#be still my fainting heart!

[girl-drink-drunk]

finally finished eureka, now watching the librarians. and you're telling me i get john larroquette AND matt frewer?!

#imagine my shock when i saw matt frewer's name pop up in the credits #like my guy was ALL over the place! #two episodes in and i love this show! #we need more shows like this and warehouse 13 #blend that history and magic babey! #also john larroquette as a cranky old research man? #be still my fainting heart! #and matt frewer doing a weird british accent that somehow works? #bring me my swooning couch! #the librarians #john larroquette #matt frewer

[p4nishers]

he came out HE CAME OUT HE CAME OUT

#IM SO PROUD GOD #LIKE YEAH IT WAS OBVIOUS BUT STILL HE OFFICIALLY CAME OUT NOT ONLY TO US BUT HIS FAMILY TOO !!!!!! #GUILLERMO ILYSM #i loved this episode with my whole entire heart #I LITERALLY FAINTED WHEN I SAW MARWA SHE'S MAGICAL I CANT #OUTTA MY WAY GAY BOY IM ABOUT TO GET IT #guillermo de la cruz #what we do in the shadows #wwdits #laszlo cravensworth #marwa wwdits #wwdtis spoilers #nandor the relentless #nandermo #wwdtis season 4

[jomeimei421]

GYAAHHH people are reblogging ANCIENT art of mine

#mei talks #😭💀✌️ we don’t speak of Roosterteeth here any longer but #I genuinely do miss being in the RvB community! the people there were so so kind to me #I was something like 13 or 14 and still finding my legs art wise! I grew up in the community surrounded by people who #really poured their hearts and souls into their stuff and were sooo so kind to me #the art and writing communities were super tight and I actually am still in touch with many of them #including the man the myth the legend jason weight o7 you could have saved RvB if they kept you on for s18 king #like I still remember the day saltsanford sent me like. a 4 ask long text wall screaming about my lyric comic while I was in line at ax #nearly fainted #ahh my lyric comic….I still have it up on ur channel. before my dad passed away he would always show me when it hit a new milestone in view #old art is always kind of embarsssing and tbh I think my interpretations of the characters made me well known much more than my art skill #but after high school my life kind of. fell apart in a lot of ways. dad dying was def a part of that 💀 and I think I found orv exactly at #the time I needed it. but looking back at my old RvB stuff is kind of like #a little time capsule ig. I was happier then but I’ve grown up a lot too

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

yk, its weird being Way Too Aware & In Control of yourself bc technically i believe im having a panic attack. but somehow i am Very Unbothered by this, bc i know whats happening and its illogical. my body's having an overreaction and i couldn't be fucked to join in

#im sitting here casually looking up symptoms to make sure this is a Panic attack and not a Heart attack #got those heart palpies got that chest pain got that sense of Derealization got that shortness of breath #i even feel a lil faint! ive even got a hot flash goin on! tightness in the throat! the whole enchilada #and yet! im somehow vibing... #my body's throwing a fit smh calm down bro its not that bad... #maybe you'll calm down if i drink some water and eat some fruit <3 #shoulda known this was coming... was lying awake at 4 am with really bad palpatations s. m. h. #honestly! this is very annoying! #my vision tried to tunnel exactly Once but i fought it off. idiot meatsuit.... #breathing exercises and internal mantras babeyyyyyy i got this shit on Lock #oh! and look at that! my heart is finally chilling out #still gonna eat water and drink fruit #yall should do that too. at least the water part #go drink water! go! shoo! #hydrate or diedrate! always pick hydrate! #absolutely unprompted #alright well that was fun. only lasted for about *checks nonexistent watch* over an hour #i dont think ive had one that bad before! it really tried to Get Me! #had to fight off the deep sense of dread and rising panic with a mental broom!! #finishing my rebels rewatch helped but still. damn. these demons have hands #my brain: OH WE'RE DYING WE'RE DYING ITS A HEART ATTACK WE'RE GONNA DIE AND ROT FOR DAYS BEFORE OUR BODY IS FOUND OH GOD ITS HAPPENING #hard cut to me vibing with a martini.... wii music on blast... hawaiian shirt On and Unbuttoned... #anyway. drink some water. get some fruit. Thrive!

