#but its fun and I like how its challenging in the fact that you arent told what you need to do

[justagaycryptid]

Man I really love Hollow Knight

#even though Hornet's second fight is absolutely kicking me in the ass rn #but its fun and I like how its challenging in the fact that you arent told what you need to do #you kinda have to figure it out for yourself #see #this time you can be exactly like the main character #because both of you are dropped into this world with exactly zero context and have to go and figure out just what the fuck happened here #I do wish I could kick around Zote like a soccer ball again though #hes so fucking annoying #ungrateful bastard #Im really excited to get into the Hive though #cuz from that one hidden area in the Kingdom's Edge where you can find the grub #it looks really cool #hollow knight

[randomdegu]

I completely and honestly dont mean some things said. I'm just pissed off and keeping it in is making things worse, the qsmp is amazing and everyone included in it is doing so well!! The admins are very good at what they are doing, and I hope they get all the credit they deserve <3

I'm just pissed off at the fact that the players arent given a chance to WIN. If you really look at the code its obvious that they are in creative mode, which means that the players are basically being told "hey I'm invincible and you cant do shit about what I'm going to do to your eggs, the things we know you're attached to". They arent given a chance to fight and win, which if you think about it is possible for it to stay difficult but also give some hope that they COULD win and hell even have them completely eradicate it, the binary entity dying in a cannon/lore situation would be awesome/satisfying plus giving the obro team more information. It's unfair and it will come to the point that everyone is getting to the point that it's no longer fun, the smp will slowly die out. I think the admins are doing well ofc, but all of them need to realize that it's not fun anymore. The binary entity was cool when phil and fit fought it because they could actually KILL it, but it was still challenging to fight it. Now that it's all powerful and is impossible to win against it's getting frustrating, I thought in the beginning that it was genuinely cool and it would be an amazing addition for lore! Now I am just done with it, I've seen how paranoid the CCs have gotten and the guilt when they cant win and someone dies. It's gone to far in my opinion, the qsmp team needs to seriously look at how the players and viewers react to the binary entity. Yes it's cool for lore, sure it's a challenge. BUT an IMPOSSIBLE one, keeping the eggs safe is now IMPOSSIBLE. I had to stop watching last night because I was so mad, I wasnt having fun like usual. I was just pissed off that the admins would do something like this, I'm still kinda mad at them.

On another note, the egg event is going to end horribly. Everyone is going to be so mad, hurt, or just done with continuing the qsmp. Its hurting the CCs in different ways, and us the viewers are also getting hurt with every single life that gets taken away. I love the eggs and I want them to stay of course, but it doesnt need to stop for the well being of the players. I actually got scared for bad when dapper died, and how angry phil was when tallulah lost a life? It's very scary, I hope the eggs will be fine but I really value the CCs more. The code entity just isnt the way it should go.

All in all, the binary entity needs to seriously have a huge change. The admins are doing a great job, but I'm still mad.

#degu complains #degu hates the binary entity even more #qsmp #fuck the binary entity #qsmp binary entity #qsmp spoilers

[liverpool-enjoyer]

random ask since i'm in a pokemon mood: have you played any rom hacks? if so, which ones are your favorites?

DAIHSAKAFFOOOOOOH V I CAN TALK ALL DAY ABT ROM HACKS!!! I AM CACKLING LIKE A MANIAC RN THIS IS MY CHANCE

okokok ik you asked abt rom hacks but im gonna include hacks AND fangames cause tbh i always put em in the same category (illegal pokemon games)

the best, most top tier, most BRILLIANT fangame of all time is a game by ekat n michael called pokemon ashen frost. bestie @frostbite-yinny can vouch for how amazing this game is. basically its a crime noir pokemon game that takes place in one huge ass city. you play as a detective with a swinub as a partner n the game is split into cases rather than gyms. my words arent enough to describe how high quality and genuis this game is. the story is deep n intricate n so beautifully told. n ohmygosh the SETTING. the city of riverview feels so,,, real. like i literally miss being there. the MUSIC too!!! its so jazzy n compliments the setting n story so well. n dont even get me STARTED on those CHARACTERS,,, you will get ATTATCHED. n i mean it. the end a the latest demo literally had me WEEPING. it features a talking protagonist which rlly helps you bond w the other characters. basically, ashen frost is a story abt people that takes place in the pokemon world, n thats what i adore abt it. i IMPLORE anyone who likes pokemon to play this game. im not saying that cause its my favorite, but bc to not play this game is literally a disservice to yourself. in fact i'll even give you a download link,,, here ya go

ahem. anywho. as for actual rom hacks, my favorite is easily pokemon fire red rocket edition. pokemon but you play as a member a team rocket!!! its such a breath a fresh air. a fun way to play through kanto, which is definitely needed seeing as most ppl have played through kanto 53629523 times. n the STORY??? goes HARD. theres a twist at the end that changes the way you see the story of red n blue. it takes the game from really great to fuckin BRILLIANT.

special shoutout to my first rom hack n the one that got me into all this,,, its a fire red hack by @shima-draws n its basically the story of fire red but your rival has a crush on you n flirts w you throughout the course a the game. my gateway drug n the reason i was able to play through kanto <3 her post abt it is here

another special special game is pokemon legends of the arena. another BRILLIANT n unique fangame that has you travelling the region while participating in a tournament rather than a gym challenge. amazing characters, a talking protagonist which is AWESOME, n an amazing soundtrack!!! the story is absolutely FANTASTIC too. n theres a breathtaking sidequest too. n theres like three different endings!!! which i love!! i got the true ending on the first try hehe ;))

i also cant help but love pokemon insurgence. as my first fangame i have a lotta nostalgia for it. look man, this ones FUN. its got super cool delta pokemon which are essentially regional forms before regional forms were regional forms. the story is a fun level of over the top n i love the inclusion of some a my favorite canon pokemon characters. also, this game made me cry. not bc a the story, but bc its fuckin HARD. n my ass was playing on NORMAL difficulty.

some other rom hacks ive played are pokemon gaia n pokemon glazed but tbh its been so long i dont remember much abt em,,, heh.

#if yall only take one thing from this let it be PLAY POKEMON ASHEN FROST!!! #Max Be Normal About Pokemon Challenge (IMPOSSIBLE!!!) #ty for the ask <3 #pokemon

[s0lar-ch3ri]

tell me all about dnd character(s) please i am begging

OMG OMG OMG OMG OKAY OKAY OKAY!!!!! HAGVJDFD GLADLY I WILL

I GOT A COUPLE SO LETS GET INTO THIS:

ohevet: first ever character! uses she/they i think (and if they didnt, they do now! update: JUST REMEMBERED, IT WAS HE/HIM FOR A CIS WOMAN! THROW OUT THE OTHER IDEA SORRY) and also my first aroace character. his name is a joke with that honestly, as ohevet is hebrew for love. i lost the stat sheet a bit back BUT im working on rewriting the stats so i can make an actual character of him! his backstory is kinda silly and i dont really remember it rn so ill also be redoing that shit for sure, but i do know one thing, he's cursed. with this marking on his face, hes able to get "Stackable Concussions" (which me and my dms came up with stat affection ideas but i do also wanna make my own for funzies, and i doubt either would mind if you also wanted to lol). by the end of the campaign, he had been like the only one to not try to seduce someone (my friend had gotten a nat 20 to seduce "mommy nature" so theres that) and had a stack of 10 concussions. how he was still standing is beyond me. did i fall for him? abso-fucking-lutely, i made him hot and wanted him carnially and yet hes aroace so what can my gay ass do? (fun fact: one of my dms is my now girlfriend!) btw before i forget, mountain dwarf fighter, and had a lizard he took off the floor rather then pay for a pet, one of the players had its brother/cousin.

ivy: meant to be an npc for my campaign (which btw ill gladly talk about BUT MY PLAYERS CANNOT SEE THIS LOL ARCADIAN AND GAYWITCHNERD SKIP TO THE SECOND PARAGRAPH ON IVY), but a played character in my friend's (arcadian) campaign (arcadian was the one to try and seduce "mommy nature" btw). speaking of npc, the played character and npc have different stories, so we going with npcs rn! ivy (she/they/star pronouns lol) was meant to be a royal guard who did training and learning in the forests, but im thinking of making her a shop owner (eh, probs for out of dnd oc shit). while in the forest, she sorta fell for a nymph there which looks a lot like one of my players characters (agreed romance thing lol). while in town, i plan for her to sorta like fall for said player after bumping into them and shit. that being said, love wont be her only motivation! i do have some plot ideas i need to think up, but im pretty ready to connect shit in. also shes gonna have a dog familiar (my dog) just to involve her somehow lol. oh yeah she slso has gay moms

