#but i don't know for what jobs to apply

[ourflagmeansgayrights]

hey guys remember like a few days ago when a good chunk of this fandom thought ed and stede weren't going to reunite until like the very end of the season, or at least that they were going to spend a big chunk of the season separated? and then the full trailer dropped and suddenly we got all this footage of them in the same frame interacting and everyone realized how unlikely those predictions are??? and how literally just a tiny bit more detail changed everyone's perspective on things?????

anyway yeah maybe we need to all think abt that for a minute and like. rethink the way we're treating certain theoretical s2 plot points as if they're a given.

#ofmd #our flag means death #ofmd s2 #ofmd season 2 #ofmd s2 spoilers #if u squint idk #txt #mine #og #this applies to a lot of things i've seen ppl in the fandom saying #but right now specifically it's abt the stupid canyon kool-aid comment #like for one thing. have some fucking faith that the writers will do a good job with izzy no matter what his arc is #(this is me saying i have no problem with an izzy redemption arc in case that isnt clear) #and secondly: y'all. we literally do not know the context of anything in the trailer. #we are all just spitballing our predictions right now #like i've seen a LOT of izzy fans taking victory laps abt izzy getting redeemed in s2 #and like i said idc if he gets redeemed i'll eat up literally anything the writers want to give me #but for the sake of izzy fans i almost hope theyre right #bc there is a nonzero chance his “belonging” line is taken out of context and doesnt mean what we think it means #like. we don't know. we literally just don't know. #i'm gonna enjoy whatever happens but like i seriously hope nobody's gonna be heartbroken if izzy just gets worse

[savage-rhi]

Magenta.

#i lost my job #even though they're not saying its because of my disability it is because of it #I've been applying to places and some of the safety nets i had fell through #im scared right now and feel very betrayed #i got enough to get me through the month but beyond that idk what to do #i have resources im looking into and as most know that doesn't put a dent into finances #i need help #i feel bad for asking and i know i preach people shouldnt feel ashamed #but i do get where folks are coming from with that #the shame is powerful especially when you pride yourself as someone that takes care of themselves #im open to ideas opinions whatever folks want to say #i haven't felt this triggered ptsd wise in a long time past homeless experience and work abuse has been creeping in #I'm trying to get to the good but its really hard seeing it right now after getting screwed for the millionth time #for something i can't control with my body #i guess on a good note that partnership meeting went well #it seems like an excellent opportunity but its also an investment and i don't have the means to put into that right now

[wolves-in-the-world]

thinking about how the one time eliot masterminds something, it's because the circumstances are dire and we don't actually see it happen; how he says he plays chess and nate believes him but we don't ever see it or hear about it again; how we don't even see his most basic fighting skills until they're needed and he has to drop the cerebral and nonthreatening grift he was using in front of the team. and I don't know what to think except that in some ways he's just as secretive as parker is, we just don't see it because on top of that he's this very believable gruff-but-sorta-amiable person who meets up with his vet buddies and goes on dates and cooks for his team.

#not heading anywhere particular with this just. #with parker we see the warehouse and the multiple addresses and it's all shown to us in a way to draw attention to her caution #and how much she trusts the team regardless by letting sophie figure out the combination #and we have to assume that eliot has safehouses too but the show never even flirts with the idea of showing us. #he's secretive in a way the story allows and glosses over. #the difference between him and parker is that he pretends hard to be normal and she either can't or doesn't. #once again reminded of the ship dynamic 'there is something wrong with you that is also wrong with me.' #like. I sort of love that we don't see eliot's discussion of the kidnapping. what he figured out and how they'll handle it etc. #because just like in the pilot it's including the viewers in his grift #and this time it's the grift he resorts to most around people who know his job #the one that says he's violent and simple and not especially bright. the one that leads people to underestimate him. #power negativity applied in the best way for a hitter's career. #it's a grift we see multiple times and we're only barely shown the edges of it. #I would still kind of love to see more. because once again #it is fascinating to me that you can watch the entire damn show and still believe the grift of it. #eliot #leverage #hi I've been ignoring tumblr to get writing done and I keep having thoughts. it's terrible.

