#but also someone called me a bad friend and that is one of the most hurtful things I’ve ever experienced

[bluejutdae]

best friend Stray Kids saving you (or being saved by you) from a bad date | Hyunjin x you

Chan , Minho, Changbin, Jisung , Felix, Seungmin, Jeongin.

a/n: finally I managed to write the last part of this series, the Hyunjin part! There’s not much “saving” here because I had this dramatic idea in my head and I didn’t want to renounce to it. Enjoy!

The rain outside has been incessant for days, so many that it started to be difficult to recognize the time of the day just by looking at the sky. Everything it’s gray, and you almost forgot about this date. The guy is the cousin of one of your colleagues, and you would have canceled it if only you had a bit more hope. Not on this date, you know it’s gonna end up with you telling the guy it’s not the time for you for a relationship or some other fake excuse, you’ll apologize for wasting his time and the truth is: you do feel sorry for wasting his time, but staying home knowing Hyunjin is probably out there kissing his girlfriend and having fun made you a bit selfish. You ignored him for the last 5 days, after he called you at 2 am and you couldn’t help it but hope it meant something. But what would it mean? You’ll never know, cause you didn’t answer.

Your heartache clings to you like molasses, covers you head to toes, you can feel it under your teeth. You’re so used to it, it doesn’t scare you anymore. But it’s so tiring to wake up everyday and do the same routine: wear your clothes, slip in your shoes, put on your grief, grab your purse. Day after day.

The restaurant you’re having your date at is a nice one, you often order takeout from it. The only downside is that it doesn’t deliver home, so anytime you want its amazing food, you have to get out of your house and come collect it. It’s worth it.

Shivering in your cute top, you nod to something your date just said and reach for the wine glass. You have nothing in common with him, you barely remember his name. Was it Minjoon? Minhyun? Once again something distracts you from the conversation (it’s a monologue, at this point) when you hear your phone chime, signaling a message. And since love is blind, and most days it’s also stupid, you can clearly recognize the tune you use for Hyunjin and Hyunjin only.

You have been ignoring him, but you were sure he didn’t even notice. Ten minutes pass and you’re on the verge of just leaving the date, apologize profusely and go home to cry. The bell on the door chimes as someone enters and, once again not paying attention to the man in front of you, your eyes wanders to look at whoever enters. It could have been a couple grabbing dinner, it could have been parents celebrating their kid’s success, it could have been anyone. But just as love is blind, so is luck. Because it’s Hyunjin who just entered the restaurant, and it’s Hyunjin looking directly at you, eyebrows knit in a frown and a sour expression distorting his lips. You’re frozen in your seat, watching him shaking his head, speaking with a waiter, collecting his dinner and leaving. You can't have him leave like this. Something in your gut is telling you it’s now or never, if you let him go now, you might as well let him go forever. And you’re not ready for that.

In a blur of apologies and confused sentences you leave your share of money on the tablecloth and, grabbing your purse, you flee the restaurant. It doesn’t matter that you left your jacket on the back of your chair, it doesn’t matter that’s it’s pouring outside, it matters only your voice calling his name.

He doesn’t turn, doesn’t stop, keeps on waking under the rain, head down and fast steps. You start doing that awkward running walk, reaching to grab his wrist. This effectively makes him stop, but he looks displeased.

“Why did you leave without saying goodbye?”

“You’re on a date.” He frees himself from your grasp, almost like your touch burns him.

“So?”

“So you’re having dinner with another man. Why would I interrupt?”

“Because you always come say ‘hi’ when you meet me by chance.”

“Not when you’re on a date!” He snips. You’re still both under the rain. For a moment you wonder why he hasn’t insisted on moving under a covering. You haven’t because the cold rain is soothing your nerves, soothing the pain you feel anytime you’re too close to him. Did Icarus feel like this when he was soaring too close to the sun? Did he wish for the rain when the scorching wax burned his skin? Did he love the freedom so much he reveled in the pain, hating it at the same time?

“I never go on dates!”

“Clearly, you do.”

You sigh, “this was my first date in 4 years, Hyune.”

“And I didn’t know you had a date, wanna guess why? Because you ignored me for days!” He uses his free hand to push back the strands of hair that fell on his face, dripping wet.

“I thought you were busy. Last time we talked you were really focused on getting ready to meet your girlfriend. Why would I interrupt that?” He’s baffled, and rightly so. In the past, you had no qualms about texting him at all hours.

“Well, I was focused”, you can hear his mocking tone. When did this transform into a fight? “because I was meeting her to put an end to our relationship, because I realized I’ll never be in love with her because I am crazy in love with you. And I tried to call you because I needed to tell you so, I needed to know I did the right thing. I thought this wasn’t one sided. And yet you ignored me and- fuck” he laughs disheartened. “-and went on a date with another man.”

“I- you, what?” You blink rapidly, drops of rain blurring your sight. “You broke up with her? For…” you can’t say it. You can’t bring yourself to say ‘for me’, because it’d make it real. And it could be the best thing or the worst thing. Or both, at the same time. Did Icarus ever think he’d succeed? Did he ever consider he could fly, escape and be free; or did he -like you- only ever imagined failure in front of him? Was he like you, swimming stroke after stroke towards something, wishing for the best but never thinking it could come true? There’s a certain push that animates the despairings, there’s no fight or flight response. There’s only the pilgrimage towards the unreachable goal.

“For you.”

A beat passes. Another. Another one.

“Since when?”

“Since you held my hand after that nightmare. Since I realized I'm not scared when I’m with you.”

There’s something they don’t tell you about desperation, about wanting something so bad that you can feel it missing from your own body. For weeks, for months, you get used to the longing, the yearning. When you can finally wrap your hands around his shoulder, when you can press your lips against his and hear him utter a soft groan, all that you used to feel transforms into electricity, it runs through your whole body and sets you aflame from the inside. This kind of burning, though? It’s a welcomed feeling.

