#can it stop hurting already

[icyheart-and-friends]

Please, for the love of gods, allow yourself to consume content/media uncritically

You can be aware of issues a show/game/movie/etc has but you don't need to be aware of it *all* the time, you shouldn't have to justify yourself liking it every time you go to talk about it.

You shouldn't have to feel like you're the worst person in the world just because you like something that happens to have problematic stuff in it.

And you're setting yourself up for failure if you go into something immediately looking for all of the bad in it, you're setting yourself up to be unable to enjoy it! And if you do manage to enjoy it it'll likely just feel wrong because of that!

I'm begging y'all not to consume *everything* critically and to sometimes enjoy things uncritically.

#its so fucking easy to end up demonizing yourself just because you like media thst isnt deemed “good” #i only just recently realized how fucking guilty id feel admitting i like watching helluva boss to other people outside of my circle. or #feeling thr need to warn people about the heavy racism in baldur's gate 3 for the fear of being seen as an awful person for praising the #game despite thst in it. fuck i even feel bad admitting i like watching law and order special victims unit bc of its content and how often #it just goes- *wrong* but like- i realized a lot of that is bc my brain and my ocd are constantly trying to take content in critically. #trying to always shame it bc its “bad” either bc of its content or its creators and thus my ocd has a field day of turning thst around to #meam that *im* bad because i enjoy it. which isnt fucking true. i enjoy iy #which isnt true. i can know stuff is not good/great for various reasons but i can still enjoy it without that inherently make me bad #anyway bc this is tumblr im already expecting people to try to twist my words and intents to make this seem like s horrible thing #idc atm bc my head hurts from trying to just exist and relearn how to enjoy stuff without fucking purity culture and my ocd shame watching #me lile a fuckin hawk #cant wait to see how freeing it feels tho once i stop giving as much of a fuck/worry

[3-aem]

me petting my cat at 3am after 0 indication that he is actually hurt: r u okay would u tell me if you were ever not okay

my cat probably: god she’s at it again

#im so excited to tell my therapist that i managed to catastrophize EVERYTHING #playing with my cat with laser pointer: oh my god what if i shine it into his eyes and he goes blind what if i’ve already done that baby #baby please tell me you can still see clearly #wiggles my cat: oh my god am is this shaking him #baby baby will you tell me if you have a concussion from this treatment #cat doesnt jump onto bed: IS UR PAW HURTING #my mom is like u have got to stop worrying hes gonna sense ur stress and ur gonna give him anxiety #and then i got stressed about that 😭😭😭😭 LIKE BABY NO BABY DONT BE STRESSED U R SMOL I WILL PROTECT U #delete later #im not gonna say the extent of the rabbit hole that my anxiety drove me to #i wanted to draw tn but my apple pen died and this is whag i chose to do instead

[fisheito]

my princess nonsense is being encouraged watch ouyt imabout to be eneaabled

OK WHATF ATHAT'S SO CUTE I HAD TO MAKE IT i know realistically there's little to no chance that rei DOESN'T know how to work heels 🤣 BUT IMAGINE.....ING.... YAKUMO GENTLY GUIDING REI IN HEELS, WEEKS BEFORE THE BIG GALA AND HAVING NONE OF HIS NORMAL FEAR OF PHYSICAL TOUCH BC HIS [TEACHER MODE] IS OVERRIDING HIS INSECURITY