[marvelann]

I had a day today

#not sims related #they gave me a special recognition at work #some dude from another department came around to tell me to apply for a job that looked too technical for me but actually wasn't #I drank too much after work #was a little bit inappropriate with my stupid boss who is too attractive and I don't know what to do about that #was a little bit autistic with my boss' boss #eventually decided I could ride a bike home #THAT WAS A MISTAKE #fucked my brow up on a fall and it bled way more than it hurt

[arsonist-chicken]

What if I just developed social skills to be able to actually make new friends in person and then used those skills to get a new phone number and pack my bags and run away to a place where no one knows me and all my past mistakes and fuckups and started over there without going into social isolation

#i needed to hand my expose in in february and got an email about it this weekend and agreed to hand it in on tuesday #it is now sunday evening and i just got another email about it but thinking about opening it makes me want to throw up #she's so nice and i don't want to see her scolding me for AGAIN not sticking to a deadline #what if she tells me that was the final deadline and i won't receive a grade for that class and so i won't be allowed to write my thesis #until next january? I wanted to graduate this autumn. it's april and i haven't even started on my thesis and i have like three bullet point #for the expose; and idek if I'll be able skillwise and mental health wise/adhd wise to actually write the stupid thesis #like what if i can't do it and then i've spent the last one and a half years on a degree i won't get in the end and then i won't be able to #apply to a lot of the jobs i thought actually looked good #@god give me some social butterfly skills and I'll give or throw most of my stuff i don't absolutely need away so i can just.. #go somewhere new. start over. and not become even more socially isolated than i already am. #does anyone know what a panic attack feels like because i'm having suspicions that i might have finally gotten them this year #but didn't recognise them as such because it could be worse #so anyway. god grant me some social friend making skills #if you can't do that at least throw in some adhd and depression treatment. i am sick of this. #and by this i mean the way i've been living my life at least since i left high school; probably even while still in high school #vent posts #mine #i love my online friends so much but i can't meet them outside to sit in the sun or chat about anything at all or go have coffee together #or or or you get me

[terrorbirb]

I'm bored at work so I'm seeing if I should report my old company for violating labor standards.

#totes bro #im so close but it is so obvious it would be me because i used to complain about this all the time #they dont inform their immigrant workers of their rights and so they dont like understand how their timecard works #and thr company advises them to take the least expensive insurance policy because they 'are healthy and don't need it' #but i know one couple wants fertility treatments but couldnt afford it because of that #they dont have the required posters #they also knowingly continue osha violations which i held a meeting over and was told this doesnt apply to us #which uhm it says it does on the Web site so i disagree #all of this is like why i left and what caused me to leave #and literally lying to me and another guy that we would get promotions for the work we did #and then they hired someone else to do the job making our promotions unnecessary and they were like hmmmm sorry #idk they like got a ton worse and i think the president got more reactionary which caused this #not sure how many of these count but thats not for me to decide anyway #oh and cleanliness standards but i actually fixed a lot of those..... fulfilling the role that promotion role that was promised #my coworkers here are like 'absolutely report the hell out of that place' because we do code violations lol #every time i say something they go 'that could be a violation :)' #they paid someone on a salary basis when they were under the salary pay and therefore should have gotten overtime

[rawliverandgoronspice]

Hello.

You and gay-jesus-probably have successfully made me question everything with your view that Tears of the Kingdom is imperialist propaganda, so that's been fun.

Anyway, I decided to share this discussion with the Zelda fans on reddit, and perhaps unsurprisingly, a lot of them disagreed. Here is what they said (I'm Alarming_Afternoon44):

So what do you think? Have I and all these other people just been duped by the game's manipulative framing? Or do they actually have a point?

And if you'd rather not answer this, or would prefer if I censored the usernames, just tell me and I'll delete this.

Hey! Thanks a lot for reaching out, and I'm glad it made you think stuff through!!

