#because that's kinda how i'm feeling about it lately

[xiki-pupper]

I can understand how Shuro may be a frustrating character to some folks - in fact that is kinda what he is there for, narratively speaking. But it really gives me ick when people just wanna shit on him for "being awful/the worst/an asshole"

The way I see it, the dude is his own different flavor of Autism- repressed, conditioned, awkward, and forced to participate in high society, not to mention the culture clash - and he sees laios just being his own weirdo self and he hates it --- no, thats not it. I honestly don't think he hates laios; i truly believe he hates that Laios gets to be TRUE to himself, and he (shuro) Doesn't get to be.

And it's a feeling I can understand and sympathize and empathize with, as I have been on my own personal journey to try and un-mask and deconstruct and heal myself in a world that has made me feel broken my entire life

People scream "hypocrisy" as shuro sees the same traits between the touden siblings, and is attracted to one whilst hating the other - and yes, I can agree that it's a bit hypocritical, but yall are taking it at face value and not understanding where his feelings are coming from. Shuro doesn't hate laios because he has a special interest, shuro hates that his whole life, he has had to squash himself into a form-fitting box, behave as his family commands, and now he sees laios being free of expectation, just out here being a weirdo, and shuro is possibly feeling that frustrated grief that comes with the late diagnosed autistic situation of "I could have been happy, too, but no, *I* had to be the responsible one"

... at least, that's how I view it. Coz I myself have had those thoughts. And I know, it's NOT a good look for me to be out here admitting that I have felt this way, like for example, maybe I see someone else's struggle with anxiety, whether it's online or in real life, and I have this bitter thought to myself of "yeah, I have anxiety too, but *I* was still forced to be a responsible adult anyway" which makes me momentarily frustrated.

And before anyone jumps my ass about it, NO, I definitely DO NOT think that "if I had to suffer thru it, so should everyone else" that's NOT what I'm saying. But I AM saying that, there is a bitterness, when u see someone who is able to avoid a struggle that you had to endure - that bitterness is NOT thinking that everyone should suffer as I did, but me being bitter that *I had to* at all.

Does that make sense? Coz I really feel like Shuro just gets shit on because people think he's there to interrupt the Yuri and be mean to Laois, and I really feel that he's a whole ass person. And a somewhat melancholic one, at that. He makes me think of how I had to grow up Christian whilst being queer and undiagnosed Audhd my entire life, and I would be very very surprised to hear that a large chunk of dunmeshi fans didn't ALSO grow up this way, feeling broken and stupid and tired, forced to do things the "normal people" way, and then NOT understand how Shuro feels when he sees someone who is in a position to be mostly free of that...

#dummeshi #delicious in dungeon #dungeon meshi #toshiro nakamoto #danmeshi

[gracefireheart]

✨Here comes Team Fortress - Pokemon [Mystery Dungeon] Edition✨

'Aight, so, let's go over who is what and why I chose said pokemon for them;

Pyro - [shiny] Heatmor: This one was chosen from a poll I made, which had a few different fire type pokemon in it for, well, obvious reasons. And honestly, I'd say Heatmor was a pretty good choice in the end. Also, their ability would be Flash Fire :]

Demoman - Druddigon: I'm gonna be truthful. Originally, I thought "it would be cute if he was a Druddigon since it looked like the dragon on the Scottish flag :)." And then, way too late into the drawing, I remembered that the flag I was thinking about (that has a dragon) is Wales, not Scotland o(-( But I just said fuck it, let the man be a (imo) cool af dragon. Oh, and his ability would be Sheer Force.

Sniper - Inteleon: The most obv pick for him as 1. He has the Sniper ability. 2. He literally has a special move called "Snipe Shot". 3. Has a Gigantamax that has Inteleon high up on it's elongated tail, staring down at it's opponent with a water sniper harpoon thingy. And 4. Inteleon is lanky.

Heavy - [Regular] Ursaluna: It's a bear. It's big af at 2.4m tall (or 7'10"). And it has the ability Bulletproof :)

Scout - Grafaiai: I first looked after pokemon with high speed stats, noted some of them down, then spotted Grafaiai, which is a mischievous fella that does grafiti. And since I like the thought of Scout being a good artist (because of Expiration Date), I thought it would be neat. His ability would be Prankster.

