#and to all my trans friends out there? I love you so much.

[taylor-titmouse]

Shrinking Violet is out! another of @petitemortality R/L Monroe's wonderful erotic shorts, with another cover by yours truly >:) i've been saying it on nearly every promo post i make for this but if you're one of the people who has wanted me to write f/f, you're legally obligated to read this one. below is the sales copy, and then below that some discussion of the process for designing the cover!

Nobody at college knows that shy, nervous Maya had a 'bad boy' reputation in high school - and Maya is the only one who knows tough, rebellious Nasrin used to be a sweet-tempered teacher's pet. Mutual attraction is rekindled when their paths cross again, but the two find their old dynamics have been flipped on their head. Maya finally knows what she wants, and Nasrin is bold enough to give it to her...that is, if she can bring herself to ask. Will their first time be perfect the second time around? 7k words, EPUB and PDF format. This is the second in the Fuck Yourself Friday series of shorts. New stand-alone erotic stories are released on the last Friday of every month. FYF 1: Go Fuck Yourself These stories contain explicit sexual content, and are intended for 18+ audiences.

Contains: -F/tF -transfem sub -outdoor sex -praise kink -soft penis stimulation -non-penetrative sex

THUMBNAILS

this one was very straightforward with the request: "the image I have in my mind for a cover is someone's fingers knotted in a skirt spread out against wildflowers. but more in the sort of gripping your own skirt gently kind of way, somewhere between anxious and excited if that makes sense. I'm thinking like you know the classic soft grunge tumblr aesthetic photo vibe. type of shit you'd post next to a closeup of a skinned knee in long socks"

very easy instructions to follow! so while i usually prefer to do 3 thumbnails, i only ended up with 2. there's only so many ways you can depict a hand on a skirt, after all. and we decided that we wanted to continue with the style i established with the first one, with silhouettes, lineless art, and bold textures. we liked the first one more, but wanted to get some leg in there.

i proposed adding black pantyhose to the narrative to make it work on the cover (i have changed prose to match what i drew for illustrations Many times) but we went with bare leg in the end

FINISHING

so i didn't actually do a sketch for this one, just went straight to rendering. as we all know i use gradient maps a lot in my work, so i gave lee a choice between a bright, springy palette, and a wetter, darker palette. i also offered it with the border, or with the skirt going over it. personally i like the skirt going over it, but the border keeps it consistent and more book-cover-y, so we went with that. lee chose the darker palette, which suits the story much better

but the font didn't fit! too vintage for the story, which takes place in modern day.

fonts time :^)

we went with the third option for the contrast. and also added a raindrop to the flower (which got moved to the right petal in the final draft). gently touching petals, wetness, This Is Yuri.

and the final result is as above!

anyway you should all read this story, it's incredibly sweet childhood-best-friends-to-lovers and in itself a love letter to trans femininity. i highly recommend it, and it's only $3!

go and get it!

#tt art #tt talks drawing

[trans-cuchulainn]

hello and welcome to the niche corner

hello i'm néide and this is my blog, which mostly consists of me being grumpy about niche things. i have multiple degrees in medieval irish literature and while sometimes i use these to be vaguely educational, more often i use them to write incredibly specific fic about characters nobody else cares about, and this fic can be found on ao3 (for logged-in users)

so this is a guide to my incredibly specific fanfiction, which i feel also gives a reasonably good introduction to the kind of thing i'm likely to be yelling about on this blog

i am reliably informed that you don't actually need to know anything about the source material to have fun with these fics (or suffer from the angst), but also they can be more fun if you do. some have bibliographies/refs/explanations so i also know a few people have used them as a way to get started with medieval Irish lit which will never not be extremely funny to me

current WIP: chasing someone else's dream (16k, WIP): a cú chulainn/láeg reincarnation fic. they have been reincarnated, not for the first time. they've also been cursed, and thus, unlike in every life before this one, they've never met. ngl this fic contains some of the best prose i ever wrote, please read it

group chats of the ulster cycle, or, the in loco parentis series

a modern AU of the ulster cycle. sort of a college AU, turned into a ballet AU halfway through. consists of:

