#away knowing he doesnt deserve anything from her because she was hurting and he could only make it worse. and maybe he cried a bit over her

[dirt-str1der]

How do you think majima hit his ex wife ? Do you think he did it like kiryu slapped haruka , he whapped his hand over her cheek like a reflex, without even thinking. Do you think he revved up for a backhand during an argument, or maybe he grabbed her by the shoulders and straight up threw her to the ground while she was at her most vulnerable and then he walked out the door and never looked back

#Yakuza loveblog #we dont give majima enough shit for hitting mirei but she seems so wistful when she was talking aboht it #mirei is .. shes like haruka but not because when something terrible happens to haruka she files that emotion away and keeps trucking on wit #her angellic smile but when mireis going through a lot she shuts down and she gets that blank expression a lot more like majima does .. #maybe he got that from her ?? i think she got the abortion and went home to tell majima about it. all the while that blank look plastered on #her face and she tells him that she was pregnant and before he could have any resction to that news she tells him she got rid of it #and majima is shocked he looks at her face and he gets mad it looks like she doesnt give a shit. she didnt even tell him she didnt even #trust him and he shoves her to the floor he’d yelled at her for a reason he cant even remember now and she looks at him without any emotion #and he figures it out. that she was right not to trust him because hes like This. and she doesnt love him because hes like this so he walks #away knowing he doesnt deserve anything from her because she was hurting and he could only make it worse. and maybe he cried a bit over her #had a few angry tears at some bar but she never shed a tear over him because thats just not who she is #she recounts the story to haruka with a blank expression and a slow #calm voice that betrays no emotion ... she really loved majima that much was obvious .. neither of them had been really ready for a #relationship but i believed they did love each other they just didnt know how to deal with two things at once

[yippeerrrs]

"Sharing? Oh please."

Part 3. <- You are here

Part 2.

Part 1.

You had just gotten into a short coma, no one knew when you would wake up, hell- no one even knew if you would live.. but two soldiers waited patiently. Giving you gifts daily, visiting you daily and even sleeping in your hospital room, ghost and könig had made a truce and decided to pay off your hospital bills together.

Ghost was your childhood friend, someone you could trust, someone who cares for you, who would do ANYTHING for you. König is your ex boyfriend, you chose him because you really liked his accent, his cute homemade gifts for you, everything he did, he did for you, for your wellbeing, for your good. But he messed up, he messed up bad when you caught him cheating, sure it might have only been a one time thing but it still hurt didn't it? And the fact he was sober too.. all while you were pregnant. But now thats not a worry..

A year had passed by, the doctors had to take away your now dead baby from your stomach, she didn't survive the crash. König felt guilty, he thought it was his fault. But it is his fault.. if only he hadn't been cheating-- your thoughts pause, you felt your body getting warmer, you finally regained consciousness again.

--

You wake up, fluttering your heavy eyelids open to see simon on the couch beside you, he looked peaceful. You couldn't help but smile.

"si..?"

You mumble, your mouth was dry and your voice was barely comprehensable but he heard and immediately got up.

"Love?"

His eyes widen at the sight of you smiling, his heart feeling warmth after so long. He rushed over and pulled you in for a hug, tears in his eyes threatening to fall.

"You're awake! Oh my god.. i missed you so much"

You chuckle, hugging him back, ignoring the pain everywhere in your body. You smile at him, pulling away from said hug.

"where's.. where's könig?"

You ask, hope in your voice vanishing when ghost opened his mouth. He felt his heart clench, his tears falling down. Even after all of that.. you're still looking for him..?

"he's busy, but i'm here.. please! I can treat you better"

You cant help but chuckle at him awkwardly, tilting your head in confusion.

"You like me? I thought you only ever saw me as a friend"

His heart throbbed at those words. 'Friend' friend?! Would a friend wait for years just to be with you?

He hugged you again, tears falling. You hug him back, knowing it's not often he'd be willing to hug someone.

"Please.. give me a chance love, i can treat you better! You deserve better"

Ghost begs, pulling away from the hug and kneeling down, looking up wt you with pleading eyes, this gets you off guard and you look dumbfounded at the sight. The door opens to reveal a chuckling könig at the other side.

"Ghost? I thought you were better than that"

He chuckled, ghost getting up and rolling his eyes, standing in front of your bed in a defensive stance, clearly irritated.

"Look who's talking."

He barked, könig getting hurt but doesnt show ot, he walks over to you and places his hand on your cheek, caressing your face gently, he smiled at you so lovingly before placing a kiss on your forehead, the feeling of his masked lips giving you butterflies.

"König.. i told you we were over didnt i?"

You hiss, pushing him away. Ghost smirks, finding the whole situation amusing. König lets go of you, sitting down and sighing, trying to keep his emotions in check as to not cry.

"You heard what the lady said"

"Shatz, please.. i'll do better this ti-"

"Shut up. You cheated on me."

"4 years of dating and you still cheated? Shame on you könig"

König scoffs, turning to ghost and glaring at him angrily.

"I, however, could treat her better."

He whispers, playing with your hair gently, his gloved hands feeling soft and comforting, you felt butterflies and you blush.

"As if. You don't deserve her."

Konig says in a rude tone, holding your hand lovingly. The two men making you a blushing mess and you're screaming in your head.

"guys please- i'm tire-"

"Do you want a snack?"

"I can order you McDonald's if you want"

"I'll buy you anything you want, sweetheart"

"I can go get some water for you"

They cut eachother off, competing for your love. You cant help but blush, turning away and regaining your cool before responding.

"Water and food sounds great"

They give you a smile, both of them walking away to get what you need.

--

The moment they got outside of the room, könig turns to ghost.

"I think she still likes me"

"She blushed at me earlier"

They turn towards eachother

"..you saw her blush at us earlier right?"

"Let's keep this up for a bit, i think she's into us both"

Simon turns to könig with an irritated expression, crossing his arms.

"I'm not sharing."

"Well, neither am i"

"Guess she's going to have to pick then."

--

YEAHHH PART 4 IS OTW YALL <3

there might be smut in the next part..

#konig headcanons #konig x reader #konig x y/n #konig x you #könig #könig mw2 #könig my beloved #idk anymore #könig x reader #bullshitting #ghost mw2 #ghost #ghost headcanons #simon ghost riley #ghostxreader #ghost x reader #konig imagine #konig x reader x ghost #simon ghost x reader #reader x ghost x könig #ghost call of duty #cod mw fanfiction #cod mw x reader #cod fanfic #cod mw2 fanfic #simon riley imagine #simon riley x reader #light angst #könig x y/n #colonel könig

[deathmetalunicorn1]

Hey hey hey! Im so glad that you're back I was wondering if you happen to know the anime welcome to demon school iruma kun! Very sweet and fluffy and some angst highly recommend ( and I really hope you know it because the fandom is small and I want to make request from you at another time)

And I have a request! Can we get cupcake valkerye reader? She is consider to be the youngest of the sisters ( but and adult) and is the most kindest but she's a bit of an air head and cant really tell the difference between the gods and humans.

The only thing she knows is to slap as hard as she possiblely can and run away screaming pervert at anyone who asks her to marry her.

She quickly runs to papa adam and tells him shile hiding behind mama eve scared of marrying some one she doesnt know.

Zeus and odin try to convince her to give one of their sons a chance but she can only cry saying that they were scary and running away again to her mama and papa

Hello, my darling, I unfortunately don’t know Welcome to Demon School, other than what the main character looks like so I won’t be able to write that one, but the cupcake one is no problem!

-You were the youngest of the Valkyries, not necessarily by age, as you were an adult, but you were the newest warrior to become a Valkyrie, so by default, you were the youngest Valkyrie.

-You were a complete and utter cupcake mixed with rainbows and sunshine- it was impossible for anyone to hate you or even be mean to you and if they did that was an invitation for an immediate ass beating by those who loved and cared about you.

-Many knew of you and knew of your beauty- you were one of the most highly sought after females in Valhalla and so many wanted to marry you and have you for your own.

-However, they also knew what an airhead you were- you had no idea who was a god and who was a human, being nice to anyone you came across, which many enjoyed, and they couldn’t help but laugh, seeing that you were such a ditz.

-However, despite your ditzy nature, you were still a Valkyrie, a battle maiden, so you knew how to fight, but you only ever fought if someone around you was being accosted or if you were hit on, as you hated hurting others.