[mischefous]

👆this is me when i see ur art

HJKAKFKEKKAKEHFJK this lowkey jumpscared me XD, just me scrolling through my asks and BOO! SKELETON WITH BULGING EYES

on the other hand, this is me seeing all the lovely kind words about my art, it brings happy tears to my eyes. THANK YOU EVERYONE!!! I LOVE YOU ⋆⭒˚.⋆💙

#also guys ive already got a ton of awesome requests #keep em coming! #i ofc wont be able to get them all done #but i am tryna get most done. im very slow with each one because im taking my time and enjoying drawing these #if i rush then i wont be enjoying it as much and ill burn out quicker #and if i dont get to yours at this point in time #i will come back to them later #but thank you to everyone who has sent me a request! #ALSO ALMOST FORGOR #some requests i just dont get a clear picture in my head for. but dont take it to heart if i never get around to your request #i usually have a faint image in my head that i try to replicate #i still really appreciate the time you took to put in a request💙 #yall should see my pen XD its literally being held together with tape #might go grab a new one on the weekend. ive been putting it off bc its really expensive to replace #its been taped up since last year XD

[gummi-ships]

Kingdom Hearts - Monstro

#kingdom hearts #kh1 #monstro #scenery #my gif #gotta love how monstro's anatomy makes zero sense #you can see his skeleton while standing inside his mouth and a route from deep within his bowels somehow also leads back to his mouth #i always thought the look of this world was really cool #the entrance with all the broken ships looks very dark and glum but the rest of these rooms are very colorful and strange looking #the walls are always moving or twitching and there's constant squishing from beneath your feet as you walk #if you stand still you can hear a faint sound of what i assume is blood rushing throughout his body #it's like a low rumbling/gushing sound that plays everywhere except in his mouth which i thought was interesting #it's all pretty nasty but cool

[fiendishartist2]

today i bring you random tma doodles. tomorrow? who knows.......

#just me and my shitty sketchbook against the world it seems #i cant draw on my mac bc it doesnt have pen pressure bc it was made in like 2001 :( #idk if ive told the story of my shitty mac on this blog but basically: #a few years ago my cousin was like dumpster diving?? or smth?? and she found this old 2001 ish mac #so she fixed it up for me and gave it to me for my birthday #its too old to work with my tablet fully so it doesnt support pen pressure and slowly over the years its been degrading more and morw #now google freaks out if i try to visit any page that isnt my email and i cant get any other search engine to work lol #it also starts chugging when i have too many pngs in my files and gets hot enough to burn when i make too many layers in firealpaca #oh also i cant get anything other than firealpaca to work on my mac #its like having an old horse that you still make work on the farm despite the fact that it faints from heat exaustion all the time- #-and sometimes doesnt wake up the first few times you call its name. but you dont want to put it down and it refuses to die of old age #my art #doodles #tma #the magnus archives #jonathan sims #martin blackwood #jonmartin #melanie king #i love you melanie!!!!!!!!!!!! she own my heart!!!!!!!!! #georgie barker #do they have a ship name #basira hussain #not my best basira but its so small in my sketchbook lol

[dairyfreenugget]

(Going insane boinkinh one AU in my head)

Hey hey hey

May I interest you in

(Slowly slides my FaaF AU towards you but void just Disappears without a trace one day before the accolade)