in loco parentis (135k, complete): my magnum opus. cú chulainn and láeg are university flatmates; group chats featuring all your favourite ulster cycle characters and also some you probably never gave a shit about; cú chulainn as a tiny trans ballet dancer and ferdia as his pas de deux partner; baking; everybody hating on conchobar; nobody dies; way more feelings about both ballet and shostakovich than anybody was expecting, including me; and much more. comes with explanatory notes / bibliography because i'm just Like That

getting the dee (9k, in progress/abandoned): a prequel to ILP, sort of a longes mac nuislenn fic except nobody dies and there are more sex toys. naoise/deirdre with guest appearances from conall. one day i'll go back to this but also i'm a coward

valentáin's day (4k oneshot, complete): a prequel to ILP, featuring láeg and cormac in the pub on valentine's day making fun of all their friends in relationships. they make out, fortunately their friendship survives the experience.

and when you move, i move (2.5k oneshot, complete): a sequel to ILP. just a horny lil cú chulainn/ferdia oneshot set a few months after ILP wraps up.

miscellaneous ulster cycle oneshots

i will be honest, most of these are sad fics of oidheadh con culainn ("the death of cú chulainn") because i just love writing angst, but there's a couple of others in there

to walk this world alone (6k): extremely niche fic featuring láeg after cú chulainn's death. some otherworldly happenings. sad but not as sad as it was originally going to be.

counterweight (3k): cú chulainn/láeg during oidheadh con culainn, anticipating cú chulainn's death. this one's pretty sad too.

dindsenchas (3.5k): missing scenes between cú chulainn and láeg during táin bó cúailnge. narrated by the landscape of ulster and addressed in second person to cú chulainn himself because the best sex scenes are the ones narrated by a tree.

in one dwelling place (2k): láeg/cú chulainn/emer. vaguely smutty, vaguely fluffy.

we'll say goodbye, today (2k): cú chulainn and láeg during oidheadh con culainn, anticipating cú chulainn's death. big sad hours.

glorious as the sunrise (3k): this is just angst. cú chulainn/láeg during oidheadh con culainn again. not particularly shippy but they love each other very much.

a marriage of inconvenience (3k): modern AU. cú chulainn wants to marry emer but unfortunately never bothered to get divorced after he married láeg for househunting purposes. a very silly fic.

of grief and glory (1.7k): cú chulainn deals with the aftermath of táin bó cúailnge, especially fer diad's death. more sad times lol.

flight risk (2.3k): teenage cú chulainn and láeg steal a spaceship. they get caught. fun scifi AU.

other medieval lit fics (non ulster cycle)

patron saint of toasties (2.5k): finn cycle fic. oisín took time out of uni to travel and now all his friends have graduated and he's lonely enough to text the christian union's "text a toastie" hotline. which is how he meets patrick. very silly modern AU gen fic mostly taking the piss out of st patrick

two birds of a feather (2.8k): yonec (marie de france) | togail bruidne da derga crossover fic. bird dad support group. conaire and yonec hang out and bond over their dads having maybe been birds. stupidest thing i ever wrote and i adore it.

quiver and shake (1.8k): fourth branch of the mabinogi fic. gwydion and gilfaethwy's special brotherly bonding time. canon typical content warnings apply.

other

absent thee from felicity (11k, WIP): hamlet | romeo & juliet crossover modern AU in which horatio and benvolio attempt to deal with the aftermath of their respective tragedies. sad at first, will gradually get sillier. haven't updated in a couple of years but that doesn't mean it's permanently abandoned, i'm just busy

if you've never read any of my fics before and are wondering where to start, i firmly believe the reincarnation fic (current WIP) is a good one because it has a solid mix of angst, shenanigans, and weird fuckery, so you can experience the tonal whiplash of the rest of my fics all in one place! but it is a WIP and i make zero promises about upload schedule, it happens when it happens, so not so good if you're impatient haha. plenty of others to get you started though

#my fic #medieval irish #ulster cycle

[tarchey]

Happy trans day of visibility

#trans day of visibility #trans lives matter #as someone who never fit into gernder norms #as someone who's realised that they're trans and has been living in the closet for three years #I'm slowly pulling at my protective shields to show people who I am #this is going to be a long ass process and I wish I could have done it earlier in life #but better late than never eh? #thank you all for being a safe space and for accepting me and people like me #and to all my trans friends out there? I love you so much. #I know we're facing some hard times atm and I know there's more to come #You deserve to be loved. You deserve to be you. You deserve everything and so much more. #I see you