#bluejutdae #stray kids x reader #stray kids fanfic #stray kids scenarios #stray kids imagines #skz #skz fake texts #skz smau #Hyunjin x reader #Hyunjin x you #stray kids smau #skz texts #skz imagines #skz scenarios #stray kids #hyunjin scenarios

[am-i-the-asshole-official]

WIBTA If I send my friend posts about quitting smoking?

All people in this scenario are between 17 and 18.

My friend, let's call him L, has started smoking / vaping a while back and while I think people can do whatever they want with their body, including consuming whatever drug they want, it still makes me uncomfortable.

L is prone to self destructive behavior due to mental health issues and transphobia he regularly experiences in school (including from someone who used to be a close friend of his) and from his grandparents. This manifests mostly in things like him making risky decisions without necessarily thinking about the consequences, not really caring about his health and other things I won't mention because they're irrelevant. I believe his smoking is either another way his self destructive behavior manifests or his attempt to make his mental health issues better. It doesn’t help that another friend of L either does not seem to mind L's self destructive behavior or maybe even actively encourage it with her questionable choices.

I recently read studies about the fact that trans people appear to have an increased risk for cardiovascular disease after seeing a tumblr post about it and wanting to fact check. This risk is further increased by smoking (among other things).

L is supposed to start hormones later this year / early in the next year, and while I am obviously very excited for him, I am also worried.

He already has a history of health issues - a cancer scare that, thankfully, turned out to be a harmless tumor; poor blood circulation that has caused him to faint multiple times in the past- and while I know that an increased risk for cardiovascular disease means that the disease would most likely not appear until years, if not decades into the future, I still want L to fully know about the risk and evaluate whether it is a risk he really wants to take.

Obviously I can't force him into giving up smoking, but I also want my friend to be as healthy as possible, so I thought I could send him a post about the health risks for trans people who smoke and ways to give it up except for stopping immediately.

On one hand, I think I wouldn't be in the wrong because I don't want to force L into anything and I would do this out of worry for his health instead of doing it for selfish reasons.

On the other hand I worry I could be overbearing and comment on something it isn't my place to comment on, L is, after all, only a year younger than me. And I think it might come across as me thinking I know what's best for him and trying to force him into something he does not want.

Also, I regularly make bad life / health decisions as well so I don't know if I can really comment on other people's decisions.

(Apologies for any mistakes, English is my second language; 🦤 to find this again)

#aita #am i the asshole

[bones4thecats]

hello! I love to read your writing and I hope you don't mind me requesting something for the amazing digital circus. 😊

Could I request Gangle and Jax either with a crush on the reader or in a relationship with them, where the reader is somewhat stoic and shows affection in quiet ways (such as sitting with them when they think they need company, or giving them gifts) and doesn't speak all too much?

I hope you have a nice day!

Them Having A Crush on Stoic! Reader

Characters: Gangle and Jax Requester: 😊Anon A/N: I’ll call you 😊Anon, since you added the emoji. By the way, people if you are doing an Anonymous request, please add an emoji onto it so I know who you are! Thanks! ⚠️ Spoilers/Trigger Warnings for: None ⚠️

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»»————————————-　 Gangle 　————————————-««

🎭 Gangle was scared when she first met you. She assumed from the get-go that you were a fairly cold and uncaring individual, kinda like how Jax was. But, thankfully, you were far from like him

🎭 Whenever she got her comedy mask broken, you would come up to her and hold the object in your hand before repairing the decorative things

🎭 Let’s just say that when you handed her the mask and gently smiled as you walked away to speak to your other friend, Zooble, her face flushed as she covered it up with her ribbon-made hands

🎭 Gangle also likes it when you get protective of her. Like when you found out that Jax had broken her comedy mask on purpose and resulted in her crying, you found him and held him up by the neck and forced him to apologize

🎭 Hearing you declare that nobody should come in that amount of pain, especially someone as kind as her, she realized just how much she cared for you

🎭 She likes it whenever you pick her up on adventures and defend her with a classic glare that would kill if it was possible

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»»—————————————-　 Jax 　—————————————-««

🐇 Talk about two different people coming together

🐇 Jax is fairly expressive with himself, not bothering to hold back his bad emotions, though he seemingly holds his more happy-go-lucky side back in favor of letting others shine in that department

🐇 When he had first met you, he was annoyed

🐇 How were you resisting the urge to smack him so easily?! And why were you so gorgeous when you would look at the surroundings on each adventure that Caine would send them on

🐇 He obviously keeps himself from actually showing how much he cares about you. But, whenever you come up randomly missing on adventures, the few, that being Ragatha and Pomni, can tell that he is worried inside

🐇 Your silence is actually something that Jax appreciates. You're far more observant than the others, so you can tell when he is hiding something, such as after a small event that was held to tell Pomni about the other abstracted that the others could remember

🐇 He was hunkered down in a small area and he tried to tie himself together when he heard footsteps approach his hiding spot

🐇 When he saw you, Jax smirked and began to ask you why you were here in an annoyed tone. But, before he could try listing reasons to keep you off his case, you stood in front of him and opened your arms in a gesture of a hug

🐇 He began to sniffle before lunging and hugging you, tears falling down from his eyes as you held him closer with each passing second. By-far, this was one of his most valued memories left in his head of you

#The Amazing Digital Circus #TADC #The Circus #TADC Players #The Amazing Digital Circus x Reader #TADC x Reader #The Circus x Reader #TADC Players x Reader #S/O! Reader #GN! Reader #TADC Gangle #TADC Gangle x Reader #TADC Jax #TADC Jax x Reader

[lovecolibri]

The only thing I'm going to say about this (<- probably lying) is that it doesn't matter how Buck felt in that scene. Because Buck isn't real and doesn't actually have feelings. What DOES matter is how it comes across to the audience. And if the vast majority of the audience had an "what the fuck is this and why is it happening like this?" reaction and that was NOT the intention of the scene? Then it wasn't done well.

