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#but here's the problem... people can't do shit till they're ready and me trying to force it would have made it worse
medicinemane · 1 month
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I don't know, here's my problem with all that gratitude stuff people are always pushing
I'm here finding myself grateful for the really bad unexplained stomach problems I had for months that randomly flared up so bad I couldn't leave the house safely somedays (literally missed my last doctor's appointment cause it turned out that wasn't a day to be out and about)
Like unprompted, not as some kind of exercise or something, I find myself being like "yeah it may have royally sucked, but it really has helped me get a feel for how my stomach is doing so maybe I appreciate it"
Feel like that's fairly gratitude minded when you can find yourself being grateful for basically months of being sick, you know?
...so fuck off an let me be. If me organically being grateful for a painful time in my life where a lot of nights I'd be worried about going to sleep and dealing with issues so bad I was worried about how I was gonna be able to take this trip unless I got lucky... if I just on my own end up being grateful for that and still want to put a bullet in my head, maybe gratitude isn't a cure all
Maybe piss off with it, you know? I'm the first to say it's good to be grateful for shit, and frankly even walls (even when there's insulation issues) are a fucking blessing and I'll always thank my house for everything it does for me
Still not a magic bullet against depression and I get fucking sick of everyone talking like it is one... like if I just gratituded harder I'd feel better
#as always; this is why I have my no advice without being willing to help implement it policy#I don't get to tell people what to do to feel better#I just get to offer support and get stuck in with helping try to change things for the better for them in my small ineffective ways#and you know they may never feel better; and that would fucking suck cause they deserve to#but I'm not gonna make them feel bad for being open and honest about how they're doing#and I'll just keep telling them the things I like about them till maybe one day they can internalize it#and... and I'll keep trying to do the small things I can to help support them in making changes#or if at all possible directly participate in making a change for them#rather have someone be miserable and honest about it than ever try to spare my feelings#no I never want them to be doing bad but I'd rather try to just sit with them through it than make them sit alone#and I'd rather fix it all... but sometimes neither of us fucking can right now... and it's time to wait with them#had someone dealing with a real shit situation#and you know what? I knew the exact fix for the shit situation#but here's the problem... people can't do shit till they're ready and me trying to force it would have made it worse#so I just hung out and let them vent and repeatedly made sure they knew they were making sense; validated their perception of reality#made an introduction so they had more people around who'd be in their corner building them up instead of tearing them down#eventually they made the fix I knew was the fix all along and it hurt like hell to do it#and yet things started getting better pretty much immediately; cause it was always the problem#and if I could go back and do it again I'd do it the same; I wouldn't force the fix any sooner cause it had to be their choice#and frankly me pushing could have sabotaged shit#and it's still hard; and often all I can do is sit with them as they ride shit out right now and... I don't like that#I want to fix things in every way for them; they deserve that#but I can't... so I'd rather be with them as things are than make them repair everything so I feel comfortable#that's my opinion on all this#and frankly if you want to dig up my nasty bitter fucking side I try to keep tamped down#this shit is a good way to bring that side of me out#like fuck off; either you're gonna help or you're being a fucking busy body#and you can shove your advice up your ass cause spoiler I fucking tried it#I never stop putting one foot in front of the other and it's got me a house and I cleaned that fucking trailer#so how about you stuff it if you don't like how miserable I am
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jaysevhls · 4 years
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Here, With You | Kelly Severide
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Summary: You're a firefighter at Firehouse 51. You are a member of Truck 81. At the call you got injured with Kelly, your fiance.
Pairing: Kelly Severide x Reader.
Warnings: Injures, accident.
Author's note: It's pretty long one?? Requests are open.
Firehouse 51. The most loving, caring and knowing firehouse in Chicago you can say. Working here was the best part of your life, including your relationship with lieutenant Kelly. Those years you have been working there were just amazing as you can tell.
Day started as usual, no calls, most of the squad and truck, hanging out in the break room. The atmosphere was clear, fortunately there were no dramas that day.
You made your walk through the kitches, it was your day at cooking, which you loved. Everyone in 51 knew your hobby and passion, that's why Herrmann decided to give you a part time job at Molly's. There was something about this place, the whole idea, people CPD, CFD and Med were there almost every night, trying their favorite drinks, your food and just spending time with colleagues, closest friends and loves.
That's where you and Kelly made a step in your friendship. You met 7 years ago, when you started working at 51 as paramedic. It was only a temporary, since you knew that your dream job is being a firefighter. Your childhood was mostly based on making a fake fire, smoke, because you loved when you could help your mom or any member from your family when it was a fire in the house, not real of course. And the day came. After 1 year being in Ambo 61 with your best friend, Gabby, it was your time to shine. You joined the academy with her, which only made things better for you and your friendship. You graduated and since then, you're an official member of Truck 81. You loved your job.
Kelly was always around you. Since he and Gabby lost Leslie, he felt like he need to make a promise. He promised himself that no matter what, he will always protect you. Since he first saw you, the look in your eyes wes telling him that you need someone by your side. And that's when it all started. At the beginning it was simple. He cared about you a lot, he always asked you after a call if everything is alright, if you need anything, which made you feel loved. You missed that feeling.
One night at Molly's things went too far you can say. It was a day before your birthday, so you wanted to have fun. A lot of fun. You invited all your colleagues and of course Kelly. For couple of days at this time he was so nervous, acting weird around you, so you thought he need some relax and fun. It was a good time occasion.
"Hey, you want another?" Herrmann asked you. To be honest, it was a very difficult job to make you drunk, so you ordered next one. And next. And couple more.
"I think you had enough Y/N" Kelly took the beer from your hand, laughing at your actions.
"No, no, no Kelly. Definitely no. You need to have more, you need to have fun, pleaseeee! It's like the first time in year when we actually can drink more, because there's no work tomorrow" you took it back and drink almost half of it.
"Ok. But you're not getting drunk here alone. Let's go to my place, I have your favorite wine and beer." as he finished, you were already in his arms. His hand on your waist, making your way through the exit. You really wanted to go there by your own, but it was too much.
"See, I could go alone Kelly. You don't need to check on me when we're not in work." you smirked.
"That's the point my love. I'll care about you till the end of world and one day after." you look at him confused. Did he just called you his love? Or was it just your imagination witch damage after too many beers.
"And who had too much alcohol tonight Kelly?" he didn't respond.
The ride was wild you can say. He decided to take a longer way, because he wanted you to feel a little bit better, to wipe that alcohol out of your system. You sang your favorite songs, which made him laugh. He loved your voice, even drunk.
That night was memorable. He kissed you out of the blow, but you enjoyed it. You wanted that for so long. The priority was to remember about that night, even half of it and you did it. Couple of more nights like this, dates, drinks at Molly's.
And there you are. Engaged to your best friend. Your soulmate, a better half.
"Y/N? Can we speak in private?" he asked. You just finished cooking when you saw Kelly, walking to you with something in his hand.
"What have I done this time?" you laughed, joining him in his office.
"Why didn't you tell me about the meeting with my father? Are you out of your mind?" so that was the problem. You looked at him and sighed.
"I didn't mean to- I wanted to tell you, but it was already too late. He asked me to meet him few days ago and I thought that will be the best opportunity to invite him to our wedding. It's your dad Kelly"
"And why now he is trying to reach me by the mails, calls and even letters? I told you that I'll speak to him in right time!" that conversation went definitely too far you felt.
"Enough Kelly! I just wanted to do something good, to invite your damn father to see his son at the end of the aisle, because it's a one time thing and you're making me feel guilty about this? You know I didn't mean to hurt you, but you-"
"Truck 81, Engine 51, Squad 3, Ambo 61, Battalion 25 the old-" you didn't need to listen the rest. You went out of his office and made your way to the Truck.
After few minutes, all of the members of 51 were on the scene. It was a big fire at the old factory.
"Y/L/N, Borrelli, with me" Casey yelled. You masked up before you went in. You know that it was to difficult to handle that fire with only one firehouse, so when you heard Boden voice, calling for backup, you sighed in relief. Now, the only thing you needed to focus at, was to get as many people as you can and walk them out of this place.
You took 2 womens with you, it wasn't that bad you thought. When you came back, the smoke was dark and you couldn't see anything. You made few steps in the right.
"Fire department, call out!" you yelled. Casey was right behind you, saying that he's going to the left. Before, you heard few screams, that's why you decided to go back in there and find those people. They still could be alive.
"H-help!" you heard. You made your way to a women, who was trapped. She had a really bad head injury. You knew it was her final call.
"Hey, you're gonna be okay. I'm here and I'm not going anywhere!" you told her and kneeled in front of her. You took her hand and she looked at you. Then she closed her eyes.
Checking her pulse, you felt a sharp pain at your shoulder. You hit yourself when you were standing up.
Your vision get blurred more than it already was. You took your mask off to see if there's anyone else, or Casey, to reach his help. It was your biggest mistake. Unfortunately, your mask fell out of your hands and broke.
"Mayday, Mayday! I need some help in block C! My mask is destroyed, I'm out of my oxygen." you coughed.
Kelly was already outside, looking out for you. When he heard your voice, his heart just broke.
"Chief, I'll go!" he yelled. He didn't even wait for a response, he just stormed out to that building.
He was looking out for you for almost 3 minutes, which was a long way, when you are dealing with fire, smoke and no oxygen. When he found you, he thought it was too late. You were laying, coughing, in pretty bad shape.
"Hey! Y/N! Come on, we need to get out of here!"
"I- I can't Kelly, I- My leg, is trapped." he looked down at your body, searching for an injuries. You were right, your leg was trapped and he knew that he'll need more help.
"Breath baby, just keep breathing, everything is going to be alright" he kneeled at your side and gave you his mask.
"What a funny story" you coughed. "I just said those words to a woman and she died" you cried. The pain was awful, you felt this sharp pain at your shoulder, your chest was getting heavier and the leg wasn't helping. The only thing what was keeping you alive was the water, streaming on your side.
"You're not dying, you hear me? Don't you dare die on me" he was trying to pull you out, but when he realised that he can't do it, he immediately called for backup.
"What is that?" you asked. Something was making noises and you couldn't focus on what is causing it.
"Oh god no. No, no, no! My oxygen is out, shit!" he yelled. "Chief, where is the backup, my oxygen is out, we don't have much time!"
"Kelly, hey, look at me." you whispered. He was so scared, like never.
"We're gonna be fine, just please breath" he cried. You took his hand and kissed it. He lied down, to get closer to water. Now, you were face to face.
"I love you Kelly. They were right about "Till the death do us apart", they were so right"
"Shut up Y/N, we didn't even get a chance to say those words yet." he nervously laughed. "You're gonna be fine and you'll say it to me in the church, in this beautiful white dress, you hear me? They're coming and they'll find us."
You were out of you breath, laying there unconscious, Kelly was holding your hand with eyes closed.
"Y/N? Hey, Y/N?" he immediately stood up and check out your pulse. There was no pulse. "No, no, no, c'mon Y/N, you can't leave me!" he was yelling.
"Y/L/N! Severide! Call out!" it was Casey. They found you.
"In here, we need get her out of here, she's not breathing" Casey took you by your legs and Severide by hands. They were almost running with you in their arms. Brett and Dawson were ready to take you from them.
"Start compressions." Gabby said. He felt like his whole world was falling apart. Casey was holding him by his arm, to make sure he won't fall. "Okay, we got the pulse, we're going to Med. Severide?" Brett asked.
"Yeah, I'm going with you." he wiped off his face from tears. You needed to be alright.
It's been almost 5 hours since they brought you to Med. Whole 51 was sitting in waiting room with Kelly to help him get through this time and to get news about you.
"Any family member of Y/N Y/L/N?" the nurse asked.
"I'm her fiance" he answered.
"Doctor Will Halstead is waiting for you" he followed her into break room. He was so scared to hear news about you.
