#and these groups are how i perceive it

[posycore]

neurotypical people watch community and think troy and abed are funny, gay people watch community and ship/think troy and abed would be cute together, neurodivergent gay people watch community and Know what they Are. 'aw i wish trobed was canon' well actually they are u just havent unlocked the Vision.

#like i genuinely view it as canon and i dont think im alone in that #and the main reason is: oh the lines between platonic and romantic are blurry? #oh they think and feel together in a way literally no one else gets? #oh they have moments that dont read as conventionally romantic but still seem way too intimate? #oh they actually never deny or shy away from their love for each other? oh its just the rest of the world that is confused? #are those really signs of not being canon or is that just true to how queer/queerplatonic/neurodivergent partnerships get perceived #esp in their time period lol #like maybe trobed isnt canon to someone watching the show from the rest of the study groups pov or the worlds pov #but if u watch from troy and abeds pov.. of course its canon i mean just look at them #community #trobed #abed nadir #troy barnes

[ultimateyakazoo]

i know it's not the way the game was formatted but it would have been so cool to see the characters in danganronpa get more disheveled and tired as the game went on

like the idea that they started with a closet of identical outfits but as time goes on they neglect appearance and start to forgo ties/ jackets, haircuts, little things to show the passage of time and the growing distress

#like if i was in a situation where i ended up on an island with 5 other people after a series of murders i wouldnt keep my shirt tucked #id probably cut my hair and walk around my bra #and probably stop washing my hair #itd be cool as well to see which characters would try to keep up a modicum of presentation for longer and which ones give in quicker #bc when you get closer to a group of people you care less about ur outward appearance right #and on top of that if ur on a murder island youre gonna start caring way less about how ur perceived #thinking of it as a kind of world building i guess #idk #danganronpa

[dennisboobs]

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#absolutely do not want to argue because i get where the post is coming from with but im gonna give some thots #re: dennis autism!!!! ok!!!!! #ive talked about it before but there is WAY more to him being autistic than just the buzzer noises. when i first watched that i was like #is THIS really why people hc him as autistic. :/ and i get it! i do! i think he has misophonia inherited from glenn personally #its actually why i captioned the noise sensitive den gifsets as that rather than just. autism. #but personally i see his scripted social interactions and i go. yeah. me. me fuckin too. #and his outbursts. which are VERY personally relatable to me #i have uh. basically the same triggers? very similar triggers at least #i think dennis' neurodivergency presents itself differently because of his upbringing and thats why a lot of ppl go ???? when you say. #'yea i think den's autistic actually' #and like i said i was absolutely like. what the hell are people talking about. he's not autistic #but uh. on rewatches? hm. #dennis quite literally masks almost 24/7 #charlie has no qualms about being perceived as like. weird. but dennis masks SO hard. SSSSSSOOOOO hard #i once saw a post like. charlie has boy autism and dennis has girl autism which honestly fucking hate that but its... kiiiind of true #ASD presents itself differently in adults depending on early social conditioning #mac fights gay marriage. group dates. new wheels. dee day. celebrity booze. all the big ones. all the hits. #look how he acts when he goes off script and is forced to speak off the cuff #the way glenn describes him as being very emotional but unable to adequately express his emotions too like. yeah. same. #theres so much more than the noise sensitivity #i could go on and on about how many fucking boxes he ticks but i honestly hate that shit. i know how autism works and that bitch is autisti #im going to refrain from commenting on the reasons why i feel charlie is more acceptably hced as autistic vs dennis because mmmmm but #dennis being 'hypersexual' (not about the sex. at all) and socially adept (has scripts/systems. charlie is more emotionally intelligent) #smells a lil stinky. smells a little bit like infantilization on charlie's part. #ada speaks #ok ill spare you guys. someday ill write a proper meta on this. ive talked about it before but.

[phoenixyfriend]

I saw some of your posts earlier and just wanted to say it's alright, these are hard times and even harder events, the important thing is that you are trying

Your works brought me a smile on my face so many time and I hope that I can cheer you up even if just a little from all the time your words brighten my day, have a good day!

Thank you. I'm mostly hoping people can recognize that I'm doing my best to approach all this with a sense of ethics and consideration of implications. On this specific topic, I'm not trying to convince people that I know the correct answer, or even that they should agree with me, but rather to step back and think things over in ways they might not have before; there are a lot of lenses through which to view this, and many of those lenses have a vested interest in convincing people of their viewpoint.

