#bc she just doesn't want to say sorry

[averlym]

,,, sun-dappled sheets...

#the sapphics got to me okay. portrix real #it's so cute how they go from falling asleep tgt at the presses to having a room to share #adamandi #portia elizabeth harper #beatrix valeria campbell #it was a doodle and then i was like i want to make it softer so i painted it over and in the process rendered it somewhat #it's still quite sketchy akdhfj but u get the vibes!! ++ tried out using a Lot more noise than usual #so that's like the New Art Takeaway from doing this. #;;; i feel like every time i draw wlw fluff it's stepping back deep into my comfort zone haha but yes. soft cosy comfy etc. #my brain was not processing enough to figure out casual wear so this is kind of just the stripped down costumes akdhdjdh but yeah #bonus side note here is i was like hehe wouldn't it be fun if beatrix hand + portia ribbon. as like a nod to contrast how #previously it was strings on their hands instead. and now she cut them off bc portia and also smth smth about the difference #between tying (the strings) and choosing to hold (ribbon) and sjdhdhfhfh ue. #*incoherent noises* it's about the softness. the touching. the idea of choice- but less afraid of losing it- smth smth inherent trust also. #knowing tomorrow you'll still be there.. #<- sorry there's a silly little conceptual thing in every adamandi thing i make i think #i would love to say this was For Adamandi Week but i do very badly with timed events so the truth is just. i woke up and saw #@/regret-repentir 's post (which is so so lovely actually) (credit where credit is due) and then spent the next 1.5h drawing portrix #the prompt was post graduation i think? but seeing as i didn't really respond to the prompt itself #it doesn't rly count in my head as a prompt response for the event. idk #it technically works. but also it feels like false advertising... #<blinks> fun times include this being the first time i've drawn adamandi characters entirely without reference. they have been blorbo-ified

[good-to-drive]

Not to start shit but there's no non-misogynistic explanation for hating Pattie or Jane

#i guess you could say the same about cyn or mo but no one seems to hate them #it's just the women who stand up for themselves who we want to villify #because omgosh you not wanting to be treated like absolute shit really hurt Paul's feelings :(((( #bc as a woman it's your calling to absorb cruelty from ✨special✨ men so they have more time and mental energy to be special little boys #sorry i had an irl conversation about jane that filled me with rage #saying you wouldn't have left 1960s era paul doesn't mean you're super nice and loving and special and better than jane #you're not a loving beacon of tender femininity #you have low self esteem #just the way ppl try to twist it to make jane a bad person just for wanting some basic decency and respect.... #if she and pattie did a bunch of fucked up shit that i dont know about please enlighten me #bc all the judgement i see comes from unhinged Beatles fans who can't accept their fav has a history of treating women like shit #(and that they probably continued to have those tendencies even in their fairytale romances) #the beatles #jane asher #pattie boyd #paul mccartney #george harrison

[rotisseries]

"I can see will appreciating all types of music genres" well I cannot. peace and love<3

#like sorry I just think he mostly listens to rock some people literally just listen to one genre and that's FINE oh my lord #he would not be pretentious about it I'm not saying that I am sure that when el turns the madonna on he does not bitch or make fun of her #that doesn't mean he's listening to it on his own though lmao. that doesn't mean it's his preferred music choice #you know who I DO think would like a lot of different music genres? el. and I have actual reasons for this #I'm not just saying shit for the sake of saying shit #like she probably wasn't exposed to music for the first 13 years of her life! I bet she loves all sorts of stuff bc it's all so unique! #I bet her favorite songs and artists are based more in sentimental value then anything else #like she likes madonna bc she listens to that with max. she likes bowie bc it's what her brothers introduced to her #she likes riot grrrrl/punk bc of kali y'know? #anyway. in summary. will literally does not have to listen to pop or whatever why would he #like do what you want with mike he canonically sang along to corey hart. but will? #anyway that's how I know y'all are just projecting bc y'all want your fave to have the same music taste as you #and like it's a harmless headcanon it doesn't matter I know. but it is a pet peeve yeah I don't see why will can't just like rock #AGAIN. NOT PRETENTIOUS. HE THINKS OTHER GENRES ARE FINE THEY'RE JUST NOT HIS THING #stranger things #will byers #byler

