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daikonghost143 · 4 months

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So i got my mom to play omori. Its going to take a veeery long time to finish but I’ll try to reblog and update this post/thread as we move forward every once and a while cause she has some good thoughts about it so far. She unfortunately already know about Mari falling down the stairs from me talking to friends about the game in her general vicinity, but other than that shes going in blind so this should be fun !!

Anyway, so onto her thoughts. We’re at the point where you’re about to go searching for Basil in the Vast Forest and she seems to be enjoying it so far even if we could only play for a few hours. Shes *very* attached to Basil (shes just like me ong /j) and when he went missing she was absolutely horrified. In her own words, “Basil.. very soft soul. He’s- He’s very soft. Uh, he might be gay. I’m not sure, because he’s very sweet and soft spoken and has a flower crown and he, he seems a little gay, I’m very worried for what may happen him if he doesn’t grow a pair.” (She adores him though. When he went missing she grabbed me and was like “oh my god is he okay. If anything happens to him im gonna stop playing i love him so much.” So.. i wish her luck.)

She thinks Aubrey is a little self-centered, very loud, but she likes the confidence and thinks she seems ok. She feels similarly towards Kel, though she seems to like him a lot more. She really just said that he seems very sweet but needs to stop fighting with Aubrey.

She doesn’t really have an opinion on Hero, he’s, “just sorta there. Hes just a normal guy,” in her words. I assured her he gets better, but for now she’s impartial. Mari on the other hand, she’s very concerned for. Aside from her knowing that slight spoiler that she fell, she’s just weirded out that she stays at the picnic all the time, because “after a while that would hurt your butt.” She seems to like her well enough, and thinks she’s sweet but she’s definitely a bit concerned too.

As for Omori, she thinks he seems like a very kind, old soul sort of person but he also scares her a bit because she can tell his story’s going to get very sad eventually.

Overall she seems to like it so far!! Yay !! I’ll reblog with her opinions on story and stuff next time we play :]

#this is such a random idea im so sorry #its so rambly but idk how else to format it aa 😭#anyway this seems like itll be fun so uhh yeah my mom plays omori yippee #omori #kel omori #basil omori #hero omori #aubrey omori #mari omori #omori reaction #omori playthrough

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welcometogrouchland · 1 month

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May I ask about your Jason Todd idea? <3

Hm, okay so. How to lay this out sensitively since I know it might be a tad controversial...

Prefacing by saying I'm not an expert on the minutias of Jason characterization. I like him when he appears, I think the battle for the cowl/Morrison era and some parts of modern era for him are Weird and Bad, but I'm not Jason scholar (for that I'd say maybe check out @/tumblingxelian and their great video essays), I'm just trying to think of what might be an interesting step forward for him.

First, the canon facts

Jason got lobotomized and has panic disorder on steroids. By the end of Gotham War (specifically when Jason was. Flying the batplane into the asteroid. God I can't believe that's the plot) he was finding it in himself to power through said panics

In Joker: The Man Who Stopped Laughing #12, the joker gives Jason a "low dose" of joker venom, which has an ambiguous effect on Jason, allowing him to power through the fear (which joker explicitly states is still very much present, just not physically debilitating, like when Jason couldn't run over in either Catwoman #57 or #58, the one with the kid in the building) even though he'd been able to do that sans venom over in Gotham War, like I previously stated.

The effect of said joker venom seems to be lingering for now, minus the creepy grin side effect it gave Jason over in that man who stopped laughing issue, as seen in the latest batman issue (number is escaping me rn, #147??). He still has the stutter which is a shorthand for fear, he's drawn with fearful expressions by Jorge Jimenez, but he says that he's "working through it" thanks to the chemicals

This is both super interesting and kind of maddening as it doesn't completely remove the consequences of what happened in Gotham War, but is trying to sweep them under the rug and get back to business as usual. I, however, propose making said consequences front and center like a fashionable urn on a mantle piece:

Since it's never stated how exactly the joker venom works, and I think the current answer is "it works how the story needs it to" I've decided that because it's a low dose, it eventually wears off. And when it wears off, Jason's back to square one in terms of mental state. Ergo, if Jason doesn't want to live the rest of his life as quaking shivering husk of his former self...he's going to need more.

(read more for the meat of things)

So, Jason self medicates for a condition given to him by the father he has endlessly complicated feelings towards with a cure invented by a man who represents everything he hates in the world who once tried to take everything from him.

Which, insert poetic cinema gif here, I'm quite proud of myself for that one.