"Hey, Kelly. I'm so sorry about what happened, are you okay?" he hugged him.
"Hey, yeah. I'm good. They give ne oxygen, took my blood for some tests, everything is good, my lungs are clear. How's Y/N, please tell me she's okay?"
"She's stable. She had a surgery for her open break in the leg, but everything is okay now. We're giving her oxygen and for now, we're keeping her in coma."
"But- but she wasn't breathing for couple of minutes, is there any chance that it caused something?"
"It's hard to say Kelly. We need to wait till she wakes up" he gave him a weak smile. "You can go and see her, I'll tell your team about her condition."
There you were. Laying in bed, unconscious, but alive. You were so strong, Kelly knew that. You showed him this so many times, but today it was something different. He almost lost you and it almost killed him.
"I'm so sorry Y/N. This shouldn't have happened to you. I love you baby and I'll always be by your side." he cried in his hands.
"I know you will" this whispered make his heart stop.
"You're awake, baby. I love you so much, this argument shouldn't have happened, it's all my fault"
"Shhh, can you? Can you just lay here with me? he stood up and layed by her side. Just the two of them, reunited. Full of love.
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knockknockchicagopd · 3 years
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A serie with Antonio Dawson. Chapter I.
❚❙ WORDS: about 1.3k
❚❙ A/N: this writing hasn’t been edited, you may find some grammar mistakes, I’m sorry about that. If you find a description about body or a word out of place, or something that it makes you feel uncomfortable / unrepresented, let me know by a private message and I will change it delighted.
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Neither of you complained when Voight asked you to be undercover as a couple, for a simple mission. Someone gave the tip-off of dirty cops dressed like plainclothes who used to deal drugs in clubs. Antonio and you should have to fake to be a drunk couple making out in the bathroom, where the deals used to be closed. He knows you work to perfection together and, out of the District, you're close friends, so it wasn't a problem for you.
Once Kevin and Ruzek have checked the camera installed in one of Antonio's buttons and you two have the earpieces, ready for the action, your partner offers you a fist to crash it with yours.
“Ready to be my girlfriend for a night?”
Raising both eyebrows, you look at him from top to bottom containing a laugh.
“What? Any girl would like it. I'ma good guy”. Pretending to sound offended, he squints at you.
“Do you really want me to break your heart?” You ask then, making reference that every woman he has been with, has left him.
“Low blow”.
“Still being the only one who stays”.
“That's why you're my best pal, and not my girlfriend”.
“Aw, you're afraid of losing me?” Making fun of him, you pull his cheeks shaking his head.
“Don't do that”. He chuckles pushing you away, before offering you his hand. “Ready, princesa?”
“Let's go”.
Stepping out from the VIP zone and going downstairs, you mingle with the people on the dance floor. The music is too loud for you, feeling a little annoyed, while letting Antonio bring you to the bar so you can have a look at your surroundings. You have seen the pictures of the cops, but it's too dark to focus on the faces around you. Although, this is why the Unit is outside checking the club through the cameras, isn't it? Technically, you only have to wait for Voight's alert to go to the bathroom.
Almost bending over the bar with both arms rested on, you wait for the bartender to be attended, feeling Antonio placing himself behind you and landing his hands on your hips. Kissing your bare shoulder, he puts his chin over it watching the people behind your positions through the mirror in front of you.
“Anything?” You whisper loud enough to be heard only by him.
“Not yet”.
“What can I serve you?” The bartender pushes you out of your thoughts about Antonio's fingers caressing your waist, showing him a soft smile.
“Two beers, please”. You reply leaning on your tiptoes for a second.
While your partner pays the drinks, you grab them turning around to continue watching the assistants, without looking too suspicious. With an arm on your shoulders and a beer less in your hands, Antonio guides you to a corner of the club from where you can have a better look of it. Being undercover is one of the things that you like the most about your job, but you're not going to lie; starting to feel a little uncomfortable with the situation of exceeding the limit between him and you. At first, you didn't care. Antonio and you are very cuddly with each other, but knowing that your Unit is monitoring every second makes it somewhat awkward.
Having a sip from your beer, you turn at him placing your hands on his shoulders, feigning that you're just having a good time dancing on a given night. It isn't the first time you hang out alone, but not in this manner, and you sure he can feel it.
“Relax”. Antonio murmurs into your ear, pushing you close to move his body in sync with yours.
“I'm relaxed”. You lie chuckling and licking your bottom lip, tossing your head back looking for his incredulous eyes. “I am!”
“Sure”. He teases you by pinching your nose and making you laugh louder.
“After the mission, we're gonna book you a hotel room, no worries”. Jay's voice makes your cheek burn in shame, as your partner chokes on his beer.
“Intelligence pays”. Now, it's your boss who is speaking almost causing you a heart attack.
Antonio puckers his lips as if he's agreeing, drawing a funny gesture on his face.
“Breakfast in bed?”
“You can't eat breakfast, if you don't have tee—”.
“Cops at your six. Black jeans, brown jackets. Military boots”. Adam informs, knowing it's time to go to the bathroom.
Leaving the beers away on a coffee table, Antonio tangles his hands with yours to guide you through the crowd, straight to the place you've installed another camera to record the mission. As you come closer, the pressure in your chest becomes heavier, and you can feel him nervous by the way his fingers move around yours. Taking a last look of the plainclothes officers, you walk into the bathroom.
At your right there are four cubicles, in front of the sinks and the mirrors. All emptied. Antonio makes you a sign with his chin before continuing to the marble counter, between the second and the third sink. Sitting on and placing your purse by a side, your partner settles himself between your legs and puts his hand on your lower back.
“I'm too sober for this shit”.
“Stop complaining, you're enjoying it”. He scoffs clicking his tongue.
“Yeah… sure I'm the only one…”
“Alert. They're coming in three… two… one…” Before Jay can say zero, the door gets opened.
You don't see them, rushing to crash your mouth on Antonio's. From the very first moment, your lips move in total sync as if they were dancing passionately, when you feel the click in your guts. His arms pushes you somewhat closer, shortening the distance between your bodies with the same necessity it's running under your skin. There's no way back, and you two know it.
“Get outta here. Now”. You hear, breaking the kiss breathlessly to turn at your partners from another district, accompanied by two unknown guys.
“Man, I've paid for her five drinks. I ain't going anywhere till this bitch sucks my dick”.
You can't believe his words, nor the tone of voice he's using, letting go a nervous laugh palming his chest and pushing him away softly to put down on your heels.
“No worries, boys. Do your thing, and we'll do ours”.
Grabbing Antonio's shirt in a fist, you take him to the cubicle in front of you trying to feign to be drunk enough, closing the door behind your backs. You can't help but cross your arms over your chest, tilting your head with both eyebrows frowned.
“It was part of the plan”. Antonio tries to excuse himself, just moving his lips without uttering any noise to not arouse suspicion. “Sorry”.
“You called me bitch”.
The man waves his hands desperately to make you understand, earning a snort from you before starting to hear the deal happening some feet away from you. A simple one. Heroin and money. You can't even believe they can be this stupid, making you roll your eyes under Antonio's attentive and funny look.
“Shouldn't you be on your knees?”
Squinting as you lick your lips, with that kind of gesture that warns him that maybe he's going to be punched on the face, your partner lifts up both hands to defend his innocence again containing a laugh.
“Oh, fuck… You're so good”. You fake a loud moan, having so much fun when you see Antonio taking a step back, starting to blush.
It has been so real he's scared. Raising both eyebrows, you can't help but draw a petty smile on your mouth. The reddening of his cheeks enraptured you for a second, till you hear how the deal is closed, being the go-ahead to complete your mission. Grabbing the gun inside your purse and throwing it to the floor, you suddenly open the door in position and pointing at them.
“Chicago P.D.! Don't move! Hands on the head! Put your hands on the head!” You shout stepping out from the cubicle, followed by Antonio ready to help you containing them till the squad arrives.
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❛ A LOT OF SAND AND WAVES ❜
with Obispo ‘Bishop’ Losa.
Request: none. Yesterday I went to the beach with my family and that fluffy idea came to me like a flash light. Thanks to everyone who help me to decide!
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Word count: about 3.1k
Warnings: none. Just a bunch of fluff.
Aurora says: this writing hasn't been edited, you may find some grammar mistakes, I'm sorry about that!
Gif credits: @thedevilsmoonshine
Masterlist.
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“Hey, girl!”
“Hey, what’s up, Leti?”
“Are you working?”
“Yeah, till four, why?”
“Don’ ask me how I did it, but I convinced the guys to go tomorrow to the beach. In San Diego”.
“Sounds good, but I’m not sure if I could go. I have a surgery waiting, and you know…”
“Yeah, your hands. Is it too long?”
“Maybe six or seven hours, not sure”.
“C'mon, mami! You said you don't work until next Thursday!”
Gilly's shouts make you laugh rubbing your eyes.
“Okay I'll try, I'll try. I promise”.
“We will go to Mission Bay. So if you want, we see you there!”
Hanging up the call and giving a last sip to your coffee, you throw the empty paper cup to the bin. Checking the hour on your phone, you know that it's going to be a long, long night. But the idea of spending some time with Bishops makes you tickle in your stomach. Coco introduced you to the crew almost a year ago, like a friend, and he stole your attention. At the first party you joined them, you were almost the whole dawn with him. Dancing, drinking, talking. He was more interesting and funny than you could think, and maybe you felt somekind of connection that you never felt before. So, yes. You would like to go with them, but you have to wait till waking up tomorrow to find out if your hands can handle a four hours trip driving.
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“Good morning, bella durmiente! How was the surgery?”.
“Hm… my hands are fucked”.
“So, it went well, we have to celebrate it”.
“Yeah, but… not sure if I can drive to San Diego”.
“Oh, c'mon, please… We're gonna stay here by night too. Coming back tomorrow, take a bus! I'm sure Bishop would b—”.
“Stop!” You say laughing loud to your phone over the bed, while you do some exercise with all your fingers to bring back some mobility.
“(Y/N), you know that it's an amazing opp— Angel already bought you a ticket. In one hour. Sending you by email, bye!”
Before you can complain about it, she has already hung up the call. You end up serving some coffee in a termo, before picking up your towel and some clean clothes, besides an external battery and some hygienic stuff. Bandaging your hands, over a thin layer of cortisone cream, you're ready to walk to the bus station of Santo Padre, ten minutes away from your house. At least, you have three hours of trip to rest a little more, falling asleep as soon as you sit down on your seat. So the next time you open your eyes, you're already in San Diego. Waiting for the other passengers to get out, closing and opening your hands once and again, you step out then. Carrying your bag in your right shoulder and your phone in the left hand, you wear the pair of sunglasses looking for Bishop.
“Eh, boxer”.
His hoarse voice calls your attention, finding him next to the entrance, resting against his motorbike. You can't help but draw a soft and tired smile on your lips, leading your steps towards him, raising both hands on air to show the man your cool white bandages with black stripes. The mexican receives you into his arms in a gentle and dearly hug, surrounding your lower back and your neck for some long seconds.
“The guys are waiting for us to have lunch”.
“Cool… Last time I ate was nine and it was dark”. You just say placing well on your bag, before setting on the helmet.
The drive doesn't take you more than ten minutes, grabbed to Bishop's abdomen and with your chin over his shoulder. You can see him smiling like a fool, knowing that he's delighted that you're going to join them. But mostly, because you are with him. The warm and soft breeze of San Diego makes you close your eyes, fully relaxed, focusing on the smell that floods your lungs, mixing the salty ocean's and Bishop's scent. Your arms surround his body somewhat tight, feeling one of his hands caressing your right thigh with his huge hands placed on and his thumb making the honors over your skin, bristling it without mercy. But much to your regret, the engine stops some short minutes before, standing up from the bike when you're able to do it.