[holocene-sims]

a sneak peek for an upcoming (timeline tbd) update 😊

#holocene.txt #hlcn: story extras #consider this a thanks for the kind words on gratitude day :) #i wanna respond to everyone individually when i have time and also wax poetic about how much every comment means to me #it really does mean a lot #it's been a rough year and a very lonely year like i'm genuinely just so :/ #i lost both of my grandmothers this year very suddenly and the holidays feel empty now and i'm dealing with scary health issues #i finally had a brain mri after waiting for it to get scheduled since JUNE and now i have to wait on results and undergo some other testing #and i'm losing my mind a little because i planned a nice christmas gift for my mom and it feels ruined because the post office lost it #and my dad ruined the whole surprise of it by calling customer support on speaker phone with her in the room...and she ofc heard everything #i just wanted something nice for my mom :( she deserves it and although i have other gifts for her still it's not all what i planned #i don't mean to rant but i just wanted to add context when i say it means a lot that anyone even remotely likes my pixels #i may not know most of you very well *yet* (trying to fix that!!) but it's nice to feel a little support from somewhere :) beyond nice #and sorry for being absent a lot this year but i swear i have so much appreciation for y'all and i love you and your pixels dearly #i always feel bad like maybe it doesn't seem like i care in return bc i'm offline a lot now but i really do!! i care a lot!! love y'all xox

[bumblingbabooshka]

One of the best Voyager scenes to indicate Tuvok & Neelix's dynamic and how I think Tuvok is just as if not more 'annoying'(positive) than Neelix is when Neelix pours Tuvok a fresh squeezed glass of a fruit juice blend and Tuvok's like (paraphrased) "I don't want to drink this." and Neelix is like "Can you please try it?" and Tuvok's like "I don't want to, you're really bad at this sort of thing. It's going to taste bad." and Neelix says that Ensign XYZ said she LOVED it, she even had a second glass! And Tuvok says Ensign XYZ could drink poison without a second thought and Neelix is like "Tuvok could you please just TRY it? Just try a little SIP of it PLEASE??" and Tuvok sighs and rolls his eyes and sniffs it before taking a sip and it turns out he loves it. Turns out it tasted good actually. And then after all that Neelix tries to talk to him over eggs (which he's again cooking fresh for him) and Tuvok tells him he doesn't wanna hear "the life history of his breakfast." Absolutely insufferable this man I would have burned his eggs on PURPOSE!!!!

#I love Neelix so much and I think he and Tuvok are very funny together - irritating4irritating #People say 'Neelix is so pushy with Tuvok!' and you know what? I think Tuvok can handle it. I think maybe he does need to be pushed - #down a flight of stairs. (he's my favorite character and he's so annoying...TUVOK!!!!!) #Tuvok: -kicking and screaming- I don't want to drink the juice!!! It's poison!!! You're trying to poison me!!!!!!!!! #Neelix: Can you please drink the juice. The fresh squeezed juice I made for you Mr. Vulcan??? Can you please??? #Tuvok: Fine but if I die it's your fault. If I die from the poison you're FORCING me to drink it's on y- Oh this is delicious actually. #and don't tell me 'Neelix didn't make it SPECIFICALLY for Tuvok' bc I know he didn't but he says #'I'll start squeezing that second glass!' after Tuvok finishes his sip so he IS freshly squeezing it #Neelix: -makes Tuvok fresh squeezed juice- #Tuvok: Are you trying to poison me??? #Neelix: -talks to Tuvok while making his eggs- #Tuvok: Can you be quiet??? #<- TUVOK!!!!!!!! I'M GONNA KILL YOU EHHEHEHEH <3 #Tuvok is the most annoying guy ever bc he doesn't care about what people think and is a snob with a lowkey superiority complex #vs Neelix is perceived as annoying (post his relationship with Kes) bc he cares a lot about being useful and helping the crew and sometimes #is too pushy because of that but listen...I think Neelix is sweet and genuinely trying his best - after the Kes plotline with him ends I #really don't find him objectionable. Just chatty & a bit overbearing maybe Meanwhile Tuvok !!! #Meanwhile Tuvok!!!!!!!!! HHEHEHHE #st voyager #star trek voyager #I think they should have done more with Neelix thinking the crew of Voyager were spoiled - specifically how Tuvok acts Like That sometimes #little lord Tuvok. oH SORRY...for DEIGNING to speak while preparing your eggs your HIGHNESS!! #I think people do a disservice to Tuvok by not talking more about how he's kind of a hardass and a snob v_v also a disservice to Janeway #indirectly bc her bestie is kind of a hardass and a snob and what does that say about her?? #I also wish Neelix kept up a bit of that 'these people are crazy and also so soft oh my god shut up about the food being bad - we're trying #to SURVIVE!!! Eat the Leola Root!!' from the earlier seasons...I like when he shows he has a bit of bite #It's just funny and interesting that Janeway isn't friends with Tuvok bc he's 'not like other Vulcans' - she's friends with the most #Vulcany Vulcan ever and I love that for them. #CRIMINAL that we don't ever get any in-depth insight into their friendship #Tuvok