Anyway, there's a lot of directions you could take this. Personally I think it'd be interesting to explore Jason trying to get back into the drug trade like he did in UTRH (FULL TRANSPARENCY I HAVEN'T READ THE FULL COMIC, I KNOW BROADSTROKES BUT IM NOT GONNA TRY AND MAKE PARALLELS) as he tries to use the resources (production plants and other drug runners who can hook him up with samples of joker toxin/similar stuff you can probably find around Gotham) to manufacture his own cure that means never having to go back to the joker again. Maybe he ambushes a joker toxin chemical production plant to get his own supply, and then Jason uses this as his foothold back into that world.

This isn't necessarily me saying we should regress Jason alll the way back to UTRH, that was before his anti-hero era and I'm not willing to fully shoot him back into the past. I just think that's not how you tell good stories in a medium like comics. But it'd inherently be a little different just bc he's doing it for different, slightly more self motivated (depending on your take on villain Jason) reasons and the people around him would have a different reaction to it.

Anyway, all sorts of problems can arise! Depending on how you wanna characterize Jason (wayward son who longs to be back in the fold or black sheep who doesn't play by daddy's rules, etc) he can either a) try and hide this criminal enterprise from his giant family full of nosy detectives (good idea there jay) OR do it out in the open, trying to justify himself but still putting himself on the opposite side of the family again (not the law bc that boy hasn't been on the 'right' side of it since he died)

There's also the fact that Jason now needs to take something 24/7 in order to live his life. He essentially can't be without it, he's dependent on it, in fact he'd get sick without it despite any adverse effects it may have on him (which are guaranteed, I mean. No clinical trials)

I imagine it'd be easy to become addicted to it in some way.

And uh. This is the part where it works slightly better as a fanfic pitch than an actual comic pitch. Because as much as I think it'd be such an interesting beat for Jason's character considering his fraught history with addiction and drugs (looks away from that one urban legends story where he suggests terrorising addicts to get to the suppliers and bruce lectures him. The easiest way to make Mr "we don't sell drugs to children" sympathetic and you beefed it)

I also fully recognise that this is a sensitive topic that DC doesn't have the best track record with (although addicts aren't a monolith and feel a number of ways about addictions portrayals in comics) and that there's probably some pitfalls inherent in the premise, namely bc of Jason's background as an impoverished kid and his grey morality, and how those play into stereotypes of addicts. Addiction is already such a misunderstood and stigmatized condition that I imagine playing with it with an antihero might be enough to turn some people off. Addiction is not a moral failing and I'd hate to write it as a moral failing of Jason akin to his willingness to kill, etc.

But with all that said, I think that stereotypes are primarily harmful because of their shallowness. They inhibit understanding of groups labeled "other" by presenting them in simplistic ways that don't portray richness or complexity. And I think a truly good red hood comic could give both sympathy and complexity to Jason, even as an addict. If anything, Jason is a popular character (mostly) and there could be something nice about seeing a main character go through what you're going through, gritty details and all. YMMV (can we bring that back btw?) and it depends on execution. There's a lot of ways it could go wrong, but seeing as it just lives as a hypothetical rn, I think there's also a lot of ways it could go. I mean, not right, it's a downer story beat for Jason but it's mostly meant to be interesting and a vehicle for more stories as Jason navigates it, ya know?

Anyway, I have a lot of spiels littered in my notes app and discord DMs that elaborate on all this (how this could work as act 1 in a broader Jason story where his little operation goes to shit and he has to hit the road (jack) and maybe do some character development for better or worse. I'm a sucker and wanna say better- not squeaky clean better but. Yknow, finding himself to an extent. I recognise I'm a sap and a fool tho. Or how a new outlaws team could factor into either of those eras (since I do like Jason with an outlaws team. It gives him an excuse to exercise his compelling relationships and dynamics with other characters without having to constantly tip-toe around the elephant in the room whenever he's with the batfamily all the time. He just needs a good lineup) but that's all for another time

... though without elaborating on the vision in my head it kind of just sounds like my pitch is "Jason gets addicted to his hyper-anxiety medication" BUT I SWEAR ITS MORE THAN THAT.

It's like. If Jason has struggled as a character (and this is very subjective on my part so feel free to disagree) because he has compelling relationships with all of the batfamily, but also has compelling grey morality that makes it hard to capitalize on those relationships, without the conflict always coming to "Jason stop killing!" "Nuh uh!" OR just being ignored, and the main way writers have addressed this is via reboots instead of arcs...

Then giving Jason and the bats:

real, legitimate and fresh reason for jay to be mad at Bruce (taking their relationship of love with very little understanding to it's most dramatic conclusion)

give the family a real reason to want to bring him back into the fold (feel bad about the lobotomy and it would be pretty immoral to let Jason waste away slowly and painfully because of something Bruce did)

capitalize on all the ways Jason is sympathetic (bc the addiction is a natural lead into his backstory, which is one of his most sympathetic elements)

And the ways in which he's very out of step with the bats post-resurrection (I'd be mad asf too if i came back to life just for my dad to a) not avenge me and b) LOBOTOMIZE ME meanwhile the cunt ass clown giving me my meds is just lurking out there).

