#and when the light hits just right

[gunstellations]

gentle mornings

#alternatively titled - when your papas have the audacity to cuddle without you #kazurei #buddy daddies #i like to think they didnt really do cuddles much except when rei has a rough night and kazukis warmth and safety is the only thing that #can let him get rid of the anxiety and nightmares #he wouldnt ask for it #it would be kazuki dragging him to bed at first #rei reluctantly but in his weakened will the times hes slept together with miri and kazuki has been the times hes somehow always #managed to go out like a light as soon as his head hits the pillow #even he himself doesnt understand and he doesnt attempt to and he doesnt realise #that its safety and warmth and protection and peace #and thats the only reason he would let himself be dragged to bed #but #eventually when you have had the taste of something so good in the place of chilling nightmares and restless darkness that feels no less #safer than the light #your heart becomes indulgent #and rei will gently and wordlessly ask for an invite to the warmth again #its fulfilling and blissful when the three of them are together #but with just kazukis body enveloping him against the night its a different kind of comfort. even in his sleep he would clutch onto it #thats a tangent right there huh.....anyway. miri would be absolutely betrayed in the morning when she finds them snuggled up #she gets her cuddle time with her papas too then #one big pile of a warm and happy family #yes this is pre relationship yes they would do that yes it is possible #if you got this far thanks i guess jajdjfjs ill hopefully colour this soon but i dont know really so im putting it up here #my art

[canon-toaster]

the chokehold they still have on me

#i absolutely LOVE drawing them in a very vague mystical setting it just hits right #i want to add that (because i love to ramble about the choices i make when i draw) #that the fact that leonard is lit up differently from klein is fully intentional #they’re so disconnected the light doesn’t hit them the same way anymore #lotm #lord of the mysteries #lotm fanart #leonard mitchell #klein moretti #leoklein #my art

[stork-balance]

miraculous ladybug is good as long as you dont watch any of the episodes

#scrolling through a Bunch of smaus in pinterest and realising tjis #fanon (when done right) hits better yknow? #the theories #the fanart #the fanfics #the headcannons #the mlb fandom deserves better man #just give them the show #let them write it???? #im p sure whatll come out will be literal light years better than whatever hot shit canon is #what the fuck even was s5 😭😭 #mlb

[otiksimr]

Queen Glacier

#wof #wings of fire #my art #wof fanart #wof icewing #icewing #Queen Glacier #Glacier #wof Glacier #wof Queen Glacier #I like to think that she has really dark eyes normally #like almost completely black #and yet when the light hits them just right- #boom #crystal eyes #Glacier is kind of like the opposite of Oasis #She cares a lot more about her daughters and subjects than Oasis does #which makes me think that she accepted siding with Blaze not only for the prospect of more land #but also because she pitied her #and sort of became another mother figure to Blaze

[leobashi]

I see your DILF Hen and raise you Chase in that same facial hair. Now that would be peak DILF energy

Winter AU Chase because he’s one of the daddiest dads I’ve got. Nach Hen knows he’s pretty and uses it but Chase just is pure dad and wants to make sure you aren’t pushing yourself too hard

#hehehe #ask #lilyenderborn #chase brody #this is why Stacy and Winter fell in love with him #he ain’t even trying to be pretty #but when hes lookin at you like that #and the light hits him just right #there really ain’t nothin else in the world

[rioblitzle]

i guess im not too involved in the zelda fandom cause seeing a post about rabid totk defenders is wild to me. from my perspective people were singing that game's praises for 2 months total before it fell to the "popular game bad actually" criticism wave and i don't think i've seen anyone say positive things about totk since then lmfao

#maybe it's just twitter's algorithm showing me discourse and criticism to try and spark engagement or whatever #ive experienced the same thing with mario odyssey which sucks cause i DID get into that game well after release but whatever #i think the game has plenty of flaws but is still like. one of the best games on the switch and that's not an insult to the switch #and most of my writing issues are 'well this sucks but also makes reasonable sense within the constraints of the game design' #like the lack of sheikah tech or the repetition with the backstory cutscenes with the sages #ive also never been super interested in trying to piece together the timeline or linked universe fan stuff but that might just be me #i feel like botw/totk is way better when you view it as a retelling of the zelda universe and give up on trying to reason with the timeline #for making a direct botw sequel on the same map w the same formula and still trying to make it fresh they knocked it out of the park imo #at least in regards to gameplay? #i acknowledge that there is a MASSIVE flaw in the non linear gameplay clashing w the linear story cutscenes this time #(... but that one didn't personally affect me since i saw the memories in mostly the right order and the story hit me weirdly hard) #but anyways yeah where are all the mean totk defenders i keep hearing about i thought that game fell out of the public consciousness #all i still see about it is NintendoMarioJimmy47536 on twitter calling it 'mid af' or whatever #and occasional gorgeous paintings of the light dragon on my dash

[da-proti-toku-grem]

how do you know the difference between a huge anxiety attack and a panic attack?