[metacrisisdoctor]

"rose is allowed to still be in love with eleven/twelve/thirteen/etc"

#sorry but i just disagree with this so deeply lol #it's not the same as nine to ten #because rose doesn't know eleven+ #that doctor has lived thousands of years without her in canon. he has fallen in love with other people. he has let her go #but even MORE than that. tentoo exists bc rose BEGGED ten not to regenerate #she may love the doctor. but it's ten specifically that she was in love with. #she fell in love with nine and grieved him deeply when he changed! she doesn't want to go through that over and over #that's why him saying i'll never regenerate is what gets her to pause. because she wants that version of him forever #which YEAH is a lil unfair of her- but that is fine! she is selfish and it's intentional #who wants someone they're in love with to change or lose everything that made you fall in love? #i ​wholeheartedly believe she would not want any other doctor than nine ten or tentoo based on what we saw on screen 🤷🏻‍♀️ #and it matters to me bc that's part of their story! part of who she is and part of why their ending works #rose sees ten starting to regenerate and says BUT I CAME ALL THIS WAY #she didn't want a different version of him. and he never wanted to change again either #because that version of him was born out of love for her #& all those things are tied together within the narrative

[irritablepoe]

Little rant about my friend and consuming media lmao

Ok how do you consume media and still have NO IDEA who even the main character's name is? I recommended tma and bsd to a friend - well he started both. I ask him about it - like who his favourite character is or what he thinks of it - and he's so.... Confused almost? Like he just shrugged and said that he actually had no idea what was going on - which ok is kinda fair with bsd but like. you know the characters at least. Each one of them is introduced in some dramatic way, you can't MISS any of that and surely there's at least one character that gets your attention/that you relate to/that you find interesting. I mean ok maybe you forget the name or sth, but you at least remember the characters when I describe them to you, right? But no, my friend had no idea who for example Dazai was - DAZAI?! Like. What???? Or Atsushi.. the fucking main character???? Or chuuya???? Or - anyone??? I was so perplexed. How can you watch something and still have no idea about what you're watching?

The same happened with tma. I recommended it, he listened to the first few episodes. I asked him what he thought of Jon. HE DIDN'T KNOW WHO JON WAS I MEAN WHAT???? Oh idk he's just the guy reading the fucking statements. Before every statement he says "audio recording by Jonathan Sims" like how can you... miss that?

Idk, am I just consuming media so intensely or is he just... I don't even know.... Disinterested in engaging with the media one is consuming? It's not even that he doesn't like it. I asked him and he said it was good. But what exactly does he find good when he has no idea about. like. anything.

