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Costume Meta 7x04

How we all doing?? have we managed to find some semblance of equilibrium in this new world where we have canon bi buck?? I’m not sure I’ll ever know how to exist in this world but that’s fine with me! I’m still here writing my silly costume metas and having a blast in this bright new world!

No Hen this week as we never see her out of uniform!

The rest is below the cut because you would all hate me if i clogged your feeds with this beast (shes 7k)- you have been warned!!

Actually going to start this week with a uniform out of work section!

Because three times in this episode, we had one of the firefam wearing an element of their uniform out of work and its actually pretty key!

We have Bobby in his LAFD polo when he informs Athena that Harry is wanted for assault and he fled the state.

Then we have Chim at the basketball game in his LAFD hoodie

And finally Buck at the airfield on his tour with Tommy.

All three are playing into the idea of protecting ones self by being in an official capacity in some way. Firefighters (like all first responders) are of course there to 'protect and serve' the community.

Bobby delivers the news to Athena about Harry - he's in uniform because he can inhabit a small aspect of his captain mentality - makes it easier to deliver the news and also gives him the distance to play the 'don't shoot the messenger' card if necessary.

Chimney has to step into paramedic mode at the end of the scene. The LAFD hoodie separates him from everyone else at the court and foreshadows that he will have to 'go to work' its also about chimney being there as the colleague not the almost brother in-law of Buck. An important distinction - it protects Chim from being seen to favour anyone (specifically from Buck. (Buck is angry and not being rational so Chimney has protection from Bucks potential anger for helping Eddie - Buck is already feeling awful by that point so the protection isn't needed but it provides cover if it were) and allows him to go into first responder mode. (this is so badly worded but I'm sure you get what I mean!!)

Buck is at the airfield under the guise of wanting to find out more about becoming an air support firefighter - its the cover under which he is operating to try and befriend Tommy. The jacket also provides him protection from Eddie when he shows up and finds out Buck is not coming to Vegas with him and Tommy.

Bobby

Just the one costume for Bobby this week - a maroon tee that her's wearing to sleep in. we see him in this colour a lot - its a bit of a staple colour for him and I've spoken a lot about maroon tees and shirts representing parental roles in relation to the various children of the 118. Its no different here -we can see from Bobbys face he isn't buying what Harry is saying and the parental concern we see evidenced here plays out with him calling Michael and finding out what is really going on.

Athena

Athena wears a lot of black this week, which is fairly typical from her, although we are in a much more overall muted palette than usual and its missing the jewel tones we're used to seeing her increasingly wear. its a bit of a signal of returning to normality now they're back from the cruise disaster.

She starts off in black and pink pyjamas but I'm going to talk about those at the end in the pink section so we're skipping ahead to this ruffle smocked cream blouse and her gorgons head necklace is back. the ruffling is an nod to her feathers being ruffled when Bobby tells her about Harry and his arrest warrant, and the white with the black trousers is about things being black and white - for Athena as a cop things do tend to be black and white when it comes to the law - of course Athena has always been one to work within the law to bend the rules but in this moment things are black and white.

Then we have her all in black with a red longline cardigan which has a open weave that give the appearance of mesh or a cage. The show has been using Red since day one which makes sense as it is a first responder show and you literally cannot escape it when the fire trucks are red! But they have always been pretty careful about when they use bright red in the costuming meaning its appearance with such regularity this season so far is pretty telling. Its an advance warning of incoming danger/trouble/strife, but it is rarely worn by the one who is directly in danger - they will be involved, but not the centre of it. The best example of this is Bucks bright red broadcloth shirt when Christopher calls him because Eddie is smashing up his bedroom.

Here we have it on Athena in the scene when things are about to properly kick into action with Harrys story. Athena is literally a red net about to ensnare Harry. its the one time in this episode we see Athena in a bold bright colour - something that generally is attached to her being happy or having fun, but not here.

The denim sleeveless shirt/jacket when Athena goes to the hospital to visit the lady who shot her son (does she have a name - I cant remember!) and later to talk to Harry about the reality of his altercation, is quite bulky and blocky. It's far less fitted, structured or flowy that we are used to seeing on Athena. To me this is about playing into her struggles to tread the line between mother and cop - that neither role fits right. That denim is also a fabric associated with labour, it suggests Athena is working hard to figure it out.

Then we get this all black outfit when she takes Harry to the station - it is such a simple yet effective bit of costuming, especially with the silver zips and buckles- it blends her in with the police officers in the station so she can hover the line between mom and cop - and makes it look like an arresting officer bringing in a suspect.

Harry

New Harry comes with a new style!!

I actually can't wait to see how they dress him over the rest of the season because there was a definite colour theme at play here this week with all the beiges, greens and redish browns which is very not how younger Harry dressed (he was much more bright colours).

Not going to lie - my hatred for the copaganda and the fact I've been in Bi Buck land since the episode aired has made it hard to focus on Harrys outfits in greater detail, but I do have a few thoughts!

This first shirt is a map print, maps denote journey's andHarry is on a literal and metophorical journey - the literal being the one he made form Florida to LA. The metaphorical one is all about his journey to become a man, and learning to take responsibility for his actions, so this shirt is essentially setting out his arc for the season - Makes me feel like the storylines with harry we're going to see are going to be about the community service he has to undertake and him figuring things out and growing up a bit in relation to that.

Then next up we have this cream hoodie with an brownish beige pocket. the thing I found interesting about this choice was the fact that Harry played himself off as innocent. lawyers usually instruct their clients to wear white shirts to court, and to avoid loud patterns. The white is because i suggests purity or innocence, and the loud patterns should be avoided because it suggests you're trying to employ subterfuge (that you're lying). So Harry wearing a block of cream is a play on this idea. We see him in the map shirt before - when he is employing subterfuge about his reasons for visiting, and now this cream is him trying to suggest his innocence to his mother - the use of cream rather than white is telling us that he isn't as innocent as he is making out!

Finally we have check theory (my most beloved) in play. harry returns to wearing patterns - this one check and in greens and browns. there is an element of military to the green shades, its a coloour we've seen used on Eddie to show his military background, but it is also a colour frequently worn by Athena - usually when she is fighting for her family in some way. Here it feels like a refelction of that, with the added aspect of green being a colour of growth. Harry shows contrition and is willing to take his punishement, showing his growth, but also showing his understanding of fighting for his family - and Athenas willingness to do the same. its showing us tht he is his mothers son. And of course the check is the pointer towards the fact he is in trouble - that his earlier protestations of innocence were false!

Then we move on the he Buckley-Hans

Chimney

Only the one for Chimney this week, it's a very short scene where he is completely oblivious to the tone of the conversation. He's dressed completely in greys and is by all accounts neutrally costumed. this is intentional - he's not the focus of this scene and when we think that so much of this episode is shown from Bucks pov, the use of neutral grey makes sense - Buck is projecting on to chimney in this scene. Buck himself is speaking his jealousy and fear, while what Chimney says is actually the little voice inside his head that isn't in fact jealous of Tommy, but is impressed by him

Maddie

Again only two costumes for Maddie this week and one of them is her dispatch outfit, but I'm including it because of its place with a mini colour theme for this episode, which both of her outfits play into.