You should not have to come out after the episode and explain what the scene was supposed to do. If you have to, then you have failed in your job to get across to the writers, directors, and actors what the point and purpose is. And maybe you have failed to take into account what the characters are like, their trauma histories, and how the audience might react given their knowledge of the characters involved.

A lot of people never forgave tay kay for what she did to Bobby in s2, and then having Buck Begins give us this raw, vulnerable version of Buck and his childhood only to have her lash out a couple of eps later calling him "needy" and a bad friend because he asked something of her instead of just being there to give her whatever she wanted? It's no surprise fans and the general audience never got on board with that relationship. Because it wasn't good to BUCK and that's what the audience wants.

I am personally continually BAFFLED that this show gives these moments of gentle teasing and support and validation of Buck's feelings (even when he can overreact a little out of trauma response) to Eddie, and then continually put Buck in romantic relationships with people that don't even seem to LIKE him, much less adore all his quirks and the things that make him BUCK, and most importantly, the things the AUDIENCE loves about him.

It's.....it's almost like Tim isn't even trying. Because the audience isn't SUPPOSED to like these relationships for Buck. Because they aren't the right ones for him. Because we all know who is.

But also, at some point it starts getting questionable as to why the people that love him don't speak up to express concern about him staying in long term relationships with people that are not nice to him. We all know the bait-and-switch of tay kay in s4 being a FOX network call to shut down what Tim wanted to do, and then he left the show with someone who doesn't like, see, or care about Buddie (or really any of the main characters that aren't Angela to live out some revenge fantasy or Buck to live out...other fantasies). So they couldn't very well have all of the firefam desperately asking Buck if he was even happy as he wasted away in that loft all season, or even allow them to be kinda pissed he would choose to be with someone like that who nearly got Bobby killed by not telling someone immediately and interviewing him without consent, but it never sat right with me that it was all just never addressed and they had them breakup on good terms (sorry not sorry but if you think T*mmy isn't nice to Buck, tay kay was worse in every way and thats canon fact).

So I don't have super high hopes that they will address this clear and obvious disconnect with Buck and T*mmy, but considering they made a point to have nearly all their screentime revolve around Eddie, and them not meshing as a couple it would be weird NOT to. Then again, *gestures to all that rambling above*

ANYWAY

The point it, at SOME point the audience does have to be a consideration because without an audience you do not have a show. So Tim needs to shake off the last of the Lone Star cobwebs, get KR the fuck out of the writers room, and make sure his intentions for scenes are ACTUALLY what make it onto the screen, and that what is on screen is stuff that will resonate positively with the audience. Maybe he should rewatch the first 3 seasons of the show himself to get back into the groove.

#911 #evan buckley #anti bucktommy #anti taylor kelly #i have not had my coffee yet ignore me #i just had to get it out so my brain would shut up about it

[laceadornedvampire]

also for general note. im trying for the most part to decide where everyone's livinf (they live in galar cause i'm biased sorry to make them all british......)

as ive said earlier andrew lives in hammerlocke! throughout the game he kind of. lives in the dungeons beneath hammerlocke (for those who havent played swsh its not a bad arrangement! very spacious very safe do not fret) but once he actually like. gets a job and stuff he moves into one of the houses :] (it's never explicitly said that he resides in the chambers but it's very heavily implied, basically confirmed by some of the dialogue he has in the house he's in post game but never outright said)

luca i think lives in motostoke, but i think he'd be from wyndon. mainly because wyndon is the big fancy capital, but motostoke is a smaller city and is water powered! theres gears everywhere! the general vibe of motostoke feels like luca. i think he'd like the train station as well :]

norton is a spikemuth local!! imagining him doing a handful of odd jobs to help out piers and stuff seems like something he'd do. plus despite it being a sort of rundown town in disrepair it still has a lot of life and i think thats very fitting for norton! its also "conveniently" near the second galar mine (which is where wimpods are found btw.... to reference another post i made)

frederick i think would reside in a smaller town. probably hulbury (in reference to oceanis) and he strikes me as someone who'd like seafood. plus, there's a very nice view of the ocean! grace also lives here, its a fishing town so i think she'd be in her element perhaps.

ithaqua is definitely a ballonlea resident, though he could also be from circhester since that's a very cold snowy area. it's just past the cursed and spooky and ominous glimwood tangle (my beloved) and i think he could probably spook a few people there as like, a local rumor mayhaps (not sure what i wanna do w him yet tho...)

orpheus definitely still lives in wyndon, since its the big fancy capital of everything. not much to say about him.......

demi to me seems like she'd have moved to one of the bigger cities, maybe from milo's town (i forget what its called currently, but its a small farmers village). i think she'd work in a battle cafe (parallels to her canon job) and i kind of wanna put her in hammerlocke as well for the coworker norton potential..... after reading her story i think they'd be friends (ooh thinking about it this way i think she'd work with dragon types well too. maybe her ace is an appletun......)

i think emil could also be a ballonlea resident! it definitely fits the dreamy spacy vibe he has, and i think he'd also be either a fairy type or a psychic type specialist :]

without a doubt. victor is from/lives in postwick. it's a small small regular town. come on, even the name fits him!!! postwick??? postman with a dog named wick???? thats him. his town. postwick was made for him send tweet

i'm unsure where to put aesop,,, very unsure,,,,,, i'll have to let him steep for now.....