#vent post #personal #ranted to my mum about it as well and she said it might be bc he's stoned out of his ass the whole time #hhhhh #but i think more and more people don't have media literacy anymore #like they don't consume media critically they just watch whatever gets their attention first #it feels so dystopian.... #like wasting your time on those types of media just so that you're passing the time and not engaging with it #idk if that makes sense #i think I'm kinda hurt as well bc i thought we could talk about these series together #i even watched some of the things he enjoyed but he doesn't have a clue about them either #he always says that i become the “expert” on those mediums anyways so he doesn't have sth to add to the conversation #but that's not at all what i want? like I'm not the expert of anything i just want to talk about what he enjoys #and maybe get him to talk about things i enjoy as well #this all feels so bitchy I'm so sorry #ok rant over ig #thank you for reading all of that🙏💕

[amatres]

gonna be honest, while she is a wonderfully played character, i do not like karna as a person at all lol. usually i love morally grey characters but i think im too attached to amangeaux to appreciate karna's character. like the scene where amangeaux had to beg karna on her knees just to be able to flee for her life with her child made my skin crawl and was probably the final nail in the coffin for me

and that on top of karna without remorse offering up amangeaux's child's life, which she didn't even have conformation was the heir to vegetania, and then her speech of getting 'drops of recognition' from amangeaux for 'her own protection and happiness' i had no sympathy for her after everything she did. it felt like she was getting mad at a woman she was trying to take advantage of who decided to prioritize herself and her year old child, who karna just agreed to kill

like yes, theres the political standing difference between them, but by that time amangeaux had no political safety and was discarded by her allies, and only a few hours ago in the game's universe was it proven by their own actions how even with supposed political advantage means nothing anything anyway and just

her careless 'im damned to rot so i have no care what suffering i put people through to get to my goal' just rubs me the wrong way along with everything else

this is no hate towards aabria, she's playing the character wonderfully and every move she makes makes sense for the character she has made, it's just karna makes me so inherently uncomfortable

#ama mumbles #dimension 20 #the ravening war #karna critical #dimension 20 spoilers #i dont even know if that will work but whatever #she just. she is so close to being a character i would like but i just cant. she makes my skin crawl and i rarely like the moves she makes #not bc theyre bad moves as a player irl aabria's making but bc shes just so. horrible. #sorry i know its not articulate but *gestures* #if i had more insight into her background it might elevate things but she just makes me uncomfortable #the only characters i genuinely like are amangeaux and collin. deli is interesting and raphael is funny at times same with karna #tho tbh he also makes my skin crawl at points. which is fitting i suppose both raphael and karna have a similar 'my goals are number 1' #approach so 🤷‍♀️ if raphael kicked it it wouldn't be the most upsetting thing to me #karna doesn't owe amangeaux anything but in the same vein if thats how she sees it amangeaux doesn't owe her anything either #and amangeaux was going to offer karna to escape with her! it wasn't like she was saying 'sucks for you lol' she wanted to take her with he #until karna rolled her eyes at her and was threatening her. only then did amangeaux stop #they're both littlefinger like characters i suppose if that makes sense? and he makes my skin crawl too #who knows maybe with time i can look at it more objectively but for now. bad vibes #also sorry for this being in main tags i'm doing this for categorizing and so my followers can block the tags #will say tho while the scene did make my skin crawl them yelling over zac was very funny

[reanimatedgh0ul]

it's crazy how when you really think abt it like all the teen girl characters besides maybe jazz are like all done dirty when it comes to their character writing in some way actually

#val didn't get the proper screentime she deserved and her arc shouldn't have be squeezed into less than half of the eps in the entire show #which is 5 atleast in a 53 episode show #paulina and star are completely flat characters this doesn't help in paulina's case given she's the only latina rep the show has #sam is written in way that she's now infamous for being one of the most hated characters in the fandom #bc of the way the writers wrote her character inconsistently #didn't bother to give her an ACTUAL CHARACTER ARC #despite her literally being one of the mcs #there's def smth to be said abt the way the show handled the representation of her being jewish #but like i'm not gonna touch on that too much bc i'm not jewish but yeah just wanted to mention that #anyways i literally feel like mrs.heffley in 2010s diary of wimpy kid movie #that's like rodrick is there anything you wanna say to women #and i basically need to the show to be like rodrick and say i'm sorry women specifically i'm sorry teen girls #anyways #danny phantom #robi rambles

[spaceratprodigy]

was thinking about somethin somethin nicky "breaking up" with iris while slow dancing with her

