#and they kept saying I did nothing wrong

[anne-bsd-bibliophile]

I’ve realized that it’s hard to change after being told it was selfish and wrong for me to talk for most of my life. I don’t even consider telling anyone most of what I think, and I don’t even know where to begin bringing up a topic of conversation. I always let other people do most of the talking in social settings or it’s a work related conversation. Even here on Tumblr, I mostly just post quotes from books I like or reblog stuff. I don’t know if I even have the words to express myself and I have to borrow what other people have said. It feels really awkward because I really have no idea what to say and I don’t have any confidence that anyone would want to hear my thoughts or opinions. Now that my father is dead and he’s not going to punish me for talking I still have a long way to go before I will be able to express myself the way I want to. Even if I want to open up, I can’t think of how to do that and I’m scared that I will just be annoying and awkward the whole time.

#coping with narcissistic abuse #I wasn't allowed to exist as myself #so my father tried to kill who I was and make me into what he wanted me to be #which was just something to make him look good and allow him to live vicariously through me #and when that didn't work I became the scapegoat #everything was suddenly my fault and I was the selfish daughter who was destroying the family #all because I wanted to enjoy Shakespeare plays and be an honors student instead of being a cheerleader and a social butterfly #I would always ask my mom and my counselor what I did wrong to make me a target #and they kept saying I did nothing wrong #none of it made sense until I learned more about Narcissistic Personality Disorder #when I learned that they hijack your super ego and brainwash you it made more sense #me being myself and not letting him control every aspect of myself was what I did /wrong/ in his mind #and that was reason enough for him to make my life a living hell #and that is also why no matter what I did I could never earn my father's love #nothing could have made him love me for who I am

[moonsaurora]

you know. it leaves a very bad taste in my mouth when people bring up the allegations against drake bell when talking about his abuse. it feels like “yeah this very bad thing happened to you, but you did this” ????

it’s like. you see this man disassociate at the thought of what happened to him. it being so horrible he can’t even say it. 11 charges against brian peck for what he did to drake ALONE, including but not limited to sodomy, forcible penetration with a foreign object, using anesthesia, and even filming it…like knowing all if this you still go “he also perpetrated abuse”

idk. i just feel like you can say that you feel horrible for what he went through and talk about that without bringing up his allegations. like imagine he’s sitting in front of you recounting the horrific shit he went through, and then you say back “yes that’s awful, but you did this”

idk how to explain it but it just feels wrong

#quiet on set #nickelodeon #drake bell #also. i may be wrong but she lied about her age right? #once he found out he blocked her and then she kept coming to m&gs and stuff #like wasn’t it proven there was nothing physical between them #he plead guily to the text messages i think but not anything else #that’s what i’ve been seeing anyway #oh and i’m not saying that didn’t affect her i’m sure it absolutely did

[demigodofhoolemere]

When you know a character and their material like the back of your hand and you see someone say something about the character as if it’s a known trait of theirs but you’ve literally never seen that happen

#saw a review for an old first doctor novel that said that steven’s ‘capacity to fall for the wrong type of woman’ was ‘very much in place’ #his… his what? #is this a thing that happened repeatedly in the novels for some reason and i’ve been blissfully unaware of it? #he literally never gets anything romantic in the show #you can see steven/sara if you squint like i did and apparently big finish did as well #but that’s it and that’s already a stretch #and at that sara is not the wrong kind of woman so it wouldn’t describe her anyway #is this about steven being attracted to the drahvin for a hot minute or something? #because it was literally about a minute. very quickly realized that they suck and then never looked at them like that the rest of the story. #but there’s nothing else to draw from lol #so i have to assume that either the novels kept doing this to him for some reason #or this person is just living in a dream world about who steven is lol #i’ll give them the benefit of the doubt and say it’s the novels because i know some very odd choices have been made in them #but still. what??? #classic who #steven taylor

[roseofcards90]

I had an embarrassing interaction this morning I hate it here

#IT WASNT EVEN MY FAULT I SAID GRILLED THREE CHEESE AND THE GUY KEPT HEARING IT AS GREENS THREE CHEESE #BUT I WAS SAYING IT CLEARLY MAN 😭 #AND THEN WHEN THE LADY CALLED ME FOR MY ORDER SHE BROUGHT OUT TWO GRILLED CHEESES AND I WAS LIKE #DID THE GUY NOT CANCEL THAT ORDER AND THE LADY SAW THE ORDER TAG AND WAS LIKE “Oh I'll make two” #BUT WHEN I TRIED TO EXPLAIN TO HER THAT THE GUY RUNG IT UP WRONG SHE KINDA JUST LOOKED AT ME LIKE 💀 #IM SORRY IF I MADE YOU MAKE TWO GRILLED CHEESES FOR NOTHING IM SORRY AAAAAA #my posts