#allisters yapping #idv pokemon

[laura1633]

My English is bad asf but imagine this, enemies to lovers omegavers . Max is an omega but everyone thinks he’s an alpha because omegas normally look smaller and softer, and he hates being an omega bc his father always told him that omegas are so weak and that it’s better to act like an alpha since he’s not pretty like a normal omega anyway. So him and Charles are the best drivers and most attractive and dominant alphas on the track , only Daniel his childhood friend knows that he’s an omega. Lestappen are the most competitive rivals in F1 since childhood they fight and bicker all the time, but what nobody knows is that Max has a huge crush on alpha charles , Charles also thinks that max is his rival dominant alpha ( and if he spends a lot of time stalking his instagram and zooming on his lips  and chest it’s only between god and him) . Everyone thinks that it’s the most intense rivalry and that they hate each other, except Max’s sister because she knows her little brother and she had seen how his cheeks flush at the mention of Charle’s name, she always teases Max about it  all the time but he keeps denying that he has a crush on Charles , they talked about it once and Max ends up telling her everything about how he cries in his room  every time he sees Charles with his girlfriends and how he try to say things that makes Charles angry as a defensive mechanism because he’s sad that he would never be with him. It becomes their secret and he goes to rant about charles to his sister every time he gets fed up , she encourages him to reveal that he’s an omega as a start but he always refuses because of his past with his father. Anyway one day he forgets his pills and ends up having a heat after the race, Charles wins but as he celebrates he couldn’t see Max which makes his win not enjoyable because the best feeling after winning is seeing the look on Max . He asks the others where’s max and Lando tell him that he looked very sick and went straight to the hotel, Charles gets so worried and tell the others that he doesn’t feel good and that he will get rest and then come to party about his win with the others . He goes directly to Max’s hotel room telling himself that he’s just here to rub his win in Max’s face but as he stands in front of the room and smells a very beautiful omega he can’t help but feel so angry like how dare this little shit skip Charle’s win to go fuck an omega?! He doesn’t think before knocking forcefully on the door and all he hears are pained whimpering , he pauses when he recognizes the voice as Max’s and say (Max ? are you there?) and Max panics at the thought of charles in front of his door during his heat , he responds with a shaky voice ( Charles I can’t now please go) and Charles replies ( I’m not here to annoy you are you okay??)  and then he hears Max’s sobbing so he repeats in a panicked voice ( Max?! What’s wrong?! Fuck open the door Max!!) a shiver runs down his body at the command and he goes slowly to open the door, when he does Charles is shocked by seeing Max’s status, tears running down his red cheeks and red lips with cute messy hair , but what gets him speechless is Max wearing his sweater, Charles’s sweater!! And when Max remember what he’s wearing he turns so red 

(You’re an omega..) Charles says in a shocked voice and then he sees that a lot of his clothes are on Max’s bed  making a nest which makes him realizes that max likes him , and max burst in tears saying ( don’t laugh at me) between sobs . Charles gulps and tries to come out of his shock and say ( Oh my god Max I didn’t know.. I would never laugh at you why would I? ) Max keeps wiping his tears with his sweater’s sleeves , Charles sweater . Charles takes his hands and sits with him on the bed edge and talks calmly while putting a strand of Max’s hair behind his ear ( tell me what do you need? Do you have suppressants ? Do you want me to call someone?) , Max blushes and whispers ( you ..) 

Ch: you want me? You want me to stay? 

Max nods and can’t look at charles in the eyes, Charles pick him up bride style to put him on that bed and lay down next to him , he notices that Max is still uncomfortable and then he realizes that the omega wants to get  closer 

Ch: do you want me closer? 

Max nods and sighs comfortably when Charles pulls him to his arms and hugs him tightly while they scent each other, they sleep for hours , Charles forgot about his celebration he can’t think about anything when Max is in his arms looking like an angel 

Thank you for letting me know that I can post this anon or not. I have posted it as it was received and have to say its so lovely 🥰! (Also your English is definitely not bad!)

It's so sad at the beginning with Max being led to believe he's not pretty or delicate enough to be an omega!! He is absolutely beautiful and deserves to be told so. I could see why he would use anger as a defence mechanism!

The fact Max collected Charles' clothing to put in his nest is so adorable but him thinking Charles will laugh at him! Poor Max 🥺

I am so happy he has Charles to look after him at the end. Being cuddled up with Max would definitely be better than going out to celebrate.

I love angst with a happy ending (especially rivals to lovers) ❤️ Thank you so much for sharing this.

#laura1633 asks #Omega Max #Alpha Charles

[casually-eat-my-soul]

Thoughts on a Wreck-It Ralph Sterek AU, where Derek comes from a violent, first person shooter game like Halo or Call Of Duty while Stiles comes from a bright, goofy, whimsical game like Mario Kart or Splatoon?

Honestly I think the idea is awesome but super funny. You’ll also have to sit with me here because I know nothing about video games or Wreck-it Ralph. To me, Stiles will always be the person more capable of violence, even if Derek is a werewolf. So the fact that he’s in a lighthearted game is super funny.

Derek doesn’t know anything but a life of violence. He mourns for a family that was never really his; as all the time he has with them are the violent flashbacks of the story line. He hates the argents with a passion, as they were the ones who order his family’s death. That’s why his character signed up for the military, to get revenge. Stiles is a mage who has never reached his full potential. His game is an adventure game, he tries to live up to a mother he never had, as everyone always tells him that she was the most powerful mage to live. Stiles always feels like he falls short. His character is like a fox and for some odd reason is treated harsher than the villian in his game. He is always wondering what the ending of the game would be like as no one has played until the end.

While Derek probably got sick of the unending violence of his game, it’s stiles who actually crossed over. Stiles got completely mind meltingly bored of his life within the game. He got tired of being stuck and feeling like he doesn’t belong. Being the ever so curious and mischievous person he is goes looking for an exit and finds it.

He leaves his game and Deaton puts out orders to drag him back by any means necessary. Stiles ends up running to Derek’s game because he knows that the characters from his won’t be brave enough to follow him in.

Derek was in the middle of a game, hoping that whomever was playing was semi decent so he would have to watch teammates die all over again. It doesn’t matter to him that they come back to life afterwards. When an boy falls from the sky. Derek thinks he’s the most beautiful person he’s ever seen. Something clicks in his chest and for once in his life feels whole again. He can’t remember the last time he met someone so full of life.

