#bc i get busy and i dont think about her

[tobesobri]

sorry i haven’t been on much! i’ve actually been teaching full time and will soon have my own class so it’s taken up most all of my time recently. but im still around and i hopefully will share some of my vids soon of harry when i saw him on 10/29!

#also i need to share a pic of my cat’s urn bc i’ve had it for a few weeks now #its just been tough #bc i get busy and i dont think about her #but then i do and i get really fucking sad so you know #i’ll do it soon though bc i love it so much and i want to like highly recommend the seller i got it from #but anyway technically i have my own class right now bc i kinda took over since the teacher just like left all of a sudden #but i’ll be getting my credentials and everything so!! #and it’s w severly handicapped kids and i really like it #its actually like a few months ago i had such strong urges to just decorate and set up my own class #and now here i am in it fully lol

[ruporas]

lonely

[ID: A limited palette of green and pink, Vashwood comic. The first page serves as a prologue. The first panel shows Vash speaking to someone off screen while Wolfwood is lingering behind him. A black arrow is drawn pointing at him. In the second panel, Vash is buying donuts in the distance while Wolfwood is once again in view, lingering. and the black arrow is drawn pointing at him. In the third panel, Vash is leaving a cubicle and turning towards his right with a slightly peeved expression. He sees Wolfwood, leaning against the cubicle, waiting for him, and with the black arrow drawn, pointing at him, implicating the consistent hovering of Wolfwood’s presence during Vash’s everyday. At the bottom of the page, they’re drawn out of panel with Vash turning to Wolfwood and saying with an irritated expression, “You’re really following me everywhere, huh?” Wolfwood responds, “What, you got a problem?” Vash responds without hesitation, “Yeah, kinda...”

The second page starts with a new day. In the first panel, Vash is seen alone, weighing apples in his hands at a mart, with crowds passing behind him. In the second panel, he turns to his right and starts to say, “Hey, Wolfwood...” In the third panel, he’s startled from seeing a stranger, whom he’d accidentally called out to when he was expecting to see Wolfwood. He says, “Oh, you’re not him. Sorry!” In the fourth panel, the stranger walks off and Vash muses, “Right, he said he had something to do today...”

The third page begins with a close up of Vash's miffed expression, the continuation of Vash's thoughts, "Now that he's not here, this is just like how I used to be, but... It feels lonely somehow. Oh well, I'll see him again tonight, like always." In the second panel, it shows Vash walking through the marketplace crowd, alone. In the third panel, the door panel is a close up of the door opening with a peek of Vash's head. He says, "Wolfwood!" In the fourth panel, Vash is holding a bag of food with a bright smile and says, "Are you hungry? I got you something to eat today!"

The fourth page begins with a shot of the room, two beds being highlighted, one of them being made properly with the blanket draped over the bed and the other with the blanket folded and pillow sitting on top of it. There's no sign of Wolfwood. The second panel shows Vash with a disappointed look as he thinks, "He's still not here?" The third panel shows Vash putting the bag of food on the table. Stapled to the paper bag is the receipt with a written note "For Wolfwood." Vash's thoughts continue "He does like to stay out so, I guess there's no reason to worry..." The fourth panel shows Vash sitting his bed somberly with his thoughts continued, "It's not any of my business anyway..."

The fifth page starts with a close up his blank expression as he looks downwards, thinking, "Even if he left completely... That'd be understandable and better for him. I'll just travel alone again... like before... Huh?" The next panel shows Vash's composure break, tears welling up in his eyes suddenly, as he didn't expect to cry. He starts to sob, putting his hands to his face to quiet himself and wipe at his tears, as he says, "Ugh... Dammit... I miss h..." The last panel shows Vash leaning over into his hands, still crying, and in the back, the door swings wide open with a bam as Wolfwood walks through with the punisher swung behind him. He shouts, "SPIKEY! You in here?!"

The sixth page starts with Wolfwood confused, looking at Vash and Vash looks back, just as confused, with tears in his eyes and snot out of his nose. Wolfwood starts saying, "Ah? You..." No longer in panels, at the bottom of the page, Wolfwood takes the Punisher off of himself and starts to walk towards Vash, continuing with slight concern, "What's wrong with you? Did something happen?" Vash, hurriedly begins to wipe at his tears, denying immediately, "No! No, I'm fine! Nothing happened!"