[skinreflectsthesun]

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#the other day my husband kept talking about his childhood and laughing about how bad of a kid he was #how he did so much bad shit and how he deserved every punishment he got #and I just had to take a moment #because I don’t usually say anything when he jokes like this #but this time I did #I told him he wasn’t a bad kid #that he was misunderstood and that the people who were supposed to try to understand him didn’t try as much as they should have #and that he was just a kid who was experiencing life for the first time and that there was nothing wrong with that #and that just because the adults in his life weren’t ready to understand him doesn’t mean he was unloveable #and that I love him even when he thinks the worst of himself #even when he thinks he doesn’t deserve it #even when he gets angry or upset #that it’s okay to feel these things and express it #and that at he is a good person and that he is deserving of my love

[dimiclaudeblaigan]

I can't believe it's been a week without Little Man... When he first came home he was so happy and excited. He would play for two to three hours straight. He loved his food time but then he would go back to playing, with naps in between before his regular nighttime sleep.

Seeing him decline from that to never playing, always starving and wanting food because of his illness (the poor thing had no fat at all to keep him warm by the end...) and otherwise just sleeping really hurt. It hurt even more to see him after a deworming process want to play. He was attentive and alert, and when he heard his toys he would look with wide eyes like he wanted to play, but he was in too much pain to be able to.

During the deworming we had to keep him separated from my other cat, so he was in another room and we visited him throughout the day (and night) repeatedly and spent long periods of time with him. At night that room would get a bit cold because of its size, and sometimes I'd go in there and it was cold and I was worried he was also feeling cold... but recently I realized he really probably was because he had no fat to retain his body heat. I'm so glad I put a little blanket over him on his bed and tried my best to keep him warm. I would keep my door open so the heat could get out and keep coming back on or just stay on so it would heat up the room he was in.

His real name was Cumulus because my mom named him after that type of cloud, but I started to call him Little Man and it stuck. He knew that was what I called him, too! He started to respond after a little while!

By the end he could barely eat or even meow because it hurt to move his mouth. His jaw must have been deteriorating, and we were told his gums looked terrible. When he did eat, he could only eat wet food and even that was hard. We would hear a hard crunching sound when he ate wet food, so I'm pretty certain something was very wrong with his jaw. That was why he was always so hungry at the end - he couldn't eat enough to sustain himself.

We only had him for two months but he was so happy, sweet and precious before that illness really started to kick in. It's hard losing a cat, but it's even harder losing a five month old kitten who had so many years of life left to live. He was so sweet and playful that I can't believe how fast his illness destroyed his body from the inside out. He was bright and loving and he didn't deserve what happened to him.

Frankly, I do put some blame on the guy who sold him to us. He claims to be a rescue operation and that's fine, but he knew the mother was sick and didn't make it, yet he didn't think to check for dangerous illnesses on this cat or his sister who was adopted at the same exact day and time as he was? When we adopted him, we've now realized he was showing at least three signs of his illness already (breathing speed, heat/temperature and wobbly eyes that he often couldn't keep still). He had other issues so we didn't know what was wrong until the day the vet did an ultrasound and said he wasn't going to make it to a year old even with medication.

Imo the guy who runs that business should know the signs of illness in a cat. If you work in that profession you should know what to look out for - especially if the mother was sick before giving birth. As the shelter, it's his responsibility to know the signs and take care of health issues before adopting out. His negligence and lack of knowledge/awareness cost my family a lot of heartache and many vet bills of us just trying to find the problem. If you're working in a field with animals and adopting them out to others as a business, for the love of fuck, know all the details involved in your profession. I understand he rescues cats from kill shelters which is wonderful, but he takes in sick cats as well but then somehow doesn't notice the signs of them or their offspring being ill? It makes me think he didn't interact with them enough to notice, so again - negligence. If anyone knew what the kitten had, they might have been able to save him by medicating him before any damage could truly be done to him. Unfortunately the medication is not yet legal and is essentially on the black market and can cost thousands of dollars that we couldn't afford, but god I would've started a fundraiser to save his life if we had known. This sweetheart did not deserve the pain and suffering he went through.