NOW WE TALK HER AS A PLAYED CHARACTER! in arcadians campaign, shes a half-elf druid like before, but her lesbian parents arent really too existant. (hey gaywitchnerd, i dont mind you reading this, but your character wouldnt know this info) due to issues with her planet, ivy has had her set of challenges, and is looking for strength in knowledge (literally). back home, theres some fucking secret thing there for some deity. on this route, its a pursuit of learning what the deity is. (another idea i had was that the swamp she once lived in is commonly disregarded, and due to anxiety she worried about it being forgotten and shit happening to it so she went looking for power to protect it) there are religions based around it, but ivy isnt exactly religous but still learning as much as she can about it. (fun fact for this one, but its related to the oc: i was planning for her to have BPD, but i wasnt sure how to play one so as a non-dnd character im gonna find ways to incorperate it, also she likes one of the pcs and an npc, the pc is my gfs one but i doubt they realise it lol)

hunter: like all my characters, i go into it with a basis, something i build around for them (ivy is an acception, she was just gonna be an npc), and hunters no different. since the campaign features 3-4 tabaxis (cant remember for sure), an undead, and other various magical people, i wanted to be just a regular guy, which i am! human fighter guy and all that, pretty normal (most extraordinary thing is that hes a magician)...except humans arent fucking normal here because its a tabaxi village. i fucking love that i didnt know this btw! CAUSE I DID NOT, NOR DID MY FRIENDS REALIZE. the story with this guy that i got is he was a traveling performer, one who used this bow tie made special by his fiancé, which works like the bandana chip uses. this however, got taken while traveling, and hes not willing to preform at a show or anything until he gets it back. for the tabaxi village hes disguised as a cat and his whip is his cat tail (this is to make up for the fact that im not a tabaxi with them all lol)! fun fact for him now: his original design was meant to look feminine and masculine to encapsulate my bigenderness in a character ("the most magical thing about them is their gender!"), but ended up feeling too extra for the "just a guy" vibe and got a total redesign lol (he/him cishet man btw, gonna be fun to try <- bigender afab)

techic: my newest campaign character (who i get to play again in 5 minutes, but by the time i finish writing this, we may have started already lol)! a genderfluid tiefling warlock, who worked as a cashier at a 8/12 before shit went down (its an apocalypse campaign). (update, it did actually, writing while we wait for players to arrive) the funny idea with this one? "what if they made a deal for surgery and just got more out of it?". not much on them rn so fun fact time! their mom is a pc (played by arcadian) and currently being locked in a closet cause they ate their zombified partner!

#answers from the aster caster #the rambler. #the (genderneutral) sons of this solar sun #dnd character #dnd ocs #SORRY THIS TOOK SO LONG! #kingdoms of chaos #in space chaos #the chaos plans

[single-malt-scotch]

ok so i am home from my vacation and i have only had time to watch bdubs' SL pov and hlf of cleo's rn. regardless wanted to ramble my thoughts on this session and fair warning it isnt gonna be super positive (the short: didnt really like it) so yeah.

reminder though i absolutely Love these people. i love how they play and theyre great and im watching first and foremost bc i like seeing them have fun. my issues lie in the series' mechanics, how it plays, the technical function, management etc.

the thing about watching one pov is i feel like it can also spell out other issues but i will get to that later

obviously the big thing. the "infection" task. listen.... the concept of a boogeyman infection by itself is cool! i like that! but.... not here?????? out of all series.

there is no regen, and this fact is conflicting to me because i feel like the boogey should be struggling against those theyre trying to infect, and minecraft's regen would be that struggle, like it has been for every past boogey chasing their targets.

you have to kill everyone not red? not red???? so like 90% of the server? insane.

this was an EASY TASK........... this pisses me more on what this season's rules have been implied to be. suddenly, they arent really making sense. i will go into this deeper.

this just doesnt seem like the right place to plant this task. it is hugely impactful and feels like it is happening for no reason. if they were going on like 10+ episodes and grian was formally like "well, secret keeper wants this wrapped up so lets see what task hes gonna give all of us!" and then boom, this is it. then cool. make up a proper excuse like wrapping up the season.

it was too much of a shocker, unprepared for, and with how intense it is by needing to kill everyone left it feeling very unfair to the people i was watching. Bdubs had just died previously and now lost all his hearts in one session because of the force of another task. as did many others. if there was to even be any slight alteration to more "fairness" it could have been "the one you killed is now boogey. hand them the book and make them kill someone by themself. you are no longer infected. you cannot kill the person who killed you." or something idk. every part of the server going after one person is way too much.

regarding rules and whatnot, i was already kind of annoyed by this previous session too. there are two tasks now that have me going "how tf is this "easy"?" Bdubs' task of chicken causing damage-- an amount that had to go as high as anyone could stand it-- seems way too harsh as an easy task. there were a few tasks where health could be lost, but none of it was deliberate "lose as much as possible". losing the same amount of health as another player (like grian and joel) is not the same as telling the player they basically need to lose as much as possible compared to someone else in order to win the challenge. grian and etho's hard tasks took a lot of damage (to others mostly lol) but it was a destructive hard task. bdubs' with the dragon was as well.

but gem's task especially... i mean, holy crap. that is a red life's task, or a hard task at most! even if i liked the whole thing i think id still be on the page of saying that is not an "easy" task. a red life getting this task would have been interesting too because it would put a ton of risk on them to survive and get it done. and sure, theyd get some allies in the infected but theyd still be a target in the fights. that would have been tense for them!

cancelling out all of the others' tasks when they were infected made sense but it totally changed the direction of people's videos. it forced them to be different to everyone. suddenly the first quarter or half of the video is just void and pointless. when the tasks basically direct their entire motive and how they act towards everyone, forcing them into big choices they cannot change, i think its bad. social tasks that pass off as kind normal are funny (etho's weeping angel, get scar to talk abt star wars, compliment ppl when they take damage etc), or outward and confusing but not character controlling ones (kill the dragon, connect your base to others, etc). ones that direct a player so strongly shouldnt ruin their interactions with everyone else either (playing tag-- took up a lot of time but players were "neutral" to everyone and carried on as normal).

some people were saying this task could be to speed up the series. im not really sure abt that. regardless i am sure they thought this would just be an interesting thing to do and thats why they did it. (i have seen martyn on here sometimes talking vaguely abt tasks being random and whatnot and no offense to him but it doesnt sound like at all he does have all the information to knowing this. i mean, why would he? hes a player. the admins are doing things he has no clue about. hes not even firmly stating anything. hes just saying what he knows, which i dont think is at all everything the admins are doing in front of them). i have seen this series play with many balance issues through its lifetime and i think this season esp shows a lot of that again. grian stated around one season how theres no play testing really. the admins might run some stuff i guess but theyre not testing much. and thats very obvious when limlife had that issue of deaths not showing in chat (and hey look, it happened again!) or boogey kills in LL and LimLife (along with normal kills in Lim) not being detected by means that were not direct (mechanically this just happens, you cant fix it. but they did not prepare to deal with this at all and it was chaotic to watch in Limlife and caused a lot of confusion on who got time).

i have repeating some of these things about SL already so i dont want to drone on again. i have been kinda neutral to SL because many eps were fine, i didnt love every task (personally didnt like etho getting so many "out of character" ones, like please give this man a break he is so socially awkward its hard to watch). but this session and last session have me not enjoying the task concept.

from the start i just wished this season was about not being able to regen hearts and thats it. i need something simple, dude. its getting convoluted. and its obvious with the amount of hall monitoring and the amount of talk the cc have in these videos telling hall monitors to stop, to explain successes or failures, etc etc. they should have to do that. limlife already had some ppl getting picky about who got time or not but this is even more subjective and confusing!! im sure theyre still having fun and i like seeing them having fun here but as a viewer im just seeing a concept that has too much going on, stuff that doesnt have a simple yes or no answer sometimes and i dont think thats good for a series like this, one that started out so incredibly simple and straight forward.