Idk it's not a sophisticated pitch as of this moment but I think a real chef (writer) could cook something w/ this

#ramblings of a lunatic #do i maintag this #uhh #dc #that's enough i don't need to bother ppl with my brain dump #you made the mistake of asking /j #i hope it's not. too out of left field for what you were expecting? if you were expecting anything #this has just been rattling in my brain since i was venting about gotham war to a friend while sick a while ago #idk jasons a hot topic rn he's seemingly controversial atm but i think he's just some guy #he needs a little direction a little tlc like i said. but I've always found him interesting and i think this is at least an idea-#-for how to deal w/ jason post gotham war #tho who knows. with the new Summer Events on the horizon maybe jason will be rebooted again #and I'll go bald all at once like silver age lex luthor #not from chemicals in a lab accident but from stress at my ideas no longer having relevance #it happens more often than you'd think #the ideas thing. not me going bald. that's only sometimes #uhhh anyway hope this absolute behemoth text isn't too much. sorry i can't physically shut up #also ppl who know more about jason amd would like to say things (CONSTRUCTIVELY) on this post feel free!#(i say constructively because. I'm sensitive. mean comments make me cry)

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lockandkeyhyena · 8 months

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you've said a few times Titan is pretty homophobic, and I'm curious how she feels about Ruth.

did her opinion change any over the years since Goliath died?

what would she do if Ruth ever said she loved her?

how's she feel abt trans people

some of her bigotry is directed inwards and manifests more as self-hatred. she herself isn’t heterosexual and has a lot of complicated feelings about that, especially after goliath’s affair. i make jokes, but ruth is very openly a proud lesbian and doesn’t tolerate off-handed comments from titan (she’s probably one of the reasons hercules doesn’t hate himself more).

her queerphobia expresses itself outwardly as ignorant rather than hateful, and its something she doesn’t really consider until ruth points out her shitty behaviour. ruth is very lenient on a lot of things she probably shouldn’t be and cuts titan more slack than she deserves but she doesn’t stand for titan’s homophobia, especially around kids.

alot of her attitudes towards gay and trans people fluctuate and change alot along with the story so it would really depend on where in the timeline you put her.

tldr; its complicated.

#uhh ill tag jic #homophobia #yeen rambles #ask #sadboycats #titan beetle #i know its cliched to depict lgbt characters as being homophobic but its just an infinitely more interesting story to me than #faceless bigots #and i feel like we need more stories exploring that aspect from actually queer authors rather than straight people uncomfortable with the #thought that other straight people are homophobic #anyway. my point is i want to tell stories about genuinely awful people trying and failing and trying again to better themselves #and its been helping me work through my own shit lol #ALWAYS happy to talk about my ocs tho!! sorry this is heavier #many of the cats arent good people #if you have follow up questions please ask them! i know i didnt answer them all

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bonetrousledbones · 1 year

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the way that i make ocs is that i make completely different characters and then my brain says “what if: Girl” and im powerless to stop it

#trousled rambles #uhh anyway remember that functionally immortal pap i was talking about? yeah shes a mean lesbian with a vampire cowboy gf now. sorry #yeah i need to make a whole new oc world for them now bc they dont fit in the one i already have its actually pretty inconvenient #fgh delete later probably i just needed to share #i might still try to develop the papyrus au but. well you know how it is with brainworms

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noxious-fennec · 1 year

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PLEASEEEE tell me about the symbolism in your drawing Oh i am dying to know

HII why thank you for asking!! I'll try my best to answer concisely but Tl;dr I'm not normal about either cwilbur or flower symbolism :) it also must be noted that a lot of my decisions are entirely based on my personal cultural experience so I hope if anything you find it interesting.

For an overview, The peice is inspired by art nouveau, namely alphonse mucha and henri privat livemont, and is mostly based on this hamlet production poster by the former. The composition however is not based on said illustration, and is slightly inspired in part by stained glass and fences of the movement. The clothing cwilbur is wearing is from the edwardian period, if I've got my references correct it's earlier in the period, though not any year in particular. It differs drastically in the fact that the colors are very vibrant (I can't help putting cwil in shades of red, ho16 permanently changed my brain chemistry), and that the Cape part of the inverness cape is entirely too short. Otherwise I've attempted to keep the general silhouette accurate.

Now the plant symbolism:

First: Arabian jasmine (which fun fact are not actually the same as the 4 petal vine yasmine, has a different name, Full (فل), and they grow on shrubs) and the Damascus rose go together because of two reasons: 1) i didn't know other flowers to put there and 2) they're very closely tied in my brain. If you try to find their symbolism you'll find a lot of things about beauty and purity, as is common with any white flower or rose, but my reasoning differs. Without going into too much detail, I intended for them to symbolise community and belonging.