I spoke about the use of red in Athenas section and its representing danger, and it is in play for both of Maddie's outfits, the wearer changes though. In the first scene, Maddie is in blue - dark blue. a tee with 'The Great School' and bobcat logo on the front. I love this, the bobcat is a symbol of inner strength and resilience in the face of adversity, while Maddie is a great source of learning for Buck - he essentially raised him and has been a sounding board for him since she returned to his life. Maddie is the next level wise older sister, her point of view is important to Buck and is grounding for him. She had got him to back down from his spiral over Eddie and Chris, until Chimney came in (and like I said above, that was Bucks inner voice, not really Chimney)

Then we have her dispatch uniform and its red. This is a clever play actually, it allows the costume team to put Maddie into red, a colour we don't really see on her outside of work (a deliberate choice as it helps distinguish work from non work to the audience). Just like Buck was the angry one in the other Buckley siblings scene, her Maddie is the one who is angry (with good reason) and we again get Buck recieving education at he hands of Maddie - in her place of work where she is a lifeline to people and where she holds authority. Buck needed her in a lifeline capacity in this moment and he got it, despite her anger. She gave him the advice and help he needed.

Eddie

Eddie my man looking suave and confident - this Eddie is Bucks version of Eddie so of course he looks cool, well dressed and in a green and black combo. In nearly every scene where Eddie nad Buck have a deep meaningful conversation - one that gets through to Buck on a higher level - that works on Bucks abandonment complex, Eddie is dressed in a black shirt and khaki green trousers (the only exception is the will reveal when he's in navy blue but that is to play in the yellow blue colour theming and its a close to black as they could have a blue!), this outfit is an inverse though, which is actually really clever. Eddie (Bucks version) here is playing into Bucks fear of abandonment - Bucks version of Eddie has spent so long building him up and chipping away at that fear that to invert that colour theme and have green on top and black trousers is a fun way of inverting that chipping away at Bucks fear - this is putting another brick in that abandonment wall

The black tank top!! Its back and everybody cheered! Ok so I wrote this meta about when the show puts Eddie into a black tank top and how it means he's in an emotionally vulnerable place and once more, the theory plays out. Obviously Eddie gets physically injured, but his face when he looks at Buck after he's gone down shows him emotionally vulnerable. Yes there is a little bit of anger and a lot of pain in the look he gives him, but there is also understanding and a little guilt too.

It's the moment Eddie realises that he has unintentionally sidelined his best friend, and the effect that has had on Buck and his abandonment issues. This is Eddie showing his truly deep understanding of Buck and how Buck ticks (and because this is also from Bucks pov, its also showing us Buck understanding that Eddie understands how Buck ticks) we get all of this proven when Tommy comes over to Bucks later and clearly states that Eddie is feeling bad about the whole situation.

It is also worth noting that When Buck has seen Eddie at the gym or being sporty in some way Eddie has either been in uniform or in a black singlet and that he always looks super competent (even if he is working through things when he is in the black singlet). From my perspective, this is an interesting choice to play into because it suggests Buck recognises Eddies emotional maturity over him, even when he's not in a great place (we can discount fight club Eddie becasue Buck didn't actually see him there), its clearly something Buck admires and places as central to how he sees Eddie.

Tommy

Tommys costuming is chefs kiss perfection to me. The wardrobe department have literally dressed him as Eddie and I am living for it.

Its a way to emphasise that Tommy and Eddie are super similar. this serves two purposes - it builds a visual connection for the audience - we don't need to be shown Tommy in the army or fighting/ training in Muay Thai etc, we can mentally make a connection to the ones we've seen of Eddies in the past and accept the information as fact. obviously not all people who join the army or undertake MMA are going to dress the same, but this is television where visual information is valuable real estate, so playing into tropes and stereotypes is a key piece of arsenal.

The other thing about it is the specific Eddies its calling back to - fight club Eddie and to a lesser extent, post breakdown Eddie when he's back in therapy and unrepressing himself.

Tommys basketball outfit is really about making him stand out from everyone else - it makes him seem to appear more because the blue shorts and the light coloured top will catch your eye, even if he's not the focus of the camera at that moment. This is all about the fact that this is Bucks perspective on things - he is seeing Tommy everywhere and feeling like he's taking over/ taking away Eddie and so we the audience feel that same thing in a visual way. The thing the blue shorts do is visually connect Tommy to buck in the next scene we see Buck in - when he is talking to Maddie at dispatch - the blues are similar enough for us to subconsciously connect back to that scene and link Buck and Tommy together rather than Buck to Eddie - who Buck is dressed more similarly too in the basketball scene.

It doesn't hurt that the blue shorts also play into yellow blue theory - especially against the sunsets yellow hues in a scene that is playing homage to a famously queer coded scene from Top gun.

Then there is this outfit from Bucks loft. again is very similar to an Eddie outfit - its the same style of shirt we often see Eddie wearing especially in seasons 4 and 5.

Tommys jeans have always been reminiscent of Eddies Jeans (I mean I know they are jeans, but I promise the significance will become clear when I get to Buck!)

Even Tommys watch is similar to Eddies Christopher watch (every other watch in the show worn by the men is all black - black strap black face and mount only the Christopher watch is different) in that it has a different coloured strap to the watch face and its mount.

The other thing I want to mention quick, is the progression of Tommys costumes in relation to them being similar to Eddies. By this I mean the first non uniform costume we see Tommy in is very stage 2 Eddie, while the one below is very much more stage 3 Eddie.

I also really like the use of a purple/red/black shot tee for this scene as well. If you watch the scene through, the way its lit changes its colour as different sections of the scene unfold. The red tones are there early on, during the apology and conversation around Eddie being allowed to have more than one friend and Christophers adoration of Buck. it gives it that air of danger lurking, because Tommy isn't sure how things are going to play out. and plays into the red/blue theme we saw with Buck and Maddie in this episode - just on a much lower level.

Then it turns this purplish shade as we move into the initial stages of flirting - from the moment Buck moves around the counter to put himself in the same space as Tommy. It gives things an air of mystery, but purple can also be a colour of enlightenment - both elements are in play here and I love they were able to do this with this shirt.

The shirt turns black at the moment Tommy says 'my attention' - the moment he essentially hold all the cards on making a move - he is the one with the power here (as the already queer person in the room) and black is a power colour, so its the perfect choice for the moment he makes his move.

Buck

Buck my beloved bi disaster. His costumes were doing some pretty impressive storytelling this episode!