#sorry no tags bc i dont want ppl here

[archer3-13]

sat down recently to power through pokemon violet [laptop was in for repairs].

i think so many months out from its release and with a lot of the buzz around it died down i can settle on a lot more coherent of an opinion on it. and that opinion is that scarlet and violet are at their best when its doing things to actually encourage exploration of the environment. theres some really fascinating lil mini areas here and there with a solid atmosphere one can just indulge in as they scrounge in the dirt for interesting pokemon.

it certainly makes battles more tedious then ever however since without the constrained angles and forced camera perspectives of the pocket battle dimension the spectacle doesnt hit that hard and without that spectacle how much time each battle takes up becomes ever more rapidly apparent from playing out animations to loading up battles [its not quite that bad but it is noticeably longer compared to the 'hayday' of pokemons inception where battles load in split seconds]. it breaks up the pace too much effectively.

and the performance does bite it quite badly in certain spots regardless of what ya do, which does unavoidably hamper things.

as for gameplay, well i haven't quite gotten to the very end of things i will note [for anyone who hasn't already figured this out anyways] that the most natural way of doing the whole thing is in my opinion just tackling whichever titan/don/gym is closest from your starting pick until ya hit a roadblock. the upgrades you aquire from doing so come at a natural pace that way as does the level curve.

as for each of the 'individual' [as i would honestly say the game was more so geared for doing everything at once] paths though

victory road: the easiest of the god damn paths and clearly geared towards being your first path/the most noob friendly. the last gym leader is nearly ten levels lower across all of his pokemon then the last titan or don. the gym challenges themselves range from insipidly easy, to this is literally just a gauntlet, to actually kinda fun and interesting [the normal gym challenge being the highlight honestly]. as for this crop of gym leaders can't say im a fan either, they arent bad they just dont elicit much interest from me.

legendary titans: the middle difficulty path where the only challenge is if your pokemon are leveled enough to not immediately die. if your at or just a lil below parity with em, the titan fights can be pretty fun but if your hitting well above their level they quickly become a joke. it needed something more then just the titan fights as the pokemon themselves are literally just out in the open and marked on your map even when they change positions. there needed to be some sort of minigame where ya wrangle them down before you can actually fight them, then we'd be getting somewhere.

operation starfall: the most difficult path, the dons tend to be higher level then the local gym leaders as noted before, and their god damn super cars are tougher then the titan pokemon on the whole even packing some nasty strategies behind them [with the best soundtrack for their fights by far compared to the other paths]. would be the highlight of things if not for the fact that the lead up to them is pretty boring and completely toothless. eri kicked my ass [in part because of my own lazy strategies and a team makeup that was particularly vulnerable to her] a couple of times but the slugfest with her goons was a leisurely stroll by comparison. i think operation starfall would have been a shineout example in the game [and possibly worth the price of admission alone] had the challenges before each don fight been both more varied and more challenging/active in participation. say with atticus ya have to sneak through his base like a ninja before ya can fight him, well with eri its a battle gauntlet with no rests against tough pokemon to mimic the 'mountain climb' the game has ya do.

and as for story

victory road: well im not thrilled on the gym leaders and the elite four ya get hints of before hand [i do appreciate seeing the elite four before challenging them atleast], i like nemona quite a lot as a rival striking the right balance of friendly but still competitive a lot of other friendly rivals completely miss the boat on. he enthusiasms just kinda infectious really. and the goku memes do help brighten my opinion on her. because they are absolutely true.

legendary titans: the most emotional i got was with arven and the dog, and i can fully admit thats because it speaks more to my own experiences then arvens strained relation with his dad. arven himself just feels a bit to awkwardly written for me to fully get onboard with myself, like i like him well enough but more so despite of the writing rather then because of it.

operation starfall: well the battles might have been the best, the story definitely feels the weakest and its frustrating to feel that way about it. like its clear what they wanna do there, what themes they wanna tackle about bullying and how it can be more complicated then adults make it out to be, and on not judging people on appearances or eccentric behaviour, themes that are good to teach kids in general, and all that. i dont even dislike the dons themselves. its just... i can feel the writers hand at work here demanding i feel sympathy for these people and that just makes me wanna dig my heels in on the matter and say 'no i will not blindly awe at the sap story your putting on here'. not helped by penny's motives for wanting to break up the thing she started feeling confused [though i can admit thats probably part of the point] but more importantly so underwritten. in fact she just feels the most underwritten of the three of them [arven, nemona and penny] in general which probably isn't helping the emotional impact of it.

might follow up on this once i polish the very ends of the game off.

#pokemon #pokemon scarlet and violet #im interested in what others thought on this #cause i dont keep up with pokemon opinions but this is nawing at me enough to ask

[dollar-store-sparklez]

man i dont wanna be that guy, but the skyblock wars thing on the legundo community server is so just. incredibly frustrating to play rn

like, disregarding my own wifi issues entirely, bc theyre a seperate ongoing problem, lapis is mostly composed of younger players and people with actual jobs and stuff, and then redstone has. every moderator except 1, and two of the best pvpers who literally like never log off.

im not gonna accuse mods of using mod perms to cheat, because i gen dont think they are, but speraking as someone who has experience on several servers being mod/build staff, it is functionally impossible to be without bias as a mob in a competitive setting, especially when its, yknow, every single mod except one versus a team mostly composed of 12 year olds. hell, one of our players is literally 8.

and. i mean it sucks. its not enjoyable to play anymore when the other team is making fun of us for things out of our control and the mods arent really doing anything about it bc its their teammates doing it. and then theres stuff like the cobble challenge, where their entire island was basically already stone brick from the start. im not saying its cause the mods knew that was gonna be the challenge, but i am saying im not ruling it out. and then we know the mods fly around occasionally, and yeah they tell us that its for actual mod purposes, and i believe them, but i also believe that if they were to notice some new builds or farms or whatever while they were they theyd 100% mention it to their team.

and again, even disregarding that, even if im just off my rocker and everything ive noticed as unfair and upsetting is just in my own brain, theres the fact that the other team is gonna listen and respect the members of the mod staff more bc they have a real, tangible power over them, where as random children just arent gonna listen to syl even if they were the one voted in to be the leader. they gonna listen to a mod, but not another player. thats a real, tangible advantage they have.

i dont wanna say the mods cant also play the game and have fun, because they can! its totally possible to do smth like this and still let them play! but they need to be split up evenly between the teams or is gonna cause the issues we're currently having. no one on lapis is having fun or wants to play anymore really. poor syl has cried on call. i dont really care how many times people say its just a game. youre saying that because your team is winning, your team is tacked, your team has all the good pvpers and moderators. if lapis was in the lead youd be upset and i know it, because wth this new base quest that just finished you went and whined to ecr because hyper used an existing base on your island to win the quest. he asked ecr and got an explicit yes, and dino and justin ran to ecr about it and now we each got half a point, basically voiding the quest.

im glad yall are havin fun because no one else is. lmao

#pandora speaks #legs if you see this #one im sorry for how bitter and angry i sound. its because im bitter and angry and im sick of dealing with it #im not mad at you or your moderators im mad that the teams are insanely imbalanced (no ones fault we picked teams blindly) and that #redstone has been really rude about it #yes it is just a game but if on team is gonna be like that its not fun for anyone anymore yknow? #and theres no point in a game if only a few people have fun #i cant imagine myself wanting to continue playing if justin and dino and gonan keep being like this #and if we do this again in the future i think the mods should be evenly distributed or not play at all #im not being mean jsut speaking from the pov of someone whos been a mod i know it can be hard to keep your mod knowledge away from your #player knowledge at time. it can and will plit out without you thinking occasionally even if youre the best at keeping your mouth shut ykno #like with the cobble quest #sighs. i know this is coming across like im a sore loser. but like. yknow what maybe i am. but if we're gonna have every possible #disadvantage thrown at us while they have every possible advantage gifted to them i think i have the right to be bitchy

[kirazdaha]

HAHAHAHA Every Turk Family has one of those names and unironically mine does too 🫡 Tell your mother thank you she is a very lovely lady

I know all of the artists you listed below because my dad blasts them on the radio everytime we go out... I call it old people music but hey I never said it was bad, they're awesome and I might have memorised some of the artist's songs from how much I listen to them... Barış Manço is a classic without a doubt! Fun fact my parents were able to go to his concert and got a signed picture with him I will always envy how lucky they were 😭 I love how women in the industry made the most iconic songs I hear them often in weddings too! Or clubs, even though I only went to one once I'm not very fond of them...