Daffodils (the ones depicted are the ones most common in my region, they may not resemble the expectations but they are indeed daffodils) mean death rebirth and hope, its a flower i generally associate with cwil. Same meaning goes for the white lilies. And poppies have a heavy association with war and generally symbolise remeberance and hope for peace, and thus, l'manberg association.

The next five are flowers that represnt certain characters strictly based on cwilbur's preception of them, but they can be applied to others as well, i just thought these were most important:

Freesia: especially when yellow, usually means thoughtfulness, trust and friendship. represents cranboo.

Orange/tiger lilly: pride, hatred, status, tenacity. Cquackity

Lilly of the valley: cmon we all know this one, ctommy

Boat orchid: virtue and morality, a gesture of respect and friendship. Ctubbo

Gladiolus: diminutive of gladius(sword); strength of character, moral integrity and rememberance. ctechno

pomegranate tree and fruit: pomegranates have a very different connotation in Western media, from what I can glean, as opposed to what I'm used to them being perceived as (I won't derail this but I can elaborate if needed). In short, I've chosen to take advantage of this double meaning and so its here to represent life death and resurrection while the tree is for family and home.

On a side note, I was originally going to do night blooming jasmine (مسك الليل) but it wasn't working, the symbolism of it however still stand: its a flower many love and think smells amazing, but rarely do they actually want the burden of having it in their own yards because of how deathly strong it smells. I was intending on using it to symbolise the complicated nature of cwilbur's relationship with the important people in his life.

And finally, the olive tree: aside from its meanings of peace and friendship, olive trees also mean olive oil which is a product with many healing properties that is not too easy to make and requires a lot of work. i chose it to mean healing and the process thereof.

So yeah that's it, hope it's up to expectation and thanks for the interest means a lot to me <33

#sorry for the late answer my sleep schedule is not doing great #but i hope you enjoyed this little explanation i hope i conveyed my ideas well #there's a solid month's worth of wracking my brain trying to come up with something good here so yk it's very over the place #i didnt give certain characters like fundy or phil their own flower because i felt the symbolism of family was enough #considering how many flowers here are just like family associated for me #oh and the sword so yk i think it's fair #if you think i neglected an important character uhh give them the closest flower in here #no villains cus it was an appreciation peice alright #also sorry to others that asked i figured it'd be too redundant to explain it to each individually #you should know ive put none of my thought process here which took far too long. also didnt mention the 4 peice orignal concept #i gave up on that one but i still have a lot of drafts and poetry i chose to go along with it. thats where the line of poetry is from #anyway i ramble to much peace and love if you read this whole thing i am giving you a kiss #secret message to meow meowjoy you're like my favourite cwilbur artist im very honored <333 #fennec. art #fennec .ask

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blujayonthewing · 1 year

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Most spiders are cool with me but wolf spiders freak me the hell out. Rescued one from my dad's pool years ago and the second I set it down on the ground all of its babies (which I DID NOT KNOW ABOUT) scattered. I know in theory they are harmless friends but in practice their presence makes me so uncomfortable. I still don't kill them though.

that's fair! the babies thing IS kind of alarming to see, especially if you're not ready for it ^^;; if it helps, spiderlings only stay with their mother for a couple of weeks and, during that time, only leave her if disturbed, so it's reasonably unlikely that any given individual will explode babies (I've only ever seen mother wolfs carrying babies a couple of times, myself). many wolf spiders also closely resemble members of several other families of spider, so it's also fairly likely that any given wolf spider is actually a male grass spider looking for a girlfriend! I know that doesn't necessarily tip the balance on a gut discomfort, though ^^;

wolf spiders are also completely unique in this kind of parental care, and extremely rare among spiders for doing any parental care at all! another family of spiders known for protecting and providing for their young after they're born are literally named for the behavior (the nursery-web spiders: they build a shelter for their young to live in, and watch over them until they disperse). both families are active hunters (they don't build webs) and also carry their eggs with them; wolf spiders drag the eggsac behind attached to the spinnerets, and nursery web spiders carry them SUPER awkwardly under their bellies for some reason?? the families are very visually similar (the most reliable way to tell them apart is by how their eyes are arranged) but some nursery spiders get FUCKIN, COLOSSAL, so if you've ever seen a wolf spider the size of a goddamn dinner plate it was probably actually a nursery web or fishing spider, lmao. ...this is all completely unrelated to your ask, btw, I'm just on a stream of consciousness spider tangent now cause I think they're neat 👉👈