#extra salt in the wound if it's the night ellie and trav surprise them with a makeshift date night #breaking up in quotations bc at this point they wouldn't really be established but It Would Be Obvious ya'know #idk I've been messing around with parts of iris's story again for funsies and wanted some change of scenery #so playing around with ideas #such as nick even if he does have real feelings for her beyond not necessarily wanting their partnership to end #he's incredibly aware he is never capable of being the partner she needs in the ways she'd really want #he doesn't doubt how much she loves him. he knows she does #he also knows how quickly and easily she would sacrifice herself desperately hoping that love would last #and he doesn't want to see her unhappy clinging to something. to him. when she deserves more. someone who can give her the life she wants #thinking about him. her in his arms. the shotgun blast to the heart. saying the first I love you while pushing her away at the same time #also really really really have been thinking up the chain of events that would lead up to her dropping everything and going back on the road #alone again for the first time in a long while #needed a catalyst for her just kinda ✨disappearing✨ for a long while and no one not even deeks can find her #travis trying desperately to contact her at her home base. but she's not there to answer the radio #and he starts trying to talk to her through dcr because he knows she's listening #his lil stumbly voice telling her how sorry he is for what happened. that he wants her to come home. that he's worried. that he misses her #rambling #miss ma'am iris is that you

[ayrennaranaaldmeri]

i am extremely fucking tired of people solely blaming alicent for aegon like he didn’t have a fucking decrepit, irresponsible r**ist fuckwad deadbeat for a father. vise rys is at LEAST equally but actually more responsible for aegon turning out the way he is because the man is a fucking deadbeat to children he had no problem *making* and it’s incredibly transparent of people to act like it’s all alicent’s fault. like truly knowing it all or not, it’s equally bad because he was still being a fucking deadbeat and should’ve paid attention to his kids but too many of the people who watch this show act like alicent is the devil for not personally beheading her son or something. /sigh

#tbd #anti viserys i targaryen #pro alicent hightower #alicent hightower defense squad #sorry but they made vise rys extra disgusting but also expect you to feel like he's a good man #like where were your morals and your 'my ownnnlly child' sentiments when you were regularly r-wording and impregnating someone who was #a literal child when this started #people will look at the 15 year old and genuinely act like she brought this upon herself #like good king v i serys isn't total scum for even going there with a girl as young as alicent #sorry but as far as the show is concerned esp #her motivation could literally be i want to burn vis erys and everything he cared about to the ground and i'd still support her bc #like how do u watch how the show portrays this dynamic and not conclude that she is 100% the victim here #even if u hate alicent can you stop being so fucking disgusting about the wretched bc #*the wretched situation she is in #that man was fucking foul towards his children and his parental neglect is definitely a far bigger reason for why aegon is so fucked up #anyway i just think alicent should've smothered that crypt keeper looking motherfucker while he was sleeping #(before book clowns come at me i am a book clown) #doesn't matter the show made it like that and people look at how the show made it and then say the most disgusting things about alicent. #they also act like she did nothing but she did not do nothing. she did the best she could. #and people comparing vis erys to ned stark like ned would EVER be disgusting enough to do that with a child #fandom wank #tw rape

[brickwoods-amusement-park]

i was thinking about the bap crew parents again and I Haven't shared much info about them </33 long story short the majority of them are in a Messy polycule (only messy bc malcolm (sophia's dad) doesn't really tell his wife (penelope) about it and also he and penelope dont actually love each other (dont get married to appease your dad who's sorta in charge of a cult guys))

but anyways. nic (rebecca's dad) has had an on and off relationship w/ malcolm in which he's tried to convince malcolm to leave the cult and Not to raise children in that hell (he. did not listen <3) so thats Really messy (nic is really in love with malcolm and juliet (rebecca's mom) knows this and is okay w/ it but she also wishes that malcolm would listen too (she cares about him) but also malcolm is really repressed with how he actually feels about nic and wont admit how much he loves him) (oh and nic and malcolm met and were bffs when malcolm was younger and was allowed out of the cult to meet other people and thats when their relationship started (and a wife. yk))

also nic & juliet are dating blair's dad (jason) and they are healthy !! <33 very lovely and loving however jason's wife (maria) is not a good person :( and they don't have a loving relationship however she's aware of jason's relationships and despite the fact that they've talked about the relationships and are Supposed to be open, she doesn't tell jason about her hookups with other people (including her kinda-sorta-not-really relationship with penelope- who also doesn't mention anything to malcolm)

anyways that was a lot of info on people yall Do Not know and wont be Main parts of the show tbh but if yall have questions i would love to hear them i've made up so much unnecessary lore for them </3

