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camilieroart · 2 months

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But by the gods, I will go on.

I will

I will.

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kishimotomasashi · 2 years

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“Civilization is coming. And it means to exterminate us.”

Naruto Shippuden (2007) // Black Sails (2014)

#naruto #naruto shippuden #mygif #edit #send post #edit: I was gonna post this one last but like I remembered Hashirama's birthday and so I will be posting that gifset on his birthday #Obviously one or two words were changed here to make it fit #shout-out tumblr user sasukelandia for making the post that gave me this idea in the first place #I was gonna remove the ''god-fearing tax-paying'' part but like. it's integral to the quote.#I generally don't want to change up the quotes TOO much I have like. a weird thing against it. a weird personal thing.#so assume ''god'' here is the concept of the village itself and ''tax-paying'' is being a ninja lol #You could imagine that it's Nagato saying this but tbh when I was making this I was going for a general vibe #many rogue ninja could not make it into this gifset and I apologize to them #Btw y'all ever think about how cold it is for the Akatsuki to wear headbands with their old village symbol crossed out #Other rogue nin either don't wear the headband anymore or simply keep it without changing it much #Whoever had the crossing out the headband as a uniform to send a message idea was a genius. I am going to pretend that Konan was the one who #came up with it. I also think she came up with the robes as well.#There are some good things in Naruto.#Hidden villages rogue ninja dehumanization is insane the fact that leaving your village is a death sentence..........#They had a bounty on 12 year old baby-faced Sasuke's head for leaving to a place in which he was almost certain to be killed...........#fucking hell. anyways.#sincerely hope this colouring is better than for the Hashirama one lmao #6th gif gave me so much grief with the file size #Those tsukuyomi filler episodes with cop Sasuke were AWFUL but at least they gave me a good visual for the 3rd gif so.#everything has its uses!#naruto // black sails #queuekage

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lonestardust · 1 year

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9-1-1 : LONE STAR I 1x08 ‘Monster Inside’ : Owen and TK have a heart to heart.

#needed to bring this here because i can't stop thinking of their paralleling conversation here #and owen telling him about the hereditary illness 😭#'I can’t marry carlos knowing that i have a death sentence hanging over my head' and 'I can't fall in love with one more thing that i #know I'm gonna lose dad..'#vs 'son we all have a death sentence handing over our heads' 'there is no guarantees.. not for anybody.. It's okay to love him even though #you might lose him' and 'you're not going to postpone anything you're just gonna move forward with your life' 😭#Owen comforting tk when he's spiraling about lose hanging over his horizon. making him see the silver linings despite it all.. and actually #his growth this time of not having wanting to hide things from tk anymore.. telling him that he needs him as much as tk needs his dad..#this is so huge and they both deserve it #but also its the fact that tk also grew through his love for carlos and keeps growing more in love with him #— how he feels invincible with this love because 'it's infinitely more powerful than the fear of losing it' 😭#but those 48 hours are gonna put him and carlos through the wringer.... between the euphoric high of getting married and #the devastating low of potentially having their future together jeopardised because it might come with a time limit #thank fucK we know everything is gonna be fine other wise I'd have been spiraling so bad because THEY DESERVE A FUCKING BREAK #911 lone star #tk strand #911 ls #ronen rubinstein #rafael silva #carlos reyes #owen strand #tarlos #monster inside #1x08 #4x16 #Rob lowe

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anonbinaryweirdo · 5 months

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i am not okay. I found old screenshots of my babies from like ???? two??? years ago