#antique-symbolism-main #[grabbing myself by the throat to stop from Going On about fishing spiders in particular cause I love them so much]#I've only ever seen wolf babies scatter like that in videos online and like. man. I LIKE spiders but it IS pretty horrible to look at fgkjh #babies clinging onto mother is also imho pretty uncomfortable to look at (turns out I DO have a Too Many Legs creepiness threshold)#ALSO wolf spiders' eyes are reflective so shining a flashlight on a mama with babies is ALSO uhh a hell of a thing sdkjhfdk #ALL OF THAT BEING SAID!! it's super normal to be uncomfortable about ANY spiders! I know I'm an outlier to say the least haha #I don't expect people to like them! tbh I don't even expect people who are really scared of them not to kill them #but it is a little disappointing when getting rid of them another way is an option that people REFUSE to even entertain #like-- they're not pests in an actually harmful sense-- if they CAN be removed gently there's no downside to doing so :\#uh but people who go out of their way to smash a spider when you already said 'don't kill it! I'll get it :)' are just dickheads :)#ANYWAY HEY SORRY I RAMBLED ABOUT SPIDERS SO MUCH!! TL;DR YOU'RE COMPLETELY VALID AND I LOVE YOU #and like-- if you're cool about most spiders you're already way cooler about spiders in general than a lot of people #and I'm blowing kisses at you for it #about me #spider #spiders

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biggiedraws · 3 months

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FINALLY finished ultra despair girls. rambles and ending spoilers ahead

i almost rage quit during the final boss fight because the combat mechanics were at their absolute worst (which is saying something because i found the combat incredibly frustrating front to back). but narratively the ending was. fine i guess. i think sdr2 did the whole "i reject your dichotomy" thing better and the way monacas plan got thwarted was kinda. dumb. i liked the fukawa/komaru development though! having monaca back komaru into a corner and then fukawa saves her, which monaca didnt account for, was good! but the whole. giant monokuma comes out of nowhere and tears the building down. defeat it and then you win!!!! really ruined the whole scene i think.

honestly komaru and fukawas friendship arc was the best part of the game. (also every komaeda appearance but thats just because im insane.) like the fight in the middle was SO yuri. especially when genocide jack held the knife up to komarus throat and she didnt even flinch??? obsessed. honestly fukawa kinda gets on my nerves as a character and that didnt really change, but it was cute that she finally made a friend. i liked it. the scene where fukawa finally got komarus name right was nice, and i like that she never once messes it up after that. and the way komaru tries to call her toko-chan once they become friends and fukawa really cant handle it so she goes back to fukawa-san, but then she calls her toko-chan in the after credits scene....... really good. theres more than that but just..... their relationship is a little unconventional but still really sweet and i like it. i think its good as the central relationship of the game. and also i think they should kiss

and. im sure ive complained about this before but im complaining about it again. absolutely BAFFLED at the decision to make the main villains abused children. genuinely what the fuck is that. its not that it COULDNT work but its not handled well at all..... like. yes they were manipulated by monaca, who was manipulated by junko. yes they werent REALLY the bad guys because komaru was being manipulated into siding with the adults for monacas grand plan (although by the end it was more like. both sides are wrong. so they /were/ still bad guys, just not the only bad guys). i dont CARE. the whole "woahhhh monaca was faking her disability for attention!!! because shes evil!!!!" twist??? awful. im not opposed to the concept of a character faking their disability for manipulative reasons but i resent the constant framing around these kids being "the bad stuff you went through doesnt excuse your actions". to be clear - im not saying that because you were abused as a child means its okay to kill all adults ever. but i am saying that kids acting out after being abused by their fucking parents is extremely reasonable, and the narrative is intentionally exaggerating this type of behavior in order to punish it. and im TIRED OF IT. monaca faking her disability for attention is literally explicitly because she felt like an outsider in her own family. yes it was manipulative. yes you shouldnt fake having a disability. but children whose needs arent being met will do whatever it takes to make sure those needs are met. and this is framed as Evil Villain Behavior and i am NOT HAVING IT. humanize the motherfucking abuse victims or die by my sword

anyway. overall. i got through it so it clearly couldnt have been too bad. i think im making it sound worse than it was - it does have its charms. but. i didnt really find the characters, plot OR gameplay that enjoyable. it has its moments but overall i didnt really have fun. so. not really a good game for me. but now its done and i can move on to the rest of the series!! yippee!!!