Teehee

#thylacines can talk #faaf au #i love this au very yummy. a very fun twist on how Flower's dynamic with their parents would progress afterwards #the vessels live but the void exits their bodies in quite a violent manner (extreme pain and literally throwing up an entire person worth of #void). Flower was on guard duty and theyre found barely conscious in a pool of rapidly evaporating void. passes out seconds later #PK also had the displeasure of experiencing extene pain and burning as void forced its way out through his skin <3 And his moulds all melted #and evaporated. after the initial shock wears off theyre hit with “Oh No #the vessel“ and rush to find them. Well somebody else was already looking for the royal pair about this #Flower wakes up dazed and in pain in their father's workshop. their stomach hurts their throat burns and they feel lightheaded. the entire #place is considerably brighter than they remember and in they can hear two faint voices in the background but theyre too preoccupied with #examining their now pure white hand in shock to focus on anything else. until they hear their mother say “My wyrm they're awake” and #suddenly their parents are by their side. Now the two have no idea what void leaving their body might have done to them. Are they still #hollow? are they still dead? do they understand anything are they sentient? or was what was done pernament even without the void? do they #have the mind of a child if their sentience was restored? or do they remember anything? So WL stays by their side and helps them sit up #while their father goes to grab his tools. She's trying to keep them calm and comfort them but theyre still too disoriented to pay her much #attention. Until their father checks their breathing and they yelp audibly from the cool metal contacting their skin and suddenly they seem #much more alert. theyve never experienced true coldness before. PK quickly apologises and tries to be gentler with them. Theyre breathing #properly and they have a heartbeat. And he just pauses for a long while just. listening to their heart beating. Many emotions to be had #after the exam's over he asks them point blank how theyre feeling. And Flower looks up at him still seeming a little disoriented. and then #they lower their hand to their stomach and mutter 'My tummy hurts...a-and my throat burns'. It's to be expected after the way the void #left their body. so he goes to grab them some water and meds and they also ask for food and a mirror. And after he returns they just stare #at themself in the mirror and pull on their bangs for a while then blurt out 'I have your eyes' when PK asks if everything's okay. And he #and he almost chokes up as he replies 'Yeah...Yeah you do'. Flower eventually spins a lie that they remember everything but its all distant #and blurry. Like they were not aware until now. They figured it'd be better to not break their hearts #And now the three have to figure out how to be a family while PK is also scrambling to find a new solution to the infection #oops i meant to only give a brief rundown in the tags which is why it was in the tags. but i got too invested KDHDKFB

[zaggyzoo]

bad day all around 👎🏻

#first of all i thought i was gonna faint right in front of my coworker speaking to me earlier this morning #like i had to basically take items stocked on the very top of the shelves and put them on the shelves and i guess im not that okay with #heights bc i was pretty afraid of being so high up the ladder + having to handle glass bottles #so i guess that made me start sweating a lot i was so hot and then my heart started beating so fast i thought i needed to sit down right #there lmaooo my face have been so red 😭😭 #anyway im fine now my legs just feel a bit weak still but 👍🏻 #and then i got an email that my order for the camera i was looking forward to was cancelled and reimbursed bc the address was wrong #(it wasn't i just forgot to specify the province but like. that's also in the zip code?? but like ok my bad. couldn't you have informed me #before placing the order though. or before cancelling it.....) anyways now the price went up by 10€ and it's not that much but like.... #it's the principle hdjfjfjfj idk it was upsetting bc i was looking forward to it being shipped today so 😓 #plus it's been raining so hard #at least from Sunday i have a week off💆🏻‍♀️

[echoheart0324]

More transparent sprites that I thought would be fun to use eventually. <3

((There are also okay to use, as long as you don't claim the credit for yourself. Otherwise, feel free to use them, even though these are kinda specific...?))

#kh #kingdom hearts #khdr #khdr spoilers #my posts #echo's edits #i know there's still a faint orange glow over hermod and urd but the background bleeds into their sprites so 😬 #baldr's boots were also against a dark background so i have no clue how accurate these are either #but otherwise 🏃‍♂️

[illiana-mystery]

Found this old screenshot I took, and enhanced it a bit. It's from the 2020 movie, Siberia.

#that movie still trips me out #i just wasn't prepared #it's not a bad movie #it's just not for the faint of heart #but he was looking fine as hell #can you believe he was like 65 here #blows my mind #clint #siberia (2020) #willem dafoe

[hanabeeri]

new week!! my cats are doing good <3 the vet said to keep an eye on my male cat, to track his progress. no pretty decorations on this weeks update either because i feel sick </3 oh and i'm writing this on my phone so the formatting is a bit ugly and spacey 😭

what happened this week? aaaah...