-Adam- your adoptive father and Brunnhilde taught you- since you were an airhead, that if anyone ever asked you to marry them, to bitch slap them and run to one of them or Eve and they would handle it from there.

-Many complained to Adam and Brunnhilde about wanting to marry you, but due to their training and their threats, protecting you, they couldn’t get close to you without potentially upsetting you or getting slapped…. Or getting threatened by your big sisters and father figure.

-You greeted Zeus and Odin warmly when they approached you, you had learned that these two were both gods, and some of the most powerful ones and they both greeted you in return before Zeus spoke, “We have a question for you Y/N- have you ever thought about dating?”

-Before you could wind up for a slap, Odin spoke, getting your attention, “Not us! We just wanted to know what your thoughts were about dating.”

-You smiled warmly, filling them with a warm fluffy feeling, “I never really thought about it- Papa and my big sisters told me that all men are animals and they don’t deserve to marry me!”

-The two thanked you for your answer before seeking out Brunnhilde and Adam to demand they fix the problem they had created because Odin wanted you to marry Thor and Zeus wanted you to marry Hercules, Hermes, Ares, or Apollo.

-They were met with laughter, amused by their plight while Odin and Zeus didn’t find it very funny because their sons all really liked you.

-Before Adam could say anything there was a resounding SLAP sound coming from outside before you ran in and right into Brunnhilde’s arms before they saw Apollo twitching on the ground nearby, a red handprint on his face.

-You sniffled softly, looking up at Brunnhilde with teary eyes, “He asked me to marry him then wanted to see my panties!” Zeus, who was originally mad to see that you attacked his son, immediately forgave you as he nodded softly, something Adam saw as Adam stormed out to have a word with Apollo.

-Odin sighed softly, as this conversation wasn’t going to go anywhere, “She may want to marry one day, Brunnhilde, someone that she won’t slap when he asks her.” Brunnhilde just bowed her head, “And I understand this, Lord Odin, and I will support Y/N when that time comes, but for now, I will protect her from those who make demands of her.”

-Odin relented easier than Zeus did, who tried to whine and complain to Brunnhilde who immediately threw him out.

-She sighed softly, hugging you close as you sat together on the couch, “You haven’t found anyone that you don’t want to slap, have you?” you cupped your cheeks gently, turning from her with a shy blush which made her freeze in shock before she patted her head, “You’re strong- you’ll be able to handle whoever it is.”

-You beamed up at her, thanking her before thinking about the man who had caught your eye, wanting to keep it a secret a bit longer.

#record of ragnarok #ror x reader #ror adam #ror brunhilde #ror zeus #ror odin

[jewbeloved]

Heya there! I wanted to request how would Stan, Kenny, Kyle, Craig and Clyde (sepparetly) react to finding out their mom friend (Who happens to be 2 years older than them and who always listens to them of they have to vent, cares about them, comforts them and tries to help them with their problems) has depresion and tries to commit suicide, catching her in the act, and then she just cries her eyes out trying to explain that she is "screwed" up and that she "doesnt deserves happines unlike him"

Stan, Kenny, Kyle, Craig, and Clyde with a suicidal mother like s/o❤️‍🩹💔💔😣😣

I'm a little on writer's block when it comes to $elf harm and suicidal moments, so I hope this still comes out enjoyable.

Warnings: $elf harm, angst, hurt/comfort

Gender: Female

💙 Stan Marsh 💤

You were such a great friend to Stan and his friends to the point they could trust you with almost anything.

But lately you've been acting quite strange, and Stan was worried about you.

He wondered if you needed space for a while so he gave you it, but then he could no longer ignore you when he hasn't seen you in a week.

He immediately made his way over to your house to go check on you only to find you in the act of trying to h@ng yourself with you standing on the chair.

You and Stan froze for a sec looking at each in shock before he immediately ran to stop you from killing yourself.

He then asks why would you try to do that, only for him to get an answer with cries flowing from your eyes.

"I can't take it anymore.....you and the others deserve more happiness than me..." You tried to get up and continue to h@ng yourself but Stan grabbed you by the waist and pulled you in for a hug.

"Don't say that (Name)....you equally also deserve happiness as much as us...If you die then.....then....then...!" Stan immediately cried out pulling you closer to him. He couldn't finish his sentence as he was still crying while clinging to you.

"You've....always been there for us so it's our turn to be there for you, especially me...."

Ever since that day, you never tried to kill yourself again...💙💙💙💙💙💙

💚 Kyle Broflovski 🎄

It wasn't hard for Kyle to tell that something was wrong with you.

You weren't your usual happy outgoing excited self anymore, you barely even talked to Kyle and his friends.

When he came to check on you, you weren't in your room. But he found your diary laying out on the floor in the middle of the rug.

He put your diary back where it was, but had a second thought of reading it.

Kyle knows that he shouldn't be reading someone else's diary because he would be violating their personal life and secrets.

But he really was worried about you and wanted to find out what has gotten into you lately so he opened your diary and skim through the pages until this one page caught his attention.

The page was filled with you talking badly about yourself, how you didn't deserve happiness whatsoever and that Kyle would be much happier without you in his life.

There was also a little picture of you planning on killing yourself by jumping into the water at stark's pond park.

Kyle immediately closed the diary and headed straight for the park.

And just as he expected, there you were, caught red-handed in the act of trying to jump into the water and drown yourself.

Kyle pulled you away from the edge before you could have a chance of falling in.

You opened your mouth to try and say something but Kyle cut you off as if he knows what you're about to say.

He pulled you into a hug as you stood there shocked for a sec before bursting into tears as you hugged Kyle back.

"It's okay (Name)...I'm here now..." 💚💚💚💚

🧡 Kenny Mccormick 🥪

Instead of hiding it directly, you came to Kenny about it and here's how he reacts.

He would be very concerned and worried about you! Somebody like you that doesn't deserve happiness? You have no business to be telling yourself those lies! Of course you do deserve happiness.

And Kenny is going to make sure you get that particular happiness, just like when you gave it to him when you first came into his life.

When he first saw you hurting yourself with a razor in your hand, he immediately panicked and had no idea what to do afterwards!

Why would you cut up your skin like that??? He searched through the cabinets to find your medkit to heal the wounds you made on your skin.

From then on he would pay close attention to you to make sure you're feeling alright and not sad or gloomy. He's gonna do everything in his power to make you happy again.

He cares about you and that will never change, he doesn't give 2 shits if anyone says otherwise🧡🧡

💙 Craig Tucker 🏎️

Craig always feel very awkward when it comes to comforting somebody, but he always tries his best to do so and his comforting always succeeds everytime.

He will step up his game when he finds you in the act of trying to kill yourself when tears are falling into the floor near your shoes.

He's gonna drop his usual blank expression off to show you how really worried he is for you, but you can read Craig like a book, you didn't need for him to change his expression to show you what he wants or how he's feeling.

If you're taller than him, he doesn't care. He will hug you tight in his embrace while reassuring you that everything is going to be okay.

If you want to watch Red racer with him to make you feel better, he will instantly go and put it on so you both can watch it together.

Similar to Kenny, he isn't leaving your side until you're feeling happy again or at least you're not shedding a hint of sadness or any sort.

He ain't gonna let you sit there and say you don't deserve happiness because he's gonna cut you off before you could finish that lying sentence. You DO deserve happiness in his eyes, everyone else can go screw themselves.💙💙💙💛💛💛

❤️ Clyde Donovan 😭

Poor baby has no idea what to do or say when he catches you crying while harming yourself, he's scared and confused.

He would probably approach you slowly without triggering you or anything at all.

Definitely would ask his friends on how he's supposed to comfort you afterwards because he doesn't know how to.

He may not be good at comforting, but that isn't gonna stop him from telling you how you equally deserve happiness like everyone else.

He never even thought you would ever have that idea of telling yourself that when you always look so happy and full of life when he first met you.

And now he's seeing his s/o being sad, gloomy and telling themselves that they don't deserve happiness. He honestly wouldn't mind kicking the ass of somebody who broke you down to this way If they ever did.

He would be extra clingy towards you, hopefully you wouldn't mind him always checking up on you every single minute because to him, it sounds like you really need more comforting than anybody else at the moment. ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

2023 is almost here....Hope it won't be as shitty as this year.