And when stiles tells him, he escaped from his game, Derek is ecstatic that he can get away from the death of his game.

The two of them go on the run while Deaton looks to drag them back. Derek swears to protect him, stiles promises to make him laugh. They make friends though out the games that they visit, and Derek has never been happier. In the end they find out that stiles code has been tampered with (like the little girl from wreak it Ralph). Deaton had tampered with Stiles’ code to suppress his magic. Deaton had grown jealous that Stiles was more powerful than him. Always stuck to be nothing more than a mentor, a passing character. Stiles and Deaton fight, and Derek unable to leave stiles behind takes a hit for him. In his anger stiles manages to knock Deaton out but it’s not enough to save Derek.

Stiles is begging and pleading Derek to be okay, but Derek smiles at him,“I promise you, I’ll be back, I’ll wake up again.” But they both know that only works if you die within your game. Derek has died before, but this has had to be the best one. And he tells stiles this, asks him to smile. Stiles kisses Derek.

Now I have two separate way to get to the ending:

1. Stiles in that moment unlocks all his abilities, like he would have if anyone ever played his game to the end and is able to save Derek and rewrites their codes

Or 2. Derek dies there in his arms, dissolving into pixels. And he wakes up, back his game with a killer headache. Must of been a bad round last game, he can’t remember anything after the middle of the game. Strange of him to die that early. Even stranger is the pain in his chest, Derek checks for injuries but he can’t find any, but it still feels like he got shot in the heart. Derek swears that he’s forgetting something but he can’t remember what. He spends the next few games in a haze. Something in the back his head tells him that something just isn’t right. For a brief moment as he dies each game, he remembers whiskey golden eyes and the prettiest smile he even seen.

Stiles on the other hand cannot forget what it was like to lose Derek. He is dragged back to his game, in chains by Deaton. His code is locked up even tighter than before. Deaton tells him that Stiles will be stuck in this game, and he’ll never see Derek again. The pain is unbearable and this cause Stiles to try and rewrite his code to forget Derek.

****this part is not apart of the story line but I like angst so feel free to skip but Double angst: Stiles manages to erase Derek from his memories. What he doesn’t know is that this has happened over and over again. Stiles begins to feel like something is missing from his life and goes to escape, finds Derek and loses Derek over and over again. No wonder the hale pack away treated them like friends, as they’ve know each other before, but they couldn’t say anything. Each time they fall in love, desperately trying to get it right. Desperately trying to save each other. No matter what Deaton does, no matter the code that he edits. Stiles always escapes and finds Derek and every-time they fall in love.****

Back to the story line, what Deaton doesn’t know is that pain, especially pain received out side of one’s own game, changes your code. So while stiles was looking for a way to forgot Derek he finds a way to send him messages.

Derek was on edge, everyone in his game could see it. He was far more reckless now, pulling stupid stunts to get himself killed. He’s hoping to see more of the eyes and smile that haunts him. He’s in the middle of a fight with an Npc, when he gets hit in the head and sees code. So when the game ends he goes to the console, something he has never done, and looks at the code of his game.

It’s there that he finds the messages from stiles. And it’s there that he remembers who stiles is. Derek is fill with rage, as he promises to get stiles free. Deaton wouldn’t know what was coming his way. Derek was the best hunter on his team, his early kills being savage enough to warrant the nickname wolf. He was going to rip Deaton apart and laugh at his corpse.

So he packs up and leaves his game, and hunts down stiles. His picks up the friends he made on his journey with stiles (Erica, Boyd, Issac, etc.) they managed to get stiles free and Derek does what he says he would. He rips Deaton apart, for the first time in his life he relishes in the violence he causes. Stiles unlocks every line of his code and he puts Deaton in chains.

He edits the code in his game and Derek’s to allow for each other to become a character if they so choose. Derek mostly goes to Stiles game, as he hates the idea of Stiles living in his game, of being nothing more than a soldier when Stiles is so much more.

They have each other and they have a home to go to, neither of them ever feel alone again. Derek tells the story of an angel falling from the sky at their wedding. The single moment that changed his life.

Anywhere, I hope you enjoyed this!! Thanks for the ask!!

#sterek #stiles stilinski #derek hale #stiles x derek #derek hale is obsessed with him #sterek fandom #derek x stiles #freak4freak #derek hale deserves nice things #let derek hale be happy #stiles is a nice thing #I don’t trust Deaton #does this make sense #idk how to tag this

[mishapen-dear]

genuine question but is there any fandom where a character is well written by the majority. im thinking about fandom culture and the spread of frustration when people dont write characters well but. honestly in all the fandoms ive been in there's only like, a Select number of authors who i trust to write Well, let alone write Well AND In Character. character analysis and writing and getting inside characters' heads are all separate skills (all of which are trained by roleplaying fyi can CONFIRM playing pretend with your friends is good for you). there's been more than once where I've disagreed with an interpretation that others agreed with, and then I turned out wrong. or i turned out right. like it doesnt matter WHO is right it just matters that differences in character analysis exist, so even if you DO write well AND write in character, your in character is still going to be someone else's out of character

there's this sort of. vibe. that to play in the sandbox you Need to be able to make a castle, and if you can't make a castle then you shouldn't bother, and it completely dismisses the idea that youre in that sandbox to PLAY in the first place. there's this Weight of disappointing someone if you can't build something that they like, but that forgets that you aren't there to build them a castle. like, be KIND. if you disagree with someone then please make an effort to do so kindly. i dont give a shit about fandom discourse but there is a reason kids get removed from sandboxes if they keep throwing sand in people's eyes. but if they don't like your misshapen sand pile, then youre not obligated to change it. even if you yourself end up hating that same sand pile later- youre not building a legacy. youre playing. and sometimes the result of that play is out of character drivel. theres a reason there are so many authors and so few who i like to consistently read and thats because everyone is Fucking Around in their hobby space. hash tag brag or whatever but i can build castles. ive built several that im v proud of. ive also dug holes in the sand for fun and then tripped on them when trying to get up. I often dug a hole and then got up and fucking- whoops, its a castle now, and i didn't realize i'd made something to be proud of until after the fact. the whole time while creating shit i was Convinced it was bullshit that didn't make sense. and then other times i was Convinced it was bullshit and then i was Right and i can look back and go. huh. ew. but it doesn't matter what the end result was, because i had fun playing in the sandbox