#rei looking directly at the camera like why are you subjecting me to this. i do not need any of this. i know how to do it #rei wearing stilettos the size of your head so he becomes ur very tall bird goth gf #you know how yakumo gets when he instructs someone on how to cook something #he becomes confident and just tells ppl how to do stuff without his usual amount of stutter and secondguessing #i'm gonna pretend that after his stiletto training in misty vale he gains a TINY MOLECULE of confidence due to experience #like [i can help you if you've never done it before?] #honestly i can't imagine this scenario happening because i am so SURE that rei can walk in heels HAHAHA even tho nothing has proven that #SOMETHING COME PROVE ME WRONG SO MY DELUSIONS CAN SLIDE CLOSER TO POSSIBILITY #anyway even if rei didn't know how to wear heels #would he ever mention it? would yakumo ever learn of it? #rei would probably be all . i don't need to wear heels. they can't even see them under the dress. i'll wear my practical shoes #but if he can't get away with that and will be forced to wear heels at the party... #maybe he'll go [meh. i'll figure it out] and just not wear them until the day of the dance #at which point his feet will hurt after 20 minutes and for the whole night he takes any chance to sit down #rei can be frequently spotted on SOME surface SOMEWHERE in the palace. sitting all splayed out and uncaring of propriety #because he is in PAIN and these shoes are STUPID and why do people wear them for ANYTHING . Royals are so IMPRACTICAL #yakumo keeps trying to avoid heels for the dance because he doesn't want to be any taller than he already is #i bet there's a full convo about it between him and eiden #eiden trying to reassure him that if he wants to wear heels then he shouldn't let others' perception stop him from doing so #but if he genuinely doesn't want to wear them then that's ok too #eiden craning his neck up at yakumo in heels like you're my pretty princess 1-2 heads taller than me your height doesn't matter 🥰 #i'm now torn. yakumo and rei both wearing heels now? in order to stay at similar heights? #or. rei starting out with heels. getting tired of them. going barefoot for the rest of the night lol #yakumo and rei still dancing in their ballgowns together but a much shorter rei leads a yakumo in heels #yes. yes this is the vision #yakurei #replies #nu carnival yakumo #nu carnival rei

[xenomorphicdna]

@aluminum-angels i made an entire doodle page just to prove a point

Their relationships do not fail, they get along just fine and they love each other very much

Peace and love among my rw ocs

#auugh you people will not belive the shit i've been through today #ok so basically i was grabbing some food out and i sprinkle the cheese and im like huh this cheese kinda stale #so i give it a sniff and it STINKS and im like aw fuck well its already on my food so uhhh in the microwave this all goes maybe it will be #ok after its heated but SPOILERS it does not and actually now it smells worse so im over here trying to figure out if its worth to eat this #thing and if it will taste as bad as it smells luckly it tatsed just fine but auughh couldnt breathe while eating that but it doesnt end #there because after gulping all that stuff down suddenly everytime i breathed i could smell that stuff augh it was horrible #worst decision of my life so i needed a cure for this rancid ass stench so my lord and and saviour garlic comes in to save me #and you can just chew on that stuff no one will stop you (altho maybe someone should because eating garlic raw kinda hurts) #anyways posion neutralised but i am rather weary of cheese now #rain world #iterator #rain world oc #iterator oc #oc four blue flames #oc vision of a past #drawins

[toxifoxx]

truly at the end of the day its all about receiving validation

#<- was having a lot of fun drawing fat william till he stopped to think about what other people might think #<- very important that people like him just as much as i do #<- incredibly important (i love him so much and his character is so much more nuanced than the fandom ever gives him credit for #and he already gets shat on way too often by people who don't understand what they're talking about) #truly the amount of hate based around him being a murderer is insane. Brother he's not a real life murderer. he's not going to #come out of the screen and hurt you #I NEED PEOPLE TO AT LEAST LIKE HIM A LITTLE BIT *bursts into tears* #and i need validation #and getting people to simp for him and think oh hes hot 😳 is one of the easier and more entertaining ways to get nice comments #what i lack in skill and talent i can make up for in character design and suggestive subtext right? #ugh #i dunno it feels like the only way to get people to say sometjing nice about my art sometimes #don't get me wrong i adore drawing him slutty but. ougggghhhhhh #hope it doesnt sound like im implying he's less attractive if hes fat personally i think hes hot as fuck #its mostly about stupid ass conventionally attractive shit #and also that people get bullied for portraying him fat... That too #anyways #im normal again now #toxi.txt