“Give me your bag, querida. I'm going to be your nurse today”. He says, after keeping the helmet you used with the other.
“Qué caballeroso…” (What a gentleman). You tease him, as if normally he isn't.
“Just earning a beach-quickl—”.
“Fuck, Bishop!” You laugh, hitting his shoulder, regretting it immediately when a lash of pain crosses your palm.
“That's called karma”. He says walking backwards to the entrance, pointing you with a finger. “The women are always asking for men's sincerity, and when we give you… You're too violent to be this small, preciosa”.
“Pendejo”.
“YAY, YOU CAME!” Leti looks surprised, making you twist back your head confused.
“Sounds like if… I had another option”. You purr with your lips, before greeting the guys. “Tell me y—”.
“I did”. Taza just says, seeing you pout at him before hugging you. “I will give you a massage later”.
“Mi angelito de la guarda”. (My guardian angel). You can't help but sigh a little alleviated, knowing that he brought a cream he makes with weed oil, coco water and aloe vera.
Actually, it was a good idea to come to the beach, having so much fun in the lunch by seeing all the men more relaxed than in Santo Padre. Being normal people. A family enjoying two days off from all the problems and the dangers they're sinked in every damn day. Bishop was focused on you the whole time, serving your drink in the glass, cutting your food into pieces so you can have to do any effort (...). Everything under the sideways looks of the others. Sometimes you look like another couple with simple gestures, that both do delighted.
After having full enough your stomachs, the guys lead you to the beach where they left the umbrellas and the towels, placing yours next to Bishop's and sitting there after taking off your clothes, but on your black bikini. Unveiling your hands, you do your best to spread the sunscreen all over your body, until the mexican grabs the bottle from your fingers to sit behind you with a ‘lean forward’ on his lips. Feeling his cold hands because the cream on your back gives you a soft chill, curling your legs against your chest and resting your chin over them. Closing your eyes, focusing all your senses on every move he does, you try not to fall asleep. Starting by your shoulders and pressing your neck with both thumbs, his hands travel down your spine making sure he's helping you to get somewhat less tense, at the same time that puts well on the sunscreen.
When it's ready, he stands up on his feet to grab Taza's cream to help you with your hands. That time, he kneels in front of you, spreading it from your forearms to the tip of your fingers, so carefully and concentrated, that you can't help but look at him with a goofy smile until it's done.
“Thank you”. You just say.
“Anytime, querida”. He whispers, pulling a tuft of your hair behind your right ear, leaning towards you to kiss your cheek. “What do you want to do now?”
“I think I need twenty minutes more of sleep, but you can go with the guys to the water, if you want”. Shrugging your shoulders, you let your back fall down to the towel.
“I spend too much time with them, and I haven't seen you a single second for the last four days”. He chuckles lying by your side, straining an arm under your neck to put you closer to him. “Let me enjoy at least twenty minutes”.
His resigned sigh makes you laugh almost in silence, while his free hand gets placed on your back, leaving some ephemeral caresses from top to bottom. And you feel as if you were in paradise. You're practically drinking each other's breathings, with closed eyes and your nose touching Bishop's. Your fingers get tangled slightly in the short hair of the mexican, taking pleasure of the peace that it's surrounding you right now.
“I didn't want you to come”. He mutters from nowhere, not opening his eyes, not opening yours. With a calm tone of voice, a little sleepy.
“Why?”
“You were tired, your hands hurt. You need to rest, (Y/N)”.
“I'm resting now. And I couldn't ask for a better way to do it. I think I'm gonna complain about my hands often, so you will take care of me”.
Bishop chuckles drowsy, shaking his head just for a second.
“Anything else, su majestad?” (Your Majesty).
“A kiss”. Murmuring, you get somewhat comfy under his arms.
You're aware of the same desire to kiss you that he feels for you, as you feel, but on the other hand, you weren't expecting him to really do it. His lips gently press yours, before catching them among his. Traveling down one of your hands to the side of his neck, Bishop holds you closer, keeping a low pace of his mouth enjoying the taste and the touch of yours. Unconsciously and by inertia, your left right surrounds his waist. His fingers touring your thigh slowly, makes your first kiss a little better. Biting softly his lower lip, you steal him a heavy sigh, stretching your skin under his huge hand. He wants you closer, and you too. But for the moment, that's pretty enough.
“You should complain about your hands often”. He mumbles almost touching your lips with every syllable.
“I will”.
Sinking your face into his neck, you're trying to fall asleep focused on his breath, hearing a bunch of steps over the sand coming closer. Some whispers talking about you two, thinking that you're sleeping but you're actually trying not to laugh, feeling how Bishop gets a little tense because of the low comments.
“Don't forget I'm your fucking boss”. Bishop growls, freezing everyone's blood. And you can't help but break into laughter.
“Shit”. Coco soughs hiding behind Angel's back, because the oldest Reyes is the tallest of all.
“Nah, c'mon, Bish. Enjoy your d—”.
Before Angel can finish the sentence, the mexican hits his leg, making him fall down over Coco. A lot of cursing in spanish appears under the umbrellas, getting mixed with the loud laughs that make you sit up on your towel almost drowning. Watching them trying to get up only makes it better.
“Oh, man, I wish I could record it”. Gilly's laughs are over the others, with an arm on Creeper's left shoulder. “Damn, prez, repeat it, please…”
“Stop bothering him”. You say holding the angry man between your arms, before lying again on your towels.
“Pendejos mal paridos…” He barks mumbling.
“Don't listen to them”.
“I'm… going to fuck them up as soon as we retur—”.
“Obispo, stop”. You chuckle, leaning up slightly to kiss his cheek.
Finally, you are able to sleep for some minutes, while the guys share some beers playing cards, listening latin music in a low volumen to not continue annoying him. And even if you don't rest for more than twenty or thirty minutes, it's like you have been sleeping for the whole day, because of the comfort you feel under his grip and the caresses in your hair. Opening again your eyes, you raise up your head over his shoulders to find half of the crew on their towels, and the other half playing with a bouncy ball on the shore, just like kids. Taking the advantage that no one is looking, to avoid that they tease you again, you press your lips onto his. Slowly, calmly, with his arms hugging your body tightly as Bishop tucks his tongue in your mouth peacefully looking for yours. You feel some tickles in your stomach when they meet, as he feels more relaxed. El Presidente really is into you. He really has more feelings than he wants to admit, until he knows that you have the same sensation on your chest every time you are close to him. Now, he's seeing it. That maybe you two are having a good opportunity.
And you don't want to stop, drowning a slight gasp against his mouth when it gets a little intense that you expected, forgetting for a second where you are and who is surrounding you. Fucking the especial moment when you hear Coco saying that the hotel rooms are already booked, and that you can ocuppy yours whenever you want. Bishop is about to get up, when you stop him by a hand on his chest. You're going to take care of it this time. Shaking the sand on your body, you wear his sunglasses, walking towards the crew in the water. Coco is looking at you somewhat confused, while the president calls Taza, Tranq and Riz attention to enjoy the show. And before he can say anything else, or ask about what you are going to do seeing how you open, close and repeat the gesture with your right hand, you hit his temple with your palm. And it hurts a little, but the laugh is worth everything.
“Yo! Mami! What was that?!” He complains offended.
“A wave”. You just say, provoking that every laughter of your friends gets louder.
“Mami…” He pouts at you, rubbing that side of his face.
“Do you want a tsunami?”
He doesn't answer, while Leti starts to cough in tears.
“I imagined”. You add then, narrowing your eyes under the aviator sunglasses.
Coming back to the umbrellas, the eldest members clap at you while making them a feigned reverence.
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After having a deserved shower in the room you're going to share with Gabriela and Leti, you fall down over the bed waiting for them to get ready for some party time after dinner. And while they choose dresses, more makeup that you have never put on and high heels, you choose some comfy shorts, a white body with bare back and your sneakers. Of course, you're not in that mood after four horrible nights working. Before leaving the hotel, you apply a few more cream on your hands, feeling so much better and using clean bandages to cover them. Meeting the guys at the hall, you go out to find a place to have some dinner, ending up in the same restaurant you have been at noon. The food is pretty good, so you go to the secure one. But this time is a little different since then.
You can't avoid having your right hand on Bishop's nape, caressing his scalp while the table talks about everything and nothing at the same time, laughing and enjoying. Urging you to put your right leg over his left, hanging from it, he caresses your thigh a little assorted as if it was something normal, and natural on him. But it's not, and that makes that gesture more special. You couldn't ask for anything better, until he kisses your cheek without expecting to place his free arm over your shoulders, without caring about if Coco or Angel dares to make another of their occurrences. You two are very sure that you made them understand to not fuck up with Bishop in front of you, even if you find it funny.
Outside of the restaurant, after having a revitalizing dinner, the crew begin to propose different plans. But the mere fact of thinking in a crowded place, with loud music and a mix of smells, makes you yawn inevitably. Leti is killing you with her gaze.
“Yo! Bitch, don' you dare to tell me that you're goen' to sleep”.
“I did—”. Trying to excuse yourself, Bishop interrupts you.
“She doesn't. But I am an old man who needs his eight hours of sleep”.
“Then, good night, mummy”. She's about to take you off from his arms, while he turns around to give her his back.
“I need a nurse to take care of my disabilities”.
“C'mon, Bish! You've been hoarding her the whole day! And I invited her, not you!” She frowns while you laugh. “I hope at least you make her cum…”
“Leticia!” You shout, while Coco palms her nape.
“Mummies don' cum, you dumbass, they just… lie do—”.
“Angel, I swear I am going to break your legs next time”.
“Whatever, Tutankhamun. Enjoy your night”. Your friend rolls her eyes with a heavy sigh.
“We can come back next week, when I have holidays”. You say palming her forehead, making her laugh before leaving back to the hotel.
And you just get separated in it enough time to clean your teeth and grab the charger for your phone, going to his room after that. You're not nervous, but a little excited of having some time alone. Finally. Not to do anything specifically, but to enjoy him being de-stressed. While he's in the bathroom, you take off your clothes to wear the shirt he has left for you on the mattress. Smells like him and that it's driving you insane, crawling over the bed to fall close to the pillows, fighting against your tiredness to not fall asleep this soon.
Having your eyes closed, you feel the side next to yours sinking a little, until his strong arms find your body to wrap it against his chest after turning off the lights. Turning under his grip and intertwining your hands and your legs, Bishop rests his cheek on yours, being able to see part of the pacific ocean from the window in front of your eyes. It's magic. Pure magic.
“Listen…” He mutters getting somewhat comfy, having a deep breath his nose sinked into your neck. “Maybe I can't promise you a life that a normal man could give you, but I'm going to make it worth every second”.
“Bish”.
“Hm…?”
“Do you love me?”.
“Yes, I do, preciosa”.
“That's everything I need”. Turning just a little, you smirk softly at him. “I don't want a normal life. I want to spend it with you”.
“I hope you never regret these words”.
“I only could regret them because they aren't enough to express how I feel when you're close to me. When you touch me. When you pronounce my name”. Replying that, you lie down again under his grip, leaving a soft kiss on his right forearm. “I love you, Bishop. I couldn't regret it”.
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RP Meme Lines from "AHS: Coven" Episode 9: "Head"
You get a little older, we'll add a little hooch in there.
That will really keep us warm.
There's nothing to be nervous about.
Keep your hands steady.
Just like we practiced on the range.
I don't wanna miss.
I was the same way when I was your age. Worse, even.
I couldn't keep my breakfast down. Ruined my shirt.
We've been hunters for generations.
You stay here.
You'll get a clean shot.
Put her down!
No mercy. Never forget what they are.
We need to talk.
You and I ain't got nothing to say to each other.
Take your skinny ass and that filthy thing and get out.
You don't wanna talk to me? Fine.
I won't be long.
This better be good.
That one you can keep.