We start off at the air field - I spoke at the start about this LAFD jacket and the theme of protection, but I also have other things to say about it and the rest of the costume. We don't generally see Buck out of work wearing uniform (we actually don't see many of the firefam in uniform out of work tbh) so when we do its going to have meaning. T

he thing with the bomber jacket being the choice (they could've made it a hoodie which we've seen him wear out of work more!) is that on one level plays into its name and the fact that its being worn at an airfield, while on another level it low key plays into the Buck cheating arc. which is actually fun - the idea that he's 'cheating' on the 118 by claiming he's thinking about his career options and also cheating on Eddie by trying to befriend Tommy (because at this point that is all it is its only once Eddie appears that things change).

The trousers are also important. I know I've said before about how trousers are less important than tops because they are less likely to get screen time. We not here - here they are really important, but only with the context of the rest of the episode.

These are the short in the leg dark trousers we've come to know and love on Buck - he's been solidly wearing them since season 2 and what we have seen him wearing so far in season 7 so no surprises to see them here. But this is the last time we see them and its super important and telling.

We also have Bucks white trainers - the ones that he wears when he moves forward on his journey - we see him in them the entire time this episode.

Buck and Maddie this episode have a red v blue thing going on in their scenes together. In this one Buck is in red and Maddie in blue. I spoke about the red for danger theme they seem to be using this season for the red clothes above in Athenas section and it applies here - Buck in red is foreshadowing the danger/strife that the basketball game presents as that is what he is talking about and what he is most upset about over Tommy and Eddies friendship.

It's a slightly burnt out red in comparison to Bobbys red shirt from the cruise, Athenas red cardigan, or even the red he wore when Eddie had his breakdown. Its not a full high alert colour, its a more muted and restrained colour - suggesting the danger is going to be less of a big thing, that it's just a part of it rather than the main big thing

We can also see that Buck is now wearing more traditional stonewash jeans - this is the first time we're seeing them on him since Eddies arrival at the fire house. I'll explain them in more detail in Bucks last outfit of the episode, but I needed to point their presence out here.

Basketball Buck in his white shirt and dark blue marl cut off tee - its very Buck posturing at the firehouse gym and its meant to be. Its a direct reference to the last time Buck showed any jealousy towards Eddie. The shorts are different this time in that they're white/light grey rather than black, but I think this is done for two reasons - it creates a pairing with Eddie - they are dressed similarly with dark tops and lighter grey shorts, but on opposite teams/sides.

It also makes him stand out from everyone else at the game - excepting Tommy (and a random guy in a red top with white shorts that I'm living for. When Red = foreshadowing as I've talked about above, this guys actions on the court are precursors of what is about to happen - we see him bump into Tommy - a couple of moments later and Buck does the same thing, then just before Eddie gets taken out by Buck, he gets breezed past by Eddie stumbles and starts limping. Its fun and clever and not something many people will pick up on - its a bit like the role of the bullet in Hamilton!)

Bucks bright blue chunky corduroy shirt with white tee underneath. I already spoke about the visual connection between Tommy from the basketball game and this shirt. It also fits into the red and blue theme I spoke about above - this time Buck is the one in blue and with the combination of Buck in his danger incoming white shirt and Maddie being in red it signals exactly what this scene is going to be about.

The danger, in my opinion, is Maddies wrath at Buck getting physical with Eddie. Its a perfectly valid and important response from her and plays into the growth we get from Buck in this episode that is not connected to his bi awakening - the recognition and acceptance of his bad behaviour in a far more mature way than we saw from s3 Buck.

The chunky corduroy give the shirt vertical stripes and we all know how I feel about Buck and vertical stripes at this point - I wrote about them a lot in my seasons 5 and 6 metas and the blue and white nature of bucks outfit plays into the theming that was at play in early season 6 - where Buck was free from Taylor and resisting buying a couch because he was looking for the right couch etc. (and playing house husband to Eddie nad feeding them!!!)

Here in this episode we kind of have Buck going through a similar process - free from the shackles of death and trying to figure things out - who he is and what he wants, he's still on that hamster wheel in many ways at this point in the episode but he is about to jump off it.

This is the key to happiness and Lev's advice and the year of yes scene 2.0 - the same shade of blue are at play here. Lev figuring it out ('I get it now') just as he's dying and Buck then trying to figure out what Lev had figured out and essentially failing before he died only to now get it and free himself is a blue thread we've been following through season 6 up to bucks death, then the use of this shade of blue in Bucks costumes tailed off - we saw it reappear a couple of times after the lightening strike - specifically around Natalia and his continues flirtation with death - almost like his hovering around death was him trying to grasp what Lev had figured out.

Then the blue had been gone again only for it to reappear here in this episode in a scene that precedes Bucks bi awakening and his comments about being free and 'yeah that works' with their double meanings that play in the same way as lev's 'I think i get it now' just without death coming immediately after. It's a scene when he starts to get an inkling on what his jealousy is actually about. (The fact we know he's going to be back in this bright blue in the next episode in a scene with Eddie - that is very likely a coming out scene also plays into this idea.)

And the stone wash jeans are once more there for all to see!

Then we get this dark navy blue shirt with silvery white dots and yet again those stone wash jeans.

Ok lets talk about the jeans! The fact that we haven't seen Buck wearing stone wash jeans, which if you watch the opening couple of seconds of the dispatch scene, you will see are proper normal length on him and not ankle swingers like we've got used to seeing him in for the last few seasons!

The thing with him suddenly wearing these stonewash jeans is all about imitation - imitation of Tommy (and by extension, imitation of Eddie even though we don't see Eddie in stonewash denim in this episode) because you know that old adage of dressing like the person you want to be , or the idea that you subconsciously start dressing like the person you have a crush one?? Well yeah - Buck has all these new feelings that he doesn't know what to do with, but Tommy is cool and Tommy dresses like Eddie and Eddie seems to like Tommy better than Buck now so maybe if Buck starts dressing a bit like Tommy he'lI get Eddies attention back. So he's pulled out the stone wash jeans so that he's dressed a bit more like Tommy, but he's also dressing a bit like his crush that he doesn't yet realise is a crush.

The other small thing that I think is a nice nod - So Like I said earlier, the last time we see the jeans is in 2x01 - Eddies introduction to the firehouse. This is the moment (on screen at least for us as viewers) that Buck ceases to be the probie - that baton is passed to Eddie, so its almost like a symbol of him graduating and maturing in some way. then we get the jeans back for Bucks bi awakening - we see them the entire time he's navigating all these new feelings he has - he's never been with a man, so he's like a probie again.

The thing is, that the jeans appear to be gone for his date with Tommy (makes sense - he's on a date so he's got to look good for his man!) , and from what I can tell from the (super dark even when brightened) stills from the Buck Eddie loft scene, it would appear they are gone for that scene too. We've had bts of Oliver in the jeans again, so I don't think they're gone completely, but that makes sense, he's still a baby queer after all, still navigating his way through things.

On to the shirt! I wrote a whole meta about this shirt (and the jeans actually!) when we first got this still - you can read it here and I'm still a little awestruck at how close to the mark I got!