#anyway tune in tomorrow when i binge danganronpa 3 LMAO #also sorry if this is kind of a mess. its 3am. i finished the game an hour ago. youre getting my initial thoughts with minimal proofreading #danganronpa #uhh. should i put this in like. all the tags for this game? its kinda just word vomit #ehh fuck it. woe rambles be upon ye #ultra despair girls #dr udg #danganronpa udg

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jalo-parker · 5 months

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Dont mind me juat going to shyly follow a few ghost fanartists 😁😁😁😁

I need to stop rambling in the tags I keep hitting the limit (i will not stop doing that actually)

#parker rambles #hii hello #the band ghost #ghost band #ghost bc #whats the blr name for you guys #i saw it a few mins ago and immediately forgor what it was #anyway #hello ghost fandom #😁😁😁😁#deranged little guy here #i do a lot of lurking if im even on tumblr at all #ive been coming on here more lately #i need more content of the ghouls #chewing on them all #uhh sorry people who follow me for minecrafters..#ill still post about them i promise #my dash is mostly Minecraft anyway #i just need to get the ghost stuff out of my system #probably in the form of drawing them a normal amount #<- he means a very not normal amount #<- he is deranged as mentioned above #please please olease oleaee #someone ask me for my sodo or rain designs...#or phantom !!!#ive only designed them so far #(except my ghoulsona)#i can picture them all in my head..#but i cant get it on paper (or digital canvas in my case)#need someone to ask for them though im too scared to post them by myself

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hyperfixation-tangentopia · 11 months

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*grabby hands* Favorite oc rant?

Okay, I'm mildly embarrassed to admit I've had this sitting in my inbox for like 4 days, and I spent most of my time working on one of the OCs while trying to decide which one I wanted to talk about.

...the OC I was working on did not end up being the one I'm talking about lol.

We're talking about mystic monkeys today because that's what I've been invited to do! Whoo!

So, because I could not find basically ANY reference of personality or ANYTHING for the other two celestial primates, I'm basically working ground-up off my weird interpretations of the vague little synopsis I've found of each.

So...Tongbi is a bookworm. Period. He's a little weirdo. Nobody knows what his deal is because he vetoes any sort of social session to bury himself in whatever book or page Chikao stole got for him that day/week or, if it's at nighttime, sit and stare at the stars. And I mean stare. I mean nobody knows wtf to do with him because monkeys usually move around a lot and he will stare, just flipping his tail between his hands, at the stars for hours. He hoards anything space-related, particularly books and models, and will re-read the same books seven times over in a row for no reason other than he just likes it.

Sometimes he'll get so invested he won't come out all day, in which case Chikao will go inside and force him to see sunlight, eat, and let her groom him, usually in exchange for the promise to listen to him ramble about whatever he's reading about that day. She only really retains 30%, but she still knows more about space than she ever cared to because it's the only way to get Tongbi to let her groom him sometimes (because he won't groom himself). He does get dragged along on Chikao's shenanigans and usually just kinda quietly vibes while Chikao does her thing, but does help her out sometimes if she asks for it. He thinks it's kinda fun to watch her create chaos.

There have been times where the two have stayed up way too late rambling back and forth to each other, and Tongbi will sit there and point out stars. Occasionally they attract other people during this and they'll stay up all night watching stars even though Chikao doesn't understand any of it, or sometimes Chikao will get distracted halfway through their rambles and the two will "haunt" a location for the fun of it.

The other monkeys have basically just agreed Tongbi is a weirdo and Tongbi either doesn't realize or doesn't care, so Chikao just adopted him, essentially.

Anyway that's my ramble. Most of the Tongbi-Chikao relationship was on Tongbi's side of the relationship because I was rambling about him, there's more it's just more Chikao-centric and I was enjoying rambling about Tongbi. I love him. Ty.

#I don't know how to tag this #I guess?#I think?#also he technically goes by he/they but never actually told anybody that and prefers he anyway #I like to think Chikao found out because she took him to some sort of event and he liked one of the pronoun pins and got one #and Chikao was like 'how long have you been going by that??'#and he was like 'uhh forever?'#and she was like 'I've known you for like 200 years how did I only just now know'#sorry if my writing and grammar and stuff is off btw my filter loosens when I get excited and LMK makes me very excited #I'm very bad at grammar and stuff I swear I learned this stuff I'm just bad at it lol #anyway ty for reading my ramble if I'm asked for more it probably will not take me 4 days to get to this time l #lol*#Tealstars

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thermodynamic-comedian · 1 year

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hey im not one for heavy angst or posting fanfic prompts on tumblr but i just had a really good idea (i think? i hope?) that i might write later

what if nihil had had a prophetic vision of the future when imperator gave him the white eye?....what if he saw what would happen to his children, even before he knew he would ever have any? like i'm just saying. the absolute tragic potential of this clueless 20-something mess being so hopelessly in love with someone, getting pulled into something he can't possibly comprehend, only to be suddenly assaulted by images of dead bodies and the knowledge that it's all, to some degree, his fault. and there's nothing he can do about it, because the story has already been written. all he can do is follow the path.

and, now, because i'm physically incapable of hurt no comfort....what if i turned this concept into an au where nihil ends up somehow preventing copia's death just because "we're not doing this shit again, he gets to stay."?