josmora still gives me so much LIFE

#josh n shamora !!!#malewife x girlboss #im gonna hc for a little #josh was a mommas boy snd probably had bad daddy issues‚ which would explain why hes so fragile and sensitive #funfacto; josh died due to drowning‚ so i would like to think that Oliver tries to help him overcome his fear of deep water #it takes a while but he's not that afraid of it anymore !!#notice how shamoras the one carrying the groceries and josh is staring straight into the sun #that should sum up their dynamic perfectly i think #“wife who hates everyone except her husband”#funfacto 2; shamoras cause of death was being pushed off a building (i vividly remember this. im so sure it was this.)#so shes deathly afraid of heights now probably #but will get on an amusement park ride for joshs sake because he needs someones hand to hold #and its either Lucy's or Shamora's #but he also makes sure she's alright the whole ride too !! he doesnt want her to have ant kind of panic attack #so he ensures that shes okay the whole ride #josh is a cinnamon roll with a mixture of “could kill you / is just a cinnamon roll”#shamora looks like she could kill you and WOULD kill you #the black hair streaks are because all dead ocs have them !! i think it was an earlier hc that they couldnt dye over it.#this is because alexandra dyed her hair blue‚ but the streak wouldnt dye(?)#holy shit im rambling im so sorryKSJKSDJ #oc talk !#ALSO SUNSHINE X SUNSHINE PROTECTOR HOW COULD I FORGET #AND ITS ALSO FUCKING MOON X MOON PROTECTOR IDK THE PROPER NAME

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midnightdemonhunter · 11 months

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Trial of the Frog Prince

#d20 #neverafter #gerard of greenleigh #neverafter rapunzel #dimension 20 #midnight draws #honestly though this isnt the trial that made me cry (thanks ylfa) this IS my favorite one #such a perfect blend of comedy horror and tragedy #and him eating the heron being both a win and a loss....for what it means for his humanity vs his sense of safety #very ylfa eating the wolf vibes #look you can survive now! you dont need to fear death! at what cost!#and also rapunzel's speech...so eloquent and mean and good #just GOD #one of the few trials where i came out of it going JESUS CHRIST. OKAY THAT SURE WAS A TRIAL #though heartbreaking that no one remembered that you weren't supposed to be able to say his name anymore #if theyd commited to not calling him gerard afterwards it would hit harder in retrospect

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doodlebloo · 2 years

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"Nothing happened and that's the problem" makes me so crazy. Like no you get your incorporeal ass back here right this second and explain yourself

#nothing happened and thats the problem is like When by Dodie. do you understand.#its like they just kept Waiting. both of them.#like Ranboo can move in once I have a better handle on myself... well not now that Tommy has died... Well not now that hes back either...#now we should wait until after I figure out this outpost conflict. Now we should wait until we're not fightig anymore.#now we should wait until hes recovered from his death. just one thing after another #& for Ranboo it was mostly a fear of himself. he wanted to wait until he knew he was a safe person to be around #before he moved in. didnt want Tubbo to wake up to find him gone from the house doing god knows what.#so he experimented on himself and he did all the research he could and eventually he was begging to be locked up and he didnt fight it #much at all when it finally happened. the guilt of not being able to have a life that was Right in front of him.#& i just know the thought is eating him up inside that Tubbo could have helped if hed just SAID SOMETHING #but the risk was too high bc to explain hed have to admit how much hes hurt the people Tubbo cares about. even if he doesnt remember #he still knows he did it.#''nothing happened and thata the problem'' as in We didnt get to live the life we wanted #but also as in We never had an argument I never confessed what ive done I never learned about his past #all of this was building up for months and months and not one bit of it ever came to fruition before I was killed.#fuuuuuuuuuucking hell he has got to do lore again at some point i am so. rabid #(no obligation he doesnt Have to etc discliamer blah.)#doodle.txt

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jcsontodd · 11 months

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#tw death #everything is fine rn! but i check on mamaw in the morning esp if she's not up and moving bc i worry and mom said #thats one of her biggest fears is that mamaw will go in her sleep here and like.#yeah thats a peaceful way to go but we don't want her to do that for years to come yk #but i just. i told mom I've tried to think abt it bc she said the chances of mamaw passing here in this house are very high #but again not for years i hope. but like...I've never had anything but animals pass in my home yk.#like...i was holding sugar when she passed and cayenne the 1st and tiramisu were already gone before i even knew #but its weird bc idk how to feel? ig its shock maybe of just. oh. i should...should go get someone or do smthing #and i don't want that to be the way with...idk. i have never handled death well #also idk if i'll still be living here when she passes but if i am idk if i could be here anymore #anyways. i feel weird rn #BUT MAMAW IS OK I REPEAT SHE'S SLEEPING I CHECKED ON HER TWICE.#dl.txt

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violet-dragongirl · 1 year

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...*sigh* still need a new boredom game that I can sink my teeth into...