[oatbugs]

idk how to live so im going to talk to myself out loud until i do

#listen. take a deep breath. i know your bpm is high but you need to think with me for a second. #remember that you are paper thin. all your facets are sheets of paper and what you gave her is just another one. #make a new one. you dont need it. you dont need her to see you. i know you think you need her but you will be okay. i know its hard. #you wish you could have shown her how you loved her. listen to yourself. you are made of paper. #she might be concrete or maybe wood or maybe gold. you need to start laying your roots elsewhere. shut that thought down #and blink and listen. the parts you keep thinking of arent lost. they still happened and they are yours to keep. #there is beauty in this loss. tell me about the beauty in this loss. its okay to think about it. you got to see it all and nothing more #and this is great because it would have been bad. you know it would be violent in a way you dont need. you know this to be true. #you are going to look at that empty space in her shape and youre going to fill it with everything that happened when you knew her. #the memories with her but then also the the way your friends talked you through it. the game with the clovers. #your first allergic reaction you almost died and you couldnt stop laughing and you were held so close to their hearts. #learning the names for all the floursecent gene tracking dyes that everyone else knows already. about the exam - listen again. #i know you think if you fail your life is over but you need to try your best. youre not going to get a good grade in a uni test for the fir #youre going to make up for it. youre going to make sure you make up for it. do you understand? i love you. you have to do this. #right now you need to sit up. breathe. i know your heart hurts. go to the living room. grab something to eat. i dont care if you feel full. #youre going to clean your mattress heater. youre going to study a bit longer and then youre going to sleep. youre going to tell your mother #im sorry and i might genuinely fail a test. shes going to tell you its okay. if you do badly in this course you can just become a neurosurg #just agree. dont argue right now. its okay. youre okay. you are paper thin. i know any puncture hurts. #breathe. think of your friends. think of their hands in yours. it isnt eternal.youve lived through worse. the empty sky is still beautiful. #the lack of her is still beautiful

[a-s-levynn]

Just so you know, if i disappear i either jumped off the roof or finally snapped and murdered my upper floor neighbours.

#every single fucking weekend starts off with hours of drilling and hammering #every day the kids are screeching well into to the night and stomping around so loud i can hear it even through good quality headphones #they had been asked to keep it down #multiple times #not just by me #at this point i do not give a fuck why it happens i don't even remember it has been so long i just want it to stop #i want one fucking weekend of quiet without a sensory overload first thing on a saturday #my brain is hurting #i already have problems focusing and getting chores and stuff done one the weekends on it's own #i'm so fucknig tired i have enough shit to deal with without this added to the pile #levynn tries to think #levynn cries about nonsense

[totallydiscourse]

I genuinely try so hard to listen to detransitioners but it's so difficult when they'll be like

"here's a list of the dark side effects of testosterone no one wants to talk about:

#1. Thing people frequently talk about

#2. Readily available info

#3. Really just a personal experience

#4. What should have been kinda common sense

#5. Just a lie."

And other things. My biggest problem is how they talk as if these things absolutely WILL ALWAYS happen and it will be JUST THE WORST. as if testosterone will do the same thing for everyone. Not to mention how it's always framed as "things trans people DONT want you to know". Just irks the fuck out of me.

#dont get me qrong there are so many cases where they just should never have been put on hrt #and its disappointing doctors will let teens who know next to nothing go on them #but there are times where its like. did you not speak or watch or read anything about or by trans people? #onw of this persons points was that bottom growth can hurt #which yes it can but it varies #they made it seem like you could never feel pleasure again because of how much it hurts and that it never stops hurting #as if there isnt already stigma about bottom growth #another was that your voice dropping hurts forever and how its so awful you wont be able to sing #lile man cmon #edit: ANOTHER WAS ABOUT HOW IT AFFECTS YOUR FERTILITY. NO SHIT SHERLOCK. ITS TESTOSTERONE.

[buck-up-buck]

HMMMMM. Let's talk about THIS right now, because WTF.

Is Tim in my walls?

BABES.

Let's delve into this.

First of all, I WAS SO RIGHT ABOUT THEM MEETING IN THE HOSPITAL WHEN BOBBY BRINGS A PATIENT AND I AM GAGGING OVER THIS HOLY FUCK.

@thetangycheesemanwithaplan called the stalker AA plot which is posted below, for ya'll to see, which we just saw in the promo for 7x08 and I am FERAL OVER THAT.

SO NOW, let's delve into the fact that I...

Called Bobby wanted to gain his forgiveness, which is hinted in the promo.

PROTECTIVE ATHENA LIKE LOOK AT HER FACE IN THAT PROMO ARE YOU KIDDING ME RIGHT NOW!