My questions were do you have any tips or inspiration with how you draw! I love your art and artstyle and it's honestly what I've been trying to achieve for a while, I can't believe I'm learning how to draw men because of a silly lawyer show it's a disease...

(We are just having a conversation at this point) (I feel like those people who speak out loud in public) (I hope you and anyone who's reading this is having a good day :) be kind to yourself and others everyone)

OH MY GOD i envy them too😭😭 also omg that sounds like heaven to me. the other day i went out partying and i felt sooo out of place because i only knew like 3 songs. omg it was so so bad.

hmmm tips and inspiration…. my number 1 tip would definitely be to look at a lot of other artists you like and analyze what exactly you like. and then try to emulate that in your own work. i try to look for inspiration everywhere - artists online, traditional artists, old masters, 3d artists, even theatre and poetry, etc. - doesnt mean that i am equally inspired by them all (because all these things at once sound so scary and big but they really arent!) but rather, i try to be open for anything and that helps me find inspiration :) 

ill try to explain my thoughts more under the cut because this got long:

for me for example, so far i only posted some art i made that was lined (which, i would say makes up maybe half of the art i draw - i mostly sketch and recently have been building up the courage to paint more) and one of my inspirations is meltow. i think if you go over and check out their art youll definitely see it lol. but also i love the clean look some comics have and my friends tell me my art looks like it belongs in a comic which, i guess yeah :) when it comes to colors and composition i LOVE this artists works. i still have a lot to learn and just looking at their works inspires me so much!!!

i will say i have ALWAYS struggled with lineart. its probably the worst thing in the world to me because it never feels right!!! i like lining on paper with harsh inks and stiff ink nibs that allow for like. very little variety in line weight, but i havent done that in over 3 years (i hope i can get back to that). but yes, something about lineart makes me feel so icky when i use any brush that reacts to the pressure you put on your tablet LOL i just hate it. ugh. i havent been able to work it out.

it was only in 2020 i think that i decided to try it out with a thick brush with some texture and no pen pressure. that probably was the first time i got actual lineart that (at the time) i liked done. and then later on, discovering that other artists are able to achieve beautiful drawings with similar brushes AND that lining with a very simple brush can feel so satisfying helped me evolve a lot! until 2022, i actually wasnt able to give my art the kind of finished look that i wanted. so what people consider my style is really just born out of my limits and working with them. that obviously doesnt mean that i dont try to challenge myself as much as i can. i do and i think everyone should! thats what makes art so fun

if theres any good advice i can give to a beginner itd probaaaaably be. okay this is difficult and i feel like im not really qualified for this. as a hobbyist much less so because a lot of the knowledge and skills i acquired was through an intuitive process (i could never stick with habits such as regular studies or warmups or whatever is meant to be good for you) which definitely isnt the most “productive” way but i mean it doesnt have to be. its just a hobby! you dont have to perfect art. but yes, i would definitely say dont stop drawing. youll always be your harshest critic and at the beginning, and especially if you begin at an older age because youve been training your eye your whole life but your drawing skills for only a relatively short time you will notice a lot of mistakes. and youll think you wont achieve the image you have in your head. and maybe you wont (because youll always strive for more and youll never really be satisfied as an artist bla bla) for a while. but you have to keep drawing! try out different strategies, find out how other artists draw, watch speedpaints, try out different papers and pencils, try everything that makes it more fun and keep going! it will all pay off!! 

in my eyes theres also no point in saying “i should wait till im better to draw this idea i have” because if inspiration strikes you you should use that. even though i still sometimes catch myself thinking like that. you can always redraw things later on!! if theres anything that will keep you drawing you should use that! like getting into shows and games that make me want to draw helps a ton LOL people are not joking when they say getting obsessed with one character is the quickest way to improve. i 100% agree!!! if you saw my first nachos you wouldnt even recognize him. not kidding wow this got long. thank you for the questions though!! i hope some of my rambling can help you. feel free to talk to me whenever!

[ithisatanytime]

DRESDEN ER

 in other less interesting news i watch a six hour long iceberg style video about columbine, bringing me up to speed with every single woman on this fucking website, i was just never all that fascinated by the story, even though embarrassingly the documentary bowling for columbine is probably more than a little responsible for my several years long stint as a leftist. i wanted to watch it because i assumed it would be fairly in depth and i wanted to see if any information presented would challenge my view on the shootings, which basically boil down to, there was a lot of over the top bullying at columbine but ultimately both shooters were just ethnically canaanite and acting on their natural satan given impulse to kill. klebold is the only one of the two shooters with confirmed jewish ancestery which he diminishes by saying hes only a quarter jewish on from his mothers side, but not only is this not how it works, its just not true, his mother is obviously more than half jewish but even if she were, if that half is her mothers side that makes her fully jewish as well as dylan, but its all beside the point because his father is among the most obviously jewish men i have ever layed eyes upon just look him up yourself if you think im embelleshing, not only that but klebold himself has strong jewish features that only typically manifest with high so called jew admixture. the other shooter doesnt have any confirmed jewish heritage whatsoever, but hes made fun of for his looks by other students frequently, even though if you just look at a picture of him a flattering one he appears at times quite handsome, so whats different about his looks what makes him stand out at all? he was mocked for being short, he has a fleshy upper lip, and a characteristically ratlike face, these are extremely jewish features on an otherwise pure white nordic looking person. there is some hubbub made about them being nazis, but even in their own tapes eric will mention that they like hitler, and klebold responds with “but im jewish” and jokingly eric harris acts surprised to this klebold adds “only a quarter!” its all played for laughs but a lot of people intentionally or otherwise ignore the clearly humorous nature of this exchange and pretend as though its to be taken literally that eric didnt know klebold was jewish despite mountains of evidence showing eric knew and they were obviously just joking. the two also frequently wore the communist hammer and sickle, and the only real nazi stuff in the entire six hour deep dive was them shouting things like “we like hitler” and “heil hitler” clearly they were just trying to be edgy though. but lets pretend they actually read mein kampf and believed in fascism or volk or whatever, they clearly didnt but lets just pretend, who fucking cares? i already wrote about this exact phenomena where these so called jews, who are alien to us inside, will have all kinds of different political views from both sides of the aisles, far leftist, authoritarian, far right, far left, but ultimately no matter how eloquently they describe the percieved political problems the solution is always the same, kill a bunch of random people! the right wing unabomber, the left wing tranny who recently shot up that christian school, in fact ive said before that if you look into the ancestory of most of these so called white (or even nonwhite in the case of elliot rodgers and a few others) you will find they were not white at all but so called jews. all the manifestos political or social posturing and philosophizing are just window dressing at best, for justifying what ulitmately they feel like they need to do, which is strike out randomly and violently. the phenomena of mass shootings arent nearly as murky a thing to understand as the media would have you believe, they are practical and racially motivated if even only on a subconscious level. here is a parable to try to illustrate whats going on.

  imagine there is a group of east asians who look ALMOST exactly like the chinese, with a few minor differences that a trained eye would eventually be able to pick up on with practice. lets call these people “wapanese” now suppose these wapanese while outwardly similar to the chinese were inwardly very different in temperament, more sexually forward and pervers, more inclined to violence, had their own religion and were very insular keeping to themselves and doing everything to remian a distinct racially and culturally pure people among the much larger and almost physically indistinguishable japanese population. suppose after centuries of the wapanese living among the chinese, you have wapanese kids in chinese schools who dont even KNOW that they are wapanese because culturally they were more or less raised chinese. but they arent chinese and those differences in temperament arent cultural but genetic in origin, so as much as these wapanese kids want to fit in, they just cant, and whats more they dont want to fit in, as perverse as the wapanese seem to the comparably reserved and cool chinese, the chinese seem boring and uptight to the wapanese, there are essential intrinsic differences in these two peoples that make creating meaningful relationships next to impossible for the wapanese living isolated amongst the much bigger chinese population. he might start to feel insane, why is he so different? is there something wrong with me? but these differences again are genetic he has no hope of changing really, eventually he starts to despise “Everyone” and come up with all kinds of gibberish as to why hes special and better and deserving of life while all his peers who reject him are actually in the wrong and deserve to die. when in reality neither party is in the wrong, the wapanese is just unknowingly completley cut off from his literal family (race is literally just family, there isnt a speck of metaphor in that statment it literally is just family they are synonymous) in tribal times, or any times really but well pretend this is just strictly relevant to tribal times because its less controversial, it would behoove a man in that situation to kill the rival tribe that hes surrounded by if hes at all able, and maybe take their women for his own. its not even madness that spurs these shootings, but cold hard evolutionary truth, tribalism. now the so called jews are a special murderous people in their own right and the wapanese metaphor really doesnt cover that but you get the picture, imagine being the only woman in a world full of men, only women arent a thing in this world so no one knows what to make of you, you are just a weird incomplete man, how isolating that would be, how that isolation would eventually turn to rage and hatred. its about being funedmentally different from your peers to the point you cant even begin to relate. 

 i also want to point out that eric was made fun of for being short, while dylan was made fun of for being tall... what gives? no one bullied ryan hemsworth for being tall im sure so why dylan? its because he wasnt just tall, he had an ugly rat like face and his arms and torso were in bad porportion to one another, remember what i said about so called jews varying from dwarves to giants and that ultimately what sets them apart isnt so much extreme height or lack thereof but a body (skeleton really) that is in some way in proportional disharmony. we were made in the image of our father, and our father is beautiful, they were made not in the image of their father, but in mockery of ours.