#bap rambles #bap: families #im procrastinating hw rn so this is just fast and silly lol #and yeah sorry there's cheating and stuff. i dont condone that shit btw. just saying. #but they are toxic and there are sad themes to the show so </3 #oh and parents not mentioned here: #joyce and link- davids moms. very happy and amazing i love them #(they are also friends with most all the parents and support nic attempting to get malcolm to leave the cult) #(except i think nic wouldn't Say cult. but he would say like “bad situation” bc he doesn't want to betray malcolm's trust) #and also not mentioned: sunni's mom Lolita </3 #she's Bad. sunni doesn't call her mom (would call her lola when he was younger) but yeah she wasn't so great :( #but she's also not part of this mess Entirely soo i didn't need to mention her lol #okay. idk if Any of this makes sense but im tired so Post !

[cerbreus]

had a trainwreck of an in person consult for my sleeve tattoo yesterday only made better by the itty bitty yorkie shop dog adoring me and sitting on my lap the whole time.

#also chatting with my partner after ofc i felt so much better tysm chris ♥ #but yeah it was not great #it was supposed to be on friday #but she changed it last minute saying she was too busy can we do it the next day at 5 instead? yeah fine #kinda disappointing she didn't tell me in time to like do smth with friends i was invited to but had to opt out of bc of the consult #but whatever #get there early text her that i'm there. stand out side. in the rain. for 15 minutes. she didn't see the text. she didn't see me outside. #in fact.. she was in the middle of tattooing somebody. the client noticed me after 15 minutes and finally let her know. #she comes over all suspicious like. cracks the door and asks 'who are you?what do you want' #even after i say i have a consultation at 5 she didn't remember it was HER who had the consult. i had to rattle off all the details for her #to finally remember it was HER consult and say 'oh i completely forgot about that' #finally get let in and sit down and. she then spends the next couple minutes profusely apologizing to the other client. saying like #'ohhh im so sorry i completely forgot i had a consult scheduled.... i'll get this over with quick' which. well. :( #finally start going through it. she doesn't remember anything about the tattoo. not that it was a sleeve. not what elements were in it. :( #i wasn't expecting a sketch or anything but. even just having re-read the emails before the consult would have... been nice.... #after she does that she says 'oh we didn't really need an in person consultation' which is also. :( because she suggested it. #i get a whole like 5 minutes to rehash stuff we already went over in emails including her not remembering i'd put down a deposit AND we had #3 sessions scheduled already.... and it needs another 2 sessions which i wish she'd told me about because she's booked so far out my last #session might not be until. may. #i didn't even get to ask any questions! i wanted to ask! like does she use saniderm? (i can't have that on my skin) #does she want other things for a tip than just cash? (absolutely not offering that now) has she dealt with KP before? are there any things #she wants me to bring to the sessions? (they're gonna be long) #and then i'm rushed out the door and sitting in my car in the rain and just absolutely fucking crushed #and feeling bad that i feel so bad because like. is it entitled of me to think that like. #maybe if u have a client paying u thousands of dollars to design & tattoo their sleeve tattoos.... you'd like.... treat them like a client #i was so excited about my sleeve i was so fucking psyched and now im. not. at all. #i'm worried about what if she forgets about my appts? what if she books over my appts like she already did with just my consult? #and i'm left hanging trying to get things scheduled in so so so so late like i'm some second rate flaky walk in.... #i guess it could have gone worse

[bronanlynch]

obsessed w the choice to have reinhard & hilda hook up for the first time in the context of. reinhard is having a breakdown over his guilt at the death of his boy best friend like. very heterosexual of him, I'm sure