[astranauticus]

Ad astra per aspera

#rolling with difficulty #vr-la rwd #mr-sn rwd #rwd #uhhhh im bad at tagging #anyway ive wanted to draw something with this specific composition for AGES so thanks for the excuse #and also for getting to use that caption #man. i have like a soft spot for that saying cuz its the motto of my sec sch science club #and man i loved that dumb club so much #i was already kinda loving just the 'ship called per aspera' bit but once the whole phrase became relevant? oh boy #unrelated side note but like 4 of my friends from that club later turned out to be specifically trans/nb #(5 if you count myself) #which is. so bloody funny to me #youd think all the queers would end up in theatre or some shit but no! science and math. for some reason #i was like 'i should probably keep polishing this' and then i realised my ipad was at 10% so nevermind. also i have no impulse control #art I made

[acasternaut]

wishing all my trans friends a very pride month <3 your name and pronouns don't have to be "preferred", they're just your name and pronouns <3 trans lives are more important than cis feelings <3 it's okay to be unsure of/still figuring out anything related to ur gender! you are still so valid no matter what <3 do not take shit from cis people. life is too short <3 i hope you get to experience so much gender euphoria this pride month and for the rest of your lives. you absolutely deserve it <3 and last but not least, transphobes/terfs can go eat shit and rot in hell.

#and the special thing is. if you're trans we are friends :) #so a very pride to every single trans person out there #i fucking love you. so very much actually #also #this is my year of trans anger and rage. i am actually tired of putting up with Cis People #and sorry if this is Hard To Read. i may reformat it idk #it's a lot of text idk. anyways. trans rights. love you all #pride #lgbt #trans pride #trans positivity #trans rights #red talks

[lre333]

(found)family dynamics ft. nose presets by @kashisun​ 🖤

Y’ALL i can’t wait for you to get your hands on these amazing presets - MARINE, you mfkin’ DID THAT, OKAY?!! *inSPIRED* had me up playin in CAS, making up whole damn backstories for sims i just met ~sigh~ they already got theme songs and nicknames cuz you had the NERVE to pop off on these wonderfully unique, character-filled, deeply customizable schnoz shapes ~ i’m in love <3333

a lil scenario occured while i was putting the family together, learning their quirks and how they interact with each other - an entire mess XD

in order of appearance :

vanity ; as “i’m watching my shows” non-snitchin’ witness / too pretty for this

snickers ; as accident-prone troublemaker crybaby / jealous he’s not the baby

ariel ; as perpetually sick-of-this-shit scandalized younger sibling / good sport

hunny ; as not the mess but has something to say about it / lowkey accomplice

mamma neptune ; as rough-edged at work, soft toward the children / the glue

#sims 4 cas #black simmer #simblr #kashisun cc #LOOK AT MY SON !! PRIDE IS NOT THE WORD I'M LOOKING FOR ; THERE IS SO MUCH MORE INSIDE ME NOW (hate hamilton now but there was a moment and #this song kept blasting through my head as i looked adoringly at my babies during creation lskjfsl i'll forgive myself; too busy doting) #mamma neptune had pretty girl rock by keri wilson as his theme song 💅🏾 -tucks a hair behind his ear- he's my saltyseadog bbygurl i love #they have regular names but i thought the nicknames are more fun for the scenario #btw snickers calls himself that so he can yell back WHAT DID YOU JUST CALL ME?! at nonblack ppl when they say his name - he's a menace to #yt society; everyone clap - also he busted his face in a mosh pit and then proceeded to cry abt it while thrashing cuz ofc💔 let it out bb~ #he's always pestering ariel and she threatens him back but it's all games - they ride for each other heavy ; ariel is actually older than #snickers but she's the last to join the family and hasn't been out as long so he acts like older brother and she doesn't mind; they're both #trans bbies -mamma neptune is cis by his definition but welcomes a faggy she/her as appropriate address to his person ~ hunny is moc/fluid; #vanity is everything darling✨ they remind me of a friend so they feel extra special to me ; which wasn't intentional but i'm vibing ~ #tired of typing now kthxbye💞 #tw blood #probably