The seventh page, Vash points towards the table, with a hand still wiping at his tears and he smiles as he says, "I uh got you food. On the table." Wolfwood looks towards to the table and responds, "Oh. I was getting hungry, thanks." He turns his head back to Vash immediately after with an uncertain expression, knowing the other wasn't responding to his concern, and says, "But, I know you're an idiot with this stuff, so I'm reminding you again. Don't brush it off if it's an issue, alright?"

The eight page, Vash's tears have dried and he looks to Wolfwood with a soft smile and responds, "Yeah. It's okay though..." A panel at the center shows a side view of Vash approaching Wolfwood. At the bottom of the page, with no panel, is a close up shot of Vash's hand, holding onto the edge of Wolfwood's jacket sleeve, as he says, "Because you're here now. Wolfwood."

The final page is a back shot of both of them standing next to each other, Wolfwood's head tilted slightly to the left, not fully believing Vash as he says, "That doesn't answer anything, Spikey." Vash responds, "There's no need to talk about it! You should enjoy your food. Let's have a drink too?" Wolfwood responds, "Tsk, tsk. Fine, yeah. I could use one." END ID]

#vashwood #vash the stampede #nicholas d wolfwood #trigun #trigun maximum #but onto this comic... i think and talk a LOT about vash's loneliness bc trigun is just. kind of central on that for a good while! esp in #the original manga he was alone for a good portion of it and he tends to keep others away like how he ran away from meryl and milly when #they tried to tag along. and he was kind of bothered when he realized ww was following him around Too. at the core even though he loves #humans and he loves deeply the people he does know -- he isnt really much of a people person and i think thats been the case since he was #young considering his initial doubts towards humans... with the exception of kids bc kids dont give him moral conflicts. so suddenly #here comes wolfwood!!! his guide. someone TRULY affixed to him until he has to get to knives. someone who isnt budging and someone whos #really good at following him around and even seems like he goes like 5 steps ahead to make sure vash doesnt run on him #in one way its - i don't want you to follow me bc i don't want to burden you and i don't want you to kill the people i want to save. #in another way its - i like this companionship. i like waking up to you and i like ending the way with you. i like talking to someone who #knows my world. i like being in your space and sometimes i enjoy talking about our day #theyre just living together. like. roadtrip buddies or theyre also under the same roof because they're going everywhere together. #trimax they mainly spend their mornings together and if they had personal business attend the other person would usually know and itd only #be during the midday. anyway bc of this kind of companionship i figure that vash eventually grew accustom to it and he really. cant go back #to the kind of loneliness from before. it's harder to imagine and it'd be harder to withstand. esp after 2 years with lina and her grandma. #ruporas art

[samarecharm]

Fake Dating for an event but make it Makoann

MAYBE its preparation for Shidos palace? Getting intel on some people on his hitlist before infiltrating for real?

Originally Akira was willing to take Makotos place, but there were concerns that someone would recognize him through the makeup. “Shido KNOWS your face; we cant risk that.”

Futaba doesnt go for very obv reasons (agoraphobic), but also, she needs to have a live feed of everything being said incase they need to leave the event early. And Haru cant go bc shes the daughter of Okumura; she would be recognized immediately. Makoto is simply the best choice given the (unfortunate) circumstances.

Normally, they would joke about Ann’s acting; but shes a model and she knows how to act appropriately in these kinds of situations. Its not an act, its her Job, and its kind of wild for Makoto to see her effortlessly mingle w so many important and intimidating people without a care in the world. Makoto finds herself less stressed about the event because of it, and perhaps even a little emboldened 😳

Bonus Doodle under the cut (drawn before the images up top)