#i think i had a panic attack yesterday but idk...... #god it felt so awful and it went on for like 3 hours #but i also had like a hundred things going on so idk if it was like the accumulation of everything or if it was really a panic attack yk #i was at the fair with my family waiting for my best friend to arrive bc i was going to hang out with her #and yk it's a place full of people and we were standing right next to a huge speaker hearing a man talk #and also each place in the fair has different music playing super loud and you can hear all of them at the same time (+ the flashing lights #all that causes me anxiety every since i was little (even if i didn't know it was anxiety back then) #so i *knew* i was going to have the greatest time and i didn't really want to go there in the first place #but even with that i wasn't really haven't a bad time (yet) #we were just stading there and i was waiting for my friend to call me so we could go somewhere else #she called me to tell me she was coming and right when i hung up the phone i felt a really strong pang on my belly #and idk at first i thought it was period cramps but it was weird bc my period had actually stopped that same morning #also i had taken a painkiller right before going there bc all that i mentioned earlier also gives me migraines so there's that too #so yeah the pangs kept getting stronger and it hurt so fucking bad to the point my legs started trembeling #my vision blured and every sound around me seemed to almost fade away #there wasn't any place i could sit down so i gad to cling to my dad and he had to hold me so i didn't fall to the ground #i think i almost (?) fainted in his arms too #after a while the dizzines went away and my dad went to get me smth to drink and i mostly got my hearing and vision back to normal #all that was like 10 minutes max but then the pangs kept hitting every minute or so for the next 3 hours #we found a place to sit and find smth to eat but i couldn't eat anything without wanting to throw up #my legs wouldn't stop shaking like fucking crazy and i kept going from feeling like i was freezing to sweating from how hot i felt #idk i've had smth like this (w/o the pangs) happen to me before a bunch of times but never That strong and it usually lasted 5-10min max #we ended up having to go home and i had to take some more painkillers and my sleeping pills to be able to calm down a little #i'm pretty sure i fell asleep from exhaustion after everything and i'm still feeling a bit weird after almost 24 hours since it happened #anyways. the thing is idk if all that was caused bc of my anxiety #or if it was smth completely unrelated and i just had such a bad tummy ache that it made me feel bad enough to cause All That yknow #i think it felt pretty much like how i've heard people describe a panic attack but again i'm not sure #yeah......... #maca speaks

[cosmicwhoreo]

Had some more randumb MSPaint doodles of Vezzpa, so i’mma dumb them here...

#Vezzpa #Kirby oc #fan character #Oc #Kirby #KRBAY #kirby of the stars #Kirby anime #kirby right back at ya #Doodles #MSPAINT #Meta Knight #She overworks herself often and that's why she has these things called nap-days where people don't bother her for 24 hours or face wrath #Meta usually has to be the one that initiates when these days happen though because she's too stubborn to admit defeat #She'll be upset and moody until her back hits that mattress and then she's out like a light #I just wanted to draw Vezzpa with wasp wings because why not- #Hoshi no Kaabii

[praisephantom]

My gender? I'm a princess. I'm a biblically accurate angel. I've been a transman since I was 13. I'm a babygirl. I'm written by Tim Burton. I'm a Vivienne Westwood orb necklace. I'm Light Yagami. I'm a lesbian. I'm an ancient god. I'm bisexual. I'm a vegan wool blanket. I'm a Matcha Latte. I'm genderfluid. I'm a heroine. I'm a living doll.

#me.exe #I don't know how else to describe it if I'm honest #So I just use the word genderfluid when someone asks me lol #But like.. This makes sense right. #Another hit post by Tumblr user praisephantom #lgbtq #genderfluidity #genderfluid #tim burton #light yagami #death note #nana #vivienne westwood #gender identity

[laughableillusions]

his EYES GOODNESS GRACIOUS

#BROWN EYED MFS WHEN THE LIGHT HITS THEM JUST RIGHT #srk #ram-jaane #shah rukh khan #90s bollywood

[opens-up-4-nobody]

The way that the sun hits leaves and clouds. I feel like I could watch the colors change forever. If I could slow down for that long.