#b4b kind of like...it isn't really doing it much anymore????#I literally play just to get skins and honestly the gunplay is tolerable #beyond that I do not care for this game at all. been back and forth with it about 3 times in a row #I will say that I'm choosing this game over Godfall which doesn't say much but like...at least it's not godfall #I'm also not wanting to play certain 'new' games I have out of boredom in fear of playing them once and never picking them up again #might go back to BL2 but hearing Jack's voice and going through Roland's death again still irks me to this day #same goes with the pre-sequel cos again...jack...

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transvoxman · 2 years

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#god fucking damn it. i am giving in and making a vent post made entirely in the tags #whatever terror laserblast wouldve gone through if he decided to be upfront with POINT and not fake his death. im going THROUGH it #sure would be nice if people could be happy for me going on T. instead of reacting like theyre at a goddamn funeral.#me n laserblast are both very much cowards who care more about what others think than about being who we are #but *I'm* subjecting myself to coming out to people before T forces me to be out whether i like it or not #and its so fucking scary. i literally feel anxiety nausea 24/7 and start literally Shaking when i think about it #i can barely function from being so scared of how theyll react.#im literally financially independent and will be 100% safe no matter how they react!!! im just THAT scared of what other people think of me #and obviously i dont have anyone irl who is supportive and happy for me otherwise i wouldnt be venting on goddamn tumblr #nothing more heartbreaking than needing to go through something that im overjoyed about without being able to celebrate it with ANYONE #its also infuriating. i couldve been on T *years* ago if i had supportive people in my life.#i dropped out of COLLEGE because of dysphoria. i couldve had a DEGREE by now #transphobia takes so many possibilities away from people.#well im not letting it take anything else away from me. im not letting ANY amount of fear stop me anymore. people can fucking deal with it.#im not putting up the facade of my gender assigned at birth anymore.#no matter what happens next.#im trying so hard to genuinely believe it when i say 'fuck it im gonna transition no matter what' but anger is so difficult to hold on to.#it takes so much energy. its easier to just feel heartbroken about people i care about cutting me out of their lives.#well. itll get easier eventually. its just gonna suck more than anything else thats ever happened in my life first.

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v-t-holmes · 2 years

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oh talking about the black parade, i got mine with a coupon code for 10% off at checkout that expired in october 2008 inside

so this album had to be laying around in the store my parents bought it at for over a decade before my parents bought it, which i find hilarious and it makes the cd feel a little haunted not gonna lie

#it's my haunted CD and i get to name the ghosts #actually it's not really ghosts it's more like the passage of time and inevitability of death but that's also just in the text #so maybe it's just fear of those things itself #and a reminder im not 6 anymore (thanks god! being 6 kind of sucked actually </3)

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velvet-midnight · 13 days

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How can we have such anxiety caused by surveillance culture and at the same time absolutely no understanding of where those privacy lines exist?

You should be afraid of surveillance culture BECAUSE you know there is a distance between the personal and the public

Not cutting the space between those two by conflating thought (personal) and speech (public)

Or have we reached the generation where surveillance culture is just the norm and therefore the fear is not of being watched but of being found wanting by the culture? Ah. Oh dear.

#some of you is literally just for you #sometimes i'm boggled that privacy just truly does not exist anymore? in any realm?#is that why people think you should be perfect even in private?#(see also - this is why my journals are being burned upon my death)#(my vulnerability and fear and deepest fucked-up-ness is mine alone)

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esyra · 6 months

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After the hospital bombing, I finally heard back from my grandmother and confirmed that several of my relatives were murdered by Israeli bombing. Seven of them, to be precise. Three are still going, including her. We've been talking constantly ever since.

Asked if it was possible to head south, and was told they did but were also bombed there. So they decided to go back home, in Zeitoun. Their home was bombed and they were pulled out of the rumble, then driven by ambulances to the al-Ahli Arab Hospital. There were people in every corner. Gazans sheltering, sleeping on the floor. Gazans dying on the floor, waiting for beds.

Four were declared dead on arrival, three were in need of surgery and other three were just bandaged. Then, a bomb was dropped in the parking lot that made parts of the ceiling collapse, like Dr. Ghassan Abu Sittah reported in that horrific conference/interview. Those in need of surgery died.