#also like. it is so funny to me that people ship this as like. them being In Love and fluffy etc etc like. the vibes are extremely Not That #they fuck bc he's having a breakdown. she leaves before he wakes up and looks terrified when he comes to see her #he gave her a military position and wanted to make her prime minister and every time she correctly disagrees with him he hates her for it #she's the closest thing he has to a friend but he can't forgive her for not being kircheis so he marries her instead #he brings flowers bc it's what mittermeyer did bc he's following a script bc he doesn't know how to do any of this #(this being. heterosexuality. having any kind of normal relationships with people. functioning in society) #she canonically doesn't feel like she understands how to be a woman #oh my god are they the 'he's gay she's a lesbian their marriage will change your perception of love' couple #wait no also. his reason for proposing. jesus christ his entire concept of gender & relationships is So shaped by what happened to annerose #he feels obligated to marry her now but also. as if marrying her isn't just another way of trapping her into that kind of role #like she's can't be ur official military advisor or ur prime minister. she has to be Your Wife. and i cannot see her being happy w that #like it would get her what she wants (advancement for her family) but oh my god at what cost #sorry these tags are just. my running commentary of the ep now anyway losing it at reinhard saying “can kircheis forgive me for marrying” #ok i was gonna make fun of him being like “he never got to marry before he died :/” like. i really don't think that was a priority for him #but i do also think given the opportunity he would've married annerose. mediated desire and all that #dreaming.txt #e watches logh

[aeide-thea]

mostly i try to stay chipper but like. sometimes it's just acutely apparent that yr the end product of literally generations of disrespect and interpersonal powerlessness and it just. it gets to you a little

#like it's so clear that my father doesn't stand up for himself because first his parents trained him not to #and then he replaced them with a hectoring wife‚ who didn't seem able to realize how much power she had over all of us #because she herself had been so thoroughly used and abused growing up #as the eldest daughter and helper of a social butterfly widow who derided her bookish shyness #that she felt totally powerless and miserable and took those things out on us #and so now like. my father swallows everything until he snaps and then he gets retaliatorily nasty #and i see both my father and mother in myself except that i have tried *horribly* hard not to be unkind to people #but often instead that just means i end up being passively unkind because i'm so tangled up and frozen #like. many of you reading this are people whom i have failed wrt responsiveness #because i've been so thoroughly trampled that i feel totally incapable even of saying 'sorry i can't person rn‚ pls hold' #i just weasel out from under all responsibilities even things i want and value bc i'm so thoroughly ground down i can't manage any of them #anyway. enough dwelling but like. it's all so pathetic and not-real-problems but also has been totally devastating and ruinous for me. #i used to be trusting and indefatigable and sunny if you can believe it. but like. that was when i was four.

[bylertruther]

not to be a bitch but it's so funny how most henry stans just like. totally ignore everything to do with will as if this show doesn't exist all because henry went after him and refused to let him go. as if will is not his perfect character foil. as if it's not all leading to what happened in the upside down and how the only stories left to learn are those of will and henry. like... . .. ok. this is me, ur resident gatekeeper, officially snatching away their stanning licenses until they pass their necessary continuing education courses aka rewatch the show 🤨

#(i'm kidding abt tht last part don't come 4 me u kno i'm an obnoxious little shit 🫣 BJDHFBDJ) #yes eleven is the one that opened the door for him in every way and made him but. this story started because of will. because YOUR man #couldn't let WILL go. like ........................ ok #brenner couldn't let henry go which meant el couldn't let henry go and when he came back henry couldn't let will go . #the show starts bc everyone is looking for will they keep el around bc she helps them look for will steve comes back bc he feels bad but #he only got roped up in it bc nancy got roped up in it and jonathan and he got roped up in it bc will went missing #like. almost every single character ....... goes back .................. to .................. w-[GUNSHOTS] #even the actor tht u thirst over says it like 😭 #sorry i know he's not real i KNOW henry isn't real it doesn't actually matter idc idc idc idc do whatever u want #but it's just Funnie to me. how do u ignore like. 1/3 of his story like that especially when it's gonna be the focus next season LMAO #and that's not even mentioning how they totally ignore will AND what he did to him with the mind flayer. I'm Sure It's Not Related At All #Tho Right? Right Guys....? #i have 2 laugh. anyway! lov n light 🫶