discharged and is officially off the battlefield and yet he can’t seem to shake off the war from clinging to his body, and he’s basically a bit of a mess and feels incapable of returning to ordinary life and there’s you, the sweetest thing in the whole world, and he keeps trying to tell you he’s no good and you’re there to help him with everything (and it kills him a bit, to see you wasting your time to help him, and it kills him because he feels like he shouldn’t be the type of person who needs help) and !! just slowburn and falling in love and just read the tags for the vibe ok, who would it be for

#i was originally thinking ghost from cod since hello there’s so much source material to work with #and the fic would suit him nicely but also idk if i have cod readers left on my blog #so any characters are fine like an aot character would also prob fit the bill for this #but ive just been thinking abt everyone who’s analyzing hozier’s snippet #with how he takes his coffee black and his whiskey neat and how this girl is too sweet FOR HIM #as in… not being deserving of something so nice #and feeling that way but also showing how in the healing process - in the process of getting better -#we start to discover that we are allowed to enjoy and indulge in nice things. that we also deserve to live a life full of sweetness #and it’s a bit serious since it will touch on ptsd; on survivors guilt #and the fic is long - spanning from getting together to him having kids w u #& how even after all this time sometimes the war is still fresh as ever on his mind #and just !!! it’s a lot #also that Taylor line that’s like ‘is it really your anxiety that keeps you from giving me everything?#‘or do you just not want to’ + ‘you wouldn’t be the first renegade to need somebody’

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torgawl · 6 months

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i'm too mentally unwell for this (people shoving ragbros angst in my face at 10 am)

#diluc's voice going 'was it ever real?' </3 kaeya saying 'i was just a child' </3 and 'i would burn the fucking world down before i would #even think of betraying you' </3 #i'm actually crying #whatever spell ragbros put on me when i first started playing genshin that shit has a grip on me #i just want them to hug so bad i need them to hug i need them to cry it out and laugh together #i need diluc's lighthearted personality to shine through at least once please please #being safe enough that your inner child shines through as a sign of healing is so!!!! good!!!! btw #actually i'm so freaking curious about kaeya's birthday this year #i am every year but now that he had that sort of reassurance during his hangouts that the winery will always be there for him #i want to know if he gets to spend a bit of his birthday there or get to at least eat adelinde's food #maybe this is irrealistic but i don't care let me dream #his message last year was about tcg i love tcg but not like this give me crumbs hoyoverse feed me #last year's art was so cute with all the presents (we had klee crumbs too kaeya and klee so precious to me) so i am hoping for something #equally or even more wholesome #anyways do you ever just think about kaeya and diluc?#yeah me neither 😂

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achillvs · 1 day

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i think i need bts again.

#for years ive been firm of the opinion and the feeling #that bts find you when u need them most #and that was so true for me in 2016 #all the way until 2020 ish #i needed them to hold my hand while i was growing up bc no one else would #and then i healed a bit and they did too #i got busy and so did they #and now im 26 and im a graduated artist with an office job #idk how to find the drive to make art.#i dont have inspiration or motivation #i need to do it but idk how #making art with bts was So easy #literal 7 muses with you at all times #i took a walk for the first time in forever #just 20 minutes to pick up a package #golden hour light #jimin's like crazy came on shuffle which is the first time i heard any of their voices in months #and i saw an art piece in my head #and then outro wings came on too #and idk #it was light and it was colors and sound and heart #i think now i need them to hold my hand again but as artists #i think if i listened to paradise or black swan rn it would break me #but maybe thats what i need #shut up matt #bts

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yusufstits · 1 year

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thinking about nile having nightmares and not being able to sleep post london and then being very tired during the day and taking naps on whoever's around

#like. my heart aches for her thinking about what she's going through after london #debating whether it's safe to contact her family and knowing she'll outlive them and could put them in danger if she does contact them #her friends completely ostracizing her after she came back to life #(once again. what the fuck they should have been so happy??)#so she's completely separated from her former life and is dealing with that loss #the trauma of killing and being killed #like given that she had nightmares about the man she killed in afghanistan i imagine she would also have nightmares a #about the people she killed during the rescue #and this would bring up a lot of complicated emotions and possibly a bit of identity crisis/self reflection on her being a marine #all of this plus being dropped into a group of people who've known each other for hundreds of years + mortal andy - exiled booker #anyway... she is going through a Lot #but: going back to “tell us” i think they would try to take care of her #and talk about her nightmares #(but also. there might be reluctance from nile to share or joe/nicky/andy to ask when she wakes up gasping #because what if she dreamt of quynh. like that's a whole other dimension - do they want to hear about it because it means she's alive #or do they not want to think of her dying over and over. i imagine nile would wrestle with this at first)#ok i got off track the point is. nile taking naps on andy nicky and joe and being comforted. i think that would be nice for her and everyon #there is a lot happening emotionally and andy has to heal physically and they all need to heal emotionally #so. naptime #sorry these tags are so long lol i had more thoughts than i thought #the old guard