By the way, just in case you didn't know: the Church of Saint Porphyrius, the third oldest in history, bombed by Israel a few days back, was located near the hospital.

When looking for new shelter, they saw schools with signs hanging outside, "We can't take any more families." They met families, sympathetic but already sheltering too many people. They're now staying in an apartment building they found empty. Sleeping in the corner of the living room. If the family comes back, they'll apologize and leave.

Told me she was saving her phone battery for when the bombing stopped, and she had to ask for help to rebuilt the neighborhood. But she doesn't think it's gonna stop anymore. The ones still with her are mute most of the time, like they're saving energy, but she feels lonely and wanted to talk. There's no internet and to connect to WhatsApp, people are buying "a card from the supermarket, there's a password and username." Not sure what she meant. Still, the internet is inconsistent and won't load neither videos or images nor pages, so she doesn't know what's happening on the outside world.

Told her there were a lot of people protesting to stop the genocide, she replied, "The bombings are getting worse by the day." The bombing yesterday was the worst she ever witnessed. The entire neighborhood is infested with the smell of death, of decomposing bodies. Bodies are piling up in the streets and she's not sure if it's because they ran out of places to store them, but most of them are in bags. The smoke of the bombings hide the blue sky—she hasn't seen the clouds for a while.

Asked if I could share their pictures, names and dreams with people and was told, of which I partly agree, "they're not entertainment." If anyone genuinely cared, they would be alive—I'd argue there are people who do care, but I'm not gonna lecture her pain. And they don't deserve to be used to fulfill someone's sick fantasy. Told me to remember what some Israelis do with pictures of dead Palestinians. And I do.

For those of you who are not familiar, many times before settlers got together to celebrate the murder of Palestinians. For one, in 2015, Israeli settlers set a house in Duma, West Bank on fire. An 18-month old baby, Ali Dawbsheh, was burnt alive. Both parents later died of wounds and only a 5-year-old, Ahmad, survived, although severely injured.

Two celebrations of their murder are widely known, one at a wedding and others outside the court in which two were indicted for the terrorist attack. In the wedding, guests stabbed a photo of the toddler, Ali, while others waved guns, knives and Molotov cocktails. Israel's Minister of National Security, Itamar Ben-Gvir, was present.

That's what happens in an apartheid. Palestinians are so abused by authorities that their "innocent civilians" come to accept the brutality as necessary or are desensitized by our suffering. After all, it's been 75 years—get used to it!

So I won't risk the image of my loved ones, in fear they are used in these kinds of depravity. I will say, though, the world lost a young footballer. Lost a female writer and an aspiring ballerina. Lost a kind father, who was also a great cook, and a loving mother that enjoyed sewing and other types of handicraft art. Lost a math teacher and a child that wanted to become one.

People think Israel is testing new weapons on them. There's civilians arriving at the hospital with severe burns, which they thought was from white phosphorus, but apparently the pattern is different from the one caused by white phosphorus. It's widely believed Israel tests weapons in Palestinians.

Jeff Halper, author of War Against the People, a book on Israel's arms and surveillance technology industries, said: "Israel has kept the occupation because it's a laboratory for weapons."

They've ran out of drinkable water and the "aid" Biden sent was only for the South of Gaza and no fuel, for hospitals, was allowed in. Many shelves in the supermarket are empty. She said many are convinced that if they don't die from the bombing, they'll die from starvation or dehydration, or whatever disease will develop from the dirty water they're drinking.

Told me all people do now is pray, cry and die. Told me she hopes West Bank is spared. Told her Israel bombed a mosque in West Bank and dozens of Palestinians in West Bank are being murdered by settlers, so she bided me goodbye.

#palestine #free palestine #gaza #free gaza #may allah protect them #may almighty allah see our pain #hopefully she'll message me tomorrow

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playername-player-of-games · 4 months

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🌺❤️🧊 for both guys from AoSS4

🌺- Do they have any love interest(s)?

Ivory/Pigeon: no

Lucas: not going in but going out yes :D he loved toothpaste. idk what kind of love it was but he loved toothpaste.