What makes you think I want it?
Why'd you keep her around?
She amused me.
You thought you could use her as a bargaining chip.
What'd she say? I can't hear.
You shut up.
I came here to talk terms.
You think it's so easy. Stroll in here and expect we gonna fix this truce?
Oh, to hell with the truce.
What I'm looking for is an alliance.
Are you insane?
I told you to shut up.
You can't trust them as far as you can spit.
Now, we need to stop this petty quarreling.
We've got bigger problems than what goes on between us.
How many dead?
This concerns you and your people as much as it does mine.
You're making a mistake.
I can live with that. Not too sure about you, though.
Can't protect your own and expect me to do it for you.
You're kidding yourself if you think that after they're done with us,they're not coming after you.
I'll fret about that when the time come.
Right after I pop the champagne.
Take this filthy thing out back and burn it.
I don't ever wanna see it again.
Sweet release. At long last.
Could people please not move things?
Let me do it. It's my mess.
I need to say something, or I'll simply explode.
I need to know for certain that you don't think I did this to you.
You were like a baby bird pushed too soon from the nest.
Will you be my mother now?
I've always loved you like a daughter.
Wrap your arms around me, dear girl.
I don't need magic to tell me what I already know.
I know you would never hurt me.
I never doubted you for a second.
I thought you were in Europe.
Nothing a few silver bullets couldn't take care of.
A lot of things have happened. Some of them out of my control.
You don't take initiative, [NAME].
You follow orders.
Your only job is to gather intelligence.
You don't get your hands dirty.
You're the man on the inside.
Don't think.
You'll just end up getting somebody killed.
I'm much more capable than you think.
An innocent desk clerk and a maid lost their lives because you were sloppy.
Your recklessness puts everything we've worked for at risk.
The hunt isn't only about the kill.
A good hunter stalks his prey with care and only strikes when the time is right.
We need you back inside that house.
Tell me you don't actually have feelings for her.
You haven't forgotten what she is?
I'm part of a sacred order.
Don't think I don't appreciate the sacrifices you've made.
I know how confusing it can be to pretend to love someone who's your enemy.
What a marvelous invention.
So before we move on to our lobster bouquetière a little melon ball palate cleanser.
Should we be looking into it?
Selling it, perhaps?
Forgiveness is and always will be the high road, the preferred road.
Would that we had such luxury.
Not to worry. It's just a bit of monkshood in your balls. Causes temporary paralysis.
It's supposed to be quite terrifying. Is it?
Are you terrified? You should be.
At any rate, I'm not going to kill you. Well, maybe after dessert.
I put a lot of effort into the key lime pie.
I do love a key lime pie, even more than an île flottante.
I was never worried you'd be hapless enough to try.
[NAME], you're a fatuous fool and a drunk!
You're weak-willed, boring, and your fashion faux pas give me nightmares.
I know you had the best of intentions but you could've asked me first.
There are secrets in the flames, and I came back with more than a few.
Why do they look so familiar? The generous donors wish to remain anonymous.
Hurl your baseless accusations. They have no power now.
You're the one that should be put to the stake.
You were the one found guilty of a capital crime.
I could have you banished.
You wouldn't dare.
I hear they're not seeing anyone right now.
Stop it! Stop it right now.
The real danger is outside these doors, not inside.
I'm tired. I need to lie down.
It's dangerous out there.
We'll see to absolutely everything.
Hug me again.
Why don't you go tell someone?
Ugh, sick people really gross me out.
We've been looking everywhere for you.
Who said you could come in here?
Get out before I call security.
You brought this darkness into my home.
When did he tell you that?
You're a liar. Or a lunatic.
I don't believe it.
You're mocking my grief.
That proves you're a fraud.
How can you know that?
She doesn't deserve your help.
You bring nibbles? I'm starving.
Time for some sensitivity training.
What fresh hell is this?
I wanna die. I'm ready.
So we're gonna have a little film festival.
No, wait a minute.
What's happening to me?
You're feeling the wrath of broken promises.
Oh, wow, that's some stinky shit.
Now, you never use this unless under extreme circumstances.
Hey, can I try the incantation this time?
Damn. That is so cool.
We make a great team.
You're such an awesome leader
I've got so much to learn from you.
I meant to change the locks.
Let go of me.
I said, let go.
You're drunk.
I needed the courage to come back.
Can you see my heart? Can you see it's bleeding? That I'm living in a hell of regret and remorse? That my life has no meaning without you?
Can we have this conversation alone, please?
I've told you how I feel.
Take your stuff and leave.
No, I'm not going anywhere.
I'm filing for divorce.
All I want is to protect you.
Your shit's in a box in the closet. Get it and then get out.
You got a dog?
You hate animals, and all other living things.
We needed some protection around here.
Why do you think I came back?
Females are more loyal and aggressive when it comes to protecting their families.
What's in there?
You have to leave now.
I'm not certain
I know how to thank you.
I'm sure this isn't enough, but in truth, nothing could ever be enough.
You've given me a gift that can never be repaid.
I confess I had dark moments.
The thought of losing my son shook me to the core.
I questioned my faith in the Almighty.
Why does he say that?
God knows all.
I can't accept that.
I wanna be a good father.
We're done. Maybe one day you'll understand.
You knew you'd get away with it.
My turn.
Now it's your turn.
Like to play another hand?
Yeah, you just keep dealing till I win my money back.
What did you do to him?
What we need is a guard dog, one who will attack on command.
You kept your eyes closed your entire life.
What is that heinous caterwauling?
If this doesn't touch your soul, you don't have one.
When will my perdition end?
I gotta go.
Sit your ass down and get yourself to work.
Go back to sleep, baby.
Go back to sleep.
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(CLANDESTINE CHAPTER TWO)
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Rhythmically mellifluous waves of notes echoes after bouncing back from anile theatre's walls, the trill getting softer the more I firmly place my chin over the tail piece.
Eye lids slip shutting at the flurries of heart chasing the last cadences, pinky shivering as the middle and ring finger pushes the string down while the bow touches through the strings simultaneously producing the last chords.
Feels like a voyage over a baby leaf that's leading me through a pallid wind.
My chest heaving vigorously and lifting my jaw from the violin my head snapped in the direction of loud claps flowing. After a hectic performance the seats went empty and instead of going backstage I tried to play a melody for myself.
I was so lost finding my way through strings that didn't even noticed when Azi came. He's the owner of this old hideously beautiful theatre, his love for arts has this place still running without compliance knowing else it would have left baren just like the other popular theatres they shut years ago.
"Well done Harry, people seemed to love your performance last night and today." A smile quenching from my inners causing the bottom lip to tuck in between my teeth.
A feeling like no other spiralling around my ribcages, this's all I ever wanted.
"They were properly soused into your magic and we know what that means, shit loads of money." I remained quite putting my violin and bow aside while he spoke with a tobacco cigar rolled in between his lips.
I never wanted to play for money but nor do I've problem if we're getting it because half of the people in theater needs it. They deserve it.
It's not their fault they've to die in return of loving the devotedness that's gifted naturally.
Their talent and adroitness is the only thing keeping them in this world even though they've to remain veiled from the ordinary people.
Azi drags the stash of money on the table in my direction causing me to shake my head in refusal, "you know that I don't need this money. Save it for the renovation of theatre before we all get buried deep under it." He laughs lungs rumbling from his old age.
For God's sake the ceilings are about to cripple and chandelier might bonk my head one day.
"Or' maybe double pay our ballerina she was prepossesing last night." The twitch of his wrinkles at the corners of eyes smoothed down sadly and he sighed loudly piercing a hole in my stomach.
Anticipation wrapped around my head shoving me into the sea of worry where I'm finding it difficult to process, "what happened-" my words choking in my windpipes when he cuts me off revealing the horror information.
"She was abducted last night, her body was found shot near the suburb of where she lives." Everything's feeling claustrophobic around me and I keep on gawking him in astonished dread.
She was one hell of the great dancers, the only ballerina of our theatre. She didn't not deserved this; fuck it nobody does. I refuse to believe.
Fuck this government. Fuck this stupid world.
Gripping my hair from roots I looked him straight in the eyes, "Tell me if her family needs any help." Then the realization dawned upon me like a heavy dust she never had a family. This theatre, her skills were her only family.
"Harry my boy listen I know you'll take it as a hard toll but believe me we can't do anything for what has happened, go home have a rest you've a performance in the coming month." I was taken aback when he hugged me assuring me like a father would do, not utterly sure how to respond to interactions like these I raised my hands several times only to let them fall back.
Memories of her on tips dancing beautifully on the stage displaying infront of me as I stored my violin into case putting it aside.
We weren't close. But the few times we had exchange of words in the middle of lunch breaks and her full concentration on my foolish jokes was worth than any friendships I ever had; which I unfortunately never had.
Without even noticing the whispers let out of my chest, "I'll miss ya." Never thought you could yearn to have a single glimpse of people last time even though they were barely in your life.
I didn't changed into comfortable clothes letting the flashy suit stick to my skin, so the weigh of it will keep on making me realize that the world has no place for us.
A sacrifice for living praise.
The alley outside's pitch dark with the sun roguishly trying to dawn from the horizon.
Azi Theatre's situated at the most lifeless spot in the city possible, you've to walk through several hidden allies to reach there.
While, walking past the streets and avoiding to ruin my trousers by splashing my boots into puddle my brain havoced with unnecessary thoughts.
Thousand of faces with erastz beauty passing in mili seconds on these vast fulgurant billboards their mocks appearing like arrows to my already wounded guts; though it's all in my head it's still crawling under my skin.
A peek of cognisance from the day she made me ate her red velvet muffins dizzied around in my mind painting sorrow over me.
Even though I protested with my nonsical excuses she won ending up handing me one of her perfectly shaped muffin on my palm with a huge grin.
Just like that alot of people's smiles in my life petered out in the lost pocket of my mind.
In the littlest remembrance of her I made route to the small bakery situated two blocks away from the building I live in. The city's sleeping the only thing's shop's boards blinking and hazy bakeries showing through the thick fog.
It's open twenty four hours seven. The sky tweeked with ribbons of brume and the digital clock showed 5:00 sharp in the early dawn the large glass windows fogy from weather. The counter lady's wrapped into a comfy blanket trying not to fall asleep.
The bell chimed startling the cute old lady when I stepped inside passing by the wooden counter, "uhh..hi sorry to disturb. I'll look in myself." She nodded slumping back into her seat soon about to knock off.
Strolling in between the squeezy aisles my eyes roamed over empty refrigerators ceasing to the one at the far corner.
There in the transparent domed box are four cherry-red muffins attracting every dull view of bakery towards themselves. They're perfectly shaped and snow-flaked into red coconut shudders but failed to water my mouth.
I've no appetite to eat them. Her's used to be baked into undescribeable funny shapes but atleast I had a company while chomping them in one bite.
A reel of same memory binging and before it could permanently imprint in my brain I cleared my throat raising my pointy finger as a habit, "I'll have these!"
We said in a unison. Hold on. We? Am I that exhausted that I've started to hallucinate.
My head snapshoting towards the person from whom the feminine voice billowed in the dense warm air.
Resplendent. Florid and kaleidoscopic were the first words that striked my confused mind when my vision raked from the faux suede ankle boots richer in pigment than the red velvet muffins resting inside the refrigerator; then straight towards to meet their eyes.
Her gaze projecting warmth in this wimtertide and out of curiosity I met her eyes to recognize their colour.
Golden syrup. They're like the glassed honey pool that has squeezed the bee in the syrup lake as if it's greed for honey became it's trap, hazel speckles caged inside the rim of irises flickering with her slightest of eye movement.
We both keeps on looking at eachother the morning peace surrounding us too unsure how to break the spell.
She's wearing a cerise peach long trench wool coat a sweet rose enamel pin attached to where her heart is. Her nose and ears pink from the cold outside, but her lips plump from under the translucent violaceous bubble gum coloured gloss.