Medic - [shiny] Togekiss: Mainly, I wanted to choose a fairy type pokemon for him 'cause of the old "dragon slayer memes" that went around when the fairy typing had been announced and was shown to be super effective against dragon type pokemon, which used to only be weak against other dragon types pokemon. That, and Togekiss kinda looks like a dove (even if it's supposed to be a plane? Apparently?) His ability would be Serene Grace.

Soldier - [shiny] Rampardos: Not gonna lie, I just thought this pokemon would fit him well. Sure, I wasn't able to put his soldier helmet on 'cause of how dumb this pokemon's head is, but I still thought it would fit him. His ability would either be Sheer Force or Mold Breaker.

Engineer - Raichu: Another one I did a poll for, and again, I liked the outcome :) Raichu just feels like a very Engineer pokemon.

Spy - Zoroark: The most obvious one of them all due to the ability unique to Zoroark, aka Illusion. There's not really anything else I can add onto this lol

#This took so long to draw holy fuck orz #my art #Team Fortress 2 #TF2 Fanart #I'm not gonna tag 'em all o(-( #Pokemon

[arrowsperpetualcringe]

It's okay, they can forgive eachother.

#idk #i just.... I'm thinking about them.... and about how both their scenario's relate to love #and in particular their s/o's ending their lives because of them #that's such a specific pain for both of them to share #makes me want father daughter duo content of them ok haha #i feel like Kazui thinks it's too late for him but could still give Mahiru relationship advice to distract her from her pain #but ig this whole thing is kinda silly--- idk i'm sleepy it's 4 am #milgram #milgram project #mahiru shiina #kazui mukuhara #milgram kazui #milgram mahiru #milgram 006 #milgram 007 #my art #sketch

[emblazons]

Thinking about Dion washing up on the shores of Ash (x), struggling with the burden of survival—how he’s quite literally standing in the wake of the ashes of his former life, revived from the death he expected and forced to face the ramifications of not only the destruction of his homeland & Sanbreque, but the world as he’d known it from the gilded confines of his royal cage.

Thinking about the way he would run across the wild wyvern tails Harpocrates showed him when he left the Hideaway expecting his end—how the victory he never expected coils and twists like dark tentacles within him, and every breath he takes is a reminder that he still feels undeserving of a good life, knowing he can never atone for the destruction left in Bahamut’s —Ultima’s—wake.

Thinking about how he is torn between wishing his death was the end of atonement and wishing he had not left Terence now that he knows he survives Origin—the way he is torn between his desire to return to what was once familiar, safe and constant and the way he knows he will never be the same man he was no matter how many times he might play out repairing the thing he knows he broke forever with Terence in the halls of Ran’Dellah (x).

Thinking about how he feels guilty for enjoying the fullness of the air without the weight of Bahamut in his chest, even as he misses the light of the dragon storming within every waking hour—how he feels more naked without the armor of Bahamut’s scales than he has ever before in his life, despite knowing that the humanity he so desperately longed for came at the expense of his dominance and the eikon of light.

—thinking about how all of this now pales when he looks at it in comparison to the optimism of the Phoenix himself; how Joshua, who has survived a certain death not once but twice in his identical 28 years, still ventures forward, determined to save others even as he desperately searches for both truth and his family, no matter how high the personal cost.

Thinking about how standing next to an equal in both rank and status—next to both a prince and fellow dominant—for the first time in his life both delights and challenges him in radically new ways; the way Joshua pushes, prods and demands of him in ways no one but his father ever dared, though with a touch of healing fire that permeates through the heart of him—bright enough to want to hide from, but not painful enough to burn.

Thinking about Dion dealing with the ramifications of his willingness to follow Joshua so easily—the way he can doubt, question and even disagree with the man before him and still desire to believe him, the same way he has since the minute Joshua entered that tent with nothing but a plucked white wyvern, a companion and a tale to tell about monsters and mothercrystals all the same.

Thinking about Dion thinking—how he must speak of his debts now that it is over...and figure out who he is now with all the feelings that living dredged up in the dragoon who met a phoenix’s end.