What I want to add to what I said, now I have context is that the two previous times we've seen blue shirts with dots are played upon in this scene - the lawsuit is the obvious one and the parallel is showing Bucks growth - he got jealous and worried about being replaced and ended up lashing out and suing everyone, now he got jealous and thought he was being replaced, but as soon as he lashes out, he realises he is in the wrong and verbally acknowledges it.

The diner with Maddie scene is a bit more tricky to parse out, but for me, it ties to Doug - Maddie is quick to call Buck out when he confesses to Eddies injury not being an accident, because of her experiences at the hands of Doug. In the diner scene she is determined to go back to her apartment and her life in the aftermath of killing him - she wants life to go back to normal. In the loft scene Buck is trying to achieve that end too - he's in a new world where Tommy exists as part of his life now (as Eddies friend initially) and he wants to clear the air and move forward - so he's still a part of Eddies life.

I also want to talk about the contrast between this scene and the one where Taylor turns up at his door after the shooting and the difference between being chased and doing the chasing. Its spots v stripes!

Buck is in a similar shirt - short sleeved button up in a dark shade (black) - this one with vertical stripes for the Taylor scene and he thinks he's being chased for the first (ish) time (Abby sort of chased him but he is the one who pushed for it to be a relationship when I think she just wanted a bit of fun and a hook up! so I'm not sure if it actually counts or not). Thing is Taylor only chases him after they've already kissed and when he's then made it clear thats what needs to happen. (as an aside - Natalia does pursue Buck - not romantically, but because he has died - and she is the one wearing vertical stripes

While in this scene he doesn't have to say anything, yes he flirts, but he isn't explicit about what hewants - Tommy is the one who makes the decision to go for it, and so when he genuinely gets pursued, he is wearing dots

Chased verse's doing the chasing - dots v stripes

Then we have the Pink.

Pink is back in full force in 7x04 with it popping up regularly throughout the episode.

I didn't include Athenas pink dressing gown or Bucks pink shorts in their sections because I actually wanted to talk about them here. The context the scenes they were in gave me the information I needed to figure out what I think the purpose of all the pink we've been seeing is.

Lets start with a quick recap of all the pink from the 3 previous episodes then we'll look at the pink from this episode as well as the fact I've already spotted some for 7x05 from the trailer

7x01

Athena's pale pink top in therapy with Frank

Sue at dispatch in a pink cardigan

Christophers pencil is pink when he's sat at his desk - when he reads the letter from Shannon

Marisol in her bright pink strappy top

Lola's Manzanillo outfit is bright pink and white

Norman has pink flowers on his Hawaiian shirt and he later wears a bright pink polo shirt when he's pretending Lola is still with him.

7x02

the woman who is teaching her daughter to drive

the pink roses on Hen's jacket (which I know I said play into the theme of family bonds etc but the pink has a second meaning)

7x03

The cruise ship family nearly all wear pink at various points (grandma and mom are the exceptions)

and now 7x04

We have Ashley C in hot pink at the Bachelor mansion

Athena in her dusty pink ddressing gown (and pyjama pants

The woman who shot her son is in pink

And then there are Bucks pink shorts!

All of these scenes with the pink are scenes about either naivety and or innocence

The pink on Athena is about her being naive about her relationship with Bobby - not recognising that she is nothing to fear about them spending time together.

Sues pink cardigan. Sue's line is about the civilians at risk from the fighter jet - she is representing their innocence

Christophers pink pencil - in that scene his behaviour might be naive (he's a child so of course it is) but it comes from a place of complicated feelings as he does begin to mature - he was the innocent party in the loss of Shannon and he is the one left to suffer.

Lola is naive on the ship about having an affair and thinking she could get away with it and that it wouldn't hurt Norman. She’s also innocent in the plot regarding the bitcoin (or whatever it was)

Norman is also both naive and innocent - not recognising the fact his wife is cheating, for selling up their entire life and he is innocent in the bitcoin plot.

The mother and daughter were innocent in the car crash.

the pink flowers on Hens jacket hint at her being innocent of any wrong doing (from a departmental perspective) at the car accident.

The cruise family are innocent - just in the wrong place at rhetorical wrong time and they are a representation of all the innocent people on the boat who end up in danger on that ship.

I think the Marisol top is an interesting one - it plays into Chris being naïve thinking he can date multiple girls without them finding out. But I also think it’s foreshadowing her naivety in general - I think we might either see her immaturity in some way (perhaps on a date with Eddie) which will prove terminal for her relationship with Eddie. Now we know about this date scene coming up this is possible but it could also end up being about the fact that she is likely going to be an innocent party caught in the crossfire of Eddie unrepressing himself (much in the same way Ana was back in s4/5.

Ashely C's pink dress is a representation of the innocence of trying to find love.

Athena's pink dressing gown is about her innocently and blindly/ naively being excited about Harrys return home to her.

The lady who shot her son is innocent in that her actions were brought about by something out of her control and so she can't truly be held responsible for them.

Then Bucks pink shorts are about his queer innocence and naivety about his feelings the fact that we see them in a scene where Tommy isn’t present, a scene that is meant to inform the audience that his behaviours is all about Eddie and not Tommy - that he’s naively not grasping that part of this internal confusion that he's experiencing.

To add to all of this, we have Marisol carrying a pink bag in the teaser for next week, to me if pink theory is correct then this is playing into the idea that Marisol is naively dating Eddie and that she's going to be an innocent caught up in whatever goes down in that scene (part of this arc) the use of lighter pink here specifically on a handbag is giving me babyish vibes as well (its screaming little girl playing at dress up!). As a quick aside - I am very amused that shes been dressed in a basic black top - she looks like wait staff!

And of course there is Eddies pink ensemble that is connected to either Chims bachelor party or the Madney Wedding. I have no idea what is going to happen in this scene(s) but whatever does go down - place your bets on Eddie being innocent (and or naive!) in whatever goes on - itll be fun to see if I'm right! 🤓

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"Cursed" was Buck's version of Eddie's "Jinxed" - the sperm donation is Buck's Ana

Well, peeps, we knew it was coming but they're actually doing it. They're going for it. They literally have moved the Eddie piece into place and this episode made it perfectly clear. We called it, they got him into position and he is looking towards the "future", specifically his.

We remember back in 4x06 certain things occurring for Eddie and how a few things that happened in that episode panned out (like seeing Ana again).

And they decided to perfectly parallel certain events from that episode in this one to not only close out Eddie's story from Jinxed but to also show us just how far he's come since then.

Parallel #1:

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"Wham, bam, thank you, ma'am"

Ending 118 scene for 6x07: "That's all she wrote" "Why is it never 'all he wrote'?" "I don't make the rules."

Both of these scenes parallel each other with Hen mentioning how the usual sayings tend to revolve around one particular gender. This time though, in 6x07, Buck and Eddie are out of the conversation; it only happens with Chim. Chim who knows better than to argue with Hen.