It's what I've been trying to do, and why I've been willing to adjust my thinking on some things (see: that ask with a tiktok about Yemen). I think that if we are to have productive conversations on these things, we need to be willing to take that step back. Some of it might seem really obvious, but then it might be less obvious to other people, or it's something that only seems obvious because an element hasn't been taken into account...

There's something painfully destructive about getting told off for trying to do the learning and thinking that is key to being a better person and also to the activism we're hopefully trying to strive for.

(I'm also immediately suspicious of any post with a Specific Tone that seems geared to jumpstart my emotional outrage response so I skip the fact-checking. I do still get some of that fact-checking wrong, but I do at least try to do it. Sometimes I just don't reblog, but sometimes it's egregious enough, or at least seems egregious enough, that I just go off to rebuttal with what numbers and news I can locate. Sometimes I'm in the right, and sometimes I'm mistaken, but... it's better than consuming information without thinking to check it at all, right? And unfortunately, the posts that appeal to emotion are the most likely to make a person skip past the fact-checking stage.)

I'm glad you like my fics!

#leti-ke #personal #phoenix answers asks #I know I sound all woe-is-me and like I'm more focused on how people perceive me than the actual conflict #but I promise I'm actually doing things to help when I can. Mostly donations to food/med emergency aid groups #Tried to buy from that one factory still making the keffiyeh but they're out of stock each time

[cocrante]

Today I stopped to reflect about Nico's origins, on the fact that regardless of how you look at it, he's an immigrant in America. He was born in Italy like his sister, but they later moved.

This got me thinking about a rather weighty theme, wondering if others have ever thought about or written anything on it – namely, how Nico, once he discovered his identity, began to perceive things, and perhaps how people outside of the C.H.B., where - among many exceptions - it's a safe place, perceived him.

This intrigues and piques my curiosity a bit ~~ but I'm not sure if I'll really have time to dedicate to it. At the moment it's a nice idea, and if someone has already written something, I'd love to read it ♡

#📌 : wip #nico di angelo #riordanverse #percy jackson #i was also thinking about the perception americans have of italians #i mean of immigrants #its something i occasionally ponder #today more than other days #years ago something strange happened to me-- #talking about racism seems too much #it is a big word #but humiliation i think is the right term #i felt particularly uncomfortable #i wouldnt know how to define it #i felt as if they perceived me as a funny little creature #i was in this group of americans #and you could feel the greatness of their superiority when they spoke #as if i were stupid #it was a very strange feeling ahahah #i thank my ego for keeping me up during that very peculiar time #but i still didn't like it #it made me feel very uncomfortable and strange #it had never happened to me before #so i wouldn't know how to define it better

[idkaguyorsomething]

this is the anybodys/chino dynamic to me

(IMAGE ID: three images. The first one is two sketches of people standing side by side. The first person is glaring and has their arms folded while being labeled “actual sunshine” and the second person is smiling brightly enough that a halo is emanating from their head while being labeled “dangerous”. The second image is of Anybodys from West Side Story 2021. The third image is of Chino from West Side Story 2021)

#obviously this is a drastic oversimplification but i think it would be very funny #anybodys can and will beat the shit out of you but chino has a body count so #the contrast between how they’re perceived by their respective groups and society at large versus who they really are has vast potential #both comedic and dramatic #like to an outsider it would look like a “excuse me he asked for no pickles” situation #but to each other it’s a whole different story #it’s my crack ship and i get to decide the comfort they find in each other after being screwed over by the world #west side story #wss #wss 2021 #west side story 2021 #anybodys #chino #stephen sondheim #my dream is to make this one of those crack ships that somehow become super popular despite them sharing a frame like maybe once #which would probably be easier if this movie had a bigger fanbase or it was two white boys

[daydreamingmiller]

tag game: characters that I think are very me-coded.... but I can't possibly explain how

thank you @joelsversion for the tag 🫡🫶

most of my mutuals have been tagged, so no tags here! but if you see this and want to participate go right ahead <33 (and tag me please I love seeing stuff like this)