Honestly, as I mentioned in this post, I am not super interested about in-world conversations about who oppresses who, because what can be assessed from the game is super vague and more vibes-based than evidence-based. Within the text, of course that the Good Zonais are good and the Bad Ganondorf is bad! But that's my whole point! The narrative has been deliberately crafted so that the zonais and Rauru (and Hyrule) are as blameless as possible (and it's not doing a great job at it overall to be frank; we would not be having these conversations about how offputting it all feels for a non-zero number of people if it did do a great job). More importantly, I want to focus on what sort of real-life narrative it all parallels. Because people make stories, and people live in the real world.

Not going after everyone's throat here, gamedev is hard and the hydras that are AAA game production do end up doing super weird stuff, especially since the thematic ramifications are absolutely never prioritized (and it's also always the same kind of people who make the final calls and push out what can and can't be talked about also). And as fans, we tend to have trouble stepping outside the lens of lore and take a look at the bigger picture sometimes; not as an attack on any individual part of that decision-making process but to just pause, stop, and question our standards, our priorities and the kind of reality (or skewing of reality) the stories we tell each other reflect.

Again: do we want to take videogames seriously or not? If we do, then we need to accept they are a vehicle for ideology, just like any other artform. And sometimes, you push out questionable ideology, sometimes without meaning to, because you didn't unpack your own biases as you did. And it's even fine to do it, nobody is perfect, a 300+ people team spread over 6 years certainly will not be that. But that it wasn't prioritized is, in my opinion, a problem. As a narrative designer, I want games (at least the narrative side) to be held to a higher standard than this. It's literally my job to work with the industry so it can hold itself to higher standards of quality --so the whole TotK situation is quite frustrating to witness from a very pragmatic, work perspective where I already spend my days trying to convince people that things mean things. I have a vested interest here in not having the companies I work for being given a free pass by gamers to do literally whatever as long as it's fun, especially when we're talking about a billion-dollars company suing its own fans left and right for any perceived slight. Nintendo are not underdogs here. It's fine to point out they cut corners and maybe promoted messy ideologies, voluntarily or not.

So long story short: no I don't believe anyone here has a point in regards to what I think is actually important, which is why these choices were made in the first place. If you look at an imperialist text expecting the text to tell you that it's imperialist instead of recognizing a framing used for propaganda by yourself, you're never gonna find any imperialist text ever, obviously not!! I'm sorry if I sound a little gngngn here, but I don't know why audiences have, at large, this feeling that lore and story beat decisions materialize themselves already formed and without any human bias, meddling, intervention, internal politics or approximations (it seems that people can only conceptualize this part if they have actual names to attach to the story, but without clear authors it's like there are no authors and so no bias, which is... a very strange bias in itself). I can promise you that it does not work that way in practice: every narrative department on every big game is a battlefield --some nicer than others, but all of them very emotionally draining either way.

So yeah, I guess that on these grounds, I disagree with every point raised here. Sorry Reddit :/

But thank you for the ask and sorry if I didn't go more into details as to why. The big Why I Dislike Rauru Post and the Gerudo Post might have some more specific rebuttals, but I am not super interested in debating small detail stuff tbh. I feel like it's no use if the frame of reference isn't being understood in the first place.

#totk spoilers #totk #totk critical #thoughts #asks #yeah I just disagree with a lot of these in general but I just don't feel like going through them one by one sorry ;_; #feel like I'm starting to repeat myself #especially for a game I liked okay but will definitively not revisit in the long run #tho @ the last redditor: yes thank you for proving my point because do you actually know about afghanistan's recent history :)) #like... who funded the mujahideens' war not so long ago :))))) and for what purpose :))))))))) #everything said by that redditor is 100% far right propaganda it's not even a little bit anything else it's textbook applied imperialism #it's.... yeah how do you want to have these sorts of conversations when the real life parallels are unackowledged #I don't know it's just.... so frustrating to me that so many people have such a hard time to unpack external influences in media #or do not know how to pull apart thematic framings from in-world fluff #sorry if I sound a little dry but it's just... it's all a bit tiring honestly #I'm glad this made you reconsider things! or that you took the time to read stuff through even!! thank you!!! #and thanks for compiling the whole thing!! #I feel like it's a good way of showcasing well... the narrative doing a good job at defending itself #but not disputing that the entire framing is deeply flawed #at least in my opinion

[loumands]