#south park x reader #south park #kyle broflovski x reader #stan marsh x reader #kenny mccormick x reader #craig tucker x reader #clyde donovan x reader #clyde donovan #kenny mccormick #craig tucker #kyle brovlofski #stan marsh #southpark blog #southpark sp #sp x reader #x reader #southpark x y/n #comfort #tw.suicide #southpark scenarios #southpark headcanons

[ima-ghost-art]

Okay so I need steve and wayne to bond or so help me!!

Okay so I cant remember if its cannon but I definitely see Wayne Munson as ex military, so hes definitely seen some shit before he took in eddie.

Now seeing as hes seen some shit, hes become hyper aware of picking up the signs of ptsd from having witnessed many people (as well as most likely himself) suffer from it. Meaning the moment he properly meets steve, he knows that this boy has gone through something incredibly traumatic. He also picks it up in alot of the other kids who hang around eddie, but its obvious that steve is hiding that whatever happened was effecting him so much.

And wayne so badly wants to reach out to this kid and help him, but he doesnt know what steve had gone through (he briefly remembers the kid was involved with helping save people from the StarCourt fire and is pretty sure it must be part of it.)

Now pare this with wayne, steve robin and eddie all getting kidnapped (either by the Russians again or some of bernners men) and they get separated into 2 groups. Wayne and Steve, and Robin and Eddie.

Wayne, as he trys to offer comfort to the teen, (the man swearing he would do anything in his could before he watches his kids get hurt!! Hes an old man but he can still take a punch!!!) Only for steve who's still chained to his side of the cell to start laughing!?

Like this is the type of laughing that sounds hysterical, that cant quite believe hes in the same situation AGAIN now with his boyfriend and bestfriend trapped god knows where and HEs trapped with his bfs uncle.

And wayne is just floored because, what's the point of keeping everything a secret now?? So steve is just sitting there laughing with this far away look in his eyes as he explains getting tortured by the Russians, and how it's honestly pathetic because he did know stuff about what they were doing that they didnt understand, but they just kept asking who he worked for, not what he knows. So he was just beaten and beaten to the point that one more severe head trauma like that would no doubt make him brain dead at this point!?

And as he keeps rambling and rambling, even mentioning how his parents didnt care since he was already such a disappointment, and Wayne's heart is just slowly breaking because no one was there for this boy! From the sounds of it he refused to tell everything to his bestfriend who experienced it with him (not that robin told him she heard everything that happened, she wanted to respect his dignity and let him tell her), but she couldnt truly be there for him if he didnt let her. Hell he even kept the full of it from eddie!! But now Steve's trapped in a cell again, and it doesnt matter that hes in here with his partners parental figure, because Steve's already excepted that he was probably going to die here and at least someone should know before that happens!!

Thankfully hopper and joyce (along with the cavalry and a super powered teen, everyone gets out with minor injuries) and wayne is just like Steve your my son now, your gunna move in with me and eddie in our new government appointed pre payed for house, and I'm going to make sure me and my nephew treat you with all the care you deserve!!

(Of course eddies all for this, he would love steve no matter what!!!!!)

#stranger things #steve harrington #eddie munson #steddie #steve x eddie #robin buckley #steve and wayne have a bonding moment #he cradled him in his arms #wayne just said fuck it your my son now #wayne munson #steve needs a hug #if steve wont adress his trauma we will! #steve Harrington has ptsd

[modernchillthings]

I know I just did a little rant about Sooho so let me just talk about Sieun and why he is the way he is (or why I THINK so)

It's pretty obvious his parents neglect him, probably as early as childhood based on that flashback scene. I don't remember which parent said it but one of them most likely did not want to have a child and that outlook can definitely affect the way you raise your kid.

Based on that flashback, they were so unprepared with the thought of Sieun ever getting hurt (he had a broken arm I think?) I get being worried, but that was not worry to me tbh, it was more like they didn't expect raising kids to be so troublesome which is such a ridiculous notion! They get hurt, they get sick and you can't just expect a child to raise themselves no matter how smart or good they are. They need guidance! They need love!

And I don't remember what ep it was but when the dad asked Sieun if he still fell asleep in class or something like that and Sieun responded 'I don't do that anymore'. Idk that made me think that Sieun had like a chronic sleeping thing that he probably managed on his own just so he wouldn't trouble his parents. And the way Sieun at that age, understood how much 'trouble' he seemed to cause his parents, I think that's what started his very 'cold' and 'unfeeling' nature.

And from then on out, Sieun decided not to be a bother to his parents at all. That also made me think...okay, if he didn't want to bother them...then did he want to make them proud of him instead to show that he wasn't gonna be their problem?

And I get it, he's so me lol. Because I try so hard not to be a bother to not just my parents, but honestly any adult authority figure in my life. But the diff is, I kind of strive for that validation whereas Sieun...doesnt seem like he does, or at least not as much as he thought it would. Like what are his goals? Did he even want to go to a big college and be a big time 'something'? I don't even think we learned much about him and his motivations because it's true that he's so studious and gets so many awards and good grades and yes his parents praise him...but Sieun doesn't even look like he wants or cares about those praises anymore.

On the first ep. when he got that award and showed his dad, his dad seemed like he was genuinely proud of him but his reaction was just...😐 perhaps Sieun knows that his purpose in his parents eyes is to generate good grades and be a good kid so he just does that. Like 'ok I've done my purpose, on to the next task' and honestly that's so fucked up.

Anyways, yeah. I feel like he lost any sense of purpose. Maybe back then getting good grades and validation from his parents meant he wasn't being a bother to them and he prolly liked it but after a while, it kind of just burnt him out. Also maybe after his mother left and his dad started being away more often for work, it just didn't seem like it mattered to him but he still keeps going because it's the only thing that will grab his parents' attention. But again, at the same time, idk if he still even wants their attention. He doesn't even want to try anymore

When he was eating with his mom, you could tell the mom was distracted and Sieun must have felt so discouraged because he must have felt like a task to her, like something on her to do list to check off because how easily she pushes aside Sieun's presence and assumes he was done eating. Like she was already standing up, like she was waiting for an interruption. Sure, Sieun never said anything or expressed his needs but only because his parents never tried to understand him in the first place and idk...be an ACTUAL PRESENT ADULT FIGURE IN HIS LIFE!!

Sieun is such a complicated and interesting character and my only wish was for him to snap at his parents at least once. He almost did it with his dad at the hospital but he held back which he shouldn't have!! Yell at them! They deserve it! (hopefully we'll see that in s2)

I never really knew I would be so attached to him. Usually I get drawn towards the Sooho-type (and dont get me wrong, I love him too) but something about Sieun just makes me want to wrap him in a blanket and never let him go and give him the proper love and care and attention he deserves!

#plus park jihoon is such a brilliant actor #he just elevates the character #this was another long one #it's just mostly stream of consciousness bc like I said before #this show has occupied my brain and I want to get it out of my system!! #weak hero #weak hero class #weak hero class 1 #yeon sieun #park jihoon

[short-and-ugly]

ooh u wanna tell me about your little guys so bad oohhh (doesn’t know anything about them)

SSSNIFFF...,,,. hrrugh. eeuaohghg. pjinky........ pinky hhhhgnr. theyre in LOF.... whe

im a sucker for romance and a bigger sucker for TRAGEDY and its HITTING me now its fucking HITTING me

gummy (pronounced goo-me. very important) is an irken that has never stepped foot on irk. he doesnt know anything about his own species other than things that hes heard from secondary sources. ruthless savages and lazy pigs that want nothing than to kill and conquer every single planet in the galaxy. and these sources arent wrong! irkens really are Just Like that

gummy wasnt raised by the empire. he never meets any irkens until later on in his life. hes so far away from any irken territory that it was basically impossible for him to meet any, up until recently/in the future.

he was found eating some gourds and other plants in the backyard of a random retired alien. retired alien who completely accidentally raised him into a mini-grump, even teaching him to speak and read, imparting knowledge on the tiny little irken pest, for a total of five months-ish before his landlord came in and found out he was providing an irken with refuge, and caused gummys sorta-parental-figure to kick gummy out and ultimately end up dying because of him.

all because that alien showed some mercy to an irken. pity? i dunno what goes on in grumps mind hes a complete enigma to me. all i know is that hes an ass and him dying wasnt any grand act of self-sacrifice, only an inevitability.

but gummy still sees it as sacrifice, years later.

he hates irkens.

he holds on to that view when he meets bink! his second guardian-of-sorts. kinda. shes a teenager still at this point but gummy is also like the irken equivalent of ten so it works out.