#youtube

[torchsart]

hey do u guys remember greyson? i forgot to post him for some reason im sorry man

facts below the cut but also. i have comms open

basic info

his birthday is march 28th!

he is korean-american

omnisexual with a stronger attraction toward men

full time livestreamer, primarily plays video games & interacts with his fanbase. mostly plays cozy games, horror games, rpgs, and tons of dating sims

adores bright, vibrant colors with preferences for red, yellow, and green, but dresses plainly when going outside to avoid standing out too much. always wears gloves

always has at least the top half of his face covered so no one knows what his eyes look like. collects masks and favors his calico mask

wanted to be a street magician as a kid and practiced sleight of hand for years, becoming extremely skilled at slipping items away from people without them noticing

upon performing in public for the first time, he discovered he likes sneaking away items much more than giving them back. he now uses his skills to nab small items and trinkets he finds interesting, usually things like family photos and random receipts

personality

excitable & energetic, but slacks off if its not something he has much interest in. reluctantly gets things done only by the power of complaining the whole time. mischievous, likes bending rules and finding loopholes

commits to the bit hard, to the point jokes & real facts about him blur together. once did a livestream claiming to be drinking chocolate milk for the first time. there are wikis and discussions dedicated to separating bits from facts

has a running bit where he presents stolen goods under the guise of playing a thief whos really bad at lying. this is his most obvious bit, so no one knows he actually did steal most of the things he shows off

thinks dantes is justified in fighting ppl if they dont have the self control to just Not get into petty fistfights (is it Really that hard Not to fight strangers?)

biggest love language is touch! if hes fond of someone he Will find a way to be in physical contact with them, whether its a hug, hand on the shoulder, or standing awkwardly close

he also likes giving gifts & spending time with his loved ones whenever possible :)

hobbies & interests

loves coffee but needs it heavily flavored with various sweet syrups. prefers to make it at home. has tried and doesnt like dantes teas

often shoplifts despite having enough money for most things he wants & makes a game out of seeing what the most absurd thing he can walk out with is. has managed to steal a watermelon with a baby stroller

builds his own pcs! likes watching tech restoration videos & learning how to take apart consoles for repair

not a speedrunner himself but loves watching them, fascinated by game bugs & glitches & how speedrunners work with or around them

notably does not like particularly challenging games. hates getting stuck on parts in case the audience gets bored & prefers games that dont require much focus so he can engage with chat. difficult games simply arent fun for him

this is the kinda guy you can buy any cat related thing for & he will absolutely love it. doesnt even matter if its a cat themed item for him or smth For his cat, hes ecstatic

any games made by huge corporations are pirated but he loves supporting small devs 👍

misc trivia

besties & housemates with dante! roots for him in his fights & thinks hes very interesting

trying to get dante into gaming, has only gotten him to play monster prom Once (dantes fav was damien)

loves to annoy dante, especially by sending him memes at work (dante secretly appreciates it)

has a rescue calico named "oh my goshua" but calls him gosh for short

fav monprom date is scott howl

fav ac villagers are ribbot & stitches

cant decide if he likes redd the fox or hates him

fav slime rancher slimes are tabby & lucky

fav pokemon are nickit & purrloin

wants to adopt alistair & arven

simps for raihan, wulfric, grusha, & several others

fav stardew bachelors are sebastian & harvey

#oc art #masked oc #oc ref sheet #digital art #artists on tumblr #dude is it even worth tagging these #torchs art #oc: greyson #id in alt text #jul 2023 #<- date of art being made. this has been neglected for a While #my ocs

[victorhu-gone]

That whole chunk in the brick where Georges Pontmercy dies before Marius comes to see him (and learns through his research, and our boy Mabeuf, to love him) is absolutely heart-wrenching and Victor Hugo is a monster for making us go through that with him. Learning to love someone after they're gone is an awful experience in many ways because they aren't there to know and you don't even have good shared memories of them. In Marius' case he didn't even know him, hadn't really even seen him. I hope they do it justice and I hope we all weep like toddlers.

#bbc les mis #les mis #it reminds me of tell the wolves im home by carol rifka brunt #no spoilers but its about a girl whose uncle died of an aids related illness and who slowly learns to love ~someone~ and its tragic #and beautiful #its also about the ways different people grieve which is nice it always feels like there is one specific way society will allow you to #mourn someone and that just isnt how it works you arent broken or bad for not feeling what youre told youre going to feel #people and relationships are complex and people need room to grieve in whatever safe way works for them #the fact that there seems to be a timer in it after which you are no longer allowed to be upset is fucked up man #though victorian mourning is very cool and should in some ways be revived itd be interesting and challenge the #disconnect we all have with death now we dont perosnally care for the bodies and instead hand thrm over to professionals #fun fact unless youre being shipped somewhere you dont actually have to be embalmed they just hope you dont know its not needed #also theyll charge you more for sealed caskets but my dudes you still decompose its all a ruse because the general public #like to think of dead relatives being pristine and beautiful and not decomposing #this #turned into a lecture about death culture do people read tags i apologise #oh also a dead body doesnt pose any threat to you theyre kinda gross but you wont catch anything #i mean dont like lick them but you can safely keep them in your home for a day or two to give you time to come to terms with it #a lot of people like to wash and dress thr body themselves like we used to before yhe civil war made embalming popular #but yeah #uh #sad pontmercy feels #moi

[pasteldaze]

Hi! Can I request a Popular Crush!Shinsou who has been more distant lately with you coming to your aid and calling you his girlfriend after your (fake) friends degrade you at a event of sorts (basically having called out every one of your insecurities, saying no one would ever be with you “why would you even bother with Shinso he’s been avoiding your annoying ass” sort of thing).

So Shinsou comes in to save ur ass, gives them a verbal lashing and takes you out of there to comfort you and give you a proper confession ? sorry if it’s too detailed/complicated/confusing lmaoo

Hi, thank you so much for requesting and sorry for the long wait, I hope you enjoy it, it isn't proofread at all so apologies for any spelling or grammar Mistakes. Have a lovely day and drink water

Popular Shinsou X G/N Reader

Being in love with your best friend has its challenges, especially when he's so popular and you... Well you aren't. Shinsou, one of the most popular students in 3A and you, a support student, were childhood best friends, you used to do everything together. Well that was until he made it into the hero course and became popular... Too popular to hang around you too much. Its not like he stopped caring about you, he's just... busy. But it still hurts when he brushes you off so easily for training or to hang with his new friends.

When he left, it was just you, well that is until a group of girls started inviting you to their sleepovers and parties. You hardly ever go but when you do, they make fun of the things you say/do and how you look, you convince yourself that they're just joking arounf but deep down you know that they don't really value you, not when they all have eachother.

Its another day after school, the girls are going shopping and have invited you out with them, after an hour of waiting to see if Shinsou will show up to your coffee/study session and him not showing, you text him that you're going to be off with them and go to meet up with them instead.

"Oh Hey Y/N what happened to meeting up with Shinsou" Girl No1 asks, looking almost smug. "Oh he was busy I guess" you mutter. "Oh I get it, I mean if I was in the hero course I would avoid you like the plague too" she says making the whole group laugh. "he's not avoiding me, he just has a life outside of me".

"You do realise that now he's in the hero course, you'll never have a chance with him, I mean you might have had a chance before when you were around him all day to wear him down but now that you don't see him as much, he'll realise how ugly and annoying you really are" she sneers at you.