#phoenixflare #dion lesage #joshua rosfield #we've got a LOT of feelings about dion and phoenixflare tonight. I made tags about 'the fic I would if i could' and now...I'm so sorry lmao #this is literally just the mental expansion of the snippets you’ve been getting lately as well #guilt-ridden overthinker Dion my beloved #also...this doesn’t even have to be romantic which is my favorite part. they’re just entwined to an absurd point and I love it 😂 #will there be a Joshua companion piece one of these days? likely. but we’ll see how long it takes me to write it out lol #ffxvi #ffxvi gifs #my writing #...because it is kinda? #the me tag

[sskk-manifesto]

Atsushi's back in the game!!! ۶( ˆ o ˆ )

#And Kouyou!!!! #Also. I can say Steinbeck is kinda 👀👀👀 #King of the specific category of “I forget I like him until he's on screen” #I'm seriously unlocking memories with this rewatch. Like I haven't thought about it in two years– #but I just know when I was watching the anime for the first time I was being like #“Of COURSE the villains need to spend several minutes each episode explaining in detail how their own superpowers work so that the– #protagonists can get a perfect idea of how to best counter them. Why are villains made so freaking stupid in this show” aljhvwslchvqliyqwb #But. Eh. I guess that's just bsd to you. #Alsoooooo random thought of the day: I don't really favour how Tanizaki's ability was adapted in the anime. #I very well understand they were going for this green Matrix-like illusion effect‚ but every time someone says “... Snow?” #I'm like please explain where do you live that has snow glowing green. #Aamsjgvfaskjhfv sorry this is me being very. Cranky and nitpicky and having terrible audience etiquette in refusing to– #engage in suspension of disbelief. It just bugs me akvakcvqkyb I just feel like... Green is such a non-snow color– #that quite of completely disrupts the Light Snow / Sasame Yuki aesthetic. I would have liked it much better light blue or simply white. #What else. The way the Guild just goes on at stereotypes still troubles me a lot. The “usamericans can't be touched by laws– #because they use money to corrupt anyone” “foreign criminal organization come in our country to corrupt our pure and untouched soil” #Idk. Maybe all of it is true. Can it still be deemed a stereotype when it's objectively something that's happened before– #and will probably keep happening? #I suppose I'm just not a fan of the constant hostility against any foreigner. Idk. #This situation besides is extremely ironical. If you meet me irl it probably won't take long to see me being very outspoken about– #how much I despise usa cultural colonization of all other countries. It's something that really bothers me‚ how rooted and pervasive– #their influence is. So in a lot of ways I can relate to the author's sentiment #I just feel that. If you start treating them as stereotypes and ignore the complexity of a country and the wide spectrum of causes– #that contribute to its attitude in international relations. You end up practicing precisely what you're trying to criticize. #Okay this is the last time I'm getting into the politics of the Guild arc lol #random rambles #This time I took watching the episode slow I feel a little late

[vt-scribbles]

Something seriously lacking in my art is the ability to tell a story in a single illustration.

I've gotten so used to drawing my characters standing around doing random things that I've never practiced telling a full tale/putting implications into my pieces that require more thinking/looking.

It also comes from a lower amount of details in my works by default [since I like to get pieces done fast], but I'm tired of using that as an excuse.

#vent #kinda #sorry I'm just having a rough one tonight but I'll recover lmao #I think the AI art thing is really getting to me cuz like. #Anyone can make pretty images if they study and practice hard enough #[not to detract from people who don't tell stories with their images!] #but something in my brain wants to fight back because AI will never be able to Tell a Story through its images. #It can't make narrative choices through its regurgitation of random elements. It will never tell a cohesive and interesting tale through #detail choice #the worst it can do is create surface-level 'pretty' images by smashing together a bunch of mushed up information #but storytelling? that's human touch #that's intention. Thought. Choices. #and idk it's really bothering me lately that my images almost never... 'say' anything about a character. #this does not apply to anyone else's art I look at #it's just a standard I'm starting to feel my head apply to my own work and nobody else's. #which I'm taking as a sign that this is something I'm unsatisfied with #but the thought of starting to develop a completely new skill like that? terrifyingly daunting. #Sorry for the wall of tags I'm havin' some hella moodswings tonight #happens a lot when I get inspired by art I see #which I'm trying to work on but yaknow #it's a long process #anyways how's your night goin #I'm gonna cheer myself up by eating some amazing asparagus casserole

[n7viper]

not that I really owe anyone any explanations or anything but like - I know I spend time on here and make some vent posts or whine about minor things, but honestly? I'm doing SO much better than I have been in a long time. I've struggled with my mental health for years and it got really bad this past winter in a way it hasn't for some time. I relapsed into some old habits, picked up new ones, it just generally wasn't great. but I've been in therapy consistently since early January, and I think I've made a lot of progress. I'm a lot less volatile than I was, and I just generally feel happier overall.