[alagaisia]

I’m reminded of that post about how goths and people who wear only lots of pink are actually the same because “wearing only one color” is a specific choice in opposition to just looking Normal

I’m flying to a friend’s wedding today, and I recently acquired from my neighborhood free page a very pretty vintage suitcase in like a brocade upholstery texture in all of my good colors, so of course I needed a coordinated airport outfit à la Midge Maisel. You guys don’t know me, but I usually dress very put together, in what my sister calls Outfits, with a capital O to distinguish it from just wearing clothes. And since getting a full time job I’ve been slowly adding to my collection of vintage and 50’s-vibes clothes, because I just really like that aesthetic (my bridesmaid dress for the wedding is a vintage tea dress I got from Etsy. The fabric is in great condition but I had to reinforce pretty much every seam with my sewing machine, because the structural integrity of the original thread was breaking down, so that was an interesting learning experience).

All of which is to say that I Dressed Up for the airport in a vintage-y outfit that coordinates perfectly with some of the colors of my suitcase, and my hair is curled, and I have a vintage leather purse that my grandma gave me that matches her watch that I’m wearing and the shoes she bought me last summer at the same vintage store that my skirt came from, and a teenage-ish girl with whatever you call the 2023 teenage equivalent of emo/punk vibes, like the dark maroon mullet and not a lot of makeup and dark comfy clothes but like, very on purpose, told me I look cool when I walked past on the way to security

And like, she Gets It! We have different fashion goals but I think we put a similar degree of intention into the way we look compared to just wearing regular clothes. Which is cool! It’s validating. Not that I really need validation, but it’s always nice to get compliments, of course. And the way I dress is really not terribly distinctive most of the time, other than being Outfits and a little dressier than maybe the norm is, like I think most people who see me one time in passing would see that I look Nice but not necessarily see it as a cultivated Look. But punk mullet girl gets it.

#struggled with not sounding *too* pretentious here #I don’t feel pretentious but I have a hard time talking about like. specific choices and things in any detail #like to my friends I just said what happened with a picture of my outfit and was like ‘and she gets it!’ and they were like ‘yeah!’ #but to strangers I have to go into much more detail to get the point across #even though really it’s not like I’m putting all of that into it every day I just get up and go ‘i want to look nice today’ #in accordance with my personal fashion preferences #and then having to explain those preferences like ‘my name is alagaisia midge maisel darkness way and I’m wearing vintage whatever’ #i do look so cute though #i got these shoes last summer and then lost the heel cap off of one of them the very first time i wore them #finally took them in to have them fixed last week so I could wear them to the wedding #needed a deadline so that I would actually get around to it #i hate flying it’s really a testament of how much I love my friend that I’m flying #instead of driving ten hours to Nebraska #but it made more sense and to make sure i won’t be late or run into car trouble or anything #and I’ll stay looking nice right away instead of getting gross and sweaty in the car or having to change for bachelorette activities #i only know the bride so I’m definitely going to make a very specific impression on all of these strangers lol #i joked with my dad about adopting a trans Atlantic accent for the whole weekend just for shits and giggles #turns out you cannot do it over the top. have you ever listened to JFK’s ‘we choose to go to the moon’ speech #it’s very silly sounding #we had a good time saying things one might say at a bachelorette party in a goofy voice #‘we cho~ose to ohdah thihs maiule strippah… ahnd the othah things.. nawt becahse it is easyh.. #but becawhse he is hahd’ #highly recommend #mine #personal

[arthur-r]

testosterone meeting complete?!?!?!?!???!!!