"she's right you know" Girl No2 stated while 3,4 & 5 agree. "Yeah You're probably rig-" You are interrupted by an arm around your shoulder "Oh Hey babe, there you are, I've been looking around everywhere for you" the unmistakable voice of Shinsou says. "Shinsou?" you ask confused "Sorry I was late my love, I was buying these flowers for you" He hands you the flowers.

He turns to the nasty girls "I heard what you said about my partner, please never regard them in such a way, I love them very much and they are beautiful, I do not find them annoying and the fact that you think that shows that you do not know them nor me" He rants, giving them a harsh glare "come on babe, let's go to the cat cafe around the corner" He says, leading you away.

"Thank you for defending me, but you didn't have to, I know its not true" you say moving away from him. "And where did you get the flowers from?" you ask, looking down at the brightly coloured arrangement. "First of all it is true, second of all, I got them for you and third of all, why do you hang around those awful people" He asks leading you into the cafe and ordering you a drink.

"Well when you left, people no longer wanted to be around me because I wasn't as interesting or cool but then suddenly they started to have me around and sure they arent the nicest but at least its someone to be around" you say petting a random cat.

Shinsou reaches over and grabs your hand "I know I've been busy and I'm sorry if I'm pushing you away I'm just trying to be the best I can be" You cut him off "and I don't want to get in the way of that, I know I can be a lot and I'm kind of clingy, so I try to give you space so you won't hate me" you pour your emotions out.

"I could never hate you, I'm actually in love with you, I have been for a while but I never found the right time to tell you, I guess now is the right time" He confesses and you look up startled "You... You're in love with me?" you ask shocked. "yes and if you will be my partner... For real this time, I promise that I will make you the happiest person ever and I promise I will always make time for you... But I understand if you don't feel the same".

You lean over the table and cut him off with a kiss. His eyes widen but he quickly adjusts and kisses you back, a hand on your cheek and a hand in your hair. You pull apart for some air. "of course I'll be your partner, I love you too Shinsou" and you guys spend the rest of your date together in the cat cafe.

#pasteltalks #bnha #Shinsou X reader #Shinsou #My hero academia #Shinsou X y/n #Shinsou X you

[total-ass]

we don't criticize tda enough. so many characters were de-railed and people ignore it because of Lindsay's development.

for starters I don't think tdi Gwen wouldve dumped Trent over his mental health. she didn't communicate well with him in tdi but after all they went through in tdi I refuse to believe she'd dump him cuz he was throwing challenges.

Trent was also wrote poorly. Nothing that hasn't already been said.

Leshawna wasn't really derailed but everyone but heather turning on her and for what? Being annoyed by the people she's been isolated with for 2+ months??

they made Beth WORSE?? I don't get how?? she says shes nice but shes just rude??

Izzy was fine. but the way she was voted off by justin was just poor writing. "wow Justin manipulated lindsay and beth into voting off izzy!!!" how?? Beth and lindsay were getting over Justin. Lindsay also liked izzy. Wtf?

Heather was okay. Made a lot of sense for her to be how she was. Also feels like it made her change from tdi to tdwt more natural.

Duncan was good. Controversial ik. Yeah he said THAT problematic line but he had development. i like that his conflict with harold was resolved (and didn't start again randomly in tdwt COUGH heather and leshawna).

i don't like harold but good for him getting closure on duncan. better than tdi for sure.

Geoff and bridgette... what happened. more so an issue of them from tdi post their eliminations w the kissing. Elimination fodder, their previous friendships ignored. I know they wanted them gone early for the aftermath but just keep them round a while and have someone else host instead.

Courtney. Courtney. Its not the fact she had advantages cuz she was cheated off of tdi. But she was awful to duncan. Lost a lot of respect for her character then.

Owen was around too long idgaf. he was just the butt of fat and fart jokes. why

JUSTIN ok fuck justin. Shut up you arent smart justin. yea he was fun to watch but they made so many characters dumb for him to work. I get that gwen had morals back then (not a lot but yk) but why did she feel so pressured to vote herself off and lose challenges cuz trent threw challenges. she didn't ask him to do that. if she didn't say anything then hed have continued. she didnt do anything wrong. then beth and lindsay being in some unspoken alliance with him. then they decide hes not hot and split from him. no development. they were there to eliminate izzy. also people are so against antag rewrites but justin is a canon antag rewrite

DJ... poor DJ. He was in characte when votin himself off but he shouldve went further. honestly I can't complain when tdwt exists lol

Lindsay is good tho. shouldve won but that wasnt possible.

#total drama #anti tda #gwen criticial #td trent #td leshawna #anti beth #td heather #td duncan #td harold #courtney critical #anti owen #anti justin #td dj #td lindsay

[misslolasynastry]

Celebrity Synastry Analysis

Married at First Sight - Season 13

Ryan and Brett

Couples' Synopsis 🗯: Brett (yes her name is Brett) is a more liberal pop-chic, glamour, outgoing type of woman. Ryan is conservative, country music, outdoorsy, camo hunter, introverted guy. So far up to episode 11, they arent really into each other but they get along okay. You can tell that there isnt much of a spark, yet they still participate in activites. First day of the wedding, they were like oil and water as Brett felt uncomfortable with Ryan's lifestyle and views as she grew up in a more socially relaxed upbringing. Ryan is more quiet and soft spoken so although he peeps things he doesn't say much. Brett leads most of their activities together and although she is aware of their differences she's modest and optimistic about it. They dont argue theyve just sorta accepted how different they are and casually press on. They look more like coworkers that dont talk much. Ryan has gone on to say that he doesnt feel a connection with Brett and so he doesnt put in much effort toward the relationship. I created a poll amongst fans asking if they think Ryan's lack of connection is valid OR should he try more to make it work as Brett does? The results were 55% with 75 participants leaning towards them just not being a good fit. I agree in that regard.

Below is an example I give for basic synastry clients. One thing astrology doesnt account for is having a connection, as 2 people can be completely incompatible yet still crave each other in a love/lust way. Ive also seen couples that had highly compatible charts but they werent interested in each other. However, despite lacking a natural bond, theyre more likely to come to appreciate one another over time due to how naturally smooth things are. Synastry is more for analyzing the differences in 2 persons' behaviors and personality, as well as how they interact with each other. Youre able to see where you disconnect and where you have similarities. I do them for couples, family members, and best friends.

🌞 Sun - Leo * Scorpio

Represents what each person takes pride in and is the core of their personality. They are incompatible here because they view life and take pride in very different things. Their Suns also create a square aspect which intensifies how polar they are. Leo Suns are more extroverted and take pride in the joys of life, creativity, romance, independence, and things that encourage spontaneity and challenge. Scorpio on the other hand is a deeply emotional intimate sign, as an empath are often more introverted in relationships and prefer a slow and steady intensity. Scorpio is also more a codepenent sign as they feel at their best an most powerful when theyre in charge and can command change in their surroundings. This doesnt work very well with an independent Leo Sun as both of them are fixed (stubborn) signs, one emotional/sensual and the other more playful/fiery. You could see this on their wedding day as Brett felt out of place while Ryan couldnt figure out why Brett couldnt just let go and enjoy the moment.

🌛 Moon - Virgo * Cancer

Represents how each handles emotions, feelings, the way they feel nurtured and nurture others. They have compatible moon signs as their zodiacs are both introverted, sensual, slow and steady, as well as sensitive. Virgo moons are the organizing perfectionists so they tend to pick apart everything they sense and how theyre feeling. As an earth sign theyre very grounded but at the same time are constantly trying to perfect their relationships with others. If youre paying attention to the little details, they will love you for it. Cancer moons are the motherly type and at times codependent because if they care for someone they will try to protect and "mother" them. As an empath they are very sensitive to the feelings of others and do things to try to keep the peace. Because both are introverted, slow paced, and sensitive emotionally this pairing works well. You can see as Brett and Ryan are talking that they feel comfortable with each other especially when sharing their feelings.