#persona 5 #makoann #ann takamaki #makoto niijima #arts #funny bc it started w me trying to make some very nice and simple outfits for ann #and the dress n clutch looked really nice. like nice enough to be a unassuming outfit to wear at a fancy event #and like. i DONT have a legit place i could see this happening ingame; shido was kind of last minute #but then. i dunno. i feel like futabas hacking skills were pretty underutilized in the game #shes sneaky but thats about It #i need her making up fake credentials and IDs for her team #and making vip invitations for them to get wherever they need to go #yeah they have haru bc shes rich but WHY make her go through all that? #if anything i feel like she would be helpful to give futaba some people to search #and businesses owned by those people #anyway. rambling #i had a version of that second image w makoto resting her hand on anns butt bc shes so short and ann is Big #and ann teasing her for it #but decided against it bc i think makoto would be so paranoid about accidentally grabbing her ass LMAO #also. i guess TECHNICALLY they would be drinking. but they are also pretending to be in their 20s #as like. up n coming investors or whatever. so ann is like ‘makoto this is one time where i need u to not be a narc.’ #imagining makoto carrying a full cup w her the entire event bc she almost audibly gagged when she sipped the alcohol #ann just takes from her cup from time to time bc shes just like that (shares food n drinks w ryuji and akira all the time) #but makoto is like. good lird. indirect kiss. #its made more apparent when anns lipstick stains the glass a bit #makoto: what the hell did i get myself into. jesus.

[crunchycrystals]

the smosh cast should get on dirty laundry like they're a group of professional comedians and improvisers who are friends making youtube videos together located in LA it would be perfect plus they have an overlap already like damien has been on um actually and ify and saige ryan have both appeared on smosh and dropout and patrick who appeared in the BEST dirty laundry episode either has worked or currently works at smosh i'm shocked it hasnt happened yet

#crunchyposts #dirty laundry #yt #also there was a tntl with sam reigel and matt mercer im genuinely surprised the smosh and dropout overlap isnt bigger #i just think it would be very fun and chaotic if angela got on the dirty laundry set id cry laughing #but yk obvious asterisk if their schedules are busy or if some people dont want to etc etc you get what i mean #edit right after i posted this i found out patrick and angela have a podcast along with two other people just like. hello #smosh #edit number 2 !!!!! was stalking sephie's twitter bc i was bored and saw her retweeting a thing from trevor about him streaming #very mild connection but yk

[moeblob]

Lander: Did you just call my romantic options I give to Gavvin "a multiple choice test"...... Basil: Yes. Lander: It's not a test - Basil: If there is a wrong answer in your mind to the options provided, it's a test.

Lander runs a convenience store (he got it after his parents died) and he has a huge crush on very broke Gavvin who showed up one day out of the blue. And so Lander hires him and lets him live with him in the back of the store and honestly it's love at first sight for Lander. But Gavvin is much more "mmmmm kinda wary of you for hiring a guy off the street you've never seen before but I accept the job thank you".

Basil unfortunately is a teacher who has to not only put up with his teenage students but also Lander (and their very weird friendship) and Gavvin (very socially awkward new guy in town who asks a lot of questions to him specifically). Basil is chronically done with everyone while everyone is like "ah yes, he can help me with my problems".

#my characters #they are from a very old plot where i just .... wanted to explore relationships #i dont talk about it much because there wasnt actually a plot but its just me fascinated by ages and interactions #like basil as a respected teacher getting constantly slammed with weird gavvin questions and student drama #while lander vs his crush on gavvin also has two other employees to interact with #and then the students had interactions with each other and siblings #and then one student was the younger sibling of the butcher while there was also a bakery owning family #so then there was like... businesses kinda interacting #it was all over the place for what was going on but i just like interactions #lander and gavvin actually fit the requited young love spot #while there was also a married couple who were absolutely in love with each other and it was great #they were so sweet to each other and i love them a lot lol #anyway i just remember there was a student who had the nickname panda and thats about it #he was good friends with the butchers younger brother ?? but bc they were in the same class #and panda had a girl that was his bff and had been for years and im trying to remember her name #it started with an r i think ??? #there are too many tags already im gonna shut up now