#a deeply unserious group of people #texted a few friends bc I must be aware of how I’m perceived and nick miller was the number one contender #broke no direction unreliable scared of intimacy & hot women #we are one and the same #tag games #in order for those interested: #april ludgate #jake peralata #camille preaker #connell waldron #diane nyugen #kendall roy #fleabag #nick miller #& the lovely nadine franklin #abt g

[welcometogrouchland]

I support the "Batman was unfairly biased to Stephanie for XYZ reasons" crowd so strongly bc DC claims that Bruce is a master planner who is able to understand anyone's psychology but he didn't realize that literally every single one of Steph's problems as a teenager would've been solved by her joining a shitty punk band. If he couldn't figure that much out then he didn't understand her for a minute

#ramblings of a lunatic #PLEASE TALK TO ME I HAVE SO MANY THOUGHTS ON STEPHANIE IN A SHITTY PUNK BAND #her bandmates have turned into ocs it's stage 5 at this point boys #anyway what is steph dealing w/ pre-52 as spoiler that got her in hot water? #1. the anger issues. easily fixed by her getting to scream about beating her dad to death without actually doing it #2. nobody fucking listens to her (including batman). well when u are playing music ppl are definitely fucking listening #3. has no non-batfam friends and thus ends up feeling abandoned almost every time she gets kicked out of the group. bandmates are friends! #don't like being in your shitty house? go to your band mates house and jam! #need to articulate the anger issues in a way that doesn't disturb your frazzled paranoid boyfriend? write angsty songs! #also I do genuinely have a lot of thoughts on how music was applied to Stephanie's character and what it tells us about her #like she loved it. clearly. and she was GOOD at it too. steph is constantly perceived as a screw up and has pretty low opinion of herself #piano was something she could take pride in. in i believe issue 113 of tims og robin series- #-tim is AMAZED at her playing all these years later. so is nocturna a few issues earlier #there's a standard visual language in comics for good or bad music- notation drawn in either shaky or smooth lines #stephs are all smooth and golden. she's good even after all these years of not practicing #but all she says to tim after he compliments her is ''i used to be better...'' SHE SEES THE WORST IN HERSELF AND HER ABILITIES #SHE DESERVES A CHANCE TO FEEL GOOD AT AT LEAST ONE THING LIKE SHE FINALLY GOT TO AS BATGIRL IN HER SOLO #and onto my final point: dinah has several times expressed some degree of fondness/admiration for steph. steph has likewise trained w dinah #and thinks she's cool as fuck. which makes sense. bc dinah is cool as fuck #and what is dinah in??? that's right. a band #steph should join dinahs band for her mental health. this has been an essay #stephanie brown #spoiler dc #dc batgirl #batgirls #<- since that series re-canonized pianist steph!! bless them!

[saeshiraw]