I'm sad and I'm angry at this man's lack of awareness. If you're going to adopt out cats, know that you're adopting out a sick cat or potentially sick cat so you can inform and warn the adopters. "I never would've sold you a sick cat if I had known" isn't going to cut it. You should know if that's your business. That knowledge could've saved this kitten's life, or even just helped him to get on medicine to make his last months painless.

I miss you, Little Man. I love you so much. I hope we gave you the best life you could've possibly had in the time that you had. I hope all the craziness and play and love was just how you would've always lived your life. You were too sweet and you should've never had to be taken from us that young.

#DCB Comments #tw: cat death #It all just happened REALLY fast bc we'd taken him to the vet to find out why he couldn't eat/wasn't eating well #they saw him and didn't like how he looked so they did an ultrasound at that appt #he was acting fine earlier that day in the morning. he got up when he saw me in the kitchen and walked over to me like usual #suddenly hours later he was gone. we had to put him down and like... it's not like we had time to process it #we didn't know he was dying literally until that appt. I had some serious concerns leading up to that point #and was even saying I hope it was nothing fatal... but we truly didn't expect to hear that he was #actually dying from a fatal illness that he couldn't be saved from. it had progressed far very quickly #he had other problems at the same time which is why it was so difficult for us and the vet to figure out what was wrong #we didn't expect to hear that or have to do that at that vet visit but if we took him back home #he would've kept suffering bc we couldn't afford any kind of treatment for his pain #he still would've been dying the whole time he just wouldn't be suffering or as much from it #and learning that just unexpectedly at that appt when that's not what it was for made it a lot worse #I know a couple of my mutuals knew him a little bit through me so I hope you guys loved him too #long post

[thedevotionaltour]

had an insane moment tonight where i just got repeatedly shamed by friends multiple times within minutes but it's ok now bc i don't have to see these people until next semester :) the minute you repeatedly make me feel bad within a matter of minutes and after i realize every time i hang out with you i feel bad you get put into the realm of "our friendship has a timer" ^___^ no more of this lol

#it was not like directly aimed at me but every single thing. applied to me :') and you kept going not to rag on comics majors BUT #for the next five minutes. in the worst way possible. and then kept saying how sex bad how heavy content bad. and frankly i am over it! #i was surprised by the friend who mainly did this but the other one has. done this so many times. and im just kind of sick of it. #im sick of feeling bad every time i see you. every single time. #i just think some people must remember. nothing wrong with discomfort. but your discomfort is not the be all end all correct moral opinion. #just doesnt work that way. at all. #vent.txt #also as someone who has an identity extremely important to them that at the end. is so directly tied to sex and pleasure and eroticism #for me personally at least. well. i hate to be in an environment where even the mere concept of sex is constantly shamed. #it makes me feel bad. and ashamed. and gross. and dirty. and like a fucking creep pervert. in all the worst ways #and it really is. genuinely. painful. it is painful to me. #because i am being told i am just wrong for having feelings that i do. and that im gross. and it has taken me a really long time to be ok #with this part of myself. and i still struggle with it constantly despite my ability to be more secure in myself #but i am constantly trying to remind myself. im not gross or disgusting for having wants and desires and needs. and that it's ok #and im not going to let that be taken away from me by people meant to be my friends. #granted yes i could do more to advocate for myself when this happens. but i know it would be a losing battle. so i just dont. #whatever! whatever! im done and im shutting up now!

[lucy-ghoul]

Your point about the only thing Rey people being interested in was her relationship with Kylo and how that paralleled the Luke/Vader relationship is interesting. It would have added a lot of depth to the story if they'd been twins. Rey goes for the kiss. "No Rey, I'm your brother." lol. Awkward. Insanely awkward.