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#hello to anyone who happens to b interested in the saga of my life... also maybe the irl person i gave my url to... hopefully my blog #didnt freak her out too much lol. anyway so its been a busy week? 2 weeks? month? year? life? its been a lot. my parents helped me move #across the country from the desert to somewhere that's beautiful and green. my dad is so jealous of me lol its so so so pretty and theres s #so much to do. will i do any of it? that remains to be seen but im gonna try to be better about that sort of thing. try to get some help #with the thoughts in my head that keep me from doing and enjoying most things. its weird like im decorating my new room which i love. the #location and living situation seem ideal and i really hope i can stay here all 5 years of my program but i was picking a lot of bright #colors and now it feel uncomfortable. like if i wear things that r too bright or my room is too bright without dark contrast it feel weird #like if im wearing it it kinda makes me feel sick. idk what thats abt. anyway. ill try to heal my brain and im just so happy to b out of the #southwest. i was so so so excited when we were leaving thr city and even more so when we left the state. i cant believe im here. in December #it felt like a million years away and i really truely could not fathom how i was gonna survive that long. my thoughts were so distorted. but #i did and here i am. and in like a month i should b starting my phd program and my parents were telling me how excited ppl r for me and #jealous of where im living and im glad. im glad they're excited. i think i am too but its under a layer of: if i get excited it wont happen #im not allowed to b excited or it wont happen. which is irrational but ya kno. anyway so that's yeah. im so happy to have a fresh start and #the town seems super cool. a liberal blip in a sea of... not that so theyre very visibly pride forward haha and i think itll b way easier #for me to get around without driving. and im gonna try to make friends. i need someone to tell me where to get tattoos haha. so yea im happy #but exhausted and i dont wanna go back to work and so so greatful to my parents for being wonderful ppl idk how bc both of them had fucked #up childhoods. like my mum will say the saddest shit and im like bro this is y i don't wanna talk to my grandma fuck her and my dads parents #r so fucked. like my nana is the reason im so fucking control freaked out but i kno i have issues and she has no insight and thinks shes #better than everyone. anyway hopefully i can get back to drawing a posting more now. ive been drawing it its been in a sketch book #like an actual sketch book for sketching big ideas thst r gonna take fucking forever to draw 😭 #so that's all. just uprooted my whole life. thats all. but in a good way :-] #unrelated

[prommytheus]

some ocs, lilac and anderson ^_^

#my art #oc #anthro #anthro cat #anthro bunny #i was thinking about how good the ace attorney mc dynamic is: bitch business man + spunky teen #and they happened #anderson is about 26ish? and lilac is 16 #im not sure what happened to lilacs parents/previous guardians but hes her caretaker #i dont have any real story ideas for them yet but i like them and what to come up with at least a one shot comic #i dont make or post ocs much bc i always get nervous abour originality or they end up turning out unsatisfying #but i like these two a lot

[arionawrites]

1. it’s my 24th birthday today, so my goal of being published by the time i’m 25 is now a one year looming monster, but i never specified what kind of published and am currently looking in various literary magazines that are recommended for writers who have yet to be published, so i’m surprisingly confident that i can make it work? and tbh even if whatever i write isn’t officially published before my 25th birthday, if i have someone in the process of being published then i’ll be happy!! no matter what though, i’m gonna try to be proud of myself for at least giving it my best shot!!

2. i honestly love that my birthday is on the ides of march because the ides of march meme shitposting is only a thing on tumblr but it also being my birthday makes it easier to like. be excited about the ides of march outside of tumblr. like even in person i can be like “it’s my birthday! i’m an ides of march babe (:” and if someone is like oh what’s that? or if they say something along the lines of oh like julius caesar? i can be like yep!! and even if it’s a small thing outside of tumblr it brings me immense enjoyment and amusement being able to bring it up off of tumblr

3. transportation situation has been very rough since june 2023 when i totalled my car, my gap insurance are being assholes and i ended up putting my foot down on the phone with them yesterday which i’m pretty proud of because i am NOT a confrontational person (something i’ve been working on this past year, so seeing some improvement with my ability to hold my ground and not be a pushover yesterday was very cool!!) i was told i’d get a response from them by friday next week no matter what, and if i don’t then friday of next week i will continue to wreak havoc upon them. but my moms car which i’ve been using since my accident broke down yesterday, hopefully it’s fixable but my parents were saying it might be done for, so trying to think of how i’m gonna get to work next week is kind of stressing me out lmao, but for now i’m just gonna focus on enjoying my birthday the best i can because i don’t want to start off being 24 with an overwhelming anxiety for something that won’t be a potential issue until monday. plus i already messaged my boss today to let her know that i’m going to do everything i can to make it work out but just so she’s in the loop and knows of the potential of me not being able to make my morning shifts (one of my coworkers said she’s more than happy to give me a ride for our afternoon shifts which does help relieve some of the stress!) and i told her i’d let her know for sure sunday so that if necessary she can have time to figure out someone to fill in for me in the mornings!

overall: life is weird and i ended being 23 yesterday with a shitty situation but a positive outlook and i am going to enjoy my first day of being 24 no matter what because honestly i fucking earned it. happy friday everyone, i hope it’s a good day for you and me both!