he was living rugged for a bit. without grumps, he had no steady roof to live under. stealing bits and bobs and food to carry him along, until he stole from the wrong person and ended up a captive to binks crew. space pirates.... i love space.

but wait! theres more!

gummy had a map. one he kept from grumps! he lies and says that its a treasure map, and that the place marked on it holds riches beyond any of the pirates wildest imaginations!

he doesnt know if it actually does, or not. hes never been, and grumps had gummy leave before telling him anything about it.

bink reveals herself as the ship's captain and chooses to take gummy's word as truth. hes still a captive, and if this results in a wild goose chase, she and her crew get to punish him as they please.

when the marked location ends up having nothing for them, the crew get angry. this irken lied to them! they should throw him out in deep space and watch his body implode!

bink. comes from a species that had their planet conquered by the irken empire, under miyuki's ruling. she hates irkens. dedicates herself to ruining the lives of as many irkens as she can. she holds that dedication one step below keeping herself and her crew alive. she believes that no irken is capable of good. no irken deserves to live, if she has any say in it.

she has every reason to follow through with her threats, to take her crews advice and let him die painfully.

she doesnt kill him.

she lets him live. forces him to become a crew member. not a respected one! hes like the towel boy of space pirates. worse than an irken drone -- and those have literally nothing.

eventually, he gains... somewhat of a place, with her and the rest of the crew. they start recognizing him as a person. it helps that hes grown up quite a decent bit.

bink even starts to enjoy having him around. his position was meant to be something to be hated, a power she could hold over him -- but he wormed his way into her heart. a terrible thing.

something happens. something big.

bink gets hurt, half of the crew wiped out.

and its gummys fault. proving what bink, and what everyone else thinks about irkens, to be true.

they have no good in them. not a single bit.

gummy is forced into a bad position. there is no place for him in this universe, and he isnt taking his chances with the irken empire -- most hated enemy by literally everyone that's ever heard of them -- so he takes his chances in other places.

space clowns. are an entirely separate ordeal that i wont explain fully here but basically its like a cult where you lose all your sense of self. if youre a space clown you are no longer an individual. youre expected to do everything for the cause. mayhem and mischief and suffering and mania everywhere.

gummy didnt really understand the whole loss-of-self part of space clownism... his personality is a bit too strong for it to be completely erased like that. but his time as a clown still has some of his most miserable moments!

he hates irkens more than ever, but more than that, he just really hates himself.

he wasnt raised irken, but he still ended up becoming one.

the only one that breaks him out of it is another irken, years later.

they taught him to be better. taught him how to show the kindness that hed forgotten, taught him how to fall in love -- and even they still end up dead.

it was a completely avoidable death. they didnt tell him how to save them. they didnt want saving.

they hated irkens too.

i already have every major point of gummys story fleshed out..., the only conclusive sorta ending i have in mind is him reconciling with and hugging bink. thats it. shes an old coot now. her species doesnt last as long as his does. shes going to die too, eventually. everyone just fucking leaves him man and i made it that way. this is awful. i love it. i should create more people for him to befriend and lose. its a beautiful horrible cycle.

#gerrnswers #oc nonsense #gerald stop ranting and raving you look like a lunatic #I STRARTTED CRYING. DAMMIT #the ''they hated irkens too'' got to me because i know what it means #i mean if youre good at reading all of this shit you might also know what it means but. still. damn. dammit. fuck.

[tadpolesonalgae]

i've seen a lot of people saying they'd want cbmthy reader to end up in spring but i don't see it. reader only seems to have a bad relationship with az (and even that is not a harmful relationship per se, as much of an asshole as he's being i think he would protect her like he protects the rest of the ic and the night court) so going to spring makes no sense since 1. tamlin hurt her sister and 2. said sister damn near destroyed his court (actually kind of hate that she did that that way too but) and reader ending up there but still being on good terms with the night court just doesn't really make sense to me. also tamlin acts like a republican, he gave me the ick beyond repair, i know some people want a redemption (and i accept that) but id rather not have to read about him.

my personal feelings aside i think if reader really doesn't end up with azriel (which i think wouldn't make sense because then all the hurt would be for nothing) the best bets for her to move would be autumn with eris but only if eris is already high lord because subjecting her to beron would suck, the day court since helion is the closest to the night court and they trust him also she would love the libraries or she could replace lucien with vassa and jurian (or join him if he doesnt end up with elain or in the day court), the winter court maybe but only for the fact that it's tje other court that seems closer to the night court mostly because of vivianne. or my favorite which is just staying home lol her family is in the night court so even if her and az dont end up together she deserves to be able to stay there with her family as much as him. azriel loved mor for 500 years and knew she didnt love him back but they both still managed to act civil and be friends. even if az hurt reader more i hope it wouldn't be to the point of them not being able to be civil so they could just stay, and they live forever so she'd get over her feelings eventually and find someone new. moving a character away when something bad or a breakup happen is something i always disliked so maybe that's why im giving it so much thought but it really always feels off because what do u mean you can't both keep your family/friends? if nothing truly bad happens why does one character always have to leave? idk

before i finish i just wanna say im not trying to be mean or speak over anyone that has said they'd like her to be in spring. i just wanted to add my opinion but i know over writing like this we cant really convey much emotion so i dont want to sound mean or anything

First of all, I didn’t think you were being mean at all, but thank you for adding that clarification anyway :)

Secondly, to be fair, for me it’s not so much as where she goes rather that she simply needs some time elsewhere. Nothing permanent, but a shift in scene because she’s caught in stale waters and if nothing changes she won’t ever learn to step forward and progress. Also, while the idea of her going to the Spring Court is—I think—very fun, and would be like throwing a spanner in the works, I feel there are only really two places she could go that would make sense to the story, and neither of those are the Spring Court (as interesting as it could be)

Also, I am fully down for a Tam redemption arc 😭🤌

I don’t want to say who she’ll end up with because I think part of the fun is contained within not knowing? She might get with Bas for a bit but then move to the Autumn Court, might become happy by herself and content on her own, might get with Az only for a mating bond to pop up between her and Eris. Who knows? 👀

(I enjoy messing with you)

It might be fun for her and Helion to get in touch, even if it’s just her requesting a scroll or book from one of his libraries, but no promises about that 😭

And thank you for sending this in, it really helps guide me with future parts—helping me know what to emphasise or what I should try to expand upon if it’s been skated over in a previous chapter :) 🧡💛

#anons <3 #CBMTHY

[yuukei-yikes]

Tell us about Shinaya’s breakup :D

HEHDJEIDNEKFJEKDKEK ive had this ask since i posted i was thinking abt it MAN i cannot express to u i just. I WANNA WRITE A FIC SO BAD but AUGH im so bad at it it makes me cringe i cant do that but its basically like all my damn posts together u know. i keep thinking of shintaro's disastrous relationships post str going from ayano to kano to takane etcetc sorry im playing with him like a stress toy making him go thru hell but its so fun

srry i dont wanna have to rewrite a lot of stuff so erm im liking this answer 🫡🫡🫡 and i could link a bunch more just so u SEE MY VISION... but i think linking that is enough. ON AND OFF SHINAYA MY BELOVED

shintaro and ayano sort of having this ridiculous relationship because both are hurting and jumped in a relationship too quick but fighting/being sad about stupid shit is so much easier than dealing with their actual issues that they've got with themselves. like focusing on each other and what they don't like about each other and their relationship is so much easier than crying about how suicidal they are. lollllll SO LIKE this insanity sort of saves them at the same time??

i mean the most ideal would be that instead of getting together they got therapy and the normal kind not the relationship kind. you know. but also theyre traumatized and ugh. its so much easier to resent each other than themselves. its so much easier to be petty. its such a relief to cry over relationship problems than over timeline resets or dead parents and etc. YOU GET ME?????

they keep breaking up and getting back together ridiculously like it is 1000% so dramatic each and everytime. ayano crying her eyes out like its the end of the world and shintaro making 100 sad playlists. and it happens at least monthly. the first time everyone's like WHOA THEY BROKE UP!?!? SHIT!! the second time its like heyyy maybe they'll work it out like last time!! third time its like are you joking. fourth time they're already begging them to stop. by they i mean the dan but especially takane by the way. who do you think is picking up the pieces.