Hey, sorry but since I ship them and SW has already had enough soap opera-like "i'm your secret twin" last-minute revelations for my tastes I prefer them to be a romantic enemies to lovers pair - something that in SW (at least the movies; the EU was a bit different with Luke/Mara Jade and Revan/Bastila etc.) has never been seen before, so it adds an element of originality in what is basically Poor Man's OT. Same themes as Luke+Vader (love and compassion as a redemptive force) but not make it a family thing, please. That would have been uselessly redudant imo. What I meant with the Luke+Vader parallel is they're a similar brand of "the protagonist shares their most important relationship with an antagonist who turns to the Light thanks to their influence; said dynamic also challenges the main character's naive and black/white beliefs on evil&good, it challenges them to see the world under a different light". Rey didn't need to be a literal Skywalker, Kylo/Ben could have been enough for that as "one half of the protagonist/one side of the coin" - also because he has had to live with that legacy/lovable dysfunctional family for all his life while Rey struggled in a desert and Luke was "a myth" to her. She doesn't even know them; Vader&co. mean nothing to her (that's one of the many reasons the Rey Palpatine revelation feels so hollow - are we even sure she knew what a Palpatine was? lmao). The Vader Is Luke's Father plot works so well because he's the antagonist Luke has been fighting since Film 1, and Luke has been idolizing his dead dad since forever. This forces the kid to grow up - his world shatters, so he has to find a new sort of belief code. Similar to what her relationship with Kylo does (or should do) to Rey, but in a romantic key. Maybe a romance that redeemed the original star-crossed space lovers (Anidala) - this is all about Vader's legacy after all. In fact, it's all about that and how Leia couldn't (understandably) cope with it, and her son getting targeted by Snoke. Anakin's ghost should have definitely made an appearance in TROS and had an overdue talk with his grandson and his daughter but alas, "Palpatine somehow returned" but Anakin can't be bothered about his family I guess lol (that's deeply OOC of him - I'm saying this as a fan of the character).

But I agree with your point about Rey never failing/fucking things up/needing others' help. That's one of the reasons the audience feels like she's never really matured and changed. She needed to face her own demons, not someone else (specifically a man)'s. The angst about her parents abandoning her and treating her like shit should have sufficed: if she's shown her parents were Good People All Along and they were really coming back for her - well, that only reinforces her childish beliefs and never really puts her in the position to challenge them. Same as if Luke's dad had been a good guy, like he dreamed, and not literally Satan's right hand man. That's How To Write Protagonists 101 but I don't think Disneylucas ever cared about creating a somehow coherent story.

#that's just imo of course #ik people have different opinions/wishes on the st but i understand wanting the troubles to be kept in the family as it were #this is the skywalker saga after all. not fucking PALPATINE's lmao #but for *that* rey's character should have been COMPLETELY different and also kylo's. those weren't tfa's premises at all #imo they didn't know wtf to do with rey and just went full reddit fanbro with her #they never had the guts to make her a character in her own right #in the end they turned into ebony from my immortal lmao (rey PALPATINE SKYWALKER SOLO etc. pfffff okay) #i'm aware of the sexist connotations of this term and i don't use it lightly (actually i never use it all) but rey is basically a mary sue #nothing wrong with mary sues per se; have fun with your ocs (and not all ocs are ms)! but i expect better from a billions worthy franchise #anyway the st never existed for me. just picking the concept of reylo and what they did to luke in tlj #(as a depressed person it deeply touched me) #i'd also like to say the same for finn but they failed him so bad since the very beginning. poor guy never had a chance #that's another can of worms tho #star wars #sw negativity #asks

[thevalleyisjolly]

Society if instead of tying MCU Spider-Man to the Avengers, they had him connect with the Defenders instead.

#the valley is posting #the biggest disservice they did to holland!spidey imo #and you can tell that the individual movies tried so hard to break him away from the legacy of the a v e n g e r s #except the group movies kept sucking him back in until there was no way to ease up on those relationships without destroying all continuity #but. what if. hear me out. friendly NEIGHBOURHOOD spidey got to network with other new york vigilantes instead. #you can still have spidey questioning his own identity and motives! and it'll mean more because it's actually against comparable heroes! #what makes spidey different from dd? from jessica or cage or danny? #it becomes so much more meaningful for spidey to explore and define himself against people with similar experiences and situations #than trying to measure up against the legacy of big supers whom he has very little in common with and the power imbalance is so huge #anyways i have very little stakes in this but you'll never convince me that tying spidey to the a v e n g e r s was a good narrative choice #i'm not saying you can't be a fan of the relationships spidey formed within the a v e n g e r s #i just think it was a poor decision driven solely by capitalism and corporate greed to introduce spidey in that way at all #yeah; it's happened now; and there's nothing wrong with enjoying spidey's relationships with other heroes #i just wish it hadn't happened in the first place and we got to see spidey movies that were actually about spidey #instead of; y'know; spidey AND the a v e n g e r s

[vigilantejustice]

not to be melodramatic but truly do not think i experience emotions the way other people do + it’s not that everyone else in the world is poeticising their lives it’s just that there is something wired not quite right in my brain :(