#i keep forgetting a have a deck now. i can go outside and sit there #im doing that now. sitting in the corner of a deck full of empty chairs. staring up at a big pine tree where the sun is striking it gold #at the top. i like how thr light hits the needles. if the sky was black it would look like its on fire #theres a tree outside my bedroom window too. in the morning. after the sunrises it catches thr light and refelcts the most perfect shade #of green. the kind of green that flutters translucent like youre looking up from the bottom of a pool. the light the light its all about #the sun. everything everything is about the sun. when i start my project I'll be focused on understanding how organisms catch the light bc #its so incredible and complicated it would make my chest swell to bursting if there wasnt an empty bleeding wound in my gut. a #metaphorical wound of course. i dunno. its just difficult bc right now my mood is inflated by hormones. not even that much i think I'm #just at what shoulf be a normal level of happiness so i can be slow for a minute. but just a minute bc i kno it won't last long #sorry i cant shut the fuck up when im like this but i dunno i just feel like i havr to document these ephemeral moments before they're gone #its just difficult when you kno the world is so full of beautiful things but 95% of the time your eyes are too clouded to see it #everyone tells me i work too much but i feel like im just staring off into space being miserable 60% of the time. ive just done so much #damage over the past few years im coming into a new lab as damaged goods. ive got an albatross around my neck in thr form of data i #collected so self destructively that the idea of having anything to do with its publication makes me hate myself. everytime someone tells #me good job on collecting so so so much data it feels like they're congratulating me for breaking something within myself. like i slit my #wrists and bled out on a lab bench and theyre saying good job and theyre excited for me and i have to grin and bear it and pretend im #excited too. but im not bc ive burned everything inside me to ash. so when im elevated enough to be distracted by the clouds and trees it #feels like healing. like seeing angels. beautiful ephemeral beams of light. i wish i could slow down enough to watch them. but now thr sun #is hitting the horizon and the sky is going gradually dark and i should go inside. bc i have many things to do in the morning. so that's #what ill do. and ill try to get more thsn 6hrs of sleep but its hard when your body is vibrating over with energy #but at least i dont feel tired in the morning. something in my head must be on fire #unrelated #hm i should maybe add a tw to this #tw self injury #but its the kind thst makes u good at ur Job. its the kind ppl reward. so they don't understand when u say its destroying ur life #but im trying to get better. i say as i gear up for an insane semester lol but i do mean it

[running-in-the-dark]

and I'm having thoughts again

so I've been watching that John Larroquette interview that I reblogged on repeat for half an hour now and I'm just. man I am so very....... okay I'm trying not to say that I'm stupid anymore but god what else is there to say. it's making me feel like my brain just turns off and all there is is static and [insert very high frequency screaming sound].

like I would love to be able to have actual thoughts about this shit but I am not. I just love love love people who think about shit and face their issues and work on getting better. and talk about it. like it's just a thing that happened. because it is. it's not 'oh you did bad shit in your past so you're fucked forever now'. it's 'bad shit happened, I did bad things, I confronted it, I made different choices' and that's it. I just. man I'm feeling really emotional and am probably gonna have a good long cry about this now.

#one thought that I had when my brain stopped just loudly screaming at me was #oh I totally always think I wouldn't ever end up in a cult. because it's not something that would appeal to me and shit. I'm suspicious of #anything like that. one person claiming to know everything and all that #and it just hit me like. DUDE. you would absolutely 100% end up in a cult if the right guy was leading it #like if he had a cult that I could join right now? oh dude I'd be so in. kinda joking but also like. come on I am so fucking obsessive I #would absolutely fall for that #(and lets not even get into the whole thing of actually getting attention from the person I'd be obsessed with. oh it'd be bad. it'd fuck #me up. I'd be so easy to convince if we're being honest....) #but anyway I just. I don't know #honestly though? I just love studying one person at a time from afar like. hi I would immediately explode if I ever met this man I could not #handle it. but I can absolutely find out everything I can about him and study him like. something that normal people would study idk I'm #insane. #anyway man that was a weird tangent #true tho. #I don't want to make light of actual addictions like alcoholism. I'm not. addicted I guess. but I'm absolutely fucking obsessive about shit #and I absolutely know it cannot be healthy to keep doing this #like dude you have no life because all you do is watch other people live theirs. why am I studying this man's life like it matters. it's not #making anything better. knowing every damn thing he did in the 80s will not make up for the fact that I don't have. anything. #fuck now I'm really crying oh well this really took a weird turn #fuuuuck. #personal

[dying-suffering-french-stalkers]