I've made a lot of meaningful connections this past year and have a good group of people that support me and care about me. I've been making moves to be my most authentic self. I've also just been trying to embrace spontaneity and do whatever interests me, even if it's just "little" things like dyeing my hair vibrant colours. which I've always wanted to do but was never brave enough to

all in all, I promise I'm doing SO well. yeah I'm a little dry and crispy right now. but I'm an overall happy crispy cookie

#I've been playing d2 with some people lately. and there are some people in that group that if they ping a specific role to do dungeons #or anything like that - I'm immediately like YEAH I LIKE YOU I WANNA DO THIS WITH YOU. because they're like. safe? I guess? #it just feels like 'I like these people I wanna play with them' because I like the familiarity #and I kinda made a joke about it with one of them and they said they do the same thing when I ping for stuff... #I sobbed. legit. like how lovely to be wanted? even for silly things like games? how lovely #truly!! peace and love on planet earth #viper pls

[beeholyshit]

They just need to look at each other and everything's ok 🩷

#(🌺) *⁠.⁠✧ — Mako #(🌈🚂)*⁠.♡ —⁠ Rainbow-road shipping #I've been thinking a lot about them lately #I think because they bring me so much comfort #I ALWAYS THOUGHT SBOUT THEIR RELATIONSHIP BEING SO LOVELY AND FULL OF JUST PURE LOVE WIWIWI #Mako it's not someone of many words so they would always show how much they love him everyday with small actions wiwiwiwi... #while Emmet well he LOVES to talk and give them big surprises and gifts everytime he can #I think he is the type of guy who has a surprise and it's just like “I'm not going to tell you! just wait!!” #and then he can't contain himself and finally shows them JEJAHJAJSJ #Mako would also try to make big surprises for him from time to time but obviously they are more discreet #but I feel like Emmet is always trying to see what they are planning #they love each other so much I just wiwiwiw.... #I feel like talking about them but I'm still kinda IDK #don't look at me I'm emotional rn #🖍️ —⁠ Silly doodles #(♡) ｡⁠.ﾟ—⁠ Subway boss Emmet

[hailsatanacab]

Chapters: 9/? Fandom: Danny Phantom, Batman - All Media Types Rating: Not Rated Warnings: Graphic Depictions Of Violence Relationships: Danny Fenton & Damian Wayne, Batfamily Members & Danny Fenton Characters: Danny Fenton, Bruce Wayne, Tim Drake, Damian Wayne, Alfred Pennyworth Additional Tags: Good Sibling Damian Wayne, Angst, Angst with a Happy Ending, Danny Fenton and Damian Wayne are Twins, Danny Fenton Needs A Hug, Implied/Referenced Torture, Implied/Referenced Child Abuse, Not Phantom Planet Compliant (Danny Phantom), Bad Parents Jack and Maddie Fenton, Gun Violence, Blood and Violence, Gunshot Wounds, Mugging, Medical Torture, Vivisection, Panic Attacks, Anxiety Attacks, Child Neglect, Past Child Abuse Summary:

“If you ever find yourself in danger, go to Bruce Wayne. He will help you.”

His mother had loved him, in her own way. If she hadn’t, she wouldn’t have helped him escape. If she hadn’t, she would have dragged him back to the League of Assassins, to Grandfather. If she hadn’t, he’d be dead.

She loved him, but she loved the League more.

Jack and Maddie Fenton loved him too, they did, but they loved their work more.

They loved their work more.

--

After his parents react poorly to his reveal, Danny escapes to the only person he thinks can help him - Bruce Wayne. He doesn't know what to expect when he gets there, but it has to be better than where he is, surely? He certainly doesn't expect to be reunited with his long lost twin brother Damian. It's funny how things work out that way.

Danny is 16 years old, not Phantom Planet compliant

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Chapter 9!! Chapter 9!! Chapter 9!!