#aritalks #i did cry a little bit when i first woke up because i dont really know what to do about work and also i hate not having a car i can use #not only because of the work aspect but also getting my license when i was 18 gave me a freedom i didn’t have before #and i don’t like having to rely on other people just to like go to the fucking store or something yk #but then my best friend/roommate messaged me happy birthday and i was like fuck it! today is going to be a good day! #the stressful uncertainties can wait until tomorrow #also one of my best friends who hasn’t said happy birthday to me the past two years #(not intentionally im p sure they were just busy on my birthdays the past two years #and then had that moment of ‘oh shit i didnt send a message fuck i think its too late now’ which i totally get bc anxiety things yk) #was one of the first people to message me happy birthday!! #i’m also hoping to still be able to go see my mom and then stay the night at my dads tonight #so i can see both my parents and also my baby siblings for my birthday #my dads working today but after he texted happy birthday i sent him a text asking if he thinks we could still make it work #my mom is asleep still i think (she called me at midnight and left a voicemail singing happy birthday!! but her sleep schedule has been all #over the place recently so i’m waiting until 11:30 to call her which is in like 30 mins) #but she said something yesterday about driving out to me to give me a hug and also bring me my diabetes stuff that got delivered #(her house is my mailing address because i know it’s not going to change bc it’s my great grandparents house that she’s partially inhereting #when my great grandpa dies but since i have moved out of my dads my address has changed twice and i didnt have a mailbox at my last place so #just for the sake of consistency and not having to worry about important shit getting sent to the wrong address i’ve had her house as my #mailing address since i moved out of my dads at 19) #so i think i’m gonna ask her if she can just pick me up instead so i can go to her house w her and hang out with her #and hopefully my dad will be able to at least stop by with my siblings so i can see them too #i’d like to stay the night with them but if we can’t make it happen then i can also stay the night w my mom and hopefully tomorrow figure #out the car situation. might have to rent a car for a week if i can afford it? best case scenario is my moms car can be fixed but i still #dont know whats wrong with it ik there are two potential problems and one is fixable the other is not #the fixable one would cost like $150-$400 to fix depending on if we get a used part or a new one #if its $150-$200 ish i can probably afford to pay for the whole thing or at least most of it #but if its more than that hopefully my dad or one of my family members can help #and i can just pay them back in like $50 increments with my next few paychecks #just realized i said i wouldnt worry abt the car thing today and also i think im at tag limit to i’ll stop now lmao xoxo gossip girl ❤️

[fiendishartist2]

putting a man in my screenwriting tv show concept with shaking hands knowing the fandom would completely disregard the sapphic main characters for him

#teeth gritted rn giving him the worst most normal average joe name. bc i want no one to care about him #ive learned my lesson being a tma fan #fandom would rather sympathize w a shitty man than have basic empathy or understanding or respect for a woman #im adding a shitty boyfriend to the story bc it needs outside conflict. so robin has a lowkey misogynistic bf lol #hes the type of guy who seems normal until you express any sort of interest in traditionally feminine interests #and then he turns into a filmbro whos going to explain the concept of cinematography to you #but if you get to ambitious and start to be more successful than him he starts bitching about chores and how you dont love him bc you- #were to busy with work to cook dinner for him #its not perfect on robins side ofc. shes becoming intertwined w this woman at work even if it seems antagonistic and shes starting to- #-ignore him in favour of aria who is giving her the excitement and mutual respect that her shitty bf has never given her #aria may think she is the most evil disgusting horrible woman on earth but she doesnt condescend or think robin is incapable #robin is in fact so capable she is singlehandedly ruining aria's life lol #anyways thats my oc rambles <3

[misspickman]

cassierose for the ship ask game !!