🗣 Mercury - Cancer * Libra

Represents the way you communicate, process information, and the key to what goes on in a person's head. They are incompatible here because they process information and communicate very differently. There is also a square aspect which indicates being more prone to misunderstandings as well as having alternate viewpoints on many topics. Those who watch the show can see that they have very different social lives and beliefs. Cancer is more sensitive, family based, an emotional speaker, and empath. Cancers are in a way more dreamy and poetic conversators. They are sensitive to the things others say and fear hurting other's feelings as well as hearing harsh words. Libra is more intellectual, analytical, extroverted, and social. Librans are peacekeepers and enjoy light hearted fun conversation, they arent afraid of blunt direct speaking but dont take well to conflict. However in ways both individuals are people pleasers as these zodiacs feed off the other person, in order to respond in a way they think is acceptable. Ryan prefers a communication style thats more emotional poetic and intimate, while Brett wants someone to joke with and is engaging to have a good time. They dont really talk much and as you can see, Brett engages him more than the other way around. Ryan doesnt feel emotionally connected so often opts out of conversation unless its deep.

💝 Venus - Libra * Sagittarius

Represents your creativity, romance style, inspiration, and foreplay. They are compatible in this area as both zodiacs enjoy this more light and fun essence when doing different activities together. Libra Venus tends to love social activities and things that bring a bit of challenge in to the mix, having a peaceful loving relationship is important to them. Sagittarius is the spontaneous optimistic adventurer, enjoying someone they can grow with and exchange ideas. And because both are able to let go and have fun, theyre able to spend time with each other despite differences. You can see this in the show as both Brett and Ryan still participate in activities together while other couples struggle more.

😡 Mars - Capricorn * Libra

Represents the way you respond to conflict, what motivates you, and the style of sex you prefer. They are incompatible in this planet as they resolve conflict in very different ways. Capricorn the fatherly hardworking zodiac can be more withdrawn and stern, seeking to take some time to calm down before trying to resolve things. They approach conflict by way of hardwork, discipline, structure, conservatism and law. Capricorn Mars play by their rules on whats right and wrong and can have a traditional stance on things. They can get emotional and defensive of what they deem to be law. Libras dont mind approaching conflict head on, because when resolving they tend to remove emotions and analyze the situation. Theyre considered the best judges of the zodiac due to their ability to find balance and bring harmony. However, Libra Mars can be people pleasers and kinda passive about things. If they feel the other is uncompromising they will withdraw. Although Ive never seen them argue, I can predict that Ryan is more on the sensitive side and very matter of fact, while Brett may attempt to get her point across then cave-in once Ryan is noticeably uncomfortable. Although they may be able to trigger each other in the mood by way of Venus, Capricorn mars prefers more slow and steady lovemaking, while Librans like things more fast paced and fun in the bedroom. Im willing to bet that Ryan enjoyed Tantric yoga more than Brett did.

When it comes to aspects traditionally I would break down them all, but when first looking at someone's chart in a basic synastry standpoint, I analyze longevity factors first. Such as aspects to Saturn, Pluto, North Node, and at times Juno. But to keep this shorter, I'll stick to the 3 major aspects. Conjunctions, Trines, Squares

😇 Saturn Trine North Node - support each others growth through maturity and discipline

👥Saturn Conjunct Uranus -traditionalist vs nonconformist, the unexpected and practical nature of each other is beneficial, but feelings of restriction or unpredictability can crumble the relationship

💣Saturn Square Moon - saturn sees moon as overly sensitive while moon feels restricted. It grows worse over time as each feel misunderstood, its up to Saturn to reconcile this issue by being more attentive.

😇Pluto Trine Sun - encourges confidence, positivity, and has a transforming effect on each partner, mostly Sun

😇Pluto Trine Jupiter - optimism remains through difficulty which allow both to persevere through challlenges

😇Pluto Trine North Node - pluto has the ability to transform and empower North Node on their path to success

💣Pluto Square Lilith - good intentions can get lost in the mix as pluto person attempts to transform liliths obvious struggles

😇North Node Trine Mercury - Mercury stimulates North Node's intellect regarding their purpose and karma in unexpected ways.

👥North Node Conjunct Jupiter - optimism and a sense of purpose motivates each other. This can help them succeed in things they do together.

💣North Node Square Neptune - the future of the relationship can be very cloudy, they may seek to look at each other for inward healing and North Node will lose patience for it all

💣North Node Square Venus - indicates differences in where each person wants the relationship to go, Venus prefers lighthearted fun and romance while North Node takes their path more serious.

📒 Final Thoughts: Based on their compatibility and aspects, there isnt much spark or longevity between them. And they may never quite align for that reason. They could attempt to work through these problems but for a lack of connection on Ryan's end, hes less likely to try to make it work. Brett is at least open to it but having different lifestyles and alternative desires for a relationship will make it hard to move forward. This is why having a mutual connection is so important in a relationship because both partners at least have that glue to try and make differences work. The only thing theyve got going for each other is the ability to understand each other's emotions and have a good time. But when examining aspects, Ryan still views Brett as overly sensitive and not disciplined in her reactions. Even if they did press on with their relationship, they may still find it dull, just based on the lack of fun aspects in their synastry chart.

🧜🏽‍♀️ For inquiries regarding synastry charts please visit my profile introductory post, email misslolasynastry@gmail, or shoot me a message. If you'd like me to analyze a celebrity couple im open to doing so as long as you have both birthdays on hand. I can also analyze family members as well.

#mafs #married at first sight season 13 #married at first sight #astrology #synastry #scorpio #leo #spirituality #scorpio and leo #arranged marriage #brett and ryan #western astrology #aspects #matchmaking #chart reading

[atlas-is-falling]

IM SO SICK AND TIRED OF THERE BEING NO CHARLOTTE X READERS ANYWHERE.

So heres my attempt. I haven't written in a good few years so excuse my everything.

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The damp rotting stench of gideon meat plant filled your lungs. 'Great' you thought. This place wasn't exactly fun, but at least it wasn't unfamiliar. The entity had ensnared another survivor and killer, forcing them into its twisted game, witch without a doubt meant that the killers home realm would become yet another killing ground soon.

You knelt at the end of a generator, sparking the wires between your fingers, the pistons slowly creaking to life. It had become almost second nature now, your muscle memory letting you look around whilst working.

A sharp scream off in the distance made you jump. It was meg. She must have been the first found. You steadied yourself waiting for the second scream, signaling she had been incapacitated and as expected it echoed the halls not long after.

Great. You thought. It's not myers or ghostface and it most likely isn't one of the chainsaw weilders. There was a faint nagging in the back of your skull that made you stop. What if it was the new one. The one you had no idea about. Hell, even Elodie didnt know anything about them and she came in with them. It was strange. Normally the killers have something in common with the survivor they're bought in with but no one could place it with Elodie and these Brutish twins.

Your generator roared to life the lights around you flickering on and the door to your left opened with a grinding rusted metal groan.

A sound caught you off guard. A quiet distant growling. It sounded like it was getting nearer. You ducked into a locker not far from the gen. Thank whatever gods there are that meg taught you how to silently jump into a locker.

The small creature rounded the corner almost instantly, almost crawling. It was the new killer. No. Killers.

You had yet to face them. David and jake were horrified after coming back to the campfire post trial with them. "How is it fair that they can be in 2 places at once." The entity didnt care for fairness and you all knew that deep down.

The small creature slowed snapping its gaze around the room. In an instant it jumped full force at the locker you were in gripping the handles with its little talons. It knew you were here. And if what jake said was true that means she wasn't far behind.

You struggled violently against the locker door. Finaly breaking through. Right. Up the stairs and down the pig silo. Try and loose them. Just as you grasped the hand rail the larger of the creatures turned the corner. You locked eyes with her. She wasn't much older than you. Scars adorned every inch of flesh you could see,her hair matted down by dirt and blood.

You made the vault without taking a hit and landed heavily at the bottom. You crept behind some blue waste tanks hoping she'd assume youd ran.

The loud clank of pans and a loud grunt of pain filled the room. There she was. The sound of 2 generators going off in the distance caught her atention. She gazed around the room one last time, her eyes faded clearly used to the dark, before leaving for the complete generators.

You stood rooted to the ground. She looked like shed been through hell, no doubt because of the little gremlin growing on her chest.

A scream and the sound of a gong, shook you from your thoughts. She might look like she needs a hug but right now shes trying to kill you and your friends. You edged your way through the meat plant, through the freezer, to the bathroom. The entity always placed a gen in there. It was like a sick challenge, 'do the gen in the most inescapable location and I'll reward you.'

A soft heartbeat rang out through your ears. She was coming. The soft screech of that small creature echoed off of the concrete walls from the other side of the building. The heartbeat rose in speed and volume she was coming and she was mad.