#danny phantom #batman #dp #dp x dc #dpdc #guys i swear i posted it before midnight i promise i wasn't late #i really wasn't #i'm very late for sharing this though but that's because i'm a doofus lmao #and i feel really sick!!!! someone tuck me into bed #my tummy hurts guys :( #WELL this is my last day of freedom my loves and turtle doves #tomorrow my nephew shall be over for his month long summer holiday sleep over haha #love him to pieces but woof there goes my free time #rip me #RIP WRITING #eesh kinda thinking i might just give the month of august a skip for updating #how do we feel about that? #no one reads these lmao i will never know the answer #idk everyone once again my tummy hurts and i need to sleep #GOOD NIGHT #sleep tight and don't let the bed bugs bite!!!! #love you #i'm giving every single one of you a peck on the forehead #mwah! #now go to sleep #i don't care i don't want to hear that you're in america and it's only 5pm there that's no excuse go to sleep!! #now good night

[raazberry]

i think it's beautiful how different everyone is and how we can all work together in our own little ways to help each other out but the fact that it's so easy to feel ashamed of your own difference makes me so sad

#like you can feel alienated SO easily even though everyone is technically an alien to each other #in the sense that we're all different and unknown to the other #becahse it is kinda impossible to know someone fully like completely #only you yourself would know #and sometimes even you might not #idk if this makes sense i just feel really. sad i guess #because even after everything we rarely ever celebrate different and only try our hardest to like #force people to always be a certain way experience the same things #even though that's literally not how life works #this is not to say that i'm against community! pls don't take it that way #shared experiences and even just in general friends and community are great #(lmao this sounds like i'm talking about the TV shows) #but like y'know? #in life in general i wish feeling different was a good thing #i don't want to feel ashamed of being different becahse i An different #and that's okay #and everyone else is different too and that's great #this has just been bothering me a lot lately #zzz #ok to rb #it's not a rant just me thinking thoughts

[irisbaggins]

Not going to actually tag this with his name, this is mostly for y'all following me and for my own piece of mind, but:

I cannot express how horrified I was when I watched Harris's video. How I felt like somebody had doused me in cold water, how reality slapped me in the face. I had, in my relief of finally submitting my thesis, forgotten plagiarists existed. Specifically, people who hunt down Bachelor papers to use because they're made by students, because we're oftentimes not actively looking up the topic of our thesis anymore. I spent a ridiculous amount of time googling my own topic to check if something may have happened, paranoid it might have happened. And, in hindsight, I know why I did it, even if back then it may have felt irrational; because I fought tooth and nail to finish that paper, to write it and submit it and pass it. I poured blood, sweat, and tears into it, and the possibility of somebody just stealing that felt infuriating. They just took the easy road whilst I laboured to get it done despite everything trying to stop me. That idea infuriated me, and it still does. I still feel that rage at the mere thought.

I just. I cannot understand anyone who thinks plagiarism "isn't a big deal". I don't understand the people defending this asshole for doing what he did, for telling us all that our feelings don't matter, that our work doesn't matter. I just. I feel so angry about all of this.

I also find it both ridiculously funny and blood-boiling infuriating that Norway is still having its own plagiarism scandals. Some of our elected officials are still being called out for it (one of them in our fucking education department!!), and still denying it! I cannot escape this shit, of being told that our concerns don't matter! Plagiarism is theft! What's so hard to understand about that?!

#text_loke #RAGE! I FEEL RAGE!! #can you tell i read ANOTHER article about the fucker that still insists she did nothing wrong? even when the University of Trondheim- #-calls her out on it? can you tell i'm furious that i hear this bullshit at all sides as of late?? #i have many thoughts but i can feel myself close to passing out. i need to sleep. not be enraged #and yes i did feel fear that my work was stolen! because the topic falls RIGHT into what somerton would've stolen! #my topic was fully queer and about a piece of media! and because of the niche topic i kinda know very fast if anybody has stolen my shit :) #which is also why i'm not saying what it is. due to that being very likely to doxx myself #so yeah. when i saw certain parts of Harris's video i did feel fear. because what i wrote falls under that category of 'genre stolen from' #aka. my niche subject about queer themes written by a student (in English) from a small country (5 mil) #like. i hate even saying this! because it feels like making myself oh so important! no! i don't think i am! #which is what makes this so frustrating! because i feel irrational! i feel like i'm being too self-centered in my fear! #i don't know how to process this! i just! i'm frustrated and angry and this is why i haven't spoken on this before! #because i DON'T think my work is good enough for anybody to really notice #but the slim chance that ONE PERSON might sparked my paranoia. and now it won't shut up #however. i now will because i am becoming nonsensical. i am exhausted