#think it links to my struggle with anything that isn’t like. concrete or tangible #like could not tell you what i’m feeling if it’s not at either extreme #mentioned it to a psychologist once that i don’t have friends + i don’t feel lonely about it #even though i know that i should and he just kept saying that he thought i did want friends #and i was like i don’t know how to tell you that i’m not just lying to myself i am genuinely missing something + i don’t know why or what #to do about it #how do you make something true that’s not? i want to want these things but i just don’t #maybe it’s like a learned trauma response and it can be unlearned #or maybe it is that my brain is put together wrong #the synapses just aren’t synapsing #anyways. semi-regular pity party underway nothing new! #personal

[yourelosingains]

Lmao Not a few of the ʀᴏᴛᴛᴇɴ-ᴍɪʟᴋꜱ on Twitter saying that byler wont ever be real to a response to a byler post 🙄🙄🙄

#*sigh* #last time I was on twitter the rotten-mils kept on raiding my posts for no reason or context #ugh #these things always happen to me on a daily basis #byler #they are completely wrong but whatever they say- #like #i literally did nothing to them #O-o #they make me want to smash all my windows #rotten milks -_o

[n4b3]

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#genuinely just want her out of my life the pain i experienced whenever i see her is tremendous #it is equally as painful as being ill #i woke up at 4am and its almost 6 and i can't stop thinking about her #and i stupid ass girl thought everything would be fine that she would understand what im going through and cried my eyes out asking for hel #and yet i got nothing. thinking she was someone i could rely on #it is so painful to see the fragments of what we were in other people. but she has actively avoided me and treated me so badly #and yet i bite back when she does and it couldn't get any worse #and i held to that hope that there's a way it can be fixed there's hope to that promise she said she didn't want to lose me #and lose the connection we had for so many years #it's like she's that kind of person everybody likes. everybody friend. but its only there for the good times and not for the bad times #and made me wonder what does friend mean to other people? for me is for the ppl who are in the good and the bad #i just kind of realized i can't talk to her anymore bc it sends me on this spirals of why's why's why's #why is she like that with me? why didn't she kept up with her promise? what kind of shit did i do or say that made everything go south? #this is too much for me and i don't know what I did wrong #everywhere i go i just see her bc she's my classmate but also i can't scape her bc her art is suddenly in art galleries #she haunts me in a way #but i miss her so much and i just we could go back to what we used to be #and i don't understand why shes like that with me none of our common friends understand either and everyone telling me to drop her #because of her behavior #and im just here praying for someone to pop up into my life and take me out of this misery #but it is really one of the hardest things for me is to meet new people literally my Achilles heel #its so hard to go through this pain alone i can barely keep up with the illness i have this shit is the cherry on top #made me wish I had ride or dies #and I have so many reasons to hate her and treat her badly and awful and yet i don't do it... and I even forgave her what she did to me #treats me like I was the one who did what she did to me #is really so bizarre

[florenncepugh]

i know it’s been 5 days and i need to move on but i just can’t stop being mad over what they did to eddie (and every new bit of info from joseph just makes me even angrier bc it seems like he was done so dirty too)….. making him seek “redemption” for something he didn’t even need to be redeemed for? each time he ran to survive??? he wasn’t a coward. he chose to stay with the group, to go fight for this town that never bothered to give him the time of day. that was more than enough. his death was so MEANINGLESS and the duffers rly tried to act like they did something lmao ?! when everyone STILL hates him and thinks he’s a satanic murderer spare me pls

#the worst part is i knew from the moment he was introduced that be was dying #i still kept hoping like the clown i am tho that the duffers were going to change things up #my sweet boy every time u ran u did nothing wrong <3 i wish someone had told u that #you deserved sm better #eddie munson #stranger things spoilers #the fact that i’m resorting to making a post on tumblr says so much about my wellbeing 💀💀 #i don’t even go here anymore

[westywallowing]

As a Lucy fan and a person that realized my hate for Sakura was more fueled by men fans posting their hate YOU ARE SO RIGHT. They both had good shit going on plus they plot would be nowhere without them but they still were underutilized or ignored by the fans from what they did do. Lucy is my friend bests best girl to beat all best girls for a reason she was cool!!!!!

YESSSS IM YELLING YOU UNDERSTAND ME !!!!

literally so many men trash on Sakura and I'm just like,,, yall know that's literally the problem right???? a huge part of her struggle in the first series is her breaking out of the beauty stereotypes she found herself boxing into, AND being the only woman on a team of boys who constantly try to upstage not only you but each other???? my lady went to hell and back to show she was worth praise and god dammit SHE IS

Also fairy tail literally would not have a plot without Lucy I stand by this!!! Lucy may not be strong physically but that's the whole POINT she has an immensely strong spirit and passion for growth! I think having characters who aren't as strong physically in action animes is hella cool. Lucy is hella cool. and I love her outfits.