Burnette tresses of hair loose till her covered shoulders, the peach tealed beanie intact on her head.
The women standing infront of me is in abstract contrast to the pastels of the bakery and the luster of gray buildings out of these bakery walls.
The pastelish hues still prominent in her and crimson peaked up my neck at the fact that she caught me intriguing her by my peer.
Boldly her eyes remained fixated at my suit that's very exotic for strolling into a bakery. She might think so I'm a bellend idiot.
The cashier lady came to us yawning placing her hands on her hips done with two strangers just looking at eachother but she doesn't know that both of them are inquisitive of what the other is wearing this early where anybody's barely awake.
"We've the only box, decide it quick kiddos that who'll get it." The lady yawned for fiftieth time taking the box of muffins out of refrigerator.
"I came here first and I was the first one to ask." I frowned for an obvious reason and the lady was about to give me the box when a honeyed voice again melted in my ears.
Now I really wanna hear her talk for a long time, "but I pointed at it first!" She whines softly jutting her lower lip.
"But vocalisation matters the most." I quipped arching my brow at her and she glared me but her beatific personality radiating naturally from her is breaking the bitter demeanour she's trying to pull towards me.
"Kay. We can leave it upto the rock, paper and siscorss." She smirks mishveously raising her brows several times in a challenge.
Her tongue poking out from her glossy lips with her one leg straight and other bended perpendicular she placed her on foot over another balancing with only one leg like a flamingo.
The cute small lady groaned, "are you really gonna do this?" Our eyes widening and chuckles spiraling when we once again we said 'yep.' In unison.
She was ready to launch her hand in a paper and mine was stone so I quickly interrupted looking down at her legs, "why are you standin' like a swan?" Her eyes slitting into a squint and lips shrinking into a pout.
Tilting her chin towards me and standing in the same position as before just the difference now's that her hands are on her hips to convey the offend.
She ruched her lower lip inside her mouth to stop from giving a smile, so she's a buoyant person...
"Because maybe I am?" And she doesn't have simple answers to straight questions. Our fists still raised into air and the cashier lady hissed this time ready to throw hands.
"You kids are worse than my grandchildren!" She gasped comically at the words of short lady.
"That's very mean of you..." I'm clearly surprised that she isn't one bit influenced by lady's sharpness instead she's further engaging in a conversation that will result in the loss of time for all of us. "...and your daughter wouldn't be very happy to know."
"Kay. Back to where we left." She quickly turned her head towards me her complete concentration struck over me making my stomach go fluttery and funny.
"Uhm..yes- rock, paper, siscorss!" I never thought I'd play a game with some stranger who's looking so cozy and comfy in the early dew, for some muffins in the middle of empty bakery when I scarcely interact with people.
"Yes! I won." I punched the air when my siscorss cut her paper and her jaw went slack for a moment.
What the fuck you're doing Styles!?
Out of shyness and awkwardness I abruptly combed back my curls rubbing my hand down the nape of my neck not meeting her eyes.
The lady handed me the box with a boring expression while Hers stayed ticked to it, "anyway I don't even like red-velvet muffins." Yeah. Grapes are sour when fox can't get it.
She was about to walk away near to step out of shop. I want to call her but don't know her name; so out of sheer rampage I blurted out the only word that the department of my brain could manage at the time.
"Swan!" She halted in her tracks torso turning and with her chin atop of her shoulder she looked back at me smiling coyly.
"Yes. Sparkly?" She's probably calling me that because of my glittery black suit and I'm sure my ribcages did something at the name. Getting made fun of doesn't sound very good; but it is at the time.
Today's an odd day.
"Um..we can share if you want to?" Her grin etching to the corner of her lips and she jumped excitedly clasping her hands together,"Really!?"
A timid smile crawling over my features watching her get delighted at the littlest of fact. "Yes. There are two pair of muffins we both can have one pair if you like to?" I told her and she bobs her head while going towards the cash counter, patting the counter with a huge grin indicating me to put the box down.
"Your total's $8.25." We both payed half of the total price and I shoved my hands into my trouser's pockets scrutinizing my surrounding while the annoyed cashier lady packed two muffins separately for one of us.
And she rummaged through her wallet which has alot of ebullient key-chains hanging from it, who's this girl?
Why I've never seen her here before? and I've never seen a person this cheerful in the crowd of prosaic people of city.
The lady handed us our respective delights with a roll of eyes and I was the first one to take mine and quickly sprinted out of there, because I didn't know what else to do.
A whiff of pungent vanilla, mulberry pomegranate sprouting with cocoa made it's way in my nostrils when I passed beside her. Her fragrance's divergent.
You know a scent that addictively clouds your senses but it's so rare you never get to smell it again; but if out of nowhere you get to it brings back nostalgia for no reason, she smelled like that.
When I glanced back the two women were still watching my weirdness in amusement through the glass windows of bakery.
It appeared like her rose enamel pin winked at me from far.
Mick was tangled up into cassette tapes when I stepped inside my flat, the tiny bugger he is jumped atop me straddling me to the floor.
"You're lookin' like a disco ball. No need to be so proud." Instead he gave a long slicky lick to my cheek woofing at me.
He's being too cheeky but it wouldn't last long when I'll take him for a checkup. He fucking envy his doc. I'm already sensing sympathy seeking whining from him, happens every year.
Shaking my head I grunted skiding from underneath him but he's fast and climbed up in my lap while I struggled to open the box.
The minute red hilly muffins were infront of me it reminded me of honey the ooze of golden, treacle eyes. Her eyes.
Shit. It's getting hard to get rid of her delicate image that's playing like an aesthetic reel in the back of my mind.
I was jerked into reality when Mick lurched greedily eating the delcious muffin from my hand in one bite, leaving his slickness at the tip of my fingers. Before he could attack my muffin too I quickly grabbed it.
"Mick you wouldn't believe what happened today!?" I spoke in an animated voice scratching his sweet spot under his ear my mouth full of red coconut and he looked up at me with his sick puppy eyes.
"We wouldn't have been able to eat these if I wouldn't have won from...." I stuttered pondering over the fact that the nameless peachy coat girl's too stubborn and wouldn't leave my fuzzy thoughts alone, "...from swan."
Mick just barked at me going to his sleeping pillow and I practically rubbed my eyes with the heels of my palms to bring myself to some consciousness from that bloody bakery fantasy.
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When the proper morning hit I made myself breakfast and the longer I stared it the more it impeded my appetite.
With one hand offering Mick treats to deceive him into the idea that I'll take him to the park for a walk which instead will end up in a clinic's room and other hand diligent in searching word puzzles over the newspaper my jaw worked to chew the sandwich.
Throwing a sweater over my head and slipping into white washed jeans quickly I got ready to take Mick with me.
I had to scoop Mick up in my arms when he sprawled onto footpath of veterinary clinic the second he realized what was about to happen.
The kid leaning against the wall giggled loudly watching me practically drag my dog across the floor because he's too socially akward, fucking wow.
The waiting area's already full of pupils alongside their pets, someone stood up from the last bench and taking the advantage of opportunity I strided towards it sitting at it's edge.
Fifteen minutes passed since I've been caressing and comforting my scared bud, tucking his crown under my chin to make him at rest.
There's loud raucous noise when the elevator doors to the floor we're at opened wide gaining everyone's attention and when the person in tizzy strided inside the corridor I had to look at her twice.
What the fuck she's doing here? She never owned a pet and the one for whom she'll get this worried about.
Lyida's exactly same, her eyes bright as always and she has become more striking from when she was with me.
But she's not mine now, she never was.
She lurched over the receptionist with the box in her hand and distress of having to meet her eyes creeped inside me. The girl beside me threw daggers at me when I stood up hastily causing the whole bench to shake. I apologised for the disturbance.
My hands fumbled with the knob of nearest door right beside me and I had to shush Mick sternly when he kept on whining.
Heavy puff of breaths escaping my lungs when I stumbled inside some empty doctor's room shutting the door behind me, back meeting against the wooden plank of door, cold sweat breaking under the nape of my neck and I blinked several times taking in my surrounding.
I'm a weak son of a bitch.
It's fuckin' gruelling to be in her presence. It's hellish to meet her sympathetic gaze for me and I'm a bastard who's pathetic as hell.
I have to be away, I've to go right now. Trotting towards the large window panes I uncliped them stepping outside the shared balcony of room.
There's a drain pipe so I can climb it down to the ground and get the hell away from here.
Maybe, Mick was right it was a bad day and idea to come here.
Adjusting Mick inside my armpit I threw my one leg over the rail and then the second, my breath wavering as I gripped the rail tighter taking baby steps towards the plastic pipe.
The smack of air stinging my eyes while the cars are being parked infront of me at the parking lot.
A delucet voice clamoured from inside startling me to death and Mick barked lowly in reaction, "Whoops! Sorry to interrupt your suicidal mission." I turned my head steadily to see who's it even though I can comprehend the sherbet similarity.
Her voice has melted like a hot maroon stamp into my ears since the dawn hour and with the corner of my eyes I watched her leaning against the stretcher.
"But let me tell you Sparkly this height would cause you nothing but two broken ribs, one fractured thigh and you might loose your brain memory. No more than that." I gawked her appalled while she remained peacific arms folded infront of her chest, into different cardinal clothes now.
Again a replete splitness to what every other person's wearing outside.
Even though my intentions are nothing like that but saying this to someone who's about to take their life doesn't seem very pleasing.
I was about to speak something into my defence that she misinterpreted things but she cut me off popping her chewing gum and capturing the ropes of sticked bubble around her lips with her teeth.
Fuck.
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r3b3lgrrrrrrrl · 4 years
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A LunaTic and her Gunn (Part 99) "Shows in Different Country Codes"
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Waiting for the Xanax to kick in that Luna had given him in their uber, Colson's leaned back into his seat. A thousand thoughts swirling through his head as he stares out the airplane's window.
"FUCK... I hate leaving them...." He sighs at the thought of Casie and Luna. "I wonder if she got in touch with that planner Emma gave her..." His mind drifting to their weddings. Being more nervous for EstFest, there's a lot to do just festival wise. "I'm glad no one gave me shit about adding the extra day..." He thinks of the vendors. Sighing again, his mind wanders to a place it tries to never go. "Maybe I should call my dad.... He should probably meet Luna...." His heart worries as the Xanax helps his eyes close.
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Luna lands in Mexico City around 5A. She wanders around the gift shop for a moment, buying a new shirt before making her way outside. It's pouring, so she pulls her Yankees hat on backwards before she hops into a taxi.
Once checked in at The Four Seasons, Luna doesn't know what to do with herself. Ashley's sharing a room with Dom, leaving Luna alone. Lighting a joint, she tries on the shirt she bought. Heading into the bathroom, she stands on top of the toilet to Snap Colson.
Finally crawling into bed, Luna flicks on the TV as she lights another joint. Drifting off to the sounds of Parks and Rec once she's put it out.
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The Bus is parked in the back of the venue, Colson's playing The Knitting Factory tonight. In the back of a cab, he catches the Snap from Luna. Laughing out loud at her once he opens it.
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"She's so fucking adorable..." His heart aches for her as he pays for and climbs out of his ride.
Opening the door to their bedroom on The Bus, Colson isn't shocked to find Baze and Sam. He's definitely not pleased though.
"Yo. Wake the fuck up and get outta my bed." He states, kicking the bottom of Baze's foot.
Both of them wake with a bit of a startle. Looking at each other, slightly embarrassed. They like to think they're on The Low but everyone knows about them. Silly Wabbits.
"FUCK man... I didn't think you'd be back till later..." Baze says groggily as he collects himself.
"Clearly, Truck." Colson rolls his eyes with a chuckle as he turns around so they can dress.