#it went well the doctor was so much better than any doctor i’ve met ever in my life #treated me like a human being?? was familiar with my pre-existing conditions?? #saw autism on my chart and just acknowledged it and moved on?? no ‘‘are you sure you’re trans you’re just a confused autistic kid’’ ??!! #i have an informed consent paper to look at now but it’s all stuff i’ve already researched #i have officially decided that T is more important to me than biological children so we got this #(i was already basically there but i had an anxiety spiral a couple months ago about freezing my eggs which i’ve confirmed was just anxiety #‘​‘just anxiety’’ i sound like a fucking evil doctor but like. intrusive-thoughts-anxiety vs thing-i-should-listen-to. i don’t want bio kids #the one thing i’m nervous about is my singing voice i wanna make sure i get some recordings in before my voice changes #cause my voice isn’t mine but i’ve sure worked hard on it shdhdf and it has a high pitched anxious quality to it that you can’t often find #shdhdhf i just feel like the voice i have now is more unique than wherever i’m gonna end up. and i really want to sound like my favorite cis #men musicians but i feel like my anxious songs just won’t hit the same if it sounds like some guy is singing them #so i’m gonna make some recordings within the next month to put out pre-T demo versions of my songs (real demos not what i’m always posting) #and then i’ll be ready. cause i want to sound like some weird shitty man SO BAD. please just let me be some off-key guy with voice cracks #TO BE CLEAR i would sure like to be a talented singer on testosterone. which has happened for one of my dearest friends and can probably #also happen for me. if i keep working on my voice all the time. BUT i would rather have a shitty low voice than a beautiful high one #which i did a lot of thinking about and grappling with since i’m a vocalist and it’s kind of really important to me #but half the male musicians i listen to can’t even hold a tune. so I CAN HANDLE IT #anyway!! i’m going to latin now!! and then i have work and then asexual club and then heading home and maybe laundry #i hope everybody has a good day and i love you dearly #me. my post. mine. #delete later #medical cw #(? ask to tag)

[tragedykery]

I hate. complicated friendships

#I love her but also. #I feel like such a bad friend for complaining about her but she’s just so. incredibly inconsiderate #like we planned to hang out ish at 1 pm today. suddenly she texts me like ‘hey I’m coming around 14:30 instead’ #she knows I’m autistic too she knows how important having a schedule is for me and she pulls sth like that?? #maybe it’s the fact that she’s an only child but ​she just expects the world and everyone else to accommodate for her #one time we were on a school trip and I was nauseous and I mentioned that to her and she just. made it all about herself??? #like I get she’s got emetophobia but turning the conversation into a fifteen-minute-long rant about if I vomited to please not do it #anywhere she could see bc if I did she would cry and feel absolutely terrible for the rest of the day and etc etc etc #like bestie IM the one who’s sick here??? #and like 50% of our conversations are just her venting at me (even more if you count the ones over text) and it’s. I don’t mind it when it’s #a normal amoun but she just treats me like an object for her to vent at and I Understand there’s stuff she can’t tell her therapist/coach bc #he knows her parents and she’s afraid he’ll tell on her if she talks about gender stuff (she’s not out) and I’m the closest trans friend she #has so I’m the person who understands it the best but it’s just. SO much #(but the moment I vent for once I just feel like she. doesn’t listen and that she thinks I’m just being too sensitive) #and that’s definitely my fault too bc idk how to communicate when she makes me uncomfortable with stuff like that #and she’s autistic too and doesn’t understand hints at all so I’d need to just State it and that feels so incredibly mean but. #there’s more instances I’m not typing out but just. ugh. I love her I really do and I feel like such a child for complaining about her on #tumblr dot com and I know I’m at fault too for not communicating when she makes me uncomfortable I’m not pretending I’m not to blame at all #but she’s self-centred and inconsiderate and. ugh #vent #elli rambles

[moe-broey]

Thank you transwomen (in general but also) for the term "boymode" bc using that terminology for myself as a transguy (so, "girlmode") has been the only way I've been able to aptly and succinctly describe whatever the hell was going on *vaguely gestering to my adolescence from ages 15 to 19* there.