tired girl hours i’m just ranting bcos i don’t have enough time to cry

#tw rant #studying med is no joke. ik it was gonna be a commitment n that it wasnt gonna be easy n i thought i was prepared but im not #its my passion. i love what im studying and ive dedicated myself to this path but i just. its so hard n i just want to cry. everyday feels #so tiring. morning to night classes. when i get home i have to read 4 chapters MINIMUM n the books are so thick + exams almost everyday #i feel worse knowing there’s this 1 girl in my friend group that cant decide whether she likes me or not. one moment shes complimenting me #n asking where i get my outfits or my nails done or my earrings or whatever then praising me that i probably study the least out of everyone #yet still reach high student rankings but its not that im lazy im just so exhausted n its hard to have motivation... lowkey envy how my #friends study minimum 4 hours a day. we’re all tired n sleep deprived. even taking 30mins to eat makes me feel guilty. cant even watch 1 ep #of an anime bcos ill be thinking about the amount of work to do. and i have sm plans. i wanna be more active and have a healthier lifestyle #but i cant find it in me to wake up every 5am to go to the gym when i just wanna get as much sleep when im lucky to finish my studies today #i also dont see my bestest friends everyday anymore. some of us move to diff unis or some in diff majors. i just miss them so bad it hurts #and i miss the girl i used to be when i still had time and energy to indulge in my hobbies. i miss playing genshin and writing fics #just when i got back to writing and enjoyed it LOVED IT i had to go back to uni. i feel terribly lonely even when im always with people #im afraid ill completely lose grasp of the little things that make me happy bcos the weight of my responsibilities are heavier #im afraid ill be too focused on success again like i was when i was 17 and forget that its okay to relax too but idk #and i wanna meet more people make more friends have new experiences. i wanna feel alive again. and theres sm i wanna talk to or get to know #but im so afraid of people hurting me or disappointing me or people getting to know me only for the friendships to fail or we’ll dislike eac #h other. i wanna date and fall in love again and experience the romance my peers have. i wanna have someone to call my own person but the fe #ar of having someone only to lose them someday scares the hell outta me. im not ready for another heartbreak so i isolate myself and watch #people from afar. uni gives me sm freedom to do everything else and form my own identity but i dont wanna be Perceived. I wanna be heard and #seen n connect with people. but w my curreny state idt i can handle being vulnerable with others. it feels so lonely that the things i want #are out of my rrach but idt i can manage my time to meet new people and make new memories. i console myself by shopping a lot and going to #spas to relax yet i still find it hard to sleep. im afraid im wasting my time. im not as brave as i used to be. im not as efficient as i was #i get older and more tired and while i never questioned if studying med was the path i want i do question what will happen next #“is this all im ever going to be?” im good at what i do but day by day i lose sight of tje girl who knew how to laugh n smile. ik what makes #me happy but i rarely smile genuinely anymore. im so tired and want to sleep for a long time but i dont wanna fail. i dont wanna be NOT good #but it makes me cry when i know i can do many great things but i dont feel loved. people compliment me but dont approach me bcos they say im #intimidating or that im too quiet in class. i wish i could tell them i wanna join their parties too or i wanna meet their friends n hangout #but what if it doesnt work out? what if i wasted my time getting to know someone id eventually regret? what if im the disappointing one? #the days are getting shorter but it always feels like a long day. im ashamed to admit i want someone to hold me yet refuse to have anyone

[moodr1ng]

"this social psychology experiment proves humans are inherently cruel and domineering!" "no this other social psychology experiment proves humans are inherently kind and cooperative!" everyone learn that singular experiments cannot be taken as conclusive proof of anything + consider that perhaps literally no amount of social psychology studies will ever "prove" any kind of inherent, all-encompassing moral truth about all of humanity and will only ever be an example of possible group conduct in certain conditions, in a certain culture and time, among certain people

#97 #sorry for the occasional random complaining about psych experiments #but truly theyre soooo irritating #bc theyre flashy and kinda fun to learn about so people know abt them quite a bit #but theyre never presented with like. #the necessary understanding of the scientific method or proper balancing of their claims to qualify what exactly they supposedly show. #so instead people are just encouraged to draw the simplest conclusions. #often misanthropic ones bc of how badly done many of these so-called experiments are (and i do not recognize many of these as experiments #due to the lack of application of the scientific method eg researcher intervention lack of control group etc) #(and not being reproducible quite often as well) #(imo shit like for example most infamous stanford prison experiment but also many others are just demonstrations.) #(not a scientific experiment. did not involve the scientific method. just some guy doing ethical misconduct in a basement.) #not hating on psych research as a field btw i literally would like to do psych research #however the way cherrypicked flashy and impressive or shocking isolated experiments are placed front and center in the popular understandin #of psych imo just misinforms the public greatly and often about like. yknow stuff you probably dont want to ingrain into people? #like. for example if you want to talk about the way perceived authority can lead many people to commit acts they morally dont agree with? #yes the milgram experiment is like a good thing to learn about imo. #however that experiment is like.. almost coupled in the popular consciousness w again the stanford prison scientific mishandling #and its conclusion is broadened to 'if given the chance all people will brutalize and abuse other people' #when the kindest possible interpretation of that mess is that if you take milgrams experiment but the researchers are in denial that #they are also inducing obedience to authority and also theyre using real people as the abused subject instead of an actor #and also every subject selected is a college aged white man whos interested in prison environments #then yes it turns pretty fucking bad. #but its not about the nature of humanity. its about an event of that obedience to authority leading some very specific subjects #who are not representative of the general population whatsoever #into behaviors which should never have been allowed to take place in an ethical research environment

[kidrat]

Being a transmasc who doesn’t know/ have community w transfemms is EXACTLY the same as being a gay man who’s weird to lesbians or a straight guy who is only ‘friends’ with women he thinks might sleep with him. Hanging out with and dating cis women doesn’t make it better either it makes it Worse. I hate all of u and I hate the ‘preferences’ you have ‘because of my trauma’ you know EXACTLY what I mean