Parallel #2:

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"Sorry, guys, I already have plans."

118 ending scene in 6x07: Hen: "Shift's over. Let's go and get some real food." Buck: "I can't. I have a donation to make."

While Athena is the only one not in the loop regarding Buck's decision at this point, they literally had it be Buck this time who can't make it, paralleling it to Eddie's inability to make it back in 4x06. Buck has no clue what Eddie is talking about back in 4x06 nor does the 118, only Bobby. Hen is the only one who knows the full details about Buck's decision (also the parallel of being given advice/a talking to by someone they view in a somewhat parental role: Bobby for Eddie; Hen for Buck; this is why we didn't see a talk between Buck and Bobby yet now that he knows btw), the 118 now knows what he's doing and so he is open and announces it (though he doesn't want Athena to know just yet). Not to mention the post-mortem of the fake firefighter thing took place at breakfast minus Eddie though he had a connection to the whole thing (and it was about him). The post-mortem for Felisa's stalker took place before Buck leaves.

Parallel #3:

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Eddie has a stand-in character in each episode: Brian and Felisa. Both represent where Eddie is presently at and what he's currently struggling with. The only difference is in 6x07, Felisa also represents Buck a bit as well with what Buck is currently experiencing. (no coincidence that once Buck touches the bracelet, Connor and Kameron show up at the firehouse to ask him why he hasn't done the donation yet & then the 118 finds out)

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6x07: In the opening breakfast scene for the 118, Eddie mentions how Buck is living in the "age of absolutely".

Buck is still rushing headfirst into the future and he's determined to do it bigger, brighter, and better than before. In 4x06, he had become Buck 3.0, a "kindler, gentler" version of himself. In 6x07, he's doing everything he can to ensure his sperm count is high and his donation will be the strongest and healthiest it can be.

Parallel #5:

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"Sometimes you gotta move on."

In 6x07 in the ending scene, Eddie calls Abuela to say hello and playing along, asks her what the curandera says about his future.

Eddie has always treaded lightly when it comes to the future, sometimes being downright afraid of it. In 4x06, he's not ready to move on but gets a kick in the pants from Eddie to get back out there in the form of Ana. In 6x07, we see that he has fully embraced the idea of his future (which is what closes out the Jinx story line for him past the Ana breakup) by the shot of him asking that question while smiling (obviously making peace with Abuela's beliefs), looking at Christopher in front of him who is looking forward, and the camera then focuses on Christopher. Christopher has always been the future/in the future. While he didn't care for Eddie dating at first, he eventually embraced the idea once he found out it was Ana. He embraced Buck and the 118 (still part of Eddie's future) right away. The difference this time around is that Eddie and Christopher are right where they need to be in relation to their story line as a family. Christopher will obviously always be Eddie's heart and his first priority, but Eddie is now also living for himself and making his own decisions. So he's ready for whatever the future entails, and by showing us Christopher in that shot, it also shows us that he's ready, too.

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Eddie was given two Latina characters in each story line: Ana Flores and Felisa Valdez.

Ana was a love interest that ended up not working out in the end, but her last name Flores indicated that her journey with Eddie was going to help open him up in some way (especially when we saw their meeting back in 3x15). And in a way it did, because the panic attacks started while he was with her, which unfortunately led to his breakdown, which then led to his healing.

Felisa is not a love interest; she's an actual stand-in for Eddie himself. That's why he feels connected to her and identifies with her so much. He knows exactly how she feels. Watching that beach scene in 6x07, you might start to think is it possible they're setting something up here, but Eddie's dialogue as well as Felisa's quickly give the scene context to be something different: a showcase to the audience of Eddie's progress and that he is in the right place to move forward. It's a goodbye to the Eddie we've known before. New era!Eddie Diaz is here. And funnily enough, Felisa's name (another 'F' involved) means happy. Meeting her was also essential to his journey, even if it was only for this very last part of it.

Parallel #7:

4x06: Eddie and Athena not believing in the jinx while Buck, Bobby, Hen, and Chim all do.

6x07: Eddie and Athena not believing in curses (though Eddie questions it himself for a minute, though not in the same way the other characters do) while Buck, Bobby, Hen, and Chim all do.

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Buck unintentionally outs Eddie to the 118. Buck unintentionally outs himself to the 118.

Parallel #9 (they did this even right down to the props):

In 6x07 ending 118 scene Buck has a water bottle in his hand while everyone else is snacking, before they break apart & Buck declines.

And they did it with coffee, too:

Ana gets burned by spilled coffee; she and Eddie agree to no coffee on their date &:

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(they could have been eating or drinking something else in the above scene) & Buck is not having any coffee or other food other than the alfalfa smoothies.

That's just a few but they purposely called back to 4x06 to show us how far Eddie had come since then, how the universe is now screaming at Buck about the sperm donation, and how this will kick in his own journey into a future that's right for him.

We all already been knew but this episode verified it. Eddie's in position for the next chapter; Buck still has to get there.

And even further verification is the two titles mentioned from Felisa's body of work. Eddie sees the poster on the wall for a movie/show of a medical romance between two doctors: "What the Heart Wants" which features the tag line "Saving Lives. Saving each other." Now considering that Felisa is a stand in for Eddie, we now see just how closely tied Eddie's and Buck's stories are tied (now minus the Christopher factor in addition to their family unit), and it's two people in love in the same line of work, the clock ticking on when Buddie goes canon has officially started. Especially when Felisa mentions her next movie "When Time Stops" where her character didn't feel anything because she was cut in half and Chim pipes up with "I saw that one." And what happened to Chim last season when Maddie left? And how often is Buddie paralleled to Madney in the show? Plus:

"Saving Lives"

"Saving Each Other"

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Not to mention:

"That one's mine."

It's all laid out for us. They're getting Buck ready to travel the Buddie roadmap now to get to where he needs to be, just like they did with Eddie. So expect some major Buck angst and heartbreak this season, especially regarding the sperm donor decision. Eddie was jinxed but not anymore. Buck is cursed but hopefully won't be for long. The universe was screaming at him but he "refused to listen". And we all know what occurs when that happens.

Plus they didn't need to parallel this for Buck and Eddie's separate stories if they weren't going there but they did because that's exactly where it's headed.

It's coming, people. They pretty much said it in this episode.