#hope i'm not overstepping or saying some dumb shit LMFAO #but like. speaking v generally. esp in the beginning of unpacking 'oh fuck i. i don't think i'm a girl.' #i found i related a lot more to transfemme experiences of living one way for so long all your life playing A Role #and in some cases leaning heavily into masculinity to 'prove' you couldn't possibly be a woman #than like. so many transmasc experiences i'd see online of like 'oh i always knew.' #and the staples of the experience being like. tomboyish. baggy hoodies. ect. #and like i'm not saying any of that in a derogatory or dismissive way. it's just so much of what i saw as a teen #'researching' being trans so i can be a better 'ally' to my friends and classmates LMFAOO #also this is why the narrative of transmen being 'lost girls' and 'just tomboys' is SOOOO stupid it's funny to me like. #there was a very short stint in middle school where i was more 'tomboyish' in appearance #very quickly it was corrected out of me by the influence of loved ones and myself. that wasn't Really Me #let me tell you. the combination of people pleaser/autistic masking is INSANE esppp when you're in an Evil Setting for it LMFAO #<- evil setting being my specific brand of christianity i was brought up w #but case and point i don't think i was ever actually a tomboy. i was HIGHLY feminine actually. #and i found a lot of delights in feminity too! esppp a love of fashion and cute aesthetics #so like. describing my experience w gender/presentation has always been really difficult language-wise #saying 'when i was a girl' doesn't feel right cause i never was one. just played A Role. i didn't always know though. #i didn't even realize i WAS playing a role. also there were things i genuinely loved and enjoyed associated w feminity. #and saying 'post transition' is weird to me too bc. i'm not? there yet? i'm not done yet. #and any which way of trying to describe 'when i came out' is clunky bc i was always outed/forced out #like. multiple times. even before i had the time to explore it/make sense of it myself. #def rambling but. girlmode and autistic masking are synonyms to me now. it captures everything. #i swear to god the parallels between autism/being trans drive me INSANE to me they are always informing one another. #like i feel like i could write an entire fucking essay about it. if i was an academic i would fucking KILL it

[palms-upturned]

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#meg talks #little bro is having a crisis bc a loved one is going through a rlly hard time w trying to get financial aid #and bro is just like heartbroken and enraged at how impossible it is #and im… i feel terrible bc i have no idea what to say #like… im genuinely sorry he’s having to find out these things firsthand bc i know it feels awful #but i see so much of this stuff w all of my friends that it almost didn’t register w me that this is smth that he found shocking #not that he hasn’t seen it too in fact he’s experienced it himself #it’s just like. it hit me like ah right. ive carried around the fear of the social murder of me and my loved ones for so long #that it almost started to seem like a universal part of adult life #which ig it is in a way. but not like this. and im sad that the world is built to do this to us #and horrified that ‘’being poor and/or disabled and/or trans means that the structures this world was built on are designed to kill you’’ #is not a thought that makes me boil in anger anymore (ofc it still does sometimes just not every time) #so much as this like… it’s like ive already grieved my own death #idk. im just sad.

[wereshrew-admirer]

long work day today but in my heart of hearts i'm drawing chine in a dress having a great time, because, gender i guess.

no alterations to their appearance otherwise, maybe somebody's convinced them to wash their hair, but only for the sensory experience of having some bounce to it afterwards, y'know?

i just..am ruminating on how good it feels to be so incongruous with people's expectations without any fear at all? or more, even, with the sense of power that comes from frightening cis people when you yourself are confident in your safety?

not even a hint of chine being embarrassed about it, just straight to the joy - slap a few flowers in their shitty beard and dare somebody to say something <3

#idk my headcanon with chine re:gender is not so much about gender at all #more in that they're a he/they because their relationship with humanity is tenuous #and any bleed into gender is secondary #but like boundaries are fluid and/or meaningless to them so why would he give a fuck what clothes ppl think he should wear #also i'm projecting because i scared a man out of the bathroom last week and instead of having a panic about it i felt this huge wave of #gender euphoria? #this could only happen at work because i've been here 10 years and everyone is habituated to me #and because i dont go anywhere in public much anymore since covid #so most of my experiences with unfamiliar people is that nobody reacts to me wearing a dress anymore? #so when a new hire did react it was a surprise? #and the realization that it was a surprise felt SO POWERFUL #god i just love being visibly trans #i want to depict obviously-testoserone-dominant people in flowy comfortable clothes without makingany effort to look traditionally feminine #this is the height of gender for me #and i know the table friends tend to depict worlds in which clothes aren't gendered anyway #but the incongrousness can come from folks associating dresses with delicacy (also wrong) instead if you want to imagine the world that way #i prefer my fantasy with a side of real-world struggle so that the payoff feels more worth it personally but to each their own

[mattynmarns]

also I just wanted to say that I feel safe with dnp like these guys and this community genuinely are my backbone and ill always love you guys and I'll always come back here because it feels like my home <3