this wasn't meant to turn into a ramble but i have Feelings about bad art and art that's badly perceived and how public perception can screw with your head and how making art youre proud of is fucking. it's so difficult!!! it's hard!! it's really fun, which is why i try to make it, but i promise you it is Okay to not tryhard creativity. even if you CAN, it's okay not to do it all the time. or ever, even. fuck around find out have fun etc

#NOT a discourse post i am musing out loud #there's discourse goign around the dash rn or i wouldnt mention it #but the past few weeks ive seen a lot of “DONT fucking mischaracterize my guy my fuckign god” #which is one of the most frustrating pet peeve there is #but i think a lot too about little baby me #fresh on her writing journey #and how discouraged i would be if someone pointed out the mistakes id made #i made a Lot of fuckups #and i also think about this one fic where one of the characters was INCREDIBLY out of character #me today would not be able to stomach reading it #but baby me was so ENCHANTED #and it introduced to me the concept that you dont always know the reason someone does something #and it made me read even more #and because of that i eventually found Expert Skill level fics #which introduced me to MANY little tricks and fidgets ive tried to implement #there were so so many reviews on that fic that called it shit or complained about the bad characterization #but a decade later i still think about it #there were several very corny mine/craft horror fics i read #which back in the day would be called cringe #and those were what inspired me to write my first horror fic and now im Enchanted by the whole genre #theres a lot of stuff i dont like to read but i like that other people are enjoying themselves #i dont know how to be succinct i hope my point is coming across well #this ties into my thing where fiction is for you first others later #here are my credentials: bb/h fan since before the elections (hi i was the guy who noticed his lack of armour post elections) #and a cross-fandom comment trend of people going 'woa i can see this happening in canon' #im not talking out my ass i genuinely think its more important to have fun than to write accurate characterization #which. is a more 'duh' and clarifying thing than everything else ive written #but ah well c'est la vie #also also just realized this could be interpreted like that- NOT an attack on people who complain about mischaracterization either lmao #i do that too w friends. this is to reassure people who put pressure on themselves to create things Well all the time

[icewindandboringhorror]

I have found a beautiful perfect humble rock specimen that is light yellow with a weird dark yellowy brown lining, somewhat resembling a chunk of smoked gouda cheese... effervescent

#I am still very into trash collecting at the moment and even went out and got one of those grabby sticks for cheap and a little #bucket I can carry around and put trash in. so I am going on walks in nature a bit more (not really to enjoy nature but more to play the #very fun Real Life Hidden Object Point And Click Game that is 'hunt for bottle caps and cans' .. but eh.. whatever gets me out of the #house lol).. anyway.. some nature places near water will have cool rocks #Which I know you're not supposed to take them and I MOSTLY dont.. but every once in a while it's like... when else will I ever find a #gouda rock... I have cleaned up 4 buckets of trash today.. I have helped the environment.. mayhaps.. i could take a One Single Rocke as a #treate... ANYWAY. but yeah. I don't know the names of rocks but there's a rock that's a matte muted marigold yellow sort of #color and I call them 'cheese rock'. I'm pretty sure this one is of the 'cheese rock' species but it just has weird brown coloration #like maybe it got stained or something on one side of it. Most of the other cheese rocks have no markings. though sometimes there will be a #auburn reddish sort of hue on a corner or something.. hrmm.. curious. I also got a Beginner's Hobby rock tumbler and some supplies #so I might try polishing some of the rocks from my enormous rock collection. even though they're all street rocks I picked up from sidewalk #and stuff. I saw a video where someone put random gravel and stuff in a rock tumbler and none of them were Stunning Gems or whatver #but some still turned out cool enough that I would be pleased with the result... OUgh.. I want to post more I need to like do costumes and #sculptures and stuff and be Active On Social Media and think about my Future and Career and how it always benefits artists to keep an #active social media or etc. but I just feel so tired and bad lately. I think the summer heat waves have really exhausted me. I also have #been trying to make new friends + on a weird schedule so I've been socializing and also watching media too much. I notice I always start #to feel this kind of unsettled stress of not making any forward progress in my life if I do that for too long. like 'Okay this week I've #done nothing but meet up with two friends & watch like 10 episodes of tv and only worked on a few projects on the side.. this is HORRIBLE!' #(ppl who follow me here that I talk to on discord: this isn't about you! Im specifically just referencing being tired of introductory talks #with a new round of random strangers during my Friend Hunt. Just clarifying so it couldn't be misinterpreted as vaguepost implying that I'm #secretly bothered by talking to you or etc. lol.. anyway) . Which I know to MOST people 'I talked to a lot of friends and watched some cool #stuff!' sounds like a GOOD relaxing time but.. to me it is not ghhj.. Those are 'external' focuses on things outside myself which bothers #me if not moderated. Like.. i MUST retreat internally to work on my worldbuilding and my own thoughts and etc. at very regular intervals or #it will really start to bear on me too much. Brain Mandated Hermit Isolation lol. Just being too detached from my world and stuff for #too long feels increasingly bad. PLUS. every day I don't make tangible progress towards my goals is a day wasted that I could have been #investing in my future by working on novels/games/sculptures/actual career relevant stuff. Not even in a Capitalism way i just genuinely #enjoy Completing Tasks & feel miserable if I don't for too long. EVEN the media I'm watching I turn into A Task since I rank in a detailed #google doc list after viewing lol.. Like EW movie too boring on it's own. NEED to turn it into something I can categorize and analyze ghghj #LOVE to make things more complicated than they need to be. like YAAAY organizational tasks! yaay meticulous sorting!! BOO ''mindless fun''!