???: not really. it thinks its supposed to, but it's hard to love someone you never technically met

❤️ - What is one of your OC’s best memories?

Ivory: the brief moment before she was thrown out of Lucas's body- when she realized her crazy plan worked and their code was finally fixed.

Lucas: when the world border shattered and reformed around him and he realized he didn't need to live in fear of death anymore

???: it doesn't know yet. it's only been around for a little while.

🧊 - Is their current design the first one?

eeeeeh kinda? i made them shapeshifters so that whatever i wanted them to look like could be canon sjdfklsjdf

Ivory: had a skirt and a sweater before his final look but then i couldn't make a skirt look good on any of the skins i made so i just gave him my clothes instead

Lucas: wasn't always a cod. briefly was a rat. had this like half dogboy thing going on and then was a cod again. funky funky guy <3

???: doesn't shapeshift ! i haven't decided if it has the ability to shapeshift yet. would make sense if it did but i honestly don't think it would shapeshift much unless the world forced it to. its design had a burned back before but i just redid the whole skin and character thing and it has wings now and also headphones and it's way better than the first skin i made for it sjdklfjs

#thank u for askin :D #asks #ask game #korky beloved #whos the question mark guy? well. :smirk:#also MAN. if i could have participated in the season longer. lucas would have totally gone on a whole red thing of just.#he doesn't fear death anymore. he would absolutely last about three seconds in pvp but he doesn't fear death anymore #that wouldve been fun to play methinks

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outofcontextfossil · 5 months

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i have to make a presentation to teach my latin teacher something by the end of december and i have been thinking about what i will teach her since this summer. every single one of my ideas has been something im into like an insane amount and love a lot so i dont know if i would be able to compose myself and actually present and not dry heave when it comes time to actually

#i have thought about explaining the love shape (idk what it is anymore) but it would just end up as me ranting about how they threw away #chloes redemption arc #jujutsu kaisen would have me on the floor sobbing #I MISS YOU NANAMI #FF7 and FF15 would just be me being like I FUCKING LOVE CHARACTERS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#HAIKYUU IS SUCH A GOOD CONTENDER BUT I FEAR PEOPLE WOULD THINK IM JUST INTO THE SHIPPING BUT IM NOT I LOVE HAIKYUU SO MUCH #nana is just me crying on the floor sobbing p2 #om is an absolute no im not WILLINGLY telling my latin class i play om #same goes for something else but im not gonna say the game name....#i love yoo would be I FUCKING LOVE CHARACTERS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! p2 #i also havent read it in months OOPS i need to catch up #maybe i could do internet lore... something like that #sorbet shark cookie is always an option...............#durara!! i fuckinglove characters (okay just izaya actually) p3 #ranking my favorite blond men in media......?#explaining my own OC lore would be a wreck i dont even know my own OC lore #attack on titan is too political and also boys in my latin class watch that show so very much no #mystic messenger has the same issue as om #DEATH NOTE???????#SAIKI K PERHAPS MAYBE EVEN #maybe i could attempt to explain fandom #i just needed to use the tags to rant TBH thinking out loud with this one #those are all the things i can think of for now maybe ill make another post when i remember more and rant even more in those tags

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yokelfelonking · 8 months

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Post 9/11 Trivia

Most folks on this site were either children on September 11, 2001, or weren’t even born yet. But America went crazy for about a year afterwards. Here’s some highlights that I remember that might not be in your history books:

There was national discussion on whether or not Halloween should be canceled because…fuck if I know why. After planes crashed into buildings in NYC it follows that 6-year-olds in Iowa shouldn’t be allowed to dress up like Batman and ask their neighbors for candy, I guess. (Halloween wasn’t canceled, by the way.)

On a similar note, people asked if comedy - any sort of comedy - was appropriate anymore, ever.

People sold shitty parachutes to suckers “in case your building gets attacked and you have to jump out the window.” There were honest-to-God news reports warning people not to jump out of the window with shitty mail-order parachutes because they wouldn't work.

As a follow-up to the attacks, someone mailed anthrax to some prominent politicians and news anchors - you know, famous people - along with some badly-written notes about “you cannot stop us, death to America, Allah is good” and after that every time some random dumbass found a package in the mail they didn’t recognize they thought that the terrorists were targeting them, too.