and by the way the one breaking up all the time and being dramatic as hell is shintaro. he gets angry and annoyed and weaponizes the LETS BREAK UP thing because he DOESNT MEAN IT. like he knows he and ayano will work it out later. he gets comfortable again. not to get on the ayano surviving thing, but i think ayano (and hiyori but especially ayano) making it out alive undoes a big part of the message abt moving on. like i love her so im not complaining thats i love having her alive :3 but i like to translate this into shintaro like. he's intensely trying to repress/process all the memories of the other timelines to cope and have a normal life and ends up being this way because he's sort of self sabotaging himself. like ayano's alive and she likes me??? lol. ok?? ill wake up any moment now!! and he feels guilty and undeserving and is sort of a dickhead to her in an unconscious attempt of keeping her away because that's what he deserves according to him. also why he's accepting of takane's intense obsession with him lol bc she's familiar and she is comfortable, unlike ayano who is so rare and one in its kind in all the timelines. he is sort of terrified of her in a way.

the lets break up isnt rly a breakup. its just a leave me alone see u later. LOL i think we talk too much abt kanoshin bringing the worst in each other but what about shinaya. they do that too. yeah we CAN have fluffy shinaya. but like i said it is so easy to focus all this bitterness and sadness into each other and it's so relieving to be sad and angry about this rather than everything else. because this is sort of in their control while everything else isn't, wasn't. and its so unfair. of course its unfair!! but they cant do anything abt it. so they just go crazy on each other. ayano is DESPERATE to be needed. i could link more replies but i will hold myself back. basically her siblings are used to being alone/know she has her own problems and ayano is dealing with this emptiness and feeling of failure bc no one needs her, from her perspective her sacrifice still failed to save everyone, her parents are gone so she needs to step up. like she puts herself under all this pressure and feels Not Good Enough for ANYTHING. and she is dating shintaro.

it's EASY to bother him and try to get him to open up and etc so she ridiculously focuses on that. but it gets on shintaro's nerves to say the least LOL plus all his other issues i mentioned 🫡plus she keeps being like we have to be normal. lets kiss and hold hands and cuddle. but she's too embarrassed to say it/do it and shintaro is even more pathetic about it. so theyre both frustrated about everything and can barely even sit next to each other without acting insane.

AND SORRY BUT I WILL TALK ABT TAKANE🫡💞💗💖💝💕💘ofc. codependent shintaka. of course. it drives ayano CRAZY because on top of all their problems takane is able to talk sense into shintaro each and every single time. and she is soooo jealous like she knows its stupid but she cant help ittt i ALSO TALKED ABT THIS SORRY I KEEP REPEATING MYSELF IM JUST SO CRzy abt it. hehe......the whole mess bringing drama to harutaka too bc shintaro and ayano are so messy theyre contagious is so fun to me. when it comes to shintaro and takane's horrible relationship both their romantic relationships suffer for it but deal with it completely differently. while both haruka and ayano deal with jealousy somewhat, ayano is so hurt and already at the verge of a mental breakdown so she's focusing so many negative emotions on it and AGAIN it just serves as another point of argument between shintaro and ayano while haruka is like. his mental state isnt as convoluted as ayanos, he's rather freaking out and terrified of being left alone. THIS IS ABT SHINAYA so i wont get into harutaka side but lol. heh. Looks at it. zooms in it. like what i mean is that haruka and takane talk and work through it and are like sighs yeah...this is messed up while shintaro and ayano are using it against each other instead of working on it LMAO

ANYWAYS. ayano breaks up with shintaro. vine boom. total breakdown moment like everyone out of the room i wanna talk to you alone. and this time its for REAL. like ayano isnt confrontational at all, all their arguments are always her being pushy abt idk mental health and shintaro's like godddd STOPPPPP and ayano crying and shintaro being like I CANNOT DEAL WITH THAT. IM SORRY I GUESS. CAN U GET OUT OF THE ROOM. WE'LL TALK LATER. but he also sucks so bad at letting the other person know they can count on him so he kind of assumes ayano will do it when she's ready because he KNOWS she's in pain. like. ofc it could go well. ofc shintaro and ayano could work through everything with kindness and comprehension for each other but they're both so sad and suddenly find themselves annoyed at each other one time and it felt so freeing to do that that they just keep doing it. especially shintaro. having ayano be mad at him is sort of relieving because he feels undeserving of her and its like yeah. Yeah!! i know its ooc but shinaya screaming match.god. sorry but all their bottled up emotions abt everything and they take it out on each other for no reason other than theyre giving each other the space and it plays out that way. theyre acting crazy about something so stupid like shintaro not wanting ayano to wear his clothes or whatever. like they scream about that but its not about that. it just feels so good to scream. it feels so good to scream and let it out even if they haven't given themselves the time to process that theyre not... actually screaming abt that at all. theyre screaming about everything else. not even about each other. its about themselves. its always been.its never been about each other. when it is, its stupid. thats why they do it. its just easier. God. they were just not ready for a relationship, especially not one with each other out of all people.

ayano breaks first, therefore dumps shintaro lol. he goes thru his own fucked up arc afterwards while ayano gets help. my man spirals DOWN. whether they get back together or not depends on my mood 🤨 but if they do, its by the time theyre in their mid twenties or something so a few years later LOL i picture them dating like for over a year maybe?? when theyre 18/19. hehe.

like. do you get it.

#ask tag #headcanons #HEH... #ayashin divorce

[commsroom]

What do you think eiffel was thinking about when he asked hera to destroy his and Pryce's memories during the finale? I was always so struck by his decision to self sacrifice but also (also!!) about the implications it has for either him intentionally inciting permanent harm on another person or that he doesnt consider permanent memory loss permanent harm?

i think what the show is trying to communicate about eiffel's decision is described best in hera's reasoning: "i don't need to beat you. no matter how much i want to, no matter how much you deserve it, it wouldn't change anything. what i need is to make sure that you're not going to hurt anyone else again. ever." it is enacting harm, but it's also preventative. how do you negotiate with people who have intentionally and systematically removed themselves from humanity, who don't even recognize your humanity? what's justified in preventing future harm? i think there is a meaningful difference in an action taken to protect others vs. one taken in retribution, even if retribution is justified.

i think there is also an angle from which you can consider his self-sacrifice another form of self-destruction. so much of eiffel's character arc comes back to the ways he tries to get away from himself, how much he doesn't want to be doug eiffel. all of the ways he fractures his identity, tells stories in the third person. how he distances himself, and how that's distanced him from the people he cares about, when all of the men in all of those stories are still doug eiffel. if you consider eiffel's memory loss a finality, then it reads as a fulfillment of that desire, and i just... don't think that's what the show is going for.

and then you have his survivor's guilt. "the driver's always fine." in boléro, he feels personally responsible for the people who died because of his unwillingness to harm anyone on purpose. i don't think that makes his choices wrong, and i think he's wrong to blame himself, but it's a factor worth considering. if on some level he might see harm as more justifiable if he is also the recipient of it.

i also think there's another perspective from which you could consider his decision a selfish one: he knows the implications this has for hera in particular, and the weight he's putting on her. she agrees to it, she understands, but even so. i think that is something they're going to have to work through at some point. eiffel may be making the call, but whatever harm is enacted, hera is the one pulling the trigger.

ultimately i think the approach that eiffel is still eiffel, or at least that he has the intent and capacity to be, makes the most sense thematically and tonally. i think seeing it that way serves as an continuation and final affirmation of what the show already says about identity, rather than introducing some new philosophical question. i think you can even make a case for restoring eiffel's memories post-canon as a natural extension of the show's exploration of self and his character arc in particular. i won't get too into that now because it's another discussion and i don't want to make this response unreadably long, but that is to say...

what was eiffel thinking? i don't feel like i can answer that conclusively. i'd be surprised if he could. it's brave, and self-sacrificing, it definitely saved them, and it was also selfish and self-destructive. i may not think eiffel's memory loss is necessarily final, but he did, in that moment, and that came with the full intent that the same would be true of pryce. it's complicated, and messy, and personally? i think pryce deserved worse. but it's not really about deserving either.