[cinna-bunnie]

i just finished iron blooded orphans and need to lay down for a bit

#it was so good #i don't have a lot of concrete thoughts rn just Feelings™ #it was SUCH a wild ride. I'm always kinda hesitant to talk about a show bc i feel like I'm gonna spoil it but it's also not new lol so?? #imma talk about it a bit anyways so tags after this will have spoilers #BUT SJFKGKDLA #so many people died 😭 imo the late deaths weren't as Sad™ as the earlier ones but still. #the way everyone changed their names and picked up new lives but still kept in touch with each other #and everyone finding Something because they kept moving forward. particularly Takaki in particular for me 🥹🤲 #hearing something as simple like if u see a lot of places and learn a lot of things u will have many options. but The Way he's #living that out is just 🤌 a long way from being human debris my boy 🫂 I'm so proud of him #and I'm glad that greedy arms freaking mf got shot up in the bathroom 😼 it's what he DESERVED!! #last episode just like. rly emphasizing that even though the group is done everyone still lives on and finds their niche #and it's tragic fr how many people had to die trying to realize a dream that happened anyways 😔 though it wouldn't have #without their deaths so.. i fuckn KNEW at the beginning of the second season when Olga got the warning #about how if ur taking shortcuts/fastest way possible ur going to regret it later was MASSIVE foreshadowing #and it's just like damn y'all r letting me know this early huh 😭imma enjoy the ride regardless and what a fucking ride it was #i almost want to watch it again but there are also Other gundam series i need to check out #not for a while though.. imma do some stuff around the house n maybe draw for a bit. #just rly sit on my feelings and the Experience i just had. thank u everyone who brought up IBO it was SOOOO fucking good #feel free to recommend other favorites of yours i should check out next. mecha anime has always been a blindspot too so #if y'all have any in general from the genre lmk ^~^

[rainbow-burst]

I being so fucking normal about this fit on him rn I'm beingsofuckingnormal I'm beingsofuckin nor-

#you have no idea how fucking long I've been drooling crying begging and just screaming for them to do a Lost boy kill count #like I just watched the podcast maybe like a week ago and I'm just like rocking back and forth on my bed like they're going to post a video #<--real soon #and oh my God I watched the video of the kill count in there's so many things I wish they talked about on there but I'm grateful to get it #they did talk about the sequels and.....ekkkk... I mean it's only based off of high demand so let's hope to God no one talks about it #or send any emails for them I mean if they talk about the remake that's fine I haven't really seen that one I know Sebastian stan is in it #oh my God I feel like I'm about to be so fucking annoying about the movie again I think I'm going to just start posting random shit about it #also lately I've been more happy to be posting and drawing again than usual #so I might be back on doodling and drawing random shit or actually I've been having more confidence in myself to start posting doodles #why do I bring that up because oh I don't know...wink wonk 🤫🤫🤫🤫🤫🤫🤗🤗 😉😉😉😉😜😜😜 #my laptop kind of sucks now so I'm going to buy a new one probably this month or next month so I'll be drawing and posting doodles #I'm also thinking about posting some of my recent sketches I have in my notebook but don't expect any Picasso or Vince Van Gogh for me #I know I'm good but like I'm not that good lol im jking kinda sorta maybe not relaly okay yeaj am BUT!!! #I feel like I'm back on my drawing shit again and if I don't finish your drawing I'll just still post it because why the fuck not I'm young #let's fuck around and have some fun why not huh #man I can't believe I'm actually really rambling here but yeah I'm happy to say that I'm going to be back on my stupid shit ❤️ #kill count

[conspiracydawg]

I feel like there's increasingly a tendency online to sort media into binary "good" and "bad" categories. not that that's unusual for human beings, but I also feel like those binaries are shifting further apart into "incredible showstopping and morally correct" and "horrible awful and morally wrong". now I'm not saying it's impossible for a piece of media to take good or bad stances on moral issues, but the existence of that piece of media is generally morally neutral. likewise, the consumption of that piece of media is also morally neutral

I guess my point is that it makes me kind of nervous that I increasingly see movies and shows and whatnot lauded as not only being good, but also morally correct in one way or another, whether that's from the writing's take on various issues or the opinions of the actors and other people involved in making it. people should enjoy their fave by all means, but I think it's important to be wary of the, again, very human tendency to categorize it as good or bad, especially in the sense of "this movie is good so it's morally correct" or "this show is bad so it's morally wrong"