There are literally 3 euros left on my bank account

#i should get tax refund and pay for my summer job this week i guess i'll survive #still stressful as hell though #i don't want to complain too much cause i know i'm privileged living in a country with a broad social security system #but it's also chaotic and bloated as fuck with a million different benefits and no one understanding how it works #my previous social security benefit ended in may so i had to apply for a new different one #but i needed a medical certificate for it and only had doctor's appointment last week #and getting the decision on that application takes time so meanwhile i applied for the last resort income support #but my application for that was rejected for unknown reasons and i complained about the decision but it's still in progress #so now i'm just waiting here with no money from anywhere whatsoever 🤷 #bro what they expect me to do #go begging from the church? go shoplifting? #if this post is incoherent to you i feel the same #keanu.txt

[kaesaaurelia]

My mom's spent a bunch of time arguing with me about how I should be a lawyer and I keep telling her I fucking hate arguing and conflict and the fact that I'm arguing at all is being used against me. :\

Also she keeps insisting I could do it because I'm sooo smart. There's thousands of lawyers out there who are dumber than me, that isn't the issue, the issue is do I have the temperament and how much more can my mental health take.

#kaesa op #venty post #i know there's kinds of law where you don't have to do confrontation but a lot of it is incredibly boring #I'd be banking on being fascinated by one of those limited areas of law #and I'd be spending a LOT of time and money and energy on it #and i barely have the energy to keep applying for jobs and occasionally feeding myself #like it is genuinely a fucking struggle #the past few years have been some of the roughest on my mental health and it feels like people are like “why don't you just try harder! #you're doing so great! #you had six interviews in twelve months and the economy is amazing!“ #and they get mad at me for feeling hopeless #meanwhile im asked to explain my resume gap #by people who want to pay me $20k less a year than what the Think Positive people claim i should be making #and they're like hmm it looks like you were unwilling to kill your grandmother to keep doing your shitty minimum wage job #people just don't want to work #id love to work but if you don't believe me id also love to take a vegetable peeler to your dick actually

[unloneliest]

the problem of the matter is i did internalize so much of what ex friend believed about me. even though i knew he was wrong and knew what was happening and tried to stop it and if i took more action to stop it would have been abusing power i held in a way i couldn't live with myself for.

#A BAD PERSON TRYING TO RUIN YOUR LIFE WOULD'VE GOTTEN YOU FIRED AND EVICTED IN WINTER IN ALASKA YOU MOTHERFUCKER. WHICH I DID NOT DO #he was renting a room from my dad. for cheaper than he wouldve been able to find anywhere else. his brother was too #his brother didn't pay rent for over 6 months and my dad just forgave him the debt because my dad knew how much of a difference it wouldve #made when he was that age. and i had told him ex friend was family to me & my dad applied that to the brother too. bc he is a good person. #and one of the strongest parts of my support system. and i didn't say a word to him about what was happening until i knew he already had a #plan for when he would be ending ex friend's lease. so there would be no subconscious impact on ex friend's housing either #mgmt at work straight up asked me if i thought ex friend should be fired immediately multiple times and i'm in retrospect livid they put me #in that position but told them to go by the strike system in the employee handbook and to follow policy that ex friend knew perfectly. that #it couldn't be on me as acting assistant manager to choose #and after 10 months of workplace harassment i got a different job to save my life. ex friend didn't get fired. #he did saw trap shit to my brain!!!!!! jesus christ #he moved cross country to live with his long time gf he called his wife despite never having met irl. to a way more conservative state. #despite being gay. and she left him this summer lol #hadn't checked his twitter in over a year when it got pulled up frm an old link and i saw that. and when he was already at a low point too #me voice. oh no who could've seen this coming. from how you behave in every relationship in your life #may delete this in the morning. but i have to talk about it sometimes #i'm never reaching out for closure both bc he wouldn't give me any and because i know it would trigger him and i don't intentionally trigge #people. unlike him :) #vampire pit #like. i have to talk about it sometimes. i have to talk about it. #jam posts

[lyxchen]

Guys (gn), how do I get my life under control again?