Ship It

What made you ship it? i liked them in tt03, which you know, is truly a feat considering how terribly that comic treats both of them. but their dynamic (angry homoeroticism) managed to be compelling still

What are your favorite things about the ship? i enjoy girl antagonism from time to time. i know were all sick of the trope that teen girls all hate each others guts but considering cassie has a pretty good relationship with all the other girls on her team(s) its fun to see her just go ugh i hate this one. this one can go. theyre just fun and bitchy and i think they should hatefuck about it. but beside that theres also so much potential there ! i think you know, if anyone writing that comic actually cared about cassie or rose or about their character development, it would have been interesting to see their relationship change over time instead of getting one issue where cassie implicitly calls rose family while protecting her, and then the next one she immediately she calls her a manipulative psychopath for no good reason bc they cant figure out how to make the team interesting without having some wildly antagonistic relationship that doesnt make sense if u think about it for a few seconds. theyre never going to be besties but it would have been nice to see them go from blind hate to an uneasy truce; they dont like each other but they do, unfortunately, care about each other, and lets see where we go from that. + itd be interesting to dig into cassies hypocrisy when it comes to hating rose

Is there an unpopular opinion you have on your ship? i guess its that i would like them to grow past mindlessly despising each other ? this is not me criticizing anyone but i feel like a lot of takes on cassierose ive seen are that they should stay in the hatefucking no mushy business❌❌❌phase which is definitely fair and true to how they are in tt03. but i do have some issues with the way they were written in tt03 (particularly cassie) and would like to see their dynamic progress from that (see rant above)

#i guess the reason im personally more interested in them sort of working through it is bc cassie doesnt have. a good reason for hating rose #i dont think its ooc but a lot of it Is supposed to be bc shes either jealous of her bc of tim (??)or thinks rose sucks bc she killed peopl #which is. she was drugged and manipulated and i think most teen titans in the superhero business should be able to handle #that sort of a not black and white situation #and idk. be more understanding. i know rose isnt super nice but maybe calling her a manipulative bitch constantly isnt the way to go #theres fun antagonism and theres cassie being just needlessly awful to her (that convo she and tim have about rose) #and i do think theyll always be bitchy to each other but i would like to imagine cassie is more considerate than this #and would eventually recognize she was occasionally just being shitty ! it would make for an interesting story ! alas #i think cassierose going from hating each others guts as teens to adult coworkers who dont really hate each other anymore #bc theyve been through so much shit together #but need to keep up the appearances of hating each other bc god forbid they admit to being kind of friends. that would be fun. to me<3 #ask #thank you. so sorry this got so long #youve given me an excuse to rant about cassierose so this is what u get<3 #sorry that the question was what i like about the ship and i just bitched about how it could be better #i guess the answer is im intrigued by the potential. also i love lesbians

[southerngothicaf]

God everything is euphoria until I take one thing too personally

#i know im just hungry and sober and i could be wrong #but i think she forgot and it's worse bc she forgot so she could get fucked (again) #ignore this #i know i could be wrong but shes been hanging out with him for 6 hours the least she could do is give me 2 hours that we had planned #if she tells me she forgot idk if ill even be able to do it today even if she gets back in time #i dont think ill be able to keep my emotions out of it and i have to bc i cannot be vindictive about this #i am not her boyfriend im just the guy she mindfucks for fun #that was too harsh and exactly the kind of thing i dont want to say to her #im just really upset right now #too busy getting fucked to even answer my text reminding her we had plans #god im so fucking mad

[avatardoggo]

soooo i was right 🫠😐🫥 the Friend like likes me and it seems e v e r y o n e around me has known sINCE FEBRUARY