Plot aside, I'd forgotten just how charming the animation of Lupin Zero is

#disclaimer that i am not an animator nor even an artist but! i love the toothy line style they use for the characters #obviously meant to be reminiscent of analog productions #i love that the frame rate (?) seems to be the same as part 1 if my player's frame-by-frame function is to be believed #i love all the lovingly rendered period details in the backgrounds #(and the jokes! i lost it in january when i realized lupin's mothra (モスラ) poster actually read “tesla” (テスラ)) #i love the expressions and the references to other ’70s animation by the same creators (you can fit SO much f.uture boy conan in here) #i DON'T love the weird light-distortion filter they slapped over the entire show but i respect the vibe they were going for with it #strange lovely hit-or-miss (but hits hard when it counts) little show designed to be a half-forgotten memory #we'll see how i feel about it as a whole now that it's been [checks the wiki] just a few days over a full year but man. i'm glad we have it #lupin zero #lupin iii #edit: oh right i forgot the cringe in e1. though to be fair soon after yoko's song starts it cuts to lupin looking up to/emulating jigen so

[guardian-angle22]

no hot take but those gifs on TK needing to be more teary, holy FUCK HIS EYES ARE SO FUCKING PRETTY I MIGHT DIE

not even like just the expressiveness or the shininess but the colour? I literally can't think of a single person with the same colour

[referencing this post]

I have nothing to contribute to this really, except yep he has fucking pretty eyes. so have some more gifs of them:

#anon answered #hes a basic white boy so i'm sure theres a ton of people out there who have his same eye color lol but doesn't mean they're not pretty AF #also they are at their PEAK when they have light hitting them just right like this scene in smiley face killers #this is not technically tk but... it is lol #ronen rubinstein #(all queued up)

[thcdoomed]

HOW IT STARTED VS. HOW IT'S GOING. -- a history of glowups ( and innocence lost ) .

tagged by : @torntruth

tagging : @seeasunset @nerimoi @waterdepths @vampiheir @betraal @sporedruids and you!

#🏹|| dronia | bg3 verse #m|| memes #does dhampir dronia's eyes have that reflective quality when the light hits them just right? yes. yes they do. #thought i'd bring that idea to rp since i described them that way in a campaign about 5 years ago and the idea really stuck with me.

[not-snowpoff]

“IT’S OKAY HUMAN! YOU HAVE BEEN SO BUSY FACING NEW CHALLENGES AND OVERCOMING DIFFICULTIES. THERE WERE SO MANY OPPORTUNITIES TO GIVE UP OR NOT TRY BUT YOU PERSISTED AND STAYED DETERMINED. LOOK AT WHAT YOU HAVE ACCOMPLISHED! DON’T JUST BRUSH IT UNDER THE RUG, SILLY HUMAN. EVEN THE LITTLE THINGS WERE STEPS TOWARDS BIGGER THINGS AND YOU SOMETIMES EVEN MANAGED TO MAKE GRAND LEAPS FORWARD, IT LOOKED REALLY COOL WHEN YOU DID THAT, NYEH HEH HEH! SO PLEASE, REMEMBER TO ACKNOWLEDGE YOU ARE MAKING PROGRESS. YOU HAVE BEEN SO STRONG IN WAYS THAT MAY NOT SEEM OBVIOUS BUT CAN BE IN THE MOST IMPORTANT WAYS. CAN’T YOU SEE WHAT I SEE? SEE WHY I AM SO PROUD OF YOU?”

Sometimes I get really sad that my spark of creativity has left me again. I know it will come back and it may be in a different form or medium but still, I miss it. Haven’t been able to enjoy Undertale or the fandom like I used to, makes me feel like I’ve abandoned something I cherished so deeply. All of it still holds a special place in my heart, I just can’t access the same passion I used to have. Though, I can’t help but get a little emotional imagining what Papyrus would say if I apologized for being gone for so long and that it still might be a while until I return.

#vent #my art #papyrus #uuuggghhhh listening to undertale music while I write this is just getting me more emotional #dangit papyrus why you gotta help me see myself in a better light dangit #the other day i saw a post about how self shipping was a form of loving yourself and UGGGGH #that hit me right in the heart because… wow… man… i never looked it at that way and i guess yeah… #i want to see myself the way i imagine papyrus would #its like something doesnt allow that when its just me. my self doubt would creep in… drowning out the positive thoughts #then i just shift. i escape into fantasy and imagine a happiness i think is impossible #to be seen and loved and its funny how a shift in perspective can let you imagine that possiblity #the possibility that you are lovable. that you are wonderful. capable. strong. kind. so full of potential. #Others could possibly say this but it just hits home how very important it is that I see these qualities in myself. #That I learn to love myself and acknowledge all the good that there is on my own #anyways… for anyone still reading. Thank you for hearing me out #Remember you are deserving of love. Always. And I hope you can see all the wonderful things about yourself that there is to appreciate