#wolf 359 #w359 #doug eiffel #asks #thank you soo much for asking this #and giving me a chance to ramble about it #i haven't really talked about eiffel's memory in a while and i've been meaning to write a more thorough deconstruction re: #my feelings there but. it's a complicated subject. #as a side note this is. aside from my obvious biases #this is another reason why i don't have a lot of patience for people who think pryce should've been treated differently #because if you accept eiffel is the same person who is still just as responsible for the harm he caused #which i think the show DOES unambiguously accept #then the same is true of pryce. whether she has the capacity to be better well #everyone does. she did before too. she just chose not to. and maybe she can choose differently #but the hephaestus crew and hera in particular have no obligations to her #in the same way the people eiffel hurt have every right not to forgive him if they don't want to but also. come on #what pryce has done is also. magnitudes worse. i think that's also inarguable. #and i think the same harm reduction/self-defense argument applies to cutter's death like #the show's morality is against INCITING harm but what about harm done to stop the people who are harming you? #people who absolutely WILL NOT stop otherwise? #it's complicated. there are no easy answers #and on another note i do think there's a lot about #the ways hera's sense of self and ability to return to earth with the others #is connected to the show establishing she isn't fundamentally different from the others #treating eiffel's brain in a more 'mechanical' fashion in the finale vs. hera's pivotal moments being the most tangible in the show #being seen and interacting with others physically #it's equalizing. i really believe the further into the show you get the more it establishes the ways hera is different are really just #differences of circumstance and the ways she's treated. and what she's internalized because of that treatmeant #and i find that really meaningful. anyway. this is such a tangent i'm sorry it's all connected #i start talking about one thing and i just keep going

[skybristle]

Please rant about why you didn't like how chapter 14 characterized Caramel arrow. I may not have gotten to it because I'm still stuck in chapter 11 but I'd love to hear it.

pls rb!! i put a lot of thought and effort into these posts!

was talking to a friend. this is a. Horrid mash of copy/pasted stuff from discord dms paired with me typing in new shit to bridge gaps and add points but. under cut again! probably some talk abt murder and violence [but its against affo mainly so its okay /JOKE] but mainly to save space on dashes since i type a lot also note that i tend to call caramel arrow carrow. it just rolls off my mental tounge better and its easier to speedrun typing in my fanon i've also added magnolia into her story but. for the sake of arguement i'll leave her and any magnolia-related changes out. but yeah they canonically kiss devsis told me /lh ill add more if i think of anything

shes a static character. NOTE. static characters are NOT inherently bad. but she has so much potential for being fucked up and questioning her loyalties and shit. as she stands she is just. There. she does a little bit of girlbossing but ESPECIALLy in chapter 14 she is just there to go its okay dark cacao ur doing the right thing it is alright u are okay :] and she doesnt even get resolution with affo. iirc they dont even rlly get a confrontation he just. Runs away. these r my main problems but ill get into a lot of wasted potential later. ill be so mad forever and ever they didn't let carrow kill affogato. like. she had a straight shot in the end when his sheilds were down and he was just trying to get away. ut she just goes "OHHH NO AFFOGATO IS GETTING AWAYYYYY" like babygirl you are the first watcher. What are you doing. i get that cr doesnt have the balls to violently kill him on screen but like u could have shot him and left him for dead at least. Like. .... idk. red velvet gets a crossbolt bolt to the face in TOSC its not too out there. but even then carrow seems like the type to want to kill someone cleanly and effectively no matter WHAT they did so she doesnt stoop to their level. so as far as my fanon goes she shot him thru the head when he was trying to escape. like again i know canon wouldn't do that but it is dissapointing to see nothing happen with him and carrow's arc yet another injustice to carrow's character. shes just. There honestly. like she doesnt DO ANYTHING. shes kinda just [woman standing discord emoji] you could honestly remove her from the plot without much difference which is. REALLY FUCKING SAD considering that she was so hyped up and is playable. her only real character trait is 'loyal to dark cacao'. which falls flat considering DARK CACAO IS FUCKED UP?? like i know affo is manipulating him or whatever but he had to have been at an incredibly low point in the first place - likely caused by dark choco's betrayel and the stress of losing so much , including many of his watchers, to the war. the main missed potential i see: the missed potential with her and dark choco. it's heavily implied he was very very close with her - and her mentor. she even has a line abt him being the one who taught her how to use a bow. it's p easy to assume he's the person who trained her and could probably be considered her non-blood informal older brother or maybe an idol. [i prefer the former but. Yeah] have her loyalty be split between the king who deeply hurt his people for decades [since even before affo i doubt it was good considering i can only IMAGINE how fucked up the kingdom was afrer the DFW with their watchers presumaby spread incredibly thin after so many losses] and FUCKING EXILED HER regardless of affo's imput and the prince who trained and partially raised her but has done so much fucked up shit and lost his path

NEITHER of them are good people. at least completely. do they deserve her loyalty? is she reeally doing good by following anyone?? is bias by being close to the royals clouding her judgement? she can't answer those questions

but No. dark cacao good everyine else bad :3. so dissapointing this is becoming more of a stretch but this is more a thinly veiled excuse to talk abt my fanon because i make her character so much cooler and sexier but. Ya! also not to say she was probably a trainee or barely out of training when dark choco betrayed everyone when he was probably her older brother figure andddd probably got shoehorned into the position of first watcher too fast since dark cacao was in such deep paranoia after getting betrayed by his own son he couldn't trust anyone short of who was practically his own daughter but. Ya! would have fucked. her cutscene thing says she became the first watcher at an incredibly young age. u can assume in canon that just means that she was so capable she earned it so early on but like. You could ALSO take rlly fucked up implications from that if you wanted to. like. Yeah. also i dont have as thorough thoughts on this but. it's sad that we didnt see much of her relationship with the other watchers. its obvious that they miss her, care about her, and are still loyal to her. i've always thought it was a really interesting thing that despite her exile and presumably being stripped of her title they all still call her first watcher. resisting the urge to talk abt her and magnolia so i wont but like. scenes with the other watchers could have rlly helped this!!! oh also if you ship carrow x affogato get the fuck off this post i actually hate you fuck you fuck yo ufuck yuyou fuck you. Die. thats all i remember for now. Bye girl.

#sky rambles #cookie run #crk #cookie run kingdom #cookie run oc #[i guess??? i have a magnolia ramble post waiting to be finished in my drafts. youll get more of her i prommy] #caramel arrow cookie #dark cacao cookie #dark choco cookie #affogato cookie

[honeybeekao]

hi dino!! i hope you've been having a good day!!

tell me some stuff about madara if you get a chance :o i wanna know more about him!! thankies <3

EEE HI LEO!!!! thank you so much i'm having a pretty good day! drawing a certain little guy we all love and IM SO HAPPY WITH THE OUTFIT DETAILS i never draw intricate things bc im lazy BUT IT'S WORKING!

madara...mmama madara mikejima....him

i'm not sure what things you know but that probably doesnt matter this is my chance to madara essay <333

okayokay so he grew up in the unfortunate environment of His Family Are Deep Followers To The Shinkai Cult. but his first instinct when he saw the boy everyone called a god was to befriend him. he was like "that kid is Absolutely lonely and needs a friend" and he tried!! this was a part of the reason his family labelled him a problem child. (if anything he wasnt a problem child at all, just bad parents.)

befriending kanata meant also testing if him being a god was really true. madara's younger sister being very sick lead him to promising her he could help her, and in turn when he couldn't she became angry with him. that was i Think the first failure (he 100% thinks in terms of failures. even one is irredeemable to him and he believes he's a monster for every mistake he makes)

so because he couldn't cure her, his last option was to make a wish to kanata to cure her—which didn't work, because kanata isn't a god and wields no mystical powers despite what he and everyone believes.

so that was when madara learned that everything with gods and magic were lies, false creations that people turned to for support when the real world was too scary for them. and he made it his goal to try and pull kanata out of that whole situation, along with maintaining a difficult friendship. (kanata's family And his family didn't want madara around him because they knew he was trying to take their "god" away from them.)

madara used to sneak in toys and books to kanata since he wasnt given any, but he usually had to take them apart in order to not get caught. and he would put them back together so they always looked like patchwork (this is told in chapter 2 of Myriad of Colors and Flowers)

despite his best efforts– he did all he could to try and save kanata, but because of how severe everything was it wasn't enough. anytime he became distant due to his family or his own choices at self preservation, kanata's loneliness became worse (knowing what lonely is when you have no one is so much different than when you do. knowing what not being lonely is like makes the feeling even more prevalent.)