#not saying that theres nothing wrong with the feminin stereotypes of both shows... shounen action manga written by men in the early 2010s #always is a bit dodgy with that #but the characters themselves???? FUCK YEAH powerful badasses #i mean did u SEE sakura in the last 10 tails battle???? #and lucy in the infinity clock arc??? ma'am really kept her mind intact after being absorbed into time and space how tf #anyways thank u for shouting with me about this #im very passionate about it if you couldnt tell 🥰🥰 #ask #anime talk

[excalibrain]

okay but what if i wrote a captain kate pryde verse built on the premise that she's not an incarnation of 616!Kitty but assume that after battleworld 6161 (or something) Kitty survived --- as in, she's pretty darn close to the kitty/kate pryde that the x-men knew, but squint and there are differences in the way she doesn't remember certain events or people... so every so often she opens her mouth and gives everyone a collective migraine of the bad ol' days.

#full disclosure this is me trying to work around my spotty ass comics readings. i haven't even read battleworld i gave up during that. #and haven't read a single full issue since. #of course i know some of the bigger things and have seen some panels. and heard marauders is actually content to work with. #but i haven't kept up with modern comics in /years/ and just reading all the krakoa stuff is going to take me awhile. to say nothing of #trying to read literally everything she's ever been in when i never really got past battle of the atom. i did read some bendis/jgs era #stuff and black vortex and. some stuff. but i'd definitely need a HUGE re-read. so maybe i just lean into the fact that i'm going to get #stuff wrong and make that. okay? #( also iicr when kitty started going by kate but i think that was after battleworld so. hence. using kitty there. ) #anyways. this is where my head is at. #also lots of metas in the works but first. errands.

[nymfaia]

ARENVALD’S INJURIES POST 5.5.

     Prior to Endwalker’s release and the expanded role quests involving Arenvald and Fordola, he is seen in a wheelchair with a cast or bandage around one of his lower legs. While this bandage is removed prior to the role quests, the extent of his injury is never expanded upon past him stating he “may never walk again”.

     With that in mind, I proposed that Arenvald suffered massive trauma to his leg. Combined with the concepts surrounding Garleans being unable to be healed by magic and the knowledge that, throughout most of history, limb trauma was often treated by the offending limb simply being removed, I arrived at the conclusion that at the end of 5.5, Arenvald simply had a below-the-knee amputation.

     In Endwalker, he is seen in the same wheelchair as he had been previously, but the bandages were removed and his model returned to it’s default state. Moving around his model still had him shift to turn at the waist, and it wasn’t until that point that I realized I might have overthought his wounds and he may have simply had a spinal injury.

     However, with all the time I had already spent researching, I have still decided to stick to my guns. For my personal portrayal of Arenvald post-shb, he is still an amputee. The burns sustained to the leg that Lunar Ifrit pinned were too deep for the tissue to heal naturally - as he is half-garlean, he is unable to be healed by magic, and the best course of action was to remove the dead and mangled tissue. 

     While he is not trying to keep his wound a secret, he still will wear sabatons or tall, close-toed boots. He has taken pains to retain some sense of normality. Maybe if he pretends he is still whole, others won’t view him differently, either.

      Arenvald is wheelchair bound for longer excursions or ones on uneven terrain, like the trips throughout Ala Mhigo for Endwalker. However, if left to his own devices, he most often be seen with under-the-arm crutches or forearm crutches. He isn’t a big fan of having others push his wheelchair, and the best way to nip that in the bud - and to avoid feeling as if he’s being pitied - is to simply avoid using it. 

#i WANTED TO MAKE THIS AFTER E.W CAME OUT #AND I DID THE CONTENT W HIM IN IT #and i am happy they didn't go look! all better and that he kept his wheelchair #but i'm still keeping my ideas and h.cs so. gently yeets canon #i shouldn't have to say this but there's nothing wrong with characters being wheelchair bound or needing mobility aids #but with the focus given to his LEG/s being wounded in that one convo w a.lphinaud. i decided to lean into it being a leg injury and not a #spinal one. so. he could still use a wheelchair but quite frankly. unless he's cooped up in m.or dhona. #it isn't practical. looks at the scene of him in ala mhigo. WHO WHEELED HIM THRU ALL THAT DIRT? #body horror tw #broken bones tw #gore tw #amputation tw #injuries tw #burns tw #graphic injuries tw #6.0 spoilers #5.5 spoilers #⚪ arenvald ; hcs.