#buddie #buck x eddie #evan x eddie #buddie meta #911 fox #911 6x07 #911posts #buddieposts #metaposts #Youtube

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sevensoulmates · 4 months

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Season 2's storyline of Bobby slowly becoming integrated into Athena's family is really interesting compared to Buck's integration into the Diaz family. Bobby had a slow introduction to her kids and minor tension with Michael that was eventually resolved about the place and rights of a "step-parent" to parent a child that isn't there's that eventually leads to where they are now with May viewing Bobby like a second dad. It took time, it was a lot more "realistic" in terms of relationship progression. Whereas we look at Buck and how from the start he stepped into the role of partner and father-figure almost immediately without even realizing he was doing it, and because he did it all without ever pressuring or undermining Eddie, Eddie readily accepted Buck as partner and father-figure to his son WAY faster than is typical. Probably a lot of that comfortability was the fact that Buck's acts were completely and totally selfless and without expecting anything from Eddie. And we know from his storyline with Ana, that he's not comfortable with "ready-made families"--at least not with people who enter the relationship wanting something from him. Buck is inherently different and special in his relationship with the Diaz boys and this is all without any sort of canonical romantic pre-text. I'm sure people have said it before but Buck and Eddie's story really is the inverse of Bobby and Athena's.

Bobby/Athena: fast romantic involvement -> tension revolving secret relationship -> public relationship and approval from friends/family -> slow integration into Grant-Nash family unit -> tension between ex and current partner about parental role -> acceptance/compromise of familial roles in marriage -> romantic relationship tension that resolves into solid relationship -> children view Bobby as their third parent after (pseudo) loss of a parent

Buck/Eddie: Immediate introduction to family -> anticipating and providing of needs of a partner/parent -> supports partner through tension and eventual loss of an ex/parent -> cementing of pseudo-parental role in child's life (after tsunami) -> legal cementing of parental role (Eddie's will) -> continued reinforcement of Buck as a parent/partner -> personal and platonic relationship tension that is still being worked through currently -> ??? slow burn into a romantic relationship???

Idk maybe I'm reading too much into it, but based on the Inverse Bathena theory, once Buck and Eddie can work through their personal and interpersonal issues, a romantic relationship is the next natural step. I don't make the rules

#911 rewatch #season 2 #but also all seasons I guess #buddie #season 7 I am looking at you #really don't want to get my hopes up but lordy it's getting real difficult

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significantfoliage · 2 years

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911, S2 E 13, IF I DONT GET A RESOLUTION TO THIS CLIFFHANGER ILL LOSE IT

- THANK GOD BUCK FOUND CHIM AAAAAAAAA

- CHIM STILL DOESNT KNOW ITS DOUG AAAAAAAAA

- don't other people live in this Fucking apartment complex lol

- oh nooooooo don't give me a Doug and Maddie flashback

- he's a heart surgeon???? Wild

- I'm Begging for this show to stay in the present day, I'm tired

- damn Doug you're like. Really ducking annoying.

- what's really annoying is that Buck is right

- Athena and Bobby being here as kinda Buck's parental figured does fill me with joy

- Buck 100% stole Chim's phone

- lolllllll yeah, told you Athena XD

- dude is cruising for a getting fired again

- LMAOOOOOO ATHENA CALLING HIM OUT IS SO GOOD

- how did Eddie end up here? I love how they just throw these two together.

- since when does Eddie have siblings??? Where are they????

- they shouldn't play with the rules like that, shitty of police. But it's a show so fine.

- something about the Buckley's that just makes people willing to cut red tape. Love that for them, really wanna meet the parents.

- DAMMIT, I hope this cashier lives.....nope

- DOUG WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU

- I'm fucking obsessed with the concept of Chim babysitting for Hen, that's so precious

- HOW IS CHRISTOPHER THE ONLY ONE IN CHIM'S ROOM WHEN BE WAKES UP LOOOOOLLLLLL

- DAMN she got his eye, you go girl!!

- I was gonna say "why is his aim suddenly bad" but she did get his eye so yeah

- DAMN I TRULY DIDNT EXPECT THEM TO HAVE HER KILL HIM!!! MOM HOLY FUCK!!!

- Buck found her!!!!!!!!

I CAN FINALLY GO TO SLEEP OH MY GOD THAT PLOT LINE TOOK SO LONG

#911 #911 fox #signi watches

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obvious-captain-rogers · 4 years

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Evan Buckley Week has come to a close. It was a lot of fun to write all these little one-shots :) I hope y’all like this last one (I might expand on it but I’m not sure yet). Just saying that trans Buck is a lit headcanon and y’all can pry it from my cold dead hands.

Prompt: FREE CHOICE

Buck chewed his lip as he scrubbed at the already clean countertop of his kitchen island. He was desperately trying to keep his mind off of the test that was sitting on his bathroom counter and of course he was failing as it was all his mind could focus on at the moment. He refused to give in and go look at it before the timer went off. He tossed the sponge into the sink and crossed over to where his laundry was sitting in a sad pile on the couch.

He hadn’t been suspicious at the time, but if Buck thought about it, it had all started at a cookout at Bobby and Athena’s a few weeks before. Buck had been standing in the back yard with Michael and Hen, Bobby not far off at the grill, watching the kids play in the back yard. The wind had shifted and the smell coming from the grill had drifted into their faces. Buck’s stomach had given an unfamiliar lurch and he’d sprinted into the house- thankfully making it to the bathroom- before throwing up. It’d been embarrassing when Athena had come in to check on him- probably prompted by Bobby since she hadn’t been outside- and found him with his forehead pressed to the cool porcelain of the sink after he’d flushed the vomit away and rinsed his mouth out.

He’d figured that it was just something he’d picked up from Christopher since a few kids in his class had been sick recently and he hadn’t thought more about it. Not until he started feeling off in other ways. He was tired, more so than what normally came with the job. He’d been getting headaches and having this constant twinge in his left hip. Add all that with the fact that he’d accidentally skipped a couple weeks of birth control while still having sex with Eddie and that amounted to one conclusion: he needed to take a pregnancy test as soon as possible.

Finally, he gave up on trying to fold his laundry and he pulled is phone out of his pocket to call the only person he felt like he could at the moment: Bobby.

“Hey.” Bobby’s even voice, tinged with just a bit of fondness if you knew how to listen for it, served to help calm Buck down. “Thought you’d have crammed your day full on one of your only days off,” Bobby teased.

Buck’s heart was thumping hard against his chest as he tried to think of something- anything- to say. The only thing cycling around his head was, of course, centered around the damn test. I might be pregnant, I might be pregnant, holyshitImightbepregnant.

“Buck? Can you hear me?” Bobby’s voice snapped him out of his spiral.

“I think I might be pregnant,” Buck said quietly, his voice trembling a little on the last word. He closed his eyes and let out a harsh breath. There was silence across the line, only the minor static letting Buck know that they hadn’t been disconnected.

“Have you told Eddie?” Bobby asked calmly.

“No.”

“Have you taken a test?”

“I’m waiting on it right now, but Bobby I’m going to drive myself up the wall before the five minutes is up.” Buck sucked in a shaky breath and scrubbed a hand over his face. “What the hell am I going to do?”

“You’re going to take a deep breath and wait for what the test says.” And that’s why he’d called Bobby. Bobby who was calm and level-headed even in the most dire of emergencies.

“I’m scared, Bobby,” Buck admitted and he felt tears pricking at the corner of his eyes.