>i visited the vet and he checked both of my cats. lucy is doing good! he said that her wound is healing up just fine and that the swelling is gone. when he checked harry he said he seems to be fine now, and that he can't tell right away what caused his seizure. since in rare seizures can happen once (and then never again) he said he won't do any further testings just yet. but should it happen again, i'll have to give him his emergency meds and take him to his clinic right away. from then on he will initiate testings and i will have to monitor harry's further progress

>i've been feeling really dizzy since yesterday 🥹 someone i knew has once told me that whatever i'm dealing with sounds like POTS. i didn't know what it was to that time, and i don't think i will ask my doctor to look into it for a diagnosis.. but knowing the possible cause for my dizziness, racing heart and feelings of faintness is still a comforting thought. at least i know that it's not necessarily my fault. before that i always felt really frustrated and upset whenever i had a flare up. now i try to be more patient with myself, eat something salty and hope i'll feel better. the only reasons why it's still hard sometimes are either lack of options to rest in public or my very own parents who think i'm being lazy 🥹 they always blame flare ups on anything but you know... a possible disability which, in comparison, is pesky at best 😭 i'm fine most of the time, i just need to rest on some days more than on others.

edit: okay so, i'm not sure if this is funny but i am allowed to laugh because it happened to me. yesterday i felt really dizzy and faint in general. but for some reason i kept forgetting 💀 so everytime i sat or laid down and then got up for whatever reason my body would move but my soul would remain seated �� i was close to fainting once AHAHA i'm okay though. i laughed about it yesterday too after the... 3rd time maybe. i heard a cat meowing outside so i jumped up, ready to protect my cat in a fight AHAHAH but my body said 'no <3 hihihihi'

and... that's it. other than that i stayed at home and looked after my cats. i was too worried to do anything else. my previous plans were to accompany my friend to something she was anxious to do alone, and go to a book flea market with my friends. i couldn't go.. but next time for sure! they sent me their book hauls though, so i didn't miss out on anything, haha.

i would like to think that my image descriptions are getting better 🥹 doing my very best haha. im holding myself back from going on rambles and adding extra information; like the fact that we grow vegetables and fruit in our garden or that there's a small spring and a house.

#20240526 #sorry for whining about the POTS thing #it's neither diagnosed nor confirmed it's just that the symptoms are there and i did have my doctors mention stuff like my heart rate racin #sometimes. and i sometimes feel really dizzy to the point where i have to either sit or lay down for a while (like yesterday and today). i #also feel really sick today. i could barely eat 😭 when i'm in public and i stand or walk for a period of time i feel really uhm #out of it? i can't describe it. i just don't feel okay. i often push myself through somehow because the thought of fainting scares me #there have still been cases where i almost fainted 😭 my head started to feel really warm and tingled all over my sight got dark and #my ears were ringing. wild experience i tell u. not my favourite 💀 avoiding it at all costs.

[sparrowmoth]

WIP Teaser: Untitled Wylan whump

I couldn't resist jumping into the deep end for this fandom, so here's an excerpt of the Wylan whump (with Wesper hurt/comfort endgame ofc ofc) I'm working on at the moment. The OC villain of this fic is a heartrender turned serial killer with a penchant for turning Barrel rats into living marionettes; that is, until a certain Jan Van Eck offers her patronage and points to Wylan as the ideal next muse for her work.

CW (for below): Non-graphic torture, brief asphyxiation, child abuse

“You are not ready for performance, mein kleiner puppenjunge.” She crossed two fingers, curled the rest, and took a step forward. Wylan’s hands flew to his throat as he whirled around to face her, then slumped back against the door—the door marked STAGE in faded white. Black edged around his vision. Curtains closing— “Soon,” the woman crooned above him. “Soon, you shine…” Like the lamps hung low from the ceiling on sturdy chains, their flames as bright as daylight, reflecting off the scalpels. This was a dream he had often, recurring through his childhood. He was laid flat on a table, stretched out like a frog with the white coats stood around him. His father, in the corner, was begging them to fix him. And they tried, with their scalpels, carving word after word into his naked flesh. He tried to scream, but they stuffed paper in his mouth, deep down his throat—tearing page after page from endless books— He couldn’t breathe.