The entire revenge plot like come on, I CALLED THIS SHIT SO HARD.

Amir losing someone in the fire, potentially a wife or fiance..... I SAID THAT I ACTUALLY SAID THAT!

NOW, onto my cheeky lil ideas for the next two episodes because I have some more thoughts... Again, these scream AO3 but, let me fantasies okay because that episode and promo did things to me.

Picture this.

Bobby walks into his lil AA meeting and low and behold, there is Amir, ready to throw all Bobby's troubles at him, and Bobby spirals because damnit he wants to make amends with this man and he is making it so. damn. hard.

NOW, Athena is like, you stay the hell away from this man Bobby or so help me GOD I will tie you to this goddamn dining room table with your firehose. So he listens....

UNTIL

He gets a text message from Buck, but no, it's not Buck, ITS AMIR, because AMIR HAS KIDNAPPED BUCK AND IS HOLDING HIM HOSTAGE IN AN ABANDONED EASY MOTEL IN THE DESERT.

"come get your boy. come alone."

Buck is all like "Father help" and Bobby of course is like "OH NO MY BOY" (if you understand this reference I love you, if not, it's okay you made it this far I still love you.)

Bobby shows up and he is READY FOR A GODDAMN FIGHT (Kenneth did day a conflict for Bobby in episode 8 and we did see this man put a LITERAL KNIFE TO BOBBY'S NECK) so if this does not scream fight (WHICH I ALREADY PREDICTED ANYWAY) then I don't know what does.

Buck is all tied up and a bit battered and bruised but mainly concerned about the fact that he can smell FIRE and Bobby is fighting this man while OH NO, THE EASY MOTEL IS STARTING TO BURN AND FUCK THIS IS NOT GOOD.

Tag Amir winning/getting an upper hand on Bobby and him and Buck both end up stuck in this motel burning down.

Queue, Ashes Ashes 7x09.

Now, we all saw the helipad in the sneak peek pictures of them filming in the desert so, imagine, IMAGINE, Tommy, Buck's sexy hot as mother fucking firefighter pilot boyfriend coming to save his Boyf and soon to be father in law.

SCREAMING.

Okay I'm done. Someone take tumblr off me.

#911 abc #911 spoilers #major spoilers for 7x07 if you couldn't already tell #my brain did a thing #because apparently i am a prophet now #and can major predict shit in this show #holy fuck #ANYWAY #the last part is fully my fanfic brain going awol #like i'm not saying this will happen #BUT #im saying WHAT IF IT DOES #tim i already know you're in my walls #come tell me how far off i am so I can stop going crazy #we only have three episodes left i feel sick #my brain is hurting but instead of sleeping I am doing this #unhinged girlies heard it first #thanks for letting me brain storm #enjoy #rip #evan buckley #bobby nash #trauma #tommy to the rescue WE PRAY

[qtubbo]

An almost 30 year old throwing a temper tantrum sending harassment and falsely accusing users of stalking because they interacted with/made a weird April fools parody account of them 😐

#Im not even happy or okay with the making of the parody account I thought it was inappropraite and unnecessary #But that does not give you the right to make a list of everyone involved with the intent of them getting mass harrassed #There is minors on the list you are the adult big the bigger person that is incredibly gross #val ramblings #Discourse #neg #Note how I didn’t name the person involved because doing that opens them up to more harassment anyone who does know does #Already and I ain’t doing anything to send harassment #Be the adult stop saying people are attacking like children when you can even respect the consequences of anyone you listed #Be mad all you want but don’t hurt people to do that #I would have even been fine if you had just used the name of the person mainly involved without directly giving an @ profile or going on #And on repeating how it was them and they were so evil #Like I understand why you were mad it was reasonable to be mad it was reasonable to post in response it was reasonable to be upset #It was not reasonable to actually harass “back”

[polysyndetonaddictsupportgroup]

if Rika was still there what do you think her reaction to yuuta's totally normal feelings about Megumi would be?