“I know you are, but it’s going to be alright Buck. No matter what the results are,” Bobby said. There was a brief, unintelligible exchange that Buck could only assume was Athena coming into the room. “Athena’s here, Buck. Is it alright if I put the phone on speaker?”

Buck was a little worried about more people knowing about this, but Bobby and Athena were like the parents that Buck had never really had. They would never tell anyone about this if Buck didn’t want them to, or if it turned out that it was all a big misunderstanding. “Yeah,” Buck breathed. “It’s okay.”

“You’re on speaker now,” Bobby said gently.

“Hey, Buckaroo,” Athena said, thought it was clear that she was confused. “You wanna tell me what’s going on?”

Buck didn’t really want to have to say it again, but he forced it out of his mouth. “I think I might be pregnant.”

“Oh,” Athena said quietly. “Well, that certainly explains why Bobby’s got that look.”

The familiar joke about Bobby’s ‘Protective Dad and Captain Face’ startled a laugh out of Buck and he pressed a hand over his mouth to stifle it.

“Let’s just focus up, alright?” Bobby asked and Buck could hear him rolling his eyes over the phone. “What do you need, Buck? Do you want us to come over and sit with you?”

Buck really did. He wanted someone to come over and tell him that he wasn’t going to fuck this up if it turned out that he was pregnant. But he didn’t want to seem needy or childish, so he just stayed quiet. Because no matter what he said, Bobby and Athena were going to be able to see right through his bullshit.

“We’ll be over in a few minutes,” Athena said and Buck didn’t have the heart to point out to her that in roughly a minute the test was going to be ready.

“Okay,” Buck said and he felt like he’d swallowed a brick as they said a quick good-bye and then he hung up.

He sat in the middle of his laundry, with a wadded up t-shirt in his lap, as he waited. The timer he’d set went off but Buck just turned it off without moving. He felt like he barely breathed until there was a knock on his door and he got up to answer it.

“Come here,” Athena said before she wrapped her arms around Buck’s shoulders and pulled him into a tight hug. Buck melted into it and he pressed his face against her shoulder, letting himself just soak in the motherly comfort that Athena was giving so freely.

“How do you want to do this?” Bobby asked once Buck had closed the door behind them.

Buck squirmed a little as he glanced around, avoiding their eyes. “Uh, not sure. I know the timer went off a little while ago, but… I didn’t go look.”

“Let’s take this one step at a time,” Bobby said carefully. “Do you want us to go with your, or do you want to look by yourself?”

Buck took a breath. “I think I should look by myself.” He didn’t really want to, but he didn’t know what his reaction was going to be and he worried that Bobby and Athena would judge him.

“We’ll be right here,” Athena assured him as they sat down at the table. She gave Buck one of her reassuring and motherly smiles, Buck glanced at Bobby and saw the same fondness and support in his expression.

He took a steadying breath before he nodded and turned to go up the stairs. It felt like the stairs went on forever as he lifted his legs slowly to come down on each new stair. Then he was standing in his bedroom, the bathroom off to the left, and he took it in. His unmade bed and the little pile of clothes that he hadn’t put in the hamper, including a hoodie that he’d borrowed from Eddie despite the tight fit. He pushed through so that he was standing in the doorway to his bathroom. The test was sitting in the same place that he’d left it on the counter. He chewed his lip, lingering in the doorway nervously before closing his eyes and stepping up to the counter. He opened his eyes and picked up the test.

Pregnant.

Buck leaned back against the wall of the bathroom and he let out a breathless little laugh. He felt tears pricking at his eyes and he felt an overwhelming amount of joy and love fill his chest.

He was going to have a baby. His and Eddie’s baby.

He swiped a hand over his face, as if that could erase the huge grin that was there, before he carried the test downstairs. Bobby stood up abruptly and Athena just watched him carefully.

“I’m pregnant,” Buck said and let out another laugh as he held up the test. His grin only seemed to grow, and he ducked his head.

“I think you should tell Eddie, Buck,” Bobby said carefully. Buck looked up at him and nodded.

“I know,” Buck said and some of his nerves came back. “I just… this wasn’t planned.” Buck and Eddie hadn’t even really talked about having kids. The mention of it being a possibility in the future had been kicked around, but there was no definitive answer to it. Their lives were hectic, and Eddie had his hands full already with Christopher- Buck sucked in a sharp breath and immediately Bobby and Athena were steadying him with a hand on his shoulder each.

“Deep breath, Buckaroo,” Athena said and swiped her thumb over his collarbone. “Everything’s gonna be alright.”

“What if Eddie doesn’t want the baby?” Buck asked and then winced a little. It was a harsh assumption, but Buck couldn’t help but jump to the worst-case scenario. He needed to be prepared.

“You’ve got to talk to him before you can go there,” Bobby said. “One step at a time, right?” Bobby gave Buck a look until Buck nodded. “Alright. This is definitely not something you can just mention over the phone. So, what’s the plan?”

Buck thought for a moment and then it seemed to click. “I’ve got to call my Endo and OB first.” Buck scratched at the back of his neck. “I don’t think it’s wrong, but the test could be a false negative. I’ll see if they can squeeze me in later today or early tomorrow since Eddie and Chris are supposed to come over tomorrow afternoon. I’ll talk to him then when I know a little more.”

Athena hummed. “Sounds like a good plan, Buck. Are you sure you want to do all of this alone?”

“I’ll be okay,” Buck said and he was starting to believe it. “Thank you both for coming over here.”

“Any time you need us, Buck, you know we’re one call away,” Bobby said and pulled Buck in for a tight hug.

“I know,” Buck said into Bobby’s shoulder. When Bobby pulled away, Athena pulled him into a hug as well and pressed a kiss to his cheek before pulling away.

“Well, we’ll leave you to it, but you call,” Athena said seriously and leveled him with a stern look. Buck nodded with a soft smile. “Promise me, Buck.”

“I promise, Athena,” Buck said and she reached out to give his hand a squeeze.

“Congratulations,” Bobby said and smiled brightly at Buck. “You and Eddie are going to be great dads. You already are.”

Buck felt a lump form in his throat. “Thanks, Bobby.”

Buck walked them to the door of his apartment and waved when they glanced back at him. He closed the door and then leaned back against it, letting out a slow breath. “Alright, Buckley. Let’s do this.”

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Buck had managed to get an appointment for the OB and after a few tests and a quick ultrasound, everything was completely, without a doubt official. Buck traced his fingers over the little smudge that was his kid.

He’d already planned everything out on how he was going to tell Eddie. The closer that it got to Eddie and Christopher arriving, the more Buck got nervous. Unconsciously, he swiped his thumb over the still-flat plane of his stomach. He really hoped that Eddie didn’t react badly, and he worried that Christopher wasn’t going to want or accept another sibling.

He swallowed thickly and was startled out of his worrying by the sound of the lock turning. Buck smiled as Christopher came in with that bright smile of his. “Hey, buddy,” Buck said and leaned his hip against the counter.