#SO 👏🏾 let’s just let it be known that i’m an Obviously Silly Clown so no one needs to tel me that ik already so i already told y’all how he #said he needed to Talk to me and i was planning on avoiding him but my friends said not to bc it’s not the Adult Thing To Do and he is my #friend and i care about him so it wouldn’t be nice so i didn’t me and my roommate went to dairy queen with him after i finished braiding her #hair so we were getting out the car to go get ready for bible study at church but then he’s all like ‘VK i need to talk to you can you pleas #stay?’ and i was like KAJDJDJFJFJJD NO but on the outside i was such a Normal Girl and was like sure :)) so we’re in the parking lot and i l #left the door open bc i didn’t want to feel claustrophobic but i lied 🤥 and said it was hot so he starts out all like sorry i made you anxio #us by prolonging this talk and i was like lol no it’s fine i was busy with exams and stuff and he just kinda gets quiet and he was like sooo #i like you and i’m like #🤔😃🫠😶🫥😧 processing #and then i was like ok elaborate and he’s like i have feelings for you so i’m SHOOK BC WOWIE ppl aren’t cowards like me cause i could never #and i say well thanks for telling me and i think you’re really brave for that but i’m sorry i don’t feel the same way but i still want to be #friends but if you need space then it’s fine as well and he’s like ya i didn’t expect anything from you i just didn’t want to regret not #saying anything so i was ABOUT TO CRY BC I HAD TO REJECT HIM BC I REALLY DONT HAVE THOSE FEELJNGS FOR HIM so i left and went home and my <3 #almost exploded from my chest i was on the verge of a panic attack and i told my roommate and she was LAUGHING BC SHES SUSPECTED HES LIKED #ME SINCE FEBRUARY when he paid for my pizza and aPpArEnTlY hOw He LoOkS aT mE 🙄 WHATEVER #AND THEN I TOLD MY SECOND ROOMMATE AND SHES LIKE O YA IM NOT SURPRISED #so i’m just an oblivious silly goose who doesn’t USE HER BRAIN like kajdjdjhddjd and and now i’m thinking of the things i’ve done that made #him think i like him too like i baker him a pie for his birthday and i just feel silly and need advice if anyone has any but if not it’s fin #just an update on my life if you’re interested #vk overshares in the tags

[metaphysicae]

hey! not to be dramatic but i cannot fucking stand being in this house!

#me: why are you making me clean my brother’s room #my mom : well you dont HAVE to live here. why do i think i provide for you? youre just like your brother. what kind of person forgets #what theyre doing every few seconds? youre not the same kid anymore. #LIKE YEAH I WONDER WHAT MADE ME LIKE THIS . #I WONDER WHY IM SUCH A FUCKING FREAK . LOOK WHO RAISED ME ? #^ sorry ‘raised’ is the incorrect term. ‘who let their kids run around and play with unhinged fucking men because she was too busy doing #what she always fucking does . #she’s gonna try and talk about how much pot i fucking smoke? woman who gives it to me. #i need to get the fuck out of here its genuinely not good for me to be here #I CAN HEAR HER RANTING ABOUT ME DOWNSTAIRS LMAO #‘why don’t you stand up for yourself more’ bc shit like this. i ask why im doing shit for chris & she threatens to kick me out #vent post #DO NOT MIND ME ! I AM IN A MOOD . #i am about to explode i am sorry for ranting about my mom in the year of our lord 2023 but holy fuck #‘you’re not the same kid’ i’m 20. i am twenty years old i am not your fucking mini me.

[rearranging-deck-chairs]

thEY DID THE MEME

#it's around the world in 80 days and it's really very good #like every episode theres an obstacle and they always overcome it bc you know they will. but the dangers still feel very real and frighteni #but it always ends okay so thats nice. and there are little comedic moments like this #and the characters have their own like normal biases? like fogg is sort of a nice guy but hes also EXTREMELY ENGLISH RICH GUY #hes patronising toward miss fix here hes dismissive of passepartout. who i guess IS his servant but he also very much treats him that way #and miss fix is the daughter of the editor of the big newspaper so shes also rich and white and english #shes trying to make a name for herself as a journalist and not as her father's daughter basically #passepartout is a black working class french guy whos been everywhere and speaks a hundred languages #it's very good bc fogg will do these things like be really nice to a little italian boy and like. stand up to the boys dad #and then save the boys life and like encourage his dreams and listen to him #like the boy has a book and wants to show fogg and his dad is like 'dont be silly busy men dont have time to read chidlrens books' #but fogg is like 'oh i have read that! enjoyed it tremendously' and just be really nice to the boy #but then also like. is just very english. he expects to be served everywhere. he expects people to accomodate him #he and miss fix both use 'im rich and english' constantly as if that will get them out of trouble bc it always has #'im english you cant treat me like this' 'my dad is rich he will get me out' etc etc i will speak to the manager energy #and bc of the premise of the travel and the dynamic between the three of them i just keep thinking about dw bc THIS IS DW #the doctor IS phileas fogg. like. around the world in 80 days could be a dw au. or au is an aroudn the world in 80 days scifi au #but this show actually sorta like. is honest about that? about the englishness of its protagonist? #like what he did with the boy. he was being all nice to the boy and they were on a train and he also just let passepartout be relegated to #third class while he and miss fix got rooms of their own #he also has bouts of hopelessness where his companions or like a companion of the day has to be like ‘no you can do this’ #idk it just really put stuff about dw in clearer focus for me. like i knew the doctor and like gallifrey are english. #thats what theyre meant to be #but watchign this im like OH. timelords are ENGLISH. got it. like fogg really thinks he owns the world or something? #the doctor does the exact same thing #but it’s really a super good really fun show. if you want something kinda feelgood i can recommend this #also the way that every problem does kinda get solved for him. which is part of like the plot. things HAS to be solved bc he has to win #but still that also adds to that same feeling that dw also gives. things Have to end up alright at the end of an episode the plot demandsit #but that also makes the world bend around the progagonist a little. #but anyway yeah it’s fun you should watch im logging off again now bye