so one of madara's main goals is to completely sabotage and destroy the remains of the religion they were born into. he often swears to never become like his parents, regarding them as "true evil", but he also doesn't resonate with being called a hero due to failing to save the people he loves. (he also calls himself selfish and says everything he does is for his own gain, which.. there is no way that's true, he doesnt want his efforts that fail to be failures To his loved ones. if they were efforts set only for himself, then if they don't go right it technically isn't him failing others. he needs therapy! and i'm sure this way of thinking doesnt stop him from being guilty anyway so really, just admit you care man we know you do)

his mama persona is so.. wanting to help out everyone as if a mother would, reasons being he didn't have that experience with his own mother and it's also a way to punish himself? because he can't Truly be that figure for anyone. it's like taking on a role you wanna be so badly even though you know it isn't feasible... he Knows it'll hurt when he can't live up to it! ugh i think he's doing the best he can and deserves the world

during the war (he was in his 2nd year) he was Constantly overseas. this was because he had influence at the school, along with rei who Also had major influence. (student council president and being a well known idol) and eichi needed them out of the way to orchestrate plans. dude they were like 17 and fixing international problems at different schools And doing idol work?? i'd die idk how they did it

rei also taught madara a lot with everything they needed to know to fix problems, make agreements, falsify passports, other illegal ways to get things done im sure. ritsu was supposed to be rei's successor but he was too sick to, so madara was his next choice. learned to pull strings from the best of the best!! madara is insane and he can and will do anything for the sake of a task, to help/protect the people he loves, etc.

rapid fire facts that are on the wiki but i'm saying because OUGH

he's so multi-skilled??? this man can do so Much. he can play piano, cello, and violin. can play in like every sport. is well practiced in FIGHTING. knows multiple languages fluently, english being one of them. and i'm gonna need him to stop being so hard on himself. cmon, you are literally not a monster i dont know how else to tell you this!

he doesnt let people get Too close to him because he doesnt want them to get hurt. he thinks everything he does is akin to destroying. he is incredibly affectionate and has no idea what personal space is. he lies for fun (part of his persona.) would, maybe has killed for people he cares about (he's definitely gotten in so many fights there's no way he hasnt. he is a revenge boy first and foremost) he hates religion because of his past with it, and he despises the idea of ignorance. he goes on monologues about humanity and how ignorance Will be its downfall. he doesn't like being compared to other things and has this thing where he hates being asked to do things that Anyone could.. he wants to be important, he is SO important. i adore him

if i got anything wrong feel free to throw a dart at me i know absolutely nothing about anything! i hope this was good :] thank you leo!!!

#madara mikejima #tw cults #good lord here we go!! i havent read double face stories yet so my knowledge is actually really fucking little!! #he makes me insane i want to hug him #enstars #leo 😼

[goremet-chef]

vent. mind the tags

grieving with bpd is so... i wont say its worse or anything cuz im really not about that shit, anyone and almost everyone can and has felt this pain before, its a constant of life, but.. when im not actively sobbing and depressed and my mood switches up, it makes me feel so guilty. i should be spending that time in misery, i should be wailing and wiping more snot from my nose and my head should hurt worse like it was a few minutes ago, but yknow. emotional permanence n all that

its so funny, they keep trying to get me to believe in god, she says he'll show himself to me and ill find him my own way. i respect that she at least respects im not there yet (i dont think ill ever be truthfully but we can agree to disagree), but i just keep losing more and more, and any faith i had gets ripped away in an instant. there is no god worth worshipping, because someone worth worshipping would not put me through this pain again and again and again

3 pets dead within a YEAR. riley died june 29, 2022, talcum died in october of 2022, and now artemis, today. may 24. it hasnt even been a full year since riley died. i cant keep doing this man

i find myself less hopelessly despaired and choking on my spit wailing sad like the last two, only because im started to.. lose faith in everything. i feel cynical, it makes me MAD

because i did everything right this time. with riley, i made the mistake of even THINKING that it couldve been cancer, and then it was. i know that wasnt my fault, he had the tumor before i even came to visit and before we took him to the vet, but its still incredibly hard not to blame myself for that. talcum died of stress, because bruce kept jumping on his bird cage. i was so ashamed with myself that my MOM (who doesnt even view our pets as family, more like accessories) noticed talcum wasnt singing like he used to. i didnt even notice until the day after when my sibling was on the phone with every vet he could call to see if they took birds

i was optimistic this time, because it looked hopeful! it seemed like she would be okay, i told myself itll be fine and that we'll fix her up and she'll live longer because she deserves to. obviously that was completely useless because shes dead now, so none of that mattered. i didnt even get to say goodbye to her. i said bye when i left my grandmas house a few days ago, but.. its not the same.

i did everything right this time and obviously it didnt fucking matter because theres no fixing that. theres nothing you can do, death is the worst part of life and it never goes away. never gets easier, you can never outrun it. it makes me so sad that the ones who dont deserve it get it first. i know they were old cats but artemis wasnt THAT old. she probably wouldve lived happily for quite some time after, if everything turned out good. ive known them since i was 7. theyve been in my life forever, and now theyre both gone

god it hurts so much, it never gets easier. i just feel so hopeless right now. i wish i could freeze time, and we could just exist as we are forever. but i cant do that

#pet death #tw pet death #pet loss #tw pet loss #vent

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Ethereal

Chapter 6

Masterlist

Ethereal: extremely delicate and light in a way that seems too perfect for this world.

Walking down the halfway hand hand hand with Draco on the way to The Great Hall I was too engaged talking with Draco about our plans on the weekend that we weren't watching knowing we were close by. My shoulder bumped into someone’s hard, looking over I saw it was Ronald Weazly who was chuckling at himself. What could possibly be so funny to him besides his own pressince?

“What's so funny Weazly?” Draco scold.

“The both of you. Thinking you’re both so high and mighty. You're just two gits that are going to get what's coming.``  He snarls becoming chest to chest with Draco while looking down at me.

“The only one with anything coming to them is you blood traitors for talking to the mudblood.” Draco said, directing his attention to the redhead slightly behind the boy trying to pull him away from the pair.

“You think we don't know what you did this summer, what the both of you did. Selling your soul to.” I grabbed onto Ron's hand pulling him down to my level, my hands slowly heating up unbeknownst to me having a tight grip on his wrist.

“You know, Ronald the reason why your family is in the position you're in now is because you talk to people like me the way you are now. You may be a blood tratior but you arent stupid.” He looked down towards his wrist. He moved his wrist from my hand but I pulled him further down.

“You and your friends should stop digging in places that shouldn't be dug. We have it handled Weesely.” He hissed, looking down I saw some smoke coming from my palms. I let go looking down at my palms. I never meant to do that.

“I'm sorry?” Why am I apologizing? I should be enjoying hurting him, right? Only when I want to. But he deserved it? Why did it happen without me knowing? I've been working my ass off on control why did this git set me off?

“What are you.” He seethed, everyone outside the Great Hall was surrounding the scene in front of us just seeing that Ron was gripping his wrist and I was looking at my hand. All the commotion around me felt more like a buzz not hearing what was going on. I was still stuck in my own head thinking about how I lost control.

“Shut up Wesley.” Draco shouted. His hands ment my shoulders guiding me back to the prefect dorms.

“I never meant for that to happen, Draco. My magic usually does what I want when I want it to. I didn't want that. What's happening?” I began to panic. Draco's arms wrapped around my small frame trying to get my attention.

“I don't know darling, we'll figure it out.”

“Draco you don't understand I've been working all summer from day break to 4 am working overtime for control so I can come back to school and not have to stay there for long. If he finds out he’ll drag me back till war. It can't happen again.” He nodded realizing how scared Y/N really was, she might portray confidence but now that he took a step back from his wallowing and looked at her she's in her own head trying to be just as perfect as he is.

“Darling I have been trying to be perfect my entire life. I will help you. This won't happen again. I'll be here.” she nodded into his chest.

“Now breathe tidy up, we are going back out there our heads held up because we will not have Wesley make us retreat.” She let out a chuckle into his chest but moved to a mirror in their dorm fixing her hair and robes.

“ I am one of the most powerful witches in this generation.” She whispered under her breath looking at herself. She grabbed his hand walking out of the dorm into the great hall, all the eyes turned to the people entering the hall late. She looked toward the Gryffindor table seeing Ron glaring at her with a bandage on his wrist. She smirked following Draco to the Slytherin table to eat. Even though he poker face is on, she's pushing the memory of her losing control away the more she doesnt think about it the more she won't have to explain to him why people are asking why the Weasley was hurt after talking to Y/n.