#look #i'm done with school now #and i don't really have anything to do right now #and my parents are like #why don't you get a job? #like a small job not a full time one #because i am going to uni next month #amd i'd love to get a small job #because then i'd have a bit more money and i think working can also be fun #but #it's just hard #like it feels like So Much #just to apply to stores #and nobody really taught me how to do that #cause school actually kinda sucks at prepating you for real life #and it just sounds really difficult #even though it probably isn't #and idk #i just don't know what to do about that #and now my mom had a Talk with me about that and that i should do more #like i don't even have any hobby where i move a little bit #but i'm procrastinating finding one #it all just feels like a lot #why can't stuff like that just be easy?? #lea's random thoughts

[the-jackals]

I hate to ask, but I need to make rent next week and I'm dry. Bone dry. I had to quit my job two weeks ago due to progressively worsening health conditions that I still don't have a diagnosis for. I'm waiting for several medical tests (full sleep panel at a clinic, an IV ultrasound among other things) and now that my doctor has retired I need to wait for another GP.

My boyfriend is physically disabled and on the spectrum and has not been able to work for several years. I've applied for welfare for the both of us, but we have to go to an in-person meeting AFTER rent is due.

Currently at $30/$852, which is the sum for rent and utilities.

I would appreciate reblogs as much as possible. Paypal @/ariel

I don't have Cashapp or anything else because I am french Canadian and they don't like that.

#personal #help #signal boost #rent #utilities #financial help #i'm doing the most i can i think #i applied for so many jobs the past several weeks #i honestly don't know what to do anymore #my family's losing patience with me #i'm tired of asking my friends to help #i don't know what to do anymore.

[jakeperalta]

literally how is it even legal for companies to give zero indication of salary on job listings I am incapable of going on indeed without feeling immediate rage over this

#I'm back in another scrolling job listings because I'm sick of my job phase #and it would be nice to at least know whether it's worth applying somewhere or if the pay is less than what i get now #i don't want to put the time and energy into something unfeasible for me #talking

[doberrrman]

I will die tomorrow

#text #waughgh *head in hands* #having my job interview tomorrow and I want to kill myself I can't do this man #like I have negative self esteem already but I got laid off at any job I applied to and at this point I don't even want to try anymore #because there's always someone who is more qualified than me and more convincing and not a stupid piece of shit #with adhd who can't do anything and is in pain every 5 minutes and has the memory of a goldfish. #I don't even know what to say I don't want to give it my best anymore I just want to die #not to mention the fucking jaw pain is kicking in again. not gonna sleep tonight I suppose :']

[hilsoncrater]

hey guys real quick what do i do in this situation:

over the past year, my bipolar i symptoms have been worsening. my therapist observed that every 3 months or so, i cycle between extreme lows and then "getting better"/hypomania. i have not yet had a full manic episode, though it's been close.

my psychiatrist suspended all care until i go to inpatient residential care. she says i'm unstable and require a higher form of care. the residential program is 30-45 days, depending on treatment progress. new psychiatrists within my insurance policy have a 3 month waiting list.

i've used up all sick time due to 1) mental health and 2) physical health. my PTO currently stands only at 20 hours. i'm ineligible for an unpaid LOA or even disability since i haven't yet worked a year at this current company.

i'm barely functioning as it is. i can't quit my job, because then i won't have health insurance, and therefore be unable to go to residential. but i can't go to residential anyways because i can't take off work for it.

according to my therapist, i can't heal in this current environment because i'm constantly retriggered. so i need to move, but i won't be able to afford to do that if i go inpatient because the deductible is 50% of my savings, and the other 50% would be used to cover bills since i'd be unpaid.

what do i do. like. what do i do?????

#do i move out and bootstrap the bipolar??? #i'm looking for roommates. this time without my dog because the living conditions in this city are fucking dire #and no one wants a roommate with a 95 lbs husky/malamute mix #also majority of roommates don't want someone who works remote. so. that's a thing #i've tried to move to germany but my oma wants me to land a job before i come over #which is fair & logical #so i've been applying and applying and applying but it's been nothing but rejections #my brain is frying. in the past month i've written 2 suicide notes & gone to the ER #i don't know what to do. i dont know a gameplan out of this