Everyone was similarly convinced that their town was going to be the next target, even if they were a little town in the middle of nowhere. "Our town of Bumblefuck, South Dakota (population 690) has the largest styrofoam pig statue west of the Mississippi! Terrorists might fly planes into that too! It's a prime target!"

People started taping up their windows and trying to make their houses or apartments airtight out of fear of chemical and biological attacks. There were news reports warning people that turning your house into an airtight box was a bad idea because, y'know, you need air to breathe.

"[X] supports terrorism!" and “if we do [X], the terrorists win!” were used as arguments for everything. "Some rich Arab you never heard of donated to his organization that backs Hamas which backs al-Queda, and also owns stock in a holding company that has partial ownership of the Pringles company, so if you eat Pringles you're supporting terrorism!" "The terrorists want to tear down our freedoms and our way of life and rule us through fear! Eating what you want is one of our freedoms as Americans! If you're afraid to eat Pringles, the terrorists win!" (I promise you that this sort of argument is in no way hyperbole.) (This argument is how Halloween was saved, by the way. “If we cancel Halloween, the terrorists win!”)

People worked 9/11 into everything, and I mean everything, whether it was appropriate or not. If you went to the grocery store the tortilla chips would remind you to support the troops on the packaging. Used car sales would be dedicated to our brave first responders. You couldn't wipe your ass without the toilet paper rolls reminding you to never forget the fallen of 9/11, and again, this is not hyperbole. My uncle, who lived in Ohio and had never been to New York except to visit once in the 70′s, died of a stroke about 8 months after 9/11, and the priest brought up the attacks at the eulogy.

On a similar local note, on the day of 9/11, after the towers went down, gas stations in my home town immediately jacked up gas prices. The mayor had the cops go around and force them to take them back down. I doubt any of that was legal.

Before 9/11, Christianity in America - and religion in general - was on a downward swing, with reddit-tier atheism on the upswing. Religion was outdated superstition from a bygone age. The day after 9/11? Every single church was PACKED. (This wasn't a bad thing, but the power-hungry on the Evangelical Right saw this as a golden opportunity to grab power and influence.)

EDIT: By Popular Demand - Freedom Fries. I initially left these off because they came a couple years after the initial panic and most people thought they were kind of absurd (and I don't recall anyone really going along with it other than maybe some local diners here and there). France didn't want to get involved in our world policing so some folks were like "TRAITORS!" and wanted to call french fries "Freedom Fries" instead, so as to stick it to the French.

Besides dumb shit like that…it’s really hard to overstate how completely the national mood and character changed in the span of a day, or how much of the current culture war is a result of the aftermath. (9/11 was the impetus for the sharp rise in power of the Evangelical Right, who made themselves utterly odious and the following backlash helped the rise of the current Progressive Left, for instance.)

#9/11 #9-11 #september 11 #september 11 2001 #world trade center

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that--funny--feeling · 1 year

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Gunn said the first movie was about the mother, the second about the father and the third about the self. And if I think about it, all characters finally come to terms to who they really are or want to be:

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• Mantis goes her own way, after following what Ego wanted and then what the Guardians wanted for all these years;

• Drax, that called himself the 'destroyer', finds his place as a 'father', even after his daughter's death;

• Groot: now that he is an adult again, it's pretty clear to us that he's phisically and mentally different from the GOTG1!Groot. He respects and supports everyone's choices in his family and makes us part of it too at the end (→ now we understand him too);

• Nebula, now free from Thanos, is now a leader and helps kids in need like she was as a child, following what she and Gamora talked about at the end of vol 2;

• Gamora learns why her 2018!self found a family between the Guardians, but feels she's different and chooses another path in the end;

• Rocket "ain't no one like me but me" accepts he's not alone in the world anymore and deserves to keep on living. Also, he calls himself "racoon" for the first time without it being a offense for him;

• Peter, always away from his planet, faces his fears and comes back to the Earth, where he lost his mother, and meets his granddad.

I don't like all the choices Gunn made in this movie (about Gamora's arc for example), but GOTG3 made me cry and laught and cry again and I'm happy we finally got to see the ending of this beautiful trilogy.

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