“Love?’ Draco leaned down to her as they sat to eat, Pansy droning on about god knows what apparently talking to everyone at our table but also no one since everyone else seems to be in a different conversation.

“Yes.” her voice soft breaking out of deep thought.

“After dinner, come to the room with me.” He stopped referring to the room of requirements by its name, scared of people specifically Potter and his noesy bunch hearing. I nodded smiling up at him.

“Please eat.” He pressed his lips to my temple. Squishing my cheeks, my lips pucking her presses his lips on mine. I let out a genuine laugh at him getting out of my head taking my first bite of my dinner and tuning into what Pansy was saying.

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from an objective point of view i do think san is a bad person. or at least was! having an explication for it doesn’t make up for the fact that he knowingly hurts people and manipulates them for his benefit. also, at what point do we stop calling it self sabotage when it includes hurting everyone around you in the process?

sure he has been clear with from the beginning that he doesn’t date. but he knew she loved him and chose to keep on hurting her and stringing her along for an entire year just so he could keep his “favorite girl” by his side, which she only was because she was the rich and unreachable pretty girl and he managed to have her wrapped around his finger. he watched her go through hell and he didn’t care, let her be insulted by yeosang on a daily basis and never once stood up for her while she took it and stayed quiet because she loved him so much. he called it friends with benefits but never took an interest in her on a personal level and basically treated her like a sextoy. obviously yn should’ve walked away at some point but i think san is also to blame. telling girls “i don’t date” at the beginning of the arrangement doesn’t opt you out of treating the girls you sleep with as human beings with feelings who deserve respect.

and then going back to her after he broke up with that girl because he knew she would just cave in and take him back, then acting like “well maybe i shouldn’t have c come to your house but you shouldn’t have let me in”.. like knew she would let you in and fuck you because you know she loved you and couldn’t resist

and what he did to yeosang was just so fucking sad. how can you call someone your best friend and then go and knowingly use their feelings so you can manipulate them and get what you want? i’m glad yeosang finally put his foot down and stopped talking to him. i think he told san that he wasn’t worth the effort it takes to love him? and as cruel as it may sound he was right… san needs to go to therapy and grow up. i understand he has daddy issues and that your trauma isn’t your fault but the way you treat people is still your responsibility

i really hope he’s coming back as a better person after these two years!

hhmmmmmmmmmmm those are all great points but they're from y/n's point of view and not an objective one 😭

he fucked up with yeosang (besides betraying y/n's trust and telling her secrets to his friends, thats his other fuck up imo). it was a horrible thing to do, there's no further explanations or defenses there. him betraying her trust in the end and using ys' feelings to his advantage at times are the worst things he did in this story but is he a bad person with no redemption possible for it? would that mean that people aren't allowed to fuck up? 😭

"sure he has been clear with from the beginning that he doesn’t date. but he knew she loved him and chose to keep on hurting her and stringing her along-" lets stop right thereee 😭 "he knew she loved him" and what? if yunho told y/n he had feelings for her while she considered sleeping with him just a fun silly little thing would that make her responsible for his feelings? no, bc they're both consenting adults who know what they agreed on. it sounds harsh but objectively, thats just the way things are. "choose to keep hurting her" when? if anything he was keeping his relationship with boyoung a secret from her bc he was trying to not hurt her and just let her down gently by ghosting her😭 even tho yn deserved to know the truth, he thought he was doing her a favor bc knowing u got dropped bc he actually decided to commit himself to another girl despite saying he doesnt date would hurt a lot more. "stringing her long" when? when did he ever genuinely give her hope that their relationship could grow into something more? "let her be insulted by yeosang" hmm yea that is shitty, even if he doesnt care about her it would've been nice to defend her bc hes the one that brought her to their table in the first place. "never took an interest in her on a personal level" bc friends with benefits is always just tiptoeing around what the relationship is actually about, which is SEX. they agree on being actual friends much later and after that they actually DO begin to learn about each other and with that his demeanor towards her begins to change.

when he's standing at her front door she literally says something like "if i told him to leave i know he would" because their relationship was never san trying to keep her tied to him but it was her latching onto HIM. a nice guy would've probably said "ok u have feelings for me which i dont reciprocate, lets end this bc u are hurting yourself" but san said it himself, he never deemed himself an honorable guy so in his head its like "even after telling u i wont ever love u and that u should've slammed the door in my face bc getting back together is a bad idea, you STILL want to fuck me?" that was on y/n. he's not the bad guy but just a guy thinking with his dick 😭 can he really be blamed for playing off of her decisions? it was always on y/n to decide when to finally let go of him and that was not something he could do for her because at one point she was so far up her delusions that even if he said "hey lets break this off" without boyoung in the picture, she still wouldn't have given up.

san will always be a bad guy if we look at him through y/n's eyes but if we detach ourselves from her feelings a little bit.......😭

[flowermist7432]

I like to think Lonnie's personality is one of more favorite ocs i get to write a draw becauss its my favorite character type. LONG Ramblings below,, beware!!!

Lonnie is, to say...He's blunt, everything he says is exactly what he means! He'll happily say "nope!" To your face if he doesnt like what you are saying and keep doing whatever it is he's doing. However he isnt MEAN. He's just honest, although a bit long winded and choppy. Such as

"Im so TERRIBLY sorry my dear man, But i am in dire need your help to find my whereabouts of my location! Im verrrry lost! 8]c"

"Wowie, thats awwwfully rude! Bye bye!"

"Can I see your video playing device, of which i can use for photography means! This small insect on the table, and i wish to capture this brief moment!"

Like, sir you could have said that so much easier!!! But you didnt and thats perhaps very cool if you..

He doesnt facially emote that well and he knows it! All he does is a smiley look so he relys on the things he says and expressive tone or maybe even a crooked brow or squint. Drawing out certain words to bring emphasis on them! Sorta like Emmet, where he too repeats phrases..

If he doesnt like you he'll just say "i do not like you!" And walk away because he..does not like you!!! Being mean isnt his game!

But while people are guided by heart over mind or mind over heart, Lonnie leads with both mind and heart, because logically in his mind he deals with facts and rules he understands and then that alows his heart to do as it pleases!

Theres a point in my story where some very beat up, ripped apart scribbled on doll mocks him asking if he thinks he can just call her pretty and beautiful. She's clearly been scarred and hurt by the loss of her conventional attractiveness and now she's so tied to her own looks she's lost herself in such anger and pettyness! To which he says he doesnt think she's pretty, no. Because he doesnt think she is, but to him thats not insulting.

"No. I do not think you are pretty...!" And followed by a swift "But i do not think that matters. You deserve love and respect regardless of your looks, not in despite of them or because of them! Telling you that you are beautiful will not make you feel better, no... I think you want to hear that but its not what you need!"

People respecting their body regardless of their looks to him are more important than slapping on a simple "you are pretty" over a obviously deeper issue that needs to be confronted. And he sees that! He could easily say "noooo *i* think your pretty!" But it wouldnt have made her any happier since thats not the thing thats needs fixing!

Most of all, Lonnie cares, he isnt stupid. His dopey exterior makes him seem either sarcastic or aloof and dumb. But the truth is, he's incredibly observant and sweet. And logically goes about a situation and leads with his heart! Because in his mind, whats the point of being cynical and mean? It doesnt benefit anyone! He loves learning things, learning is half the fun of living! Lonnie doesnt understand smart people who blame smarts on their reasons for being rude and uppity. For him, he sees knowledge as a reason even more for him to be polite and accepting!And therefore i cant see myself writing him as anything but a relaxed, chilled joyus man with a fondness for discovery.

He reminds me of the lyric from play rehearsal "Most humans do one thing for all of their livesz the thought of that gives me hives!"

Lonnie is terrible at baking, they are edible and probably still tastey but not that presentable i suppose, but he learned it and hes having fun! All cosmetics doesnt matter much. He's a walking wikipedia, ask him about jars..he'll explain the ins and outs of a jar! What about a jar of pickles!!! Bugs! Chairs! How pencils are made now thats a good one! He'll go on and on! He'll happily read you a book the man has nothing better to do!!! He's my special boy and i love writing him dearly,,

#AAA RAMBLED SO HARD #no one will read this...but i wrote it and thats pretty neat of me...! #lonnie b honey #lonnie #ramblings #so many spelling mistakes and i do not care!!!