If you're interested in reading the fic when it drops, you can keep an eye out for it here on Tumblr or via my AO3. This is my first attempt at writing for SAB, so it's a bit slow going as I feel out the characters, but I'm really excited for it! (I was up until 3 AM writing this last night lol) <3

#wylan van eck #shadow and bone #wesper #sab fanfiction #my fanfiction #my writing #this is a horror story let's be clear #I don't write gratuitous gore but it's still not for the faint of heart lol #poor Wylan #I do adore him #and that means he must suffer :) #thanks to everyone who voted on that little poll of mine by the way #sleep deprivation won that round #I'll write something for that eventually #but this idea started itching my brain so here we are lol

[tactfulsaboteur]

1, 2, 3, 10 reading asks

book i absolutely hate? i put down books i can see i won't like pretty quickly so i don't really have a rant locked and loaded for this one. i can go on and on about whole genres as a whole though because i can tell they're just not worth the paper they're printed on. the shelves and shelves of mediocre fifth-grade level fiction being marketed to grown ass adults. everything by joel osteen. [vomits] romance novels

book that first got me interested in reading? i've been reading ever since i can remember but the first 'real' book i can recall reading is the count of monte cristo by alexandre dumas, truly fantastic classic (i'm currently in a reread with the improvised book club right now actually!) i was also a redwall kid growing up of course, and also enjoyed the deptford histories by robin jarvis and gregor the overlander by suzanne collins. lots of anthropomorphic animals killing eachother in gruesome ways for some reason. i will forever be smug about reading suzanne collins before the hunger games got big though and tbh gregor was much better

did i actually read all the books required in school/did i start out that way? i was homeschooled so required reading was mostly public library summer reading programs, but yeah i've mostly always been like that. they couldn't stop me really

tell you about my top (any number i want) favorite books? opening a can of worms here, don't say i didn't warn you. it's no secret i'm a sci-fi guy so top of my list is always blindsight and echopraxia by peter watts. that shit changed me for real. wyrms by orson scott card is another one that, though fiction, contains a lot of very interesting thoughts. (standard 'card is a weird dude' disclaimer here.) i recently read jorge luis borges' short fiction, some very well done and intriguing concepts there. philip k. dick is a long time favorite of mine, the martian time-slip is particularly good as well as his dozens of short stories. and finally i will not shut up about gödel escher bach, i'm still wading through it but it's fantastically written, a lot of fun to read and i can already tell it's going to leave a mark

#whew that's a LOT sorry lmao #more recs in no particular order. #rifters trilogy by peter watts (some stuff not for the faint of heart in there so watch out) #stella maris and the passenger by cormac mccarthy #the laundry files by charles stross #(be warned the more recent stuff has had a bit more of his personal opinions injected into it but i still like it for the tech lovecraft) #mark z. danielewski's house of leaves of course #if you don't read anything else by charles stross at least take a look at timelike diplomacy #it's early enough to be relatively untouched ideologically and it's an incredibly fun almost-cyberpunk space opera #shadow and claw by gene wolfe (also not for the faint of heart) #if you read manga dorohedoro #q hayashida is an amazing artist and it's just so well done. dark but very funny #songs of a dead dreamer and grimscribe by thomas ligotti #(thank you to the friend who recommended him i owe you my life)

[robinsnest2111]

whenever I see The Sopranos mentioned anywhere I'm reminded of my storytelling and programming teacher at college. it's one of his favourite shows and he had us analyse an episode in class.

that man gave me the worst anxiety of my life just by being the way he is and it not meshing well with my own issues but I hope he's doing alright nowadays

#in retrospect i can view him more like a fictional character that's written to be konda cold and abrasive on the surface #as protection because of prior challenges in life but has some good qualities hidden deep down #being around him and having to interact with him made me anxious to the point of almost puking my guts out and fainting #and also some crying spells and hyperventilating sessions in the college bathrooms next to the lecture halls on occasion #but thats due to my own trauma not meshing well with his personality and presentation lmao #anyway i hope he's doing okay now and getting recognition for the work he does and finding joy and fulfillment. more than deserved 👍 #he's a fucking skilled screenwriter and i hope he gets to work on cool projects without getting scammed by work partners ever again #anyway. like. thinking about him along the lines of 'you made me so fucking mentally ill but i still have some fondness in my heart for you'

[puyopuyo]

i knew i was afraid of roaches but i did not realize how like, actually bad it was until rat nao.. lmao..

#i got so light headed when that thing flew at me and i'm still shaking and my heart feels like it's gonna burst #i think if that thing touched me before i killed it i would have fainted or actually just straight up died fr #my heart would not be able to take it