#getting to the point where I distrust these ppl more than trans ppl who only know cis ppl #like if u just don’t know trans ppl in ur area or u kept ur cis friend group from before u came out that’s cool! #no one shld like force friendships for the sake of diversity or whatever #but when some he/they hangs out w exclusively other transmascs and cis sapphics. #I am calling bullshit #rancid vibes #like I know I’m about to hear some shit about #‘well I’ll always be socially female bc of how ppl see me’ #like bruh get on hrt or don’t no need to spout that trans misogynistic shit #/ generally transphobic shit lbr if ur saying ppl ‘are’ what they were born as and perceived as #does me being misgendered mean I’ll always be a woman too? #misc

[cilan-radical]

Ventish

chat I'm feeling bad about wanting to be anon because someone we know has said it makes them uncomfy even though it's quite literally a huge comfort for us to be able to go anonymous like this

Help

Like I know it's none of their business but the double standard is making me feel crappy (they're allowed to go anon and refuse to tell us but if we try to go anon they INSIST on guessing it's so frustrating)

#[[vent]] #vent in tags #~ anonymous ~ #idk it feels like I'm breaking their trust to want to be anonymous? #but at the same time it feels like they never trusted us in the first place to assume that us going anonymous is to harrass them #like my anonymity isn't malicious and in fact I am actively attempting to help someone in their system #but it's disheartening to feel as though they HAVE to know who I am #they get like this over us being blurry as well #but then if they know who an introject is they make us feel obligated to act like source #like. Beppi is src anon with that group to avoid them assuming he's source compliant #we've had caregivers act maliciously out of perceived obligation despite feeling horrible about it #that's how bad it is sometimes

[trans-cuchulainn]

feeling a lot of bullshit emotions right now and i don't know how to hold any of them

#it's a beautiful day and i wasted it saving my energy for something that's no longer happening #i am safe and i almost feel safe in my body for the first time in several years and also i don't #and also in my safety and my unsafety – in my quiet house and in my being immunocompromised in an unmasked world – #i am so hyperaware of those who are unsafe right now and i feel the weight of guilt for my helplessness #i feel my conviction of my ideals intensifying at the same time as my ability to act on them diminishes #i am trying to imagine a world where i could be a dancer again while daydreaming about the things a wheelchair would let me do #i am on the edge of so many groups of people and i am not meaningfully part of any of them #the potential to be less lonely is there. but I cannot figure out how to achieve it #i am succeeding in certain aspects of my career and i am utrerly convinced of my own failure #i can justify my actions and my inaction. i am a hypocrite. i have my reasons. i'm a coward #i am aware that it is not up to me how others perceive the power relations between us but it hurts to be seen as a risk #even while i appreciate the boundaries that others draw for themselves i can hold within myself the hurt of being on the other side of them #i hate this time of year. i think always of the dead. my hauntings aren't the fun kind

[xxlovelynovaxx]

"there isn't a damn thing that affects me that specifically" Okay so you're privileged. Got it. Next!

#transandrophobia #Honestly I could go more into the idea that transmascs don't face anything unique #like 'actually everything we experience is experienced by all trans people' #I mean yeah if you're extremely reductive and only talk in broad categories very little is unique to a single group of trans people #funny how that works but also if you do that there's nothing unique about any kind of transmisogyny either. #and like yeah there are outliers the whole point is that transmisogyny PRIMARILY affects transfems and those perceived as transfem #same with transandrophobia #it's the SPECIFIC way it manifests that those terms were MADE to describe because those specifica are literally KILLING us #if you give the wrong antivemon to a snake bite victim they'll DIE #the whole POINT is that the specifics DO matter #also... #'BITTER THAT THEY HAVE LESS OPPRESSION POINTS THAN TRANS WOMEN' ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME #THERE ARE NO OPPRESSION POINTS YOU SAID THE QUIET PART OUT LOUD #YOU THINK TRANS WOMEN SCORE MORE POINTS ON THE OPPRESSION SCALE #as an intersex transfemmasc go fuck yourself #also this is literally the opposite of solidarity you rotted cuntnugget

[luvaaheee]

pingponging between i am loved to i am loathed constantly

#unimportant #i send a text to friends or a group chat in whimsh and happiness to talk w my friends then immediately #am swamped w the most negative thoughts known to man in how others perceive me