Not one to cock block but desperately wanting to lay down, he really doesn't care. He knows Luna will though. As they begin to leave his room, Colson calls out a Yo. They both turn but he talks directly to Sam.
"You know she's a cunt.... I'd get these sheets washed before she gets back." He says with a light warning.
Tired, Sam stares at Colson. She hates that he knows Luna well enough to be right.
"I got it." She responds, uncharacteristically trying to hide the annoyance in her voice.
With his door shut, Colson Snaps Luna back before throwing himself down. Hoping to find her smell, he can only find other people in their bed. Pissed, he rips the blankets, sheets and pillow cases off, throwing them out the door.
Grabbing her pillow and tucking his nose inside his hoodie, he catches her faint scent. Images of Luna dancing in his head as he falls asleep.
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Luna wakes up to a hard banging on her door. It's just after 2P. Touching the empty side of her bed, Luna wishes Colson was with her.
Hating The World, she let's them bang. Finding her phone, there's a Snap from Colson.
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"He's such a dirty Motherfucker..." Luna thinks with a grin.
The door still pounding.
"SHUT THE FUCK UP!! I'M COMING!" She shouts as she climbs out of bed.
Winging the door open, it's Ashley and Dom. Impatient fucking Assholes.
"WHY!?!" Luna demands. "Why the FUCK do you need to bang like that?" Luna complains as she let's them in.
"To wake your bitch ass up." Ashley snarks, pushing her way into the room.
"Mornen' Loons." Dom greets her to her silent nod.
"You really are a DICKFUCK sometimes...." Luna says with annoyance.
"Whatever...." Ashley brushes her off. "Got any bud?" She asks, already knowing the answer.
"Yeah.... But it was shoved up my asshole, so do you really wanna smoke it?" Luna deadpans.
"Shut the fuck up." Ashley laughs as she turns to Dom. "She didn't shove it up her ass." She reassures him.
"Oi... Bum smoke is no problem fo me!" Dom responds, making both Girls laugh.
Dom knowing Them well enough to truly understand the nature of their friendship. Rolling one up as Ashley and Luna climb onto the bed together. Luna's ring catching Ashley's eye for the first time.
"HOLY FUCK! WHAT IS THIS!!!" She exclaims as she grabs for Luna's hand.
Admiring the large, sparkling stone, she moves Luna's hand all around as it catches the light. Shining brighter with every different angle. It's definitely NOT a guitar string.
"He picked this out on his own?" She asks in amazement.
"I think Rook might've helped him a little, but yeah... I had nothing to do with it." Luna answers.
"Good job, Kells." Ashley compliments his choice.
Luna, Ashley and Dom burn and chat. Talking about Colson, the ring, what they've both been up to and the upcoming weddings. It feels like forever since The Girls last saw each other. In reality, it's only been three days since the show at The Roxy.
"Alright... We gotta motor. Go shower, we have rehearsal in less then 2hrs. Come meet us in room 202 when you're ready." Ashley directs Luna.
"Alright......" Luna yawns loudly.
She heads into the bathroom as Ashley and Dom close her door behind them. Lighting another joint, she rails three 30s as she gets ready for the shower. Forgetting to Snap Colson back due to her unexpected visitors.
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"Cool..." Colson thinks when he finally opens his door. His angry linen fit is gone from the floor. "Thanks Sam...." His brain grateful even if his actions are sometimes dickish.
Walking to the front of The Bus, everyone's lounging, burning and waiting for him. Plopping down next to AJ, he asks Rook to throw him a bag of chips. Colson nonchalantly munches on them as they all talk about tonight's show. Working on the setlist, he hates when he has to cut Bad Things as he finishes his snack.
"Dawg... Raise that shit to your face!!" Slim hollers at the picture on the bag.
Looking at it, Colson asks "What like this?" Lifting it up just under his nose.
The entire Bus erupts into laughter. It fits so perfectly. Colson tosses his phone to Slim.
"Here, take a picture.... We'll see if this is wedding acceptable." He laughs.
Tossing it back after he takes one, Slim laughs out a Definitely Not as Colson shoots Luna a Snap asking the same question. Colson shrugs with amusement... You never know with Loons.
"We ready to fuck this day up?" He asks as he begins to lead the rest of them off of The Bus.
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Throwing on jeans, with a band T and flannel, Luna has her hair up. Red bandana securing it. Only having one pair of contacts left, she chooses to wear her glasses. The sun being her eyeballs mortal enemy today.
In the front seat of an uber with Ashley and Dom, her phone goes off. It's another Snap from Colson.
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What the SHIT!!" Luna can't contain her thoughts or laughter. "Look at this crazy Asshole!!" She laughs.
Screenshotting the Snap before passing it to the backseat. Both of them erupt into laughter also.
"Oi. E wears it so well!!" Dom laughs.
"No... No, he doesn't. He looks like a fucking pornstar." Luna laughs as she takes back her phone.
"Pornstache!!" Ashley laughs out loudly to Luna's hysterical agreement.
Catching the older driver's amused eyes, Luna shows him. Bursting out laughing, he agrees... Yes, I'm sorry but Your Boyfriend Looks Like a PornStar. Tickling Luna's funny bone to the core.
"FUCKING JOHNNY WADS!!!!" She shouts, turning in her seat to look at Ashley before she Snaps Colson back.
She's referring to one of the pioneering PornStars of the 70s. John Holmes. Huge cock. 15 inches... If not more. A wild and extremely violent true story. The two of them watching the movie dozens of times as teenagers. Amongst many others.
Even with with one's own solid influences, false advertisements are still intriguing. Filling their young, rebellious souls. Recommending the fucked up movie to anyone who loves drugs, violence, Val Kilmer and unhappy endings.
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"Oooh.. Christ!!! You better hope not, Phoebe!!" Ashley laughs.
"Fuck you... I'd be a Smelly Cat BEFORE a fucking SHARON!!!" Luna flicks her off with a laugh and a grin.
Dom chiming in to sing Smelly Cat as they step out of their cab and head into the venue to rehearse for the Awards Show. The Girls singing along with him.
"Wait... What are we doing and why are we in Mexico again?" Luna asks, slightly confused.
"It's the MTV Latin Millennial Awards." Ashley answers as if Luna's supposed to just get it.
"Annnnnd....?" She leads.
"And I'm nominated and performing. They requested Without Me and Nightmare so you HAVE to be here." She teases Luna while draping her arms around her shoulders from behind.
"But we're not Latina....?" Luna's still confused.l
"Dude... I don't know. I just played the Brazil one a few weeks ago. Without Me is a nominee for Global Hit... Maybe that's why." Ashley shrugs. "We've got more important things to worry about. I want us do some choreography with four dancers."
"You fucking what?" Luna asks in bewilderment.
Ashley has her at an Award Show in Mexico and now she wants her to dance like some fucking pop star. She's gotta be out of her God Damn mind.
"Yeah!!! It'll be fun!! Come meet the girls." Ashley says with a grin as she pulls Luna along.
"Fuck my stupid fucking life...." Is all Luna can think.
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Colson is rehearsing with The Boys. Deciding to take a Burn&Board Break, they head out back. Reaching into his pocket, he finds a Snap from Luna.
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Laughing at her smart ass response and missing her voice, he calls her. It rings straight through. Colson can't resist leaving her a voicemail.
🎶Off that fat ass//Imma do a line or two//Before we//Have our own private shoot//Where I//PornStar Fuck//The shit outta you//Be ready//When you come back//Boo//Cuz it's//Only Bad Things//That we do🎶
Laughing after he finishes, he shouts "LOVE YOU, KITTEN!! CALL ME!" before hanging up.
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Luna's BackStage as Ashley and Dom sit in the audience. She's trying not to freak out over the performance Ashley wants to pull off. Even with Patti making her take ballet and gymnastics, Luna is not a dancer. She's a musician, a songwriter, a photographer, a painter, a sculptor. An artist. You could even call her an activist, a feminist, a bitch and an outlaw. What you can not call her is a professional dancer.
"This is gonna be a fucking shit show...." She worries as she hears Ashley's name called. "OH FUCK!! SHE WON!!!" Luna's brain bursts. Any other thoughts disappearing with the excitement for her bestfriend.
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Catching up in the dressing room they're sharing, Luna congratulates Ashley with a tight hug. Popping into the bathroom while Ashley puts on her first outfit, Luna shoots Colson a Snap. Not paying attention to her voicemail as she comes out of the bathroom. She always has an unchecked voicemail.
"Change. We're on next." Ashley instructs her, pointing to the latex and chain garments sitting on a chair.
Wiggling into the tight pieces, Luna checks herself out in the stand up mirror. Her outfit consisting of a latex crop top, VERY small booty shorts with metal chains dangling securely around the hips, fishnets and a pair of Docs. Ashley has the exact same thing on under what looks like a 1980's prom dress.
"You know I'm keeping these right?" Luna asks as she slides her hand up her smooth ass.
"Yeah, I figured..." Ashley laughs as a tiara is placed on top of her head.
"See you out there, Miss 2019." Luna smiles, referring to the sash Ashley's wearing as she makes her way out the door.
Luna double checking herself before following behind. Thinking about Snapping Colson again, she decides to wait. He loves the feel of latex and she'd rather show him in person.
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Colson's phone goes off just as he's about to silence it. It's Luna.
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"Fuck, she's gorgeous...." He thinks staring at her picture. Wanting to put his hands on every inch of the bare skin she's showing. More so on the parts she's not.
"Yo!!! You gotta go!!" Ashleigh hollers at him.
Walking quickly down the hall, Colson Snaps Luna back before heading OnStage. Grabbing his guitar, he shouts to the crowd WHAT UP EST FAM!!!! making the factory explode in excitement.
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Ashley presents Without Me almost as a performance piece. Standing alone OnStage in her pretty dress, sash and tiara initially until black, shadowy figures begin to push and pull at her. By the end of the song, they've ripped the gown off of her. Leaving her on the floor.
The lights go down as the opening chords to Nightmare come on. Ashley running to the MainStage to meet Luna. It's a long runway with a large circular stage at the bottom.
Luna and Ashley bounce in between the four similarly dressed dancers. Ashley kicking her leg out high as she begins.
🎼I!🎶
She shouts the opening chorus as the two of them run, bounce and jump down the straight away towards the camera. Of course it's being televised. Stopping MidStage, the dancers squat down. Surrounding them as Luna hits her mark.
🎶I'm out for blood//And it won't be sweet🎶
She sings, dragging her hands around her body as the dancers and Ashley tilt their heads back and forth to the beat. On que the six of them stalk to the center of the stage, Ashley and Luna in the middle. Back to back the dancers pull at them as Luna bellows.
🎶Society has us//Pinching our skin//With our own fingers//Wishing we could//Cut our parts off//With some scissors🎶
None of their performances together are the same but they do carry similar tones. Luna and Ashley still mocking each other about Giving Each Other A Smile. Instead of jumping wildly, they move in sync with the dancers to their sides. Fire exploding as they drop out and let the audience shout that WE DON'T OWE YOU A GOD DAMN THING!
The six of them sit down on the ground, sat behind the other like a human train. Leaning forwards and backwards as Ashley sings how she's No Sweet Dream But A HELL Of Night. Standing up and collectively circling around Luna and Ashley, the dancers move behind them as Luna comes in again.
🎶No, I won't smile//But I'll show you my teeth//And I might let you breathe//If you just let Us be//We've been polite//But we're done with this trend//Of men thinking//They can tell Us//What we can do in our beds🎶
Rolling their hips and hitting different moves together on certain lyrics, the choreography isn't nearly as awful as Luna had anticipated. Fire bursting around them as they squat and move easily with the dancers. The performance rolling smoothly.
"Thank you, Mexico City!! Thank you for having us. Thank you for the honor of my award..." Ashley shouts to the crowd as the song begins to come to it's end.