#dnp have been around so long and they aren't super relevant anymore (in the nicest way possible) #so I feel like it's safe #and you all are fucking awesome #I've had my best and worst nights here #like this is the place where i came out #actually no. this is a crazy fun fact #leo danslaw himself was like half the reason I ever realized I was trans (thanks Leo if ur still here) #and simon was probably the other half haha (love u simon!!!!!) #and ioanna has always been such a great friend (I wear that phil merch all the time btw) #and allie of course is amazing and hilarious and I have so many good memories and you give me hope to come out and be queer + happy one day #and theres so many more but I just want you all to know I love you so much and you all are my backbone and my home #and thanks dnp <3 i don't watch you as much anymore but you and your community is amazing #heckin rants #that's where I'm ending tonight probably because I need something good today

[silverselfshippingchaos]

HAPPY PRIDE MONTH

#just woke up so my bad if this is a jumble but HAPPY PRIDE MONTH!!! #i have dozens of hcs for my f/os but. man. i wanna talk about a.qua ajdhqjdhw she's my wife! we're wives! #they're the gayest <3 a.qua just makes me so happy! i've really been coming to terms w my sexuality as of late and have decided that I #really really hate labels. i'm just me and i like who i like and i dont think i owe anyone any further of an explanation #i've never been this into a woman before ajdjqjsh but goodness gracious i love it. my wife!!! my wife!!! #but yeah <3 happy pride month but also happy pride month to ash/a.qua especially #childhood friends to lovers + red/blue gay tropes go brrrr #your f/os love you all so much hehe no matter what! #ash rambles 💚 #i hope everyone has a good time this month and ur so valid actually!!! #but also. i'm sleepy. going back to bed now. gn folks #happy pride! #we're gonna have a gay ass month with our gay ass f/os! woo! #also shout out to all my hcs. bi m.axi. trans d.emyx. i have a bunch and they all make me so happy hehe i'm so in love w my f/os

[alldarkling]

HAPPY TDOV DAY, BY THE WAY! Please do know that even though the concept of gender doesn't apply to such paranatural beings like Antiphisto themself, and Antiphisto will never conform to gender roles, they DO very much support trans folks and will not hesitate to pull cruel tricks and / or murder transph*bes for them... ♡

#OUT . #/// #// #/ #[ THE DEVIL ITSELF SAYS TRANS RIGHTS!!!!! ] #[ we ( the system ) love you all trans friends so much!!! mwah mwah ♡ ] #[ I ( the main host ) have been slowly coming to embrace transmasculinity with myself recently last month ] #[ and I may not be able to express much of my gender identity until a very long time but I am content to see myself as a trans man ] #[ and we wish the best for the trans folks! we're making through the wonders and horrors with ours trans swag and we'll be all okay ♡ ]

[stephantom]

Finally watching Tick Tick Boom and suddenly crying because I somehow kind of forgot that Jonathan Larson died right before the first actual performance of Rent

#so weird that his music all has this theme if running out of time #of* #and life being too short and people dying young #and then he did die young from unexpected unpredictable causes??? wth? #I was really into rent in high school #i was introduced to it by a close friend and it was pet of that friend group #*part not pet #you know? we were a theater kid friend group and I think about #old friends a lot #I think people you’re ambitiously creative together with at a young age is like. a really unique special bond honestly. #also my trans niece/nephew/nibling wanted to watch this movie with me a few months ago and we never got around to it but #now I’m thinking of their perspective of this movie too and idk #feeling some love and sorrow you know #some nostalgia some worry. and just. lots of love you know? #I feel a special bond with them too. and it’s always been there because me and my sister/their mom have always has this intense bond #I’ve always worried for these kids my nieces/etc for their happiness. I’ve always worried about when they’d start to feel anxiety/depression #experience trauma etc. I remember clearly one day thinking this watching them as toddlers watching some kids tv program #fwoo. #now they’ve seen their mother disabled by long covid. had their lives disrupted. been homeschooled for two years. and so much else I’m sure. #also yeah drinking for the first time in several days lol #it’s Friday friday #I learned to be cynical about Rent but really why??? #yeah it’s got flaws but?? #he was one year older than me? lol #fwoo it hits harder than when I was 15 tbh