[viovio]

i know they scrapped the idea of miles having an ally behind the speakers guide him thru the asylum because it detracted from the intended horror of going through the game alone and because they couldn't have women in the facility bc of the engine but.come on.friend

#speak iza #i will think about dranora in every universe sorry. hi you dont know me. get the fuck out←helpful #its also why im fond of him coming across waylon in there if done well bc ik the timeline hes busy being trapped in the locker #augh. guiding voice idk everyone go play cat in tha box its got a good spin on this #except for said scrapped lady voice. maybe idk theres so many things they couldve done with her #noooo kei you cant make an oc for-shut up

[kennabeth]

I'm so invested in the folcharts as a couple when resa's talking then mo immediately lies to and excludes her for no reason. she's the only reason your dumb ass is even alive and you haven't treated her like an adult and your partner in months fuck is wrong with you

and then he tells her he doesn't care if she goes back home without him lmfao men ain't shit

#inkdeath is so hard to read because I HATE watching resa become isolated #she doesnt want to ruin her marriage by confronting mo that she knows he's lying and murdering people #(babygirl YOU would not be the one ruining your marriage if he freaked out over that conversation but ppl dont make sense) #she cant confide in meggie bc she doesnt want meggie to know mo's out endangering himself and staining his soul red #plus she knows damn well meggie takes mo's side on EVERYTHING mo can do no wrong when asked to choose between her parents #again. no matter how deranged mo is acting #cant talk to roxane bc she feels insensitive bc at least she still has a husband even tho he sucks rn #the prince is busy and doing the same thing as mo #from her perspective inkdeath is lowkey the yellow wallpaper miss girl's just going fucking insane #and the two people she should trust the most are telling/would tell her she's absolutely right to think she's crazy #actually the more i think about this the more feral i get i want to talk about how mortola's always calling resa #a mute little bird or w/e #and not just in reference to actually being mute but in being stripped of her autonomy bc birds cant sign #birds that cant sing have no way of communicating with other birds heyre trapped in isolation #and her own fucking HUSBAND treats her like that! like she's inherently incapable of taking care of herself #or speaking for herself and her children and her marriage #and he finally vaguely concedes to let her at least take the kids out of Rape Is Legal World without a fight #but he's like 'we're over if you do lol' #i sound very mean to mo all the time i think but im SO fascinated by him #i love the negative character development that cant be completely attributed to the bluejay songs #but fuck he needs to get on his knees in front of resa and beg her forgiveness idcidc he didnt do one thing to deserve her in inkdeath #sorry this is incoherent it's 4am im in migraine hell #collapsed earlier today although i think that was less the migraine and more the lights were flickering #cant sleep havent eaten extremely nauseous but yk #inkheart derangement syndrome attacks me at all hours of the day #if you see me elaborate on these tags later in a better post without mentioning that im stealing from myself do NOT call me out #inkheart #says kenna #'i want this baby to grow up with a father' - 'and i want to kill people so looks like it's a tie' afhlfsjkkfds MORTIMER