#sorry.#anyways uhh reblog if u'd actually be interested in a fic like this lol-#the band ghost #ghost bc #cardinal copia #papa nihil #ghost band #ghost the band #sister imperator #fanfic prompt #fanfic concept #fritz rambles too much

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detective4blog · 2 years

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I think spending exactly one day in the backrooms wouldn't do anything to fix me but it'd be fun

#the backrooms #um #rayx tries to meme #i always found comfort in liminal space #so the backrooms is very <33 to me?#like some of the floors are fuCKKKin terrifying and I Would Die #but there's some cool floors too #i said floors and i meant levels fuck #anyway #my friend and i went on a huge backrooms lore kick a while back #it was when duckinnn kane pixels had released the second video i think?#anyway we watched lore about every single level and entities #it was fucking insane #then i showed them the walten files and that was a goddamn experience for them #a good one!! we talked about it a lot after #also this friend also was fhe one who hsd me listen to Everywhere At The End Of Time and.#i cried during the uhh. fuck. third stage? the music made me think of old memories of my great grandpap :(#anyway sorry for rambling in the tags i needed to spew information

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astrxealis · 1 year

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good morning ^___^

#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚#i'll work on my homework for the coming week raghh only a bit left and then the next week after this next one #is the second to the last week but also most tasks are due then so hip hip hooray but also noooo #anyway my point is i'm stressed at the idea of more homework ... most of them are group projects so i'm kinda chill though #mostly just worried about doing my parts so i get good scores in yk. peer evals and shit. uhh and the indiv ones ew #i have time to work on that one the whole of next week but i'll try to finish the other three by this weekend #and then during the week wnvr i get new tasks i'll do them asap #but fuck projects lol i hate getting more homework come on #anyway i'll also try not to be harsh on myself for just getting a simple One mistake ..... this is a big problem with me it really sucks #but yeah that's it. sorry for rambling about me with school AKSBJDBAJD ANYWAY i dmed a bit w a good friend yesterday and #THEY ARE BACK INTO GBF AND FE3H LET'S FUCKING GOOO what a coincidence those are my favs at the very moment #+ xv hehe. anyway. YEAH like. so yeah. and then bestie but the wifi stopped working at night so i left her NOOO then played xv tho so ok #okay that's all i'm tired of typing HIII HAVE A GOOD DAY NOON EVE EVERYONE !!#don't forget you're important. for a lot of reasons but if you need one atm then it's you're important to me AYEEE <3 but fr yes #and then... take care of yourself! even if it's hard just the little things help and then you feel really good afterwards :] 💗✨ you got this

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space-ninja-fashion-show · 1 year

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@boogdleyboo

(I'm making this a new post so that I don't keep stacking on the other one)

Behold! Excuse the use of overframe, I can't get on the actual game itself today for a better screenshot

This is technically a half-baked build, but it is also one of the only two weapons I ever got asked for my build on in an actual mission, so, y'know, there's that for something

Two forma, but you'll need a third if you max the 10-pip mods

Forget status, the alt fire already guarantees two procs and has a 50% chance at a third, you don't need to cram on any more than that. Scattering Inferno is literally just here bc it fits, I'll put on something better when I forma again (probably Primed Charged Shell just to stack on more damage)

Hunter Munitions is a boring choice but hey, it gives you a pretty solid chance of getting another proc on just primary fire, so it works out well enough for me

Critical Deceleration and Shotgun Barrage even out pretty well here, but any more fire rate and it starts chewing on my quality of life with the recoil. Sorry wisps

This is entirely mods I own, so I can't give you proper info from experience on anything beyond that, but!

Exilus: I cba to forma just for this but if you really wanna squeeze something in there, you can never go wrong with projectile speed on a relatively accurate shotgun such as this. Or you could go for reducing recoil, esp if you're using a frame that boosts fire rate

Galvanized Hell: Very Yes. More bullets = more pain. Swaps onto this specific build without formaing needed

Galvanized Savvy: meh. According to the scientific minded grapevine of a server I'm in and also just my own brain, this one is just stacking onto the innate gimmick of the gun with diminishing returns and overall not so great stats (you don't need the status chance boost, and the damage boost only stacks x2 for a total of 80%)

Arcane: probably Merciless bc that's the only one anyone ever uses, but I personally wanna give Frostbite a spin someday when I get there, since the alt fire pumps out cold procs like no tomorrow. And I need some variety in my life

Highest I've used this build has been lvl110-115 Zariman bounties where it still deals with regular enemies no problem (but the angels make fun of it so, y'know, maybe bring something more appropriate for the damage attenuation), so I can't attest to how it holds up on Steel Path or in endurance

#aaaaaa sorry im rambly i am v excited about being Asked About Things #kata's chatter #warframe #builds #my stuff #honorary mention for exilus is vigilante supplies but thats so barrel scraping for me i didnt wanna detour into it #imo the crit boost is not worth the extra forma #and the only time i ever ran into ammo issues with this gun was when i went up against a lvl100+ angel with it #which was uhh. bad life decisions right there #but also. flails vaguely in lavos. ammo issues who #ANYWAY love this big bastard of a gun it makes fun noises #but maybe consider leaving the energy colour on it blank or your eyes might die

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nikatyler · 2 years

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More mental health and university ramblings because I thought it would be over finally, but it’s not. And maybe I kinda wanna get your opinion on this because I really don’t know what to do. Not opinion as in “please stranger on the internet make the decision for me” but maybe...if you’ve gone through something similar, how did you solve it or something like that.