Locker. Again. Shed probably expect it but it's a little more safe than running straight to her. She trudged into the bathroom in a fit of rage. She hit the generator with her rusted bloody sickle, the gen sparking and crackling dead as she did so.

She turned slowly to the locker you were in. Eyes darting between the 3 red safe havens the entity so graciously placed in the room. She took a step forward scanning the grating on the front. Your eyes locking with hers yet again. That icy gaze making your body feel like stone.

She swung open the doors, her weapon landing in the splintering wood next to you. You stood unmoved, staring in awe at her frostbitten scarred face.

She seemed uncomfortable. Like she expected you to scream, flail or try to run.

A worn hand locked around your throat as she hurled you onto her shoulder.

You panicked the situation setting in. She walked carelessly to the basement next to the bathroom. The rusted metal hook sliding into the meat of your shoulder without any struggle. She stood back, looking you up and down.

You dont know where the confidence came from but you forced words from your throat.

"You.. have pretty- eyes.." you sputtered a small amount of blood dribbling from your mouth as you did.

She stood rigid, as if shed never received a compliment before. You could see the cogs in her head turning as she attempted to process your words. She settled for an appreciative grunt and a half smile as she dragged her feet out of the basement.

Everything went black for a few moments after that. The entities claws slowly descending to claim you. Yui must have snuck down because the next thing you knew she was angrily grumbling about you knowing better than hiding in a locker in bathroom and healing the deep hole in your shoulder. The last gen popped, the sound of meg being hooked rattling the plant, the entity claiming her. This wasn't over yet.

Yui suggested splitting up and heading to opposite sides of the building to get both doors that way at least one of them would get out.

You were halfway up the stairs before you saw her. It was the larger twin. She stood lifeless staring at the ground, hair falling gently over her face. Your curiosity must have gotten the best of you, legs moving on their own.

You stood beneath her. Hand mere centimetres from her face. This was crazy. You were deluded. But there you were, hand on the brutalised flesh of someone ordered to kill you.

Yui's screech shook the plant. The smaller one must have got her..

The slight rattle in the killers chest caught you off guard. She was looking at you. Those same frosted eyes as before, quizzical but not annoyed. She raised a hand to yours, the loud thudding in your chest back with a vengeance. She took it in her own motioning towards the door with her weapon. Yui must have tore the thing from her back the loud crack of the other door opening making you jump and the killer let out a harsh sigh.

"écume maléfique." She murmured.

Yui had gotten away.

She turned to you, the door now open. She tilted her head, didnt you realise she was letting you go? Leave before she changes her mind.

You smiled softly to her before turning away to leave. 'She seemed nice.' You thought, forgetting she had murdered meg and some other poor survivor you didnt even see.

The campfire came into view and you colapsed next to yui who was cheering to nea about how heroically she saved me and got out against those horrific twins.

It didnt sit right with you. She was around your age. Clearly just as emotionally ruined as some of the survivors who surrounded you. It felt wrong.

Yui's jab to your side broke your train of thought.

"And this lazy fuck was in a locker in bathroom." She announced, "I expect that crap from dwight, not you!"

You snorted. Smiling at her lighthearted insult.

"A bit quiet arent ya, (Y/N)?" Bill interrupted, "everything alright? Well. Aside from the usual."

You panicked, still processing the fact the killer let you go.

"Yeah.. it's just.. she was chasing me," you lied, "and then she let me go.. like, she let me open the door."

The campfire fell silent.

"That's odd.." felix added. The whole campfire quieting down to hone in on this conversation.

"Try not to think about it." Bill reassured you. "Chances are you wont see that monster again for a while."

You nodded, still unsure of your feelings. Sliding down off of the log and pulling your knees into your chest. The fire offered little warmth but it was welcomed. You gazed into the flames. It was calming.

Not quite as calming as those eyes, though.

#dead by daylight #charlotte deshayes #dbd #the twins dbd #charlotte deshayes x reader #dbd binding of kin #dbd x reader

[homeofhousechickens]

Noticed an influx of terfs harassing fellow agriculture blogs. And i want to talk about something pretty heavy, if you are one of those ��terf” people or maybe you have found yourself following those types of blogs while also following mine please give my words a read. I know some people look up to me but to be honest I am not the most eloquent person but maybe i can convince you to look more critically at your world view.

Tw: Transphobia, abuse, trauma, Aphobia, Terf rhetoric

I will be honest and say that I also once attacked people who were different from me to, i used to be what i think is called an asexual exclusionist due to some of my own trauma and because of that i took it out on the asexual community as an angry autistic teenager. I was frustrated at my hypersexuality which was a symptom of my sexual abuse being treated like a normal sexuality so i projected those feelings of hurt back out into the world when their was better coping methods. I was frustrated at the well off asexual kids in GSA that couldnt understand why their fellow member was having a panic attack due to being kicked out of the house for being a lesbian, when i could have been just as frustrated at the other LGBT kids that had decent parents, i was just targeting them because they were different from me and it felt safe to.

Obviously as an adult I educated myself and no longer hold those ideas. I read stuff from outside of my own point of view and stuff that directly challenged me over the years, I know not everyone has the privilege to be able to do that but i did and the reason is is that i was tired of hurting and i was tired of hurting other people, I never harassed anyone but it did influence how i treated people when i was younger and i am sorry for it.

I know alot of terf rhetoric centers around the concept of women (specifically white women usually) being victims of the “other sex” or being them being the “better sex”. (i know because aphobic rhetoric is very similar) Due to this they genuinely believe that other women want to come into their spaces and “steal” this ideal away from them. Thats why they get so furious about the idea of functional uterine transplants. To them, their uterus or vulva is what defines them as “better” or the reason they suffer trauma but when the science is moving so where typical reproduction may not be the only pathway to child bearing they become enraged because they are no longer “special” to themselves. Their is no longer a reason for their trauma and pain.

This fundamentally is the basis of the hate they put out into the world. This is also why they attack cis women who do not conform to typical femininity. This boiling down of their worth to chromosomes or anatomy is literally just a rehashed version of the own misogyny they were likely fed as a child and it makes me sad. They say the same stuff my shitty relatives did about women but now terfs are the ones saying it about whoever they decide is the “other” sometimes that other is transgender women sometimes its intersex women and sometimes its women who just dont conform to their ideals. When you picture yourself happy, is it when your standing with your heels dug in on top of the people you deem “other”? Or is when your helping out your fellow human? When you tear down another person does it really build you up? When you see others tear someone down because of their appearance do you not care how it may affect the people you care about and the people who care about you? How many terfs have i seen brag about “hate saving” transwomens photos so they can make fun of them later? How does that sound when you say that out loud? Imagine going to the person you care about the most someone you deeply respect and saying “in my free time i save/take pictures of people i dont know and then i make fun of them and show them to a bunch of strangers so we can make fun of them together” like really say that out loud.

I would be ashamed. I want to make people happy not hurt them. I want connection and i think thats a base need for most humans. I want to connect with people who are kind to me and kind to others, if someone told me they were doing that i would feel ashamed for even talking to that person. Sexual abuse and trauma are no joke and there isnt an argument to say that women suffer gendered violence that cis white men simply never really will ever understand. But true of the matter is our trans brothers and sisters are treated just like woman are and worse. I feel like so many of us end up holding hate for a group of people due to bad experiences with individuals so our dumb brains start shoving people into boxes of “bad” and “good”. But a trans person can fear rape, abuse, trauma just as much as you do and they suffer from very high levels of it and thats a fact. They are not your enemy, hateful individualistic thinking is! and its that very same way of thinking that is killing the planet. I want to iterate that every single person you have interacted with on this website is a living breathing person. They have their own emotions, their own thoughts, their own dreams, and their own world view. When you say something mean or harass them you are actively hurting another person. Me typing this out right now, i am a person with my own flaws and aspirations. I think sometimes people forget that people are people not just faceless emotional less words on a screen. Trans women are women and this blog will always support that. If that makes you upset think about why, on your own at first, no social media to help you.

Maybe see a therapist who is well versed in gender and the lgbt. Therapists arent just their for when your depressed or anxious they are here to talk to. There is people you can read about or talk to, the worst thing that can happen is that you could change like i did. There is nothing shameful about changing and admitting mistakes. Sorry if i said some things wrong i just wanted to get it off my chest

#vent #transphobia #aphobia #cw terfs #anti terf