Luna comes up to Ashley, putting her arm around her. Looking at each other, Luna turns back to the room.
"Yes!! Thank you!! This woman here is AMAZING!! Can you do one thing for her? On this last verse can you go WILD!?!" Luna asks to their roars. "THEN, HERE WE GO!!!!"
Ashley and Luna sing together strong and fierce. Fire and lights exploding around them. Fuck the choreography, they're fully enjoying losing their minds OnStage together. To their credit, the dancers are completely professional and stay on point. Somehow managing to avoid crashing into the Maniacal Girls
🎶I!//KEEP A RECORD//OF THEIR WRECKAGE//AND THEIR LIES//WE'RE STARTEN' TO WEAPONIZE//OUR POWERFUL MINDS//THEY TALK SHIT//BUT//WE WON'T TAKE IT//THIS TIME//AND//THEY'LL FINALLY REALIZE🎶
Coming together again, arms linked around each other and the dancers waists, The Girls yell in unison with a wave.
"THAT WE'RE NO SWEET DREAM BUT WE'RE A HELL OF A NIGHT!!! THANK YOU AGAIN, MEXICO CIIIIITYYYY!!!"
The two bestfriends laughing and holding hands as they walk OffStage. Thanking and complimenting the dancers along their way.
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"THROW THOSE HORNS UP AND SIIINGIIING!" Colson shouts as he grips the mic, guitar hanging from his body.
🎶Woah, Woah//She said//You need to let me go//Woah, woah//She said I'd die for you//You're like my drug//But I can't get high off you//You're not mine anymore🎶
His Est Family erupting with him as they sing along word for word Let You Go with him. There is NOTHING like thousands of people singing your words along with you.
The Band runs through El Diablo and Rap Devil. Colson climbing onto the top of Rook's kit hitting a guitar solo during Alpha Omega. Bad Motherfucker follows with them finally ending on 27.
It's a great show. The Boys are raw and fearless. Colson jumping and climbing on everything he can find. Shouting THANK YOU, IDAHO! as they exit the stage.
Without Luna there Colson feels a bit lost. Heading straight BackStage, avoiding his dressing room. Grabbing a beer, he slams a shot with The Crew. Random Girls floating in around them. Falling all over themselves to get to Rook, Slim, AJ, Baze and Colson.
Sam is sitting on a couch between Colson and Baze talking about tonight's show, if anyone's heard from Luna and other random stuff. It's when two girls slither over, each perching themselves on the arm rest next to one of the boys. Touching them to get their attention.
Sam looks left. Then Sam looks right. Reaching in her back pocket, she pulls out her blade. Popping it, she looks back and forth between the two females again.
"I'd get the fuck up if you cunts like your tits." She states with a snarl.
The two quickly moving away as Colson laughs. Sam and Luna truly are two peas in a pod. Looking over he catches Baze kiss Sam's cheek. It makes him miss his LunaTic even more.
"Knock it off." He tells them. "If I'm not getting any, neither are you motherfuckers. Now, let's get FUCKED UP!!" Colson declares as he grabs a bottle of Jack.
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Luna's doing the same. Only in Mexico with Corona and Mezcal. Sitting at an After Party with Ashley, Dom, the boys from BTS and a few other artist, they bullshit and talk about the night. Everyone stopping to congratulate Ashley on her win and compliment both Girls on their performances.
"You won't eat the worm..." Ashley dares Luna as she swigs the bottle with the little guy floating inside.
"Nothing happens if you do...." Luna blows her off.
"Yes hunh.... You start trippen'. Isn't that right, Luis?" She asks as she turns to one of the other artist.
"For dayyys, Mami..." He drawls.
Rolling her eyes, Luna takes the last of the fifth to the head. The other's watching with wide eyes as the worm slides down her throat with it.
"We'll see... But I call bullshit." Luna states.
"Aye..." Luis nudges Ashley. "She's no gallina." He says impressed to her nod.
"Nah, mucho perra." Luna counters to his surprise.
"Aye...." He grins with his own nod, amused by the tiny white girl.
The music is loud as smoke and Mezcal continue to flow. Everyone is drunk. Ashley tries to follow with Dom as Luis teaches Luna to salsa. Politely declining his advances as his hand slips from the small of her back down to her ass.
"I'll be back...." She calls over her shoulder as she goes to check her phone.
There's a Snap from Colson hours ago.
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Both sets of Luna's cheeks instantly flush when she reads his words. Missing him, she calls instantly.
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"Hi, Bunny...." Her voice is low and warm when he answers.
"Oooh, Kitten. I miss you." He sighs.
"Me too... I miss your face. And your eyeballs. And your hands on my body. The way they run threw my hair when I suck your cock..."
Colson's dick had perked up at the sound of her voice but her words have him full on hard now. Wanting to fuck her, touch her.... Shit, just seeing her right now would probably make him cum.
"Where are you?" He demands
"I don't know.... Somewhere in Mexico?" She answers.
"Find somewhere alone and FaceTime me right back." He tells her firmly.
"Okay." She simply says as she hangs up.
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Luna heads towards the stairwell. Popping in her air pods, she FaceTime's Colson right back.
Colson had made his way into a bathroom while they were off the phone. Answering, he can't help but break out into a smile.
"Hey, Gorgeous... You alone?" He asks after greeting her.
"Mhmm... Just me and your pussy." She coos. "She's lonely without you...."
"Show her to me." Colson taunts as he adjusts his phone on the bathroom sink and unbuckles his pants. Both of them are drunk and horny.
Luna props her phone against the wall across from her. Standing up, she slips off the black jean shorts she has on. Sitting on them, she drops her left leg on the step below and lifts her right to the one above. Spreading her legs for Colson. Only a screen and Luna's black panties separating them.
"I want you to touch her." He requests as he starts to pull on his hard cock.
Luna can see him playing with himself through the phone. Obliging him, she pulls the cotton to the side. Exposing her bare lips. Opening them for him to see her pink insides. Colson tugs harder on himself as Luna slips her fingers inside her sopping cunt. Letting out a low moan as she arches her back.
"That's right, Kitty... Play with my pussy. Rub that clit with your thumb the way I know you like." He directs her.
Following directions, Luna uses her free hand to yank the Japanese Star Wars shirt she has on up. Exposing her full breasts. With her fingers still inside of herself, she grips one tit. Playing with it's piercing between her thumb and index finger. The sight of his ring on her hand makes Colson rage even more.
"Does that feel good?" He pants as he watches her, feeling close to exploding.
"Unh hunh.... She moans with closed eyes as she bucks against her own hand. "Be better if my mouth had your cock in it." She lets out with another moan, she's close too.
"I'm gonna fuck you so hard you can't fucking walk by time I'm done with you." Colson threatens to Luna's delight as he grips the sink.
With Colson's deep voice wrapping around her brain and the memory of his touch hitting all her senses Luna cries out for him as they masturbate for each other.
"AHHHH FUCK! DO IT, LOONS!!" He shouts as his dick shoots his seed everywhere, keeping his eyes glued to the screen.
Luna's spread eagle as she finger fucks herself on the steps. Bucking wildly as her hands please her body. Cumming all over herself as Colson watches in pleasure.
Out of breath, Luna opens her eyes. "Fuck, C....." Is all she can get out as her knees fall together.
"Lemme see her one more time.... Bring her close." He instructs.
Opening her legs back up, Luna pulls her phone up to her box. She can hear Colson telling her pussy that She's A DIRTY Girl. Looking down when she hears him making kissing noises, all she can see is his lips. He's kissing his phone screen.
"Are you trying to kiss my fucking vagina?" Luna asks with a drunken laugh.
"Damn right I am." He grins.
"I fucking love you." She laughs again as she shakes her head.
"Not as much as I love you. Now put your fucking pants back on before I have to kill someone." He smirks.
Doing as she's told, Luna slips her shorts back on over her soaked panties. Staring at each other, both of their heads are dancing in ecstasy.
Luna and Colson sit on the phone for another 45mins just talking. About anything and everything as usual. Luna telling him about the choreographed performance. Colson chuckling, saying He'll Be Finding It On YouTube to Luna's Fuck. Agreeing to meet in Seattle tomorrow, they exchange sweet Love and I Miss Yous before hanging up.
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"Jesus fucking Christ, that girl can make me cum from ANYWHERE!" Colson thinks as he walks out of the bathroom contently.
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"Holy cock on a cracker...." Luna sighs to herself. "That fucking voice gets me every time...." She thinks as her heart throbs for her Lover.
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Still on the same continent, they both head back to their respected parties separately. Colson eventually moving his party to The Bus. Luna moving her's back to The Four Seasons.
He'll ride through the night while she'll fly out tomorrow. Bringing Dom and Ashley with her.
Even apart, they're still on each other's minds. Even with shows in different country codes, they still mange to fuck only each other.
Truly showcasing A Day In The Life of a LunaTic and Her Gunn.
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To be continued.....
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sunnyie-eve · 4 years
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Somebody To Love (Part 21- Band Back Together)*Finale*
(Ben!RogerTaylor)
Words: 3367
Wanings: None
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1984
"Jim, the phone. It's important." I say walking into his office and he picks it up as I walk into the office. I wait till he ends the call and looks at me. "They want Queen to play at Live Aid." He says and I look at him, "But Fred... Paul always answers the phone and never tell him." He nods his head, "I still need to try. It's for an important cause." I nod my head and leave his office since it was time to head home for me. "Good luck, Jim."
When I get home I see Roger and Felix passed out in the couch. "Love you boys." I give them a kiss and Felix wakes up, "Mommy." He smiles at me wanting me to pick him up so I do. "Are you hungry? Did Daddy feed you?" I ask him and he says he's hungry. "Roger! You didn't feed your son!" I shout waking him up "WHAT?" He asks jumping up. "You didn't feed your son." I slap him upside the head. "Right, I'm supposed to do that." He rubs his head. "You are so stupid." I say walking to the kitchen with Felix.
As weeks past Jim still can't get a hold of Fred about Live Aid and was starting to give up on Queen performing for it. I worked late with Jim for a second night fixing papers and so on. "Alice, I think you should get home it's getting really late." He takes the papers away from me as the phone starts to ring. "It's Mary, she wants to talk to you." He  says and I take the phone from him. "Hello Mary." I smile on the phone. "I had a terrible dream and I need to see and talk to Freddie about things. I really want you to come with me... tonight." She says and I nod my head, "If course I will." She thanks me, "I'll call a cab then come pick you up. Love you." She hangs up and I quickly get my things together. "What was that about?" Jim asks me. "Mary wants me to go somewhere with her. She coming to get me. "I need to tell Roger, I'll come home even later." I pick up the phone to call him.
When Mary get to the building she runs to me hugging me before we both run back to the car and we talk to each other on the way there. "Changing the topic, have you told anyone else that you're pregnant?" I ask her and she shakes her head. "Nope, just you still." Soon we get to Fred's and I tell her I'll wait in the car. "Good luck." She squeezes my hand going towards the house. As she was inside I see Paul show up with a bunch of people. "Oh I should get out and beat the shit out of him." I growl making the driver laugh. "Dislike him that much." He looks back at me. "You have no clue. He's made my life hell when working with the band." I smile at the man.
I see Mary coming back to the car and Fred following her. I jump out not caring about the rain opening the car door for her and give her a hug getting back in. Fred hold the door when she gets in, "I'm happy for you, Mary. I truly am. It's just... I'm frightened." He says to her. "You don't need to be. Because no matter what you are loved. By me, by Alice, by Brian, by Deaky, by Roger, your family." She tells him and I hold her hand. She tells him about how these people don't care about him and that Paul doesn't either. "You don't belong here, Freddie." I tell him and he looks at me now. "Come home." She tells him and he repeats her then nods his head before shutting the door. "You did well." I lay my head on her shoulders and she lays her head in mine.