So yesterday I kind of made the decision that *yes* I will stop studying. We can do a thing where we can request to put it on pause and then we can come back some time later to finish it. I’m not sure how that works, what are the requirements exactly or if there’s even a chance they’d allow it for me, I thought I’d look into it later today. If I can’t do it, fine, I’ll simply drop out and if I change my mind in the future when my mental state is better, I will apply again, for whatever program. A lot of times, if you show that you’ve already passed some classes before (for example, in my case, if I show that I’ve passed history classes spanning from ancient Greece to like general history up until WW1, etc.), they can approve it and you won’t have to do those classes again (so, in case of my history classes, they’d probably just want me to retake the class on 20th century, because I never took a university exam on that - I still might but that’s off topic). There’s some time period for that, obviously if I came back to university in 20 years and was like hey so in 2020 I took this theory of literature class, no one would care and I’d have to retake it, but assuming I’d return by, let’s say, 2025 (phew that year sounds like sci-fi), I believe there wouldn’t be too many problems with that. Or, maybe I’ll leave, go to work and realize, you know what, I don’t need university, I don’t care about a degree anymore, and I’ll just be better off doing whatever I can do with my librarian high school. (yes I was already preparing to be a librarian while I was in high school, that’s a thing here with maaaaany jobs, no I won’t be getting into how our school system works - but I’m sure that it’s similar in many countries, I’m just going with how whenever I watch something American or British it kinda seems like you’re studying more or less everything in high school and make the choice later -- anyway that’s off topic, ignore this part completely)

Well, today I went to my therapist again and we were talking about it and...basically, if you look at it rationally, there’s no reason for me to fail. I always prepare a lot, all the exams went well, it’s likely the big graduation ones will go well too. Same with the stupid thesis. Yes I was afraid of every paper I was writing, but they went well, this could go well too. So basically, she said it’s all in my head and I should work with it and work on my confidence and whatnot and just try it. And like...yes. I know. I can see that the chances of me finishing uni, just based on how well I did at my exams, based on how well I did at school in general, are high. I know that I worry too much before every exam and then it goes well. I know it’s all in my head.

But at the moment, I just don’t feel like I have the power to change my mindset. I’m tired. I’m so tired. Just thinking of all that I will still have to do in order to finish university almost sends me into a panic attack. Even if I write it down and try to make a plan of how I’ll go about it, when I will do things, it’s just A Lot. Hell, I’m even starting to feel a lot of disgust and dislike towards the topic I chose for my thesis, just because I *have* to do it now and I just don’t have it in me right now.

I feel like I’d be better off just leaving it be, changing my environment completely, seeing what happens and figuring it out when things get better - because right now, I feel stuck and I hate everything and there’s barely anything to look forward to in my current situation. You know, I actually wish I could find a job already - even if it’s just putting stuff on the shelves in the supermarket; it might be boring and repetitive and not fullfilling at all but I can stick to repetitive tasks for a long time before I get really bored. But hey, my mum was like, you should try and send your CV to some libraries too, maybe they will consider you even if they’re not officially hiring at the moment (I’m not sure how to put it to words in English, just trust me that it makes sense). Maybe I’ll get my dream job and I won’t look back. Or, I’ll get my dream job, I’ll be happy and then I’ll have the energy to finish what I started. And then who knows.

I don’t know where I’m going with this anymore, TL;DR I guess: I don’t have the energy to finish university, I have a plan on what to do instead, but my therapist says I should just power through and finish university now because rationally, I’m smart enough to finish university, it’s just that I really don’t have the energy for that now and so I don’t know what to do. Should I try to finish it now and risk I’ll hate everything even more. Or should I just leave it now and come back later with a clear head (and hopefully meds strong enough to not let me dip this deep again lol). Dunno.

On a completely unrelated note, please don’t forget to wear sunscreen these days, I got burnt on Sunday, it’s still very red and it’s uneven and it fucking hurts and I wasn’t even outside for that long lol.

#sorry it's all over the place. have a cookie if you finished reading it #anyway uhh delete later i guess #nika rambles #mental health tw

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