[malleleothreesome]

YOUR MALLEUS POST IS JUST!!!!! AGDKFFLSVFL!!!! WHO KNOWS HOW MANY TIMES I RE-READ THAT THING BUT IT WAS WORTH THE WAIT!!!! 😫😭👌🖤💚

I'm so late to this but thank you so much Knight!! 🖤💚🖤💚 I'm so happy you enjoyed Blindfolded Malleus... I was so excited for you to read it, and I'm very happy it lived up to the hype and anticipation!!! Truly, I am so honored and grateful that you would re-read something so long 🥹 it amazes me how supportive you are!! I hope I can continue to write things that you enjoy! One day in the [regretfully] far future I swear to you that I will put out an Idia fic just for you hehehe. I'm so overwhelmed by the amount of things I am excited to write, but I guess that is a wonderful problem to have! I only wish I had more time in the day to write, but alas, such is life. Why the fUCk am I writing so formal right now daiohssadoi;hdSAO not me saying BUT ALAS. SUCH IS LIFE????? It is so.

I'm actually taking a TWELVE DAY vacation from work starting on the 22nd so I might actually do a little request event where people can send me like kink prompts or something. I think that'll be fun!

Okay and FINE I'll do some fluff prompts too for the fluff people but please don't judge my fluff too harshly, I'm still learning!!! For some reason smut just comes naturally dhaDSAHIDDASijdsan I'll start gathering some prompts and we will do a little ask game or something.

📣 By the way FELLOW HONEST THIGH RIDING ANON if you SEE this first of all, ONCE AGAIN: I wish to express my undying devotion to you and your exceptional thought process. I am positively frothing at the mouth over your request and I am PLEASED TO ANNOUNCE I am finally making good progress and it WILL be out soon. We WILL make him cum in his pants. We WILL make him cry, whimper, and moan.

#sorry knight i took over your ask to make a desperate PSA for my hero: fellow honest thigh riding anon #ILYSM KNIGHT THANK U FOR YOUR SUPPORT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #does my millennial show when I key smash #as someone born in 96 i am actually right on the cutoff for millennial and gen z #so i choose to identify with whoever is getting the best press at the time #just kidding im sorry gen z i can't relate to yall at all... #i still like ugg boots and my hair will forever be side parted #most of my millennial cringe comes from being a tumblr user between 2010 and 2014 #it is engrained #the cool thing about getting older (young people heed my words): #i am unbully-able (and one day you will be too) #you simply cannot make me feel bad about doing things i like to do and enjoying things that make me happy #take pride in what you enjoy and don't let societal norms stop you #also you don't have to worry about getting bullied anyway because adults literally don't do that to each other #everyone in their mid 20s and beyond have learned to stop caring about what other people do for their own enjoyment #because like... lets be real... seeing and learning about what makes people happy... is super cool. the world needs more happiness #this is also a call out: if your friends or online spaces make you feel bad about your interests... gtfo of there #thats not the norm. curate your spaces for what makes you feel good!!! #your 20s are shit enough without so much negativity during the times you are supposed to be relaxed and surrounded by loved ones #this post was made by ugg boot gang #‧͙+ ̊*・༓☾ Erica Answers ☽༓・* ̊+‧͙

[earlgreybocchan]

#seriously seriously one of the most beautiful pieces of music i have ever heard #i feel so conflicted thinking about this but i was always afraid to get more into shinee because of jonghyun #i remember the exact day he died when i was in high school and i remember feeling slammed with the news even though he was just guy from... #...clue + note to me and as i have gotten more into kpop in the past few years i have been there for all of shinee's comebacks from don't... #...call me on and i always kept them at a distance bc even though i thought they seemed so cool i was worried to get into them and always... #...feel like someone was missing. and now that my little sister has gotten so into them i have too #and it does feel like someone is missing all of the time and we watch so much content of jonghyun together that sometimes it hits me all... #...over again how unreal and bad it is that he isn't in the world with us anymore #i am so sad too thinking about how i almost didn't hear some of the most beautiful music out of the fear of grieving him #one of the most beautiful voices and i click with his words so so much #like he's my friend and i almost never got to know him :( and that thought it so much worse than the worry of having to miss him :( #it also makes me sick bc if it would have changed anything for him at all. he's still making so many people happy. he's still there for me. #i don't get this emotional every time i listen to him but sometimes it all hits me #music #Spotify

[boyfhee]

fans will use the lamest excuse to defend wonyoung

#not hating on her but like . yall need to stop and hold her accountablr for her actions #btw this is not ab her being cringe or pick me idk ab that y'all can decide #this is ab her not bowing to anyone not even seniors #she either ignores or turns her head down like by 10 degrees idk #which is disrespectful bc bowing is like . ur showing respect to seniors / elders / or whoever idk #i saw a vid saying she doesn't bow bc she has to learn her script like pls be fr #i believe they get scripts beforehand #and bowing isn't gna ruin her makeup / hair and even if it does it's not smn that takes too long to fix #and not just mubank. she doesn't even bow on award shows #also ive noticed how she speeds up to the centre postion during air port shoots #maybe that isnt so serious but idt the postions for shoot are specified #but she needs to let other members get the spotlight #idk if she's insecure or what but she's one of the most popular idols she's gna get attention even when she's not a centre #idc if y'all find this offensive tbh but it's stupid if u defend her on thus #this*** #you know she is wrong and u call ppl who point this out jealous yada yada #but my friend we're just right & and u dont wanna accept that ur fav is at fault #there's a diff btwn straight up hating and pointing out the mistakes #yall be acting like someone's putting u in jail of u don't defend with ur life :/ #constructive criticism doesn't make someone look bad !! let that sink in !! #u don't tell ur mom that she's jealous when she points out smn that you're doing wrong #it's literally the same logic #let alone mom u don't even tell this to anyone irl #which just means yall take too much advantage of being behind a screen and saying whatever the fuck u want to #yeah long story short: learn to hold your favs accountable #it won't make u look bad and certainly won't affect them either unless you're going off w death threats #which is sick btw if u condone sending death threats #ramyeon with spam !