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I was watching the interview with Paul on the television in my office talking about Freddie and it was pissing me off. At least Mary going to see him made him realize that Paul was shit all along. I shake my head going to Jimin's office trying to calm down. As I walk in he hangs up the phone and looks at me. "That was Fred." He says and I sit down shocked. "He wants to sit and talk with the boys to make up. He said they're family and after all family has fights at times. I told him they are still upset with him, but he asked me to tell him. I think you should go tell them and talk them into coming." He says and I nod my head. "Yeah. I'll talk the guys into coming." I leave his office and head home to call the rest of the guys over.
"Why are you inviting the guys over again?" Roger asks me as I pace around the room. "I can't tell you right now. Just wait till they both get here." I sit down on the couch waiting. Soon they show up and I tell them all to sit down on the couch. "What's the important thing you need to tell us?" Brian asked. "It's about Freddie." Just the mention of his name made Roger mad. "What about him?" Deaky asked. "He called Jim today and wants to talk to you guys." Roger shakes his head no. "I know you guys are still upset with him but you guys are family." All three still don't talk.
"QUITE ACTING LIKE YOUR KIDS AGE! You three are grown ass adults who are not wanting to talk to someone who is trying to make up for what he's done!" I snap at them and they start to listen better. "You're right, We should let him say what he has to say." Brian says and the other two agree after him. "Do you forgive him for what he said?" Roger asks me and I nod my head. "Yes, and I saw the look on his face when I went with Mary to go see him. He knows he has nothing and he misses us.... his family. Now excuse me, I need to call Jim and tell you you three agreed."
Today the guys where meeting Freddie and they said they were going to run late on purpose. "Alice, darling... I'm so sorry what what I said to you that day." Fred apologize to me. "It's alright, I forgive you Freddie." He shakes his head. "You shouldn't so easily though. I was so cruel to you and called you something you weren't." I smile and shake my head, "It's alright, sometimes people say things they don't mean." He smiles at me as me, him, and Jim wait for the rest.
There was a knock at the door and I get up to go answer it letting the boys in. "Hi guys." Jin says as Brian walks in first. "Jim." Brian says and Roger gives me a kiss then I shut the door after Deaky. Everyone takes a seat Ana I decide to stand behind Roger for when they take. "I'll start." Fred says, "I've been hideous. I know that and... I deserve your fury. I've been conceded, selfish. Well, an asshole, basically." Fred tells them. "Strong beginning." Roger says and I slightly hit him. "Look, I'm happy to strip off my shirt and flagellate myself before you. Or rather, I could ask you a simple question." Fred says and Roger speaks again, "I'm good with the flagellation." Fred sighs and I hit Roger again.
"What's it gonna take for you all to forgive me?" Fred asks the boys. "Is that what you want Freddie. I forgive you. Is that it? Can we go now?" Brian say to him. "No. I went to Munich. I hired a bunch of guys. I told them exactly what to do... the problem was... they did it. No pushback from Roger, none of your rewrites, none of his funny looks, and no Alice around to make me laugh or give me ideas." We all stay quiet before he continues, "I need you... and you need me. Let's face it. We're not bad for four aging queens. So um, go ahead. Name your terms." He says looking at all three of them then at me. "Could you give us a moment? Please Fred." Brian says and Fred leaves the room.
"Why did you do that?" Deaky asks him. "I just felt like it." Brian says and we chuckle. "Well I leave you to it." Jim gets up to leave and I was going to follow but Roger holds me back, "Nope, you're part of this discussion too." I nod my head and go sit between Bri and Deaky. "What you guys say?" I ask them. "You were right when you called us over. He misses us and we're all family." Brian says and the other two agree with a head nod. "I'll call him back in." Deaky gets up going to the door. "You can come back in now, if you like." He smiles and I go stand by Jim's desk.
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"We decided... What did we decide?" Roger looks at the other two. "From now on every song, no matter who wrote it, music, lyrics, it's by Queen. Not one of us, just Queen. All the money, all the credit, split four ways evenly." Deaky tells him and Fred agrees. "We have a problem with the people around you." Roger adds. "Paul is out. I fired him." And Deaky asks in what pertext and his response was villainy which I smile at. "Wha else?" Fred asks. "Bob Geldof." I say and Jim continues, "I called to convince him to squeeze you into the line up for Live Aid concert but he wants an answer now." He says and I finish, "You need to make a decision. Every ticket is sold. 100,00 at Wembley, 100,000 at JFK Stadium in Philadelphia, a global TV audience around the world of 150 countries, 13 satellites. The Olympic only had three." I explain to the band.
"We haven't played together in years. It would be suicidal for the first time in front of millions." Roger says. Brian starts to go on about how they are dinosaurs and then Jim names off everyone big and old who is playing. Fred begs the band to do it and they all agree in the end. "You did well with explaining to the band about how big this Live Aid Concert is." Jim congrats me and I smile as Roger walks over to me as the group leaves. "Ready to head home and pick up Felix?" He kiss my head, "Yeah, Bye Jim." He smiles at me," Bye Alice and Roger."
"Did you know about the whole Paul being gone? I saw you smile at that part." Roger asks me as we get in the lift. "Yeah, I saw Paul talking about Freddie in an interview about how he's not the same anymore." He nod his head. "I love you." I give him a kiss, "I love you too."
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At the moment the guys were practicing for Live Aid and Freddie was having trouble singing. Deaky stops playing and Freddie agrees calls it quits for the day since his throat was hurting him. "Well still got a week." Roger says walking over to me so I slide off the piano meeting him halfway. "Just need a little more practice." I says wrapping my arm around Roger. "Get a drink Taylor's?" Deaky asks us. "Yeah, there's a nice little pub down the road actually." Roger answers him before I could say something. "Can I come?" Brian asks making the guys joke about how you have to be invited while I shake my head at them.
"Before you leave, Could I have a second?" Fred turns to us. "Yeah. What's up?" Roger asks holding me in his arms. "I got it." Fred says and we are all a little confused but deep down I had a feeling that I didn't want to believe. "Got what?" Deaky asks making Fred say ADIS like I didn't want to hear. "I wanted you to hear it from me." He says making me heart break. "Fred, I'm so sorry." Brian says and he stops him. "For right now it's between us. So please, If any of you fuss about it or frown about it, or even worse of all of you bore me with your sympathy that's just seconds wasted." I get out of Rogers loss arms to get next to him since Deaky started to tear up and I couldn't help it either.
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"Freddie fucking Mercury." Freddie says as I squeeze John's hand as tears fell down his face and so did my so he squeezed back. "You're a legend, Fred." Roger tells him as I let go of Deaky to hold onto Roger's right arm. "Actually Wembley doesn't have a roof." Deaky tells Freddie after our little laugh. "Then we'll punch a hole in the sky." He says before we all have a group hug. "Even though you are crying like three little girls well like Alice dear. I still love you." We all nod our heads and they talk about going to get a drink now. "I should head out... Get Felix from my brother's." I say making them look at me. "No, come out for a drink with us." Fred says and I shake my head. "I really can't." Roger pulls me close to him. "We all need one after the talk. Just one at least darling." I sigh since I can't find away out of it. "Alright, I'll come."
When we get to the pub Roger orders me a drink but I also order a water so when they brought us our drinks I pick up the water instead. "Why aren't you drink love?" Fred asks me. "I'm really not in the mood to drink right now. Not feeling very well." I slightly lie since I haven't told anyone but Mary that I was pregnant again. "Are you getting sick?" Roger asks worried. "Oh no, just work up with a headache this morning that's all." I smile and we all cheer, "For the better."
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Day Of Live Aid 1985
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"Stop worrying Roger! You guys are going to do great!" I shout trying to get Roger to stop complaining about how what if's. "But what of..." I slap my hand over his mouth "Baby tell Daddy Mama is right please." I ask Felix as we drive him to my parents place. "Daddy mommy is always right so listen to her." He says in the backseat. "Well if you say she's right then I should listen." Roger smiles. "Why do I gave to go to Meme and Papa? Why can't I come watch you play live?" He sadly asks so I turn around to explain to him but Roger cuts me off. "Is that what you want? To come watch daddy preform?" Felix nods his head, "Yes, I want to see it live with mommy there not through the Telly." He pouts and Roger looks at him through the mirror. "Felix listen here buddy. You have to say by mama's side the whole time. No running off." Roger says making me surprised since it was his idea to take him to my parents. "YES DADDY!" He claps his hands.
When we get there I waited for the time Mary said she'll be arriving so I could walk her to the trailer. "Come on Felix, we need to go get Aunt Mary." I says and he grabs my hand following me. "Hello Mary, Hello David." I smile when I see them. "Hello and Felix is getting so big." Mary bends down to give him a hug. "Have you told Roger yet?" She asks me raising an eyebrow. "Not yet. I want to surprise him." I pick up Felix as we walk towards the band. When we get there Mary knocks on the door and Jim opens it and I squeeze pass and Felix goes sits on Roger. Fred sends Jim with Mary and David and Roger tries to do the same with me, "Fine I'll Roger." I laugh as Felix comes back to me. "Good luck have fun!" I give the fast hugs but give Roger a kiss. "Watch Daddy." Roger kisses Felix and I go find a spot to watch.
"Excuse me? Can I climb up there to watch?" I ask a crew member working and he looks at me like I was crazy. "You want to watch from up there with the two workers?" He asks. "That's exactly what I want. You see I want my son to have a very good view of his father playing the drums." I smile and he nod a his head quickly. "Of course Mrs Taylor." I'll help get a latter too. He says and they get one for us. "Excuse me? Can you gentlemen help me get him up there?" I ask the two young men and the help Felix up there then we sit with them. "I'd say theses are the best seats." One says and Felix agrees. "I can see daddy's drums perfectly." He claps his hands sitting on my lap. "Oh you're Rogers wife and son? Nice to meet you." They smile at me.
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As the guys come out I point out Roger for Felix to see him. "DADDY!" Felix screams at the top of his lungs making Roger look around and a crew member points up at us making Roger wave at us. Roger smiles at us but also shakes his head laughing probably at my idea of being up here. As Bohemian Rhapsody starts to play Felix sings along, "Mama, just killed a man." I start to sing along too and when Roger starts to play the drums Felix claps his hands together. "When are you going to tell Daddy mama? About me being a big brother?" He turns his head to look at me. "Once they are done.
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During Radio Ga Ga Felix would sing along to the parts he knew and did the clap along with the crowd. "Eh-ho!" Felix repeats after Freddie. When I knew we are the champions was coming up I got help getting down and they helped me with Felix too. "Look at you brave boy! Let's go stand with a Aunt Mary now." I hold his hand as we walk over to her. "Good view?" She smiles as we walk up to her, David, and Jim. "YES!" Felix yells as I pick him up to hold him. While I sing along to the song swaying side to side Felix wraps his arms around my neck. "Mommy why are you crying?" He gives me a kiss. "I'm happy right now." I kiss him back and continue to sing till it was over. "Let's go wait for Daddy." I put him down and walk back for when they come off stage.
When Roger sees me he runs over to us picking up Felix and pulls me into his side. "I love you both so so much." He gives us both a kiss. "Mama can I tell him?" Felix asks making Roger look at me confused and with just a head nod Felix makes Roger start to cry. "I'm going to be the best big brother ever. I promise daddy." Roger looks at me while I just smile at him. He puts Felix down holding both of my hands. "Wait, you're pregnant again?" I nod my head making him pick me up. "YES!!!! I HOPE I'TS A GIRL THIS TIME SO I CAN SPOILE MY PRINCESS!" He gives me ton of kisses. "And as for you buddy... You are going to be the best big brother ever." He picks Felix up again. "You three and Queen are my world." He hugs to both of us. "I love you Roger Taylor." I give him a kiss. "I love you too Alice Taylor." He kisses me back.
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