At best I can imagine him being that yappy dog that your best friend has who you don’t like all that much but you begrudgingly take care of because it would make your friend Sad if something happened to their suicidally stupid dog and it causes you endless stress because for some reason every single big motherfucker of a dog that sees it immediately wants to tear it up like a brand new chew toy and the stupid yappy dog won't stop fighting them back. fucksake stop DOING that

#sea glass gardens #Rika doesn't like him because she doesn't like anyone but yuuta #but she respects that yuuta does not want him hurt and will save the idiot creature for yuuta's continued happiness #megumi is confused as to why rika rises from the fucking shadows and cradles him in her giant cthulhu claws whenever he tries to fight #she's like cursing him out for being stupid and trying to put him somewhere safe and far away and megumi's like #uhhh okkotsu senpai can yo #tell your friend to stop trying to put me in boxes for safekeeping #yuuta's just. sweating. #megumis giving every eldritch horror around heart palpitations #sukuna tries to save him and Rikas already there chewing on drywall from stress

[chill4234]

Man I love Omori and Steven Universe, on tge first watch/playthrough it’s all fun and games but on the second time around you see that foreshadowing is everywhere and it feels like being stabbed. No other piece of media does it like them.

#steven universe #omori #su #omori has an excellent plot twist that I feel bad talking about because there’s nothing like a blind playthrough #but steven universe I’m ok with discussing so uh #su spoilers #it’s not pink diamond I’m talking about it’s steven’s trauma #every time he gets hurt is another fracture line in future #every time he offers to help someone is another moment of anxiety later #and you’re powerless to stop him from hurting himself because it’s already done #the story is over #no matter how many times you rewatch again and again it will go down the same #steven will be an innocent little kid who just wants to help out the gems #only for episodes like the test to roll around and you see him taking on the role of family therapist when he’s literally just a kid #and empire city was once an episode of a kid bringing his two caretakers on vacation because he loves them and wants to spend time together #but now it’s an episode of a boy trying to fix problems he shouldn’t have to worry about because he Solves Problems #and it’s just… #he’s hurting himself and there’s nothing I can do #and there’s nothing the people around him would do anyway because he’s Steven and Steven Loves To Help #so why would they #and in the end #Steven gets hurt #and the story doesn’t change

[mattodore]

"I don’t actually think Theo has any offensive preferences, because he’s not really a fighter. That human instinct to fight back was trained out of him very young… so."

#cw abuse mention #cw child abuse mention #<- mentioned in the tags. i'm adding these cws bc i talk bluntly abt this in the tags so definitely don't look if it's triggering... #river dipping #questionnaire lb #AND FUCK YOU ACTUALLY ! #BANGING MY HEADI NTO A WALL................ THIS IS ONLY QUESTION 71.......................................... #I JUST . GRHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH #feeling sick already lord why am i doing this actually.......... #i feel so insane but it's like. theo just can't let himself fight back. he can't do it. #it's like...... it's not even about ''i can't do this it'll just make it worse'' to him. like that was how his brain processed it as a kid #like that's what he was taught then. but now as an adult it's about him feeling like he deserves it... like it's his fault. #i think he needs that sense of... control? as well. like if he's being hurt well. he should've prevented it beforehand. #obviously this is only happening because he did something to cause it and it'll stop if he just doesn't do that thing again. #if it's just. if it's not his fault then that makes him feel helpless. if he couldn't stop it - if it was always going to happen regardless #of what he did - then. jesus. like it just fucks with his head even thinking that. it petrifies him. #it's safer in his head to think okay. obviously i've created this situation somehow so i had that control over it and now i can prevent it. #but jesus theo............... you can't. #and then theo does these things almost... almost to prove that. to prove that he's always been in control of his own abuse. #where he uses and then he finds these hook-ups that aren't safe for him or these sketchy ppl and he shoots off at the mouth and. then. #when he gets hurt it's like. he feels vindicated. i caused this. this is my fault. it's always been my fault. #his recklessness is entirely because he just wants to prove it. he just wants to have that. it's... christ. #it's the only thing he feels like he has control over in his life. the violence he faces... it's his. in that way. #and it's one of the only aspects of his life he doesn't feel helpless in. not anymore. not since he was a teenager. #god. #and when he does finally let it out at one point. when he does finally fight back again. it just...... #it tears him up inside. it's one of the parts of the story i'm the most horrified about having to write #just because i know what it does to him. and how it all just spins out of control after. like it ruins everything for him. #christ. #what else is there to say.