[themyscirah]

Started thinking about the Amanda Waller + Ben Turner relationship again.... fuck, I'm gonna need a minute

#I JUST- SHDIAUDJSHDSHEYEYRYRYRY guys. guys #i know none of you see my vision and thats okay. i will make you see my vision. i will force you to see my vision. i will- #like jesus fucking christ oh my god. its so interesting and gives me so many emotions and just!!! #i know im not making sense bc none of my moots are sui sq fans and also like half of the content fucking me up specifically here is in my #head because i cant stop thinking about my absolute power fix it au but like!!!!!!! #also the fact i have a fix it for a comic that isnt out yet is so funny to me. its literally fucking real though. god knows we need it #may my own content carry me through the dark times (extreme villain waller arc) #anyways this fucks me up so bad you dont even know. someday ill actually explain it #dc hire me to write a suicide squad ongoing PLEASE. i could do it so good it would be so fucking good dc PLEASE 😭😭😭😭😭😭 #also like this isnt me shipping them btw. like 110% not that. just to clarify. #i wouldnt even call it a friendship bc like. theyre not friends really. he has the most equal dynamic with her i would say but it still isnt #equal. shes v much his boss even though they have an understanding and respect there #like she believes and trusts in him much more than anybody really even himself. like she sees the good man and the leader even when he #doesnt. but she isnt nice about it. and there is a lot of conflict between them when there needs to be #like as much as ben is “wallers man”--the team leader she wanted from the beginning before rick flagg pushed his way in #ben i would say is still a very moral person even when lost and unsure of himself and his goodness (which is like one of his main things) #like i feel like while amanda can lean very into a “the ends justify the means” mindset in her worse moments and do bad things to get #herself out of a corner ben has like a deep and meaningful understanding of how the choices of your methods and how you act can weigh on you #like even though he was brainwashed and whatnot (thats still the story right? i cant remember) he holds a lot of guilt and baggage over his #actions and i think is able to temper amanda's worse tendencies in terms of that by calling her out when he recognizes that behavior #idk. i just really think that amanda waller and the suicide squad as a whole has lost its way without a more moral authority presence there. #like someone who can call her out and keep them more on track. which i really thing ben is and could be #i just very much am interested in their dynamic and how that would look like as equals and how i think they could help each other. #which ofc is what my wip is about and revolves around #blah #sui sq

[sevicia]

Beating a dead horse RN but saying that going to clubs or doing drugs or whatever mean that you "actually go outside" or are somehow directly related to your ability to socialize is just plain stupid </3 you can do drugs alone AKA not a social activity and you can go to a knitting class without doing drugs AKA a social activity . The assumptions people make based on your drug usage history are straight up crazy because the only things it says about a person are whether they had access to drugs, and whether they wanted to do drugs.

(also knitting class example is just cause it came to mind first + I can't think of many social activities outside of going 2 the park w/ my friends. I Love the park 🐶)

#the drugs thing is like the most eye-catching (?) for me #cause clubs: availability + accessibility #sex: some people don't wanna get laid either now or forever. even if they do it means nothing <3 #but with drugs it's like. people assume SO MUCH #personally as a person I dislike the idea of going to parties that are composed of more than 3 people outside my friend group #one of the main reasons is that I'm anxious about being called a ''killjoy'' (?) if I refuse alcohol or whatever #like I don't wanna ruin the mood yk. which doesn't happen w/ my friends ever so with more people it's a lot less certain #ALSO I have no clue how to care for someone who's like super drunk or high to the point of danger #when my friend got so high she started to feel Real Bad I got legit so scared I was so glad our other friend was there omg T_T #off topic etc #diary

[caramiaaddio]

Cant sleep cause someone on the internet called me a bad friend

#how I wish this was a joke #and like I can explain all I want how no I’m a good friend #having complex and mixed feelings is okay #trauma can have profound effects especially to the autistic brain #and my thoughts don’t define me my actions so #and I know all that and I know how I feel is valid #but also someone called me a bad friend and that is one of the most hurtful things I’ve ever experienced #that’s what I get for posting to Reddit I should have just made an anonymous account somewhere else #having those off your chest subs are great in theory but when they’re only populated by assholes it doesn’t really help

[tempestclerics]

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#sola said #thinking about a conversation w someone lately of like. 'wild how when you call for help sometimes people will answer. / wild how when you #don't call for help no one does' #and like we were laughing about it but #idk something about the fact that. was talking to a friend and she said like. hey it seems like you've been doing okay/better this quarter. #versus me expressing that i feel like i sound like a broken record of 'hey sorry i'm having a bad week/my brain is full of bees this week' #versus me talking to my parents yday and realizing that they also have such an inaccurate picture of how i'm doing #idk just. i feel like the last couple weeks have been an absolute roller coaster of. some of the happiest/most comfortable i've been in a #while but also. some of the worst times i've had just in terms of being in my own head #and kind of also realizing like. how much of this is actually legible to other people? unsettling that like. my friends (who i see and talk #to like every day) think i'm doing a lot better than i feel vs. my family (who i only talk to rarely and not for very long) thinks i'm #having a really bad time #idk it's a mortifying ordeal of being (un)known thing maybe #why do i feel lonely!! i'm talking to pretty much every friend i have more than i ever have!! why is my brain bad!! #delete later