“Hi, Buck,” Christopher said and made his way over to give Buck a hug.

“Hey, babe,” Eddie said and leaned up to give Buck a kiss. The easiness between them helped to soothe some of Buck’s frayed nerves.

“I was thinking that we could go out to the park,” Buck said and combed his fingers through Christopher’s hair.

“What do you think, Superman?” Eddie asked and Christopher nodded.

“I think it’ll be fun,” Christopher said.

“Alright then, why don’t you go put your stuff in the living room?” Eddie asked and held out Chris’s backpack for him to take. Once Christopher was out of earshot, Eddie turned to Buck with a furrow between his brows. “What’s got you all riled up then?” Buck let out a soft breath, of course Eddie could see how wound up and nervous he was.

“I got you something,” Buck said and leaned over to snag the box he’d left on the island. It was a bracelet box that Buck had taken the velvet lining out of and covered in wrapping paper with a neatly tied bow.

“What’s the occasion?” Eddie asked, carefully unknotting the bow in the ribbon and setting it aside.

“Just… open it and you’ll find out,” Buck said and bit his lip.

Eddie ripped open the paper and set it down before opening up the box. Nestled inside was the positive pregnancy test. Eddie froze the second he’d opened the box enough to see what it was and read it. “Buck…”

“Surprise,” Buck said weakly and with Eddie’s head ducked down to look at the contents of the box, Buck couldn’t read what he was thinking. Eddie set the box aside slowly and suddenly Buck wondered if it had been a bad idea to spring it on him like that. “Eddie, say something. Please.”

Buck let out a breath as he noticed hazel eyes brimming with tears. “I love you,” Eddie said, and he stepped into Buck’s space to kiss him fiercely. Buck felt the tension in his shoulders relax as he leaned into Eddie’s chest. Eddie’s hands are resting on his waist, as usual, but there’s something different about it now. There’s an added layer of care and reverence to his touch.

“You’re excited?” Buck asks tentatively when Eddie finally lets him break away from the kiss.

“Yes, yes I am definitely excited,” Eddie said and laughed brightly. Then his smile faltered. “Did you think I’d be upset?”

Buck chewed his lip. “We never really talked about any of this,” Buck said in lieu of a more definitive answer. “A baby is going to be a lot on top of everything else.”

“It will be,” Eddie said and he pressed his thumb into the small of Buck’s back, “but there’s no one I’d rather do it with.” Buck couldn’t help himself, he ducked down and kissed Eddie softly.

“What’s going on?”

They both turned to see Christopher frowning a little. Eddie pulled away from Buck to go and kneel down in front of Chris. He glanced over his shoulder at Buck and Buck just nodded as he walked over to stand next to Eddie. “Well, kid,” Eddie said and wrapped an arm around Christopher. “Buck just told me something really exciting.”

Chris brightened up immediately and wiggled a little in Eddie’s hold. “What is it? Can I know?”

“Yeah, buddy,” Buck said, and he smoothed a hand over Christopher’s hair.

“How would you feel if I told you that you were going to be a big brother?” Eddie asked and there was a pause as Eddie’s words sank in. Buck and Eddie had already had the talk about Buck being trans and what that meant, so Christopher knew exactly what Eddie was saying.

“Really? Am I going to get a little sister like Denny?” Christopher asked and he was practically vibrating with excitement.

“Or a little brother,” Buck said and his cheeks ached with how much he was smiling.

“When will they get here? What will they look like? Will they look like me or will they look more like Buck?” Christopher asked, already full of questions.

“I don’t know what the baby will look like, we won’t know until they get here and maybe even until they get a little bigger,” Buck said and crouched down so he was level with Christopher. “But the baby will get here while you’re on summer break. So you’ll have plenty of time to spend with them when they get here. How does that sound?”

“Good!” Christopher said with that 1000-watt smile of his. It quickly turned into a frown. “But where will the baby live? With you, or with us at home?” Buck opened his mouth and then closed it. Another small issue in the vast ocean of small issues that he and Eddie hadn’t ever discussed about this whole situation.

“Well, I’m thinking,” Eddie started carefully and turned to look at Buck, “that it would be really cool if Buck comes and lives with us. So then, when the baby gets here, they’ll both get to live with us.”

“Yeah?” Buck asked, and if he sounded a little choked up, he would blame it on pregnancy hormones.

“Yeah,” Eddie said and reached out to swipe a thumb over Buck’s cheekbone.

“I like that plan,” Christopher said with a nod of approval. Buck laughed at that, ducking his head to hide the fact that he probably had tears in his eyes.

“Yeah, me too.”

“Alright then,” Eddie said and he stood up, offering Buck a hand up as well. “I’m thinking this definitely deserves a nice day at the park to celebrate.”

“Me too!” Christopher chimed in.

“Well then let’s go,” Buck said and ruffled Christopher’s hair playfully.

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That night, after he and Eddie had put Christopher to bed back at the Diaz house- their home- and were laying in bed, Buck glanced over at Eddie. “If you’re not ready for me to move in, I don’t have to. The baby’s going to change a lot of things but-”

“Buck, don’t be ridiculous. I’m not going to leave you alone with the baby, or make you have to run back and forth between your apartment and here- unless that’s what you want to do,” Eddie said and turned onto his side to look at Buck. He took a deep breath and glanced away from Buck’s face. “I wasn’t there when Christopher was a baby, that was my choice, and I regret it. I want to be there for everything if you’ll let me.”

Buck nodded and he let out a shaky breath. “Yeah, I want that. All of it.” Buck sniffed and then he remembered the second part of his surprise that he had totally forgotten about. “Hold on a second.” Buck got out of bed and he pulled the ultrasound from his wallet.

He laid back in bed before handing it over. Eddie rolled onto his back so that the light from the bedside lamp would catch the paper better. It mostly looked like a smudge on the paper, but it made everything so real. Eddie smiled and he ran his thumb over the image. “Should get it framed,” Eddie said absently and Buck let out a short laugh. “What?”

“Why don’t we wait to get one framed that actually looks like a baby?” Buck asked and shook his head.

“It looks like a baby,” Eddie protested and shifted closer. “See?” He held out the photo so Buck could see it, as if Buck hadn’t been staring at it ever since it’d been printed.

“It looks like a lima bean,” Buck laughed and Eddie’s nose wrinkled up in affront.

“That’s our kid you’re talking about.”

“I never said it wasn’t a special lima bean.”

“Oh shut up.”

“You can’t tell me to shut up, I’m pregnant.”

“You can’t use that as your excuse for the next eight months!”

“I can and I will, because you know what?”

“What?”

“You did this to me.”

“Go to sleep, Buck.”

“Love you too, Eddie.”

#my writing #evan week 2020 #ew2020 #evan buckley #trans evan buckley #bobby nash #captain bobby nash #athena grant #bobby and athena are buck's parents I don't make the rules #eddie diaz #buddie #911 fox #911 fic #911 fanfic #buddie fic

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