[bunnihearted]

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#1st ​my sister was passive aggressive bc i was boiling pasta when she wanted to make her dinner #so she slammed stuff nd chopped veggies aggressively #nd i felt my heart rate spike nd my body go tense nd i always get clumsy nd drop things nd hurt myself when i get that way #but they think i deserve feeling awful bc of mistakes in the past so i cant ask them to stop #i've been walking around w lots of heavy things nd im barely keeping it together #nd i got so mad bc she wouldnt stop so i started slamming the cabinets nd then left when i was done #then my mom nd other sister got home nd i just wanted to ask my mom smth #when i open my door my other sister goes 'omfg already?' #'immediately when we get home i never get a break. it's almost disgusting' #i just got so.. i realized how pathetic nd childish i am so i just went into my room #but then apparently my sister said to mom that *i* was the only one being passive aggressive #so she comes in to talk when i was having my dinner so i said that i plz just wnna eat my dinner #she didnt know nd she's never cared but i wanted to hurt myself so badly i was struggling not to #but then she started screaming at me for being childish nd passive aggressive nd that i never do anything #she left my room. she still talks to my sisters so i know it's onlg me shes sick of #idk.. today is bad bc i cant talk to her nd i dont have ANYONE else to talk to im all alone #and now i barely even wanna go outside my room bc apparently my family thinks i wnna mess w them just for going to the bathroom lmao #i hate myself so much. im so pathetic. im 25yrs old living at home being a burden #nd im just a pathetic nd childish person. i 'need' to talk nd vent nd rant nd #like if i buy some things i have these need to like do a mini haul or if i get books from the library #i wnna show my mom what books i got #it's so childish. i do feel bad for my mom to have to deal w me nd my annoying personality #why cant i jusy be normal. no wonder why i can never keep friends or my family doesnt wnna talk to me. everything abt me fkn sucks #anyway im just feeling so bad and so alone bc my moms mad at me so now i have no one to talk to

[running-in-the-dark]

also my ear(drum) is still fucked up and actually it's worse than yesterday. so that's also just so awesome

#I'm having such a good time :))) #I keep trying to pop it and it just HURTS #so bad #it's also very loud #so something is definitely not right but it has happened several times before and always went away on its own so I don't want to waste a #whole day going to the ent doctor again #I've got an appointment in two months I can wait that long #maybe it'll stop happening #but he'd just shrug and say oh well I don't know either 🤷 cause that's happened with everything regarding this stupid ear. #so. it's pointless anyway #but the pain is making me even more annoyed than I already am #it feels like I can't hear anything on that side. but it's actually just extremely muffled. #it's so so so annoying #personal

[chikoyama]

Had a dream about Ziggy showing Chiyori the Universe, or part of it at least. They were holding hands, floating through the continuum of cosmos and space. It’s hollow, it’s dark. The sight of just how vast the Universe is leaves a profound impression on Chiyori. It’s all too quiet out here. It’s a heavy feeling. So dark, yet so beautiful. It’s eerie.

Space is filled with so much emptiness, she can’t help but wonder: “Do you think the Universe is… lonely?” And Ziggy turns to her. She squeezes his hand. It’s not something he's considered before. Even if he knew, he wouldn’t understand. He smiles. “I don’t know." Then he guides her to the nearest star, a white dwarf that had already reached the endpoint of its life.

#chiggy #i stopped having beautiful dreams about world ending in a storm of natural disasters #but this was the most beautiful i had in a long time #it’s important to note that chi perceives the universe as if it was its own sentient being capable of feeling #so she asks if the universe is lonely NOT if it’d be lonely in the universe (she kinda already knows the answer) #but honestly u can interpret it as however u want! #ziggy wants to show her all these things bc he’s fascinated by her reactions #he wants to see them all and *try* to understand it #later watch him launch them both into a black hole to kill her #just so he can resurrect her in a new universe/dimension #he asks her of course if he can do that and she just nods #“it’ll hurt” he says and she responds: “only for a little right?” #i hate them 😔 but then again love and hate are close synonyms