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mashbrainrot · 9 months

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there is a tendency to talk about hawkeye as being very mentally unwell, and that's not incorrect as such, but truly, I think he is the most emotionally (and perhaps even mentally) healthy of the main 4077th

#he is open and willing - even keen - to seek help #he is introspective and self aware - and open to being moreso even if he needs shouting at a bit first #and he comes from a loving family and community #i think the end of the show is truly the beginning of his healing journey #i think for the others it is the start of a decline #hawkeye analysis #mashposting #hawkeye pierce #mash analysis #helen speaks #mash

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adelinamoteru · 1 year

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my thing is, if you have to misinterpret and strip jason’s character out of everything that makes him him to like his character, maybe he’s just not the one for you?

stop coming on here and writing essays about bruce’s experience with jason’s death and his ways of dealing with it, which while fucked up, are ultimately his own. and then turning around and saying jason was/is wrong as if he is not also a very real victim of his own death? I mean if you can be understanding of why batfam “coped” the way they did then there’s no reason why that understanding shouldn’t also be lent to the actual victim of the crime?

everybody involved doesn’t have good coping mechanisms and thats the point in a good story, not who’s right or wrong. and mind you, making jason’s entire death and resurrection centred around the no kill rule and nothing else is very stupid. it is shocking that, that’s the only part of his story ppl here will focus on and scrutinize.

#jason todd #theres rlly no need to come on here with 50 posts talking about how what he says or does isn’t actually what he means #or try and discredit every bit of personal information and beliefs hes been airing out since day 1 to like him #idk why ppl refuse to give jason the autonomy in his own stories that he deserves but its annoying #if robin jason is the one ur imagining and like then thats totally cool ! robin jason and red hood jason are not the same 👍🏼#red hood jason is just as valid in his feelings as robin jason is btw #you want jason to heal and eventually ‘stop killing’ bc thats not right #then maybe start with the addressing the reasonings behind WHY he kills instead of the killing itself first #‘jason stop killing’ ‘okay’ and then now what?#is his life miraculously better now because he hasn’t killed when he hasn’t felt remorse for killing before? hes not searching for atonement #hes looking for solutions #dcu #red hood #I know I talk a lot about jason but I just have so much to say

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alltheglowingeyess · 4 months

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my nostril is already looking to be the most annoying piercing to heal 😔

#i'm glad i got my septum done first bc that shit was easyyyy to heal + just looks nice #like this bad boy is alr concerning me i'm praying the piercibg place i went to is good #i didn't go to my normal one bc my friend and i impulse did piercings at our mall #idk how much i like it rn tho like its cute but i feel like i need the otehr side done bc my nose looks funky #but also it might be swollen so i'm gonna wait till this one hits three montsh before trying to get my other side done #idk if my parents will let me tho just cuz my mom was set that i do the left for cultural reasons sooo #but worst case i can just wait a bit to do the other side and maybe get my third lobes !!!#i kind of dig cartilage ear ones too but idk if i have the pain tolerance for that #glow gabs

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transgenderfivepebbles · 6 months

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i understand what netsod nation was on about now. thank you netsod nation

#ramblings #i love mentally ill men this is great #guy with extreme anxiety who represses all his emotions x guy who has no sense of purpose and needs something/someone to care about #of course i am forcing the first guy's emotions to be unrepressed and utterly shattering his mental state #incredibly fun to write someone who's normally cold and distant and tries to be as unfeeling as possible #and do something to them that turns them into a cornered animal #and then bring in the guy who's lost all the meaning in his life and realizes that he has the capacity to care #and he can find at least a little meaning in trying to help this other guy #idk if this is going in a more platonic or romantic direction or what #and i don't really care. all that matters is that these two traumatized guys are forcing each other to heal a little bit

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humblemooncat · 9 months

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I think while I'm on vacation and can find time to be on XIV, I'm gonna try running Ki'to through Post-EW content so I can actually un-filter spoiler tags and whatnot. If not, I'll definitely do it when I get back.

#Mooncat ramblings #I am a curious creature #and I WANT to look #but I don't #So I'm just gonna do the thing #Was hoping to get to the other role quests first #but that's gonna take a bit #So #¯\_(ツ)_/¯#That said #If anyone's ever running roulettes on NA #and need a dps or tank #let me know!#Could also try heals #but that would have to be with a group willing to be patient with me #because I get the brain fog when my icon's green

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whumpy-wyrms · 2 months

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hey guys