#me bitching #idk I feel like it's something I've been seeing a lot lately #and on one hand I do have these somewhat high-minded concerns about the reduction of media to Perfect or Abysmal #but I'm also both a hater and a lover and in the pettiest way possible I don't like it when people refuse to see good in a bad movie #or bad in a good movie #or even just to be like 'yeah that movie was okay' #I love it when movies are okay! that means it wasn't bad! #I'm a horror fan and by god you gotta take what you can get in this genre sometimes #also I don't really know how to express this #but I really do mean that it is perfectly fine for a movie to be okay or kinda good or kinda bad #just because it's kinda good doesn't mean it has to be Perfect #and just because it's kinda bad doesn't mean it has to be Abysmal #and also just because it's only kinda good doesn't mean it has to be Abysmal #and just because it's only kinda bad doesn't mean it has to be Perfect

[cuteniaarts]

In another world, fate was just a little bit kinder

#my art #artists on tumblr #the legend of korra #original characters #sotrl midori #sotrl haya #seeds of the red lotus #look I was feeling extremely emotional recently. and thought about how different life would be for my OCs if Haya was good #and I'm a sucker for AUs like that. it's spiritually healing. so of course I had to draw something for it #I originally wanted to draw a companion piece for suiren too but then thought it was just rehashing the idea #and I draw Suiren a lot already anyways so decided to just take the excuse to draw adorable little Midori and run with it #I have quite a few thoughts about an AU like this too. it starts out like sotrl does. haya gives them the cold shoulder and is kinda mean #but then the news of the rl's imprisonment reach gaoling. haya is shellshocked at first. distances herself and sends the girls to their room #pretends she can't hear the crying. but really she wants to cry too because as estranged as they are. ghazan is still her little brother #she indulges late that night after she think the girls are asleep. deep buried trauma from losing her parents resurfaces #but then she hears footsteps behind her. Midori is awake. haya wants to be angry at first but finds she has no energy to #they talk a little. the warm glow of candlelight catches midori's eyes and their grey shade turns gold. she looks so much like him #haya realises Midori is even younger than ghazan was when they lost their parents. suiren is half the age haya herself was #no one cared for her and ghazan back then. she won't let history repeat itself #so she reaches for midori. heart skipping a beat when she lights up slightly. and takes her into her arms #holds her close as midori hugs her back. if she closes her eyes it almost feels like she’s 14 again. holding her brother #she swears then that she’ll be as good of a guardian to these girls as she can so they don’t end up like their parents did. like haya did #it’s a long road to unlearn her bitterness but she tries her best. it’s easier with midori who soaks in affection like a sponge #Midori’s happiness is infectious. with suiren it’s much more difficult bc the prejudice Haya holds against the swamp are still there #as is the hatred for their mother. it isn’t until the townspeople start calling Suiren a swamp rat does haya snap #she no longer cares about getting alienated from the community that barely welcomed her anyway. she will defend her niece from them all #it’s the first time she calls suiren her niece. they talk too and Haya apologises for favouring Midori and starts working on fixing it #their life together isn’t perfect. the townspeople side eye them. they can’t afford bending teachers. Haya still has to bite her tongue #but it’s so much better than what could have been had Haya let her pain consume her and started to take it out on the girls. they’re happy #I have so much more to say and theorise about when it comes to this au but alas. tag limits are a thing. so I’m leaving this here

[lith-myathar]

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#im actually being like.... really truthful lately with friends and family about what im going through and how my homelife #ACTUALLY was instead of having it buried under ten layers of my own internal rationalizations #and let me tell I'm getting some weird looks lately because to me it's all very old hat and even kind of funny #graveyard humor is kinda my thing #idk what to tell ya pals it's just ¯⁠\⁠_⁠(⁠ツ⁠)⁠_⁠/⁠¯ #i don't mean to make you uncomfortable but pls consider that im the person the shirt thing actually happened to #other trauma survivors get it. people who haven't lived with that tend to be kind of shocked or upset #i have to bite my tongue a lot sometimes #*shitty thing i am not retyping all that #a part of me worries it's a new defense mechanism? like floodlighting #it doesn't feel like that though mire just.... honesty #no longer avoiding or omitting things #if someone can't cope with that that really isn't my problem.